#{(I have been the same as I usually am)}
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
the best commission client you can ever get is always going to be this specific guy: he wants you to draw an oc he's had for like 16 years, he has a folder of references, she's like a catgirl who is also a magician or something, he has 3 paragraphs of her lore that he gives you + an exact pose, he's extremely polite and tells you to take as long as you need, and then he tips like $160 on top of the asking price at the end. and he always looks exactly like this
#HAVE YOU BEEN COMMISSIONED BY THIS MAN? you may be entitled to: no compensation actually bc he paid double#IT'S HIM. TIMOTHY COMMISSION#i have encountered a few copies of this man and it's always a pleasure#justin tim theodore jacob gabe. are all his name at the same time#sergle.txt#HE ALWAYS TIPS!!!! this guy. jacob or whatever his name is in whatever iteration#sometimes it's a cowgirl but usually it is a kitty cat... i don't care either way babygirl it could be anything. i am happy to take#this kind of order whenever it floats along towards me.
2K notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
2024 art summary! it sure has been a year
#ever makes art#i bsky tweeted a bit but it feels weird talking there still so ill do my usual rambling into tags here :)c#i burned out super bad in the middle of this year for months where it felt like i couldnt draw anything good no matter how hard i tried#and the harder i tried the worst it felt - to the degree that i legitimately thought i wasnt going to be able to draw anything again#which sounds SO dramatic i know i know. but feelings arent always rational!!! and so many others things were going wrong at the same time#so it was strange putting together this year's art summary and realizing Huh. i did still have paintings to put in every space#that fear/anxiety spiral seems even sillier and more meaningless now that i have distance and proof of how irrational it was...#...but in reflection i'd like to think of it as proof that even when you feel at your worse it's worth it to keep trying...!!#after the Black Hole of Nothing i've been working every day on never ending doujin and xv anthology and orv sketchzine and merch#i can't say that i feel my artistic skills have like. improved or anything... but the passion i feel for the stories i read and#the stories i want to tell is still there!! and the happiness from getting to put form to those feelings large or small is worth it too#anyway......... lotta words to say tho i haven't posted much anymore and socmed is imploding and the world is dark#thank you very much for staying with me another year. i am - as ever - always grateful
351 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
NO MORE ASSOCIATING THINGS WITH FEMMES ONLY BECAUSE THEY ARE PINK!HYPERFEM FEMMES ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YOU CAMPY FEMMES WHO EMBODY PINK BUT ALSO JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU GUYS NOT GO MORE THAN ONE DAY W/O TRYING TO SHOEHORN FEMMES INTO BEING ONLY PINK UWU BABIES. I AM FEMME AS IN GRASS AS IN DIRT AS IN TREE BARK AS IN WEEDS SPROUTING THROUGH THE SIDEWALK CEMENT. FEMME AS IN GENDER NONCONFORMITY AS IN FUCK YOU MY FEMININITY IS WHAT *I* SAY IT IS. FEMME AS IN DEPTH AND DARKNESS AND WARMTH AND TERROR. FEMME AS IN CAVES. FEMME AS IN LIGHTNING. FEMME AS IN AN AMALGAMATION OF TRAITS THAT I HAVE DECIDED ARE FEMININE REGARDLESS OF WHAT SOCIETY SAYS. FUCK IS IT THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND?!???
