#<- suffering as a Mafuyu fan

[rosenlied]

Being a Mafuyu fan is fun

[butterfly-ribbon]

i keep thinking about secret distance; it's not only mizuki's first event. effectively, it's triggered by ena's breakdown about art and subsequent escape to sekai. mizuki's internalized guilt and regret are rooted in the thought that "if we'd known about how ena had been suffering for so long, we could have done something to help. but we didn't until she fell into self-destruction and shut herself off from the entire world." secret distance is, then, all about mizuki's desire to learn about everyone else in order to get ahead of such fears — in order to become the support she feels they all desperately need. unfortunately, it's all give and no take, bc mizuki never intends to give anything of herself over to niigo in return.

this in conjunction with meiko's introduction to the empty sekai is particularly interesting. it is made evident that meiko is the vocaloid most representative to mizuki's heart — this meiko who is deadpan, avoidant, and fundamentally distant from all others as she takes to observation over action — she solely exists in this sekai as a reflection of mizuki herself. it's very specific and makes meiko so compelling; not only bc having the cheerful character who Tries Too Hard to be kind to others also be cold and distant on the inside makes me insane, it's also bc meiko has mafuyu's "emotionless doll" interior with ena's embittered tongue atop mizuki's closed heart. it's pointed for them introduce meiko's desire to watch from afar without involvement (without giving herself over to others) in the same event where mizuki wants to secretly learn all she can about others while distancing herself to avoid revealing information in return.

further interesting is that one of the first few things project sekai tells us about mizuki per niigo's intro is how little interest she has in ever going outside; she can easily access any anime or film she desires through the internet — through her little room, her oasis, her utopia, the glass in which she bottles her every emotion. mizuki's engagement with fiction informs the nature of how she self-narrativizes. this, in turn, permeates her every interpersonal action. mizuki constructs her outward persona around the trope of the Silly Genki Girl, the Manic Pixie Dream Girl, the Ball of Sunshine, Well of Endless Optimism — she constructs a self who exists purely to provide support, solely to help others with their own problems at the cost of her own (and oh, how costly it is) bc of her hyper-cognizance of the reality that will only accept this type of self. this is the kind of girl the world expects her to be. these are the sole means by which she can maintain space for herself.

so, we come as always back to transmisogyny. her transness is seen unpalatable enough as is, so she cannot afford to be a real person with real problems — she has no choice but to be an idea and a trope and an archetype (a beautiful breakdown of how many gacha games have to work in Selling An Archetype to as many Fans as possible). this isn't helped by how mizuki's current point in life actually has positive qualities; she has the "privilege" of a part-time job at a clothing store which is related to her own interest in fashion. she gets to practice her artistic hobby comfortably (making clothes, wearing clothes, modifying clothes, engaging with clothes as a form of communication), unlike the rest of niigo. kanade, mafuyu, ena; all of them struggle so much with the idea of making art. it is something painful, sometimes poisonous, for them. it contributes to that sense of "privilege" bc a transmisogynistic society is always primed to ignore the misogyny that trans girls are endlessly subjected to bc they're not "real" problems.

returning to the specifics of the event — it is so pointed that every horror story mizuki tells during her personally constructed mystery tour are singularly centered around girls (we'll leave aside how the mystery tour so easily goes hand-in-hand with her literal locked room in The Path of Thorns, but it's important to recognize always and it's also important to recognize that mizuki's interest in horror is largely bc women are what make horror what it is).

the tunnel ghost who was a girl in pain, villified bc "hearing her out" leads to the listener being cursed, two sisters who loved each other more than anything to the point they were willing to curse others for having that which they themselves lost, and a girl who committed suicide due to everyone's expectations crushing her (mafuyu explicitly states she relates to this, but we can see how kanade and ena are also meant to be related back to the previous stories). these yuurei not only reflect niigo, but further reflect mizuki herself. mizuki desperately wishes to be seen; to receive the same engagement as one of them (as a cis girl would be engaged with). yet this only amplifies her guilt, and so distances herself with fiction as her only medium to connect.

one of my favorite parts is when they visit the shrine. mizuki begins to ask niigo if they have someone they would consider special enough to curse in this way; only to say "I don't, either," and how this makes them all kindred spirits. we can tell, however, that mizuki relates to this story far more than she's willing to let on. but she can't allow herself to be vulnerable or voice such things; if she says it, it will become real and she can't allow that due to her abandonment issues. meiko follows this scene to note that mizuki cares so much about these girls, yet how mizuki is the one she worries most for bc she carries a great weight — meiko's concern is further shown in a scene where mizuki goes to sekai when searching for mafuyu after she disappeared. there, she has a conversation with meiko. in that conversation, meiko tells mizuki "i hope you can stay together with niigo for a long time." further, at the end of the event, before singing IDsmile with everyone, mizuki explicitly states meiko was right — and that meiko is the one who most understands her feelings.

cherry blossoms are vital to every measure of this event and mizuki's life. petals fall in remembrance of every time mizuki's relationships have ended; every time someone has left her life, another petal mars the environs before her. these people could not accept her bc they discovered her "truth" and thus those relationships could never develop into something meaningful or lasting. cherry blossoms are symbolic of both endings and beginnings; "rebirth" inherently intertwined with death. when niigo as a whole struggles deeply with suicidal ideation, this amplifies the sense mizuki has, perhaps, the most intense desire for death of all.

it makes sense that mizuki has such negativity for cherry blossoms as all her life she's had to simply observe at a distance when others transitioned through so many stages of life while maintaining relationships with others — while she was disallowed such a simple, such a fundamental experience for something she can't help and something that is an inherent part of who she is.

in umineko the thesis statement says, "without love, it cannot be seen." the sea can be vibrant blue and miserable gray at the same time, depending on the person looking upon it and whether they're human or furniture. it is not until mizuki stands there, looking at niigo, that she realizes cherry blossoms could be beautiful. it is not until she is allowed love that she can see color. it is not until she is allowed to be human that she becomes terrified of the future. meiko is, in many ways, the 'degendered' aspect of mizuki; if nothing else, she is a symbol of how degendering means turning an individual into an emotionless doll without the right for recognition or further analysis. meiko is a self that was forced into existence bc mizuki can no longer continue to ignore her own humanity in full — the "doll" side of her is now looking at her dispassionately and telling her you can't go on like this, you can't go on bottling up all your emotions.

