#‘what the fuck is this? oh right. April 1st. it’s midnight. this is the thing for this year’

[the-zipper]

Why can I not boop some blogs?

Hey actually, as I was typing this I realized it may be a “you can only boop people that opt in” type situation. That would make sense.

[timextoxhajima]

hi dana.. if it’s possible can i request some angsty wangsty based on niki la la lost you with eric🥺 and ughh i really love your writing like crazyyyyy

♥ title: la la lost you in april [also part of @sunlightwoo ‘s 12 Months I Loved You collaboration project]

♥ member: tbz eric

♥ genre: f2l, ex! eric x fem! reader, model! eric [SFW!]

♥ warnings: swearing, some mentions of sex [like, once i think]

♥ wc: 3.4k

♥ a/n: sis when i first heard the song I absolutely loved how you used 'angsty wangsty' so I hope this one does it for you the way you imagined it <3 [fyi i wrote it in like, a camcorder recording audio format which is something i’m trying out so please hmu on whether it’s difficult to read/understand!]

[REC: APRIL 2, 2019 - 6:39PM] SOLO LOG #1

Are you seeing this? This is the most beautiful sunset I’ve seen. I gotta get a shot of this-

Hey! Hey! I could help you take a picture with the sunset if you want to!

Oh! Would- Would you? That’d be great!

Of course! 

...

Here. Is it alright?

Yeah, yeah, it’s cool! Thank you so much!

Are you recording something? Is it a- Are you vlogging? Are you a vlogger?

Yeah, no... I’m actually on a solo trip for a bit.

Oh, where are you from?

Just the next state. 

Ah! You’re taking a break off... life then? I assume? Sorry if that came out weird.

No! No no! It’s alright! Yeah, I just needed a short break from... y’know, school and everything. My semester ended pretty early on so I took the chance to come out here and... see some new sights, meet some new people.

I get that. Well, for a start, what’s your name?

Oh, I’m y/n. Nice to meet you! And you?

I’m Eric. 

[REC: APRIL 4, 2019 - 10:34PM] SOLO LOG #2

It is the 4th of April, 2019. I know, I know, I’m meant to do a daily vlog for all the 50 days I’m here but... it’s been... wow. Um... so I met Eric, the first day I touched down. The beach is just, about a 10 minute walk down and the sunsets are absolutely gorgeous. But uh... call me a fool and say that I’m living in the clouds but- what are the chances?

He’s funny, he’s such a great person to be around with y’know? Never a moment of like, awkwardness or stress and my God, look at me talking about a boy like that, though I met him 2 days ago. 

...

Um, he’s a freelance model. For those freelance shoots by UNIQLO or Target or something and he complains about the pay sometimes, but he looks good infront of a camera, so he’s... actually the one who won at life, really.

I’m not seeing him soon because he’s got a shoot out of town and he’ll be back next week. But I did get his number and he’s been texting me since. 

...

Wouldn’t it be funny if we end up together and then I have this whackass of a reel to show him? Jesus... I need to stop getting ahead of myself here. Freakin’ living in the clouds, aren’t I?

...

Anyway, I’m gonna go and see if I can get my weird projector shit up and working. See you.

[REC: APRIL 7, 2019 - 5:14AM] SOLO LOG #3

It is... 5am... uh, April 7th- and I was just binging FRIENDS through the night, waiting for the sunrise before I get some shut eye and then... Eric just asked me out. Oh my God! Um, he’s coming back this Thursday and I’ll go see him at the airport before we go get dinner.

It was really funny ‘cause he had to wake up early for a shoot today and so his day has just begun but mine’s coming to an end and I just- I’m rambling so much, it’s kinda- it’s kinda sad, isn’t it?

I think I’m too happy to sleep right now so I’m just gonna text him some more before the sun rises- oh! He replied!

...

Anyway, I’m gonna go and finish up this last episode before sleeping. Hopeful I can sleep. Bye!

[REC: APRIL 11, 2019 - 4:28PM] SOLO LOG #4

I am on my way out right now to go meet Eric at the airport, and I’m... it’d be an understatement to say that I’m excited. I know I’ve only known him for like, 2 days before he left but... I miss him. Is that possible? Missing someone despite knowing them for 2 days?

Anyway, I gotta go. Don’t wanna be late to see him.

[REC: APRIL 13, 2019 - 10:23AM] SOLO LOG #5

Oh! Is that what you had-

Yeah! It’s the same camera!

What are you vlogging for, actually? Like-

Nothing, really. It’s just for my own usage-

Wait, you didn’t like set that up last night while we-

Oh, God, no! Who do you think I am?

I don’t know, I mean, we’ve known each other for... is it two weeks-

Just under two weeks-

Jeez-

I know, I know, oh my God.

...

I don’t regret it though. Yeah, like- I don’t really go down to the beach that often in the first place and it just- it just so happened that you were there that day and I saw you struggling with this old thing-

I was not struggling!

Yeah you were!

I wasn’t-

I’m kidding! Gosh, you’re so cute.

...

Are you gonna have the camera recording while this carries on?

I forgot it was on-

One day we’re gonna accidentally make a sex tape-

Eric!

[REC: APRIL 17, 2019 - 1:15AM] SOLO LOG #6

-ould you pass me the hot water?

Mm? What?

The kettle over on the counter. Careful, it’s hot. Yeah, thanks.

Do you need help with-

It’s just instant noodles, sweet. Doubt I need a diploma for this. You’re recording again?

Yeah, does it bother you?

No, no, ‘course not. Though that means I can’t really do whatever I want to now.

What does that mea-

...

I can... still taste that bit of milk tea you had just now-

Could you tell it’s zero sugar?

I don’t think that matters, it’s still sweet and not great for your health to have that so much.

Aw, and yet you’re the one who suggested noodles at this timing, yeah?

You were hungry too!

...

Here, it’s done. Help me get the bowls? 

Did you even wash these?

Yeah, I did. If you don’t trust me, you can run them under the water for a bit.

Mhm. Here.

If it’s not enough, we can call for Macs.

Y’know, I’ve never had Macs past midnight back at home.

What? Really? Well, when you get back in May, would you try?

Yeah, why not? Maybe I’ll do that when I’m back in school. 

...

What date is it today?

April... hold on, um, 17. Careful, that’s hot.

...

When are you leaving again?

May 22. 

Are you planning on coming back anytime soon after?

I don’t know. I have school to worry about and the only other time I can come back’s probably during winter break in November.

...

I won’t be around in November.

Mm? Why not?

I’m moving.

To where?

I’m not sure yet, but I need to move depending on whether I get it and where the shoot’s at.

Shoot? It’s a big project, huh?

Yeah, it’s- it’s a pretty big deal.

...

I’ll- Let me just go and...

[REC: APRIL 20, 2019 - 7:49PM] SOLO LOG #7

-idn’t have to!

No, c’mon! It’s such a great time to get this on camera! Come on, tell us what just happened!

Well, I just scored a huge model contract with Calvin Klein - in Manhattan.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I’m so fucking proud of you, oh my God! Can you believe it-

No, fuck off, I can’t either! 

