#[is my violinist nerd also coming out? Yes to that too]

[helldustedstories]

Lucifer did go down to Georgia, and he did meet a young fiddle player named Johnny, who boasted that he was the best there had ever been. But despite what the song says, despite how good Johnny actually was, Lucifer was better.

He won the wager between himself and Johnny, and kept his golden-plated fiddle (because a violin made out of gold would not play very well, and even the gold-plated one is more for show than anything else). And now Johnny's soul lives in the very bow he used to place that bet, so he can understand that there was no way he would have ever beaten Lucifer, no matter how long time stretches.

[demisexual-in-distress]

Any *SHNIFFFFF* helluva and/or hazbin headcanons??? o-o

*AHEHEHEHEM* I CAN RANT YES UR SUMMONING MY INNER NERD (LONG) (SORRY THIS HAS BEEN ROTTING IN MY ASK BOX IVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR A WHILE NOW)

pls dont flop i spent way too many hours on this lol only doing 6 (six) from the main casts!!! And, sadly, no, Fizzarolli is not included, though I do love him dearly.

Helluva Headcanons:

Blitz:

frickin loves spirit

(saw this somewhere else not sure where) huge-ass horns scratch up his couch, hence the shitty tears

Makes sure to cherish Loona as much as possible on her bday bc of trauma from his childhood

Wants to be the parent possible to her also due to trauma (daddy issues :\)

Insecure about his scars :(

Lost Verosika because he adopted Loona in a last-ditch effort to save their relationship, but refused to get rid of her when V wasn't a fan

Eats anything and everything Brandon Rogers does (canon??) (such as cheese and hotsauce)

Told Barbie about his crush on Fizz before trying to tell Fizz himself

never grew out of bands he liked as a teen

Undiagnosed learning disabilites (dyslexia? he tries his best)

Poor education

(TW, S.A.) Stolas:

WATCHES EVERY TELENOVELA IN THE GODDAMN BOOK

Also enjoys musicals and constantly sings soundtracks while alone (projecting a bit)

Genuinely wants Via and Loona to hang out; wants some sort of father-daughter bond? with Loona, but isn't sure how to approach her

was verbally, physically, and sexually abused by Stella in their "relationship"

GREY'S ANATOMY

I think we all know this by now... Eyeliner.

Black sheep (canon?)

plays some sort of classical instrument idk (piano?)

PAINTS (happy little trees)

Big fan of Cruel Prince series yk

Big fan of fantasy in general

Nerds abt astronomy to Via

Adelle. No other words.

Wattpad user u can't convince me otherwise

Definitely neurodivergent

Millie:

Dyed Sallie Mae's hair when she transitioned, was a makeshift hairdresser for a little while (till Sal figured out how to do it herself)

Had a lot of pets as a child

Tries to stay in contact with all her siblings. Emphasis on tries.

Used to get homesick A LOT

Homeschooled

Ik it's a common one now, but babysat Loona while Blitz was in prison, leading to her and Moxxie meeting

THIS GURL CAN HANDLE HER DAMN DRINKS ‼️

Best homemade recipes by far

Has and will not hesitate to eat a bug once more

Very organized

Moxxie:

Likes to write

MUSICALS (canon) he loves phantom, les mis, and a gentleman's guide to love and murder (ahahhaem Bryce pinkham)

Has many hyperfixations! AUDHD

Loves kids, but gets overstimulated/overwhelmed when taking care of them

In severe need of validation due to trauma

Cat person

Out on a limb here but likes pottery

Bouncy leg stim yk

Panic! At the Disco led to his bi realization

Violinist just trust me

Loves mice for some odd reason

Gullible? Is that canon?

Can sketch pretty good!

Overwhelmed by loud noises and crowded spaces

Loona:

ACE SPECTRUM!!!!

Watches movies with blitz late at night as a tradition

Taught Blitz makeup tips for when he does his weird drag human disguise thing

follows 666 News on the hotel's strange journey

percussionistcore idk how else to say that

Knows EXACTLY how to deal with a hangover (ty blitz)

Social anxiety (might break this down in a seperate post cuz im in a ranty mood)

Has seen the show daria (or at least the hell version) (yall better kno wut im talking about)

Tries not to spend too much / is gentle with Blitz's bank account

Octavia:

Deep down, a sanrio girl is born

Nightcore bitches u already know

Very polarized when it comes to her relationship with stolas (canon?)

Has attempted to bring Stolas into her world - definitely shares her special interests with him, he tries his best to support

Plays at least ONE classical instrument bc she wanted to make Stolas proud :,) (never said she was good at it)

Very sheltered when it comes to Stolas and Stella's actual relationship toward each other

avid collector of taxidermy and other creepy things

She definitely knows those OG goth dances

Photography!!

Dr Martens do i have to say more

Hazbin Headcanons:

TW for Angel Dust and Niffty's (of all people), S.A. mentions.

Charlie:

YA sapphic romances!!!

Webtoon freak

Pinterest whore

Listens to Katy Perry + Hayley Kiyoko

Sanrio again!! Aggretsuko or Chococat r her favs

Can genuinely help people through tough times

Autism spectrum? a little out on a limb here, but she seems to have a hard time breaking down the psychology of sinning/sinners

Paints Vaggie's nails all the time

Vaggie was so her bi awakening; Seviathan and Vaggie were her only two relationships

CATS!!

LOVES Pixy Stix yk they're just straight up sugar

has a diary lol

ADHD

Vaggie:

feels so indebted to Charlie because of how much she took care of her after Falling

girl in red kind of sapphic

Struggles with self-worth

Definitely best exorcist girl on Adam's team

Lute was searching for a reason to get rid of her

brushes Charlie's hair idk

Candles. I don't know why

OPENS/CLOSES DOORS WITH THOSE HUGE ASS HIPS IDK ITS JUST RIGHT TO ME

Doesn't have the heart to tell Charlie when she's not fully correct on something

Origami

Wakes up at ungodly hours due to nightmares and anxiety, lock checks the hotel ALL THE TIME

honestly, tumblr user, silent reblogs

Alastor (sorry, most deal with his time alive):

Genuinely beginning to care for the hotel-- it scares him.

DADDY ISSUES + MOMMY ISSUES HE'S COLLECTED THEM ALL!!!!

Follow up: traumatic childhood

Mauled by dogs (is this still canon? Was this ever canon? DOES ANYBODY REMEMBER THAT???)

Knows the basics of technology, refuses to acknowledge it

Constantly playing jazz music from his radio in his room

Has a very vivid memory of his past, will not let himself forget it

Needs fucking glasses but that monocle don't do shit

Tea > coffee

Was convinced his asexuality was a flaw after being told so

Held onto Mimzy for the sake of nostalgia and memories of time alive

Insomniac

Nerd for jazz

Spoke some French as a child, though he isn't fluent

Husk's and Angel's get a bit detailed... I'm a slut for characters with such a vast possibility of headcanons

Husk (yeah I realize this won't make as much sense if you don't know all of his lore because of my obsession with him, I'll clarify what's already canon):

BLEEDS INTO ALASTOR, ALSO STRANGELY DETAILED: While alive, Husk played the saxophone professionally (canon). In his afterlife, as an overlord, he had one and continued to play bc us musicians r weird fucks who love to torture ourselves. Alastor knew he could play, and, being a jazz lover, LOVES that aspect of Husk. Just about the only thing he likes about him. Now, at the hotel, while he no longer plays, Alastor still brought his saxophone, which rots in Husk's closet.

Niffty's in his room ALL THE FUCKING TIME, it can't possibly get dirty

Doesn't make a mess to begin with--- husk hasn't personalized his room at all since he arrived, he doesn't know when Alastor will pull him out

Is used to that kind of travel anyways, since he did so much when he was alive (canon!!)

