#//yayyyyy lol i hate myself

[raamitsu]

ONE is like the other guy that I know...

[thedvilsinthedetails]

rosekiller band au microfic pt4

heyyy guys pt4 is hereeeee

ok so this one is a bit shorter bc I’m a bit tired today but I rlly wanted to write it anyway so I did lol but it’s not been edited like at all so there may be typos pls point them out if u spot them so I can fix them tyyyy

yayyyyy I love this one

Ok ppl who wanted to be tagged/wanted the next part: @good-oldfashioned-lover-girl @picklerab23 @nikholascrow @always-reading @weirdtinkerbellversion @lady-stardust-incarnate @depressedtheatrekiddo @y0url0verb0y @idk-what-to-put-here-123 @lulublack90 (as always pls lmk if u want to be added to the taglist/don’t want to be tagged x)

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(EDIT: link to next part)

***

Barty’s stomach flipped as Evan looked at him, stunned and stunning. Then the moment was broken and Evan turned his head to look at Dorcas who seemed to be fighting back a laugh. This was stupid fuck this was stupid.

“Did you know about this?”

Evan asked Dorcas who shook her head.

“First time I’ve heard about it.”

Stupid, STUPID. You’re so stupid Barty why would you go and say that. You should have said no when Marls suggested it, should have said no straight away.

“It’s um- to make a statement. Kiss on the stage to piss of Riddle but it’s fine you don’t have to-“

“It’s a good idea.”

Evan said quickly.

“Oh, yeah it was Marls’. Wouldn’t want to um…steal the credit.”

Wouldn’t want you to think that the idea of kissing you plays on repeat in my mind every second I’m awake. 

“Yeah. I um- I want to. I think it would be good-“

Brilliant actually it would be fucking brilliant Rosier.

Barty amended Evan’s statement.

“To make a big statement.”

“Yeah.”

Yeah. Yeah what other reason would there be Barty? What were you hoping for? Pathetic isn’t it. The way you would gladly lick the crumbs left on his plate if he asked you to. He doesn’t want to kiss you, he wants to piss of homophobes. Don’t forget that.

It was in fact too late for Barty to not forget that because all that was ringing in his ears was ‘I want to. I want to.’ Because honestly Barty was going to kiss Evan. Maybe for the only time ever in his life. But he was going to. He’d never even thought it a possibility before. 

•••

I figured out that this modern world is turning the wrong way round

There’s something about the way our bedsheets turn religion upside down

So we just have sex to solve all our problems

Let’s do it again

It had been Pandora’s idea for the kiss to happen during ‘cotton candy’ and everyone had immediately agreed. It was a stroke of genius really. Barty had originally thought it should take place in a love song, but that wasn’t what this kiss was about. This kiss was about the freedom, the liberation everyone deserved to be who they were, to test their limits and experiment and not be judged for being queer or straight or promiscuous or prudish. Cotton candy was just that. A call for sexual liberation, a call to stop demonising young people for living their lives.

And I wanna get stuck between your teeth like cotton candy

So you remember me darlin’

Barty turned his head to look at Evan. Their microphones were too far apart on separate sides of the stage, everyone hated it. He felt uncomfortable so far from Evan, they just performed better when they were up close together. The crowd had actually been pretty annoyed when they saw it at first. Still when he looked he saw Evan staring back at him. He cocked his head sideways, a silent, last minute ‘are you ready?’ Evan nodded. 

Im losing myself in you 

In you 

In you

In you 

In you

I know

Evan stopped playing the guitar and let it just hang around his neck as he took the microphone out of the stand. Barty watched him before taking his own mic out the stand too.

I’m losing myself in you

In you 

In you

In you 

In you

I know

They turned to face each other and Barty began to walk.

Leave me in the morning, although

I don’t wanna be on my own

They met somewhere in the middle of the stage and suddenly the scream of the crowd dulled and the music stopped and for a moment there was nothing except Evan. Evan Evan Evan. His eyes staring straight into Barty’s. The hushed sound of their soft harmonies. The warmth of his breath dusting Barty’s face as they pressed their foreheads together.

I’m losing myself in you

In you

In you 

In you 

In you 

I know.

And they kissed. The crowd screamed. And suddenly the world was filled with colour even though Barty had his eyes screwed shut. Kissing Evan was like…fuck Barty was no wordsmith, Regulus and Pandora wrote their songs. But kissing Evan was everything. He tasted sweet and minty like the gum he’d chewed right before the show. His hand was warm and calloused and currently threaded through the hair at the base of Barty’s neck, tilting his head up just so.

