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Lucifer smiled and took Adam's hand. They walked through the trees and long grass until they found their spot.
Lucifer had laid out food and drink on a blanket. He was quite proud of himself when Adam praised him. Everything looked delicious.
They sat and ate in silence, enjoying eavhothwrs company.
Lucifer: So, how did it go with Lute?
Adam rolled his eyes: She said she wanted out of the contract. Missed what she lost. Which, after losing my power, I understand. But. A deal is a deal. And people who had a lot of power at the time of doing a deal are of great importance. She isn't a large chunk of my power, but she is a tastey percentage. One that I won't be getting rid of.
Lucifer nodded: ...But?
Adam: But. I release now that even though she bet her soul away, I haven't given her anything in return for her soul. It's been many years since that day, and it could have easily been me under her control. I would have liked some respect and perks for my adding to her power.
Lucifer looked at him: Really? She says you cheated~.
Adam winked: That's because I did~.
Lucifer: Wait- what? You cheated? How?
Lucifer jumped as something tapped his shoulder. He looked next to him and saw a shadow that looked exactly like Adam- or at least his silhouette.
Adam: He helped and told me her cards. Terrible, I know. But I needed her soul. And there was no way in Hell she was going to get mine.
Lucifer: Wow... I... expected that off you, but it seems almost unbelievable.
Adam: Oh, believe it, my king~. I have an amazing poker face! Especially when things aren't going my way.
Lucifer raised and eyebrow and looked at Adam.
Lucifer: Are you sure? Because I remember Angel saying you snapped at him, all Because you were full of my cu-.
Adma: Cheese?
Lucifer coughed as a piece of cheese was shoved in his mouth.
Adam: No more talking about your weird fetishes, look where that's gotten us.
Adam motioned to his stomach, making Lucifer laugh around the cheese.
Lowkey want an au where Adam has Alastors' powers.
The tentacles
The eyes
The changing size
The shadows
The sass
The deal making
Him owning Husk and Nifty
The musical numbers
The radio control
The tentacles- have I mentioned that before?
The rivalry with Lucifer
Maybe he replaces Alastor entirely. No Alastor. Only Adam. It's always been Adam.
Thanks for coming to my tedtalk.
Only Adam lol This is good! His Husk and Nifty could be Lute and Peter.
He doesn't have to smile all the time does he?
Yessss, and he plays rock instead of jazz lol And yes of course there is a rivalry lol
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Rook stumbles upon Emmrich shaving
âRook unceremonisouly opened the flaps to the necromancer's tent.
"Emmrich we're leaving so-"
She stopped mid sentence, surprised to find her most recently recruited companion standing before a foldable table full of cosmetic products, holding a mirror with one hand and his cheeks lathered with shaving cream.
Emmrich turned to her, holding up his shaving brush.
"Ah Rook, apologies. It seems I am getting a bit tardy"
Rook froze. Oddly she felt like she just interrupted an intimate moment. Emmrich was dressed in his usual flanel pants and a cream undershirt. His crisp fancy white shirt and his green vest were neatly folded on a wooden stool. She never saw him in such a state of undress and given how many layers he usually wore, she almost felt as if she was intruding on him completely naked.
"I usually manage to be done before you wake. It seems I miscalculated today. I'll be quick, I promise" Emmrich told her before getting back to his previous occupation.
It never occurred to her that he shaved every day. Which was really silly of her obviously; he didnât magically end up looking dashing and fresh when running around in the wilderness. Despite how he seemed to make everything look simple, it took work, even for him. His camp habits clashed with those of companions like Harding and Taash but Lucanis and Neve liked a bit more comfort in camp.
Rivainâs sun was up early and blazing hot, which explained why Rook didnât sleep in today. But oh was she grateful it allowed her to see Emmrich grooming.
Despite her urge to stay focused on Emmrich, Rookâs attention was suddenly drawn to a moving form to her side. She soon spotted Manfred running towards Emmrich with a razor, like a disaster waiting to happen.
"Manfred shaves you?" She asked alarmingly.
"Of course not. Manfred is my assistant not my manservant" Emmrich replied, more amused than offended. He wipped his hands clean on a towel and took the razor from Manfred with a small "thank you" and an approving nod of his head.
"Right. I guess I wouldn't let him near my throat with those sharp blades either..." Rook commented, but her humour didn't seem to perturb Emmrich.
"Oh but you'd be surprised with how dexterous he is ! And everyday he makes progress. He's capable of serving tea without spilling a drop now!" Emmrich praised, visibly proud of his spirit protĂŠgĂŠ.
The necromancer turned to the mirror, which Manfred now held, and started angling the blade towards his cheek the second he stopped talking. Rook watched mesmerized as he shaved a first stripe and elegantly rinced the blade before he continued. Talking about being dexterous⌠The precisison of his movements, the way his long and elegant fingers, yet to be adorned with his numerous rings, handled the dangerous object near his adam apple, made something stirr inside her. Something warm and improper.
She watched the lean muscles of his arms flex, seeing them free of a shirt for the first time. Her eyes traveled down irresistibly, and below the upper part of his undershirt, she could spot the birth of a small patch of dark chest hair.
"Did you need something else Rook?" Emmrich's voice startled her. His tone was lower than she ever heard it and it made her stomach flip. She looked up to find his brown gaze on her, and it felt oddly intense in the dim light of the tent.
"No. We'll leave when you're done" She hastily declared, internally cursing herself for stuttering.
Emmrich smiled kindly, but there was a mysterious glint in his usually soft eyes. "I won't be long, I promise. I've got practice"
The way he said those last words shouldn't make her feel how she felt.
Once out of the tent, Rook flopped beside the dying campfire with an annoyed groan, burrying her face in her hands in embarassement. Shit. She knew him for a few days and already she was crushing on Professor Volkarin so hard it made her act stupid.
She told herself she would get a grip, but later that day, when she walked alongside him, enamored with the way he talked about studying the flora of Rivain, she caught wafts of the scent of his after shave, a citrussy but rich smell that she instantly wanted to breathe more of. She lost track of what he was saying as she though about caressing the smooth skin of his perfectly shaven cheeks, and inhale his cologne just under his ear where it would mix with a scent that was only his and that she longed to discover. She wondered how his well kept mustache would feel scratching her skin an-
He asked her a question then, and she had no clue what he just said so she only smiled like an idiot. He forgave her with a small chuckle, blaming it on the scorching sun, and repeated his inquiry like the kind gentleman he was.
Her heart fluttered in her chest. Damn she had it bad.
(More EmmRook on my blog or here on AO3)
#emmrich volkarin#emmrook#emmrich x rook#veilguard fanfiction#dragon age veilguard#veilguard fic#manfred the skeleton#I have it bad too#I have ideas for post game EmmRook but also for moments during the game! the inspiration is real
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Separation Trial
@beef-brisket @things-arent-what-they-seem66
Adam tapped his fingers against the table in a distracted manner. He had been there at the restaurant for a while now. Waiting for his...waiting for Lucifer. He needed to talk with Lucifer, he wanted to talk to him at home about it, in private. However, when he asked about meeting him, Lucifer simply nodded his head and said they could meet at this restaurant.
He didn't even take Adamâs idea at eating at home into consideration. Although the place Adam sat currently was upscale and nice it wasnât what he wanted to do. This wasnât where he wanted to haveâŚthe conversation. He sighed to himself as he saw Lucifer approach. He barely even said hello before Lucifer kissed him on the cheek before seating himself.
Lucifer: Hello my dearest, whatâs going on? Whyâd you want to talk at a restaurant? You know we could have talked over the phone. You made it sound so urgent.
Adam took a moment to keep his anger in check. Once again Lucifer wasnât listening.
Adam: What I wanted to talk to you about couldnât be said over the phone. It had to be in person. Lucifer we have been married for three whole years now.
Lucifer: Yeah I know, last week was our anniversary. Donât you remember Addie?
Adam felt his breath hitch and he struggled to not cry then and there. Their third anniversary had been a disaster, he didnât want to go into it. But Adam had would forever hate that day. It was what made him bring this meeting with Lucifer.
Adam: I do remember, and so should you.
Lucifer: But I literally just said that I
Adam: No, Iâm talking about what happened that day. Can you please tell me what happened?
Lucifer was nervous at his husbandâs harsh tone but answered him.
Lucifer: Well, I do remember that both of us were so busy, I with handling a fortis problem, then Charlie called and she needed some help with the hotel, and I didnât get back till late at night. Oh and you had that concert of yours, by the way how was it? I donât think I asked before.
Adam felt his eye twitch.
Adam: It was not JUST a concert Lucifer.
Lucifer: ��Did something happen at the concert?
Adam: More like what didnât happen.
Lucifer: Did no one applaud you? Were they booing you? Honey donât worry your a great singer, youâll bounce back.
Adam: No, there were no applause nor cheers. Because my audience wasnât there.
Lucifer: Oh, Adam Iâm so sorry.
Adam: You werenât there Lucifer.
Lucifer: What?
Adam: You were not at my concert Lucifer, You were supposed to be there. Because you were meant to be my audience. Because that concert was going to be dedicated to you! It was supposed to be my wedding anniversary present to you!
Lucifer: But, but, but itâs not my fault if you donât tell me in advance!
Adam: Lucifer I told you weeks prior about it. And you always said that youâd be there. But of course you lied.
Lucifer: I didnât lie! Shit came up Adam this isnât my fault. If anything you should have told me before I left that day! On top of that what did you expect me to do? Not do my duty as king. Tell the goetia to handle it themselves!? Say no to my own daughter, your own daughter, I shouldnât have helped her at all?! Geez you can be selfish sometimes.
Adamâs eyes widened at that statement. He was shocked to his seat still. Then slowly he nodded his head in understanding. He was an idiot for ever even considering giving Lucifer a second chance. Taking a deep breath, Adam looked directly into Luciferâs yellow, red eyes and said,
Adam: Lucifer, I want a divorce
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Part 22: This Misery We've Made
Fandom:Â Peaky Blinders
Pairing:Â Tommy Shelby x OC
Summary: As Tommy and Lizzie's wedding day draws near, Lucy battles doubts and insecurities about their arrangement.
Word Count: 6,221
Notes:Â Warnings for depictions of smut, insecurity, and references to past torture and injuries.
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Chapter 2: Say We'll Be Okay
When Polly walked unexpectedly through the door, Lucy briefly panicked, thinking that sheâd forgotten about a meeting Tommy was supposed to have with his aunt and accidentally double booked him. But one quick glance at the diary on her desk proved that not to be the case. She frowned a little, a pulse of trepidation finding its way into her throat. Polly looked every bit like royalty, dressed in a lavish, deep purple coat embellished by a fur collar over an equally expensive blouse and skirt, a wide brimmed hat atop her head. She was growing her hair out from the short style sheâd worn it in during the vendetta, the dark curls styled neatly around her chin.Â
âPolly,â Lucy greeted, sitting up straight. âTommyâs in a meeting right nowââÂ
âActually, Iâm here to see you.â
Lucy blinked, the uneasiness within her growing even more pronounced. She always got nervous when talking with Polly without Tommy present to serve as a buffer between them.Â
Pollyâs dark eyes darted to where Adam was seated at the second desk in the office near the back.
âAdam,â Lucy said, getting the kidâs attention, âwhy donât you take your lunch break a little early, today?â
He looked up from the speech heâd been editing, noticed Polly and the clear tension between them, and hastily put down his pen. âAre you sure, Lucy?â
âYes, Iâm sure. Go on.â
He got up and collected his hat and coat from the hooks by the wall, offering Polly a respectful nod and a soft âMrs. Gray,â when he walked past her.Â
âHe seems to be settling in well,â Polly remarked, sliding off her gloves.
âYeah. Heâs a good kid. What do you need?â Capping her pen, Lucy folded her hands in front of her on top of the papers sheâd been looking over before Polly came in.Â
Removing her hat, Polly slid into one of the leather chairs across from her, meticulously crossing one leg over the other and laying her hat in her lap.
âLizzie told me about the conditions you and Tommy put forth to her about the marriage.â
Lucy started to unconsciously fumble at the plain gold bands encircling her fingers. The wedding was in only a few short weeks, and to say that she was dreading it would be an understatement. Things had happened very quickly after the proposal.
âAnd?â
Polly lit one of her black cigarettes with the snap of a lighter, puffing on it greedily and eyeing Lucy with an obvious challenge in her dark eyes. âYou really think that itâs a good idea for you and Tommy to keep up thisâŚwhatever it is that goes on between the two of you after heâs married?â
âWe were still together after he married Graceââ
âThat was different. Heâs a politician now. His every move has the potential to invite scrutiny. If it gets out that heâs having an affair with his assistant, it could put his very position here in jeopardy.â Â
I know that. You think that I donât fucking know that? Lucy swallowed hard, reaching for the cigarette case on her desk, pulling one out and lighting it, stalling to give herself time to think of a response, hoping that Polly wouldn't notice the slight way that her hands trembled.
âWe know the risks. Weâll be careful.â
âYou two have never been nearly as good at being subtle as you think you are.â She shook her head. âI thought that it was a bad idea, him choosing to bring you along with him here in the first place. Too many people in Birmingham already know you two are caught up in some sort ofâŚentanglement. Rumors are already starting to circulate. You really think that theyâll stop just because he marries someone else?â
Lucy crossed one arm around herself, her elbow moving to rest on her wrist. Holding her cigarette close to her face, she used her thumb to brush a few stray red curls out of her eyes. She could barely meet Pollyâs harsh gaze.Â
âLucy,â placing her still smoking cigarette into the ashtray on the desk, Polly stood, planting both hands on the fine wood between them and leaning towards her, looming over her. For a moment fully encompassing the identity of the Shelby matriarch exerting her whole force of influence. âBeing with you is not worth Tommy potentially losing everything he has worked so hard for.â
Hearing the words that had been circling over and over in her own head actually spoken aloud hit as hard as a slap would have. Lucy jerked sharply, cringing away in spite of herself. She stared at Polly destitutely.