Oh! Calvin Klein!

...

I swear, you’re an angel sent to me-

Fuck off!

I’m serious! it’s so timely- I just can’t- I’m just so happy to have met you.

...

Well, you heard it first here, ladies and gentlemen. Eric Sohn is a new model for Calvin Klein - Manhattan.

[REC: APRIL 21, 2019 - 12:40PM] SOLO LOG #8

It is 12.40pm... April 21st, 2019. I’m finally back in my apartment after crashing at Eric’s for the last... 10 days? I think it was 10 days. My clothes were running out and I didn’t want to hike up his water bills so I just came back and- y’know did my own laundry.

...

Well, it’s- it’s been an absolute dream. The last thing I expected to... have, or meet? Here, is Eric. Um, but I know I’m probably going to regret this. Especially when May 22 comes. Uh... this is... it’s real bad. I mean, we’re great, y’know? But... it’s bad, because I know it’ll hurt. Like a bitch. When my time here is up, and I gotta go back to my reality, and Eric’s gotta stick to his. 

We haven’t really talked about it. May. I don’t think he wants to, and I don’t think I want to either. 50 days is too short. Either that, or I shouldn’t have come here in the first place. I shouldn’t have gone to the beach that day, in that hour. 

...

I just wish we had more time. I wish 24 hours were... maybe about 100 seconds more per minute. Does that make sense? 160 seconds per minute. Then again, I don’t think that’d solve my problem. I’ll still be on a ticking... time bomb. 

...

I know I shouldn’t say this. I know I can’t. I know I can’t afford to. But... I... I love him. I love Eric. With every... bit of me. It’s so... disgustingly cliché, but I feel so... comfortable with him. There’s really nothing we’d fight about, and even if we disagreed on something, we’d play it off like a debate, then forget about it the next day.

...

I love him. I do. And I’m going to regret this later. Without a doubt.

...

[REC: APRIL 27, 2019 - 2:02AM] SOLO LOG #9

-ou can see the stars?

I don’t know, that’s why I’m trying, sweet.

...

Can you see them?

Yeah, maybe if I just turn this ISO- Oh! I can kinda see the North Star-

Oh! Yeah, you can! It’s really feint though.

Right.

It’s okay, we can just lay it down here-

On the grass? Will your camera be fine?

Yeah, yeah, or else you can just put in on top of my bag- here.

...

Here, can you see me? Am I in frame?

Yeah, you’re in frame.

Okay, great. Now get over here!

...

I can taste the smoothie you had just now.

Too sweet?

A little.

...

Oh my God! Put me down! Oh- not there! It’s ticklish- AHHHHH!

...

y/n, I have something to tell you.

Mm? What is it?

...

Hello? Earth to Eric?

I... I love you. So much... and I can’t bear to see you go in May. 

Oh, Eric...

No, I- I don’t want you to stay- or even think about it, ‘cause, you have your priorities and I have mine y’know...

Mhm.

I just... I just wished we had more time. 

I do too. I really do.

...

Eric?

Hm?

I love you too.

...

...

...

[REC: MAY 1, 2019 - 4:23AM] SOLO LOG #10

1st May. 4...30? Am? I believe. Um, Eric’s sound asleep in his bed and I couldn’t sleep so I decided to do a log. 

...

I have... 3 weeks left. 4 weeks have gone past just like that, and I don’t know what to think about it. I came for a 50-day retreat. No stress, just myself and peace and quiet and tranquility and yet-

...

I- I don’t know if I can do this.

...

[REC: MAY 7, 2019 - 3:58PM] SOLO LOG #11

So, Eric’s in shoot right now and I’m on the way into the studio with some donuts and coffee to surprise him. I called his manager and asked if it was okay so- I’m pretty psyched to see his workspace. 

...

Hi, I’m y/n, I’m here to visit Eric?

Ah, okay! Hold on, let me just get you signed in with the pass-

Count me in!

You sure? This Saturday at the prep-party?

Yeah- Oh! 

Eric!

y/n! What are you doing here?

I wanted to surprise you. Am I... interrupting anything?

Oh, not at all!

You must be y/n! Eric’s told me so much about you!

Did he? And you are...?

I’m Chelsea! I’ve been attached to the same Calvin Klein contract he recently got, so you could say we’re colleagues!

Well, nice to meet you! Oh, right, these donuts and coffee are meant for you guys actually!

Oh! You’re too kind! Eric, you’re such a lucky man.

I know, she’s just... everything.

Anyway, thank you so much for these. I’ll bring them back down to the studio for the crew to share. But Eric’s pretty much done for the day actually, so you guys can leave if you want to!

Are you sure? Don’t you need help downstairs with the equipment?

No, no! It’s fine, there’re more than enough people downstairs. Go have your date, and maybe you can bring her along with you for the prep-party this weekend!

What’s the prep-party... preparing for?

Oh, you’re so adorable! It’s a prep-party for the end-of-May shoot we’re gonna have. it’s a collab with DAZED so it’s a pretty big project.

You never told me you were involved in a collab with DAZED.

I was gonna tell you today.

He has been pretty busy recently, maybe slipped his mind. Anyway, thank you so much for the donuts and I’ll hope to see you at the pier this Saturday, mm?

Yeah, sure. Thanks Chels.

No problem! It was so nice to meet you, y/n, I’ll see you Saturday!

Okay, bye!

Bye, Chelsea! It was nice to meet you!

Bye!

...

Sweet, why didn’t you tell me you were coming?

I wanted it to be a surprise. I thought you said you’d end pretty late?

The filming was cut short because the shots were better than expected so we ended early.

Oh, I wanted to film you while you were at work.

You have that on?

Yeah- why?

No, just wondering. 

Are you uncomfortable?

No, no, it’s just... I really didn’t expect you to come to the studio. 

...

[REC: MAY 11, 2019 - 11:12PM] SOLO LOG #12

It’s 11:12pm, 11th May, 2019. 11 days to departure.

...

I... saw... Chelsea and Eric... um, out by the garage- 

...

Well, I guess... it looked like they were just... having a really good talk. Or something. 

...

I left. I couldn’t watch it. So, I left without telling Eric. I did tell his boss that I wasn’t feeling well and I had to leave first. 

...

I guess this is the part where I regret it, isn’t it? Um... I don’t know... how... I’m gonna explain this to him when I see him again. Which is supposed to be- um- the rest of the night. I was supposed to go back to his place with him and I’ll stay for the weekend before I come back to pack my things, so-

...

y/n, are you home?

...

shit.

y/n, I know you’re home. I heard you talking. Open the door, I need to talk to you.

...

[REC: MAY 12, 2019 - 2:00AM] SOLO LOG #13

...

I look like shit, don’t I? God, my eyes hurt like a bitch. 

...

I don’t think I need to say what just happened for you to guess what just happened, right? This... says it all. 

...

Fuck. 

...

I shouldn’t have come here. How did- How did my retreat turn out- turn out like this? 

...

This is- This is too much. Too much in too short... of a time. 

...

I don’t think... I don’t think I can do it. Not anymore. 