The instrumental was over, they’d missed their cue. Barty didn’t care. They kept on kissing till the song faded to a close and even then kept going till the clap of the crowd died down. They softly broke away but Barty couldn’t hide the grin that broke onto his face. Evan just grinned right back.

***

AHHH YAY OK I LOVE THIS SONG CAN I JUST START BY SAYING THAT

Watch the music video for this song (cotton candy by YUNGBLUD)

LOOK AT THE SKIRT HE WEARS AND TELL ME BARTY WOULDNT WEAR THAT

Also what do we thinkkkkk they finally kissed!!!!!!

Ayyyyyy

ok stay tuned for the FIFTH and FINAL part (probs gonna be released tmrw hehe)

Also I’m probably gonna put this on ao3 btw, not gonna change it bc I don’t have the patience to properly lengthen it (at least rn, ig u never rlly know) but it’s just like if ppl want to bookmark it or reread or whatever it’ll probs be easier

ANYWAY LMK WHAT U THOUGHT

😘BYEEEEE

[doggirl08-moved]

i’m home! today was…awesome! i started out super sad since someone pointed out a bad thing and i just worked on a malcey drawing while i was saddddd :(…after that i went to third block and my friend malachi nerd turned cool guy i said u should sit with me… since i hate sitting alone i thought he was going to decline but he happily sat with me and was super sweet and complimented me!!! i was so happy and he said i look social!!! when we came back from lunch i was so stressed when we did partner work ( me and him ) cuz the numbers weren’t going in my head i was so sad and i felt dumb and slow and everything was wrong but he was so sweet and reassured me i’m smart and it’s ok i finished the worksheet in time but i apologized for the way i acted and how stressed i was he told me i’m smart and i should beat up who ever said i was slow and awkward that made me happy but i still felt bad! i wanted to explode walking into 4th block and even did a small lap to calm myself and my friend keely is on crutches now uh oh and it’s picture day uh oh and i don’t have a charger and my chromebook is dead uh ohhhhhh!!!!! i was so mad and sad and stressed but i somehow got my work done using keelys but now it’s picture time i wore my grey lazy sweatshirt today and took my braids out of my hair revealing my wavy hair as i asked keely nicely if i could use her makeup while we were waking i did my makeup for the first time with no help with no mirror!!!!!! and some lip gloss ;3 i somehow didn’t stab my eye out and keely said i looked amazing i felt so proud then crazy stuff happens the lady at the photo thing said i looked super cute and i was soooo happy everyone was so nice to me today! i went back to class slowly with keely and i gave her all my water in return of makeup products!!! she was grateful and we talked more she kept saying sorry for interrupting me and i was like lol u didn’t i don’t care :) <3 and i was so happy!! i left without wearing my jacket rare ( i don’t like my arms ) and i got home early abbey noticed my makeup and said it looked super good and i did it with no mirror i’m a pro!! she said from far away i look like i’m wearing eyeliner i went to the bathroom mirror to see how i looked and i am happy i did look good i was so happpyyyy!!! and tonight i’ll be doing homework ( prob not i like to do it at school >:/ ) and drawing yayyyyy!!! i’m so happy!

[kikikakapo]

6, 9, 14, 27 + goldenrod & ruby

2 ask games in 1

6. What’s your favorite candle scent?

i havent actually smelled that many candles but maybe custard? it smells pretty yummy

9. Best childhood moment?

hrm ive had a lot and its hard for me to decide but one that i remember making me really happy was swimming in lake taupo with my family on the way back from somewhere and the water was completely clear and there were little crayfish and fishies and we caught some for fun but honestly i probably had other better moments i just cant remember rn lol

14. Whats something upcoming that you’re excited for?

hrmmm probably the watcher dlc

27. Do you like to garden? Have you ever grown something?

nah, not really my thing, plants arent super interesting to me and my mum tended to always tell me to help with doing fruit and veg gardens so the idea of it is a little soured but i dont Hate it and uhhh i dont think ive really grown something by myself before no but i guess ive helped grow some things

also yayyyyy sunsets with one of my favourite people and awwww thats so sweet

[starjxsung]

