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foundinfantasy · 4 months ago

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TS4 Lovestruck: More

As a proud hater who loves to rant, I'm actually surprised by how ready and excited I am for this new EP. From when it was first leaked all the way up until the livestream, I was convinced it was a glorified GP... and it still is tbh, BUT after the livestream and with EA content flooding my feeds, I'm pleasantly surprised by some aspects of Lovestruck and overflowing with ideas for what I would've wanted and what I would've changed

What I like:

Consequences / Autonomy

New TV stations

Poly and Ace representation

World

Romantic Satisfaction and Dynamics

Cuddling, Feeding Bites, Flowers, Axolotls!

BG Update (Boundaries, Curved Pools, Copy/Paste, Neighborhood Stories, Set Partner in CAS)

What I Dislike:

Dating System

Eyelashes (not being for all ages - this is just weird imo)

Consequences

What's Mid:

Cupid's Corner

Turn Ons / Turn Offs

Drama

Crosspack? [and Occults?]

Build/Buy (but only b/c of below)

Gameplay Items (Bed and Blanket)

Longwinded, ranting opinion below

MY LIKES

All-in-all, it looks like a great pack (ie all the things I like, which has a longer list of likes than the last four EPs) and it feels like the first EP in a while where things will happen TO my sim as a consequence of their actions OR at the whims of other sims around them.

Even though I really like it, it's too themed around YA+ with very little teen integration (which tbf makes sense for a love pack) but first crush/supervised dating could've been great for child+ and of course, there wouldn't be turn ons and turn offs for kids but rather regular (but some new) likes and dislikes of superheroes, princesses, dirt, art, music, or "pick on crush" interaction and "why did I do that" buff, or even having it be completely random for them would've been better than nothing.

If I had to nitpick at my likes: the world could've added a new flower or harvestable, the career could've been semi active and include cuddle therapy and random clients to help [and could work similar to the detective career during "interrogation"], and [dips into what I find mid] the consequences could've added more DRAMA for sims outside of a romantic relationship... meaning: MESSY. I want to give my sim the opportunity to lie on other sims' relationships and cause DRAMA without having to kiss or flirt with the partner sim directly and/or tell the truth about seeing a sim cheat on their partner [similar to Trash Another Sim but with new pop up response] and have this new aspect count towards the Villainous Valentine aspiration.

MY DISLIKES

The update to the dating system is bad. It's not that different from what it was before just more micro-manage like MWS. But also the date activities just seem so vague? Does a Fitness date's goaled activities include throwing the ball around, kicking the ball together, playing basketball, climbing the mountain, going for a jog, etc? Will Food dates give goaled activities to eat at a restaurant or cook together or order in?

And the missing activities imo:

No reading/studying [for my nerd sims?]

No shopping [for my sugar baby sims]?

No laundry [for my lazy multi-tasking sims]?

Also why isn't going to do Pier activities or Boba/Thrift a part of the goal in a date or their own options?

I just don't think out of everything this pack could've included we needed the dating system if it was just going to be the exact same in the end, BUT I will say, I do like that you can extend a date, ask how they're enjoying it, and bail on the date. Plus, with all the autonomy maybe my Sim will get ditched if it's going poorly?

And why can't infants, toddlers, and children get lashes!? Explain!

UPDATE: Lovestruck is just a happiness simulator. It's very easy to keep a relationship "Satisfied" and there's no drama. There's no "argue" menu over text. There's no "suspect cheating" or feeling distant. I went days without seeing my partner and no accountability for that as long as they interacted in their romance style the next time they saw each other. I don't like that if you reject moving in together after the first date they never ask again nor complain about it nor does it create distant. It's just a sentiment and not even for the sim that asked!

THE MID

Cupid's Corner not allowing you to catfish or lie about traits is such a missed opportunity and this combined with the Turn Ons and Turn Offs not including more physical attraction *sigh* TS4 team has woked too close to the sun.

Catfishing [while the costume is hilarious and beautifully detailed] could've added more consequences, awkward and mean interactions, a "looking past the lies" chance, and/or be another way to die from embarrassment or anger.

Physical attributes didn't even need to include a Fit or Fluffy option; Beards, Piercings, Accessories, *VOICE*, Eye color [maybe my sim only likes yellow eyes] Makeup, Hair Length, Hats, Tattoos, [Occults*] all come in game and can contribute to attraction without needing to be as sexualized as b**b size, butt size, p*nis size, or body size [which is mod territory]

As far as the other new CAS categories go:

Way of Life could've had: Fame [maybe it'll be there when played with Get Famous], Messy/Toxic [b/c some people just are and like it], Geek [not the same as Academic, will not explain], Spiritual/Devout [mod territory], Introversion/Extroversion [not the same as Interpersonal], and Rustic [not the same as disliking Media and Tech but living off the grid, canning, etc.]

Romance Styles could've had: Dates/Travel [again, sugar baby sims], Conversation [simple, don't get why this wasn't included automatically; if flirting can be a turn on so can talking], Compliments [same], Arguments/Mean [messy sims and booktok girlies, enough said], and Kinks/Fetishes [if physical intimacy and woohoo can be different, then kinks/fetishes and woohoo can be different, and most definitely mod territory]

MOD REQUEST: I'm going to need turn on/turn offs or likes/dislikes for Simdipendent, Llamacrat, Plumbobican [b/c trauma]

This doesn't seem like the pack to have a lot of cross pack play but [what is or what could've been] I'm mostly interested in how this will change mates for werewolves, any added attraction between occults, or maybe the occult sim isn't into human sims.

Outside of occults, we're getting official "gift flowers" which is somehow going to be different from making a bouquet and gifting it romantically. Will there be or could there be a buff for gifted handmade flower bouquets? Will we be able to craft the new bouquets if we have Seasons?

All of this is doubtful.

Build/Buy is meh, so many bars and bar backs [there's a low bar joke in here], highlights: canopies and curtains are amazing, but everything feels small and it leads into my MAIN problem with the gameplay items. Love the nostalgia but it's a bed ... that vibrates... and it's a blanket. Neither of these items are big enough. Even if you try to include the commercial lot closet [duplicate from Get Together] and/or the trunk [basically a dresser] it's STILL too small.

There's nothing new-new like we got with the electricity/water in For Rent, the treehouse in Growing Together, or even the wine maker in Horse Ranch and if it would've included THAT it would've made this an EP for me [though of course, not an EP by TS3 standards].

I understand the budget probably went to the new animations but I would've rather had a new activity over the dating system.

WHAT'S MISSING

Outside of catfishing, drama, and physical attraction...

The dumbbells would've been a great chance for more [especially with Gym dates being a thing] and a nice at home item instead of getting a treadmill or a weights machine [also when are we going to get a modern walking pad].

Magazines / Media App - some way to develop likes and dislikes and turn ons and turn off through gameplay that's random so you don't have to pick it through CAS.

WE JUST NEEDED REGULAR ACITIVITES [I appreciate Sims trying to mature for once but a big date item would've completed this pack for me]: Billiards, 1v1 Soccer with a Net, Mini Golf, Ax Throwing [could've been similar to horseshoe or darts], Hot Air Balloon Ride [ where they go up kinda like with the rocket] Pottery [With an instructor's station similar to Yoga, and yes, a Ghost moment], and Dual or Duel Guitar Hero video game [this would've been so cute]

Long Distance Dating. Kind of leans into some of the catfishing idea and only really works with a mod to restrict sims from one world walking around in another world. I don't think this works automatically as I can just see you spend all that time talking to your match via texts or calls and then you go out to a random lot and they just show up and strike up a convo with your sim even though they've technically never met.

Walking/Hiking while Holding Hands [literally would've cried]

While funny and classically quirky Sims shenanigans, the Seductive Dance needs to chill or at least have a loop that's just two people dancing closely.

(no, not this, ^^^^ this is mod territory, for some reason)

(^^^ these) - why were the Sims standing so far apart?

CC REQUESTS

Those new stalls; I want all of those items as separate decor.

HONORABLE MENTIONS/QUESTIONS

Why do we have a Music category likes/dislikes that breaks down into the music genres/types but not similar types for Sports, Books, TV Shows, Movies, Food, Weather, and Games?

Does anyone else think the blurb lore about the " lawn gnome sculptors" could be a pottery hint? What about all the music signs, a bands hint? And the sports jersey, nacho libre wrestler fit, and dumbbells, a sports hint? I think the butterflies are too obvious to be fairy hints, but who knows?

#ts4 lovestruck #ts4 #thoughts

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6okuto · 3 years ago

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— asra relationship headcanons

gn!reader, switches between he/they pronouns for asra

warnings: none :-)

note from nia: i love asra sm like it's okay if he's a gemini guys. i'd say i can fix him but he doesn't need fixing. if asra has a million number of fans, then i am one of them. if asra ha-

whenever you walk into the room, he gets the biggest smile and beckons you over. he has such a lovestruck look on his face that everyone else in the room is either going "aww" or "oh my god please stop"

they like using pet names just to tease you — baby, darling, bub, love, sweetheart. if you use one on them they get immensely happy

whenever there's a holiday coming up he brings out matching pyjama sets for the both of you. halloween, christmas, valentine's - he's Ready. if you don't celebrate, he still has sets that you bring out randomly! it's then immediately titled a self-care relaxing kind of day/evening

they have a specific ringtone for you (one of your favourite songs) so that they always pick up no matter what they're doing

he loves when you guys do self-care together!! he'll help you push back any hair and put on a facemask, asking you to do the same for him

they really like showering/bathing with you. loves washing your back and hair :[ they also have a bunch of bath bombs

sometimes they cook breakfast when they wake up before you and bring it to you in bed (other times they'll lay there and wait for you to wake up)

lazy days are his favourite because he gets to sleep in with you. you often wake up to him looking at you, running his hand through your hair or tracing shapes on your back

they always always kiss you on the forehead and hug you before heading out

he takes photos of any pets being walked and sends them to you

all he says is "dog :)"

loves posting about you if you let them. they do those trends of posting their s/o on their story and are so proud about it.

his posts are like, random things with no context, jokes, and then photo dumps of (the two of) you

they're proud of anything and everything you do. you made a new painting? they love it and will point out all their favourite details. you wrote a new song or poem? they'll hum the tune as they work and talk about their favourite lines. you took some new photos you really like? they'll offer to get them printed and put them up. you crocheted something for them? they're wearing it the next time you go out. the most supportive partner ever

they wrap their scarf around you when it's cold

he'll also hold and breathe on your hands to warm them up

they can be big or little spoon, they enjoy both equally

they love kissing your knuckles. and forehead. and cheeks. and lips. they just really like kissing you

he's always up for giving you piggy back rides if you're tired

and if you ever decide to try surprising/pranking him by jumping into his arms, he will drop whatever he was holding to catch you. will spin you around and say "well hello there"

they always get panicky when you injure yourself, even if it's small

he has the silliest bandaids he could find at the store for small cuts (he takes larger injuries more seriously). hello kitty, barbie, hot wheels — there are literally no regular bandaids in your house unless you buy them yourself.

they bring back little trinkets from their travels for you and now there's an entire area on your dresser dedicated for them

you guys always get a mug/glass from the places you visit so your cupboards are full of mismatching ones

he's always holding your hand when you go out

if someone starts bothering you they pull you behind them and ask how they can help with the fakest smile

likes pda in the sense that he'll hold your hand while walking, but if you decided to grab his face and kiss him in the middle of the street, he'd be totally okay with it. might grin or smirk after tbh

one of their favourite dates was actually really simple: you made bracelets for each other!

he put charms with your favourite colours and animal on it. there's a little "ILY <3" in the middle. he never takes his bracelet off.

you know those bridges where you can lock a lock with your initials and stuff? there is definitely a brightly coloured lock somewhere with your names (+faust c:)

they also like doing escape rooms. every time you walk in they dramatically gasp and say "oh no! we're stuck in here together alone for the foreseeable future! what are we going to do mc?"

also?? thrifting dates are always fun because he picks out objectively the worst/most dramatic pieces there but still pulls it off. it's like those tiktoks where they try to make a bad outfit but you can't help but say "well hold on,"

ok last 'date' idea is walks at night. usually there isn't that many people around and they get to dance and spin you down the street with no worries :[

they always bring you to those mini photo booths when they spot one. the wall by your bed filled with photos now

drunk asra gets very giggly, loud, and clingy. like a big koala.

drunk asra also likes doing things that would get them in trouble (more than usual) so if you don't stop them, no one will.

asra uses kaomojis (emojis like (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡) and they alway draw them on sticky notes as well as little notes/reminders for you to find around the shop

after a long day of helping customers and tending to the shop, they drag you upstairs to cuddle and will not let go

if it was more of a frustrating rather than exhausting day, he refuses to end the day like that. he'll do whatever it takes — tickle you, have a little dance party, go for a walk, take a bath, it's always a toss up

if he ever catches you crying alone, he feels his heart break. he walks up to you and gently asks if you'd like his company. he'll pull you into his chest and runs his hand up and down your back, whispering kind affirmations and reassurances — "you'll never have to go through today again, i promise."

never forces you to talk but reminds you he's there if you need him

knows when you're burnt out and makes you to take a break

if you're super anxious about something, he'll do whatever he can to help with it while calming you down. he'll help you work past your comfort zone if you ask, but he knows your boundaries and never pushes you to do something you don't want to

they like when you paint their nails fun colours :)

you guys have so many blankets and pillows it'd be shocking if you didn't have a fort built somewhere

there's also a lot of pillow fights

you guys just like doing dumb stuff. sliding around with socks on, trying out couple tiktok trends, trying to cook without a recipe. it's a very fun relationship <3

they remember basically every single detail you share

it makes for great birthday presents because they'll remember that really specific thing you mentioned like 4 months prior

they like opening doors for you, sometimes teasing you by bowing and going "my liege"

he likes playing co-op games with you! open world games, indie games kind of thing. also stuff like overcooked despite the chaos that ensues

he won't hesitate to compete against you in like, super smash bros or something though. he's somehow good at uno even though it relies a lot on luck??

like anytime you get together with friends someone is getting +4 and it is Not asra (probably julian tbh)

asra hates whenever you two argue. they've gotten better at trusting you and working together rather than for you, but they're still scared sometimes. arguments don't last too long as you realize each of you just want to help and protect each other. they hug you really tight while exchanging apologies.

has most definitely had long talks with his parents about you and the future he envisions with you — whatever that entails. honestly could not care less if they decide to tell you about it, he's very open about wanting to spend his life together.

"yes i did say that. do you have any problems with it?"

#the arcana #asra x reader #asra alnazar #asra the arcana #the arcana headcanons #asra headcanons

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thirstybtsthoughts · 4 years ago

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Hi Babe!! I’m just really dreading tomorrow because I always feel lonely as fuck on Valentine’s Day. I absolutely hate it. (I’ve literally cried every day this week because of all the Valentine’s fics and just the general Valentines stuff all over the place). So in an effort to not feel so lonely (which this actually is the opposite because I wish I could have this with anyone, let alone yoongi) I’ve been thinking about my perfect Valentine’s day with Yoongi. So I thought I’d share.

My dream Valentine’s date is a day in with my man. Because even if I’m in a relationship I still think the day is dumb because I don’t want anyone to feel the way I feel. So I wouldn’t want to do anything much. I’d just want to spend time with Yoon. So I wake up to him rolling over to spoon me in bed (naturally we’re naked because who would keep clothes on when he is around?) and he starts to kiss my shoulder and his hand is slowly roaming up and down my side. He moves his kisses to my neck and that wakes me up smiling of course. And I start to grind my ass against his cock and he moves his hand to my hip and grips it and groans so deep in my ear that it makes me moan.

Then I flip over to gave him a slow soft kiss and I say “good morning baby”. And he says “good morning. happy Valentine’s Day” with another peck to my lips with his hands running up and down my back. And I just smile and roll onto half of his body and lift myself up on my forearms and hover over him but our bodies connected from my torso down, legs intertwined and I press my lips to his and he put his hand on the back of my head to deepen the kiss, his other hand slowly going down my back to grab my ass and making me grind on him again for some friction. We stay making out like that for a while until he his rock hard and he rolls us over and his kisses move from my mouth, to my cheek, to my neck (and he stays there for a while because it’s my favorite spot to be kissed) and then he keeps going down stopping to lick and suck my nipple making me whine and arch my back to try and get him closer to me, him breathily laughing at my neediness.

He continues his way down my body. He spreads my legs and settles himself between my legs. Placing soft kisses on each of my thighs building the anticipation and of course making me whine again. And he says “what do you want baby? Use your words”. And I shyly say “please eat me out yoon”. And he usually would make me say it louder, but because it’s Valentine’s Day he decided to just dive in placing a soft kiss right on my center followed by licking a strip up my slit. Then he just goes to town using that tongue technology fucking me with that sexy tongue making me squirm and he wraps his arms around my hips to hold me down. Then he moves those sexy lips to my clit and sucks and flicks taking my breath away. Moving one hand to insert two fingers hitting the perfect spot, I move one of my hands to his hair, the other arm over my eyes because it’s just so much. I breathily say “right there yoon! Please don’t stop!” Then he says “come on pretty girl, cum for me” and I whine and let it all go. He continues so I can ride out my high and I have to push him away because of over sensitivity. He starts to crawl up my body to kiss me and I can taste myself on him.

Then I say “baby I need you in me, please” and push him so he’s laying on the bed and I’m straddling him. I lift myself for him and he guides his cock to my entrance and I slide down enjoying the perfect stretch. I place my hands on his chest, his on my hips. I start to grind and move up and down eliciting a moan from him. “Baby, you feel so good wrapped around my cock. So tight for me” he says as he brings his hands up to squeeze my breasts making me moan his name. “Say my name again baby” so I moan again and he says he’s not going to last long. And I lean down and whisper against his lips “cum for me yoon. Fill me up, please” and then I press my lips hard against his. He starts to take over and wraps his hands around my back and pounds up into me. “Oh god yes yoon! I’m going to cum again” I say into his neck. “Cum with me baby girl.” And in the next few seconds I come around his cock moaning so hard and he fills me up.

After we both come down he kisses my cheek (me still on top of him) and asks “will you be my valentine?” I just respond with a pout and a kiss because my god he is cute. I, of course, say yes.

Then we get up to clean up and shower together and similar activities ensue in the shower (my dream. I fucking love shower sex). Him pinning me up against the wall, holding one leg wrapped around his hip, him slowly grinding into me his face in my neck. We both cum again.

After the shower I put on just some sexy underwear and his hoodie. Him in JUST some grey sweats 😏 so that cock is looking perfect in those pants.

