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apologies for the ramble but: if the living tombstone ever makes a fnaf sb ruin song. if "this comes from inside" was a message to long-time fnaf fans. i like to think a sequel to that would be a message to newer fans in some way, the ones who don't feel nostalgia towards the older games but still loves them and wants to keep the spirt going
you think that youre alone, but we are waiting for you every night
heya, i just wanted to say thank you for this ask! ive been wanting to draw something based on it since last year im sorry it took so long š as someone who got dragged into the fandom when security breach first released, your ask really resonated with me
while i didnt exactly grow up with fnaf (my earliest core memory was like. playing the fnaf 2 mobile demo and laughing my ass off after getting jumpscared because i understood absolutely nothing) i still adore the franchise and the community and i cant wait to see what the future has in store for the silly freddy game :]
#fnaf#fnaf security breach#fnaf sb#chiimo art shenanigans#i saved this in my drafts and it got buried over everything else i thought i lost your ask š#anyways GRAHHHH HAPPY BIRTHDAY FNAF#10 years.. woaghg...
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Her name is Helga Sinclair, and she's acting on behalf of her employer who has a most intriguing proposition for you...
Are you interested?
#me personally i'm VERY interested ššŖ#but to be so fr i might become obsessed with her#she had no business being that fine#likeee#her femme fatale design her tough personality her flawless animation her voice actress's performance her-#like name something not interesting abt lieutenant helga katrina sinclair i'll wait#ā³āļø#i didn't even mention the rough drafts or the stuff that exists outside the movie itself yet#call me krispy kreme the way i'm just glazing at this point š#i am cringe but i am free š»#disney#atlantis the lost empire#helga sinclair#fanart#my art š¤#actually this is my first art post on this janky blog š
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Bts of the boy EP visuals via lamajamakeup
#those lost ladygunn party pics reminded me I was literally seconds from posting these unseens back in August when 5sos posted a studio vid#and thus this got frantically stuck in the drafts and completely forgotten about šš#the original post has since been deleted so I've just linked the account from which they originated š¤#luke hemmings#boy ep#5sos#5 seconds of summer#instagram#other ig#andrea vargas 2024#kh4f post#i wonder what i was about to tag this with lmao#all i had so far was 'i cannot express to you '#what was i unable to express š#and now i never will š„ŗ#anyways these pics (and this man) are ridiculously pretty#i welcome any and all unseens of the trenchcoat fit tbqh#also i just looked at my drafts for the first time in idk how long and there is crazy stuff in there that i really need to work on freeing
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Bringing househusband gojo to your work party <3
he would be so excited to go to your work, while you would be both excited and nervous ā you knew others would find your gorgeous and charming husband to be a prize, one that they would want to take. and you knew you had nothing to worry about ā but watching your husband wear his best suit and press sweet kisses to your lips after you got dressed did little to ease you.
and you were right ā all of the others were fawning over satoru, playfully (and not so playfully) chiding you for not bringing him to the office. you liked to keep work and home separateāso you only had a few pictures of satoru you kept in your office. but while the others fawned over him, he was too busy gushing over you ā talking about how wonderful you are, how caring you are, how lucky he was ā and he ended off his ramble with pressing a sweet kiss to your head.
and your insecurities ebb away, as you pull satoru into your office and once behind closed doors, you press a sweet kiss to his lips. and heās only grinning goofily, āwhat was that for, sweetheart? Not that Iām complaining?ā
and you chuckle, wrapping your arms around him as you wonder how did you get so lucky? and you only shake your head, āI just love you so much,ā you murmur, and he wraps his arms around you, pressing a kiss to the top of your head.
ānot as much as I love you.ā
#sab [asks]#sab [anons]#fic: househusband gojo#heās getting a tag#because I love him š„¹šš#I also forgot to post this and it almost got lost in my drafts š
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Made this for a poll a while back but felt like posting it on its own :) doomed timelooper besties
#kaworu nagisa#homura akemi#neon genesis evangelion#puella magi madoka magica#nge#pmmm#timeloopers#toma draws#just remembered i had this drafted so while i'm still at the driving test timeloop i'm gonna post it#i totally lost track of it after my blorbos were out but#making their tiesweep propaganda for the catholic poll really had their friendship living rent free on my brain since šš#does the pollrunner know what they've done to me.....#i have a less goofy wip of them but i haven't been getting around to finishing stuff lately.... hopefully i'll get to it sometime
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I hope requesting something is still okay! Also, I really wanted to let you know how beautiful your writing is. Your musings with Carmilla in mind remind me a lot of the actual novella. They're my favourite to read :)
Now onto my request! I wondered if you could write about Carmilla with a reader who is staying at her castle, but they both haven't confessed to each other yet. Some good old-fashioned gothic vampire pining lol
Hope you have a wonderful day and thank you in advance :)
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āŗ ..perhaps mortals werenāt all that bad. fem reader. ā I SM ACTUALKY SCREAMING THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I GOT SO EXCITED WHEN I READ HOW YOURE REMINDED HOLY SHIT IM SCFEAMJGN PLSSSSSS
Your glances are noticeable. Even when your gaze turns another way, darting anywhere but her when she caught you, it was noticeable. Terribly so. Perhaps she would be revolted with such gazes, disgusted when someone like you so much as breathed around her. But no. You were different. You set off a beat in her heart that she was unfamiliar with, one that she did not know.
Her plans to discard your corpse dwindled with each passing day, and a strange fondness came in its place. She was a lonely woman. Even as a creature of the night, she got lonely. She craved your presence at night, alone in her bed she craved it. She could hear your soft heartbeats echo in the castle walls, reverberating a sound she forgot so long ago, unaccustomed to a beating heart for hers ceased.