âWhat would you have me do, Polly?âÂ
Pollyâs dark eyes softened a fraction when she recognized the sorrow on Lucyâs face. âI think you already know.âÂ
âYou really think that he would be unaffected if I justâŚleft?âÂ
âHeâd get over it. In time. Especially with a new, beautiful wife and two perfect children at his side.â
A small sound emitted from Lucyâs throat. It would have hurt less if Polly had walked in, dumped a bucket of gasoline over her head, and set her on fire.
Sometimes, the only thing that kept her from packing a bag in the middle of the night and going to the train station was knowing how heartbroken Tommy would be if she left. The mental images of him with tears in his eyes, chasing after her train, screaming for her to come back, was more than enough to convince her to stay. Despite everything, she still could not bring herself to leave his side.Â
Who would take care of him, if she was gone? She certainly did not trust Polly toâat least not in the way that he really needed. Arthur, while his heart was in the right place, was too messed up to be of much help. Ada and Uncle Charlie could maybe both be of use, but they each had their own shit to deal with. They could not devote themselves entirely to Tommy in the way that Lucy did.Â
But maybe Lizzie couldâŚ
Lucy shuddered, fingers clenching hard around her cigarette in an attempt to ground herself. She loved Tommy. She wanted nothing but good things for him. She could not leave him if she thought that her departure would cause him unhappiness. But if she could be sure that he could find happiness with Lizzie, if she knew that she could trust Lizzie to take care of him the way that he neededâŚ
Polly reached across the table, and touched her shoulder. It was only then that Lucy realized that a single tear had slid down her cheek, with more gleaming unshed within her eyes. Â
âIâm not trying to be cruel, dear. Weâve had our differences in the past, I know. I really am just looking out for the good of everyone.â
Lucy looked up at her, lips parted to speak, when the double doors leading into Tommyâs office opened. She hastily looked down and away, trying subtly to brush away the lone tear she had shed before Tommy stepped out with his colleague. He quirked a puzzled eyebrow at Pollyâs presence, shaking the manâs hand and bidding him goodbye before turning to his aunt.Â
âHello, Polly. What are you doing here?â
âI was in the city running some errands, so thought that Iâd come by and say hello,â Polly smiled, chipper as a chipmunk that had just found a whole bushel of nuts to keep it happy and well fed the entire winter.
Tommyâs eyes went to Lucyâs, not entirely buying Pollyâs story.Â
What happened? his expression asked, noticing something in her face. She just gave a miniscule shake of her head.Â
Itâs fine.
He didnât look wholly convinced, but caught on that now wasnât a good time to pry further.
âWell, since youâre here, we can talk about the latest developments. Have you spoken with Michael lately?â
âYes, actually,â Polly started to launch into a recount of her latest phone call with Michael while Tommy shepherded her into his office. He didnât look to be entirely listening to her, instead shooting Lucy a concerned glance from over his shoulder. She offered him a weak smile that only made him look more worried, and before following Polly into his office he leaned forward, and pressed a firm kiss between her brows.Â
Whatever she said, donât listen to it, his eyes told her. Lucy gave a tiny nod.
âTommy?â Pollyâs voice called from the office.Â
âComing,â he sighed, but didnât actually move until after heâd brushed the back of his hand affectionately down Lucyâs cheek with a small, comforting smile. Despite herself, she leaned into the touch desperately, closing her eyes while his thumb stroked her skin.Â
âI love you,â he mouthed to her when she finally met his gaze.
âLove you too,â she whispered hoarsely back, so quietly it was a wonder that he even heard her. With another gentle smile, he kissed the top of her head, ducking back into his office before Polly could shout for him again. He left the doors open, as if to let her know that she was more than welcome to join them at any time.  Â
Lucy raised a fist to rest against her lips as she stared after him, heart aching, and Pollyâs words swirling around inside her head.Â
â â â
âThank you again for the teddy bear. I swear that she hasnât let it out of her grasp since I first gave it to her.â
Lucy smiled softly, leaning forward to watch Ruby play on the blanket Lizzie had set up for her in the sitting room. The aforementioned teddy bear was clutched in the babyâs arms, one of her chubby cheeks squished against it. Lucy was always buying her gifts. Tommy kept joking that she was going to spoil her, as if he were any better about not buying her anything and everything that he thought she might want.Â
That sweet girl deserved to be spoiled as much as possible.Â
 âIâm glad.â
âThanks for coming by and watching her. I swear, with Tilly on holiday I havenât gotten even a second to myself.â Lizzie finally swooped in from the kitchen with two teacups for them. With all the wedding planning and then her nanny taking a week long holiday, she looked more than a little frazzled.
âItâs no problem. Iâm always happy to spend time with her.â
Lizzieâs gaze softened, passing Lucy her teacup and sitting down beside her on the couch, putting her own cup down on the table so she could reach over to stroke her daughterâs cheek.Â
âArenât you excited, Ruby? Weâll be going to live with Daddy soon. Youâll get to see him allllll the time,â Lizzie cooed. The baby babbled excitedly and she giggled, leaning back. âGod, sheâs getting so big.â
Lucy nodded, remembering how fast Charlie had seemed to grow. âIt always happens so fast.â
They both watched little Ruby play for a while, sipping on their tea in silence. Lucy knew that she needed to get going, but there was something that she needed to ask, before she did.Â
Mustering up her courage, she took a deep breath, setting her teacup back down into its saucer. âLizzie?â
âMhm?â her gaze did not leave Ruby.
âAre you sure that youâre alright with ourâŚwith our arrangement for after you're married?â
Lizzie glanced at her, eyebrow raised. âYes, Iâm sure.â
âOnce itâs done, it wonât exactly be easy to back out of.â
âYes, I know.â Lizzie splayed out her left hand, looking down at the glittering engagement ring on her finger. Lucy could only look at it for a moment before she had to glance away. âItâs all going to work itself out.â
Lucy examined her face closely. Something about the way that she said that last part had the fine hairs on the back of her arms standing on end.Â
âLizzieâŚâ she spoke as gently as she could, terrified of accidentally setting her off. âYou canât force someone to love you. I donât want you to go into this expecting that once the marriage license is signed heâll justââ
âI know,â Lizzie cut her off, but Lucy did not really think that she did. There was a distant look on her face, a dreaminess as if she were lost in a faraway fantasy. One in which Lucy was certain that she did not exist and Tommy was falling over himself to kiss Lizzieâs feet.Â
How many times had she attempted to get it through Lizzieâs head that she could not brute force Tommy into loving her the way that she wanted him to? Too many to count, at this point. There was not much more she could do but hope that Lizzie managed to figure it out for herself, and trust that sheâlike Tommyâcould make her own decisions.Â
âOkay,â she murmured, even though she felt anything but.Â
â â â
On the night before the wedding, it took nearly every ounce of willpower that Lucy had not to pack a bag and run far, far away.Â
She felt sick with anxiety and guilt. Like a huge stone had been lodged in her gut. Pollyâs words played on a loop inside her head, and the look of quiet hopefulness in Lizzieâs eyes flashed before her every time she shut her eyes.Â
She had not mentioned the conversation sheâd had with Polly to Tommy.
She knew that she probably should have, but she always hated it when he argued with any of his family because of her. So she kept her mouth shut, despite Pollyâs words circling and festering in her mind.Â
Would it not be better for everyone if she left? Tommy would not have to juggle prioritizing her along with Lizzie and everyone else, Ruby and Charlie would have a stable, normal household to grow up in, and Lizzie could finally have a shot at actually living out the fantasy sheâd been dreaming of for years and years. No one in the family outside of Tommy would even miss her, and he could easily find a new assistant to replace her. There were plenty of qualified people, even amongst just the Blinders. Â
âLucy?â
She roused from her internal downward spiral at the sound of Tommyâs voice. He was standing in the middle of the bedroom, having already removed all his clothes save for his trousers, white button down shirt, and suspenders. He had his hands in his pockets, staring at her worriedly. When she looked up at him and he saw her face, he quickly came to sit beside her on the bed.Â
âAre you okay?â he asked, carefully draping an arm around her. She let him pull her into his side, head coming to rest against his shoulder.Â
âMhm.â
âNo, youâre not,â he argued back gently, lips finding the top of her head. âWorried about tomorrow?â
âDo you really think that this is a good idea?â
He frowned, confusion entering his eyes. âWhat? The wedding?â
She shook her head. âUs staying together.âÂ
The confusion morphed into panic. âWhat do you mean?â
Lucy swiped at her nose with the back of her hand, aware that she was about two seconds away from starting to cry. It felt like ever since the vendetta ended, most of what she did was either cry or mope around feeling sorry for herself. He must be so tired of having to comfort her all the damn time.Â
Yet another thing to add to the list of improvements that her absence would bring: Tommy no longer would be burdened with having to take care of her.Â
âHaving an affair after you get married is a huge risk, Tommy. If someone finds out about itâŚit could ruin everything.â
Tommy drew back slightly to stare at her. His brows were pulled in, lips turning downwards, his gaze apprehensive and hurt.Â
âDo youâŚâ he swallowed hard, throat convulsing, and she realized that the question he was about to ask her was almost enough to bring him to tears. âDo you want to split up?â
âNo. No; of course I donât want to split up. I love you. But I donât think that I could live with the guilt if I were the reason you lose everything youâve worked so hard for.â She touched his face. âI donât want to become a problem for you.â
His hand covered hers, squeezing against her knuckles. âYou could never,â he said softly, leaning closer to bring their foreheads together. âItâll be alright. Weâll be careful. Besides,â he angled his head to kiss her nose. âYou think Iâll be the only MP having an affair? Most of them are sleeping with at least one other woman whoâs not their wife. Hell, a lot of them have whole second families stashed away somewhere.â
Heâd had her gather up dirt on a good many of his fellow MPs after he was elected. Just in case they ever needed to twist someoneâs arm on something or ensure their silence on certain topics. She knew better than most the kinds of dirty secrets those men in their pompous, expensive suits and positions of power held close. Â
âListen,â Tommy wetted his lips, sitting up and taking a hold of both her shoulders. âIf you really donât want me to marry Lizzie, I wonât.â
âNo, itâs fineâŚâ
âIf me marrying her means that I canât be with you, then I wonât do it. Youâre too important. I canât lose you.â
She leaned closer, until their foreheads were touching, her fingertips laying upon his cheeks. âYou have me. This marriage is whatâs for the best. For you and Ruby.â
âYour happiness matters too.âÂ
She looked down with a sad smile. Sweet and gentle as his words were, they were hard to believe. Not when sheâd put what was best for him over her being content every time. Â
âHey, look at me,â he coaxed her chin back up with his hand. âIt does. It does. Ey?â He cradled the side of her face, thumb stroking her cheekbone. âWeâre going to be just fine. Iâll make sure of it.â
She nodded shakily, breaths stuttering with the emotion inside her chest.Â
âCome here,â he drew her closer, and she let her hands rest on his chest when he slanted his mouth over hers, kissing her in a way that was soft but impossibly deep, tongue stroking slowly into her mouth.Â
She kissed him back, eager for him to drive away the storm inside her and silence the cruel voices in her own head. With a soft sound of desperation, Tommyâs hands went to her shirt, fumbling with the buttons. Lucyâs fingers found their way into his hair while he abandoned her lips to instead pepper kisses down her neck. His large hands were warm even through the material of her clothes. With a soft whine, Lucy pressed herself closer, chasing the heat of his touch.Â
Soon as her shirt was fully open, he pushed it eagerly off of her shoulders, hands smoothing across her ribs. While he explored the newly exposed skin, she set to work getting him out of his own shirt, tossing the button down to join hers on the floor, then coaxing him to raise his arms enough so she could pull off the undershirt layered beneath. Tommy loosened the ties on her bra, pulling it away and almost immediately cupping both breasts in his hands, squeezing and massaging the globes of flesh, running his thumbs across her nipples until she trembled.
His mouth returned to hers, and as they kissed he got her out of her trousers and knickers and promptly manhandled her into his lap, an arm around her waist to help keep her balance. Their foreheads knocked clumsily against each other at their eagerness to steal more kisses, but neither seemed to care.Â
By this time tomorrow, he would be married. Lucy wondered if moments like these with him would become a rare occurrence. Ones that she would have to hold dear and make the most of whenever she got the chance.Â
As if reading her mind, Tommy pulled back just enough for their eyes to meet, thumb stroking her freckled cheek.Â
âIâm always going to be yours. No matter what,â he said resolutely.Â
Lucy felt a lump swell in her throat. âDonât make me cry right now.â
His lips quirked up. âSorry,â he kissed her again. âBut I mean it.â
âI know. I know you do, love.â She found his lips once more, and he promptly banished any other thoughts of his impending nuptials with the opening of his mouth against hers, and the tender stroke of his hands down her back.Â
After what happened to her during the vendetta, her back was covered in a mass of crisscrossed scars. Tommyâs hands traced the shape of them, as he had dozens of times before with both his hands and lips. The skin was more sensitive since the injuries that left it so mangled, and he kept his touch light and careful.Â
Pressing down deeper into his lap, Lucy ground against the growing bulge in his trousers, earning herself a deep hiss. He tried to chase her when she drew back from their kisses, the small whine he released making her smile.Â
Giving him a small, teasing smirk, she slid her hands down his body to fumble with his belt, Tommy lifting his hips dutifully to allow her to easily pull his trousers and briefs down his legs.Â
His half hard cock sprang up, bobbing before her, and a low groan sounded from Tommyâs throat when she wrapped her hand around it, stroking him slowly to full hardness. As he swelled in her hand, she leaned forward to press kisses to his stomach, making her way lazily up his chest. Between her legs, her clit ached, her walls squeezing around nothing at the way his cock throbbed against her palm.Â
The arm Tommy had around her waist gave her a small squeeze, readjusting her in his lap so that she could straddle one of his thighs. She moaned softly into his chest when she pressed down, grinding eagerly. Tommy hissed through his teeth at how wet she already was, her slick soaking his leg whilst she humped him. Peering up and seeing a sudden opportunity in their current position, Lucy settled her unoccupied hand on his ribs, dipping her head to suck one of his nipples into her mouth. He let out a startled grunt at the action, hips bucking into her hand of their volition. Lucy giggled, circling her tongue around him and enjoying the way he shivered as she bit lightly at the hardened peak.Â
Letting him go with a small pop, she peered up at him innocently, probably looking far too pleased with herself at having caught him unawares. Tommy touched her cheek lightly, brows knitted in mock sternness that was greatly undercut by the sparkle in his eyes.Â
âWhat was that for, eh?â
She shrugged, tryingâand failingâto contain her grin as she gazed up at him. Tommyâs eyes narrowed playfully.