Never was that close to his parents-- they were busy with the (canon->) casino

Is (surprisingly) educated on LGBTQIA+ terms, labels, and knows about the most important landmark events in the community's history, he just prefers not to use labels for himself

Close to Niffty, has had conversations with her in Japanese (canonically speaks it) to prevent Alastor from understanding

Always wanted kids, knew he didn't have a stable enough life to have them and didn't want them to have a repeat of his own parents' absence in his childhood

MIXED RACE!! A bit of everything, I'd like to say

Had glasses when he was alive, where the fuck did they go in the afterlife

ACE SPECTRUM (previous post)!!! Demisexual & demiromantic (can u tell I'm projecting a lil???)

Hates KeeKee

Hates large crowds + loud noises, idk it speaks to me, especially with those big ass ears

I don't fully lean towards him being neurodivergent, though I do believe that Husk likes to have something to do with his hands as a form of stimming, if that makes sense

Alone most of his life

(TW, S.A.) Angel Dust (a lot of when he was alive):

Lived with Molly while alive

Was disowned when he got the courage to come out to his dad, fell out of the mafia and had to make a living for the first time ever

Wanted to be an actor, never got casted (while alive) due to being queer

Valentino romanticized his career, making him believe that he wouldn't always be the actor that he is

Career was also romanticized by the fact that he was finally accepted as gay

Performed in drag at gay bars

Borrowed dresses, makeup, other "feminine" things/accesories from Molly, who had a similar style

Isn't as up-to-date with technology and modern things as he seems to be

Tries to cover up both (slight) italian and New York(er?) accent, fails miserably

Had fish while alive (canonically loves fish lol)

Brother + father didn't attend his funeral

Met Cherri very close to when she arrived in Hell

learns more about media and pop culture from Cherri

Originally was in something like a relationship with Val, but it was more of S.A. than consenting sex after a while. When he began to disagree, this showed more prominently.

I don't have anything for Niffty except for one thing, so trigger warning once more. I believe that Niffty came from an immigrant family from Japan—half white. In the 50s, housewives got a bit stir-crazy from all the work they did, leading to hysteria, anxiety, depression, and other issues. In some situation where leaving the house was necessary, I believe one or multiple guys, possibly older, attempted to sexually assault Niffty. Asian girls, such as myself, that look like that "stereotypical" East Asian, young, small, etc., are fetishized. Niffty must've been little, judging by her form, and she was also an immigrant, and also a WOMAN—seen as lesser. In self-defense, she killed him (or all of them? I'm leaning toward it being multiple), having had enough. She was soon diagnosed with the housewife syndrome and lobotomized, meaning they gave her SEVERE brain damage, hence her twisted mind in the afterlife.

Overall, Niffty is a character that we don't know much about yet. Of course I'll write my own story over that. Playing with fandoms is just what I do. :) While I do genuinely believe the part about her being lobotomized will become canon, the rest is, again, just something that's been brewing in my head for a while. Maybe I'll incorporate it in my own writing, who knows?

I wanna see other headcanons in the reblogs and replies :D If this does well, I always have more!

[heeytwelve]

"That’s practically my type”

I remember someone really smart in internet was debating that Draco Malfoy has 100% chance to be Harry Potter’s boyfriend, cause he is, in fact his type. And if we look at Harry’s girlfriends, we kinda see the pattern (quidditch, outspoken, bravery, and have I mention quidditch? ).

But anyway, this post not about those, this post about how Chosen One of Carry On universe has his type too and why Agatha wasn’t just mistake of adolescence and how he changes his views on Baz when he become actively infatuated with him.

“I’ve wanted her since the first time I saw her—walking across the Great Lawn, her long pale hair rippling in the wind. I remember seeing her and thinking that** I’d never seen anything so beautiful.** And that if you were that beautiful, that graceful, nothing could ever really touch you. It would be like being a lion or a unicorn. Nobody could really touch you, because you wouldn’t even be on the same plane as everyone else. Even sitting next to Agatha makes you feel sort of untouchable. Exalted. It’s like sitting in the sun. So imagine how it feels to date her—like you’re carrying that light around with you all the time.

Let’s elaborate. He doesn’t fall in love with her - because of her academic success or because her parents rich or because she’s kind and caring. The type of attraction that works for Simon is so called - aesthetic attraction, attraction to beauty. 

And before you blame him for being shallow, I say, having strong preference for beauty is quite common among the artistic people, who grew up in desperate poverty, in small provinces, poor houses where beauty is rarity (for instance, famous ballet dancer Rudolph Nureyev was obsessed with beauty and collected a huge amount of beautiful things, because his poor childhood traumatised him). And, contrary to popular belief, Simon might have artistic tendencies, he sees beauty even dark creatures (goblins, *cough-cough* vampires), movements, colours and music.

Beauty for Simon is not a static thing to watch and enjoy the view, it’s not something he just want to own, it’s a force. Beauty protects him, it makes him untouchable, like nothing from of his previous (poor and mundane) life can touch him anymore, because he carrying the light, darkness will never reach him again. Agatha is not only his future, but also his shield. But - maybe it’s the same thing? Having future all sorted kinda shielding you from whatever you bump into.

He always mention her appearance whenever he talks about her - her clothes, her skin (”sparkles like she’s fairy”), her hair (multiple comparison with sun, light and halo). And when he decides to ignore the fact, that she quite possible betrayed him, it’s not only because he fear uncertain future but:

“She’s beautiful. And I want her. I want everything to be fine.”

Beauty as an attraction, beauty as a shield. Beauty is stability.

Now, before we talk about what all of this has to do with Baz, let’s bring up this quote:

“Like when I used to dream about becoming a footballer someday—or that my parents, my real parents, were going to come back for me.… My dad would be a footballer. And my mum would be some posh model type. ...

But we always missed you, Simon,” they’d say. “We’ve been looking for you.” And then they’d take me away to live in their mansion.”

I know, you probably roll your eyes now, like it’s stereotypical thing for poor kid in care to dream of, but isn’t that interesting, that Simon practically give us description of his future boyfriend and girlfriend as his dream parents? Now, don’t get me wrong, there is now perversion here, it’s just people he dreams to be with. People who potentially get him out of this awful reality and of course he will imagine them as the best people he can imagine - hence attraction to exactly those people. Now, we already know, that Agatha is beautiful as a model and she’s posh -Simon dwells how she good with regattas, polo matches, galas and he’s not posh enough for it. And right there, in next sentence, he mentions the only person who’s fit this interior - Baz. And let’s not forget about this:

“Baz walked into our room, much taller than me—and posher than everyone.”

There’s two interesting thing you notice when you will read Simon’s view for Baz. Simon never hesitates to use bold colours to describe how good Baz is. He never even doubts it, and Simon is not in submissive mode by any means. It’s just with Agatha - he sees the beauty and he admires it. But because Baz is evil, a threat (and potentially because he convinced that he’s heterosexual) AND Simon can’t just go in “I want him” mode, like he did with Agatha.  There’s a big quote above about how Simon met Agatha and here’s one about how Simon met Baz:

“and Baz was walking towards me. Looking so cool. Like he was coming my way because he wanted to, not because there was a mystical magnet in his gut.”

Though, it is looks, Simon talks about, I want to emphasise, that while Simon is not in active infatuation phase with Baz, he still unleashes his other attraction type, attraction to power/strength. Here and in quote below he indicates one of Baz biggest powers - ability to look unfazed and perfect no matter what. Power of composure.

“but he looked fine to me—not a hair out of place. Typical.”

Back to father being footballer. One might wonder, why violinist and person so into academic success went to be the lead player in sports team? All popular movies tell us that you either this (nerd) or that (jock), and Baz suddenly both. Because he’s perfect. And because he has his personality and vampire personality. One might also wonder, had Baz overheard Simon’s obsession about being footballer/football in general before deciding to enrol to the team and collect all trophies... Anyway. Baz as footballer:

“He’s the same on the field as he is everywhere else. Strong. Graceful. Fucking ruthless.”

