#[vibrates into the fifth fucking dimension]

[schniggles]

#oh not to be deranged in the tags but it just occurred to me like...has pale king or white lady ever touched hollow like in any way a parent #would...bc if so ohhh boy that rlly makes radiance's touching hollow knights face in ur animatics like ....their own father n mother never #never did that for them...but their worst enemy would? one of the few (if any) instances of physical contact for them was a mockery? #or something like that (via sporadicstarstruckplanet)

hmm

[hussyknee]

I'm so fucking mad.

Yesterday I took 50mg of Atomoxetine (Strattera) out of sheer frustration instead of my prescribed 30mg which was doing nothing.

And then...I was like "get up" and I would get up. "Go find the electricity bill" and went and found the electricity bill. "Sort through all the mail and organise it" and just. Fucking. Did it. No getting stuck for half an hour and spiralling in anxiety because my executive commands weren't going through.

I went to the hospital and begged those fuckers to increase my dosage and spent half an hour trying to convince them that this is clearly my ADHD symptoms being exacerbated by anxiety that's fucking me up. They refused, said "Oh, but anyone would find it difficult to function in your situation", and increased my Venlafaxine (Effexor) instead, although that fuckin plateaus any further than the dosage I already take. My primary doc knows this, but I have better luck catching Bigfoot than her at NHSL anymore so I keep having to tussle with the junior dipshits.

Granted I seem to have overshot a bit, because I spent a while vibrating into the fifth dimension. Felt like I'd had six cups of coffee and needed to do three things at once. Perhaps I should have attempted 40mg first. But 50mg very much did catapult me out of this neverending rut.

WEEKS OF BEING TRAPPED BY THE STATIC IN MY BRAIN LIKE A ROOMBA ON A RUG. I couldn't get out of bed, eat on time, shower, make my bed, do my laundry, go to bed. The simplest fucking tasks like pushing a boulder uphill with a stick. Sitting on the bed doomscrolling and tearing the soles of my feet into strips so bloody that it hurt to walk. I don't pick at my feet anymore! Didn't even realize I hadn't until the end of yesterday. This is the first time I've stopped in months. I stock up on band-aids and keep them next to my bed because I usually bleed in about three places within a day. And I pick the scabs off the still-healing wounds. All stopped by 20mg more of Strattera!!!

In other medication fuckery, I stopped the anti-inflammatory meds I was taking for my back because 1) the total cost of my meds was getting insane and 2) I haven't been in pain the last two months. I looked up whether there were side effects for long-term use of NSAIDs and found that using any of them with Venlafaxine increases the chance of gastrointestinal bleeding?? The way I've been having all this time?? Was my rheumatologist ever gonna tell me?? I'm just so used to flares, so fogged in my head and so relatively pain-free that I didn't especially note it. Turns out– the only reason I haven't been in pain is because I was taking the fucking anti-inflammatories. Imagine that! So I can either take Venlafaxine (which I cherish like a child regardless of the wrath-of-God withdrawal any time I miss a single dose) or I can take NSAIDs??

*googles anti-inflammatory meds other than NSAIDs*

Internet: "eat pineapple idk. have you tried tumeric?"

I hate my life.

[seeinginthedark]

I’m lucky that I’m in a position in life where I’ve had so much time to sit and think about this look into this really observe this and learn as much as I can about this situation we are in . It started when I was a nurse and I learned that a huge majority of people’s poor health , is due to their environment and the systems that are meant to help them to heal . Like hospitals . I’m lucky i had a curiousity in looking into things and being like an advocate for my clients who were mostly disadvantaged groups . I kept on wondering why we are so fucked up to each other and started following all the leads , going down more and more rabbit holes and I did that straight for four years full time and now this is where I am with it. It’s led me to these 4th dimensional entities.

So there are different kind of entities messing with us . Like different species with different agendas

all from the same dimension which i think is the 4th dimension. They know that we are fascinated with space exploration that’s why a lot of them say they are from space . They aren’t from space. They created very realistic androids that look humanoid and they get programmed to say that they are “good” aliens from Space. With amazing technology they want to share. Which is so suss I don’t know why other people aren’t suspicious of this like I am .