STAR!!! LOML!!! 💖🌟💕 I AM SORRY IT HAS TAKEN ME SO LONG TO RESPOND!!! ahhh work sounds so ahhhhh *hugs* I hope you're able to find the time you need to get the rest you need <333 sending infinite warm hugs and snacks <333 AND YAYYYYY IM SO HAPPY UR ABLE TO GET INTO DOING WHAT YOU LOVE AGAIN (writing) the Bang Chan fic was AHHHHH SO GOOD!??!?! I could just feel your love and passion for writing as I was reading🥺 and I am glad your kitty is doing well too 😻and that things are feeling better and more back to normal (we love being surrounded by our kpop things and our people who care about us <333) I am working at the speech arts academy still!! (ya girl got a pay raiseee) WEH i hope to get my first tattoo(s?) in november? when the sun isnt out and i wont fry them LOL i will send photos when I do get em hehehehe life update: south africa guy and I are still vibin 😎 been seeing lots of friends i leave for a family trip to norway, denmark, and sweden in 14 days (first time in europe!) i hate uni course registration and the admin are so unhelpful. i am so done.

anyways, LIFE UPDATE!??!? I WANNA HEAR HOW YOURE DOING!!! xoxo 🌱

MY ANGEL BABY SUNSHINEEEEEE LIL SPROUT 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶👼🤞

RAHHHH work has been insane oh my GODDDDD my boss has been really supportive but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t just sleep all day after bc in been so mentally and physically exhausted and it’s ruining my sleep schedule 😭 IT’S OK THO Lolla soon and Ateez so I have to keep going 🤞

I’M SO GLAD YOU LOVED CHANNIE FIC I LOV UUUUUU also congrats on the PAY RAISE????? THATS SO EXCITING HELLO ????? Yes pls send pics of first tattoo AHHHH I’m so excited I remember my first tattoo like it was yesterday (I’m so fucking old you guys) also my dad finally saw the skz tattoo I’ve been hiding from him for a year and he didn’t really care so I’m gonna book my next few tattoos soon LMFAOOOFKFKDKD I see opportunity and I take it 🫶

EUROPE???? GASSPPPPPPPP SHE’S SO INTERNATIONAL YOU GUYS…… have the best time and take SO many pictures for me !!!!! I can’t wait to hear all about it !!!!!!!!!!! Also keep me posted on South Africa guy *wink wink* we love him on this blog

Also uni registration my fucking OPP….. the counselors being so unhelpful really just the icing on the cake huh. Like what is your job if not to HELP STUDENTS……

ANYWAYS I’m doing so good I have so many concerts coming up but also SO much work to get done before then so it’s fr crunch time over here 🏋️‍♀️ I’m also alone at my apartment bc my sister’s staying with my parents for a bit and it’s so much fun omg when I first moved in I had the place to myself for a bit and I just love being alone the older I get. Being alone and napping w my cat my beloved ‼️‼️ unmatched

HAVE THE BEST FUCKING TRIP EVERRRRRRR I CANT WAIT TO HEAR ALL ABOUT IT I love you so much my sprout take good care of yourself !!!!! 💝💖🩷💘💓💫🫶

[shortriver0]

I am shocked, but let's do that yayyyyy!!

1. I've got a lot of the scars on my back and shoulders from scratching myself because of the stress, which i am ashamed of, but i'm trying not to be-

2. I've almost died two times and it was my fault lol

3. I have a mug that everyone in my family hates and wishes it to finally break. they hide it from me, but i find it anyway and drink coffee from it .....

oh... i tag...umm @xreanimatedcorpse

If you get this, answer w three random facts about yourself and send it to the last seven blogs in your notifs. anon or not, doesn’t matter, let’s get to know the person behind the blog! No pressure <3

Thanks for asking, Anon ! Let's see...

1. I love journaling right now, it really help me to remember for my upcoming star wars animated series and TTS/RTA polls lately 🖊️

2. I started to wear glasses like almost 2 years ago 👓

3. My favorite coffee is Cappuccino ☕

Taglist: @blueapplehaert1989 , @bigfrozensix , @victorianightlight , @tink1221 , @cha-cha-arts , @echo-lover, @catcucumber-salad

[museswithinx]

Sadie Gallagher FC: Halston Sage

Sadie Gallagher is 21 years old and the maternal cousin of Adrian and Veronica. Their mother, Alaine, is her father’s older sister. She was never very close with her cousins, but she’s also not very close to anyone.