...

[REC: MAY 19, 2019 - 9:59AM] SOLO LOG #14

It’s May 19th, 2019, almost 10am. I just came back from a morning walk by the beach just to... reminisce a little before I leave on Wednesday. 

...

I... haven’t seen Eric since the prep-party. I blocked him and I told him not to come over, though I think he has, like, a few times. I thought I heard someone come up to my door, but he never knocked. 

...

So, this is how it ends, huh? A 50-day romance cut short like that. Into about, 40? 

...

It’s crazy to think that I had... the experience of a whole relationship in 40 days. I definitely did not sign up for that when I booked this 50-day retreat. 

...

It was fun while it lasted, though. It was. I don’t think I’d find anybody else like Eric, and I guess it just sucks that it had to end like that. Things happen, right? That aren’t... in our control. 

...

...

...

[REC: MAY 21, 2019 - 8:07PM] SOLO LOG #15

May 21st. About 8pm. I leave in about 15 hours. 

...

All my stuff’s packed. Definitely more things to bring home than I brought here. Half of these things were bought by Eric and given to me. I’m... actually not sure if I should bring them back. 

...

I don’t- I just don’t think I’d have the heart to throw them away.

...

Nor look at them when I’m home. 

...

Should I even bring this camera home? Maybe I should wipe your memory before I bring you home, hmm?

...

It feels like a dream, doesn’t it? Everything that’s happened. It feels like a fever dream. Maybe when I’m finally home, I’d wake up and it’d be the day I come here.

...

Maybe.

...

[REC: MAY 22, 2019 - 10:03AM] SOLO LOG #16

-ny more luggage?

Nope.

Alright then, I think you’re all set. You still have about an hour’s time before the gates are open so you can get a cup of coffee or something, yeah?

Okay, thank you!

Have a nice flight ma’am.

Thanks.

...

Good evening ma’am, can I check your boarding pass?

Yeah, sure.

...

Okay, you’re good to go. Have a safe flight.

Thank you!

...

[REC: MAY 22, 2019 - 11:34AM] SOLO LOG #17

It is about 11.30am and I’m on the flight, and here’s the view outside. Sky’s pretty clear and this thing says that the weather’s great so, it should be a smooth flight without turbulence.

...

This is it. This is really it. 

...

...

...

Um-

Hi, ma’am, I’m gonna need you to keep your camcorder.

Oh! Yeah, sure, sure, sorry!

[REC: APRIL 2, 2020 - 12:48AM] ERIC LOG #1

Wow, this is... weird. How did you do this last year?

...

Um, hi. y/n. If you’re watching this then I’ve somehow managed to get this synced into your camera by some weird... bluetooth, iCloud shit that Felix helped me figure out. 

...

It’s been a year. And... I just thought you should... see this, or hear me out, at least. I know we didn’t end on the best terms... and I’m sorry. It was my fault. I shouldn’t have yelled at you for being unreasonable for something that was... suspicious. I should’ve understood. 

...

I should’ve been there. To see you off. And I’m sorry I didn’t. I... was scared, that I wouldn’t be able to let you go if I went to send you off. I was a coward. I still am. 

...

But I do want you to know that... those 50 days were the best days of my life. Albeit it ended horribly, but nothing could... nothing- nothing will ever replace what happened last April. 

...

I said I love you and... I still do. Every day I think about you and your smile and your voice and- and I cry to sleep... worrying that I’d forget how you sound like, or how you laugh and how... how you smell like. My bed smelt like you even after you left. 

...

I just- I love you. And I miss you. And I’d do anything to go back to what we had. I’d do anything to get- to get you back. 

...

I’m sorry.

...

the clip comes to an automatic stop. the white triangle slapped onto the screen, begging you to play it again. you look up from the screen, watching the famous calvin klein ad that hasn’t stopped playing in the last month. 

he hasn’t changed one bit. not his hair, not his smile, not his voice. 

it’s a bittersweet pot of memory stashed in the back of your head when the memories flood back. looking back down at the camera, you count back the days - it was synced just last night. 

the pile of tissues by your thighs are carelessly huddled into the bin next to your feet, mentally berating yourself for going through the memory instead of formatting it. 

you stand, fingers shutting the screen back onto its body with a soft click. the tv blacks out when you press the red button on its remote. 

you’re halfway into your kitchen when there’s a knock at your door, and you immediately gasp, blinking rapidly.

“oh, it’s my fucking projector!”

rushing to the door, you don’t hesitate to get the door open. 

and yet, like the heavens were providing you with all the light to stop you from doubting yourself, your lungs empty themselves like vacuums. 

your heart stops.

your breathing stops.

“eric... what are you doing here?”

[klarolinedrabbles]

What are some of the tvd to fandoms greatest hits so to speak... I was only in it for a short time and then jumped out because I couldn't stand to

Oh, well allow me to be your guide. This will be under a read more because I already know, I’m gonna write a whole essay. Shout out to my ride or die @hellsbellschime.

I don’t think any overtly crazy happened during the good!TVD years. No wait, I’m lying.

The year the spin-off got announced, I believe it was tvguide, that posted an article with like info tidbits for currently airing shows. And one of them, was that Hayley was pregnant with Klaus’ kid. I remember this shit so clearly, man. Everyone was so confused. And then they were like SURPRISE, APRIL FOOLS. Because it was in fact April 1st. So ha-ha we all had a laugh, great. Fastforward to what, late April? Episode 4x20 airs, and it’s exactly what happened???

That whole day btw, the day the backdoor pilot for TO aired was just insanity. I’ll say that about a lot of days in this answer, but that day was really just something else. Like we were delirious, that’s the only way I can explain what happened on here. It was a nightmare but also one of the funniest night’s I’ve ever spent on here. I gotta go back for old time’s sake and reblog some of the shit from that night because we all snapped. And not in the good way. 

The TVD 100th. Now, we knew Joseph was coming back for that episode so they hype was real. Because up until that point, we’d gotten a huge load of nothing in regards to Klaroline. They released a trailer, a short one, that’s still in my favorites folder on youtube to this day. I rewatch it all the time because it’s iconic. And there was literally .002 seconds of Klaroline. It’s Caroline standing and then Klaus says “hello, caroline” and everyone lost their shit so much when it dropped that ‘hello caroline’ trended ww on twitter. 

THE DAY THE NETWORK THAT AIRED TVD IN AUSTRALIA AIRED A PROMO WITH THE KLAROLINE KISS IN 5X11. ICONIC. I literally woke up, logged on at around 11 AM my time, and my dashboard was on fire. It was the BEST. We didn’t know wtf to do, it was amazing. 

