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Lawlight Week Day 2: Soulmates
If you saw me repost and re-edit this several times uh No you didn't </3
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#death note#dn#light yagami#l lawliet#lawlight#oh god here we go#death note jdrama#death note 2015#death note 2006#death note musical#lctw#l change the world#dntm#lawlightweek2024#my art#collapses i am NEVER putting this much effort in one piece ever again /hj this was the Only one i had mostly prepared in advance#ironically the most painstaking part about making this entire thing was converting the images into an animated file#that wasn't either horrifically compressed or just. wouldn't loop. why do gifs have to look so BAD it's so inconvenient#and THEN i realized I had to forcibly Stitch the two animations together so they would actually be synced and it wouldn't look dumb#and the end result is STILL so compressed. because Tumblr. uhhh just don't click on it it'll look so scuffed LOL. anyways#this is what i get for watching Every Adaptation of Death Note. i am a death note multiverse truther#usually i'd have something clever to say in the tags but. this drained the life out of me just uh.#yeah. they're doomed in every universe. this is the only way they could've met. they are doomed by their own natures and the#circumstances that surround them. there is no universe where light tries to prevent L's death. and even in the cases where L Doesn't die#there is no universe where L can save light. there is no universe where he can truly “catch” Kira and make him see where he went wrong#(<- if you read LCTW you know. :) )#in every universe and adaptation L will call Light his first friend. in some universes they'll take that notion more seriously than others#no matter what one of them will die due to the other. its the only constant. it's the only way it can ever be. they are the others downfall
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i found a bad post i made months ago in the privacy of my own home and now i need to air it out in public because it's getting mildewy and moths are eating it
#i realise having light as my icon doesn't help me out here but i have to preserve the post in its true form#rookposting#anyway this was the bad post i was referring to in that other post. this is the fandom au it would be#im not going to write this. i refuse to write anything that would make me learn more about omegaverse than ive already learned against my w#ill. on principle#death note#i dont want to tag this one because i dont want it to show up but unfortunately i want my blog to be organised.#im making myself very vulnerable in posting this do you all understand. i mdoing it for the bit#eta: i cant stress enough that this post was not me trying to write like light yagami#this was my real brain process that i went through at work#eta2 reblogs are off stop talking about the bible#not everyone grew up religious i am not loving being insulted for not jumping to the bible
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fic idea where mikami takes so long to arrive at the warehouse that the task force and SPK all just go out for brunch. it ends up being a strangely pleasant day together, and they part ways completely forgetting what was supposed to happen at the warehouse in the first place. title "this meeting could have been a massacre"
#death note#light yagami#near#nate river#the au I came up with is getting too complex for me to share anything solid rn#so you will get my stupid ideas until further notice#having so much fun racking my brain for fic ideas where light and near can interact despite all the other stuff going on#cafe brunch date by the sea along with the rest of their teams is not what I expected but we're here now. you can't stop me#I've been giggling over this since I thought of it yesterday#also new writing tag debut#elle writes things
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okay fuck it i went to a leonardo da vinci exhibit today and now i have a leonardo da vinci death note AU in my head because i am a parody of myself so you can fucking have it i guess what do i even do with this
light yagami: young genius polymath who is good at literally everything
unfortunately for him he is a foreigner in italia (his family immigrated) so the government is not letting him anywhere near their weaponry projects. instead he does art. yes light yagami painted the mona lisa no i do not take criticism i’m in too deep
his portraits are predictably amazing. smash hit. soon aristocracy from all over italy is contacting him to draw them and their mother. this means he doesnt even have time in the day to draw giant fuckoff warship designs anymore. what point is there to life, he sulks.
eventually he accepts a commission from one kyosuke higuchi! we’re italianizing him because i really don’t think this AU works otherwise but let’s call him higuchi anyway. higuchi is a fifty-something duke of something or other who has recently married one misa amane who is twenty-something (the same age as light). misa is the subject of the portrait because higuchi just loves his darling wife so much (read: they had a shotgun wedding and higuchi needs to keep up appearances)
light is like wow someone who isn’t white it’s been like five years. i kind of feel bad for her, this situation is very suspicious. hello miss amane if you’ll just sit down over there while i get my brushes
misa (seeing the first person who has been even remotely sympathetic to her absolutely horrific life, noticing he hasn’t tried to make any advances on her at all [this is a good thing]): I AM DRASTICALLY IN LOVE WITH YOU.
