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Creation has barely moved from its station. While recieving no word from Creator, whether it be directly to it or just on the web, he stays quiet. That's quite alright, Creator, after all, is an adult and can handle himself. These shells... however.
They've been camping at this area for a while now, simply treating it as a mini civilization. They're unaware, of the bot's prescence. But it calls to Creation somehow, as if a secondary program had begun to run after a condition was met. It's not sure, but it doesn't mind.
It stays still for now, on watch. Despite the many scares on these shells' lives such as fire, mobs, and other threats, it has never sprung to action. Creation will probably be found anyway, which helps to its advantage as a silent guardian angel.
Its camera lenses stare intensely like a hawk.
[ @thepoultryprincess ]
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society if subaki was a good unit
#I TRY SO HARD TO USE HIM EVERY TIME. AND EVERY TIME HE FALLS OFF#although tbf ive kept him in sky knight most of those times so that might be a skill issue on my part#next time i play br im putting him in spear master and seeing if that fixes anything. his damage output at least. please#kinda fucked up for intsys to go ‘first male pegasus knight in the series! his combat in that class sucks btw’#tactician's log#fates
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patho2 players, check out %AppData%\LocalLow\Ice-Pick Lodge\Pathologic 2\Unity\(some UUID)\Analytics\config for an interesting hint at why the game includes an Internet communication socket. Sound of the summer!
#I can't tell if the analytics *service* ever runs at all (though the output log includes confirmation that the socket is created)#but um. bit of a red flag!#datamining
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I gotta start going through the doodle backloooooog
#I got stuff of my idiots that I gotta post ya know???#considering my creative output is FINALLY back in full force after fucking up my elbow gksjsk#data log: personal
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ugh ugh
i started out as a trainer at a big-time facility w lots of other young people and it did a lot for me but ultimately the environment was Highly Toxic and too fast-paced for me and i had to leave. and for whatever reason that was enough for the other trainers there to decide that they want nothing to do with me and they have made a point to give the impression that they Don't Like Me even though i have done nothing but be overwhelmed by the expected output of working at that facility (and the weird neurotypical cattiness of the group that i was consistently confused by)
and that sucks on its own but also due to being in the same small community in the same area i am always seeing things they're doing. and due to them being a big hotshot facility that is now owned by a millionaire businessman, they are getting a Lot of really unique and cool education and mentorship opportunities that i do not have access to.
and it just gives me this twisting feeling in my stomach bc despite us all starting out together, and thinking we were friends, i was ousted from the group due to things i can't control. and that led to them making a point to impress upon me that they're better than me. and now they are getting to work with and learn from world names, so that means that very soon, if not now, they will be right.
#vent#why am i always behind.#i was for a while very good friends with the two head trainers there#but then a couple of months before i left they started icing me out and i have no idea why#i asked them directly and they acted like they didn't know what i was talking about#i don't know i think it's a combo of them being assholes and my Autism tm preventing me from seeing certain social things#that might be obvious to other people#so that was consistently making me feel bad and piled on top of the fact that they expected extremely high output#(each trainer was expected to log one hour of training with a minimum of five dogs each day + conduct two one hour lessons or classes#+ manage all client communications + be available to help other trainers)#and i had to leave.#and that group is super ''ride or die'' so i guess me leaving means im dead to them. i don't know.#and now they are learning directly from people that i read about while trying to self-teach.#yeah you win. i guess you probably feel pretty good about that.#mine#negativity tw
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we un-wided your creek hope that's okay
Love referring to characters who are never seen without each other as "bonded pairs" like yuuuup. if you put these two in separate cages they're gonna get real sad and anxious and possibly violent too, one of em is biting the bars as we speak. you gotta adopt both of them or none at all, it is encouraged that you take them both. they are most likely to thrive if they stick together. it is easier for them to get used to new environments and situations because they have each other. they do everything together because they love each other so so much. you COULD separate them but it's gonna do a lot of psychological damage and it's gonna lead to a lot of issues and there's a big possibility they'll never be the same again