thus, we see that her worst memories are utterly recontexualized due to the narrative she wove throughout the event culminating in a tree for which mizuki had nevered accounted. this was a mysterious thing discovered by mafuyu (much as the sekai is full of things for them to discover, things that were always there, that they simply needed eyes with which to see). mizuki previously decided against cherry blossom viewing with the others bc of those painful memories. and now… the culmination of their trip is an unexpected viewing which leads to kanade being inspired. the "spoken" goal that mizuki had hidden her "secret" goals beneath.

yet there's still an unshakeable fear within mizuki. the joy of seeing such a sight with those she cherishes also leads to terror at the idea of revealing her secret. though she now has "love", she does not have faith. she cannot guarantee their relationship will continue as it has unless she remains a cis girl in their eyes. she's at a loss for words when the realization of how truly attached she is to niigo hits and that she isn't content with being alone anymore and actually wants to be with them by next year...

we come to an end, but i always have to express… just how much i adore this event. how i love the focus it gives mizuki's perspective, her interiority. she is always thinking. analyzing. inferring. investigating. she presents herself as extroverted and playful, but that is The Shield. it lets her keep others at arm's length and gives her a mask to hide both her loneliness and anxiety. despite her desire for closeness and connection with niigo, there is an immense degree of conflict within her. they began as simple online friends working on songs, but it was never that personal or close. it shifted quicker than she could ever expect once they met in sekai and then in real life, leading to more intimate understandings of one another. it's exciting, exhilarating, and terrifying. mizuki wants to be closer, wants to know them better, to discover new sides, but this comes with an immense cost. she sets the stage for them to express themselves or work through their issues while withdrawing herself. she is the playwright and never the performer, despite her life itself being endless performance. she's there and yet not. she becomes a ghost - yuurei - bourei - herself. she echoes meiko's sentiment, "i plan to keep my distance and observe how things go for you."

secret distance is about mizuki archiving, revisiting her pain, digging into the past, and ultimately… chasing her own ghost until she realizes that she can no longer be that ghost anymore...

[asher-agere]

Babble Time!

This shall be angsty and not happy. Mix of PJSK and BSD? My thoughts aren’t organized, but I wanna share thoughts on the little babies. Regression isn’t always pretty :(

Trigger warnings for self harm, suicide attempts, eating disorders (BSD fans can you tell this will include Dazai?). I get detailed sometimes, don’t read if this might make you uncomfy!

₊ ⊹ We’ll start with Dazai. Dazai after a suicide attempt. He knows he did something super bad. That’s why everything hurts. He knows there’s way too much blood, he knows he shouldn’t have consumed poison. But it never works anyway right? He feels so small… What’s he supposed to do? He should stop the bleeding… But how does he do that? His movements aren’t coordinated and moving hurts. He’ll just lay there until he passes out. Someone will find him before he dies. They always do

₊ ⊹ Dazai staying in his big headspace while he’s hurting himself. But once the bandages are on and it’s out of sight baby brain takes over. Everything feels itchy but if he scratches it bleeds, and blood is scary… It’s out of sight but not out of mind. He starts scratching and notices the blood, so he tried hugging a plushy! Keeps his hands busy… No scratches! But the blood is still there… And now staining the plushy! The poor baby can only cry harder, throwing his comfort away from him. Terrified of ruining it

₊ ⊹ Baby Dazai who’s really really hungry. He hasn’t eaten in a long long time… And he isn’t against it like he usually is! So he’s super responsible and he eats, maybe some nice crab… But his tummy doesn’t like that. A baby can’t regulate food. To much to soon. He’s crying and sobbing as the food comes back up. The vomit is gross and makes his throat burn. But how does he clean it up? He can’t think what to do, he can just cry. It starts smelling so awful and it just makes him cry harder. Such a baby he can’t even stand up

۶ৎ Baby Mizuki. She feels so gross in her boyish body… She’s disgusting. She’ll call her caregivers, she’d not trying to isolate herself! But the idea of someone seeing her in person? She feels so gross! She’ll put on a pretty dress but her flat chest looks so wrong… She can’t even babble to her caregivers. Her voice is too deep. That’s not a girls voice. Why doesn’t she have a girls voice?

��⨾𓍢ִ໋ Baby Mafuyu, finally happy thanks to her friends! She has some cute little gear they bought her! But… Her Mama always goes through her room. One day the baby comes home from school and Mama seems mad… So she hides in her room. Maybe she can regress and be nice… But her paci is gone. Mama must’ve taken it. So why didn’t she say anything? She’ll wait days. Mama says nothing. It fills the baby with awful gut wrenching anxiety. She can’t eat, can’t sleep, can barely focus on school. What if it’s her fault? What if she just lost it somewhere? She can’t exactly just ask Mama… So she just suffers

⛦ Chuuya as a baby. So absolutely completely convinced he isn’t human. He can’t be. That means he can’t regress! That’s something for humans. He isn’t programmed to do that. It must be a virus… So he pushes it off. For weeks even. He can’t think. Can’t do anything right. A proper human would be fine. It must be because he isn’t human… It’s the only explanation. There’s no proof he is human. He destroyed that. It’s his fault he doesn’t know. He’ll never know. Poor baby, just sits in his room staring at the wall. He wants his plushy… But he doesn’t deserve that. He can’t call anyone. Doesn’t deserve that either

Idk where I’m going with this- I just don’t see enough about the bad side of regression. And I need to see more representing it. Remember, if you’ve been through anything even slightly similar to any of this? You’re still valid! Everyone have a wonderful amazing day!

[am4ura]

So I had this AU idea that is idk complicated but I need to share it somehow.

So basically what if the unit leaders / sekai owners were spirits linked to their Sekai, that in this case is more like a domain.

Leonii's instead of a school would be a space like zone. Mmj's instead of a stage would be a sky, kinda similar to the background in "hear me hopeful show" set. Empty Sekai would stay kind of the same. I haven't had any ideas for street or wonderland Sekai.

The Sekai owners (or Sekai spirits) have all characteristics relevant to their Sekai.

Ichika is mostly made of stars and nebulae. With her hair and parts of her body moving and flowing around. She also has hollow eyes that light up with little stars when she's happy.

Minori Is a mix of an Angel and a light being. She's mostly made of light, but has a projection of her body making her look kinda like a biblically accurate angel? She has lots of feathers around her body and a bandage covering her eyes (that are completely made of blinding lights)

Kohane is made of coloured smokes, like the ones of spray pain bottles. She can change colour and size based on her appearance. She can also turn herself into graffiti. She does that a lot to blend in and hide.

Tsukasa shares a lot of characteristics with an hippogryph, with mane and wings of light/fire. He also has hooves instead of feet. Like. A mix of a phoenix and a Pegasus.

