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mochiiniko Ā· 5 months ago
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apologies for the ramble but: if the living tombstone ever makes a fnaf sb ruin song. if "this comes from inside" was a message to long-time fnaf fans. i like to think a sequel to that would be a message to newer fans in some way, the ones who don't feel nostalgia towards the older games but still loves them and wants to keep the spirt going
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you think that youre alone, but we are waiting for you every night
heya, i just wanted to say thank you for this ask! ive been wanting to draw something based on it since last year im sorry it took so long šŸ˜­ as someone who got dragged into the fandom when security breach first released, your ask really resonated with me
while i didnt exactly grow up with fnaf (my earliest core memory was like. playing the fnaf 2 mobile demo and laughing my ass off after getting jumpscared because i understood absolutely nothing) i still adore the franchise and the community and i cant wait to see what the future has in store for the silly freddy game :]
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kumari8670 Ā· 5 months ago
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Her name is Helga Sinclair, and she's acting on behalf of her employer who has a most intriguing proposition for you...
Are you interested?
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kindahoping4forever Ā· 4 months ago
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Bts of the boy EP visuals via lamajamakeup
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gojonanami Ā· 9 months ago
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Bringing househusband gojo to your work party <3
he would be so excited to go to your work, while you would be both excited and nervous ā€” you knew others would find your gorgeous and charming husband to be a prize, one that they would want to take. and you knew you had nothing to worry about ā€” but watching your husband wear his best suit and press sweet kisses to your lips after you got dressed did little to ease you.
and you were right ā€” all of the others were fawning over satoru, playfully (and not so playfully) chiding you for not bringing him to the office. you liked to keep work and home separateā€”so you only had a few pictures of satoru you kept in your office. but while the others fawned over him, he was too busy gushing over you ā€” talking about how wonderful you are, how caring you are, how lucky he was ā€” and he ended off his ramble with pressing a sweet kiss to your head.
and your insecurities ebb away, as you pull satoru into your office and once behind closed doors, you press a sweet kiss to his lips. and heā€™s only grinning goofily, ā€œwhat was that for, sweetheart? Not that Iā€™m complaining?ā€
and you chuckle, wrapping your arms around him as you wonder how did you get so lucky? and you only shake your head, ā€œI just love you so much,ā€ you murmur, and he wraps his arms around you, pressing a kiss to the top of your head.
ā€œnot as much as I love you.ā€
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tomaturtles Ā· 1 year ago
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Made this for a poll a while back but felt like posting it on its own :) doomed timelooper besties
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omenics Ā· 1 year ago
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I hope requesting something is still okay! Also, I really wanted to let you know how beautiful your writing is. Your musings with Carmilla in mind remind me a lot of the actual novella. They're my favourite to read :)
Now onto my request! I wondered if you could write about Carmilla with a reader who is staying at her castle, but they both haven't confessed to each other yet. Some good old-fashioned gothic vampire pining lol
Hope you have a wonderful day and thank you in advance :)
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ā€ŗ ..perhaps mortals werenā€™t all that bad. fem reader. ā€” I SM ACTUALKY SCREAMING THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I GOT SO EXCITED WHEN I READ HOW YOURE REMINDED HOLY SHIT IM SCFEAMJGN PLSSSSSS
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Your glances are noticeable. Even when your gaze turns another way, darting anywhere but her when she caught you, it was noticeable. Terribly so. Perhaps she would be revolted with such gazes, disgusted when someone like you so much as breathed around her. But no. You were different. You set off a beat in her heart that she was unfamiliar with, one that she did not know.
Her plans to discard your corpse dwindled with each passing day, and a strange fondness came in its place. She was a lonely woman. Even as a creature of the night, she got lonely. She craved your presence at night, alone in her bed she craved it. She could hear your soft heartbeats echo in the castle walls, reverberating a sound she forgot so long ago, unaccustomed to a beating heart for hers ceased.
Carmilla thought to puncture her fangs into your pretty neck, to make you eternally hers. But that would be cruel, and perhaps you would think her selfish. But love is always selfish; the more ardent the more selfish. But alas, she was so terribly whipped.
Often times she longed to feel your fingers run over her cold skin, to feel your breath amidst her lips, to feel them touch her own.
So day by day she admired you in solace, the little things that kept her mind trailing back to you. She thought you a sorcerer, a witch that entranced her undead heart; but you were not. You were a mortal, a mere human who wedged your way into her mind. So for now, she would admire from afar, watching over you in secrecy, relishing in the warmth you brought her soul. She had all the time in the world, but you did not. Years passed like seconds to her, vampirism halting her lifespan, but around you time slowed down. Time slowed down to a point where she could breathe, admire the world around even if it was utter shit.
She wanted to be yours, you hers. She wanted to spend eons at your side, to hold your hands, to kiss your supple flesh. But now, she would be patient, she would wait. But her feelings did not-would not waver. Never, for she has loved no one and never shall, unless it would be with you.
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suddencolds Ā· 11 months ago
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The Worst Timing | [4/?]
happy friday, everyone! here is part 4 (5.3k words) as a little pre-valentines-day installment :) [part 1] is here! this chapter was a pain to edit; i think i deleted + rewrote about a fifth of it in the revision process
anyways, i promised this chapter would be the wedding, so... please enjoy the wedding
this is an OC fic - here is a list of everything I've written w these two!