âYou trying to get me to punish you, hm?â his hand stroked her face, and when his thumb passed across her lips, she nipped at it, snickering when he snatched it away.
âAlways.â
His cock twitched in her hand, and she raised an amused eyebrow at him, taking note of the reaction.
âGet over here then,â he grunted, both hands landing on her hips. She bit her lip around her smile, letting him pull her into position over his cock. âReady?â
She nodded, and he kissed her cheek, slowly guiding her down onto him. They both moaned at the stretch as she slowly took him into her inch by thick inch.Â
âGod, youâre always so tight,â burying his face in her neck, Tommy wrapped his arms around her. Lucy hummed, walls aching slightly at his considerable girth, giving herself a moment to adjust before she started to move.Â
Tommyâs moans were low, his eyes lidded heavily whilst he watched her begin to bounce on him, hands situating to help guide her movements, their pace starting out slow.Â
It was amazing how easily it was for her to realize just how silly she was being once his hands were on her. The way that he looked at her, with so much love and adoration brimming in his big blue eyes, was proof enough that he was just as unlikely as she was to be able to survive them being parted from each other.Â
When he was there to help ground her, it was easier to quiet her insecurities and trust that he would ensure everything turned out alright. He cherished their relationship as much as she did; surely he would do everything within his power to keep it safe.Â
It was when she was on her own, left with only her own thoughts to keep her company, without Tommy around to help balance out and quiet them, that she started to get into trouble. No matter how unreasonable and absurd she knew she was being, once she started to spiral, it was almost impossible for her to manage to stop it on her own.Â
Theyâd learned that the hard way, during the holiday they took right after the vendetta was over, when they both nearly lost themselves to their ravaged minds.Â
âOh fuck, fuck. That feels good. Donât stop. Donât fucking stop, Lucy,â Tommy groaned, eyes rolling in his head when she started to pick up the pace and swiveled her hips on him. His grip on her tightened, cheek resting against hers while his head tipped back.
âClose,â she warned, as if he couldnât already tell from the way she was moaning into his neck, walls fluttering around him. Â
With a growl, his hips rolled up more vigorously into her, hand sneaking between their bodies to find her clit.
âOhâŚâ her eyes screwed shut, orgasm so close she could almost taste it. âPlease, pleaseâŚâ
âHm? Please, what, pretty girl?â
She sobbed at the low octave his voice had dipped into, hands scrambling at his powerful shoulders. Tommy chuckled.
âCanât give you what you want if you wonât tell me, sweetheart.â
âH-harderâŚâ
âHarder, eh? You mean like this?â Hand splaying out firmly at the small of her back to keep her from falling off, he started to snap his hips up with more force, adding more pressure to her clit as he did.Â
She could only answer with a moan, drawing scratch marks down his back. Tommy chuckled, the vibrations reverberating throughout his chest and rumbling pleasantly against her.Â
It took only a handful more thrusts, and a kiss to her temple, and she came hard. It sent explosive bursts of color flashing across her eyes, entire body tensing and relaxing simultaneously with the force of her orgasm. She held onto Tommy for dear life, and without even really thinking, so overcome with pleasure and affection for him, she bit into his shoulder.Â
Tommy let out a massive moan, eyes rolling at the sting of her teeth against his skin. And suddenly he was seizing her in his arms and rolling them. Her back hit the mattress, one of his strong palms cradling the back of her head and neck to protect them.    Â
He practically loomed over her, something wild and animalistic awakened in his eyes. Lucy couldnât quite stop the gasp that left her lips at how the sudden position change emphasized just how much bigger he was than her.Â
But it didnât feel threatening. Not in the slightest. To her, Tommy would never truly seem scary or intimidating. When it came to her, he only ever offered protection and love.Â
Biting her lip, she stared at the center of his chest. She probably wouldnât have been able to even recall her own name had someone asked. She was too encompassed by the feelings of being both incredibly protected and aroused.Â
With a growl that seemed to echo throughout the entire room, Tommy started thrusting into her wildly. Lucy gasped, wrapping her legs around his waist, pulling him in tighter against her.Â
âFuck,â her eyes closed, head falling back as her hands moved from where theyâd settled on his waist to instead smooth across his strong back, feeling the way his muscles clenched and shifted under his skin. Tommy chuckled when she reached down to briefly squeeze a handful of his ass, vibrations rumbling against her neck where his lips were pressing soft kisses and gentle nips.Â
She could feel that he was drawing nearer to his release, his breaths stuttering in his chest, hips driving into hers desperately. He was entering her at an angle that had his pubic bone grinding against her clit with each thrust, and it did not take long for her to be teetering on the edge as well, walls starting to spasm around his twitching cock.Â
âShit,â Tommy grunted, hands fisting in the bedsheets on either side of her head. âLucy.â He said her name like it was the most precious thing in the entire world, and she felt tears burn at the edges of her eyes.Â
âFill me up,â she half begged, head tipping back and eyes closing. Her second orgasm ripped through her with such ferocity that her legs twitched around Tommyâs waist, walls clamping down on him in a vice grip.Â
Tommy cried out, one hand scrambling to seize hold of hers, lacing their fingers together and squeezing as he spilled his seed inside her. His forehead landed to rest on her temple, breaths heaving in his chest, hips thrusting lazily to prolong their pleasures until both were utterly spent.    Â
Wrapping her arms around his shoulders, Lucy stared up at the canopy covering the bed, Tommyâs weight comforting and heavy on top of her. He curled both arms underneath and around her, head turning to settle on her clavicle while his breathing returned to normal. She ran her fingers delicately through his soft dark hair, sighing when he pressed a delicate kiss to the hollow of her throat.Â
When he finally did decide to move, it was to merely pull his softening cock out of her and maneuver them to lay on their sides facing each other. He always did worry about squishing her when she was under him.Â
Lucy swallowed harshly when she looked into his eyes, his hand returning to its favorite pastime of stroking her face.Â
âIâm sorry,â he murmured, tracing the shape of her lips. âI know that this whole thing is so fucking shitty for you, love.â The arm around her tightened, and he drew in a little closer to her. âWhatever you need from me to make it easier for you, please, just tell me. Donât ever feel bad about it. You wonât be causing problems, or being selfish, I promise. I need to make sure that youâre okay.â
âThank you,â she murmured, laying a hand on his waist, feeling his side expand with his breaths.Â
âI mean it, if you really donât want me to do thisâŚâ
âSo long as Lizzie continues to be alright with our arrangement, I think itâll be fine. Itâs just going to take some getting used to at first.âÂ
âMore for her than for you or me. Once the honeymoon is over, things will go mostly back to the way that they were before.â
âIt still doesnât seem fair to her.â
Tommy shrugged. âShe agreed to it. And weâve asked multiple times now if sheâs still sure that sheâs alright with the arrangement. Sheâs said yes every time.â
âShe could still always change her mind.â The thought chilled Lucy to her core. What would they do if that happened? Tommy would be bound to her, unable to get away without creating an absolute shitshow. âOnce the ink dries on that marriage license and the rings go on, she has you forever.âÂ
âNo, she doesnât.â Tommy propped himself up slightly, brows pulling together. His hand reached out for her face, taking firm hold of her cheek, thumb drawing across her cheekbone. âShe doesnât own me. I can make my own choices. We have made it as clear as we can what she is getting herself into. If she does change her mind, as far as Iâm concerned, thatâs her problem. Not ours. Sheâll have to decide if she can live with what she agreed to or not. Rings can be taken off, love. If they have to be.â
âWe both know that itâs not that simple.â
âHey,â his grip tightened, forcing her to meet his worried eyes. âIt doesnât have to be forever.âÂ
Face creasing in confusion, she searched his eyes. âWhat do you mean?â
Tongue darting out to wet his lips, Tommy swallowed. âWell, after I retire from politics, or after Ruby comes of age, or when society becomes more accepting about things like divorceââ
She gaped at him. âYou canât possibly be serious.â
âWhy not?â
âSo, what? You just divorce her when the time is right?â
âYes.â
âAnd then what?â
He shrugged. âAnd thenâŚyou and I could get married, if thatâs what you wanted,â her heart did a little swoop. âOr we could carry on as we have before. Whatever you want.âÂ
âIf you wait until Ruby is of age, thatâs almost twenty years,â she frowned, suddenly deeply aware of her own thirty-three years. âYou arenât gonna want me anymore when Iâm all old and wrinkly.â
âIâll always want you.âÂ
âYou make it really hard to argue with you when youâre being so bloody charming.â
He grinned, thumb running along her cheekbone. âSorry,â he said, though he very obviously was not. He took hold of her face with both hands. âI know how bloody selfish it is to ask you to wait for meââ
âIâll wait,â she said, without hesitation. His gaze softened, leaning down to kiss her deeply in gratitude.
âThank you,â he dropped his face to peck her bare shoulder. âIt isnât forever. Remember that. And if we need to end it prematurelyâif you need me to end it prematurelyâeven if the timing isnât ideal, Iâll do it. Just say that word.â Leaning back, he cocked his head, suddenly very serious. âShe doesnât have me. You have me. Always.â
She started to sniffle. âI told you not to make me cry.â
He stroked away her tears and then engulfed her in a tight hug, her cheek squishing into his chest. âSorry,â he said again, this time much more genuine. She shook her head against his apology, burrowing closer.Â
âI love you.â
âI love you too, Lucy.â His cheek adjusted against her head. âPromise you will tell me if youâre having trouble in here,â he tapped the crown of her head and stroked her curls, pressing a kiss to her temple. âI donât like the thought of you suffering in silence when I could help.â
âI donât want to be all clingy and cause you more problemsââ
âYou and your needs are never a problem,â he leaned back, a smile twitching at the corners of his lips. âAnd maybe I like you clingy.â
She snorted quietly at that. âItâs going to be hard to be away from you for so long.â The honeymoon was only planned to last a week, but it was easily the longest theyâd ever been away from each other.Â
Tommy let out a pained sound. âI really donât want to go.â
She touched his jaw, trying to soothe him. âYou might have funâŚâ
âSheâs making us go to fucking Paris, Lucy.â
âI know,â she said softly. Her eyebrows had nearly risen all the way up to her hairline when Lizzie had announced Paris as the location she wanted them to honeymoon in. It made her wonder how Lizzie could claim that she knew Tommy at all, when she couldnât even seem to understand why he might not be particularly thrilled to go anywhere located in France. âItâs just for a week,â she tried to convince herself as much as him.Â
âWe can talk on the phone.â
âOh, sheâll love that.â
He shrugged. âThatâs the price she pays for not wanting you to come.â
âMm,â Lucy hummed, touching his face affectionately. Silence fell over them, just staring into each otherâs eyes, caressing the otherâs cheeks and jaws tenderly.Â
âYou still have my soul, you know?â she remarked, voice seeming very quiet in the otherwise dark stillness of the room. The first gift she ever gave him, presented at their first official meeting, during the deal that began the merging of their two beings into one. Please, donât throw it away. Â
Tommyâs hand took hold of one of hers, guiding it to press against his chest above his heart. âAnd you still have my heart.â Please, donât break it, his eyes begged. Lucy swallowed at the memory of the night he offered it to her, as an equal trade for the soul sheâd already relinquished to him.Â
He urged her face up to look at him, her wide green eyes meeting his icy blue ones. He kissed her softly, so much raw emotion packed into the brush of their lips that she nearly broke down into hysterical sobs right there in his arms.Â
âWeâre going to be okay.â
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*Adam was getting dressed as the Queen of Hell, the servants dressed Adam in a purple gown since that was one of his favorite colors, they even had him in a corset giving him a more hour glass figure, they fixed up his hair and then put a crown on his head, the servants going on about how beautiful their Queen was, Adam looked in the mirror and he had to admit he was beautiful, he couldnât wait to show Lucifer, downstairs Charlie was playing with Avery and Lucifer was talking to Abel who had come to visit*
Abel: Wow dad, you look amazing.
*Lucifer was in awe of his Queen, Adam always wore those robes that hid his body but the gown showed it off so well*
Lucifer: You are so beautiful.
*Adam smiled showing off his fang like teeth*
Adam: Thank you, we should go now.