Carmilla thought to puncture her fangs into your pretty neck, to make you eternally hers. But that would be cruel, and perhaps you would think her selfish. But love is always selfish; the more ardent the more selfish. But alas, she was so terribly whipped.
Often times she longed to feel your fingers run over her cold skin, to feel your breath amidst her lips, to feel them touch her own.
So day by day she admired you in solace, the little things that kept her mind trailing back to you. She thought you a sorcerer, a witch that entranced her undead heart; but you were not. You were a mortal, a mere human who wedged your way into her mind. So for now, she would admire from afar, watching over you in secrecy, relishing in the warmth you brought her soul. She had all the time in the world, but you did not. Years passed like seconds to her, vampirism halting her lifespan, but around you time slowed down. Time slowed down to a point where she could breathe, admire the world around even if it was utter shit.
She wanted to be yours, you hers. She wanted to spend eons at your side, to hold your hands, to kiss your supple flesh. But now, she would be patient, she would wait. But her feelings did not-would not waver. Never, for she has loved no one and never shall, unless it would be with you.
#š¤ MAIN ā my writing.#i lost my train of thought for this#bc it was in my drafts for a few weeks#not proofread so sorry š#i hope its alr tho!!!#carmilla x reader#carmilla castlevania x reader#castlevania x reader#wlw#lesbian#castlevania#carmilla#carmilla castlevania#carmilla of styria x reader#carmilla of styria
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The Worst Timing | [4/?]
happy friday, everyone! here is part 4 (5.3k words) as a little pre-valentines-day installment :) [part 1] is here! this chapter was a pain to edit; i think i deleted + rewrote about a fifth of it in the revision process
anyways, i promised this chapter would be the wedding, so... please enjoy the wedding
this is an OC fic - here is a list of everything I've written w these two!
Summary: Yves invites Vincent to a wedding, in France, where the rest of his family will be in attendance. It's a very important wedding, so he's definitely not going to let anythingāmuch less the fluāruin it. (ft. fake dating, an international trip, downplaying illness, sharing a hotel room)
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Itās a hectic morning.
Yves wakes up with the sinking realization that the medicine he took yesterday has worn off entirely. That is to say, he wakes up with the kind of unshakeable exhaustion he only feels when heās coming down with something bad. His head is throbbingāsharp, cutting pain lances through his skull as soon as he finds it in himself to get out of bed.
All of that is inconsequential. He takes two pills from the cold/flu medicine blister pack with a generous few sips of water, brushes his teeth, washes his face in the sink with water cold enough to jolt him awake, and heads out.
He finds Aimee early, to ask her if she needs any help with anything. Then he makes himself available to the relatives that need him. Thereās a last minute printing issue with the seating cards, so he goes through all of them again, finds the ones that are misprinted, talks extensively with the hotelās front desk to explain what selection he needs to get reprinted and why, gets redirected towards the hotelās business center, and finally gets them reprinted properly in one of the storerooms in the back. He lines the cards up and cuts them manually with a paper cutter he finds in one of the conference rooms on the first floor.
Then he takes a shuttle to the wedding venue to help set out all the seating cards according to a seating plan Genevieve texts him, but itās windy enough outside that he has to find a way to weigh them all down. The venue has card holder stands, thankfully, but he doesnāt figure that out until he spends a good fifteen minutes asking around for them.
Then he waits twenty minutes in the cold for the shuttle backāthe shuttles are thankfully in operation, but theyāre running infrequently enough at this hour to be a slight inconvenience. By the time he gets on the shuttle, heās shivering hard, even in his jacket, and his hands are almost numb from the cold.
The temperature certainly doesnāt help with the pressure in his sinuses, or with the sore throat that heās had for a few days now. Perhaps itās a blessing that the shuttle is near-empty save for him, because no one is there to question it when he ducks into his elbow with every loud, wrenching sneeze, or the coughing fit that almost inevitably follows.
When he gets back, he finds a sewing kit for Royās sister, Solaineāthey donāt sell them at the convenience store downstairs, but he finds some in one of the tourist shops on the opposite end of the first floor of the hotelāfor some last minute fixes to the way itās hemmed. He delivers some safety pins from Victoire to one of his aunts, picks up breakfast pastries from the cafĆ© across the street for his parents.
He takes a quick, hot shower, hot enough that the entire bathroom steams up because of it, and hopes that no one can hear the way every sneeze sounds so terribly, unnecessarily loud, even in the presence of his rapidly depleting voice. He rehearses his speech from memory and then rehearses it again, thinking through his notes on the pauses and the reflections. He irons his suit out, for good measure.
If he stops and lingers too long, it becomes quickly evident just how exhausted he is, just how unwell he feels when thereās nothing strictly keeping him on his feet. So instead, he makes himself useful where he can, busies himself with whatever he finds, if only because itās the best distraction he can think ofāif only because itās the one distraction he has the luxury to take.
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Lunch is a quick affairāheās not especially hungry, and there will be more than enough food at the reception, so he grabs two pastries from downstairs, a coffee with two shots of espresso, and heads back up. Sitting down and eating them in the hotel room is somehow worse than running errandsālike this, he canāt chalk his exhaustion up to his hectic morning, canāt attribute the heavy, shivery feeling thatās been following him all day the cold weather outside.Ā
Three more hours until the wedding. Anticipation always feels the worst, like this, when itās nearly inseparable from worryājust a tangle of emotions in his chest.
He exhales.
Vincent is offāsomewhere. Getting lunch, maybe, or getting ready for the wedding somewhere else. Yves has exchanged maybe all of twenty words with him this morningādo you know if our room has a sewing kit? Or, Iām going to stop by the cafĆ© downstairs. Do you want me to get you anything?
