#[love these guys sm. my beloved blorbos]

[something-in-your-walls]

ok I haven’t posted much recently but here’s a silly guy for you!!!

[maractean]

Here's an older set of expressions I did also based on this meme!! Some of the designs of these ocs have been updated and changed since I drew these but I'm still really proud of how they came out!!

From left to right, the ocs are:

Flora, Oliver, Glory. Jericho, Marilene, Inka, Burger, and Hopper

[terriblyrenderedenigma]

On Transformers and Human soulmate tropes...

(i do personally attack starscream at the end, i'm sorry starscream lovers, i love him too, but he's just a sad, devious little guy.)

Just a little thought here, so, I love soulmate tropes. Depending on the plot, they can be really fun and take so many interesting paths as a medium used within storytelling, whether romantic or platonic.

But what i want to talk about specifically is Transformer x Human soulmate tropes. Like, you have this super sweet side to it where the bot can be like 'I have waited my entire life to find you, finally, I can hold you in my arms and we never have to part again'. Depending on the character/story/type of SM (soulmate, shortening it because I'm not gonna keep writing it out) trope of course.

Can I just say how...instrumentally fucked this is though? So you have this race of robots who live for, what is essentially millennia out in the wild unless they catch the smoke. Their soulmate ends up being this little creature that lives for 80, maybe 100 years tops before dying. -Unless we're going for some kind of mind switch body type thing, but we all know how that went with spike in g1.

Our beloved robo blorbos will eventually have to cope with the fact that their soulmate, the person or creature they're MEANT to be with via laws of the universe, will die a LOT sooner than they will.

This especially hits hard with the decepticons who, depending on continuity -- hate humanity already. Bots who've gone through so much, losing their home, friends, and their dignities; have to learn to put up with and accept this creature as their fated mate/spouse/conjux endura, whatever you want to call it- SOULMATE.

Then the decepticons just have to deal with the fact that they're going to lose this person too, just like they've already lost everything else and oh GOD. Maybe they choose to forget about them and move on, stay alone and mourn what could have been if the universe hadn't had such a fucked sense of humor. Maybe they choose to accept it, but never let their SM too close because they know they'll just be hurt so much more hurt when the inevitable comes.

Then you have to think about decepticons having to possibly protect their SM from other cons! From being taken and 'saved' by the autobots.

Imagine some bots or cons just flying off the handle, going crazy just to try and keep their human alive in any way they possibly can, afraid of running out of time.

(Starscream lovers forgive me for the angst)

And Starscream especially, Maybe he'd try. He'd have a great time, take a chance, and give it a go. But what if he's actually terrified? Maybe he'd also self sabotage a little, knowing the relationship will never last too long anyways; not in the short blink of time it would be next to his life. Maybe, he doesn't actually know what to do with himself in a positive relationship after being, i dunno, consistently dogged on by megatron and he freezes.

There's something actually good for him, and since he isn't sure how to receive or accept that fact, he's gone. And maybe he'll come back, but the cycle could repeat.

(Im sorry, unless you put a tracker on him and call his ass and really give him some therapy. get him some god damn therapy.)

But yeah. All around, the angst potential is immense for this stuff and it makes me sad to think about so I thought i would share it instead of just write about it in an actual fic because my character analysis and ability to comprehend my own thoughts is so shit.

Okay, CIAOOOOOO~

[maximoff-forevermore]

Tumblr Wrapped: BLORBOS!!

thank you sm for the tag @healmydesires 💋🫶🫶

tumblr wrapped canva template<3

i have SO much to say, but then again, i always do

i’ll start with my top five, and then do some honourable mentions because five fics is NOT a big enough list for me

1. Red Light by @kiwisbell

you may NEVER hear me stop talking about this fic. EVER. Red Light!Joel has taken up more headspace than anything else in a good long while, and i’ve reread this fic so many times if you asked me to rewrite it from memory i probably could, but i wouldn’t, because i’d never do it the justice kiwi did. this fic basically belongs to me, because no one can love it as much as me. i could go on and on, but there’s not enough time in the world.

2. The Dress Series by @janaispunk

can i let y’all in on a secret? i got the outrageous honour of talking to jana about the third part in this series, it’s like getting a shoutout from an artist winning a grammy, only better. this series restarted my obsession with dave, and i’ve had such brainrot about him since i started. LORD HAVE MERCY ON MY SOUL it’s so good, and the taylor titles GOD.