We make and eat breakfast together. Followed by cuddling and binge watching shows and movies all day (on the couch or a cute fort?) Of course that gets interrupted by me straddling his lap for loooooong make out sessions (and eating a bunch of chocolate and sweets together). Sometimes those make out sessions lead to more, sometimes it’s just a hot make out.

The day ends with us cuddled in bed again ending it how we started, loving each other as much as we can, the best way we know how.

But this time I go down on him, taking him deep and sucking him dry. When I’m done we make out a little more and it works him up again so we can go one last round. This time, him on top of me, my legs are wrapped around his waist and he is grinding deep into me. Fingers laced together above my head. His head buried in my neck leaving the sweetest kisses there and whispering how much he loves me and how beautiful he thinks I am. The most sensual, beautiful way to end the day of love together.

In reality I’ll be thinking about this wearing sexy underwear (to make myself feel good) and the fake Lover hoodie I told you about before and just going to town on myself wishing it was Yoongi. Sorry this got so long. That man does things to me and this helped distract me for a bit. Sorry if there are typos! I hope you have an amazing day! -⛪️

OH my gosh girlllll this turned me on so much aaaahhhhhhhh what a perfect day 🥴🥰. Oh god this is probably exactly how I would fantasise my perfect day with JK to be like 🥺. I loved the part about him in just grey sweats, I can visualise it so well, cock hanging in them so visibly, fuckkk I’m drooling a the thought 🤤 . Also yassss the lingerie and hoodie outfit is so perfect, I feel like Yoongi would find that incredibly sexy on a woman 😁.

As for Valentine’s Day, personally, it annoys me a little with all the over commercialised stuff and pressure it puts on people. It’s kinda silly tbh. So many people are left feeling lonely and sad, and apparently it’s the day of the year which has the highest suicide rate (sorry for the sad talk). I dunno, maybe I’d feel differently about it if I had a partner, but I’ve never been with someone on a Valentine’s Day. I know it’s easier said than done because it is EVERYWHERE at the moment, but try not to be sad about it. I completely understand how you feel, because I also always feel more empty and alone on V Day, I hate it. We can get through it 🥺💜, we have each other and our Bangtan loves 💜. Maybe treat yourself, or have a lazy day and read Yoongi fics 😁

#asks #anon #bts #church anon #⛪️ anon #⛪️#yoongi thirst #Anonymous

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purplesurveys · 4 years ago

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survey by icantloveu

Today:

Who was the first person you saw? It was my dad. I fell asleep in the living room last night and he was the first person to go downstairs.

Who was the first person who called you? I have not received any call today so far and I’m not expecting any to come through today, a Sunday.

Who was the first person you called? I haven’t called anyone, either. The closest is an eyewear store I messaged on Messenger just a few minutes ago to ask if they accept walk-ins, since I didn’t know they’ve mostly taken appointments throughout the pandemic. If they don’t, I’ll have to wait until Thursday to get a check-up.

What was the first thing you did? I was mad at myself for falling asleep early last night and kinda wasting my weekend, so the second I opened my eyes I got up and looked for a survey to answer, lol.

What'd you have for breakfast? Fried rice, eggs, hotdogs, kikiam, and danggit, with crab paste.

Lunch? Skipped lunch as always since we have late breakfast. I might make coffee.

Dinner? I’m still indecisive on whether I’ll have dinner at home or somewhere outside. In any case, I can’t tell what I’ll be eating just yet.

Who'd you hang out with? I’ll be just by myself today.

What'd you do? I plan on taking a couple more surveys after this. I also wanna do some work ahead of tomorrow and watch the newest episode of 2 Days 1 Night as well.

Favorite song you heard? I am finding Ravi and Lee Naeun’s Rain Drop preeeeeeetty catchy.

Did you see anyone you hadn't seen in awhile? Not today. But last Friday this was the case as I saw Al, Pia, Kyelle, Gab, and Sam for the very first time in well over a year. Angela and Hans were part of the group as well but we were able to see each other during the holidays.

Last:

Thing you ate? The last spoonful of my rice, which I think I topped with the last of my egg and hotdog.

Movie you saw? Midsommar, I think. Last Christmas. I don’t watch a lot of movies anymore.

Girl you hugged? Angela. We saw each other for like, 15 seconds yesterday afternoon so that she could return the abaca mat I lent her for her graduation shoot.

Guy you hugged? I believe it was Hans, when we were saying bye last Friday. If not him, it would have been Al.

Family member you hugged? No idea. Maybe an aunt.

Type of soda you drank? I don’t drink any softdrinks. I did drink red wine that turned out to be carbonated last Valentine’s Day, though.

Flavor of gum you chewed? It’s a gimmick-y kind of gum that is extremely sour when you first pop it in your mouth; but once you start chewing it the sourness dies down and it goes back to the classic bubblegum taste.

Time you brushed your teeth? Last night.

Time you showered? Midnight yesterday when I got home from the aforementioned hangout with friends. I wasn’t able to take a shower yesterday because it had been freezing cold all day, but I plan on having one today.

Time you rode in the car? Yesterday when I drove out of the village to briefly meet up with Angela.

Word you said? Not sure; maybe just a ‘hi’? I greet my dogs a lot.

Person you talked on the phone to? My mom called me last night to tell me dinner was ready.

Time you cried? Genuinely no clue. I’d say a couple or even several weeks ago.

Currently:

Wearing? I have on an olive green sleveeless turtleneck top, and a pair of shorts.

Eating? None at the moment but I do feel like munching on something. Salted egg chips sound amazing right now, actually.

Drinking? Nothing, but I am in the mood for coffee.

Thinking? What else I can do today to maximize what’s left of my weekend.

Doing? [besides this survey] Looking at possible frames to buy for my new eyeglasses.

Friends:

Last friend's house you stayed at? Eugh, I think it had still been Gabie’s. I haven’t stayed at anyone else’s place during the pandemic so far; I’ve driven by Angela’s house briefly a couple of times, though. Mostly to just like return stuff or hand her a gift.

Last friend who stayed at your house? Angela and Hans.

Who has the coolest siblings? Probably Rita. All her siblings have got their own things and gigs and passions going on and I find that awesome. Of course, their family is filthy, old-money rich so their parents have more than enough money to let them sustain their hobbies, so I guess that’s a crucial factor in this too. But even then, they’re all humble and insanely nice so they’re still cool lol.

Who's an only child? Angela, Jo, Luisa, and I think Blanch??

Who have you gone on the most trips with? I don’t go on many trips with friends.

Who's met your family? Angela, and because of that one time my orgmates held a meeting at my house - Kate, Patrice, Jo, Jane, Aya, JM, and Edi.

Family:

Who's the craziest? There’s honestly a lot of chaos on my mom’s side, tbh. There’s past and current animosities, land issues, and general attitude problems among many of them. Of course, they try to hide it from the younger generation and everyone puts disagreements behind them during family gatherings; but the older I’ve gotten, the more my mom has let me in to some of the stories. That said, I can’t tell you who would be the craziest of them all.

Sanest? [is that a word] I would trust one of my aunts with my whole life, if it comes down to it. She has such a warm personality, is an amazing and sweet mom, and talking to her has always felt like talking to an old college friend that you’re having drinks with. I feel like I should do more for her as her niece, but yeah, I love her a lot.

Loudest? I will happily refer you to the entirety of my mom’s side, again. Everyone’s mode of communication seems to be yelling.

Lives the farthest away? Everyone who lives in the US.

Who do you live with? Both of my parents and my two siblings.

Has the most dogs? My dad’s immediate family, from whom Kimi actually came. There’s two dogs I can play with whenever we visit - Spike and Gucci - then they also have several other dogs but they aren’t too guest-friendly.

Has the most cats? My mom’s sister-in-law used to have like, 3 or 4 cats but I’m not sure if they’re still alive.

Has the most cars? I’m not sure. Most seem to have 1-3 which is the average for families anyway.

Random..

What color are your shoelaces? I’m not wearing any shoes at the moment.

Describe your sunglasses: I don’t own any.

Song you listened to last is...? Some jazz-y coffee shop-y tune I heard on YouTube.

Do you have a digital camera? Not anymore. I just use my phone to take photos.

What's the last type of cookie you ate? It had coffee and dark chocolate in it, but I can’t exactly remember what the name of the product is anymore.

Do you have your own computer? I have my own laptop. I never had a computer; I just went straight to having a laptop.

Describe your computer chair? I never had a computer chair per se but my work chair is nothing fancy, it’s just a plastic black chair that my parents bought initially just so that I had somewhere to sit on for my internship at my now-employer. Eventually I didn’t like how I was working in my room because I stopped being able to separate my personal life and my work life, so I’ve been working at the dining table these days.

Why is it called a computer chair anyways? I didn’t know this was a term, actually. I usually just keep hearing gaming chair.

What do you call the remote for the TV? Remote control, or sometimes just remote.

Do you have a crush on anyone? Nope.

What's on your walls? A few posters and wall decors. Some paintings from Gab towards which I have zero feelings or attachment anymore but I feel too lazy to take down.

Do you sleep with your door open or closed? Closed. It would be impossible for me to fall asleep otherwise.

Can you fall asleep with the TV on? Sure, but the program has to be something I was watching to begin with so I can be lulled to sleep. If it’s a show about something I don’t find interesting, I might just find it as noise.

What is the last book you read? I don’t know.

What's your least favorite class? I don’t go to school anymore but in my final semester I hated my business writing class. I hated all my journalism classes, actually; but it was business writing that made me feel the most nervous.

Are you cold? I’m just right. It’s chilly enough not to need the fan, but I’m not shivering either.

Where are you? I’m in the living room.

What is touching your foot? The couch.

Are you wearing any jewelry? Nopes.

If so, what?

What's your name? Robyn.

Do you like it? Sure.

Would you change it if you could? Not at this point.

[for girls] Are you going to keep your last name when you get married? I would hyphenate it, yeah. This is also so that I get to keep my middle name as well.

#survey #surveys

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tenacityblitz · 5 years ago

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all the numbers u haven't done

roleplaying habits questions.

1. what’s a grammar rule you find yourself breaking or ignoring a lot?

Offhand I can’t really think of anything?? English is my first language so I don’t knowingly break any grammar rules anyway. Unless possible excessive use of commas counts bc I use commas a lot.

2. are there any languages besides english in which you think you could comfortably roleplay?

Unless Gibberish counts bc I learned that stupid crack language back when I was a kid but good lord I would not have the patience to actually type out a reply like that.

3. how often do you reach for a synonym dictionary when writing? how about mentally?

Sometimes but not too frequently. Depends on how flowery I’m trying to write something or if I’m thinking of a word but I don’t like the first descriptive word that came to mind for what I’m trying to express.

4. how often do you need to translate your own or the other’s writing with a dictionary or google when writing and reading replies?

Never tbh. Especially since I don’t RP in any other languages, all my RP partners have a good enough grasp on English that I can always tell what they were at least trying to say in their reply.

5. do you listen to music while your write?

I used to need music playing in the background to help me focus on doing drafts, but nowadays I need more silence than anything to help focus and produce what I think is a quality response to a longer thread. Short one or two liner things idc what’s in the background.

6. do you have ideal writing circumstances when you can do a lot of drafts or tackle really long ones very easily?

I can fluctuate with when I best write. Typically I write better at night when the house is quiet and any noise happening in the house is a noise I make, but I’ve had writing inspiration hit me at any time of the day before.

7. are you a morning, day, evening, or night writer?

Bold of you to assume I’m awake during morning hours that don’t include 5 AM bc I’m still awake haha. When I’m not swamped with commissions to do I typically write better during the day or at night when I’m the only person awake in the house and I don’t have any outside distractions from a person IRL.

8. how does tiredness affect your writing?

Not overly so sometimes, I know there’ve been times in the past where I powered through replies even though I wanted to go to bed just because I was riding the motivation train and I didn’t want to lose it and not get to those last replies for who knows how long. But on Discord at least I often have reply to Discord threads be one of the last things I do before I go to sleep so I go to bed knowing I don’t owe anyone a reply on there.

9. have you ever written a serious reply intoxicated?

Not a serious reply anyway. I’ve been on the dashboard before while intoxicated (ColossalCon East was a prime example haha) but I’ve never really RP’d while that intoxicated

10. how much do you proof-read as you are writing vs. proof-read at the end?

I’ll proof read as I go but also give it one last read before I actually hit publish.

11. when you are writing a reply, how much ahead in the thread do you plan?

Entirely depends on the thread. I could write it on the fly or I could have days to think about it from external factors keeping me from getting to the reply as soon as it comes back to me.

12. is there ever been a time when you’ve had to drop a roleplaying partner because you’ve found their writing style exhausting?

Yes actually, gather round for RP horror storytime haha. Flash back to 2013 while I was still in the Black Butler fandom. I stupidly decided to give writing Sebastian a try at the request of a Ciel I’d made friends with (probably through my old Alois or Lizzie blog). She was a nice enough girl, close enough to my age so she seemed plenty mature, and had been what I thought was a good enough writer to warrant trying my hand at a muse I wouldn’t have otherwise thought to try. Legit within days of me making the Sebastian blog she was getting super clingy in her IC posts making Ciel a whiny baby missing Sebastian, would try and guilt me in IC posts to get on and write with her, and I dealt with it for about two weeks before I deleted Sebastian’s blog without warning and deleted the girl off Skype. To this day it’s the only blog I think I’ve ever consciously deleted.

13. does writing roleplay things in public spaces make you uncomfortable?

Not really? I wouldn’t be crazy about a stranger reading over my shoulder while I was writing bc that’s just weird, but I’ve gone to Starbucks or one of the local malls before on my off days (back when I was still at my last job) and I’d do RP stuff there just to get out of the house.

14. how often do you need to change the icon in your reply while or after writing the reply?

Typically I don’t put in icons until I’m done writing the reply unless I go into the reply knowing exactly which one I want to use, or think of a good one while I’m writing it out.

15. do you first get in the “zone” when writing, or do you start writing and “enter” it that way?

Nowadays I just start writing and then get into the zone after I get the first reply done. Discord replies I can chug out any time of day without difficulty, but for whatever reason Tumblr I have to be in the right mindset for.

16. what is your biggest obstacle to writing every day, if time doesn’t count?

Back when I was at my last job, it would be getting a lot of writing muse while I was busy at work and unable to get on my own laptop or sneak onto Tumblr on an office computer and at least type out the bulk of a reply (yes I was employee of the month many times haha), and by the time I was able to get to my own computer or be safe enough to get on a work computer, that writing muse would be gone.

17. what’s your inbox count currently? what did you do to get it so high/low?

Right now I have 15 IC asks. I won’t lie, two of them are from last years Valentine’s Day bc I was away at Katsucon at the time of receiving them and by the time I got home I still just never got around to answering the asks, but I didn’t want to delete them either so I just kept them for posterity. Some are from this past Christmas that I was terrible and haven’t answered yet bc I’ve been so swamped with commissions, some are from other random meme’s I’ve reblogged and gotten an ask or two for and also just never got around to. I’m horrible at replying to asks most of the time and I know it but I always appreciate whenever people take the time to send me an IC one.

18. how many drafts is a paralysing amount?

I’d guess I’d say over 15 like para thread replies would make me be like -insert meme song- ‘how could this happen to meeeee’. I’m not quite at that point yet but I’ll get there eventually if I’m not careful lol.

19. if you are writing a wrong reply that’s not working out, do you save what you have to be continued at another date, or do you scrap it and rewrite?

Usually I would just draft what I have and go back to it. I can’t remember the last time I scrapepd an unfinished draft and completely rewrote it.

20. longest reply you’ve ever writen on mobile?

N/A because I don’t do replies on mobile. I’ll send asks on mobile but I never reply to actual IC things while on my phone unless it’s something stupid and cracky or one-liner-ish.

21. does the total amount of threads you have going on matter to you, or just how many you owe?

Doesn’t really matter. I can have one thread with one person, I could have five threads with one person. @shinvcho is an example of the latter lol

22. what’s your thought process when you format? any unspoken rules you follow?

I’ve kept to the same formatting for years and years tbh. I’m too lazy to do excessive formatting beyond italicizing and/or bolding specific words for emphasis and spacing out the start of a new paragraph. Anything more than that to me is just tedious and unnecessary; I don’t want to make it difficult for my partners to read.

23. how does your follower count affect your mood?

Anyone who says they don’t appreciate or enjoy even a small spike in followers is a liar, because we live in an age where validation is held in high regard and it feels good to get the validation of seeing more people enjoy what we do on our blogs enough to put us on their dashboards. But it also doesn’t really matter to me when I lose followers because I have a mutual checker so I can unfollow a mutual back if they did so first so I don’t feel uncomfy still following someone who no longer wanted me on their dash lol.

#ooc #THIS IS WHY I QUESTIONED HOW MUCH U ACTUALLY LOVE ME I HAD TO DO BASICALLY ALL OF THEM LOL #creturae

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oppatxtme · 6 years ago

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ᴄʜʀɪsᴛɪᴀɴ ʏᴜ: ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ

Hello there my friends... I know it’s been too long since I posted something trashy for y’all to read... well, I terribly sorry about it. Some boy-issue happened and now I’m in the middle of being in a relationship and single at the same time. Well enough about me... here’s my Christian Yu one-shot. I hope y’all find it somewhat interesting.

TBH, I plan to write for Loco, but it’s hard to resist my mind when it keeps on thinking and typing Christian. And about the title, I titled it based on the song playing right after I finished it, and good enough it somehow applies to the story.

Note: Read at Your Own Risk ~~ (ง⌐□ل͜□)ง Type: One Shot Word Count: Long(?) - too lazy to paste it on MSWord.

INSPIRED by Siren’s Lament <3

[MASTERLIST]

It's been what?

Four years he's constantly coming to my shop to buy flowers for his girlfriend. How do I know it was for his girlfriend, well who wouldn't? It's Christmas Eve after all. And here in Korea, Christmas is somewhat spent together with their significant other, unlike some places that they'll surely be home at there own household to spend the holidays with their family.

I remember the first time he came to this flower shop of mine -- actually, he had no choice, for the flower shop he intended to purchase were closed. Again, I know because he parked his car on the other side of the road where another flower shop was. He looked around and as he turns around, he landed at my shop.

I also remember how I laughed at him when he tried to push the door that has a huge sign that says PULL.

He looked flustered with embarrassment as he bowed down and said sorry for almost breaking my door.

"Hi, can I have your best flower for today?" he said.

So, I did my best to help him pick the best among the rest - for today.

Also, I remembered that I include an extra red rose that day. It's really something I do on my first-time customer, that made most of them come back. Others even became patrons of the shop.

---

I personally arranged all the beautiful flowers first thing in the morning because he will be picking it up at eight o'clock.

And for the past four years, I have been waiting for a sign.