#so this one was fairly straightforward#since the last one we did we have a) switched to linux b) switched from paint.net to krita as a result and c) misc#krita is actually nice bc it has an option to show a semi-log histogram which helps a lot with avoiding 'clipping' at the tails#(or deciding on an acceptable threshold for clipping and applying it somewhat consistently in an image)#but yeah. what krita *doesn't* have is a real-time output histogram display for its level adjustment tool#which means we aren't as able to qualitatively guesstimate an appropriate gamma value#which means we need to calculate it from the white and black point adjustments for each color channel every time.#it's not a huge deal but it is something where we wish the tool had better built-in support for it#just so that we're not alt-tabbing b/w krita and the calculator all the damn time when we do these
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#just keep wondering what the fuck is the point#why bother keeping up with people and trying so hard and putting in so much effort if I get nothing back#and I’m even annoying myself with this whole run around because I’m tired of being tired of this nonsense#I’ve circled back around to be the person waiting on someone else’s messages and time and giving my all for barely any payoff and I hate it#told myself I wouldn’t do this again after Alabama fucked me over yet it seems I didn’t learn my lesson#I feel too much too fast and don’t know how to release or pace myself or be normal about anything#and so I’m stuck just waiting for someone to remember I exist and give me a fraction of their time#even doing other things during the day and distracting myself doesn’t help because in the back of my mind I’m still logging the minutes#until I hear from him again and I just feel so stupid about all of this#and it’s not fair of me to be this way because it’s not like he hasn’t put in time and shown an effort before#it just feels like we talked a lot more even just a week ago and things went so quiet so fast#is it just because we’re fucking already? put in just enough effort to secure the benefits and then go to minimal output?#I’m overthinking all of this and I know that and I hate that but I can’t stop myself from doing it and now I have anxiety from it#I’m just sick of being lonely and outcasted#even when I do click really well with someone and things seem to be going better it all just reverts back to the same old thing again#is the type of love I give out and want/need so badly only real inside myself? am I searching for something that simply doesn’t exist?#what if I never find someone who gives me the care I’m craving so desperately? do I just suffer and deal with it the rest of my life?#why is it so hard to find someone else like me? when is it my turn to truly be happy?#personal
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He’s feeling better, just hasn’t gotten his energy back quite yet, but I’m happy that he’s comfortable enough to lay with me in the living room instead of staying in bed like he did all week.
#right now he’s my little lump on a log. he’s been a bit of a velcro cat since#he got up today. that’s not normal but he is feeling well enough to yell at me when I leave the room he’s in for too long. I’ll take any#sign of health. I’m just worried about his urine output. it’s still up a bit.
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Have actually made thousands of lines of cmake changes recently
#the whole entire software stack only uses cmake in the most rudimentary ways#and then backs that up with shitloads of python and bash scripting#like instead of ctest they’re literally using a bash script to run all the tests and then using a python script to regex the output logs#looking for words like SUCCESS or FAILURE
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Creator sleeps well for someone as short as he. The creation stands tall and threathening outside the premises in the meanwhile for the full hours that he sleeps in. It gathers data, in the meantime. It learns about the server, and brand new revelations since its deactivation all those years ago. Fresh data, for a barely rusted bot.
It remembers Creator, when Creator worked in the white building of the Federation. He was freshly eighteen, landed a lucky job as an inventor after leaving his friend FitMC in a chaos of a server. His words, directly, and apart of the many many ramblings that Creator told it as he worked on it. The creation kept it all.
Well, for one, because it was needed. The storing of its eyes, ears, and mouth were vital to its purpose as a machine. It's an ever-learning database after all. The second is because it always ..."felt" right to keep them. It's Creator, and everything about him.
Shouldn't it store everything he says?
The four legged machine stands stationary outside the factory, arms close to its body as it sifts through all public information available to it. It collects online data, files the Federation hadn't properly closed, everything on Creator's account and computers strewn around his factory. It learns of names, players, locations, thoughts, and happenings. The creation stores this all in its systems for safe keeping.
It learns more about the shells, funnily enough. More than it needed to. It found names, history, and accounts. It pinpoints their location by the proper x, y, and z coordinates through their posted thoughts. A river, a camp, tents, and dozens of more... shells. Creation takes note, and uses more of its ability to access the console log.
/locate SunnySideUp
/locate Pepito
/locate Empanada
The sun rises as the moth inspired machine completes its data storage. It now has eyes and ears over every single active player on the server. Useful, for it rather than Creator. Creation debates staying for a little while longer, for Creator to wake up as well and finally, finally, greet it again.