#personal#i am emotional yes#over the years ive had this blog I've made a few posts abt being femme#nd whether they're serious or jokey..... inevitably someone in the tags goes āohhh yeah bc pinkā#or in the case of what inspired this post: someone going āwhat about the pink onesā on my praying mantis post#and im just.#sick of it. im sick of femme being equated to pink and frilly girlie behaviors.#im sick of femme being equated to skirts and heels. to makeup. to skincare. to pristine nails exactly almond shaped.#im sick of ppl acting like All femmes aspire to this shit. im sick of femms being reduced to this shit.#and i love pink! i love pink! my phone theme is quite literally just black and pink all over.#im just. so tired of any expression of Femme identity being shoehorned into being a Specific type of femininity#especially as someone who DOES get dysphoric wearing skirts. wearing dresses. embodying the femme aesthetic yall are so set on making#if u guys wanna rb this i truly dont care#i just needed to scream#and this is one small thing#but the 2nd largest category of anon hate i have gotten since making this blog is str8 up homophobia from other āqueerā folks#saying i cant be femme bc of how i present. calling me slurs (and using them as such) bc they cant understand femme as anything but that#my wife and i have our users in our personal discord server set as 2 different things of anon hate ive gotten#i have had OTHER FEMMES tell me i am not femme. femmes who Know im femme who still call me butch. femmes who ive corrected and been blocked#-by bc of it. the number 1 largest demographic of queerfolk who have me blocked rn is TME femmes who embody pink also#and i dont think its a coincidence at all. (and i know this bc i go to try and follow these ppl bc they get rbed on my dash & i cant)#and ik their blogs arent deleted bc some of them don't block my wife (tall. white. butch) and it cant be politics cause her and i rb#a lot of the same political shit (fuck. i think she rbs More than i do even. this is genuinely mainly a nsft blog)#and usually i don't say anything but im having a bad day so i get to be angry about this and if anyone fucking tries me i will block u#idc if we've been mutuals 4ever. im judt so tired of feeling like i am not Enough as a femme bc i dont embody this shit#im sick of this lameass lip service to he/him gnc femmes etc when the thin white 50s housewife femme is still what is preferred and loved#im sick of this lamesss lip service when y'all feel entitled to theorizing on other femmes genders bc u cant conceptualize a femme who does#wanna be hypetfeminine. im sick of it. im sick of it. im sick of it.#celebrity bun
516 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
Did peepaw come home?!
HE DID! :D! luckily it only took me three ten-pulls; I think my past experience of being so thoroughly denied a Fairy Gala Ortho made me more worried than I should have been. may the gacha blessings pay forward to everyone else! (ļ¾āć®ā)ļ¾*:ļ½„ļ¾ā§
so far this is hands-down the funniest Lilia card, because he'll say something all edgy and badass in that deeper ~General Vanrouge~ tone and then follow it up immediately with one of the non-card-specific cutesy Lilia lines, and it gets me every time
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#i rolled for him before doing the story and when i set him on my home screen#the VERY FIRST line he said was the one where he's like 'the promise i made to revaan...my friend who is no longer here...' and i was like#excusez moi#(i'm going with revaan for now because i have no idea what it's meant to be and when in doubt go literal)#(honestly same with baul. baul feels right but who am i to say)#(i feel pretty confident about henrik but i am prepared to be wildly wrong about everything as per usual :')#anyway now the question is: do i try for the white rabbit cards or save up for whoever the next episode 7 ssr is#on the one hand i have been living for the episode 7 content#on the other hand the white rabbit event looks SO cute#truly this is the most difficult dilemma of our times
3K notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi prime defenders spoilers#jrwi pd spoilers#jrwi pd#william wisp#vyncent sol#THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it.#BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece#i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW)#that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that#if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles.#open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho#BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses...#lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH#FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE#i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony#recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day#ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw-#-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM-#-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS#its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not#well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i-#-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!!#i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i
334 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
Voice actors are NOT the same as actors.
It takes a specific kind of skill-set and training to be able to warp and meld the voice. It takes a certain kind of talent and dedication to hone that talent into the ability to meld the voice and invoke emotion with one's voice alone. Actors are used to using their voice secondarily to their body language and their facial expressions. It's all mirrored back on camera. They do have nuance. But it's a different kind of nuance and a different kind of training to produce that nuance.
Voice actors might get their likeness transposed on their character's design, and maybe their mannerisms might seep into the character's animation. But when it's all said and done: their presence is in their voice. They are bringing a character to life, showing that emotion in their voice, trying to keep a specific accent, drawl, pitch, tone in that voice and keep it consistent for their recording sessions.
The voice actor is like a classically trained musician who can play first chair in a competitive, world-renown orchestra. The actor (who fills the voice actor's role) is like a moot who played violin in beginner and intermediate high school orchestra and thinks they can get into Juilliard with that 2-4 years of experience.
This doesn't mean that the HS orchestra moot can't play. They can even be really good at it. Maybe they won competitions and sat first chair. But they are not in the same league as the person who's been training their whole lives and lives and breathes to hone their craft using the instrument and all of the training they've ever acquired to perfect it. They are not meant for the same roles. They are not in the same caliber. You do not hire the HS equivalent when you want to play complex music in a competitive orchestra.
Actors are not the same as voice actors.
