#<- pretty stranger coded to me /j

[holywoodelevator]

I just finished this video (as you can tell) BUT NOT IN A MILLION YEARS WOULD I MAKE OUT WITH A MANNEQUIN WITH A TON OF PEOPLE AROUND AND ESPECIALLY NOT INFRONT OF A CAMERA

Spencer had courage doing that and what he gets in return is edits of him with that moment in it forever reminding him of that day LMAO

[justanaspiringsomeone]

More Gilded Shadows Headcanons

disclaimer: this is for fun and the characters belong to @steamberrystudio with that in mind, lets go:

Jack Headcanons

Is a chaotic bisexual

Look at this man and then tell me to my face he does not have bisexual energy

Ironically, never been with a man himself, he has crushes though

It was Caleb and Caissa, he will take those secrets to his grave though

Caleb never knew but I feel like Caissa was aware to some degree

To which i say, good taste Jack

Is def more muscular than the other LIs, almost always on the move no matter what

Lashes are longer than you’d think

The dog energy is strong with this one, more wild rather than fully trained

Fluctuates with nihilistic thoughts and wanting to live still

Emotional intimacy is far and in between for Jack, so he’s… not well skilled

Or rather, he keeps emotional intimacy at bay? I dont think it’s on purpose

At least not always

He thought of getting a tattoo, but somehow managed to convince Caleb into getting one

Or at least thinking about getting one

Has stupid amounts of luck, like there are so many situations he’s been in where he definitely shouldn’t be alive

Lowkey, people have a nickname for him, Lucky Jack or Jack Rabbit

He kind of hates it tho

His sense of fashion is quite literally the badboy your dad warns daughters about HAH

No sense of fashion to speak of when you’re busy surviving though

Likes loose fitting and breathy clothes though, or something that won’t snag or be grabbed on

Gets both flustered and confused when referred as ‘pretty’ or ‘beautiful’ like h u h

Does he look anything like that to yall–

Lowkey doesn’t get genuinely complimented a lot so it sends him for a loop sometimes

Can code switch like none other and it freaks some people out

Rowan Headcanons

Mmmm eldest sibling trauma go brrr /j

Good with his hands and fiddles around with things whenever he’s anxious or bored

Gay

Not a fan of being touched i think? Def not by strangers at least.

Likes his hair being played with, Velli only tho

Bitter about his parents so he chooses not to think about it

Annoying people is his way of showing love

He worries about Celeste a lot, the two are like siblings

Genuinely likes flowers and gardening, don’t tell anyone

A theater kid in disguise

When he first realized he had romantic feelings for Velli, he admittedly freaked out

To the point he purposely avoided Velli until Velli sought him out

They quickly hashed their feelings out

has a customer service voice he accidentally used in the Court and no one let him have peace for WEEKS

Velli Headcanons

Only child

Kind of an attention whore to some extent

Will actually let the world burn for his loved ones (Rowan)

Pansexual

Kind of reminds you of a panther

Likes silver, while Velli likes gold

Job doesn’t let him wear jewelry for obvious reasons

But keeps a ring in his room from Rowan that he absolutely treasures

Velli is shorter of the two but has carried Rowan before

finds Rowan's attempts to spoil him sweet ngl

Celeste Headcanons

She likes lizards, she just hits me as a lover of reptiles

Ties her hair back whenever particularly gruesome injuries are seen

Her and Rory are companions, def close

She can sleep anywhere and it’s nigh impressive

Rory frets over her i think

Feeling aro/ace to some degree

Or maybe she’s just tired constantly

Practical to the point it whirls back around to being a problem

Big trans girl energy

Has a knife on her at all times

And has used her biokensis to kill before

She doesn’t like using it for that and it's a clear indication from inexperience

But she will if needed

[youphoriaot7]

I nearly nothing about tma but the it seems cool for the little I've seen in arts

But I would love to know your thoughts about the Favela Six

oh hell yes, this is my forte *cracks knuckles* get ready, because these are my streamers and i am so ready for this you have no idea the floodgate you've just opened /j

cellbit is the web and i'm so sorry but no one can change my mind on this. the way he works with and against the federation, the way he uses information? a lot of his techniques are super eye-coded, but the way he reacts to events and the way events happen to him is so much more web than eye. fear of being controlled? you can't tell me that his absolute devastation when he handed his evidence over to the federation wasn't partially due to the fact that he was beginning to realize just what it is the federation do. how they do it. why they do it, even. their manipulation.

now, tazercraft are so interesting. because mike is 100% the desolation (man's is generally portrayed as a creeper-hybrid for a reason). fire, explosions, aggressive personality, destruction, pain, a shorter temper than pac—he fits it to a t. but pac is the vast, and yes, you're damn right that i'm basing a lot of this off of all of this poor cubito's trauma with water. but his huge self-worth issues also play into it! because insignificance plays a big part in the vast. :D (i could see an argument for the lonely, but i'd argue that due to his relationship with mike it wouldn't work—at least, not without mike also being lonely-touched [which uh. also makes sense.].)

felps is the spiral. this is practically self-explanatory; i mean, have you seen that square? that thing is a yellow door just waiting to be opened. he talks in circles. he says the most random things. felps is felps. (i could also see an argument for the stranger, but i don't necessarily agree with it—there are better stranger candidates on the server.)

bagi is tricky since she's still fairly new…but i would say the hunt is a pretty good pick for her. she hasn't been as, well, uh, traumatized as cellbit/the others (i just said cellbo because investigator things), so she's still sharp. she doesn't let much get away from her. she's got a sharp eye, a sharp nose, and an iron grip. leave her a clue, she'll solve the puzzle.

forever was fucking hard, dude. i'm settling with the extinction, even though i know not everyone "accepts" that one as a fear. [valid.] i don't know why. just something about the idea of "the fear of catastrophic change, the extinction of humanity and its replacement by something else, especially by humanity's own doing" just feels so...i dunno. vibey for forever. also the fact that he uses so much securitycraft, and the extinction really enjoys technology. idk. i'm not afraid to admit i struggled with forever. skjgfks

thank you for asking!! >.> :D hope i was entertaining >:3

[bookgeekgrrl]

My media this week (27 Oct-2 Nov 2024)

📚 STUFF I READ 📚

😊 The Perils of Lady Catherine de Bourgh (Mr. Darcy & Miss Tilney #3) (Claudia Gray, author; Billie Fulford-Brown, narrator) - A really enjoyable cozy mystery in this austenverse. I did genuinely want to keep reading to find out the solution. However, I'm finding the will they/won't they/miscommunication/misunderstanding BS about Juliet & Jonathan's relationship is really starting to grate, even though the reasons for all the non/miscommunications are marginally reasonable & in character. But I was still quite annoyed with it, and I think I might be over this series for it. By the end at least J&J had talked and are on the same page about their feelings - now the obstacles are external at least, which gives me a bit more patience with it? probably my annoyance will be faded by the time the next one is published & I'll be happy to pick it up again.

😍 A Year in the Life of Sarge's Person (BlueSimplicity) - 189K, incredible post-WS recovery fic - loved how Bucky-focused this was (steve doesn't even appear until like 2/3 of the way thru the fic), loved his found family and of course I loved Sarge. Instant forever fave, stayed up until 2am reading which at my age is no small thing.

🙂 Specks of Silver (vanderloo) - 82K, lightly magical Suits fic- liked the 'small magic' style of this world

🥰 King & Queen (RELIC #3) (Maz Maddox, author; Kirt Graves, narrator) - dino shifters AND drag queens!!!! dino shifters AS drag queens! so much fun!

💖💖 +108K of shorter fic so shout out to these I really loved 💖💖

an outlier that should not be counted (dadvans) - 9-1-1: bucktommy, 7K - fluffy, cute, very 🥰

Conquest (the_deep_magic) - The Eagle of the Ninth: marcus/esca, 7K - 🔥🔥🔥

Let Me Be Your Porch Light, Baby (AidaRonan) - Stranger Things: steddie, 7K - fuck yes mothman! here for all the monsterfucking!