light: what
misa’s plan of seducing light predictably fails because he’s light, so she explains she has to get the fuck away from higuchi somehow
light is like okay well i am sorry to hear that but what does this have to do with me.
misa, tearing up: im a damsel in distress! also i can get you information about his court
light: whats his job
misa: financial advisor
light: oh fuck yes okay
so light’s plan is now to worm into the yotsuba court to get funding and hopefully sway them enough to let him pitch his cool weaponry ideas so he can Change The World. he does need income in general too (both for himself and his family; expected lifespan was way shorter then obviously).
misa’s plan is to kill higuchi somehow which will be much easier with light as backup she thinks
so. light packs up and moves to the yotsuba court which is thrilled to have THE light yagami portrait artist (i do more than portraits…) in their employ
oh yeah, misa mentions, the prince of the yotsuba court is kind of… weird
light: you could have told me this before
misa: ehe. dont worry about it!! it’s just um. he had a weird personality shift a few years ago? and now he refuses to wear royal attire. he always dresses like a peasant.
light: well it’s not like i’m going to be there to judge him on fashion am i.
THAT’S RIGHT. SIKE THIS IS AN ISEKAI NOW. yes L does remember light killing him <3 he (L) woke up in fifteenth century renaissance italy in a twenty-something-year-old body immediately after the heart attack. by some miracle he already knew italian.
so everything is going swell until one day light walks into his workshop to find the prince flipping through his notebook
light, sleep deprived: hey what the fu—i mean. uh. good morning your highness
there’s no need for that formality. call me L.
(…but your name doesn’t start with an L?) thank you, your highness L. um. sorry i know my handwriting’s messy.
on the contrary i find it completely readable, as long as one reads backwards and caesar shifts it three letters forward.
(oh SHIT he’s onto me) haha what are you talking about?
in fact i think this mechanical dragonfly contraption is rather ingenious.
oh aha that’s not important, just a passing fancy honestly
[ignoring him] if only you had some better way of providing torque, because as it stands the spring engine is extremely poorly designed.
what the fuck did you just say to me
[they end up physically fighting over the notebook because of course they do. meet cute!]
some more details:
ryuk is the patron light eventually gets after being in higuchi’s court for a bit
rem is higuchi’s personal assistant, who was disowned by her own royal-blooded family because her family sucks. she hates her job. if it weren’t for misa she’d probably be on the other side of the country by now
i don’t know where the wammy kids are. they’re definitely competing to be the heir to L’s throne but also they’re not related because there is no way that all the wammy kids (the whole orphanage of wammy kids) could have come from the same person. maybe some kind of insufferably high collar royal boarding school? did they even have those? help me
kiyomi and teru are both advisors in other courts (which are extremely corrupt, light seethes, in his perfect world there wont be any of those anymore) (you work for a court light) (thats different)
okay i’m done for today. you never know about tomorrow though. /threat.
[ @deathnotetober day 12: isekai ]
#i think theres so much you could do with canon L meeting au light but i cant fucking write renaissance dialogue so here you go#death note#light yagami#misa amane#l lawliet#our three major players!#lawlight#deathnotetober#higuchi is here too but i dont know if this is enough of a him post to warrant the tag#DISCLAIMER: i know nothing about leonardo da vinci outside of the exhibition i went to today#sorry for any historical inaccuracies#on the plus side if you spot any you probably have enough knowledge to write this
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sun visits the moon at spk headquarters and gets so so so sleepy
#death note#my art#meronia#mihael keehl#nate river#mello dn#near dn#mellonear#trying out this new thing where i post quick art that is entirely for my own self-indulgent amusement here#this was an exercise in letting go of a piece as soon as possible and you can tell i failed because i couldn't stop retouching it#here and there. OLD HABITS DIE HARD but [with passion and confidence] expect a drop in quality/finishedness#kind of very into the colors here i like exaggerating their colors and saturations. their sun and moon codedness compels me#i also think people aren't as much into this ship because they assume they have very rigid [pardon my language] seme/uke roles and i'm like#[standing on soapbox] [crazy ex gf voice] the situation is actually a lot more nuanced than that#but these tags are long and i can't get into the push and pull power dynamics of it all. mello can heel is all i'm saying#ok that's all i have work to get back to drawing for work ( <- girl who just took a two hour break from drawing to draw)#brothercrush.txt
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To be loved is to be changed.
