#| they don't who knows really but the sh*t i felt. the sh*t i f*cking felt opening up that document to scroll through the list

[hallasimss]

not something i usually talk about here but i had a little breakthrough in the family genealogy research today and istg i felt something over my shoulder. like an ancestor or something i'm not even kidding

[smokeybrandreviews]

Multiverse of Madness

I am an unapologetic Adventure Time apologist. i think it was one of the greatest shows ever created and deserves all the love it gets. AT saved Cartoon Network back in the day and spawned so many creators who would, in turn, leave their mark on the industry. Without AT, there is no Steven Universe or that other one with the fighting i guess? The influence of Adventure Time gave credence to the potential popularity of shows like nuShe-Ra and nuVoltron. Those characters are iconic and full of so much depth. Finn Mertens, Jake the Dog, Bonnibel Bubblegum; All of them have become stalwarts of cartoon history. Like, Marceline Abadeer is one of my all-time favorite characters in fiction. When Distant Lands aired, i was emotionally devastated. Obviously, Obsidian was mys sh*t but Together Again brought me to tears. That's how much this show meant to me, so when Adventure Time: Fionna and Cake was announced, i was all over it. I was mad curious how this would play out. Would it be just a romp through a gender-swapped Ooo? Would the target audience still be kids or would the show be a more mature take since the original kids were now wayward adults? So many questions. Well, Fionna and Cake is over and i have thoughts.

First thing first, This show is not about Fionna and Cake. It is on a superficial level but they're more a plot device who participates in the narrative. Fionna and Cake is about Simon Petrikov coming to terms with the loss of Betty Groff and how his relationship with her, was toxic as f*ck. Like, holy sh*t, was it bad! The co-dependency was insane! I mean, you got glimpses of that throughout Betty's arc in the original AT (Betty literally leaping through a Hambo powered time rift, her problematic Magic Woman phase, and the eventual wish that turned her into f*cking GolBetty, all for her "love" of Simon) but this chick was as obsessed with Simon as Simon was with her. When she transcended and become a deity of pure chaos, Simon was left in a depression spiral that, ultimately, shook the core of the goddamn multiverse. And i say that with no hyperbole. F*cking Ice King, put the entire multiverse of Adventure Time in jeopardy, because he missed his boo. What follows is, one of the most well thought out and executed romps through a multiverse narrative I've seen outside of f*cking comic books. I don't want to spoil anything but the first nine episodes of this show are brilliant, rivaling the very best Adventure Time has to offer. The tenth? Not so much.

Fionna and Cake definitely botches the landing, especially coming off such incredibly strong episodes as the three right before it. Again, no details, but, holy sh*t, were those three episodes great. Seriously, watch this show, it's f*cking fantastic. The Simon stuff is definitely the heart of this narrative but what about the show's namesake? The Fionna and Cake bits are good but i never really felt as invested in their story as i was in Simon's trials. It's not like their stuff was bad, per sey, it just didn't feel as... dire? I don't know, i felt more for the characters around them than i did the characters themselves? Don't misunderstand me, i enjoyed their arc. Fionna and Cake struggling with their own identities and coming to terms with who they are was cool and all but, ultimately, it felt more sub than main plot, which is weird because it's their show. Fionna and Cake are basically the inciting action which informs the entire plot but i never really feel like that's a thing. Plus, there is this very important aspect to their character which, kind of never really plays into the overarching conflict, with the exception of a particularly gruesome scene, and i feel like that was a missed opportunity. As an overall production and viewing experience, Fionna and Cake is f*cking exquisite.

The stuff i said about Fionna and Cake is true, to an extent. True for me, i guess. People may get more out of their arc than i did, which is fine, that's a point subjectivity. What isn't subjective is how well this show is produced. Seriously, the art style is familiar, yet, more detailed. The characters are well performed, each true to their own personality beats. But it was the worlds we visited that truly hammered home the butterfly effect, the effect Simon had, on all of those worlds. I loved every second of that experience and, while they didn't fully stick the landing, there were great aspects of that tenth episode. Fionna and Cake turned out to be ten episodes of solid, adult, Adventure Time narrative that felt organic. It didn't feel like a cashgrab or desperate attempt at Max to pull in viewers. It felt like, after the absolutely brilliant reception to Distant Lands, that HBO understood there was a market for a show like that and they just let the staff create. Adventure Time: Fionna and Cake isn't perfect, it's definitely got it's flaws, but of the content I've seen this year, it's easily some of the best. Whether you're a fan of the old world of Ooo, or just interested in what "adult" animation has to offer, this show is one of the best examples of the art form. It was a strong watch and i definitely recommend a viewing.

[ferzin]

TW: TRANSPHOBIA EXPIERIENCE (god why me), also some swearing

note: on art my trans-coloured sona ripping apart terf's (fart's) flagterf — trans exclusionary radical feminist fart — feminism appropriating ridiculous transphobe

guten abend, meine freunde. i want to spill out my hatred and also share disgusting situation that happened to me. this august i've published my meet the artist on other platform (it hadn't english lettering, so it wasn't here). i've pridly anounced myself as trans and nb. and i will not reject my identity for someone's air-built painful perception that there's more than two genders. "why such thoughts?" you may ask. well, a few days ago my partner find out what i got publishly disgraced 'cause of my transgender. how sweet. i'm convinced once again that some individuals' brain convolutions stopped working somewhere at the beginning of puberty, which is why the narrowness of their thinking causes exclusively condescending pity. yeah, it's hard to be slow-witted in modern society when where's so much useful and correct information, and you're still thinking in such medieval terms. i despise terf/fart or other transphobes and openly express pure rage to this kind of "people". i hate any radical movement no matter if it regards quirphobia or other important aspects of my/other's lives. and i won't tolerate if such individuals will come close to me or my close people. there's no meaning if the hatred is shared. so all that pile of lousy sh*t: terf, homophobes, any other transphobes, sexist, racist and etc. — go to hell. go away from me and my relatives. 'cause i will tear apart anyone, who will insult my loved ones. and they will do the same for me. one thing that drove me feral — commentaries were fully misgendering me. believe me, you don't know how much i'm pissed off. there's no words to descride it. but i think other trans-persons will understand me... sadly. misgendering person on purpose is just hideous. it's banal rudeness and direct insult. if someone's gender for whatever reason huffs you (which is, honestly, weird and kinda selfish, especially if there's no logical reason), then simply don't contact with that person. no talking behind back either. don't have courage to say calmly you're complaint in face — then shut the f*ck up. btw, that post with hate on me was published anonimously :) baby pissed their pants, yikes, how saaad. uhh... if you knew how much i'm tired of this... i don't ask pity for me, i don't need it, but... to turn heat down i want to talk a little 'bout myself. right now i'm firmly confident in my identity. i'm almost a fully formed person, and i have enough background to tell that with determination. i will not bow to some randoms' convenience. i will not "accept" my birth gender. my gender, my identity — is only my own choice. no one don't have even a single right to tell me who to be, no one couldn't know wnat's in my head. i went through a lot and will never again submit to someone’s desires just to be comfortable. i suffered from dysphoria from an early age, I felt out of place. i was burning from tantrums and tortured myself both mentally and physically from hatred of my appearance, personality, everything. i almost f*cking died because i felt wrong. and now when i'm finally feeling better some dumbs dare to say "she's just having an episode"? hell, no. ✨ i am transgender, i am nonbinary, i am who I really am. ✨ all my scars show my way. too long i was choking my true identity, so now i will not cut myself for some stranger's comfort. my life belongs only to me. and i'm the grandmaster here. i am insanly happy thanks to my loved ones. they except me absolutely, they don't demand to fit the norms of conservatism. they value the real me. i love you. 💕

and i want to say for other people, suffering from pointless hatred and humiliation. not only trans, not even only queers! it's devastating how many people can't just be free... i hope someday the society will open their eyes. but for now... dont't give up and be yourself!

[smokeybrand]

Multiverse of Madness

I am an unapologetic Adventure Time apologist. i think it was one of the greatest shows ever created and deserves all the love it gets. AT saved Cartoon Network back in the day and spawned so many creators who would, in turn, leave their mark on the industry. Without AT, there is no Steven Universe or that other one with the fighting i guess? The influence of Adventure Time gave credence to the potential popularity of shows like nuShe-Ra and nuVoltron. Those characters are iconic and full of so much depth. Finn Mertens, Jake the Dog, Bonnibel Bubblegum; All of them have become stalwarts of cartoon history. Like, Marceline Abadeer is one of my all-time favorite characters in fiction. When Distant Lands aired, i was emotionally devastated. Obviously, Obsidian was mys sh*t but Together Again brought me to tears. That's how much this show meant to me, so when Adventure Time: Fionna and Cake was announced, i was all over it. I was mad curious how this would play out. Would it be just a romp through a gender-swapped Ooo? Would the target audience still be kids or would the show be a more mature take since the original kids were now wayward adults? So many questions. Well, Fionna and Cake is over and i have thoughts.

First thing first, This show is not about Fionna and Cake. It is on a superficial level but they're more a plot device who participates in the narrative. Fionna and Cake is about Simon Petrikov coming to terms with the loss of Betty Groff and how his relationship with her, was toxic as f*ck. Like, holy sh*t, was it bad! The co-dependency was insane! I mean, you got glimpses of that throughout Betty's arc in the original AT (Betty literally leaping through a Hambo powered time rift, her problematic Magic Woman phase, and the eventual wish that turned her into f*cking GolBetty, all for her "love" of Simon) but this chick was as obsessed with Simon as Simon was with her. When she transcended and become a deity of pure chaos, Simon was left in a depression spiral that, ultimately, shook the core of the goddamn multiverse. And i say that with no hyperbole. F*cking Ice King, put the entire multiverse of Adventure Time in jeopardy, because he missed his boo. What follows is, one of the most well thought out and executed romps through a multiverse narrative I've seen outside of f*cking comic books. I don't want to spoil anything but the first nine episodes of this show are brilliant, rivaling the very best Adventure Time has to offer. The tenth? Not so much.

Fionna and Cake definitely botches the landing, especially coming off such incredibly strong episodes as the three right before it. Again, no details, but, holy sh*t, were those three episodes great. Seriously, watch this show, it's f*cking fantastic. The Simon stuff is definitely the heart of this narrative but what about the show's namesake? The Fionna and Cake bits are good but i never really felt as invested in their story as i was in Simon's trials. It's not like their stuff was bad, per sey, it just didn't feel as... dire? I don't know, i felt more for the characters around them than i did the characters themselves? Don't misunderstand me, i enjoyed their arc. Fionna and Cake struggling with their own identities and coming to terms with who they are was cool and all but, ultimately, it felt more sub than main plot, which is weird because it's their show. Fionna and Cake are basically the inciting action which informs the entire plot but i never really feel like that's a thing. Plus, there is this very important aspect to their character which, kind of never really plays into the overarching conflict, with the exception of a particularly gruesome scene, and i feel like that was a missed opportunity. As an overall production and viewing experience, Fionna and Cake is f*cking exquisite.

The stuff i said about Fionna and Cake is true, to an extent. True for me, i guess. People may get more out of their arc than i did, which is fine, that's a point subjectivity. What isn't subjective is how well this show is produced. Seriously, the art style is familiar, yet, more detailed. The characters are well performed, each true to their own personality beats. But it was the worlds we visited that truly hammered home the butterfly effect, the effect Simon had, on all of those worlds. I loved every second of that experience and, while they didn't fully stick the landing, there were great aspects of that tenth episode. Fionna and Cake turned out to be ten episodes of solid, adult, Adventure Time narrative that felt organic. It didn't feel like a cashgrab or desperate attempt at Max to pull in viewers. It felt like, after the absolutely brilliant reception to Distant Lands, that HBO understood there was a market for a show like that and they just let the staff create. Adventure Time: Fionna and Cake isn't perfect, it's definitely got it's flaws, but of the content I've seen this year, it's easily some of the best. Whether you're a fan of the old world of Ooo, or just interested in what "adult" animation has to offer, this show is one of the best examples of the art form. It was a strong watch and i definitely recommend a viewing.

[long-suffering-little-spoon]

I just saw Heathers for the first time!!

This is basically my review / first impressions I guess???? This was my first ever experience with Heathers, besides knowing a) traffic light girls, b) slushies and c) edgy guy has a bomb, I went in completely blind. There will be spoilers ahead btw.

I loved it!! Unfortunately there weren't any programs left so idk any of the cast but I do know that Eleanor Walsh played Veronica and she was absolutely amazing. She was really funny and she was an incredible singer. All of the performers were obviously great, I just felt like as the lead she deserved a special shout-out. Also the guy playing JD (idk who he was, sorry man) did such a good job at being pathetic and creepy. Even before he was evil, I could not STAND him he was an incel 100%.

I don't really have a favourite song or character to talk about yet so I'm just gonna list my thoughts and some stand-out moments.

Whenever people screamed at the beginning of a song I knew sh*t was about to get good

In the intermission my cousin described JD as an earwig and I've never laughed harder. Bullying JD is my new favourite hobby

I feel so bad for Heather McNamara but she is kind of a really bad person

When Heather Duke did her costume change I actually screamed

Kurt and Ram are objectively horrible people but also so f*cking funny

When Heather Chandler said the "well f*ck me gently with a chainsaw" the audience screamed

I was high up at the back so I had little plastic opera glasses. I put down the glasses for Dead Girl Walking because I wanted to be as far away from that whole thing as possible

The choreography for Big Fun looked so fun to dance to

"Too late he got in" gave me actual chills

I cried laughing twice - at Kurt and Ram getting beat up in slow motion and Dead Gay Son. The choreography of the kids on the benches and the reveal of the dads were hilarious

Ms Fleming did the splits while singing and it was really cool

You could've heard a pin drop when Martha stared at the railing

I thought Veronica was actually dead :(

Seventeen at the end made me emotional

Only in Ohio

Uh yeah, it was great! The music slapped, not just the songs but the score too. The choreography and dialogue are both really funny, I thoroughly enjoyed it!!