A Dream Through Open Eyes (neapeaikea) - 9-1-1: bucktommy, 16K - cute, cute, cute!!! love a teacher!Buck AU

📺 STUFF I WATCHED 📺

Would I Lie To You? - s8, e6; s16, e5,7

Insert Name Here - s3, e4

8 Out of 10 Cats Does Countdown - s19, e3

Decoding the Afterlife: Ancient Egyptian Tombstones With Dr. Nicky Nielsen - Session Session 2: Making Stelae & The Offering Formula

Spirits, Saints, and Souls: The Secret History of Halloween With Lisa Morton - Session 3: Halloween As We Know It

Seas The Day: Life Lessons From Cephalopods With Dr. Sarah McAnulty - Session 3: 300 Ways to Be a Squid: A crash course in all the lifestyles squid have carved out over their long history

The Sam Sanders Show - From Indie Videos to Hollywood Hits: Alvarez & Koenig on "English Teacher"

Handsome - Abby Wambach asks about getting back to yourself

Handsome - Pretty Little Episode #11

What We Do In The Shadows - s6, e1-3

Only Murders In The Building - s4, e9-10

D20: Misfits & Magic 2 - "Code Crimson" (s23, e6)

D20: Adventuring Party - "I'm A Good Boy" (s18, e6)

🎧 PODCASTS 🎧

Re: Dracula - October 27: Souls and Memories

The Atlas Obscura Podcast - Spooky Week: Elmer McCurdy’s Nine Lives

Re: Dracula - October 28: Awful Straits

Off Menu - Ep 268: Jessica Hynes

The Curious History of Your Home - Sheds

Persuasion by Jane Austen - Persuasion 9. | A Surprise Engagement

The Curious History of Your Home - Baths

Re: Dracula - October 29: Something is Going Out

The Fandom Show - Special Effects Makeup

Switched on Pop - Where are all the scary songs?

NPR's Book of the Day - Al Pacino's memoir 'Sonny Boy' is a story of adventure, starting in the South Bronx

Pop Culture Happy Hour - Agatha All Along

The Allusionist - 202. Singlish Singlish

Re: Dracula - October 30: Council of War

The Atlas Obscura Podcast - Spooky Week: Places That Give Us the Creeps

Morning Edition - After nearly 4 months, Shaboozey's 'A Bar Song (Tipsy)' drops from No. 1

Morning Edition - It's almost Halloween -- a good time to look at the science behind the sound of fear

⭐ 99% Invisible - How the World Ran Out of Everything

Shedunnit - Vanishing Corpses

The Curious History of Your Home - Lights

⭐ Song Exploder - Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young "Our House"

Re: Dracula - October 31: Latest and Truest Thought

NPR's Book of the Day - 'American Scary' documents a cultural obsession with horror in the United States

Re: Dracula - November 1: Instinct with Resolution

Pop Culture Happy Hour - Tom Hanks' Movie Here And What's Making Us Happy

Dear Prudence - My Wife Won’t Stop Correcting My Grammar. Help!

Dear Prudence - Prudie Plus: A Celeb Died. My Friend’s Being A Ghoul.

The Atlas Obscura Podcast - Spooky Week: The Story of the Mad Gasser with Colin Dickey

⭐ Wild Card - Kathryn Hahn feels more powerful than ever

Wild Card - Seth Meyers on waiting to propose and Kathryn Hahn's early career struggles

Welcome to Night Vale #257 - Traffic

Re: Dracula - November 2: Deadly Peril

Wait Wait… Don't Tell Me! - Brian Jordan Alvarez

Betwixt The Sheets - What Made You Ugly In The Ancient World

Fresh Air - Alex Van Halen On Eddie, Fire & 'Feeling It'

🎶 MUSIC 🎶

Presenting Gordon Lightfoot

Presenting Reba McEntire

Machines of Loving Grace Radio • Popular

The Very Best Of Patsy Cline

Halloween Salsa

Sunshine Soul

Teenage Werewolf Rock

Classic Hard Rock Workout

[jils-things]

Wishing Ekans also a good beak, take care! I enjoyed the little (indirect) conversation hehe :3

also NEWS FLASH MOUSE SI HAS A NAME. It's Euphemia (Effie for short bc I think it's cuteee annnd idk imagine almost everyone calling her Effie and only Naib keeps calling her Euphemia because he likes that more hjkhdjkl)

Aryon, Irene and Euphemia would get along I'm sure! I think Euphemia wouldn't even notice when Aryon tried to pickpocket smth from her hjkhfhkk and she's looking confused at Irene, asking “something wrong?”

AGHHH Euphemia is looking at the stars saying “Beautiful, right?” and Naib replies “yes, very beautiful” WHILE LOOKING AT HER I'M HJKHFDFJJ 🧡🧡 THIS MAKES MY HEART BEAT SO MUCH I THINK I WILL EXPLODE

Irene and Naib remind me of Mabel and Dipper - I haven't watched much of Gravity Falls but I know that sound in which she's like “uh oh somebody's in loooove” and he's like “pfff yeah sure. It's not like I lay awake at night thinking about her” and then it cuts to him in bed, wide awake PFFFTTT

OH OHH YOU KNOW ALREADY? 👀 YOU EVEN THINK NAIB IS LIKE SOME OF THE OTHER F/O'S WHAT Ahhh tbh the only similarity I found for Naib and my other favs is… some of them also have long hair and some kind of ponytail fhjkkgfgjk I think that says a lot about me

I thought at first I might already gave it away with the detective conan skin because… that character of the skin is literally mentioned on my f/o list and I'm not sure if you'd remember that and I haven't seen any other selfshippers with an f/o from that source jkkhklgfj ANYWAYS I also think it's super nice talking to you and ngl it brightens my day a bit and makes me super excited hehe 💚

OH? No time to look at your husbands pinterest? But I'm sure there are lots of nice images on it worth looking at :]]

Hjjgfdh don't look at my pinterest it's constantly growing why are artists drawing Naib that pretty oughhh

BTW LOOK

https://www.tumblr.com/mirshroom/629119160230756353/late-night-doodles?source=share

It's ur husband and my stargazing partner your brother :]

-🐭 anon

EUPHEMIA!!!!!! EEEKKK THAT IS SUCH A LOVELY NAME. even if her nickname is presented i still want to call her euphemia because i love reading it... it sounds so charminggg!!! NOT HIM CALLING HER BY FULL FIRST NAME BECAUSE IT ROLLS OFF HIS LIPS NICELY EHUEHEUHEHEHEHEHEH he brushes it off as him being "polite and respectful to a stranger" BUT NOOOO HE JUST LOVES TO SAY IT SOOO MUCH HEHEHEHE (the accidental siblings calling her euphemia ehehehehehe)

EUPHEMIA JUST TILTING HER HEAD, CONFUSED LIKE, "did something happen?" (IRENE IS HOLDING ARYON BY THE EAR, ON THE VERGE OF SCOLDING) (aryon is quietly going "ow ow ow")/j WHAHHAHAHA THEYRE SO SILLY EYYEYEYEYE

WE ARE COOKING THE NAIPHEMIA (IM CALLING THE TAG NOW /J) DYANMIC CHAT!!!!!! HE IS STARING AT HER AND SAYING "yea... beautiful..." HEHUEAHUEAHEHAAHAHOH HES SO INLOVE OH LOVERBOOYYY BTW YES THEY ARE SO MABEL AND DIPPER CODED OMG WTF i was just watching the show recently and CACKLED at that scene... naib thinking abt her that day be like.... the stargazing took him out so bad heuehuehhehehehe EEEEEEE

OH MY GOSH I THINK I DEFINITELY KNOW WHO YOU ARE JUST BECAUSE OF THAT DETECTIVE CONAN MENTION, AND TO BACK UP MY ARGUMENT WITH NAIB BEING SIMILAR: perhaps its just my general advantage of knowing naib well and comparing him to the other characters: i can DEFINTELY say he matches the vibe with the other charas. trust me. im his sister i know/jjj EHEHEHEHEHEHEHE

SQYUEUEUEUEUEUEE YOURE LOOKING FOR FANART HERE TOOOEJEHEHEUAHAUAUAUAUAA I LOOVE LOVE LOEV NORTONS BASEBALL SKIN YK ITS SO?!?!?!? ITS SO ATTRACTIVE ON HIMKFLDKKLFKLKD i can imagine cheerleader irene just going eeeeee nonnon ure doing so great ilyyyy (he is dying /pos) WAWAWA SORRY JUST WANTED TO PUT IT OUT THERE i am horribly SMITTEN by his skinsssss💚💚💚

[two-sides-samecoin]

Please share your thoughts on Steve being a different kind of outsider! I'm sure your (stranger things) followers like myself would love to hear it? I think you're 100% right about Hopper too

Ohh okay thank you so much for allowing me to rant about this and asking about it. And I’m so thankful that you asked about it.