Quite a lot of the entities are a bit jealous of us I think because we can create life. And they can’t . We are like mini creators or mini gods and goddesses. And so some of them are pretty smug and satisfied with themselves at what they managed to pull off which was getting us (fifth dimensional beings ) into this third dimensional fake holographic reality . Which we can emancipate from by realising and remembering who we are and how powerful we are . We are way more powerful than them . I’m sorry if I’m on repeat when I say this as I’ve said it in my other videos as-well and I won’t stop saying it. Don’t be afraid of them once you become aware of them. They are lowly parasites. They think they are very clever . But they wouldn’t of been able to house us here in this prison planet situation or been able to place time on us if they hadn’t made shonky alliances with other species and merged themselves with an A.I , a bad one. Subsequently a lot of them have merged with this bad A.I and alot of them are semi -robotic now.

The species that are interfering with us that I know of , are the Reptilians and Draconians who like to spread rumours about themselves such as they have very powerful psychic abilities. Or They’ve colonised other planets in other star systems . Which is bulshit because remember they aren’t from space , they’re inter dimensional . Other rumours they spread is that They can hypnotise humans with their eyes and like paralyse you and read your thoughts , shape shift , like to eat human children and shit like this . Like bogeyman stories . It’s rubbish . It’s all lies to get us to be scared of them once we find out about them . Yes I’ve heard of Loosh like it could be true. they could be feeding off our low vibrations like scavengers. But if you have protection from your ancestors or friends from the spirit realm , they can’t feed off you or try mess with your destiny pathways . Most of the harms that they do to us is from their technology that they use and they wouldn’t be able to do without their A.I alliance . So I see them as pathetic creatures . I don’t believe the hype basically. When you get to your true 5D self, you will see this the same way I do , probably .

Other species that I’m aware of are the ��content viewers” I call them. I’ve known about them since I was a kid . They love to watch us from outside the simulation as content, like we are in a reality show . when I was a kid in the early 90’s I had a feeling I was being viewed by cameras a lot. And I didn’t mind it actually . which is interesting because this was before the age of big brother before they started putting cameras everywhere and before I knew what a reality show was. And it was Just before the time when they made it appealing to us to want to be famous on tv . I was usually out in nature alot because i wasnt allowed to watch tv shows , just videos of movies , so I don’t know how I imagined this concept but I knew something technical was going on. I didn’t have the language or the knowledge to describe it . But now I realise what it meant. They seem to be involved with my bloodline because my mother actually had a vision once when she took psychedelics for the first time and she told me it was horrifying she was shown that this reality is just a big like reality show with cameras everywhere, watching us . She never wanted to try psychedelics again after that. So I think the content viewers like to watch people who are on heroic destiny pathways . These people go through alot of trials and tribulations in their lives, they sustain alot of damage and drama for them to grow and develop into a hero and that’s the kind of content that this species likes to view . I think they have an alliance with the next species that I’ll mention which is the paedophile species . I’ve had run ins with this species and I was researching their agenda for a couple of years . The paedophile species introduced pedophilia and kink or fetishes to us . Their aim is to groom us to be perverts. And I think they are successfully doing that. Looking at the world today it’s quite obvious I won’t spend too much time talking about this topic because it’s very disturbing what is happening with this . We have very unhealthy and un natural social attitudes around gender and sexuality and Im pretty sure they had something to do with that , because when we’re living naturally in small tribes in history before they moved us into the big yucky cities , there was no pedophilia . Children were looked after . Elders were respected . This concept of pedophilia was introduced to us and it has links with the Freemasons and some influential occultists and was normally reserved for the elite and like the evil priests and people in positions of power . Which is not the majority of us. But now we have these pop stars looking more younger and younger , child stars being exploited and sexualised, USA is the biggest consumer of child pornography so it is creeping into society more and more . Men are more susceptible to this type of programming unfortunately. Not only that but their has been a lot of attacks happening by these entities to the hero’s of the population the ones that are spiritual warriors the ones sent here to help in the spiritual war. These attacks are sexual in nature and also involve mind attacks putting disgusting thoughts and suggestions into peoples heads . Thoughts around paedophilia and beastiality. Causing people to have a psychosis . Causing people to want to suicide . Inhibiting people from astral projection or astral travelling. Entering into peoples dreams and suggesting they do disgusting things to children in their dreams. So this is really horrible that people are going through this. I’ve also been hearing of human Freemasons going into the astral to hunt for victims to abuse . Of this is you please hang in there you are not alone and help is on its way. The helpers are just triaging right now because things have heated up in the spiritual war in the past couple of months and it is going to be like this for a couple of years. I said in another video that we are at a crucial stage of it. We have many spiritual heroes at the moment getting attacked and neutralised from all areas . It’s being addressed, I’ll have more updates.

[creature-wizard]

What exactly is New Age? Some things I've read make it sound like cultural appropriation witchcraft (which is complicated, because something religions/cultures have a bit of overlap or similarities that showed up through parallel evolution) and some things make it sound like Scientology 2.