[theefairygodmother]

8 things I've chosen to embrace throughout my 20's.

We've all 'been through some sh*t' that we probably shouldn't have and maybe even felt IT would've taken us TF OUT the "game" - Here are 8 things I've personally embraced with time, experiences and GOD.

Intuition.

Follow that shit. Intuition can feel similar to Fear. Your intuition is ultimately pointing you in in a direction that is subconsciously comfortable -even though you're not too certain. Fear on the other hand ultimately dictates a decision that allows us to 'feel relieved' as if you've just survived a threat- but we didn't . Be very careful as this is often confused. Your intuition allows growth whilst fear does not. Intuition and fear can cohabitate peacefully with self awareness.

Silence.

'Speech is silver but silence is golden', We've all heard that before (or maybe just that last part), but what does it really mean? Sometimes things are just better left unsaid. Silence in my experience allows things to reveal their true nature. Now I can decipher if it's for me or not based on self awareness. Sitting in silence and saying nothing is the better option ;especially if you happen to be emotional. Silence for me meant no drama, arguing, hypocrisy, justifying, no one-upping, no outside distractions. TAKES F*CKING DISCIPLINE. "Still waters run deep while empty vessels make the most sound". Silence is more valuable than any response.

Authenticity.

Be your f**king self. Don't water down who you are to make anyone around you comfortable. Do not dim your light bro. Your calling is different from theirs. Everyone does not always deserve access to you just because they've been a familiar face. You know who you are and the value you embody. There will be people who are intimidated by your presence and will try to box you in where they want you to fit because of their ego & insecurities. NOT YOURS TO DEAL WITH. Move along, it's more freeing to be who you know yourself to be with time and experience. Everyone can't come along for the ride.

Going SOLO?

Just like Beyonce did Destiny's child, Justin did N'Sync & Normani did Fifth Harmony - GO SOLO. Time waits for no one & you probably shouldn't either. Take that trip, go to the movies, go on that date with yourself by yourself. There's this liberating sense of independence as you work through your fears, meet new people & gain real world experience. There's so much you learn about yourself while being all self sufficient and stuff. You won't ever get these years back. Do it tf up!

Single Life!

Embrace it if you've experienced/ing it. The pool has piss and Hennessy in it anyway. LOL J.K.. Kinda. There's personal growth and self discovery - in the works for you ; you bomb ass fine, kindmillennial bae . On your own terms & aware AF of yourself !

Making THE choice.

Stop waiting to be chosen or for them to choose. Their decision will always be based on what works best for them first. 'CHOOSE YOU. Put you first. Make the decision that is comfortable to who you are. It's not selfish at all -It's you finally choosing to consciously consider yourself when it feels like you've been the latter for the longest.

Privacy.

No one needs to know your every move at all times. A private life is indeed a happier life. In your own privacy, you make choices without fear or outside opinions. You create your personal boundaries here and authentically develop your identity - Who YOU are. That simple.

Kindness.

Personally, it feels good to be able to help others - even if its something small. Kind behavior helps to keep life within perspective and it feels like the more I do for others - the more I do for myself. .<don't let this right here go over your head). Your floor may be someone else's ceiling, & you can't break the ceiling if you don't acknowledge the floor. Your kindness can inspire someone else's kindness. It's free-costs $0!

[windsweptinred]

So I usually hate saying anything personal on social media period, but I feel this is a really important message so, Fandom Story Time....

This may sound completely ridiculous but I literally had to go cold turkey on a ship for a few months. Dreamling as it turns out. Not because I disliked it at all! But well, I don't know if you've ever used a ship or fandom as an emotional crutch during a hard time? Well Hob, Dream and the Dreamling fandom got me through some sh*t. Said sh*t is personal, I hope you understand. But yeah fandom created Hob may be a wee Mary Sue, but his 'always something to live for' can do attitude, uff that got me through!

But sometimes when you start to recover, what you've clung so hard to becomes guilty by association. I realised Dreamling was reminding me of that bad time... And I didn't want it to. Because I loved it, but my silly human brain associated it with sadness. It was making me bitter and jaded, and the fandom didn't deserve that unleashed on them. So, I unfollowed the tag, I unfollowed some prolific Dreamling blogs (Dreamling is a tricky one to avoid while still trying to stay in the Sandman fandom I have discovered 😅), and save for the those who I was especially close with, I even had to unfollow some Dreamling mutuals. I felt god awful for doing it. But I'm, maybe not wise enough, but old enough to know mental health comes first! I think I did an almost complete Dreamling shut out for 2 - 3 months, but it worked! I'm dipping my toe back in Dreamling now and rediscovering it without those bad feelings accompaning it. But you know what? I'm so glad I did what I did. Because I actually went out and found a love for other Sandman Characters, have a whole host of new ships under my belt. And some AMAZING new mutuals who exist respectfully outside the Dreamling part of the fandom but f*cking love the Sandman so much! And it's brilliant!

Please always remember that your mental health comes first. At the end of the day fandom is escapism. It should bring joy, and happiness. And if some part of it doesn't, leave it behind! I know it always feels cruel using the block and unfollow. Or leaving that chat/group etc. But if you need to do it, do it!

On a personal note, Dreamling fandom, you were a lifeline! Non Dreamling Sandman fandom... You were a godsend. I know there's little spates of bickering here and there but over all The Sandman Fandom is bleedin marvellous! So thanks guys. ❤️❤️❤️

Another gentle reminder, it's okay to leave situations that make you uncomfortable, and I'm not just talking in real life. Maybe that discord server has people you don't like in it, or maybe that group chat has too many triggering conversations. It's okay to take a break, mute chats, block, and even leave places that make you uneasy.

Remember that you curate your online experience. You choose what websites to visit, what accounts to make, who to interact with or not. You do whats best for you to feel safe, and should you EVER feel the opposite, then get the hell outta there. Your mental health matters more than any discord, group chat, role play, etc...

[wearepurplejackets]

Kazutora understands Takemichi's feelings pretty well because...

Take a look at chapter 197, Kazutora was the only one who was honest with Takemichi. (This is a long post and spoilers and theories and how are you coping? You are doing right?)

They tried to look for Mikey, they get hurt. They stopped trying. I get it, pretty normal behaviour. Mikey is so lost in his own promise and he hates himself so much and he thinks he is the cause everything get destroyed. And he lost all of his f*cking family. (Life is a b*tch, Kisaki indeed.) He is not reachable anymore in his own darkness.

So:

Draken and Chifuyu and all the rest just keep lying to Takemichi. Telling him they were happy like that in this future... like... like if they didn't want in realise to keep being part of the Toman or Mikey's friend.

If they didn't know it was their fault too for letting Mikey just go by himself with a real bad mental state and get fooled by him. Do you really think Draken was happy in Bonten future??? Without Mikey, without Emma... Without his family... And Chifuyu? Saving Mikey was Baji's promise to them before he died. He... failed... to him too.

That's not okay. Nothing is okay.

They don't have any other friends but the Toman. Toman was all they had. Their team. Their friends. Their family. Their reason to continue.

Do you think they are okay knowing their stupid and small blond motherf*cker is ruining his life forever just for them like... nothing happened here...

"He made us hate him, Takemitchy, so is okay." Pretty normal response, yeah.

Without a real reason, they lied just because they are good friends, and know the truth about the time travel sh*t and want Takemichi to stay safe and just f*cking marry the girl of his dreams since he was 14 years old. And of course. They didn't know what to do. Or what to try anymore.

BUT.

But Kazutora does.

He doesn't give a f*ck about loyalty or friendship at all. He wasn't there, he doesn't know anything so he is the only one taking this situation neutrally.

He doesn't care about this "keep Takemichi in the shadows so he doesn't hurt himself too." This is not about respecting Mikey's decision. This is not about let him be or give up for the (fake) happiness of others.

He doesn't want or need to stop trying, he owns Mikey and Baji for being alive. For forgiveness of his acts. That's why. This is the person Takemichi needs in that exact moment. Because what he is telling him, is the TRUTH. And the truth hurts, but sometimes, you need to get hurt by it to feel real.

He came back 10 years after all this crazy Bonten thing happened. And just wants the same as Takemichi.

And you know why? Because, as Takemichi does, he knows Mikey's true intentions too. And you can see that perfectly in the Booklets special episodes. When all the characters were little and he got hurt by other gang and these two came to the rescue without a think.

He doesn't just admires Mikey, he is not just an underling, he knows why Sano does this.

Mikey and Baji were the same.

The phrase:

Mikey hasn't changed at all means Kazutora remembers this. Cause this is how Mikey sees the world. How he carries everything in his back. All the problems, all the people. How he protects everyone and forget himself under that fake smile.

Both him and Takemichi knows this part of Mikey and can't be fooled by him.

Now, this is why saving Tora was so important in the beggining.

Mikey hasn't changed, means "Mikey still carries all the pain inside him so you can be happy. And he does that with every friend he wants to protect. With all the gang. Mikey is full of pain and he is going to smile to you, so you won't see him suffering ever again."

And Baji knew that, and Emma, and Draken knew that too. And that's why "Please, take care of Mikey" means "Mikey doesn't know how to carry his own pain. And once he lost you, since he was carrying all your life with him, once you are not there anymore he is gonna felt lost." Until the only thing he is gonna feel... is empty. He has had pent-up emotions since forever...

So,

Kazutora is doing the same as Baji, and the Mikey he knows, it was his turn to do the same as these two idiots did for him.

They saved him.

Because you get what you give.

Baji is dead but his words are more alive than never. And that resonates in both of them.

Is not Takemichi just wanted to ruin his life for Mikey's well being. Is not they wanted to risk their life for nothing now. Mikey was their savior when they were in their lowest point... and he has risked everything for them. They just can't forget.

"A gang where we can all risk our lives for each other. That’s the kind of gang I want" That's what Baji said.

(Chapter 198 just reiterates what I said when the gang opened the time capsule and Mikey was not there...)

Now is time. (Takemichi is forming Baji's ideal gang.)

Now the tables turns.

[tsuy4n]

An Mc who swears in different languages when hungry.

Lots of swearing lol.

"Hehe~ It's finally lunch time."

Mc happily said while holding a tray full of food at the cafeteria and walking towards the table which is occupied by the demon brothers.

And of course, some random demon bumps into you because they were playing around, resulting for you to fall down and the food to scatter on the floor.

"..."

"Oh sh*t. Hey, human. Are you okay?"

The demon ask then letting out a chuckle, along with his friends.

"It's your fault for walking around slowly like a turtle."

Taking a deep breathe, you stand up and brush your hand through your hair with a dark look.

"Ha..Just so you know..."

You spoke out lowly with a growl.

"I won't go easy on you Malaka." (Greek swear word: A**hole)

The demons felt small after you spoke such in a dangerous and low manner at them with a look of resentment, while also wondering what you just said at your last statement.

"Why the f*ck would you play around inside a cafeteria? Is this kindergarten?"

The demons starts to shake and feel more smaller at the bloodlust oozing out of them.

"You're all mother f*cking thousands of old and yet you still act like some shitty little brats."

The brothers notice the commotion as the the cafeteria went a little quiet than earlier. Staring at each other they all had the same thoughts inside their minds.

Mc.

"I waited patiently just to get my food and ni jäveler go play around and bump into me? And even blame me?" (Swedish: you b*stards)

"W-We were j-"

"Shut your disgusting trashy foetidus ad os." (Latin: trashy, smelly mouth.)

The demon quickly shuts up and even covers their mouth, confused at what they just said.

"You are demons but you sure don't act like one. So for that.."

Mc kneels down in front them and smiles coldly.

"I will gladly show you how a real demon is like today."

"Mc!"

Mammon shouts from the crowd along with his brothers.

"Ah, great time Mammon!"

You said, changing your tone into a sweet one which was more scarier than earlier.

"This sh*t heads."

You point at them with a bright smile.

"Will you please erase their existence today?"

Beelzebub scoops you up into his arms, carrying you like a sack of potatoes.

"Hey! Put me down! Those poops still haven't paid for my food yet!"

Everyone stares at the shouting Mc who was being carried by the avatar of gluttony.

"I'll be back to kick your asses, sik kafalilar! Especially you! Sh*t colored haired demon arse!!"

Leviathan has recorded everything while laughing, along with Asmo. Satan was looking proud at them while following suit.

"Mc's really something when they're hungry.. It's funny."

Belphegor comments while following them as well.

"Yeah, even though there's some words I don't understand."

Asmo laughs out while Lucifer stays behind to apologize for the commotion you caused while glaring menacingly at the 3 demons who bumped into you, especially the brown haired.

"I think I heard the others questioning about what Mc just said. Malaka is swear word in Greek, and sik..kafalilar is "you d*ck..heads" in Turkish.."

Satan lets out an amused chuckle while the others were amazed by your unique swearing words.

"Back at the human realm Mc used to travel around different places 'cuz of their dad's job."

Mammon informs, looking proud of the information he gave.

"And how do you know that?"

Satan questions in a deadpan manner.

"'Cuz I'm their first."

The white haired confidently replied while rubbing his finger under his nose.

"That did not make any sense at all, stupid Mammon."

Belphegor deadpans while Asmodeus chuckles.

"You must've gone through Lucifer's office to get Mc's information, isn't that right?"

Mammon flinches and starts to avoid eye contact.

"Can't wait for Lucifer to find out, lol."

Leviathan adds with a laugh.

"H-Hey!"

They all laughed at Mammon's reaction as they enter Diavolo's office, seeing the Demon Lord, his butler, the two angels and human sorcerer, and Beel.

"Are you feeling better now, Mc?"

Solomon ask while chuckling and staring at you, who's eating delicious foods as Beel tries his best to hold back as he doesn't want to anger you.

"Yep! Thanks for the food, Lord Diavolo and Barbatos!"

Diavolo smiles brightly, along with Barbatos who nodded his head as a reply.

"I got some cupcakes here Mc!"

Luke announces with a smile.

"Eat slowly or you'll choke, Mc."

Simeon warns softly with a chuckle.

"It's like we have a second Beel, but scarier."