Okay so about Steve being a different kid of outsider so honestly there’s a bunch that I can go through and I’m going to do it each by season. And then overall thoughts.

Season 1= this is going to be ironic considering that Steve is in the popular group in season 1 however Steve is an outsider in his own popular group. Within the dynamic there are actually a few scenes and one that sticks out to me is when Carol and Tommy and Steve are in the car. Carol is teasing Steve and one thing she says is ‘aww Steve/Stevie has a heart’ which also brings into what happens later with the whole conflict of why Steve doesn’t want to continue being friends with them. Steve himself wants to become a better person and in that scene where Steve is with Tommy and carol after the fight with Jonathan: Steve says himself that they’re miserable and etc. So this is where we see it: he has too big of a moral compass and too big of a heart to actually be within the ‘popular group’ - hell you can even see it way before this. After ever single bad act that we see Steve do in season 1, he immediately regrets it and you can see it on his face that he’s conflicted. Meanwhile contrasting that with carol and Tommy who are just laughing or are having the time of their lives and appear to be experiencing not that much guilt at their actions. I’m not going to be picking sides here and saying that they all weren’t friends however what I’m saying is that in season 1 Steve is being associated with the popular crew while he’s doing something/experiencing something that his other friends who are popular never do. He’s already being shown differently than them (which is also why I hate that huge headcanon of Steve being a vicious bully because canon is literally showing us that while he does have traits of the popular crew - the traits that don’t follow their code are the ones that overrule the traits that do fit in.). He’s too soft to be with the popular crew and that’s what it comes down to. Which also another thing that it comes down too that actually is pretty important in st universe with outsiders: ‘we make our own rules’ - Steve is actively making his own rules and picking what he wants to do and then does it! He reaches a point where he can’t hide anymore behind a facade so instead he for creates how own path with his rules. No one had to tell him to go to the Byers house and apologize he did that all by himself. Hell even at the Byers house he creates his own rules where maybe Jonathan won’t forgive him but Steve will still say that he’s sorry and won’t leave until amends are made. No one made that rule and choice for him: he did himself.

Season 2: in season 2 Steve has lost his crown and it seems like his only true friend is his girlfriend. Steve doesn’t fit into the hierarchy that was established at school anymore and he’s trying to figure out where to go next. However it comes at a screeching halt when he realizes that the life he’s fantasized with Nancy isn’t what is going to happen anymore. That whole bathroom scene at Tina’s party happens and it starts to hit a little bit here. Because Steve is also shown as being a little bit lost now which happens to outsiders. His life isn’t going the way he thought he would anymore but also what’s important in st universe is that the outsiders do something about it. Which Steve does!!! He takes the chance to go to Nancy’s house and apologize! However then that gets hijacked and now Steve’s whole life is on a new path. And where does that path lead: with Dustin. A kid that he barley knows anything about but is still willing to go the mile to help him. Steve is an outsider in his own life right now just wondering around but also taking his life and forging it. But then I have to talk about this scene: the snowball scene where Steve sees Nancy and sighs and goes out of the parking lot. And here here oh it’s so interesting because here is when we see Steve feeling like an outsider in a group of outsiders. All of them are having a fun time at the snow ball hell even Joyce and hopper are all curled up together in a hug. They all have each other after the fact of everything going on meanwhile it seems like Steve’s only connection in that scene is with Dustin in the car. But after that, well the rest of them are together and have each other. Meanwhile Steve’s out of the picture so it’s very interesting that the narrative shows this and shows how Steve is an outsider within the own group ! Meanwhile he’s also an outsider within the school as he doesn’t have many friends and his hierarchy at school disintegrated.

Season 3: okay steve is at his lowest (and also highest here) so Steve reveals the fact that he didn’t get into college which no doubt brings out the fact that he would feel like he’s an outsider especially in a group full of geniuses. In this season we also start to notice more of how Steve picks up things that the others don’t notice like how he picks up the Russian music on the recording. Steve is also having trouble with girls and having trouble just connecting with people in general in the town (besides maybe Robin) so you have an outsider here where he doesn’t fit in with the town (in fact he’s literally judging some people in the mall) and commenting on what they’re doing. The narrative/framing of the scene with the binoculars in the mall creates an outsider pov where Steve is looking out on the people but not interacting with them.

Season 4: he’s wondering around with no certain direction to go and all of his plans have gone down the drain. He’s not at school with Robin and the others so he doesn’t spend as much time around the others. He’s also not in college so that makes him even more of an outsider. He’s also shown this season not knowing what he wants and struggling to be his ‘true self’ and what type of relationship he wants with girls. He’s a wondering outsider just shifting aimlessly not sure where he’s going but being stuck in a town that doesn’t care about who he is as a person.

Steve is an outsider that doesn’t fit in with the popular gang but also doesn’t fit into the norm of st ‘outsiders’. He’s a jock - he noticed things that others don’t - he makes connections that the other outsiders don’t make - he takes more of the psychical actions - he isn’t afraid to get up into the monsters face meanwhile the others are using at distance weapons. He’s an outsider because he doesn’t fit in with any group - he’s caught between them. He’s caught between the normal vs not normal narrative of st.

Just thought that I would also mention it but Steve is literally paralleled to every single ‘outsider’ and has similarities in each of them. He’s like a bundle of each of them but also his own person.

Also a major major plot line that all of the other outsider characters does fit Steve to a T. A lot of them have a struggle in whether they want to fit in or not and have that struggle of them trying to fit the norm that society has set for them but ultimately deciding that they don’t want to be considered normal. Which we see happening with Steve and his whole ‘king Steve’ and we even see that in season 2 where Steve is trying to fit the norm of being Nancy’s boyfriend and being whoever Nancy wants him to be. But then ends up staying with the kids and being their protector. Also Steve very much does have another problem that aligns with the other ‘outsiders’ in this show. Other characters have a misconception of them but then realize that they’re actually good people so the misconceptions are there from the beginning. And the misconceptions are a key in stranger things as multiple outsider characters align with others having misconceptions of them that aren’t true.

Also thanks for agreeing on the hopper part and lol this got so long but this is what I came up with so ☺️🎉

[livvyofthelake]

i feel like i’ve said this before but it’s. unreal. that arthur is like. ok please bear with me. he’s like female coded in a way that’s like. how do i say this. he’s like how an incel views a lesbian. let me attempt to explain. first things first we all know the j’s are um. how do i put this. losers? maindenless? i have a strong sense that none of them were popular in high school is what i mean. and i don’t think they ever quite got over it. you know in that way men do. anyway so you can tell when you watch bbc merlin that their entire (BAD) characterization of arthur stems from having this insane hostile relationship with like, idealized masculinity. and pretty much their whole schtick is that the things that make arthur traditionally masculine are the things they perceive as faults, or not necessarily faults but. traits that lead to faults. he’s athletic and muscular, so that makes him dumb. he’s handsome, so that makes him egotistical. he’s kind of mean, so that makes him arrogant and violent. he’s a prince so that makes him entitled. and they present him this way so they can show merlin (THEIR representation of masculinity) as the “better” man, who’s value lies in his intelligence, humility, humor, kindness, and most importantly, his position as a man who is Not Traditionally Masculine. it’s incel narrative reframing, they do it all the time in like stranger things and cobra kai. they’re presenting the “weak” character as more of a man than the “strong” character through this narrative structure that values intelligence over brute strength, it should be transparent as glass really. the only reason many people don’t pick up on it is because both actors are so charming it’s easy to forget they’re playing out something so stupid. it comes across more in atlantis (merlin creator’s successor show), which makes that show virtually unwatchable to be honest. anyway back to my original point. so a lot of the time when they want to present arthur in that incredibly annoying negative light, they feminize him, which is like deeply strange but very much proves that these men have something very wrong with them. like, when he’s being an arrogant royal he gets called a princess, he’s always touchy about merlin saying he’s “fat”, and he’s bossy like a sitcom wife (which is a whole other thing i could talk about). and to really hammer it all in he’s always calling merlin a “girl” for being either cowardly or physically weak. and every time he does that, it’s presented in a way where we the audience know merlin is NOT being cowardly or weak, because he’s a Real Man he’s just misunderstood, and arthur is then this caricature of a Dumb Muscular Man With No Brains. which again they do because they have a hostile relationship with traditional masculinity, and they want to present that character as less of a man than their Non-traditionally Masculine Protagonist. and to go about making him less of a man they often just feminize him in a really misogynistic and derogatory way, because they’re operating on a really fucked up binary idea of gender. anyway this has been a post. also this is a very good representation of my brain when i think about this show, i am literally always analyzing this show’s relationship with and portrayal of gender. it’s fascinating, feel free to ask me about it anytime i will have so much to say <3

[oneforthemunny]

Each Eddie as Taylor Swift songs ☺️

oooh this one might be hard lol. I know I did this for @blondiescelestiallyinlove once but I think I might have some changes. and I'm going to do more of their vibe from the story relationship with you kinda thing.

older!eddie to me will always be ours and I know it's written about that piece of shit j*hn but like I just love it.

bouncer!eddie I really have changed from this bc this is a song that's not my favorite (sorry I worked retail and it got over played to a point where I would disassociate and want to cry lol) but style. it just has his energy.