And furthermore, actors - especially big name actors - taking the roles of animated characters for big budget films or TV pilots makes no sense anyways when - at least in the case of TV pilots - there's not a point to hiring a big budget actors anyways. That money could be used elsewhere (like paying your animators), and the talent that is brought onto the screen for X character could then be hired on to voice said character no recasting required.
I wouldn't say voice acting as a profession is in danger exactly, but it's certainly being disrespected and overlooked for celebrity clout, and this has ALWAYS been an issue. Shoot, even Robin Williams knew that much - which is why he tried so hard not to be used as a marketing chess piece for Aladdin and got royally pissed off when it happened anyways. People shouldn't go to any movie (but especially not animated films) because "oh famous actor is in it". People should go because it's a good movie and the voice acting is good.
People who honest to god think that voice actors are replaceable because "oh well anyone can voice act" or "I like xyz celebrity so naturally it'll be good" ... Honestly I just wish you'd reassess your priorities because you're missing the point and are part of the problem.
Voice Actors ā Actors.
#(i am incredibly passionate about this)#(and seeing celebrity voice actors in what should be a voice actor's role completely burns my buns it doesn't matter WHO it is)#(hemsworth as optimus? someone tell me one good reason why they couldn't get a good v/a to replace mr. cullen properly for the future)#(ben shwartz as sonic? dude literally isn't even a good voice actor OR actor anyways-)#(- A N D jason griffith AND my boy roger craig smith are still RIGHT HERE)#(jason griffith IN PARTICULAR would have pulled back SO many sonic fans that went to watch the film anyways. if not /more/.)#(and on top of that he has the same tonality and energy they tried to force this moshmo to try and emulate anyways so GET THE REAL THING)#(chris pratt as mario? i can at least defend /him/ and say that barring his failure to do a NY accent consistently he wasn't terrible)#(but mario's new voice actor could've been used instead and people would've clearly appreciated that WAY more)#(vanessa hudgens as sunny starscout in mlp g5's pilot movie? literally why. they replace her and hitch's va in the show.)#(don't even get me started on the concept of hiring celebrity singers to do musical theatre roles or not letting musical theatre singers-)#(-dub the celebrity voice actors you just HAD to hire for your film bc you're so worried about not getting enough clout to get ppl in seats#(that you're putting it all in this (1) big name hire bc turns out that you have no faith in your writing ability much less-)#(-animation as a medium.)#(and no before anyone says anything : no this is not me saying that ALL celebrity voice castings are bad.)#(there are some that aren't that bad and others that are actually pretty good.)#(i especially appreciate it when actors are damn well aware they aren't voice actors and try to LEARN from voice coaches-)#(-and/or their va predecessors if applicable.)#(that does not change the fact that the celebrity shouldn't have been hired just because the film wanted to have bragging clout-)#(-oh look at this FAMOUS PERSON we were able to hire ā yeah ok. sure wendy. i want to know if this film is quality or not.)#(and 9/10 times the SECOND there is money spent on a non voice actor to voice the main character especially)#(that usually means somewhere along the way animation IS going to get shafted. if not w the animators themselves then in the way of-)#(-the actual animation itself and ESPECIALLY the screenwriting because it's especially been so dogshit lately even before the strike.)#(a celebrity being hired to fill a voice actor's role is such an immediate red flag to me and it is VERY rare that i get to be proven wrong
117 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
me when i find two perfect labels for myself but theyre microlabels that NO ONE FUCKING KNOWS


#the second one is i got help from people to find#normally its just the first part of it but this one made by a user in pinterest is half gay#its almondromantic#a person who feels more attraction to male/nonbinary genders who can occasionally feel attracted to female genders as well#but is usually short lived or not serious#it started with me asking to be labelled#because aroaces can have orientation as well and i wanted to know mine#and explained how i am very sure i really like guys i can like girls sometimes but not in a bisexual way#and whenever i picture the future i can only see myself having a husband rather than a wife#someone said their friend experienced the exact same thing#they had been with women before but has told the commentor that they cant see themselves seriously being with one#and they gave me this label! which just sits right!@#AND I LOVE THAT FLAG#someone help#ok i yapped too much#me when i rant
30 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
something about tr!Bad responding to tr!Pili talking about asking tr!Foolish on a date with āgood for youšā that is my aromantic cubito right there. If tr!Foolish started acting the way tr!Bad does, tr!Bad would be weirded the hell out by it and I will DIE ON THIS HILL.