Truthfully, Yves isnāt feeling much better today. His nose is running a little less now, thanks to the cold medicine, but the headache that heās had all morning hasnāt gotten any less persistent. Even with his suit jacket on, he still canāt quite manage to get warm. Heās sneezing a little less, but each sneeze catches him off guard, harsh and sudden and embarrassingly loud.
But Vincentāwho is, on average, unusually perceptiveāhasnāt said anything about any of it. Yves tries not to think too hard about it. The less Vincent is worried about him, the better. Maybe heās just preoccupied with other things.
He finishes his pastries at the small coffee table in the living room, downs half of his coffee, and then leans back in his chair and shuts his eyes.
His head hurts. He feels dizzy, even though heās sitting perfectly stillāas if the ground beneath him isnāt quite as steady as it should beāa strange feeling of vertigo. Surely if he sits here for just awhile longer, that feeling will go away.
He doesnāt fall asleep, exactly, but itās a close thing. The discomfort doesnāt let up, eitherāno amount of massaging his temples seems to make the headache any better, and no amount of shuteye seems to do anything to lessen the exhaustion he feels. Maybe if he takes a nap heāll wake up feeling passably fine. But he thinks itās just as likely that heāll get woken up earlyāby a phone call, or a text, or a knock on the doorāto be told that heās needed somewhere, and that alone is enough of a deterrent to keep him from properly falling asleep.
From somewhere at the edge of consciousness, he hears footsteps out in the hallway.
Someoneās here, then. He should let them in. But before he can bring himself to stand up and head over to the door, he hears the sound of the room card being inserted into its slot, hears the click of the door as it unlocks.
SomeoneāVincentāshuts the door quietly behind him. When he spots Yves, he looks a little surprised.
āI didnāt think Iād find you here,ā he says.
Yves blinks. His face feels unusually hot. āI got lunch,ā he says, clearing his throat. āWell, I fidished it, but if Iād known youād be getting back, I wouldāve gotten somethidg for you.ā
āIām surprised you made it back,ā Vincent says, leaving his shoes in a neat line at the door. āAre you done putting out all the fires now?ā Yves laughs, though it turns into a cough. āFor the foreseeable future, yes. Sorry iā hhH!ā He twists over his shoulder, away from Vincent, to cover the sneeze in a manner that does not come at the expense of his suit jacket. āhHh-! iiDDzschh-IEW! snf-! Sorry Iāve barely been around this mornidg.ā
Vincent is his own personāYves has no doubt that heās entirely self-sufficient when it comes to travelābut still, Yves is the only person Vincent really knows here. Heās not sure he can claim heād be good company in his current state, but he feels like maybe he ought to be around more oftenāto translate, or to serve as the conversational buffer, or something else.
āItās no problem,ā Vincent says, frowning. āYou were busy.ā
āStill. If we were actually datidg, I think this would make me a slightly terrible boyfriend.ā
āIf we were actually dating, I would understand that you have important things in your life to attend to,ā Vincent says.
Yves laughs. āLike cutting sixty sheets of paper into even rectangles?ā
āIs that what you were out doing all morning?ā
āAmong other things.ā
āThen yes,ā Vincent says. He stops just short of the coffee table where Yves is sitting. āAre you finally off of paper-cutting duty?ā
āGod, I hope so. Weddings are always so hectic, even if youāre only peripherally idvolved. Itās like everyoneās worried about things going wrong beforehand, but then when you finally get to them, they always go fine.ā
āHave you been to a lot of weddings in your life?ā
Yves considers this. āCobpared to the average person? Probably.ā
āThen you should listen to your own advice,ā Vincent tells him.Ā
āWhat?ā
āItās going to be fine.ā
Yves blinks. If Vincent can tell that he is nervous after a three minute conversation with him, then Yves must really not be doing a good job at hiding it.
āThatās what Iām hoping for,ā he says. He really is tired. Maybe another cup of coffee, or two, will helpāhe can hardly think of anything more mortifying than nodding off halfway through the vows. āI donāt think Iāll forgive mbyself if it doesnāt.ā
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Itās a near-perfect wedding.
The weather is as temperate as it gets at this time of year. Itās sunny out, and brisk enough that no one feels stuffy in their suit jackets and their summer dresses.
The wedding venue is like something out of a storybookāthe white stone paths, arcing around a circular fountain, the water a clear, searing blue; the rows and rows of flowers that crowd around it. Flowersāroses, peonies, tulips, gardeniasāline the walkways, strung up over arches in crisscrossing rows of sprawling green leaves.
When Aimee and Genevieve walk down the aisle, Leon grins; Victoire turns away to wipe at her eyes. When they say their vows, Yves feels a tightness in his chest, a fierce sort of pride. He knew, of course, that this moment would make him emotional.
But nothing compares to seeing them here, right here, smiling. Aimeeās hair is half up, half down, held in place with a half moon clip that winks white under the sunshine. Genevieve is wearing a long white dressāher hair is braided into a crown, threaded with flowers, a translucent lace veil settling over her shoulders. The afternoon sunlight trickles over them, gleaming. And Yvesā
Yves has always believed in love.
Perhaps itās overly idealisticāheās certainly been told as much beforeābut he believes in it still. He believed in it even before he started dating Erika, and he believed in it after they broke up, too. Itās not so much the idea that people can be soulmates, more the idea that people can spend thirty or fifty or seventy years together and not tire of each other, the idea that the little mundanities of life might be made special in the presence of someone whose existence sublimates them endlessly into interest. The idea that two people who may not ever fully understand each other might try, ceaselessly, to get close.Ā
He remembers: hearing about Genevieve, over text and over call; at first peripherally, but then frequently. He regrets, sometimes, that he wasnāt there more for the both of them, that he could only help from an ocean away with celebrations and holidays and special events, that he still doesnāt know Genevieve as well as heād like to.