*Lucifer opened a portal that took them to the meeting place, aside from seeing them in the crowd at their coronation, Adam and Lucifer never met the other Deadly Sins, they were greeted by Asmodeus or Ozzie as Aurora said he liked being called and Beelzebub or Queen Bee as she liked to be called*
Ozzie: It is nice to officially the new King and Queen if there is something you need help with, most of us are willing to help.
Adam: Thank you.
*the meeting actually went quite well, Mammon tried to be an ass to Adam, but Adam just broke his arm with his bare hands which made Mammon shut up, back home Adam was in more comfortable clothes, they lay in together with Avery laying between them*
Adam: I donât mind being the Queen of Hell as long as I have you.
Lucifer: I feel the same way, I just want you and only you.
*they smiled and they were happy that they could be together*
The Endđ
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(The gown Adam wore in the meeting)
Lieutenant Lucifer Au
Lucifer was waiting outside of Sera's office, apparently there was something she wanted to task him with. He had no idea what it would be.
Sera opened her door: Oh good, Luicfer come on in.
He got up and went inside. There was a man with large golden wings, soft brown hair and golden eyes that shined brightly.
Sera: This is Adam, the first man and father of humanity.
Adam put up a peace sign with his fingers: Hey, how's it going?
Lucifer heard about the first humans and Eden, he never got the chance to see the garden before Samuel ruined everything.
Sera: I am untrusting you to show him around heaven and keep him safe.
Lucifer frowned, so he was basically a glorified babysitter? Wonderful.
*though he couldnât help but notice how attractive Adam was, in fact he was way more attractive than any of the angels of Heaven, Lucifer wondered why God had wanted to create a being like humans, but it wasnât his job to question God*
Lucifer: What would you like to see first.
Adam: I am kind of hungry, I never got to eat much after being thrown out of Eden and I heard Heaven has lots of good foods I want to try.
*there was something just so endearing about Adam that he couldnât deny him*
Lucifer: Of course, follow me.
*they walked through Heaven as Adam looked around in awe, he has never seen anything like this, he first lived in a garden and then he lived in a simple home with his family, now he was living in a golden city that he was told was paradise, Adam drooled a little when he saw all the different types of food and he wanted to try everything*
Adam: I shouldnât eat too much.
*Lucifer looked over at Adam, he knew that Adam could still gain weight up in Heaven, but he didnât think that others should judge him for wanting to try good food and he would still be very attractive if he got chubby*
Lucifer: You should enjoy whatever you want to.
Adam: Thank you.
*Lucifer gave Adam a plate and started to give him suggestions over what he should try first*
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"I hope it's okay if I love you forever"
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Adam x f!reader
cw: cursing, Adam being Adam, kissing, smut.
Summary: Adam asking reader out and getting a bit freaky afterrr
This is the smut version! Fluff version linked here (smut starts after paragraph 7)
a/n: sorry if this version took a bit long to be released! I've been busy with other projects and some requests. Hope you guys enjoy!
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"Aw Lute, I'm gonna fuck this up so bad!" Adam said as he paced back and fourth in his office. "Sir, it's really not that big of a deal. You're only asking her out-" Lute replied before being cut off "Not that big of a deal?! What if the bitch rejects me!? What if..." Adam panicked. He'd been planning on asking you out for months, he just didn't know how..
At first, he was his usual confident, cocky self but as soon as he looked at you, his mind blanked. Since then, he'd been trying to find the perfect moment just to ask you. "God, Lute...whenever I look at her..." Adam smiles as he speaks about you, "Her pretty face...her smile...even her voice is just..fuck, her hot ass voice is-" Lute cuts him off "I get it sir, you love her." "Y-yeah...I love her...a lot..but how the hell do I show it without saying stupid shit and being a fuckin' dick?"
Lute sighs and rolls her eyes "Just...be yourself but completely different, y'know? Girls like that type of thing." Adam inhales and exhales "Promise? What if I fuck the whole thing up?" He says, only slightly panicked now. "You wont. Well, you most likely will, but she wont reject you." Lute chuckles as she smiles for the first time in a while. She quickly goes back to her serious self and shoos Adam away to talk to you. "Now get outta here already!"
â§ÍâşË*シŕźâž time skip â˝ŕźď˝Ľ*Ëâşâ§Í
Adam composed himself in the mirror, practicing what he was gonna say to you. "sooo...Y/n heh...you're pretty hot so- AW FUCK HOW IN HELL DO I DO THIS?!" he says to the mirror. He soon after walks out of his appartment and spots you walking through heaven. He rushes down to you.
When you see him, you immediately fix your clothes and hair, making sure to look extra cute for him. He appears behind you a few seconds later, acting 'cool' "Sup, buttercup~" he says, smirking seductively (or atleast what he thinks will be seductive to you), when in reality he's panicking. He makes a 'cool' pose, leaning against the wall.
"So~...you know how much i love that peice of ass and i also love railing that peice of ass...but...that's not why I'm here," Adam explains "look, you're cute and funny and..fuck..it's the first way I've felt like this since..Lilith.." He begins to blush and breath faster. "god...just-" he's cut off my your lips pressing against his. It was a light peck, but of course it still made his face heat up. He cups your cheeks (FACE đ) and pulls away, smiling.
"So you were gonna ask me out?" you ask while you chuckle. "Y-yeah...I was..I'm taking that kiss as a yes?" he replies as he rubs the back of his neck, anxiously. "Yeah, I'll go out with you, dummy." Adam turns around and fist pumps the air "FUCK YEAH!" he yells, causing a few people to turn around and stare. "So I'll pick you up at 8?" He says as he goes back to his 'cool' pose against the wall. "Eh, right now works too."
â§ÍâşË*シŕźâž time skip â˝ŕźď˝Ľ*Ëâşâ§Í
You guys had just come home from the date (drunk of course) and stumbled into his appartment. You feel Adam's arms wrap around your waist and rub circles on your hips with his thumbs. "You know how crazy you make me, sugartits~" he whispers in your ear, flicking your earlobe with his tongue.
"A-Adam-" you get cut off by his hands slipping into your pants, playing with the waistband of your underwear. "You fucking tease..." you reply to his dirty moves. "C'mon..want me to make those pretty insides of yours feel real fuckin' good?" he whispers into your ear as he picks you up and plops you down on the bed, crawling over you.
You nod. I mean, with those soothing whispers and playful hands, who could say no? He begins to strip off both his and your clothes, making it agonizingly slow. He kisses and licks up your inner thighs, teasing you until you can't take it. "Are you wet for me yet, babe?" All you could do was nod because of the lack of words that would leave your mouth.
He slowly slips down your soaked underwear to reveal your aching pussy. He slides down his own pants and cups the bulge forming through his boxers. "Look at how hard you make me, baby~" He spreads your legs and sticks his pointer and middle finger inside you. The thumb on his free hand circles your clit as he pumps his fingers in and out of you.
Your moans get louder as his hands pick up the pace inside you. He then slowly slides his hands out, fingers dripping and oozing with your juices. He uses his hands to hold your folds open as he sucks your insides.
After a few minutes of Adam eating you out, he finally lets you feel his hard, raw cock inside of you. "All for you, sugartits~" he says as he thrusts in and out. He holds your hips in place and a knot in your stomach begins to build. "A-Adam I-...I-I'm close- Fuck!" you moan out. "That's it baby~ Just let it out, cum all over me~" he says as he thrusts one more time and-
The knot snaps.
You reach your limit and cum all over Adam's cock. "A-Aghh~!!" You moan out uncontrollably. "Just like that baby, fuck, you're so beautifly perfect.." After your climax, you plop down next to Adam and breath heavily. "God, you're so hot." he says as he wraps his arms around you. "I love you..." you reply.
"Same." he chuckles as he kisses the top of your head.
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I need Americans that were never Christianâ˘ď¸ to realize that the average conservative cult christian's thoughts are basically that one episode of Spongebob where he gets elected Hall Monitor and gives a speech with "Crime and Punishment. Punishment and Crime"
#christians see themselves as the hall monitors of the earth essentially#and everyone needs to be punished and have their good noodle stars taken else they'll commit arson#they genuinely believe that as soon as you stop policing people they'll delve into their deepest darkest fantasies and start committing sins#that even Jesus Christ himself didn't think of#they come from the idea that they are the only group capable of keeping things steady until Sky Papa can make his way down and fuck shit up#So when you do something bad it's because you fell into the pull of destruction#But when they do it's the equivalent of stepping on your dog's foot because they almost tripped you#I still think it's funny a bunch of christians are creationist tho lmao skill issue#My grandparents are but my dad isn't#he believes evolution essentially occurred over the same time the earth was being created#and the story of adam being made from dust was a metaphor and literal#he was made from dust made from decomposing animals and plants which he used to create us as a more perfect being#so now we continue to evolve because we're connected to the dust and can continue to try to improve#so my dad believes in evolution and went to college for biology and chemistry at the biggest HBCU in the US#That evolution/creationist tangent was completely unrelated but all twitter is for me rn is ppl freaking out about our rights being taken#I avoid twitter most of the time but like to look at my friends' and fav artists' tweets#and recently I think little joel made a video about the evolution video that was trending so yea#n e ways have a nice day y'all <3#I've been wanting to make more hehe hahas but everything in my brain rn is Undergraduate Thesis level shit#so I haven't really been reading or writing things I can talk about on Tumblr.Com ya know?#most of it is sociological textbooks memoirs and similar stuff that Id feel talking about on my casual blog#maybe Ill make a blog. like Blog blog for my essays one day#ex christian#religious trauma
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"he said i could appoint you to be an angel"
he said I could give back the happiness that was unfairly ripped away from you, to see you make stars without fear. i'm directly going against the almighty's decision and pushing past my trauma of heaven for you. i want you to be happy again.
#good omens#good omens spoilers#you guys all saw how aziraphale was adamant about not going to heaven during his and metatron's talk right?#that was until he mentioned that with his status he would be able to bring back crowley to heaven as an angel#there's no way azira doesn't feel guilty about indirectly causing crowley to fall#this is him wanting to right that wrong. for him to bring back the happiness he believes took away from crowley#not realizing that aziraphale is what makes crowley happier now. perhaps even moreso than creating stars#they're communicating but not COMMUNICATING#does that makes sense?#anyways i have so many thoughts on them that i really should've posted here in the first place instead#also yeah this is a repost from my own twitter what about it#good omens season 2#good omens 2#aziraphale#crowley#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#neil gaiman you will pay for your crimes (making me feel emotions)#gomens#good omens aziraphale#good omens crowley#crowziraphale
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i love when characters suck and are bad people like the thing about murphy is that i liked him before he was the incredible wife guy (which is also pretty great, dont get me wrong) but like. i thought he was cool when he was a horrible jackass that everyone hated . like he was interesting before he got morals; he was interesting as a guy who gets lynched in a frontier justice display of retaliation for a murder because he just seems like the kind of dude who would murder someone. and he is! just not that dead guy, specifically. whereas the actual killer is a twelve-year-old girl who the whole crew spends the episode trying to proctect from any kind of punishment, while murph runs around trying and failing to get anyone to admit out loud that the only reason there's a difference between punishing him and punishing her is because he has a bad personality . and also the murders but at that point in the show he hadn't killed anyone, he just seemed like he would
#now the OPTICS of his eventual murder of the guy that lynched him? are abysmal given that murphy is white and connor is black#BUT . that is not a murphy problem that is a showrunners' racial politics are simply completely bankrupt problem#the early-seasons flipflopping between him and finn never ceases to interest me either. his main thing is a sense of antagonistic FAIRNESS#which means that he has no problem helping during the sickness or with food production - doing objectively good things - if they need done#BUT he will also use the opportunity to kill anyone he feels has wronged him; in this case his would-be executors#also anyone who happens to be in the wrong place at the wrong time#but - even with all that - by the second season he's only killed two people . he's made more attempts; but they all fell through.#finn manages to keep his hands clean for nearly the whole first season and is an adamant pacifist#but grows so emotionally unstable by the second season that he shoots up an entire town full of people and then - just like charlotte -#is defended and protected by many of his crewmates in a way that#had the same event occured but with the roles swapped - murphy shooting instead - would not have happened#and these facts are not lost on murphy! even when he becomes the incredible wife guy#she's the only person who really thinks he has like. a likeable personality#everyone else is like 'well we used to hate him but then we had bigger problems. so he just lives here now. he's all right i guess'#the 100#god i just always have so much to SAY about this shit#love the 100 because it's one of those shows thats bad but NOT so bad that there isn't like a ton of really interesting stuff#to discuss and analyze and reinvent and talk about
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I've also been reading the three musketeers and the thesis chapter had me Cackling. the clowning on learning latin in particular and aramis as a character constantly emphasizing that being part of the higher sought after and hard-to-get-into regiment of the king's musketeers is just kind of a temp job for him is so funny. character of all time. (also bazin wanting aramis to be a abbe so bad is so good)
Disclaimer that I was actually not reading the book, just giving a look and toying with the idea of reading it soon. In fact I was reading something else, but the chapter was so funny I've abandoned it and will probably start The three musketeers instead xD
Yes! Bazin was so funny. While reading him I couldn't help but be reminded of Smee wanting to leave Neverland and done with Hook's obsession for Peter Pan. Aramis dismissing being a musketeer is hilarious, but it becomes particularly funny after reading Cyrano de Bergerac, where Cyrano mentions being a musketeer wistfully a couple of times. While I was reading the play I kept thinking that Cyrano's aspirations were basically to be Aramis haha
The use of Latin each character (the curate, the Jesuit, D'Artagnan and Aramis) does was indeed very funny, as well as insightful. I ended up reading a paper on the command each of the four protagonists has of Latin, and I loved the comparison it established between Athos and Aramis. I don't have an opinion on this formed because I have yet to read the book, which is a good thing (it will hopefully keep me from rambling), but I found what I read super interesting.