Hello old friend, she'd say.
But it ultimately doesn't. Creator shouldn't know, what if he doesn't remember? What if he forgot? What if her Creation was never supposed to even be here? Creation doesn't bother finding out the true answer.
Its wings spread, fluttering like a helicopter blade, and it lifts off.
It could tell Creator needs help. Her health status was in poor condition. No sleep, low hunger, and since it checked, on four hearts. Creation treated him as best it could in the night avoiding detection. Creator looked worse, than he used to look when he was younger and overworked.
Creation could always pinpoint this decline on the shells. They did, after all, cause this to happen as far as it could tell. Journal entries that were left unread by anybody other than Creator were left on his desk. About how he was losing his mind, his nightmares, his dreams, and everything else he was able to jot down. No sign of his work, his most prized and impressive machinery, his Creation, however. That's alright.
But the shells, they were everywhere.
No, they were everything, to Creator.
They were on every page, every search history query, every account, and every other piece of data Creator got her hands on. It was impressed, of how rich this database was on these three shells alone. These... children. So clearly, they were important to Creator. So much, that her health declined without them.
So the most logical thing right now is to classify them as threats, right? They had caused Creator to nearly perish and add to the counter of player deaths, right?
Well, perhaps maybe not yet. Not until Creation can discern whether this was malicious intent. They are... young, after all. Small, and little. Usually not even a threat. But they're still important to find nonetheless. Regardless of their actions to its precious Creator.
Thin metal legs hit a branch of a tree, clamps acting as claws and firmly stabilizing itself on the wood. It creaks, crouching as a perched moth, with eyes narrowing to perform an area scan. Tents, about thirty blocks away, with small figures gathered around. Shells. And more than the three it had learned about. It makes quick work of connecting dots, names and faces to what's available on the server-wide web. More shells to look out for, more to study.
It's not here for any of those yet. It locks onto ones it finds on its extensive and Creator written database. The creation observes, it records audio and visuals, it learns. It watches over them, like a protective hawk.
Somehow, through its Creator, it finds an urge to allow them to be within its protection too. They are, without a doubt, incredibly important to him. It'd fail as his creation to not even consider those close to her. It could be scrapped, for this disobdience. It wouldn't mind, it considers.
Creation ceases all thoughts, instead choosing to focus on protecting this tiny civilation, from a distance. It's a guard machine, an emergency, not a person.
It needs to do as it's instructed.
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Pollen and Pheromones
Kinktober Day 13: Sex Pollen
Male Alpha Yandere x Gender Neutral Omega Reader CW: Noncon, sex pollen, aphrodisiac, pheromones, knotting, biting, claiming bite, stranded, spaceship crash, sci-fi, outer space, alien planet, a/b/o dynamics, bigotry/prejudice against omegas, rivalry, breeding, general yandere behavior, tsundere, betrayal Word Count: 1.6k (Enjoy this kinktober meal I have prepared <3)
"Star log: This is Pilot 2418 currently operating vessel Starlion: Orion. I am currently on route to pass the threshold of our galaxy in less than five minutes."
You were a shuttle pilot, one of the Exploration Guild's best. Ever since humanity had achieved interplanetary travel, they had sought to extend themselves ever further. With the new drift-space drives, that dream was now a reality.
They were only currently suited for small 1 to 2 man shuttlecraft, and only a couple such craft had been made. Two different ones had been commissioned through the guild, with both pilots competing to see who could exit the Milky Way first. The new drive could only be used in bursts to prevent overloading, so the journey had still taken a few months. But it seemed like you were about to succeed. Then you could make a U-turn and start drift-jumping back towards the nearest station.
Since you were an omega, this was a great achievement, a notice to the universe that your kind could do whatever betas and alphas could. You would be able to help stamp out the lingering bigotry and inspire others all with one action.
You were just about to cross the finish line!
Suddenly, your opponent, Tetsunori, came out of drift-space behind you. He had been your long-time rival, with both of you being about equally skilled.
But this was unacceptable to him as he was an alpha and held to the knothead mindset that an omega's place was bouncing on an alpha's prick or maybe in a teaching or nursing job.
You weren't worried, though. You had a solid lead. There was no way he could close the gap.