You see, even for that short time of that special day, I found myself having a feeling for him. First of all, there's this attraction towards him that I can't seem to escape. And everytime the door chime meaning someone came in, my eyes always landed on his smiling face. And his whole aura is so fresh that it's enough to brighten all of my flowers. And the fact that he smells good and dresses well is really my weakness.

And every single time our eyes met, there's this feeling inside me that at first I never believed existed -- butterflies in my stomach chills all over my body, my heartbeat starts pumping so hard and my knees turn to a gelatin and my feet seems rooted on where I stand. And right after he leaves the shop, I know why.

And so I waited for a sign. Any sign from God or whoever. For I wanted to know if having this one-sided feeling towards a man who looks every woman would want and the fact that he has a girlfriend are something I should continue having. I know wishing for him to be mine is like wishing to find a needle under a pool of people. But damn, I'm still a hoping mess.

I know his name -- Christian Yu. Of course, I know because I needed it to put on the receipt. I know that he's 28 years old. He's working at his own startup company and has a girlfriend.

He said that they've been together for almost a year now and he could clearly see her walking down the aisle as if he's picturing a vision and not merely imagining.

The second time he came, he couldn't remember my name. So I reminded him that my name is Sam. He, in reply, called me Sam Soon as a joke. And since then, he will call me Samsoon every time he got a chance.

One, when he joked about my name.

Second, is when the third time he came. He greeted me as SamSoon. He even joked that I might start adding on my pricing because he's been calling me that instead of my real name.

Third, is when he said before he left the shop.

"See ya later, SamSoon."

----

That's the last thing I remembered that he said, for what he meant by later was almost a year after. And in a few more days, it would be Christmas all over again. But this time, I decided that I will make our encounter over the counter memorable.

I don't want him to remember me as this girl at the flower shop who's named SamSoon so he could remember, and the girl who stared googly-eyed him whenever he gets the flowers he ordered for his girlfriend.

I want him to remember me as someone that has the courage to say what she has to even if it's about her having feelings for him.

He might not come back. I might not see him again. But I want to give a shot. It is better to know than not knowing at all. It's better to be hurt now than feeling hurt every time I think of him and every year I see him - buys the flower to you, for someone else.

I prepared the clothes I'll wear on that day. It's red -- as usual... but I decided to dress up a bit. I'll wear this red knitted dress that I'll be pairing with at black heels and a touch of light makeup.

I don't care if I'll be rejected or whatever. If I never see him after that, then I guess I'll just teach this foolish heart of mine the art of letting go.

Two days before Christmas, I stayed up late at the show together with some of my staff. They helped me to arrange the flowers and keep it from the freezing weather. But after a couple of hours, I let them go before it starts raining snow again.

As I looked at the time, it's almost midnight and my eyes started to get droopy. I guess that explains why. So I stand up and decided to close the shop then I'll just continue finishing this later.

This manual labor and the mental stress about Christian is taking its toll. I sighed rather long at that moment.

"Hey there, SamSoon."

Even tho I won't look at my side to know who was that, I know that it was him. Who else dares to call me SamSoon at my own shop? Honestly, that show 'My Name is Kim SamSoon' aired a decade and so today, but he still decides to call me that. I can't help but smile before turning around.

"Hey! What brings you here?"

I saw how he smile and gave me a coffee he's holding, which I'm guessing is from the other coffee shop not far away from here, where I always buy my coffee. Even tho there's a huge Starbucks branch near the shop.

"Coffee?" he inquired.

"Thanks," as I took it from his. I take a sip, thinking how thoughtful he is for bringing me a cup. And good enough, the tiredness I am feeling a while back, somehow drown away just one sip and smelling the aroma of the coffee. So I sip for more.

"Slow down, have you not thought that there might be poised? You're drinking it in one shot."

Now that I think of it, I paused and almost puke after realizing what he meant. But I didn't think he could do that. But I guess when you accept the fact you like someone, you couldn't think ill of them. Even if it sometimes, if they did something wrong, you always forgive and forget.

He then laughed at my facial expression while thinking all that.

"I'm just kidding, Sam."

Then I smiled at him. Finally, he was able to call me by my name.

"Yaah!" I say as I point my index finger at him. "So anyway, what are you doing here? And at this time as well. Are you here to pick up the flower? Oh my, I'm still not done arranging it."

"I know, don't worry." he looked around and walks towards the sofa set good for four that I recently installed there for customers who would like to stay longer just to rest. "I'm actually here to change that."

"Change it?" as we both seat and now facing each other.

He nodded.

"I want a bigger bouquet. Something bigger like this," he said while his hands and arms motioned the size.

And it was like an extra large round pizza. I can't help but be puzzled. Why? Not to mention it was really a last minute change. To think that I had already arranged the flowers for his order and now I need to change and start all over. At a season like this, of course, the flowers I used on arranging are pre-ordered, and what I have on the shop that was ready to buy are not that well for my arrangements.

And I am sure enough that he wouldn't want that to be used for his girlfriend.

"Well, the thing is that I'm not so sure if there would be any available flowers for that big," I told him the truth, there's no use on hiding it.

His gave you that apologetic smile and eyes that are enough to say yes on whatever he might ask.

"Can't you really make it work? I just really, as in really need it."

I sighed.

"Why all of a sudden? You always liked the bouquet I do."

"The thing is," He smiled to himself. "I'm going to propose to her tomorrow."

By hearing that, my ear went red. My whole body stopped functioning for a couple of seconds. Then he gave me that smile of his before I would probably turn the same smile with pleasure. But now, I smiled as I needed to. Even I'm dying inside. I just hope that I don't creep him on my smile.

I drank the hot coffee. So this is where it ends? So much for my courage to confess later. I guess I just spoil myself, taking granted on the past years that I should try to confess.

Now? No way I would dare to say it now after that. I don't want to give him reason to have a pitty feeling towards me. I guess this is for the best. It means that he's not the one for me.

I guess I should start that art of letting go thing. For this is the end. For sure, he will be returning to this shop more frequently -- on their anniversaries, birthdays, Valentine's day or just when he feels he wants to be sweet to his wife.

Just thinking about it feels so troublesome -- yeah, envious is a bitch. But no worries... I'm sure I'll find someone else to love.

"I'll try," I finally said to him.

"Thank you so much! I know I can really count on you." He stands and went on the back of the sofa I seated and hugged me from the back.

I try my best to prevent myself from sniffing. I hold strong on the tears that start to fill the corner of my eyes.

For four years, I've been thinking about this man. And every Christmas, I feast myself on looking at him even for a short time. And soon after, I waited for the next time I have the change to see him again. Hoping that it would be sooner than the next Christmas. Because I couldn't tell if he might find a different flower shop that he likes and he'll never come back.

I know, having a feeling for someone who's already in a relationship -- a serious one too. Is really hard and don't to mention how painful it is.

'Your girlfriend is one hell of a lucky woman.' I can't but think when he finally releases me from his hug and decided to seat in front.

"Are you done? Should I help you with anything?" he asked.

"No need. I should start by doing the new arrangements for that bouquet of yours." I smiled -- barely. 'I'll be starting to move on with my feelings for you while I'm at it.'

"Are you sure you'll be okay here?"

"Yeah," I said. "As if it's my first time having someone requesting last minute changes. So go home, and you can pick it up at the same time. Take it easy on driving."

----

After almost four hours of painstakingly putting a beautiful arrangement for the bouquet, I forgot how I manage to get to sleep in my own bed. I woke up with the sound of knocking from outside.

It was one of my staff. It's been a while now that they tried knocking for me to open up for them. I fixed myself. As they arrange the flowers I finished for pickup.

"Sam, the huge bouquet in your table, for who is it? There's no name and it wasn't on the list." Ria asked while I'm changing my clothes.

"Oh, it's for Mr. Yu. He asked to have some changes." there's nothing wrong if I don't mention he came personally to change it.

At 8 am sharp, Christian arrived. All dressed up for the big occasion. Suit and tie. If I were his girlfriend, I would ask myself every time how could I not say 'yes' to this guy, even if he's not asking -- for sure I might be the one asking him the question.

"Good morning," he greeted as his smile plastered on his face.

"Morning. Look at you, you surely know how to dress from the battle ey?" I said to him. I was a bit embarrassed about my outfit.

I took a quickie shower and failed to brush my hair. I know I'm not a pretty sight to look at right now but what can I do? I can't feel that Christmas spirit anymore.

"Well..." he looked around and landed to the only huge bouquet lined up in the near table." Is that it?" as he pointed it out.

I nodded as we both walked towards the table and finally handed it to him.

"Here."

"Wow, stunning as always." He studied it, he hugged it on one arm. "So how much?" as he tried to take out his wallet from his pocket.

I shooked my head.

"It's free."

I saw how his eyes almost popped out and his lips formed a huge O shape.

"Wait, what?" he asked and you nodded. "Are you sure? You must've worked for hours for this!"

"Yea, that I'm not gonna deny. But good luck with your proposal. I hope she says yes and all went well."

Christian said thanks once again and walked out of the shop... and out of my like.

As I slumped back to the sofa I heard the chimes at door.

"Oh? Have you forgot something?" I asked. He nodded and walked closer. And then he handed me the flowers. "Why? Is there a problem with the flowers?" as I inspected the bouquet.

"You still don't remember me, do you?"

I looked up at him. He looked so serious. What did he mean remember him? Why? When did I ever forget about him? I don't get it. How can I forget the only man I think of all these freakin' years?

"What do you mean?" I asked, puzzled.

"Don't you remember?"

"What am I supposed to remember?" my brows are all curled trying to understand what he was trying to impose. I stood up, but when I realize his too close, I stepped back.

He sighed. Then he leaned closer that there's only an inch between our faces. So I tried to step back again.

"Can't you remember this face?" he pointed his face. "Are sure you can't remember?"

"What are you saying, you're my customer, of course I know." I laughed, to ease the tense atmosphere that starting to build up between us and his seriousness. "What is it that I should remember besides that fact?"

"Sam, don't you even have the slightest memory of me... Christian Yu, your boyfriend for seven years?"

My jaw drop. Boyfriend? Him? My boyfriend? For what? For seven years?!

That's impossible, right? It's only four years since I knew him.

"I guess you still haven't fully recovered." he sounded rather sad. "But let me enlighten you..."

And then he went on in saying that we were together for a couple of years when the accident happened. On the night of December 24, he invited me to go with him to Sydney to meet his parents. On our way to the airport, there's this drunk driver who carelessly bumps the taxi we're in.

We were both in a coma but he woke up after four months. I was sleeping for a year. When I finally woke up, I couldn't remember him.

Though I remember everything, except him. There was this blurry image of a man in my dreams that appears once in a while. I mentioned it to my parents and instead, we should go to the doctor for a consultation but I didn't pay attention to it, thinking that it was just some flash memory that the doctor mention before.

And then I met Christian... and I ignored it completely.

Christian also explained to me that for the past four years, he had been looking out for me. And on every Christmas Eve, he would come up to the shop to buy flowers for his girlfriend like he used to --who turned out to be his ex.

Christian mentioned that we met here at my own shop. He has a girlfriend back then and he bought a flower for Christmas Eve for that's the only month his girlfriend went back to Seoul for a vacation from working overseas. And on several occasions throughout the year, he visits my shop for flowers.

When their relationship got bumpy along the way, Christian said that I was the one he talked to about it. He said that little by little, he saw me in a different light. He was gradually falling for me and losing his love for his girlfriend.

And like the natural course of nature, whatever's been nurtured grows and whatever's been neglected dies.

On the Christmas eve, he went to see me and mentioned that it's almost six months since he broke up with her. And now he's ready to be with me.

And the whole year we dated and on the next Christmas Eve, we both made it official.

And on the day before Christmas, that oh so fateful day, that we decided to travel to see his parents and right there he plans to propose. But that went all the drain when the accident happened, and I lost my memories of him.

When he was done explaining, I was still in shock that I couldn't even blink. This guy, whom I was liking from afar, turns out to be mine all along. And I don't know what or how but it felt that I fall for him even more -- if that's possible.

After knowing that he did not give up on me. Waiting for someone who might just die and leave you is hard. And he even has to live knowing that the woman he loves' doesn't remember him.

I still don't remember him until now and it kind of pissed me... especially now that he's crying in front of me.

"I'm willing to wait for you to remember me. Even if it takes a lifetime before you do, I'll wait for you. I know you don't know me and I know you might not feel the same but I believe that I am for you and you are for me alone. And if fate would be so kind, it would let you remember that love you had for me, a long time ago.

I'm not asking you to love me back because I can't force you to do that but please... please let me continue on loving you even for afar until I can't feel it anymore. It hurts, Sam. I'm still hurting but I'm willing to stay by your side as your whatever. I'd be happy knowing that you let me stay with you... even as just a bystander in your life."

Without knowing, I too started crying. Even my staff that being a witness started whipping their eyes.

I may not remember him... but I hell can feel every word that he's saying. He must have loved me so much... And I'm glad to know that even tho I don't remember him and us, fate really made me remember my feelings for him.

I touched his cheek and wiped his tears away.

"I don't remember you... and I hate that I don't remember you. I want to stop the hurt you're feeling but I can't remember how to make you smile when you're feeling sad. I can't even remember the right words to say or things to do to make you happy... It's killing me not knowing, Christian."

And hearing that from me, he cried even more.

I wipe my own tears and hugged him to at least ease the hurt.

"I don't remember anything from the past..." I said as I brushed his back while he buried his face on the side of my neck. "I don't remember us... but I'm willing to make new memories with you. Because guess what?"

I tried to make him face me. And when I did, I smiled. He stopped crying and I wipe his tears while the smile on my face stayed. As I continue with what I'm saying.

"For some unknown reason... I love you... for the second time in a lifetime."

[MASTERLIST]

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peachyjie · 6 years ago

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For ‘Love‘, I Will || Cai Xu Kun

—Author Note :

Well, I decided it was best to post this one. So yea, requested by a lovely anon and I hope you enjoy this piece of mine :>

—Warning : tbh, I just felt like this whole scenario is a roller coaster and I kinda suck with the ending

—Wc : 8.4K+

—Pairing : Cai Xu Kun - Reader

—Genre : Bestfriend!au + semi!angst + slight!fluff

—Summary : When the reality of Love dawns upon you, you realized it takes more than mutual feelings for both to last

By any means, you had always hated the word Love.

It is delightful to watch movies based on romance. People would often get themselves engage in such scene, fall down in the usual cliché storyline before bawling their eyes out by the sappy romance.

The books based out of Love aren’t an exception. Despite the storyline would be the same cliché and predictable plot, where the male or female would fall for one another and the story pulls on testing their love by giving them random obstacle, before at the end of the book they end it with a kiss.

But why do people still find themselves buying into them despite it’s the same thing every time?

Was it the feeling of thirst? Or for the imagination of a perfect love story?

You were by no means an exception. As a human being, everyone has the right to thirst on love and you’re one of them. It’s cute seeing how two characters could fall in love so gracefully then have a journey so beautifully in the name of love.

You hated it, you had and always hated the word love, the concept of love, the reality of falling in love.

In your on-going long journey in life, you’ve only fallen in love 2 times. 2 times the sweet memories, 2 times the heartbreak.

Your first love was during Junior High, 7th grade aka the new kid on the block thrown into the sea of people who’ve known one another since Primary. You were new or freshly moved in the neighborhood, trying to adapt to the sudden changes of school.

You would say that being the awkward teen in puberty also hit your social skill in being awkward. But this one boy, known as the troublemaker, always teasing you and the jokester who always tried to make you laugh and less awkward in class, the one and only, Wang Lin Kai.

You didn’t know how or what were you thinking that time, you had a small crush on him. Turns out that crush continued for more than half a year and you guaranteed yourself that you truly do like him. You thought to yourself that it was finally time to experience the scenario so called love like the TV shows or the books.

No, reality had better plans.

During the second semester, Linkai called you out to talk. You were beyond elated and willingly followed him. It wasn’t until he looked down in the dumps, you finally noticed something is wrong.

“I won’t be coming to school tomorrow”, now you didn’t click right away. Because Linkai was always absent every month. Every month, Linkai would take a week off out of school and those were the most dreadful week for you. It wasn’t a surprise when he tells you that he won’t come to school tomorrow, because you knew he will come again next week.

Well, it wasn’t until reality hits you hard.

“I’m moving to the US tomorrow, Y/N”, oh you didn’t remember how you reacted to that. It was either you stood frozen as you stare the living soul out of him, or immediately bawl your eyes in front of him, or better you actually passed out right there on spot.

The only thing you knew was, your first love journey ends there.

The second time you attempted to fall in love happened during your time in College. This time, you’re far confident with the outcome. You were sure the probability of him falling for you is bigger than Linkai’s, especially since he’s been by your side since High School.

The prized star of the dance major in campus, the campus star that everyone loves, the best-friend who had spent a good amount of 4 years by your side but also the male who has his hands around your heart.

You met him during the first day of High School in the bus, that time you’re not awkward like when you were in Junior High, you were far than the word awkward.

You messed up.

It was early morning, the first morning you had to wake up early after your long lazy break. The usual morning routine you had to drag yourself to go through before you could go to school. With a small carton of milk you had in your hand for breakfast, you let the bus scanned your student card. When it beeped, you proceeded to find a vacant seat.

Opening the flap, your lips came in contact with the soft carton to sip on the milky liquid.

You turned your head sideway, mouth still savoring the sweetness in the milk to even notice a figure had already taken the vacant seat beside you.

“Morning, I hope this seat isn’t taken”, oh wow his voice sounded so ethereal.

In all day light and hallelujah, he smiled so charmingly it caused you a big jolt in your system. Without any warning, in the speed of light, you accidentally spit the whole substance on his magnificent facial feature.

You didn’t have time to laugh as you whole body was too busy panicking.

You stare down at the blazer, the color of navy blue with the High School’s logo. Great, he goes to the same school as you and it’s only the first day and you’ve made a fool of yourself. Let’s see until he spit the words about you to the whole school’s existence. The girl who spits milk mist for free, he would probably say.

“I am so sorry!”, you yelped as you frantically dabbed your handkerchief to dry his face off the liquid. He was frozen, very much not moving as he kept his eyes closed, obviously not letting the liquid get into his eyes nor mouth.

But who knows fate always does things with a dash of surprise

Instead of being mad or completely disgusted by you, he laughed, loudly. You were in the state of shock and pure confusion, did the milk mist made him lose his mind? Or is he just pure crazy?

“I like you”, he said suddenly catching you by surprise.

A confession in the morning? Aren’t you living the life. A handsome male beside you suddenly confessing when both of you barely know one another. Bucket list checked.

“Nice to meet you”, he said. His hand slowly extended towards your side, the dashing smile plastered itself on his face. “I’m Cai Xu Kun, Xukun”, you smiled and accepted his hand.