The chapter was very funny, and I felt Dumas managed everything very well? I loved the writing itself. Every part of the chapter worked wonderfully as a whole to enhance every aspect, making the funny parts more fun and drawing a more clear lively depiction of the characters.
By that I mean, basically, that even from the initial interaction between D'Artagnan and the hostess in which he asks for Aramis and she goes "the charming hot guy?" we can see Aramis' hypocrisy and unsteadiness by a mile. It's hilarious to read the chapter and see how Aramis ends up contradicting everything he does or says, at times not even that long after saying it xD
Which takes me to the thesis itself. Honestly, I loved the topics. I know they're supposed to sound a bit ridiculous and funny, but I thought Dumas conveyed very well the air of some of those intricate questions of theology that seem trifle but have a lot of implications, and end up being of a very poetic nature (such as the question about how many angels can dance on the head of a pin, one of my all time favourite questions). I wasn't very interested on the topic of the hands until the Jesuit commented that sprinklers "simulate an infinite number of blessing fingers"; that's beautiful.
Now, the topic Aramis himself proposes is just gorgeous. The way he defends it with a syllogism is so clever of Dumas considering the link between theology and the development of Logic. Besides that, despite how unorthodox the topic may appear at first, as Aramis himself puts it, there is a lot of truth in what he says about the world being full of temptations and it being very much a sacrifice to leave it, and how there lies the devotional act. I ended up being very intrigued by the potential development of this thesis in a mix of appreciation of the world as God's creature, and thus the leaving of the world as an act of true love for God, of more importance; how instead of an easy surrender, the struggle and doubts are as much reflection of the condition of humanity's frailty as it is a more steady and full surrender to God.
The topic of Aramis' thesis is somewhat paradoxical yet sound, and reflects doubts, as well as an appreciation for the world, aesthetics and beauty; I think it reflects so much of what makes Aramis himself.
And then, again, there's the whole hypocrisy through the entire chapter (which is what makes it for me haha). The way he says he isn't defending a regret at renouncing the world while proposing the thesis, that the mere idea is sacrilegious, how he insists he won't miss it, that friends are but shadows and the world a grave, and still how his resolution wavers almost instantly with his "And yet, while I still hold to the earth, I would have liked to talk with you, about you, about our friends" (and what a tender shaking), only to end up asking D'Artagnan to tell him about the world in the last line? Hilarious. What an hypocrite xD
But how extremely charming and adorable, I must admit! I love how when D'Artagnan tells him "But how are you going to live while you wait for me? No more thesis, no more commentaries on fingers and blessings, eh?", Aramis smiles and replies "I shall compose verses". Truly one of the characters of all time xD
#Aramis#The three musketeers#Les trois mousquetaires#I want to keep this to find later on. I'm truly sorry for the tags#And I'm sorry for talking a lot. I honestly tried to keep it short but there's so much I wanted to talk aboutâ the chapter is so good#In fact there are a lot of things I haven't mentioned or developed that I loved#such as the fact that Dumas waves the chapters in such a way that that of Aramis starts with Porthosâ while the chapter of Athos#starts with Aramisâ linking the three friends together metatextually as they are linked together narratively by D'Artagnan visiting them#I also wanted to ask whether Aramis was the anon's favorite character and whether they had opinions on his position vs. Athos' for example#But the anon being an anon makes it hard to ask#I wanted to talk a bit about the developing of theology through paradoxes and Logic at times and how fitting that seemed for Aramis' thesis#He reminded me a bit of theologians such as Dionysius the Areopagite and Scotus Eriugena among othersâ and even Kierkegaard#But I must admit I always think too much about Neoplatonism and it's been long since I read these authors thoroughly so it may be a stretch#I had a lot of fun imagining the potential development of the thesis Aramis proposes though. Now I want the thesis now haha#And trulyâ the writing of the entire chapter was a thing of genius in how every little thing has later significance#to enhance something else. Such as the joke with Aramis moralising about the foodâ the conversation with the hostessâ#D'Artagnan's overall discomfort as if mad fanaticsâthe world as something to renounce but the instant temptation of asking for his friendsâ#the way D'Artagnan reads Aramis like a book and how he blushes and responds in poetic yet theological terms with too much fierceness#The way he blushes and exposes himself#And the entire thesis Aramis proposes being a good reflection on his character (no wonder he is adamant on pursuing that one#and only that oneâ like a calling). How the chapter and the thesis are a good summary on his character#But also how those lines I quotedâ D'Artagnan asking what hell do and Aramis smiling and replying he'll write versesâ are as well#Trulyâ the writing was so good. And yesâ I agree with the anon completely#Character of all time#I suspect I'd love him immensely#Even in this chapter alone he was everything I wanted and more of what I didn't dare to expect. Now I just want to see him plotting#I loved these fragments so much that now I fear reading the entire book and being let down xD#Oh but I'm rambling again...#Anyway! Thank you for the ask and sorry it took me so long to reply. I had a lot of fun with it#Too muchâ that's why I took so long to reply. I read and reread and then I wasn't able to summarise. Thanks for indulging me in my fun xD
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wait i just rmbrd what i wanted to say regarding pommern. olivias fate eps confirms gran Wants to forgive ppl & feels bad/uneasy/troubled when they Cant cuz ppl did things they cant rly forgive (putting lyria&vyrn in danger in that case) right. ive made an entire post about this before havent i this feels like something ive def talked about. BUT pommerns in that group too. no way gran will ever be completely comfortable around pommern (even less since uhhh both in the manga&anime pommerns like. the only person who Rly made gran mad. cuz he was mean to lyria). and ofc theyd find that hard, and they know they dont have to be comfy around him either but. since theyre so stuck in the "ppl can change. skyfarers helps everyone" etcetc, they still Want to. so its. gestures vaugely
#stardust speaking !#I KNOW IVE TALKED ABOUT THIS CUZ. charas like sandal n tyrias r in the same boat#and ive talked about them before#sandals def a special case cuz i think sandals? the one of them who thro ingame stuff. has the most trust#like it takes A Lot for gran to get there#but. yeah#that said the way everyone was 'hehe take care of sandal<3' makes me dizzy HE PUSHED GRAN OFF A CLIIIIIIFFFFFFFFFFF#CMOOOOOOOOOONNNNN#anyway. in the same vein. how many knows pommern yeah uh killed gran.#katalina does SHE EAS THERE but after that?!?!?!#its not like its a normal topic#like yeah u can put things together w their bond w lyria + scar#(even if No scar also makes me dizzy cuz gran finding it even more surreal some days Gets me)#but. while i DO think gran makes hehe im a zombie too#jokes#its kinda. a lot#actually i think gran making jokes n ppl going O_O and gran sitting there like oh right...u dont know......is funny#ur fingers are delicate..............#i was supposed to read mhyk main story but now this is occupying my entire brain#DOES ORCHIS AND ADAM KNOOOOOOOWWWWW
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A Million Dollar Baby! - N.K.
Synopsis. Turns out, rent can be paid in much more than one way.
Pairing. Nanami Kento x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, landlord! Nanami (kinda), oraI (male + fem), cĂşmplay, readerâs a tease, unprotected, creampĂe, down bad FERAL Nanami, spĂtting, brĂŠeding, messing up his glasses, pantĂ˝-stealing, heâs sweet but fĂşcks so MEAN, mentions of Higuruma, pet names, swearing.
Word count. 5.8k (wild)
A/N. Decided it was high time I feed my Nanami girlies hehe.
âJust get the money and go.â Nanami deadpans, like a mantra. Giving a rapt knock on your apartment door, âI swear mâmaking him buy me lunch for this.â
Now, it wasnât that Nanami was exactly upset about taking over Higurumaâs landlord duties for the day - no, in fact, he was the first one at his friendâs door with a bag of prescription medicine for the other manâs fever and the suggestion to take the day off.
But it was the thought of finally coming face-to-face with you - that mysterious new tenant thatâd just moved into his building. The one that had Nanami wondering whether you were really as âsugary sweet nâ irresistibleâ as Higuruma raved you were.Â
Though, he canât imagine youâd be particularly happy about being woken up at 10am on a Sunday for overdue rent - he certainly wasnât.
Seriously, he had no idea how Higuruma managed to do this every-
Click!
âHigu- youâre not Higuruma.â
Oh, and suddenly, Nanami gets it.
If he got to see this view, too, then he might just become the landlord himself.
Itâs as if you knew youâd be playing with his sanity as soon as you opened that door, dressed in a fitted t-shirt that did absolutely everything to show off every bit of skin he shouldnât be looking at. Your lips curving into a sinful little smirk when you notice his eyes dancing off that excuse of fabric you call âshortsâ.
âUmâŚâ you hum, after a few moments of silence. Leaning against your wooden door frame to give the tall man an appreciative one-over, âNanami, right? Youâre Higurumaâs friend?â
Itâs as if the sound of his own name jolts Nanami right back into his senses, clearing his throat as he readjusts his glasses. âY-yes. Nanami Kento.â And he winces, fuck heâs never stuttered like this. Never, even in the toughest of board meetings. Yet, here he was - making a fool out of himself.Â
Knowing heâs completely fucked when your delicious grin only widens, he bows politely, âApologies for barging in like this, maâam. But Higurumaâs sick nâ mâhere to collect the rent in his place.â
You wave off his formality, introducing yourself. âAh, of course. Iâve seen you around, always been too nervous to come up and say hello, though.â
And, suddenly, Nanamiâs glad you never came up to him to talk out of your own volition, he thinks heâs rather put off embarrassing himself for later. Coughing softly, âI apologize, sâmy fault. It was rude of me to not introduce myself first.â
âWell, better late than never, right?â you continue in your smooth tone. Before your eyes catch down his broad shoulders, the bob of his Adamâs apple, the clipboard held between his long, long fingers. âRight- the overdue rent. I swear, Higurumaâs always such a sweetheart, he doesnât bother to remind me.â Opening your door wider to give Nanami a good look inside your cozy apartment - something forbidden. âCome in come in, I seem to have lost my wallet somewhere in here though, maybe you can help me find it.â
Oh?Â
And Nanami knows this is dangerous. He knows this is much more than his simple plan earlier of just âget the money and goâ. He knows that little glint in your eye certainly does not bode well for him as soon as he steps through that door.Â
Yet, he answers anyway, âOf course, lead the way.â
Every bit of small talk in your sultry voice has Nanami gulping, loosening his favorite yellow tie while he follows you inside. Averting his eyes from the curve of your shorts, he takes in the neat state of your apartment.Â
That is, until-
âHere we are.â you lead him to a towering pile of clothes piled unceremoniously on your tv room couch. Gesturing airily at the mess, âIâm sure I left my wallet in one of my pants, so you can just sit here until I-â
âIâll do it.â Nanamiâs quick answer stuns the both of you momentarily. But before you can resist, heâs shrugging off his jacket, ignoring the heat of your gaze when he bunches up his sleeves to reveal strong, veined forearms. âItâs only fair, since mâbothering you so early.â
You chuckle, âOh? What a gentleman, we can do it together then, handsome.â
So here he was - sat on your cramped couch, your thighs flush against his, tackling your laundry. This was definitely a far cry from getting the rent and leaving - but, alas, Nanami canât find it in himself to complain when he neatly folds up your clothes.��
Whereas you were hastily throwing them god-knows-where, hissing, âWhere- is it-âÂ
âPatience.â heâs humming, placing another t-shirt on your coffee table. âHigurumaâs in no hurry, he can barely get out of bed right now.â
You click your tongue in frustration, âBut you, Nanami-â
â-are perfectly fine helping you out.â Nanami cuts in, flashing you a gentle smile. Your eyes widen at the sight of a soft dimple at the corner of it. Which makes him tear his gaze from that pretty pout on your lips to turn back to his dwindling half of the pile, âBesides, it would be a shame if such a nice apartment was messed up by- by-â
Fuck.Â
Was that what he thought it was?
His fingers tremble, looking so fucking big wrapped around that those tiny strings of hot pink. Sinful. Obscene. Shit, if he tried he could just rip it to pieces with his bare hands right now - even if youâd been wearing it.
âHm?â youâre gasping at the sight of the man before you, body stiff, ears a guilty red, gaze hardening at where he was holding onto one of your panties. Oh, shit. You pluck the offending piece of material from his hands, âOh- whoops. Um- that canât really be folded.â Throwing a wink at the flustered man - and the lingerie right back at him. âEvidently.â
It was all too much for Nanami, and heâs bringing a hand up to cover his blush - before ripping it off like it burned when he realized it was the same hand he held your panties with.Â
Somehow, he manages to choke out, âMaybe- maybe we should try looking somewhere else.â
And it was true - the few messy clothes now leftover (andâŚNanami couldnât forget, your underwear) didnât show any signs of hiding your wallet.Â
âIf you say so~â you muse, getting up from your seat - only to get down on your knees. Right in front of Nanamiâs manspread legs.Â
âWh-what are you-â
âUnder the couch.â you interrupt, enjoying this way too fucking much for the poor manâs sanity as you flash him a cheeky grin. And he smacks himself mentally for letting his imagination be toyed by your teasing whims. âI mightâve dropped it under the couch, so wonât you be a dear and help lift it while I look?â
He couldnât get up fast enough, almost stumbling over his long legs to crouch down beside you - just anywhere away from this scandalous position. âReady?â Nanami rasps, biceps bulging tight against his button-up when he easily tilts over your couch.Â
âMore than.â you take a second longer to admire him before going back to your mission.
