#<- annoying ass behavior to me if i'm being honest

[bebeluss]

People who go so fucking hard in the name of "defending" thunderbolts are so fucking annoying. To begin with, i've never understood why there's so much hate unleashed against Sam after that stupid ass post credits scene. He wasn't even in the movie. Now, the line "it went poorly" doesn't have to mean that he was "rude" or whatever towards Bucky/thunderbolts but even if he was, well.. HE'S RIGHT! Because what do you mean Bucky (and Yelena and ava and bob!!) out of everyone, is working willingly for the government/fuckin Valentina whom he wanted to impeach through the movie and then he got amnesia, like??? The same government that wanted to put him out in civil war, the same government that didn't trust him in tfatws, the same government who tortured him and kidnapped him for over 70 years because let's not forget that hydra and shield were the same shit... LIKE???! explain to me in which world would he be working willingly for the government??? And I'm saying this as someone who loves Bucky so damn much. He's literally my favorite character, I watched thunderbolts BECAUSE OF HIM, and that's it, otherwise I wouldn't have watched it. And if I'm honest, I dislike that post credits scene, because he's just out of character. He is and if you're a real Bucky Stan, you should see that. I didn't like that he didn't defend Sam, the person who's been with him for more than a decade in the MCU's world. The person who gave him his REAL found family. The only person in all these years that he's canonically said "I love you" to, Sam wilson is Bucky's closer friend and ally. I don't like the fact that he's betraying wakandans once again by working with Valentina (even tho I'm honestly not mad at him freeing Zemo because at the end of the day it was for something justified and he ended up turning him over), and you know what? Now that I'm complaining, I also didn't like his fucking obsession with the shield in tfatws. He saw Steve dropping that shield for him TWICE, he knows that shield isn't more important than the person carrying it so I don't get why was he so obsessed with it and why was he being annoying towards Sam throughout all of tfatws (Malcolm Spellman and Joana calo, YOU WILL PAY FOR YOUR CRIMES for making him act out of character 😤 ).

I've got someone in my notifications telling me that sambucky's shippers only want Bucky to be "Sam's lapdog".. excuse me??? If there are people being like that, then it's mainly Bucky's stans believing Sam is some kind of therapist for Bucky and that Sam should be there ready to serve Bucky and nah, that's not how it works. And anyway, this same person says that Bucky wouldn't abandon the thunderbolts because he "feels responsible for them".. so.. you don't want Bucky to be Sam's "lapdog", instead you want him to be a -children trafficker (yes I watched black widow and that's what he is), a murderer and 2 women who killed because they chose to do that- baby sitter??? Mmmm.. interesting. 🤔 I can understand Bucky wanting to protect Yelena, Ava and Bob (does he even need protection? Lmao) but the other 2? Nah nah. Bucky is nobody's babysitter and in any case, if he were to feel responsibility towards someone, then it should be towards Sam. You know? The man who was willing to go to jail FOR HIM. Yeah. He owes that TO SAM and to the entire Wilson family and to the wakandans, whom literally saved his life.

My thought are all over the place and I want to say so many things and this post is messy because 1) English isn't my first language and this is the first time I write anything here, for real I don't even write tags and 2) I'm angry as hell with the behavior of most thunderbolts stans since late april. y'all are a bunch of racist bullies. You have no real reason to hate on Sam, because guess what? He's basically the same as Steve, even better, yet you dislike him? ... interesting, I wonder why that is 🤔

Now, I hated that marvel made the decision to separate Sam and Bucky. I know most Sam stans, rightfully, didn't want Bucky to be in cabnw, after the shit show that was tfatw in social media, I get it but forgetting about people's reactions, which have nothing to do with the characters dynamics, and being objective, Bucky should've been next to Sam in cap4 instead of thunderbolts. I hate that it didn't happen that way. Anthony and Sebastian literally made sambucky one of the most popular, if not THE most popular pair in marvel post endgame and you separate them??? That makes no sense to me. 🫩

However, here goes my last -messy- thoughts (because believe me, I know this post is all over the place lmao):

- Sam Wilson IS captain America and he's only doing what Steve would've done too but he's a Black man so you hate him because if it was Steve, you all would be eating it up. (Because in fact, Steve did what Sam told HIM to do many times in his trilogy and in IW and eg, go back and rewatch the movies)

- Sam is no one's therapist and he also has all the right to be mad at Bucky (even tho in the movie they don't say that, y'all made that up)

- Sam Wilson IS the avengers' leader and everybody, and I mean, EVERYBODY, will be following his lead in "doomsday", period, even the thunderbolts and I cannot wait to see that 😙

- now, because I've seen people say otherwise: James Buchanan "Bucky" Barnes IS a hero, he IS an avenger. Since the moment he decided to fight Thanos in wakanda, and anybody saying otherwise is wrong. Are we forgetting he was fighting Nazis much before most of the avengers' were born? He was there fighting with the first avenger yall... He is a hero, period. No discussion. (Also, unlike ava and Yelena, he didn't decide to keep on killing people after freeing himself from his abusers, nope, he chose to go back in cryo because he didn't trust himself EVEN THOUGH, killing people wouldn't have been his choice, because he was literally mind controlled.. again, unlike Yelena and ava (love them but yeah) 😶)

- I don't think he's suddenly a horrible character, the writers have made him do ooc actions but that doesn't mean he's a terrible character, not in my books. And actually even though this whole situation makes me mad, I do think things will be better in doomsday. Marvel would be shooting themselves in the feet if they separated sambucky for real. 🤡 What's annoying about all of this is that I cannot think of a right way to get Bucky and Sam to talk about this, I mean, I can but in a movie with so many characters, I can already see them making a quick joke and that's it, everything will be alright again.. ala Russo's style meanwhile we've been enduring a year and a half (by then) of horrible takes about Sam (seriously ask yourself why do you hate this character so much.. even more if you like Steve.. ask yourself why you don't like Sam and the answer will always be racism btw 🤷🏽‍♀️)

- and lastly: y'all have to stop bringing the real life relationship of Sebastian Stan and Anthony Mackie to the equation. They are real friends and both of them respect each other, admire each other and love each other so much and they've been saying it all these years, even this same year. Stop equating sambucky's (FICTIONAL CHARACTERS) relation to Seb and Anthony's. Y'all weird as hell for doing that. And y'all weird as hell for going against Anthony or Sebastian for what their characters do or not do in the movies. 🙄 I'm talking to the "Anthony is Sebastian's biggest fan" crowd too. Sure, he's very enthusiastic but in any case, Sebastian's the president, vice president and first member of the "Anthony Mackie fanclub". You need to watch all the interviews of that man speaking about Anthony, literally the man whow said "one of the perks of my life is knowing Anthony Mackie", the man who said "I'd walk in Anthony's shadow all the time if I had to", the man who through all of tfatws said that Mackie was THE leader of the project because he knows how to read people and that people have to give him more recognition for his work. Sebastian said that. Their relationship is based in mutual everything, mutual love, respect, admiration. Seriously, do NOT try to speak shit about them only because you disagree with what happens in the fictional world of the MCU. 🙄

- lastly FOR REAL!!: y'all really need to observe the reactions towards thunderbolts in comparison with captain america: brave new world/other bipoc projects. The hate Sam Wilson/Anthony Mackie faces is unbelievable. Remember when everybody kept saying they'd boycott cabnw because of that nasty Zionist?? Well.. where was that energy towards darevill? Margarita Levieva is a Zionist (as a Seb Stan I was still following her until a year ago when she was literally justifying the murders of children on her instagram, nasty ass woman). Where's that energy towards the upcoming spiderman? Jon bernthal is a heavy Zionist. He was even following isra-hell's accounts on Twitter. Where's the boycott energy, huh??? 🤔 Ah yes... The leads in those movies are white men, I forgot they all have several passes.

Anyway, I do think all Hollywood productions have Zionists working in them, it's almost impossible that they don't, especially in this case because Disney itself IS a Zionist company 🙄 so you can keep your stupid ass excuse of boycotting something only when the lead is a Black man (or a woman), seriously check your fucking racism. It's so tiring to see white people giving stupid takes. Stfu and CHECK YOUR RACISM. 🫩

I think that was all lol, I don't think anyone's gonna read this because it's long as fuck and all over the place and I normally don't say shit but damn, it's been 2 months, going on 3, of non stop shitty takes. Keep Sam Wilson's name out of your mouth and please, stop being weird with Bucky. he'd hate you, Sebastian would hate you. 🫩 Do not become a nasty person in the name of defending fictional shit. This is the real world and some of you say really nasty ugly things in the name of defending fictional characters (defending from what? Idk but y'all swear you're doing something lol).

And btw, you don't have to like Sam but if you don't like him then don't speak about him, because again... There is NO a single reason why you should be feeling so much hate towards him (unless you're a racist). And if Bucky was real, he'd dislike you so much for being a piece of shit towards Sam. Think about that!! 😗

Honestly I don't even know what I wanted to achieve with this long ass post lmao, I might end up deleting it if I'm honest because I suffer anxiety and that's a big reason why I never interact with anyone here but damn, having people in my notifications being so wrong about Sam (and Bucky too actually) is so annoying. 🫩🫩🫩🫩🫩

[crehador]

suuuper delayed response but thank you so much for the blushy boy recs!! (p.s. bl recs are also 1000% welcome.......)

my pleasure! (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ

as for bl, i feel like frequent blushing is such a staple of the genre that you'll see it in pretty much all bl. well maybe not all but, like, a lot. a lot a lot

that said, i would be remiss to not recommend neon sign amber (18+) whenever i get the chance because it is my favorite bl manga of all time and features blushy boy saya one of my favorite characters of all time (not just of bl but, like, seriously all time)

i feel like saya's blushiness is especially pronounced in my memory because the whole premise of neon sign amber juxtaposes him with a love interest who is said to be expressionless, so seeing the two of them next to each other just further highlights how expressive saya is

but again, reminder that this is an 18+ read!

i want to say eigyou nika might also be pretty heavy on the blushing… but i can't remember for sure. maybe it just left me with that impression because it was sugary sweet and absurdly cute. been ages since i last reread (this one is also 18+ i think)

[naomihatake]

LaDs' Rafayel rambling — "Oceanic Nightfall" tender moments

!!!!!slight poilers ahead. I also made a comparison with Caleb after his return (*cough*, coming back from the dead - it's written in a small font if you wanna avoid reading it)

This man is so special to me, to be honest. Last night I watched one of his limited Tender Moments card, Oceanic Nightfall — and when I tell you that I was absolutely flabbergasted with how angsty it was. I saw the card's image and thought "oh, this is gonna be spicy". I was so mistaken, oh Gods 🥲

That card is anything but spicy; sure, there's a lot of tension between them in the second half of the card, my heart was doing gymnastics when she entered on him being ass naked in the bathtub with a paintbrush in his hand. I hadn't expected him to be so shameless, considering I don't think at that point they were exactly lovers (or probably just at the delicate line between friends and lovers). Not that surprising, because it's Rafayel, after all; he does act strange a lot of the time if we take into account the usual standards.

