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[nysrage]

are the ony and connie lovers still in the building?

[puckpocketed]

NO CUP UPON CMD FOREVER AND EVER

SHAKING YUOR FIN VIGOROUSLY. ✨🦈✨

for those missing context here’s puckpocketed Deep Cuts vol. 2!! my friend who i met outside of hockey (in the gamer trenches) used to follow the nhl casually before she met me. over this past summer, i fell into hockey and dragged her back in. ever since i told her about cmd she has had this as her discord status:

she’s not active on hockey tumblr much outside of some lurking/liking but she is a celebrity. to ME!!!! all of our teams were knocked out of playoffs/basement teams who never made it and so this is truly all we have left <3

[sxturn-to-mxrs]

🛡 This is the guardian shield! Send this to those who you would guard with honor!

tyyy (back at you)

im just gonna tag

@the-ultimate-bookworm @aylin-hijabi @someonewhogotanaccount @nqds @loife1m @fish-ofishial123 @reminiscentreader @summersblooms @lovestrucklovelorn +all my other moots

[liverpool-enjoyer]

incorrect mets quote no one asked for

max: someone will die.

jake: of fun!

(entirely based off this image)

[wonfilms]

us being wives fr ^^^^^ 😇🙏

us fr us fr us fr

[lovethisfatcryptid]

I plan to be as big of a slut as my trauma and chronic illnesses will allow me to be this year. Connecting with people is hard but going without sex is harder. It's only been 2 months and I'm already losing my mind and depressed af. I need more friends who wanna breed me.

[copperbadge]

Hi Mr Starbuck! Some friends and I are moving in a few months and we're eyeing various places all over the US. Chicago came up as a relatively affordable big city (compared to LA and NYC) and I have to ask the resident Tumblr Chicagoan his opinion. As a resident who lives and works in the windy city, what's your big pros and cons of residing there (especially things you might not encounter as a tourist)? (also, how accurate is your "guide to chicago" still, since its been a few years!)

Well, I definitely have opinions!

The guide to Chicago is no longer accurate -- too many places have closed or moved, and the pandemic altered a lot (for example the Money Museum still exists but I'm not sure if it has regular hours even now). I should do a new one but like, I really don't get out much anymore so I can't talk about restaurants outside of a VERY local area, and I never could talk much about hotels, which just leaves points of interest mostly already covered by Atlas Obscura. :D At this point it'd just be kind of moot, others are doing it better than I am.

Chicago is inexpensive compared to New York or Los Angeles, but like, that's everywhere in America. Chicago is still a quite pricey city to live in, mainly because the taxes are so high -- 10.25% sales tax, for example, and my property taxes are also pretty steep. People joke about Taxachusetts, but I'm pretty sure Chicago at least has it beat (and 2/3 of the state's population lives in Chicago or the outlying suburbs). Housing is not at a premium in the way it is in NY and LA but depending on where you want to live and how far you want to commute it can still be very expensive. My housing was never less than half of my monthly income until I bought this place, and then ONLY because the job I'm in now came with a $10K/yr raise from my last one.

Chicago does have great culture, great museums, great food, and it's a liberal island in a pretty conservative region. It is however quite segregated, so if you are any race other than white, living here can get a little more complicated than I've portrayed it as a white dude. There is significant crime and particularly gun crime, but it's generally confined to specific regions of the city. That said, even if you discount crime, the Chicago PD are corrupt as fuck and uninterested in being helpful, so if you are from a demographic the cops enjoy harassing, it will not be different here.

I do love the city, warts and all. I like the water, I like the people, I like the midwestern vibe. I'd find it very hard to leave, especially because I have a network of friends here, but also because I just plain like it and I know it really well. There is a very short list of cities I'd consider leaving Chicago for, and most of those would have to have a well-paying job waiting for me. But it did take me time to fall in love with it -- it took a few years before it felt like home.

It's a little difficult to get more specific without knowing more about your situation -- what you do for work, what your budget is like, what your goals are in leaving where you are. Do you prefer to drive most places? (Parking and traffic can both get dicey.) Can you tolerate taking public transit if driving is inconvenient? Is the industry in which you work something that has a lot of openings here? Do you want to live in an urban environment, and if so are you prepared to live in a likely somewhat shitty apartment to do so? If you prefer to live in a house, are you prepared for a long commute? What do you like to do for fun and is there a thriving culture for that here? What is it important to have access to -- museums, concerts, theater, sport? Where do you need to travel to regularly (ie, I go to Austin several times a year) and how do you prefer to travel there?