Every time tr!Foolish gets too Strange with tr!Bad heās like āwhy are you being like thisā and backs off. He doesnāt want foolish to reciprocate his energy that would be gross oh my god you think he wants to date Foolish???? He hates that guy. Blegh.
#i genuinely donāt think bad is lying when he says he hates foolish#he does. he fully does#thatās like an essential part of landduo and it comes from both sides#heās weird about foolish in an opposite way to the way foolish is weird about him because theyāre at odds eternally#if foolish is weird about him in the same way he would flip to take up Foolishās role#donāt mind me just having landduo thoughts#Iāve been sitting on this draft for a while#and for a while I mean like a week#trsmp landduo#watch me be fully incorrect#I usually am
47 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text


Showing off my rin doodle collectionā
(Feel free to try and find some of the song references on my doorā)
+lil mizuena doodle cus i have no energy to draw but they are finally happy and i luv them
#with crumbs of mikurin as usual#i promise ill do an actual full mikurin drawing someday...eventually#my art#i have been doodling on my door for like 2 months at this point#not everyday but whenever i have a thought to spill#its a fun excercise to try new ways to draw the same thing over and over#im going to be verrrry busy again#so see you guys in a while maybe#vocaloid#kagamine rin#rin kagamine#pjsk#wxs#l/n#niigo#mmj#vbs#project sekai#just putting those last tagas cus of the top doodles of pjsk ā with rin of course#hatsune miku#mikurin#featuring the designs of rin and miku i did some months ago hahaā#i guess i should also tag mizuena? i am not really proud of my doodle so i kinda hid it haha#mizuena
42 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
So, a while back ago I commissioned @dweebsfilingcabinet because @mayhemmaybe had a brilliant idea of inserting Shiro and Mephisto into a MTG card that they had, and I was not only immediately onboard with the idea but impatient to make it manifest.
I dunno what I love more: the brilliance and the lighting of the stained glass from the Bloody Fairy Tale inspired images, the sheer power and possessiveness radiating from both sets, or all the yelling and screaming Dweeb and I did with/at each other while they made these beautiful works of art happen, which had us both geeking out the entire time. Like, god fucking damn, I hit the jackpot here!!
Anyway, you should really commission @dweebsfilingcabinet. Their art is always phenomenal, their prices are highway robbery onto themselves, they never disappoint. Please give their sheet a look. It's super worth it and always a fucking masterpiece.
MTG reference undercut

#weeaboo shitlord (Mephisto)#handsome old guy (self)#pleasure and pain feel all the same (Shiro & Mephisto)#mayhemmaybe#dweebsfilingcabinet#I.. should have posted this a long time ago but I am not used to posting commissions either rip#I usually let the artists post then reblog off of them to hype them up and link back to them#but fucking life has been chaotic all around so ya know#EITHER WAY#APPRECIATE OLD MAN YAOI#APPRECIATE DWEEB FOR UNDERSTANDING THE ASSIGNMENT CAUSE HOLY SHIT#I DON'T THINK ANYONE ELSE COULD HAVE DONE IT BETTER#I DON'T THINK I'D WANT ANYONE ELSE TO HANDLE IT#THEY GET THE ENERGY!!!
32 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
Lil warm up doodle because I'd been playing some Thropes and then watched some dubbed DunMeshi and am a Damien Haas enjoyer so. Enjoy a Shez.
#fe warriors three hopes#shez#i usually watch subbed anime but my brain recently hasn't been able to process subtitles + not english#like my brain cannot filter the difference and then i simply get stressed out because i dont know what was said via reading#and its been... bad tbh#so i swapped over to the english audio but still with subtitles and its been fine !#i also really enjoy how damien sounds so excited cause when i would watch him stream#and he would go on a story telling adventure it was so enthusiastic and genuine#and i like how he has that same vibe in the show#that said i have never drawn fanart for dunmeshi and dont wanna start now while i have other art obligations#i can dabble with learning how to draw different characters after i do comms if i feel up to it#but fe is such a default for me its really easy to draw as a doodle/warm up#also im incredibly biased to being fond of damien cause he commissioned me for emotes for twitch#which is incredibly flattering and no other va has bought art from me ? so thank you mr haas for the honors#i also am a shez enjoyer and love the vibes of both shez looks
144 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
Happy Pride month everyone B*) Allow me to reveal a little behind the scenes detail behind my Banner and Icon. Love was always winning <3
#I don't know what to tag this one to be honest#probably a#delete later#I have made a solemn promise that any icon and banner for this blog must be done in a pair. They Cannot Be Separated.#They have had too much of that already#But yes; they have always been together on the same canvas#they originally were just barley not holding hands so I fixed it <3 love wins#I'm hoping to change them out every new season I start so these guys are probably in their last month of life B'*)#can you believe wwx used to have different bangs? blasphemy#Once again throwing out meta content so I can make up for the fact I am running on fumes#starting out pride month by engaging in another sin (sloth (I slept for more than my usual 4-5 hours (this blog functions on insomnia)))#comic tomorrow cause the next batch is 90% done I literally just ran out of time.#I'm in a toxic relationship with The Grind but in a homoromantic/erotic way.#We (the grind and I) would have long metas written about how we are bad lgbtq rep and spark heated debate within the community.