I adore the fact that MC didn't walk away and the fact that she didn't give in easily. She told him square in the face that his manipulation tactics don't go unnoticed by her and I absolutely adore that, lol. Yes, gurl, say it out loud for everyone to hear.

Also, she calls him annoying and he seems to be pleased by that. Rafayel is so pleased with the fact that she does view him differently than others.

I have to admit that his tantrum with the glass had my jaw drop to the floor because I absolutely despise such behavior — I am hater through and through of that gesture, especially since she hadn't done something deserving of such a reaction.

Let's take another scenario as a comparison: when MC throws a glass at Caleb for what he's done to her, for locking her in his apartment and being an ass with his overprotective, obsessive tendencies. I completely understand her point of view and I think he deserved it, to be frank (as someone that appreciates and loves him as a character overall). I think she should've done worse, if you ask me, but that's another story (I am a hater of controlling behavior, sorry not sorry)

Actually, Rafayel's gesture triggered me. It took me several seconds to process what happened because I couldn't believe it — to the point I'm not even sure if the glass just slipped from his hand or if he really threw it on the floor (I'll do a rerun of that card just to be sure, but I don't think I misinterpreted it).

Despite it all, that made me fall for his character even more. This is a card from the beginning of their relationship, since before they even got a chance to kiss, so I think that makes it even more interesting. In later cards and events, it is shown how complex Rafayel is; he is deeply in love with her and stops his manipulative tendencies. The only people he's cruel with have nothing to do with her. Their begining seems very abrupt and he does act like an absolute menace, like a pitiful crybaby sometimes.

Later on, these moments just end up being part of who he is as a person. I know I kind of bullied him in this post until now. Truth be told, he's very mature and he's shown as being a very wise person, regardless of his childish tantrums — and they're not even exactly childish, they're just part of a very troubled personality. He's shown taking care of MC, protecting her, giving her wise advice in a way someone very old would. His soul is, indeed, old, especially since he remembers his past lives. He's watched the world change and crumble before his eyes and he's still there, in Linkon.

Rafayel can be a child in a good way, like the time when they ran in the rain together because he never did that (he's a Lemurian, it doesn't rain underwater); in several tender moments, he encourages MC to be kinder with herself, to find herself in the small things of life, to pursue her little dreams and the bigger ones. His devotion to her is undeniable, and as time passes by, there are less and less tantrums from him. It's almost as if he's found his own emotional security and stability once she appeared in his life.

Even in this card, Oceanic Nightfall, Rafayel tells her that he's changed since she appeared in his life. She questions his strange behavior and it seems like he's a bit self destructive — that makes him such a relatable and real character.

Rafayel is full of flaws and insecurities and they make him so much more beautiful; he's perfect because of his own imperfections and I love him that way. He shows that he tries to change for the better, even if it's shown as a slow process. Also, he does that for her alone. He doesn't care about other people and I think that's very interesting. I like him a little cruel, a little heartless; he has all the rights to be, considering his life (or lives) as a Lemurian.

Also, if anyone has some thoughts about this, you can share them <3 I'd be happy to hear some more opinions on this (I know that the Rafayel girlies are down bad for him exactly because he's got a twisted personality and I wholeheartedly agree 😫)

[peaachypie]

Payback

Warning :

(cnc, breeding kink, uniform/masked kink, dark!Miguel, p in V, cunnilingus, lactation kink, infidelity and i think that it)

" Coach Terry has a wife ?"

Miguel raise his head, stopping what he was working on.

" mh mh ! Her name is [Y/N], she is so nice, she has a kid too ! He does a lot of.... jokes about it"

" jokes ?"

" yeah, when we don't make enough point he says something like : if i knew kid will shoot that bad i wouldn't have use this excuse to save my marriage ! "

" ... what the..."

" I don't really understand but [Y/N] is so nice with us ... and pretty !"

Gabriella says happily, preparing her bag for her soccer training.

" with his face ? She can't be that pretty."

He says with a unamused chuckle.

" dad ! Don't be a meanie ! "

She scolds him with a frown.

" i'm just being honest."

He shrugs.

" you're just jealous "

She hum with a confident smile, Miguel groan slightly but with a soft smile. He doesn't take it in a wrong way.

" shut your mouth and eat."

" aye !"

She quickly stuff her mouth with food as the big man let out a sigh.

~~

Coming out of his car, Miguel give Gabi her bag as she run out to the changing room.

He walks slowly toward the bleachers.

" um excuse me "

He raise his eyes away from his phone with a slight annoyed stare, he isn't the social type of man. But his hard face quickly fade away as your sigh. He looks up and down at you, taking a good look on your hair, face and body. Especialy body.

" yes ?"

He answers finaly, putting away his phone.

You smile kindly at him. He sees your mouth open to talk but no sound come to his ears. Too focus on staring at you.

How could Terry pull a beautifull woman like you ?

Did you really have a child with this ... thing ?

Does your nipple are hard because of the wind or ?

What ?

He frown at his own mind comment.

He isn't the type of asking himself that, or even staring at a woman body. He doesn't feel guitly too long. He couldn't stop looking at you, he couldn't stop thinking on the fact that he is so much better than Terry.

He could make you scream his name, in every position, everywhere.

He takes a deep breath, he could feel his cock throbbing against his legs.

Dammit. It's been a while since he wanted someone that bad, and he isn't really patient about those thing.

He want you so bad, he want to see you cry on his cock. He want to see you beg for his cock.

The training start and quickly come to an end. His eyes switching to Gabriella then to you. Your ass seem so soft, and your breast so full of milk. He just want to relieve you by sucking your nipple.

He groan.

" fuck..."

~~

23:05 p.m

Gabriella was already in bed, everything was calm until the city needed him, well the city needed Spiderman.

He wasn't really in the mood, he wasn't known for being the " friendly neighborhood spiderman " .

His duty end quickly, beating up vilains wasn't what he prefer to do but it took off your body out of his mind.

He swing around the building before stopping somewhere high. Looking around until he see someone getting in trouble.

You.

He doesn't have any spidersense but if he had one, it would have been so excited right now.

" please ! Someone help ! "

You cry out at someone snatch your purse out of your hand. The vilain didn't run away, too slow for the hero who catch him easily with his web.

Miguel goes grab the purse, not without a dead stare and an agressive behavior.

He slowly goes to you, for you it was nothing.

For him, he was just holding himself from slamming you against the wall and pulling down your pantie down your legs.

" thanks you so much spiderman ..."

You smile to the masked hero, with a gratitude smile.

He keep his eyes on you.

Your tears.

He wasn't listening to his mind anymore, he doesn't care anymore.

" let me take you back to your place."

He goes to you and pick you up in his arm, shooting a web and flying around the city toward your apartment.

Opening the window was the easiest part of this. Putting back on your legs, you turn to him.

" thanks you, you're so-"

" nothing come for free."

He says in a hard voice.

" what ?"

" I need a payback. That fair for what i do in the city. Dont you think ?"

" but... i don't have any money"

" don't worry princesa."

He grab your face with his finger. Holding you.

" i'm not asking for money."

Your eyes widden at his word. One blink was enough to see how fast he was to ripped your dress in a half. You let out a whine as your breast are now exposed to the masked man.

" w...wait ! I ... i have a husband ! And-"

" and ? You want me to keep saving the city don't you ? Who knows maybe your husband will need my help."

You open your mouth to repost but the only sound who come out is a squeak as the hero deprograms his mask over his nose to take a lick on your hardden nipple. You try to move away from his grip, but Miguel hold you close against him. A second moan escape your lips as he take one of your nipple in his mouth, sucking and slighting bitting it. He let out a growl when the warm milk run down his throat.

He never felt this tight in his costume before.

Your hand stay on his shoulder, trying to push him without really trying ... you could do more than that. Was it the fear ?

You close your eyes, your legs shaking a bit as he keep the nipple in his mouth without forgetting the other, playing with it before giving each little buttons a lick.

You didn't dare open your eyes, fighting yourself not to ask for more, or to make too much noise about your forbidden pleasure.

The next thing you could feel was the pillow on your face when he throw you on the bed. Your stomach on the mattress and your legs spread on the edge of the bed.

" what are you ...! No !"

But he didn't listen, raising your dress over your ass. Kneeling in front of your private area, taking a smell on your pantie making your squirm.

He waited for this for so long, he though of this for so long everytime he would jerk off thinking of you. Moving your pantie to the side, his tongue find quickly the way toward your clit. Licking and sucking on it as you bite on your pillow. Tears falling down your cheek as he eat you out like a starved man. His tongue moving inside your gummy wall, sucking up your juice. Your wetness dripping under his chin.

" p...please...haangh...s...stop...."

You whisper quietly, to give yourself good conscience but not wanted it to end either.

" i...i'm sorry Ter...haaah...!"

You let out a scream when he start playing again with the little budge of nerves.

Turning your eyes to him, you looked at him.

Miguel was kneeling in front of your pussy, sucking it while moving his hand up and down his throbbing cock. Precum coming out his urethra.

It was so big, too big.

He get up again, slidding down your pantie on your ankle. Teasing your wet hole with his red tip.

You should scream, but you just press the pillow harder against your mouth.

He spread your pussy lips with one hand, the other holding his cock in front of your entrance.

" Fuck ... look at that, this pretty pussy all wet for me ... you were waiting for this uh ? Someone with a big cock to fill you up properly ? You wanted it, you waited to be fuck like a slut."

His voice is strict and hard, making your pussy clench on nothing. He let out a dark chuckle out of his lips. Pressing the tip at your entrance before slidding inside without putting force.

He groan between his teeth as you let out a moan in the pillow.

He didn't wait for you to get used to his shape. Putting his rough hand on your hips and pouding inside you like a beast.

You cry on the pillow.

" sorrysorrysorry...i'm...hanh ! Sorry...ha...haa...!"

Do you apologize for your infidelity or for loving it a bit too much ?

The wet sound of your pussy being filled up by the hero are the only sound filling the room. Tears falling just like your wetness down your legs.

You could feel the knot inside you getting bigger as he does firm circle around your puffy clit.

" taking me so well princesa..."

He groan, a mix of whimper and a growl.

" taking my cock so well ... is it better than your husband ? Stop apologizing and answers."

An hard slap on your ass wake you up from your bubble of pleasure.

" pleasepleaseplease ...!"

" are you begging me to stop or to cum ?"

" please...'me cum...! Ha...aaa...f...feels good...!"

" yeah ... it does feels good uh ? You want to cum uh ? Clenching around me like if you don't want me to take it out. You want me to make you a momma again ?"

" pleaseplease...'anna be a mom again..."

You cry out, your mind foggy. It was too much, the thrust, the circle around your clit.

Your eyes rolled back to your head as your legs start shaking. The knot in your stomach exploding in a powerfull orgasm.

Miguel groan, he was holding himself for too long. How was he suppose to hold when your pussy feel so tight around his cock ? He groan one last time before filling your womb full of his cum. He stay inside for a few minute before take a step back. Watching his semence dripping out your pussy.

" that a good girl. You did good for me."

He bend over to you, taking your hair to raise your head at him.

" that pussy is mine now."

You nod, obedient.