Anyway, yeah -- like, I love it but I have few illusions about it. If you want to chat further feel free to hit me up by email, happy to answer more specific questions!

[unch4rtedwxters]

– Insane, Black Gryph0n

hey there, traveler!

baguettes-and-biscuits -> unch4rtedwxters

ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪꜱʜ ᴛᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ?

i'm nyota/ny | aroace | nonbinary | ✨minor✨ | july 18 | isfp if you care lol | she/her but i don't mind if you use they/them | i love the autumn | cabin 7 ☀️

ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪꜱʜ ᴛᴏ ꜰɪɴᴅ?

「fandoms | ships | masterlist | moots p.1 | moots p.2 | mr sprained ankle once said...」

ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ꜱᴛᴜꜰꜰ

currently reading: (for school) the odyssey | (on my own time) nothing anymore

currently watching: the owl house, hazbin hotel, helluva boss (all rewatch. i have problems.)

tags: #rising star speaks, #rising star writes, #rising star answers, #hug duck sanctuary, #hug duck sanctuary french branch, #baguette chronicles, #have a thought biscuit, #ny's fun time at school

irl friendos: @iam1withthepeggy (lula <3), @queenpiranhadon, @cinematics06, @your-local-multi-geek, @expvalorant (i am restraining myself from making a costco joke if you know what i mean), @deerskul, and @xxsandwichxx

ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴇʟꜱᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ɪ ʙᴇ ꜰᴏᴜɴᴅ?

wattpad: @9098meoww

art sideblog: @baguette-arts

shitposting and tadc/murder drones (as of now): @frxggie-baguette

demon rp sideblog: @francis-your-canadian-demon

pinterest: baguettesandbiscuits

chaos sideblog: @justsomeppl

cat sideblog: @the-one-and-only-sek

love from copper 9,

– nyota <3

[nysrage]

hey boo’s hey! how y’all feeling about a fic w/ armando from bad boys 3?!

[lavellane]

the particular biphobic post was about playersexuality in videogames. im obviously not going to reblog it. but i do wanna talk abt this actually bc i somewhat agree with the Initial take that playsexuality is annoying and bad and annoying etc. but i think its bad specifically bc its delegitimizing to the whole concept of bisexuality and queerness in general- and then op proceeded to prove my point lol. like you create a character who is, by virtue of being in the story, very much a bisexual, and then you add a quirky little Nothing disclaimer like "dont worry ;) they dont ACTUALLY have to be bi if you dont want them to be :)". its a refelection of how people see us irl — and it lends merit to the idea that you can handwave away a whole identity like you have a free pass to just Pretend You Dont See It because it makes you uncomfortable. i also dont think its fair to gay and lesbian consumers because it literally targets the inate queerness of a character. like, a queer person's very unique and !!!important!! relationship with sex and romance should not be up for renegotiation like it means nothing. if that makes sense. i dont think its fair for any consumer of the media in question to basically have permission to strip the nuance out of a persons sexuality, especially when sometimes those characters are SUPPOSED to have complicated tumutuous relationships with gender and gender expression. idk. its lazy writing. and we really shouldnt be lazy about sexuality and identity in the year of our lorde 2023 maybe. but in saying that, since people are apparently fine with laziness especially when it comes to bi identies, can we please acknowledge that a lot of the time "playersexual" is the best bi people are going to get and just. leave us fucking Be lol.

with peace and love it is 6:42am. WHY am i blocking several-year-mutuals over batshit insane biphobia takes :|

[nozunhinged]

8 BL BOYS I WILL THROW HANDS FOR

Omg omg omg @scarefox my dream has finally come true this is the first time I got tagged in one of these I'm so happyyyyyy thank uuuu 🥰🥰🥰🥰

So I selected my pokeboys extra carefully but unfortunately I haven't watched enough BL's yet to make it to 10, but please have these 8 I would protect with everything I have 🤲

1. Boston - Only Friends

Listen, all the shit they gave him during the show, I went through at least twice. Including the "stop being a slut it will ruin your life"-talk BY MY (THEN) FRIENDS. So I am insanely biased but I will sucker punch everyone until my last breath who dares to harm him in any way. Keep doing you Boston babes, I hope you have the most delicious orgys in NY.