But a part of him thinks, now, that maybe it was a privilege, too, watching from afar. Hearing about the dates secondhand, from Aimee, all of it filtered through her own excitementāhearing Aimee talk about everything that left an impression on her. It would have been different, of course, if he had really been there. But in a way, it is a little fitting that his first impression of Genevieveāhis first mental portrait of herāwas by someone who was already already half in love with her.
And he remembers: Aimee, unusually quiet one night over Facetime, sitting cross legged in the living room of their new apartment. The world, dark outside through the living room windows, even though for him it was only mid afternoon. The way sheād smiled, wistful, staring off into the distance at some point he couldnāt see. I think I might marry her, she had said.
She had said it like she was certain. He finds himself going back to that moment, to her certainty. Heās always wonderedāhow had she known? How had she been so sure of it, even then?Ā
But the way Genevieve takes Aimeeās hands, during the vowāthe way her hands tremble slightly with it, the particular carefulness with which she handles the ringāall of it makes him think that heās been right to believe in this, in them, in love. After all, what more convincing proof is there than this?
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All in all, it is nearly perfect.
Nearly, save for how unwell he feels, how self conscious he is about not making it expressly known. Yves shivers through the entire ceremony, occasionally lifting the collar of his suit jacket to muffle a harsh, wrenching sneeze into the fabric. Heāll get it dry cleaned later. Beside him, Vincent looks to him, his head tilted in questionāand, after Yves smiles apologetically at himāsays nothing.
He makes it through, as a combination of everythingāthe adrenaline, the cold medicine, the four espressos heād had this morning and the energy drink heād downed right before the ceremony to keep himself awake.Ā
He doesnāt have a thermometer, doesnāt know what kind of temperature heās running, but he has a hunch that itās higher than it should be. Itās freezing outsideācold enough that he canāt keep himself from shivering, even when he triesābut no one else seems to be as cold as he is. He can only hope, now, that no one else notices him ducking into his jacket, periodically, to catch another sneeze, or wiping his nose on the back of his hand to keep it from openly running.
The world looks fever-bright, fuzzy around some edges but unusually sharp around others. Heās awake, but in the sort of uncomfortable, all-consuming way where it feels like heās too nervous to get any sleep at all.
He feels only half-present during the cocktail hour, while Aimee and Genevieve take their pictures. He thinks he should make himself useful somehowāhelp with positioning props for photos or with setting up the proper lighting or whatever elseāor, at the very least, converse with the relatives that he hasnāt had much of a chance to catch up with yet.
Instead, he sits, half hunched over at one of the side tables, and tries not to shiver too visibly. His head hurts with the sort of sharp, incessant pain that makes it near-impossible to focus on anything else.Ā
āAre you okay?ā Vincent asks him.Ā
Yves looks over to him. Vincent looks concernedāhis eyebrows are furrowed, his mouth set into a frownāand Yvesā
Yves considers it, for a moment: telling Vincent the truth. That itās taking everything in him to appear even remotely presentable. That a part of him is nervous that heāll crash before he gives his speech. That he might have overestimated his own ability to get through four more hours of this, outside in the cold.
āOf course,ā he says instead, with the best smile he can muster, because what else is there to say?
He doesnāt end up having any drinks, even though heās usually a fan of cocktails. Leon offers him one, and when Yves shakes his head, shrugs and heads off to find someone else, which Yves thinks is probably the best. Heās a little too out of it to keep tabs on where all the others areāthere are enough people that itād be hard to spot everyone in the first place, but like this, it feels impossible.
And Vincent isā¦ surprisingly, absent, for much of it. Yves considers texting him a couple times, just to see where he might be, but then decides against it. If Vincent has found something fun to do, then Yves definitely isnāt going to keep him from doing it.
Except, a small part of him says, heād explicitly told Vincent not to worry about him. It doesnāt have to be your problem, heād said, and Vincent had stared back at him, blankly, except was his expression really blank, then? Hadnāt he seemed a little hurt? After all of this is over, Yves really ought to apologize to him for all of the troubleāfor making this whole wedding a lot more stressful than it shouldāve been.
Vincent had known, after all, that he was nervous just this morning, even though Yves hadnāt wanted for it to show. And perhaps Vincent has always been perceptive, but Yves likes to think he isnāt always so obvious. Vincent is here to enjoy his vacation in France, first and foremost. Yves doesnāt want anythingānot the fever he feels brewing, not the nervousness he feels regarding the weddingāto get in the way of that.
But right now, Vincent is nowhere to be found, so he tables the apology for later. For now, he just has to get through the entirety of the wedding. He spends a good part of the hour in the same seat, blowing his nose into cocktail napkins, wishing he had packed something warmer that would fit the dress code.
He makes polite conversation with whoever stops by, and triesāand failsāto ignore the fact that it feels like his head is going to split. Maybe he shouldāve picked up some aspirin at the convenience store, too, though itās not like he has the time to go back and get it now. And, anyways, as painful as it is, itās really just a headache. How bad could it be?
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At six, he finds his seat for dinner. A couple minutes later, Vincent takes a seat next to him. Yves turns to speak to him, only, he has to turn away to muffle a throat-scraping fit of coughs into his elbow.
The coughing fit lasts longer than he anticipates. When he looks up at last, Vincent is already in conversation with the person next to him, who Yves recognizes to be one of Genevieveās friendsāperhaps one of the ones he ate dinner with the night before, though Yves canāt be sure. Yves hunts down another cocktail napkin to blow his nose intoāitās starting to run worse now that the sun is starting to set.
When it comes time to give his toast, heās afraid, for a moment, that he might forget what to say. That he might trip up mid-speech, despite all of the practice. That his current affliction might make itself clearly, embarrassingly apparent right when everyoneās attention is focused on him.