If you ask me, this is where Simon shows a bit his infatuation. Yes, attraction to strength, even ruthlessness (Simon is a fighter, he does appreciate good fighter too). But graceful - is about beauty. You see, I think, maybe because Simon carries traditional values he kinda does that thing: women’s modus operandi is beauty, men’s - strength, ruthlessness. Same with his parents - mum is model, father is fighter footballer. That’s ok.  BUT when he starts to consider (even at the back of his mind) Baz as a romantic partner (it’s all starts when he sees that Baz is not a monster, that he’s a boy), he starts to notice his beauty more, than strength.

“He floats out over the moat and lands on the other side. It’s the prettiest thing I’ve ever seen.”

Infamous jeans scene, where Simon talking about Baz’ clothes (like he did w/Agatha) and literally checking out his arse:

“they do look like really expensive jeans. Dark. And snug from his waist to his ankles without looking tight.”

He starts to watch him aesthetically:

“I put my hand on his chest. I don’t have to step any closer to reach him. ... Baz swallows and licks his grey-pink lower lip. .. “he throws one of his pillows into my face. (It smells like him.)

“I’m watching him read—I swear he sucks on his fangs when he’s thinking.

The culmination of this development comes with “vampire club scene”:

““Every one of them must be so jealous of him. He’s everything they are, plus magic. Plus he looks the part, like he was born to be some sort of dark king.”

“Those vampires were in awe of you,” I say. “They wanted to put a crown on your head.

He has the skills AND he is royally beautiful. And Simon projecting his feelings to those night club vampires. The longer they in relationships, the more Simon dwelling on Baz beauty, just to show you this development, I’ll quote WS for a moment:

“I’ll be damned if he doesn’t look half glamourous. Like a boy Marilyn Monroe.… My brain gets kind of stuck on “boy Marilyn Monroe” for a while.”

...

“Baz casts his eyes down and smiles—girlishly, I would have said, but on him it’s not girlish. It’s, I don’t know, vulnerable.”

To elaborate, Marilyn Monroe is depiction of feminine beauty in popular culture and description of Baz as a bit feminine is something that would never happen in the beginning of “Carry On” setting. Of course, Baz opened up more to Simon (and this is important), but also Simon willing to see, no, he actually quite hungrily looking for this beauty. He is attracted to this kind of beauty AND I think, might be cause of his somewhat traditional views, he automatically looking for this in Baz, when he considering him as a partner. 

BUT. Again as in WS - Baz being powerful and strong AND that being attractive (and arousing) to Simon is not going anywhere.  So Simon’s type qualities - strength and beauty. (Not smartness and kindness, sorry Penny) though he does appreciate it.  And lastly, let’s go back to Agatha. We talked about her beauty, but she’s also an athlete. A competitive one. 

“I smile again and jump up off the bed, grabbing a pair of jeans and a purple sweatshirt that says WATFORD LACROSSE. (Agatha plays.)”

This sweatshirt Simon will proudly wear even in WS (Baz haven’t confiscated them yet :D ) - and if you think about it, it’s the way to show admiration too. And don’t forget the horse sports, she’s even more into sports than Baz (Baz would spend his summer practicing languages and violin - I believe his main passion, and football is just to unwind and fuck w/Simon, while Agatha would harvest prizes or skills in competitions). OK, no, he does play tennis :D So yes - as absolutely legit Simon’s type - Agatha do has these two qualities. They both do. Though not exactly in same proportions. Agatha radiates beauty, feminine beauty, you don’t have to watch closely to see it, it punches you in a face. But Baz is more powerful, as with Agatha, you don’t have to search for his power, it’s just there. And maybe this shift in quality proportions is what Simon needs at the end. But he certainly needs both. And let me finish this lenthy dwelling off with Baz quote, where he accidentally compares himself tells us this qualities proportions in Agatha:

“Wellbelove isn’t very powerful, but she’s gorgeous.”

There is interesting awareness between these two, but I will have a mercy and talk about it later.

[esther-ti-designs]

Hey everyone, uhh so I have some tea for you all.

So I met this guy (I’ll refer to him as J) during the last meeting of the quarter for the graphic design club last fall.  Here’s everything that happened between December 5 through February 22.

December 5

Honestly, I haven’t noticed J at any of the previous meetings, but that one night, he just came up to me out of the blue and complimented me on my cozy winter gear.

So J and I happened to be taking Intro to Design that quarter and we talked about our group projects for the class, which we just turned in earlier that day (I had just pulled two consecutive all-nighters and had just taken a 3-hour nap prior to the meeting, so I was very sleep deprived at this point).  We continued our conversation while walking down some stairs and outside the building, and he asked me about other clubs that I’m involved in, to which I told him that I’m the secretary and Head of Hufflepuff for the Harry Potter Alliance (HPA) and that I’m also in the ballroom dance club.  He seemed very interested in HPA.  He mentioned that he played second violin in the video game orchestra (VGO) and that they were having a quarterly concert that weekend.  A friend in HPA had promoed the VGO concert the night before, but I wasn’t really interested, as I had no knowledge of video game music.  J and I exchanged Instagram handles and later that night, I answered all of his questions about HPA.  Then on Sunday, sort of at the last minute, I found out that a few friends from HPA were going to the VGO concert and I went along because $5 for a concert is not bad, and I haven’t been to an orchestra performance in a while.  The concert was so much better than I expected!

December 9

Finals week just started and J randomly asked if I was studying on campus 👀

December 11

We met up at a boba shop near my apartment to study for the Intro to Design final (it was raining pretty hard and J refused to have me bike out to campus in the rain).  We studied off a Quizlet set for about 3 hours until my laptop’s battery was running low, and then we talked for another couple hours!  It turns out we have a lot in common!  We’re both only children, 22 years old, left-handed, design majors (J is actually a design and managerial economics double major), and we play the violin (I used to play violin and cello, but I digress).  Oh and we both have an iNTeResTinG injury story haha.  Then, before we went our separate ways, he gave me a one-armed hug, which I couldn’t reciprocate because I had my arms full with a cup of boba and my umbrella.

December 12

J DM’ed me out of the blue asking for my Spotify wrapped up.  I normally don’t give in to trends easily, and this was something I wasn’t really interested in sharing with the entire world, but I shared it with him anyways (Spoiler: It’s mostly Game of Thrones soundtracks, Taylor Swift, and BTS).  Despite being an orchestra nerd, I find it really difficult keeping up with popular music, and my musical taste stays fairly consistent even several years later.  I was kind of expecting him to laugh at my musical taste, but he actually complimented me for liking dramatic tv/film soundtracks.  And then we arranged another study session right before the design final.

December 13

The Intro to Design final was supposed to be 50 questions, all multiple-choice, no trick questions.  It was supposed to be really easy, and I thought we got almost everything down at the previous study session.  So why were we having another study session right before the exam?  I thought either he really wanted an A in the class, or he wanted to see me again before we went on winter break.  Right before going in for the exam, he asked if I wanted to meet up again for a “post-final celebration” when we were done with the exam.  Okay, now I was really starting to think he wanted to spend some more time with me before winter break 👀

So after the design final, we walked down to one of two boba shops on the edge of campus and downtown.  We both ordered our drinks, he got some popcorn chicken, and we talked for four hours!  I can’t remember everything we talked about, but time really flew by.  And then, before we went home, he gave me a one-armed hug again.

December 14

I had plans to fly home to LA today.  I had spent the previous night cleaning my apartment and packing stuff (I managed to forget to bring a pair of sneakers because, for some reason, dumbass me decided to wear heeled boots to the airport because ~fashion~).  I was sitting in the airport, about to board the plane, when I got a message from J.  He remembered that I was flying that day and was asking if I got home safely.  Aww he actually cares.  I told him that I would be boarding soon and will be offline for the next couple hours.  And then I updated him when I got off the plane, when my parents picked me up at LAX, while we sat in the typical LA traffic, until we all made it home.