Paleyfest. Ohhhh buddy, lemme tell ya. So TVD/TO got chosen to have the CW panel’s at Paleyfest that year. Everyone was on a bit of edge because TO to that point was what, almost done with S1 and Klaroline had been given the mega cold-shoulder despite being the very thing other than the Mikaelson’s that got used to lure people in? After the pregnancy plot from hell, everyone was ready to peace tf out, but we got halted because it was a ‘ohh of course it’s gonna continue’ then they tried to nip Klaroline in the bud with 5x11 and no one was having it. So Paleyfest was where we were gonna get some ANSWERS, DAMMIT. I live on the east coast and the festival was held in the west coast so I wasn’t awake when it was happening. I remember making a post about how ‘going to sleep, and hoping when I woke up the answers were good.’. So I went to sleep, woke up a few hours later like 2-3 AM my time, and checked my blog and the first message I had was ‘don’t wake up stephanie, everything is a mess, stay asleep where everything’s fine’ I—

The gist of that was, they basically set JoMo up to be the bad-cop in shutting down Klaroline. He gave this long answer that made absolutely zero sense. The girl who asked the question about Klaroline, who was like 13 at the time, got called a bully for even asking a question at an event she paid to be at. A mess. And JP was like NO CROSSOVERS, ORGANIC, BLAH BLAH. And Paul was sitting next to her going “why can’t the show’s just intersect”, he was right and he said it. 

I can’t remember if this was S1 or S2, but somebody tweeted something and Carina replied ‘when you’re found dead in your basement with klaroline written on you this is why’ or something like that, that was a ~fun~ night. And then like half an hour later she was like “I’m sorry, I’ll never tweet about Klaroline again just leave me alone” if you’ve ever seen this fandom refer to ourselves as basement dwellers, this night is why. 

NARDUCCI. Can’t forget him. Talk about a man who just didn’t get it. And I don’t mean Klaroline, he just didn’t get anything, nothing in his head has ever clicked, I’m convinced. He used to pick fights on twitter repeatedly. Admitted once that he missed his flight because he was on twitter…arguing with a fan. AND ONE DAY, he decided to just—snap. Went on this hours long tirade against the Klaroline fandom, essentially calling everyone stupid because no one was appreciating the ‘art’ of the show. So when I say it lasted hours, I mean that. Now, you’d think, that he would be done, right? WELL, apparently that wasn’t enough, so the next day, he continued. I remember because I was in this gc on whatsapp, and I remember Erika sending a message to the gc going “omg, Narducci vs KCers round 2″ when I tell you I screamed. The man went on a two-day rampage against this fandom and it was insane. 

S6/S2 of TVD/TO was not a fun time. I can genuinely say it was borderline a chore to come on here during that time. It wasn’t fun, every day someone was in argument with someone from production on twitter. Truly the worst year of the fandom, imo. So S7/S3 rolls around and that’s where shit went nuclear. 

Hillary and I, are minding our own damn business, when someone come’s to us with information regarding the new seasons. This was post-SDCC, so it’s like the lull of September, waiting for the seasons to start in October. And we get approached with information, talkin bout how Caroline’s gonna be pregnant with Alaric’s twins in S7. When I tell you we didn’t know wtf to do. And we had to like wait on confirmation about it but then we found out it was legit and we were pissed. Literally ask us if we wanted to be in the spoiler game, the answer is no tf we did not. And she and I basically spent two days complaining. LIKE UGHHHH WE DON’T WANNA DO THIS, BUT ALSO THIS IS DISGUSTING, WE CAN’T JUST LET THEM SPRING THIS ON EVERYONE, BUT AGHH WHY US. So we chose collectively, as a duo, because das my other half yo, to blab. 

That went over as best as anyone could hope for it to go. Now, flashforward yet again, this time to around late Novemeber/December. I had been sent word that something was going down. TVD/TO lost their Thursday slots and got bumped to Friday’s, so a plan was going on, and they made one. We’d heard that they were rearranging something mid-season because they were gonna make a crossover work, publicly we found out it would be Paul and JoMo that crossover back-to-back. THEN ONE NIGHT—I call it black friday bc  that day was a fucking mess—, a friend of mine was friends with an SCer, I wanna say, and she was hearing word that the crossover did have Klaus and Caroline interact via phone call, but that it was very definitively an ending. Because they spoke about Camille and Stefan, etc, etc. Like a closing of the book type thing. So okay, we were like devastated, everyone on twitter was losing their shit. Everyone was pissed, and @-ing the writers all these crazy, sad things, we were a wreck. Ask Hillary about this night because she, I remember, describes it as ‘logging on and reading what everyone else had and not understanding why tf everyone was mad about it’. It was the first and last time that our roles were reversed, and bless her for it. 

SO WE’RE SITTING THERE, it’s Saturday, and we kept getting more information and we were like…something isn’t right here. So we did a bit of digging, spoke to a few people and waited it out. LO AND BEHOLD, everything we’d heard about the phone call was false. There was a phone call but the CKers and SCers were so mad about what was actually said in it, that a few of em, ring leaders of the feeble minded, made up a version and passed it around their fandoms as legit till it eventually worked it’s way over to us. So we all jumped the gun on fake information, lmfskdnknsks. Rumor has it, you can still hear Hillary yelling ‘I told you so’ at me through our group chat. 

So all was well, I couldn’t tell everyone why not to panic, just that they didn’t need to. Until, this account popped up called tvdspoiler or something on twitter, also saying false information about the phone call. Sending everyone into a panic yet again. I remember this because I was at  kmart with my mom, and the kmart by my house was in a basement so I had no cell service. I was able to send like a couple of messages, and was basically like ‘tell everyone to chill, I’ll clear it up when I get home’ did that in like a couple of hours cause then I had to leave to the midnight showing of the force awakens with my friends. So that day was chaotic, but fun. It was the first time I reached 99+ messages on my inbox, lmao. 

So that all happened like a good while before we actually saw the episode. But cut to a few weeks later. I woke up at 1 AM my time to drink water, was on tumblr trying to go back to sleep. I checked my inbox and there was this bizarre message talking about ‘got some scoop’ and they were like ‘Finn dies in 3x17, Aurora gets put into some weird sleeping spell in 3x18, Camille and Davina die in 3x19, Lucien dies in 3x20′ and I quite literally laughed??? Literally who wouldn’t. Like who tf would ever believe TO had the balls to do all of that when they never killed anyone off. AND, WHO WOULD BELIEVE THAT SOMEONE WOULD JUST STOP BY, SHARE IT AND LEAVE. So I sent a screenshot to Hillary and was like ‘yo did you get this because wtf’. We often got duplicate messages. And we often got messages of people who were pissed about the two previous times we, from the klaroline fandom of all places, had legit info that wound up being true, that they were just waiting for us to fuck up. So we used to get messages of people pretending they were sharing info, and it was just antis trying to make us look stupid. 

SO, Hillary says ‘just answer it because it’s obviously fake’ top ten moments before disaster. I answer it and am like oh haha, and where did that info come from. And they came back like a minute later, saying ‘I have a source’ THEN THEY ELABORATED. They mentioned that Lucien drags Freya and Vincent to Mystic Falls to do this spell with some bullet and etc. So at that point we were like fUCK because that same day we’d found out was in 3x16, which ended with Lucien and this white-oak bullet, having kidnapped Freya. And that’s when we knew, that someone showed up in the middle of the night, spoiled the whole back-half of TO S3—and then left.