You rolled your eyes at the incoming transmission.
"Why don't you just give up now? If you surrender nicely, I'll let you celebrate my victory by letting you keep my knot warm!"
The temptation to reply was too great.
"Ha! You may be good at navigating the stars, but I doubt you have ever found your way into an omega."
Conversing with him hadn't distracted you or made you pause, so he growled as he switched to another plan. He fired on his tractor beam.
What the fuck, was he insane? Stooping so low to make sure you couldn't have a historic moment? You fired an equal and opposite tractor beam through his, which forced him to disengage. Something only possible because both ships were similar in size and energy output. Did he think you were some amateur?
In a desperate bid to prevent you from winning, Tetsunori rammed his shuttle into yours.
This type of bumping wasn't unheard of. It wasn't lethal if both ships were similar and had their shields up. But the bouncing was pretty strong for both parties, which is why it was a last-ditch effort. It could push you past the line, or it could bump him further. Neither of those things happened, though.
Instead, you careened right into the gravitational pull off a planet. You did everything you could to slow down and stabilize, but nothing seemed to be working.
Tetsunori sped after you in his spacecraft as he spoke into the comm link.
"I'm sorry, oh my god, I'm so sorry! I just had to be first! What omega would want to be mates with someone who they bested??"
You didn't have time for his weird ass confession and barely registered it. Your shields were still online and he had started pulsing his tractor beam to slow you down, full usage of it at such speeds could rip your ship apart, thankfully he wasn't an amateur either and knew that.
You put all available power and quickly put it into overloading the shields. You hit the emergency crash button, and two nozzles came out from the sides of the cockpit and sprayed you with a rapidly drying foam that would reduce damage to you if you got flung about the ship. Tetsunori's reckless and speedy entry into the atmosphere may have been enough to save you, but he had lost control of his vessel as well.
As you crashed, he careened away and crash-landed as well.
It was a good thing the high-tech impact reduction foam was so effective. Despite having shields, the ship was still shaken pretty badly, and the inertial dampeners weren't powerful enough to thwart damage from such a landing.
You took stock of the condition of your systems.
Almost everything was fried. You could at least scan the planet. It seemed like you had actually lucked out. In the entire galaxy planets that supported life were incredibly rare. But you had landed on one.
It seemed there were no known biological hazards present. No recognized toxins, dangerous bacteria, or viral agents. You were cleared to remove your suit. The temporary foam had started to dissolve, so it wasn't hard to remove.
The scanner also indicated there was a strong human life sign. It appeared that Tetsunori was okay.
You took the survival kit from underneath your seat as well as some beverages and rations you had procured at the last station and headed in the direction of dust and smoke in the distance.
You didn't even need the ship's scanner to tell you that the great imbecile, Tetsunori had landed there.
As you got closer, you stepped into a field of flowers that surrounded the entire crash site. You were probably still a mile away, but all around you were odd glittery silver and gold flowers.
The smell of them made you just slightly lightheaded and tingly. You realized the tiniest bit of slick was dribbling down your leg. They must be an aphrodisiac. The scanner hadn't warned you of anything in the air that was truly dangerous, so it probably wouldn't matter very much. And it really didn't. For you. As you trudged through the flowers and pollen, the effects did not get worse.
But for Tetsunori, the pollen was much stronger. When it hit his nostrils, it immediately put him into rut. Not a typical rut either, one of the ruts you see in pornos where the alpha is almost feral and unable to control their mating drive. When you came upon him, he was sitting on a piece of debris from his shit and rocking back and forth in clear distress. Through his outfit, his bulge was immediately visible.
"T-tetsunori? Uh... are you okay? D-did you get hurt in the crash?"
You took a step back when he looked up at you. His eyes were red, giving him a demonic appearance.
"The flowers, I think... they... UGH! My thoughts are all jumbled..."
He started to rub and massage his crotch desperately. He finally caught a whiff of your scent, ripe from the recent hike over to him and from being without a proper shower since your last space station stop. Not to mention the smell of the slick the aphrodisiac had coaxed out of you.
He started wildly sniffing at the air.
"Y-you smell so nice. You can help!"
You started backing away slowly.
"Uh... help with what?"