Summary: Yves invites Vincent to a wedding, in France, where the rest of his family will be in attendance. It's a very important wedding, so he's definitely not going to let anythingā€”much less the fluā€”ruin it. (ft. fake dating, an international trip, downplaying illness, sharing a hotel room)
ā€”
Itā€™s a hectic morning.
Yves wakes up with the sinking realization that the medicine he took yesterday has worn off entirely. That is to say, he wakes up with the kind of unshakeable exhaustion he only feels when heā€™s coming down with something bad. His head is throbbingā€”sharp, cutting pain lances through his skull as soon as he finds it in himself to get out of bed.
All of that is inconsequential. He takes two pills from the cold/flu medicine blister pack with a generous few sips of water, brushes his teeth, washes his face in the sink with water cold enough to jolt him awake, and heads out.
He finds Aimee early, to ask her if she needs any help with anything. Then he makes himself available to the relatives that need him. Thereā€™s a last minute printing issue with the seating cards, so he goes through all of them again, finds the ones that are misprinted, talks extensively with the hotelā€™s front desk to explain what selection he needs to get reprinted and why, gets redirected towards the hotelā€™s business center, and finally gets them reprinted properly in one of the storerooms in the back. He lines the cards up and cuts them manually with a paper cutter he finds in one of the conference rooms on the first floor.
Then he takes a shuttle to the wedding venue to help set out all the seating cards according to a seating plan Genevieve texts him, but itā€™s windy enough outside that he has to find a way to weigh them all down. The venue has card holder stands, thankfully, but he doesnā€™t figure that out until he spends a good fifteen minutes asking around for them.
Then he waits twenty minutes in the cold for the shuttle backā€”the shuttles are thankfully in operation, but theyā€™re running infrequently enough at this hour to be a slight inconvenience. By the time he gets on the shuttle, heā€™s shivering hard, even in his jacket, and his hands are almost numb from the cold.
The temperature certainly doesnā€™t help with the pressure in his sinuses, or with the sore throat that heā€™s had for a few days now. Perhaps itā€™s a blessing that the shuttle is near-empty save for him, because no one is there to question it when he ducks into his elbow with every loud, wrenching sneeze, or the coughing fit that almost inevitably follows.
When he gets back, he finds a sewing kit for Royā€™s sister, Solaineā€”they donā€™t sell them at the convenience store downstairs, but he finds some in one of the tourist shops on the opposite end of the first floor of the hotelā€”for some last minute fixes to the way itā€™s hemmed. He delivers some safety pins from Victoire to one of his aunts, picks up breakfast pastries from the cafĆ© across the street for his parents.
He takes a quick, hot shower, hot enough that the entire bathroom steams up because of it, and hopes that no one can hear the way every sneeze sounds so terribly, unnecessarily loud, even in the presence of his rapidly depleting voice. He rehearses his speech from memory and then rehearses it again, thinking through his notes on the pauses and the reflections. He irons his suit out, for good measure.
If he stops and lingers too long, it becomes quickly evident just how exhausted he is, just how unwell he feels when thereā€™s nothing strictly keeping him on his feet. So instead, he makes himself useful where he can, busies himself with whatever he finds, if only because itā€™s the best distraction he can think ofā€”if only because itā€™s the one distraction he has the luxury to take.
ā€”
Lunch is a quick affairā€”heā€™s not especially hungry, and there will be more than enough food at the reception, so he grabs two pastries from downstairs, a coffee with two shots of espresso, and heads back up. Sitting down and eating them in the hotel room is somehow worse than running errandsā€”like this, he canā€™t chalk his exhaustion up to his hectic morning, canā€™t attribute the heavy, shivery feeling thatā€™s been following him all day the cold weather outside.Ā 
Three more hours until the wedding. Anticipation always feels the worst, like this, when itā€™s nearly inseparable from worryā€”just a tangle of emotions in his chest.
He exhales.
Vincent is offā€”somewhere. Getting lunch, maybe, or getting ready for the wedding somewhere else. Yves has exchanged maybe all of twenty words with him this morningā€”do you know if our room has a sewing kit? Or, Iā€™m going to stop by the cafĆ© downstairs. Do you want me to get you anything?
Truthfully, Yves isnā€™t feeling much better today. His nose is running a little less now, thanks to the cold medicine, but the headache that heā€™s had all morning hasnā€™t gotten any less persistent. Even with his suit jacket on, he still canā€™t quite manage to get warm. Heā€™s sneezing a little less, but each sneeze catches him off guard, harsh and sudden and embarrassingly loud.
But Vincentā€”who is, on average, unusually perceptiveā€”hasnā€™t said anything about any of it. Yves tries not to think too hard about it. The less Vincent is worried about him, the better. Maybe heā€™s just preoccupied with other things.
He finishes his pastries at the small coffee table in the living room, downs half of his coffee, and then leans back in his chair and shuts his eyes.
His head hurts. He feels dizzy, even though heā€™s sitting perfectly stillā€”as if the ground beneath him isnā€™t quite as steady as it should beā€”a strange feeling of vertigo. Surely if he sits here for just awhile longer, that feeling will go away.
