#ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ғɪʟᴍ

[miswaken]

a fictional poet once said 😵‍💫 (becca genné-bacon @ kings ave)

[sanesaysthepsycho-blog]

Sorry for the absence

{ School had me busy for a while but I’ve got nothing to do this weekend so I’m gonna do replies tonight, LIKE THIS FOR A STARTER and I’ll type one up for you later! I promise to be on here more now that I have people who actually want to interact with me :3 I feel so welcome in this little community. }

[yaxg-blog]

Gives Yang yellow cupcakes

     Tʜᴇ ᴄᴜᴘᴄᴀᴋᴇs ᴍᴀᴋᴇs ɪᴛs ᴡᴀʏ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴇɴᴛᴇʀ ᴏғ ʜᴇʀ ᴘᴀʟᴍ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ sʜᴇ sᴛᴀʀᴇs ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴄᴜʀɪᴏᴜsʟʏ. Iᴛ ᴛᴏᴏᴋ ᴀ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛ ғᴏʀ ᴀ ᴅᴇғɪɴɪᴛɪᴠᴇ ᴇxᴘʀᴇssɪᴏɴ ᴛᴏ sᴇᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴏɴ ʜᴇʀ ғᴀᴄᴇ. Tʜᴇ sᴍᴏᴏᴛʜ sᴜʀғᴀᴄᴇ ᴏғ ʜᴇʀ ғᴀᴄᴇ ʙᴇᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴠᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀᴅᴅɪᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏғ ʟᴀᴜɢʜ ʟɪɴᴇs, sᴇᴛᴛʟɪɴɢ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏʀɴᴇʀ ᴏғ ʜᴇʀ ʟɪᴘs. Pᴇᴀʀʟʏ ᴡʜɪᴛᴇs ɢʟɪɴᴛ ʙᴇɴᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ғᴏʟᴅs, ʜᴇʀ sᴍɪʟᴇ ɪs ɢᴇɴᴜɪɴᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴜᴍʙʟᴇ. Yᴀɴɢ ɪs ɴᴏᴛ ᴏɴᴇ ғᴏʀ sᴡᴇᴇᴛs ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪs ɪs ᴀɴ ᴏғғᴇʀɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ sʜᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴀᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛ. Wʜʏ? Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴡᴇɴᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜɪs ᴄʀᴀғᴛ. Iᴛ ɪs ɪᴍᴘᴇʀғᴇᴄᴛ, ᴍᴜᴄʜ ʟɪᴋᴇ sʜᴇ ɪs, ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ᴍᴀᴋᴇs ɪᴛ ᴘᴇʀғᴇᴄᴛ ғᴏʀ ʜᴇʀ. Tʜᴇʀᴇ’s ʙᴜᴍᴘs ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀss ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ғʀᴏsᴛɪɴɢ ʜᴀs ɴᴏᴛ ʜɪᴅ sᴏ ᴡᴇʟʟ. Yᴇʟʟᴏᴡ ᴀɴᴅ sᴡᴇᴇᴛ ғʀᴏsᴛ ᴍᴏᴜɴᴛ ᴀᴛᴏᴘ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴜᴘᴄᴀᴋᴇ ɪɴ ᴀ ʙʟᴏʙ, ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ɪs ɴᴏ ᴅᴇғɪɴɪᴛᴇ sʜᴀᴘᴇ -ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ’s ɴᴏ ᴘᴇᴀᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴇɴᴛᴇʀ, ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴀ ғʟᴀᴄᴄɪᴅ sᴜʀғᴀᴄᴇ. Hᴇʀ sᴍɪʟᴇ sᴛʀᴇᴛᴄʜᴇs ᴇᴠᴇɴ ғᴜʀᴛʜᴇʀ ᴅᴜᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀɪɴᴋʟᴇ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡʀᴀᴘᴘɪɴɢ ᴘᴀᴘᴇʀ. Iᴛ’s ᴀ ғᴇsᴛɪᴠᴇ sᴏᴜɴᴅ ғᴏʀ ᴀ ғᴇsᴛɪᴠᴇ ʟᴀʏᴇʀ. Sᴏ ᴍᴀʏ ᴅᴏᴛs, ᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ᴏᴡɴ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ, ᴛᴏᴀsᴛ���ᴅ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ғᴏʀ ɪᴛ ᴛᴏ ʀɪᴘ ᴏғғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴜᴘᴄᴀᴋᴇ’s ɪɴɪᴛɪᴀʟ ғɪʟᴍ. Tʜᴇ ᴍᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴏғ ɪᴛs ᴛᴀsᴛʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴏɪsᴛ ɪɴɴᴀʀᴅs ᴘᴜsʜᴇᴅ ʜᴇʀ ɪɴ ғᴀᴠᴏʀ ᴏғ sᴀᴍᴘʟɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛ. Hᴇʀ ᴛᴏɴɢᴜᴇ ᴘᴇᴇᴋs ᴏᴜᴛ ᴀɴᴅ sᴡɪᴘᴇs ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ғʀᴏsᴛɪɴɢ, ʙʀɪɴɢɪɴɢ ɪᴛ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ɪᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ sᴏᴏɴ ʟɪǫᴜɪғʏ. Tʜᴇ sᴘʀᴇᴀᴅ ʟᴀʏs ᴏɴ ʜᴇʀ ᴛᴏɴɢᴜᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴀsᴛᴇ ᴏғ ᴛᴀʀᴛ ɪs ʀᴇᴄᴏɢɴɪᴢᴇᴅ. Iᴛ ɪs ʟᴇᴍᴏɴ. Nᴏᴛ ᴀ ᴛᴀsᴛᴇ ғᴏʀ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ, ʙᴜᴛ, ɪᴛ ɪs ᴀ ᴛᴀsᴛᴇ ᴍᴇᴀɴᴛ ғᴏʀ ʜᴇʀ.       Oᴜᴛsɪᴅᴇ ᴛʜᴇʏ’ʀᴇ ʏᴇʟʟᴏᴡ ᴀɴᴅ ɪɴsɪᴅᴇ ᴛʜᴇʏ’ʀᴇ ʙɪᴛᴛᴇʀ -ʜᴏᴡ ғᴜɴɴʏ.