3. Las Mañanas by @kiwisbell

i had to be very careful, or else every fic on my top five list would be one of kiwi’s and people would think i’m biased (i am, just a little). so i only chose my two favourites, and this series was one of them. it brought so much light and life to the minutes i spent reading it, and i just had the best time!! javi my beloved, you have such a special place in my cold, dead heart, you wife-loving POOKIE!!

4. The In My Hometown Series by @swiftispunk

A SERIES INSPIRED BY ‘TIS THE DAMN SEASON *buries face into pillow and screams* ‘tis the damn season is one of my all time favourite songs, and it was done SUCH JUSTICE. this fic had just the right amount of everything, and i’m so grateful i got to read it!!

5. Punishment by @joelsgreys

OOOOOH HOT DAMN. there was something about this fic that made me drool, because hELLO JOEL MILLER?? gods that man is FINE AS FUCK, and this fic so perfectly captures that😫😫 i had the time of my fucking life reading it, and it was so SO worth every second. my next, pls joel🙏

those fics have such a special place in my heart, but so do many others, let’s go through them!!

Is It Over Now? by @planet-marz1 OH this one is my SHIT!!! angst is so delicious for twelve months of the year, and this one shot was me being FED. i loved every minute, and fuck joel, not in the horny way this time🙄

Sexfiles.mp3 by @beskarandblasters tim rockford, the grandma investigator, and love of my life WHERE have you been all this time?? this fic gave me that alligator-jiggling fever

the Seams series by @fuckyeahdindjarin MY BELOVED POOKIES!!!! i love lucy to the ends of the earth, and joel and pins have the CUTEST fucking relationship on the planet

A Lover’s Pinch series by @hier--soir pull me out of the dumpster and fuck me sideways GOOD MORNING TO YOU TOO??? gods the sex is just so BXKANDIWNSKW clawing at my fucking WALLS!!!! i haven’t finished this series yet but when i do you may NEVER hear the fucking end of me🗣️🗣️

the Pretty Little Wife series by @beardedjoel OH MAMA, i need a fan because it is HOT AS HELL in here😫😫these fics give me such housewife-fever, i love them just a bit TOO much

Real Gods Require Blood, by @pr0ximamidnight you guys have no FUCKING idea how obsessed i am with this fic. the minute it’s possible to make fics into physical things, i will turn this fic into cocaine and snort it faster than you can scream “he’s evil!”, and even if you did scream it, i wouldn’t care, because WOW is he hot as hell

Feelings on Fire by @joelscruff CAN WE TALK ABOUT IT. CAN WE TALK ABOUT IT. CAN WE—im so obsessed. and i don’t mean that lightly. this series has CHANGED ME. i am moved. i am reborn. i am SOMETHING ELSE. i can’t get over this series i’m not sorry, it’s just so so SO good

and last, but definitely NOT least, Truth or Dare, ALSO by @joelscruff I’M SO UNWELL. I NEED HIM. I NEED THIS. I AM IN DIRE, DESPERATE NEED OF THIS FIC. it’s so so close to my heart, i actually physically cannot get over it. like, guys, GUYS. this fic is such a go-to of mine, and so close to my heart.

and that was my long, long, LONG list, but honestly, i’m not even halfway done. so many fics and so many fic writers have changed my life, and if i was less tired and had more energy to type, i’d list them all<3

all the love to every single fic writer out there, you are doing the most, and if you need someone to read something you’ve written or you think i’ll enjoy something, don’t hesitate to send it my way!!

tagging everyone who wants to participate!!!

as always, my obligatory taylor gifs:

[mandiemegatron]

pspspspspspsppspspspsspsppspsps *throws citrus at you*

Fic authors self rec! When you receive this, reply with up to five favorite fics you've written (include links, and if you want- a few thoughts about each one), then pass on to at least five other writers if you're up for it. Spread the self-love ✨

Raven ! My beloved! 😭💖💖💖 you are so precious, thank you sm for poppin' in and sending this, I love being included in things 😭😭😭😭😭😭 (also I'm comin for u, be prepared 😈)

OUGH this was so difficult, I stared at my list for so long while trying to pick my top 5 because i love everything I've written. I've put love, sweat and tears into everything but these 5 have filled me with a love that I can't help but gush about 😭

1; World In My Hands. I am starting strong with my second ever Eustass Kid fic, and this one has such a special place in my heart because it solidified the love I have for Kid while writing it. I swear his ghost took over my body while typing because the soft, ooey-gooey love that he gives in this fic was no something I was prepared to write. I had originally meant for it to be a very heavy, sexy and a little dark fic but it ended up being soft and warm and I won't lie, I cried a lil tear when I finished it because I just love the guy so so much. Big smooch for him.