The start of your friendship but also, the start of your journey with him.

*****

You didn’t know how you lasted this long with Xukun.

It all started with the milk mist and without warning both of you suddenly became best friend. You were different from Xukun. He’s always been the popular kid that’s loved by everyone ever since High School whilst you were the awkward sidekick of his who only care about surviving school.

But that never stops him from advancing his ways to you, instead it made both of you got closer to one another.

You smiled thinking about the countless memories both of you had made for one another, there was too many to choose. And telling them all would only resolve you to release a book about you and Xukun.

Other than those memories, Xukun has always had that small space in you.

He wasn’t only the closest thing you have in life or your best-friend, he’s also the person you’re currently in love with.

It wasn’t a surprise to see him hanging around with you in campus or out of campus. He would sometimes sneak into your class in excuse of “I’m too lonely when you’re not beside me”, which resolve to you calling him clingy but secretly you also like having him right beside you.

You would also do the same to him. Staying by his side until late night, waiting for him to finish practice. Despite he nags you to go home and get some sleep, you would just brush it off and say “I’m too lonely when you’re not beside me”, which caused him to stare at you judgingly for teasing him before smiling fondly at you.

Basically, in conclusion everyone in campus already know about you and Xukun. New kid in campus who’s suddenly interested in Xukun or you? Don’t worry, they get the hint both you and him are inseparable or just get told off that Xukun and you are basically dating.

Oh what? A female interested in him but won’t back off? It’s fine, Xukun will be too busy haunt you down for movie nights than spare them a single glance.

As time pass by, you could conclude that your feelings for him is true and sincere.

Him? You’re can’t guess. But there should be a bigger possibility for him to like you back, right?

4 years you’ve spent with him, you’re far confused about his feeling towards you. It’s wasn’t like you assume he has the same mutual feelings as you, its simply because Xukun here loves to give out mixed signals to you.

During Valentines day, he announced to the whole campus he’s your valentine. Took you out to many dates instead of calling it the usual hang out. He would often give you surprise pecks here and there anytime and everywhere, A small gift for working hard he would often quoted when you ask why.

During times you told him you got admirers, showing him the notes that you got from your lockers. He would often react by pouting and sulking for the whole day, until you reassure him that you had no interest in any of them.

“Then who do you like?”, he would ask you. Flustered, you always get flustered and shy when he asked the question.

“Eyyyy, it’s me right”, he would say. He sounded confident, as if he already knew the answer all along. You only brushed him off, getting teased for the whole day by him.

But it’s fine.

You know your relationship with Xukun will never change, because both of you are probably far too committed being stuck with one another to even think of growing distant.

Or so that’s what you thought.

One day, without any sign of a thunderstorm, you saw him striding to your side. The happiest expression stuck on his face as his lips kept tugging into a wide smile, you smiled at him asking him why was he so giddy so early in the morning.

The answer you weren’t expecting, because once again reality comes dawning itself on you.

“I came to you to announce, I have a crush on Cheng Xiao”

Once again, your love story was put on a hold.

You only smiled at him, trying your best to think a way out of the whole situation. “Con-Congratulations Xukun”, you manage to stutter it out. Xukun was far than delightful to hear your blessing, he went on blabbering about his on-going new-found crush, clearly oblivious on whatever is happening inside of you. You simply tried to plaster a smile as he rants on, completely pushing aside whatever sweet feelings you have for him.

Your ears weren’t even working, all the things he was telling you just went pass as your mind was too busy thinking about all the time you had with him. Thinking that both of you would never even have the change or the small change of growing a gap. It happened anyways, at the time you least expected.

“You’re going to help me, right?”, that snapped you back to reality. You stare at him in confusion, blinking rapidly. Xukun chuckled at your small act. “I said, you’re going to help me win her right?”, he repeated slowly.

You didn’t know what you were progressing in your mind, because when your beating heart said no rapidly. You choked out a small, “Yea, sure!”. Causing a bigger smile on his face.

You smile a little. For love, you’ll try for him.

So, you set up a small meeting between him and her. And like expected, things escalated quickly.

*****

Cheng Xiao, the dance goddess in campus. You know her, everyone knows her. Cheng Xiao is that typical humble yet perfect female every girls aspire to be, every boys dream girl. You’ve had your fair share of encounter with her. From being putted in the same class, to grouped into the same team for a group project, until spending a good amount of girls night out with her to be considered good friends.

Comparing to Xukun, she’s probably the second closest person in campus to be your friend.

There wasn’t that much minus point in her. Cheng Xiao is always hard working, she cares a lot on details and sharpness in every movements, she’s humble and caring to others, basically the list goes on. You had seen fair share of confession given to her, during lunches or small letters in lockers.

Like Xukun, she rarely date. Never had you seen her one to one with a male aside of dance practice.

The more you think of it, the more you realized. Xukun would be better off with Cheng Xiao anyways, why did you even bother making up the whole scenario about you and Xukun anyways.

You groaned a little, scratching the paper in front of you with you pen. The dark liquid seeps into the paper, causing the once white clean paper stained with black ink. “Stupid, this is all dumb”, you grumbled silently.

The library, your escape place from reality. You stare silently at the stack of books in front of you, then your eyes wander down to the vacant seat across you. Xukun had asked you to tutor him on history as the next exam is coming closer, like usual you obliged.

Where was he, you may wonder? You stare at the far end table near the window, he was busy talking with Cheng Xiao to neglect his tutor session, neglecting that you even existed.

This is how you hate love. It’s such a strong feeling, it controls your whole mind and system. It’s the expression that made you think otherwise, caused everyone to prioritize the wrong thing and forget about the reality.

Love, the strong feeling that made everyone irrational. And you’re one of them.

You sighed a little, trying your best to force down more materials in your brain. You wanted to leave him alone, quickly going back to your dorm. But you didn’t, instead you waited for him like a complete bimbo. Why?

Because he has more control against your heart and you would do anything to see that smile on him.

Stupid? You could say that again. For him, you try to help him win her. For him, you sacrifice time and effort so he could progressed further. For him, you sacrifice your heart just to see him smile fondly with sincerity for her. The things you do for him, for love.

“Y/N?”, you jerk in surprise, staring at the figure in front of you.

Caught in complete surprise, you stare at the new stranger who was grinning widely at you. A stranger who seems so familiar. Defined jawline, tall posture, sharp eyes and high nose, the same playful grin from 7 years ago.

You smiled in recognition. “Wang Lin Kai?”, he lights up in joy hearing the familiar roll from your tongue.

“Yo, you still remember who I am?”, he said in compete surprise.

You laughed softly and nodded. Like other tales would say, your first love will always have that special place in your heart and your memories.

“I didn’t know you study in this campus, Linkai”, you said. He shook his head, eyes in disapproval. “I go by Lil Ghost AKA IMP now”, he said causing you to snort. He looked at you in pure shock, almost offended. “The US really got you hard huh, Linkai?”, you said laughing a little.

“Nah, it’s called passion for music”, he said back. You smile at him, nodding a little. Linkai took the seat across you, despite having Xukun’s bag on it. But Xukun wouldn’t mind, he’s too busy over there anyways.

“I came back to China a week ago, enrolled here yesterday”, he said.

“Why did you come back?”, he stare at you in question causing you to went full flustered. “No—I meant, The US must be more fun and all. Why did you choose to come back here, in boring old China?”, you said trying your best to calm yourself down.

He smiled fondly at you, you will never change from the awkward as you’re still the same like when you’re still in Junior High.

“Just because, I kind of miss being here”, he said coolly. He studied you longer, taking the few changes from the past 7 years. He must admit, he missed teasing you around or making random jokes just to make you laugh. Who knew, 7 years change a lot of things between both of you.

“We should hang out on weekend, you know show me around the campus and then we could grab lunch or something”, he said.

You light up at the invite. You nodded eagerly, accepting his offer.

Out of the corner of your eyes, you saw Xukun coming closer after bidding Cheng Xiao a small goodbye. You noticed his eyes changed when he saw Linkai who’s occupying his seat. You gave him a small smile which he didn’t reply as he was too busy boring his eyes on the other male.

“Xukun, this is Linkai. He’s my friend from Junior High”, you said.

Linkai faked a hurt, staring at you in sad eyes. “I-I thought we had something more, Y/N.”, he said. You laughed a little, giving him a small hit on the arm.

Xukun just stare at the whole situation unfolds in front of him. This is the first time he seen you all touchy and close with another male other than him.

“Give me your phone, I’ll give you my number”, you said to Linkai as your arm reached out for his phone. He willingly gave it to you, causing a wide sincere smile on your face.

As you were typing in your number, Xukun on the other hand was far in confusion. He felt left out, as if you were growing distant from him due to this Linkai kid.

“I manage to get a date with Cheng Xiao”, he suddenly said.

With all will, you tried to keep the smile on your face. Your fingers stopped typing as your heart rate fastened. You stare at Linkai’s phone longer than expected, before you looked at Xukun. Giving him the usual smile you will always give him, you nodded.

“I am happy for you, Xukun”, you said. Xukun smiled and nodded at your approval. You handed the phone back to Linkai who sat silently watching the scene unfolds, then frantically took all of your belonging and shove them in your bag.

“Text me the detail, Kai”, you said to him before you divert your attention to Xukun once again. “I’m heading back first, I’ll see you later”, and like that you ran out of the library.

Running away from him, from your own feelings.

*****

“Get that bunny one!! I don’t want a Huba doll, Linkai!”, you whined when you saw the claw went pass the bunny doll you wanted. He laughed as he tried to aim towards the Huba doll in sight, his tongue was pressed against his lips, the usual habit he has whenever he’s trying to concentrate.

“And, bam!”, he hollered and at the same time, the claw aimed down directly at the Huba.

You groaned as he celebrated with pure glory on the catch. He smiled proudly presenting the doll at you, making you grumbled more.

“It’s cute!”, he said. “See, it looks like you”, he put the doll right beside of your face making you smack him on the face. He laughed louder, still giving you the Huba despite your whining for the bunny doll.

It was finally the day where you went on a hang out with him, so far everything is amazing. Both of you took a small stroll around campus, catching up here and there before heading for a late lunch. When lunch passed by, Linkai decided it was a great idea to go to the arcade near campus.

In which, it resolved to you getting a Huba doll. Or what Linkai would call, his child.

You sat down waiting for Linkai who’s ordering drinks for both of you. Mindlessly scrolling through your social media and replying to any text messages from the last few hours. You raised your vision to look at Linkai who’s already staring at you, you tilted your head in confusion.

He made an ugly face, causing you to erupt in a fit of giggle. You replied his action back, making him shake his head in judgement but you only smiled goofily at him. A ding on your phone caused you to jerk back to stare at the notification.

You froze, eyes glued on your screen as it fades back to nothing but black. You felt your body turned cold, your throat dry.

As Linkai set down the cup of tea, you took it and sip a good amount of drink. Linkai stare at you in bewilderment, mostly caught off guard on how you went from happy and smiles to a disoriented and panicked mess.

When another ding came on your phone, you tried your best not to look at the screen. You restrained. But Linkai, he saw it. It took him mere seconds to finally understand why the smile was stripped away completely off you.

15.56 – KunKun : It’s official! I’m dating Cheng Xiao!

Linkai took you back home earlier than the normal plan. When you were in front of the dorm’s gate, you smiled guiltily at Linkai. “Sorry we had to cut the hang out short, I’m feeling tired suddenly”, you said softly.

It took Linkai a while to react. He pulls out the same usual cheeky smile and knocks you a little on the forehead, completely catching you by surprise. “You idiot, it’s fine”, he said ruffling your hair a little. Then his hand reached down to his pocket, throwing the small bag to your side.

Flustered, you caught it carelessly before it hit the ground. You stare at Linkai in question, he only ushered you and told you to open it. In the small bag was a small rabbit doll keychain, it’s the size of your palm for the convenience to hang it on your bag.

You smiled fondly at it causing Linkai to smile. “That one is far cuter than the arcade one, plus you can bring it everywhere and think of me”, he said suggestively.

You only laughed louder. “Thanks, Linkai”, you said.

Linkai kicks the pavement as he stared down at the small rocks on the ground. “Don’t think about him too much, and don’t get sad just because of him”, he looks up and locks his eyes at yours.

“Okay?”, he asked.

Your palms rubbed itself on the soft material of the rabbit. “Okay”, you said back making him nod in satisfaction.

“Good. Don’t let your feelings bring you down, Y/N”, he gave you a small peck on the forehead and then he was off to his side of dorm. Leaving you to daydream on the sudden affection he just displayed.

*****

4 months, that’s how long you’ve gradually felt the distance widen as each day passed by.

It happened in a blink of an eye, where once you would be by his side 24/7 soon turned into his shadow. He rarely made time to hang out or go on dates with you anymore, no more invites to see him during practice hours, he just cuts you off whenever you’re trying to commit on a topic to talk to.

“I have a date with Cheng Xiao, maybe another time”, he would often say with a smile on his face. Without bidding a goodbye at you, he dashes out of campus without much thought.

There’s never the promised maybe another time, because whenever he tried to do it, it will only resolve to “Oh… I forgot I have practice with Cheng Xiao” or “I promised her for a study together after lesson”.

Xukun, your best-friend had been ripped off completely from your life.

You would often find yourself staring mindlessly at Xukun in each class, during lunch or even self-study session in the library. The sudden emptiness hits you harder than you expected, especially since Xukun here literally sacrificed all of his time with his girl.

Sighing, another lesson is done and you’re off to another day without him bothering you. Because he’s already had plans again with her.

As you were packing up, out of the corner of your eyes you saw Linkai’s head popping in searching the whole room. When his eyes met yours, his hand waved wildly on the air causing you to smile. You motioned him to come in as the professor is already out, he obliged and strode over in big steps.

What you didn’t realize was Xukun who kept glancing when he saw Linkai came in. Linkai who noticed the stare gave him a little nod which Xukun takes and give back. His eyes stayed glued until Linkai stops by your table, clearly start talking to you about whatever new topic he got during his part of the lesson.

Xukun stare at Linkai in displeasure, wasn’t his class’s building like all across from this building?

When he heard another laughter escaped from you, his irritation just rise up. No, he shouldn’t be thinking like this. He has his own life now and you have yours, it’s your right to choose who you want to be with and he is already committed with Cheng Xiao.

He shouldn’t feel like this, he shouldn’t.

“I heard there’s this good ramen place near campus, let’s get lunch there”, Linkai said casually. You perk up at the sudden offer and thought about it. Cafeteria food where you have to fight with other people to get the most decent food or sweet savory broth of ramen noodles with elegance.

Linkai smiled a little when he sees your expression change. He took your packed bags and without warning, his hand clasped on yours and soon he drags you out of the lecture room. “Ramen noodle for the Queen then!”, he hollered as you squealed trying your best not to lose your balance.

Xukun stare quietly at the scene that had unfold in front of him. Silently taking in the whole situation in him.

“Did you see the way he held her hand? It’s so cute”, Cheng Xiao squealed to herself.

He smiled slightly at her and nodded.

When he got out of the lecture room with Cheng Xiao by his side, her arm interlinked with his. Xukun couldn’t help but feel the dissatisfaction in his system.

“Where should we have lunch?”, Cheng Xiao asked in pure glee. Xukun stops his track, mind racking in the question. Then it clicked in him, he knows exactly where their lunch date is going to be held.

“Let’s go to the ramen place down campus lane”

And so, they did.

This isn’t how you expected your 2 hours break to pass by.

You were expecting having the fun conversation with Linkai, basically joking around with the male. Served with good food that will make for you forget about dieting or calories, just pure guilty pleasure. Then maybe after lunch you would go to the library and catch up on some worksheets that hadn’t been done and then you would go home.

What you weren’t expecting was the couple joining in your lunch with Linkai. You stare at Linkai across of you, he smiled apologetically.

Then your eyes wander towards Cheng Xiao who’s sitting beside Linkai, she was too busy flipping the menu in pure happiness like a child who recently got sweets for doing some good deeds. Until out of the corner of your eyes, you see the person you least want to encounter.

The Cai Xu Kun, Xukun is here sitting beside you.

The moment you heard the ding from the door, you would never expect Xukun and Cheng Xiao to come here. Xukun rarely want anything soupy during summer, yet he barges into the place like he owns the place.

Cheng Xiao was probably in pure confusion and surprise when she saw you and Linkai. Willingly, Xukun let her stride over to your place. Linkai who was supposed to sit beside you, only stare at the scene unfolds.

“I never expected to see you both here”, she said. You only laughed awkwardly and waved at her. “Such coincidence”, you tried to say but it sounded more un-willing and a question why are you here?

“We should have lunch together!”, Cheng Xiao said in excitement.

Linkai who was clearly more aware of your situation took the call. “Ah, I don’t think your boyfriend would like your date to be bothered”, Linkai tried to reason out. Cheng Xiao hummed a little, almost agreeing to Linkai.

“No, I’m fine. Let’s eat together”, gosh you hate your fate with Xukun sometimes.

“Great! This will be fun!”, Cheng Xiao was clearly far excited and very much un-aware by the other 3 actors in the drama

Cheng Xiao smiled as she puts her bag across the seat of Linkai. Xukun here only place his bag beside Linkai, causing you and Linkai to look at him in confusion.

“I’m allergic to sunlight”, Xukun said as he pointed out the window seat beside Cheng Xiao.

You swore it took all your will to not laugh. Linkai stare at him, a small smirk finds itself rested on his face.

“What are you? A vampire?”, to say the least, Xukun was caught in surprise by Linkai’s comeback. Linkai simply leans on the seat more, obviously trying to piss the other male off.

You on the other side was not enjoying the whole drama, tried to think another solution before they both bite each other’s head off. You took your bag and slowly stood up.

“I’ll move next to Cheng Xi-“

“No!”, both of them snapped back causing you to jump back in surprise.

Linkai sighed a little, massaging his temple to calm himself from Xukun’s tantrum. “I’ll move”, he said as his arm grabs his bag rested on the seat. Just as Linkai passed by Xukun, he made sure both are close enough without a single gap in sight. “Asshole”, he said softly enough for Xukun to hear.

You leaned your head on your hand that’s rested on the wooden table, clearly finding this whole situation turning into a hassle.

Linkai tapped his finger at the menu, the slight small voice was enough to catch your attention. He smiled when you leaned in closer to take a small peak on what’s new.

“Should we share the tempura set?”, Linkai asked in a soft manner. You hummed still thinking about it, will you be able to finish it. “You’re paying the meal, right?”, you asked him almost hopeful. Linkai laughed at you and nodded.

“Then I want dessert after, let’s share it also”, you claimed to him. “Anything, anything for you”, he said back.