Unlike most of the pack, Sadie’s trigger was completely unintentional when she was only 14 years old. One day while practicing her hunting skills, she accidentally ended up shooting a hiker from a nearby camp when he startled her. The arrow pierced his heart, killing him instantly.

Sadie didn’t deal with the guilt nor the turn very well, and has developed an unhealthy dependence on alcohol as a means to cope with what she’s done. However, she’s something of a functioning alcoholic, so nobody really takes notice or concern with it. 

She also has poor control over her temper, often leading to violent tantrums, which causes even more problems.

She’s an expert hunter and tracker, much like her parents before her, and a semi-decent fighter. She’s also one of few ‘high born’ wolves in the pack.

Asher “Ash” Thomas FC: Amadeus Serafini

Ash Thomas is 23 years old, and one of Adrian’s former students before Crystal took over the combat training. He also previously ‘dated’ Sadie, albeit briefly, though it was more physical than anything else.

Before his trigger, he was a very carefree kinda guy. He can be something of a flirt and come off a bit dick-ish, but mostly he was harmless. However, the trigger made him more angry and prone to outbursts.

He was one of very few wolves that refused to trigger, instead wanting to enjoy and live his life free of that. And as a practice briefly mentioned by Ronnie, he was thrown into a situation where he had no other choice when he was just fifteen. It was him or the other guy, and survival instinct had won out.

It is currently unknown to him that his trigger was a plot organized by alpha Gabriel per request of his parents, who were unsure how to handle it.

He has since conformed to the standard pack practices and ways, believing that it was better than the alternative and there was a good reason for the way they chose to do things.

Mostly does patrol work for the territory, keeping it clear of vampires and other threats to their survival. He was one of the wolves on duty the day Seph and Adrian came to take Ronnie (and by his association, he’d been one of the six wolves knocked out by Seph’s power).

[knifewieldingenby]

Me: *finally finds a word to describe the struggles I’ve had with my gender expression/the way I perceive myself/how I interact with the world*

Under 25 yo’s on tumblr: lol you know futch is a meme right? Like it started as a meme. It’s just a joke. No one should identify with this ~~brand new meme joke made up word~~

Me, who knows people have been identifying as futch since at least the 90’s and the earliest online record of its use is from 2002:

(anyway I’ve blocked like 30 people from this tag and the ones who actually identify with the term hardly use it because of the hate yayyyyy)

[avionvadion]

I can’t believe I’m actually able to say it, but Once Upon A Tragedy is now completed, folks! Chapter six is up and posted! ;D 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/27644558/chapters/67994503

Also I’m going to bed now, lol. If I find a typo in the morning I’m gonna hate myself, but until then- yayyyyy!!! 

[chickenstuffedwithmozzarella]

Hello love!! Oh no. Please dont apologise. It's totally normal that you are busy right now. Especially if you are now staying with your cousin. I hope you are both doing fine and sleeping a good amount of hours! How are you?? Everything is cool? (1)

Hi my lovely flower!!! (My iPad instantly suggested flower when I wrote lovely!!! Yyaaayyyy!!) first of all, sorry for taking me so long to answer you. Between being busy, tumblr that doesn’t told me you had wrote me (I think that’s fixed now) and that I’m shit at being friends… here I am after what? 2 weeks?? So, again, sorry. This is why people gets tired of me :/

Anyway, these past weeks have been a bit :/. It was my cousin’s death’s 2nd anniversary. So, you can imagine. And also, we had like the first family reunion since she left us. And I missed so much. God!! We both used to be like partners in crime at those things. Since we were kids. And I found myself a lot of times asking myself “where is she? She should heard this!” And then remembering why she wasn’t there. But my aunt had a very good day. She laughed so my much with my mom and the rest of my aunts. So, it was good for her at least.

Anyway, I’ll stop with this, bc I’ll make myself cry.

I ’m good. Thanks for asking❤ I went to the beach yesterday and it was greaaaat (although my cousins made fun of me because i was white shining). I really love summer. Do you hate it because it is too hot?? Honestly, if i didnt live near the beach i think i wouldnt like it either. Oh, and yes. I finally got all my results. I had some trouble with some of the teachers (one didnt even correct my exam. He just chose a random mark. Like???? How?) but it all worked out at the end.

