#˗ˏˋ ♰ prophecies

[crimsonprayer]

talking to other psychotic ppl is genuinely a breath of fresh air,,

i talked to someone for a bit about my creature hallucinations, and they told me they experience similar ones,, they said they leave out little treats for them, and i talked abt how sometimes i let them pick things out when im shopping,, it was so nice to be treated with respect even while talking abt smth that would get me judged anywhere else

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and even if we are delusional, why is that such a bad thing?? can i, a psychotic creature, not be comfortable with my own delusions?? why must i feel ashamed of them?? people who say stuff like that are not only invalidating non-psychotic physical alterhumans, but excluding and ostracizing psychotic ones even more!! why must we be excluded from one of the very few communities that should accept us??

"im a mental therian, obviously! other types don't REALLY exist :) theyre just delusional!!!" ok i want you to back the fuck away from me

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why is it that i cant say anything about myself to people without immediately regretting everything and being paranoid that theyre judging me

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talking is so hard wtf how do i know if im making sense??? my head is all jumbled with the words so when they come out its all ???? like what do they mean?? how do i get them to mean what i mean???

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unfriendly reminder that phobias are actually considered anxiety disorders and not just a fun word for fears

[crimsonprayer]

1. i use the label otherkin, and i fall under multiple categories within that label (mostly fictionkin, creaturekin, and songkin). im also technically an endel but prefer to label those experiences as otherkin instead

2. i have many kintypes, but my most important ones are: eddie munson - stranger things, sal fisher - sally face, catkin, and white ghost cicada-kin,, i am also a false god and a prophet, but those arent kintypes

3. i do experience shifts, and i am permashifted to sal and eddie, but other than them my most common shifts are mello - death note, calne ca, and ako udagawa - bandori

4. everything i do is impacted by my alterhumanity,, there really isnt a part of my life thats not impacted by it

5. all of my current friends were met through the alterhuman/otherkin community, and its where i socialize most

6. being able to freely talk about my kintypes and beliefs

7. somewhat, but i dont really regard my physical form as being “human” so its not necessarily the worst thing

8. utilize your community, they will help you find a place of belonging and answer any questions you may have

9. i currently have a pair of calico cat ears, but id really like to have a tail as well

10. i believe in reincarnation and past lives, as well as soul links through the multiverse theory,, i am also physically nonhuman in some regards,, im sure some of my alterhumanity comes from trauma and/or mental illness as well

If you are a alterhuman, reblog and answer these questions!

(don't be afraid to write a lot, do what you want ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯)

1/ Which category of alterhumanity do you belong to?

2/ What/who is/are your type(s)? (if you have any)

3/ Do you experience shifts? If so, can you tell us your most common shifts and your strangest cameo shift (if you've ever had a cameo shift)?

4/ How do you experience your alterhumanity in everyday life?

5/ What do you think of the community?

6/ What are the things that make you most comfortable and euphoric in your alterhumanity?

7/ Are you experiencing species dysphoria?

8/ What advice would you like to say to a young alterhuman who has just awakened?

9/ Do you have/want to have gears?

10/ Do you know/have any theories about the origin of your alterhumanity? If so, tell us! (all beliefs are legitimate)

11/ Tag someone/a creature to answer these questions!ㅤᵕ̈

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me: "yeah i cant start talking abt this show or else youll think im insane" them: "oh dw i love talking to passionate people" me: shoving the hallucination of a character that im dating and talk to frequently behind myself "haha yeah passionate! right!!"

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aaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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i hate trying to make new friends or join new spaces, it feels like they all hate me, like theyre all judging me

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trying to find servers that are 1. friendly towards psychotics, 2. friendly towards irls, and 3. dont have me on their ndl already is like literal actual hell

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im like my own personal horror movie

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nicotine and caffeine is such a good combo, theyre making out sloppy style in my body rn

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HOW AM I NOT FOLLOWING YOU WTF

Shoutout to my BIGGEST fans and only people who get me @moefuku and @deiapotheosis

@crimsonprayer you too but youre not following me why arent you following me you must folow me cripple ramp

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EDDIE ♰ it/ego/sin ♰ 21

transmasc, gay, aroace-spec, ficto-spec

schizoaffective bipolar, au-dhd, ocd traits, chronically ill

GREETINGS!! BE NOT AFRAID!! you may refer to me as eddie~ i am very eccentric and peculiar, and often refer to myself as a chuunibyou or hellspawn!! i will be posting quite a bit about my schizophrenia (delusions and paranoia mostly), as well as my nonhumanity and "fictional" self,,

im a huge fan of horror media, j-metal, 80s metal, early '00s emo, alternative subcultures and music, j-fashion subcultures, cosplay, and collecting!!

do not private message me, for i will curse your bloodline- however, asks are more than appreciated!!!

i am a demon and many other creatures, and am very happily taken by my boyfriend!! some may consider him fictional, but i do not :3,, we are both from the stranger things universe/franchise,, please do not attempt to tell me otherwise, i will just block you lmao

GENERAL CW!! i will be talking quite a bit about my delusions, specifically those relating to religion, physical nonhumanity, erotomania (technically??), and general identity based delusions,, if any of these bother you or you are prone to similar delusions i would advise blocking me!!

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dyeing my hair dark again for my birthday soon… its been 8-ish years since ive had long dark hair, and im kinda nervous but also excited for the change

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i will never be human enough