But the speech goes well. He gives his speech in French. His voice is noticeably off, but he hasnāt lost it entirely, and if he has to resort to clearing his throat as quietly as he can in between sentences, itās a small sacrifice. Aimee giggles at the anecdote he tells about her in grad school, texting him about meeting Genevieve for the first time at a networking event. He throws in a couple inside jokesāreferences to things heās heard his extended family laugh about during their yearly summer reunions, things that he can tie back into the wedding that he hopes might land well with this audienceāand then he tells everyone about a surprise party he worked with Genevieve to plan, last summer, for Aimeeās birthday: how sheād stayed up late to make sure everything was carefully accounted for. How heād known, then, from how seriously she was taking it, by how well she seemed to know Aimee already, that she would be the one.Ā
The jokes seem to land, for the way everyoneābuoyed from the adrenaline of the wedding and in part thanks to the cocktails, heās sureālaughs, and by the end, Genevieve is beaming, and Aimee breaks tradition to run up to him and give him a tight hug. After that, he asks everyone to raise their glasses in a toastāāTo Aimee and Genevieve,ā he says, āwhat a joy it is to see the team youāve been rooting for win,ā and the room erupts into clamorāinto applause and cheer and the resounding clinking of glasses.
Then someone he recognizes as one of Genevieveās closest friends stands to give her toast, and for the first time today, Yves lets himself relax in his seat. Only, it isnāt really relaxingāafter all of the caffeine, he feels simultaneously exhausted and strangely, artificially alert, in a way that feels a little wrong.
The rest of the wedding should be smooth sailing, he thinks. The ceremony is over. His speech was fine. He just needs to stay through dinner and the cake cutting, and then he can ride the shuttle back with everyone else, and thenā
āAnd then heāll be back at his hotel room, where he can apologize to Vincent for perhaps being the very reason why this vacation hasnāt been as stress-free as it shouldāve been, considering that itās likely one of the few reprieves he and Vincent are supposed to get until busy season winds down.
He blinks, rubs a hand over his face, sniffling. He really does feel dizzy.
Itās usually like this. Yves thinks he should probably be wiser by now. If thereās anything heās learned from past experiencesāattending that end-of-semester crew meeting with the flu, or getting through the second half of finals week his senior year of university with a high feverāitās that half a week of ignoring all of his symptoms is going to catch up to him eventually.Ā
Usually heās better at defining what constitutes eventually.
He feels a familiar prickle in his noseāthe kind that he knows once he gives in to will plague him for the rest of the hour. The cold medicine must be wearing off. Better to do this elsewhereāanywhere instead of here, on the courtyard, where everyone is eating dinner.
āIāll be right back,ā he says to Vincent. Then, without waiting for a response, he rises from his seat and heads off in the direction of the nearest restroom. Thereās one in the main building, past the catering stations, the ballroom, the indoor bar.
āHey, Yves,ā someoneāhis sisterāsays, when heās halfway to the building.
He stops walking. āWhatās up?ā
āYou nailed that speech,ā she says.
āIn no small part thadks to you,ā Yves says, forcing himself to turn and face her with a smile. āIām glad we cut it down. And by we I mean, mostly you.ā
āYou were a hit,ā Victoire says. āAnd it was funny. I liked the anecdotes you picked. I donāt think people wouldāve minded if it were longer.āĀ
āThree mbidutes was the perfect length. Ady longer and people wouldāve started losidg idterestā hHh-!ā Yves thinks, a little frustratedly, that he always has the most inconvenient timing. āExcuse mbe, Iā HHehh!ā He lifts his arm to his face, twisting away. āhHhEHāiiDZSSchhāiiEW!ā
When he turns back around to face her, Victoire is staring at him with the sort of calculating look that Yves is sure is not a good thing.
āYouāre still sick?ā she asks.
He blinks at her. āA little,ā he says. āIāll get some sleep todight.āĀ
She nods. āDoes Vincent know?ā
The question startles him into laughing, which he immediately regrets, for the way it makes him cough. āThat Iāmb sick?ā he asks. āYeah, Iād assume so. We share a room.ā
āAssume? So you havenāt talked to him about it?ā
āWhether or ndot I have a cold is not the mbost enthralling conversation topic,ā Yves says.
āBut youāre dating,ā she says, as if that explains everything.
It explains nothing. āYes, glad you ndoticed.ā
āI just mean that ā I mean, he got breakfast with us the other day, which you werenāt there for, and then we had the rehearsal dinner, which he wasnāt invited to. And during the cocktail hour, you were sitting alone.ā
āIāmb not sure where youāre goidg with this,ā Yves says, if only because he doesnāt want to be having this conversation right now. āBut if youāre wondering whetherāā He veers away again, pressing his arm to his face. āhhā¦ Hehh-! hhHHāGKTT-SHHiiew!Ugh, sorryā¦ Hhā¦ HEHhāIIDZZSCHh-yyEEew! snf-! If youāre wondering whether we got into a fight, or sobething, then the answer is no.ā
āItās not that.ā Victoire hesitates, for a moment, as if sheās still thinking about what to say. She probably is. Sheās always been deliberate with her words. āIt kind of seems likeāwell, like youāre doing that thing you always do.ā
āWhat thidg I always do?āĀ
āYou know.ā She looks at him, her expression carefully, deceptively neutral. āAvoiding the people who care about you when somethingās wrong.ā
āI have ndo idea what youāre talking about.ā Yves glances wistfully over to the bathroom. āI do really ndeed to pee, you know.ā
He half expects her to press, but she just sighs. āOkay,ā she says. āDonāt let me keep you.ā
Itās a convenient out, and he takes it. The walk over is thankfully not too longāthe bathroom turns out to be located just a couple hallways down from the entrance, but itās hidden enough that itās a little hard to find. For now, thatās a good thing.