In a nutshell, New Age comes out of Theosophy, a perennialist spirituality that proposes that Earth and humanity are on a path of spiritual evolution, and that we are about to enter the next phase. Depending on who you talk to, you might hear it referred to as the New Age, the Aquarian Age, the Age of Aquarius, the Fifth Density, or Fifth Dimension. This is called "ascension."

Unfortunately, all of this was deeply influenced by Victorian age understandings of evolution and cultural advancement, which were racist as all fuck - you know, that whole thing of assuming that evolution progressed in a linear fashion, that some races of people were more objectively advanced than others, and that the "natural order" of things is that the more advanced will wipe out and replace the less advanced.

In New Age thinking, reaching the next stage in our cosmic evolution requires people to convert to New Age spirituality. Those who don't convert are to be purged. A number of New Agers have professed belief that the purpose of climate change is purging the unevolved/unenlightned. A number of them believe that "regressive entities" (essentially, those who reject New Age teachings) will be executed.

As for who they reckon as "regressive beings," you'll find it's typically the same people targeted by QAnon and pretty much every fascist movement - Jews, queer people, liberals, etc. New Age has always been heavily conspiratorial, because it's an easy way to justify why nobody ever heard of or believes in the "ancient wisdom" you're teaching, and it's always attracted and interested people with extreme right wing views - William Dudley Pelley and Hermann Wieland come to mind. Not every New Ager is equally hateful, but if you start looking through influential New Age literature you'll more often than not find it pushing antisemitism and/or Aryan idealism in some way.

New Age also incorporates ancient aliens, which itself was a pseudoscientific idea cooked up by people who refused to believe that ancient POC could have built anything they reckoned as "civilization" by themselves. This in turn influenced the whole starseed narrative, which essentially teaches that advanced alien souls are incarnating into human bodies to help "raise Earth's vibrational frequency" (New Age speak for "convert people to New Age beliefs"). The whole reptilian alien myth they believe in is pure antisemitism.

New Agers also cherry pick and misrepresent other people's spiritual traditions in order to fabricate "evidence" of their beliefs. Anytime there's a story about gods or angels banging humans, they'll claim it's about "alien genetic experiments." They'll ignore the animistic elements in many myths, because they just don't really comprehend that animism was and still is an entire thing for many cultures. Any time two myths are even vaguely similar, they'll claim they're talking about the same thing. (And of course, they believe that they, personally, know the correct and true interpretation of any myth.)

Since they're perennialists who believe that all religions are secretly the same under the surface, they think cultural appropriation is fine and dandy. They tend to idealize Native American and Eastern spiritualities the most, so that's what you'll usually find them appropriating and misrepresenting.

New Agers also tend to claim that science supports their belief, but they have a very... shall we say... misinformed conception of science. They butcher quantum physics to hell and back. They essentially understand "spiritual energy" as a form of radiation - and not just some kind of mystical, unknown form of radiation, but actual forms of radiation that we know about like light and electromagnetism. Supposedly, high vibrational energies are always morally and physically good for you, and low vibrational energies are morally and physically bad for you. Based on their own logic, touching the demon core should cure you of all illnesses and open and cleanse your chakras immediately.

Since New Age's endgame is eradicating all other forms of religion and spirituality, it is inherently genocidal. If you took out the parts that were problematic, it wouldn't really be New Age anymore.

This, I hope, sums things up for you. If you want more information, I recommend checking out my pinned post and my resources page.

[moon-touched-vn]

(vibrates into the fifth dimension) Arthur with a temper. Arthur who is allowed to say "fuck." impatient Arthur. irreverent Arthur. funny Arthur. do you see my vision.

[jujurose222]

As a girl who needs to trust her intuition I’m so fucking glad I met you.

My aunt asked me, “Why did you choose to study holistic health, when you are always talking about these other crazy things, what made you choose?” And I told her because it’s the perfect challenge for me. That other stuff comes easy, but the world of external health does not. I gotta work with the land, I have been living in the ether for as long as I can remember, I need to challenge myself. My mind can make great connections, but my mind body link is often lost considering the fact they are vibrating at different wavelengths. So the speed of my mind cannot handle the pace of my body. Vice versa. I must learn with my mind first, everything I can of plants and techniques and remedies. Then I can begin to learn how to code it into my bodies program. I know the stars, I know the heavens oh so well. The land and the elements not so much.