When Cheng Xiao was too busy squealing at how cute your tiny interaction with Linkai was, Xukun was almost at the edge of his sanity.

Sure, he noticed the sudden changes happening between you and him. Both of you would rarely have any time to spare for one another, but also because Xukun himself is already in a commitment he has to commit to.

His dating life had been nothing but bliss with Cheng Xiao. She’s beautiful, nice and hard-working by any means, basically everyone’s ideal lover. But then again, whenever Xukun she’s beside him being all cuddly like the usual couple things do, he couldn’t help but always thought about you.

He didn’t know why, he just can.

He tried to brush it off countless time, trying to hypnotize himself that he’s probably just misses hanging out with you. It’s the usual best-friend missing their other best-friend.

There had been numerous time he would often find himself resting on his bed, thinking about random things. Those were the time he would think too much and dread his life a lot. The one thought he mostly hated was the thought of having you as his instead of Cheng Xiao.

Those were the time he would just smack his head hard and go in the bathroom for a cold shower in 2AM in the morning.

How could a male who’s already committed thought about these scenarios? It was as if Xukun was willing to sin.

He didn’t know what was running in his mind. Xukun once thought about Cheng Xiao a lot, she always has the talent to draw people in. He had the idea of liking her and wanting her to be his officially, he did. Xukun will always remember the electricity jolting in his system whenever they accidentally touch, every single brain cells that never let him rest whenever he scored a date with her, and when he share the first kiss with her despite it was a small peck.

But why does he feel odd now? After 4 months being with Cheng Xiao, Xukun felt out of place and he didn’t know where he truly belongs.

“Should we order this set too?”, he snapped out of his trance to be met with Cheng Xiao’s hopeful gaze. Flustered, he only nodded. He seriously did not just bore his eyes on you.

When the food was served, all of you were far ready to devour. Xukun only lifeless took his chopsticks, feeling his appetite slipping away in each passing second. He nibbles on some a little before managing to finish half then he stopped.

Then his eyes started to wander around again, his mind getting hazy. He eyes bores itself on Linkai and you who was too busy talking to one another. The sincere smiles and laughs you gave him is always plastered on your face, he wondered had you ever done the same to him? Or was he too oblivious to know?

When Linkai shove another shrimp in your bowl, you simply shake your head. “Eat more, you need to grow”, he said sheepishly. You hit his bowl softly with your utensil, annoyed by his teasing.

“They’re so cute”, Cheng Xiao pointed out suddenly causing all three to turn back at her. Xukun was caught off guard, had she already noticed how his eyes was so glued to them?

“Do you guys ever consider on dating one another?”, she asked in pure curiosity.

Flustered, you frantically shook your head and dismissed your question before your eyes locked themselves on Xukun’s. You swallowed down a lump, very much uncomfortable on how the question and his intense gaze made you felt so small.

Without any warning, Xukun silently takes out his and Cheng Xiao’s share of bills and took his bag. The more he stayed, the more he will feel suffocated. Instinctively, his hand grabs onto Cheng Xiao’s and soon pulls both of them out of the place.

Xukun felt the relieve when the sun finally hits his skin, the feeling of fresh air and freedom rise into his system. The headache he has was slowly ceasing away, as if the whole situation was just a passing nightmare.

“Xukun”, he jolts up in surprise when he felt a hand slipped into his. He turned his head slightly to see Cheng Xiao, then slumped back in feeling the disappointment settles in.

He only smiled at her a little before continuing the path back to campus. Mindlessly, both started to walk back in complete silence.

Xukun didn’t know what got into him, what situation possessed his mind. As time pass by, he felt odd being with someone who’s not you. He felt odd seeing other people in his hand, he doesn’t feel in place. The more he thought about it, the more he just wanted to take you back from Linkai.

Was he afraid of losing you?

He stared quietly at Cheng Xiao, this isn’t right for him. The more he sees it, the more he thinks they are not compatible for one another. He noticed the differences between you and her, how would it be far better to have you beside him instead of her.

Compare to Cheng Xiao, your height fitted him better. Your height is just right whenever you stood beside him, he could easily circle his hand around you and pulls you closer to his side. The way your hand fitted in his, it felt right, it felt like home.

He missed the smile you’d often give him during any situation, he misses the time where both of you would stay up late in the night just to see him dance, he misses the time where he would crack crappy joke and you would just laugh at it no matter what, he misses the tutor session that ended up in him procrastinating, he misses the random time he would give you random thank you kisses on the cheeks.

He misses you, badly.

“Xukun”, he widened his eyes when he didn’t feel any presence beside him. The arm he once held was not there. He spun around in panic, the relieve flushed him when he noticed Cheng Xiao is still right behind him.

“I called you so many times already, you kept ignoring me”, she said to him. The smile is prominent on her face, as if the act he just pulled off was a joke to her.

Xukun didn’t know how to react towards the situation, he was far too uncomfortable by the whole scenario to even think a way out. He lets the silence filled both of their gaps, he was in no place to fix this situation anyways.

The more time passes, the more he felt both are already slipping away from one another.

“You’re in love with someone else, aren’t you?”, she asked him softly. Xukun stare at her in panic, afraid by the outcome. But she didn’t throw a tantrum nor try to be dramatic on him, Cheng Xiao kept smiling at him.

“You’re in love with Y/N”, she said. It wasn’t even a question anymore, both probably realized how this relationship will only be an act if they continue on.

Xukun looked at her in sorrow, pure shame and guilt in his eyes. Cheng Xiao nodded at him, understanding what he meant to say. “It’s fine”, she said.

When Xukun did nothing, she walked closer to him, slowly closing the gap both had. Her arm circled around him, feeling the warmth he always emitted. “Go get her”, she said when she pulled out of the hug.

“I’m sorry”, and he was off running.

*****

You smiled gratefully to Linkai when he dropped you off to your next class. It was still early for lesson, but you didn’t mind coming in early. “So… I’ll pick you up later?”, he asked. You shake your head a little, told him to keep the hassle away as you could walk back to your dorm alone.

When you were about to get into class, Linkai simply took a hold of your hand causing you to jerk back in surprise.

You stare at him in confusion when you see his distressed face.

“Have you ever considered of dating me?”, he blurted the question out. The breath hitched itself on you, very much caught off guard by his question. The slight blush crept itself on his face, he was more flustered than you’ll ever be.

“I was so unwilling to move back then, I threw a big tantrum to my parents that time”, he chuckled to himself. “It took me a while to come back and when I did, I made sure finding you was my only goal. I went to your old house, the new owner told me your family moved to the other side of town. It took me a while, until my friend who was in the same class as you told me.”

“You don’t know how my mind flew to cloud nine when you still remembered who I was, Y/N. I missed you”, he whispered.

Linkai looked at you, smiling. His face inches closer towards yours, closing the gap. You felt his hot breath tickling your upper lips as he came closer. When he finally pressed his lips on yours, you were expecting the adrenaline rise in your system, mind exploding with fireworks and butterflies in your stomach.

There was none, it didn’t feel right.

You pushed him away, in shock by what just happened. “I—no, I can’t”, you stuttered out.

“Linkai, I—I’m in love with someone else”, Linkai simply smiled at you, his hand traced itself towards yours. He held one on his, linking his fingers to yours before he pressed a small kiss on one of your knuckles.

“It’s fine”, he said.

“I’m sorry”, you said to him. Then without any warning, Linkai simply knocks your head a little. You were caught of guard when he suddenly laughed and brushed off the topic like nothing.

He sighed a little to himself. “If I never moved, do you think we would ever happen?”, he asked you softly. You pressed your lips against one another, thinking back during the days of Junior High.

“Probably, since I also liked you back then”, you said. He smiled at you, ruffling your hair a little. “I know, I missed my chance then”, he sighed.

“I’ll see you after class then”, he said already ready to make his way to his class.

“Hey, Linkai”, you called him. When he turned his head slightly, enough to lock his eyes around yours, you smiled at him. “Thank you for liking me—”, you said causing him to laugh.

“—and thank you for being my first love”, Linkai stopped. He stared at you, as if thinking it was all a joke you’re trying to pull off. You didn’t laugh, the tone and smile you gave is still as sincere as ever, filled with gratefulness.

He gave you one last smile and nodded at you, giving you a small ok sign.

Then he was off, his shadow swallowed down as he disappeared completely out of sight.

Silently, you took your seat in the lecture room and took out the books that are needed. Without any hassle, you simply flipped each page in hope to get your mind settle in from all the hassle that had happened before.

Having an hour to spare, you decided it was best to take a small breather out of the room. And you did, just as you were standing up, the door swung open once again as it gave you another jolt of surprise.

Your eyes locked themselves towards Xukun’s who was breathlessly heaving for air, his eyes were frantic.

When he noticed that you were in class, he didn’t waste any passing moment and walk in bigger steps to get closer to you. You were frozen, still processing the whole situation on what just happened because you know that after lunch, Xukun doesn’t have anymore classes as it was his free time to practice.

It took him only a moment to get to your place, standing across you still heaving for air.

“Make it stop”, he said.

You furrowed your eyes at him in confusion, not grasping the whole situation. “Make what stop?”, you asked him dumbly.

Xukun smiled at you, clearly finding this whole scenario unbelievably funny.

“This”, he pointed to his heart. You swore, it was either you were high in a food coma or what Linkai did still lingers in your mind to even make you think straight. Because out of nowhere, you simply blurted out “You want me to kill you?”.

Xukun stare at you in agape, clearly wondering how you manage to get this oblivious. When he noticed you were serious, he sighed a little.

“We broke up”, he simply said.

“Uh, what?”, you swore you thought you heard him wrong. You refused to believe him, especially since both of them was too struck in love from the beginning. He must be joking, he can’t be serious.

“I broke up with Cheng Xiao”, he said it again.

When he sees that you’re not reacting as you stared at him like his soul was coming out of his body, he knows he had to continue on.

“I’m not in love with her”, he said. You scoffed a little, feeling the adrenaline in you rising as he speaks.

“I thought I was in love with her when I’m only stuck with the thought of being in love with her. I don’t love her that way”, you stare at him. You were by far already very confused in his outburst, but yet decide it was best to leave him be. “I have no time for this lecture from you, I have class in less than—”

“I know Linkai confessed to you”, you sucked in a breath at his words. He knew?

“I met him when I was coming here, he told me”, he smiled sadly. Xukun didn’t know how numb he felt when Linkai told him about the confession happening, that the male actually kissed you also. Xukun only felt the rage building up inside him, yet he felt the scared seeing you slowly slip away from his life.

He didn’t want that, he needs you.

“Don’t leave me”, he pleaded. You only looked at him in confusion, how did both of you manage to get this broken? It was amazing to sense how 4 months ago Xukun was blindly struck by Cheng Xiao and everything crumbles on, leaving you in your own dark cube. Then here he is, begging his way back and pleading for you to stay.

Hurt, you were hurt by him and you don’t know if you are okay with him coming back.

“Go back, Xukun. You’ll miss practice”, you said trying your best to brush him off. But Xukun was more hard-headed than any male in existence. He wasn’t going to let this off easily.

“I’m in love with you”, he blurted out quickly.

You only shake your head slightly, almost laughing by his words. “You’re not. Stop saying things you don’t mean, Xukun”, this time it was you who pleaded back towards him. “You think you’re in love with me when you’re probably still confused by your own feelings, so please. Stop it and go to practice”, you said almost in a whisper.

Xukun stayed silent for a while. It made you thought that he would just forget about it and just go to his part of the building. He stayed, he never left.

“How am I supposed to forget about it when I myself is already afraid seeing you slipped away from me? Do you know how scared I was when you suddenly got back close with Linkai? My mind is always hazy thinking about what will happen if both of you end up together, I would never concentrate on my works because of it.”, he said.

“I know our feelings is mutual, Y/N. Please, stop pushing it away”, he pleaded.

“You left me first, Xukun.”, you said. “You left me for her and never glance back ever since. You always brushed me off like I never existed, throwing us away and now you’re crawling back as if everything is okay”, you said, your voice cracks a little at the end thinking more about it.

You looked at him, pure sadness and sorrow in your eyes. You smiled at him.

“You’re not in love with me, Xukun. You’re just afraid of losing me to Linkai.”, you said.

“I wanted you to be happy, I tried my best to let you stay that way even if it means sacrificing myself. Because for you, everything seems so worth it.”, you whispered out.

“I thought I didn’t mind losing a bit of you at first. But as days passed and I see you’re slipping away, I can’t help but feel the remorse settling in”, you gave him a small smile. “None of that matter, I always pushed my feelings away anyways. Seeing you smile was enough for me.”

Xukun scoffed a little. “Did you know how those 4 months suddenly become dreadful to me?”, he questioned you back. You simply looked at him, in utter confusion.

“I thought I was happy when I’m not, I thought I was in love with her when I’m just clearly confused by the fact I want to fall in love so badly. My mind was constantly thinking its way back at you, imagining how would it be that amazing to have you instead of her by my side—”

“Did you know how many times I’ve compared her to you? Then thinking I’m sinning in that relationship because of you? How many times I reassure myself that I just missed hanging out with you, when I am clearly in love with you but refuse to believe it?”, he choked each words out.

You felt the lump in your throat, you found the whole situation became more than unbearable to bear. You missed him, truly you do. There are no facts to hide that you’re still hopelessly in love with Cai Xu Kun, but what can you do?

“You didn’t just ruin yourself, Y/N”, he said in a mere whisper.

“When you did, you dragged me down with you”, he smiled at you. The same smile that will always reassure you whenever there is a whole other problem in life. “And when you did, you made me fall in love with you”

“For love to work out, both must be willing to sacrifice enough to know the true hardship of keeping it alive. For love to bloom, both must be in equal pain to know what truly lies ahead. For love to work out, both must be ready to accept one another despite mishaps and the ugly past one left. For love, I will and am willing to do it all”, slowly he takes you hand. Caressing it beneath his, the smile still prominent against his feature.

“I’m truly inevitably in love with you, Y/N”

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steviestevington · 6 years ago

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All the questions

oh fUCK okay here we go

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

Yeah they are

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

Of course they are omg

3. Are you a virgin?

4. Are you in a relationship?

Yes indeedy I am !

5. Are you in love?

God I sure am

6. Are you single this year?

Nope

7. Can you commit to one person?

I can and I am committed to one person !

8. Describe your crush

His name is Jay he’s got long black hair currently and green eyes and wears glasses he’s gorgeous

9. Describe your perfect mate

Jay lmao

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

11. Do you ever want to get married?

Absolutely

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

Betrayal meaning like cheating? If so no

13. Do you get jealous easily?

Unfortunately yeah rip

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

Yeah don’t tell him but I got a big fat crush on my boyfriend

15. Do you have any piercings?

Just my earlobes

16. Do you have any tattoos?

Unfortunately no :c

17. Do you like kissing in public?

Deadass love it so much

20. Do you shower every day?

Fuck no I ain’t got time for that

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

Well I sure hope my boyfriend does lmao

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Idk Jay might be but who knows

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Of fucking course, easily

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

I do not know honestly I could see it being maybe possible but who knows

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

I am and I am very happy about it

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

Yes

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

I think so maybe

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

I don’t think so, I hope not

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

Fuck no

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

Ehhh not really but if I had to choose something I would want my nose changed I hate it

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

Of course

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

Uhhh probably

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

Yes

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

Yeah I mean I liked my ex before we were dating and we were best friends

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

I don’t think so ?

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Yes

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Uhh kinda yeah

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

No I’m terrible at that shit

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

Bitch they wander immediately

43. How long was your longest relationship?

Like 4.5 years or something idk

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

Only one other boyfriend before Jay

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?

None

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

Zero

47. How old are you?

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

Well idk what I would say in the moment but obviously that would mean we’d break up which would be extremely unfortunate and heartbreaking

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

Literally everything there’s no way I can pick one single thing he’s perfect in every way

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

HAHAHAHAHAHA F U C K NO

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

Yeah his name is Jay

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

Uhhh idk maybe I’ve given up on crushes in the past because it was obviously not gonna happen but that’s all I can think of

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

I doubt it lmao

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

I mean I’ll never forget the shit my abuser did to me unfortunately

55. Share a relationship story.

I can’t think of any sorry agdhgfhsd

56. State 8 facts about your body

I will pass on that I don’t even know 2 facts about it that are more fascinating than “I have two arms”

57. Things you want to say to an ex

You’re a gross piece of shit and you had no right to pressure me into sexual things or treat me the way you did, you traumatized me in so many ways and I’ll have to live with that for the rest of my life, I hope karma kicks your ass one day

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

Bitch I don’t know Jay did it easily ask him lmao

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

I don’t have any good ones on my laptop so just go to my “about” page there’s a link in my description or look at my blog /tagged/my-face

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

I really don’t know I think the age difference between Jay and I is a little bit bigger than the one between my ex and I but I’m too lazy to figure it out

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

Their eyes or smile

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

I’ve got a real damn weird Thing for formal clothing so wear that for me n I’ll be so into it

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

Idk anything with another person involving genitals honestly

64. What is your definition of cheating?

It’s as easy as just having an emotional affair it doesn’t even have to be physical

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

I don’t want it to lead to sex but some intense making out is my favorite

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

No I don’t do that fuck off

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

Anything with your partner that you both enjoy is a perfect date

68. What is your sexual orientation?

Pan/ace

69. What turns you off?

Bad hygiene and a shitty personality

70. What turns you on?

Good hygiene, making out, neck kissing/biting, hickeys, my partner makin cute noises of pleasure while we are all over each other

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

LMAO if I ever have sexual dreams they’re extremely frustrating and I can never actually get All The Way no matter how hard I try so I wouldn’t say I have kinky ones cuz I’m always by myself I don’t like sex with other people

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

None I don’t like sex

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

I like being given flowers

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

A nice smile

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

Uhhh idk Jay always does extremely sweet things but what’s coming to mind is that he decided on his own to stop doing something that causes me severe anxiety because he doesn’t wanna put me through that and that meant a whole lot to me

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

Man I don’t know I always go overboard with things but I think my valentines day with Jay recently is up there with the sweetest things I’ve done

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

There should not me a maturity or development gap at all

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

I really want a dildo from bad dragon but I’ll probably never own one lmao

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

Uhhh idk when one of my bfs friends goes overboard with complimenting his appearance I get weird about it cuz I’m a dumbass

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

Idk I tell Jay I love him all the time so like 20 minutes ago probably afgdhfds

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

My boyfriend, my boyfriend, my boyfriend, my boyfriend, and Brendon Urie lmao

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

My dad

83. Who was your first kiss with?

My ex

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

I don’t know and I don’t really care anymore tbh

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

afdgsfd I mean that’s how Jay and I met so yeah lmao

#ask #anon

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avicebro · 6 years ago

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Hello Pollux! Can you explain your OTP tags?