He doesnā€™t fall asleep, exactly, but itā€™s a close thing. The discomfort doesnā€™t let up, eitherā€”no amount of massaging his temples seems to make the headache any better, and no amount of shuteye seems to do anything to lessen the exhaustion he feels. Maybe if he takes a nap heā€™ll wake up feeling passably fine. But he thinks itā€™s just as likely that heā€™ll get woken up earlyā€”by a phone call, or a text, or a knock on the doorā€”to be told that heā€™s needed somewhere, and that alone is enough of a deterrent to keep him from properly falling asleep.
From somewhere at the edge of consciousness, he hears footsteps out in the hallway.
Someoneā€™s here, then. He should let them in. But before he can bring himself to stand up and head over to the door, he hears the sound of the room card being inserted into its slot, hears the click of the door as it unlocks.
Someoneā€”Vincentā€”shuts the door quietly behind him. When he spots Yves, he looks a little surprised.
ā€œI didnā€™t think Iā€™d find you here,ā€ he says.
Yves blinks. His face feels unusually hot. ā€œI got lunch,ā€ he says, clearing his throat. ā€œWell, I fidished it, but if Iā€™d known youā€™d be getting back, I wouldā€™ve gotten somethidg for you.ā€
ā€œIā€™m surprised you made it back,ā€ Vincent says, leaving his shoes in a neat line at the door. ā€œAre you done putting out all the fires now?ā€ Yves laughs, though it turns into a cough. ā€œFor the foreseeable future, yes. Sorry iā€” hhH!ā€ He twists over his shoulder, away from Vincent, to cover the sneeze in a manner that does not come at the expense of his suit jacket. ā€œhHh-! iiDDzschh-IEW! snf-! Sorry Iā€™ve barely been around this mornidg.ā€
Vincent is his own personā€”Yves has no doubt that heā€™s entirely self-sufficient when it comes to travelā€”but still, Yves is the only person Vincent really knows here. Heā€™s not sure he can claim heā€™d be good company in his current state, but he feels like maybe he ought to be around more oftenā€”to translate, or to serve as the conversational buffer, or something else.
ā€œItā€™s no problem,ā€ Vincent says, frowning. ā€œYou were busy.ā€
ā€œStill. If we were actually datidg, I think this would make me a slightly terrible boyfriend.ā€
ā€œIf we were actually dating, I would understand that you have important things in your life to attend to,ā€ Vincent says.
Yves laughs. ā€œLike cutting sixty sheets of paper into even rectangles?ā€
ā€œIs that what you were out doing all morning?ā€
ā€œAmong other things.ā€
ā€œThen yes,ā€ Vincent says. He stops just short of the coffee table where Yves is sitting. ā€œAre you finally off of paper-cutting duty?ā€
ā€œGod, I hope so. Weddings are always so hectic, even if youā€™re only peripherally idvolved. Itā€™s like everyoneā€™s worried about things going wrong beforehand, but then when you finally get to them, they always go fine.ā€
ā€œHave you been to a lot of weddings in your life?ā€
Yves considers this. ā€œCobpared to the average person? Probably.ā€
ā€œThen you should listen to your own advice,ā€ Vincent tells him.Ā 
ā€œWhat?ā€
ā€œItā€™s going to be fine.ā€
Yves blinks. If Vincent can tell that he is nervous after a three minute conversation with him, then Yves must really not be doing a good job at hiding it.
ā€œThatā€™s what Iā€™m hoping for,ā€ he says. He really is tired. Maybe another cup of coffee, or two, will helpā€”he can hardly think of anything more mortifying than nodding off halfway through the vows. ā€œI donā€™t think Iā€™ll forgive mbyself if it doesnā€™t.ā€
ā€”
Itā€™s a near-perfect wedding.
The weather is as temperate as it gets at this time of year. Itā€™s sunny out, and brisk enough that no one feels stuffy in their suit jackets and their summer dresses.
The wedding venue is like something out of a storybookā€”the white stone paths, arcing around a circular fountain, the water a clear, searing blue; the rows and rows of flowers that crowd around it. Flowersā€”roses, peonies, tulips, gardeniasā€”line the walkways, strung up over arches in crisscrossing rows of sprawling green leaves.
When Aimee and Genevieve walk down the aisle, Leon grins; Victoire turns away to wipe at her eyes. When they say their vows, Yves feels a tightness in his chest, a fierce sort of pride. He knew, of course, that this moment would make him emotional.
But nothing compares to seeing them here, right here, smiling. Aimeeā€™s hair is half up, half down, held in place with a half moon clip that winks white under the sunshine. Genevieve is wearing a long white dressā€”her hair is braided into a crown, threaded with flowers, a translucent lace veil settling over her shoulders. The afternoon sunlight trickles over them, gleaming. And Yvesā€”
Yves has always believed in love.
Perhaps itā€™s overly idealisticā€”heā€™s certainly been told as much beforeā€”but he believes in it still. He believed in it even before he started dating Erika, and he believed in it after they broke up, too. Itā€™s not so much the idea that people can be soulmates, more the idea that people can spend thirty or fifty or seventy years together and not tire of each other, the idea that the little mundanities of life might be made special in the presence of someone whose existence sublimates them endlessly into interest. The idea that two people who may not ever fully understand each other might try, ceaselessly, to get close.Ā 
He remembers: hearing about Genevieve, over text and over call; at first peripherally, but then frequently. He regrets, sometimes, that he wasnā€™t there more for the both of them, that he could only help from an ocean away with celebrations and holidays and special events, that he still doesnā€™t know Genevieve as well as heā€™d like to.