#my art#fan art#so this isn't even finished#but like; i hope ure not too mad w me abt that#i just thought it was finally time to let this one go; at least here; on the website that started it for me#what we do in the shadows#good omens#our flag means death#bbc ghosts#the magnus archives#wwdits#ofmd#go#TMA#nandor the relentless#anthony j crowley#crowley#blackbeard#edward teach#the captain#jonathan sims#our good shadows#yeah that seems like enough tags#please do note the little details but also dont#either way; i hope you enjoy this#i really liked working on it. taught me a lot#for many reasons. this represents the transition from one era to another. a change. if you will#and change is good. I think. I've gotten more used to it#doesn't make it any more easier to let go of the past. but you have to leave way to the present and to the future#so. yeah. Cheers. This one's for the future
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What's stopping the possibility of a ceasefire is pretty simple. Hamas is holding 239 Israeli civilians hostage including children and the elderly. What's happening in Palestine is a travesty and horrendous. But Israel can't initiate a ceasefire from the position they're in, so we need to be agitating for Hamas to release the hostages and call for a ceasefire instead.
NO GENOCIDE IS JUSTIFIABLE
HOW DOES THE KILLING OF INNOCENT PEOPLE ON THIS EXTREME LEVEL FORCE HAMAS TO RETURN HOSTAGES??
ISRAEL'S BOMBARDMENT AND INDISCRIMINATE SHOOTING IN GAZA THREATEN EVERYONE THERE INCLUDING DOCTORS JOURNALISTS CHILDREN ENTIRE FAMILIES AND THE HOSTAGES
EVERYONE IS TARGETED
YOU HAVE HOSPITALS BOMBED HOW ANY OF THIS IS JUSTIFIED
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@sarroora @fairuzfan @palipunk @wearenotjustnumbers2
You know more about this than I do.
#do you really think this will work on me; like hell I'm gonna stay silent for you#I hoard bookmarks like a dragon so guess what I have been saving from the posts I had reblogged to this blog and my sideblog#firefox bookmarks manager are a blessing oh my gods#how does one block anons#sorry for going full Black here on this post but yeah I'm a little livid#the entirety of Western media heavily propagandized for Israel and the US#how the US media covered this look at how our politicians keep funding Israel with money that could have gone to#our schools healthcare housing etc; my tax payer money is being used to kill innocent people and silence protesters#tw death#tw racial profiling#palestine#update: changed a few tags because I mistakenly compared Al Jazeera's coverage to Western Coverage#Al Jazeera has the best coverage of what is happening in Gaza and unfortunately also lost journalists#They deserve respect for what they are doing#thank you for the corrections wearenotjustnumbers2 (see their response in the notes pls)#genocide
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simpler times
animals avoiding malleus while they adore silver... ok aurora and maleficient parallels but have you considered malleus' fireflies settling on silver -> symbolizing malleus' fondness & sense of protectiveness towards him // creatures gathering around malleus when silver is here bc they know silver trusts him = the animals can trust him too daytime: silver's practice sword (which you can barely see) + a flower crown malleus made while silver was training -> nighttime with malleus' book
#shimexidraws#twisted wonderland#twst#malleus draconia#silver vanrouge#🍀#don't tag as ship please! i don't think anyone actually will (this isn't shippy at all ??????) but i'll put it here just in case#art#if you want to read into it there are four animals (symbolizing death) and seven fireflies (? what does it mean)#i put seven fireflies because i like the number seven . and then i didn't want to draw seven animals so having four was just a coincidence#but <- free thoughts! if you want them#also note that there are four fireflies on silver . yeah whatever that was also unintentional
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that one p&r meme but instead it's this
#death note#light yagami#misa amane#death note fanart#sketch tag#i have no idea how i didn't post this here until now lol i forgor
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I said I’d draw lawlight and so I did
I actually kinda love how this turned out, it seems I’m finally out of my art block let’s gooo
#death note#lawlight#light yagami#l lawliet#Fanart#light yagami fanart#l lawliet fanart#digital art#ship art#ship#fandom#lawlight fanart#death note fanart#l death note#light death note#gay#hallo folks here is more gay people for you#im not really sure what i wanna draw next#but i hope everyone is having a good day#also if you read all these tags then you deserve a sticker#dm me and ill give you a sticker#free of charge#who could say no#itll be a reall cool sticker i promise#anyways uh das vedanya
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Found this blog recently and I can't believe that there's someone who also thinks about a lawlight slay the princess au. I remembered thinking that princess/the shifting mound felt so similar to Light. With how she just becomes whatever people perceive her as, not unlike Light. Gosh I even made fanart that has just be rotting in my wip folder for months now. Maybe I should finish it one day.