2. Zouey - Playboyy

Another HUGE bias from my side, as I already elaborated here. Watching this sweet, sweet child dump all his pretty braincells into his first love is quite painful at times. But don't worry I'll kick Teena in his huge tiddies if he breaks Zoueys heart and then I'll proceed to put him in a blanket burrito and watch anime with him, promise.

3. Zongyi - Kiseki Dear To Me

If Ai Di couldn't go somehow, I'd be the first one to volunteer to protect him in prison. I'd learn all the prison politics and lift all the weights to throw hands at the scariest inmates just so this baby boy could keep making his lil cakes and dream of his gangster kitty.

4. Peach - Bake Me Please

Yes, the list of people I'd throw hands at for Peach includes both Guy AND Shin. This wonderful human being deserves no less than being pampered 24/7, showered with kisses and affection all year round. And both are not deserving of him, end of story.

5. Kim - Pit Babe

I certainly did not expect him to awaken my protective instincts and I am very aware this man wouldn't need anyone throwing hands for him but I'd gladly step up to help him do his lil investigation thingy and hand winner his loser trophy. I'd also throw hands at everyone who wouldn't let this guy finally race his car in peace.

6. Khem - The Sign

He may not need bodily protection as well, but I will forever believe the cheating allegations are a misunderstanding and if they're not I'll defend that he's dedicated enough to go as far as to make it through the most hellish elite training program just so he could keep groveling at his ex-lovers feet and call him baby.

7. Sky - Love In The Air

He may have Prapai now but that wouldn't stop me to throw hands at anyone who dares to harm him. Fort said is favourite scene was when Sky was so happy he could make it to the first year event and that was when I knew I'd protect Sky with my life too.

8. Sangwoo - Semantic Error

Us Autistics have to stick together and I already loved him in the webtoon. I love how he is 100% unapologetically himself and I will roundhouse kick everyone who dares to try to mock him for it. He's my favourite savage.

✨Bonus ✨

Hyun - The Kings Affection

Not a BL boy even though officially his love is a man, but I wouldn't just throw hands for him—I'd part seas, move mountains, destroy continents and conquer new universes just for him. I cried for approx. 2 hours over his last scene and didn't give a crap about the couples happy end. All hail King Dimples. He deserves everything our cosmos has to offer. He needs to be protected at ALL COSTS. If you watched The King's Affection, you know what I'm talking about. If not, read this.

✨✨✨✨

Thank you thank YOUUUUU my dearest @scarefox for tagging MEEEEE unfortunately I do not have enough moots to know who to tag so everyone who stumbles over this on their TL can feel tagged ❤️❤️

[noxturnalnymph]

Life Update

It feels to be like I've been pretty absent on here and that bums me out. I had to step back a little for my mental health because the negativity in this fandom does affect me. But stepping back also bums me out because this site can be SO fun when I'm interacting with my moots and making new moots and all of us are squealing about new pics of our boyfriend together.

That being said - the MAJOR reason I have been absent in the past 2 weeks is because of travel. And oh boy.... is this a whopper of a story. So, if you're interested in a tale of insanity, read below the cut.

[TL;DR] I'm back (not that I went anywhere)

sorry I couldn't resist TUWOMT reference, I actually went a lot of places and some of them were good and some were terrible but I really am back now. (Also, I posted this at 2am apparently but did not mean to do that then, so I am reposting now)

So first of all, I was in my hometown in upstate NY last week visiting my family because we are planning to move to the West Coast after our lease is up here so we wanted to visit again before we moved across the country. I live in Florida and we drove 2 days - with our cat in tow - (because my anxiety is so bad it makes it impossible for me to step on an airplane). While I was home I took the train with my bff to Manhattan for 3 days and we hung out there, didn't get to meet Pedro Pascal even once, and took the train back to my hometown. My husband and I drove the 2 days back home and got back Sunday night. It was exhausting and I was only home for like 38 hours and then Tuesday at 1pm I began my next trip. Started with an 18 hour bus ride from Orlando to Lafayette, Louisiana to get a train from Lafayette to Los Angeles, CA. I was planning on being there 12 days before getting the train back to Lafayette and then a bus back to Orlando.