But a part of him thinks, now, that maybe it was a privilege, too, watching from afar. Hearing about the dates secondhand, from Aimee, all of it filtered through her own excitementā€”hearing Aimee talk about everything that left an impression on her. It would have been different, of course, if he had really been there. But in a way, it is a little fitting that his first impression of Genevieveā€”his first mental portrait of herā€”was by someone who was already already half in love with her.
And he remembers: Aimee, unusually quiet one night over Facetime, sitting cross legged in the living room of their new apartment. The world, dark outside through the living room windows, even though for him it was only mid afternoon. The way sheā€™d smiled, wistful, staring off into the distance at some point he couldnā€™t see. I think I might marry her, she had said.
She had said it like she was certain. He finds himself going back to that moment, to her certainty. Heā€™s always wonderedā€”how had she known? How had she been so sure of it, even then?Ā 
But the way Genevieve takes Aimeeā€™s hands, during the vowā€”the way her hands tremble slightly with it, the particular carefulness with which she handles the ringā€”all of it makes him think that heā€™s been right to believe in this, in them, in love. After all, what more convincing proof is there than this?
ā€”
All in all, it is nearly perfect.
Nearly, save for how unwell he feels, how self conscious he is about not making it expressly known. Yves shivers through the entire ceremony, occasionally lifting the collar of his suit jacket to muffle a harsh, wrenching sneeze into the fabric. Heā€™ll get it dry cleaned later. Beside him, Vincent looks to him, his head tilted in questionā€”and, after Yves smiles apologetically at himā€”says nothing.
He makes it through, as a combination of everythingā€”the adrenaline, the cold medicine, the four espressos heā€™d had this morning and the energy drink heā€™d downed right before the ceremony to keep himself awake.Ā 
He doesnā€™t have a thermometer, doesnā€™t know what kind of temperature heā€™s running, but he has a hunch that itā€™s higher than it should be. Itā€™s freezing outsideā€”cold enough that he canā€™t keep himself from shivering, even when he triesā€”but no one else seems to be as cold as he is. He can only hope, now, that no one else notices him ducking into his jacket, periodically, to catch another sneeze, or wiping his nose on the back of his hand to keep it from openly running.
The world looks fever-bright, fuzzy around some edges but unusually sharp around others. Heā€™s awake, but in the sort of uncomfortable, all-consuming way where it feels like heā€™s too nervous to get any sleep at all.
He feels only half-present during the cocktail hour, while Aimee and Genevieve take their pictures. He thinks he should make himself useful somehowā€”help with positioning props for photos or with setting up the proper lighting or whatever elseā€”or, at the very least, converse with the relatives that he hasnā€™t had much of a chance to catch up with yet.
Instead, he sits, half hunched over at one of the side tables, and tries not to shiver too visibly. His head hurts with the sort of sharp, incessant pain that makes it near-impossible to focus on anything else.Ā 
ā€œAre you okay?ā€ Vincent asks him.Ā 
Yves looks over to him. Vincent looks concernedā€”his eyebrows are furrowed, his mouth set into a frownā€”and Yvesā€”
Yves considers it, for a moment: telling Vincent the truth. That itā€™s taking everything in him to appear even remotely presentable. That a part of him is nervous that heā€™ll crash before he gives his speech. That he might have overestimated his own ability to get through four more hours of this, outside in the cold.
ā€œOf course,ā€ he says instead, with the best smile he can muster, because what else is there to say?
He doesnā€™t end up having any drinks, even though heā€™s usually a fan of cocktails. Leon offers him one, and when Yves shakes his head, shrugs and heads off to find someone else, which Yves thinks is probably the best. Heā€™s a little too out of it to keep tabs on where all the others areā€”there are enough people that itā€™d be hard to spot everyone in the first place, but like this, it feels impossible.
And Vincent isā€¦ surprisingly, absent, for much of it. Yves considers texting him a couple times, just to see where he might be, but then decides against it. If Vincent has found something fun to do, then Yves definitely isnā€™t going to keep him from doing it.
Except, a small part of him says, heā€™d explicitly told Vincent not to worry about him. It doesnā€™t have to be your problem, heā€™d said, and Vincent had stared back at him, blankly, except was his expression really blank, then? Hadnā€™t he seemed a little hurt? After all of this is over, Yves really ought to apologize to him for all of the troubleā€”for making this whole wedding a lot more stressful than it shouldā€™ve been.
Vincent had known, after all, that he was nervous just this morning, even though Yves hadnā€™t wanted for it to show. And perhaps Vincent has always been perceptive, but Yves likes to think he isnā€™t always so obvious. Vincent is here to enjoy his vacation in France, first and foremost. Yves doesnā€™t want anythingā€”not the fever he feels brewing, not the nervousness he feels regarding the weddingā€”to get in the way of that.
But right now, Vincent is nowhere to be found, so he tables the apology for later. For now, he just has to get through the entirety of the wedding. He spends a good part of the hour in the same seat, blowing his nose into cocktail napkins, wishing he had packed something warmer that would fit the dress code.