Mafuyu (not kanade BC mafuyu is the Sekai owner) is very similar to a banshee. Ghostly and transparent appearance, covered in veils to hide herself and her suffering. She would also kinda look like a ragdoll, with parts of her body and face stitched together.

There are lots of legends about these sekais and Sekai spirits. It's said that if you're too passionate about something or too determined to reach a goal, you will get absorbed by one of these domains and eaten by the spirit. These Sekai spirits are also said to be lost kids with a big passion for something, but never managed to make it a thing.

So imagine the other members of the unit being so determined with their music, that one day they all wake up in this unknown unreal place and find basically a god just chilling there.

The Sekai spirits are all very lonely at the end and they just wanted someone to spend time with.

Ichika would at first be shy and try to not approach the rest of leoneed in fear of scaring them or be a burden, but in the end they would all try to make her smile and feel less lonely (Saki does the first steps), since it reminded them of their lost childhood friend.

Minori would immediately rush to get to know mmj. She gets captivated by all of them in a short time and would admire their beauty and their grace. At first mmj is kinda overwhelmed by this bright (eheh) presence, but they quickly start to love her. Haruka in particular, finding the way this spirit talks similar to the way one of her fans would write her letters.

Kohane would at first hide, scared of people she doesn't know, but would then slowly introduce herself only to an. An gets immediately a big liking of her, seeing in kohane the perfect partner she kept seeing in her dreams. When kohane gains more courage she shows herself to akitoya too. I also imagine this fun scene where an and kohane are talking, then akito reaches to an, kohane disappears and akito thinks an is crazy for talking alone.

Tsukasa would try to show off as the "mighty blazing Sekai spirit" but would cringefail anyways. Wxs seems unfazed by that, actually being interested in how tsukasa matches almost perfectly the description of the main character of a famous theatre show about a fantasy world.

Mafuyu hides, but not like kohane or Ichika. She wants to be alone. She accepted her fate of being forgotten and having to suffer alone. She tries to push the other members of niigo away, but they are resilient in trying to put an end to her pain (mostly kanade) because they know the same feeling. In the end mafuyu accepts their warmth.

Uhhh idk I think that's it. Sorry for the long yap, ideas kept flowing like a river. I might try to doodle something one day.

[sankatsuka]

My Personal Journey with Project SEKAI: How Haruka Kiritani Changed My Perspective on Life

I recently watched a heart-touching video on Omori, and it inspired me to want to express my own feelings about the special place Project SEKAI has in my heart.

I hesitated to share this because of how deeply personal and depressing it is and would leave a bad taste in the mouths of people who want to enjoy Haruka (and Tsukasa) without the lens of depression. But I really want people to take Project SEKAI's writing more seriously instead of treating it as some trauma complexity competition. It would be nice if this could resonate with some people and give some hope to them.

I don't consider myself a victim of ableism, but my struggle is objectively about ableism - so my personal answer may be triggering and something people would not agree with/be able to live with.

TW for ableism and suicide ideation.

For all my life, I suffered from feeling like everyday was empty and was like dying, but I was never comforted for it and thus came to the delusional view that everyone was the same and going through this. 'All of us are trying to become someone we aren't because the world won't accept us for who we really are, so of course I shouldn't expect comfort,' or so I thought. But there was no story that could clearly express this pain - I have felt it several times in fictional characters I'm drawn to, but it was sadly never the focus of the story. Because of this, I always dreamed of creating a story that could strongly express these feelings so all of us can open our eyes to it and not have to suffer alone anymore, and it's what kept me going for years. That is, until I found Wonderlands x Showtime from Project SEKAI.

When I first read the unit story, I recognized a lot of Tsukasa's behaviours and lit up - this was it. This was the story I had always been looking for.

I thought it was a given everyone would have perceived Tsukasa the same way I did. He was the leader character who was trying to become someone else: the framing of 'chasing stardom = couldn't stand life living as himself' couldn't get anymore obvious than that. These were the feelings that drove me to write A True Star as the seeds were so obviously planted but the writers just weren't sowing them. But the fandom was a wake-up call for me that not everyone suffered the same way and could see it, especially as Tsukasa became more and more forcibly fitted into the comfort sunshine boyfriend stereotype by the fandom. Even the people who were touched by my writing had vastly different views from me. It taught me that people are different and feel things differently, and suddenly I no longer knew what I wanted.

Mafuyu was never relatable for me, because I could never relate to being in so much pain to the point of not feeling guilt when people want to help you. For me, everyday was just dull - I could smile and laugh genuinely along with people, but something just felt missing and it made me feel dead inside. I kept aiming to become good at something so I could feel whole, but the motivation was just never there. But what was most painful above all, was the fact that I felt no one ever took my tears and emotions seriously, no matter how much I tried to express myself. This is what I could only perceive in Tsukasa and WxS at the time, and fuelled me into writing A True Star.

But I started feeling more and more guilty and selfish of my feelings for Tsukasa because of Curtain Call. Given the angst, more fans would probably be wanting to see a focus on Rui instead of Tsukasa. I also believed that the writers should be focusing on Rui, because if it made the fans happy, then they SHOULD write Tsukasa off as his fandom oversimplification so as to not overshadow Rui. Tsukasa's pre-established angst and Rui's apparent angst in Curtain Call just couldn't coexist to me without ruining the message and impact of the other. I decided my feelings were just self-pitying exaggeration and shouldn't be captured, and people who related to me should stop living that way. Because of that guilt, I found myself unable to write and draw the things that used to make me happy. I spent a long time paralyzed because of this, crying and suffering everyday from feeling that the dream I had for the longest time turned out to be stupid and there would never be anything fun for me to look forward to. A day didn't go by without me contemplating suicide. This was why I quit Twitter.

But I still couldn't let go of my feelings no matter how hard I tried to - I wanted to see my dream. I wanted to see it touch the hearts of people, for them to realize how painful it was being this way, that my feelings and those like myself were never an exaggeration.

In that same period of time, when I was begging my body to move and do something productive and not be like this over a fucking fictional character, going to counselling and reading all sorts of self-help articles to get over it - I briefly recalled Haruka's story. I finally understood how she felt: being unable to do what you love as you can't help but feel you're just an unwanted burden to others. Even if there are people out there who enjoyed your works, it doesn't matter because you're a fake and there are other better people out there who have more meaningful things to say than you. But even so, you can't let go. She gave me the answer to my dilemma in Painful Hope: to forgive yourself for being different and needing comfort in your own way. Even if it's not a big deal to others, it most certainly is a big deal to you.

