#—letters to ei.✉️

[meiieiri]

there's a song that reminds me so much of harmony in the twilight hour... big star by lorde 🥹 i've always loved it but i love it even more now that i've read your story. ilysm !!

help this song was so good, im literally sitting in the laboratory i’m working at with literal tears in my eyes 😭 thank you for this nonnie ! 🥹 and i especially love the lines bc it’s so perfect for tojiyn’s tragic tale (and the fact that mc died in winter! 😭😭😭):

“but every perfect summer’s gotta take its flight, i’ll still watch you run through the winter light.”

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i could just imagine toji going back to that port they used to go to in yokohama, a year after the mc’s death. he does everything he wanted to do with the mc when he still believed she’d get better: he’ll stroll down that boardwalk, he’ll buy two ice cream sandwiches (one for him, and one for you), he’ll ride the ferris wheel because the harbor recently opened a small amusement park, and he’ll watch the open sea wondering if you were right there next to him in spirit as the car reaches the top.

of course, he’ll take lots of pictures. that’s what you would have wanted, after all.

and by day’s end, toji will retrieve your ashes from the car and he’ll sit on the edge of the harbor’s boardwalk, your urn next to him as he tells you what he’s been up to this past year — how he went to your second honeymoon alone, the one you never got to go to, because you would have wanted that for him, how he kept everything in your home the way it is, how he took in that stray cat he always used to catch you feeding even when you were wheelchair-ridden as you neared the end of your life — he tells you everything, picturing your head thrown back in joyful laughter when he forces himself to crack jokes every now and then.

as the last sliver of daylight appears on the horizon, he knows it’s time, so he picks up your urn, sliding the lid open. he takes a deep breath then he ultimately casts your ashes into the sea as per your final wishes. he tearfully watches the wind pick up what remains of the love of his life, the same breeze gently settling you down onto your bed of sapphire waves.

he never remarries.

[your-enby-antihero]

🪞🔴🪞🕯️✉️🕯️🪞🔴🪞

Y’all don’t understand Aimee Carrero always walks into the CR studio and fucking eats every time. She is so woman and no one gets it she is just the most ever and no one gets it. This chapter has to tie for one of my favourite (it’s hard they all tie for my favourite but maybe this one a itty bitty bit more) like the cast, the costumes, the set, Liam freaking O’Brien. The second half of the episode truly was crazy, like the second hand trippyness was crazy. Dr Edgar Lycoris love of my life you funky handprint motherfucker the way Alexander Ward show up want this man to die gets his wish and I’m still fucking shaking regardless of the signposting telling me for sure Edgar was dead. Imari Williams sir sir sir the amount of shit this man pulled that just fucked Liam over was beautiful, I cannot wait to see Imari back at the table eventually because he was truly a delight, Malcolm Trills what a fucking guy just a true protecter until the end. As said before Aimee Carrero is just always so phenomenal at this table always brewing up something so heartbreaking especially with the ties between Opal and Grimoria like just two fresh eyed girls haunted by ghosts of the past just getting their shit rocked and every time I eat it up! Taliesin Jaffe and his stupid traumatized little gay man, dude Leo owes me money cause sir wait to steal all my tear out of my eyes with that letter to Grimoria at the end, like please I can’t it’s so late at night. And of course the infallible Liam O'Brien what a story what a story, so terribly heartbreaking and so terribly on brand for him. His portrayal of all those women in grief were all so beautiful. Cannot wait for the session zero on this!

[rotomblr-kaiya]

✉️ Letter from Kieran

Something in your life/someone you know/something about yourself that changed A LOT over time.

Just... me. I guess.

I went from a bright eyed young boy eager for adventure, to a teen girl who was desperate to prove herself, to a battle obsessed maniac, to...

What the fuck would I even call myself now? A chilled out emo?

[shieldagentnatasharomanoff]

✉️

Stephen,

I've started this letter over and over again, but I'm running out of time. The others are preparing and I'm going with them.