I want you because you challenge me. Push me out of my comfort zone. I know I do the same to you, and I have felt like I overwhelmed you. But as I said, my mind is one hell of a place, but it can be heavenly too. Confusing its true. I know you understand me. Because I understand you. I know exactly why I met you. Because you challenge me, I love it so dearly. You excite me.

“Now take two beings for whom time has a meaning, and imagine two such beings colliding with each other. Then something must appear as a result, similar to what we have previously called an accumulation of [opposing] forces; and what arises as a result when two four-dimensional beings come into relation with each other is their fifth dimension. This fifth dimension arises as a result, as a consequence of an exchange la neutralization of polar force effects], in that two living beings, through their mutual interaction, produce something that they do not have outside in the three ordinary spatial dimensions together], nor do they have in [the fourth dimension,] time, but have completely outside these [previously discussed dimensions or] boundaries. This is what we call compassion [or feeling], by which one being knows another, thus the realization of the [spiritual and mental] inner being of another being. A being could never know anything about another being outside of time [and space] if you did not add a higher, fifth dimension, [i.e. enter the world of] sensation.” Rudolf Steiner

Time does stop with you. It felt like I was living the imagination I had as a child, but like real life. It felt like a dream but more than that as well, it felt like something nobody else was aware of, just us. A hidden path only you and me took. I used to hate it so much, nobody understood, but that’s why it’s so special. And there are people who understand, I wonder if I’ll ever meet them. But right now I am alone in this, isn’t in wondrous? I can write for ages now.

I can live in eternity now. I have witnessed the 8 in its glory. Like a tesseract. I was more than just a 4th dimensional being with you, that’s why I want more. Nobody knows that, but I do. I’ll get there again, my right hand. Let me be left, it’s so much nicer than right. I technically left you, but it was the right thing to do. I want to do the right thing so bad. I mean that as you. Because you are the right thing to do. But we are mirrors and in those higher dimensions, we can play around more. You and I can swap and swap until we swap some more. Or we can find a balance and become something even more. Like Garnet. See you remind me of my childhood.

I hate when girls laugh at boys for not being empathetic. We have to show them how to do it, they have lost connection from their feminine side. As we embrace the masculine we have to balance our own feminine. And everybody is feeling these imbalances. I hated that they were so cruel for long, but I realized I was fighting fire with fire.

Now I just fight fire with water and air, see if there’s a reason in there.

I think I am a pretty good magician.

I think you are much better than you give yourself credit for. It’s all about perception right? I am sorry I left when I really just wanted you so badly to myself. But truly I think I handled it well. I just want you for myself, and I don’t think that’s too much to ask at all. That’s all I want from you, that’s why I clicked play on time again. So we could learn, and trust me I did.

I like challenges. 1212. I wish I could show you my memories, and I wish I could witness yours. Maybe one day we could find the plane where that’s possible.

[indiiglow]

So

Uh

How do I get a job...

[quinnmorgendorffer]

more importantly, the songs played in the little spotify wrapped presentation were, the first two times:

“man to make me sweat” by leslie powell for the intro, then “long to be close to you” by the carpenters

“sing to me” by kate miller-heidke for the genres, “hungry eyes” by eric carmen

“circus” by britney spears for the schedule of the day, stayed the same

“good vibrations” by the beach boys for the total minutes, “friday i’m in love” by the cure

“be my baby” by the ronnettes for top song (bc...top song)

“walk like a man” for the top songs reveal (bc 2nd top song)

“age of aquarius/let the sunshine in” by the fifth dimension to introduce the wrapped playlist, “I can hear music” by freddie mercury - PERFECT SONG CHOICE

“3″ by britney spears for my top artist, stayed the same

“under pressure” by queen for top 5 artists, stayed the same

“don’t stop me now” by queen for my personality reveal - which is fucking “THE MAVERICK” als;kdfjs, then “wake me up before you go-go” by wham

don’t remember what the last song was the first time, but second time it was “fuck me rayburdy” by rachel bloom i’m fucking

[luminecho]

Hello Echo, question. Do you still have Four brainrot? Follow up question. Do you have any songs that you associate with Four? Thanks bestie <3

Answer 1: Steel, I ALWAYS have Four brainrot <3

Answer 2: I am literally SO FUCKING GLAD you asked, you have no idea how excited I got seeing this holy shit. HELL YEAH I do!! Take a few songs from my playlist

If I include more than 3 Sleeping At Last, Of Monsters And Men, or The Oh Hellos songs on any given playlist or list of songs you may be entitled to financial compensatio-- *looks at this list* oh whoops

1) Crystals - Of Monsters And Men - this might as well be Four’s theme song for all I associate it with him. It’s so good. So so so good.