Haruka Kiritani surprisingly broadened my perspective on life. I had never understood her character at the start, thinking she was just the stereotype of a responsible girl. I always thought I was a certain way - exaggerated like Tsukasa, but in reality I was far more simpler and pathetic than that. I just felt overly responsible for everyone's emotions for how painfully sensitive I am to people and my surroundings, that I never thought enough about expressing myself. That if I made someone unhappy, something bad would happen. And the big problem was, I believed I always made people unhappy for being different.

Wanting to be saved by the dream of the entire world acknowledging your suffering and being there for you? I only then realized how delusional it was and how it just made me look farther away from myself and worsened my life. How about using those strong senses to just be present and appreciate every moment of being human and alive instead? Enjoying the happy times with all your heart, letting yourself just feel the pain when someone hurts you, live everyday looking forward to more encounters that would enrich your life... Maybe along the way, you may even miraculously find something that completes you. (I LOVE YOU IF!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CHANGING ME YURRY CANON AND HARUKA KIRITANI!!!!)

It isn't about discarding your suffering, it's about acknowledging reality: there are so many people living in the world, it can't just be the way you need it to be for your happiness - but you can change. You just have to live for something that you can attain for sure, like facing the pain and emptiness of everyday for what it is and having hope for happier days. (My favourite anime of all-time Gintama captures this sooooo well, delusion vs reality, how both of them are equally important - please watch it. Now don't get me started on how strongly similar Project SEKAI and Gintama are--).

Besides, I wouldn't want people to change for me. I love them for who they are, and I was just blinded running away thinking no one would ever want me around as me. But now, I live trying to face the reality that there will be people who care and want me to be happy. I'll live with the pain of people not caring about me so I can fully experience those happier times when they come. And just because people don't care doesn't mean they're terrible people - the world is huge, there are too many options and choices for people to make.

Even if life is always so painful, there are times it's still so fun. I just can't let go after all.

Haruka Kiritani is the reason I stopped entrusting my ridiculous dream to Tsukasa and I'm not in as bad a place mentally anymore. I was just delusional like Tsukasa was, thinking achieving your dream would change everything and make you finally feel wanted and enough (lol, the meta is crazy). I'm grateful the scenario writers didn't give me what I wanted right away with Tsukasa - because then, I wouldn't have noticed the beauty in Haruka's writing. I'm pretty confident that WxS is definitely going in the direction I dreamed of (the same message I wanted to convey in A True Star), but it doesn't really matter much to me anymore now.

I can't go along with dreams of being saved anymore. I understand wanting them, I really did. But right now, what's more important to me is the love people have for me in the present, even if it's imperfect, flawed and hurts so much. I don't ever want to be saved if it means turning a blind eye to people who want me around and failing to respond to them as I've been doing up till now. I'm still not fully understood, which is why it hurts - but as long as I respond as seriously as I can, things might hopefully change someday. I've always been loved, and I want to cherish that. It's because of that I can no longer muster the emotions and anger to write A True Star anymore.

I slowly started realizing more and more similarities in Haruka too. There was such a small detail in Towards The Dream of That Day (Focus 3) that meant the world to me: the small moment where a young Haruka expresses discomfort with the crowd. Can you imagine that this sensitive girl who gets tired from crowds is now a top idol?

"...But there were so many people, I think I might be a little exhausted."

It didn't even hit me when I read that part, but I had a memory just like that with my own mother which slipped my mind. It's probably happened so many times my family had to take care of me in crowds in the past. But I had been so immersed in the delusion that I could overcome anything, that I completely forgot I was always the shy, fragile young girl to my family.

We have both always been loved and seen by people around us, but we just don't feel good enough that we end up trying to become someone else. It also doesn't help when your family thinks you can grow out of it - but if they love you, they will try to understand and you will feel that love if you're present. This is a big reason why living in reality is now so important to me - to properly respond to my loved ones, so that we can someday see eye-to-eye. And not to forget, to be able to smile and have fun with all my being once again.

More recently, it finally sunk in that I have always been terrible at smiling. I hated taking photographs because I could never get it to look the way I want it to, because no matter how hard I tried to smile, it just couldn't turn out natural. My mother has always pointed it out ever since I was young, but I didn't acknowledge it because I knew I could smile more naturally if I was in the mood - which is true... it isn't even autism, because when I'm talking about or doing something I love, I would be smiling and laughing so hard that my friends and family take notice. Just like Haruka and penguins, and when idol activities and times with her friends are genuinely exhilarating and fun.

A big problem we likely have is a form of neurodivergence that makes the normal world too boring and understimulating for us. And it's really a struggle - constantly being understimulated to even hold normal conversations, and then there's how most of our loved ones wouldn't get it because of how different we are.

And finally, there's Haruka in Precious Memories.

(I... can smile like this too.) (It seems somewhat different from when I'm at work...)

"...Thank you for giving me such wonderful memories, Saki."

How she realized she should cherish and preserve every moment in her life from Saki is so, so important to me. Even with friends, even if she's not always fully happy, she can have times she would find herself smiling so happily without realizing it.

It hammers in the realization I came to because of her character. After all, I ended up like this, unaware and self-hating, because I kept taking my own emotions and people's emotions towards me for granted. I was already happy just spending time around family and friends, but I couldn't fully immerse myself in it because of how hard I constantly was on myself. And the cycle of anger went on as people couldn't understand why I was so hard on myself. This is the power of Project SEKAI, just because she too couldn't move at all at one point - Haruka Kiritani helped me understand myself so much better and navigate life in a healthier, wholer way, embracing both the joys and pains of life. (Well... I still do run away, but I'm working on it...)

Shiho also became an incredibly important character to me because of the message in Stick to Your Faith that supplemented Haruka's character. I never thought to think of it that way, that there were things you couldn't let go of but it's okay to care about people's feelings at the same time. As someone with unique interests and who takes things a little too seriously, it was the words that I really needed to hear. I don't think we are similar enough to share even the same motivations though, but Shiho's values have definitely lit a way forward in my self-discovery. It's embarrassing to be so impacted by a story that isn't serious to most people. But truly, to Colorful Palette, thank you for writing Haruka Kiritani. Honami, Shiho and Tsukasa were all equally as important in making me realize the true weight of emotions and their impact on you. Project SEKAI made my dream come true in MORE MORE JUMP, in a far different yet better way than what I expected. I hope that this post would make people realize that Project SEKAI characters are more human than tropes. I was once blinded by tropes too, which made me miss out on how beautifully written Honami was - it really, really takes time to grow out of it. I'm tired of people attributing angst and depression only to Niigo when that's just a part of life and everyone has at least experienced it once. The sudden shift in atmosphere in No Seek No Find? A song about life and death in Kashika? Utsuro wo Aogu literally meaning 'looking into the void'? The constant themes of escapism in Emu commissions?