Levi sighs out while shaking his head.

"I agree with you."

Satan spoke while nodding his head along with the others.

-

"Who the f*ck ate my pudding?! Ya all best bugger off my belongings!"

You shout around the house of Lamentation with a growling stomach as you stomp through the hallways.

"Ssi-bal!" (F*ck in korean.)

"They're swearing in a different language now. Go get some food."

Lucifer orders Beelzebub, who quickly took action.

"I swear! When I catch that, that, that Hijo de puta!!" (Spanish: Son of a b*tch.)

Leviathan laughs quietly while recording Mc, who looks like a small child getting angry at someone for stealing their candy, cute but very scary.

"Porca miseria!" (Italian: Dammit)

At the moment, Mc looks like a raging dragon who's breathing out fire.

"Oh, hey Mc- What's wrong..?"

Belphegor ask while yawning as you huff.

"Where the f*ck is my mother f*cking pudding?! Did you ate it?!"

Belphegor stood there stunned, not understanding what the human just said because they spoke in an foreign language.

"Huh? What..?"

"Nasan ang p*tangina kong pudding!" (Filipino: where is my mother f*cking pudding)

Satan arrives at the scene, after hearing all the ruckus.

"I think...that's a Filipino language???"

He states, quite unsure.

"Mc, you need to calm down."

Lucifer spoke with a sigh as Asmodeus skips towards the crowd with a smile.

"Hey, guys—"

"S i t!"

The brothers obeys your order, wincing in pain at the sudden action.

"Argh- why am I included too?!"

Leviathan exclaims, a cold sweat running down his forehead.

"W-What...my buttttt!"

Asmo whines out

"Quién diablos robaria mi comida???"

"They're speaking in a complete language now."

Belphegor deadpans while watching you go back and forth.

"What happened for Mc to look so stressed right now? Did anyone stole something? I swear if this is all Mammon's doing—"

Asmo growls and rubs his butt.

"What did they say anyways?"

Leviathan questions beside Satan.

"Who on earth would even steal my food, is what they're saying in Spanish right now."

"Oh, then this is Beel's fault!"

Asmo exclaims as Lucifer lets out a frustrated sigh.

"And what's taking him so long? Mc's getting worse here."

The black haired sighs out again.

"And where's Mammon?"

Beelzebub soon arrives and as he did, he shoves a bread in your mouth.

"Eat this first, and calm yourself, then we can go find the culprit."

He simply said with a smile which you obeyed.

"Better?"

Swallowing the bread, you flash a bright smile at Beel, patting his shoulder as you can't reach his head.

"Hey, Hey! Mammon's back!"

The avatar of Greed shouts out while carrying a box with desserts.

"Mc! This is for you."

He said as he smiles brightly while handing you the small white box.

"They're from madam scream's, so ya better be grateful!"

Without even thinking, you jumped onto Mammon, giving him a hug with a bright smile which the brothers didn't like.

"So, uh, about that pudding..."

You let go of Mammon, quickly getting the hint as you flash another smile and taking the desserts away.

"Oh, so you're the one responsible for that. Well, I forgive you since you replaced it with high quality ones."

As you continue to smile, you point your thumb behind.

"But I don't know about your brothers."

"MAAAAMOOOONNNN.."

Lucifer growls out, menace written all over his face.

"Yikes!"

Mammon shrieks out as his brothers glares at him, making the white haired to quickly flee away and the brothers to chase after him.

While the other brothers chase after the second born, Belphegor stayed behind and just shook it off.

"Let's go to the attic, Beel, Mc."

He said with a smile on his face, which Beel and you replied with a nod and a smile, ignoring the ruckus behind you three.

"Let's go~! that bread wasn't enough to satisfy my hunger."

"You know Mc. I think you're actually the scariest when angry."

Belphegor said as the three of you starts to head to he attic.

"I agree with that. Your probably scarier than Lucifer."

You hum after Beel's statement.

"I'm sorry for always causing trouble..I just can't hold back my anger whenever I'm famished."

Beel and Belpie laughs together.

"It's fine. It's actually amusing to see you swear in different languages."

-Belphegor

"Yeah, and I can totally relate to you whenever you get angry out of hunger."

-Beelzebub

"COME BACK HERE YOU SCUMBAG!"

-Leviathan

"IF I CATCH I SWEAR I'LL DESTROY YOU! BECAUSE OF YOU WE HAD TO EXPERIENCE SUCH A THING FROM MC!!"

-Asmo

"THERE'S NO POINT IN HIDING, MAMMON."

-Satan

"MAAAMMOONNN!!"

-Lucifer

"SOMEONE SAVE ME!! MCCCC!!"

-Mammon

"Ahh, this pudding is so good."

-Mc

"SAVE ME!! PLEASEEEE!!!"

[sarahali199x]

The Weirdos and Normals I Loved Chapter 16-18

16./42 Kelly and The USB Stick Warning: Sexual Text, Stalking I was about 16 and in 4th grade, and as I've said over and over, I felt lonely. My last girlfriend was in 12 year old elementary. In addition, I wanted to experience love and lose my virginity. I cursed my school for autists that only had boys. Guys who weren't exactly looking for girlfriends, strangely enough. There was also S. a counsellor from my school, she always helped me and always motivated me. She had a beautiful smile and broad hips, she was also flat chested, but that's what I liked about her. I just know one day I said to her "I'm in love with you." she said 'Oh, Billy, jeez!' (Billy is my old name.) She was shocked and of course nothing had happened between us.

So instead of loving a love I watched hentai, weird hentai. Nothing wrong with that, they were drawings and drawings don't hurt anyone. Besides that, I did something terrible. Of the few girls whom were in my school, and of the pretty teachers, I secretly took pictures. I took pictures of women and girls without permission with my Ipod. I was sick, I wanted to preserve their beauty, to keep them with me.

Meanwhile I had fallen in love with a girl I had met through facebook, Kelly was her name. She was a friend of Y., Y. who was in my class. I think I confessed my love to her online. We agreed to meet in Roeslare, I went there by train. We drank together, we cuddled in the park. We loved each other, we went to the toilet together to cuddle but the toilet lady saw this and chased us away. We went to the station to go back home. And from her… I got my first french kiss. We chatted a lot via skype. She went to visit me at home. We were in bed together, we didn't have sex but we did experiment. They were sexual acts. I stuck my penis between her breasts. Then she masturbated me, I almost came, and for some reason she let go. Because I almost came, I continued, and I came a second later. So on the one hand I had lost my virginity and on the other hand I hadn't, it depends how you looked at it. Since the end of 201X I know that this doesn't matter, but back then I thought it was important. Suddenly, someone knocked on the door, and I said, out of habit, "Yes?". F*cking fool I was then! My mother opened the door and saw us lying there and quickly closed the door. I apologized to Kelly and explained that I was doing it out of habit. For her birthday, I went to visit her home. She loved wolves so I had bought a book about wolves bought for her. We went to her room, I wanted to finger her but she had her period so she said we could not have sex. She went to the bathroom, and I wanted to see her pee, but she didn't want me to see it.

In any case, even though I finally had a girlfriend, I still secretly took pictures of girls. I saved them on my computer and also on a USB stick as a backup. I was afraid of losing the beauty of the girls in my class and in this sickly way I kept their beauty with me. Anyway, Y. had downloaded the anime Elfen lied and promised to put it on my USB stick, I don't remember if the whole series would fit on it , but a few episodes was good too. Y. told me this at a time when we had to take the bus so I had to decide quickly, I told him he could put the episodes in my USB drive as long as he didn't look on my USB folders.

This seems normal, maybe there were beach photos of me in my swimming trunks? You can say that I made a wrong decision by giving my USB stick, but in hindsight I'm glad it happened.

The next day, sh!t hit the fan. Everyone called me a pervert, and S. wanted to see me. Y. saw me and said that what he had found on my USB stick was really, utterly disgusting. Y. immediately called my school and gave my USB stick to a supervisor. After that I had to visit supervisor S. I had to show her the pictures and my weird hentai. She was very disappointed in me and I was crying. They explained to me that this was completely unacceptable and that I had to delete the photos and hentai. I did this as well. I was also no longer allowed to take my iPod Touch with me. I did that, until my old mp3 player broke, then I took my Ipod Touch back after two years, but only to listen to music. There was one snobbish boy who said "You can't take it anymore with you!".

My parents took me to the psychologist as any responsible parent would. You don't want your child to become a rapist or murderer, do you? I confessed it all to the psychologist and explained everything. He told me I had made a big mistake, but learned from it. He asked me if 'I felt like a slave to my penis'. and I said no. He said I didn't have a sex addiction. He also said that I was not a psychopath because I was not focused on pain. I didn't want to hurt others. I was full of guilt. One day Y. was taking pictures of me on the bus and he said "You brought this on yourself." I came home crying.

Meanwhile, I was still in a relationship with Kelly. She knew what had happened through Y. and I tried to deny it, but she knew well enough what I had done wrong and didn't send anything for a while. Finally she sent that she had broken up, I said in a moronic way "That's smart, you didn't send anything for a while." Even though it was my fault, I was still mad at Y.

I've been hiding my weird sexual side ever since. No more unwanted photos, I still looked at weird hentai, there's nothing wrong with drawings and tentacles, but I kept this side of me a secret until ….201X (see later at the chapters about Myrtile).

In the end I'm glad it got out. It was like a cold shower, I was going in the wrong direction and I was shaken awake. Nevertheless, the stench of what had happened would haunt me for the rest of my school career. I was very sorry, I cried a lot and I remember my counsellor saying 'Hey, you didn't commit murder'. In addition, because I was shunned by most students for a while, I had become emotionally stronger. I had a problem, and this became the problem of others. But if I stopped giving a shit about what others thought it was just the problem of others. Even though I deleted the photos, the beauty of the women are still in my head, in my memories. I remember when one of the girls I had a crush on got really mean. She said bad things about a friend of mine for no reason.

She has also become ugly. But in my memory, I see her when she was still beautiful, when I was still in love with her.

17./42 Beppy Warning: Sexual text, suicide, slut shaming A new girl had arrived at school; Beppy. I was in 5th grade (+-17yo) at the time and thought she was a teacher at first. She was long, and had big, well, big breasts. Her clothes also seemed mature, the first time I saw her she was wearing a black vest and black pants. She had a relationship with Herman for a while. He was extremely autistic, but because of that his strength was that he knew a lot. He was like a walking encyclopedia. He knew a lot about extinct creatures. Also dinosaurs? I wonder. He knew by heart which country had which capitals and learned several languages. He was a good guy. That's why I was surprised that he was in a relationship with Beppy who apparently got into a lot of trouble yet was hugely popular. Many boys loved her. She gave the boys lots of hugs and the boys sometimes touched her behind. I thought that was cool of her, she was a free-spirited girl who didn't care what others thought. The narrow-minded teachers spoke of "inappropriate behaviour" and "that this was not normal for a girl her age". There is already so little love in the world and then they start acting so old-fashioned…. My classmates were not much better either, they were jealous and called her "a slut". The boys from the school were virgins who wanted to lose their virginity, but if a girl says or does something she is immediately "a whore", such a BS logic. Beppy and Herman did have one thing in common, they both liked to learn languages, namely Arabic. This fact will be important later in this story. One day Beppy and Herman broke up.

Later, something happened. Beppy and Jay got on well. At one point she and Jay went to the toilet, Jay fingered Beppy. Meanwhile, Miss K. had seen that they had gone to the toilet. Instead of letting two teens gain experience in a consensual way, she took a fcking coin and opened the door like the inquisitive Karen she was. But yes, we have to take into account what she thought, maybe she wanted to check that everything was indeed happening consensually. She swung the door and caught Beppy and Jay right in the act. Beppy and Jay each had to go to the supervisors separately. Beppy understood that what she was doing was wrong according to the school. Jay, on the other hand, got angry and started shouting that Beppy had "framed him" and that Beppy was "a dirty b!tch". That's why my school decided to expel Jay from school…. forever. I thought that was an exaggerated punishment, simply because he was experimenting a bit. I mean our school was in a small village, in the middle of nowhere, and everyone lived quite far away from our school, so it was difficult to meet after school. In addition, where can you find a private space as a minor? You still live with your parents so it's a lot of work, not only to gather your courage and talk to a girl, but you still have to convince their parents or your own parents to let that person come to visit. Anyway, it was over, between Beppy and Herman and I had the feeling that I had to act quickly, or she would run off with someone else. In addition, she waved at me and even blew kisses towards me. In the meantime I had turned 17. As soon as I could I found her on facebook, and, like a moron, I said "I'm in love with you." She said she was in love with me as well. I asked, "Are we in a relationship now?" and she said 'Yes'. I asked how old she was, and her answer exploded in my face like a bomb. 'THIRTEEN YEARS'. SHT! She didn't look that young at all! I got to know her better. She had a pale skin, but identified as a Muslim, much to her parents' dismay. Her father worked for the police. She said she had bought headscarves but her parents hid them. Because her father couldn't find a babysitter, she had to go to her father's work where she saw a cloth with blood. She had a younger sister about eight years old. She said that she was on skype with her sister and often encountered men who masturbated in front of the camera, she had to laugh about it. I had never experienced that before, so I was shocked that she was only 13 AND that her 8 year old sister saw those things, 8 YEARS! I wanted to keep our relationship a secret at first since our age difference. But the first day of our relationship she came to me and my classmates winking and pushing her elbows against me, making it clear to everyone that we were in a relationship. sigh. Our relationship was nice though. We could only see each other during the lunch break, because she was in BSO and I was in ASO, and only then was there a shared square for both groups. Kind of stupid to keep people separated like that, but it was what it was. We hugged long. I gave her kisses and licked her neck. When we hugged she rocked her crotch against mine, that was…. nice actually. She learned to work in the gardens which made her smell like sweat and made her neck taste salty. I wanted to French kiss her, but she kept her mouth shut. She said she wasn't ready yet. So I apologized.