So as I've said I have a terrible fear of flying and I am also the owner of a very bad back (and since my husband and I share a car) I didn’t want to do all that driving alone (dangerous/stressful and bad back) and couldn’t fly cuz of my mental illness. So this is by no means meant to be offensive, but I’m apparently too much of a babygirl to be a bus person. I did not know this. I thought I was tough. Nope. 2.5 hours in on the bus ride and I’ve been listening to this man 2 rows in front of me play instagram reels on his phone the whole time even though the driver said 5 times (FIVE TIMES) to wear headphones….. Well the driver gets sick of it, pulls over at a gas station in the middle of nowhere and tells the guy to leave. He won't so the cops are called. The cops show up and he finally gets off the bus after a 30 min delay. I’m like….. WHAT THE FUCK? IS IT ALWAYS LIKE THIS??? I didn't know if this man was gonna get mad and start swinging on the bus driver or the cops..... it was scary.

The first station I was at in Orlando I almost threw up cuz I was so nervous. Before I got on the bus I went to pee and to wash my hands and there wasn’t any fucking soap in the bathroom. I thought that was bad. AND YET SOMEHOW.... every subsequent stop was somehow worse. Literally, I kept saying to myself “this can’t get any worse” ....and it kept getting worse. These are the sketchiest, dirtiest fucking places you can imagine. I was staring at this toothless old white dude behind the counter at one of their convenience stores and thought to myself “this has got to be a movie set cuz this can’t be real.” Kind of waiting for someone to jump out and say "PSYCH this is all a joke. I know the floors here look like they were mopped with literal dirt, and everyone looks angry or drugged out, but this is all fake. It's all a joke meant to make you lose your mind." But that didn't happen. I've just never experienced anything like it. I’ve never seen anything so disgusting in my life. The 2nd to last stop only had doors on 2 of the 7 bathroom stalls. One of the stations had a TV on that just played old reruns of a Jaime Fox show while every child in the building cried and coughed at alternating intervals. Yes, this was 3am, and they made three busses full of people cram into a station with not enough seats and wait around for an hour... This is not a joke. 

I felt so fucking unsafe the whole time but I had to get off the bus at the stops and walk around (cuz they made you) but also cuz I was VIOLENTLY motion sick the whole fucking ride on the bus. Like clutching a barf bag with a pounding head and miserable. Also on the bus almost everyone else had two seats to themselves and I had a seat partner the entire time, but it kept changing. First it was a girl and then a kid and they were cool but then it was cigarette smelling guy and then guy who literally wouldn’t stop accidentally touching me, including putting his elbow in my back multiple times (I have fucking herniated discs so this did NOT feel good). 

And when I tell you that my back hurt, i mean i couldn’t spread out or anything cuz someone was fucking next to me the whole time so my back was on fire. I was in so much pain I cried 3 separate times. So I couldn’t sleep cuz people kept talking and I was in pain and the ride was rough and guy kept touching me. And I just kept telling myself, ok countdown cuz you’re almost there you're almost there. And by now I told myself - this final stop - the bus/train station in Lafayette - is not going to be clean but it’s okay, because you’re going to be off the bus and it’s going to be okay.

WRONG....

When I tell you that they pulled up to a dark parking lot at 4:50am next to a building with gates drawn down over the doors and dropped me off - I was in fucking shock. “Is this building closed?”  i shouted at the bus driver. “yeah,” he says, getting back on the bus.  “Ummmm, where do i go?” I’m fucking starting to panic. “You can go sit on the platform till they open in a few hours.”  and he’s gone. 

I’m alone in the dark with my luggage at the fucking bus station in downtown Lafayette. 

Oh except I’m not alone because there are 3 men milling about, one of them keeps asking me my name, two of them ride bikes past me back and forth. I go to sit on the platform and this alarm goes off and this voice comes over the loudspeaker shouting  “THERE IS NO LOITERING ALLOWED HERE. PLEASE LEAVE IMMEDIATELY.” and repeats non-stop.  One of the guys goes “why is it doing that? Is it gonna call the police?” HOW THE FUCK WOULD I KNOW?? I FUCKING WISH IT WOULD MY DUDE, ARE YOU SERIOUS?

I tell him my name to be nice and he keeps telling me i should come sit with him and this other guy cuz it’s “safer” and I’m like….   IS IT THO?!?!?!?  and he keeps saying “youve never been here? Do you wanna go see downtown? It’s a short walk, i’ll help you roll your suitcase.”   BRO WE’RE NOT GOING COURTING IT’S FUCKING FIVE IN THE MORNING. This man wants to go on a fucking stroll with me and I am just envisioning what my Forensic Files episode is gonna be like and hoping the re-enactment actor they get to play me isn't too ugly.