I'm going to shock the hell out of all of you and I know it, but rockstar!eddie... it's lover. yep I said it and I'm sticking by it and you all know I'm right. yes, call it what you want or delicate- I know he's in his rep era, but no. this is his song because deep down he's always been capable.

modern!eddie you know initially I was like oh he's so in his lover era, and he is a certified lover boy indeed BUT stay, stay, stay bc it just fits. she's so happy and he makes her happy and it makes me wanna sob.

mafia!eddie like we know he's in his rep era yes he is. and you know what, new year's day that's the song. it's sweet on an album you wouldn't really expect and it's vulnerable and "please don't ever become a stranger who's laugh I can recognize anywhere" LIKE????

dom!eddie they give fearless more than anything. if anything bc they're just having fun. they're in love. they're having fun (and kinky sex which was not in the song but I think I'd drop dead of she was talking about kinky ass sex lol) but idk it just fits.

janitor!eddie is so folklore coded and you all know it. and I'm going to shock you all but the lakes. truly, the lakes because it's just so beautiful and like it talks about people judging but the line "I don't belong, and my beloved neither do you" like eddie's in hawkins and he hates it but he's with you. it's such a pretty song and yes it's him.

cowboy!eddie now this will surprise no one but cowboy!eddie= evermore BUT before you think it's cowboy like me (and just so you know I think I've decided that's my favorite taylor song in the entire world sorry) I'm gonna go on more of an ivy path.

[namuneulbo]

week one hundred and twenty nine

my ocd's been really weird lately. it keeps showing up when i least expect it and it's so hard to ignore.

i've had surprisingly few things to do considering exam season's coming up. i should definitely start studying some grammar stuff. i think i'll have to come up with a new and more efficient study schedule for my next term.

monday was l's birthday. it was weird. i didn't know whether to say happy birthday to him or not. he ended up posting about it so late that i ended up falling asleep and i decided not to give him a belated congratulations the day after, especially considering it would've had to been via dms.

our relationship's so weird. ending on 'good' terms is weird. i can't fully hate him and that makes it so much harder to get over him. i would say i'm over him... i'd say i'm over him enough to start talking to new people. i don't really mind being single at the moment though. getting silly short-lived crushes on strangers on campus or on the bus is way more fun now. i just think it's harder to ignore him when i don't fully have a reason to like... block him or something. we literally still send each other tiktoks and memes and react to each other's bereals and i do tend to get a bit... sad (?) whenever i see his mom or younger sister reacting to them because they were so nice to me and i felt so accepted and welcomed. it makes me nervous thinking about what he's told them about us not meeting up anymore. what if he made it seem like i didn't want to or something and now they just think i'm the asshole?

i'm over him.

i haven't matched with anyone new since last time. one guy who was pretty cute but he replies so slow. like... i'm talking days. he seemed really nice but i'm kind of over it if he's going to reply that slow.

it would be nice to meet someone in real life though; maybe via uni or so. i don't think i'd meet someone within my major though. the demographic is quite... not my style. not that major plays that big of a part. some majors are definitely hotter than others though. i think graphic design or anything like... computer/coding/design related is quite nice. my biggest turn-off is econ. econ and like... engineers. no spice. rich, sure, but no spice and it just radiates right-wing.

i went thrifting on monday too. i got veneer on cd, the the perks of being a wallflower book and a barbie dvd. quite the find to be honest.

i also lost my job on monday? apparently i was still in the application process for the job and not actually employed? they never told me that? it just said so in the fine print of the agreement. so yeah... i'm back on the job search grind. i'm currently trying to get a nice new photo for my cv before i start applying again. my current one is shit.

also! we've (mostly my sister and her boyfriend) been taking care of my sister's boyfriend's sister's dog (that's a mouthful) this week. she's such a cutie but she's a lot. she's so playful and... dog-like? i've never had such a stereotypical dog before so it's so new. she gets so excited all the time and it's so cute. her favorite toy is this shark plushie and she walks around with it a lot and it's the cutest thing ever.

yesterday a and j came over as usual and it was a lot of fun. we had a yummy dinner and drank some wine and a bunch of gin and tonics. i love gin and tonic!

sotw: poppy - concrete

[talesfromsiliconvalley]

No Regrets for Our Youth

"To a watery palace of crystal bright

The knight on a sudden is taken" -Heinrich Heine, "Prologue" to the Lyrical Interlude, trans. Bowring.

After the fat years, the lean years. After the high tide, when the wave of fortune-seekers came to the Bay Area to make their fortune, the pandemic pulled many of them -of us!- back out to sea, and for all of 2021, the tide was out. Walk into a coworking space south of Market and see rows of empty desks, with one man at the desk in the corner, and that man making a personal phone call.

Jason leans forward in his desk chair at the Moryana office. Done with all his Thursday afternoon meetings, ready to go. Check email. Nothing that can't wait. Check Slack. Nothing that can't wait. He picks up his laptop, picks up his water bottle, and gets into the truck. He looks down: one text. "Love you, babe. Have fun tonight".

Parking is expensive as anything in this city, maybe the worst thing about San Francisco. He finally finds a spot in a garage, walks out, passes the bent-over men, almost folded in half from fentanyl, and enters the home of his coding bootcamp. Six floors up to the alumni lounge, and he takes the stairs.

From two floors down, he hears the music already: "Live a life of luxury, if that's what you want… Taste forbidden pleasures, whatever you want".

Talking to M., J., A., and the rest of them. Job here, marriage there. One beer, maybe a second. He looks out the window. It's already dark. Might be time for him to go.

He literally runs into someone standing by one of the bollards on the street. "Hey man, do you have a cigarette?". So happens, Jason does. "Hey, what's your name?" "Jason" "Ahmet".

The first puffs pass in silence. Ahmet speaks first: "What brings you South of Market?". "Alumni reunion for the coding bootcamp." "Coding? Where do you work? Facebook? Google?" "Moryana". Ahmet's looks up. "Moryana? You're not going to believe this…" And at that point, Ahmet tells him a story that Jason never expected to hear.

In Ahmet's telling, he was employee number 3 and the first engineer at Moryana. The salary was enough to live on -in fact, any current engineer at Moryana would make more-, but a large equity grant made up for it. But there came a point when they were working like crazy to get something in the hands of one of their biggest customers, at a time when Moryana really didn't have many customers at all. A disagreement about tactics escalated, and there might have been some interpersonal stuff that got in the way, too. (At least, Jason guesses as much from Ahmet's narrative. Ahmet, understandably wasn't too forthcoming about the personal details.) He lasted about three years and then moved on to the next seed-stage startup. The telling of Ahmet's story takes the two of them south, into the Mission.

Climbing up the grass in Dolores Park, and a man standing by a tree sees them and waves them over. He is short, shorter than Jason, shorter than Ahmet, too, although not by much. His hair is short and spiky and looks bleached, and there's a strange look in his eyes. The stranger holds out his hand, and there's something in it. "Do you want any of this?" "What is it?" "Heart's desire. Hey, what's your name?" "Ahmet". "Jason". "Call it golden fleece, then!" "Original". "What's your name? 'Heart's desire', where are you from?" The man smiles. "My name wouldn't mean anything to you. I come from the place where you don't grow old", and Jason thinks that with hair like his, he really wouldn't look out of place in LA. He opens his hand, revealing what looks like a pill, and the blonde man says " What do you say? Let me ask you: do you ever have dreams these days?" Jason looks over at Ahmet, and Ahmet seems pretty intent on the pill in the stranger's hand. Jason looks down at his phone, remembers he's supposed to take his daughter out this weekend. The moment passes. He raises his eyebrows, and shakes his head. "You stay, if you want. Nice meeting you!"