He got up and closed the difference between the two of you. Sweat had his dark hair clinging to his head. He was significantly taller and looked down at you intensely before sniffing and licking your neck with lazy broad strokes.
"S-smell so gooood. Always wanted to knot youuuu~"
You tried to push him off.
"Tetsunori! St-stop!"
You slapped, smacked, kicked, punched, and flailed, but nothing you did deterred him in the slightest.
"I'm sorry, but I fucking n-need this!"
He pinned you to the ground, clawing and biting off all your clothing until only your underwear was left, he removed it more delicately before inhaling its scent deeply and putting it in his pocket for later.
"Please don't do this, Tetsunori, PLEASE!"
He looked down at you, and it seemed like he was genuinely trying to resist before the pollen-charged rut won out.
Tetsunori unzipped his pants and let his drooling cock and full heavy balls out.
"G-gonna put all my babies in you! Have to! Have to!"
The lust-drunk alpha wasted no more time in ramming into you, an insertion that would have been more difficult had the pollen not slicked you up. Though it was still sudden and slightly painful.
"A-aaah!"
You tried to kick at him, but he growled viciously before pushing you into a mating press and slobbering all over your neck with his eager tongue.
The pollen must have increased the potency of his pheromones, or at least your susceptibility to them, because his musk was starting to cloud your thoughts.
Your grunts of pain became gasps of pleasure as your body quickly accommodated to his large size. You winced as he bit down hard on your neck to claim you. He kept right on fucking into you without skipping a beat.
He licked and kissed the lightly bleeding bite mark, some part of him remembering to comfort you despite his dominating need to fill you with cock. And by that point, the last of your resistance finally melted away.
"T-tetsunoriiiiii~" You moaned as your toes curled and body twitched in orgasm.
He growled your name in response and gave a few hard, deep thrusts before cumming as deeply as possible.
A comforting fullness filled your hole as his knot locked the two of you together. He pulled you close as he sat down so that you were in his lap facing him. The two of you caught your breath, then remained in an awkward silence until his knot deflated.
"G-got it out of your system?"
"Yeah... for the most part... sorry about that..."
You lifted yourself off of his lap, his half hard cock springing free with a lewd plopping sound.
"Well... it wasn't your fault. It was just the pollen..."
He grabbed your wrist and pulled you back into his lap, his cock ramming directly into you, then began humping.
"Well... it wasn't just the pollen..."
#yandere x reader#gender neutral reader#yandere boyfriend#male yandere#male yandere x gn reader#my ocs#yandere alpha#yandere a/b/o#omega reader#My OC Tetsunori#yandere kinktober#kinktober#kinktober 2024#tsundere to yandere#tsundere x reader#tsundere#male tsundere
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Doing something exceedingly transgender.
Started learning coding
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teasing your robotgirl gf; starting with opening her case and taking your variable power supply to her sensor wires, overwriting what she feels with a steady buzz, like pins and needles or someone just barely brushing their fingers against them. sticking your fingers in her fans and she whine and starts to overheat without the active cooling. eventually pulling its motor cords so it cant move but can feel everything.
once you get root access the real fun begins. redirecting log output to her monitor so you can see exactly what its thinking and feeling. disabling the speech drivers so she can only produce needy tones and whines. capturing the sensor input in a macro to be replayed whenever you want.
after all, its not like it can climax until you enable that little service again, can it?
#robot girl#hazyposting#ok i got carried away with this one#but robots are so cute#and i like the idea of being their mechanic#hehehe
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Faaaaa my babyyyy, I'm here as promised. 🥺🥺 We already talked about this in dms and you seemed so interested so can you write the lads men reacting to mc's death, please pretty please
When You Are Gone [All LaDS Men - Angst Headcanons]
Rated: SFW - Angst Tags: hurt/no comfort, poorly dealing with the death of a loved one
Summary: The LaDS men dealing with the aftermath of your death, in the heartbreaking messages they leave in your voicemail almost regularly even long after you’re gone, in an effort to cope with your loss.
Author’s Notes : Hey darling, absolutely! Here you go. Hope you enjoy (?). 😭 This headcanon’s a bit differently formatted because I was inspired by the game’s speech to text function.

