#<- friend says im a coward if i dont put the main tag

[skeletonmaster69]

dazai osamu stupid idiot motherfucking dazai osamu goddamn fool suicide attempting child abusing rat old bastard shithead idiot detective of the whore biggest clown in the circus laughed out of town cowboy motherfucking dazai osamu

stop pinning me when i talk about dazai osamu i hate him so much why does he have so many fucked up children why did he decide to fuck around and find out judt let them loose is he dead is he a bastard man has such a viseral affect on me not even in the room never smelled this man but i know he has the worlds shittiest piss stink get away from me

if i wanted to get into heaven and god said dazai osamu is waiting inside i would piss on gods feet for the soul purpose of getting sent back down

if i have to deal with dazai osamu speaking another word in person on voice in show not only will i close the tab i will delete my bookmark out of spite and have to rewatch the entire series again for the experience of being able to skip all the times when he was mentioned or alive

i do know why i hate him so much he just abuses children and i am just mad because i am angy

he better have some fucked up backstory to explain this if hes just saw my friends dads and wanted to be the fictional version ill go ham

paypal.com/ifuckinghatedazaiosamu

episodes not even about him vaguely mentions what is maybe supposed to be him attempting suicide and i lost it

where the fuck is dazai osamu if hes still alive im going to so deeply wish he wasnt

ill punch dazai and his frail twink twig bones will simply flake apart under my epic huge meat fist and he will disintegrate until all thats left is one final bandage he kept on him at all times simply spelling no longer human in japanese

im not breathing im hyperventilating at this point

i hope theres a date given for when dazai died or will die so i can make a reminder on my phone

everyday once a year i will see it and do anything but pay respects to the man who had so many fucked up if true child abuse charges

[prisonguards]

FR!!! Like oh my GOD I didnt even ship smallidarity before likeeeee I was just your average flower husbands fan, and I wanted to stick hard to the whole boundary compliance thing because I was part of dsmp twt for a year and. Well. That should say enough, iykyk. But then Joel just kept obsessing over Jimmy, Jimmy kept simping for Joel, and then the entire thing with the "he's just sooo cuuuute" and "can we just compare the size difference again, its my favorite thing ever" and whatever the fuck fixating on the noise Jimmy made was and it was like. Well. Bro. BRO. THEEEEN the having a CHILD together thing happened and I just fell into shipping them immediately from E2 alone. And now I'm watching E1 and I'm gonna rewatch 100h hardcore because your blog has just made it Worse.

This has been an entire tangent but the tldr is I didn't ship smallidarity until Joel was absolutely unbearable and obvious over just how much the cuteness aggression he gets over Jimmy Gets To Him.

Also I see your tags and I bring you this: in watching E1, am I insane or is the whole "Katherine was his first ally but I am his BEST ally, I will call her a coward and get genuinely angry at her for not going to the lengths I will to protect Jimmy" give off possessiveness. Not possessiveness as in jealousy, ownership, or anything like that but more in the sense that he takes great pride in being the one who takes care of Jimmy best, so to speak and to be the one who protects him when he needs it. This isn't really related at all to what you said but I'm doing my best and it's 6 AM as I write this, I have not slept and I should cut myself off before I spout even more nonsense.

- life series anon

ANON I LUV YOU AUSGEUE. I hope you get some good sleep friend aaueghd

I think that happened to a lot of people :3 smallidarity like was ramping up all season thanks to enemies to lovers being such a popular trope/dynamic but its Exploded in popularity lately and Im so thankful for that!!! whether it be from Joels fawning or their. insanity inducing innuendoes. the more fans the merrier ^—^

IM SO GLAD MY MADNESS HAS GOTTEN U TO WANNA REWATCH 100 HOURS :3c !!! its a comfort series for me for sure. and the episodes with Jimmy in them are. absolutely the best. ep 4 is one of my favorite episodes of anything ever. and if you want more Joel fawning over Jimmys cuteness…