I was a little surprised though. Everyone called her a "whore and slut" but she was a virgin, didn't French kiss and was only 13! She chatted a lot of Arabic with other men online. On her profile they asked how I was, and she just replied. That was rather peculiar, she told strangers everything about our relationship. In addition, my class was angry that I was dating a 13-year-old girl. They always said "Ooh, how is your jail-bait?" I pretended I didn't know what this meant, but when you're on the internet you hear a lot, and I knew it was a term for attractive underage girls. As if they lured grown men into jail. At one point, Beppy was angry with me. I wondered what was going on and she told me that Joris had said all kinds of things about me, so much so that she didn't even want to repeat it. I knew that Joris often gossiped and lied, so I said it probably wasn't true. And like that, our relationship was healed.

There was one night when she suddenly sent something. She said "I'm going to kill myself" or rather "I'm going to KMS" as she called it. I was concerned and tried to call her, I sent numerous messages. I called the school and sent an email. But got no answer. I got a message back from her. She was still alive, she had gone out and said she couldn't kill herself because she didn't find any rope. The next day at school, she was mad at me for telling the teachers. I had to keep it a secret that she had suicidal thoughts. I had to go to the supervisors and they told me "sometimes people say things that you should not believe". Sounded like bad advice when it comes to, well, suicide. All this time my parents knew nothing, nothing at all. The counsellor knew about our relationship and apparently didn't mind, our relationship was consensual and not sexual. Our relationship got a little better, but there was a problem, I had a lot, a lot of schoolwork. Beppy kept, and kept texting and with my homework I couldn't always answer. I also didn't have a smartphone, did that even exist then? So our relationship suffered as a result.

One day she made a proposal, she was going to "break up" but "not really break up." I didn't understand what she meant and I had a bad feeling about it, so I said "let's break up completely". I was sad. My class was rude to Beppy, but not to me, as if I couldn't defend myself. I don't thing she deserved all the hate and rudeness she got from my classmates. Okay, I never said anything, but Beppy didn't deserve hate. Beppy had a typical laugh, which was so loud you could hear them from a long distance, something many hated about her, but when I heard that laugh I got a lump in my throat and tears came to my eyes, I missed her. My class talked about how she cuddled with other boys and "grinded her crotch against them" as she did with me. It seemed like a shard went through my heart. They also said that she met a 21-year-old guy through the internet, he picked her up from the boarding school so they could have a drink together. 13 is indeed quite young to go out for a drink alone; plus 21 is quite… old to have a drink with a 13 year old. Yikes! She hadn't told anyone whom she was going with and where she was going, and the counsellors at the boarding school, who were in their 20s themselves, thought we were all a bunch of disabled people with the minds of 6-year-olds. So they immediately called the police, the police did a whole search and brought Beppy back, and the boy was suddenly suspected of kidnapping. I still remember, in the refectory, the dining room, when Beppy looked at me, she looked at me in a way I felt the world spinning around me. How she did that I did not know, but women, what a power they have! Eventually, Beppy was back together with Herman. With all this stuff it sounds like those relationships I had with Kelly and Beppy lasted a year, but no, both relationships lasted one month each. It's high school and adolescence. It's teen drama, a lot of teen drama.

18./42 J. Unrequited Love, Part 2 Warning: Sexual Text Life went on. A beautiful boy had arrived at school, he looked like a girl, he had long red hair, thick lips, and big cheeks. He was a little plump, but definitely not fat. I was in love with him, but never told him that. Maybe this was another 'gay phase', he looked very feminine and I accepted my feelings for him.

I had fallen in love with a girl named Jolonde. I wanted to talk to her, but every time I went to her she went away. As the moronic autist that I was, I didn't realize at all she didn't want anything to do with me. I didn't give up. It was valentine and I had drawn a valentine heart for her, it was a heart with a lot of doodles on it, and I gave it to her on valentine. The next day she came to me, she had an answer for me. We walked for a while to where it was a bit quieter, near a tree. Her answer was 'no' and she gave my heart back. Of course I accepted it. Anyway, I was angry at home, like the fool I was then. I tore the heart into pieces and flushed it down the toilet.

Then I fell in love with Liesje. We often met, but when I confessed my emotions she said 'I never know what to say in moments like this' and neither did I. So nothing happened. I do remember when she was with another boy. That boy suddenly said to her, "I've forgotten why I'm in love with you." 'Damn it' I thought, 'I can think of a thousand reasons why I'm in love with her!' "Oh, now I remember!" said the boy suddenly.

In the meantime J. had contacted me again. We went to see the movie Brave together, I remember it well, because I was nervous during the movie. It was 201X, the last month of 5th grade and I was about 18. I thought, "Well J. is older now, and maybe the hormones have kicked in now and we can finally be in a relationship."

We were waiting for the movie to start, a corny love song was playing, when it was over I tried to kiss her but she pushed her head away, I tried again and she nodded no. I stopped and was anxious, had I scared her? Once at home we texted, she asked 'are you mad at me?' and I said, "No, I just thought you were mad at me." I was glad we weren't arguing, we chatted for a bit and then she said 'I'm going to stop sending now to save my cell phone.' This was the last thing she said to me.

I was always in love with someone, maybe this was the sign that I was Polyamorous, or rather Ethically Non-monogamous. But I will come back to this later. I used to be a lonely loser, but I got tired of breaking my heart over and over again, so I thought I'd stop looking for love for a while.

Meanwhile, Q., a good friend of mine, fell in love with J. He was quite a nerdy boy, he wore glasses and had quite a weird way of talking. He had no idea that I was in love with J., but he sought advice and help from me. He called her "The Creature" so people wouldn't notice we were talking about her, wow, totally not creepy at all. He wanted me to go with him to her and talk to her and stuff, which was hard because J. wanted to keep a distance with that I was in love with her. Later Q. came up to me and said: "My counsellor went to me and said I had to stop obsessing over J!" I was completely confused, I tried to help my friend to find a girlfriend, but instead I was helping him Stalk someone! Q. said: "They want me to stop, but how can I stop thinking about someone? How do I stop being in love with someone? I'm not a robot whose emotions you can just remove!" I immediately told the counsellors, and they said they would talk quietly with Q. about it.

Beppy, J. and Jolonde will be back! But first it's time for the next chapter.

[translytherins]

Unaccepted Permission Slip {Part 1}

Peter's P.O.V

[A/n: You can use the picture at the bottom as refrence also the picture isn't mine]

"Mr. Parker i will not accept this permission slip"

"Why not?!?!"

"Because your permission slip is signed by Tony Stark-Rogers and we both know that your internship is fake so just give it up and go home"

I was fuming "Fine!!!" I shouted and stormed out of the classroom. If your wondering what happened. Let me explain.

-Flashback-

I accidentally fell asleep in science class because well... I'm not dumb. I already know this stuff. Having Tony Stark-Rogers as a dad and as a mentor before that while also having Bruce Banner teach you has it's perks. I was woken up from sleep by Ned who was trying to shake me awake which definitely worked. Obviously. I lifted my head from my table only to see the teacher glaring at me. I don't know why but the teacher hates me with every bone in her body.

"Now that Mr. Parker is awake" she said glaring at me before she continued.

"We will be going on a field trip next week on Friday. The location will be a surprise but until then everyone must take one permission slip for your parents to sign.

Class dismissed"

Everyone packed their stuff and got up from the seat while mumbling excitedly about the trip. I couldn't care less about the trip but..whatever. I took one permission slip while receiving a (not so) deathly glare from the teacher and walked out of the classroom.

-End Of Flashback-

When i was a few blocks away from my school, i saw Happy waiting for me next to a limo. I went up to him and gave him an apology for the slight delay. He accepted and we both got in the limo with me at the back while Happy sat at the drivers seat and started heading home with me not talking much because i was still mad. Happy kept looking at me frome the rear view mirror but i payed no attention to that and kept looking out the window.

-Timeskip-

I got home and saw that none of my family members were at home probably on a mission. I walked into the living room and saw my (h/c) boyfriend reading on the couch. I smiled, walked over to him (sneakily) and backed hugged him making him drop his book while mumbling something under his breath in surprise. I started giggling at his cute face that he made.

(M/N) 's P.O.V

I was reading a book while waiting for the others to get back because even though I'm the newest member, they said it was "too dangerous" for someone as young as me (although I kicked all of their butts in one go)I was so deep invested with my book that i didn't even realise that someone was sneaking up behind me. When i did realise it, is when i felt someone back hugged me.

"Holy f*cking sh*t" i mumbled under my breath and dropped my book by accident. I heard someone giggling from behind me. I turned around and saw Peter giggling at me. I let out a playful sigh and glared at the giggling boy while picking up my book.

I continued reading my book which is a sign that I'm (slightly) pissed by his actions. He stopped giggling and walked around the couch so he was standing in front of me but i didn't look at him. He took my book, marked the page i was reading and placed it on the table. I was about to protest but he straddled me and kissed me. I melted instantly and kissed back. It got heated after a few minutes and we started making out with Peter on my lap. We we're so distracted that we didn't even realise that the others were back already just staring at us like the creeps they are. We pulled away when we heard someone coughing, trying to get our attention. We turned around and saw the Avengers standing there, some with there arms crossed (Steve, Tony, Loki, Vision, Bruce) while the others we're snickering in the background (Nat, Barton, Pietro, Wanda, Bucky, Sam). Peter was a blushing mess. When he turned to look at me and he saw the mischievous smirk on my face. I gently squeezed his butt and he gave a little squeak in return. He glared at me but my smirk didn't falter one bit. Revenge tastes sweet. He turned back to the others and smiled akwardly.

"Uhm... Hey dad..." Peter said akwardly.

"We'll talk about this later" Tony said with a glare and they left the room.

He turned towards me and smacked my chest while burying his face into my neck.

"I hate you"

"Love you too" i replied with a sly grin on my face.

-Timeskip to dinner-

Peter's P.O.V

Just another dinner night at Stark Tower. My dad was playfully arguing with Uncle Clint (yes i have to call them uncle and aunt except for Pietro and Wanda). Uncle Thor was eating pop tarts for dinner. Uncle Loki was struggling to use his utensils. Pietro was laughing hysterically at him for not being able to use them properly, pushing on Uncle Loki's buttons making him aggravated. Uncle Bucky and Aunt Nat were talking in Russia. The only normal one's were me, (m/n), Uncle Bruce, Vision, my pops aka Steve Stark-Rogers and Wanda. We we're just watching the scene play out infront of us. (m/n) and i was snickering at how childish they we're acting even though we're younger than them (except for Aunt Nat and Uncle Bucky. They looked like they we're talking about something important) until i remembered something.

"Hey Pops???"

"Yes Peter???" he awnsered looking at me.

"Is it okay if i stay home next Friday???"

When those words came out of my mouth everyone stopped what they were doing and looked at me suddenly intrigued by what i had to say.

"And why do you want to stay home???" Aunt Nat asked me and i knew i couldn't lie because this is Black Widow I'm talking to and she knows when someone's lie. I sigh in defeat.

"Well...you see..." and i told them about what happend with the teacher not accepting my permission slip and talking trash about me. After i explained all hell broke lose. Aunt Nat was sharpening her knives, Wanda and Loki had magic surrounding them, (m/n) had a little string of (f/c) fire twirling around his fingers, Thor was looking at his hammer probably contemplating how hard he can throw it, Uncle Clint was sharpening his arrows, Pietro feets were looking impatient, Uncle Bruce was turning a little green, Dad was typing something on his phone probably calling his suit, Uncle Bucky was clenching his metal arm and Pops was trying to calm himself down. Well...this is going to be a fun night. (note the sarcasm)

-The Next Morning-

Ned's P.O.V

I was on the bus sitting next to MJ who had her nose stuck in a book and i was looking out the window ignoring Flash yelling insults about Peter being a coward for not coming on this trip with us and about how he was right about his "fake internship" because the teacher told us we we're going to Stark Tower. I have been there on lots of different occasions, most of the time it's because i have an intern ship with Stark industries as well and it was all thanks to Peter. He is most definitely going to be there because he didn't show up to school. This isn't going to end well is it. Oh well... More entertainment and drama for me.

(M/N) 's P.O.V

I was in my room scrolling through my phonewith Peter snuggling into my side. He dies have his own room which is next to mine but he decided to sleep in my room because his dad doesn't really let us sleep in the same room but he does it anyways but i don't mind because i get to cuddle my little spider. I was looking at a cute cat photo which was playing with a leaf when i heard FRIDAY, Starks AI, greeting me.

" Good Morning Mr. (L/n). Tony Stark-Rogers has requested Peter to lead the tour for today at 10 later"

"Thanks Fri. I'll tell him when he wakes up"

FRIDAY hummed in acknowledgement and left. I put down my phone on the bed side table and i turned my body towards Peter which resulted with him cuddled into me and nuzzled his head deeper into my chest (if it was even possible at this point considering about how close we were already)

"Peter, Babe. Time to get up. Your dad said that you need to give a tour to some visitors later at 10"

Peter's eyes fluttered open but he just closed them again and nuzzled his head further into my chest.

"Do i have too? Can't i just cuddle with you?" he said while giving me his puppy dog eyes. I sighed.

"Even if I want to, I need to go on a mission with Clint, Pietro and Tasha in about... *glances at the alarm clock* 5 minutes so I have to go. But don't sweat it, the missions gonna take two hours at least. When I get back I'll come help you with the tour when i get back

Okay??? "

" Fine" he whined and gave me a soft kiss which i gladly returned.

I got up from the bed and went to the bathroom to get changed into my outfit which is a hoddie that is as strong as Steve's shield but still flexible, fluffy and comfortable to wear. I put on my fingerless gloves and headed back in my room. When I entered the room again and saw Peter scrolling through his phone. I smiled and walked towards him.

"Bye Pete, I'll see you later" i gave him a kiss on his forehead.

He smiled at me while i grabbed my shape shifting elemental sword and my wireless headphones. I know what your thinking. Why am i bringing a wireless headphones with me to a mission. Well...that's because i fight while listening to music. It enhances my ability to fight and makes it easier for me to use my elements. left the room while waving at him. I put on my (f/c) mask and headed towards where Pietro, Nat and Clint were at so we can get this mission over and done with.