3; Chilled. Small Law blurb that I recently wrote. I just wanted some love and comfort from my main mans and I love how easy his love comes to me. My fingers literally run over the keyboard when I'm in my Law moods and I'm just so happy I can write him with justice and to the point where others loves him just ad much as I do 🥺🥺

2; Losing The War. Another Eustass Kid fic, but this one was just pure angst. I needed him to hurt, and while I don't believe the man would EVER cheat or throw you aside for some cheap, quick sex, I wanted to put him into Situations™️ and make him ache. I love causing pain to my blorbos. It heals something in me :')

4; Them and Their Hats ; Shachi, Penguin and Law. My first fic where I wrote more than one person's version. Nothing but love for my boys. One of the fics that took me longest, simply because Penguin was so difficult to figure out. (I think I have the hang of him now 🤭)

5 ; To Be Loved. My very first Corazon/Rosinante fic 😭😭 I put my whole fuckin pussy into this one, one of my longest and one of my absolute pride and joys. The fic with the most notes, I still can't believe it has almost 500 notes 😭😭😭 I just love the guy so much. (My only qualm is I wish I wrote him a little more clumsy in this fic.)

AWWW RAVEN THANK YOU SO SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 this was so much fun, and I love sharing my writing with all of you. Thank you all for all the love and support and for giving me the courage to keep writing.

BIG SMOOCH FOR YOU RAVEN, SPECIFICALLY 💞💖💋 you're fr such a sweet and wonderful human, I'm so happy and so blessed to be friends with you 😭😭💞 love you boo 💞💋💖

[little-meowyao]

Hello, MDZS fan! Can I ask your top 5 (or top 3) favorite characters from MDZS? And why you loved them? Also, your top 5 favorite moments from the series? Thanks 🤩

Jin Guangyao

He's just. My blorbo. He's so amazing and so interesting and you can fit him in SO MANY ROLES. He's so versatile and he's so so complicated as a person. Going a bit into headcanon realm here but I like the idea that despite being incredibly ruthless when situations ask for it, JGY is also deeply empathetic (and shameless link to a fic sorta about this)

Everything he does has such deep implications for the MDZS society and his upbringing and is just. Wow

2. Lan Xichen

This guy is just so afjshkhagjj. Insane. I love his daddy issues and how they influence him (I love how he basically becomes QHJ at the end. Very sad but thematically aproppriate I think). He hurts so pretty. He's my darling. My little punching bag. I love his characteristic of not taking conclusions without having the whole story (and how that colors post-canon him because he CAN'T have the whole story anymore ☹️) and how that contrasts with killing JGY because of a rumor (metaphorically). MXTX says "I know a guy that is so well-adjusted" and takes you to LXC

3. Su Minshan

Give it up for the most normal guy in the entirety of MDZS! I just [INCOHERENT SCREAMING] You have no idea how much I adore this man. He's a cool guy. He's a cringe loserboy. He dies because he uses too much power.

I like the paralel with JGY and how neither, at end, will ever be more than their origin (son of a whore/lan traitor). I love how deeply resentful he can be and how his loyalty is so ridiculously easy to win but at the same time, in the canon situation, only JGY would be capable of that

He's doggishly loyal and that appeals to me in a atomic level because I'm like that too. A man like Minshan would fix me actually

4. Song Lan and Xiao Xingchen

I know you asked for top 5 but I CANNOT separate these two on my mind

I love how the eye situation paralels chengxian. I love how utterly tragic they are

I love how XXC takes SL's hurt-fueled "I never want to see you again" at face value. I love how utterly self-sacrificial he is. I love how SL spends the rest of his life looking for him. They are so utterly tragic and you cannot convince me they aren't soulmates

(I love how the entire eye situation comes about because SL was mildly repulsed about being touched by XY, as he is with every because of his mysophobia, and XY took that as an insult)

I adore them

5. Nie Mingjue

I don't know what to say about him but he appeals to me deeply. I love how he's dying and he knows he's dying. I love how the conflict with JGY stems from "It would kill me" not being a valid excuse not to do something on his mind. I like how rigid he is in his moral code. The issue with NMJ is precisely that he's NOT a hypocrite.