The back-half of S3 was so fun??? Every week the info just kept coming true. On the wikia everyone hated me, probably the most anti messages I ever had was during that time, honestly it was great, 10/10 would recommend. 

THEN, at some point in our blog history, Hillary had been getting quite a few messages about PT. And she had this fucking line in one of the messages about Phoebe’s pronunciation with her accent for the show, or lack thereof. And she said “weeches and woves will always have a place in my heart” SO THEM PHOEBE TWEETED IT. THAT EXACT LINE, and we were like was she...? So we shrugged off okay. A few days later, she tweeted “hellsbellschime enough, there’s plenty of other things to watch on tv, I hear mad men’s great.” And I—

THIS WAS ON SOME RANDOM ASS SUNDAY. Like I was lounging around, waiting for the new episode of game of thrones and then WHAM, chaos. AND AS IF THAT WASNT ENOUGH, Leah joined in too. Putting a target on my friends back...about her blog that no one was making them read. You can’t make that shit up. And Jenn actually replied to Phoebe’s tweet and got a reply back, and she was all “you’re right, I’m sorry” and then deleted the original tweet, which I still have a screenshot of btw. And then Leah showed up in Hillary’s inbox with this ridiculous three part ask about how she shouldn’t criticize women in the acting industry because of how hard it is for women in that industry which is true, but it doesn’t make you exempt from criticism??? So not sure where she meant to go with that one.

SO THERE WE HAVE IT, our fandom’s greatest hits. I’m sure I can elaborate and insert more, but I’ve been typing for a good 40 minutes. 

Told ya, I wrote a whole dissertation, lmaooo.

[morticianikolaevna]

Another One?

Pat Murray x reader.

Warnings: Language.

You and Pat have 2 beautiful children already, what happens if one more is added to the mix?

After convincing Percy, Jude, and Pat all to go practice for their summer league you went upstairs to the bathroom. Lately, you had morning sickness and some odd cravings, and you missed your period. You were no fool, you already had two kids and you were suspicious of having a third. So you went upstairs and took a pregnancy test you had stashed away for events such as this.

The whole time you were waiting for the results you were thinking of how Pat would react. This wasn't planned (if you were pregnant of course) and you hadn't brought it up in months. Then you started thinking of how your teenagers would react to a new sibling around. You teared up slightly, and almost jumped when you heard the timer you set go off, and you turned towards the white stick that was placed on the counter.

You picked it up and almost fell over, it was positive. You started crying at this point because you were overwhelmed with joy over the thought of cradling your newborn, but at the same time you experienced fear because you didn't know how your family would react. You decided to tell Pat first and you called him immediately. When he finally answered you cut him off.

"Hel-"

"Pat, let's go out to dinner tonight!" He was taken back by this.

"Okay, yeah that sounds great. I'll get myself and our offspring home so we can g-"

"NO! Ummm, just me and you tonight, okay? I just need quality time with my husband!" Pat was REALLY shocked by this, and just hummed in agreement.

"Woah, okay babe chill. We'll go out tonight, I'll drop the offspring off at m- YOU STUPID BITCH! GET ON YOUR SIDE OF THE ROAD YOU FUCKING ASS! I HAVE MY KIDS IN THIS VEHICLE! Sorry babe, asshole drivers. I'll drop them off with Ty tonight. He owes me anyway for a night."

And before you could speak, you soon heard all three of your idiots scream, Percy sounding too much like his father.

"OH YOU STUPID COCKWALLET! MY GRANDMA DRIVES BETTER!" Yep, that was Pat.

"FUCKING MOTHER DICK! ASSWIPE MOTHERFUCKER!" That was Percy.

"EAT A WATERMELON, YOU TWAT!" And that was Jude. You laughed your ass off at this and just sighed.

"I love you guys. Be safe." And you hung up. You got dressed for dinner then waited for Pat.

*At the restaurant*

You were shaking like a leaf as you pushed your plate away and took a still eating Pat by his hand, and he gave you a look.

"Everything okay babe?" He asked while wiping his mouth and took a drink of water. You just spat it out, not knowing what to do.

"Pat, I'm pregnant!" You said really fast, looking him in the eyes. He choked on his water and pretty much threw the glass down. His gaze snapped to yours with a look of excitement.

"Are you serious?? I'm going to be a dad, AGAIN??" He shouted and you nodded. Pat jumped up and spun you around.

"I'M GOING TO BE A FUCKING DAD AGAIN!! ITS MY THIRD TIME!!!" He screamed, and the whole restaurant went up in cheers and claps. You also had two others to tell as well, and you both left the restaurant with Pat crying. This man had cried only 3 times, once at your wedding, another at the birth of Percy, and the last at the birth of Jude. Now here he is all emotional over a little life growing in you.

Jude and Percy sat on the couch at your home as you both stood up, hand in hand. You both had the widest smiles and you nudged his side. Pat cleared his throat as both your kids watched him worried.

"Kids, okay so me and your mother have news. We haven't really brought it up to you, but we were talking about it a few months ago. And," he turned to you. "Would you like to share the news?" You nodded and put your hands to your tummy.

"I'm pregnant, my beautiful offsprings! You'll be having a little sister or brother in 9 months!" You practically screamed. Percy and Jude screamed as well and you all group hugged.

"I've been waiting for another baby mom and dad! I can't wait to meet my baby sister!" Percy cheered and Jude shot him a look.

"No, we are having a little brother!" This started World War III for them.

*After the pregnancy and delivery*

Phoenix Aerolynn Murray was born at midnight, April 1st. The labor wasn't the best, but worth it. She was being cleaned right now as you spoke to Pat who layed in bed next to you with tear tracks staining his pretty face.

"I can't believe I have another daughter. I couldn't be any more happy, Y/N." He smiled and you layed closer to him. The door opened and in walked Jude, Percy, Pat's dad, Ty, Dells, and Fotch. You sat up and smiled.

"Hey guys. She is being cleaned as we speak." You said as they all layed down big gifts for you and her. Before anyone said anything, a nurse walked in with a squirming blanket and gave her to you. You felt yourself tear up at this moment and showed her to everyone and 'awws' swept the room.

"Oh my god, she is so beautiful!" Jude squeaked out. You looked towards Pat and he was crying again as he took her from your arms.

"I'm complete now. My family makes me feel that way, and so happy."

So that was longer than I thought! But yeah, surprise! Hope you all liked it!

@punkgeekchic @tardisgrump @borhapqueen92 @plethora-of-things @zackgba @extremelypansexual @scarecrowmax @totallynerdstuff

[kaitymccoy123]

A Drabble a Day Keeps the Doctor in the Medbay

Kk y’all.  How insane is this?  800 followers!?!  Crazy.  Just crazy. 

So long story short I want to do more drabbles. 

And they were so fun last time and I have been dying to do more writing (not that I don’t do enough already but I want more). 

So Imma bring back the colour drabbles.  But this time with different colours - oooo how original, I know. (and not all of them are different because I liked keeping some of the colours from last time)

Alrighty-ho so same deal as last time.  Send me a colour, send me a prompt, send me a character and you got yourself a drabble.  

