#;;musing: kariom (verse: the stars of your youth; one day they will grow louder)

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Velimir Khlebnikov, Collected Works, Vol. 3: Selected Poems, tr. by Paul Schmidt

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I bought some beautifull apples… so I made animation on it.

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((All signs point to Kariom being a lot like Serban in his youth. Was he a stern kid? Yes. Grumpy? Yes. But he also had fun and was mischievous. He made pinwheels, he wanted to fly kites, he drew and colored in one of Flynn's gardening books (he drew constellations ofc but no doubt other things too) he ate so many cattails by the lake he almost choked to death, he ran around and got into trouble, he tried to make friends, and so on.

It's important to remember that he was a kid and he wasn't always so obsessively driven by his duty---and I mean driven to the point of where he, as an adult, considers all of that stuff as stupid, inconsequential, etc, and prefers not to think on it, driven to the point of self degradation (whether he acknowledges it or not and let's face it; he doesn't), etc, etc---such a severe reaction has to have a cause. Something changed him, something shifted his focus and it was definitely something huge. I imagine it's in part due to whatever happened to the Solomonari and his involvement on top of a variety of other things that built up over time until he could hold nothing else.))

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((Growing up Kariom heard a lot of songs---tsourai songs, obviously---and has a habit of either singing or humming them to himself when he's really absorbed and enjoying what he's doing or whenever he thinks he's alone. Or feels alone. Obviously he knows songs from the Stream side of things as well but they aren't as good or melodic to him and his preference is clear.

From Bo he learned songs of stories, legends and fables; fanciful, magical, impractical, and so on, primarily because Bo is the storyteller of the group. Kariom will scoff a bit if you bring these up to him after a certain age---he has enough to worry about, his head is full of his duty thank you so much---but every once in a while, during quiet moments he'll recall a verse or two and draw connections, hum them to himself, etc. He often remembers a song about a prince and a song about birds.

From Flynn he learned songs of the harvest and of work; songs to make work pass easier, songs to grant rhythm and a reminder of purpose as constant as the sun, practical, rough, grounded, maybe a little bawdy if he's in a particular mood. These songs are special in a sense because Flynn doesn't particularly care for his own singing voice and you have to coerce him which is something Flynn and Kariom have in common. Kariom will never admit just how much he likes these songs and how they sounded coming from Flynn who has a charm all his own. Another person who got to hear these songs from Flynn was Milosh.

From the stars he found his own voice and Kariom does his best to emulate their songs; no matter how faint or wordless they might be. He likes being part of the chorus when deciphering and will sing and/or hum along when using the Theater but will be incredibly embarrassed if it's brought up. Sometimes the songs help him remember....sometimes.))

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Vega has a habit of stealing a particular hoodie of Kariom's and likes dragging the garment around, rolling around on it, and generally leaving other scent markers, to the point where Kariom stopped taking it back from her altogether.

The hoodie is usually placed in a variety of spots that the feline likes to nap in during the day to be used as a blanket of sorts and sometimes; like when Vega is feeling under the weather and wants to be held for an extended period of time, Kariom swaddles her up in it and carries her around the manor in order to further comfort her and generally make her happy.

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It's rarely uttered now save for if he's being overly fond or sentimental but Flynn had a small habit of calling Kariom a veglamb in his youth. This nickname comes from the fact that Kariom possesses a big appetite and the speed with which the lad hit a growth spurt and outgrew his caretaker.

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Kariom is a very tactile person and he has a tendency to fidget with things; with said fidgeting generally being contained to his own person, his clothes, hair, possessions, and etc. This isn't strictly a nerve based habit of his but it will be a stronger impulse if he's nervous or anxious and the act of him doing it will be more noticeable, have a greater effect, etc. There's a marked difference between Kariom's fidgeting when he's feeling normal and in control versus when he's anxious and trying to actively calm himself down and redirect his focus.

Regarding his clothing Kariom has a tendency to fiddle with the ends of his sleeves, generally by lightly pulling on them or by rubbing the material between his fingers while holding onto it. Long sleeves are the norm for Kariom for the most part---be it the clan robes from his youth or his more casual wear of sweaters, his jacket, and the occasional hoodie, and so on---which helped this comforting habit to flourish and it was far more prominent and noticeable in his youth although Kariom can (and will) fall back onto it as an adult if he's feeling stressed or defensive but instead of messing with the ends of his sleeves whenever he crosses his arms he'll occasionally start rubbing his sleeves or, at the very least, squeezing down. He'll occasionally mess with the zipper tabs on his jacket pockets as well but not as often, and if he does it's more that he's messing with the tab rather than opening and closing the pocket itself. If he's wearing a hoodie that has strings attached to it he will fiddle with them.

As a youth he also tapped and fiddled with the bell Flynn more or less gave him---the bell that matches Vega's---because he likes the feeling of it and he likes the sound it makes but considering the circumstances he generally hides this from others (especially Flynn) lest he end up feeling embarrassed. If he's sitting down he'll tap it with his fingers and if he's standing he'll inconspicuously tap his foot to make it ring and once he eventually (maybe) cuts it off of his leg Kariom keeps it in a pocket close at hand. He also likes to swish and lightly flap the clan/star-reader's robes that have the longer and looser sleeves---think of it like him trying to fly, move air around, and etc, it's largely a pleasant feeling and very (not to mention appropriately) bird like---but this is another habit he tries to keep to himself.

Regarding his actual person Kariom has a few tics that aren't as pronounced but still become apparent if you know what to look for and pay attention to the frequency. If he finds himself getting particularly frustrated he might smooth his hair back with his hands almost as if he's trying to physically and metaphorically collect himself, he'll also flex his fingers while they're down by his sides and, if that doesn't help or if his feelings escalate, he'll ball his hands into fists as a way to express tension and, perhaps oddly, release it. Mainly because the act of Kariom clenching his fists or body forces him to realize that he's tense and after that he'll attempt to actually breathe and loosen up. It reminds him of the process he uses to calm his anxiety (primarily the three count breathing exercises) and he'll try to use it in that way if he can. He also likes rocking back on his heels quite a bit and will generally start doing so if he's anxious to move or go somewhere.

Regarding possessions the Star Theater is The Big One. It is his go to in regards to fidgeting with things and it will bring him the most comfort, peace of mind, and so on, so it's what he'll be seen messing with the most. This fidgeting usually involves Kariom tracing one of the Theater's three rings with his fingers but he'll also maneuver them so that they catch and reflect ambient light as well as tightly grasp the accessory in his hand if he's particularly distressed or becoming overwhelmed for whatever reason. The Star Theater is the first thing that he'll reach for, an instinct of his that is heightened the more distressed Kariom is. Even if he's undergoing the effects of a Shuffling and can't remember what the Theater is or what it's for he'll find himself drawn towards the tool intrinsically linked to his duty and will draw comfort from it.

What he does with the Theater and the rapidity of his movements is honestly a great way to get a read on Kariom's emotional state whether he's talking or not and it's something that those close to him know to pay attention to.

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