The man that he is. I love how he flips on JGY and never flips back. I love that he perceives killing JGY as saving him from himself. I love how he is bound by duty in his relationship with LXC, and unlike JGY, unwilling to pretend they can have something they can't.

Da-ge the man you are

As for favourite moments:

JGY's death

I love him taking the last shred of agency he can and also (attemping) to take the culpability of his death from LXC's hand

2. SMS's death

He dies because he uses too much power :( and he dies for JGY

3. The Nightless City scene

I adore how much that says about JGY's relationship with WRH. Ruoyaos my beloveds.

4. JGY giving LXC back the jade token

EMOTIONAL DAMAGE.

5. The teacup scene

I love how LXC can be so subtle in the way he conducts a situation but he KNOWS how to do it! It's like a slap to the face to the people that were wiping their fingers

[bombshelllblonde]

hiiihihii!! im backkkk to tell u abt my rdr playthough bc im bored asf haha

¡love this game omg!! the graphics, the story, the details UGH!!!!

hunting is actually so fun for no reason- i bought so many fancy ass guns too 😭

also my play type whenever i play ANY story game thats open world is to do every possible thing every except the actual story so i get a bunch of stuff and then its so muvh easier

in short i have 6000+ dollars 😋

bonus of exploring everything is i got thw white arabian and i love her sm ‼️‼️ i named her pearl and she is my baby

dress up is my seconf favorite hobby

my fav outfit rn is the red vest w the floral pattern on the front (i forget what its called) n the black french dress shirt underneath + the bison necklace talisman

(also arthur w medium-long length hair n short facial hair>>>)

this game is so detail oriented, its kind of insane- im doing a high honor run atm, and i came across the blind beggar for the third (?) time and the blind guy said and i quote

"that is which killing you will finally help you, friend- to hear and see."

is this foreshadowing this feels like foreshadowing

also ik arthurs dies (bc of tiktok edits and fics, they artists in this fandom is amazing!!!) and im not prepared at all 😭 im going to procrastinate so bad 

ALSO CHARLES DESERVES SO SO MUCH I LOVE HIM

yk the hole lil speech he has at the campfire yk "most human beings seem to know why they were born but, for me- its seems i was just mean ton hurt and suffer myself" that one

im bawling istg if he doesnt get a good ending im going to be writing a formal complaint to rockstar games

anyways

tw opinions (ik bro its crazy to have opinions in 2024 whattt no wayy)

ive gotten to the point in playing where im in ch 3, and the only way i can progress the actual story is to help micah rob a stagecoach or whatever

micah is a bastard and i dont like him

him as a character is rlly well written and awesome but,,,,,hes,,,slimy,,and i hate him,,,,so he can wait for a little longer ☺️

my favorite characters rn in no particular order is

arthur (obviously) , charles , sean , javier , tilly , marybeth , and kieran

my pookies ‼️‼️

moving on im so sorry this is so so long 😭 idk anyone who likes rdr irl lmao

anyway hope u have a nice day and no wolves attack you and spoke ur horse who bucks you off a cliff

(in rdr btw)

((true story also))

yo, having 6k in chapter 3 is amazing. good for you!

my first playthrough i got the white arabian and i named her Lemoyne Tree as a tribute to the state of Lemoyne and my favorite post malone song Lemon Tree. But she always got super dirty so i then went to the lake next to Strawberry and tamed the red chestnut arabian. I LOVE LOVE LOVE that one, she's gorgeous and arthur always gets that one when i play it. my beautiful baby girl Diablo <3

also yes. heckin FUCK MICAH BELL. even from the beginning he's been a slime ball. hate that man <3

i won't go too far, but just keep yourself high honor towards the end of the game. you need that to be your first ending. :')