Friday morning, he gets in the truck, turns on the radio on the way to work. Dead body south of Market, stabbed and bled out, and, although Jason can't remember where he heard this and he doesn't think it was in the police report, the dead man was supposed to have been a very early employee at Moryana.

[the-acid-pear]

I hit post limit but I'm watching James and the Giant Peach anyway so what about we do it in the style of my Baki liveblogs?

Oh yeah baby this format is coming back. No pics will be taken which makes me sad! But alas...

I think it's worth mentioning i haven't watched this movie since i was a kid so i don't remember anything other than it having a nice vibe

THIS KID IS MADE OUT OF FLESH AND THESE PPL ARE BRITISH. WHADDAHELL...

I was joking w Blood about the family dying after the boat crashes but um. I guess the rhyno won? Whatever THAT means...

I want these aunts to sandwich me they could make me worse

JWDGWKDVJWDV THE FUCKING WARREN WASTELAND 💀💀💀 that's how england looks to me 😍/j

FUCK YEAH FEET REVEAL THESE WOMEN WERE MADE FOR ME‼️

OH IT WAS A REAL RHYNO? 💀

THEY ARE GONNA COOK HIM

The kid is singing. Anyway, that spider def poisonous 💀

This kiddo is depressing bruh

Sings like shit tho ngl

James doesn't know what a poisonous spider looks like but he sure knows how to make a perfect paper balloon first try 💀

Second degree murder 😁👍

THAT DUDE SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME LMAO

SIR YOU ARE A CERTIFIED FREAK

BLINK MOTHERFUCKER

Man is scaring me more than he's scaring James but that's only bc unlike this weird isolated British orphan i was taught about stranger danger

I think James is just having a psychotic breakdown because of all the physical and psychological abuse he has been thru /j

LMAO THIS KID IS A FAILURE

Spiker you are like 180 cm you could get it yourself 😐

The way this peach came to be is both hilarious and cute this tree is winning rn

This movie has extremely funny dialogue i love Spiker sm

THE FAKE ASS TEAR 😭😭😭

Pretty based of them to make the priest pay double NGL

The rhyno threats are fucked up but so goofy bc. It's a fucking rhyno 💀

Maybe they mean the guy from spiderman tho, i mean, they WERE going to New York after all...

Damn i cracked the code

Strong ass kid ate the worm 😨

HEY I REMEMBER THAT MANY HANDED BASTARD I HAD A CRUSH ON HIM OMFG... This feels like seeing an old ex 💀

God i adore these bugs sm they are so shape

This spider is so hot, even hotter than i remembered

KQGWKVDNSGER THIS GUY IS SUCH A JERK I LOVE HIM

Rhinnoceri... I need to fuck this cricket <- guy so horny he forgot the word

THE LADY BUG IS A MILF

Isn't it kinda... Racist, to call another bug a maggot?

This music goes hard

What about da worm........? 🥺

That worm is prob like would u still love me if i was a human?

"now i have two half brothers" 💀💀💀

Didn't realize the bugs were huge. Even MORE culeables!

Omg milves DIED

Nvm girlboss powah

Damn they're actually bleeding tho

THEY ARE IN DA SEA, THAT WORM IS GONNA DIE

Omg he wears glasses cuz he's a worm therefore blind that's so cute

The spider hates this centipede sm 💀

LTDJEHSDJ I'M SURE THEY DO CENTIPEDE

This movie is just a bunch of European immigrants falling for the American dream

EVERYONE HATES THIS CENTIPEDE SM LMAO

This is abuse of the disabled

KSHDJDJZHZKGXG WORM ILY

Sick ass shark ngl

Do you think earthworm and centipede ever explored each other's bodies?

This is animal abuse

Oh he's from Brooklyn that's cute 🥺

AT THE SPENCE OF HIS LIFE, JAMES. STOP TRYING TO DOWNPLAY HIS TRAUMA!!

Maybe they do have a point tho

THE CRICKET IS A GILF⁉️ :Y

Worm deadass said 🥵

I thought they knew but were carnivorous what a bunch of fucking idiots. Bet they are doing this only to make James feel better about himself...

Well Mr centipide that's bc you didn't taste this c-

Sorry.

These idiots are gonna eat da whole peach -_-

OH POODLES AS IN WATER NOT DOGS OK...

...OR MAYBE HE MEANT DOGS? ARE CRICKETS CARNIVOROUS???

These bitches r getting drunk 💀

We got peach'd

WORM IS FAT LMAO 🥺

Girlie they are all nice to you too, maybe tad bit obnoxious but not MEAN.

THIS KID IS THREATENING TO KILL HIMSELF 💀

This is one of the coolest dream scenes I've ever seen

I bet his parents are alive and just abandoned him /j

CRICKET JUST CALLED CENTIPIDE AND ASS

They made a fucking dick joke I'm. Gonna fucking die.

They are gonna fuckin kill my man

JAMES... BABY......

THE CRICKET GOING 😱 LMAO

CRICKET KICKED HIM IN THE FACE HOLY FUCK

Look i know he lied but these people have no fucking mercy... They are literally gonna make him and ME cry..... ...... ..

NO. THATS SO FUCKED UP THIS MOVIE IS SO FUCKED UP THIS MESSAGE IS SO FUCKED UP.

"he's commiting pesticide!" I'm gonna shit myself

LMAO HE ADMITTED IT WAS HIS FAULT good.

WORM BABY PLEASE WJDGJAVECEBF DONT SAY HELPED 💀💀💀💀💀

Ladybug just spanked spider, Kinky

Literally no hurry at all my man is just walking like it's an afternoon in the park

Lmao nice Jack cameo

They are gonna kill my man, again

HOLY FUCK THEY ARE ACTUALLY TRYING TO KILL HIM

"hey that one felt pretty good!" He gets it.

I love him for his American swag

KILLING HIM FR

OH THANK YOU LADY THANK YOU... 😭

MY KINGGFGGG ITXJFgsheaysrsudruddi 💥

Stop being homophobic worm let them kiss too

Aw worm got the hat kdjdthjf 🥺

SPIDER N LADYBUG ARE DOING LESBIANISM TOGETHER...

OMG HE'S A GRASSHOPPER NOT A CRICKET 😭😭

Too long of a name tho sticking to calling him cricket -_-

They are fucking

This grasshopper is fucking racist...

This movie is so lovely they are his family man... ;;

God Ms spider i think i hauve covid

This kid is definitely just dead on his yard hallucinating btw /j

THEY WON'T ALWAYS BE TOGETHER STOP B4 I CRY...

DA RHYNO NOOO......!!!!!!!!

ANYTHING BUT JERSEY WJCSJSFSHSF

I'M GONNA FUCKIN CRY Y'ALL

HIS FRIENDSSSSS 😭😭😭😭

This is so sad Alexa play Despacito

How did he lose the tie? 💀

EL LECHERO LMAO

Hang on, they weren't in England? They were in America? How did the aunts make it here in that beaten old car?

AH NVM THEY WENT THRU THE WATER LMAO

YEAH SAME JAMES NO SHIT

Before photoshop existed lol

THEY ARE GASLIGHTING THIS CHILD

HEY WHAT'S UP FREAKY OLD MAN!

Shut up James 💀

JAMES SNAPS!?

FUCK YEAH LITTLE BOY!!!

MURDER ATTEMPT 💀💀💀

Second degree murder 😁👍

OOOOHHHH?????

GQNWG KEGSJDVQNS YEAAAAHHHHHH LET'S FYCJING GOOOOO

SICK EM BOYS, RIGHT IN FROM OF THE CROWD 💀

PUBLIC EXECUTION LMAO

Wig

Those women are dying dudes ...

"god bless the colonies" glow-worm lady... 💀

"go ahead!" A hero of the people, communist icon

This movie is gonna make me happy cry look at my guys and James...

SICK ASS SEED

Best found family tale ever what a fucking win.

Well freaky little man you are kinda fine when not talking to little boys in the dark of night ngl

AJDVSNDVNDBR CENTIPIDE FOR PRESIDENT WOULD VOTE‼️

Oooojlhhlhndnbggvt WORM GETTING EM LADIES FUCK YEAH 🥴

God this is so pretty everyone is thriving and they are friends and it was all real and shit omfg 😭💞

The ending song is so good too... 🥺

OH POST CREDITS!!