December 15 - January 5

Over the next few weeks of winter break, we messaged each other a couple times every day.  We shared pictures of the holiday decorations in our home, and I shared pictures and video clips of my pet bunny too.  On Chistmas Eve, he asked if I had any plans, to which I told him we were going out for dinner to celebrate my mom’s birthday.  He wished my mom happy birthday and I passed the birthday wishes to my mom. “Hey mom, my friend says happy birthday.” “Thank you — who???” And I had to tell my mom about J (whoops).  Her judgmental ass was not exactly happy to hear that J is a Caucasian dude from yeehaw country, and after showing her J’s Instagram feed, she was not a fan of his art style smh.  Anyways, the day I was coming back to Davis, J was like AHHHH you’re back!!!!!!!  Just pure excitement 💖

January 9 - 16

We met up at yet another boba shop after the first week of classes.  Our meeting was shorter than all our previous meetings, because I had to bike back to give an apartment tour later that afternoon.  Two weeks into the winter quarter, we met after our design studio classes and walked to an HPA meeting together.  We also went to a graphic design club meeting together, after which he offered to drive me home so that I wouldn’t have to bike with the cold wind on my face.  I trusted J at this point, so I gratefully accepted.  I think my trust in him went up at least 10 times in this moment, because J managed to secure my small and heavy bike to the bike rack on the back of his car, which already had his bike strapped in.  After dropping me off at my apartment, he invited me out for dinner that weekend (it was also MLK weekend).

January 18

J picked me up at 7.  The restaurant he chose was hella ~ f a n c y ~.  It was an Italian restaurant downtown with dim lighting and pasta priced at $13 - $16.  He said he didn’t know the place would be that fancy and that he trusted Yelp’s description of “casual Italian.”  I told a friend about our sort-of-date night and she thinks J picked a date-y restaurant on purpose 👀  Oh and my mom went the extra mile of writing down J’s name, the place we were going to, and I was to call home at 10 PM (I ended up getting back and called an hour early).

February 14 - Valentine’s Day ❤️

Unfortunately, J never came to another HPA meeting because the campus radio station, KDVS, holds meetings at the same time, and he’s trying to get a job with them.  And we don’t really see each other very often because design classes are usually 3-hours long and J is really busy with 5 classes.  But J has been super excited about Yule Ball ever since he met me.  J came over while I was tabling for ticket sales.  He mentioned that VGO was going to see Sonic that night, and invited me to hang with VGO.  Let me tell you, it was quite an experience and definitely not the typical Valentine’s Day date.

We pulled into a Sonic drive-in for dinner (because gotta get in that Sonic mood lol).  A girl introduced herself as D (name altered to protect identity, of course).  She clearly has some sort of leadership role in the group because everyone pays attention to her, but she constantly makes jokes about being everyone’s daddy.  The jokes are so vulgar and obscene.  It was like weirdest video game nerd and band kid hybrid (J later tells me she’s a violinist.  What?!  Orchestra people are usually super chill lol).  After dinner, we get in our cars and head down the street to the movie theater.�� The VGO had reserved seats in Row J.  J and I had just booked our tickets several hours earlier and we were in Row F.  Throughout the movie, someone in the theater yelled at every pivotal moment (including, yes, that Tails reveal in the post credits).  J thoroughly enjoyed the movie and laughed along with whomever was yelling behind us, while I knew absolutely nothing going into it, except that Sonic is a blue hedgehog that can run super fast.  J also gave one additional bit of info before the movie: Sonic really likes chili corn dogs for some strange reason???

So that’s how my Valentine’s Day went lol

February 18

J came by around 3 in the afternoon, right before we were going to pack up for the day, and purchased a Yule Ball ticket.  He’s obviously very excited to go to Yule Ball with me but he says he doesn’t know how to dance.  I told him we have a waltz lesson planned.  He’s like aww and says he wants me to personally teach him (my heart 💕).  And as always, he gave me a hug before leaving to go to class.  Recently, I noticed that J has been giving full hugs instead of his usual one-armed hugs, though it depends on the situation.

February 22

✨❄️ Y u l e   B a l l ❄️✨

J and I arrived separately at Yule Ball because I had to help set up the venue for the event and I had spent the entire day working on an Azkaban wanted poster prop and literally finished it two hours before our meeting time for setting up the venue.  The dance was supposed to start at 7 PM and J got there early enough to help me out with last-minute decorations.  I had signed up to be in charge of the photobooth from 7 to 7:30, but no one came for pictures during that 30-minute period, so I was free for the rest of the night.  J and I had a fantastic time admiring the detailwork in the decorations around the venue and laughing and dancing to the weird selection of 2000s music.  J did pretty okay with learning waltz basics and I gave him tips here and there on standing in closed frame, balance, the slight tension in the left hand, etc.

Sometime towards the end of the night, my ballroom friend pulled me aside for a bathroom chat and asked if we’re dating.  I don’t know???  We haven’t decided to call it official so ??

After helping clean up everything at the end of the night, J dropped off a friend and right before turning to drop me off (I live across the street from that friend), he remembered that I hadn’t had actual food all day prior to Yule Ball (aww he actually cares, and he probably wanted some extra time with me even though my apartment was right there).  So we went downtown for (a very late) dinner.  While we chatted over food and boba, our conversation drifted towards soundtrack music and I mentioned The Theory of Everything soundtrack, my favorite soundtrack besides Game of Thrones.  J immediately searched up The Theory of Everything soundtrack album and streamed it on the way home (that’s some serious dedication right there), and he liked it!

Oh and I forgot to mention that J forgot to bring a jacket and I had a very warm scarf and coat, so we held onto each other with a one-armed hug while we walked to his car.  I really love his hugs, one-armed or full hugs.

I usually post a picture from Yule Ball every year so here’s this year’s!  Yep, that’s J.  And we’re both Ravenclaws :)

I’ll end this post here, so I don’t end up with a romance novel in a single post lol

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Elise Cooper Interviews Maisey Yates

The Heartbreaker of Echo Past

Confessions from the Quilting Circle

Maisey Yates

The Heartbreaker of Echo Past, coming out in June, and Confessions from the Quilting Circle, coming out in May, by Maisey Yates, are great reads. Both stories delve into family and how relationships, misunderstandings, secrets, communication, and love affect the dynamics. People must come to grips with their past.

The Heartbreaker of Echo Past is a novel where Yates has outdone herself, hitting a homerun.  It is the story of Iris Daniels and how she has come into her own.  After her parents died in a plane crash, she became the de facto mother to her sisters Rose and Pansy.  Giving up her own dreams until the sisters were grown, she has felt unappreciated and not special. But after her younger sister Rose tried to set Iris up with a nerd, she decided to make a life for her own. Wanting to set up a bakery she must convince the building landlord, Griffin Chance, to lower the rent. To do this, Iris travels to find the mountain man landlord offering to cook and clean for him in exchange for a lower rent. After weeks of seeing each other, it becomes obvious that there is a connection.  The bond that grows between them becomes a friendship that turns into a romance. Both share the grief of losing loved ones.

A bonus is the novella Solid Gold Cowboy that sees Gold Valley’s bartender, Laz Jenkins, getting his happy ever after. Laz has been in love, for years, with his best friend, Jordan, the coffee barista in the previous books of the series. After she becomes a runaway bride and accepts Laz’s invitation to stay with him sparks fly and both realize they were meant for each other.

Confessions from the Quilting Circle is based on Maisey’s own family.  It has three sisters and their mother coming to grips with their grandmother who has just died.  Each has lived most of their adult lives separate and apart from one another. Lark, the youngest, is an artist and someone who pretends to let issues roll off her; Hannah, is a concert violinist who is very sarcastic; the oldest Avery is the fixer but cannot fix her own marriage; and Mary, the sister’s mother, must come to grips with her abonnement by her mother, the girls’ grandmother. While cleaning out their late grandmother’s attic, they discover their grandmother’s fabric swatches. They decide to finish the guilt using those squares. Having turned the candy shop into a café, they meet weekly to sew the quilt, but also to share their secrets.

Both books delve into family loss, long buried secrets, and suppressed emotions. Readers will take the journey along with the characters.