Charles deserves the absolute world. just listening to him speak and hanging out with him at camp, and the missions you continue on to do with him throughout the game are so much fun. charles is someone i wish i could have in my real life because he seems like he would be the best person to speak to and hang out with. he is so lovely and down to earth. even arthur says it a couple times throughout the game. charles gets a good ending i promise.

my top blorbos are Arthur, Dutch, Charles, Hosea, and Josiah Trelawny my absolute beloved <33333 just wait until you go on the mission with Charles to find trelawny. one of my favorite missions ever ever ever ever!!

a lot of people dislike dutch, but i love him so much. he is my actual father. i love him.

i also hate john. let me know how you feel about that little greasy weasel of a man. :)))

i'm so so so glad you're having fun and i am very invested, so please continue to keep me updated on what ur doing because i need to live vicariously through you. if i could erase my entire mind and replay the game over and over again for the first time, i totally would

[inkedmyths]

Tagged by @g1ngerbeer 10 fandoms/10 characters/10 tags ok let's see if I'm doing this right yeehaw

Trails of Cold Steel - ITS SO HARD TO PICK JUST ONE but well if I have to its gotta be Rean. The guy ever. He's done absolutely nothing wrong and the universe hates him. I love him sm. Shakes him in a snowglobe.

Star Wars - Anakin is the problematic fav ever. He's just the worst. God awful. King of bad decisions making. Virtually a demigod but is exceptionally stupid about it. Icon.

Splatoon - Does Captain 3 count. The fucking, faceplanting after doing something cool. The Booyah. The peace sign. They're so funny.

Monster Hunter - I LOVE UTSUSHI he's just so funny. Uses the word bodacious unironically. His pupil's No. 1 fan. He sparks joy your honor.

The Magnus Archives - Jon is so poor little meow meow. Just, so meow meow. Incredible character arc of bastard to pathetic to soft marshmallow with god powers and a martyr complex. Immaculate.

Legend of Zelda - Every single iteration of Impa is the GOAT. Guardian, protector, friend, she's got it all. BIG fan of Skyward Sword and Hyrule Warriors iterations specifically.

Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint - YJH IS SO. Local man having depression and mental illness due to regression, and then some asshole comes around and throws approximately 50 wrenches into his plans. Unfortunately, he becomes immensely attached to said asshole. His life is a nightmare and it's funny to watch.

Pokémon - N Harmonia was baby's first blorbo and I miss him sm. We love a cult survivor learning about how the world actually works, good for him.

Percy Jackson - SPECIFICALLY the Lightning Thief Musical especially the production I watched understands Luke Castellan better than anyone ever will and I am spinning it in my head all the time

Fantasy Life - Yuelia my daughter light of my life dearly beloved she's an angel she's grace she's done nothing ever wrong and I would die for her

Ok ok can I tag 10 people. Let's see. @foolsbangle @harasharaved @dracolunae @ashenknightt @the-carrotella @rosenmarille @ephemeralcemsilee @crowreans @charxan @kulvefaggoth

[ihavenohotcocoa]

whatre your top 5 ace attorney characters

oh god this is a tough one

uhhhhhh

in particular order:

Miles Edgeworth

Klavier Gavin

Trucy Wright

Trilogy Pheonix Wright

Kazuma Asogi

See Edgeworth is the blorbo to end all blorbos, i can blame my love of traumatized rich boys on him (yeah thats right, Edgeworth walked so William could run). He's just. such a guy.

Klavier is literally just the guy ever and I hold such a huge amount of love for this character. anyways if anyone knows a hitman i could hire to kill Kristoph Gavin hmu.

Trucy is actually just me if i was good at magic. Evidence: Brown hair, blue eyes, gay uhhhhhhh also hot im allowed to be gay for the magician im also a teenager

Pheonix but only in the trilogy because he's a cringefail loserboy and unfortunately the 7-year gap makes him significantly less pathetic. Like if i can trust him to defend me in a court of law he isn't pheonix enough (that being said post-7-year-gap Pheonix my beloved)

I have only had Kazuma Asogi for like. a case and two cutscenes but I love him sm. Me and @vinegar-on-main have been doing voices for my playthrough of GAA and the way she plays Kazuma is on point. Like yeah that's my blorbo.