HRNNNNNGH YES YES YES YOU GET IT YOU FUCKING GET IT!! AUGHH
I think I mentioned this in a post before but I first played stp while still knee-deep in my dn hyperfixation, so I Immediately thought of dn parallels as I was playing it (specifically between the shifting mound and Light as you mentioned. The second I heard the narrator say "She will lie, she will cheat, and she will do everything in her power to stop you from slaying her. Dont believe a word she says." my brain went "Oh! Light Yagami")
Also ofc my obsession with death note as a multiverse, the fact that there are so many versions of Light and L's personalities/relationship/dynamic, just like how theres are so many versions of The Long Quiet/Shifting Mound's relationship oughhhh you See the vision right
Also PLEASEEEEE IF YOU HAVE FANART YOU SHOULD FINISH IT (If you want!!) I NEED MORE STP/DN FANS TO SEE THE POTENTIAL I am actually guilty of having some lawlight stp sketches sitting in my computer as well, maybe I should clean them up a bit and post them sometime... This is genuinely one of my favorite things to think about ever with them but I haven't seen a lot of people who are fans of both dn/stp that have thought of this so I dont talk about it a lot.. oooh if you have any specific thoughts about them let me know I'm so interested to know your ideas 🔥🔥🔥
#asks#death note#lawlight#light yagami#l lawliet#stp#anon your brain is based and awesome#im so glad we see the same vision here thinking about lawlight stp au makes me so aughhhhh#they are doomed in every universe by their own nature. they are intrinsically linked and it is their one downfall etc#it just fits!!! it just works!!!!! trust#i hope you know that half the time i make a lawlight analysis post about a specific dn adaptation#i am always holding back from adding an stp lawlight reference/thought in the tags#it happens So Often but then i have to stop myself because that is Off Topic but oufh
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“All of the things that I've lost, I will find again”
#L#it’s L guys!#L hrs around here!#so this is my L smokes propaganda#I’m right + it was revealed to me in a dream + it is known#raised in England. addictive personality. no regard for his own health. oral fixation. THAT MAN IS SMOKING#anywayyy#I have been trying to realize my perfect vision of medium ugly L but I keep like messing it up#but this is close to what he looks like in my soul#I still think his skin is too nice I just don’t know how to draw believable acne scars#anyway real tags now#death note#l lawliet#l death note#my art
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It's up to you to decide what "funny" means in this case. Whether it be their ridiculousness, unpredictability, silliness, actions or words in general, etc. Just whoever is funniest to you. Please also explain your answers in the tags 🙏
#I am very sleep deprived but curious. so if I forgot anyone worth adding pls forgive me lol#I just added a bunch of characters I think ppl will be looking for here#death note is first and foremost a comedy#death note#death note poll#oh god am I gonna have to tag everyone.....#light yagami#l lawliet#misa amane#Ryuk#near#nate river#mello#mihael keehl#matsuda touta#teru mikami#beyond birthday#phew
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a little ramble about the "ralsei is kris's old horn headband" theory (and why i don't think it's true):
i think the biggest issue i have with it/piece of evidence against it is the darkners are shown to have some memory of when they're objects. for example, chapter 1 darkners like seam and the spade king talk about being abandoned by the lightners, i.e. being left in the abandoned classroom, sweet cap'n cakes talk about what queen was like before the fountain showed up in their shop dialogue, in the spamton sweepstakes twitter qna it's implied that spamton knows noelle because she would always check her spam email despite this being well before the chapter 2 dark fountain could have been created, and there's probably others that i'm not thinking of off the top of my head.