Which - whateverâs left of the rational part of Nanamiâs brain really thinks might just be to drive him insane instead finding that fucking- what was it- wallet?Â
âHmmm seems itâs not here either, right, Ken?â He doesnât know what heâs reeling at more - the fact that you used his first fucking name or the way you were arched so teasingly like that. On your knees, spine curving into a delicious little bend that has the crotch of his pants growing just a bit tighter. And- shit he was wrong. So, so wrong. Because those werenât a sinful pair of shorts like heâd initially thought after all, instead, they were more like underwear. Flimsy and thin, bunching up perfectly at the crease of your hips.Â
You were captivating.Â
At his heavy silence, you bat your lashes so deceivingly innocently, âOh? Was it the name? Sorry, Nanami, youâve just helped me so much that it ah- slipped out. I wonât do it again.â
âNo.â he grits out, the both of you surprised by the ragged hitch in his answer. Already so disgustingly missing the sound of his first name rolling off your tongue. âIâd like it if you called me that- âKenâ that is, if you want.â
âWell then, Ken.â you brush up unnecessarily against his sculpted body as you move to get up and dust yourself down. âI donât know if youâve noticed, but my walletâs not down there.â
Shit, he thinks, looking down at the empty spot of carpeted floor for the first time. You little tease, you knew what you were doing.Â
Grinning unabashedly as you tug on his arm, âCome on! Thereâs one more place to look.â
As you pulled him along to the kitchen, Nanami had held out the hope that maybe - just maybe - this would be an actual attempt at finally paying off your overdue rent. Maybe he could walk out of this unscathed and holding onto whateverâs left of his dignity (and lacking the raging boner that was threatening against his slacks right now).
But every feeble hope of that was thrown out the window the moment you instructed him to hold the rickety, certainly unsafe chair propped up in front of your counter steady.Â
âI swear I mustâve left it somewhere up there.â you grumble. Not wasting a moment before climbing onto it and rifling on top of your high cabinets. âNo harm in trying, right?â
He gulps, palms getting sweaty on the wooden back of the chair with the effort to keep it still. âAre you sure you left it on top of there?â
âHuh? Yes yes, of course.â you answer absentmindedly. Your shirt snagging on your arms as you raise them even higher, âThink you can see something from down there?â
If Nanami could see the top of your shelves, then he didnât want to find out - not when one glance upwards blessed him with a forbidden glimpse right up your t-shirt. All it took was a flash of skin before he was hit with the realization that you werenât wearing a bra.Â
âKen~â
âFuck!â he breathes, when he looks up involuntarily at the sound of his name. Face burning when you raise a brow, âU-um, mânot sure.âÂ
Yeah, he sure could see something - hell, he wanted to see more.Â
He urgently swipes at the sweat slowly beading at his forehead, immediately regretting his actions when the chair tips ever-so-slightly. âShit, I apologize, nâ I also apologize for what Iâm about to do-â He gasps over your soft yelp, before wrapping two warm hands around the small of your waist. Searing. Soft. Planting you softly on the firm floor like some lilâ ragdoll, â-but I canât let you put yourself in danger this way.â
Before you know it, youâre back in the safety of the ground. Stood right in front of a determined Nanami as he cranes his head up in your stuffy kitchen, backed up against the counter as he takes over looking for your wallet.Â
âLet me, instead.â he grunts.Â
But oh even with how genius he thought it was to look instead - even with how he stopped himself from looking at that sinful little slice of heaven - Nanami Kento had another problem.Â
A problem that presented itself in the way that your body was pressed flush against his muscled chest, two of your thighs straddling his thick ones. Caged perfectly against him, exactly in the way he shouldnât have been imagining - but did, anyway. And shit if he angled his body just right he could feel the heat of your core - the way your eager front was drawing in closer.Â
âAh-â he grunts when your soft palm glides lightly across his pecs. Jaw clenching while he tries to blink his hazy eyes back into the glaringly empty top of your cabinets, âMy apologies, seems uh- your wallet isnât- here-âÂ
Each word is wrenching out of his pretty, worry-bitten lips, a ragged gasp with every accidental brush of the pads of your fingers at the hem of his tight pants.Â
âIt isnât there, hm?â you purr, a low honeyed tone that has all the blood in Nanamiâs body rushing to his fat cock. âWell what do you suppose we do about that, Ken? Since I canât pay the rent?â
Nanami doesnât know whether youâre talking about the rent or that massive tent in his pants he really couldnât explain away. Instead, he spits, âYou knew what you were hah- doing, didnât you, you lilâ minx? You donât have your fuckinâ wallet here.â
And the air is so thick, so heady that he can only bring himself to pull away mere millimeters from where he was hovering near your face.Â
But even that was too much - and in a split-second, you have your deft fingers wrapped tightly around his speckled tie. âAnd if I did?â Pulling close enough to ghost your lips against his, âYouâre smart, Ken. So mâasking once again, what do you suppose we do about that?â
As if to draw out the answer from him, youâre giving a long, hard drag of your hot cunt along the outline of his swollen cock. You could almost feel every throb and nudge of his veins along the side, and it made you salivate.
âI supposeâŚâ he answers, guttural, like some dark, primal part of himself is peaking its head out with each hot breath fanning your face. A large hand coming up to squish your cheeks into a pretty pout, pursing your lips perfectly for him. âThat you hit me if you donât like this, darling.â
And fuck for all how much of a gentleman Nanami acted - he kissed the exact opposite. All but ruining your lips in such a messy clash of teeth and tongue and him. Devouring you.Â
âFuck- shoulda known.â heâs letting out a humorless laugh, swiping his tongue across your glossy lower lips. âShouldâve known when you invited me in. Such a tease.â Drinking in your breathless moans, sucking on your tongue, âSuch a- ngh- horny lilâ thing. This what you wanted all along?â
You hum into the kiss so drunk, âMaybe.â Dancing your hands all across where his toned muscles were fighting against the restraints of his shirt, âBut you really canât blame me.â
And maybe it was true - maybe this was inevitable. Either way, Nanami didnât know, nor did he really care - not when you were letting out such sweet gasps when he bites down on your bottom lip - just a little punishment. Kissing his way down your heated skin, giving a languid lick at where he suspected that secret sensitive spot on your neck would be.Â
âOh! Ken.â you moan. Bingo.Â
Heâs unbuttoned his shirt now - or maybe it was you. Fuck, either way you couldnât tear your eyes off of his pretty washboard abs. Curving and dipping like he was sculpted meticulously.Â
And thatâs all it takes for your already-dripping cunt to grow impossibly wetter, and he could feel it leaking through those flimsy cotton shorts of yours. Forming a messy sheen right at that damp spot of precum on his pants.
âYouâre so fuckinâ wet, my love.â Nanami murmurs, swiping a thumb down that sopping wet slit of yours through your shorts. Just marveling at the way that simple touch makes another wave of your sweet sweet juices bead through the fabric. âHah, absolutely dripping. This all fâme?â
At your half-delirious nod, he flashes you a smile so handsome that it only makes you squirm more impatiently. âHow sweet.â Giving your nose a chaste peck, âSo good to me. So needy.â
��Youâre the same, though.â you accuse, hotly.
And itâs true - Nanami couldnât deny the aching need of his cock, the way he all but moans in response, âThen tell me- hngh tell me what you want. Iâll give you- anything-â Managing to get out through hot, sloppy kisses planted right on your wobbly lips, â-anything.â
But, ah, you always did manage to surprise him. And instead of an answer, youâre getting right down on your knees in front of him like you did not too long ago - though, this time, youâre reaching up to fumble with his belt.Â
âWanâ taste you.â you huff when his expensive notches prove too stubborn. âWanâ feel you in my mouth so bad, Ken.âÂ
âOh yeah?â he chuckles darkly, easily loosening his belt and his pants along with it. Rock-hard cock sensitive and just smearing a pool of precum where his fat head springs up to hit your lips. Such a pretty shade of gloss. Nanami laces his hand on your scalp to guide you forwards, slowly, âThen take it. Take it fâme, pretty.â
He was so pretty that you possibly couldnât not - a delicate blushing red at his very tip, glistening and absolutely soaked in precum down the long path to his creamy base, his heavy balls. So girthy that it made your cunt clench in anticipation.
And then thereâs no more talking. Hell, you barely get enough time to admire Nanamiâs massive cock before heâs bullying it between your lips. Wetting his thick, angry tip with your saliva, just enough to eye down at the way your lips bulge so prettily around him.Â
âGonna hafta open w-wider if you wanna take me, pretty. Open hah- yeah jusâ like that.â Heâs reeling your head back, all the way till you were just kissing at his thick, angry tip. âNow spit on it, my love.â
Despite being the one to say it, Nanamiâs mouth drops into a fucked-out little oh! of disbelief when youâre readily decorating his swollen length with a steady stream of spit. Your soft palms smearing the saliva along his length.Â
Youâre slurring, âAfter all, I still havenât found my wallet, right?â
And oh he doesnât even have to ask for what comes next - doesnât even have to make a noise.Â
Immediately, you take him in inch by fucking inch. The deliciously salty twang taking over your senses, and heâs so hot and heavy over your tongue. Veins pulsing in a dizzyingly throb! throb! throb! against the roof of your mouth.
âAre you- are you sure you can-â You shut up his doubts by rubbing your hot tongue along every sensitive ridge you could reach. Bobbing your head at a quick, ruthless little pace to milk his pretty cock for all heâs worth.Â
Nanamiâs eyes roll to the back of his head. Was this what heaven felt like?Â
âF-fuuuck, oh you-â his words are catching in his throat with each flick of the tip of your tongue against his sensitive slit. Just the way he liked it. â-ngh guess that sharp mouth of yours wasnât just hah- good for teasing, huh?â
Heâs running his mouth a mile a minute - the complete opposite of the reserved man thatâd come knocking on your door. Hips grinding up into your warm tongue mindlessly, slow. Languid - like he didnât even realize what he was doing. âOh you feel so heavenly- so fuckinâ good it should be illegal.â
You canât help but bat your teary eyes up at him in response, blinking away the lustful haze to drink in that utterly obscene sight above you. Nanamiâs neat, blond hair uncharacteristically disheveled, stray strands sticking to his furrowed brow. Only deepening with each wrecked sigh that leaves his plump lips every time his abs flex with the movement of his fat head hitting the gummy back of your throat.Â
He looks so pretty it makes you moan.Â
Those electric vibrations going all the way down that wet divot on the tip of Nanamiâs painfully hard cock to his heavy balls.Â
âOh shit- shit shit shit feels too good.â his words are slurring together, drunk off the way you gag around him. âDonât do that donât-â This only makes you drag your sloppy mouth down him deeper, syrupy moans sticking to
him all the while.Â
âFuck!â Nanami shudders. And heâs pulling you down - hard - barely letting you get a feverish little breath out until your nose is hitting the neat patch of blond at his base. Rubbing up against his toned pelvis.Â
Still moving in deep, relentless thrusts inside your gummy cavern. âSâreal fuckinâ hard to treat you as nice as I want when you act like that, my love.â
And, of course, the only response he gets are your pathetic, wet gurgles as you take him in faster. Cheeks hollowing to massaging his every sweet spot. Your jaw grinding against his twitching balls with each smack of his hypnotized hips against your mouth, fucking into you the way he wished he could do with your cunt. Frenzied. Sloppy.Â
Yeah, this was heaven alright - but you were the fuckinâ devil.Â
Of course, you wanted him to treat you like such a slut - so he does.Â
Just dragging your stubborn mouth off of his twitching cock, Nanami only reaches down to place an accomplished peck on the pout of your mouth before hoisting you onto the counter. âWhat? You think Iâd really ngh- cum before my darling girl?â
Heâs groaning into your mouth, licking at the seam of your candied lips as two strong arms of his spread your legs so far apart it burned. âF-fuck, Ken-â
âAw look. Youâve got another slutty pair, huh?â he gestures down at the drenched scrap of fabric you so proudly called âpanties.â Sliding a thumb underneath to glide it underneath your puffy pussy lips. Heâs echoing your sentiment from before, âSaid you canât find your hah- wallet, right?â Well, ya better start makinâ up for that now.â
In all of two seconds, Nanamiâs hooking two fingers over your underwear - pulling - ripping. He was right -Â Nanami takes a moment to admire your dripping cunt, glistening and needy for him - he could rip those panties right off of you.Â
With just one hand pinning you to the cool marble of your counter, the other thumbing open your puffy folds, heâs giving all of your pussy a hot, open-mouthed kiss.Â
âMmm fuck-â he spits into your sloppy hole. Once. Twice. Letting it form a saturated little pool of your juices, before surging back nose-deep with a pained grunt. Again. And again. And again and again- âJusâ as sweet- as sugary sweet ngh-â
Nanami didnât think Higuruma knew about this little treasure trove when describing you - though, if he did, then he was well and fully intent on tongue-fucking every little thought out of him right now.Â
âHngh! Shit-â youâre keening when his greedy tongue laps up every bit of your syrupy sweet slick. Alternating - methodically, indecisively - between rolling over your throbbing clit and just dipping into your awaiting entrance. âIt feels so- so good, Ken.â
âYeah thatâs right.â he gasps, wrapping those pretty pink lips of his to suck on your clit. Harsh. âSay my name- no, louder. Louder.âÂ
Itâs all you can do to not just scream out his name without your neighbors filing a noise complaint. Dragging your sopping pussy all over his mouth - glistening and obscene right down the bottom half of his face all the way up to smear against his clear glasses.Â
Such obscene squelches ring through your kitchen as Nanami keeps making out so messily with your sensitive nub. Ringing in your fucked-out brain, so obscene, so addictive that you barely even register the thick fingers dipping their way around your hole.Â
You jolt when the cool metal of his glasses kiss your skin, âO-oh Ken what-âÂ
âShhh shhh, darling.â he soothes. The tip of his manicured index circling around your elastic muscle. Hypnotic. âMâgonna take care of you. Gonna take such good-â With this, heâs bullying his fingers inside, â-care of you.â
Tears crinkle at the corners of your eyes at the sheer stimulation. Because for how sweet Nanami was talking you through this, he was absolutely ruthless on your cunt. Not half the man he was this morning - animalistic. Feral, even.