[luahecate]

warrior cats my beloved!! if you want some to design, might i suggest my fav sisters dovewing and ivypool? i'm also very attached to their parents, birchfall and whitewing. i love tigerheartstar, and all of his and dovewing's kits. snowbird of shadowclan is a personal favorite background cat as well haha. crookedstar is my blorbo and i love him sm. andddd from windclan the cursed crow/night/breeze fam is so fun to me. and heathertail my beloved!!

you don't have to design or draw any of these guys but if any of them strike your fancy i'd love to see them! <333

AAA u gave me so many good kitties to design but i choose these three!!

[idyllic-affections]

*busts down the door* I HAVE,,,,,,

THOUGHTS ON HOW MY FAV S:POP CHARACTERS COMFORT [NAME] WHEN THEYRE CRYING THAT TOTALLY DIDNT KEEP ME UP AT NIGHT AT ALL……..

scorpia who tries to be mindful of your personal space while also hugging you tightly. perfuma who skillfully weaves flower crowns for the two of you made of your favorite flowers. catra whose very awkward, but still tries, as she sits down in silence with you. frosta who constructs ice theme parks and playgrounds for you guys to play in, to help you cheer up.

LMK IF I SHOULD SEND MORE<33

SCORPIA SOBSBSBSBSB MY BLORBO MY SKRUNKLY MY BELOVED SHES SO REAL FOR THAT 🫶🫶🫶🫶 PERFUMAAAAA AUGH i just know girl makes the prettiest flower crowns AND CATRA!?!?! she is doing her best i love that for her sm AND FROSTA...... best friend kind of vibes. trustworthy sister kind of vibes. i love them all please do send your thoughts.... even though i havent watched spop in a while i will still gladly listen!!!!

[merlinemrys]

oooh, 💕 and/or 🦋 please? (also I'll get to your ask, thank u)

kissing u! mwah!

💕 what is your favorite fic that you’ve written?

funnily enough i made a whole series on ao3 of my fav fics not too long ago but for merlin it might be my mergana one, killing is a love language, mostly for the vibes

🦋 which character is your favorite to write?

ARTHUR . he is just sooooooo delicious i love being in his fucked up little head sm he's my beloved he's my blorbo he's my silly little guy

↳ FANFIC WRITER ASK GAME | SEND ME ONE !!!

[snow-and-saltea]

hi. ive been meaning to make memes for so long but i didnt have the time or energy to. now i do!

tagging my beloved tot posters 🧎🧎🧎🧎 thank you for talking about tot with me i love you guys sm!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope you win ALL your pities and your blorbo's cards come to you early!!! @00uroboros @paleasamoon

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

I’M HEREEEEEE I’M HERE

you know i HAD to cook up a lil letter for this one…… dipping my pen in ink and tracing the crinkled paper in front of me rn <333 MICKEYYYYY YOUR TASTE IS UNPARALLELED AS ALWAYS i had to go hunt down my own collection immediately pls bare w me :’3 i’m so excited rn i’m shaking like a scared dog

FIRST OF ALLLLLLLL portrait of fryderyk in shifting light my absolute BELOVED i think that’s my favorite in the whole collection but there’s some competition…. THE LINES YOU MARKED DOWNNNNN I’M BARKING WILDLY they’re so good ………. what can you know about a person? they shift in the light. what if i cried and exploded and also threw up. it always makes me think sm of geto/kenny too…. the dichotomy there. the life of the body is a nightmare. you get the vibes. my hand over his face, which isn’t his face anymore, revising….

IT ISSSSS SUPER DUPER IHTCTAOT CODED!!!!!!! :3 reading through the poem rn and i think these lines are soooo knight!reader/prince!toru coded too…….

+ some other general siken poem lines that remind me of ihtctaot :3333 (the green+pink annotations are from his other collection crush!!)