He imagines the wedding party might move inside shortly after dinner, but as it stands, the building is mercifully empty. The restroom on the first floor is nicer than expectedāwarm lighting, floor to ceiling mirrors, polished white sinks on a black granite countertop. He braces himself against the countertop, suppressing another shiver.Ā
His nose is running slightly. He reaches over and grabs a couple paper towels from the dispenser, just to be safe.
Itās not a moment too early. Itās only moments after that heās pitching forwards into the paper towels with a harshā
Ā āHhHāiiDZSSCHh-IIEW!āĀ
The sound echoes off the tiled walls. Yves finds himself coughing, afterwards. The medicine must really be wearing off, then, for the way his nose is starting to run incessantlyāfor the way the discomfort prickles at his skin, suggesting a fever. Itās a good thing thereās no one here to see him like this.
āhHEHhāiIZssCHH-iiEW! snf-! hHEhā¦ HDDtāTSSCHH-iEEW!ā The sneezes are harsher than usual, too, and forceful enough to snap him forward at the waist. He stays hunched over for a moment, steadying himself with the side of the countertop, and tries, somewhat unsuccessfully, to catch his breath.Ā
The bathroom feels frigidly cold. He shivers, reaches up with trembling hands to try to button up his suit. His nose is starting to tickle again. It feels like he might be here forever, like one wrong breath might be enough toā
āhhHā¦. hHEHā¦. hhHEHāDJJJSHHāiiEEW!ā The paper towels in his hand must be drenched now, but before he can get a chance to replace them, his breath catches again. āhhEHāGKTT-SHhhEw!ā Itās immediately clear, from the subsequent twinge in his nose, that heās not done. For a moment, he wonders if the sneezes will ever let upāif heāll be stuck in the bathroom all evening, trying to keep his illness under wraps.
Before he can entertain the thought properly, he finds himself jerking forward again, his eyes snapping shutā
āHehhā¦ hEHhāIIZSCHH-YYEEW! hHihhHā-iiTsSHHH-YYEW!ā
He blows his nose, as gently as he can, but the paper towel is rougher against his skin. When he looks up afterwards, blinking tears out of his vision, his nose looks noticeably red.Ā
It takes all the resolve in him to not just slump against the wall.
His next breath comes in wrong, and he finds himself coughingāharsh, grating coughs which seem to go on and on, leaving him feeling distinctly lightheaded.
He canāt stay here. He needs to make it back to dinner, where the others are waiting for him. He has to get back before Vincent starts wondering where heās gone.
Yves squeezes his eyes shut. If heās being honest with himself, he feels awful. Nothing he does seems to do anything to assuage the chill thatās settled persistently over him, the uncomfortable, shivery feeling that makes him want to curl up somewhere warm, sleep the next day and a half away.
Would it be so bad for him to stay here for just a little longer? To send a text to Vincent to let him know heāll be back in twenty? Itās not the most comfortable of places, but it would be the easiest to explain if someone ends up finding him here. Anywhere else might suggest that he has a big enough problem to deliberately hide away instead of properly enjoying the festivities, like he should be doing, which is not the impression he wants to give off at all.
He tries to think of a convincing enough excuse, but nothing he can think of takes precedence over a wedding dinner, of all things. It should be fine if he goes back now, but any longer might be pushing things.
And, anyways, he feels guilty for even considering it. The others are waiting for him. He has to show up, and at the very least, be courteous where he has to, make pleasant conversation when he can. He has to make sure Aimee and Genevieve are having fun, and that Leon and Victoire are doing fine, and that nothing needs to get done logistically, and that Vincent is not there alone, surrounded by strangers speaking a language heās just started to learn.
His head is pounding. He tosses the paper towels into the bin, leans his weight against the countertop, squeezes his eyes shut. The exhaustion from the past few days of on-and-off sleep must be catching up with him. His head is pounding.
He can do this. More aptly put, itās not a question of whether he can. He has to do this.
He splashes his face with cold water, washes his hands in the sink, dries his face with another generous handful of paper towels, and heads towards the door. He feels almost too tired to stand, but thatās only a temporary concern. It wonāt be a problem once he gets back to his seat.
Everyone is waiting for him, he tells himself. Soon, they might be asking where heās gone. He needs to show them that heās thereāpresent and attentive and engaged, just like he promised everyone heād be. No one expects any less of him, after all.
Itās with that in mind that he presses forward. He makes it down a couple hallways before he finds himself having to lean against the wall to catch his balance, shutting his eyes against the sudden wave of disorientation. He inhales, slowly. Exhales.
Fuck. Perhaps heās dizzier than heād expected.
āYves?ā He freezes. Vincent is not supposed to be here. Vincent canāt see him right now, not in this state. He forces himself to smile. āWhatās up?ā
āYou disappeared,ā Vincent says. āI wanted to make sureā¦ā
His voice shutters, sounding distant and close by all at once. ā...that everything was okay.ā
āIt is,ā Yves says. āI was just about to head back.ā āWe can head back together,ā Vincent says. Itās not that long of a walkājust a couple minutes, at most, to the exit Vincent presumably came in from, and then back down the stone path that leads to the courtyard.
āYou didnāt have to come find me. Iām really fine.ā Yves shifts his weight off from the wall. Takes a couple steps halting towards the exit, which is a mistake.
It all registers simultaneously: the darkness encroaching upon the edges of his vision, the surge of panic in his chest. The world, suddenly angled wrongly, tilts towards him. He thinks he is definitely going to owe Vincent an apology.