How do you tell your favorite person in the world that you won't come back to them? I don't think there are words big or meaningful enough to describe the weight that this has been baring down on me.

We always knew our time was limited... You ways knew I only suspected.

If I could be selfish, just once and I could ask for something without consequence I'd ask for more time with you. More time for our adventures, more time to spend reading in the Mirror Sanktum all curled up with the Guardian in his nest. Your Sanktum is supposed to be such a gloomy and ominous place, but to me it just feels like home. I want more horrible days at work where a terrifying many eyed bird shows up for his annual dose of affection. I want more chances to tell and show you how much you are loved.

I don't think you believed me when I told you the first time or the second. I honestly don't know if you will believe me now...

I know you view yourself as this horrible, misguided monster creature. I never cared about that and flatly I disagree. Despite all of what you have been through, you kept your humanity intact, you are a guardian of the multiverse, you have a tremendous amount of strength and kindness and you still have a good heart.

And I do love you with all my heart. I've loved you for a long time now. It goes so much deeper then the friendship and familial love we share. I have the distinctive thought that if there were such things as soulmates you would be mine in whatever form they manifest. I'd like to think that somewhere everything had to happen just the way it did so we could meet. And I'm grateful for for all the stolen moments we got to share.

My time's running out...

(salty stains lifted ink off of the paper)

Don't forget that you are loved, not just by me and don't be alone too much. Let Wong and Cherry and Stephen keep you sane.

You might feel like you didn't protect me or you failed me when I don't return and you are reading this instead.

But you have protected me, always looming in my shadow, only a call away. It's empty and lonely inside my own head without the steady flow of magic.

And I miss you. I miss you just plopping up in the middle of the night to talk about a universe you found or leaving me packed lunches.

I miss you, silly bird and I will continue to do so for however long I'll be around.

(The elegant handwriting turnes hasty and messier with every line, like time running out)

Don't be so harsh on yourself, Stephen. It's okay if you're not a hundred percent or to disassociate at times as long as you come back.

I have so much more I want to tell you... If you don't believe anything of this then just take this one thing though: You always said you didn't belong anywhere besides the husk of your broken universe but my life... My world wouldn't be complete without this Stephen Strange. Without you.

I wish you would just open a portal and I could tell you a proper goodbye, get in a last hug, one more stolen moment.

It was a good life. Especially thanks to you.

Goodbye my silly bird.

I'm sorry to cause you even more pain...

Love,

Nat

[meiieiri]

Why is it so hard for you to write Satoru as loyal? Ever since that ask where you said ‘For one, satoru might be compelled give his attention elsewhere', it has ruined my entire month! Its not fun istg.

What if you were in the wife's position? To be in her position, yes she has retreated herself but she can bridge the gap with him again. To also lose your husband, the love of your life because now the other woman who doesn't have the trauma and is carrying the child you wnated to, to have your husband sway to her, its vile! Why not make Satoru a loyal husband who loves his wife only, even amidst struggle? Let blth pick up the pieces together, let them have a jourmey that isn't destroyed by a third person. Don't do that cheating (any kind of it! Like him feeling momentary weakness for the assistant, nope!) thing as a plot point please. Yes its angst but don't be so...its truly so diabolical.

Let Satoru and Wife be together and in love and loayl to each other in every way. Don't be such a sadistic author.

most authors here on have had their fair share of anons unintentionally (im really hoping this is unintentional) acting entitled.

so here's my two cents. if you don't like what you're reading, if it's causing you distress, please drop the fic. usually, authors write for themselves first and if it doesn't cater to your literary needs, and if the fic has ruined your entire month, please just stop reading lfe. the last thing i want is to resurface trauma from some of my readers even though there's a part of me that's saying that it really shouldn't be my responsibility.

still makes me feel bad though and i'm really sorry for being "sadistic" 🫤 and it's not "hard" for me to write satoru as loyal btw, i really could write lfe according to how you want it to be written, but then, if i did, if i sacrificed the angst which is essential to the plot i've already planned out, it wouldn't be lfe right?

anyway, i was hoping to release lfe!01 a few days ago so i could focus on my irl wedding this week, but now, idk, this is starting to get uncomfortable, i might have to take a step back for a bit and focus on releasing some of the oneshots rotting in my drafts.