I will leave requests open until Thursday, April 13th at 4pm EST - because that is when my Microbiology exam is and I want something to look forward to after that. 

I am going to get them all organized now and get working on them so starting on May 1st I will start posting them.  I will not be responding to the asks until after my exam so if you send one, don’t worry, I will have gotten it!  Hopefully I can still get other writing done.  But school will be over so I will be writing non-stop. Literally.  

I had such a hard time trying to decide on how many to do, so I finally decided that I will be leaving it up to you guys.  However many I get before the cut off time I will write.  And I will be posting one a day starting in May.  

OH and my Spring Has Sprung Challenge is still open if you want to write something!  :D

Ok, so colours and prompts below the cut line, I will be taking requests for Star Trek TOS/AOS characters only: Kirk, Bones, Spock, Sulu, Chekov, Uhura, and Scotty (please).  

Gold:

Wealth, prosperity, a full glass of champagne, a bubbly laugh, traditional, valuable, compassion, demanding, courage, wisdom, armour, falseness. 

Silver:

Industrial, high-tech, glamorous, speeding through space, slick, protection, a blade shining in the sun, elegance, heartlessness. 

Pink:

Delicacy, tenderness, a lover’s lips, sweetness, friendship, playfulness, being tipsy, cotton candy, babies, harmony, softening frustration, thought to be weak.

Brown:

Wholesomeness, reliability, foundations, a campfire, trust, dependability, organic, the smell of wood, trees, predictability, boring, warmth.

Grey:

Emotionless, dust, intelligence, dark clouds on a rainy day, the feeling of being ignored, formal, sophisticated, elder, anxiety, not bad or good.

Turquoise:

Communication, openness, clarity, a cool swim on a hot day, calmness, secrecy, creativity, paint splatters, belly laughs, deception, unreliability. 

Red:

Action, energy, courageous, aggressive, passionate, a first kiss, resentful, quick-tempered, blood, determined, brutal, blinding rage. 

Green:

Growth, practicality, greed, hooded eyes, possessiveness, family oriented, generous, a need to belong, a friendly smile, inconsiderate. 

Prompts:

Feel free to send me one or two of the prompts below: (yes there are a lot but I am taking a lot of drabbles and I don’t want too many repeats - please look through them all to make a choice, there are some pretty good ones in there.)

“Quit it or I’ll bite.”

“Nobody loves you.” - “I LOVE THEM!”

“Stop being grumpy.  It’s lame.“

"I won’t let you get hurt.”

“He’s four years old!”

“You’re competitive and so am I, and it’s going to lead to a fight.”

“I don’t need a hero, I need a husband.”

“I can see it in your eyes.  The panic.  What’s gotten you so scared?" 

"I pity anyone who could think that they could get through me to hurt you.”

“I hate seeing you cry.  It makes me want to.”

“Take. It. Off.”

“You know what they say, panicking burns a shit-ton of calories!" 

"I’ll kick his ass if you want me to.”

“What’re you jealous or something?” - “They had their hands all over you, of course, I’m jealous.”

“Can I kiss you?” - “Yes.”

“Good heavens…. people.”

“Just calm down and let me explain!” - “NOPE, NU-UH, I WANT A ONE WAY TICKET FROM NOPE TOWN TO FUCK THAT VILLE, I AIN’T DEALIN’ WITH THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW." 

"I appreciate the sentiment, love, but have you forgotten that I’m dreadfully allergic to roses?”

“Don’t ever take a fence down until you know why it was put up.“

"I just want to make sure you still looked up to me.”

“Small fire!  I said set a small fire!  This is not small!”

“Don’t bleed on my floor.”

“Fight me.” -  "I would, but I’m really tired so you’d probably win.“

"Can someone tell me why this coffee tastes like apples?”

“Just keep moving.  That’s all you can do.”

“Stop getting crumbs all over my bed.”

“The sun hasn’t even come up and you want me to do what now?”

“That’s disgusting.  You’re lucky you’re so cute.”

“When I said ‘whatever helps you sleep at night’ I didn’t mean this.”

“Remove your hand or I will rip your arm off and beat you to death with it.”

“I’ve forgotten what it’s like to have a normal sleeping pattern.”

“No, no, you do NOT want me navigating, I’ll accidentally navigate us off cliff.”

“Well, if you’d woken up properly the first time I kicked you, I wouldn’t have had to do it four more times.”

“Why are your hands purple?” - “That’s a very good question.”

“Don’t give me attitude, darling.  I have one of my own.”

“I was just kind of hoping that you’d y'know… fall in love with me.”

“It’s okay.  You don’t have to love me.”

“Don’t you have to be stupid somewhere else?” - “Not until four.”

“Sometimes memories are the worst form of torture.”

“This takes finesse and focus, none of which you have.”

“Things change around here when it hits midnight.”

“You were always first priority for me.”

“You go first, I’ll follow right behind you.”

“I’m not cold and I’m not bleeding.”

“Looks like we’re gonna be stuck here for a while.”

“I don’t have a home." 

"Make sure you wear the stars.”

“Talkative, but talented.  Who would have thought?“

"We don’t have much time!” - “Yeah I can see that, asshole!”

“Aw, they’re so cute together!” “Yeah, so cute it makes me want to vomit.”

“Hand over the girl.” “Not going to happen.”

“Let it go.  Live to fight another day.”

“At this point does it really matter if I die?!” - “Yes! You complete dumbass!”

“Why is he bleeding?” “Because he’s an idiot.”

“This is not exactly how I planned this date to go.”

Thank you guys so much for the amazing support and love and kindness you are amazing (but I bet you already knew that) ;)

[crystallinetides]

So I was tagged by @just-plain-aiden to do a tag thingy!!! I don't really care about the rules but I love these things so I'mma do it anyway

LAST:

[1] drink: water, bc I'm basic like that

2] phone call: like, one I answered? shit man, idk. The most recent call to my phone was for a bill tho

[3] text message: My Tumblr auth code

[4] song you listened to: "Tous les Memes" by Stromae (the last English song I listened to was "Guillotine"...)

[5] time you cried: not recently enough my friend

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: yes, bad idea, 0/10 would not recommend

[7] been cheated on: .... no?

[8] kissed someone and regretted it:  yeah x.x

[9] lost someone special: yeah, my grandmother

[10] been depressed: it's p much a constant thing now???

11] gotten drunk and thrown up: it is not fun

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:

[12] blue!!!!!!

[13] purple

[14] mint! (that weird green/blue bullshit color)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends:  oui

[16] fallen out of love: DAMN RIGHT, FUCKIN FREEEEEEE

[17] laughed until you cried: yes. actually I think that has happened more recently than actual crying

[18] found out someone was talking about you: idk???

[19] met someone who changed you: I don't think so?