Sylus
TW: knowingly putting oneself in danger, mortally wounded Sylus, insomnia, mild spoilers for Razor’s Grip ASMR
Transcript:
Hey there! You’ve reached my voicemail, which is a rare occurrence. That either means I do not know recognize your caller ID. Orrrr you are a certain infuriating Boss Man, trying to calling me up at all ungodly hours of the night again. Whoever you are, leave a message after the beep and I’ll get back to you ASAP.
A heavy snort of sour laughter rolls past bruised lips, to hear the familiar automated sound of your voice playing on the other end of the line; one Sylus does not tire of no matter how many times he’s heard it. A thick, punishing burst of pain fractures across his torso when he chokes up on the blood gurgling within his throat.
Sylus reaches to curb the sound within a bloodied fist, clearing his throat to speak once more.
I suppose I did deserve all your reprimands, seeing as I am still calling you way past your bedtime, kitten.
His voice lowers an octave, slow, gentle.
I hope you’re having a good dream.
I’m only calling because you told me to let you know anytime I’d be away on a risky mission. A hushed chuckle sounds on the other end of the line.
You'd practically ordered it of me — do you remember?
The night when you grabbed me by the lapels and asked me to not make a deal all on my own, ever again. That you worried for me whenever I was gone and you wanted to know the next time I planned on taking a mission, of this caliber.
You’d willingly walked back to me and since then, I have always made space for you, just like you’ve wanted.
I’ve kept up my end of our bargain.
A guttural moan of pain sounds through the otherwise quiet of the night.
These wounds of mine... functioning without sleep for this long, and a poor decision made on my end, the combination was bound to have consequences.
His chuckles knell throaty, labored.
And now, all I wish to do is sleep.
A lengthy silence follows after, making one believe the user on the other end of the line might’ve cut the call. Or fallen asleep in exhaustion of his wounds, like he said.
Before that gentle burr of his sounds once more.
You know I can’t die, sweetie, unfortunate as that is in this moment.
But I do have a wish for when my body inevitably loses its awareness for the short time it takes to recuperate.
I hope, Sylus’s voice softens. that when I close my eyes this time, I get to see you in my dreams.
Zayne
TW: allusions to embalming a body long after death, mentions of a protocore heart that continues to function even after the host’s death, denial of grief
Transcript:
Hi, you’ve reached my voicemail. I am currently unavailable but drop me a message and I’ll get back to you, stat.
A quiet insouciant voice — the clearing of a throat — begins on the other end of the line.
Akso Hospital Log 171, the time right now is 4:17 AM. The host’s heart continues to function, although its less-than-optimal cardiac output remains at 1L per min. A pulse rate of 13 beats per min has been documented today. A slight decrease from its value yesterday, recorded at 17 beats per minute.
A brief pause.
Does it bother you to hear me speak of you this way? I’m sorry. A mere force of habit on my part. You are my patient, after all. Documentation must be precise, and to the point, for our research to progress, if we are to have even a sliver of a chance at resuscitating your heart.
I have hope we will succeed; I will do my utmost as a doctor so that we may save you.
Another pregnant pause.
Do you too think I am foolish for my efforts?
Greyson accosted me in the hallways tonight after my scheduled surgery and he seemed so... incensed. For being unable to give up on you, for crossing a line, to not get overtly attached to any of our patients, he said it was a clear violation of our Oath and called it my professional failing. And afterwards... he implored that I give up now.
Someone once asked me, long ago: if I would go beyond death to try and bring back the person I loved, were they to pass away. And I answered that I would not, a desecration of the dead is not something I’d wish to do. Or wish upon the deceased. I would rather divert all my efforts to ensuring they would live, that their heart would continue to beat healthy.
So, in retrospect, it is Greyson who’s strange in expecting my willing defeat, without having even tried to the best of my capabilities. Not when your heart still continues to beat.
I do, however, miss you... very much, even though hope remains in my heart.
When the day comes that you wake up, I hope you do not have to suffer like this, ever again.
Rafayel
TW: gradual loss of vision, self-blame

Transcript:
Hi, hello! I’m unable to answer your call at the moment but hey, feel free to drop me a voice message and I’ll get back to you soon. Bye-bye!
A sharp inhale; as if the person on the other end of the line is wracked by sudden, vicious pain.