This is something people want? Lol okay:

This includes League of Legends and Fate.

Fate:

otp: be my queen | richard/ayaka

reference to the fact that richard is continuously trying to get ayaka to be his master. since they are master/servant and i like them romantically it turns from “be my master” to “be my queen”. a good otp 10/10 narita when will you ever.

otp: avenger and ruler | edmond dantes/amakusa shirou

i hope this is obvious. it’s an avenger and a ruler. demonstrates the fact that they’re polar opposites but still good as a ship.

otp: dragon slayers | siegfried/saint george

reference to how they work really well together in defeating wyverns in fate/grand order. may include kojiro if i find some siegfried/kojiro art i like.

otp: thief and executioner | robin hood/charles henri sanson

i like these two, especially in the salem chapter. the ship name is reference to their roles: one is a thief, one is an executioner. i was also thinking of giving them a title like “the new fruk” cause that’s basically what they are lol.

otp: im a self insert | guda/fgo character

any art of a guda and a fate grand order character. mainly avicebron and dantes because that’s who i ship myself with. more characters may join eventually but im very gay.

otp: casters of opposing factions | avicebron/william shakespeare

in apocrypha they’re the casters for the opposing factions. in fate grand order they seem to keep this dislike for each other.

otp: a new isolde | tristan/melt

ok i haven’t seen the full ccc event yet but basically tristan compares melt to isolde so yeah she’s a new isolde for him. i don’t like how fate writes her name (isseult?) so we’re going with this spelling.

otp: i’ll make you tsar | kadoc/anastasia

this is kadoc’s plan in lostbelt, to make her tsar of the lostbelt. that doesn’t really happen though but they’re in love okay?????

otp: hate at first sight | kirei/kiritsugu

i was tempted to call them “beautiful ties” as a pun on their names but decided against it. hate at first sight because that’s what happened. get along you two.

otp: president and princess | rin/issei

their roles at school. proud captain of the rissei ship. i will love this ship by myself if i have to.

otp: like cats and dogs | gilgamesh/cu chulainn

this is because of ip. go through her gilcu tag. i swear you’ll come out a different person. gilcu is a good ship. they’re a cat and a dog.

otp: i hate everything you stand for | hansa/jester

hansa and jester both hate each other because of who they are. jester despises those from the church, hansa hates dead apostles. they’re fun.

otp: l’auteur malfaisant | edmond dantes/dumas

this is just what dantes calls him, “the wicked author” but in french. love these two so fucking much. if you want me to be happy just mention eddumas.

otp: beast like me | caren/angra mainyu

in hollow ataraxia, it’s stated that they are both beasts: caren for being born “out of wedlock” and angra mainyu because he’s all the evils of the world. they are both beasts by birth, and must deal with the sins from being called a beast. also a big otp.

otp: sad a lot | tristan/lancelot

i was originally calling this ship “tristalot” which sounds like “triste a lot” which is french for “sad a lot”.

otp: up until this moment my wish was being granted | medea/souichirou

OTP TO RULE ALL OTPS. god i love these two. it’s a reference to what medea says in UBW when she dies. man i love these two so much.

otp: the jewel resting near my heart | rin/shirou

reference to the pendent rin gives shirou. may include rin/archer i’m not sure yet.

otp: let’s destroy the world! | kirei/gilgamesh

wow this is late on the list lol. the ship name is what they wanna do. kirei route when nasu.

otp: on the defense | hector/alter cu chulainn

both of them are known for being defensive characters, both in playstyle and in personality. they’re old, tired men let them nap.

otp: i may not always be by your side | issei/shirou

this is a line issei tells shirou in prillya. love these guys a lot. especially with rin.

otp: sword and sheath | saber/shirou

that’s what they are. saber is the sword and shirou is the sheath. no sexual jokes please. like them romantically and as friends.

otp: my wish is for her to live | medusa/sakura

purple girlfriends. love them. love heaven’s feel. reference to a line medusa tells shirou.

otp: my superman | sakura/shirou

OTP TO RULE ALL OTPS. the best ship in stay night with kuzucaster. i love heaven’s feel so much. they were what got me into drawing. i love them so much. reference to the superman scene in HF.

otp: two too pretty boys | diarmuid/gilgamesh

this is 100% because they are attractive guys. that is it. the ship name shows this.

otp: you cursed me | emiya alter/kiara

don’t @ me i like these two. emiya alter an alter because of kiara, hence the ship name.

otp: you were literally made for me | gilgamesh/enkidu

I DON’T HATE THIS SHIP WHY WOULD I TAG AND REBLOG IT SO MUCH IF I HATED THIS SHIP? I simply stated that I am tired of seeing it so much in the f/sf tags. I do like these two shhh. name is a reference to the fact that kidu was made for gil.

otp: lance to the heart and you’re to blame | kirei/cu chulainn

hello i love kotoyari. reference to the UBW ending. feb 14 isn’t valentines day it’s kotoyari day.

otp: your dream is mine | kiritsugu/irisviel

i can’t talk about this ship without crying just know i love them. iri wishes for his dream to come true.

otp: i wanted a saber anyways | rin/saber

just gals being pals you know . and originally rin wanted a saber.

otp: the woman was a saint | kirei/claudia

im not crying you’re crying. a line in the VN.

otp: you remind me of someone | paracelsus/phantom

no this isn’t just because they’re pretty boys lol. like the idea of them being good friends who help each other when the other goes berserk.

otp: dancing with the devil | mephistopheles/paracelsus

there’s a lot of cool/interesting ship art between these two that’s really cool and i love. love the idea of them adopting jack.

otp: fist of the north star to the heart | saint martha/sasaki kojiro

just wait until the summer event. love how koji has joined the dragon slayer’s group. hope he enjoys his new friends. you have to fight her at one point for koji’s development. it’s a joke about how her np is a fist of the north star joke.

otp: calm desert nights | nitocris/scheherazade

reference to lalalack’s ‘desert beauty’ piece. they spend those nights in the desert exchanging stories, calming each other down.

otp: how about we put it to the test? | li shuwen/beowulf

what beowulf says to li shuwen before they start their fight. they like to beat each other up and it’s great.

otp: beat up a pretty face | beowulf/fionn mac cumhaill

who has the pretty face is up to you. reference to how fionn looks ephemeral in the beofionn art.

otp: a king and his knight | diarmuid/fionn

it’s their roles. yeah i know fionn “killed” him it’s fun.

my chivalrous knight | diarmuid/saber

who is the knight and who is chivalrous? up to you!

otp: blue knights | cu chulainn/saber

only two people ship this there’s only two posts i wanna die

a queen and her knight | saber/irisviel

based on when saber acts as her knight (aka all of fate/zero) in f/z. doesn’t have otp cause i’m lazy.

ot3: church trio | gilgamesh/kirei/cu chulainn

they live in the church lol.

ot3: we could have had it alllllll | sieg/jeanne d’arc/astolfo

based on the fact that apocrypha could have easily juggled the three of these into an ot3 but nope.

ot3: my two friends | gilgamesh/enkidu/kirei

there is only 1 piece of fanart in this tag but it’s a very good piece of fanart

ot3: this could have worked really well tbqh | kirei/gilgamesh/tokiomi

team archer could have been good if kirei didn’t get his dick sucked by gilgamesh.

ot3: princess president and prince | rin/issei/shirou

their roles - i think shirou should be a prince. i just really love rissei and shissei so why not combine them into an ot3 y/y?

group tag: aesthetic of death | gilles de rais, uryuu ryuunosuke, jeanne alter, prelati

i love these guys a lot okay? a lot of gilles/ryu because canon otp. was supposed to be art of death because of ryuunosuke's CE but it was mistranslated and i'm too lazy to change it!

group tag: equipe francaise | d’eon, marie, mozart, sanson

they are cute but this tag is pushed by my thirst for mozart. the tag means “french team” which is basically what they are right?

brotp: my retainer | waver velvet/alexander the great

im sorry i can’t ship this romantically but they are cute together!

brotp: troy's defense | penthesilea, hektor

these two are good bros who break pots together and will rip achilles' open

League of Legends:

otp: spin to win | katarina/garen

this is about gameplay. garen is known for his e, which is a spin. the joke “spin to win” comes from that ability. since katarina also has a spin, spin to win works for these two.

otp: drasona | draven/sona

it’s just their ship name lol.

otp: takes two to tango | evelynn/twisted fate

reference to the twisted fate and evelynn shared tango skins. such a good ship. i love them and twisted fate/graves. league of legends please do something with these two i stg.

otp: partners in crime | twisted fate/graves

man this is the best lol ship man i wish lol would do anything with this ship that would be great i love my gay men. and they’re working together again! nice!

otp: the sun shines for you | leona/pantheon

i don’t know what lol is doing with these two if if they’re actually gonna be together and i love diana/leona too but i’ve always had a soft spot for these two. also? a great bot lane if you can stomp early.

otp: it’s called art | jinx/jhin

to be honest i just think these two would be hilarious. let them just do whatever they want in piltover.

otp: collecting souls | thresh/kalista

aesthetic and also a great botlane. i just love kalista tbh. ghost wife.

otp: trying to keep the balance | shen/zed

wow the first otp for league of legends. good shit guys hope you guys get more content soon.

If a ship you know I like is not on this list it’s probably just tagged as the ship name! I’m probably going to go through and create tags for each ship like these as I think of them. If you have suggestions for ship names let me know!

#ship tags

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bonesfromyonder · 5 years ago

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All the numbers? :D

Oh god I'll answer a few ahah

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

nope, i mean i’m a solid 2 at best, so i shouldn’t be judging

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

for sure. to feel so close to someone is a beautiful thing.

3. Are you a virgin?

call me mary

4. Are you in a relationship?

with the fridge

5. Are you in love?

in love with a lot of things, but people? no quite yet, takes a lot for me to LOVE a person

6. Are you single this year?

i’m single every year

7. Can you commit to one person?

question is, can one person commit to me?

8. Describe your crush

9. Describe your perfect mate

shares similar morals, and can share a debate but also have patience and teach me new things. aesthetics wise i have a preference for brown hair and as much as o absolutely LOVE brown eyes, I always seem to fall for people with blue eyes, even though i find them less aesthetically appealing idk why.

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

yes and no. i believe you can be drawn to someone but the best relationships are built.

11. Do you ever want to get married?

depends on if i meet the right person

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

depends on what, why, who, but i am pretty forgiving, but will call people out on their bullshit

13. Do you get jealous easily?

yes and no, i get low key jealous easily but o can kinda switch it off? i just go from the jealous midset of 'i want that' to 'im happy for them' i'm really working on not being jealous but im a bit of a hothead at times

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

15. Do you have any piercings?

my ears closed up but i kind wanna get snake bites.

16. Do you have any tattoos?

nope bit i want loads, i want full on sleeves

17. Do you like kissing in public?

20. Do you shower every day?

i shower every other day to give my hair a rest but tend to take a bath on the alternating days.

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

yeah, if you can't then you shouldn't be in a relationship sorryyyy

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

probably not

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

nope

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

fuck no

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

everything

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

way too many times

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

it's the only love i have experienced

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

yep 😅

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

low key yeah

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yep, the last crush i had is soo not my type 😬

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

fuck yeah, thats just my type 😌

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

possibly 👀

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

cock blocked by a virus im tellin ya 😩

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

43. How long was your longest relationship?

Not very ahah

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

2, from early school years ahah

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

47. How old are you?

18 years, 19 in August 😬

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

i'd be happy for them. if you love someone, their happiness comes first, unless they led me on then i'd maybe be a little upset.

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

i'd do anything for a lot of people tbh.

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

my last crush 😅 too indirect and confusing. would call me darling and hold me on nights out but then would never actually go anywhere other than a night out on the town.

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

Shani ❤️

55. Share a relationship story.

56. State 8 facts about your body

its fat, it's ugly, its scarred, its disproportionate, but apprently i have a really flexible back, i can't think of anything else ahah

57. Things you want to say to an ex

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

being funny, spontaneous, creative. being gentle with animals. being passionate. i will sit and listen to anyone talk about there passions ❤️

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

their body language, i am a psychologist at heart ahah

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

be spontaneous. fuck valentine's day, why do you need a day to show someone you love them, if i see someone that reminds me of the person i love I'll get them that, and give it to them, not waiting for valentine's or a birthday or Christmas, this i why i am shit at birthday and xmas presents cos i give people gifts all year around 😅

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

having sex?

64. What is your definition of cheating?

cheating?

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

paintball or lazy tag bb

68. What is your sexual orientation?

69. What turns you off?

money talk

70. What turns you on?

touch, humour, idk basic stuff ahah

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

Bush did 9/11

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

hug me from behind

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

when Shani passed my artist friends gathered artists to do memorial art of her ❤️

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

idk aha

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

if you're both of consenting age, fucking go for it

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

Tom Hiddleston, Hozier, Chris Evans, Scarlet Johansson, Ben Howard

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

83. Who was your first kiss with?

My best guy friend 😂

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

why not.

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bennet-darcy · 7 years ago

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do all of the asks if your up for it !

I’m putting this under a read more because wow, it got long.

Sunrises: What is something you are looking forward to?

I’m really, very excited to have my exams over with, and to have finished my first year of uni! My last exam is on the 30th, so I’ll be done soon, yay!

Also, once I’m done with exams, I’m going to be going home to California for a bit to visit family, which I’m very excited about! Then after that, I’ll be going to Colorado to see my friends and family there, which I am also very excited about!

Honeybees: What is something you have done recently that you are proud of? It can be anything at all, even just waking up every morning.

Since I’m getting ready to move back home to the US, I’ve been reflecting a lot lately on my time here in the UK, and I feel really proud of myself for what I’ve accomplished in this amount of time. Moving to London, I had no connections. No friends or family here to make the transition easier. I was 5000 miles away from everyone I knew. The first few weeks living here were really rough, and I was constantly homesick, and fearful about the simplest things: going to get groceries, going to class, etc.

After about 2 months, though, I made some really great friends and developed great connections with lots of people at my uni, and a few from outside uni, as well. I feel really comfortable with living in London, and being on my own, and taking care of myself, now. It’s been a huge learning experience and I’m really very proud of myself for developing sort of a life for myself here.

Okay sorry for that novel, but yes. I’m proud of myself for what I’ve accomplished in the past 9 months, living in London.

Roller skating: What are your hobbies?

Recently, I’ve been taking dance fitness classes that are really a lot of fun. I’ve been enjoying that, a lot. I sometimes take random walks throughout the city, and check out local landmarks. When I was living at home, I played the violin every once in a while, but I’ve been out of practice for so long at this point, I probably don’t know how to play anymore, tbh. I also enjoy reading and cooking/baking (but with cooking/baking, I have to be in the right Mood to enjoy it?) Yeah.

Stars: What are your favorite blogs?

http://www.johnwatsonblog.co.uk/

http://www.thescienceofdeduction.co.uk/

Poppy flowers: What are your favorite flowers?

This…. I can’t.. Please don’t do this to me. I have way too many favorites, I cannot choose. Some of my favorites in no particular order are: roses, peonies, tulips, daisies, lavender, sunflowers, and carnations

Lemonade: What is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for you?

!!!!!!!! warning: gay screaming ahead !!!!!!!!

Okay so. At this point, you all know that uh, I’m gay, and that Devan is incredible and so lovely and a very important person in my life.

So. For Valentine’s Day, she made me a video thing? It was a compilation of clips from movies/tv shows that, all held some significance to either me or her, or both of us. She included clips from Love Actually (which is a fave for both of us), Ghostbusters (the first movie we had gone to see together), Pride and Prejudice (my favorite movie in the world), Moulin Rouge (another movie that we had watched together), The Office (a show that we both enjoy) and Sherlock (because sherlock and john are gay and in love and lovely, also Devan and I sort of began talking with each other because of Sherlock so :’) )

But yes, that was probably one of the sweetest things that anyone has done for me. It was just !!!! so customized, and each clip had special significance, and I can tell she put a lot of thought into it, and I cried so much when she sent it to me, and it still makes me tear up when I watch it. Wow. Literally just. Wow. Have I mentioned that she’s incredible? Oh my gosh.

Okay, gay screaming over. Sorry for being a sappy mess.

Dogs: What do you look for in friends?

Usually it’s important to me that the other person and I have at least a few things in common with each other, such as a common interest. I think that’s what the majority of my friendships have been based on.

Other than that, it’s really nice when I find someone that has the same sense of humor as me.

Painting: If you could dye your hair any color, what would it be?

I’ve always thought pastel colored hair is soooo pretty and cool looking! Light purple and light pink hair, especially. But I feel like I really would Not be able to pull it off. So uh. I’ll stick with brown hair, thanks.

Smiles: What is the greatest compliment you have ever received? What is a compliment you wish someone would give you?

Okay so I don’t know if this is the greatest compliment I’ve ever received, but this is the one that’s most current and fresh in my mind, so I’ll share this one:

On Thursday, I went to my last class of the year, which was my “Counselling Psychology” class. My teacher for that class, Augusta, is my favorite teacher I’ve EVER had. I really admire her a lot, and she teaches really well, and just has a great personality.

Anyway, I was a bit early to class on Thursday morning, and it was just her and I in the classroom. So during this time, she says, “Amber, I just wanted to tell you, I’ve just finished grading all of the coursework for this class, and your presentation as well as your reflective essay were incredible. You’re very good in this subject, and I can tell that you’re passionate about it. I hope you continue to study psychology because I know you would do well in this field. You’re a very bright young lady.” AND I LITERALLY JUST ABOUT DIED! (And I low-key cried a little bit.)

I just !?!??!??! Coming from her, that meant SO much to me, because I admire her so much, so to hear that was just so meaningful and great.

Fairy lights: If someone wanted to get to know you, what should they read/watch/listen to?

Read Pride and Prejudice, watch Pride and Prejudice, and listen to the Pride and Prejudice soundtrack. jkgsjkghsjg. I’m (kind of) joking. Umm?? I don’t know. I think my “Top 25 Most Played” playlist on my itunes sums me up pretty well. It’s a mix of Classical music, Ed Sheeran, Phantom of the Opera, Enya, Christmas music, and Pride and Prejudice.

Dancing: Describe your dream date.

Fun fact (or, a rather depressing fact): I’ve actually never been on a proper date, so this is all brand new to me, and I’m basing this answer on theory, rather than previous experience.

But um. I feel like I’m pretty low maintenance, in this regard. Cuddling and watching movies with someone sounds ideal, honestly. Or just like. Taking a nap. fjksdhgkj. Other than that, like if we’re actually GOING somewhere, maybe like? A museum or art gallery? The aquarium, maybe? I don’t know jdgksghk. My lack of experience with this is really showing, oops.