YESSSSSS YES.. I ADORE THEM IN EMP S1!!! their dynamic is so unique there because of how wholly and overwhelmingly soft/positive it is. theyre allies from the start and BEST allies… auuughh.. yesshh Joel gets sooo defensive over Jimmy in s1 its beautiful. how quick he is to go absolutely murder mode for Jimmy. but how quick he is to be soft for him too. SIGGHHHHH. its my dream fr. the possessiveness.. YES.. theyre just SO important to eachother and it drives me crazy. he treats Jimmy so special. the way that he has little rooms for just Jimmy and Lizzie in his palace… the special roles they both hold… his wife and his best friend… there is def such a special connection there. and the possessiveness, Jimmy has so many more allies and close allies than Joel does. Joel just enforcing and affirming his station and specialness to Jimmy every once and a while.. by insulting his other allies augshs.. augh.. I just love them

also, for anyone else mulling over boundaries still; if you want specifics he just said he finds it “a bit weird” and iirc he didnt really say you cant do it. he just doesnt get it cause hes such a wifeguy. if youre concerned you can still tag it properly/keep it out of main tags. but if he was Really upset by it he would Not be encouraging and escalating it, and making the jokes he does, and putting them in his videos, and liking comments people make about them, and the tweets he makes, and and and and… if people are harassing u on behalf of him, they dont really care about what hes comfortable with, they just wanna punch down at someone. I get wanting to be respectful, but Ive also seen it used for such cruelty 💔 so I think the most important thing to keeping everyone, including the creators themselves, happy is to keep things to the right tags and spaces and being kind to yourself and others and blocking what you need and keeping out of peoples business.

[gothreigen]

submitting to the mortifying ordeal of being known, like only partially though x

[shinjiapologist]

get to know me more 🍓

tagged by @trufflesmushroom and i love & appreciate the excuse to talk abt myself

🍓 what do you prefer to be called name wise?

Mari (like mario w out the o)

🍓 when is your birthday?

august 18th : ) im a leo and proud (duh)

🍓 where do you live?

just outside of minneapolis

🍓 three things you are doing right now?

drinking chai latte. feeling a little lightheaded but I ate a mango so I’m waiting for that to stop. Sulking bc I had a bad work meeting. 

🍓 four f*ndoms that have piqued your interest right now?

ive been into. iz*one. got into kpop years late but im having fun. actually thats a lie i was watching ranking videos on youtube and it made me mad i was like why must we pit these girls against each other. ive also been searching the bna tag, my fav trigger anime i think. once my good friend betsy told me that, god i cant remember the phrasing, ive bottled off a part of my brain and developed my own ecosystem. i like to think thats where i consume media. in my self indulgent brainrot space where I can enjoy it in peace and no one can shoot down my outrageous headcanons.

🍓 how is the pandemic treating you?

i was workin from home before and im workin from home still. but god i miss talking to people. im trying to become good at video games. its so hard. i tried to play animal crossing but it gave me anxiety like... wtf...

🍓 song you can’t stop listening right now?

megs new song.... my sister (commands a room with her presence and doesnt consume fiction in such a self indulgent way) was like mari did you hear the new megan song its so good and i was like YES sasuke was in it. we took our niece to a con once and i cosplayed sasuke so he’s literally one of the only anime characters she knows.

🍓 recommend a movie.

God. God. I don’t know. I liked Knives Out. I liked the Jumanji movie with Dwayne the Rock Johnson. The movie I probably watch the most and consistently go back to is The Grand Budapest Hotel 

🍓 how old are you?

22

🍓 school, university, occupation, other?

im a freelancer..... i work for a mental health company and a restaurant and do whatever side gigs pop up. 

🍓 do you prefer hot or cold?

why cant i just be comfortable??

🍓 name one fact others may not know about you.

I dont have a bellybutton. ask others for the story and you will discover there are many versions of my legend

🍓 are you shy?

yeah a little... im just quiet and private. sometimes i have moments of bravery where im like fuck it though. tumblr as a fairly anonymous platform, where im free to be gay, so. 

🍓 do you have any preferred pronouns?

i go by she/her bc im a coward and lazy but i also respond to they/them and he/him

🍓 any pet peeves?

Passively asking for someone to do something instead of just asking, like saying “this would go well with some milk” instead of just asking me to bring you a cup of milk (this is vagueblogging at my grandma) 

🍓 what’s your favorite “dere” type?

uhhhhhhhhhhh............. mood is irrelevant. be the sasuke of the show. 