Elise Cooper: Because Iris was such a beloved character did you feel any pressure in writing the story?

Maisey Yates: I wrote it before people wanted her story.  By the time Logan and Rose’s story came out I received more email about her than any other character I have ever written. I must admit, I was a little worried that readers would like the storyline.  I edited the first hero out because he was too blasé. I thought of this mysterious mountain man who was a loner.  It was a very challenging book to write because both characters had very emotional issues.

EC:  It had a lot of what you are known for, great banter, but it was more of an emotional story?

MY:  I have written over hundred romances.  I am trying to figure out how to do something a little different, while keeping the things that are essential to my romances.  But with these characters, Iris and Griffin, the story just seemed to happen.  Yes, it has a different kind of feel.

EC:  How do you write the banter? The scene where Iris tells off her sisters is hilarious!

MY:  Although I don’t have sisters, I am very close to my friends. After I met author Nicole Helm, I literally felt she was the sister I never had.  We have so much in common.  I do have a sibling and know how we can push each other.

EC: How would you describe Iris?

MY:  Everything that she loves I love including knitting, baking, and British mystery shows. She is a nurturer, homemaker, introverted, but not innocent and fragile.  She is strong, quietly determined, capable, and seems to fly under the radar. She feels second best, not appreciated, and does not feel special.

EC:  How would you describe Griffin?

MY: Broken, a disaster, a very good man.  Unlike many of my heroes he did not have a terrible childhood, but as an adult had this devastation. It stole all the hope from him.  He can be intense, a hermit, and a loner.

EC:  What about the relationship?

MY:  Iris was the one who always took care of everybody, and now is looking for an adventure, not a boring man. They were right for each other.  Both have grief and need to realize they must move on.  They would never go back to who they were before. She is the complement to who Griffin has become.  They understand each other and Iris is a good listener.

EC:  There is a very powerful quote in the book, “The hardest part is when everybody else forgot.  But we hadn’t.”

MY:  Although other people’s lives change for a while, those that experience loss have their lives change forever.  They must take the pieces of what is left and move forward. In the end, people go on with their lives. Many times, people do not know how to handle sadness.  Right now, because my mom is in hospice, I am experiencing that rush of support.  But eventually, everything will turn quiet, and that person is left with the sadness along with the reality of permanence that the person is never coming back.  

EC:  You wrote a novella Solid Gold Cowboy?  

MY: I had Jordan Whitfield as the heroine.  She was the background character in many of these books.  I made up her fiancé Dylan.  I wanted to give the bartender, Jax, his happily ever after. He knows everyone’s secrets and had to hear/see their drama.  It is about time he had some happiness.

EC:  The women’s fiction book, Confessions from the Quilting Circle, also deals with sadness?

MY:  I based it on my mother’s mom.  Her half-brother, George lost his father in Normandy during WWII.  His mother, my grandmother, never got over her first love. Although she remarried, she told my mom she was never in love with her husband, my mom’s dad.  As with the grandmother in the story, both were broken by the past.

EC:  This is a good book for Mother’s Day?

MY:  Yes, because of the relationship between mothers and daughters.  

EC:  Can you describe each sister?

MY:  On the surface they are different, yet all the sisters are running away from their life.  They were not able to share until now. The oldest, Avery, is organized, efficient, a homemaker, and a fixer.  Hannah is a concert violinist, independent, and angry at times.  Lark, the youngest, is an artist, a businesswoman, an optimist, and has a façade that issues can just roll over her.

EC:  What about their mother, Mary?

MY:  She is the most like one of my cowboy heroines.  She was raised without a mother and found a man to accept who she is.  She must face issues incrementally, handling mother abandonment while raising her own children. One of her daughter’s commented, “The same woman who was a wonderful grandmother for me…was the same woman who hurt my mother deeply and desperately.”

EC:  A powerful quote is about victimhood?

MY:  You are referring to this one, “I’m not a victim because I’m weak.  I’m a victim because a person that I trusted very much took advantage of that trust.”  Avery’s husband crosses the line.  She thinks of him as two different people. She was vulnerable because she hung on to the idea of who she thought he was.  He took advantage of her trust by selling her a bill of goods.

EC:  What role does the quilt play?

MY:  I love crafting although I knit, and do not quilt. The scope of their history is in the fabrics that they decided to make into a memory quilt.  The women’s circle allowed them to speak freely and expose their secrets.  The inspiration is how their history was women into the fabric of the book.

EC:  Can you tell us about your next books?

MY: There is going to be a third book with authors Nicole Helm, Megan Crane, and Jackie Ashenden. It is about half-sisters who start a farm store on their grandfather’s ranch.  It will be out in April 2022.

The last two books of the Daniels family are out later this year.  The first one out in October is Cousin Jake’s story and is title Rodeo Christmas At Evergreen Ranch.  Out in December will be cousin Colt and Mallory’s story.  She is the sister of Griffin. It is titled True Cowboy of Sunset Ridge.

The women’s fiction titled The Miraculous Ruby McKee will be out about this time next year.  It is about an abandoned girl who looks for answers to her past.

I am also starting a new series out in 2022 titled “The Four Corners” that is a cross over with the “Copper Ridge” series.

THANK YOU!!

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Excruciating // Jason Blossom

Summary: It’s unclear if it was a play or not but in the end you got into a relationship with Jason but grief struck when he died. You didn’t think anything could hurt so bad until you learnt what he was hiding from you. You would never be the same.

Characters: Jason Blossom x Reader, Cheryl Blossom, Betty Cooper, Jane (OFM) Reggie Mantle (mentioned), and Chuck Clayton (mentioned).

Words: 1225

Disclaimer: I do not own Riverdale or the characters. Nor do I own any gifs, jokes, lyrics or images unless otherwise stated.

Warnings: Possible swearing, agony, angst, death, underage drinking, and cheating (implied).

Requested: Yes. Anonymous.

Author: Caitsy.

A/N: Feels nice making angst ones again! Also I got a new tattoo!

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Parties weren’t something you were excited that happened. Especially since things happened that were taboo and never thought about again. Take Chuck Clayton, the perv hit on anything with boobs and no doubt waited until a girl was too drunk. Nobody went against him because how could you? He was a high standing football player that managed to get out of trouble with his father’s position.

At the same time it was spring break in the small town of Riverdale and any one under seventeen partied in the small town. The upperclassmen travelled to Florida to get absolutely smashed. You were ashamed to say that Jane, your best friend, had peer pressured you into drinking and you were still learning to hold your alcohol.

“I don’t know.” You mumbled pulled at the semi-short sleeve shirt you were wearing. Jane had always been the more wild out of you and took strides in everything.

“Come on!” She groaned, “Even scrawny Andrews is here!”

That took you by surprise. One of Riverdale’s golden boys was in the corner uncomfortably sipping on a beer. He had always interested you given that he was built like a twig that could snap at a simple poke. Somehow he was on the football team among larger built boys and one girl that was probably the toughest on the team.

“He’ll be wasted by the end of that beer.” You snorted at the redhead, “Hey maybe he’ll be the next Steve Rogers minus the serum, cool shield and a hot best friend.”

“Nerd.”

Jane giggled along with you before grabbing two empty solo cups and expertly filling them to the brim with cheap beer that tasted like ass. You were sure that your parents would kick your ass if they knew you were about drink at this party. One that was epitome of high school house parties with the loud music, grinding couples, and stupid drinking games.

“We should try beer pong!” Jane excitedly announced, “Reggie is over there!”

Jane had a slight obsession over the football player that was slightly concerning, the kind that makes you think of how broken and lost she’ll be. On the other hand Reggie placed his attention on her one hundred percent.

“No he’s coming over here.” You corrected her as the man in question gently grasped her arm. You didn’t want to know what was said with the deep blush overcoming her face.

“I’ll meet you later!” Jane called out as she followed Reggie.

You shook your head wandering over to the beer pong table nearly concealed by the amount of teens around it. In the corner was a Serpent definitely passed even the age of a college student holding little cards with names on them. He was selling the drugs that financed his gang.