He makes polite conversation with whoever stops by, and triesā€”and failsā€”to ignore the fact that it feels like his head is going to split. Maybe he shouldā€™ve picked up some aspirin at the convenience store, too, though itā€™s not like he has the time to go back and get it now. And, anyways, as painful as it is, itā€™s really just a headache. How bad could it be?
ā€”
At six, he finds his seat for dinner. A couple minutes later, Vincent takes a seat next to him. Yves turns to speak to him, only, he has to turn away to muffle a throat-scraping fit of coughs into his elbow.
The coughing fit lasts longer than he anticipates. When he looks up at last, Vincent is already in conversation with the person next to him, who Yves recognizes to be one of Genevieveā€™s friendsā€”perhaps one of the ones he ate dinner with the night before, though Yves canā€™t be sure. Yves hunts down another cocktail napkin to blow his nose intoā€”itā€™s starting to run worse now that the sun is starting to set.
When it comes time to give his toast, heā€™s afraid, for a moment, that he might forget what to say. That he might trip up mid-speech, despite all of the practice. That his current affliction might make itself clearly, embarrassingly apparent right when everyoneā€™s attention is focused on him.
But the speech goes well. He gives his speech in French. His voice is noticeably off, but he hasnā€™t lost it entirely, and if he has to resort to clearing his throat as quietly as he can in between sentences, itā€™s a small sacrifice. Aimee giggles at the anecdote he tells about her in grad school, texting him about meeting Genevieve for the first time at a networking event. He throws in a couple inside jokesā€”references to things heā€™s heard his extended family laugh about during their yearly summer reunions, things that he can tie back into the wedding that he hopes might land well with this audienceā€”and then he tells everyone about a surprise party he worked with Genevieve to plan, last summer, for Aimeeā€™s birthday: how sheā€™d stayed up late to make sure everything was carefully accounted for. How heā€™d known, then, from how seriously she was taking it, by how well she seemed to know Aimee already, that she would be the one.Ā 
The jokes seem to land, for the way everyoneā€”buoyed from the adrenaline of the wedding and in part thanks to the cocktails, heā€™s sureā€”laughs, and by the end, Genevieve is beaming, and Aimee breaks tradition to run up to him and give him a tight hug. After that, he asks everyone to raise their glasses in a toastā€”ā€œTo Aimee and Genevieve,ā€ he says, ā€œwhat a joy it is to see the team youā€™ve been rooting for win,ā€ and the room erupts into clamorā€”into applause and cheer and the resounding clinking of glasses.
Then someone he recognizes as one of Genevieveā€™s closest friends stands to give her toast, and for the first time today, Yves lets himself relax in his seat. Only, it isnā€™t really relaxingā€”after all of the caffeine, he feels simultaneously exhausted and strangely, artificially alert, in a way that feels a little wrong.
The rest of the wedding should be smooth sailing, he thinks. The ceremony is over. His speech was fine. He just needs to stay through dinner and the cake cutting, and then he can ride the shuttle back with everyone else, and thenā€”
ā€”And then heā€™ll be back at his hotel room, where he can apologize to Vincent for perhaps being the very reason why this vacation hasnā€™t been as stress-free as it shouldā€™ve been, considering that itā€™s likely one of the few reprieves he and Vincent are supposed to get until busy season winds down.
He blinks, rubs a hand over his face, sniffling. He really does feel dizzy.
Itā€™s usually like this. Yves thinks he should probably be wiser by now. If thereā€™s anything heā€™s learned from past experiencesā€”attending that end-of-semester crew meeting with the flu, or getting through the second half of finals week his senior year of university with a high feverā€”itā€™s that half a week of ignoring all of his symptoms is going to catch up to him eventually.Ā 
Usually heā€™s better at defining what constitutes eventually.
He feels a familiar prickle in his noseā€”the kind that he knows once he gives in to will plague him for the rest of the hour. The cold medicine must be wearing off. Better to do this elsewhereā€”anywhere instead of here, on the courtyard, where everyone is eating dinner.
ā€œIā€™ll be right back,ā€ he says to Vincent. Then, without waiting for a response, he rises from his seat and heads off in the direction of the nearest restroom. Thereā€™s one in the main building, past the catering stations, the ballroom, the indoor bar.
ā€œHey, Yves,ā€ someoneā€”his sisterā€”says, when heā€™s halfway to the building.
He stops walking. ā€œWhatā€™s up?ā€
ā€œYou nailed that speech,ā€ she says.
ā€œIn no small part thadks to you,ā€ Yves says, forcing himself to turn and face her with a smile. ā€œIā€™m glad we cut it down. And by we I mean, mostly you.ā€
ā€œYou were a hit,ā€ Victoire says. ā€œAnd it was funny. I liked the anecdotes you picked. I donā€™t think people wouldā€™ve minded if it were longer.ā€Ā 
ā€œThree mbidutes was the perfect length. Ady longer and people wouldā€™ve started losidg idterestā€” hHh-!ā€ Yves thinks, a little frustratedly, that he always has the most inconvenient timing. ā€œExcuse mbe, Iā€” HHehh!ā€ He lifts his arm to his face, twisting away. ā€œhHhEHā€™iiDZSSchhā€™iiEW!ā€
When he turns back around to face her, Victoire is staring at him with the sort of calculating look that Yves is sure is not a good thing.