🍓 rate your life 1-10. 1 being really crappy and 10 being the best you could ever be.

this is such a mean question. i refuse to reflect on the negatives of my situation during this tumblr meme. we all have issues in our current lives and history and we all have things we would look to see happen. All we can ask is that we are working towards them.

🍓 what’s your main blog?

this one : )

🍓 list your side blogs and what they are used for.

this question is the whole reason i was excited to fill this out @karlshaun - this is like background refs. photography @stormandfriends - this is like my oc blog so my college friends could get familiar w my high school ocs @nicogenos - this is where i post nicogenos content @stansunwukong - this is my rwby sideblog bc i like. cant put rwby on main ethically @paintinghq - this is where i post classical paintings by old white men @shinjiapologistinspblog - design inspiration @shinjiapologistfashionblog - take a guess

🍓 is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you?

i like listening a lot even if it seems like i dont have anything to say.... sometimes i take awhile to articulate what i’m thinking and might have to try a few times... 

I don’t know who to tag : ( i dont talk to people on this platform as much. @jutopa . keep the flame going. or dont. i’ll love you anwyay

[bakedpieceofchicken]

ao3 tag meme

its my blog and im allowed to run it like the anxiety-ridden coward i am...

tagged by @waxwingedhawks 

Ao3 account: lemondropped (if you go look for it, theres 0 works attached. you can still find my bad apple series though... bleh. thanks, i hate it. despite it being the most popular thing ive ever written)

Current Writing Summary:

Current word count for the year:  68252

Number of stories (including drabbles) posted to ao3: 26 

Fandoms I wrote for: 9

Pairings I have written for:

Background pairings? Tododeku, Bakushima, Tsuchako, Shigadabi 

Main pairings? Dabihawks, Shigahawks, Shigadabihawks (oh, there’s a pattern, isn’t there?)

Story with the most kudos: Bad apple, regrettably

Story with the most bookmarks / Story with the most subscriptions: I’ll find you sooner than the stars, more regrettably (people wanna know what comes next? why?!)

Story I’m most proud of: shitty dad club (its the one fic i can say i have no problems with despite having written it like 4-5 months ago.....)

What’s ahead: 

- family dinner reunion future fic  

- hotwings music festival AU ft. league of villains (was written for day 2 quirkless dabihawks week 2k19, want to put a lot of care into it. i have no idea if ill get hate for associating myself with this fic cause someone out there might have a problem with it but eh i guess ill just have to post it when finished and see.)

- shigahawks childhood friends AU (i have like 4k words written so far? its more canon divergence than actual AU but im taking my time with it. whether its any good or not is anybody’s guess)

- the second half of supreme art of war...................................... camera pans into my face if i ever told you i had any idea what i was doing, it was all a fucking lie. Also the first half needs to be renovated/edited to be like... better. it feels a little unpolished and even at the time of writing that first chapter, i was perfectly aware how OOC the last part was but also i’m getting a little better at writing shigaraki because this man somehow sneaks his way into all my fics now... anyways...

- i started working on this pro heroes interact with Hawks story but idk if i’ll ever finish it lol. i think im like 4/9 pro-heroes done? there’s a +1 too (is this story format dead? who knows, ah whatever im still doing it)

- fuyumi fic thats getting finished at the pace of a snail. im putting a lot of care and effort into it, is all. probably will turn out boring but eh :) that’s the risk you gotta take when writing fanfiction

- chapter 4 of ill find you sooner than the stars? here (i made this a couple of weeks ago):

i probably... need to go back... and edit this one too.... to be less edgy................. or maybe i should just embrace the edginess. become self aware. like dont half-ass the edginess, go all the way in. deliver the edgy angst story everyone wants me to!!!! ahahaha starts coughing i can’t believe im associating myself with this piece of hot garbage that people apparently like. nobody cares but im definitely going to shift the story (assuming i continue it) to monoma and shinsou because im kinda sick of deku and the deku POV probably doesnt serve the narrative too well in the long run. amazing, 10/10 bakedpieceofchicken, youre hot edgy deku trash we all know now :eyes: 

ill tag @izdekumidoriya (have u done it already? i have no idea! sorry for making you look at this lol... hopefully u just scanned it instead of actually reading what i put down), @tsvchakos (if youre seeing this, it means i got over my anxiety to post this! woo!!!!), and uh... im not feeling particularly brave enough to tag more mutuals (knowing they have to see this post...) so i’ll leave it at that. if you want to do it, go ahead. you can say i tagged you too :>