Ohhh! Are you tanned yet??? (White shining? I see so little of the sun, that I even have to take vitamin D pills🙄). Yes, I hate bc I’m always sweating, I can’t sleep at night, at the shop we have like 35ºC all day every day, so there’s moments where we can’t even breath. Am I whining? Yes, maybe, but I don’t care, jajajaa. I like the concept of living near the beach on winter, and instead on going to the park with a book, I’d go to the beach. But I don’t like it in the summer,jajajaj.

Your teacher didn’t correct your exam? And I’m guessing yours wasn’t the only one. I’d say they correct 75% of the exams, and the rest they just guess the note… but well, if it worked, I’m very happy for you. You can now relax on the beach all you want. Will you look for a job finally??

JAJAJA. Luckily (or unluckily i dont know what to think) Louis hasnt released anything yet, so you havent missed the drama. I dont want to get excited because then i always get dissapointed but after what happened with Liam yesterday (yayyyyy!🎉🎊) i am just…waiting for the other shoe to drop 👀👀👀👀 Please, do it soon. Give me good news!! (3. Ups. I think i forgot to mark num 2. What a mess)

And Louis hasn’t done anything yet :( have you seen him today?? I saw something in my dash,jajajaja, he at the match. Well, in London, I think. I’ve been so disconnected of tumblr lately!!! Every time I log in I see people talking but I can’t never find what about,lol. I just reblog a pic or two, so my blog isn’t death,lol. 

But did you see the last thing they said about Liam? (Or what I think is the last thing), that his album has been delayed bc he wants to include a song about Cheryl??? I don’t understand why would he, but well, who can understand anything. Anyway, why is always a step forward, and two steps backward?? 

Anyway! Have a good day/week. I miss you and i wish you the beeeest. I’ m sending you lots of love💝💖💞💓😘 (Also, I’m sorry that I just talked about me. I dont want to ask many questions and make you feel pressured to answer or anything like that because i know that you are busy. So…) I dont have cookies this time, but i do have some ice cream here –>🍦🍦🍦. I hope this pleases your inbox and so that this 4 part message reaches you safe and sound. Bye Soraya!😘 (4)

I miss you too!!! (I actually wanted to tell you about missing my cousin back on the day, but I was with the family and then my phone died, so… and like I never think my problems are important to anyone, so I bottle it up inside myself, and I don’t bother anyone) hey! Don’t apologize for talking about yourself, I love hearing things about you! I know you don’t like to share a lot about yourself, so I appreciate every bit of it,jejejeje (but also, dong feel pressured about sharing!!)

How is being the summer for you? how is the weather around there? Os it letting you go to the beach then? Bc here it is being a bit of shit,jajaja (so god for me): raining, storms… LOVELY!!!🤣🤣🤣.

Come to yell at me whenever I’m being elusive, please. And also, come to remind me to take my vitamin d pill this next Sunday, please!! I have to take it every 2 weeks, and I know I’ll forget,lol. 

Thank you so much for “aguantarme”. Wish you the best!! 😚😚😚

[this-could-b-the-day]

Yayyyyy

@5pilotsatthedisco thank you for tagging me! :)

Gender: female

Birthday: June17th

Last movie seen: Finding Home (Misha Collins works in that movie and I love him sm)

What do you post/reblog: I mostly reblog and musicians and I sometimes post some songs I like. (same!) Also I have my main account (@spooky-danax)

Last thing you googled: idk

Dream job: Be a good singer, pretty much a musician

Dream trip: Go to Iceland, it's so beautiful!

What would be your first entry in a new diary: I don't know tbh...

Top 3 things you love about yourself: My hair, my way to think about everything, and idk my personality? Idk haha

3 things you wish you knew how to do: I wish I could sing well, play ukelele/guitar I wish I could speak English better (omg same lol)

3 qualities you like in a person: Politeness, they have to be funny , and care about everything,

3 qualities you dislike in a person: if someone is disrespectful, talks shit about other people they don’t even know and if someone makes fun of other people’s passions/interests. (I agreed with you so much, it's freaking me out)

Favourite planet: Ur(anus) ha ha jk, Jupiter

A resolution you make every year: Nothing? It's sad I know

Something you’re better at than most people: Procrastinate yeah... It is not a good thing

Something you’re worse at than most people: x2

Favourite thing about tumblr: people with the same taste of music like me, and Iike this social media more than other

Least favourite thing about tumblr: FUCKING PORN BOT I HATE THEM SM GOD

Weapon of choice: Powers like Lucifer (supernatural) he literally claps his fingers and makes people explote

Something not many people know about you: I don't believe in myself like they think

Favourite means of transport: Car?