(mickey i need to know if you also lost your mind at the and this means your life is over anyway line bc i was literally flipping through crush looking for knight!reader in every poem and when i got to that one i fucking Exploded)

ANDDDDD THE WORM KING’S LULLABY MY BELOVED EVER that one makes me think of stsg too 😥😥😥 IT’S SO GOODDDDD also while we’re on the topic of stsg . pls know that every single poem from crush is stsg coded . siken wrote it just for them i’m convinced….

aaaa but !!!! i’m so happy the ones i sent you way back then r still your favorites !!!!!! T_T getting a good grade in Mickey…….. normal to want and possible to achieve…… self-portrait against red wallpaper reminds me SO much of knight!reader and ohhhhh the lines you pointed out. the apocalypse au … that’s so good ….. i think that’s what interests me most about an au like that. not the question of survival but the question of what happens after, yk? or between the gaps. even if you survive, what will you do? can you go back to the way things were? will you be able to love anyone anymore? and then ofc also just . the question of love and light and how much it really matters in a world that punishes you for it (it matters more than anything but these silly little emotionally repressed popsicles haven’t realized that yet)…. i’m sososo excited to jump into that world w you <3333

but ok back to siken… it rlly is The Poem ever i’m never not thinking abt it. never not thinking abt my blorbos as i read it. the final couple lines get me EVERY time and imo they’re very gumi coded…… i hate my friends. and when i hate my friends i’ve failed myself, failed to share my compassion. (…) i mean, maybe it’s better if my opponent wins. <- that’s Him. don’t even get me started on i clawed my way into the light but the light is just as scary. (…) it’s too much work. bc in context of the current megumi? in the manga??? yeah. sick and twisted.

AND TOJI TOJIIIII WE NEEEDDDD TO TALK ABT TOJI i’m gonna be honest mickey war of the foxes as a whole reminds me of the jjk villains more than the good guys . sukuna and toji and geto and kenny. etcetc. emphasis on toji. the lines you picked out makes me think of him sosomuch but also??? landscape with a blur of conquerors. the whole poem. every time i read it i think of him

ALSO this specific part of a primer for the small weird loves …. in crush ……. instantly thought of him the first time i read it like three years ago (normal abt him btw)

ANYWAYYYYY I THINK THAT’S IT …… i’m so happy you enjoyed the collection <3333 atp my goal in life is just to make my mutuals read it …. i’ve alr succeeded w you and io + kairo bought it a while back i think …….. mr siken everything i do is for you

i am back from the Outside. back from the Book.

anyway portrait of fryderyk in shifting light is very very very ihtctaot coded and it's making me sick i love them so fucking much

"he is looking at the wall and i am looking at his looking. difficult thing to be scrutinized for so long." // "my shadow falls across him and it doesn't go away." // "see me, not through me." // there wasn't much left but it felt like him, wild and scared."

+ and this part from the worm king's lullaby made me think of stsg i'm fine btw i'm so fine

@twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat hihi my sweet little iris i am holding your hand and tugging you over here to tell you that remember when you showed me siken's poems like a million years ago? the ones you picked out are still my favourite ones.

self-portrait against red wallpaper is my favourite favourite from the whole collection though. i just wanna thank you for showing me this one in the first place, life-changing honestly. i'm pretty sure i saw you post a snippet from it some days ago too i'm glad it's on both of our minds

"shame means you're guilty, like the rest of us, but you think you're better than we are. maybe you are?" // "disheartening? obviously. i hope it's love. i'm trying really hard to make it love."

"i clawed my way into the light but the light is just as scary. i'd rather quit. i'd rather be sad. it's too much work. admirable? not really. i hate my friends. and when i hate my friends i've failed myself, failed to share my compassion. i shine a light on them of my own making: septic, ugly, the wrong yellow. i mean, maybe it's better if my opponent wins."

i feel like this is also very fitting for ihtctaot but but but but also... for the toji apocalypse au i'm working on. ok this is just me rambling bc i haven't even really talked about it that much so u guys don't know anything lmao (u will u will)

the whole second part just makes me think about how hard it would be living in an apocalypse you know.. you'd want to try to make it work, to make it love, to be in the light but it would be so fucking hard, wouldn't it? and so much work. think about all the heartbreak and the pain, wouldn't it be easier to quit?

and the "shame means your're guilty, like the rest of us, but you think you're better than we are. maybe you are?" is toji. this is for toji. he's acting cocky and he's acting smug, like he knows everything about the world, like he's some immortal creature. like he knows better.

he doesn't. he is filled with shame and everything alike, he's as guilty as the rest of them. he's as bad as the rest of them, he's as good as the rest of them.