     “‘S ᴠᴇʀʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ.” Pᴀʀᴛ ᴏғ ʜᴇʀ ᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.sʜᴇ ʙʀɪɴɢs ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴜᴘᴄᴀᴋᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀ ᴛᴇᴇᴛʜ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀɴ ᴏᴘᴇɴ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜ ɪs ʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ᴛᴏ ɢʀᴇᴇᴛ ɪᴛ, ʜᴇʀ ᴛᴇᴇᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇɴ sᴡɪᴘᴇ ᴅᴏᴡɴᴡᴀʀᴅs, ᴛᴀᴋɪɴɢ ᴀ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜғᴜʟ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀɪʀʏ ᴅᴏᴜɢʜ ɪɴsɪᴅᴇ. Sʜᴇ ᴄʜᴇᴡs ɪᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ɢᴜʟᴘs ɪᴛ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴜɴᴛɪʟ sʜᴇ ғɪɴɪsʜᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ɪɴ ɪᴛs ᴇɴᴛɪʀᴇᴛʏ.  “Rᴜʙᴇs ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ sᴏ ᴛᴏᴛᴀʟʟʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇsᴇ!” Tᴀᴋᴇs ᴀ ʙɪᴛᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴀɴᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴏɴᴇ.     Iғ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴀɴʏ ʟᴇғᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪs.