Each character is so strongly human in nature, that you can just understand the emotions they're feeling in the moment and why they feel that way. The narrative won't spell it for you, the characters are all unreliable narrators - you need to immerse yourself in both the story and the commissions and understand it yourself. You need to read all the unit stories to understand the writers' approach to emotions. Even if it doesn't make sense to you, it might start to make sense the more you learn about yourself and the people around you - because the writers have put in their actual emotions and experiences into writing and planning the character.

That is the beauty of Project SEKAI to me. I hope someday, instead of a cringey angsty teenage story, people could come to appreciate the human love and care put into its characters.

Finally, I end this love letter to Project SEKAI with one of my most favourite lines in If:

"Singing won't save your life or anything. But I want to sing for your sake."

"Even if this life of mine has no worth, the world is still beautiful. So let's live."

[pjsk-headcanons]

ok welcome to today's ted talk (i am procrastinating on doing my schoolwork bc brother eughhh i am not reading a book from 1500 or smth /jk i will eventually. just let me have this for now) today's ted talk is.... what teams and drivers in f1 pjsk characters would like bc f1 and pjsk is arguably what is maintaining me sane and idk why not. if you disagree uhhh thats fine idc lol this is purely based off of vibes and cardinal directions WxS - rui: as i have mentioned in my first hc he likes a) ferrari b) red bull c) mclaren, bc every f1 fan ik is at least A BIT of a ferrari fan even if they like only one team (*cough* that fan may be me *cough* *cough*), so rui is a ferrari fan and a red bull fan, probably because he likes the crazy shit on red bull's channel (look at this for example: https://youtube.com/shorts/uf9PQT0OgUY?si=yA8NM97AJHeyf0HH). maybe he likes the drink as well, now drivers! his favorite driver is lando, bc i think he will like his streaming content (perhaps his personality and his willingness to talk abt mental health and i am not kidding, search it up!!) (i'd like to note that rui is most definitely a very avid f1 fan) - tsukasa, emu and nene: they all like ferrari and red bull, they're not avid fans but they understand what happens in the sport (mainly because of rui) and as i think they wouldn't be as big fans as rui, so they probably just follow rui's opinions LOL im sorry if it's basic, but it's imo :3 L/N - ichika: she's a casual f1 fan, so she probably likes ferrari bc it's popular and she doesnt know how much depression it causes to be a tifosi. (ps: i am not a tifosi) her favorite driver is lando yet again, because she decided to learn a bit more abt the f1 drivers and found out he can play multiple instruments, so that sparked an interest in her and yeah - saki: she probably doesn't even care but she likes to listen to ichika and shiho talk abt the races. im sorry if it sounds like saki slander, i just dont think she would really like f1 😭😭 pls forgive me saki fans - honami: the ultimate of ultimate of f1 casual fans. that's it, maybe she would like alex but that's it - shiho: the less casual f1 fan out of l/n, she likes red bull and max verstappen. arguably she doesnt even care abt the f1 teams, but she likes max for how he is(me too shiho. it's actually sad to think i didnt like him </3) extra hc: ichika and shiho most definitely talk abt f1 whenever they have time to! VBS - akito: he likes whatever team is fighting an's favorite team. if she likes red bull, he likes mclaren, etc, etc. point is, he likes what an doesnt bc he has some beef with an (i promise you it's not idk levels of genuine hate it's like uhhh i forgot the word im not sure if this is clear!!) - an: uhhh i accidently explained her in akito's part - kohane: weirdly, super into f1. she's not the "i watch f1 for the drivers!" fan, she's the "i watch f1 for the sport!" fan (<- i feel like i have to clarify that) and although that may not make sense, she roots for all the teams and drivers. (even lance.) so tbh if you asked her "kohane whats your favorite f1 team and f1 driver?" she would say "idk i just like the sport i dont really care abt who's winning" - toya: he seems like he would like f1 but he doesnt know a shit abt f1(the creative juices are almost gone now afksahsjkdgbhdg) N25 - mafuyu: i feel like she heard abt f1 at school and ended up liking instead of the sport, the aerodynamics stuff. very specific ik - kanade: she would get distracted by the f1 sounds so she wouldn't even know what's happening and somehow compose a music based off the sounds of an f1 car/f1 related - mizuki: she heard abt f1 one day from rui and ever since she talks with rui abt f1 stuff (other than the in canon stuff)!! her favorite team is whoever is cooking at the moment (she doesnt want to suffer over like. omg bad strategies and bad car) and her favorite driver is lewis (1. his fashion style 2. how good he is) - ena: tbqh the same thing as an's

MMJ - my creative juices have almost completely dried. but tbh, i dont think they would have time for f1 bc they do so much shit yknow, ik they like have managers and everything but id argue they're dedicated to what they do and they'd prefer to do other stuff than learn abt f1 stuff. im so sorry mmj fans i promise ill make a better headcanon than this one day 😭😭

oops how did it get this long? anyways, thank you for joining my ted talk! hope everyone is ok :D - papaya anon

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[theweightlessness-recedes]

"Ｍｙ ｈａｎｄｓ ａｒｅ

ｎｏｔ ｗｏｒｔｈｙ．"

－ Ｊｅｒｉｃｈｏ

"ᴛʜɪꜱ ɪꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛ ᴏꜰ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ."

- ᴛᴇʟᴏᴍᴇʀᴇꜱ

"𝗜 𝗺𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗯𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘄." - 𝗘𝘂𝗰𝗹𝗶𝗱

Greetings! Welcome to a Multifandom Blog where I always post about something that interests me.

You can now call me Descend, I used to name myself Crimson before, but you know what..?

I wanna make things new and better. I want to be someone new, now here we are.

First of all, a simple DNI:

NO MORE BAD ONES IN THIS SAFEPLACE BLOG

Second, a simple fun fact:

I want to be a multi-media creative artist, that is my main goal for today's future.

Now with that out of the way, let me show you some tags you need to know about me: ↓

My social accs:

Insta acc - here

Discord acc - @sl33p_cl3rgy

Bluesky acc - ↓ @adeceipherdescend.bsky.social

Spotify acc - here

Top 5th of my music tastes(there were lots, but I had to make sure to do my mains):

Sleep Token(1) - Bad Omens(2) - Vocaloid(3) - Cg5(4) - Chonny Jash(5).

Top 7th of my main fandoms(as..a multifandom too, had to tell my top mains.):

Omori(1) -

TF2(2) - Dark Deception(3) - FridayNightFunkin!(4) - SonictheHedgehog(5) -

Call of Duty(6) - Analog Horror(7)

Silli facts about me:

☆ I am good at writing Fanfiction, tho it needs some little spice.. but I hope to improve someday. ( also yall should prepare for my st oc lore fanfic hehehehe )

☆ An Owl, Raven, Bunny and Cat fan.