-Timeskip-

Peter's P.O.V

I was sitting at the lounging room, waiting for the visitors to arrive while messing around on my phone. I heard the sliding door open and close but i didn't bother to look up because if they were the visitors, Alicia is going to explain how everything works and how to use the badges before giving them it. Only when she was done i would take over and show them the places that they have access to. While I was scrolling through Instagram, i heard Alicia call my name. I got up from my seat and walked towards them while still looking at my phone. When i reached them i looked up from my phone my eyes were wide as saucers because the visitors were my classmates!!! I have a lot of explaining to do aren't i...

"Uhh... Hey guys..." i said while waving at them awkwardly.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE PUNY PARKER!!!" Flash yelled at me with a hint of rage in his voice.

I rolled my eyes at him and responded to him in a sassy tone.

"I'm actually doing something useful in my life other than waste my time insulting someone. What are you doing???"

Flash was fuming with anger but didn't say anything else while the class, Alicia, Mj and Ned were chuckling because Flash just got told off.

"Okay Peter I'll leave it to you. See you later Mini G" she said while walking and waving.

"Later Alicia" i said while waving back at her before turning back to the rest of the class with stunned faces except Mj and Ned who were chuckling at Flash's stunned face.

"Anyways... I'm going to be your tour guide for today. So, unless you want to spend the rest of the visit outside the tour while the others have a good time, i suggest you keep your mouth if you have nothing nice to say because people at Stark Tower does not tolerate bullies especially Mr. Stark and Mr. Steve Rogers"

I didn't say there actual name which is Mr. Stark-Rogers because it isn't public yet that their married and no one definitely knows that tgey adopted a child aka me. But later on we're going to have a press conference revealing their marriage and me to the public. Flash looked slightly pale but didn't say any insults (or anything in that matter) and Mrs Warren was glarring daggers at me but i couldn't care less about what she thought about me at this point because all i want to do is get back to bed, wait until my boyfriend gets back from his mission and cuddle with him.

"Ok everyone. You need to scan the badges you got from Alicia and walk through the metal detector. You are also not aloud to take pictures during the tour. Any questions???"

Nobody raised their hands and i ushered them towards the scanner and the metal detector. One by one, everyone scanned their badges and walking through the metal detector (their phone don't count). F.R.I.D.A.Y announced their names, badge level and wether or not they have weapons or anything else dangerous. I let Flash walk through for demonstration (don't know why i did), F.R.I.D.A.Y announced his name in the same bored tone she always uses when it wasn't any of the avengers, me, Ned or Mj.

"Eugene Thompson, Omega badge level 2, no weapons"

He looked at me like he finally achieved something in his life. I rolled my eyes at his shit eating grin, scanned my badge (even though I didn't need to because I can scan my face and enter the building without having to waste my time with these badges) and walked through the metal detector.

"Peter, Delta level 10,no weapons detected. Hello Peter nice seeing you use the door once in a while" F.R.I.D.A.Y said with slight sarcasm in her voice but i just sigh in relief because F.R.I.D.A.Y didn't use my full name. But Flash just had to open his goddamn mouth and say something stupid like he always does.

"WHAT DID YOU MEAN USE THE DOOR ONCE IN A WHILE!!!HAVE YOU BEEN BREAKING INTO THE TOWER!!! HUH PUNY PARKER!!! AWNSER ME!!!"

I just ignored him which I do like 90% of the time and waited for the others to get through. While checking my watch to see how long i have left until (m/n) joins us.

-

Almost everyone has gone through except for Ned and Mj. Mj scanned her badge and walked through the metal detector without looking up from the book because she comes here to help Pepper with some business stuff. Oh!!! Did i forget to mention you that Mj is Pepper's assistant. I didn't??? Oh well moving on.

"Michelle Jones, alpha level 8, no weapons detected. Glad to see you Mj" F.R.I.D.A.Y greeted her happily.

"You too Fri"

Everyone's mouth was gaping because the Ai system recognised Mj. The last person was Ned and he got the same exact reaction from the class.

"Ned Leeds, alpha level 7, no weapons detected. Good evening Ned, i hope you enjoy your visit"

"I will Fri"

Flash was slightly annoyed that he didn't get the same treatment but beggars can't be choosers. I coughed slightly to get everyones attention and lead them towards the elevator so we can get started with the tour.

-

We reached the fifth floor so that they can look at the Avengers exhibition for the oldest and newest avengers. Everyone was looking awed and starstruck including Ned (who has been here loads of times) and excluding Mj (because she was still reading her book).

"Ok everyone you have an hour to look around and if you have any questions, you can come and ask me"

And just like that everyone was scattered all over the place looking at all the suits and weapons displayed. Of course they were just replicas of it. I walked around to make sure that they were no inconvenience. Everyone was mostly gawking at my iron spider suit that i got from dad and Elemental's mask, hoodie, headphones and his shape shifting sword especially Flash. He can only dream of wearing our suits. Let alone hold (m/n) 's shape shifting sword because have you seen that thing??? It's pretty epic if i do say so myself.

"Hey loser. Maybe you should explain more about the suits everyones gawking at" Mj said with a knowing smirk and looking up from her book for the first time since she entered the tower.

It's not really a surprise that she knows my relationship with (m/n) because the whole tower knows and thinks were a cute power couple. I returned her smirk and started to explain about the origins of the suits and (m/n) 's weapon.

"Well the Iron Spider was designed by Mr Stark for Spiderman when he was first offered a spot as an Avengers. He turned down the offer at first deciding just to stick on being a friendly neighbourhood Spiderman but he joined in the end after some complications"

I finished my explanation for the Iron Spider and looked at everyone. They were all listening to me very intently on the origins of the Iron Spider (with the exception of Mj who was still reading her book). I countinued onto Elemental's origin.

"Elemental is the newest member of the Avengers who joined almost a month ago. His sword can shape shift to any kind of weapon you can think of such as an axe, a bow and arrow, a bow staff and much more but i think that it be too long of an explanation if i kept going on. He can control natural elements which are fire, water, wind, ice, light, dark, and nature. Whichever power he choses has it's own abilities. He can also transport the elements into his weapon. For example if he was using an axe as a weapon and he transported his fire element into the axe it would turn into a fire axe. Any questions??? " I saw somebody raise their hand at the back.

"Yes you at the back" i said while pointing at the person at the back.

"How did the Avengers meet Elemental because he was annouced as one but nobody got an explanation"

"Good question. Well nine months before he was announced as an Avenger, the Avengers were in a battle with Red skull. They almost died when he was suddenly frozen and he was shattered tp a million pieces. They saw a silhouette of a person but his face was covered with a black face mask. After months of searching and researching for this person. At first he refused to join but he caved in the end after some persuasion by Spiderman. Anything else???? "

Someone was about to ask another question but Friday said that our time was up and that we had to mive on to the next part of the tour which was the mechanical workshop. I have a feeling that my Parker luck is gonna struck again but when has it not.

-

When we entered the workshop it was pure chaos. Dad was yelling at Clint something about almost ruining the mission Nat was sharpening her knife. Pietro was next to Clint holding his hand and (m/n) was fixing his motorbike whole wearing his wireless headphones, listening to music. So he was pretty clueless on what's going on around him. They all stopped what they were doing (with the exception of (m/n) who was to focused on fixing his motorbike) and smiled at us.

"Hey Pete boy what are you doing in these parts of the tower" Pietro asked while he suddenly appeared next to me. He put my head in a headlock and messed up my hair a bit before letting me go.

"I could ask you the same thing. Your not exactly trusted here" i said while fixing up my hair a bit. He put his hand on his heart while giving me a mocking gasp.

"I'm offended. Just because i zoom around the place that doesn't mean i broke anything"

Dad looked at him with a 'are you serious' look. Pietro did a damsel in distress look while sighing a dramatic sigh.

"I'm hurt by your words"

I just chuckled at his childish attitude while Aunt Tasha just exited the room. I swear Pietro is more dramatic than dad.

"While it was fun watching you joke around the class has a tour that (m/n) needs to take over. So i think it's time to take our leave. (m/n) time for you to take over!!!

(m/n) didn't move away from his motorbike so I'm guessing he didn't hear dad.

"(m/n)!!! Are you listening to me!!!"

"Don't worry Tony i got this" Pietro said with a mischievous grin on his face.

At the sidelines, everyone was mumbling to each other. Some of them were about being in the same room as their favourite superhero. While the others were mumbling about my internship being true. Flash was flushed red because i got noticed by them and not him.

(m/n) 's P.O.V

I was fixing my motorbike because someone *cough* Clint *cough* thought it was a good idea to "accidentally" knock over an expensive vase (which i think he did it on purpose) and he almost got shot if it wasn't for me jumping in with my motorbike and the latter decided it was a good idea to use an explosive arrows while I'm near the proximity. So, now i have a lot of things i need to repair on my motorbike. While i was fixing my motorbike, i was startled when someone yelled in my ear.

"(m/n)!!! Peter's in trouble!!!" Pietro yelled into my ear.

"What!!! Where!!!" i shouted with slight panic but i accidentally hit my head on my motorbike's turbo booster really REALLY hard because of how fast i lifted my head.

"Ow..." i said while closing my eyes and rubbing my head.

Whwn i reopened my eyes, again and saw a bunch of teenagers (is that the right way to describe them???) staring at me with wide eyes with a laughing Tony and Pietro and a blushing Peter (probably because i was worried about him getting hurt) . I was glaring at Pietro and Tony so hard that (f/c) flames started to surrounding me. They raised their hands in surrender, terrified that i might burn them if they continued. I smirked a victory smirk and the (f/c) flames disappeared. I took off my wireless headphones and walked towards Pietro and smacked his head really hard.

"Ow... What was that for???" Pietro whined while rubbing his sore head.

"That was for scaring me" i said and i started walking towards Peter. He blushed a darker shade of red while the teenagers behind him started giggling and whispering about how "hot and attractive" i was, but i just tuned them out and continued walking until i reached Peter. I wrapped my right hand around his waist and layed my head at the crook of his neck.

"Hey Pete sorry for not joining the tour earlier because someone decided to be stupid" i said emphasising the word someone someone while glaring at Clint who was now, sulking in a conner and was being comforted by Pietro. I just rolled my eyes and gave Peter a peck on his lips.

"Wait... PARKER IS DATING ELEMENTAL"

I looked over and saw a guy wearing a jacket, trying to look cool which he did horrible at.

"Yeah. What Peter never told you he was dating me. Pete, baby how could you not tell other people that you were dating this handsome dude"

I heard Tony snort at the word handsome while Peter just chuckled at my childness.

"As much as i want to mess around more. We need to get on with the tour. I'm assuming your going to be showing us around"

"Mhmm,nothing ever gets by you does it" i said while smiling fondly at him and kissed his cheek before unwrapping my hand around. I walked towards Tony, Clint and Pietro and shooed them out of the workshop. Once they were out , i turned towards the class with a soft smile which made everyone blush and drool (even the hoe of a teacher). I mentally rolled my eyes and pulled my (f/c) mask back on. I clapped my hands together and said,

"Let's get the show on the road now, shall we?"

-59 minutes later-

I looked at my watch and realised that i had one more minute until they had to get to the next part of Stark Towers. I decided to awnser one more question that they might have. For the entire time they've been in here i showed them some of the things that i made. For example, my motorbikes, electric cars, jets, mechanical wings for falcon, guns, Clint's arrows and pretty much anything you need i can make it. They all were impressed that i could make all of this and on top of that i gratuated school pretty early. Oh!!! Did i mention that I'm 17? No? Oh well,now you know.

"Alright everyone i only have time for one question before we move on onto the next destination of Stark Tower. So if anyone of you have a question don't be afraid to ask because you miggt never get this chance again" and instantly five hands were raised up but I pointed at the guy near me.

"How does Parker get not one but two look a like Avengers, fake badges and how much did he pay you to kiss him"

I felt my blood beginning to boil. My bangs covered my eyes but they were red with anger (A/n: Your eyes changes colour depending on the emotions) because how dare he thinks that my Petey will do something like that. The tempature in the room dropped making the class shiver. I started approaching him very VERY slowly with lightning trailing behind me, so i can scare him a little which worked. Everyone made sure to keep a good ten feet away from us. Peter looked terrified about what's going to happen but didn't move because he knew the consequences. ( A little hint. He didn't get kisses and cuddles from me for a week. He can go without those for two days)

When i was right in front of him, i tilted my head to the side revealing my glowing blood red eyes. I pushed him into a the nearest wall, trapping while shape shifting my sword into a darkness knife.

"One more bad word about my Petey. Your head won't be attached to your body after this. Got it!?!??!" i said while pressing my knife dangerously close to his neck. He nodded so fast that i would've mistaken him for Pietro except he got a much more bitchy attitude than Tony when he wants attention from Steve or when Clint was ignored by Pietro because he did a 'breaking up' prank (it was kinda funny seeing Clint begging to Pietro for two hours straight) and that's basically giving them a compliment.

I let go of him and told the others to wait outside to wait for the next part of the tour because I wanted to have a word with Peter. Everyone basically bolted out the room trying to stay on my good side. I turn towards a nervous looking and kinda sweating Peter. He visibly gulped because he knows he is in deep, deep trouble.

Peter's P.O.V

I feel like I'm screwed because not only did i not tell them about my salty teacher much earlier but i didn't tell them that i also have a bully on my track. He crossed his arms while tap his left foot impatiently waiting for an awnser. Well, here goes nothing let just hope he doesn't go on a killing spree.

-Timeskip after the explanation-

When i was done explaining, he was mad but surprisingly calm about the whole situation. He placed his hand on my shoulder and started talking.

"Look I'm not mad that you didn't tell me but if something like this happens again i want you to tell either me or the others because we care about you and don't want you to get hurt. Alright???"

I nodded my head while crying slightly and hugged him really tight like if i let him go i would lose him. I'm really thankful i have someone like him in my life. He chuckled and ran his fingers through my head and kissed my forehead before pulling away. He wiped my tears away and kissed me before pulling away. He pulled away from the hug and extended his hand to me.