“Crazy right.”

You jumped at the words coming from someone you never expected to have talked to. Blossom boy wonder was in front of you with a water bottle not opened in his hand. He nudged it into you hands while holding a red solo cup in his other.

“Jason?”

“Y/N.” He chuckled, “I know you don’t drink alcohol much and to be honest I don’t want to chance anything.”

“Change anything.”

“Rumours were going around of Chuck trying to spike drinks. Yours to be precise.”

“You cared?” You asked shocked.

“Of course. I’ll liked you since we were kids but you know how life controls your life.” Jason admitted ignoring the shocked gaze of his twin sister. You could see the near disgusting love she held for him, as if they were truly romantic soulmates.

“You’re sister is staring.”

“I don’t care.” Jason grinned brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. You blushed biting you lip as he grabbed your hand to bring you to the near stranded backyard.

You shot up in bed shaking from the memory of how your relationship with Jason began that one fateful party. You gagged racing into the bathroom to expel the vomit and the imaginary grief. Nothing helped the feeling of lose and loneliness.

Nothing was the same. Nothing would be the same. Not since he was taken from your life.

Jason had tearfully explained how he wouldn’t bring you into the horror story of a family life he had. So he planned to fake his death, earn some money and come for you for a new life. He used an old friend to create a story so you couldn’t be traced by to him. Polly was happy to help knowing that she wouldn’t have to reveal her baby as a creation of drunken night with Chuck.

Things changed. He didn’t make contact with you or Cheryl. That’s when things turned weird.

You had been wishing of him finding you before Betty called asking for you to come to Sweetwater River. That’s when life shattered when they carried your Jason out of the water swollen with water and a new addition to his forehead.

The weeks following were horrendous with the truth of why he was running away and your role. You were branded with suspicion from everyone. The grief kept you from going to his funeral and spending your time in bed next to a bucket. Everyone thought you were pregnant.

“Honey, I need you to do something for me.” Your father said rather uncomfortably. In his hands was a plastic bag with no markings on it.

“W-what.” You tried unsuccessful to clear your throat.

“I need you to go into the bathroom and take these. There’s water on the sink if you need it.” 
“Dad.” You started before seeing the contents in the bag, “I’m not pregnant.”

“You’ve been unable to keep anything done and with Jason running away I’m worried. Sweetheart you’ve been showing signs of pregnancy.” Dad whispered brushing your hair back.

“What if-“

“We’ll cross that bridge when we know.” Dad interrupted you, “No matter what I will love you. I will always stand by you in the worst of it.”

“What about M-mom?” You gasped feeling the tears coming back.

“She’ll come around.”

You weren’t pregnant but you were unable to get rid of the agony your life had turned into. It was going to get worse soon enough. The first day back at school Cheryl was telling you she needed you o come with her somewhere. That’s why you were standing near a locker in the middle of night at school.

Where your beliefs and world turned upside down again only this time by Jason himself. The rumoured Playbook that circulated the football team was open in front of you. It felt like you were underwater only barely able to hear everyone talking.

Beside Jason’s name was yours with a clearly written eight point five on the same line. You sank down on the locker in complete paralyzing betrayal. He had used you like you were a game that could be thrown out after it wasn’t shiny anymore. Was he even going to come back for you?

“I know this isn’t the time but I think you need to know something.” Betty said crouching in front of you, “Polly and Jason weren’t pretending. I found her diary. He got her pregnant and they were running away.”

“What.” You whispered before shattering in Cheryl’s shaking arms.

Nothing would be the same.

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The North Country Primer #4: Nick Jonah Davis, Nottingham, England

Originally published at North Country Primitive in April 2015

The fourth edition of the North Country Primer takes us closer to home to interview a man who lives a mere 70 miles away, in Nottingham, England. Nick Jonah Davis is the first, but hopefully not the last, British guitarist to feature at North Country Primitive.  Tompkins Square included him on the fourth volume of their excellent Imaginational Anthem series, and liked his music so much they released his album, Of Time and Tides . His new album, House of Dragons, has just been released in a limited vinyl edition by Shropshire's top shed-based record label, the wonderful and ever-eclectic Lancashire and Somerset - and to these humble ears, is his best offering yet.

Tell us a bit about yourself and the musical journey that took you to a place where you concluded that playing an acoustic guitar on your own was a good idea... Well...  I was a guitarist from the age of fifteen and the first solo acoustic stuff I heard was on Led Zeppelin records. That led me to Bert Jansch and Davy Graham, and from there I found that playing acoustic guitar in DADGAD was a very compelling thing to do. I did this in the background of other musical endeavours for a long time, maybe fifteen years. What I was really focused on was trying to do electronic music, with mixed-to-poor results. Then I stopped completely. Following a failed attempt to carry out CPR on a woman in a car park in 2006, I impulsively bought an acoustic I'd spotted in a junk shop to cheer myself up. Around this time, my brother gave me a Fahey album and I saw Jack Rose play: I realised that there might be a context for my acoustic playing that wasn’t just doing it for myself at home. I decided to record a few pieces in 2007, and put them on the internet to try and get some local gigs. Josh at Tompkins Square was into it and got in touch, which was absolutely improbable to me. If you’d told me when I was checking out the first Imaginational Anthem compilations that I’d have a tune on the fourth volume and be putting out an LP with Tompkins Square and playing the New York Guitar Festival, I really would not have believed you. The positive reception for the Of Time and Tides album was really pleasing. What has influenced your music and why? The most direct ‘famous guitarist’ type influences are John Fahey and Bert Jansch: to me, they represent two really important streams of excellent guitar music which will always be bubbling away. Really, though, the best influences come from the people that playing has brought me into personal contact with. C Joynes and Steve Malley aka the Horse Loom have had a huge influence on both the music I’ve made and the course I’ve taken with it. I’ve been lucky to play gigs with players that I really admire and that’s a direct influence that’s hard to quantify - just watching them up close and then also being able to say ‘How did you do x or y back there?’ Ultimately, when you set off on a particular route with the guitar, such as in this case ‘I’ll use weird tunings, play solo and try to get inside people’s heads,’ the possibilities and limitations of that approach become your core influence. I know a really disparate range of musicians who are all deeply into their thing and it’s a constant inspiration to have these people around me. What are your thoughts about being a UK based musician steeped in what could be argued is a largely American form? I suppose what draws me to the American Primitive approach to guitar is that it lets you explore ideas from a variety of musical cultures at the same time, using techniques drawn from a folk style as the basic platform. Despite the intensity of focus on American players who have done this, I don't really perceive this as wildly different to what people like Davy Graham and Bert Jansch were doing. A lot of what I dig on guitar has an American accent, a lot has a British accent, but there are a whole host of cultural reference points that weave in and out of my playing. I don't find it straightforward to play entirely within the constraints of any one tradition. What have you been up to recently? As ever, I'm always trying to get deeper into my playing - that's ongoing. We've just put out my new LP, House of Dragons, on Lancashire and Somerset Records, a lovely little label operating out of a shed in Shropshire. I’m extremely pleased with the gorgeous package they’ve put together - they are great people to deal with. I’m now halfway through the sessions for the next record. I’ve also been collaborating with my friend, the violinist Jo Cormack, on some semi-improvised electric guitar and violin music as Fains. I like her playing a lot, she can really kick an idea around without needing to be too precious about things, dropping things or picking them up according to the moment, which really works for me. What are you listening to right now, old or new? Any recommendations you’d like to share with us? Here's some random people I really like  that other people may be unaware of and are all worth investigating: Ellen Mary McGee, Raul Garcia Zarate, Kogumaza, Dead Rat Orchestra, Suzuki Junzo, Antigoni Goni, Lungfish, Cath and Phil Tyler, Alasdair Roberts, Zia Mohiuddin Dagar andForever Sound. In the fingerstyle world, two young British players who are worth checking out are Toby Hay and Jim Ghedi. The guitar nerd bit: what guitars do you play and what do you like about them? Is there anything out there you’re coveting? My main acoustic is a custom Fylde Falstaff, which I picked up recently. It's a dream instrument and has all but replaced my Martin. I play an Ermanno Pasqualato Style 3 Weissenborn guitar for lap steel, it's a sweet sounding and responsive beast. On the electric side, I have a much customised mid-90s telecaster. It sounds great - it's got a lot of attitude. For electric lap steel I have a 1948 Selmer, which is a historic and utterly beautiful instrument. C Joynes presented me with it as a surprise gift last year, and I'm still surprised. I have a bunch of other guitars and a little collection of other instruments. Coveting: I'd really like a Brook Hurdy Gurdy. There's basically an endless list though - ask my wife about it... Banjos: yes or no? Absolutely yes. I have one that I like to fiddle around with from time to time. Anyone who says they don't like banjos needs to listen to records by Shirley Collins, Nathan Bowles, Paul Metzger and Phil Tyler to ensure that they have an informed perspective on the situation. What are you planning to do next? I'm planning to finish my next solo guitar album. Jo and I are talking about doing a Fains record. C Joynes and I have a split electric LP that's at the mastering stage. Other collaborations are possibly bubbling up. I'll just keep playing, see what happens. I keep a fairly open mind - it seems to help... What should we have asked you and didn't? If you find out, let me know.