[meiieiri]

Hi ^^ so excited for your new gojo fic. Chapter 1 already has me hooked, and the sneak peak 🤭🫣

I’m not sure if anyone has asked this before, but after reading the sneak peak, I was wondering why the secretary is so hesitant. Is it because she’s going to carry gojos kid? But not readers egg? 💔💔 because surrogacy is expensiveeee the secretary can make serious BANK

i meeean ur so right nonnie, imagine carrying a literal multi-billionaire's baby, the benefits would be endless 💵💸 😔 (love that you mentioned money bc that's so true! sknddjakaknd) i can't really answer this juuust yet but...

...think of it this way, y/n has always been someone kozue looks up to and holds very close to her heart, the mere thought of ever hurting her in any way is something that has never crossed kozue's mind.

now that she is being asked to become their surrogate to supposedly "save their marriage", she is afraid that this whole thing might backfire, for one, the surrogacy might compell satoru to turn his attention elsewhere—

[meiieiri]

hiii is it okay to ask how many chapters are you planning for the gojo surrogacy fic? i'm preparing myself for the angst but i'm so excited at the same time 😳😳😳

hi! 15 chapters tops + the epilogue ! all i can say is, it's a good kind of angst so don't worry too much. from chapter one, we can already see just how down bad gojo and yn are for each other 🥹

[meiieiri]

Hey, sorry if this is a spoiler but does little fireflies everywhere have infidelity or cheating?

Hmmm 😔 I'll leave this here if you guys wanna speculate further—

[meiieiri]

I hope... Satoru... Won't actually... Fall in love... With Y/N's... Secretary... 👹

you never know nonnie, you never know 🥹

[meiieiri]

Hi! I loved the chapter for your recent gojo fic. I just have a question, have gojo and the reader ever thought about adoption? 5 miscarriages is a lot… where the pregnancies by chance or did they decide to have kids for each pregnancy?

Because again 5 miscarriages is a lot.. and the toll it can take on the mom too… will there be a chapter where they discuss adoption? Or is it like they want biological kids?

hi nonnie! thank you for the kind words :')) all of the five miscarriages are intended pregnancies, the last three being conceived by IVF. there will be a chapter discussing this particular question about adoption though!

[meiieiri]

how would you rate the angst of this new gojo fic? because i’ve read the chapters of waters edge and the way there’s only three and still managed to make me ugly cry is bad. i need some hope of fluff 😞

oh dw i plan to continue water's edge, the reason why i put that on hold is the entire plot was too heavy for me to write (i could 't get through one scene without bursting into tears) and really i felt i lacked the necessary skills to properly execute it then. as for the angst for "little fireflies everywhere", i'd give it an 8/10 🥹

[meiieiri]

Hey, i just read your description to your new Gojos series but i don’t really understand if the reader is the secretery or the wife ? 🤣Could you tell me please

…the wife !

[meiieiri]

Are you going to continue writing that gojo fic (waters edge) 🙁

I might, am just gathering momentum!

[meiieiri]

totally not related to your beautiful writing but are we both lab girlies 🥲🥲 someone who understands my pain?? I saw your little not in one of your toji fics and I got so excited.

hiii! def! i work in the pharmaceutical field 🤍 totally not writing this from the lab while cramming my new gojo series's first chapter lmao

[meiieiri]

In Water's edge, the woman he was dreaming about and theblast line (The day he lost her), is it someone else (Possibly Y/N) or is it Himiko?

i'd honestly be surprised if anyone manages to guess who it is. 😙 guess i'll just have to reopen the gdocs one of these days~

[meiieiri]

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