[that-was-anticlimactic]

i started sk8! i'm two eps in and it's very nice so far. definitely more relaxed than what i usually prefer but it's still fun :] ngl that blue-haired dude is creepy as hell. i haven't watched far enough to find out for sure but it seems like he's manipulating miya which is. >:(( giving off nasty rich person vibes. reki is so <333 to me he's just!! a little guy!!! ngl a bit worried abt the fact that langa seems to be very good at skateboarding like absolutely good for him and all but if i was reki i think i'd be kinda jealous? it would be interesting if they addressed this later on in the show. loving joe's and cherry's dynamic so muchh! they're so funny to me. immense respect to joe for deciding to skateboard with his tits out. the only question i have is where are his nipples???? like sir??? i know its anime censourship or whatever but still. also if i may share my personal hcs for some of them: i hc reki as a trans bi guy. idk why but that just. feels right for him yk. i also love the idea of him having adhd and tourettes! you were so so right about that <333 one thing about langa is that he is definitely not straight. gay i think and aspec as well. also he is autistic bc i mean. have you seen him. he and reki are literally hyperfixating on skating together!! like that montage describes bonding about a shared hyperfixation so so accurately. joe def gives of bi vibes 100% but i'm not too sure about cherry. and also you were right i do love miya! i've seen him for 5 minutes tops and he has been mean for all of them but he is so <3333 to me!! OOPS I WROTE A LOT. AHEM ENJOYING SK8 A NORMAL AMOUNT.

YES YES YES ONE OF US ONE OF US ONE OF US

okay y eah blue haired dude is ad*m and i hate him i hate him i hate him he 100% is manipulating / grooming miya and i will STAB this man

oooooooooooh just you wait. just. you. w ait.

YES REKI BELOVED he is my blorbo my everything he is The character i am reki he is me he is he Is The Little Guy i would die for him i love reki btw if you didn't know

UYTFDGHUIJOUYGFU CRYING AT THE JOE NIPPLE COMMENT HELP-- I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE CACKLING

YES EXACTLY !!! @capt-snoozles actually drew some trans reki art and it is. it is SO GOOD. and yES TS REKI MY B E L O V E D!!! theo has also drawn AMAZING ts reki art that i just. i love so much. i literally showed everyone in my class once i cried i love him (reki and theo lol)

YES GAY ASPEC AUTISTIC LANGA !!! he is SO autistic coded there is literally a scene where reki and shadow (MY BELOVED I LOVE SHADOW SM) are talking and langa is literally just. sitting there and swaying back and forth with his eyes closed. i love him.

[mobtism]

Fandom asks- the Lego ninjago everybody’s been watching

TY FOR THE ASK!! <3 always love talking abt ninjago hehe

ask game

blorbo - LLOYD AND JAY..... for different reasons tho <3 jay is relatable and lloyd is my character to think indepth and have analyses abt... not that i dont do that w/ jay too but <3 its different.

scrunkly - ACRONIX <33 literally love that time guy soooo much i look at him and im like 🥺🥺🥺 thats my guy... loml

scrimblo bimblo - AKITA AND OKINO... i will think abt them forever they mean sooooooo much to me. akita is a really wonderful character on her own, and also having her be a good companion to lloyd in s11 was so important... and okino is a really awesome character and he fits one of my fav character types of ever... so they both mean <3 sm to me. woohoo!🥰🥰🥰

glup shitto - this one was hard at first but then i realized. TOX. she is SO COOL i love that shes the master of poison <33 and her design is rad as hell. also <3 wlw. LOVE HER SOSOSO MUCH SHES GREAT💛💛💛

poor little meow meow - i mean... i guess garmadon tbh... so complex (pre-season 8) and like. ugh. grrr. i wish they didnt do what they did in s8 for the fuck of it. anyway season 4 garmadon my beloved. dude did what he could to atone for his mistakes and all the damage he caused and it should've been left at that. could complain abt s8 forever js. OH ALSO DARETH. tbh hes more of a poor little meow meow bc hes just... mostly pathetic... but not problematic rlly. but he tries so hard i love him sm😢😢

horse plinko - misako. u abandon ur 7yr old kid so u can "study a prophecy" and go off on adventures?? leave her COMPLETELY alone on the streets without anyone to care for her? and then join back up w/ everyone like it was nbd. at least garmadon has complexities and thought SOMEONE was going to be there to take care of lloyd. misako... youre a cunt. get knocked silly in the plinko now and forever.

eeby deeby - harumi. sorry girl ik u have issues but ur a huge bitch. get well in hell.