Rainbows: What always makes you feel better when you’re sad?

I call my mom and tell her what’s going on, and she’s always able to help me feel better about basically anything. I love my momma.

I also like watching comedy movies/tv shows when I’m feeling sad. I’ve been watching a lot of Brooklyn 99 lately.

Beaches: If you could go anywhere in the world, right this moment, where would you go?

Right this moment? Nowhere. I’m comfortable in bed, and I don’t wanna move.

Cats: What do you like to do on lazy days?

Sleep in as late as possible, stay in pajamas all day, bake cookies/cupcakes, watch a movie. Something along those lines.

Sunflowers: What do you want other people to think of you?

Umm.. I hope others think of me as being a kind, trustworthy, caring person. That’s so cliche and cheesy, but that’s really what’s most important to me.

Laughter: List 5 things that make you happy.

Watching my favorite movie

Sleeping in late

Spending time with people I love

Eating my favorite food

Petting cats and dogs

Balloons: When do you feel most like yourself?

I really enjoy traveling. It’s a really exciting, fulfilling feeling to have the opportunity to travel to places I’ve not been before. I feel most like myself when I’m wandering around a new city/country, trying to understand the geography, the language, the culture, etc.

Daisies: What is your favorite quote?

“You must know, surely you must know, it was all for you. You are too generous to trifle with me. I believe you spoke with my aunt last night, and it has taught me to hope as I’d scarcely allowed myself before. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I would have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love… I love… I love you. And I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.” - Mr. Darcy

Trees: Name one thing you have learned this past year that has made you a better person?

I have learned that my life and my decisions are not dependent on anyone else’s opinions or expectations. It’s up to me to create a life that I feel satisfied with, regardless of how it makes other people feel.

Polaroids: What is your favorite thing about yourself?

I’m a very dedicated person, and a very hard worker. I’m confident in my abilities to achieve the things that I want.

Sunsets: If you could paint the sky any colors, what would they be?

I love when the sky turns that pink/purple color during sunset! It’s so nice, and I wish it would stay that color forever.

#ask #about me #ask game #here u go anon here's all of the questions answered #i'm exhausted now i'm going to bed #this is much longer than i expected it to be #i'm sorry #long post

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disneydreamlights · 8 years ago

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I don't feel like picking questions so just use a randomizer or something to get like ten-fifteenish questions per ship, kthx. Ticole, Skyuuya, Cafe OT3, NiNick, Mirai/Fallon, Chrobin, VanAqua

Thank my birthday weekend, this shouldn’t have taken that long.

Ticole:

2. Who is the big spoon/ Who is the little spoon?

Even though Tip isn’t too big, Nicole’s so tiny she really wouldn’t be able to be anything else but the little spoon, not that she complains about it.

5. Who usually has nightmares?

While they both probably have them, Tip experiences them with alarming frequency I can easily imagine, especially post SE. Nicole very often is spending time up late consoling him.

9. Who makes the coffee (or tea)?

Tip’s a god in the kitchen, I’d imagine this stuff is made by him too. owo

18. Who is a cat person/ Who is a dog person?

They’re both cat people, I guess Tip would be more of a dog person than Nicole considering she’s kinda terrified of them, but he’s still a cat person in the end.

22. Who goes all out for Valentine’s Day?

So for their first Valentine’s Day Tip has never heard of the holiday so of course Nicole ropes in Ian to help her and she makes Valentine’s Day this really nice fanfare and goes all out...

Tip then decides that every Valentine’s Day needs to be that insanely fun and goes all out on it to make it the best Valentine’s Day for Nicole ever. It’s probably adorable.

31. Who is more affectionate?

Definitely Tip, it’s not that Nicole’s not affectionate, I just see Tip as that ridiculously affectionate puppy type character who follows Nicole around being adorable.

32. Who likes to have really long (deep) conversation?

Sleep drunk Nicole wakes up Tip and starts bugging him about stupidly deep stuff while the boy is half asleep and all she wants to do is start cuddling him while rambling about this stuff.

When they get older, the conversations start getting more realistic deep stuff and happen a lot less sleep drunk, but Nicole still brings them up.

34. Who would wear “if lost return to…” t-shirt/ Who would wear “I am…” t-shirt?

“If lost return to Nicole.” “I am Nicole.”

38. Who likes to star gaze?

I really like the idea of the two of them just going out and looking at the stars and being adorable together over it. So both of them.

48. Who loses stuff?

Neither tbh, they’re both really good about keeping track of things.

Skyuuya:

1. Who is the early bird/ Who is the night owl?

Sky functions as both, but prefers the day a lot of times. I see Yuuya very much as a night owl who can function during the day tbh.

4. Who wakes the other one up with kisses?

Sky purposefully pretends to be asleep even though she normally gets up at the crack of dawn just so she can wake up to a few kisses from Yuuya.

8. Who sleeps in their underwear (or naked)/ Who sleeps in their pajamas?

Both are in pajamas most of the time, I can very easily see Yuuya as the type of person to fall asleep in his underwear a few times though without thinking about it.

16. Who is scared of thunderstorms?

Sky gets uncomfortable in them, but only if they don’t have a very sturdy shelter around them, otherwise it’s probably neither of them.

21. Who has an obsession (over anything)?

Do obsessions over younger siblings count because these overprotective siblings are both obsessed with their younger sibling’s happiness. owo’

27. Who takes a long shower/ Who sings in the shower?

I don’t think either of them would sing in the shower, and while Sky would certainly like to take a long shower, the life they lead basically forces the two into taking showers as quickly as possible. Never know when despair might be ready to fuck you over.

28. Who is the book worm?

Both, but especially Sky, she’s super into reading and could spend literally hours pouring over a book.

34. Who would wear “if lost return to…” t-shirt/ Who would wear “I am…” t-shirt?

“If lost return to Sky.” “I am Sky” They both know who the more responsible one is. XD

37. Height difference or age difference?

I think they’re around the same age as each other. As for height differences Yuuya’s taller than Sky for sure.

43. Who wins the stuffed animals at the carnival for the other one?

Sky wins the stuffed animals for herself, Yuuya tries to do it, and he probably could if she’d let him, but she’s too determined and also too good so really in most cases she just does it for herself.

Cafe OT3:

5. Who usually has nightmares?

Kat has them more frequently when her anxieties get the better of her, particularly when it comes to her near “failures” during the adventure.

...Chris has them so much worse though, especially after coming back to life.

6. Who would have really deep emotional thoughts at the middle of the night/ Who would have them in the middle of the day?

...Don’t let Kat get sleep drunk. Just don’t. It’s a horrible idea, she’ll get super deep and rambly over everything.

7. Who sweats the small stuff?

...Well gee, I wonder when this OT3 has miss anxiety in it.

20. Who is dominant/ Who is submissive?

Dorothy’s most dominant, Kat’s most submissive because she pretty much goes along with everything. Chris falls in the middle.

24. Who is the talker/ Who is the listener?

Chris is great for listening to both his girlfriends when they tend to be having problems, I mean he’s not always great at solutions, but he likes listening to them talk and/or letting them vent when they need it.

26. Who likes to eat healthy/ Who loves junk food?

I genuinely see Chris with a candy obsession worse than my own. Dorothy’s probably the healthiest eater of the trio.

35. Who goes overboard on the holidays?

I’d imagine Kat and Dorothy both do when it comes to showing Chris the holidays, but Kat’s an Apprentice, it’s in her blood to go overboard on the holidays.

36. Who is the social media addict?

The closest any of them get is Kat runs a music youtube/vlogging channel.

41. Who cries during sad movies?

Chris is just flat out in tears over it, and Kat’s blubbering herself while trying to console him. They both need Dorothy to calm the two of them down during the sad scenes.

Kat gets extra emotional though if it’s a Disney movie. Especially the scene in Bambi where Bambi loses his mom.

42. Who is the neat freak?

I feel like Kat and Dorothy take equal responsibility over this. Probably a bit more towards Dorothy than Kat though.

NiNick:

6. Who would have really deep emotional thoughts at the middle of the night/ Who would have them in the middle of the day?

As somebody who has a difficult time being up in the morning at a reasonable time, Nina often gets deep emotional sleep drunk during the day, Nick has the reverse problem at night.

11. Who likes horror movies/ Who likes romance movies?

They’re both up for a good romance movie 95% of the time, but sometimes Nick will put in a horror movie just because when Nina gets scared she’ll choose to cuddle him. Good way to get cuddles after all.

12. Who is smol/ Who is tol?

Nina is smol, Nick is tol. XD

21. Who has an obsession (over anything)?

Nina has a Disney obsession worse than mine and that is saying something...I’d imagine both of them might also have a tiny sex obsession, just a small one. owo’

26. Who likes to eat healthy/ Who loves junk food?

Nick probably tries to convince Nina to eat healthily...key word here being tries. He doesn’t do a very good job of succeeding though.

31. Who is more affectionate?

Is both a fair answer? I mean I guess Nina’s a bit more so since she’s an affectionate little kitty, but I could really see it going either way.

32. Who likes to have really long (deep) conversation?

I had to give this one a lot of thought, but in the end I’m definitely gonna go with Nina probably bringing it up since she has the capacity to take things more seriously than he does.

35. Who goes overboard on the holidays?

Both, Nina goes more overboard though, I think. XD

37. Height difference or age difference?

...Height difference, Nick is like a foot taller than Nina.

44. Who is active/ Who is lazy?

Once Nina is awake, she is literally the most active person on the face of the planet and even Nick, who is not lazy, can’t keep up with her. Before she actually wakes up however...she won’t move from the bed. She literally has to be carried out of bed half the time if she doesn’t have a definitive reason to move.

Mirai/Fallon:

1. Who is the early bird/ Who is the night owl?

Mirai’s up bright and early a lot of the time, Fallon stays up wait working on some kind of experiment and is only up early if she has to, and has coffee.

2. Who is the big spoon/ Who is the little spoon?

Fallon big spoon, Mirai little spoon. :3

5. Who usually has nightmares?

Believe it or not, I give this one to Fallon. Mirai had a pretty okay childhood besides some bullying issues, and since she tries not to dwell on it, it doesn’t affect her psyche and while maybe post ST she experiences some pretty severe ones, overall the girl makes it out okay on the nightmare front.

I feel like Fallon, on the otherhand, has nightmares that would be terrifying to her and her alone.

11. Who likes horror movies/ Who likes romance movies?

Mirai’s a little romantic at heart and would love to watch romance. Fallon likes horror, but never puts them on because they scare poor Mirai. ;w;

13. Who is considered the scaredy cat?

This is literally Mirai the poor girl is probably scared of her own shadow sometimes.

16. Who is scared of thunderstorms?

Mirai hates the noise, but loves the rain, so she’ll often end up scared, but watching the rain fall down to calm herself.

34. Who would wear “if lost return to…” t-shirt/ Who would wear “I am…” t-shirt?

Of course the randomizer spits it out for a ship I don’t see being as likely to do it.

Fallon probably does it if Mirai begs enough, so...

“If lost return to Fallon.” “I am Fallon.”

40. Who is the fun parent/ Who is the responsible parent?

Fallon shouldn’t be a parent imo, but I guess it really depends on your definition of fun. If you want experiments with the dead you’ll probably find her more fun than Mirai.

41. Who cries during sad movies?

Mirai. XD

48. Who loses stuff?

Mirai accidentally misplaces things from time to time, but Fallon’s probably the one who’s more likely to get engrossed in something and lose something.

Chrobin:

5. Who usually has nightmares?

I’M ALL FOR ROBIN HAVING A SHIT TON OF NIGHTMARES POST GRIMA OKAY. They’re just so scared of being possessed again and even though Chrom tells them it’s okay they keep having dreams where they killed Chrom again and again and again and they can never escape them.

6. Who would have really deep emotional thoughts at the middle of the night/ Who would have them in the middle of the day?

Chrom gets super deep and rambly and sleep drunk in the middle of the night and Robin is just like “Chrom shut up go to sleep.”

These deep sleep drunk comments are of course mixed in with things like “I’m Naga and you’re Grima so that means when we’re together both the dragons are having sex right?” but you know he does have them sometimes.

20. Who is dominant/ Who is submissive?

Robin’s dominant, Chrom is submissive.

23. Who asks who out on the first date?

Well since Chrom proposes in game he probably asks Robin out first because they would never actually confess to him because of the difference in status.

25. Who wears the other ones clothes?

Robin lends Chrom their cloak all the time because he refuses to dress warmly so he’s just out in the cold with one arm exposed and so Robin just throws it at him like “You’re going to freeze otherwise.”

30. Who likes long walks on the beach?

Chrom, he uses them to make new memories for Robin.

34. Who would wear “if lost return to…” t-shirt/ Who would wear “I am…” t-shirt?

“If lost return to Robin.” “I am Robin.” Lissa sees them in these shirts once, bursts out laughing, and literally never lets Chrom live it down for the rest of his life.

43. Who wins the stuffed animals at the carnival for the other one?

Chrom tries to win them for Robin, but can literally never do it for them so they end up having to win the stuffed animals for themself, and then for Chrom later when he sees one he wants and still can’t win the carnival game.

44. Who is active/ Who is lazy?

Robin is always doing something, Chrom has to convince them to take a break pretty much. Chrom is a lot more laid back, so he’s got a bit more of a lazy streak, but he’s still pretty active.

48. Who loses stuff?

You’d think Chrom would be the worst offender of this and admittedly he’s pretty bad but no, Robin is so much worse about this because they just get their nose stuck in some strategy book and then just epically fail at keeping track of shit.

VanAqua:

1. Who is the early bird/ Who is the night owl?

Aqua’s very used to getting up early due to training since Eraqus always started training early, Vanitas very much loves the night.

5. Who usually has nightmares?

Both do. Aqua has a lot of nightmares after her time in the realm of darkness and Vanitas...he has like a billion and one from his time with Xehanort when the old man abused him.

19. Who loves to call the other one cute names?

Aqua takes to calling him “Van” or “Vani” a lot of times as a way to shorten his name, but for the most part neither one of them really uses any cute nicknames.

31. Who is more affectionate?

Aqua starts off as more affectionate but the truth is Vanitas is very starved for affection so once he starts getting it and figuring out what it is he starts giving it to anybody who gives him affection very, very frequently, and that includes Aqua.

33. Who would wear “not guilty” t-shirt/ Who would wear “sin” t-shirt?

Vanitas 110% wears sin, Aqua only puts on the not guilty t-shirt after he begs her to do it because he finds it funny. She gets her revenge with the “If lost return to...” and “I’m...” shirts. XD

38. Who likes to star gaze?

Aqua, she had to convince Vanitas to go out and look at the stars with her the first time they did it.

43. Who wins the stuffed animals at the carnival for the other one?

...Listen I’m not saying Vanitas takes a love of stuffed animals from Ven, but Vanitas gains a love of stuffed animals from Ven, so he bugs Aqua about winning it for him.

47. Who has the more complex coffee order?

So while Vanitas is super picky about his coffee to begin with and probably would’ve only drank it this way anyways, he purposefully picks the most complex coffee drink in the world, meanwhile Aqua’s just like basic cream and some sugar person.

He also purposefully does this and makes his orders worse if we’re dealing with a coffee shop AU and Aqua’s a barista.

49. Who is the driver/ Who is the passenger?

Vanitas tries to take the wheel but Aqua will literally refuse to let him drive because he’s kinda really bad at it, so she’s the driver most of the time.

50. Who is the hopeless romantic?

Aqua’s such a hopeless romantic, Vanitas wants to shake her view of this but really he fails and she probably does a much better job of convincing him of her own romantic view points.

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last winter quarter mumbles...

First day of winter quarter: Only one class! #yas #nolab Also secret santa with the house! The circle: Me -> yuri -> vania -> leighton! Also i think i’m sick… EDIT: I AM SICK FUUU

cogs 187b - random groups pls kill me side note, there’s this guy that looks like jeff and i keep thinking that it’s him but it’s not so it’s super awkward when i stare just 0.1 seconds too long

damn what a wild morning i literally. cannot. with. my. body. this. first. week. #mlkday EDIT: in case i forget, i had like the worst case of food poisoning i have ever had in my life

bruh like i basically had a 4 day weekend cause i’m hella fuckin weaksauce these first two weeks wot is life side note: retreat was fun! and also lake arrowhead that we’ve been going to? IS WHERE THEY GET ARROWHEAD WATER i’m deceased. today i learned

y’all i can’t believe bts is going to have a comeback in february also i can’t fckin believe that the army bomb v2 has its own teaser photo bighit is so extra

Omg i fucked up one of my eyebrows …time to grow it out and then get it fixed

i think i’ve literally been living under a rock how did i miss the fact that mom literally has THE BEST matcha latte ever on campus? wtf what a concept

I somehow managed to get a free trial for BTS channel+ 아싸! Things are starting to look uphill from here cause my ded self is risin’ Bless

8am on thursday of week 2 woke up at 7:20 by yuri - the time i was supposed to leave gg to the both of us for not waking up omg LOL we got to school late but that’s besides the point i should probably get some waterproof jeans or something lmao

when you don’t think your stomach is strong enough to handle coffee just yet but everything in mom smells hella fckin good

sometimes…why…can’t…you…think?!?!?!?!?! #struggles

OMFG army bomb v2 changes color everybody go home wtf this is great #goodbyemoney

missed the army bomb v2 preorder, got sold out cause we waited too long :< EDIT: OMFG I CHECKED THE ANAHEIM TICKET PAGE JUST FOR KICKS AFTER MY SHOWER AND THIS GURL WAS LIKE THE BOMB IS GOING IN AND OUT OF STOCK AND I WAS LIKE HAHA NO WAY. so i went to check it and OMFG IT WENT BACK IN STOCK SO I WAS LIKE OMFG VANIA DO WE DO IT and we did it and it has been done there is no going back this is happening we bought the army bomb lol and immediately after i preordered it, it went back to being temporarily out of stock again wow wot is life

Thursday week 2 I didnt realize i was awake since 7:20 today…my brain thought what happened this morning were events from yesterday

The rain is so real. Almost skipped discussion. Good thing i didnt :O

BTS comeback on feb 13th Preorder starts jan 25th Im fuckin ded i just bought the lightstick Im hollerin

fml both versions of the album are my aesthetic i want to cry

omfg why did tumblr change the tags into bolded font TERRIBLE

Lol omg i was gonna go to sleep but then someone logged onto the monsta x plus channel and i was like i wonder who it could be AND IT WAS KIHYUN so i stayed lul wot