Something that always makes you laugh: Eddie's dance, memes, my best friends

I’m tagging @rearviewmirror10 @iariotact @given2fly99 bc I like their blogs :)

[vulptilla]

💖 Disney + 💖 The Arcana + 💖 Overwatch + 💖 KALEVALA. Kalevalahan on fandom, eiksje... #suomi100

Yayyyyy thanks effe! 💖 

Disney: Ohhh, this is pretty easy. Esmeralda from Hunchback of Notre Dame. I was so overjoyed when my mom bought me the VHS when I was still a kid. I had so huge crush on Esmeralda back then, though I did actually realize that much later. Ok, lol, who am I trying to fool here, I still have huge crush on her. She’s so brave and kind and fights for justice, and fighting for justice is a huge kink of mine. :D I still watch the movie several times a year. Also, she and Phoebus and their ship dynamics have ruined my taste in ships forever and I hate myself.

The Arcana: Another easy one, as I wouldn’t even consider picking anyone else than Julian. Ohhhh, my sweet, masochistic, day drinking fuckup.

Ahahahahaa, voi juku. Joudunks mä nyt tunnustaan tietämättömyyteni Kalevalasta, vaikka oon muka kirjallisuuden sivuaineopiskelija ja kaikkee. :D No Louhi on tietty aika kova muikkels, että mennään ehkä sit sillä! 

[kuhleesee]

Since I can't sleep.......

In 2007, dated SOME lame dudes, I lost my virginity, partied too hard, lost all my "friends", got punched in the face, stalked, kicked out of school, partied too hard again, started a new school, met my boyfriend, fell in love, and changed my entire life. WELP. Needless to say it was an eventful year. I don't know the exact date, but it's been 10 years since I was expelled from my first high school. Easily the best thing that has ever happened to me. Haha. (I wasn't even guilty of the crime but that's a different story lol) If I never got kicked out of school, I'd still be hanging out with some shitty people. I would've never moved to a new school and meet (met?) better people. I told myself I wasn't gonna date immediately, but I ended up dating my boyfriend like a month and half into the school year LMAO. He showed me there was something more than just "partying" every weekend. I ended up doing "better" (still was lazy lmao) in school and APPLIED FOR COLLEGES. If I stayed at my old school, I probably wouldn't have graduated? And if I did I probably would've just went to hair school or something. Probably would've dropped out. I forgot how much I loved art until I went to my new school. If I told pre-expelled me that I would graduate from an art University with a bachelor's, I wouldn't have believed a word lmao. If I didn't go to art school I wouldn't have met most of my closest friends! (As much as I half regret art school because loanssss) Pre-expelled me also wouldn't believe that I have new friends....WHO ARE ACTUALLY INTO THE SAME NERDY SHIT. 7TH GRADE ME WOULD BE SO PROUD. I wouldnt believe that I traded in parties and drugs for being obsessed with professional e-sports and cosplaying LMAO. I also would be shocked that I was able to stay with the same guy for....TEN YEARS and be living with him and having two amazing dogs of our own! It's just so crazy. To think that one "bad" thing escalated it all. I've been contemplating on posting a shorter version of this on FB but I'm "friends" with some of the girls that "ruined" my life. I'd love to thank them, but most of them aren't really going anywhere and I feel like they'd feel offended or something. (JUST TO BE BLUNT LMAO). 16 year old me: -Drugs/alcohol -Couldnt keep a boyfriend -Closet nerd because old friends sucked. -Hung out with bad people -Hated art -Wasnt going anywhere in life 26 year old me: -Videogames/cosplay -Going on 10 years with her bf! -OPENLY NERDY AND PROUD -ALL MY FRIENDS ARE GIANT NERDS AND I LOVE THEM -all I do is art these days -I have a degree and live on my own! Yayyyyy self reflection yayyyyyyy

[unknownwrites]

Life update #2

Heloo, wow it’s been so long! Lamanya I didn’t write anything here. It’s not I am that busy girl living her life it just I AM LAZYYYYYYY hihi. 