ā€œYouā€™re still sick?ā€ she asks.
He blinks at her. ā€œA little,ā€ he says. ā€œIā€™ll get some sleep todight.ā€Ā 
She nods. ā€œDoes Vincent know?ā€
The question startles him into laughing, which he immediately regrets, for the way it makes him cough. ā€œThat Iā€™mb sick?ā€ he asks. ā€œYeah, Iā€™d assume so. We share a room.ā€
ā€œAssume? So you havenā€™t talked to him about it?ā€
ā€œWhether or ndot I have a cold is not the mbost enthralling conversation topic,ā€ Yves says.
ā€œBut youā€™re dating,ā€ she says, as if that explains everything.
It explains nothing. ā€œYes, glad you ndoticed.ā€
ā€œI just mean that ā€” I mean, he got breakfast with us the other day, which you werenā€™t there for, and then we had the rehearsal dinner, which he wasnā€™t invited to. And during the cocktail hour, you were sitting alone.ā€
ā€œIā€™mb not sure where youā€™re goidg with this,ā€ Yves says, if only because he doesnā€™t want to be having this conversation right now. ā€œBut if youā€™re wondering whetherā€”ā€ He veers away again, pressing his arm to his face. ā€œhhā€¦ Hehh-! hhHHā€™GKTT-SHHiiew!Ugh, sorryā€¦ Hhā€¦ HEHhā€™IIDZZSCHh-yyEEew! snf-! If youā€™re wondering whether we got into a fight, or sobething, then the answer is no.ā€
ā€œItā€™s not that.ā€ Victoire hesitates, for a moment, as if sheā€™s still thinking about what to say. She probably is. Sheā€™s always been deliberate with her words. ā€œIt kind of seems likeā€”well, like youā€™re doing that thing you always do.ā€
ā€œWhat thidg I always do?ā€Ā 
ā€œYou know.ā€ She looks at him, her expression carefully, deceptively neutral. ā€œAvoiding the people who care about you when somethingā€™s wrong.ā€
ā€œI have ndo idea what youā€™re talking about.ā€ Yves glances wistfully over to the bathroom. ā€œI do really ndeed to pee, you know.ā€
He half expects her to press, but she just sighs. ā€œOkay,ā€ she says. ā€œDonā€™t let me keep you.ā€
Itā€™s a convenient out, and he takes it. The walk over is thankfully not too longā€”the bathroom turns out to be located just a couple hallways down from the entrance, but itā€™s hidden enough that itā€™s a little hard to find. For now, thatā€™s a good thing.
He imagines the wedding party might move inside shortly after dinner, but as it stands, the building is mercifully empty. The restroom on the first floor is nicer than expectedā€”warm lighting, floor to ceiling mirrors, polished white sinks on a black granite countertop. He braces himself against the countertop, suppressing another shiver.Ā 
His nose is running slightly. He reaches over and grabs a couple paper towels from the dispenser, just to be safe.
Itā€™s not a moment too early. Itā€™s only moments after that heā€™s pitching forwards into the paper towels with a harshā€”
Ā ā€œHhHā€™iiDZSSCHh-IIEW!ā€Ā 
The sound echoes off the tiled walls. Yves finds himself coughing, afterwards. The medicine must really be wearing off, then, for the way his nose is starting to run incessantlyā€”for the way the discomfort prickles at his skin, suggesting a fever. Itā€™s a good thing thereā€™s no one here to see him like this.
ā€œhHEHhā€™iIZssCHH-iiEW! snf-! hHEhā€¦ HDDtā€™TSSCHH-iEEW!ā€ The sneezes are harsher than usual, too, and forceful enough to snap him forward at the waist. He stays hunched over for a moment, steadying himself with the side of the countertop, and tries, somewhat unsuccessfully, to catch his breath.Ā 
The bathroom feels frigidly cold. He shivers, reaches up with trembling hands to try to button up his suit. His nose is starting to tickle again. It feels like he might be here forever, like one wrong breath might be enough toā€”
ā€œhhHā€¦. hHEHā€¦. hhHEHā€™DJJJSHHā€™iiEEW!ā€ The paper towels in his hand must be drenched now, but before he can get a chance to replace them, his breath catches again. ā€œhhEHā€™GKTT-SHhhEw!ā€ Itā€™s immediately clear, from the subsequent twinge in his nose, that heā€™s not done. For a moment, he wonders if the sneezes will ever let upā€”if heā€™ll be stuck in the bathroom all evening, trying to keep his illness under wraps.
Before he can entertain the thought properly, he finds himself jerking forward again, his eyes snapping shutā€”
ā€œHehhā€¦ hEHhā€™IIZSCHH-YYEEW! hHihhHā€™-iiTsSHHH-YYEW!ā€
He blows his nose, as gently as he can, but the paper towel is rougher against his skin. When he looks up afterwards, blinking tears out of his vision, his nose looks noticeably red.Ā 
It takes all the resolve in him to not just slump against the wall.
His next breath comes in wrong, and he finds himself coughingā€”harsh, grating coughs which seem to go on and on, leaving him feeling distinctly lightheaded.