He was so violent, as if he wanted to mold your pussy to his shape.

He put a kiss on your forehead before putting you to bed, stroking your hair for a few second, then leaving quickly before your husband comes back.

~~

" dad ?"

Gabriella looks at him.

" yes ?"

He raise his eyes to his daughter.

" Coach Terry was angry today."

" was he ?"

" he said [Y/N] doesn't want to be in the same room as him, and that he knew his marriage was bulls-"

" don't you dare say the word."

" ... oke"

Gabriella pout before going back to her room.

Miguel turn back his eyes to what he was working on.

I should reward her for that. Seem like her pussy is really mine now.

[quezzzs]

[TW almost cheating(by a rando) and SLIGHT homophobia and sexism(from a flashback)]

"I feel drunk already."

"Detective, we had just step foot in here and you're already intoxicated?"

"Well it fucking reeks."

Gavin and Nines had entered the lit up wine tasting venue that already had various other guests standing around or sitting with their glasses, indulging themselves for this 'fun' party as soft music was being played with the scent of wine disseminated.

Tina might be the goddess of persuasion because Gavin is now realizing how quickly he gave in to joining a snoozefest just for a coffee maker.

The two detectives wandered around to check the area, unfamiliar with this current setting and just simply trying to find something of interest.

Mindlessly analyzing each random person's profiles, Nines came up with a question for Gavin. "May I ask why Officer Chen's family throw these...extravagant events?"

"S'pose to be an annual party to celebrate adulthood or whatever. Honest opinion though, I think a bunch of these dicks want a day away from their shitty kids."

One of the couples shot a glance towards Gavin as he made a mocking face at them in return.

Nines elbowed the shorter man at his shoulder to tone it down.

"Ah- you prick."

"I suggest you refrain from profanities for a short while. They don't seem fond of your abrasive behavior."

"Fuck them then."

Thankfully before the two can get into an argument about manners, Tina came in to save everyone's night.

"Gavin! You actually brought your ass here." Tina slinked her arm over Gavin's shoulder from behind, teasing her coworker joyfully. Gavin gave Tina an annoyed face before sighing.

"Hey, Ti-"

"So Nines, he actually convinced you to go?"

Tina interrupted Gavin before he could properly greet her, being direct with her question towards Nines instead with the most smug look on her face.

Nines nodded his head and folded his hands behind his back, acting like his proper self as per usual. "No convincing was needed when the both of you speak at a high decimal. I was aware of the conversation taking place."

...

"Ah."

...

"Well, anyways, hope you guys have a good night. I'm gonna go back to Vicky."

Tina pats Gavin's back and does a little finger gun at Nines before rushing back to the blond woman, who is called 'Vicky' apparently. From the corner of Gavin's eyes, he saw Nines' LED glow yellow and he knew what the android was thinking of.

"Vicky is Tina's new talking stage."

"Mhm. I assumed so with her elevated heart rate."

"Aye, you! Android lookin' fella!"

Both Gavin and Nines turned their heads to face the direction of the loud voice. They saw a group of old guys with their beer making a gesture for Nines to come over there, hollering at him with incoherent drunk sounds.

Nines' LED went yellow again as he looked over at Gavin, who nodded his head slowly at the sudden call out. They approach the guys cautiously to avoid any risks.

"C'mere man, we got something for your kind."

One of them with the flushed face reached an arm over their bag to take out a glass bottle covered up in brown paper. Another old man downed his glass and handed it over to Nines, patting the RK900's hand and ushering him closer.

As they were pouring the liquid into the glass, Nines stood in place. The LED turned red as he had nothing in his social programmings that could help him out in this scenario, eyeing Gavin for some help.

Gavin returned an expression that clearly reads, 'What the fuck do you want me to do???' so he couldn't aid Nines right now.

Once the man was done pouring the liquid in, he gave Nines a grin and nodded his head. "Go on, yeah?"

Nines darted his eyes to the shot glass he was hold and was hesitant to take a sip, but after estimating a 72% of a friendly interaction with these drunken men, he'd have to drink it. He gave another second to pass before he raised the glass to his mouth and sipped it.

The drunk men leaned in closer to get Nines reaction. "Well?" One of them asked.

Objectively, it's what Nines expected alcohol to taste like from all his online sources, like burning shit.

...

However...

He was not oppose to turn it down.

"It's...potent."

The group of men glanced at one another in confusion.

Nines took noticed and reiterated himself in broader terms.

"It's really strong, but good."

The group commemorated one another in success of Nines' positive review on their creation. "We making millions now." They all cheered on and patted Nines on his back, bringing him closer to try it out some more.

Meanwhile, Gavin was on the sidelines now, dumbfounded by what had happened.

Not only was Nines, the uptight asshole he knew out of everyone at work, was persuaded to take a drink, he actually enjoyed it.

Gavin felt like he wanted to have a say in this course of actions, but him and Nines agreed to go their separate ways for the night so Gavin could enjoy himself with the party instead.

He stepped a little closer to where nines was at to give him a heads up. "Don't start doing stupid shit when I'm gone."

Nines only waved Gavin off now that he's found an odd amount of calmness within, alongside dizzying effects.

He couldn't care about Gavin right now.

Being completely ignored, Gavin sneered and took off, shoving his hands into his pocket as he muttered 'prick' underneath his breath.

Wandering all around the venue, the only interesting thing he saw was this weird water fountain outside with little cherubs and fish decorated into the stone.

Other than the 'exquisite' taste in design, everything else made Gavin want to leave immediately.

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10:28 PM

2 hours since Gavin and Nines arrived.

And in Gavin's blatant opinion, he was right about this place being a snoozefest.

He chose not to get anything to drink since it was mostly wine(no shit, huh?) and a few beer options, but Gavin wasn't much of a beer guy.

He's already taken a few snacks from the large charcuterie board that was displayed at the food area alongside with some healthy tasting mini desserts that made him get a few side eyes on.

Gambling didn't feel like an option for tonight because he didn't want to be dealing with masterminds and ruin his night more.

At this current time, Gavin was leaning against the wall nearby the exit to the outside area, mindlessly scrolling on his phone while quickly liking any cat post he saw.

He turned his head up to survey the room so far. The music turned more upbeat and noisy with people gathering in the middle of the room to dance their asses off. In another direction, he saw the more chilled out area where he saw Tina talking passionately about something as Vicky watches her in an attentive manner.

When is this shit gonna end-

"Heya~"

Gavin was all of a sudden faced with a woman who was clearly drunk out of her mind and felt strongly uncomfortable with how close he had gotten.

"Uh, hey?" Gavin tried to take a step away from her but she followed.

"Yur really cute *hic* wnna hafe my number?" The stranger slurred her words as she swished her wine glass around.

Gavin tried to deflect the woman with his own question. "Isn't this a couples only event?"

"C'mon, my bouyfriend doesnm't need tuh know."

'REDFLAGREDFLAGREDFLAG!!!'

The alarms were ringing loudly in Gavin's head, making a deep sigh before taking another step back away from her.

"Listen, lady, I'm not interested."

Her face showed a slight frown before coming up with a dumb idea. She leaned back and sets down her wine glass aside.

"Maybe you'll be interested in me now~"

She grabbed the bottom of her skin tight top and tried to raise it up(to which Gavin attempted to leave as he was swift to cover his eyes) before another man came in and grabbed her arm.

"What the fuck are you doing?"

"OH, uh, hi baby~"

"Don't you fucking 'hi baby' me, Jane."

It took gave a millisecond to know that this man was the woman's, now he knows is called 'Jane', boyfriend.

Thankfully, Jane's boyfriend had some common sense that Gavin wasn't the one engaging as he looked at Gavin for a moment and apologize. "I'm sorry 'bout her, we'll leave you alone."

He gave Gavin an ashamed smile but was quickly transformed into justified anger as they were moved away to argue.

Gavin stood in place, speechless and confused by the dysfunctional couple.

'Wow, couldn't even get a woman to leave you alone? I knew you're a sissy but goddamn, Gavin, you are a fucking homo'

Gavin shook his head in disgust by a familiar voice that was prominent in his head. He groaned and began to walk away from where he was, now wanting to leave.

Tina just straight up lied to him about needing help because she looked like she's already doing fine with Vicky. No point in staying for longer.

He walks around the swarms of people around him and headed to where he last saw Nines-

"I WANNA SEE YOU OUT THAT DOOR. BABY BYE, BYE, BYE!"

What a glorious sight to behold.

In front of Gavin was Nines holding a microphone and standing on a table with his hair ruffled up, grey button up undone at the top, and face bright blue, all the professionalism he had completely erased as he sings with the group of men from earlier and a few new people cheering him on.

Gavin covered his mouth with his left hand...and started recording and taking pictures with his other hand. After recording enough footage and taking pictures, he puts away his phone and went to take Nines away after the song was done.

One of the guys from the group nudged Gavin's shoulder to warn him. "Make sure he keeps good."

Gavin nodded his head and did a two finger salute before Nines threw his arms around Gavin.

"Hi, detectiveeee~"

"You're drunk."

"Whaaat? No 'm naut." Nines says as he is currently nuzzling his face against Gavin's jacket.

"How many drinks did they give you?"

"Aughhhhh..."

Gavin felt like he should be surprised but he didn't.

He just really wanted to go home.

"Wha- heeeyyyy, put me dowwwwwn."

Nines tried to hit at Gavin's back when Gavin had picked him up by the legs and held him over his shoulder. Nines somehow doesn't weigh a lot considering his more tougher build compared to Connor but Gavin assumed it was because of the material androids were made with.

Gavin holds up Nines as he walks toward the back of the venue place and carefully open the doors at the back. Once outside in the courtyard area, he walks up to the water fountain from earlier and asked Nines one small detail.

"You waterproof?"

"Mhm, yeah."

...

...

...

Gavin threw Nines into the water fountain to sober him up.

He crossed his arms and waited for Nines to get up, the sounds of water splashing around and seeing Nines desperately trying to get up made the human detective chuckle, despite how this may be a little dark.

Nines stood up, water dripping down his body and hair, LED flashing red, and a scowl found on his face.

"What the fuck."

Now hearing the oh so regal Nines curse was the cherry on top. Gavin began to laugh loudly and pointed at Nines for how ridiculous he had shown to be.

Not wanting to get the last laugh, Nines went over and grabbed Gavin in by his jacket and into the water fountain with him.

"WHAT THE PHCK- OH PHCK ITS COLD."

Gavin held himself to warm up, even though he was soaking wet now, as shivers went down his spine. Doesn't help that it was chilly outside already.

Then he heard laughing.

Not his.

But Nines' laughing.

He watched Nines have his hand hovering above his mouth with the sounds of hysterical laughter coming out of his voice box, eyes closed with his face full of joy.

It wasn't the type of laugh you would hear from a snobbish rich person, but moreso a laugh that felt so genuine and contagious.

Gavin couldn't help but chuckle before splashing some of the water at Nines in a playful retaliation for bringing him down too. Acting offendedly, Nines swashed the water back at Gavin and it led to the two of them having a water fight.

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Minutes later, they found themselves sitting at the edge of the water fountain, squeezing out the water as much as they could. Wiping the excess water that was falling on his face, Gavin dropped a small mention to get going.