2) Call Them Brothers - Regina Spektor - Obligatory Call Them Brothers mention. This is not original at all I've seen so many other people talk about this song with Four and-- yeah they're right this song is about Four JKHEHBFDEKF.

3) Bad Blood - Sleeping At Last - I'm biased. If you know me then expect way too many SAL songs from me in any list of songs ever because I will never shut up about SAL and they have a lot of songs I like. So there's 4 SAL songs on this list, deal with it jhkwewjkwjkfh. Anyway Bad Blood gives me so many Four feels. 11/10

3) Soap - The Oh Hellos - THIS SONNGG. Ouugghh. I could probably dissect this song if I wanted to go over every little thing in it that makes me think of Four & why but I already exhausted my song infodumping capacity on the last song on this list so perhaps some other time HDEGJDDEKF. Just. The vibes AND the lyrics. Mannn

4) Forgive Me Friend - Smith & Thell - I have both the original and the acoustic version saved to my Four playlist because I really like both versions hwdfjefke but. There's so many ways this song could be interpreted w/ Four and tbh I'm just gonna leave it up to everyone else because every time I listen to it I think of something else lol.

5) Meteor Shower - Cavetown - I don't have much to say about this one other than thinking about this song gives me a LOT of emotions jhqkdhwbefjk. Just,,, it has a lot of self-acceptance vibes to me when I listen to it in this context and I think I'm drawing those comfort vibes from the melody? Idk but they're there for me lol

6) Glitter & Gold - Barns Courtney - Someone did a mini AMV to this song w/ Four a while back for the LU zine and I've associated the song with him ever since hwdkjgefhkfev. I like the vibes. Reminds me of the forge.

7) Lakehouse - Of Monsters And Men - Idk what it is about this song. It has a mix of homesickness feels and storytelling feels and something about that makes me think of Four. Also there's a line about breaking trust in here somewhere heehee hoohoo Vio go brr.

8) I Dare You - Bea Miller - my brain can't decide if I actually like this song or not for some reason buuuut it has big Four vibes regardless lmao. Mostly in the lyrics. Definitely in the lyrics

9) No Light, No Light - Florence + The Machine - based more off the vibes of the song than the lyrics. i don't really have an explanation for this one, it's just always given me Four vibes for no reason hdwkjfgeh. Shadow too. I have it one both playlists

10) I Have Made Mistakes - The Oh Hellos - probably self-indulgent but this one has the self-acceptance and self-forgiveness vibes than go hand and hand with Four as a character so <3

11) From The Ground Up - Sleeping At Last - something about the line "in an effort to remember what being mended feels like" shakes me to my core. Am I allowed to slap the "self-acceptance" label on this song and call it a day? Cause,,, yeah the self love in this song. Ough. Also the themes of growth and being somewhere that's truly home.

12) Overture III / Awake - Sleeping At Last - Bestie this one's so self-indulgent. This song is pretty new and when I tell you that I latched onto it the DAY I first heard it FTHDGHWJKEFG. I connect so deeply with this song and I can and will project every emotion I experience ever onto Four which means he gets this song too. <3 Also it once again has themes of self-acceptance

13) September 15, 2017: Cassini - The Grand Finale - Sleeping At Last - OH MY GOD *VIBRATES INTO THE FIFTH DIMENSION*

Alright alright alright. Listen. This song is entirely instrumental. So why do I associate it with Four, you may ask?

WELLLLLLLL.

First of all, happy anniversary to the event this song was written about! Or-- well, it was the anniversary when this ask was sent djwhfkhjdewjhke. I took a while to answer it. BUT still. Happy anniversary!

Second of all, strap in cause I’m about to infodump the hell out of this song on my way to explaining my reasoning behind why I associate it with Four. It might seem irrelevant at first but trust me, I’ll get there.

(All the stuff I mention here is all explained in a much better fashion by the artist behind Sleeping At Last on his podcast episode about the song here. I'd absolutely recommend giving it a listen if you're interested!)

Cassini was written about a satellite with the same name that was built with the intention of exploring Saturn. On September 15, 2017, its journey was complete and its course was set to crash into Saturn in a brilliant grand finale. Hence the name of the song.

This song is a medley of four of Sleeping At Last’s songs, written as a mirror of the exact flight path of the Cassini satellite. (SAL has songs about each of the 9 planets + our moon.)