"Come on Pete. We have a tour to get back to"

I smiled and took his hand letting him lead my hand outside towards the class to continue the tour.

-

I looked at my watch and realised that the tour was almost over. We only had two more destination which is the training room on level 20 and after that the class will meeting the rest of the Avengers. I mentally jumped for joy because my suffering is almost over. Not that I didn't enjoy it because (m/n)'s hand is always either on my hip or around my waist. He will give me a random pecks here and there. Mrs. Warren and Flash aren't picking on me because (m/n) kept giving them death glares but they still glared at me (i swear those two are oblivious) . So overall, I'm enjoying myself.

TBC (because I've passed my block limit 😅 but stick around for part 2!!)

[britishsass]

Ooh! Can we see the next chapter of Escape the Circus?

Well, first I had to write it, my anonymous ami.

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 (You are here) | Chapter 4

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Chapter 3. The "Fishing Trip"

The eight of them departed from the cafe early Friday night, all piled into Mr. Helmut's van. It didn't feel like the safest way to travel, but as the soft music played them into the night, Adam couldn't help but drift off to sleep on the shoulder of Mr. Ford beside him. It wasn't even his bedtime, but the work of the past week had been a lot to handle, even if it was over now.

His parents weren't joking when they said he was grounded. A week of work in the cafe was no joke, what with the early mornings when he had to do prep before school and the evenings when he had to help clean dishes. Even so, he hadn't complained, only held onto the picture in his hat, using it as his reminder that it wasn't fake. They reached the woods while he slept, and someone hefted him into their arms. He floated in the space between awake and asleep, catching a few words in the midst of it all. They were discussing whether or not to wake him in hushed tones, until Mr. Otto roughly shook him. Adam jolted, and he struggled to get out of the arms holding him until he was set on the ground.

"Sorry 'bout that, Adam. Otto here thought we needed a guide for the woods," Mr. Helmut told him, straightening his sleeves where Adam's sleeping form had creased them. "Can't say he's wrong, but--"

"Oh. Yessir." Adam adjusted his tunic, and he started walking, leading the way through the woods. Past trees and rocks, over a stream, under a fallen log. Half the group followed him under before Mr. Bob raised a hand, and a large vine lanced into the log, forcing it up high enough for Mr. Helmut to pass under it.

"Show-off," Mr. Otto scolded him.

"Like you wouldn't try to light up a room for Compton, Mullet." Mr. Bob rolled his eyes as he walked under, then let the vine fall limp again. Adam just stared, mouth agape. "...Ah, sh-t."

"You-- What was that?" Adam stammered, gesturing. Ms. Lucy chuckled, and she set a hand on his back.

"Best you don't know. After all, what you don't know won't hurt you... Much."

"Lulu, you're gonna scare the kid!" Mr. Helmut shook his head. "Besides, we're all cool folks. None of us are actually going to hurt you. We just use that stuff to help out, okay?"

"Are you guys really super-spies?"

There was a beat of silence before Ms. Cassie broke it with laughter. "Oh, Adam. No, we're not. We're just psychics."

Adam nodded, accepting that the best he could and making a note to research psychics later in the back of his mind as he approached the place he remembered it being before. Luckily for him, it was still there.

The lights, the tents, all of it looked the same as he remembered. Even with the picture in hand, it felt so much more real than a simple picture to see it once more. He looked at the others, scanning their faces.

Mr. Ford seemed blank about it, while Mr. Compton and Ms. Cassie looked horrified. Mr. Otto had his interest piqued by the appearance of the place, while Ms. Lucy was clearly uncomfortable. Mr. Bob, on the other hand, had his fists clenched, barely being held back by Mr. Helmut.

"Bobby. Bobby, listen to me. You're not gonna help 'em if you break the whole place now. We need to find them first, okay?"

"...Lili's in there, Helmut. Whoever f-cking runs this place has Lili. If they have Lili, then that means they're probably the sick b-stard who killed Truman."

The pair spoke in hushed tones, but Adam could hear every word. He walked around, finding his hole in the fence from before. It still hadn't been patched up. He slipped in, followed by Mr. Compton. The others stared, trying to figure out how they could get through.

"...We'll find a way to get you guys in. We just need tickets for you, right? So we'll get tickets!" Adam smiled, and he gave them a thumbs up. Before he had even finished, there was a sound of cracking leaves behind him, and he whirled around to see Mr. Ford already inside. "H-how--"

"Ford just does that. It's his sneak-up-behind-you instinct," Mr. Otto joked. "Does it to everyone."

"You're flattering me, Mentallis. Stop it." Mr. Ford crossed his arms. "But Adam's right. We'll get you five tickets. Bob, Lucy, don't tear the place up while I'm gone."

"...No promises," Mr. Bob mumbled. Ms. Lucy only nodded, though she looked closer at the hole, trying to figure out if she could slip through after them. Ms. Cassie set a hand on her shoulder, and the trio inside rushed to the tents, finding the one where the children and their "mother" were.

"Who are you? I won't let you hurt the children--" The woman moved in front of them, ready to defend them, but Mr. Compton's eyes lit up.

"Samantha! Dogen!"

"Huh? Why's he know us?" Sam asked, and she trotted over to stand beside her "mother". The small boy in the straitjacket only stared from a distance.

"I-- I'm Compton Boole. Your grandfather. I've been trying to find you two for eight years-- since you went missing." He walked up to Sam, taking her hands in his. "...You have your mother's eyes."

"Oh, hey, Mom, look! He's got the same green as me!" She grinned, and looked closer at him. "...You look funny."

"Might I ask about your legs?"

"These ol' things? Got 'em ages ago. They're great for stomping on the feet of people who're mean to Dogen! And they make a great little noise when I walk. Listen to this!" She walked around Mr. Compton, and laughed at the sound her hooves made on the dirt. "It's neat. I like it a lot."

"...Alright. As long as you're happy." He smiled. "I promise, we're going to get you out of here, Samantha."

"Sam. I go by Sam now."

"Alright, Sam. Is Dogen alright?"

"Yeah, he's just like that. He's best buddies with Lili and Raz though!" Sam skipped away to the others, pulling them up and picking up the little boy in the straitjacket. "Dogen's a bit feral though. Little guy can't be held down without this thing!" She held him tight, and rushed over to the trio. "Soooo, who's the other guy with you and helpful kid?"

"Ford Cruller. At your service." Ford nodded, and the woman softened slightly.

"...I've heard that name. Aren't you..."

"Most likely yes. I've been keeping track of the missing person cases that could be connected. If my records are right... This is the lot of 'em. Missing one."

"...Ah. You must mean the assistant. He... He's a different case." The woman shook her head. "...The point is, if you're here to help, what are we going to do?"

"We need five tickets first. It's for getting our friends inside. Including Razputin's--"

"Raz!" Raz piped up.

"--Raz's," Mr. Ford corrected himself, "great aunt, Lili's great-uncles, and those two's great-uncle." He pointed to Lizzie and Norma. "...But they can't get in here. Hole in the fence was too small."

"Well, then... You can get tickets from the ringleader. He's especially likely to give them to children. But if you need five tickets... Then just him wouldn't do. I think what we really could use is a diversion while some of us steal those tickets-- Or slip your friends in, but it's easier to steal the tickets than get anyone past the ringleader." The woman pushed her hair out of her eye for a second, looking over everyone, and smiled. "...Sam, I think it's time that Dogen gets some time without the straitjacket."

"Woah. We're really doing that?" Sam asked, her eyes wide. Her "mother" nodded, and Sam grinned. "...Well, Dogen, you heard Mom. Let's get out there and put on a show they'll remember, alright?"

[commander-shad]

I said in a blog earlier today that I would post my thoughts on the game after I was done, but screw it, I'm going for it now lmao. I just need to talk about it ok-

Don't go below the cut if you haven't played up until the quest Singularity (haven't done it myself yet)!

Long post ahead!

Let's start from the beginning eh?

1. The game starts by getting you right in the feels, huh? "And for a moment, I feel whole" Give this girl a found family pls, she needs it

2. Didn't expect Varl to show up! And the beard suits him, no matter what Aloy says lmao (why he'd have to get rid of it?)

3. Burrowers are so cute, a bit of a pain in the ass, but cute

4. Damn, Aloy has to write a guide on how to destroy someone's entire worldview in less than five minutes, because like, she didn't even hesitate (it becomes a little ironic if you told CYAN to go gently on the Banuk in the Frozen Wilds lol)

5. Well, if the Far Zenith stuff isn't a huge Chekhov's Gun, then I don't know what is

6. They actually let Aloy say "sh*t"! It took me aback a little honestly, out of all things in the game, this is what surprised me, huh

7. The Slitherfang was so cool tho

8. For that one scene- I legit just went 'Travis, you f*cking nerd!' Really felt Aloy's pain here

9. Really didn't expect the return to Meridian! A pleasant surprise for sure

10. That statue tho

11. Sylens, you son of a-

12. Avad still thirsts over Aloy I see. I picked the brain option, but after seeing the fist one giffed, I kinda wish I picked that one instead, but what's done done lol, Imma go for that next playthrough

13. It was nice to see some returning characterS for a while before we embarked to the West

14. Wow, Aloy really bailed on Varl like that eh? Considering that she's done it before (as shown in the comics and as mentioned in-game), I wasn't really surprised. Tbh tho, I'm not one to judge, I'd do the same, but just because I'm not a people's person

15. The song that kicked in the credits, totally didn't see it coming, but yeah, the moment I was done with that playthrough I immediately looked for it in Youtube, and now I can't stop playing it, send help-

16. Ok, but like, can we talk about the soundtrack? The reworked version of Aloy's Theme is amazing, and something I noticed about it- the HFW version of the theme sounds considerably more sci-fi-ish than the HZD version, you could say that it very subtly foreshadows how much more sci-fi-ish this game is in comparison to the first game. Dunno if it was intentional, but I kinda like that detail

17. And thus we are in the Daunt! Vuadis- excuse me- STUDIOUS Vuadis- he's funny. Funny as in 'I kinda hate him right now' lmao

18. Chainscrape is a pretty nice looking place-

19. Petra!

20. Oh look, that in-game board game I won't be playing because I suck at strategy

21. And now we get to see Erend. I kinda liked this interaction they had to be honest. Aloy had to get called out on her sh*t at some point, amirite? Erend was very obviously hurt by the way she suddenly disappeared, and in a way, no matter which option you pick, she still seems to be a bit of an a**hole, because no matter the reason she left, she still left without saying a word, and that's just not cool (says my hypocritical ass who previously admitted that I would ditch people with no remorse), so yeah Erend, you deserve to be salty about this

22. And now we go to Barren Light- Aloy still is a force to be reckoned with- the way Varl arrives just in time and Erend who is already there just going "oh you know, Aloy challenges the authorities and tempts fate, what else is new", so casually lmao

23. Shouldn't have been surprising to see Erend stand up for Aloy against the commander. While it's obvious that he still isn't happy about the stuff she's pulling, it seems that he still is determined to be there for her now, no matter what, like- he's trying, instead of holding all that stuff against Aloy, he's trying to be there for her instead when she wasn't and that shows a lot of maturity on his part

24. Regalla's entrance was pretty badass. The way the rest of the encounter went wasn't so much- it was very reminiscent of the Proving actually, except Aloy wasn't the target this time

25. My man Kotallo just stopped a Bristleback without even using a weapon, he's just rammed into it to stop it in it's tracks, how badass is that?

26. Ok, but Aloy just stood there while Grudda beat Varl's ass, she didn't even try to stop him, what gives-

27. Finally, the Shieldwing! I'm addicted to using it now-

28. And now, we're heading to the Horus. Totally not ominous and definitely Sylens' taste in lairs

29. Sylens is as insufferable as usual

30. Is it weird I feel a little bad for HADES? Whatever Sylens did to it, left it a shell of it's former self- anyways, it still was so satisfying to see it gone for good this time

31. That holo of Travis and Elisabet, in Latopolis though- "How do you love the world so much, but don't seem to love a single person it it?" I-I feel attacked-

31. That maze was a pain to figure out, I had to use a guide tbh-

32. This f*cking quest man- this damn quest- ok, so- Sylens just went "these people outside want you, but worry, they won't do anything to you, now open the hatch will you?", Aloy goes "lol no" and destroys her current Focus (considering that she hands out Focuses everywhere like they are nothing, I was left wondering just how many does she have on her person?) and uses a new one. So, the hatch to the facility was supposed to be open to Aloy only- AND THEN- EXCUSE ME, WTF

33. Oh what the f*ck- there's another- you know I was thinking about the possibility of another Elisabet clone, but definitely not like this- and like- who tf are these people? Why do they want me dead? And what the heck are these new machines?

34. F*ck Erik btw

35. The fact that we aren't even close to the middle yet and we already had our near death experience of the game tho- (they just had to name the quest "Death's Door" lmfao). That escape must have left Aloy pretty f*cked up if she was basically delirious when she got washed up on the shore. Speaking of that-

36. OUCH. WHY.

37. "I'm fine", Aloy says, nearly falling over for the like, fifth time in the last three minutes

38. I think it's cute the Utaru land-gods (to us known as Plowmowers) are named after the musical notes

39. It seems that VarlxZo has sailed! Good for them!

40. Ok, but I wanna talk about this scene for a bit- my reading of it is that- well you can very clearly see that Aloy is very determined to take off as soon as possible, even if she can barely stand. "I will crawl there if I have to" in her words. And I feel like she would have actually gone through with I believe, she has zero chill. And then she sees what Varl and Zo have going. I think she was a little guilty. Like, he seemed to be happy with Zo, and because of her stubbornness he would miss out on going with her to Plainsong. So Aloy giving in to their request to rest up and heal, is giving up on this small bit of selfishness she got going for Varl's sake. Well, she definitely benefited from it in the end though, that's good.