377 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
Bioware, why your white guy companion does get to exist separately from his skeleton son add-on that players can kill for a tear-jerker moment , but the black guy needs to die with his flying dog?
And if you went ahead and stated that you thought the death of the flying dog would be more impactful of the two rather then death of Davrin, honestly the best companion in the cast (whose whole quest revolves around survivors guilt and finding new things to live for) couldn't you at least let my man live regardless? Or at least have enough decency to not talk about him in the interview as if he is the add on part of this duo? Please?
#When it comes to animal death in media I am usually willing to give people benefit of the doubt#Because I get it can be a trigger etc#But when I look at the stats and see how many people were willing to sacrifice the skeleton-child#For Emmrich's immortality#And then those same people talking about how āThey could never sacrifice Assanā...#It sure does make me... think#da veilguard spoilers#dragon age veilguard#I honestly feel kind of stupid#For believing they did it for any plot reasons that made sense#And fully stand by my opinion that it should have been a choice between Lucanis/Neve (depending on who gets hardened) and maybe Harding.#Leave my man Davrin out of this he is to good for all of you.#I don't know if I am putting in words the right way#may delete later#bioware critical#dragon age veilguard spoilers
30 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
i see a lot of opinions around, about death, and why she didn't intervene in dream's imprisonment
and i think a lot of people have trouble reconciling the idea that she does care about him, with the fact that she didn't do anything?
so then you get the theories that she couldn't have saved him (as if burgess was ever a match for the endless, he only got dream because dream was still recovering from burning out 99% of his power in overture), or that she was stuck by the rules of the endless not interfering with each other (that's a whole other convoluted discussion topic)
but i feel like these theories all kinda. misread, who death is. or rather, they sort of assume she's a human being with the same mentality as a human, and not the literal personification of death
of course she cares about her brother. and of course she technically had the power to intervene. but think about her existence. think about the way in which she knows everyone, the life she's lived for billions of years, and the life she knows she'll live until she's the last consciousness left in the universe
she's an inherently passive entity, she has to be. because her entire purpose is to stand there for the end of every life in existence, often horrific and violent and unfair ones, and to tell them that's just the way of things. to ensure that that fate does indeed come to pass. she knows how everyone is going to die and she just has to keep talking to them like she doesn't
when she was younger, it was different. granted, she refused to help dream then too, because (at least according to dream) all the endless were incredibly prideful when they were young, and wouldn't even have tried to help each other. but also, we have her word that at one point her job got overwhelming. the fact that she had to stand by and watch so much tragedy, to ensure it happened, really got to her. and for a while, she stopped. one of the few times if not the only time she has ever made a strong decision in the face of fate - she stopped collecting souls. and that turned out much worse. in order to exist as herself, she had to find a way to not only be okay with who she is, but find meaning in it. the person who would get involved, who would stand up against unfairness, that person cannot be death of the endless
and think about death as a concept, for a sec, not just as a person. death is patient. death will come for everyone in time, but time is meaningless to it. i like this panel, from endless nights, for connecting that with death the person, because she is always there and always waiting (in this story she waits here for anywhere between 10 and 200 years, depending on how you look at it. and she explains in this story that time doesn't really work the same to her as it does to everyone else. time is her father, after all. she can wait. she will always wait.)