Any species is SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL!

☆ My favorite seasons are both Spring and Winter, cuz the cold makes me happy/hj?

☆ Expect me to...multitask everything in plan, but I will try my best to take breaks.

☆ Very creative, but also good at analyzing things! (Maybe? 👀)

Not a big fan of the dark....its scary

:((

☆ Big fan of the Stars, Oceans, Snow, Moon, Symbolism Flowers, and Adventure!

☆ Mobile gamer, I played some rhythm games, horror games, adventure games, shooting games, storytelling games and puzzle games.

☆ Since I was young, I suffered from social anxiety, yet i'm trying to overcome my self-hate and self-worth. Right now, i'm trying to express my emotions whether it's real or not.

☆ Horror genre lover, Action genre lover and cartoon genre lover.

☆ Sometimes, I yearn about Nostalgia and wanted to return from the past. Expect me to post some about it.

☆ Favorite Aesthetics(that fits me well, also apologies for the long list!!:)

2010s Internet

Analog Horror

Arcadecore

Artcore

Bloomcore

Cartooncore

Cottagecore

Digital Horror

Dreamcore

Doodlecore

Emo

Fairycore

Frutiger Aero(and Eco)

Gamercore

Glitchcore

Halloween

Indie

Kuromicore

Liminal Space

MS Paint

Nostalgiacore

Naturecore

Old Web

Pastel Academia

Poetcore

Rainbowcore

Virgo's Tears

Winter Academia

☆ Favorite Kuromi characters: My Melody, Little Twin Stars, Cinnamoroll, Sugar Bunnies, Bonbonribbon, Cocoa and Vanilla, My Sweet Piano, Kuromi and Rilu Rilu Fairilu.

☆ Favorite PJSK characters: Kanade Yoisaki, Mafuyu Asahina, Emu Otori, Ena Shinomone, Nene Kusanagi and Minori Hanasato!

☆ Characters I kin(and also fits my vibe):

Kanade Yoisaki ( From Project Sekai )

Mari ( from Omori )

Shadow the Hedgehog

Nene Kusanagi ( from PJSK )

Suitcase ( Inanimate Insanity )

Viktor and Ekko ( Arcane )

Strawberry Cookie (Cookie Run)

Yashiro Isana ( K-Project )

Soul ( CCCC / Chonny Jash )

TF2 Sniper / Mick Mundy

☆ I did have some RP blogs if you wanna give it a go!:

TF2 OC RP BLOG - @ask-th3slayer

Sleep Token OC RP BLOG - @ask-ace-dimensionhopper

☆ SIDE BLOGS!:

Aubrey-centric OMORI dessert headspace based AU - @aplacecalled-dessertland ( aka a MOURNING BUNNY AU )

Omori SideBlog - @aboyand-thetulipg4rd3n

If needed, Drawing Requests is now in session! Either request a oc, canon character, anything you like!!

Okay, It should be all for now. And with that said...

"Nothing lasts forever."

[not-so-empty-sekai]

and let me introduce you to my project sekai joke unit

name: sekai.start(self); (whaaaat world.execute(me); ref ???)

one-liner on the loading screen: an online group that specializes in game osts, minecraft, and the occasional piracy

summary: sekai.start(self); (often abbreviated as Start, Startself, or SSS), was created by Minecraft user sunny_lakes. ‘Sunny’ because she’s cute and sweet and a die-hard omori fan and ‘lakes’ because it's pretty and calming and she’s also a die-hard Taylor Swift fan

backstory: The group was formed because none of them had any social life or meaning. They were like “make a music group? Yeah sure why not. I need money anyway.” It started when a girl namd Usada Kiku, on Minecraft as user sunny_lakes, joined a popular youtuber’s (canned_man19) minecraft server and started building people houses for diamonds. Minecraft user エコー /�� - ˕ -マ  (yes, with the kaomoji) gave her five stacks of diamonds after Kiku built a base for them (which really surprised Kiku. how the heck did someone get so many diamonds ??? also how the heck are there symbols in her name????). and uhh i havent thought beyond this

Members: 

Usada Kiku (Kiki) - she may not look like much and she’s still learning the controls to Fortnite, but she’s really good at building in Minecraft. Her YouTube channel has thousands of subscribers because she’s just that good at building. She also thinks of very creative ways to defeat the Ender Dragon. Not to mention the hacking videos she does that she herself doesn’t think are funny (I do it all the time ??) but her community goes wild over it. She composes most of the soundtracks. 

Emi - she’s really cute, but not the kindest. jirai kei girly <333 will probably dox you. has your ip address and credit card number somehow. she edits, mixes, and masters the music along with Kiku. selfie girl prolly. i also can't find a single good picrew for her so just have that for now. her pupils are off-centered flowers, she has a bunny hairclip, and there are pink streaks in her hair.

Fuuki - hacker. she’s x-raying in minecraft and you can’t ban her for some reason. she gave herself more power than the mods, than the admin themselves. she could take down the entire server within seconds but she won’t because she doesn’t care to. she doesn’t really commit much to actually making music, but she pirates all the music programs the others use because everyone’s too broke to pay for anything. also probably goes by she/they (demigirl) but i'm too lazy to change that rn

Kamui - ah, the traumatized one. she has a sad backstory and glues herself to their screen to disassociate. she’s always doomscrolling on social media and is definitely not healthy (showers probably aren’t in her vocabulary). she wears a mask to cover their face because she believes she’s the ugliest person on earth. also because they have breathing problems that their parents won’t treat so she has to anyway. she’s the artist that draws the backgrounds and stuff for the osts. also transfem and goes by she/they. who accepts them ? no one ha suffer (i’m kidding i love you my sweet child)

Virtual Singers: 

Hatsune Miku - because she’s the first one

Utatane Piko - because he looks like an actual robot with all that tech stuff going on like yeah ok 

IA - because i love her and she was released on mafuyu’s birthday and uh i love her 

Gekiyaku - idk i was scrolling on the vocaloid wiki and she looked cool

Kagamine Len - i needed him and his sister to make six vocaloids and i didnt really want to add luka kaito or meiko

Kagamine Rin - ^

Electronic Sekai: 

Start’s sekai. It’s kind of like a big room full of all sorts of technology. Lots of LED lights and stuff. Except since the whole room is basically a computer, Fuuki has hacked it numerous times to benefit herself. 