"So, never seen you like that before."

Nines thinned his lips and shrugged his shoulder lightly. "I'll admit, performing public singing in front of strangers wasn't where I wanted to be in, but the prompt was much too compelling not to choose."

"I didn't mean that." Gavin waved his hands on the singing bit.

Nines raised an eyebrow at him as he watched Gavin's face "What did you mean?"

"I meant seeing you be all so..." Gavin scratches the back of his head before gesturing his hand out. "I dunno, fun? I sorta threw you in the water but you didn't give me the same annoyed stare you always do." Gavin looked back, holding eye contact with Nines.

"True, but having the opportunity to bring you in with me helped elevate my mood." Nines spoke clearly in a flat tone meant to tease Gavin.

Gavin gave a sassy remark back. "Okay, fuck you."

"You already do that, Gavin." Nines fought back with, testing his taunts further.

"Gavin?"

Nines realized the informal title he had referred to Gavin and stammered to correct himself.

"I-I did not mea-"

Gavin smirked as he hit Nines' arm, now being the one doing the teasing "I'm fucking with you. We're off duty anyways so it's cool."

Nines chuckled again and shook his head, smiling. When he saw Gavin again, he noticed his work partner gazing at him.

"Do I have alcohol residue left on my face?"

Without missing a beat, Gavin stated his thoughts out loud.

"You have a nice laugh."

Neither of them knew why he said that.

Gavin shook his head, as if making the embarrassment growing to pass away instead, and he cleared his throat.

"Let's go, you can dry up at my place and I'll bring you back to the station."

Even though Nines wanted to talk for some more, he agreed with Gavin. "Sounds alright."

Exchanging goodbyes with Tina, changing into something dryer, and driving back to the DPD precinct, it was quiet between them.

But now that silence had became bearable.

Nines was still stuck on the first ever compliment Gavin had given him that wasn't followed up by cursing or insults.

And Gavin was screaming at himself for making an obvious move that he didn't mean to say out loud.

They had a good first night together without sex.

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[atopvisenyashill]

Bro the ppl you stan are so at odds with the other, your level of starkcels are always alicent-sansa stans, which is a shame bc if they open their eyes they'll see the sansa-rhaenyra-catelyn parallels 😔🥀

Messing with my stats fr 😒 (no hate btw, I'm also a sansa-rhaenyra stan)

it GENUINELY causes me pain, and like i get it, the fandom beefs go crazyyyy and i blame both d&d and the shitty way we teach literature analysis in high school for it getting as bad as it has. one of my xwitter moots got into asoiaf thru hotd bc she saw ���lesbian undertones & dragons” and got curious & she said the other day never has she been in a fandom as genuinely evil, she was NOT prepared & i would say that’s just xwitter but we’ve ALL seen crazy behavior on every platform & also i can fully acknowledge that i, like many others, have gotten pettier & more quickly annoyed over the years ajsjdj. but my GOD i really do choose the toughest battles for no goddamn reason 😭🤧.

it’s pretty much like a two way split in fandom the way i see it, and i’m speaking in just the most broad, wankified strokes imaginable but -

targnation aka tb/dany(/arya) people who will genuinely honest to god argue that nettles is valyrian & daemon’s daughter bc only valyrians can ride dragons & really disingenuously misunderstand every point you make about how few good options a lot of the people on tg had.

the starkcels, infamous for being staunch jonsa shippers and/or sansa qitn truthers/stans, & they are all hardcore tg-but-usually-specifically-alicent stans. these people never stop BITCHING and NITPICKING, with the worst of it very much directed at being disingenuous about rhaenyra & baela’s motivations, in a very *dakota johnson voice* ellen you know that’s not true, sort of way.

(there’s other radioactive flavors, we don’t need to get into the aegon ii/king jon-or-stannis types on reddit, for instance).

and the problem here is that i call that second group my home bc it is a break off from the Main Branch which is very hostile to jonsa & associated theories, and therefore a lot of the most intensely starkcel people (such as me 😁) congregate there

(which, bizarrely to me, the Main Branch consists of largely tg/dany stans IF they watch the show seriously, if they don’t watch the show well that’s just main branch & it takes a second longer rant to explain that one but all of these groups are very hostile to starkcels & tbf starkcels are incredibly hostile to them aksjd). i Do believe i get the worst of both worlds as i try to exist in multiple subfandoms, altho i’m sure people at other intersections in fandom will disagree (they’re wrong i have it worse).

and this is a fandom just WILDLY HOSTILE to comparisons. u even think the words “sansa & ned are a little similar” and u get tomatoes thrown at you and that’s just her FATHER. i saw a minor meltdown on two different websites bc someone called margaery “the little queen” when “well that’s DAENAERA’S TITLE” brother no character owns a phrase or archetypes, and george’s style is basically just writing the same 12 archetypes that he really enjoys and doing them slightly to the left each time and as someone who loves doing that (there’s so many things to say!!! so many ways it can go if you just tweak one thing!!!!!) this series is crack to me, but if u dare compare two characters that have a different group of stans, even if those characters dead ass have the exact same life on paper, they try to execute you in the town square. so we just ignore the sansa-rhaenyra and rhaenyra-catelyn parallelism even tho it’s very obvious to me, bc it is apparently an insult to george himself to compare two characters he wrote 🤧

anyways sansa-rhaenyra stans of the world unite, there are dozens of us. dozens i tell you!!!!

[greenerteacups]

also just read your favorite weasley post and !! love that Ron is your favorite he gets so much bashing in dramione works im like grrggr he’s not so horrible omg! he has his shortcomings but if you’re literally diving deep into draco as a character who in canon is overtly an ass then why are we destroying Ron’s character to justify the dramione relationship TT poor story building imo, but to each their own!

love your work, excited for what’s to come!!

I think Ron would've had better reception in the D/H fandom if — I mean, for one, if he wasn't a major obstacle to their ship going canon, which is like, not his fault, but also means he's never gonna be the most popular dude on the block — but also if the later books hadn't done him a bit dirty. Without even getting into how their characters change, Hermione becomes a lot more likable in later books when her enduring flaws of bossiness, paranoia, and know-it-all-ing become incredibly useful and appropriate in a literal war. Ron, in contrast, starts as an almost idealized "hero's best friend" archetype, friendly and witty and loyal, and then gets his flaws uncovered slowly. Whereas Hermione wears her faults on her sleeve from day one, Ron's self-esteem issues and empathy problems emerge realistically over time as the plot brings them to the fore. But because JKR doesn't conclude emotional arcs, he doesn't get an actual moment to overcome those flaws and triumph, restoring audience faith and making himself more likable by having overcome struggle.

Draco canonically exists to be a bully and antagonist. The stories are not terribly interested in him beyond that role. But there's something honest about that, since the reader never feels like the text expects you to like him. Draco is awful and owns it. He's narcissistic, cruel, and mean from the first interaction, so he has nowhere to go but up. If you like him, you like him because (probably) you're interested in where he could go in the future or in alternate universes, and how he could overcome his faults (making him extremely likable, because we love characters who struggle and win). He's not a three-dimensional character so much as he is the possibility of a three-dimensional character, and all that potential is really easy to like. Meanwhile, Ron is a three-dimensional character, full-stop. He fucks up sometimes, but in general, the text wants you to like him — problem being, the text doesn't always know how to make that happen, and sometimes it fails. Which can be doubly annoying, because then you feel like you're watching a character getting rewarded for bad behavior.

Now, me? I'm a consistent bitch. Blond or ginger, I'm equal-opportunity: give me a witty asshole with empathy problems and a fanatical devotion to the people they love, I'm locked in. I like Ron and Draco for a lot of the same reasons. I think they're very similar in a lot of ways that get overlooked. And if you ship Draco/Hermione, that should be great news, because you might suppose Hermione has a type.

[dmbakura]

Would you say AA has this sense of thinking he /needs/ to be like Cazador, because that's "what works" and what's "safe"? Like this is who he has to be, and nothing else is viable? That's how I interpreted AA's masking (especially during his sex scene, it seems very insincere and more like what he thinks he needs to be than what he wants) and I can't really make it work with Neil's statements honestly.

I also think he's very much capable of cruelty but the way AA acts is something else entirely to me because it's so goofily a Stereotypical Cartoon Villain Big Bad Sexy Vampire which doesn't really come across as honest in the way, let's say, Gortash's antics seem honest from what we know of the character. Maybe I'm misinterpreting what masking means, idk. I'm definitely not saying it's not honest that he wants to do all that power-hungry shit and that he's secretly a pure tortured soul because that's a lame ass reading that contradicts canon but everything about how he carries himself is so uncanny and all those underlying themes of being really fucking afraid and unable to face what happened/running away from it don't lead me to believe he's living an authentic life, more like he's trapped inside himself.

I don't really see how this contradicts anything Neil said. He never says AA is Astarion's most authentic self at all, or even that he's healthy and confident, only that he stops masking with theatrical deflections.

You also have to account for the supernatural element here too. In dnd lore, most true vampires basically succumb to personality rot and become paranoid and obsessive scheming freaks. I know the 'vampire ascendant' is a new thing and bg3 plays with the lore a bit more but considering this is alluded to by Astarion AND Cazador and heavily reflected in AAs behavior, I'm willing to believe that the vampire ascendant is literally just that but on steroids. Hence the cartoonish behavior lol

Astarion's a complex character. A lot of his arc is a question about how trauma can shape a person and what remains (if anything) after they've gone through something inconceivable, and if they can move past it and reclaim an identity for themself. I don't think it's a coincidence that his background is mostly vague and we don't actually know the kind of person he was before he was turned (unlike *those* fans, I also don't believe 'corrupt magistrate' means he was 'always destined to be evil' or some nonsense like that.) So much of his character is informed by the choices made in the game and how the experiences shape his worldview. He's by far the most dynamic character in the game and people want there to be a simple answer to his character (whether that be 'he's a poor uwu baby who did nothing wrong' or 'he's always been irredeemably evil and is incapable of change') when the reality is there just isn't one.

All this to say, same as what I've been saying from the beginning, both endings for him serve a purpose. They're two sides of the same coin for his character. They are both true to Astarion and his development and they're meant to contrast in ways that make you think deeper about him and his story. They absolutely cannot be taken in a vacuum and I am just so annoyed with people not engaging with the story on this level and wanting there to be simple moral platitudes to everything because they're uncomfortable with complexity.

[depmode]

why my OC sucks

tagged by @amellderiva and this one was interesting lol. tbh the hardest part was trying to come up with words to use and in the end i flopped.

i tag @confines @josiesruffles @ttacc @spoilerknowsbest no pressure etc etc.

Why does your OC suck? Is it something they get wrong? An impulse they can’t control? Perhaps they’re adept at a socially-unacceptable skill?

Sasha Ingellvar

Overbearing

Sasha is the friend you can trust to straight up tell you (kindly) when you smell or you look like ass. He'll listen to you cry for the 56th time about the same thing. Murder is on the table if you need it. He is honest, non judgmental, and ready to help. Sometimes really ready. Like, he's going to give you advice but actually it's more like directions and you should listen to what he says because he's looking out for you ready. Not always! But sometimes.