[ Part 5 ]
#sneeze fic#snz fic#sneeze kink#snz kink#snzfic#spoilers for this chapter ahead:#(do not read these tags if you have not read the chapter yet)#(one more line so that this doesn't show up unless you click read more)#i... am sorry. i know the ending to this chapter is probably going to be controversial (glances at the poll i made awhile back)#but i really wanted to write it š#(you are free to yell at me for this decision)#i almost lost my nerve and let this sit in my drafts forever because the wedding was incredibly difficult to write but#i finished editing it today after drinking something very caffeinated#yvverse#my fic
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Going to do a Nevermoor series reread in June + July + August ? if anyone else also wants to do a reread around that time, could be fun to have more of the fandom prepping for Silverborn
Did initially make a roadmap plan to split the books up into weeks on top of already being months, so that people could focus on specific parts and discuss each weekā¦.. but between the fact that I messed it up the first time, Silverborn kept getting delayed as I planned it, and Iām actually really bad at keeping to stuff like that (looking at you, Silverborn Countdown Challengeā¦) Iām deciding to just go for it at whatever pace happens.
#will def be June/July but weāll have to see if I get into August. may want to keep most of that + September as Silverborn Hype Months lol#nevermoor#silverborn#if you ever followed my rereads thoughts masterpost for my (reread?) eternal reread and wondered āwhy no hollowpoxā? boy is it a doozy#beginning of the year Apple Books updated and Iām not huge on it!#and since I couldn't fix I decided I would try and delete and reinstall the app.....#ā¦..forgetting that my books and notes are tied to the app and not saved otherwiseā¦..#so I lost all my notes INCLUDING all my reactions and thoughts from my very first reread that I was excited to look back on and share š„²ššš#so Iāve just been in mourning and never continued out of my personal beef with the appā¦.#so this time I think Iāll take use of all my different physical copies and read them physically to give myself a break from screens lol#this summer is just grindset time of getting back into drawing and trying to get good so this reread I also want to draw stuff alongside#like try to nail some character designs and such to make it easier for Silverborn lol#I fear I will need to figure out how to draw dragonsā¦ā¦#anyways. if youāve read all these tags you are now required to join in on the reread with me š«µ#this also reminds me I need to keep working / actually work on the nine spreadsheet / masterpost. will do that āļø#I have had several drafts saved of posts I want to respond to with theories that Iāve been saving for my hollowpox reread that now Iām like#do I just save them for Silverborn?? lol
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I was writing about dazai but then I got distracted and somehow slept (I donāt even know how I managed to SLEEP out of all the other things)
And I may or may not have forgotten what all was going through my mind the time I was writing it I wanna go jump of a building now-
#snowās thoughts#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd dazai#dazai osamu#:(#Iāll try to finish it aaaa š#but procastinationās my middle name#Snow āprocrastinationā Oshino#haha- that was very funny of me (please laugh I have a really bad sense of humor)#back to the topic- so itās either gonna get lost in the drafts like others or my motivation will get the best of me!
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Sportarobbie children based on this; this; and pure vibes:
Imagine them as siblings. Do it. Iām crying with laughter liSTEN
#saved this as a draft and lost my tags š#lazytown#sportarobbie#should I tag the other charactersā¦ YES LOOK AT MY POST BOY#dr robotnik#waluigi#Captain Hook#papyrus undertale#sans undertale#if sans and pap are Sportarobbie kids then Iām demoting Gaster from dad to older brother#the lazytown kids grew up and they got hit by so hard by empty nest syndrome they had to have just as many more#came to me bc I thought too much about Papyrusā trapping tendencies while trying to make a crossover and now I have a DIFFERENT larger one#wait actually if gaster is there then itās six kids isnāt it well if Rottenella came back then thatās the same number in both generations#my stuff
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This wonāt take long
Day one of jrwi freak week!!!!!!! YAHOOO!!
Just dissecting fish for today :o))))
Less er filters cause itās kinda ahard to see vvv
#I had a draft for like. some commentary here but whoopdeedoo I lost jt#I was worried about making this piece cause itās sketch was made like. a week ago and I usually (one other week) make art On The Day Of#which. isnāt good for art projects but You Know š#I WANNA TEAR YOU APAART ā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøš£ļø this can be interpreted as a romantic scene!! yeah!!#kiedeo#jrwi riptide#jrwi freak week#Gillion bald for one billion :o(#and also. enjoy the silence is playing in my MASSIVE brain#I donāt know. where I got those songs from. like I know I got into kglw bc of the good luck anomaly (ACTUALLT. ONE OF THE ARTISTS OF ALL TI#also thought it mightāve been funny if I did like a chip hypersexual aromantic moodboard and Iām still eyeing that so#blood#gore#<- incaseyss#tell me if I need to tag more!!#dissection#erm. is there a tag for like. is this sexualization . HOW DOES THIS WORK.#jay ferin#gillion tidestrider#AMN. THATS NOT A SCALPEL THAGS A FULL ON BUTTER KNIFE šš#AUSGRGRHHRHRHRHRGRGRVRB anyways.#yowza Iām scared of posting this one fellas!!#with id#suggestive#noā¦. one of the sketches had Jay pinning the flaps of gills fins downā¦. I love that..#freak week
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Ive been thinking about this FOREVER!!! It haunts me >:]
Possible scenario:
Bob comes into work one day with a new nametag reading "Floytt" and all his coworkers/friends are like "Whoa dude they messed up ur nametag" NO! THE PAPERS FOR THEIR LAST NAME WENT THROUGH AND ROBERT BOB FLOYD IS OFFICIALLY ROBERT BOB FLOYTT!!!!!!!!
Also also how and when do the squad find out about Reader and Rhet?????
Your writing is absolutely fucking amazing and Im obsessed with it šššā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
Omg, omg š Bob can never figure out when to mention that he's in the process of changing his last name to Floytt because he's always worried that it'll sound too out of the blue. So he just doesn't mention it until the change has become official, and he's given that temporary sticker until they can get him a proper nametag made up.