So basically, I am now in my final exam mode. I take 6 papers guys this semester. 4 down, 2 more to go yayyyyy. Super super super tiring since our gap for each paper is only 2-3 days only, so studying continuously really exhaust me. I can’t wait for this to finish real real soon. I have no comment for the papers that I have done, hua :(

Aside from that, I am super excited for this semester break because I’ll be going to my wish list place which is PENANGGG. I am looking forward for this, and what add more fun is I’ll be going with my girl friends! Hoping it will goes as how it planned.

So emotional, mental, physical? HAHAH yes I have moved on. Lol one after another.... Never ending heartbreak, but I bet everyone around my age is struggling to actually find the right one. Please say that I am not the only one please. Writing this, looking like I am so desperate oh my god. It’s not that, I am content with myself and even my surrounding. Alhamdulillah, I am surrounded by the good people around me, really! But isn’t it nice to have somebody you can talk to at the end of the day, ask to hang out, somebody that you can turn to when you need something? I am looking forward for that one person, MY PERSON to be exact! where you at, hello? It’s coming my way, perhaps hihi. I swear I have moved on from the previous guy. He is now happier than I am, I guess? He has a new girlfriend, and I can say he take care of her better compared with me? EH hello, I’m all good....

Plusss, okey I hate someone who uses me just because I have something? So who are you ha wanna take advantage on me? Update later, bye tumblr-ku

[pcosfighters]

A Note From The Founder...

******WARNING: STRONG LANGUAGE USED. NSFW ( MAYBE?)*******

 If you've been following me for a while you probably already know that I'm an young (ish) black woman with PCOS ( I have a ridiculous amount of symptoms, stage 5 PCOS ladies, we're talkin' disrespectful little hairs on my boobs AND face, skin discoloration , overweight, no periods, infertile-fun times!) who started a blog three years ago in hopes of spreading some much needed PCOS information to women who were looking for it. You may also be aware that I'm a newly wed (yayyyyy!!!) who is married to a phenomenal human being that has stage 4 colorectal cancer. We're dealing with fertility issues due to his chemo and me being too depressed and anxious to get my shit together long enough to lose more than ten pounds at a time. 

What you DON'T know is that i'm broke as fuck and woke up last week Monday and decided to quit my job as a credit specialist for a major banking institution because well...because I hated it. I'd sit in the car every morning in the parking lot crying at the fact that this was my life. I'd deal with bull shit customer's all day and intense micro management tactics that would make a timid, quiet, church mouse beat someone to death with a keyboard. 

Quitting my job was the most terrifying thing I have ever done. I wrote up the resignation email a month ago. Three weeks ago I added my managers name to the email draft and then closed it. Two weeks ago I cc'd HR on the email and then closed it again, my hands were sweating and my heart was beating just thinking to myself 'can you imagine if one day I just grew tits and decided to send this?' I chuckled and went to bed, thinking about how amazing it would be to make it to a Sunday evening where I didn't have anxiety about the looming, depressing Monday ahead. 

The following week I found out a friend of mine was shot in the head at a birthday party. It was a stray bullet, not meant for him but his fate none the less. He was thirty years old with a girlfriend and two children under 9. 

After spending the entire day crying and moping about, like the selfish person I am, I started thinking--what if I died tomorrow? Would I be content with the life I've lived, the risk's I never took and the memories I never made? I grabbed my phone and pulled up my drafts and without thinking twice I hit send. 

In an instant my entire life changed. But you know what? I felt (terrified, Jesus what was I thinking?! Rent's due next week and I'm fuckeddddd) FREE! Regardless of any underlying emotions ( no seriously, car insurance come's out on the 9th, not to mention that stupid pay day loan I needed to fix my car) , I felt strangely liberated. We have enough savings to last us until I figure something else out, ( lol k I'm lying  but yoloooooo) but for now...I feel free. 

I say all that to say: I'm dedicated to PCOS Fighters. I have so much planned for this little non-profit organization that I had to vent and write out this very personal, very vulgar blog post to not only hold myself accountable but also start sharing more with you all. I get so many private messages where women spill the heart out to me and I don't normally do the same. I would LOVE to make this my full time job and I'm working on ways to make that happen, ( No, I'm not gunna start pan handling on instagram. ) but in the interim I'm working on loads of content to keep my Cyster's well informed and up to date. 

I really can't believe I quit my job, but it was the scariest, bravest, most exciting thing I have ever done! I'm super excited for what's coming next, I'll keep you all posted!!

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