내 미래를 향해 가 저 푸른 바다와 내 헤르츠를 믿어 Hey oh, oh hey oh yeah #rediscoveringlyrics #andfallinginlove

really debating getting the bts album(s) but i shouldn’t because money because i should pay for my trip because i should have priorities EDIT: i got them

omg i want to die i just sent out like 3 job applications with the wrong dates on the cover letter shoot me

this girl straight up braiding her hair in the seat infront of me but dropping her hair onto my laptop SMH

but like why doesn’t pokemon go work on my phone anymore?????

daily reminder to take one step at a time

been pampered by coffee on campus that starbucks taste real shitty

LUNAR NEW YEARRRRRRR #year2kbbq Lol omg so we decided to have a house dinner. And then we were like ok korean food and so we ended up deciding to go to kogi! So we were like it dun matter if we go to happy hour since it happens after 9pm but lol we got there around 8:20 but ended up waiting until like 9:30 anywayssss. Dinner was so great i ate so much meat tbh i dont even know whether or not i need to eat tmr LOL Then we drove home at like 11:30…and sat in our garage from 12 to 12:30 because we were too lazy to move from the car HAHA WHO R WE Also apparently, according to yuri and vania, we had the same waiter as last year and lel LEAVE IT TO US TO GIVE HIM HIS NEW YEAR GREETINGS HAHA. And here i am in bed with the biggest food coma. Let me end this with some season’s greetings lol 새해 복 많이 받으세요. 祝大家新年快樂！生體健康、學業進步、年年有餘、and most importantly 心想事成! ✨

I just got three bug bites on my ankle out of nowhere like???

after thinking long and hard, vania and i pre-ordered the albums today #goodbyemoney

why do i always find live streams for bts things at inopportune times??

i really still can’t get used to the way my vis60 professor lectures. she pauses at the weirdest times and emphasizes the most inopportune words… “i can think of. Perhaps - the most different. contrasts” ”the decisions. to make. something.” like…that is so hard to understand at 8am…

y’all i can’t wait to watch all the run BTS videos i’m so excited

Nervous about tomorrow but also excited about tomorrow I hope everything goes well! #interviewtime

bighit literally has no chill right now i thought concept 2 photos were going to come out a week later but then BAM IT HITS US IN THE FACE ONE DAY AFTER ANOTHER

2/2/2017 A day full of stufffs #praying #hoping #maybethingswillworkout Honestly, super thankful that my AB experience prepared me for group activities and on-spot presentations lOL (but like lowkey doe this one guy would have failed my group activity if he was interviewing for my trip smh) ALSO I MADE FRIENDS ;____; but i only managed to add one of them on fb, i should’ve added the other guy too *crying* but that’s ok. if fate has it, we’ll see each other again lel. EDIT: daily reminder that we fall down just to get back up

Bruh photography class got me like ??! CAUSE INCLEMENT WEATHER AND I SHOULDVE JUST TAKEN PHOTOS YESTERDAY I’M SUCH A NOOB

i made my own wintermelon tea and then my own wintermelon milk life is ok and going good

today yuri and i saw violin guy while we were sitting outside of ledden and i may or may not have freaked out too hard and he may or may not have noticed lol

watching hwarang and thinking wow park seo joon has come far since his dream high 2 days lololol

I saw a really cute ring on etsy Debated for a few days and …i bought it

I lost the little screw in my car key gg

Went hiking today with part of my group! It was lovely and 6 miles and now i’m tired hnngh

omg everyone park seo joon released his own version of that tears song for hwarang and it is like actually one of my favorite songs from the soundtrack HNNNGH

lowkey getting overly excited about hwarang ost fklewjafkelwa

This guy behind me straight up talking about how there’s some kind of apocalyptic event every century and how after each event, stability is restored. He was telling his friend to….create an apolyptic event right now to restore stability. I’m boutta flip a shit LOL WHAT ARE THEY TALKING ABOUT IT BETTER BE SOME FICTION NOVEL

Week 5 meeting MY AND HARRY’S FIRST FULL MEETING HOW EXCITING I LOVE IT

omg my professor is cancelling class on feb 14th and omfg BLESS NOT HAVING AN 8AM AND ALSO I CAN STREAM BTS CAUSE COMEBACK. LIFE IS GREAT. EDIT: no streaming because the first time they perform will be at the concert omg so shookt

not to be petty but i checked the revision history to see how much work my team members did and this one guy (who didn’t contribute last time either) did one slide and all he did was add the title somebody hold me back why do i always have teammates where i need to carry #hardcarry해 #smh

I fucked up by updating the messenger app smh

Finally got my tdap booster today It hurts Like an itchy mosquito bite Smh

y’all i was so shookt when i woke up to not today’s teaser OMFG JFKELAJFKELSJA IT’S GONNA BE LIT

I woke up at 7:30 on a sunday morning to watch the spring day music video and i’m so shookt by the edting and the song almost made me cry because lyrics And there’s the whole theory where they’re dedicating this song to the sewol accident and i just ;____;

그래 우리는 extra Omg i cant believe rapmon said that LOL SO ICONIC MY LIFE MOTTO FOR THE NEXT MONTH

when i first heard not today, i wasn’t really feeling it much since i feel like the teaser hella hyped it up but now i’m hella feeling it this is fire 2.0 LOL

ALICE CAME TO VISIT week 6 weekend Sushi ota on thursday night - BLESS NO MEETING HAHA Friday night bbq with the same waiter from lunar new year LOL he spoke to me in korean omg i almost forgot how to speak? Saturday morning cowles hike! And then….boba…and then ded Sunday didnt see alice ): but das ok i got to just rest and do a bit of hw

why 왜 為什麼為何我做的事你也要跟著做 Side note. Why is the font size inconsistent for my chinese keyboard ???

Dont like the new gmail But it’s not actually new cause im just a noob for not updating Sigh

ARMY BOMBS HAVE SHIPPED. I REPEAT. ARMY BOMBS HAVE SHIPPED.

i had a dream that i was on a korean show or something and then i got assigned to sit next jungkook (omg it was like not up to me but then i was like holy shit holy shit?) and then we took a trip to the grocery store to get snacks? but like the thing i wanted was too high for me to reach so he grabbed it for me? but then somehow we ended up exchanging kkt somewhere in the grocery store lmfao what kind of dream is this but then his managers chased him down because he’s not supposed to do that or something? oh well LOL wut EDIT: who am i

i accidentally swallowed some toothpaste this morning

fml i just saw spoilers for hwarang EDIT: OMG SO DANGEROUS I ALMOST JUST SAW ANOTHER ONE AND NOW I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. NEED TO UNFOLLOW THE TAG FOR NOW

han got me pizza and a shitton of parmesan bites for valentines day :> happy child

man holy shit ep18 of hwarang had too much shit i cannot process

omg i’m gonna die park seo joon is so cute in she was pretty

omfg i was JUST wondering if park seo joon would have to go to the military qq BUT HE ALREADY WENT!!!!!! side note: i told vania i was going to finish she was pretty in two days and i really finished it in two days…

Week 6 Thursday ARMY BOMB IS HERE! #yas in retrospect, should’ve just bought the albums from the official shop cause who knew they were paying for EMS cause dayum, my army bombs got here in 3 and ½ days. SHIET so excited it’s lit

Seventeen’s lightstick hands down the prettiest lightstick i ever seen omg

i need to stop this whole “treat yo self” mentality went to return pants to zara that cost 42.99 walked out of f21 with 42.09 worth of clothes lol wtf BUT THAT FREAKING 65% OFF ON TOP OF THE ALREADY MARKED DOWN PRICE? i got three things for $9.10 omg bless? but that one other jacket i got was 29.90 ): is it worth it? eh we’ll see however, i would’ve stayed if it weren’t for my yogurt in the car…and actually shopped a lot LOOOL it was so worth then i came out to a storming STORM GOD SO MUCH RAIN but now i’m home and dry and happy

i’m sitting here streaming the bts wings tour in seoul and getting highkey emotional it’s 1:30AM what is life when bangtan is life

WEEK 7 HAN CAME TO VISITSSSSSSS

unbelieveable han puts me on do not disturb on his laptop SMH

hello but can we talk about the not today mv HOLY SHIT not as fire as fire but still so JKLFJEKLSJF there are so many things in this mv that are just. omg i cant side note - i made han watch it with me LOL

tae and rapmon’s headband look jungkook’s pink highlights yoongi’s blue highlights what’s not to love

highly likely to go blind cause of vis 60

really been craving strawberry milk …and thai food

gonna give up sugary drinks until the end of this quarter *gasps* goodbye amazing tasting coffee drinks T^T

my arms are so sore from the spam musubi making fuuuuuuu

i forgot harry was only 19 and then i was like omfg jungkook is still only 19 too wut

thanks to jungkook, i have finally pinpointed one of my more or less favorite genres: tropical house…which han apparently doesn’t like LOL

Want 족발 Must go to grandma’s lunch on a weekday qq

Rewatching fire mv Why are they ironing jin at the behinning Suga has fake freckles? Why does 1thek have 5 million ads/links

Spam musubi and 8am got me so tired I went to sleep at 12am Why is it that when i go to sleep early, nothing happens in my social life and everything happens in bts life While when i sleep late, everything goes on in social life but nothing in bts life????

The world does feel really slow when you’re in a rush

dreading the photography critiques sigh

Stayed up to stream mcountdown because lol why not right? Even though i have an 8am…. NOT TODAY PERFORMANCE WAS SODIJWWJDIWK FUCKING JEON JUNGKOOK WINKING AT THE END HOW RUDE wtfbbq And also spring day choreography got me feeling some typa way? Shiet….maybe i can learn this…maybe ALSO ONG won that 1st place by a landslide WE ARE A FORCE TO BE RECKONED WITH y a s

Just realized that there’s no “winking” emoji without the kiss What even Also i just unconsciously winked at my phone while looking for the wink emoji… Imagine the possibilites of face detection to emoji translation. Texting would be so much faster #busthoughts

omfg i was like where am i gonna ever use my bts cd ON THE CAR DUHHHHH!!

REALLY DREADING GOING INTO REVIEW ON MONDAY BECAUSE PICTURES WERE NOT GOOD FOR PROJECT 3 want to crawl into a hole why didn’t i take this class p/np lmao who am i EDIT: everything is ok she actually didnt hate them

Feels so great to not do anythingg this weekend??? Omfg But yo i literally slept from 8pm till 10am almost 11 and if that doesnt scream me i dont know what else does

i bought a “day old” pastry from mom today and it’s an espresso mocha chocolate chip scone thingy and i’m in loveeee

waiting for packages from korea to come~ no EMS is sometimes a pain~ we’ve been too pampered by amazon prime~

Feeling a little discouraged BUT i’ll stay positive!

I mean I can technically go to those concerts in japan Technically

Omfg leave me forever incapable of closing my water bottles correctly? SMH PLS DONT

Found out that my photography TA is 26. Das like alice age And also her first phone was the peanut looking motorola LMFAO CAUSE ME TOO

봄이왔다~ 春天到了~ CAUSE IT’S MARCH AND THE WEATHER IS REALLY NICE and i’m, for some reason, in a really good mood. it could be the music but it could also be the weather ahhhh this feels nice :>

Omg my ring from etsy finally came!! GREETINGS FROM SPRING AMIRITE After a whole month ;___; it finally got here on march 2nd Ugh but it’s so nice and pretty i’m about to die And it really was made to order! That’s crazy. It’s so cute and adorable If only their stuff wasnt so expensive I would buy like everything

When the right volume for your music is right in between the button volumes so you gotta manually slide the thingy VERY carefully

OUR KOGI WAITER WE JUST SAW OUR KOGI WAITER AT PC OMFG

Issue night: “I dont know how they had time to come up with an acronym (USA PATRIOT) maybe they were in shock or something….(from 9/11)” LOL “Lowkey sus” - Abe [the babe]

cooked curry with everything today reaffirmed that i dont like carrots that much

Debating getting more rings on etsy HNNNNGH struggle is real

I saw a license plate the other day that said “NUTELLA” and the same “UOUOUOU” car parks in peterson all the time lol

Had a dream that i met jungkook while checking out the bts schedule with vania Like the schedule said that they just had a fan meeting and they were gonna walk around the area and their fans could follow them or soemthing And i was like shit but do i wanna do that and vania was tryna convince me…but i thought that there would be too many fans so… And then jungkook fckin pops outta nowhere and somehow we got talking and ended up somewhere? Like their dorm or something And we were just browsing through army pictures of them and whatnot And then he was being all kinds of diff “kook” where he was a fangirl kook…and then regular jungkook where he “kissed” me on the cheek it was weird Dont remember the rest cause i woke up LOL EDIT: i think i wrote this while still being half asleep please excuse my fangirl tendencies LOLOL

Omg the kettle cooked jalapeno chips are so good wtf Dangerous

want to watch hyungsik’s new drama but i shouldn’t i shouldn’t

jungkook’s look in the spring day dance version is so boyfriend i cant

oh yeah how did i completely forget to mention that my week 8 was pretty much entirely occupied by yuri on ice!! after freaking week 7 annoying ass shit with everything due that week wow what a struggle

rewatching haikyuu!!

I. AM. SO. EXCITED. TO. READ. AEOE. AHHHHHH if only i could find the third book of the series as well )): qq EDIT: TIFF FOUND IT. bless her soul

March 6th The one day i decide not to check the mail THE ALBUMS COME IN A PACKAGE BY THE FRONT DOOR VANIA CAME HOME AND WAS LIKE AHHHHHH it was definitely a “shut the front door” moment Also onfg we took forever going through the album and just freaking out Vania got rapmon and jungkook photocards While i got jhope and jungkook photocards In retrospect, it was shipping like on feb 20th and took only around 2 weeks to get here so i would say that was pretty damn great Ugh they’re so beautiful why We also got random photocards created by kpopmart so those were a nice gift! I put them on my wall and kept one in my card holder thingy LOL I also put up a standee on my desk Now where to put the posters 🤔 HA It was a nice surprise :>

Lmao the recruiter called me this morning at 8:30AM but our call was supposed to be at 11:30AM, i’m surprised i even woke up It’s a miracle i even stuttered through that phone screen #shetotallymissedthepart #whereiwrote #PST

Craving chocolate milk and i neglected to get that On the otherhand, i spent around 21 bucks at trader joes getting all the healthy foods that i love AND ALSO STRAWBERRY YOGURT O’S THAT WERE JUST MY AESTHETIC EDIT: ok but like not only were they aesthetically pleasing, they also taste great. also the fact that they’re just a bit fatter means that they’re crunchier and takes a lot longer to get soggy in milk im in love

You know what they say When you crave choco milk You been traveling through time and space

had a one on one with harry at k cuisine today definitely gonna find time to go back and eat more chicken glad harry wanted to eat korean chicken and i actually had a place in mind also they were playing so many kpop songs that i knew and all the goblin songs were getting me real emotional lmao

Hnngh they’re gonna sell merch at the bts wings concert What is gonna stop me from buying shit if there’s actually enough stock Im ded EDIT: jk i cant believe that official merchandise goes on sale on march 9th aka tmr because korea time and like wtf ok bighit just let our wallets die and wither away smh i cant

Gonna have to hold off on buying rings or not buying them at all because bts merch ;___;

omg but ?? the video that jungkook made yoongi was so damn cute? also…editing on point… EDIT: i would fall in love with editing because it’s the damn iphone 7 promotional video that apple made. wot is lifeeee omggg that was crazy (why don’t i keep up with current trends? where was i??)

lol watching all the wings md getting the little “temporarily out of stock” red sticker haha

JK got new piercings right where i wanted to get them please stop tempting me i already told my dad i wouldn’t ask again hnngh

omg i had thai food for the first time in forever~ (ok realistically like week 3 but like still)

all these photos from the concert im ded because how do people have the money to go to multiple concerts esp in different countries? (aka headliner…) tumblr is too distracting

i broke my comb that one weekend that leighton went to irvine…because i dropped it on the floor…i was, to say the least, shocked weekend before week 10, i finally bought a new comb lOL

GOT7 never ever thoughts Yugyeom’s voice hit me in the face Choreo at the beginning looks nice I dont know how i feel about the chorus doe Wait. Yugyeom cant happen to me because omfg jungkook but wait they’re such a killer bffl pair fml

new highlight song got me shookt because…..b2st will always be <3 in my heart esp yoseob’s vocals

i’m having another watch phase dammit

actually really like bap’s comeback this time side note: harry calls it “bap” like “bop” but with an A. LOL

Day of daylight savings Couldnt sleep Reading AEOE Didnt sleep til 5am And now skipping 101b What needs saving is obviously my body not the daylight

When you realize out all the current playlists made on spotify, your music taste is closest to jin’s LOL

Week 10 tuesday Broke my retainers D: EDIT: got an appt with an ortho because need to get them imprints before my teef get shifted but holy shit dude it’s $350 for one retainer im ded. And i called 4 different places and it just keeps going higher and higher im

sharing opinions in photography class is hard because i can’t words

GLOW. IN. THE. DARK. RETAINERS. #gottagetmoneysworth

do you ever do that thing on facebook where you’ll be like “i’ll just scroll to a place where a video stops playing” but then the moment the first video stops, another comes into the browser and starts playing oh wait oh my god THEY MUST HAVE BUILD THEIR PAGE TO BE RESPONSIVE TO THE SIZING OF THE WINDOW SO THAT THAT WOULD HAPPEN AND THUS IT WOULD KEEP PEOPLE SCROLLING ON FACEBOOK facebook is evil everyone

too loud -_-

Discovering a tiny mole on jungkook’s nose

i can’t believe i’m sick for the 3rd time this quarter body r u ok also…runny noses aren’t fun my nose is literally leaking can barely reach for a tissue in time smh

i just saw a spoiler for the run bts episodes -_- tumblr is never safe

It’s hard to believe that i’ll be leaving for my trip in 4 days It’s hard to also believe that after that, vania and i will be heading over to see bts Oh man This is exciting

Flood warnings in peru making me have high blood pressure #pleaseleteverythingbeok

my trip got cancelled i am in shock still

Im so numb I think im ready to pass out

I broke one of the little feet thingies on my charger…. SMH

I feel broken But Getting it back together Currently on do not disturb

lol.....gonna end this one on a somewhat sour note because that’s actually how the quarter ended. spring break was a week full of shit as well. however, it was also a week full of healing and self love - as much as i can give myself for that matter

so we’ll leave it here. last winter quarter of my college career - one of the most busy in terms of AB life and one for the books for all the shit that has happened. i really wish that #adversity won’t be associated with this forever but looks like it’ll be related to this for a while. lOL.

moving right along~ things I can look forward to: spring break mumbles, last quarter mumbles! #staysane #staypositive

#winter quarter mumbles #debs in college #mumble mumble #bts #because #it took over winter quarter too #LOL

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