I’m desperately trying to call a lyft to take me literally anywhere else, and no one is accepting my ride request. FINALLY someone accepts, and after 45 minutes of sitting in the dark, trembling out of fear and cold in only a tshirt with my bags hunched around me, I get my ride. The lyft driver takes me to a Hilton hotel by the airport. I walk in, and I’m mid panic attack and crying and tell the employees there at 6am my story and ask if I can pay for a room so I have somewhere safe to hang out. They refuse to make me pay and offer me the lobby (lots of outlets and large, plush couches) for as long as I need it and tell me to help myself to the hot breakfast and coffee. Fucking Angels.

Does it stop there? No it doesn’t. Cuz I still have to go back to the train station for my train to California, which leaves at 12:30pm. So I spend HOURS in the hotel lobby, chilling and eating and it’s nice and I feel safe. I schedule a lyft to pick me up at 11:15 so I can get back to the train station with an hour before I’m scheduled to depart.

BUT OH WAIT.

10:45am I get a text that my train has been canceled. CANCELED.... Apparently, there are storms affecting the route, so my train will not be running between New Orleans and San Antonio, TX (I’m 2 stops after NO). But they will provide me BUS ACCOMMODATIONS to get me to San Antonio so I can continue my journey there.

Wrong word, my dude. BUS??? I’m fucking triggered. I start bawling like an insane person. The girls who let me stay in the lobby at this point are probably like “oh shit we thought she was normal but she’s crazy.” I call my husband, I call my mom, I call a couple friends. I’m a fucking mess. I just want to go home at this point but I’m still a 12 hour drive away (with no car of course) and OH YEAH I haven’t fucking slept!

So first thing’s first - I ask the hotel for a room and they feel terrible for me (cuz i’m a crying sniveling mess) and give me a discount on a suite and let me check in right away. I call Amtrak and cancel my train, sobbing on the phone with them (and it’s a man so he’s very awkward about it) but they give me a FULL refund. I most likely won’t get refunded at all for the VRBO rental I got for Los Angeles though. I got to the room and booked a rental car for the next day from the airport that I was like right next to, and so the plan was to sleep there overnight and get a lyft to the airport and drive back towards home the next day. 

My husband offered to take off work and drive to meet me at an airport along the watly so I wouldn't have to drive the whole 12 hours with my terrible back.  I ended up getting a Malibu which was such a nice ride and it had a lumbar support in the seat and my back felt FUCKING GREAT. I met up with my husband at our planned location and we drove home. Between the time change, massive rain storms, and construction traffic, we didn't get home till 10:30 but I fucking made it home. (Because of course with all my bad luck I was terrified that I was going to die on the way home.)

BUT IM HOME SAFE IF NOT A LITTLE WORSE FOR WEAR (mentally and physically exhausted). I will make a post later today with my plans for my writing updates. I have a new WIP I want to share and I know some of you are waiting on my current series as well.

TY always for your love and support ✌️💖🫂

[abcwordsurge]

Hello mutual!!

Have you ever thought about NJ/IL/NY? Its been growing on me

Also howve u been :3

hello mutual!

ok wttt moots, please don't get mad at me. but... I don't really care for new jersey. always down for some illiyork ofc, and maybe if you said like. illinois, new york, and california. I do love california. but new jersey? eh...

I've been alright though. going to a family member's graduation tomorrow, so that'll be fun. how bout you

[wonfilms]

*deep sigh* i kinda fell in love with your icon, send help

he is so cute i wanna just eat him up or whatever

[annieqattheperipheral]

NHL PLAYOFFS TIME!! see you in the lb's!!

1. Leafs 2. Avs 3. any Canadian team 4. other blorbos/moots' faves My allegiances will change as rounds progress and teams fall off but will follow this hierarchy.

⚠️Remember to mute lb's you're rooting against⚠️ and tag your posts w lb⚠️ it's a highly emotional time. you've no idea the levels of anger and disappointment you and others are about to reach🫂 bc refs.

wag jackets

ROUND 4: STANLEY CUP FINALS

oilers @ panthers [3-4] ...😭😭😭 that's all i got rn. next year. BELIEVE

ROUND 3: CONF FINALS

EAST

panthers @ rangers [4-2] have you guys tried killing each other you should consider🔪 LMAO PRESIDENTS TROPHY CURSE LIVES ON

WEST

oilers @ stars [4-2] o canada!🇨🇦 WHEEEEEE!!!!!💫

ROUND 2:

EAST

bruins @ panthers [2-4] idk just kill each other🔪 they sorta did??

canes @ rangers [2-4] pls end ny. well, like try ok☺️ im sry sweet gale wind🫂

WEST

avs @ stars [2-4] my babygirls pls destroy my brother's team🫶 this one HURTS😞😭 my brother texted sorry

oilers @ canucks [4-3] i just hope everybody has fun🇨🇦🍁 but think I'll mostly be for edm while my bro roots for his previous home van i was pretty neutral by the end of this series but i suppose i was on the money!