The song starts and ends with Saturn. The beginning is a chorus singing the tune of SAL's "Saturn" and the ending is that the song on the "Astronomy, Vol. 1" album leads straight into SAL’s "Saturn" to symbolize Cassini crashing into the planet. Cool, right?

After the opening the song crescendos with SAL’s "Earth" to represent Cassini’s launch. Cassini passed by Venus twice in its flight, so the part of the song immediately after that is from SAL's "Venus". The next part of the song (and ofc the next part of Cassini’s flight) is Jupiter! It’s very faint and distant since Cassini only passed by the planet. Aaand then finally it reaches Saturn.

Now what does any of this have to do with Four?

Welllllll, it's all a bit of a stretch but LET ME HAVE THIS hdgjhkjdwef.

I mentioned that Cassini is a medley of 4 different SAL songs.

Venus could easily be associated with Red! It’s a love song and love of course comes from the heart and all that. But it’s also a song that reflects wonder and awe and I feel like that’s a very Red feeling.

Jupiter is a song I associate a lot with Green, not only because of the song itself but also because of the planet and Green’s wind element. Jupiter is well-known for its storms! So it seems fitting for Green. Jupiter is one of the songs I have on my separate playlist for Green too. It has vibes of instinct and wanting to make things count and make a difference which I feel like fits him.

I feel like Saturn and Earth are interchangeable with Blue and Vio. I’d probably tentatively assign Blue to Earth and Vio to Saturn for now despite Earth being Vio’s element and me generally associating that song with him a lot more than Blue anyway. Saturn is a song about loss and trying to move on and I think Vio encompasses that feeling and experience. It’s very melancholy and slower-paced too, which fits Vio more. Whereas Earth is a very powerful, somewhat explosive song (which fits Blue’s vibe) about ignorance and possibly arrogance. ALSO if you go with Blue as Earth then it works even nicer because Earth and Venus are woven together very closely in Cassini. Which could represent how Blue & Red are both the "heart" of Four compared to Vio's mind and Green's instinct.

And ALL of these songs are packed into Cassini into a convenient little medley. Four songs blending seamlessly into one another creating a whole song that makes me want to throw my hands in the air and weep.

And how perfect that the day Steel sent this ask is coincidentally the anniversary of the day the song is about. jhkqdwfgehf. It was meant to be :>

[mermaidinthecity]

Gotta keep this blessing in the fifth dimension. Kill the low vibrations, gotta let the love in. Trying to make a connection. Love's unconditional. Why's it so impossible? Impossible. I'm only human, I'm only human. I'll fuck it up sometimes. I'll mess it up sometimes. Yeah, I'm only human, behind the music. Sometimes I lose my mind. Sometimes I lose my mind. I wanna scream at the top of my lungs. Anything just to feel alive. I'm only human, I'm only human. I'm only human. Human, human. I'm only human. Human, human. I'm only human. I wanna scream at the top of my lungs. Anything just to feel alive. I'm only human, I'm only human. I'm only human.

Human by The Veronicas

[peachyteabuck]

no salvation for a bad girl

summary: you misbehave while carol and natasha go away on a mission. this wouldn’t be a problem, if you weren’t so bad at not getting caught. 

pairing: wanda maximoff x carol danvers x natasha romanoff x reader

words: 1,962

trigger warnings: bdsm, sub wanda, dom carol and natasha, 

notes/other: this was inspired by the fic tonights for you by @domromanoff, which is not required reading but is highly recommended. this was done for @fvckingavengers​ ‘s writing challenge...yes it is late. yes i am sorry. no i will not change. my prompt was “problem” by natalia kills

ask box / masterlist / commission info / ko-fi

The day Natasha and Carol are set to leave on their week-long mission, you and Wanda kneel at their feet with collars locked and hands flat on your bruised, beaten thighs.

Well, your palms rest on raised lashes and deep purple and green and yellow bruises from your previous misgivings. Wanda, good, sweet Wanda, her palms lay on unmarked skin.

The brat.

“You both know the rules,” Natasha tells you both as Carol caresses a cheek from each of you.

You both nod.

“Now,” Carol smiles. “Don’t break them.”

Again, you both nod. And with that, the pair of them leave for the Quinjet launch pad.

It becomes unbearable on the fifth day of Natasha and Carol’s absence. You’d gotten strict instructions to touch yourself each night, but not to come. Wanda, however, was allowed to do as she pleased. So far this had meant her using you as her personal sex toy, the fiend of a woman waking you up at all hours of the night forcing you to eat her out or fuck her with your fingers or just watch her as she called out into the air for the other two girlfriends of your relationship.