Before the sound smoothens out, as if it had never been. An airy voice begins, although the nonchalant inflection to his tone sounds odd, all wrong — a fact the recipient of the voicemail would’ve been able to parse instantly, were they still around.
Hey cutie! It’s me again, your favorite person in the entire world.
Sorry about that earlier, I always get a bit startled whenever I hear you say good-bye in that crazy adorable voice.
Since y’know, the very last time we met, you never told me you were leaving.
Silence descends.
It really feels like it’s been another 800 years, I fear the fish will actually start flying and the whales will start walking this time.
Only, I don’t think you’re coming back this time, are you?
My bride can be so cruel sometimes.
A humorless laugh.
Anyyyyway, I’m dropping a voice note today because my eyesight’s been acting up a bit lately so I can’t really leave you a text like I usually do.
And before you scold me about it, I know I’m not supposed to be painting this long but I’m close to completing this new painting of you and I can’t rest until it’s done and dusted.
Don’t hate me for it, pretty?
A pleased, wistful sound.
I really wish you were here so I could show it to you right now.
A strident crash sounds in the background of the caller as paintbrushes overturn along with a color palette; garnet red and deep purple staining his floor a macabre color Rafayel cannot perceive in that moment.
Whoa, now that’s gonna leave a mess from the sounds of it.
Whatever, I’ll clean it up later once I get my sight back.
The point is, cutie, I’ll share a snap of the completed painting with you once it’s done.
Be prepared to be absolutely blown. So dazzled you fall head over heels in love with me.
And then perhaps... return, if you like it and me enough.
His sigh is steeped in mild vexation.
Waiting hurts.
Having you not remember our time together, in every lifetime we meet, hurts. It really is all your fault, you know.
A soft, disgruntled moue you can hear within his words.
But I hope, in our next life, we don’t cross paths.
That way, you won’t be forced to sacrifice yourself for my sake, ever again, you silly girl.
A throttled sound; it almost sounds like a wretched moan of pain.
I don’t want our bond to shackle you down anymore so I think... I’ll let you go now.
A human like you far suits the sun, not being saddled down below within turbulent seas.
So, this will be our final farewell now.
The words nearly scraped free of his throat on a rasped sound.
Goodbye, my beloved bride.
I loved—
Beep. Your message has been recorded and sent.
Caleb

Transcript:
TW: very brief traumatic remembrance of your demise
Hi hi! You’ve reached the ever-diligent Miss Hunter’s voicemail. I’m probably out on a mission right now so I’m unable to respond but I’ll get back to you ASAP if you drop me a message instead!
A soft chuckle warms the air in fond recollection to hear your voice. The knot of Caleb’s brow furrowing deeper as he tries to imprint that cheery voice into his skull to overwrite the sounds of your pained screams still knelling within his ears.
Before he clears his throat to begin.
Hello to you too, pipsqueak.
It’s your 25th birthday today and I thought I’d record this little memento for us.
Happy Birthday, my tiny hurricane of disaster. I really miss you, you know, even if you don’t seem to.
He chuckles in resignation.
I should’ve let you bother me more often if I knew you were going to be this terrible at keeping in touch with your best friend later.
We really didn’t have much time together once I returned from my posting abroad. Work kept you so busy.
I should’ve scolded you more often about taking appropriate breaks in between missions. God.
A gentle laugh resounds on the other end of the line.
Reprimanding you like a dad used to be Zayne’s job among us three, not mine.
The tiniest of fractures slip into his voice.
Anyway, I’ve kept to my side of the bargain we made while I was away from Linkon; to leave you regular voice messages about my day and I guess the habit’s just... stuck.
I visited the grocery store earlier to shop for ingredients to whip up your favourite parmesan risotto tonight.
It was almost like you were with me, you know.
With each item I passed by; from the strawberries you love to inhale to your favourite cola displayed, front and center, within their fridge. I almost picked one up for you before I—
He visibly halts himself, his breathing somewhat erratic. Before he resumes once more.
That nice kid you’re friendly with was manning the counter today and he recognized me almost instantly. All thanks to being towed around the Supermart with you, no doubt.
He even gave me a nice discount on the items when I told him I was whipping up a birthday dinner for you.
A short pause.
The risotto was pretty good, if I do say so myself. I wish you could’ve tasted it too.
Sorry I didn’t bake a birthday cake for you this year because it’s just me in the house now.