[miswaken]

would also just like to say that I obviously love alice as a character, and I very much do not think she is an inherently bad / manipulative / abusive person — which is unfortunately a take I see pop up in the tags from time to time. yes, lying to alan to get him to bright falls for therapy was wrong of her and she knows that. but I think it’s important to remember that the first game takes place after years of alan being a depressed, self-destructive, and occasionally violent (not with alice of course but still) addict. that doesn’t make what she did right, but she’s human and flawed and was very likely at the end of her rope. the bright falls ballad section of herald of darkness flat out says that alice was drowning under the weight of alan’s worst traits and if he’d noticed and addressed it himself maybe this never would’ve happened. the song also says the trip was the last shot at saving their marriage. things were bad! and I think it’s deeply unfair to pin all of it on her like she was some evil uncaring wife who just wanted to institutionalize him and be done with it. and honestly I think it’s also a bad read to assume that she didn’t try to get him help in less direct ways before that, which he probably refused?

similarly, I have to assume she tried other things before the “make him think I’m dead so he hits rock bottom and finally accepts the worst of himself” plan. there’s six years between when the hauntings start and when alice jumps into the lake. you really think she didn’t exhaust all other ideas before that? based on barry’s emails she jumps sometime in the spring of 2023 and the game takes place in september. so again that’s a couple months of attempts before we see the game loop, and considering dark place time isn’t real that’s gods know how many loops of trial and error before we get to these ones that finally work. I don’t think there’s any reason to believe that the fakeout suicide was her first and only method of guiding alan.

I could write an essay about the “voyeuristic and manipulative” (ty sam lake for using the words I’ve been using lol) nature of alice’s role in the story and how it reflects the very nature of her artistic medium itself. and I do think there’s an element of her being desensitized to the Horrors a bit and she’s definitely tunnel visioned trying to get this right. but again, this is last ditch desperation at play. she’s navigating these horrible life situations and literal nightmare scenarios as best she can while trying to drag alan out of his hole at the same time. and while her handling of it all might not be perfect she is a haunted woman with problems of her own who is simply trying her best!!

[miswaken]

lake surface reflection selfie in 35mm feels like the only sort of image of myself I should post here

[miswaken]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Alan Wake (Video Games) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Alice Wake/Thomas Zane, Alan Wake/Alice Wake Characters: Alice Wake, Thomas Zane, Alan Wake (mentioned), Barbara Jagger (mentioned) Additional Tags: Introspection, First Kiss, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Character Death, except alan just keeps coming back so does it really count, Comfort Sex, Implied/Referenced Sex, sometimes you just have to bang your husband's quirky auteur doppelgänger to cope, i too have a million questions about zane, alice gets him though Summary:

When I’m awake I’m barely alive When I sleep I have two hearts Your heart and mine Your two hearts and mine

[miswaken]

NG+ spoiler under the cut

glad everyone is having fun w the zane and darling nonsense (i am too) but alice wake the woman that you are ugh. keep going girl he'll remember eventually!!!!

when alan picked up the photo in the elevator and saw her i had to pause the game to cry for a couple seconds lol. whenever they actually physically reunite i will be in Shambles

[miswaken]

mun vs muse!

tagged by: I stole it

tagging: steal it

[miswaken]

can we talk about how zane is the only other person aside from alan who actually refers to alice by her name and not just as some variation of “your wife”

[miswaken]

my one and only remedyverse fear is that they’ll never actually let alan and alice exist in the same room on the same plane of material existence ever again

[miswaken]

keychain from @sanamustdie arrived and she looks perfect on my camera bag 🥰

[miswaken]

I’ve decided that Alice is moth coded

[miswaken]

many thoughts head full and I promise I will not overly spam the dash with all of it but one teensy alice thought

they really let alan and rose twirl around and laugh and smile and had rose dip him for a kiss before they let alice so much as stand in the same room as him huh. if they aren't actually on screen together / have a beautiful reunion in the lake house i will hunt that funky finn for sport

[miswaken]

echoing (haha) what oli already said -- I have been considering oli's alan to be my main/affiliated/exclusive/whatever version of the soggiest man alive and now I'm making it official. if you see me talking about alan/alice things I'm referring to @paramnesias specifically <3

[miswaken]

happy winter solstice to my fellow northern hemisphere residents!! it’s the darkest night of the year which means from here it’s only going to get brighter 🕯️

[miswaken]

I can't BELIEVE I hadn't considered the possibilities of paranormal investigator / photographer alice until oli and I started spitballing a whole insane au