He isn't super arrogant about it, which probably makes it even more annoying. He will never say I know best or I'm right, you're wrong or act sanctimonious. It's all very earnest. And pushy. Also you will be occasionally told things about yourself that (he thinks) maybe you don't see, or that you don't want to face. This too is extra annoying because he's pretty good at it. But nobody wants to hear about their deep seeded need for control that manifests through the bursts of anger they are prone to, or whatever. Damn. Thankfully he's decent at pulling himself back or you can tell him he's doing too much. Unless he thinks whatever is going on with your shit is truly dire. Or you are named Solas. He is going to beat you over the head with your issues until you fix them, fuckwit.

Temper, temper

This is going to seem contradictory in about a minute when you get to the last trait, but. Trust me. Yeah, Sasha is known for his chill and will let a lot slide, like being betrayed 6 billion times. If he is needled in just the right way however and that cool does go completely- somebody is probably getting swung on. Headbutted. Losing teeth. Breaking a bone. Possibly taunted with the most off the wall threats because he knows how to be gruesome. Sasha can get capital m, frothing at the mouth Mad. It is thankfully a rare occurrence but when it does happen it's no good.

He is willing to be the one to give up/stop (usually) and will pull his punches, literally; he's not going to go full tilt on Some Guy. Probably. So he might be knocking you in the face, but take some comfort in the fact that it could have been worse! Silver linings. Kinda. He's still going to do it though. He knows A Lot about the human body and will use it against you in painful ways.

Overly tolerant + Repressive

I tried to think of a way to combine these into one concept, then tried writing them separate, but they are both such intertwining traits that you can't divorce one from the other. It's the secret to how Sasha maintains his sanity the will to live that easy breezy attitude.

Sasha has near endless patience, is very understanding, and is often tolerant of people/behavior far past a point most would allow. It helps make him good at his job, a good leader, and a good friend. He does genuinely care and has a big heart/a soft spot for off putting weirdos. It also makes him a disaster because he takes it too far. One man's trauma is another man's Tuesday, and that other man? Sasha.

This attitude is possible in part because Sasha represses and reframes like a pro. When kids made fun of him growing up he would take it in stride and sometimes laugh along; not everyone in the MW was parenting material, but Sasha's not bothered by any of that, then or now; dragged into another screaming match argument with your partner? It's funny the next day because how could you act like that over something so trivial? Water off a duck's back, baby.

Pretend long enough and eventually, the lie becomes the truth; you aren't bothered.

I'm gonna be real, Sasha has been doing this all his life and it is such an ingrained aspect that there will be times he literally does not understand someone suggesting that he should be angry/upset about something. Straight up confusion. He'll hear you out, but you probably aren't getting anywhere. Enjoy the frustration.

When does "psychologically awful coping mechanism" simply become "personality"? Is it repression at that point or a way of thinking that is just absolutely unhinged to everyone else? Who could say. But maybe the dumpster level self worth and a willingness to be the one to throw themselves on the grenade every time means something. But maybe not 🤷‍♀️

[omkdear]

So, tldr, in the last decade I've been stalked and doxxed twice. Once made me leave tumblr in 2017 originally, and the other started in 2020 with the pandemic--my mother in law, no less. During the first instance of stalking and harassment, it was my ex-best friends wife. After yesterday--today I learn that another really good friend of mine has been doxxed and threatened by her ex-boyfriend. I worked with her, and the ex at the same non-profit, and this non-profit broke the law, and refused to accommodate me when my mother in law was actively threatening me and my family with violence. I don't disclose these things to generate sympathy, I'm just stating facts. I've been through a lot in my almost 35 years and... Suffice to say, I'm really fucking tired y'all. The level of entitlement it takes for people to stalk, doxx, or weaponize personal access like that... it's beyond comprehension sometimes. It’s like some folks see boundaries as a challenge, not a basic human need. Like they get off on constantly pushing and then turn around and play victim when you finally push back. Some people cannot handle being disliked. They can't stomach the idea that someone might think they're annoying or abrasive or wrong without it being a moral indictment. So instead of sitting with that discomfort and maybe growing from it, they go full-on crusader mode. Suddenly it's not “we had a falling out” or “we aren’t aligned,” it’s “you’re a bad person, and I’m going to make sure everyone knows it.” It’s not a crime to be annoying! It’s human. We all have sharp edges. We all clash with people. That’s life. What actually matters is whether we’re self-aware enough to own what we do, when it’s real, and move on. Not every conflict is abuse. Not every vibe mismatch is betrayal. And I've been radically honest about my flaws in ways most people can’t even look at in the mirror. The real kicker? People like that don’t want accountability. They want control. They want an apology on their terms, for something they invented, and they want to feel powerful because someone made them feel small.

But I'm not obligated to do emotional labor for someone weaponizing their fragility. I'm not their therapist, not their punching bag, and definitely not a scapegoat for their spirals. It's a zero sum game it feels like. People complain about being lonely, but can't be honest with one another. And God forbid you expect them to learn, when it is a very clear pattern of behavior. And the worst part is, you never come away unscathed. People make judgements about you, you lose people you thought were your friends. Let them go. If folks want to think I'm a cunt, and unwell, fine. It's disappointing, but not surprising in the least. I may not be able to respond to someone *immediately* but I am always available to talk and hash shit out. It just makes me really fucking sad. This is why people don't talk about genuine abuse because trivial shit gets blown up. We live in such a dysregulated, reactive ass society and I am just exhausted beyond belief.

[mikey-2003]

Dr eggman analysis from the first 4 classic games:

Okay so I basically just decided to finally play sonic origins story mode (and knuckles's story later), and reading the original Manuels, I'm just gonna make an analysis of his character from the first 4 classic games.

SONIC THE HEDGEHOG (1991)

First things first: dr eggman's always Sonic's enemy before the first sonic game. But a few things I noticed:

#1, despite being motivated to take over the world, he is always focus on sonic the hedgehog, as he sees himself as the nemesis of sonic. This definitely ties into his egotistical and narcissistic behavior, as he sees himself as so much more, while sonic doesn't as he always beats him. Eggman finally makes himself more threatening by using animals inside the robots to beat sonic once and for all.

#2, once he heard about the chaos emeralds, he never cares about destroying the environment around him. If he wants to get what he wants, he will do anything in his power to obtain the chaos emeralds.

#3, sonic 1 is the first time eggman uses robots that have animals inside robots. In sonic 1's Manuel, it is stated that he did this to turn the island's wild life against sonic himself. This is where he is confident that this plan still works, as in later games up until even now, he still uses animals as batteries for his robots.

#4, eggman's line "Sonic... that annoying, cheeky hedgehog. He's the one who's always ruining my great plans. This time, I'm going to crush him with the power of my science! Heheheh..." is the very first example of dr eggman's self love. And not the kind of self love where you think he wants everyone to love him cuz of the fact that you're not good enough, NO, eggman's self love is genuine and he has alot of it here. Eggman's confidence is always genuine when he wants to beat sonic, as he always states that his plans are great, and he will crush him with the power of HIS science. He is truly confident that he will beat sonic every time, and let's be honest even in later games, he came so close to doing so. The confidence is so genuine, it actually makes me love him.

SONIC ORIGINS cutscene.

One thing I noticed that I MIGHT misinterpret on this cutscene of the first game, is that eggman is gesturing sonic to go after him. He is SO confident in his plan, that he will deliberately let sonic go after him cuz he thinks he can actually beat sonic this time around. (At least... I think?? Idk, these cutscenes don't have much dialogue, so I'm probably interpreting it wrong. But to be fair, it wouldn't be out of character either.)

SONIC THE HEDGEHOG CD.

After his defeat in the first sonic game, eggman took notice of little planet.

After reading this, I noticed a one thing.

When eggman sees sonic, he just shrugs it off as convenient and just shoots him. Eggman definitely still has that confidence that he can beat sonic from the 1st games as he had a fearless smile. This time, he plans to use the time stones to take over the world. This guy's confidence is SO great, it genuinely makes me love him.

Fun fact: the CD manuel story is a retelling of the game's opening cutscene.

Metal sonic is stated to have the same level of abilities as sonic and can go faster. Eggman shows that he puts alot of research into what he is building overall, as this does not look like a half-assed robot. However even despite this, metal sonic still loses. And what is eggman's reaction to this? He just leaves him behind. If someone fails to do his work, he doesn't care about said creation anymore until it is convenient to use them again. Talk about selfish.

In the bad ending of sonic CD, after eggman loses, he just laughs it off, as he knows he will come back to just dominant the world again using the time stones. While this ending isn't canon, as the good ending is canon according to sonic origins final cutscene, I'll say that this does still tie-in with his extra confidence he has about himself conquering the world.

SONIC THE HEDGEHOG 2.

After sonic CD, eggman chases after sonic when he flew the tornado to west side island.

Yeah, eggman's grudge against sonic is so great, that instead of simply ruling the world in his own right, he just chases after sonic the hedgehog. But there is one reason he does this..

He always goes after sonic because he acknowledges that sonic is the one that'll ALWAYS beat him no matter what. He knows that sonic will always get in his way. And you can tell he means business, as he starts destroying the environment, creating explosions to the island itself. Skipping to wing fortress, we gotta talk about this.

In wing fortress zone, he shot down tails' plane at first site. This is so sonic cannot get to eggman so easily. Despite sonic getting in the zone and chasing after eggman.

In the end of the zone, eggman uses a laser to shoot sonic. This is kinda a lame (but fucking hard, jesus) boss fight, but at the end... instead of eggman making an Expression of fear or anger, he is still laughing as he leaves.

He knows sonic cannot chase him, he knows sonic is stuck as he has no way of getting to him. This is the TRUE reason he shot tails' plane, so he cannot get into the death egg. BUT, one thing eggman underestimated tails', as he already rebuilds the plane to help sonic up.

Except no, because when sonic arrives, he has mecha sonic MK1 already here.

This is his 2nd metal sonic, but it is much more bulkier and the only major ability is his spindash. However, his spindash is sharper due to the sharp quills he has.

However sonic still beats him, but eggman has a backup plan.

The death egg's giant robot mech. I'd say in this instance, his confidence got too much in the way of this fight, as he is in an unstoppable mech suit and he knows he can beat sonic, he thinks it cannot work in Sonic's favor. However... sonic has beat him.

SONIC THE HEDGEHOG 3/SONIC & KNUCKLES/SONIC 3 & KNUCKLES (jesus christ..)

For the remainder of this, we'll only use the knuckles meeting eggman scene in origins, as his meeting in the Manuel seems to contradict his meeting in the origins cutscenes.

In the sonic origins opening cutscene, eggman is soon throwing a temper tantrum after exiting the death egg robot. He was THIS close to beating sonic with the awesome power of the death egg robot, however, after being defeated eggman is just pissed off and rightfully so.

Then... when he sees the master emerald, his confidence has grown for a bit, but than knuckles shows up and was almost about to beat him up. Eggman shows his acting skills to knuckles to take advantage of his naivety as he easily recognizes that he is the only native to angel island. He claims that sonic and tails are the ones going to steal the emeralds. This works and they're a team.