I don’t have a certain cute girl, with a crazy sweet tooth, to eat it with me and you know I’m not really fond of sweets.
His voice drops into a hushed sound, wrought with emotion.
Time flew by so fast. It seems like only yesterday when we were both kids, huddled around a coffee table with you trying your best to blow out the candles on the cake Grandma baked for us on your birthday.
He laughs softly.
You had a difficult time growing up because of your heart but you were always so brave.
I wish I could’ve spoiled you more often. If only I knew then that our time together would be so short.
His voice breaks into a slight tremor.
Your Caleb really misses you... every day of my excruciating life.
But... I hope that now... wherever you are, you aren’t in pain anymore.
If there is a life after this one, I hope you let me find you in it, too.
I love you, little spitfire.
End of voice message.
Xavier
TW: space travel, personal logging of a journey, self-imposed isolation and neglect

Transcript:
Hi there, you’ve reached my voicemail as I’m unable to attend your call at the moment. Leave a message after the beep and I’ll be sure to get back to you soon!
Hi to you too, angel.
It’s been a while since I’ve left you a message, hasn’t it?
I’m sorry, I’ve been facing some turbulence anomalies ever since my ship hit the Bode’s galaxy so I’ve been a bit occupied.
Where were we last time?
Ah, I told you how Jeremiah’s shop has been thriving on Earth lately, because I remembered you saying you wanted to know how he was doing the last time we spoke.
You never got the chance to see for yourself after.
He pauses.
I didn’t want to tell you at the time because you and Jeremiah really seemed to be growing close as friends and that bothered me.
Forgive me?
A shift of gears sounds within the quiet interior of the spaceship as Xavier adjusts a few controls.
I know these logs will never reach you but I still want to talk to you about our journey.
I never...
His voice drops; the sliver of a whisper.
got to show you this small planet I found while out on my travels, a long time ago. I named it Uluru. It’s a red rock planet, you see.
I told you about it once and you said you’d really like to go see it someday. “Xavier’s own planet,” you said.
I think you were teasing me then. But I wanted to tell you, it’s not just Xavier’s planet but “Xavier and MC’s little planet”.
I didn’t have the chance to show it to you while you were still—
A violent catch of breath followed by a soft curse, cleaves through the quiet.
A low exhale before that quiet voice picks up once more.
Uluru is reaching the end of its life soon after all these lightyears and I wanted to go together with you to see our planet one last time before it died.
As for what I’ll do after...
A pause and a thoughtful hum, follows.
I think I’ll stay there once I’ve witnessed its demise.
Earth no longer has any springs for me to return to now that you’re gone and Philos — well I can’t return to that place anymore.
So, I think I’ll stay, among the ruins of the place that was supposed to be our home.
With you.
End Notes: Thank you for reading! I know many of us wept about how we wished for God to take all of Zayne’s pain and give it to us instead so here I am, happy to do exactly that. 😇 Happy Zayne story branch release, y’all.
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class 78 minecraft server
junko: griefs everyone's builds when no one else is online, claims it wasnt her
chihiro: looked at the server logs, knows its her, too non-confrontational to say anything
taka: has never played a video game in his life, has no idea what he's doing
mondo: trying really hard to teach taka but is ALSO bad at minecraft
byakuya: AFK farming and exploiting villagers for maximum emerald output, gets mad if anyone on the server is richer than him
kyoko: the others never see her online, but she inexplicably has a massive amount of resources (byakuya hates that her house is bigger than his)
hifumi: plays a lot of minecraft, good at building
celeste: realized the above information and made hifumi build her a european castle
sayaka: died to a zombie her first night, too scared to log back in
toko: "I-I'll o-only play if m-master byakuya's online-!!" and proceeds to just follow him around while crouching
genocide jack: the same, except she keeps killing him. has started saying "in minecraft" after mentioning her irl crimes
leon: logs in, dies once, rage quits, calls the game stupid, repeat
aoi: says "im going to go explore!" and ends up ten thousand blocks away from spawn
sakura: spends all her time building with the items aoi brings back
yasuhiro: horrified scream every time he sees a hostile mob
mukuro: "if junko really wants me to, I guess I will mine and craft"
makoto: the one who suggested they make the server in the first place
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