Abuse revenge heaven 💀

WELL WASN'T THAT FUCKING LOVELY? MAYBE THE BRI ISH AINT SO BAD AFTER ALL... Time for some final thoughts! 😁💞

AAAAUAHGNGNMGBGMGNGNGH BROOOTHER WHEN I TELL YOU I LOVED THIS MOVIE... IT WAS SO FUCKING LOVELY.

I did not only love every single fucking character present here, but the designs and the music and the animation god, AND HELL THE HUMOR TOO!! Fucking caught me off guard more than once ngl, but it was great 💀💀

And of course, the thing i loved THE most is having a found family not be separated... :']]

I think this movie does a great job portraying abuse and trauma and PTSD in a very child friendly manner, the lessons it puts there are quite lovely tbh. I wish we could've seen more characters get developed tho!! The two who got the most relevancy and depth were grasshopper and centipide which tbh is ok bc i love them but a little lesson from all of the characters would've been nice too... 🥺

There's, however, a big elephant in the room that i gotta acknowledge, and that is the aunts. As y'all might have realized, my carnal desire for them surpasses my logical brain and makes me overlook the abuse they put James thru which quite honestly parallels my own real one.

I'm speaking w a British accent in my mind alright fucking cringe anyway, aside from the most obvious reason, that being my rampant lust and homosexual tendencies, i wish they hadn't tried to make the characters ugly = evil.

Like idk i think they were kinda bland! I couldn't take their villainous portrayal seriously when most of the time it was like "haha isn't it devious how ugly these old women are??" Like no i need them to ruin me.

I think I'm just a bit disoriented i think blood might not be coming to my head, y'all tell me if I'm making any sense...

Anyway, overall, is this movie good? OF THE BEST I'VE SEEN IN A WHILE if not for a bit of lost potential it would have been absolutely perfect!! And yesss, of course i recommend it!! It's such a fun time w such a rewarding end :'33 truly wonderful 🦗

[doctorofmagic]

Defenders #4 review

First of all, my apologies for the late review! Been a busy last couple of weeks but gladly things are good now.

Aaaaand let’s begin!

This chapter will be focused on Cloud and how they struggle to make themselves understood in a world that lacks words to describe their existence.

I’m not sure if Al Ewing had already come out but this week (or last week? I’m lost in time) I saw one of his tweets supporting trans rights and, while I’m not sure about his sexuality (if someone knows, please feel free to correct the pronouns I’m using for him), Cloud is a full experience and talks deeply to me, personally. Because Cloud is coded as non-binary/genderfluid and uses they/them pronouns. And if you follow me for a while now, then you know I identify myself as nonb as well. So yes, this chapter speaks to my very soul. And I’m pretty sure Al Ewing was not subtle to show tons of metaphors about this. Mostly because I do know the weight of being raised in a place whose language is rooted in gender, I too find myself lacking the words to express my whole existence on a daily basis because languages take decades, centuries even to evolve. They’re too rooted in stern rules and gods, we are evolving faster than the hardness of this current mindset of living. And, of course, there is the lgbtqiaphobia.

I believe this is pretty important to understand the chapter as a whole, but we’ll get there. For now, let’s take a look at other details as we read. Here we see Betty talking about the elephant, that is, the Hulk in the room. So the Fourth Cosmos is basically a world of “archetypical beings”, which means the heroes we know are some kind of primitive avatar. That includes the Hulk, Iron Man, Captain America and so on. I’ll make a special mention later, by the way, because I can and it’s about my agenda /j

And suddenly we’re introduced to the Four-Are-One - and I must admit that it took me some time to realize that they’re actually the archetypical being of the Fantastic Four haha. Taiaa even mentions Sue’s force-field, I feel so dumb for not noticing it before.

A break just to say that every time Betty roasts Stephen, I earn more 10 years of my lifetime.

The Four-Are-One manages to communicate with the Defenders, revealing that there’s uneding conflict in their world. But the coming of a stranger (Zota) and the Defenders may be a sign that the cycle is breaking. They arrive at the battlefield and it seems like a archetypical of the Civil War. I recognize many characters such as Wolverine, Spider-man, Daredevil, Ant-man, Thor, Hawkeye and so on. But one in specific draws my attention.

This is definitely definitely definitely an important moment to me because this is Doctor Doom, and Stephen immediately recognizes him, for he asks “Where’s his mask?”. He KNOWS Victor needs his mask since it’s an important trait in his character. It’s the first thing he asks because he KNOWS Victor. Ngh, my heart. Thank you for my Doomstrange crumbs, Al Ewing.

Okay, but after that, the chapter reveals that Zota stole Doom’s mask and is riding a devourer of worlds once more. I wonder if Taiaa made a reference to Doom’s mommy issues tho haha

Masked Raider fights the Devourer but the Defenders fear it will not be enough. So Cloud decides to evolve, rising from their two “female” and “male” bodies and becoming something brand new, in which I understand is the metaphor I was talking about. “And if we cannot be described in words... we can learn new words.”

“Outside the old patterns. Outside their boundaries. And ready to make myself heard.”

If this is not a clear metaphor about breaking gender and language, I don’t know what it is, for real.

And with that, Cloud convinces that there’s a way towards a brighter future, and it is through love. Love wins.

I think it’s also important to point out that Iron Man uses the word “levity”, while Captain America uses the word “stoicism”. It matches their personalities so well.

Zota then escapes to the third cosmos and this Galactus shows an interesting development. Because he evolves to something more, a golden figure which is DEFINITELY a reference to Al Ewing’s Ultimates. Galactus in that run was turned into the Bringer of Life. See? Being a nerd sometimes pays off haha.

The sentience of the Fourth Cosmos then comes to life and chooses the heroes as their defenders.

The sentience then explains that nothing will die but actually be reborn to the new Fifth Cosmos. They will take the Defenders with them but only four can go. Cloud then decides to stay, but they mention they will see the Defenders again when they reach the mystery. I have no idea what Cloud is talking about but I’m curious.

Lastly, I love this. I love Stephen’s sassiness so much, you don’t understand.

And the last page is this. Who is this entity? I dunno. Perhaps things will become clearer in the next and last chapter!

I must confess, reading Al Ewing’s Defenders run is HARD. Too many abstract concepts that demand previous reading and deep interpretation. But I do love his writing and all the metaphors. He has always been one of my favorite writers and it shows. It’s true that the way he explores the Defenders individually is very unique but we also have to consider that he has only five issues to do so. And yet, he still manages to accomplish such a task. Not to mention Javier’s art, of course. I’m loving this book, they took the Defenders to a place they’ve never been before. They’ve dealed with cosmic events before but this is just so special. It’s not mandatory but it’s truly a love letter, at least for me as a fan.

Now bring back my Norrin for the last chapter and all is good! I can’t wait!!

[pep-the-artemis]

Episode 2 Part 2

Kahns got his own wrench just like the one he gave to Uzi.

Doll spinning a hexagonal coin, unsure on the symbolism/meaning currently.

images of Dolls dead parents covered in cockroaches.

obvious detail but the gorgerous stranger is just Lizzy. Took me way long to notice

big hat guy too cool for school.

white cap dude knows he's about to get a slappin.

AbsoluteSolver is one word.

not a small detail but golly she's big O.O

entering a cryochamber, with what we've seen so far it seems certain that the worker drones live in a human built building or as i theorise, spaceship.

windows fail screen

Eldritch-J getting Thads name wrong.

Ted giving peace sign before leaving.

baby solver. Also Noris hair thing makes her half look like Cyn.

the cryosleep sign fell down in the previous scene so continuity error.

it seems white cap guy moved to sit with a different less cool person.

They also seem pretty scared of ghosts

this code looks nonsense tbh

Oil covering the image making it hard to tell which Murder Drone it is.

good view of Vs arm band.

S/N : V-X0010000 me thinks.

J kicking the chain hiding that its broken.

Ns friendship note on the right also jurassic park poster on the right.

her its Flesha.

rewatching Murder Drones at 0.75 speed to try and catch everything I've missed.

baby no!

[deeranger]

Fic Writer Questions!

@oddsocksandstuff tagged me in this, thank you so much, sweetie!  ❤️

 1) How many works do you have on AO3? I’ve got 40 so far (of which 25 are SPN fics). There’s more to come! 

2) What’s your total AO3 word count? 486,667, apparently. That tells me each of my fics has an average wordcount of 12,166.675… Seems about right. I was never any good at keeping things short.