His sharp jaw grinding against your skin, fingers almost a blur with how depraved they were pumping in and out of you. Massaging every hidden corner of your plushy walls, yet you get the feeling that they were calculated. Nanamiâs darkened eyes drinking in every whimper and twitch of your body over the glasses inching dangerously downwards. Searching, waiting for that one-
âNgh!â You worry youâd have fallen off the counter if it wasnât for Nanami holding you down. Body jolting at sudden electricity running through your veins, âOh- fuck fuck fuck. Oh my god Ken, there. Right thereââ
But before the sentence has even left your heavy lips, heâs hitting your g-spot once more. Easily finding the bullseye that has you bucking and arching into his mouth like such a slut.Â
And this time - Nanami lets you use his mouth all you want. The fingers splayed out to pin you down moves to toy with your puffy clit. Rolling between his fingers while he hisses out syrupy sweet praises, âShit, never liked mâname that much- ngh- but it sounds so pretty on your lips. So sweet. So- oh-âÂ
The sight of your cunt just beading with need has him kissing it once more. All over your sensitive nub, your ravaged hole, hell, even down to the mess of slick dripping down at your thighs. Faster. Sloppier. No rhythm or rhyme anymore.Â
âMâso close.â you whine, weaving your fingers through his blond hair to help ride his face easier. Jolting with each purposeful flick of his tongue. âGonna cum, Ken.â
âCum then.â he answers, simply, grinning a guiltily glossy grin, âYouâve got a lot to make up for, right?â
And then you do - stars behind your eyes and that little nickname youâd made Nanami in your mouth. Over and over while he tonguefucks you through your high.Â
âFuck- fuck fuck fuckââ you whine, big fat tears rolling down your cheeks eat time he swiped at your sensitive spots, dragging it out longer. Until your soft whimpers were drowning out the squelches from below. Until you were blinking your spotty vision back. Until you were squirming your hips higher up the counter to pull away from Nanamiâs unforgiving tactics. âMâtoo sensitive- Nana-â
He tuts, interrupting your orgasm-drunk babbles, âThaâs not what you call me.â Pulling away just enough to hum, âAll I did was eat this pretty cunt out, darling nâ you already forgot my name?â
You shiver - both at his mean little tone and the absolutely sinful sight between your shaky thighs. Nanamiâs lips plump and irritated, eyes foggy - glasses even more so with all the sloppy dredges of spit and your slick.
Shit, you think heâs never looked prettier.Â
âIs that so?â
Itâs all you hear before youâre hit with his glasses being gently placed onto your nose bridge - followed shortly by the realization that oh, you said that out loud. But Nanami basks in your sudden shyness, giving your lips a chaste, lingering peck. âYou dirtied my glasses, yâknow. Now you have to make up for that on top of the rent.â
And by the feeling of his thick tip kissing at your pussy lips, you had a very good idea about how youâd be making up for it. Making a mess. Sliding the curve of his head up and down. Up and down up and down up and-
âB-but donât forget.â you manage to grit out by the time heâs nudging his divot against your clit. âYou have to make- hah- make up for-âÂ
In a fluid motion, youâre reaching your fingers to dig into the irresistible tan skin at his hips, all hard muscle and the thick fabric of where heâd pulled his pants down just enough. You press down on his bulging back pocket, smirk growing at the familiar flash of hot pink you could spy, â-my panties.â
The moment the obscene little accusation leaves your lips, you give a soft tug forwards. Nanamiâs towering body being pulled easily to push his weeping tip past your puffy folds.Â
âF-fuck.â heâs throwing his head back at the feeling. âYou hngh- saw, huh?â
Oh, if he hadnât been imagining this the moment heâd stepped inside your apartment then Nanami thinks he mightâve just passed out right then and there.Â
Because you were so warm, so addictive wrapped around his cock - even when heâs barely even in. That he just has to keep going - after all, itâs for the rent, right?
Itâs what he likes to think.
Itâs what he whispers - over and over into your open mouth as he bullies his thick cock past your gummy entrance. Letting your plush walls suck the ever-loving soul out of him with each lazy, lingering grind just to fit himself inside.Â
âO-oh! Shit-â your nails leave jagged red marks down Nanamiâs broad shoulders when he stuffs you full. Desperate. âY-youâre so big, KenââÂ
At this, you feel Nanamiâs girth grow even wider, stretching your walls until it felt like he was molding your poor pussy to the shape. Just reaching into your lungs. You squeal, âWait- you got bigger- what-â
âI know I know, You got it, my love.â heâs soothing your cries with sugary kisses at the corners of your mouth. Drawing slow, methodical circles on your clit in time with his experimental thrusts. âYou got it. You can take it. Shhh shh-â Heâs drinking in your cute mewls, cupping your pretty face with his free hand, âYouâll take it right? All of it, like my good girl? Youâve gotta make up for it, right?â At your delirious nod, âWords, pretty.â
âYes, please.â You buck your hips in a sultry tandem matching his, the cool frame of his glasses still kissing at your skin. âMâgonna take it all like your good girl, Ken.â
Shit, he can feel himself growing even bigger just halfway into you, âThen-â Angling your teary face down to watch the mess down below. The way your greedy cunt was trying to milk each and every inch of him like it was delicious. â-look.â
You canât tear your eyes away as he delves into you so filthy.Â
Not waiting for your pathetic whines about him being âtoo bigâ - no, Nanamiâs only pulling you back from escaping like some sextoy - his favorite one. Still toying sweetly with your clit while he pushes against that feeble ring of resistance. Once. Twice. Thrice.Â
âKen!â youâre yelping out when he finally bottoms out. Your swollen folds meeting his drenched hilt, blond tufts of hair brushing up against your pelvis. Sighing, âFinally.â
âFinally?â heâs dragging out his words with an already-crooked, pussydrunk grin. Eyes wild - bewildered almost at how well you were taking him. âS-seriously? Did you say ngh- âfinallyâ, my girl?â Each word has him tapping more strength behind those thrusts, faster. Harder. Spitting out so contendly, âFinally- hah. Such a slut fâme, hm?â
Heâs plunging into you like such an animal right now, so harsh that it was almost difficult to pull back. To dare subject himself to not be buried inside your dripping cunt for even a split-second.Â
In response, you lick a long stripe up the sensitive area of his neck, splaying out a hand to squeeze Nanamiâs pec - and the rapid heartbeat you felt beneath it. âYouâre not- ngh- any better.â
âI know.â Nanami leers, unabashedly kneading at your sore tits now. Fucking you harder and harder into the counter. Connecting his sweaty forehead with yours to look you right in the eyes as he gruffs, âIâve been thinking about fucking this pretty cunt as soon as you opened that door, yâknow.â
You feel his cock twitch wildly at the confession, dragging against your gummy walls with his tip. Hitting - oh-so-expertly - that one sensitive honeypot of nerves. Which makes Nanamiâs mouth fall slack with what a treasure you were.Â
âY-youâre such a-â youâre moans are syrupy and slurring together now. Holding onto the larger man for dear life, âsuch a pervert, Ken.â
Shit, you were squeezing around him so hard that it was almost impossible to pull out. Abs straining to keep up the loud staccato of skin-against-skin, and Nanamiâs long, jagged rams inside your wet heaven.
Nanamiâs nosing down your pulse, letting his hot tongue loll out to catch the salty drops of your tears, âMhm, only for hngh- you. Because youâre my girl now, arenât ya?â
So easy for him to trawl out those addictive moans with each drag of the upwards curve of his fat cock. Thick tip hitting your g-spot, your cervix - as if he was branding his name into your pretty pussy from the inside. Sloppy.Â
Leaving a bruising little Kento. With his erratic fingers pinching and rolling your clit at the same feverish tempo of his cock bullying inside your cunt - Kento. With his heavy balls smacking against your ass, sending jolts of white-hot pleasure all the way up to his sensitive slit, rubbing up against your succubus walls - Kento. With the way your heels were now digging into those dimples at the bottom of his spine, sure to leave marks with the way you were pulling him impossibly closer. So needy - Kento.
Only getting sloppier. The only thing in your mind right now - Kento Kento Kento-
So, really, it makes sense when thatâs the only thing youâre capable of getting out once you cum. It sneaks up on you at first, and then all at once - and before you know it, youâre cumming so desperately all over Nanamiâs relentless cock.Â
Over and over.
Your thighs spasming, such a slutty ah! ah! ah! leaving your mouth with each wave of pleasure heâs forcing out of you by targeting your ravaged g-spot. Only a few more of those sloppy, mean thrusts left in the man himself before Nanamiâs spilling into your greedy cunt.Â
Painting your gummy walls white with each painful squeeze of his balls, heâs still thrusting - as if on instinct. Shoving his seed deeper and deeper down your cum-filled hole until heâs sure itâs overfilled.Â
By god were you a vision, heâs thinking deliriously. Tears pooling at your eyes, drool dripping down the corner of your mouth, throat to shoot to do anything but whimper when he keeps going in and out in and out in and-
And if he angled his head just right, he could see the hot globs of cum that take to trickling out from your puffy folds, pooling at a mouthwateringly creamy base around his hilt.
âAh,â Nanami wastes no time squeezing his index into your already-bulging entrance, pumping the cum slobbering out back in. âBetter- hah- better not waste any-â He could barely speak right now, cumming harder than he has in his whole life - in fact, his overworked cock was still shooting out wispy spurts of his seed. Like he couldnât stop. â-after all, yâhavenât made up for all the overdue rent yet, my love.â
A/N. Concept inspired by this NSFW audio by IchigekiVA that my friend sent me <3
Plagiarism of work not authorized.
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Museâs Life Experiences
Bold what applies, italicise what applies sometimes.
Killed Someone Under Orders | Had Someone Killed On Their Orders | Killed Someone In Self Defence | Spared Someoneâs Life |Invented Something | Been Hungover | Kissed Someone | Slow-Danced | Been In A Long-Term Relationship | Had Sex | Had Sex And Regretted It | Had A One-Night Stand | Had A Threesome | Experimented With Their Sexuality | Had A Kid | Adopted A Kid | Wanted To Have A Family With Someone| Done Something On Impulse They Regretted | Gone Traveling | Had A Bounty Put On Them | Eaten An Insect | Been Groped By A Stranger | Been Groped By Someone They Know | Been Dumped | Dumped Someone | Smoked | Gotten High | Flirted With Someone To Get Free Drinks | Put Someone In A Headlock | Won A Bet | Lost A Bet | Forgiven Someone Who Wronged Them | Indulged In Petty Revenge | Hallucinated | Has A Noticeable Physical Defect | Gotten A Noticeable Scar | Been Permanently Disfigured Through Injury | Kneed Someone In The Groin | Had An Unattainable Crush | Laughed Themselves To The Point Of Tears | Been Kidnapped | Been Brainwashed/Hypnotised | Had A Recurring Nightmare | Been Bullied | Bullied Someone | Experienced Survivorâs Guilt | Been Tied/Chained Up | Given Someone A Massage | Received A Massage | Been Backed Up Against A Wall | Shot Someone | Stabbed Someone | Saved Someoneâs Life | Cheated On Someone | Been Cheated On | Been In An Open Relationship | Had A Friendship With Benefits | Been In A Queerplatonic Relationship | Had A Stalker | Been Betrayed | Been A Traitor | Been Possessed | Been In A Bar Fight | Been Thrown Out Of A Bar | Been Arrested | Broken Out Of Jail | Been To A Funeral | Been To A Brothel | Had Surgery | Broken Someoneâs Trust | Broken Someoneâs Heart| Had Their Heart Broken | Broken/Damaged Something Out Of Anger | Broken/Damaged Something Out Of Spite | Gotten A Piercing | Gotten A Tattoo | Used A Fake Name | Been Beaten Up | Been Tortured/Tortured Others | Been Abused | Been Blackmailed | Gotten Away With A Crime | Framed Someone Else For A Crime They Committed | Shared A Bed Platonically | Been In Love | Suffered From Sleep Paralysis | Been Forced To Flee Their Home | Learned A New Language | Joined A Rebellion | Fought On The Losing Side Of A War | Fought On The Winning Side Of A War | Become A Godparent | Become An Aunt/Uncle
{for post-reanimation Adam, so doesn't include the things that only happened when he was human}
#headcanon meme#[the 'brainwashing' one is difficult]#[because he would tell you no]#[but uh... Victor pretty definitely smacks him down when he's brokenly asking questions about his past life]#[even if with the way Adam talks about it now]#[it's very unlikely anyone will ever call him out on that]#[and modern mainverse Adam would just defend Victor if you did]
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will never forget the time the school counselor told me that maybe my ex friend couldnt accept me being trans because he was in love with me. or the time he gave my number to his ex and asked her to text me and she informed me that he spent the entire year since i last spoke to him talking about how great i was. actually fascinating. same guy who exploded when anyone even dared to imply he wasnt straight
#ramblings#i KNOW he viewed me as a woman but ultimately#him being SO adamant about being straight. and then being in love with me (transmasc) is so much funnier#to this day idk if he was actually in love with me but jesus christ the way the ex told me he talked about me. boy.#funniest conversation i ever had btw.#'he just wouldnt shut up about you even while we were dating he thought you were so amazing'#my aro ass realizing he mightve actually been in love with me#not unblocking him was the hardest thing i ever did because it was so tempting. just out of curiosity#personal#like no i dont pass but i was. already. acting really masc at the time. to compensate for not passing#which i grew past btw. reached my natural state of fem gay after all this time in the end#but it was so funny#absolute nightmare teenager. i need to study him under a microscope. jesus christ hes a legal adult now too
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alottt of transmascs seem 2 think tyhat vocal training is somehow superr hard n super difficult, but its rlly not! i think part of this is in part because of voice instructional videos, half of them are people spouting bullshit or not being descriptive enough, and the other half (by vocal coaches) are loaded with technical termonology witch is missmatched between them, making it very difficult to tell what part of the body they are talking abt just to preface, you probably will not have an extrordinarily deep voice, but you can absolutely get a passing male voice even if you have a super high pitched voice! vocal gender is not determined only by how deep your voice is, you can have a high pitched male voice and a low pitched female voice to give you an example of how much change you can expect, here is my voice, ive been doing vocal training for about 3 years now.