20] found out who your true friends are: already knew, bruh

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: yes, actually

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: like... all of them? I think that maybe 2% of my friends I don't actually know

[23] do you have any pets: three dogs, Charlie, Taz, and Flea Biscuit; three cats, Ivory, Tubbs, and Spooky

[24] do you want to change your name: nah. I use Crys online, that's good enough for me. although I went through a phase where I REALLY wanted to change my last name bc it's gross 

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: GOT TURNT and by turnt I mean I had a single drink at dinner and that's about it OH I WENT ICE SKATING

[26] what time did you wake up: WHOO BOY I have not slept since I woke up at 7AM Friday morning (it is currently 12:29AM Sunday...)

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: I was at work!

[28] name something you cannot wait for: part of me wants to say the Sweet Embrace of Death but I'm really just ready to go to medical school like fuck this

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: Thursday??? I think???

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my propensity for procrastination

[31] what are you listening to right now: the various beeps of a hospital (Guillotine is stuck in my head on repeat)

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: ... I don't think I have

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: my roots showing through the hair dye

[34] most visited website: this hellhole of a website (I use Instagram a lot more now???)

[35] elementary: I am unsure of the question??? Did I go to elementary school, is that the question? I assume so. Yes, I did. I loved it.

[36] high school: literally fuck high school

[37] college: GRADUATING THIS YEAR BRUH

[38] hair color: dark brown with red, but right now it's bright ass pink

[39] long or short hair: I got short hair bruh, easier to deal with

[40] do you have a crush on someone: nah, relationships scare me rn

[41] what do you like about yourself?: my eye color??? my ear for tone???

[42] piercings: I have two holes in each ear lobe and one in my cartilage

[43] blood type: A positive!

[44] nickname: Crys on here, but irl it's Brie like the goddamn cheese

[45] relationship status: single Pringle

[46] zodiac sign: Aquarius~

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show: this is not a fair question bc it changes; I am currently in Voltron hell, but FMA: B will always be my Number One anime

[49] tattoos: lmao I have five; one that is half of the phrase "Together forever, never apart; maybe in distance, but never in heart" (my sister has the first half, I have the second); the second is a watercolor style pink ribbon; the third is a Celtic knot for sisterhood; the fourth is a tree of life with a DNA trunk and birds in it; the fifth is a line from "Iridescent" by Linkin Park. I also have a teeny star on the inside of my wrist

oh lol and I have a plan to get two more in April at least

[50] right or left handed: right handed, but I play saxophone and am learning to play guitar and that's basically like being ambidextrous right

FIRST…

[51] surgery: wisdom teeth removal!

[52] piercing: my ears when I was like 7

[53] best friend : a girl in 1st grade that I don't talk to anymore

[54] sport: marching band bro. fight me

[55] vacation: Florida for family visits; my first out of country visit was Mexico

[56] pair of trainers: ... like, sneakers? shit man idk that was so long ago

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: nothing, unfortunately. might heat up some pizza.

[58] drinking: water

[59] i’m about to: actually focus on my job 

60] listening to: nothing

[61] waiting for: a chance to sleep properly, I am so tired 

[62] want: sleep for a week and binge watch anime

[63] get married: I am nowhere near ready for that. maybe???

64] career: Im gonna be some sort of surgeon. thinking orthopedic.

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs. give me all the cuddles.

[66] lips or eyes: eyes.

[67] shorter or taller: I prefer taller

[68] older or younger: I don't really care???

[69] romantic or spontaneous: romantic. I need structure in my life

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: arms, I think.

[71] sensitive or loud: ???? I have no clue

[72] hook up or relationship: at this point, neither. but if I had to choose, hookup. relationships are scary

73] troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant. think that shit through

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger? nah

[75] drank hard liquor? lmao its pretty much all I drink

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses? so many contacts have been lost to the Void

[77] turned someone down: yup

[78] sex on first date? definitely not for me

[79] broken someone’s heart? depends on who you ask

[80] had your own heart broken? yeah, wont make that mistake again

81] been arrested? no but I have had a parking ticket, I'm so awful I know

[82] cried when someone died? yup

[83] fallen for a friend: yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself? I WILL BECOME HOKAGE (genuinely idk)

[85] miracles? okay the fact that we exist at all and can mount an immune response to literally any organic molecule is a miracle and I will fight anyone who says otherwise

[86] love at first sight? nah

[87] santa claus? hes clearly real 

[88] kiss on the first date? if you like em, why not???

[89] angels? .... meeehhh TECHNICALLY yes bc im hard polytheist....

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: Mikaela and Erin <3

[91] eye colour: grey!!! fuck u theyre not blue or green

[92] favourite movie: Spirited Away probably

wow this took longer than expected

anyway now you know how lame I am even tho only ONE of you asked <3

if you do this, send me a link bc I'm nosy

[bloganimedevlin]

Story attempt - maybe if I write it here I’ll have motivation

Just a heads up! This story mentions rape, assault, violence, catcalling and harassment, as well as victim blaming and dismissal. If these things are traumatic for you and will bring up bad memories or trigger any sort of negative reaction, please be warned. I want to discuss these things in a story, but I really really don’t want to harm anyone. There is nothing overly overt in the story (at least, I don’t think so), but I know that even mentions of a certain type of violence can send me into a panic attack, so I don’t want to do that to anyone else. 

October 14th, 2018

Ashura was 5 years old when a little boy in her class at school pulled her hair and called her dumb. He pulled her hair so hard that some of it came out. Ashura screamed, which attracted the playground attendant. Sobbing Ashura explained what had happened while the little boy ran off laughing. The attendant comforted Ashura by giving her a hug and telling her that the little boy was just doing it because he liked her. Ashura found that hard to believe, but since it continued for the next two years till the little boy moved away, and everyone said the same thing as the attendant when she complained, perhaps they were right.

May 5th, 2021

Ashura was 8 years old when she decided she wanted to be a doctor. She had excellent grades in every subject, especially the sciences, and she saw a movie where the (male) doctor was a hero who saved lives. She wanted to save lives. Her parents told her no, being a doctor was something for boys. She could be a nurse though, to provide comfort for sick people. Ashura was confused and upset, but after a year of being told the same thing, she gave up that dream and decided to be a mathematician. Again, she was told no. But she could be a school teacher if she wanted, good to work with kids. There were so many things she wanted to be over the years that her parents crushed out of her. Then they wondered why she had no future plans. Of course, they were happy with their plan that she would just marry a rich... wait for it... doctor. 

June 23rd, 2028

Ashura was 10 years old when her family started complaining about the clothes she wore. She tried to follow what they told her to, but no matter what she wore, they would always find fault. It was like she couldn’t win. If she wore light and breezy clothes fit for summer, her parents freaked out that she was “showing too much skin” and would be considered a slut. If she wore stuffy clothes that made her hot but covered her body “properly” her parents would exclaim that no man would ever want a women who was so boring. Apparently boys would call her names no matter what she did, and her parents and society supported that. 

February 2nd, 2032

Ashura was 14 years old when a group of men on the street yelled at her that she had a “nice ass, perfect for fucking” and “Let me rape you, sweetie.” Ashura had only gone out that evening to fetch groceries for her mother. There were other people around, but none of them said or did anything, so she felt scared and alone. Would the men actually try and rape her? How should she respond? She didn’t know and ran all the way home, even though her lungs burnt all the rest of the night and she only stopped shaking when she fell asleep. It would happen again and again, over the years, and it was always still as terrifying as the first time. Still as confusing. But it also became infuriating. 