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they? Uhh… On AO3 I’ve written for Supernatural, Supernatural RPF, X-men (Cherik) and McFassy (James McAvoy/Michael Fassbender). But I’ve written a lot when I was younger that has never made it online, including NCIS, Pirates of the Caribbean, and lots of weird one-shorts starring everyone from Michael J. Fox to Kevin Sorbo from “Hercules: The Legendary Journeys”. 🤨  

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos? “A Lesson to be Taught” – an SPN Wincest pwp fic where a dominant Dean fucks (and spanks) Sam and they discover that Dean apparently has a daddy!kink. Comes with a photo manipulation too! There be dick.    

“Taking Game” – a semi-dark medieval Cherik (Charles Xavier/Erik Lehnsherr from X-men) AU. Basically, Charles is a poacher hunting on king Erik’s land to his great dismay. And so, he’s captured and gets the choice between losing his life or serving the king for a bit… Dubcon and smut ensues.   “Only Like This” – a little SPN Wincest dub-con fic about hopelessly pining Dean doping Sam just so he can touch and kiss his oblivious little brother. It’s okay. Sam won’t remember when he comes to.   “It’s Only Carnal” – A dark SPN Wincest noncon fic where soulless!Sam needs to blow off some steam. And when it comes to carnal activities his brother isn’t exactly a novice – so why not use Dean’s body to make them both feel good?   “Demonized” – a long and dark af SPN noncon fic written in collaboration with the awesome @palishere. Sam is captured by some nasty demons who use him to lure in his brother. At first it seems the demonic scumbags are just really perverted and have a weakness for sexual torture, but they turn out to have ulterior motives…  

5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not? Yes, always. I think it can be a bit demotivating for a reader to leave a comment and get zero response – and so, they might not bother to comment on the next fic. At least, that’s how I feel personally. And besides, I really want to let readers know that I appreciate them taking the time and effort to actually tell me what they think.  

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending? Oufff… Seriously? How can I possibly pick just one when 99.8 percent of my fics are not only dark af but have gut-wrenching ambiguous endings as well? I, err… I’m gonna have to think really hard about this one, hold on… *Insert buzzing cicada sound*… Uhh… Well, I guess it might be… “Play or Pay” – a dark female!reader-insert Wincest fic where demon!Dean has you and Sam trapped somewhere underground. Sam ends up being on the receiving end of the demon’s cruelty when he tries to save you. Using Dean’s body the demon ends up raping Sam while the reader tries to escape to get help... There’s a little twist in the end. Loads of dead dove here, including death (not Dean or Sam).     “The Orange Hour” – where undercover inmate!Dean has to rape CO!Sam in order to save both of their lives and get them out of the jail in one piece. It doesn’t go completely as planned. (Comes with an nsfw photo manipulation).  “Demonized” – loads of bottom!Sam torture, full of hurt and absolutely no comfort... It’s just… I dunno, I think I and @palishere had a collective meltdown in the noncon and angst department. Sorrynotsorry.      

8) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written? Nope, I’ve never in my life written a crossover. Usually, I’m too laser-focused on 1 obsession at a time. I can’t multitask, okay?   

9) Have you ever received hate on a fic? Yes, the fandom purity police has visited me on AO3. The usual self-proclaimed know-it-alls vomiting their bullshit all over the comment section about how “problematic” noncon is and how “sick” I must be. I thought about moderating comments for a while, actually – but I just deleted their follow-up comments until they left me alone. 😤

10) Do you write smut? If so what kind? Yes!! Gimme! Usually, I write noncon smut or just good ol’ pwps that feature some sort of dominance. That’s it. That’s my jam. In general, the only smut I don’t write is the cute, fluffy, feel-good, cuddly stuff… My smut’s usually pretty rough and/or some sort of dub/noncon.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen? Yes. Someone stole “It’s Only Carnal” and posted it as her own on some Portuguese fanfiction site. She even replied to comments, answered questions and talked about how much she loved writing it, etc… Luckily a sweet mutual on Tumblr let me know about it and I reported her for plagiarism. The stolen fic was taken down shortly after and the account deleted. Goddamn thief. 😡  

12) Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes. Honestly, I can’t remember which fic(s). But people have contacted me on AO3 and asked for permission to translate my stuff into Chinese. I have - of course - happily allowed them to. It’s such an awesome compliment to get, I think!  

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes, 2. “Demonized” and the fluffy Ficfacers prompt fic “The Masks We Wear” starring Sam and Dean taking their pranks a step too far. Basically, the brothers get angry with each other and they need to talk it out… No smut in this one, can you believe it?!! But that was kinda the prompt we received. The prompt was literally: “Sam and fluff”. Anyways, both fics are co-written with the lovely @palishere. You can find her AO3 here. ��

14) What’s your all time favorite ship? Wincest!!! Definitely. Gimme all the brotherfucking, please. No contest. And coming in on second place I guess there’s Samifer – never paired consensually, though. I just love Lucifer messing with Sam’s head and torturing him in all kinds of cruel ways.    

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? Oh, that’s a mean question… I have a noncon WIP where Sam and Dean are in prison. I wrote a whole story outline, gathered my own little dictionary of prison slang, etc… But I never made it past page 10 or something. Sam was supposed to get jumped by a gang of inmates and then Dean was supposed to helplessly watch from the sideline, offering to trade places if they’d just leave his little brother alone… And after that it’s all about a mix of healing and vengeance… But the story has been lying on the shelf for more than a year and I doubt I’ll ever continue it. Oh, wait! I almost forgot – I have a long Cherik WIP sequel to “To Have and to Hold”! Just checked, its wordcount is 18,729! Holy crap…. What a waste, huh? But I honestly don’t think I’ll ever finish it, because I’m not into Cherik anymore. That ship has kinda sunk for me…. So, now I’m hyperfixating on Supernatural, yeah?     

16) What are your writing strengths? Description, I think. I just love details and setting the mood. I like to think I’m pretty good at writing in English too even though it isn’t my native language… I wish to be better and expand my vocabulary but I’m doing okay nonetheless.

17) What are your writing weaknesses? Description, I think. Yes, you read correctly. I often describe things TOO much. Sometimes to the extent where the pacing gets so slowed down that I feel like the scene loses its ‘feel’. I don’t know if it’s just in my head, but that’s my major concern about my writing. That and my signature ambiguous endings, lol.

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? Love it. It can be difficult to pull off, but if you get it right it can be magical. Just don’t overdo it and make sure that the reader can follow. I don’t think I have any fics online where I do it, but I’m not a complete stranger to it either.

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for? Ack, my poor brain trying to go back to when I was friggin’ 13… You know how many years ago that was?! 25!!! Okay!? *Huffs*…. Anyway, I THINK it might’ve been Keanu Reeves’ character in “Johnny Mnemonic”. Or maybe David James Elliott’s character as Harmon Rabb in the early seasons of “JAG”. I dunno. Either way this question makes me feel really old and I don’t appreciate it. Don’t @ me. 😅   

20) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written? That’s probably a tie between “The Orange Hour” and “It’s Only Carnal”. They’ve both got nice pacing and that’s my biggest challenge, I think. Also, I love the whole Morse code thing in “The Orange Hour”. I don’t even know what happened or how I came up with it, but hey, I can surprise myself if I want to, I guess! And of course there’s the smutty noncon and all of the hurt… So, those two fics are my personal faves. 😏  

I’ll tag @jackandthesoulmates, @pinkoptics, @palishere, @wrenseroticlibrary, @decadent-prince, @negans-lucille-tblr, @juinae and @impala-dreamer and everyone else who feels like doing it! Feel free to ignore, of course. 

[jay-and-dean]

Hey J! I would love to hear your opinion on something. You write Dean so well that I feel pretty confident to ask you. (I mean you must know something about his way of thinking,his way of behave..I can proudly say that you have a master in Dean's psychology ok?🤣) I wanted to ask you,apart from the Destiel situation(this is another conversation) in your opinion,why the authors never gave him a real love story? They tried with Lisa..it just didn't work, they had 0 chemistry in my opinion. Cassie otherwise, was really interesting and I would even liked Jo, but the writers just decided against it. Probably they never gave the brothers a true relationship because it wasn't the main focus of the show and the fandom maybe wouldn't have liked it. Anyway I was just thinking that in 15years we have never actually seen Dean's romantic side and given the complexity of his character, it still feels like a whole part of him is missing,a piece of him that we never really got to see. What do you think about it? How would you have handled his love life? Do you think that is better that he never had a real one?