41. On an unrelated note, I got two of them actually, I'm kinda glad they are still keeping Aloy single (not me here projecting my aroace ass). Like, it's not just that, I just think that Aloy isn't really ready for something as deep as a romance, not yet at least. I mean, think about it: she grew up as an outcast, with only one person to talk to, so let's be honest here, she really doesn't know her way around people, you can tell from how socially awkward (socially awkward as in the way she behaves around people, talking down figures of authority for example) and blunt she can be. And if you think about it, Aloy never really had a friend growing up (just how sad is that?), I really wouldn't be surprised if she didn't really know what being actually friends with someone means, my guess is that she has a very surface level understanding of friendship, and that's why she has so much trouble properly opening up to her friends here in HFW. TLDR; Pls, give this girl a found family/friends before we go into any romances first if they do go into that. Besiiiiiides, Erend and Varl seem to be acting more like older brother figures to me more than anything

42. Ok uh, so I have several minor unrelated notes to make regarding a specific line of side quests that from what I've seen has disappointed several people, but it's not what you might expect. Anyway, here it goes. Just putting it out there; I have no problem at all with Talanah having a thing for Amadis, and I say that as someone whose first option for romance for Aloy if it happens is Talanah (if you don't let me keep my girl ace, at least let me romance a girl, thank you very much), I mean, bi Talanah anyone? Besides, Talanah has two hands 😏Second, I'm gonna put it out here, I wasn't that big on Talanah in the first place, she's an ok character for me at best, the one that is a little over hyped, but still pretty ok. Thirdly, call it a hot take if you want (as if the previous ones weren't hot enough takes already lmao), it very much makes sense that Talanah wouldn't become a member of the main character crew and that she remains in the realm of side quests. Let me explain. Talanah is a pretty missable character as in, not everyone is going to invest hundreds of hours to replay a game, not everyone is going to do all side quests (let's be honest here, as great as HZD is, it's side quests weren't and the most engaging ones (now that I think of it, that might be the reason I'm not that big on Talanah)), so a combination of both can lead to a character simply not getting enough attention as to become main character grade. So I think that we should be glad we even got a Talanah side quest in the first place, because she could easily be a character who didn't get enough attention as to get a place in the sequel. I mean, imagine if a much more obscure character from the first game suddenly became a main, pretty jarring, right? Anyways- Of course you all have a right to be disappointed in how her story went, while I didn't see much in Talanah's character, you guys did, so I guess you all know something more than I do ig. I personally wasn't disappointed, because I didn't really hold any expectations for her, I was perfectly happy with what the writers had in mind for Talanah. You guys who were let down didn't, and I very much respect that. Sorry for this rant, I just kinda really wanted to talk about this, you know- With that aside, I'm gonna say this, both Talanah and Amadis deserved better. Amadis deserved better than to live with the knowledge that this person he cared so much for simply doesn't really seem to give a f*ck about him anymore and Talanah deserved better than now having to deal with that this person she came to really like might never actually come to reciprocate her feelings just because he might never really get over the aforementioned events. So my guess is that there might be still hope for TalanahxAloy shippers, not the Talanah being invited to the base thing, but a chance of the two getting together in the future, who knows (optimism at it's finest ey?) Ok, done with this rant I think

43. Alright, where was I? Right, at Stone's Echo. After here we set out to find Plainsong. Man, the Utaru's architecture is kinda insane, they really just built their home on top of the satellite dishes, I'd love to live there (if not for the red blight thing)

44. Ok so uh, so much has happened in recent playthroughs that my memory is a little fuzzy when it comes to this part of the game, but if I remember correctly we went to Repair Bay TAU to reach Minerva, right? Or they needed something from the Core to track down MINERVA's exact location? I think? Can't remember, someone pls correct me on this- All I remember is fighting the Grimhorn and then Aloy was so close to pulling an Ourea while kicking HEPHAESTUS out from TAU that she just gets up, turns to the others and basically goes thumbs up looking like she's this close to falling apart lmao

45. Poor MINERVA tho, must have been scared, but at least we managed to get GAIA up and working! Yay! Mother Nature as an AI is back!

46. Ok but like- Horizon having a base of operations in the game was something I never knew I needed. It's perfect and I just love how it becomes more and more like home with each passing mission, I just-

47. And so, the hunt for the subfunctions begins. I went from highest level to lowest first so I went with the order of DEMETER, POSEIDON and AETHER. How it went? Well-

48. DEMETER wasn't that hard tho I got lost in the tunnels a bit- Alva is baby

49. Also f*ck Dreadwings, glad I never saw them again after that

50. We finally get to see Beta now! I like her, poor thing, she didn't deserve the Zeniths' treatment of her. Also Aloy, I know you're both traumatized and tired, but please stop being mean to her

51. As I was approached the ruins of Las Vegas to find POSEIDON, I was like "there is water somewhere under that desert, right?" There was. I just wasn't expecting so much of it lmao

52. For me Morlund and crew were a more bearable version of Gildun, I enjoyed hanging out of them, just realized that I never came back for them D:

53. And at last, AETHER. More complicated than I thought it'd be, because I literally had to fell half a mountain to get an event going. Aloy being a little gremlin in this one was so fun, and Kotallo was just so done with her sh*t lmao

54. Speaking of Kotallo, we stan him in this house

55. Why did it have to be a Slitherfang-

56. We're going to San Francisco baby wooo! The things we saw there tho- *shudder*, I felt a very distinct sense of dread walking through the bunker

57. It turns out Ted was further gone than I thought. Not only he has the biggest ego in history, but he also just rid of some of the people who lived in Thebes with him? I'm suddenly worried about what happened to the people in Elysium

58. Is it bad I wanted to mash Ceo's head all throughout the tour of Ted's limbo?

59. I really don't want to know what exactly was the thing I saw in that holo in the office, because whatever it was, it really didn't end well for him (he deserved it tho, f*ck Ted Faro)

60. So yeah, about point 58? Ted Faro's massive head crushed Ceo's... well... Everything. And the other guy just fell into the lava. Big yikes for both of them

61. We are now good with Beta it seems, you could say that we are close now, I like that. Sisters!

62. Aloy and the squad ready to force HEPHAESTUS into the found family against its will 😎

63. When the Zeniths bust through the roof after capturing HEPHAESTUS: This is why we can't have nice things!

64. I'm in- genuine shock guys. He's dead. Varl's f*cking dead. And Beta and GAIA are gone too. Aloy swore to protect her and she failed. Aloy must feel like she failed both of them and that's as rock bottom as it can get, just great

65. Tilda. She's sus. I don't trust her.

66. Not gonna lie guys, I almost cried at the talk Aloy had with Zo about Varl. And she is with his child too?!

67. Damn, someone's gonna have to tell Sona now. I feel bad for her you know. First she lost Vala, and now her other child too, that's just so f*cking sad

68. Another reason why Varl dying was so impactful was that he was there since the beginning, you know? He followed Aloy into the forbidden ruins of the Old Ones back in the Sacred Lands. He followed her to Meridian to fight a threat he admits that he can't really understand, but he did that anyways. He tracked Aloy all the way out to the middle of nowhere to help her with her mission of finding GAIA. He found Aloy in the aftermath of Latopolis. He was so willing to come and help Aloy investigate the mysterious signal. He just trusted and cared for her and the rest of his friends so f*cking much, and he ultimately paid for it

69. "Can't I just mourn for the loss of my friend?" It was so heartbreaking to hear Erend say that-

70. While still dealing with the loss of a great friend, the team must still move on and find a way to stop the Zeniths for good. Using a small gift Beta gave us back in GEMINI and the knowledge Tilda provided us with, it's time to put an end to Regalla's rebellion...

71. WE CAN FLY, HOLY SH*T- (damn that escalated quickly)

72. In the most badass way you can imagine, Aloy swooped with her trusty Sunwing down in the battlefield between Hekarro's army and Regalla's and destroyed her machines

73. And then we finally face Regalla head on. Her boss fight was kinda like HFW's equivalent to Helis', but meaner, b*tchier and harder, it took forever lmao

74. With Sylens' uncovered plan foiled, Aloy gets to meet him again and makes a deal with him...

75. To close, Tilda and Sylens seem to be a match made in hell, nothing can possibly go wrong with these two in the same room s/

•••

Tomorrow I'm finishing my first playthrough of the game (my gaming method is first playthrough being a speedrun of the story and the second and following playthroughs being a more loose and slow play of it with the side quests and activities and everything), so expect another blog on my thoughts on the finale too, though probably it won't be as long as this post since I wrote my thoughts on like 85% of the story lmao

I probably missed lots of stuff in this writedown but if I add them I can't be bothered to edit the numbers so I leave it be.

As of now it was great experience, tho I'm a little bummed out that the first gameplay trailer we got of HFW wasn't even in the story! Is it even in the game at all? Guerilla, pls explain-

I will gladly hear people's opinions, either on the game or on my own takes on it, I just really need to talk about the game.

What were your thoughts on it?

[messiisgodibeliveinhim]

Taeyong

I just wanted to rant about everything that happened. So here I am.

So initially I didn't want to watch the concert because of the obvious lack of Taeyong. But i did watch it (ill*gally) on Twitter Live Stream, to see who would cover for Taeyong and how.

Okay, first of all, is it just me or was there an actual lack of preparation and production for the concert??? Like, compare it to SuperM's Beyond Live. The VCRs, the camera direction, the stage, the AR effects... Everything looked so good and exciting. But for this one, they didn't even try. The production was lacking severely and the AR effects were barely used. Everything looked rushed as if they didnt actually plan it set by set. The VCRs were just all the footages from other videos clamped together. There was nothing new or cool about this Beyond Live, even with the increased price. Overall, it looked cheap. I think, the only saving grace of this online concert were the boys themselves.

Secondly, the boys who covered for Taeyong did a good job. Obviously, no one can come close to even performing and delivering like Taeyong but the boys did fine, considering that they had to practice his parts for only 2-3 weeks. And it's a daunting task to fill such huge shoes. The pressure that the boys felt, especially the newbies Shotaro and Sungchan, to try to fill that gap, must have been immense.

But of course, NShittyzens took this as an opportunity to sh*t on Taeyong, saying stupid things like 'XYZ ate Taeyong up', 'ABC made Taeyong's song his own', 'MNO killed Taeyong's part and I think he should've been part of the original line-up instead of Taeyong', 'I hope my bias gets to shine now', 'My faves really took this "opportunity" and showed the world' etc.... Like??? Are you really that dense or just spewing bs like this cuz y'all want attention??? The same thing happened when Taeyong missed the KBS mid-year festival and the other boys covered for him for Kick It.

If y'all truly believe that you're bias only shines when Taeyong is absent, then it shows how insecure you are about you're faves talents and abilities. If you truly think Taeyong's injury is an "opportunity" for your fave, then there is clearly something wrong with you. If you think you're fave ate Taeyong up in any manner, then it shows that you just hate Taeyong. If you think Taeyong is replaceable, then you're doing piss poor job of convincing yourself. Taeyong doesn't need NCT, but NCT needs Taeyong.

He is not just the leader, but also the main dancer, main rapper, sub vocalist, the center of the group and the face of the group. He has also contributed to the group with over 30 songs and has choreographed for some of NCT songs. He is NCT's idea bank, with the numerous times he has come up with something new and interesting for their concepts or choreography (For Example: The Jungle Gym for Neo City tour, the epic finger move and Mark stepping on Taeyong for the Kick It choreography, the chandelier scene in MAW, etc) . Many professionals have constantly praised Taeyong for his creativity and excellent inputs.

Taeyong was there from the very beginning of NCT and has carried the group on his back for 4 years now. And he has always remained kind and humble, even with all the misdirected hate that he faced for years. He always puts himself down and praises all the members, no matter what. He has juggled between groups, 5 comebacks and numerous concerts, this year alone. His schedule list looks like the Bank Statement of one whole year. The way the man has worked for the past 2 years is insane. And upon that, the burden of being the leader of a group with 23 members??? Can y'all even imagine the amount of weight on Taeyong's shoulders???

And yes, the injuries he has constantly sustained for over 4 years now. We have seen various footages of him having neck braces, holding his waist and limping. He has also talked about the continuous back pain or how he was sick for 3 days after shooting a MV. SM had known exactly the extent of his injuries and still overworked him to the bone. Now his waist disc injury has relapsed and we still dont have a statement on his health or time of recovery on ANY of the SM Official Accounts. Not one word. We had to find out through a platform that's barely used and most non-twitteratti NCTzens didn't know about this whole ordeal until after the concert began.

What boils my blood is that SM knew about the relapsed injury way before, gave the boys enough time to practice Taeyong's part, but announced the concert by advertising Taeyong all over it, last Monday. And they literally only made the announcement after the concert ticket cancelation period was over. F*cking money whores! F*ck SM!!!!

The worst part of it all are the NShittyzens. Most of you didn't care about the fact that SM not only neglected the leader's health but also scammed Taeyong's fans. When TyongFs began to get refunds for the concert, some of you accused them and started dictating what they should do with their own money, pulling sh*t like- 'Taeyong as a leader, wants his group to do well. Now he would be sad knowing that fans dont care about the group cuz y'all are getting your refunds'. Really? Cuz most y'all who said this watched the concert illegally, makes it even more funny to me. And its none of you're business, how anyone else spends their money. And if you think Taeyong cares about SM losing money, then you're just stupid. If it's anyone in the whole group who'd say 'F*ck Capitalism!', it's Taeyong. So STFU!

Also, when TyongFs started demanding an official statement from SM about Taeyong, some of y'all went- "You're just a fan. Y'all dont have any right to cross the boundaries of Idol-Fan relationship and ask for personal stuff. Other artist fans didn't get any official statement, so why should you?'. We didnt ask for his f*cking medical records. We just want a statement from SM's official accounts about his health and his time of recovery. That's it. SM has refused to acknowledge the injuries of other artists before, doesn't mean that this pattern has to continue. And as fans, we are entitled to know about the artist, cuz WE CARE...! Cuz a waist disc injury relapsing aint a small thing. The amount of pain that Taeyong is probably enduring right now.... We dont even know the extent of it. We dont know how long he needs to recover or even how long SM will give him to rest. We don't know anything and we are scared. So just wanting a statement about it, isnt 'crossing the boundaries' as you put it. So again, STFU!