However, in spite of gaining knuckles' trust, he still does the usual converting animals to robots and turning the environment into his own favor. He uh... really loves doing this, it's basically a tuesday to him after doing this the first time in sonic 1.

Throughout the game, eggman's actions in this I'd say are more careful around sonic, while also taking more drastic changes. First of all, the act 1 boss fights. In the end of each 1st act, there's ALWAYS a boss fight, and the primary reason is because eggman needs to stop sonic from getting close to foiling his plans all the time and I'd say he learned his lesson about being extremely careless about sonic, as he is always planning ahead of each robot to face off against him.

In launch base, eggman finally manages to launch the death egg, but he is still stopped by sonic. Yet here..

Yeah, eggman laughs it off and leaves, because he knows the master emerald will have enough power to bring the death egg back up. (Note: this only exist in the sonic origins version of sonic 3, but I feel like it fits eggman's character.)

Later on, he finally betrays knuckles and steals the master emerald for himself. The reason he waited so long is because he is more focus on HOW he's going to steal it, as knuckles will know that he is not on his side at all. Of course, at the end, when knuckles was fully distracted by sonic, eggman finally takes action into stealing the emerald, and as a one last f*ck you to knuckles, just shocks him with electricity.

Eggman finally rises his death egg up and sends his egg robos (which I always felt like were the inspiration for the E 100 series robots later in the series) to sky sanctuary to take down sonic.

Fast forward, sonic destroys the death egg's shield to eggman, which causes eggman to have a slight freak out about the whole thing and runs away before turning the tables with his giant egg robo, with the power of the master emerald. However, in spite of this power, it gets destroyed, but eggman laughs it off and leaves before being jumped on by sonic alot.

In doomsday zone, he is not gonna give up on using the emerald. He simply runs away from sonic, because at this point, sonic is now In his hyper/super form and eggman is fully aware that it is invincible, so all he can do is fly away but not before sending lots of missiles at sonic to slow him down. Eggman gets defeated by sonic though.

https://youtu.be/or5oBytYqII?si=s1ZhCasVBqvOuSDK

In the ending cutscene of sonic origins, eggman is just floating in the water, visibly pissed off at his constant defeat with sonic at this point since sonic 2 and now. However a flicky shows up, and pops eggman's floating... thingy and that's the end of the sonic Quadrilogy. Despite eggman's confidence, he is simply just always losing to sonic because he seems to always underestimate his opponent. And this ending brings an irony to his ending, as in the beginning, he bends nature to his will, while in the end, nature beats him. Lol

HOWEVER, one thing I'll take note is that eggman's self love and narcissism is the driving force behind the character, and you can see that it is REAL, not a sorta coping mechanism because he "hasn't been loved in all his life", no, he genuinely loves himself and is VERY confident that even after all if his defeat at the hands of sonic the hedgehog, he always stays positive and comes up with a new plan to destroy THE HEDGEHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOG!!!!! (Yay, cringe sonic 2 reference.)

I love eggman's character, and I love how confident he is in the first 4 games, and how he always manages to stay in control of his plans in between games, never staying behind. And I love the narcissistic and egotistical characterization of him in the 1st game's manual, he is just... SO good. He is such an evil person, and I love him for it. He wants to rule the world because HE thinks HE deserves it, and sonic always gets in his way.

I'm making this cuz I don't see anyone do much of this guy (except egg emperor), and I'd figure I do this

Also, later game facts:

1: he is named dr ivo robotnik (E-VO is the pronunciation, not Long I-VO. Get this right people. XD), while eggman is a nickname. It is implied he coined nicknamed before sonic 1, as he still called that in the japan versions of sonic 1-sonic adventure 1.

2: he wants to build eggmanland as his perfect utopia, as stated by sonic adventure 1-onward.

3: he idolizes his grandfather gareld robotnik, who is the inspiration of his genius. Despite this tho, he isn't afraid to tarnish gareld's legacy, as he tried to claim shadow as his own during shadow 2005, so that he can take advantage of him.

4: eggman's the best, you know it.

Anyways that's it, bye.

[sesshy380]

For the gift thing, how about something casteshipping with eggnog for a prompt?

I was going to wait another week before posting any of my Holiday Prompts, but this one has been done for a few weeks now, so I'm throwing it out into the wild.

This ended up as an Office Party AU. Enjoy!

Atem sipped the hot cocoa in his hands, subtly listening to the conversations being carried on by the people around him and eyeing others as they celebrated the holiday festivities. He was glad to see that everyone was enjoying the party he’d set up for them.

Most of the people that attended these things worked in one of the offices or cubicles of the building, so seeing one of the janitorial staff was a bit surprising. Though, given who this particular janitor was…he shouldn’t have been.

He’d seen the white haired man a few times, and had even spoken to him on occasion. The man made it clear how he felt about the higher-ups, apparently not realizing Atem’s role in the company.

He had to admit, he liked how refreshing it was to have someone that was straightforward and honest with him, instead of kissing ass in an attempt to get into his good graces. He’d thought about revealing his position to the janitor a few times, but decided to wait until the right opportunity presented itself.

Right now, the man was getting a lot of annoyed glares. The fact that he kept walking up to everyone and slinging an arm around peoples shoulders like they were all close friends probably didn’t help.

Every group he approached treated him the same: Shrugging off the arm, rolling their eyes (sometimes with an arrogant scoff), and the group walking away to be somewhere else. He didn’t seem to be too put out though, as he’d just shrug and move onto the next group.

After massively failing to be included with any of the groups, the man finally made his way over to where Atem had been casually observing the room.

“What a snore-fest,” the man commented as he leaned on the wall and turned a scar-stitched eye towards him. “I always hear how wild these things can get. I have to say, I feel really let down.”

This prompted a smile and a small laugh out of Atem. “I suppose their boss being in the room keeps them on their best behavior.”

“Pffft, who cares,” the man said dismissively. “You can’t tell me he set out alcoholic eggnog with the expectations of his underlings being on their best behavior. No, this man wanted to see them loosen up.”

Atem glanced at the cup in the man’s hand. “I see you had no problem giving it a taste-test.”

The man took a large drink from the cup, making it obvious he enjoyed it.

“Best I’ve tasted. My guess is this shit is made from scratch with some top shelf booze. None of that cheap store-bought crap spiked with something just as cheap. Honestly…” He motioned towards everyone else in the room. “...those stuck-up assholes don’t know what they’re missing out on.”

Atem peaked a curious brow. “It’s that good?”

“Fuck yeah,” the man said casually. “Here, you should try some,” he said while holding the cup out towards Atem.

Atem took the cup from him, then gave him a sly glance. “Before I go drinking out of the same cup as you, can I get a name? You seem to have a bad habit of keeping your badge hidden when working.”

The man chuckled. “That’s because it keeps getting caught on everything when I’m cleaning up after these slobs…not that they care to know the name of the person that has to plunge the toilets after them. Seriously, that guy over there, he should lay off on Mexican food. I’m this close to calling a bomb squad each time I see him walk into the mens room.”

Atem couldn’t help but laugh loudly at that remark, and the man joined him, earning them quite a few stares.

“The name’s Bakhure,” the man stated once both he and Atem had subsided from their laughter.

“Well, Bakhure,” Atem said while raising the glass in his hand. “It’s nice to know that you enjoy my personal recipe.” He took a swallow and handed it back to Bakhure, who seemed to be suddenly piecing things together.

“Oh shit…you’re the boss…like…the Big Boss…”

“Hmm, I don’t know if I like ‘Big Boss’,” Atem said while pretending to think. “I think ‘Corporate Asshole who doesn’t have a clue what it’s like having to come to work sick because they can’t afford the day off’ was much more creative. Sadly, no one has been able to tell me if the ‘lowly peons’ like being able to accrue paid sick leave regardless if they are part or full time.”

Atem waited to see Bakhure’s reaction, feeling amused as it was obvious that more things were beginning to fall into place for the man.

“Okay…I gotta admit, that was a real breath of fresh air. We don’t spread whatever one of us has through the ranks now, because we can actually stay home and rest instead of coming in with a fever.”

He looked warily at Atem. “How come you never told me you were the one running things?”

Atem quietly laughed. “And ruin the opportunity to hear an honest review about myself and how I’m running things? Why would I have wanted to do that?”

“Okay, let me rephrase the question. Why tell me now?” Bakhure asked earnestly.

Atem sighed, keeping a pleasant smile on his face. “Because I’ve been curious for a while now as to whether you genuinely didn’t know, or if you just didn’t care who I was. I’ve also been curious if you’d be like everyone else and just start backpedaling and trying to kiss ass.”

Bakhure snorted. “I only kiss ass in the bedroom…and occasionally bite.”

Atem gave him a curious glance. “How much eggnog have you had?”

Bakhure grinned. “Not nearly enough.”

“So…does that mean…?” Atem asked, giving Bakhura a knowing look.

“Depends. Will sleeping with the boss get me a raise?”

Atem laughed again. “I was planning on giving you one anyways…but it would mean having to take on a new position.”

Bakhure gave him a playful look. “I like new positions.”

“I meant within the company,” Atem clarified, trying to keep his face from betraying his other thoughts to the rest of the room.

Bakhure’s playful look turned to disappointment. “Oh…”

“Though,” Atem began, his voice low and seductive, hoping no one would overhear what he said next. “If you wanted, we could go up to my office and ‘discuss’ the new position in more detail. Maybe grab some more eggnog on our way out? I’m certain you are more than qualified for multiple ‘positions’.”

Bakhure raised his cup in a toast to the air before downing the rest, licking his lips after.

“I assure you, I am very qualified…and I won’t leave you disappointed.”

Atem gestured for Bakhure to take his leave first, both stopping by the bowl of eggnog before heading towards the room’s exit.

[mangoposts]

Hi hi! I really don't mean to bring this out for any longer but I feel like this is a safe place to talk about my feelings on it?

I didn't watch the podcast but I saw a bunch of clips on Tiktok and knew I didn't want to watch this one, but I assumed I was just overreacting or being too sensitive (which is very likely- I'm a sensitive bitch lol) but then I get on Tumblr and see that people are mad/upset at Nick and Chris (for good reason)

and honestly I'm so relieved that most of you feel the same and it's not just a bunch of "yOu kNoW tHeY'rE sIbLiNgS rIgHt?" or people making the "Matt has anxiety 😞 they're so mean" type of jokes that were never fuckin funny to me tbh. (I hope you know what I mean-)

they need to fucking cool it with interrupting Matt and then saying stupid ass comments like they did today... It's honestly so old and if they think it's funny- it's not! it's just annoying.

Anyways I love you!! And I hope you're doing okay <33<33

I'm also sorry for the rant!! it's just kind of rare when the fandom reacts like this y'know? It makes me not feel alone in my feelings about their arguments.