so keeping all that in mind, if ralsei were the headband i feel like there would be some implication of him recognizing kris or at least having known lightners previously, but instead he talks about never having had friends before and waiting his whole life in castle town for the heroes in the prophecy to show up. this would only really make sense to me if he spent all his time as an object in the supply closet, or what feels more likely to me, that he is purely darkness, purely imagination, and not tied to an object at all.
i guess you could say that maybe ralsei forgot or lost his memories, or was told by someone else that he has to keep his identity a secret, but to me there just currently isn't enough evidence for why that would be the case, at least compared to what feels like the simpler explanation that being an object just might not apply to him, in the same way that turning to stone doesn't apply to him or being able to travel to other dark worlds does. ralsei is more different from the other darkners than he is similar in a lot of regards, and i think it would make sense for there to be a slightly deeper explanation for that than simply the fact that he's from the castle town fountain.
of course none of this explains why he's implied to look like asriel, which i think is the question most easily answered by the theory that ralsei is the headband. my best guess right now would be that it has something to do with connecting him to kris who is in turn connected with the player, but honestly i don't have much in terms of ideas on this one, at least until we possibly learn more about how ralsei or castle town even came to exist in the first place.
and of course, all of that said, this is all still just a theory and maybe i'm wrong! even while typing this up and thinking of possible counterarguments i've considered things i didn't think of before, and i do think it's a cute headcanon and it'd be fun if it did somehow end up being true, even if i don't think it's the most likely explanation at this point.
#this started as a tag ramble on a post i was gonna make last night in response to some of the notes i got on my ralsei doodle post#and then i just. kept going#thank you if you read all my yapping lmao#idk if any of this is stuff ppl have said b4. considering most of the theory surrounding this game has been talked to death it prob has lol#but still heres my 2 cents anyways. bc i have too many thoughts in my brain#deltarune#deltarune theory#ralsei#ralsei deltarune
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Fanfic idea: Nocturna, after disappearing during the crisis, wakes up to find herself in the current universe, where she spots the Red Hood, and can't help but compare him to the blood night sky she last saw, and oddly, the young Robin whom she had tried to adopt
#can you tell i like the precrisis#bdjsbdks#thisnis nothing really. im not sure where to go from here#do they know eachother? does jason feel he recognizes her? and there flashes of memories from an earth long forgotten?#nocturna is Also against killing. how will meeting this different version of her son go#how will they react to eachother#nocturna noting how painfully different AND similar he is to who she remembers#WAIT#THE DEATH#SHE WAKES UP AND ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS SHE DISCOVERS IS JASON TODD IS DEAD AND DIED AT 14-15 OR WHATEVER#nocturna#jason todd#jason todd robin#red hood#i Know that nocturna comes back to the comics at some point i looked uo before making this post. but im p sure thats like#not the same#she wouldn't have the memories#when the crisis was happening the sky had become red and she had Feelings about that. mostly negative ones#and idk i wanted her to connect red hood w something about the night#she sees him w/o the hood and his hair makes her think of the moon in the night sky. for added detail you could say#that the white had taken on a cresent shape#depends how much white hair you think of jason w tbh#dc comics#i dont like tagging bwah#fic prompt
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i was just gonna leave this as a comment, but my response started spiraling sooooo. guess i'm makin' this a full on post lol =3=" uhh anyways, responding to @skyborneveggie's tags on this post:
#really good analysis #always here for high-functioning depression light takes #i want to add; while Light is better at reading & manipulating people in the moment he also tends to overlook some things in the long run #because of his superiority complex #like his father volunteering for the eyes in matsuda's place #and matsuda in the ending. As much as i like to think of matsuda as wholesome- #-i do think if light played his cards right he could have manipulated him over to kira's side #but he didn't because he didn't think matsuda was important in the grand scheme of things
very good points!! about matsuda in particular— it’s interesting in retrospect how consistently he’s set up as a side character, particularly with how he is almost always immediately pushed off to the side despite that. like, alongside soichiro, he’s really the first member of the JTF we see pre-lind l. tailor (in the anime, anyway. in the manga it’s a bit more ambiguous, though matsuda definitely shows up to mention KIRA bringing the crime rate down in ch.3, still quite early).