He canā€™t stay here. He needs to make it back to dinner, where the others are waiting for him. He has to get back before Vincent starts wondering where heā€™s gone.
Yves squeezes his eyes shut. If heā€™s being honest with himself, he feels awful. Nothing he does seems to do anything to assuage the chill thatā€™s settled persistently over him, the uncomfortable, shivery feeling that makes him want to curl up somewhere warm, sleep the next day and a half away.
Would it be so bad for him to stay here for just a little longer? To send a text to Vincent to let him know heā€™ll be back in twenty? Itā€™s not the most comfortable of places, but it would be the easiest to explain if someone ends up finding him here. Anywhere else might suggest that he has a big enough problem to deliberately hide away instead of properly enjoying the festivities, like he should be doing, which is not the impression he wants to give off at all.
He tries to think of a convincing enough excuse, but nothing he can think of takes precedence over a wedding dinner, of all things. It should be fine if he goes back now, but any longer might be pushing things.
And, anyways, he feels guilty for even considering it. The others are waiting for him. He has to show up, and at the very least, be courteous where he has to, make pleasant conversation when he can. He has to make sure Aimee and Genevieve are having fun, and that Leon and Victoire are doing fine, and that nothing needs to get done logistically, and that Vincent is not there alone, surrounded by strangers speaking a language heā€™s just started to learn.
His head is pounding. He tosses the paper towels into the bin, leans his weight against the countertop, squeezes his eyes shut. The exhaustion from the past few days of on-and-off sleep must be catching up with him. His head is pounding.
He can do this. More aptly put, itā€™s not a question of whether he can. He has to do this.
He splashes his face with cold water, washes his hands in the sink, dries his face with another generous handful of paper towels, and heads towards the door. He feels almost too tired to stand, but thatā€™s only a temporary concern. It wonā€™t be a problem once he gets back to his seat.
Everyone is waiting for him, he tells himself. Soon, they might be asking where heā€™s gone. He needs to show them that heā€™s thereā€”present and attentive and engaged, just like he promised everyone heā€™d be. No one expects any less of him, after all.
Itā€™s with that in mind that he presses forward. He makes it down a couple hallways before he finds himself having to lean against the wall to catch his balance, shutting his eyes against the sudden wave of disorientation. He inhales, slowly. Exhales.
Fuck. Perhaps heā€™s dizzier than heā€™d expected.
ā€œYves?ā€ He freezes. Vincent is not supposed to be here. Vincent canā€™t see him right now, not in this state. He forces himself to smile. ā€œWhatā€™s up?ā€
ā€œYou disappeared,ā€ Vincent says. ā€œI wanted to make sureā€¦ā€
His voice shutters, sounding distant and close by all at once. ā€œ...that everything was okay.ā€
ā€œIt is,ā€ Yves says. ā€œI was just about to head back.ā€ ā€œWe can head back together,ā€ Vincent says. Itā€™s not that long of a walkā€”just a couple minutes, at most, to the exit Vincent presumably came in from, and then back down the stone path that leads to the courtyard.
ā€œYou didnā€™t have to come find me. Iā€™m really fine.ā€ Yves shifts his weight off from the wall. Takes a couple steps halting towards the exit, which is a mistake.
It all registers simultaneously: the darkness encroaching upon the edges of his vision, the surge of panic in his chest. The world, suddenly angled wrongly, tilts towards him. He thinks he is definitely going to owe Vincent an apology.
[ Part 5 ]
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wundrousarts Ā· 7 months ago
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Going to do a Nevermoor series reread in June + July + August ? if anyone else also wants to do a reread around that time, could be fun to have more of the fandom prepping for Silverborn
Did initially make a roadmap plan to split the books up into weeks on top of already being months, so that people could focus on specific parts and discuss each weekā€¦.. but between the fact that I messed it up the first time, Silverborn kept getting delayed as I planned it, and Iā€™m actually really bad at keeping to stuff like that (looking at you, Silverborn Countdown Challengeā€¦) Iā€™m deciding to just go for it at whatever pace happens.
#will def be June/July but weā€™ll have to see if I get into August. may want to keep most of that + September as Silverborn Hype Months lol#nevermoor#silverborn#if you ever followed my rereads thoughts masterpost for my (reread?) eternal reread and wondered ā€˜why no hollowpoxā€™? boy is it a doozy#beginning of the year Apple Books updated and Iā€™m not huge on it!#and since I couldn't fix I decided I would try and delete and reinstall the app.....#ā€¦..forgetting that my books and notes are tied to the app and not saved otherwiseā€¦..#so I lost all my notes INCLUDING all my reactions and thoughts from my very first reread that I was excited to look back on and share šŸ„²šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­#so Iā€™ve just been in mourning and never continued out of my personal beef with the appā€¦.#so this time I think Iā€™ll take use of all my different physical copies and read them physically to give myself a break from screens lol#this summer is just grindset time of getting back into drawing and trying to get good so this reread I also want to draw stuff alongside#like try to nail some character designs and such to make it easier for Silverborn lol#I fear I will need to figure out how to draw dragonsā€¦ā€¦#anyways. if youā€™ve read all these tags you are now required to join in on the reread with me šŸ«µ#this also reminds me I need to keep working / actually work on the nine spreadsheet / masterpost. will do that āœļø#I have had several drafts saved of posts I want to respond to with theories that Iā€™ve been saving for my hollowpox reread that now Iā€™m like#do I just save them for Silverborn?? lol
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i-secretly-wanna-kms Ā· 5 months ago
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I was writing about dazai but then I got distracted and somehow slept (I donā€™t even know how I managed to SLEEP out of all the other things)
And I may or may not have forgotten what all was going through my mind the time I was writing it I wanna go jump of a building now-
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secretmarial Ā· 1 year ago
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Sportarobbie children based on this; this; and pure vibes:
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Imagine them as siblings. Do it. Iā€™m crying with laughter liSTEN
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lousylemonseminar Ā· 7 months ago
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This wonā€™t take long
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Day one of jrwi freak week!!!!!!! YAHOOO!!