Yeah honestly, i know a lot of people feel this way often when it comes to the Nick/Chris against matt situation and a lot of people don’t get to express how they feel for Matt without others thinking they’re too emotional or that it’s not a big deal. I want my account to be real regardless of what people think, and today just proves that. I don’t care if it seems dramatic to people. It’s genuinely upsetting seeing them team up on their own brother so often and shoot him down. I want people to know it’s OKAY to be upset with Nick and Chris because their behavior shouldn’t be normalized. Yes, they’re siblings. Yes, they’ve been through a lot and they understand one another. That’s no excuse to be mean and discourage him when he tries to speak. I want everyone on my page to feel comfortable talking about this because it’s not dramatic

I love you too and im glad you feel comfortable enough to be honest here

[mitsukiwa]

Baby, love me cause I'm playing on the radio.

Previous I part 5 I *My wattpad user is 6arelyhuman_ if u want the outfits visuals u should read it there*

WARNING!!! There will include: angst, fluff, smut, love triangle

Summary: You love bill and there’s no doubt in your heart, unbeknownst to you he feels the same way. You both have to overcome challenging events that leads the both of you to grow apart, what happens when his twin brother feels for you? Will you be able to crush his heart? What will you do to prevent hurting them both?

On the way there the boys were all conversing except for bill, who was glued to his phone; he wasn't necessarily using it but checking it every ten seconds. Which if I was being honest did annoy me.

When I did try and include him in the conversation, he only hummed while still looking at the phone.

"Who's the lucky girl?", "Or guy?" George hastily adds.

Tom was driving, Gustav was in the passenger seat and as for me and George we were in the backseat with Bill.

Bill turns the phone away from George, bills cheeks flush red.

"No one"

Yup, there's that high pitched tone in his voice he does when he's lying. Bill was always bad at lying.

"Clearly their something if they have you checking your phone every five minutes" George retorts.

Bill let's out a puff of air finally relenting.

"Fine, yeah, she's a girl I bumped into at the store, and we exchanged numbers" he saids scratching the back of his neck nervously.

Every second that went by along with every word that left his lips, felt like a sharp knife stabbing deeper and deeper into my heart. I feel heat behind my eyes, I look out the window to avoid them from seeing me.

I blink my tears away. I didn't want the mascara to smudge, I wipe beneath my eyes Incase any black smudged.

I disassociated myself.

George shook me back when we got to the club, saying 'we're here'.

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The line to enter was fairly long, there would also be times when fans recognized us and stopped for a picture.

Tom wasted no time in chatting with some bimbo in the line.

Gustav and I were talking about Hamburg. George was beside bill, talking about the girl bill was talking too.

I heard bill behind me say "I invited her, she said she'll be here in 15"

I stopped mid sentence, Gustav asked if I was okay.

"Are you okay?" He had a worried expression.

"Mhm" I lie, not giving a verbal response.

"You sure?" He had a skeptical look.

"Yeah, I'm fine really" I try and assure him. He stares at me for a few seconds long before finally leaving it when I flash him a smile.

The line had now moved up, we were now next, each of us showed our IDs, before everything the bouncer gave us a nod waving his hand dismissively. We weren't the required age but since his daughter was a fan of the band he's given us that privilege.

He nodded firmly for us to enter, the five of us stalk in.

We open a metal door revealing a bar and blasting music with neon lights.

"Let's get drinks!" Bill yelled over the loud music.

The five of us walk up to the bar. We sit on some vacant stools.

"I'm gonna get shit faced" George saids.

You weren't going to judge him for that, he had recently broken up with his girlfriend of three years, she had said she couldn't do the long distance with him being away on tour for months.

He really did love her so you did infact understand his heartbreak.

"Don't get too drunk last time you woke up at some random ass place you didn't know" I say.

"Yeah, take her word for it" Tom agreed with me.

"at least I don't wake up with two random girls I don't even fucken know in my bed" George saids.

"At least I know how to keep a girl satisfied" Tom retorts his signature smirk making itself known on his face.

It started getting more heated up, when Tom mentioned Georges Ex, Cassie.

George had stood up with fisted hands, Tom did too.

Bill and I had to push them away from each other.

I was angry at both of them for their childish behavior. Gustav calmed down George whilst I had to calm Tom.

I knew Tom would still be upset; he had a tendency of holding grudges.

"Guys let's not cause a scene" I say looking around to find a few people staring at us. The bartender looks at us warily. I knew she had been close to call the security, I wave my hand dismissively at her.

"Everythings fine"

She nods, returning back to making drinks.

"George was the one who started it" Tom points an accusing finger at George. I roll my eyes at him.

"No I fucken didn't"

"Guys come on, let's not fight over something as dumb as this" Gustav saids.

Gustav was kind of the mediator in our group. Bill was also sometimes, but if it involved him, he was always right. He was just petty like that.

"Ima go dance" Tom said, walking away from the bar, and to the dance floor.

" I need a drink" I say, letting out a sigh.

"Me too" Gustav saids.

"Me three" bill also adds

"I'll also have one" George buts in.

I motion for the bartender to come over, "hello, what can I do for you guys" she asks with a smile, if I said she was beautiful that would an understatement, she was gorgeous.

Light blue eyes that seemed to shine under the neon lights of the club.

Dirty blonde hair that sat just beneath her shoulder.

"I'll have a tequila" bill orders.

"I'll have one of those too" I say

Gustav and George ordered a beer. The bartender whisked away to prepare the drinks.

In the corner of my eye I see bill pulling out his phone. He lets out a gasp that has the G's and I heads turning to look at bill.

"She's here" he whisper yells.

I was curious and sad to see how she looked. It already hurt a hell lot that he was talking to some one he may potentially start dating.

Suddenly the seat I was sat on felt uncomfortable, I couldn't help but fidget with my hands.

I didn't know what happened next but bill got up and made his way out the bar.

"Where'd he go?" I ask Gustav.

"He went to meet her upfront"

'oh' I say. Oh was nothing compared to what I really wanted to say. I wanted to cry, or yell. I felt frustrated at myself, and mad at bill.

Even though it wasn't exactly his fault.

The bartender slides the alcohol to us, without second thought I down the liquid. And another, along with a few more that accompanied those.

"Woah, your gunna make them run out of supplies, tone it down a little" Gustav saids.

I roll my eyes at him. "Gosh, gustavi your no fun" I whine out.

He chuckles at me, I pout at him.

"Stop being mean" I slurred.

Yes, I was drunk. It takes me about four drinks tops to get drunk.

"I'm not mean I'm nice" he answered with a playful tone.

I wave my hand dismissively. "Not even"

I was about to raise my hand once again to ask for more drinks but mid way Gustav pulled my hand down.

"No more" he states firmly. More like demands.

"Fine, no more" I emphasized 'NO'.

He smiled at my comprehension.

" Guys, do you think that bartender would give me her number if I asked?" George asked.

With all due respect it seemed she wasn't interested in George but in Tom, but don't tell him it'll crush him and his heart of gold.

"Sure man, go ahead" Gustav saids shrugging his shoulders.

I wasn't going to comment on anything, so I just nod my head at Gustav's words.

The bartender comes back with two Bacardi's, not a third one sadly.

They count down to down their shots, "you guys are such a buzz kill"

"We're only looking out for you, mini bill"

I roll my eyes at the nickname. They always called me that when we all met back in middle school. Apparently I'm sassy like bill, which I wholeheartedly doubt.

I blow a strand of hair from my face, over and over to pass time.

I look back at the dance floor.

" Guys I'ma go dance" I was letting them know just Incase.

The song playing

They nodded at me, with that I got up and made my way to the dance floor. I managed to find a not so crowded area on the dance floor and began to dance, I started off by swaying my hips, my fingers running up and down the length of my body.

My eyes closed while I danced to the song that had just came up.

I began to feel lonely so I look around for someone to dance with.

Though I really didn't have to look long, a male came up to me, and said over the loud blasting music.

"wanna dance, sweetheart?" I nod my head.

I press my body on his, I feel his hands grip either side of my hips, I don't mind though. There was so much going on this just couldn't add up. Maybe I'll have him for a night. Who knows? I mean he's not quite bad looking either...

He closes any space between us, leaving us both pressed together if that's even possible.

We were both dancing for a few minutes, when I feel his lips latch onto the side of my neck, leaving open mouthed kisses, I move my head more to the side to give him access.

He starts sucking on the sensitive skin there. I know it'll bruise, though I don't mind.

His hands slide down lower and grope my ass.

I'm about to tell him something about it, when I feel his body being roughly pushed off me.

The guy yelled out 'what the fuck, man!"

I flicker my eyes to him on the ground then over to the man standing before him, Tom was fuming, both of his hands fisted in a tight clench.

"Don't fucking touch her" he grits out at the man on the ground.

The man on the floor raised his hands up in surrender. "She wanted it man, I was giving her what she wanted".

I roll my eyes at him. Wow, such a wuss

Tom turned to you with an angry expression.

"What the fuck? You were gunna asleep with this piece of shit?!" Tom yelled at me.

I shrugged. "I don't know, I was considering it, but, uh, on second thought I think I'll pass"

Tom's face got even more angrier, if that's even possible.

I'm sure that vein on his forehead would pop any second now.

He roughly grabs your forearm, dragging you out of the dance floor.

I would have been scared if someone else were doing this to me but then again it's Tom.

"Ouch, that hurts Tom"

He stayed dead silent, his hold seemed to tighten around my arm.

Yeah, okay so now I was scared.

I began to struggle out of his hold on me.

"Let go of me, you're acting like a prick"!

My complaints went ignored. I couldn't even see his face, just the back of his head.

I looked around anxiously, occasionally stumbling on my heels.

My arm went limp when I saw Bill and some girl at the bar area. She was giggling, and Bill had on a huge smile. I scowl at them. And with the alcohol In my system I was by far worse.

I turn back to Tom. He's still dragging me.

"Tom, take me home, please" Tears were threatening to fall out from my eyes.

He halts his steps before turning around and looking down at me.

His mouth slightly dropped when he saw my red rimmed eyes and puffy nose.

"I don't wanna be here anymore" I let out weakly.

He looked around, his eyes landed on what I also had seen.

He lets out a quiet 'oh' He swiftly picks me up bridle style, I yelp out.

"Those heels look uncomfortable, plus you hate heels" was his excuse.

"Yeah, I hate heels" I admite.

I lay my head on his chest. I close my eyes, but with every step he took my body would shake in his arms.

When we got outside, he walked to the parking lot over to his car.

He opened the passenger door, and sat me down.

"He looks happy" I say out loud.

Tom freezes, glancing at me. He was in the midst of putting on my seatbelt.

"I mean, if you think so" he shrugged. " He seems bored if you ask me" he says.

"No, he doesn't" I slur.

He was just saying that to make me feel better.

"Whatever you say" He clicks on my seatbelt.

Silence

"The other you is so much better" I sigh out.

Tom squints at me. He raises an eyebrow confused.

I continue, "you know, when he got rejected on that audition, I wanted to beat up those judges"

Tom couldn't help but laugh at you, you always made a fool of yourself when you were drunk.

"Yeah,me too"

My head perked up. "Really?" I ask.

"Yeah, I wanted to egg their cars and pop their tires, but looking back on that now I would have gone to jail."

I giggled at him. "You're so stupid Tom."

He chuckles at me.