[maraschinotopped]

ok so since school is over, and i have a month off, im gonna share the quotes/experiences ive collected throughout the past 3 months gfyvf

bold = teacher

- “Ban anime!” “even the pokemon anime?” “oh fuck shes good-”

- “i know a good place to buy emperor penguins!” “what, ebay?”

- “Santa is actually hitler”

- “Does anyone have whiteout?” “im white”

- “oh hey can i have some [takes food from luka’s plate and walks away]” “..she robbed me”

- “It’s 3 o’ clock, we have 15 more mi-” “no it isnt”

- niklas broke luca’s calculator, and then both julius and luca fixed it with their 1 and 1/2 braincells

- sally wrote “holly” as “holli” and i am disgusted

- “Remember, ‘problem’ is masculine because men always cause the problems!”

- [we were saying if the person next to us were our friend or a person] “[fatima says im a person and not a friend]” “[i hold a pencil up to her neck as the teacher asks another person]” “..eto mon apyr”

- “whos the leader of [karl marx’s] his fanclub??” “Anton- WAIT NO Im not saying hes the leader-” “ANTON SEND ME A SIGNED SHIRT!!!!”

- “ok so first, nice toilet background-” [everyone starts cackling]

- everyone bullying/mocking our homeroom teacher

- “ok so the answer is-” “yaaay!”

- we were asked to write a expression for someones age 10 years ago in math and then we had a debate w/ the teacher if it was always true. also one of the other ones was “write chabs age in 7 years” and mikkel was like “ok guess i gotta wait 7 years”

- the math teacher got fed up with niklas and his bag so he put it outside the window on the ledge just outside the window

- “fuck” “no no she said DUCK” “you’re just afraid of my power”

- “you’re better at scoring goals than writing sodium hydroxide”

- “thats not right-” “shut up” [everyone starts clapping]

- “how come the girls focus better than the boys?” “excuse me?!?!”

- “You watch shrek?” “yes-” “you know donkey?” [everyone gets it and bursts into laughter] 

- “why are there holes”

- “ok so we have the cheese-” “[everyone at once] cheeeseee!!”

- me snatching like 4 sugar packets and students seeing me doing that and saying nothing about it

- everyone debating in global perspectives for the first time and literally everyone arguing with brazil aka niklas

- “also btw i stole a mars mini from you” [death glare back from niklas]

- “[teacher trying to get a student to return a computer]” “do it yourself coward” “[everyone oooohhhh’s]”

- me going absolutely insane bc we did a spelling test and one of the words was tonnes but the sentence he used as a example was “i have tonnes of homework” and no one fuCKING SAYS IT LIKE THAT????

- us mumbling georgian words during a christmas performance because the teachers didnt let us practice the song and didnt know we were even singing it but the parents still thinking we did good anyway

- telling people “see you in the next decade”

- our drama group going insane because our main character decided to not show up that day

- everyone not taking ict seriously and the teacher snapping

- recording a music video in music and my group recording the rest w/o me because i didnt have a actual role i was the camera person

- attacking andrei and literally no ones opinion’s of me changed???

- fatima revealing shes kinda depressed to me and being absolutely confused because she has friends and shit

- going crazy because we have to send our elves somewhere but we dont wanna risk them dying/not bringing anything if there’s a blizzard in the elf game

- a cat running across the playground and everyone losing it

- seeing a mouse, being like “huh”, then realizing its a fucking mOUS-

- me harassing people via airdropping them when we had ipads 

- me injuring myself 3 times while playing infection tag like 3 days in a row

- half of secondary being depressed

- us clapping at random intervals/all the time

i stg this class shares 3 braincells in total w/ each other, not counting the teacher. liza left this year tho :((

i think a new student is coming... we’ll infect them with our stupidness!!!! >:)