Y'all don't care about Taeyong, fine. The least you can do is respect him and not discredit his hardwork. After everything he has done and continues to do for NCT, y'all keep going with the 'Taeyong is the villain' narrative. He isn't stealing your faves lines or screentime. He isn't pushing them back to 'shine more'. He isnt the bad person you think he is. Y'all rejoicing now that he is injured, happy that your faves got to take up Taeyong's part or just hateful saying your fave was better than Taeyong.... It just ain't it.

No other group leader gets the kinda hate Taeyong does, even though he does 5 times the work for the group than any other leader. Yes, Taeyong has multiple positions the group, all deserved. Yes, he is a very charismatic and an amazing performer on the stage, that lures new fans in. Not his fault that he grabs everyone's attention. Yes, he is very talented in so many aspects. But that doesn't mean you get tobblame you're faves mistreatment on him, cuz he himself is being mistreated by SM. So don't come at me with you're 'SM's golden boy' bs! I will taze your ass and watch supernanny as you crawl under the carpet!

Maybe you're right about how you're faves dont get to shine enough when they're on the same stage as Taeyong, cuz his charisma and aura is very magnetic, you can't help but watch him and him only. I thought only TyongFs have this kinda tunnel vision but apparently, all of you have it as well....

Here's the thing. You don't like it when Taeyong gets praised all the time, whether its his dance or rap or anything at all. Cuz you don't like Taeyong. So why are you even focused on him and TyongFs. If I don't like anything, i simply ignore it. So instead of focusing on Taeyong, focus on hyping up your fave (again, by not dragging Taeyong, not even subtly). It ain't hard, trust me.

At least have the human decency to not rejoice over the fact that he is injured. The sh*t i see online everyday, some of y'all have totally lost it.

And lastly, no one can eat up Taeyong. No one can do his part better than him. Hell, no one can even come close to doing what he does. So get that delusion outta your heads. Its embarrassing.

[yunho-es]

Member/s: Seonghwa (ATEEZ), Namjoon (BTS)

Genre: soft/angst

Warnings: swear words

Words: 2133

"May I take your order?"

"Chocolate croissant and orange juice, please." I say, handing back the breakfast card to the waitress. "Namjoon?"

The man in front of me lifts his look from his card. "I will have blueberry pancakes, please." he gives back his card and smiles politely at the waitress. She smiles back at us and leaves with our orders. "I heard your little boyfriend is in town." he coughs.

"Little baldie is here?" I reply calmy, ignoring the fact that he calls him my boyfriend. He laughs and slaps his hands at my words. I know his laugh is coming from his heart when he does that.

"Why baldie?"

"Since he became a little famous on YouTube with his singing he behaves like a kpop idol; dyeing his hair 3 times a month." I roll my eyes and look over at the kitchen door, waiting for my meal to come out.

"So... He's behaving like me?" Namjoon raises his eyebrow.

"You can make fun of me but at the end of the day you are the ones that will end up bald." I can't help myself so I start laughing and he joins. "Also, he's not my boyfriend."

"If we ask you, of course he isn't." the brown haired boy looks towards the kitchen door too, ignoring my suspicious look. Then he takes his phone and starts texting someone.

"What do you mean if you ask me? Who else do you ask?" I know who, but I want to hear the words from someone else so I can be sure. But Namjoon pretends he doesn't hear me and continues to type on his phone. I look down on his screen trying to read the person's name. "Typing on the phone while you're with someone is considered rude, in case you didn't know."

I lean back in my chair and watch his face, waiting for a reaction. But he doesn't move anything except his fingers. Finally, I saw the waitress coming towards our table.

"I swear I'm gonna eat all your pancakes." he smirks and leaves his phone.

"If you do that, it will be your last meal." he says with a wink. The waitress put he croissants and orange juice in front of me, then the pancakes with a glass of water in front of Namjoon. Just as she was about to leave, he stops her. "One medium vegetable omelette and sausages too, please. Thank you."

I give him a confused look. "Don't you have to watch what you eat?" he looks at his pancakes, then at me, then back at his pancakes.

"What are you talking about? I am watching what I eat." he proceeds to stare at his plate. "And it looks delicious." as soon as he said that he stuffed his mouth with the blueberries first, then pancakes.

"You're so funny I forgot how to laugh. Sometimes I miss you when you have a busy schedule but I get tired of you real soon."

"Isn't she a delight?"

I turn around quickly as I feel a voice near my ear. "Holy sh*t!" I jump and the person laughs.

"Nice to see you again." the blonde haired boy said. Just two weeks ago he had blue hair and a different clothing style. "Hi, Namjoon."

"You made it! Unfortunately I'll have to go as soon as I finish this but you have your little girlfriend here." Seonghwa sits next to Namjoon on the opposite side of me and smiles. "You two enjoy. I ordered what you told me." so that is why Namjoon was on the phone the whole time.

The two of them start a small talk and I find myself staring at Seonghwa. His look changed, but his facial expressions and body language didn't. I know exactly how he reacts when he's surprised, angry, happy or sad. I know his eyes very well. Speaking of his eyes, I noticed him giving me a few quick glances. My boyfriend, says Namjoon. I can't wait to find out what that is about.

***

"Kids, it was nice seeing you, but Hoseok told me I have to leave soon to catch them on the bus." Namjoon takes his jacket and puts his sunglasses on. Then he does his little handshake with Seonghwa and hugs me. "Enjoy your meals!"

"How old do I have to be for you to stop calling me a kid?" the blonde boy complains.

"I don't know. All you can do is wait and find out." finally, he gets up and leaves the cafe. Now I'm left with one chocolate croissant, half glass of juice and a boyfriend. They say that based on your morning, that's how the rest of your day will be. Let's see.

"Hi." he speaks first. "I'm sorry I didn't ask if you were comfortable with me coming here. I know that you're not a big fan of me." I notice one of his movements when he's nervous: playing with his fingers and rings.

"Says who?" I can be rude towards him sometimes, roasting the h*ll out of him just to have a good laugh. But as time passes I realise that while I'm getting the laugher, he's getting the embarrassment and lower self-confidence. Today I will be the best I can. "Just because I make a few jokes sometimes that doesn't mean I can't stand you."

"I wouldn't say a few jokes..." he grabs the fork and starts picking the remaining vegetables on his plate, then continues. "Are you still working in the same place?"

I explain to him that our boss had a case in her family and gave all employees three days off. He nods his head at my words as a small sign that he understands. "What about you?" I finish the other croissant, together with the juice and lean back into my chair, ready to listen to him.

"I have a few days off too. Not because something happened to my boss, but because I accidentally set the studio on fire." he replies calmly. I stare at him wide eyed, waiting for him to laugh or at least say that he is joking. But when I see that he doesn't even look at me I realise he is serious.

"Even though I'm really curious about what happened, I have another question."

I decide to ask him about Namjoon's words. It is a joke, but there must be something that created it: a situation, or a person. Seonghwa finishes his plate as well and takes a sip of his water. Then I decide that we should rather take a walk. We've been too long in this place and I need fresh air. I will ask him about it outside.

***

It is a warm, sunny day, just like they said last night on TV. Seonghwa decided that a nearby park was a perfect place to sit and talk, and I agreed. So here we are, sitting on a wooden bench, listening to birds.

"Look, I wanted to ask you-"

"Namjoon told you, didn't he?" he interrupts me. As usually, he avoids to look at me and instead just looks around the park. I turn my body towards him, putting both of my legs on each side of the bench.

"He didn't tell me much. If you want, I can pretend that I don't know anything and you can say what you wanted instead of him." I try to speak as calm as I can. With his hands in his pockets and his lip under his teeth, he still refuses to look at me. I never saw how pretty his side profile is. He truly looks like an idol: with his clear skin, sharp jaw, almost perfect face proportions.

Finally, he sighs and turns his head towards me and catches me staring. "I think I have feelings for you." he goes straight to the point. My mouth suddenly gets dry and I try to think of my next words, but when he sees that I'm trying to speak, he puts his hand up as a sign to stop. "Let me finish. Believe me when I say that I have no clue when this started, and how it started. You always made fun of me and my dreams, but I laughed with you. You always refused to go out with me anywhere, and when you did go out with me, suddenly a third person would join. In case you didn't notice, I found a job in a studio on the other side of the city, just to be far from you. That way I could help both of us, but it didn't work. I still have no f*cking idea how I fell for a person like you, but I'm-"

"A person like me?" I raise my eyebrow. "What is that supposed to mean?" the blonde haired boy laughs at my words, making me even angrier.

"From all of the things I said, that's what you decide to ask me? Yes, a person like you. A mean person. A person that would embarrass anyone just to give the crowd a good laugh, even if it meant breaking the person. You know what? Forget it. I'm going back to the hole which I came from and I'll continue working hard on my stupid and impossible dreams, as you say. I don't even know what I expected from you." with those words, he gets up from the bench, not giving me a single look. Then he starts walking away. It takes me a few moments to replay all of his words in my head, and I get mad at myself for getting mad at him. He has every right to be like this, but one thing I still can't understand.

"Hey, idiot!" I slap myself mentally. Was it hard to call him by his name? It stayed as a habit, I guess. As expected, Seonghwa doesn't turn around, so I'm forced to run towards him. I grab his arm and stand in front of him, thinking of my next words. A sorry is all I can say. His gaze is killing me. From the look on his face I can see that he is remembering all the moments I let him down. I've never felt more ashamed and bad. He laughs sarcastically again and keeps walking. "No, please! You have no idea how sorry I am. All I wanted was to fit in I didn't even think about-"

"That's the thing. You didn't even think." he interrupts me for the second time today. "I hope you feel at least a little bit like I felt most of the time."

He's trying to look angry, but every few seconds his gaze softens. I used a boy with dreams to impress people I didn't even know. As a result, I broke him.

"But still, my mind and my heart are so tired and broken that I still wish to grab you and kiss you right here, hoping that you won't push me away." the words leave his mouth as a soft whisper. My hand is still holding his arm and I can't seem to let go.

All the words he said to me made me see him in a different light. I always saw him as that guy with good grades, but too big dreams, as the guy who could take all the jokes and even make jokes about himself. But right now, in front of me stood a grown up man, confessing everything so bravely. And his wish became true; I did feel a bit like he did. Humiliated and ashamed, but ashamed of my behaviour, not my dreams.

As we stood like that in the middle of the park, I didn't notice that he closed the gap between our bodies and gently removed my hand from his arm. "I really want to kiss you." he admits and waits for a response.

"How can you kiss a person like me?" my eyes are slowly starting to get teary as I keep replaying all his words in my head. He doesn't respond to that. Instead, he grabs my face gently with both his hands and presses his soft lips on mine. I close my eyes with a sigh and allow myself to return every kiss he gives me. I melt into his touch and find myself asking for more. After a few very short kisses, he pulls away.

"How can I not kiss a person like you?" he smiles. "You did make me feel miserable, but that didn't stop me for developing feelings for you. And I always believe in second chances when it comes to people. So please use it well."

[unkillability]

aight.....they got my teeth...........& they WOULDNT LET ME KEEP EM :'''( ........

description of wht i did under the influence below

doing well now but since I have a paradoxical reaction to versed (& other benzodiazepines) & DO NOT get sedated by them they also used ketamine along with the propofol & versed, which causes double vision, which i mention bc was the first thing i noticed upon waking up, (& since the concept of rabies is never far from my mind) i connected 'double vision' to 'rabies' & kept saying (around gauze)

'it must suck to have rabies. like it would suck for obvious reasons bc you die but double vision is annoying Rabies Must F*cking Suck'

& since the versed was still wearing off i was in partybitch mode & laughing at the walls & making an ungodly about of noise & while overall having the Time Of My Life even though my mom & the nurse/tech didn't want me to 'disturb the other patients' whatever That meant, & then i switched gears to talking about the Lion King, for some unknown reason, which included me saying ' im mufasa. im f*cking mufasa.' repeatedly & since i was worried i wasnt being understood i was emphasizing this by making clawing motions & growling. (in retrospect i realize i meant SCAR not mufasa bc thats who i was picturing but i forgot his name)

somewhere in the middle i also called myself a prophet??

note that i was swearing, a lot, like a lot a lot, which is something i DONT do around family. my family swears & so do i, i mean im 20, feral, but i don't swear around them.

but that REALLY hit the fan when a doorbell rang for something in the back of the building. & it was like. a normal ding dong doorbell. which i must've felt to be out of place, because i fixated on that

'what the sh!t - was that a doorbell?? was that a F*CKING DOORBELL? why is there a GODDAMN NORMAL DOOR BELL IN HERE. WHAT THE F*CK.' & i just kept going man - i wasn't... pissed....i thought it was funny.

the nurse told my mom '[theyre] about to start crying....mark my words..' & i was so pissed & kept going 'why would i fucking cry im fucking fantastic??, im mufasa?' i did not cry & was nowhere close to it.

i asked the nurse her name like....5 times...& Everytime she told my i was going 'thankyou. THANK YOU.THANKOUO SO MUCH. thank You so much.', & would shake her hand , over & over again.

right as she was helping me up/taking out my iv i got back onto the topic of rabies & she was doing that thing where nurses like...smile & go along with w/e bullshits coming outta someones mouth as they come to. & she went like

'so youve had rabies then? bc u know abt the double vision?'

which set me off on 'wtf thats NOT what im saying how could i have ever had rabies bc if u start to show symptoms it's too late & youll die. ive just READ ABT IT & i know double vision is part of it . the only way someone can possibly survive is if theyre lucky enough to have a dr try the Milwaukee protocol on them which is rlly only worked a handful of times i think & it's where-',

*i proceeded to try & explain the Milwaukee Protocol in a 3x normal speaking volume trying to talk above the gauze, which is bad, naturally, & everyone kept trying to make me stop talking, but i didnt shut up till i got home & inhaled a bowl of panera broccoli & cheddar soup.*