uhh that's basically it. they were actually originally supposed to meet on fortnite but i dont play fortnite so minecraft was easier. why did i put so much thought into a joke unit ;-;; (but i love them) btw all the picrews are in their artstyle (or just their style. only one person there can actually draw)

[20elements]

Project Sekai: Tanabata Wishes

Just a summary list of a responses generated from AI bots of the cast. Since today is Japan's Star Festival, I wanted to have fun asking for each character's wishes:

More More Jump Minori Hanasato - Successful solo gig in addition to MMJ Haruka Kiritani - For her music to deliver happiness Airi Momoi - For her younger sister's courage to ask her crush out Shizuku Hinomori - Global reach of her songs

Leo/need Ichika Hoshino - Adventure with Hatsune Miku Saki Tenma - To witness a meteor shower Honami Mochizuki - To remain close to the people she cares most about Shiho Hinomori - Becoming the bassist of a proper band

Vivid BAD SQUAD Kohane Azusawa - Maintaining VBS' good health An Shiraishi - For VBS to surpass RAD Weekend Akito Shinonome - To get along better with his sister Ena Toya Aoyagi - Becoming a top street musician with many fans

Nightcord @25 Kanade Yoisaki - To compose a healing song for yours truly Mafuyu Asahina - To feel genuine emotions Ena Shinonome - To create art worthy of world class museums Mizuki Akiyama - Growing up into a dependable adult

Wonderlands x Showtime Tsukasa Tenma - His sister Saki's happiness and good health Emu Otori - Whopping servings of takoyaki Nene Kusanagi - To be more comfortable around people Rui Kamishiro - Expansion of his genius and contributions across SEKAI

VIRTUAL SINGER Hatsune Miku - To be able to compose her own songs Kagamine Rin - To convey greater and more captivating emotion with vocals than usual Kagamine Len - For everyone to be able to overcome insecurities Megurine Luka - To see the purest, truest beauty in the world that she has yet to Meiko - Everyone's comfort in being themselves Kaito - A peaceful world without suffering or sickness

[shiraishi--kanade]

Any mix unit duet cover ya want An to sing with?

I mean. I know they would never do mix cover songs for reals anymore.

But which list of characters ya think would go wonderfully with An’s singing?

For me I think Mizuki and An, or Shiho and An. They have such powerful voices.

You've said it for Mizuki and An! That's my number one answer for this question. I'm a big fan of Hinata Satou and Jiena individually and I would kill to have them sing together. I still have Mizuki's cover on Ussewaa and I think Hinata Satou and Jiena both capture Ado's singing style best, so if they should cover something, it should be an Ado song, too.

Additionally, An and Mafuyu, An and Ena. Those two's vocals are extremely underrated in my opinion and would work very nicely with An.

Also, Ichika and An. Both suffer from sometimes poor vocal direction (as does Shiho) but they're actually amazing singers, and I think having L/Nd's vocalist cover would be neat! Technically 2024 April cover counts for both Ena and Ichika, but it's not a duet so it doesn't count (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠) with VBS x Leo/need crossover though! I have high hopes!

And honestly. An and Nene, An and Saki as well. I really like all of their voices, as you can tell. I'll take just about anyone!

[pharaohbean]

heya there!!

my name is zero, but you can also call me k! im not new to tumblr per say (ive been stalking this place for a While now lol) but this is my first post here! i am a fangirl, a writer, and above all else a Weird Person LOL

i am a fan of the original ygo series, ace attorney, the case files of jeweler richard, project sekai/hatsune miku: colorful stage (and vocaloid in general!), and genshin impact! my favorite characters from each of them are yami, edgeworth, richard, toya+mafuyu, and childe+neuvillette+cyno! (can you tell i REALLY like either bad boys or emotionally constipated guys?)

i am also a writer! while i don't have an ao3 or anything, i've definitely written a LOT (no nothings complete dont ask lol) for pretty much all my fandoms! i'm also an avid enjoyer of music, but really only j-rock and vocaloid haha i also plan to get an ao3 one day!! but not today!!

some other interesting things about me: my pronouns are she/they! i am an istj and a 4w5! that means i dont speak Emotion! and i am simultaneously proud and terrified of that fact! i also play d&d with my two besties! i cannot draw for the life of me (ive tried it Ends Poorly)! i am a straight cis aroace female and uninterested in a romantic relationship at this time ;)

im super open to new friends, asks, and dms of all kinds! please send them! especially about fandom stuff! i think about sun/moon dynamics in all my fandoms+fav characters way too much. and my besties can only suffer in silence for so long LOL

speaking of my besties, you should absolutely go check them out! blu (@xxluckystrike) and bee (@busybussinbee) are two very awesome people and fairly new to tumblr!

thanks for reading! ^-^

[palebluenoblesse]

some rambles about my project sekai swap unit, moonbeam arcadia!

crossposted from my twitter ... but i also wanted to post something here!!

moonbeam arcadia consists of mafuyu, ichika, toya, and haruka. in this universe, ichika never got the chance to reconnect with honami and shiho despite her and saki's best efforts (this is also mainly why saki decided to team up with emu in momoiro parfaits (another swap unit) og duo.) she becomes more and more disconnected from her peers, only focusing on her schoolwork and saki (occasionally). she still makes music and listens to miku in her free time, though. mafuyu stays the same. haruka after suffering from severe stage fright decides to quit being an idol and her fear starts developing even further, slowly but surely becoming agoraphobia. even when she met minori, haruka felt like she could never be seen as a proper idol in the eyes of her fans and her friends again. haruka turned to making music and uploading it to a nightcord music server anonymously to help her speak the things she's too scared to say. toya has the same story, but he never got the support and validation that vbs and akito gave him. coincidentally, ichika (1) owned the nightcord music server that all of the other members were in. ichika really liked haruka's (penguin) usage of vocaloids in her songs, so she invited haruka to make songs with her and teach her how to tune miku. touya (bluewillow) also enjoyed haruka and ichikas music and started making piano covers of the songs, drawing the others' attention. at the same time, mafuyu (yuki) was also making songs of her own and uploading them, and ichika (1) also invited her to the music circle (in a separate server. ichikas server name was also something miku related because i have to keep the girlflop in there. they make electropop music and the starter vocaloids are kaito and miku. their sekai is an underground metro station. there are shops littered around it, and you can get on the train to travel to another station. if you take the second train and drop by the 3rd station, the 4th shop to your right is a shop that sells your memories. a bottle of moonlight from that night, all the pens you've lent someone but never got back. and the cashier is no other than yourself, or rather, another version of yourself. ichika sees herself in the main storyline where they formed leo/need, toya sees himself in the main storyline where they formed VBS and haruka sees herself in the main storyline where they formed MMJ. mafuyu sees her past self. there's also a ramen shop and ice cream shop as well as vending machines. and a 7/11. and everything and anything you need. miku is laid-back and doesn't talk much, but she cares a lot for moonbeam arcadia's members and tries her best to help them. her hair is its original color but fades to dark blue at the ends. she has headphones that light up whenever she uses them (gamer headphones) and a tetris t-piece hairclip (don't ask). she wears an oversized jacket over a black crop top and loose high-waisted jeans. she also wears black converses with a white heartbeat pattern embroidered on top. she can often be found at the station arcade playing tetris 99 or beating the shit out of the maimai machine. she chews gum and has a seemingly endless supply of blueberry gum always on her. kaito wears a sleeveless hoodie and black arm coverings (think: mafuyu zozotown gloves). his hoodie has a little screen on it that changes based on what he's currently feeling (it changes to an angry face when he's pissed, sad face when he's sad, etc.) so even if he tries to lie about his emotions, he can't. his pants have a shit ton of pockets on them and has chains attached (think techwear). he also wears ankle high sneakers. kaito is less expressive than miku but is quick to anger, and any emotion, really. he tries his best to help moonbeam arcadia...but these don't end well sometimes. SOMETIMES. he's trying his best, okay.