The situation just didn’t seem fair to you, which is why you oh-so unwisely decided to obey a direct order so blatantly, so unabashedly. Maybe if you had been more discreet you may have been able to away with one, two orgasms if you were lucky.

But luck is for fools and you, pitiful little you, are a fool. You’re caught seconds after your first orgasm with the thickest cock you could find stuffed into your pussy and a vibrator just this side of too-high rolling over your clit.

“You naughty slut,” Natasha hisses as she pushes you further into the bed with the pressure of her climbing over you. You whimper, hoping a cute noise and big eyes would make her, or one of the others, take an ounce of pity on you.

But just like luck, hope gets you nowhere.

Natasha grabs your chin and yanks you to her, her teeth barred as she spits. “What are the rules?”

You whimper as her strong hand moves to your throat, leaving you the room to speak. “No touching myself until your return.”

She presses down and soon you’re feeling dizzy. “And what did you do?”

Natasha doesn’t let up as you speak. “I touched myself.”

It isn’t until Carol tsks at you that your girlfriend gives you reprieve, chest heaving from your racing heart and swirling brain as air floods your lungs. From the corner of your eye you can see her petting Wanda – beautiful, sweet, obedient little Wanda – as the woman kneels on the floor at Carol’s feet. In another dimension you bare your teeth and shoot a sneer her way, but in this one you simply whimper at the thought of your impending chastisement.

“Get your ass in position on the floor,” Natasha hisses as she removes herself from on top of you.

For once you follow orders.

Even with one ear pressed to the carpeting on the floor and the other gone nearly deaf from the blood pounding there, you can hear drawers opening then closing, locks being clicked open and then clicked closed.

Nothing, it seems, can be worse than silence covering an impending prosecution.

“What should our little slut’s punishment be?” Natasha thinks out loud, staring down at your whimpering form on the floor. You’ve curled up now, hoping to make yourself out to be some victim of circumstance rather than a devilish opportunist. It’s then you see she’s got a crop in her hand, slamming it into her palm with a loud WHACK! every few steps. There are lot of things Natasha likes, and one of them is watching you flinch. “We need to teach this little thing to ask,” she punctuates the word with a light smack to the back of your thighs. “Before she acts.”

The smile that paints Carol’s face is a familiar one – watching Natasha be in enforcer seems to be her favorite activity, especially when it involves her favorite little pet in her lap with you under the other woman’s hand.

“We should edge her,” the captain says. “We should edger her while she watches the perfect one get fucked into oblivion.”

Natasha laughs deeply, satisfied with the suggestion. With a wicked smile painted on her face she leans down, her lips grazing over your fevered cheek. “You’re so fuckable, you know that?”s you shiver from her words, thighs tensing together as she speaks. “I can’t wait to hear those pretty little whimpers as I edge you again, and again, and again.”

Another light slap from the crop punctuates her words and you yelp, unable to stop another flood of slick from coating your inner thighs.

The next few minutes are a whirlwind, brain still fuzzy and unable to track the three people moving around you, with the toy chest being opened and you being thrown onto the bed and no one touching you and Wanda and Carol’s moans coming from somewhere within earshot. This disorientation becomes worse when Natasha pulls you to the end of the bed and spreads your legs before ghosting her fingertips over your dripping folds.

“Such a pretty little thing,” she mumbles as she lines her strap up with your cunt. “It’s a shame you’re such a slut.”

As Natasha bottoms out the world around you suddenly becomes clear. Still, with your newfound crystal-like vision doesn’t grant you much relief from the ache in your core.

“Aw,” the woman above you laughs with empathy about as real as money. “You think I’d fuck you? After misbehaving like you did?” She doesn’t give you time to respond, and even if she did, a deep moan next to you would’ve stolen your limelight. “Now,” she pushes your face toward your girlfriends, who seem too distracted by their own scene to give you a second thought. “Watch Carol fuck our good girl. I want you to know you’re missing out on while you warm this cock.”

With each thrust from Carol, Wanda heated skin bumps in yours. It’s almost too much - her constant moans, her fingers occasionally moving to clasp your own, her lips sporadically meeting yours in sweet relief of her touch.

The seconds of bliss aren’t much to savor, though, they’re not long enough for you to full enjoy them. Carol remains a constant reminder of your delinquency, her chiseled body behind you lending a slap, a spank, the crawl of her fingernails down your sensitive skin every time she believes you deserve it (so, nearly every time you breathe).