he’s always the one counterpoint within the group, playing devil's advocate in a way with how he brings up the pro-KIRA side of things, yet as you say light underestimates him So consistently that he even ends up evolving into a full on joke/shakespearean fool character by yotsuba, which is really what makes his actions in the end so incredibly significant.
i distinctly remember reading that section where aizawa & mogi are getting more deeply involved with near and, in the case of aizawa in particular, are starting to genuinely consider the possibility that light might be KIRA, and just getting sooooooo so SO goddamn suspicious of what matsuda was doing. this was in part because i already had some spoilers about the ending, specifically about matsuda shooting him, but goddamn do his actions start looking suspicious when you begin taking him seriously as a threat. like, while aizawa is starting to live through his own psychological horror novel come to life, realizing that the innocent kid & strong leader he's been taking care of & following all this time might actually have been the fucking serial murderer they've been after for literal Years, here's what matsuda is up to in the background:
(light's face here. fuckin freak LMFAO)
(this one is particularly notable to me as it shows that even aizawa underestimates him— it's not just light, it's the whole damn team. even ryuk joined in earlier.)
(and of course, my absolute favorite example. the contrast between their expressions alone here is absolutely golden all on its own, but matsuda's heartfelt "don't worry, light!! i'll never betray you!!!" in comparison to THIS only makes it all the more juicy:
like, light doesn't even bother responding to him until he's got a goddamn bullet in his hand. he just sits there confident in the expectation that matsuda will lick his soles like a dog. jesus fucking christ.)
anyways, as i was saying: he's mostly just doing a bunch of dumb shit, making silly jokes in the background, fucking around with ryuk and being written off as an idiot by most characters, especially light but again also aizawa and ryuk. AND YET. he is Always hanging around over light's shoulder, lurking somewhere behind him in almost ever panel he shows up in, perfectly innocent to the point where it's can almost be more off-putting than if he were outwardly, actively questionable. like, this panel in particular, and i mean goddamn, just look at it again:
it hits So Hard in retrospect, not just because matusda is the one to shoot light in the end, possibly being his cause of death had ryuk not stepped in when he did, but also because it's true. as incredibly fucking suspicious as this panel may seem if you are armed with the knowledge that matsuda does, eventually, end up being the one to shoot light, it's equally easy to write it off as normal dumbass matsuda behavior because that is Exactly What It Is. and you would be right!! matsuda is trusting of light to a fault— when he eventually breaks, it is Not due to his own betrayal. it's the evidence of light's. and not just of his manipulation of the task force, for years and years and years on end— it's soichiro's death specifically that finally makes matsuda lose his faith in him.
the idea that light could've manipulated matsuda over to KIRA's side had he just tried a little harder is fascinating, but i think i can also understand why he didn't exert any more effort— it was kinda unnecessary. for basically the entire story, from the moment matsuda is formally introduced, to the minute light breaks and admits he's actually KIRA, matsuda is one particularly dedicated conversation away from being a full-on KIRA supporter— or so light believes, anyway. and he's probably not that far off.
really, i'm of the opinion that it's matsuda's existence as this KIRA-sympathetic figure in the task force in the first place that causes light to believe so strongly that he could eventually convert the entire JTF over to the side of KIRA— possibly even saving all of them their lives in the process. like, as i've said before, for all that light monologues about how he's Definitely Going To Kill The Task Force, Don't Worry, I Can And Will Do It When I Have To, he. never actually does it. instead, light goes through all the trouble of keeping the JTF strung along behind him for more than half a decade following L's death, holding on to all of these strings of his former life even when they are almost undoubtedly more of a pain than they're worth. unable to kill his father, unable to kill misa, unable to kill matsuda— even when he directly tries to.
i forget which post this was on, but i believe someone pointed out before that potentially a major part of light's grief following soichiro's death comes from the fact that he springs a shock on him at the last minute before passing: soichiro never stopped suspecting his son. when he sees light's lifespan above his head his first thought is to be relieved, because the question he's held at the back of his mind for Years has finally been undoubtedly assuaged. light is desperate to believe up until the end that he can make the world truly and genuinely pro-KIRA; his final actions in the moments of clarity before he starts begging at ryuk's feet for his life involve an enthusiastic speech as he makes one final bid at converting the JTF and SPK to join him and believe in his vision of Justice.