"Sure, I am".

"Do you really think he likes her?" I ask weakly, voice above a whisper.

Tom looks at me then down at my lap. He looks at my eyes, then ruffles my hair. Flashing me a smile. An actual smile, not a smirk of his, or a slight smile but a genuine smile. It's contagious so I feel myself also smiling.

"Give that little head of yours a break, yeah?" He taps his index finger on my forehead. I scowl at him.

He pulls his upper body out of the car, closing the passenger door. He walks over to the other side, he opens the door of the driver's side. Stepping into the car. He sits himself down, clicking on his seatbelt.

Before he presses the on button on the car, he looks at me and saids, "I will show you I'm better than the other me"

I feel a pit in my stomach the second those words process in my head.

He looks ahead, driving out of the parking lot and to my apartment complex.

© Mitsukiwa 2023-Do not copy,post or translate my work anywhere.

[mythropigman]

I hope one day you learn kindness and a sense of empathy. You're a kid, but it's evident you refuse to learn from your mistakes - instead just flipping them around to seem like the other person's problem.

I don't think you can even pull the young card, because while everyone matures at a different pace you've been cut slack for that exact reason countless times.

This behavior will not get you far in life, but giving thought into how you make other people feel /will/.

The people who dislike you aren't trolls out on a witchhunt for you, they're people you've upset in someway. Instead of taking that information and seeing what you can do to improve yourself, you run away to a new account where you do not leave these people alone. You're doing the thing they do not want you to do, of course they will dislike you. Hell I'd say you're doing what you don't want /them/ to do to you, and doesn't that give some perspective?

Yeah I've made mistakes, I can be very rude and mean at times with or without knowing it. All honesty mate yeah I hurt those artists in some way, but just to be clear I move accounts to accounts cause of this shat and the fact people won't leave me alone about this when ik what I did, most people still rub this in my face like Doo Doo crap both from the past and now when I know what I did was wrong and in all honesty whenever people do that ik what their saying is true, but sometimes I feel like your just trying to make me feel bad then I already am. (like c'mon ik what I'm doing ik what I'm saying don't repeat me) and we still going on with this. If you don't want me to follow you again do or say the magic word and I won't? And right now on this account, I don't think I've bothered anyone right now, but if I am cause I dead ass literally just liked their post and gave them a compliment and that annoys them cause I said it all they need to do is just simply press the block/mute part. And who knows maybe your right maybe I am running away from my mistakes but I do see them and how they felt towards people, and I fuc- fricken am working on that, people will remember the things I've done but you've also gotta remember that was a long time ago both in my younger years and probably months/weeks ago or last year, idc if you get mad at this part it's just facts and that deed is over so stop bringing it up when that happened centuries ago.

Yeah I do see my mistakes and how they effect people, I see how people still react when I comment on their art posts even if it's a nice comment, even if it's a question I politely ask only for it to not be answered cause the question came from me because of what I've done to them/others, but honestly it's ridiculous, yeah I've been rude to you once or twice with or without knowing it, I have been brutally honest to you about your art cause I'm not the type to lie, and yeah Ik how rude I can get when I'm angry with people. (If your an og follower of mine you would know how I react when people think I'm being rude even though most times I'm just being very honest or I said something they didn't get) and what still gets me is the fact most of those artists (I've said this so many times) have came up with assumptions and think I'm weirdo and not talk to me because of that when they never knew the full picture (don't you dare do that when you know nothing of the sort. Ever, to anyone of the sort. Especially me, cause I won't take to kindly about it. Your an adult, a legit young adult, you can be mature enough to hear people out before making the story in your own head. Doogie (translate to idiot)

Now listen. I can promise I can control the things I say on here and do, I can promise I won't use it in the dumbest slightest reasons, but I will also promise that I will use it if necessary or if you need to just hear the damn truth. And I'm dead set.

Sorry if you get upset at that part, but sometimes you just gotta hear what I have to say about you and your actions towards me (did). idc if you cry or get angry at me because of this **boohoo**. I will use this attitude towards you if I have a reason or cause you need to hear it. And i have a lot of reasons right now to use it on those types of artists.

But again. That happened a long time ago, and like I said many times. It is now in the past, yeah ik what I did, They were Rude, Offensive, Disrespectful, and Disappointing things to hear from me. (And in most cases I'm not even being rude to you, I'm just being the most brutal honest person you can meet, I will not lie to you I will tell you the truth that will get you effed off and I'm sorry if you can't handle my honest reactions or opinions) I am improving myself, and I'm not saying I'm going too far with my jokes because literally other people do the same and you don't tell them off but me😬 ik the jokes are offensive, but I obviously don't mean them, no one here gets them and that's fine, so I am trying and doing the best not to go overboard cause ik you guys won't take it as that like me or others like me.

I also like to mention like I said about the "run away to a new accounts" thing, I'm not pointing you out I'm saying this to others, but it's honestly a dog move of you to tell my guests (new followers) the past things I've done and said, I will tell them myself that when I get the chance when when they need to know, I don't remember giving anyone the right to tell my new followers/fans about this to tell them/show them that because that's my business to tell, not yours.

If you want to still talk to me about this stuff still. Don't send a ask, say it to me in DMS personally. If you wanna go on that path still. My guests will obviously have the right to know about this, but no one has my right to say it out loud for them only me cause it's my business to tell. (My guests if your still curious go look at my @8orisporkfolio and @bearlypigest to see what has been happening lately and if not I will explain soon eventually just don't come up with assumptions without hearing the full story just yet)

Look man. The things I've done and said are very not "out there" or "welcoming" things I've done, but it's honestly just something you need to just let go of now (i'm not using the excuse of me going "cause I'm still young" anymore cause I'm sorta mature enough to understand this now) you don't have to forget it, but it's better to maybe forgive me for it cause I've already apologized about it and I'm already working on not doing that stuff to you or others anymore, that's not a good excuse but that's that. I've already forgiven those that STILL Know nothing about the things they had assumptions about. They didn't ask for my forgiveness but forgiving people is more better then hating them for your whole life because they made one or a lot of mistakes. Like this one,at this point. I do want you to forgive me not because I want want you to but because it's better then just hating me for that long without knowing anything or even getting to know the real me first yk? I really am a kind person once you earn my trust or just spend more time with me and get to know me better I'm not originally a rude or mean person

Again. this is your choice, I think this is better, you do not have to talk to me but forgiving me is better then just hating for this when you don't fully know everything, but again. If you want to be this way that is fine with me I'm not angry or disappointed because of that cause that's your personality or whatever, I'm just saying this is a better way to deal with the situation rather then just reminding me of my mistakes over and over when I already know what I did was wrong and you just build up more guilt inside of me, this is your choice I'm not forcing anyone I just think this is better.

But again. Just stop with this. Ik what I'm doing, what I'm saying, and how it effects people. Do not keep bringing this up at random occasions those artists don't really know much about the full picture to they can't say much without knowing.

Hell if your ass keeps doing this just ask me and I'll tell you the full picture (bloody dm me next time to) is it that hard to FRICKEN ASK ME THE FULL STORY IM NOT GONNA FRICKEN BIT YOU THE FRICK BRO

But yeah this is the last time I'm apologizing, I'm sorry for what I did, I think forgiving me and just leaving this behind is better, but that's your choice if you want to have an excuse to hate me without knowing me or the story for your whole life, I'm not mad or forcing you to, I'm just saying it's a good idea rather then this, your choice. It's not worth if you think deep about it, and if you don't think of it and have this as an excuse to hate me still and not get to know me personally or the full story for the rest of your life as I'm still walking on this earth.

Your not cool buddy just drop it💘

[gwyns]

tbh with you after finishing acosf and the bonus chapter for the first time, all I knew was I didn't want Elain and Azriel to end up together. I wasn't remotely passionate about Gwynriel and Elucien but I definitely knew E/riel isn't going to happen.

Mainly bc through out the whole series even if 3.5 books of it was from Feyre's pov and first person I didn't felt any spark between them. between Nesta and Cassian? NO DOUBT I new they were mates. as casual reader you can feel they're mate material. but even that rescuing scene everyone keep talking about that it's the main reason they're going to end up together fell falt for me!! bc Lucien wasn't there and I'm sure if he was... no one could've stopped him.

like acosf was the last nail in their coffin! sjm could've made me believe that they're endgame specially when it's 3rd person but she didn't even try lmao. but still I was like well... she made me like Nesta! she made me fell in love with her and understand her in a way it felt personal. she made me fall in love with Nessian and Feysand so she can definitely write E/riel that I might change my mind about them... but I was unsure and I was trying to convince myself lol (the way I kept telling myself that it's gonna be okay lmao)

but then I read the bc and it was over... I was done! the way Azriel thought about Elain made me cringe multiple times. the way Elain felt so small in that scene made me uncomfortable and the way he questioned Cauldron as he has some claim on her? oh all I could see was red!!! so that's why I was sure E/riel won't happen and even if it does I was done with this series I'm not even kidding...

so yes this was my experience with the book! and I brought this up bc I saw one of the E/riels say that if they didn't join the fandom they would've known people shipped Az and Gwyn and their irl friends also didn't know that...

honey sorry to break it to you but you need to raise you standards. bc if you didn't notice how toxic that interaction was... I feel sorry for you</3

e/riel has always felt boring to me. like yeah they have some cute moments but where are the moments that make me grin, stop reading and squeal for a second because the chemistry is making me go insane? sjm knows how to write this very well so her not including it is a choice she made and it's a very telling choice

like even sjm ships i don't particularly care for have these moments, i'm not a huge manorian fan but that "i'll bleed whatever color you want me to" line is SO. GOOD. like it stops me in my tracks everytime i remember it exists. tell me, does e/riel have even one comparable line together? i can't think of any that aren't said by other characters. all the conversations they've shared (and that's not a lot btw) don't have anything with that kinda spark in it

that's something i don't see people bring up much... lucien wasn't present when elain was kidnapped. feyre wouldn't need to find a volunteer if he were there because you can bet your ass he'd do anything to help elain and feyre if we're being honest. the fact that az had to be goaded into even helping is hilarious, the only reason that man went was because nesta bruised his ego and he wanted to prove he was good enough to do it. that and, as i've seen others point out recently, it was somewhat of a culmination of feyre's arc with him. he taught her to fly therefore he was there when she first flew. that makes much more sense narratively than whatever garbage e/riels throw around

az has a lot to make up for in my opinion. his behavior in that chapter was... gross, to say the least. i was annoyed with him beforehand because of that side of the fandom, but his chapter was the first time i truly felt disappointed. it was there somewhat when he attacked eris at the high lord's meeting and made mor so uncomfortable but... idk his chapter was on another level. i felt so disgusting reading his parts with elain and rhys. his parts with gwyn tho? brought out the best in him and made me remember why i liked him so much in the first place. sjm wrote that chapter very deliberately and those who refuse to see it are just upset their predictions aren't happening

it's funny they say that when it's quite literally the opposite. my best friend who i've mentioned before is a very casual fan, didn't even see how elain and az could be shipped because in her words, "elain and lucien are mates". she's read a total of two and a half sjm books and already knows her formula lol