ROUND 1:

EAST

caps @ rangers [0-4] caps you still made it to playoffs with the silliest reg season and you've got that to lord over the rest of the metro. even if it was a sweep. that was a branding choice 💅

bolts @ panthers [1-4] i hope they rip each other apart. demolish thyself Florida Man. turns out panthers are the most Florida of the Men🔪

leafs @ bruins [3-4] 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

isles @ canes [1-4] yea ok good stuff see ya boresville ny💤

WEST

vgk @ stars [3-4] beautiful shaming of last year's champs💅

preds @ canucks [2-4] what a matchup of both Norris & Adams finalists. fuck yea quinnifer what a first season as C😐 (a quinny smile)

avs @ jets [4-1] FUUUCCK YEEAAA!!! but oof sorry it had to be a canadian team & helly & jmo that had to lose🥺

kings @ oilers [1-4] yeeeaaa this was a given🙃

[locke-n-k3y]

As we've gotten the last episode of dungeons and daddies of the year I wanted to take a bit of time to just kind of reflect on my experience with the series and what it's meant to me since I found, this will be an obnoxious long post and will be alot about my past relationship which was in short terms, not good, so please feel free to skip this post, it's more catharsis for me than anything

Up until July this year I'd been in a relationship for seven years, from the ages of 11-18 which is what I am now, over the course of those seven years I had my resolve drained out of me until I had no friends, no social media besides instagram and was steadily pulling away from my family to the point they were like strangers to me. I binded every day and endured constant transphobia and bodyshaming because I sincerely believed we were like soulmates (both trans and both outcasted) and it was meant to be.

This is all of course bad, but one of the most sinister things he did that I wouldn't have expected was he completely disabled ny ability to enjoy things. Prior to our relationship I was a phannie, I shipped Klance, I watched sanders sides religiously, I was a blossoming furry and brony and I liked these things loudly and proudly. And he made fun of and belittled these interests until I stopped participating in each and every one of them, until all my interests were either ones shared with him or ones he deemed acceptable.

And it didn't hit me how hard that followed me out of the relationship until I had to sit down and think about what I was into, and I came up totally blank, everything I liked was either tainted by memories of him or I had stopped engaging with so many years ago I wouldn't even know where to pick it up again.

And then like Mercy descending from the clouds I decided to go back through my podcasts and pick one, just one, and I happened to land on dndads. I'd previously listened to episode one with him but it had been a resounding no on his end so I put it down and never looked back. Until now. I hit play on that first episode and the next two weeks were a complete blur as I binged every ounce of content, after I caught up on the first two seasons at breakneck pace I used my meager funds to sub to the patreon and listened through everything there as well.

It was the first time in seven freaking years I'd been this excited about anything, I was going on walks as an excuse to listen to more, I was obsessively looking for fans on tiktok and posting in the discord. I was stimming more than I had in my whole life and talking again, in a lot of ways it felt like looking at myself again, I cut my hair and dyed it blonde (totally not because of Henry) I started buying clothes that I actually liked because I felt more confident in myself.

And then after unsuccessfully hunting for a community I said fuck it and redownloaded tumblr, somehow remembered the login to this account and I posted some fanart of Scary Marlowe, honestly not expecting anything to come of it, and then it got some reblogs, people liked it and I kept posting and I made moots and I talked to people and just-

I cannot thank the daddies themselves enough for bringing me into this and I cannot thank literally every single person who has ever liked or reblogged one of my posts, especially my moots, enough. You guys seriously made what was shaping up to be the worst year of my life the best year ever, and I'm not like better, it's only been 5 months and I'm very much still shaking off his effects but things are okay, O-A-K if you will, and I'm more confident that like I will be okay if that makes sense? So just like yeah, thank you, seriously, I love this fandom and everyone in it so much and this whole not-a-bdsm-podcast thing really helped me in a very very dark time <3