and yet. he never quite gets mastuda.
never bothered? or never could? perhaps a bit of both, but it's a fascinating character progression nonetheless, and easily one of the most interesting arcs in the series. poor, poor mastuda, indeed.
sidenote: this is a somewhat half baked thought, but i can't help but make a somewhat minor connection between light's treatment of matsuda and his treatment of misa, as well as his relationship with takada. like, let's think through the list of his main (human) supporters throughout the series, the ones who end up taking on the title of KIRA themselves: in the first half, misa, in the second, takada & mikami. if we add matsuda to this list, we get two mirroring pairs: misa & matsuda for the front half of the series, takada & mikami for the latter.
light's treatment of each of these pairs is quite different, despite the fact that they all essentially fulfill the same purpose to him: misa & mikami act as KIRA's eyes, killing those light is unable/unwilling to himself, while takada & matsuda fill the role of KIRA's spokesperson, albeit to very different audiences. thus each half of each pair executes a different side of KIRA's ideology: misa & mikami the practical side, becoming killers themselves, and takada & matsuda the persuasive side, pointing out the positive influences KIRA's actions have had on the population to The People and the rest of the task force respectively.
it's not quite as simple as i've laid out here, of course— tadaka eventually ends up killing before she dies at light's hand herself, misa lives as light's partner until she loses her memories and never quite recovers, mikami becomes quite static, just playing at a killer for Appearances, until his actions eventually end up accidentally betraying light and leading to his downfall. yet it still seems notable to me that despite light treating takada & mikami noticeably better for the majority of the time that he's working with them, those two are the ones who eventually end up dead, betrayed and betrayer respectively. yet, in the case of misa & matsuda... for all that light degrades them and treats them like shit, those two are the ones that get to live on past him while remaining stubbornly loyal until the end, until light's own actions twist back and smack him in the head.
i think perhaps part of the reason why light never ends up converting matsuda is not just his own ego blowing Shit outta proportion and assuming that matsuda will either very easily convert/is too much of a dumb liability to even bother with, but also light's own discomfort with having followers at all. like, it really takes him that full time skip to get fully on board with the idea that people will Submit to KIRA, despite the fact that he logically must know how necessary that is. light wants the recognition and love and commitment of other people, but he doesn't necessarily want the responsibility of their own stupid actions— a sentiment perhaps reflected in how easily he kills criminals, seeing their "evil" as something to be Purged, an annoyance just as much as a liability for the happiness of the Good, Pure People of the world.
as i've outlined before, misa is the main person who's enthusiastic submission consistently gets on light's nerves and icks him the fuck out, but i can't help but wonder if this same reaction applies at least in part to his distaste of matsuda. it's easier to get away from matsuda at least, considering he doesn't have to play the Good, Heterosexual Boyfriend around him, but that doesn't mean it isn't still somewhat present either. this also gets interesting if you start considering lawlight dynamics during yotsuba as well, and L's similar (if somewhat more overt, even) dislike of matsuda during that era BUT. that'll perhaps have to wait until another essay lolol =3=
#death note#astronaut rambles#touta matsuda#finally got to write me a matsuda post!! hell yeah!!!#been wanting to do this for a while lol but never quite found an approach that stuck w/ me#thx again for the tags on the original post hehe :P#death note meta#anyways. didn't mean for this to evolve into a light bottom advocacy post but what did we expect really#how anyone could see that man as a Dom Top is beyond me frankly#he is so overtly Disgusted for so much of the series when people submit to him#i can't help but wonder if part of the reason why he's so chill with mikami is the fact that he never has to fucking#interact with him irl like he does misa LMFAO#even in the case of takada it's such a clear Performance maybe it's easier to pull it off#especially by that age... withered as he is LMFAO#also takada having her own repressed (oddly compatible?) parallels to light blah blah see @kiyomitakada's posts for more on that#coughs. anyways what where was i why does the clock say two hours have passed what the hell#where am i#light yagami#<- there's enough of him here to warrant that ok shush#alright enough blurry-eyed rereading it's Poast time#edit: oops added one sentence for clarity
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