You can download Nick's music from his Bandcamp page, here. 

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the writing meme

so like most writers I have way too many projects on the go

hit j at any time to jump past this ramble of a post rip readers

original stuff not going into too much detail about these but I have Ideas. I’m going to describe these in some arbitrary number of descriptors (I choose... 3)

No Current Title Bc Entire Premise is Being Reevaluated (rip old title) this sucker’s premise is in its third re-write rip me and anything I had written for it before -genre is... a subset of fantasy, I guess. it involves people with magical powers  so I’m calling it fantasy subset -involves chemistry bc I’m a nerd -basic summary is chemistry powers are ok when they aren’t being used to  rebuild a “““better””” world. also violating the law of conservation of mass  makes one reconsider their career starring -amelia: starts off realizing that 3 different groups of people have manipulated her and is reasonably angry about this. “all I wanted to do is camp for the summer but NOW I have to spend it training bc soMEONE didn’t tell me about this power until they had year-round (long story involving other manipulation) access to me to train me as their asset” (”I’ll do it. but I get to go back at the end of the summer” “there’s no way you’ll pass the proficiency tests at the end of the summer--” “WATCH ME. *hyPERFOCUS ACTIVATED* great #thanksautism let’s do this”) -emer: finds out that the people who trained them aren’t actually very nice folks and needs to get out of that situation. “so that’s why my older sister left welp things make sense now”. makes enemies who are not ok people. -vina: I was trying to come up with a description but I feel like the remember the name meme would work fine

Music in Mind -all about musicians (like orchestral instruments) -genre would be contemporary I guess -mini playlist (pieces and songs that characters either play or just like listening  to): the bach double, partita no 3, read all about it, air on a g string,  mendelssohn's octet, either mission impossible or bond music haven’t decided  yet, danse bacchanale, piano man, adeste fidelis (yes the latin version listen  this character is a bit extra), ashokan farewell starring:  -katherine: parents are dead, is moving back to her hometown, and has an abusive violin teacher now. “look life it’s been like 2 years can you not--” knock knock it’s depression but this time there’s no comfort in violin/new bff to help. spent her 4 years away being remade as a violinist and no one in her hometown is quite ready for it (including her) "who tf made me section leader listen I am Not Ready and I’m p sure my stand partner is going to kill me” -felix: as of this year has have to teach himself and practice in secret. on top of that, he’s at the critical point where a lack of proper technical base is becoming a downfall. “listen katherine I know I asked you for help but is it seriously possible for me to have been doing so many things wrong for years” (”yes. bc i was the same”) -natalie: been coasting on the fact that all the top music prizes are hers but now there’s some real competition

A Book (behold my beautiful placeholder why are titles so hard) -a fantasy world based loosely on the great race (the chinese legend) -people have animal companions -Something Happened to the dragons (barely any human/dragon matches are  left) and a girl makes it her mission to (a) find out wtf is going on and (b) find  her dragon counterpart (spoiler alert: she finds a dragon but then... knock  knock it’s Consequences You Never Considered Before aka time for a huge  survival challenge/race)

Something About Dragons (yet another placeholder bc none of these things have titles ugh) (also have you noticed that I like dragons?) this one’s under wraps bc it’s still wayyyy in Development Phase -chinese dragons--they’re so lit ok (tho not literally bc no fire power) -adopted kids -a main conflict I literally haven’t even thought about lmao this is the reason it’s  fourth on my original works list, but I’m still excited about it bc DRAGONS ARE  LIT

oh shit I literally forgot one why do I have so many projects

For the Record (finally another actual title) -basically about a big fam at their cottage -feat a kid trying to swim a few k across a lake, faster than her relatives who  have already done it. at 15. (for some background, she’s a swimmer/distance  swimmer lmao this isn’t random) -another list: tree climbing, rock and beach glass collecting, snake and frog  finding, ice cream, chess playing, card tricks

yoi fics bc @therealpigfarts23 convinced me to start writing fanfiction. it all started with this first one

#icegiraffeofrussia that’s its working and probs final title bc now I don’t think of it as anything else -yuri has a growth spurt, cue viktor nicknaming him the ice giraffe of russia -the internet runs with it -rip yuri growth spurts are mean and rinkmates are shits (like friendly shits tho)

pjo au that series was half my childhood (hp was the other half) -based in part on this post (fml took a while to find it wHY didn’t I put the url  somewhere earlier) -currently trying to grow a plot heLP (would bc condensed pjo-ified canon-  parallel plot listen I've already thought of how viktor can introduce himself to  yuuri naked in this verse there is no turning back) -gonna jam a bunch of things in this point. literal knife shoes. hamsters at  camp (shhhhh). capture the flag. possible Phone Defense Squad (long story). starring: viktor: son of nike, yuuri: son of aphrodite, phichit: son of hermes, yuri: son of idk yet, mila and sara: hunters of artemis, otabek: son of hephaestus, leo: son of apollo, jj: son of zeus (I had to, sorry not sorry), etc

Possibly Something about the Making of Yuri’s ex skate -idk yet

The Ongoing Summer Work AU  may as well add this too -in my chat with autumn, may or may not write up as short pieces later -literally based on my life/my job atm not even claiming to be completely  fictional lmao -everyone embarrasses yuuri (he makes it so easy lmao)

AND THAT’S IT FOR NOW WHO KNOWS WTF MY BRAIN WILL DO NEXT

[raijindork]

April’s Current Story Priorities

[in case anyone is is curious about what it is exactly i’m working on] 

And yes, there’s a post about this on my FFnet profile, but it’s not really specific. So. I wanted to make a post with those specifics. Again, if anyone is curious about what stories that are on their way to being completed. Most of the one-shots at this point are about 50% done. 

Also, these are just the ones I’ve actually started. There are more I do want to write, but I’m holding off on starting for the time being. Also, the chapter stories: despite a few of them technically being on hold, I am still working on certain chapters, since I’d already started them and want to get those finished. 

One-shots: 

A Splash of Colour - Hairdresser!Bix AU. Lucy feels the need to spice her life up a little, and the logical next step after giving a complete overhaul to her wardrobe is to get her hair done. Bickslow isn’t exactly pleased that he’s the one that came recommended. 

Adventures in Step-Parenting - Single parent!Lucy AU. Bickslow found himself being thrown head-first into parenting, and honestly, it’s not as bad as he expected it to be. 

Baby Fever - Practically everyone is getting knocked up and getting started on building their families. Everyone except Lucy, that is. And Bickslow can’t help but worry that they’ll be next - and that, he is definitely not ready for. 

Dreams - (I honestly have no summary for this yet, and I’ve been working on this for like a year. Basically Dream WorldAU.) 