It's another pilot that mentions it, someone Bob forgets the name of, but he knows is friends with Rueben. Some guy who hardly thinks twice when he points at Bob's nametag, loudly crowing, "Dude! They really fucked up your nametag!"
Poor Bob is opening and closing his mouth like a fish because it's way too early to be trying to explain the whole name situation. But before he can find the right words to say, it clicks for the members of his primary friend group.
...or maybe it just clicks for Jake, and he gives it away to the others with his, "Floyd plus Abbott, huh?"
And Bobby does not get a moment of peace for the rest of the fucking week because "it's always the quiet ones." The name is such a slight chance that it keeps forcing him to explain that it's not a typing error and is, in fact, his new last name š
The squad technically found out about Rhett and Reader's existences towards the end of Not Rhett, so roughly within the first month of Bob meeting them, but it's not explicitly mentioned.
Bob had brought the Daggers to the festival with him, and it was only a matter of time before someone asked why he kept disappearing for hours on end. But nobody learns of the relationship until about six months after it became official. Bobby's sly, like that. Keeping it a secret and blatantly dropping it in the middle of lunch after Nat jokingly asked if he was texting his partner.
They met Reader and Rhett a little after the one-year anniversary when they'd come to greet Bob fresh off his deployment. It was a surprising meeting, but Nat loves the Reader half to death, and Rhett and Jake have gotten along quite well with the whole blue-collar cowboy thing š
#how did this get lost in my drafts?? i finished it and just didnt hit post š#rhett abbott#bob floyd#robert bob floyd#bob floyd x reader x rhett abbott#hindi-si-ikay#delgato's asks
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i remember when i first got into the hp fandom when i was first reading the books i was forcing myself to ship drarry because i wanted to bond with everyone else who was doing it ā ļøā ļø i was so excited to get up to hbp to read all of the moments harry was apparently āobsessedā with draco and when i finally read the book i was so damn disappointed š like i open the book expecting drarry and get smacked in the face with HINNY?? yall are actual LIARS im sayinggg
#āwhat does this mean? does this mean i just bought ratatouille for nothing?ā#still cant find it in me to ship it. idk what happened but i never found the high everyone else did ā ļø#when they overhype the canon moments of drarry<<<<#back then it felt like u were either a dramione shipper or a drarry shipper and i def didnt want to be with the dramione fans š#i was neither. but i was (and still am) a romione girl till death#anyways drarry is so overhyped the reason people ship it has to be at least half motivated by fanon#harry potter#hp#draco malfoy#drarry slander#hinny#hbp#half blood prince#dramione slander#honest to god i WAS on drarrys side i swear. but it lost me in the plotā¦ there are better enemy to lover stories out there#rewriting#no hate only peace and love#edit tags: this draft from like august but i was too scared to post it lmao. my drarry followers this has nothing to do with u bookies š«¶š«¶
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šø: Ryan Fleming
#Ryan Fleming just gets me idk what to tell u šš
š#5sos#5 seconds of summer#ashton irwin#ashton#the 5sos show tour#the 5sos show tour indianapolis#ryan fleming 2023#Instagram#other ig#kh4f post#my back blog would be nothing without ryan fleming god bless u ryan fleming#jfc tour content was so tasty this year#last tour too tbh#i still have so many posts that ended up as drafts or pics bookmarked/saved I never got around to posting ššš#there was just so much content#initially thought the beginning of this year would be slow and I'd get a chance to make up for lost time with those#(and writing too but š¤« that's a different topic)#but alas it's been chaos yet again and i am but one sleepy gorl#anyways#arm
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hi! just curious if you hc dazai with any specific mental disorders/illnesses? i have read a bunch of your fics and loved them all but cannot remember rn if you have ever labelled or coded him with anythingš
ooh, this is an interesting question!!
unless iām exploring a specific mental condition, or the condition is a theme in the fic, i generally donāt put too much thought into labels when it comes to Dazaiās mental health š«¶š»
obviously he does struggle with his mental health, & i have certain headcanons that seem plausible (such as dissociation, depression, possibly SAD). but i usually prefer to explore from the psychology/philosophy/emotional angle of his character :ā)
that being said, i recently realized that im neurodivergent, which made me realize that iāve been unknowingly writing Dazai as neurodivergent all this time (which i def do believe he is) šš
tldr: i guess the only label that i generally use with him is neurodivergent š„¹
#personally i donāt *usually* like to write characters from a āmental illnessā perspective bc i feel that it limits me from digging deeper#into their motives. psyche. & philosophy. which is much more interesting to me to understand :ā)#also i will note that mental conditions OBVIOUSLY inform a characterās motives & psycheā¦ so that factor canāt be completely ignored#tysm for the thought provoking ask!! iām so so glad you like my fics š„¹š©·#ps sorry for taking so long to answer thisā¦ it got lost in my drafts šš#btw i probably write Chuuya as neurodivergent too akhaksja#iām looking forward to *intentionally* exploring their neurodiversities now that iām aware of it hehe <3#rambling about bsd again#asks š#anon ask#bsd dazai
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do u think the twins will be going into racing?
(if they did, will they join AM?)
or maybe just going into other sport?
Fernando and Lance battling whether they pick up hockey or football as their sport. And then ending up driving them around town all week doing every sport from karate to fleet racing to make sure the kids find something they really like.
And they would try to go to every sports event they have to support, if not together at least one of them. Gotta make those memories <3
Also, I feel like the kids would have fun at Nando's karting school and Carlos's school :-) Like father like son with these passion projects š
Aston Martin would definitely have contracts ready for a signature for them when they grow up, no matter what. Grandpa Stroll would write that into the company books.
#ask#pookie au#nando and his mcnuggets#sorry for the late answer this got lost in my drafts bc I started to answer it at work š
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