April 7th, 2034

Ashura was 16 years old when her classmate tried to rape her at a party. It wasn’t even a party with drinking and drugs, it was a birthday party. He ambushed her and  dragged her into an empty room after she had gone to the washroom (the party was outside so the house was unoccupied) and tried to tear her clothes off. Thankfully for Ashura, she had been taking mixed martial arts since she was 11, and managed to fight him off. Running back to the rest of the party attendees (including adults) she showed them her ripped shirt and frantically explained what had happened. Instead of going after the boy, they told her she shouldn’t have gone to the washroom alone, and perhaps she had misunderstood the boy’s intentions. When she got home, the response from her parents was similar, but they also banned her from any more social events until she turned 18. The boy was still in her class the next school year and Ashura avoided him like the plague. Thankfully, he did the same. Unfortunately, Ashura still got teased by the other students about her “fake rape story.”

 August 27th, 2036

Ashura was 18 when she moved out to go to university. Her mother cried because “you shouldn’t move out until you have a husband to look after you!” Her father disapproved because she might be attacked by “strange men” because she lived alone. Turned out that her father had been right in his estimation of how shitty “strange men” could be, and Ashura’s fighting training came in handy more times that she could count over the next four years. A man tried to break into her apartment after having followed her catcalling her one evening. Another evening a man interrupted her supper at a restaurant to ask for her number, after she said no he stalked her for a while before trying to attack her one early morning a few blocks away from her apartment. She saved a friend from being raped. A drunk man tried to assault her in the middle of a supermarket of all places - no one helped - instead they looked disapprovingly at her after she had beaten him off. The list goes on. 

January 19th, 2040

Ashura was 22 when her work department got a new boss who thought it was okay to grope and demean and otherwise sexually harass his female employees. She nearly got fired twice before she was moved departments for “causing trouble.” This “trouble” was standing up to the boss and telling him to back down when he slapped his assistant’s ass every morning. All the other employees seemed to find fault in her, not him. The assistant halfheartedly laughed it off and told Ashura that she couldn’t afford to lose her job. Upper management sent Ashura to counselling, as if that made any difference. She was told she was “overreacting,” “couldn’t take a joke,” and “made people uncomfortable.” The new department had a nice boss, but some of her co-workers were just as bad as the previous boss, they just were more covert about it because they did own the place. Ashura continued to fight back against them as best she could. Especially Jackson Miller, a project manager who had his own assistant that he often verbally harassed. Ashura couldn’t stand him.

September 1st, 2044

Ashura was 26 when her fiancee of two years got really drunk at a friend’s party. The bar was upscale and nice, the party people were pleasant enough, and before this moment, Ashura found her fiancee to be sweet and decent. She planned to marry him, after all. She hadn’t chosen him, her parents had, but getting to know him had been fine, and he let her do what she wanted most of the time, so she figured he was supportive. But they had never spoken about marriage beyond his proposal. And it was this particular night that Ashura realised she should have checked. Theo, her fiancee, was pretty wasted when he started to call her by other women’s names. Weird, but she supposed that he was out of it and it didn’t matter. Then he started hitting on the waitresses. They were polite and firm, good at dodging his hands, and excellent at that fake light laugh that women give a man who they cannot get away from because of their jobs. Ashura tried to get him to stop. His friends, however, who were also rather drunk at this point, kept encouraging him and talking over her. Frustrated, Ashura left to go to the washroom. She ran into one of the waitresses there and felt that she had to apologise for Theo’s behaviour.

“I’m really sorry about how badly the men are acting this evening.” Ashura ventured, the other woman turning to smile at her, “It must suck, especially Theo - my fiancee - he has been really rude.”

The waitresses’s smile dropped, “Fiancee? He has a fiancee?”

“Err, yes?”

“Oh no..... I thought you were another one of his flings. Honey, he comes here all the time, and trust me, he has been a lot worse some other times. He is also always here with a different girl so I just thought.....”  

“Oh.” Ashura thought about it for a moment, “Well, my apology still stands. Also, thank you for letting me know.”

She waitress looked very guilty (guilty! Why? she had just given Ashura crucial information that was important to her relationship) as Ashura practically ran out of the washroom. Getting back to the table, she sat down quietly next to Theo and waited till there was a lull in the group conversation before catching Theo’s attention. He looked at her with a grin and asked what was wrong, told her to drink more. 

“Actually I think we should leave, I need to talk to you about something.” 

“Nah, babe, it’s not even midnight.”

“Theo, I insist, it’s important.”

“Lighten up, don’t ruin my fun.”

Ashura suppressed a sigh, “We. Need. To. Talk.” she said very calmly and firmly, even though she felt like screaming. Theo finally properly looked at her and, his words slurring together just a little, remarked,

“Women should really just learn to keep their mouths shut and their legs open.”

She should have punched him, she should have. But instead, Ashura gave a little laugh, stood up, took her ring off and dropped it in his glass, and walked away. As soon as she got home she called her parents and told them the engagement was off. 

Her parents were devastated. They asked her if she was sure, they said it was impossible, that Theo was a nice boy. They said he was just drunk. The dismissed the flings and called the waitress names. They told her that she was lucky to have a man would was not violent, she ought to put up with a few verbal jabs, they weren’t that important. Her mother cried, her father shouted. Ashura listened in silence and then ended the call be telling them to reach out to Theo’s family to tell the the engagement was off. That was it.

Theo’s parents were apparently furious, she heard from her mother later. Not at Theo, mind, but at Ashura. Ashura shrugged and said she didn’t care. 

September 3rd 2044

Ashura was called into the director’s office at work. She had been working non-stop for the past six months and had passed so many tests and interviews so that she could finally be a manager. The director very pleasantly told her that while she was an excellent employee, who had been with them for 8 years at this point (she started working at the company when she started her university degree), that they had found a more qualified person to be manager. Apparently, “more qualified” meant male, because the new manager was 23 and had been working at the company for a year and a half, he had only entered the workforce a year and a half ago after graduating. He didn’t have any knowledge of the projects that he was in charge of - projects that Ashura had been working on for ages. Ashura was livid. But she was civil about the rejection because the director was not too bad of a boss in general.  

September 5th 2044

Ashura knew she was probably going to get fired, but Jackson Miller had taken it too far. He had decided that because she hadn’t made manager, that it was a good idea to grope her. So she did the first thing that came to mind and kicked him in the stomach. He was taken to the hospital and she was sent home with harsh words from management on her behaviour. Never mind that he had grabbed her ass, she was clearly the one at fault. Management said they’d call her when a decision about what to do with her was made. So Ashura went home. Angry, but happy that she had finally done something to actually stop Jackson. And thinking that perhaps it was good she was going to be fired, maybe another company would value her more and be less on board with harassment. It would all work out, she had the rest of her life to look forward to, after all.

September 7th 2044

Ashura was 26 when the aliens “invaded.” 

To be continued...................