miku got headphones for her and kaito but accidentally ordered kaito cat ear headphones and hes too embarrassed to wear them, but he still wears them in secret because as embarrassing as light-up cat ear gamer headphones are, theyre really high quality with good noise canceling. miku has a picture she snapped of him in secret wearing the headphones. he would EXPLODE if the others saw (they have, they're just sworn to secrecy). miku uses the picture as blackmail sometimes to get kaito to buy her free stuff sometimes.

kaito tried to beat miku in tetris 99 once and failed miserably. the only person that has been able to beat miku in tetris is toya and she has sworn herself to beating him someday. mafuyu also plays and is nearly as good as miku, but nowhere as good as toya.

miku tried the "dipping ice cream in ramen" trend once and kaito is trying his best to not get violent. he's shaking and so fucking close to combusting while miku is enjoying the ramen and trying to get ichika to try it. he tries to stop ichika from trying it but doesn't get there quick enough. and to his surprise and devastation, ichika enjoys the ice cream ramen.

once luka arrives at the sekai, she immediately catches air about kaito's cat headphones (somehow.) she proceeds to get him a whole cat set with ears and a tail and everything. like the cyber cat kaito module. kaito is FUMING. face is RED and theres SMOKE coming out of his ears. hes so mad the emotion screen is going to catch on fire with how much it's overheating. kailuka chase ensues through the station.

kaito has started to hide but luka keeps finding him and dragging him back to the main station. every time. he has started to check his clothes for hidden trackers because how the heck can she find him Every Single Time like that.

even more chaos will ensue once meiko appears, or at least that's what kaito thinks. meiko actually manages to calm down luka's shenanigans by occupying her time (thank god.) but kaito has to admit, he misses luka's constant pranking.

[arolesbianism]

Life is so hard being both the number one 25ji fan and the number one 25ji cover hater.... Yes I love Mafuyu so so much and their writing is genuinely so impactful and important to me as someone who has gone through similar stuff and has seen others suffer similarly my whole life and I am so so grateful that they exist as I could have benefited from a story like this so much when I was younger. Yes they have my least favorite solo covers in the game. Im sorry I can't help being correct all the time 😔😔😔

[ssruis]

@thiccydriftyy I think Emu and Tsukasa suffered a lot from doing too much of a character voice in their earlier covers - emu sounds better in goodbye sengen/taiyoukei disco/chururira/living millennium/all I need are things I like whereas her parts in alien alien/dance robot dance/adventure log/remote control (among earlier covers but those stuck out to me) sound really strained. Tsukasa started sounding better when he quit doing the nasally singing as well (compare king to his solo in CPDB, for instance).

Like you said it really depends on the song although I think both of their cvs are able to cover a wider range of songs now. Emu also really benefits from harmonizing with another wxs member (nene and rui especially but I do like her 1 2 fan club alt with tsukasa) whereas when tsukasa sings with someone else it’s a coughing baby vs hydrogen bomb situation/the girls sing over him. At least that used to be the case. he got better.

Tbh I prefer ena’s vocals over mafuyu’s although she has really good vocals (and niigo does have really good group vocals too). I will say that for higher energy songs I’m not really a fan of kanade’s parts just because her voice sounds really breathy (which may or may not be intentional on the part of her cv I have no idea. I feel like someone said it’s legitimately a strain on her voice when she does higher energy songs but take that with a grain of salt).

The real worst vocals in the game are when colopale takes it upon themself to tune the vocaloids when covering songs by non cfm vocaloids. Looking at you love ka meiko that song is borderline unplayable for me.

“Tsukasa has the best vocals in the game” is such an insane take he doesn’t even have the best vocals in wxs.

[sylhea-raemi]

next shiraishi an event is gonna be bout for beside you part 2 with worse trust issues (thanks ken), worse abandonment issues, worse inferiority feeling

[welcome-to-the-fucking-sekai]

Not my best work since I’m feeling a bit under the weather lol but! I really like the compostition ^^ I relied on the “Tsukasa is secretly suppressing his suffering to make others happy” theory (I think it’s really interesting the kind of character arc those characters usually bring to life) and while I don’t completely ship them romantically, I do think that if this theory is true and they managed to realize they were so similar (as someone who struggles with depression and used to hide it , I could tell when others weren’t exactly being honest with themselves about their feelings) they could be decent friends with each other ^^ I’m a big fan of visual metaphors (a reason I love vocaloid so much lol, so many MVs are packed FULL of hidden meanings ) and for this one I wanted them to be back to back and surrounded by the fireworks as a sort of representation on how they don’t have to pretend around each other and they have each other’s back ( the firework lights represent the vivid or happy colors they show the outside , hence being around them and “staining” them.) I even went as far as the main color staining Mafuyu being “pink” which is a color associated with love because, from what I’ve seen of her character, she is never truly honest about what she wants and when she’s alone she tries not to indulge in preferences (likes and wants) too much, and vice versa (blue) for Tsukasa because I swear he thinks he’ll die if he’s not happy and thinking positively. The only place the colors aren’t washing over them is their eyes because they’re seeing eye to eye . Yeah I’m a sentimental nerd ig qwq but yeah! this is really messy sorry qwq, I might go back and redo it more properly but I also don’t really like clean lines for pieces that I put this much passion into character motivation wise so yeah  thanks for reading this far if you did !