Hey Anon !

First of all, thank you so much for trusting me and for your kind words.

It's actually fun that you say I have a Master in Dean's psychology (I'm actually a professional Irl).

Now regarding Dean, all I can do is give you my personal opinion. But since you asked for it, here it is (sorry it will be a little long) :

I. Supernatural

First of all, I will talk about the general theme of the TV show. Most say, including the writers themselves, that Supernatural is about family. This alone, I guess, could explain the focus on the family relationships than love, in the romantic sense of the word.

II. Quests

But, this is not all. For me, Supernatural is an initiation story. And in that way, the focus is put on the theme of redemption.

II. 1 Sam

The redemption of Sam, who is the "gifted", like a lot of other characters in literature, the one who is too gifted to fit in, the one for whom it is a curse (Being good at school, highly sensitive, that prevents him for fitting in his own family codes, then the gift of boyking Sam, the "mark" of Demon blood and the "link" to the big Bad, very like a Harry Potter figure). His own quest will be to overcome the idea that he is unclean and finally use his gifts to define who he is and not just to fit in (In that he is really close to the journey of high IQ kids in real life). Sam's quest is personal, and as long as he can't "fit" with himself, how could he with a partner ?

II. 2 Dean

Dean... Dean has the exact opposite quest. Dean is the kid that forgot himself to fit in (in psychology, we call them the sacrificed child). He is the one who wasn't given an individuality, and therefore, no true free will. Supernatural really explores this theme until the ultimate quest, against God himself. You can note that the only relationship showed in the Supernatural was, once again a "prescript" which he can't invest exactly because it is. Dean's quest is individuality and freedom. In that way, it seems pretty logical that can't link himself to yet somebody else, as long as he didn't "kill" the father figure that is keeping him a slave of their will.

III. Sacrifice

Now, something else, in my opinion is standing between Dean and a serious love interest : Dean Winchester is a sacrificial figure. He seems himself like an appendix to his brother's story, he is expendable. So in his mind, I think, he doesn't even occurs to be the architect of his own fulfillment.

IV. His girls

I agree that Lisa and Dean had not an extraordinary chemistry, and, for me, it serves the story just perfectly. Lisa is barely a person, she is an idea, an ideal. Lisa represents "apple pie" life itself. She represent what the show sells us as a goal, a perfection when it is obviously like trying to make a fish live in a tree. Dean needed this prerequisite to continue his initiation. Dean leaving her is him closing the door on a fantasy that was holding him back since childhood, because he is the one who lost it.

Jo happens in the beginning of the show and, for me again, she couldn't work. She lives in the steps of her own mother and is not the "free" alterity Dean needs to grow.

Now okay but which girl could help Dean in his quest ?

In my opinion, someone who is "free" from his own prison. Someone stranger to the issues Dean struggles with, that open his view and gives him individuality (Cassie was a good try, but way too early in his journey).

V. This side of Dean

I agree. Dean is complex, and I could talk about him for hours (if you read until this point, you know... and bravo) and getting to see this side of him would have been great. Just because we love him so much that we want to experience everything of him.

I explore this in my fics with the greatest pleasure, and I could write about Dean falling in love all my life.

Dean's personality includes radical contrasts : The highest sense of responsibility, alternated with moments when he shelters himself in childhood for example. So I'm pretty sure that for a true love to occur, the woman (or man, gender really doesn't matter) would have to be able to reach those both sides of him. I see them sitting with cross legs eating candies in front of Scooby Doo.

Cockiness and insecurity is another contrast. Leadership and habit of submission to authority (I'm talking of the sexual way this time). Sensible vs rational. Adventurous but home-loving warrior that loves comfort...

Dean romantic side would be so complex. And after a very long answer no one asked for, I'm going to have to answer the most annoying thing : If you want to know how I picture Dean in a romantic relationship, mix my fics. That is literally what I dedicated my blog to exploring.

The individuation from his father's plan in Love me once, shame on me.

His quest of the stranger in Captive.

His struggle with apple pie life in Knocked-up.

His fight for free will in Greater Good.

The deconstruction of his culture in Rescue you...

God that sounds vain, I swear I am not, just passionate.

I have to conclued by saying I have no problem with Destiel but this is indeed, another subject. And that all of this is just my opinion.

Thank you so so sooo much for this ask and please forgive the 1k words answer and the OCD presentation.

Keep being so awesome.

Love love,

Jay

[jakesuit0]

Memories of Boom Boom Mountain Review

And we arrive at one of those rare season 1 episodes that introduces some new, vital lore. But as we are still in the season one era, its not a super dramatic episode.

The Marauders are a good group of characters introduced here. They never do much with these characters and they are pretty one note, but that’s okay. Their obsession with wrestling is funny. These are great characters for our rambunctious protagonist to bounce off of. I love how unlike most characters like the Marauders, they are empathetic. They don’t make fun of Finn’s boom boom trauma or his desire to help people. They hear out and try Finn’s ideas. The Marauders genuinely respect Finn! 

Spider-Man vowed to always use his powers to help people after using his powers selfishly ended up resulting in the death of Uncle Ben. Batman seeing his parents get killed by thugs inspired him to take out his anger getting vengeance on other criminals to keep Gotham safe. Iron Man reinvented his company to manufacture suits of armor to save people, after seeing the damage his war profiteering caused. Steven Universe wants to live up to his mother, a courageous rebel who gave up her physical form to create him, leaving behind a broken family. Finn Mertens became a hero...because people were grossed out that he shit himself. 

I kid, Finn’s backstory, while simple, is a bit more sophisticated than that. Finn was abandoned as a baby and saw heartless strangers unwilling to help a defenseless child. That experience traumatized him. He then saw a good example of how people can make the world a better place. His parents took pity on him when nobody else would and adopted him. This inspired Finn’s ethical code and heroism, although the problems Finn tackles here are very mundane.

Other than informing Finn’s character, this backstory confirms a key detail. Finn and Jake are in fact adoptive brothers, giving us a better understanding of their relationship. We are also introduced to Finn and Jake’s parents, Joshua and Margaret. With the fantastic 1940s accent, J and M are hilarious and charming characters. While we later learn more about them, their personalities here are perfectly in line with everything else we see of them throughout the series. These scenes also beg a question, what happened to Finn’s human parents? (...as well as how does Finn even have memories from being an infant?)

Now on to the main conflict, the crying, talking mountain. Ok, its not just me who sees this, the mountain is totally just trying to repress same sex attraction, right?? He is bizarrely bothered by these topless men wrestling. He calls their behavior “raunchy” and says the Marauders have “fantastic bodies”. The mountain is funny enough, if a bit unlikable for trying to police the behavior of others. But this deeper possible layer to his character at least makes him more interesting. Was it intentional? Maybe? Its hard to not see it and the writers do play around with sexuality in subtext a lot. 

Jake thinks the mountain is just crazy and isn’t interested in putting up with his antics, just like he acts again towards Susan Strong later in “Beautopia”. Due to Finn’s principle to try to help everyone in need, he tries to fix the mountain’s problem. The solutions Finn comes up with are funny, even though the first one is pretty abusive to animals. Based mountain calling Finn out on his animal abuse. 

As Finn thinks he finally found a solution, he discovers that solution just pisses other people off. Early Adventure Time loves its random humor, and showing a bunch of wacky characters dealing with bizarre problems is a great excuse to showcase that brand of comedy. In the commentary for this episode, Pen says that was an analogy for how he felt producing early Adventure Time. Many different cooks in the kitchen wanted Adventure Time to be completely opposite things. It reminds me of a politician trying to please and not piss off all their constituents. Its an impossibly tight rope to balance. You can’t please everyone.

However, the moral of the episode goes in an opposite and unrealistic direction. If you have enough will like Finn, you can please everyone! I suppose the message of never giving up to make everyone happy does have some merit. We get a hilarious sequence of a convoluted system that fixes everyone’s problems. On the one hand, this moral is harmful. On the other hand, the solution is really funny. Realistically, there is no way that this system is going to hold forever, soon it will all fall apart, and people will be unhappy once again. I think a good compromise would have been to, at the end of the episode after Finn and Jake had gone home, quickly show the system breaking down to show that you can’t please everyone. 

Finn would later have to learn that you can’t help everyone in episodes like “City of Thieves”. The Simon and Betty arc also strongly pushes that message.

We end on a really funny “lol so random xd” moment of Finn and Jake riding a dolphin.

Grade: B+