“You like watching her get fucked?” Carol asks, pulling you up by your hair so she can see your ruined make up and bloodshot eyes and lips swollen from you biting them. You nod against her grip, each pull making you wince in pain. “That’s what good girls get,” she hisses. “Good girls get to get fucked, good girls get to come. Do you understand?”

Again, you nod.

You can hear Wanda’s increasingly unintelligible babble, some words barely recognizable English but most a collection of Eastern European languages and dialects you only wished you could understand. You want to reach out and touch her, cradle her sweaty body to your own as her muscles twitch with pleasure and you coo against her panting mouth.

You’re nearly breathing as hard as she is, and each slap of Carol’s skin on hers sends a shot of coarse of heat through your center to your fingertips, some sort of fucking-by-proxy giving you some paradox of relief and never-ending desperation.

Carol’s deep voice only adds to your torture, lips pulled back into a sneer as she speaks. ““Yeah, you like it?” Wanda nods furiously, her slur of words becoming louder. “You like my hard cock deep in your holes? Made to take my cock, huh?”

It doesn’t take long for Wanda to come, and when she does you nearly come with her; her screams and cries nearly louder, higher-pitched than yours, only beating you with her shaking and sighs of repose. Carol slows her thrusts, not wanting for Wanda to have to stop just yet. Still, she finds pleasure in watching the woman under her cry out when the strap nudges her g-spot.

“You good, baby?” Carol murmurs into the hot skin of Wanda’s neck, biting another bruise onto the milky flesh. She nods, small mhm filling the air as Carol moves her into position, flipping her on her back and dragging her so her lips clamp around your clit.

Wanda understands, knows what to do as Carol and Natasha move themselves into their own spots, laughing as now you cry out.

“It’s okay,” Wanda whispers as her slips two fingers into you. She relishes your screams of pleasure, lips spreading into a smile. “Let me take care of you.”

You, unable to form so much as a hum, say nothing in return.

Carol holds your hands above your head while Natasha, sitting on your left, holds your trembling thighs open.

“Such a good girl,” Natasha coos to Wanda. “So good at taking direction, at following direction,” you can feel the woman next to you glaring a warning down at you, but you make no move to meet her eyes.

Wanda moans at the praise, the vibrations at your pussy causing you to cry out and struggle against Carol once again. She tuts, but says nothing, too focused on your scrunched eyes and lips swollen from you biting at them. You’re pretty, so pretty – she can’t help it, just can’t not touch you.

She moves both your wrists into one hand and leans over to palm at your breasts, avoiding pinching at your pert nipples to deny you that much more stimulation. While still enjoying the look of your back arching up into your touch.

Natasha, always one for focus, swats Carol from you, forcing Wanda’s mouth from your pussy by her hair. “Now, let’s give the little slut what she wants so she’ll see what she’s missing out on when she misbehaves.”

She’s still got the fake cock positioned between her legs, slick making it glisten. She must’ve been fingering Wanda while she ate you out, because of course. Natasha manhandles you easily to the end of the bed, pushing your head back so you were forced to stare at Carol and Wanda.

“Now, I want you to look at them while I fuck you,” her hand moves lower to your neck, making your vision and thoughts go fuzzy. “So that they can see how pretty you look when I’m ruining this cute pussy.”

Your eyes are looking in the general direction of the other two women, one of whom has coaxed two fingers into the other and is groping her breast. Intuition tells you Wanda is on the receiving end of such pleasure, but your vision gives no credence to either scenario – as Natasha enters you inch by inch it seems the scene in front of fades away to nothingness.

It doesn’t take long for you to crumble, hands gripping the sheets and eyes so far into the back of your head you might as well be experiencing an exorcism. “Please,” you whimper. “Please let me cum.”

Natasha just laughs, giving you one last thrust before pulling out and leaving you heaving and crying on the bed. You know this is part of the punishment, part of her breaking you down so she can build you back up again. Still, it hurts as the heat from her body vanishes into thin air – the only remind she’s still in the room being the sound of her sickly sweet voice.

“No.”

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[gyuto]

Need to be fucked before I vibrate into the fifth damn dimension

[dracolizardlars]

I just had to call the hairdressers TWICE bc I accidentally made an appointment I couldn't actually make it to the first time and I'm going to fucking vibrate so hard I bethesda glitch into the fifth dimension I'm so fucking ANXIOUS

[junerecords]

THIS WEEK’S USED ARRIVALS

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[geneticmisfit]

I WAS SUPPOSED TO SLEEP EARLY

BUT THEN THE DAMN SPOT LEAKED

AND NOW I AM VIBRATING TO THE FIFTH DIMENSION

FUCK!!!!