even when she takes human form, like we see in high cost of living, she is the epitome of go with the flow. she just follows where the universe takes her, doesn't try to change anything, just lets her curiosity and love for humanity put her in whatever situation fate decided she should be. and fate (whether that's her brother, the fates, or something else entirely) does play some role in it, because her human form was created with $10.02 in her pocket, which is the exact amount of money she ended up needing to spend that day. and she trusts that she won't need more than that, no matter how many questions are thrown at her about it
which is not an inherently bad thing! because living in the moment means she is so much more alive than her siblings, it gives her the ability to offer so much more empathy towards the mortals she has to spend most of her time with, it makes her in many ways a wonderful person. she's just, not a person of action
death doesn't show she cares by stopping the bad things from happening to you. she shows she cares by being there for you after. by having the patience, despite her busy job, to sit and chat with every single person who's ever lived, and to comfort them in the best way she knows how
which is exactly what she did
#i am very tired rn so hopefully this is coherent#but i've been thinking about this again a lot recently#like. that 'i know' to dream. it's the same way she talks to everyone else#100 years is really not long to her#and she probably knew he'd be okay eventually#or i mean. okay from that anyway#i do have a lot of thoughts about how this applies to the everything in the later story but that is for another post when i have more brain#death of the endless#dream of the endless#the sandman#meta#mine#(to be clear do not stop with the death saves dream aus those are fun to read for the sibling content)#(but yeah avenging angel not usually her style)
374 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
I wish I knew more about music or like how to talk about it in depth because the tsp soundtrack literally makes me feel so many emotions and I donāt even have the words to express why it makes my heart claw out of my chest (major rambling in the tags lol)
#crow thoughts#LIKE. ITS NOT JUST ME RIGHT.#THE MUSIC IN THIS GAME HITS GOOD#like. rn Iāve been nonstop thinking about the epilogue music that plays while youāre traveling to the memory zone#(the video from earlier played a bit of it and itās been looping in my head)#AND IT JUST. DOES SO WELL AT CONVEYING THE EMPTY LONELY WASTELAND THAT WAS ONCE THE MEMORY ZONEā¦ā¦#like itās not chipper or upbeat like how it usually is#itās empty. itās lonely. itās looking for something.#<- AND MAYBE ITS A REACH BUT. it sounds eerily close to the freedom ending track#the way it opens at least has that same sort of tone but just the beginning parts#and like. idk if thatās just me feeling that way but. I AM THINKING ABOUT IT.#also a very fun neat one but the bottom of the kind control facility song-#-having a cute simple version of it playing in the background of the bucket version of that ending#idk itās just so fun I love it. I love it A LOT#(is that a leitmotif? I think so. when a song reuses parts of another song right?)#also I love the way they use the music within the game if that makes sense#such a good navigation between when and when not to play the track#like when you first start up/restart and stand in Stanleyās office itās got the music playing in the background#and it follows you till you get to the two doors; your first choice and when the music fades out/stops#I know thereās the coward ending as a choice but the two doors is like yknow. the first big choice the game introduces to you directly#<- IDKā¦ā¦.I JUST THINK ITS GOODā¦ā¦ā¦.
14 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
This is so stupid and such a small thing and idk what it says about me but I always laugh and giggle to myself when people ask me how mom died and I tell them cuz the reaction is almost always āOh! Ohā¦.oh my godā¦.ā Like yeah Baby girl that trauma is trauma-ing big time for me lol
#Mama#as long as Barry and I have been friends he didnāt know how mom died#mostly because I donāt go around talking about it obvy#but I just told him today and like listen Barry is usually a goofy man#like heās goofy and heās caring but like doesnāt usually show the caring side a lot#justā¦.just think Bakugou coded ok cuz thatās him#but yeah anyway I told him today#and he of course had that same reaction like āOh! goddamnā#but what got me was immediately after he said āthe way you react to that kinda worries me Ms. Marqā#he said āyou said it as if she had died from cancer or something. like you knew it was comingā#and I was like āoh no. I didnāt at it was a complete shock lol. thatās also why in the group chat you donāt see me respond until morningā#and heās like āwait why?ā#and I was like ābecause most of the time when my phone goes on the bedtime do not disturb mode I am afraid to check it until the morning#and what really made me happy was that he was like āAw. ok I seeā¦. and then paused for a bit and was like#āIāll send a āgood morning Ms Marqā in the group chat then before I bombard yall with my foolishness#like š„¹š„¹š„¹#he didnāt make a big deal about itā¦he understood Iām a little fucked up#and then was like āwell Iāll offer this little happiness for you maybe itāll helpā#it was a nice moment. Iām very very thankful for work wife and work bestie Barry
17 notes
Ā·
View notes