Enharmonic - Orchestra Nerds AU. She’s the pretty violinist, and he’s the confident cellist. And the next time Lucy trips over his damn cello, she’s probably going to actually break it. [Inspired by Mozart in the Jungle.] 

Flying Colours (Rated M) - Her boyfriend’s grades are failing, so Lucy decides to take it upon herself to motivate him by promising a series of rewards. 

Fortuitous (working title) - Getting pregnant hadn’t been part of her plan. And after losing her job, she has to rely on the one person she doesn’t want to even more: the father of her kid. Thankfully, Bickslow is all too willing to step up. And maybe, having a kid isn’t going to be that bad after all. 

Home Away From Home (Rated M) - CoLuBix. She never wanted to choose between them, so she didn’t. With the birth of her first child nearing, Lucy reminisces about all the trouble she had getting to that point in the first place, where everything was perfect and she wouldn’t change it for anything in the whole world. 

How the Seasons Change - Spreading her wings and going off on her own after her divorce is finalised, Lucy finds herself in Crocus. What she didn’t expect, though, is to be given a reason to stay there. 

Moonlight (Sequel to ‘Sunshine’)  - The beginning was easy. It was just everything else that was hard. Between Flare coming back into his life (and not in the way he expected), moving across the country and figuring out long-distance relationships, and then just figuring out just where it was they were going with each other, Bickslow and Lucy find themselves struggling. 

Rules are Made to Be Broken (Rated M) (Part of the Reaper/Angel!AU) - There’s only so long that one can go without wanting to break the rules. And Bickslow’s definitely had enough of following them, and so has Lucy. 

[COMPLETE] Strangers (Rated M) - With the kids gone for the night, Lucy makes the most of the opportunity and plans a romantic evening with someone she hasn’t seen in far too long.  - READ HERE

The Boy of the Lamp  - Genie!Bix AU. Three wishes. That’s the rule. And even if Lucy is the first person in a long time to use those wishes for good, Bickslow almost doesn’t want to grant them. Not when her third means he’ll have to say goodbye to her. 

To Build a Bridge - A child is not something you keep from someone you love, and Bickslow learns that the hard way. And when Lucy finds out the wrong way and jumps to the wrong conclusion, everything comes crashing down. And Bickslow is left trying to mend what’s left before it’s completely over. 

+ Various 100 Kinks Challenge stories, whenever I have the time/motivation/inspiration to work on them. 

Chapter stories: 

Third Time’s the Charm - Chapters 6+ 

Souls and Spirits - Chapters 53 to 60. 

Neighbours from Hell - Chapter 10: All’s Well That Ends Well (note: this is Cobra's chapter! [finally]) [COMPLETED] Brothers, Sisters, and Unfortunate Husbands - Chapter 6: Sleepover Shenanigans/The Coleslaw Incident - READ HERE

The Reaper and the Angel - Chapter 3: Life and Death

[genlirema]

tell me more about that N ship

But of course! :D I would explain how they met but to keep it brief (since it’s going to take A LOT of words to answer this otp meme): They slowly bonded after helping each other with their mommy issues .-. I’ll write a fanfic about it one day I swear

who wakes up first in the morning: N. Steven tries to, but unfortunately his plucky green-haired pal is always one step ahead of him. Steven also tends to sleep over his alarm clock. :P

who’s the first to fall asleep at night: Probably Steven.Due to Steven adventurin’ all the time in caves, he can never keep a schedule and he tends to spend way more time than he needs to looking for stones. Thus, he’ll always come back home super sleepy. While N is better at keeping a sleep schedule, he is not a heavy sleeper. Though, there are rare cases where N manages to get a few z’s first.

what they playfully tease each other over: Let’s face it, they’re both geeky nerds. They love LOVE watching cartoons together. Their favorite show to watch so far is Steven Universe, and of course this warrants some silly remarks from N simply because a) Steven shares the same name as the protagonist and b) Steven’s obsessions with stones, including gemstones.“So, Steven, did you enjoy your space adventure to save your father?”“Yes, I had a great time trapped in a human zoo. The food was exquisitely bland and the humans were even more so.”

what they do when the other’s having a bad day: …That’s tough man .__.Well, N would certainly agree with me, because due to…ya know, living most of his entire life in isolation, he’d have no idea what to do. Steven actually has a really bad temper, so usually he’d just sit and wait it out until Steven stops yelling and calms down. If that doesn’t work, he’ll just leave the house. He knows that eventually Steven will realize he left because of his rage and he’ll calm down just to allow N to peacefully come back into their home.As for Steven, he’s all the more wiser when it comes to N having a bad day. If anything, N’s sadness rivals Steven’s anger, so he always keeps a box of tissues nearby in every corner of the house. He will refrain from speaking and simply let N spew out his emotions. Once he’s done, Steven will reassure him everything will be fine and the two will continue watching cartoons if they feel like it.

how they say ‘i’m sorry’ after arguments: Like I said, N cries a lot. It doesn’t matter who wins the argument or how long the fight’s been going on, N will eventually burst into tears for “wasting their time fighting over ideals”, as he puts it. Of course, at that point Steven will end the argument (if it hasn’t ended already) and he’ll give N a box of tissues.As for Steven…he’d just say it. He’s not as…melodramatic as N (for lack of a better term). And of course, he’ll console N with a hug and a box of tissues if he needs it.

which one’s more ticklish: N.They don’t call Steven “Stone” for nothing :P Often when Steven does tickle N, N would try to tickle him back. He fails miserably of course, then he gets all pouty, then Steven tickles him again to make him feel slightly better, then N will whine again…and the cycle will repeat until either one of them gets tired of the whole thing :P

their favourite rainy day activities: While they love watching cartoons with each other, that’s not the only leisurely activity they do to pass the time, especially on a rainy day. N will often feel bad for Steven due to his stone collecting hobby, so he’ll always ask Steven to go through his rock/mineral/gemstone collection. N’s the only one who actually appreciates Steven’s hobby, and he never gets bored of hearing him go through his collection. Though, Steven can’t help but feel bad for N for asking about his collection (he’s always afraid it’ll bore him out), so he’ll often end with an: “Of course stone collecting isn’t the only hobby I have” and he’ll pull out his violin. Steven’s a natty violinist.

how they surprise each other: Again, another tough question. It takes a lot to surprise Steven. I mean, A LOT. Even if N were to attempt to surprise Steven with a stone of some sort that he thought was rare, Steven would always turn down the surprise with a: “I already have that stone” or “I’ve seen it before” or “That’s cool. Thanks for adding to my collection”. Needless to say, this bothers N a lot.As for N…it’s hard to surprise him as well. Perhaps it’s due to Steven’s stoic-ness, perhaps it’s due to N living most of his life in isolation (and thus, not being able to outwardly express his emotions properly (and despite this I still make him very melodramatic in my headcanon .__.)), but…yeah, Steven doesn’t know how to surprise N. Obviously, their relationship is a quiet one.

their most sickening shows of public affection: Speaking of the “N is melodramatic” headcanon that I have…his melodramatic-ness is actually a facade to help him understand human emotions, kinda like acting in a theatre/movie/tv show etc. And, the facade actually works. Too well. Let’s face it: in the real world, there are selfish idiots who playfully tease someone to do something for their own amusement. And when you’re in a gay relationship…I’d imagine this would happen often (don’t take my word for it though .__.). Just asking N to kiss Steven on the cheek is enough to warrant some awkward glances, mainly because a) Steven’s not used to N kissing him (because he rarely kisses him), b) those selfish idiots would go: “HA! GAAAAAAAAAAAAY” and would of course warrant everyone’s attention, and c) N would take the kissing over-the-top simply due to his melodramatic-ness and lack of knowledge for public etiquette. What makes their PDA “sickening” isn’t what N does, but rather, what or who motivated N to do it. Steven’s spent his entire life living in a rich home, so you would never expect any weird PDAs from him.

…I’ve fallen deeper into the madness of my own somewhat contrived OTP. WORTH IT.