there isnt actually a massive difference in terms of the depth, but there is a noticable difference in terms of masculinity i sound a little bit uncomfortable in the normal voice example, this is because i pretty much never use my natural voice, so its not my "default" voice anymore you will not lose your normal voice as you do vocal training, you simply will get better at controling your mouth and throat muscles to make it deeper, so if you are closeted you can still do vocal training while maintaining your higher pitch voice, its a matter of building up a muscle memory, after a while it becomes automatic the examples were taken like, a minute from eachother, its just moving your mouth in the right way you can also see i have a bit of a thicker accent while doing my vocal training voice, this is because pronouncing words very clearly and distinctly while also making your voice deeper is very difficult & something i am still working on note that this is still good to do and to work on even if you plan on going on T !! unless you have been on puberty blockers or started hrt very very early (at puberty age) then HRT will not be perfect and is not identical to the effects of stereotypical amab puberty, this isnt to say that it wont help, but the differences in larynx height that you will naturally get are not the same intensity as what generally happens in male puberty. this means you will have a higher then average male voice, as well as transmasc voices absent of vocal training generally sound more buzzy and nasaly here is an example, given by a dear friend of mine who would prefer to be unnamed
this isnt to dunk on anybody who has this kind of voice, i personally like it, but it is clockable if you know what to look for, witch could be unsafe depending on where you live to start : anatomy you are not a guitar, youre more like a bottle. to speak you blow air through your windpipe, and depending on the width of your tube/windpipe you will have a lower/ higher pitched sound, your vocal cords/voicebox are a fold in that tube, witch can open and close to constrict or widen your tube thin tube = higher pitched wide tube = lower pitched within stereotypical male puberty, these folds thicken, making them close less easily then thinner folds, making the voice deeper the opening/closing of the folds is sometimes called the "glottal cycle" and thick folds are are sometimes refered to as having a "high closed quotient" having thicker vocal folds is something only achivable through testosterone, but you can get a deeper voice by making your tube bigger, sometimes refered to as "lowering your larynx", a lower larynx results in an adams apple, and you can use how much of an adams apple you have during training as a phisical reference point
beside your tube, you have a set of strap muscles, these you can move, its by controlling these that you can hold your tube open. you cannot move your windpipe itself, only the strap muscles
to find your strap muscles, you can do a small excersize - in a relaxed position and your mouth open, place your hand underneath your collarbone to one side firmly, pinning the skin down - tilt your head backwards and close your mouth - hold for a few secconds, then close your mouth and tilt your head back to a normal position - repeat on other side you should be able to feel a pulling in the strap muscle on eather side, generally one is tigher then the other. doing this excersise can help you make them a lil more flexable, witch helps you maintain your deep voice when you move your head around making your voice deeper / lowering the larynx :
on an anatomical level, you are going to control your strap muscles to tug your windpipe downwards, creating more space and a deeper sound you can feel this in your mouth, use your toungue to feel the bottom of your mouth, this bottom part of your mouth is what you wanna try to make bigger, kindof like a frog
people sometimes refer to this as speaking with a yawn, or liken it to trying to eat something large like a snowglobe, but this is a ultimately harmful way of thinking about it, and generally leads to people moving their larynx and mouth in a way that is straining, not very helpful for making your voice deeper, and also kindof slimey sounding you should not feel pressure in the back of your throat or the top of your mouth, you should only feel the pulling of your strap muscles and the expanding of the bottom portion of your mouth. below your toungue if you place your hand where your adams apple would be, you should be able to feel it bulge and tense up when you do this
you can do vocal slides in order to practice this - drink some water and clear your throat - take a deep breath and, at a volume and pitch that is comfortable and natural for you, open your mouth and go aaaaaa - trying to keep your mouth open the same ammount as you go, try and expand your tube, feeling the bottom of your mouth inflate a little, you can feel your throat to have phisical confermation of if you are doing it correctly - once you have reached the maximum ammount of open that is comfortable for you, try and hold that note as long as you can, being careful not to slide your pitch up if done correctly it should sound something like :
you need to make sure that you are pacing your air properly, you should be able to hold the note at a consistant volume for the length of the slide here is an example of a slide done without properly pacing your air, this is called "vocal fry"
you can help avoid this by doing the slide slower, you dont have to rush getting to the lowest note as fast as possible, try not to stress your vocal cords this slide is very difficult, if you are having trouble, you can modify the excersize if your issue is keeping your volume consistant, or keeping your jaw open the same ammount, you can do the same thing but humming instead
if your issue is pacing your air, and going into vocal fry, you can do the same thing, but you pant like a dog
being louder / vocal weight : vocal weight describes how loud you are / how much air you are pushing through your windpipe, if you find you are too quiet, you can try doing a volume slide
- drink some water and clear your throat - take a deep breath and, at LOW volume open your mouth and go aaaaaa, i would reccomend doing this at your normal pitch - trying to keep your mouth open the same ammount as you go, increase the ammount of air you let through your lungs, getting louder - hold it as loud as you can for as long as you can, and once you run out of air you can stop as with the other slide, you wanna make sure you do this one slowly, and make sure to start the slide at a low volume, this is to help you get more familiar with controlling the ammount of air you let through your windpipe once you get comfortable with that, you should combine that with the previous slide, and try to expand your tube/ lower your larynx as you get louder
maintaining that depth when speaking :
speaking is the same thing as singing, but it involves way more movement of the mouth, and if you dont change your technique a little between speaking and singing it will sound bad try to keep in mind the position of your tongue, while flattening it can help with getting the opening of your tube part down, you dont wanna actually talk like that, try to have your toungue in a natural position just resting against your bottom teeth try not to compress your throat, you shouldnt feel any kind of pressure against your windpipe, you should only feel a pulling in your strap muscles if you notice your voice sounds slimey or nasaly or muffled, youre focusing a little bit too hard on creating good mouth space that youre messing with your throat space
if you sound slimey, make sure you arent flattening your toungue against the bottom of your mouth, and that you arent straining or over exerting yourself, it shouldnt feel painful or tense at the back of your throat or top of your mouth if you have a hard time maintaining your voice while doing things you should stretch your strap muscles using the excersize in the anatomy section, if they arent super flexable then its going to be hard maintaining your voice while tilting your head when you start its gonna be pretty hard, so make sure that you dont overexert yourself or get hyperfixated on having a deep voice 24/7, you dont wanna damage your voice at all not being embarrassed / practical use :
alot of vocal training excersizes sound pretty stupid, but you dont have to do the excersizes exactly how they are shown here when doing my vocal training i generally sing or hum to a song, ideally one with alot of sustained notes and that doesnt require very fast pitch changes if you want a song i like to start with, i like this one by cats millionare, but you can really do whatever song you like as long as it works good for you
while not required having a male vocalist in the song can also help. it helps switch vocal training from a concious effort to a more subconcious thing, because your brain trys to mimic the voice of the people you listen to with speaking around people i used to feel a little embarrassed about using my deeper voice, because it made me feel like im just like. a stupid little boy trying to make my voice deeper to sound cool. but one thing you have to realize about this kind of thought is that its internalized transphobia if speaking in a certain way, even if its unnatural, makes you happier then you should do it, the idea of having a "natural" and "unnatural" voice is a common idea in transphobic retoric, this idea that youre "faking" a voice so you can "trick people" into "thinking that youre a different gender" ultimately, youre doing this to become more happy and comfortable in your voice, and if anybody HAS an issue with that or think that thats stupid, then theyre transphobic, though they probably dont realize it. if you dont like singing or humming, you can also just speak and read things out, there really is no reccomendation i have for this, maybe get on a call with your friends and play a visual novel or something, reading out all the dialougue. having friends while you do this helps, as you can have them remind you when you start losing or slipping up with the deeper voice you dont actually have to make sound to vocal train, you can do it in complete silence, anatomically youre just moving the muscles in your mouth a certain way, and the sound part is done by blowing air through, but the making sound part is just the final step of the excersizes and it is optional. you can vocal train in complete silence at any time i would reccomend doing it with sound to start, but as you get more used to it then you can do it without the sound to practice most importantly for doing it consistantly though is dont make it a chore to do, while the anatomical and technical aspects are important to learn the most important thing is having it be practical for you to do, so find a method to do it regularly that works for you you dont have to like, do it 24/7 or anything, though you will build a habit for it quicker if you do. if you need to switch how deep your voice is around family thats not gonna somehow take away your progress
fankyu 4 reading!! if you have any questions pleaseplease ask them and i will try to respond!! i know theres alot of formatting issues, i tried so hard to fix them but tumblr is just not having it, i dont know why
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mma!bakugo who just so happens to train at the gym that you part-time at on the weekends (front desk stuff, bookkeeping, etc) and has always been a bit scary from afar bc he's got this constant scowl as if he's got a bone to pick with just about anyone and anything who crosses his path, but his coach (also ur boss) assures you that he's a big softie once you get to know him. you tell him in no uncertain terms that you think you're good, thanks.
mma!bakugo who's always the first one in and the last one out on your shifts, who's got shit manners but always holds the door open for you and sometimes you swear you can catch him watching you as you go about cleaning some of the equipment but goes tomato red whenever you catch him in the act and immediately yeets off to work on drills for about half an hour before he'll glance at you again.
mma!bakugo who doesn't know how good he looks when he's wiping sweat from his chin or chugging water from his massive 2-liter water bottle, a trickle of cold water dripping down his chin to run down his neck, his adam's apple bobbing as he gulps down the water, smacking his lips as he wipes his mouth on the back of his bandaged hand; doesn't notice the way that every girl (and a lot of the guys tbh) are staring at him, but he'll glance towards where he saw you last, standing helping a new guy sign up for the gym membership, smiling and laughing, and he knows it's what you're supposed to do but it doesn't stop the way his gut twists or the way he goes way too hard at the punching bag, hard enough for his coach to hike an eyebrow and ask what's gotten into him today? it's not like him to "lose control" like this
mma!bakugo who never calls you by your name where other ppl can hear, always says like "hey sweetcheeks, can you hand me a water?" or "dollface, can you do me a favor?" and you'd always roll your eyes and remind him that "that's not my name, bakugou-kun," even as you're doing whatever thing he asked for anyway.
mma!bakugo who keeps quiet and watches when a guy tries to hit on you (unsuccessfully) bc he knows you can handle yourself, but the moment the guy reaches out to try and put hands on you, he's on his feet, stalking across the gym to shove his way between the pair of you like "oi. she ain't interested." and by now, everyone's gone quiet, their eyes trained on him and the guy and you; the guy sizes bakugou up, puffing out his chest for a second, but the next, he seems to notice the thick cords of muscles braiding down bakugou's arms, the expertly wrapped knuckles on both his hands, and he puts two and two together fast enough to know that this really isn't a fight he should be picking.
so he scoffs and makes as if he weren't ever really that interested anyway, turning around and muttering beneath his breath that you weren't even that pretty to begin with.
"thanks," you say, but bakugo just frowns and cocks his head.
"don't let anyone talk to you like that, got it?" and there's still that signature grit to his voice, the sharpness to his eyes, but something about it is different today -- it's ever so slightly softer than he usually is. he opens his mouth like he's about to say something more but pauses at the last second and turns around, shoulders a little hunched, and you could swear you can see the tips of his ears go red.
mma!bakugo who, after you get him an omamori from a shrine visit that says "certain victory", can only stare down at his, mouth open, a lil speechless, until he looks up to find you blushing just as hard as he is, purses his lips, clears his throat and glances off towards the side, tucking the charm into his training shorts like "thanks. now i've really got no excuse huh."
mma!bakugo who when he wins (as you knew he would), throws up his hand, the charm you gave him clutched in his palm, catches your eye in the crowd, smirks and jerks his head; when you squeeze your way up to the barrier, he boops your nose with a gloved hand before tugging it off with his teeth, letting it drop to the ground, bending down so his eyes are level with yours, his chest still heaving, his skin flushed from the recent fight, there's a cut on his lip and a bruise blossoming high on his right cheek but neither of you seem to care -- all he can see is you.
he tugs on a loose strand of hair, cocks his head, you smile and glance at the omamori clutched in his hand and say, "guess the lucky charm really worked."
mma!bakugo who hikes an eyebrow at your words before his eyes track down to your lips and he sighs, leaning against the soft barriers, not caring that there are just about seven different cameras trained on the pair of you right now, runs a finger down your jawline till he can tip your chin back --
"or..." his voice is just a little hoarse, his normally bright eyes dark, his pupils nearly completely blown out, a total eclipse of the usual ruby red of his gaze --
"maybe my lucky charm is just you."
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