Just dissecting fish for today :o))))
Less er filters cause itā€™s kinda ahard to see vvv
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delopsia Ā· 1 year ago
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Ive been thinking about this FOREVER!!! It haunts me >:]
Possible scenario:
Bob comes into work one day with a new nametag reading "Floytt" and all his coworkers/friends are like "Whoa dude they messed up ur nametag" NO! THE PAPERS FOR THEIR LAST NAME WENT THROUGH AND ROBERT BOB FLOYD IS OFFICIALLY ROBERT BOB FLOYTT!!!!!!!!
Also also how and when do the squad find out about Reader and Rhet?????
Your writing is absolutely fucking amazing and Im obsessed with it šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
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Omg, omg šŸ˜­ Bob can never figure out when to mention that he's in the process of changing his last name to Floytt because he's always worried that it'll sound too out of the blue. So he just doesn't mention it until the change has become official, and he's given that temporary sticker until they can get him a proper nametag made up.
It's another pilot that mentions it, someone Bob forgets the name of, but he knows is friends with Rueben. Some guy who hardly thinks twice when he points at Bob's nametag, loudly crowing, "Dude! They really fucked up your nametag!"
Poor Bob is opening and closing his mouth like a fish because it's way too early to be trying to explain the whole name situation. But before he can find the right words to say, it clicks for the members of his primary friend group.
...or maybe it just clicks for Jake, and he gives it away to the others with his, "Floyd plus Abbott, huh?"
And Bobby does not get a moment of peace for the rest of the fucking week because "it's always the quiet ones." The name is such a slight chance that it keeps forcing him to explain that it's not a typing error and is, in fact, his new last name šŸ˜­
The squad technically found out about Rhett and Reader's existences towards the end of Not Rhett, so roughly within the first month of Bob meeting them, but it's not explicitly mentioned.
Bob had brought the Daggers to the festival with him, and it was only a matter of time before someone asked why he kept disappearing for hours on end. But nobody learns of the relationship until about six months after it became official. Bobby's sly, like that. Keeping it a secret and blatantly dropping it in the middle of lunch after Nat jokingly asked if he was texting his partner.
They met Reader and Rhett a little after the one-year anniversary when they'd come to greet Bob fresh off his deployment. It was a surprising meeting, but Nat loves the Reader half to death, and Rhett and Jake have gotten along quite well with the whole blue-collar cowboy thing šŸ’•
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rewritingcanon Ā· 1 year ago
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i remember when i first got into the hp fandom when i was first reading the books i was forcing myself to ship drarry because i wanted to bond with everyone else who was doing it ā˜ ļøā˜ ļø i was so excited to get up to hbp to read all of the moments harry was apparently ā€˜obsessedā€™ with draco and when i finally read the book i was so damn disappointed šŸ˜­ like i open the book expecting drarry and get smacked in the face with HINNY?? yall are actual LIARS im sayinggg
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kindahoping4forever Ā· 10 months ago
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šŸ“ø: Ryan Fleming
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calmlb Ā· 5 days ago
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hi! just curious if you hc dazai with any specific mental disorders/illnesses? i have read a bunch of your fics and loved them all but cannot remember rn if you have ever labelled or coded him with anythingšŸ’•
ooh, this is an interesting question!!
unless iā€™m exploring a specific mental condition, or the condition is a theme in the fic, i generally donā€™t put too much thought into labels when it comes to Dazaiā€™s mental health šŸ«¶šŸ»
obviously he does struggle with his mental health, & i have certain headcanons that seem plausible (such as dissociation, depression, possibly SAD). but i usually prefer to explore from the psychology/philosophy/emotional angle of his character :ā€™)
that being said, i recently realized that im neurodivergent, which made me realize that iā€™ve been unknowingly writing Dazai as neurodivergent all this time (which i def do believe he is) šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
tldr: i guess the only label that i generally use with him is neurodivergent šŸ„¹
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raapija Ā· 9 months ago
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do u think the twins will be going into racing?
(if they did, will they join AM?)
or maybe just going into other sport?
Fernando and Lance battling whether they pick up hockey or football as their sport. And then ending up driving them around town all week doing every sport from karate to fleet racing to make sure the kids find something they really like.
And they would try to go to every sports event they have to support, if not together at least one of them. Gotta make those memories <3
Also, I feel like the kids would have fun at Nando's karting school and Carlos's school :-) Like father like son with these passion projects šŸ’š
Aston Martin would definitely have contracts ready for a signature for them when they grow up, no matter what. Grandpa Stroll would write that into the company books.
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