#//probs just gonna hit the hay for the night

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૮๑ˊᯅˋ๑ა sigh why does my brain feel like mush tonight!!

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Eddie & contamination OCD

“After you,” Eddie says, as Steve shakes his head and walks past him into the house. It was a quieter evening, more quiet than usual, at least. The men decided to go out to Benny’s tonight, by themselves.

Lord knows when the last time it was just the two of them, not their group of four or the whole pack. Food was good, as always, and Eddie could not wait to melt into Steve’s side and watch the newest addition to their VHS collection.

Despite the fact they just ate, Steve declares, “Gonna go make some popcorn,” and heads straight to the kitchen, leaving Eddie by the door, emptying his pockets. It’s routine—the popcorn and the emptying—it gives Steve something to do while Eddie goes to shower.

Did Eddie have work? No. Has he been out all day? No. Was dinner the only place he went? Technically, yes, but he was in the car too. Did he only get dressed to go out for dinner? Also yes.

So, did Eddie only get dressed, get in the car, eat at the diner, and then come home? … Yep. And yet, he’s gotta shower.

It’s illogical. It’s irrational. It’s stupid.

But he has to have a shower. It is what it is.

He’s tried not showering when he gets home, he’s even tried just changing his clothes, but Eddie just… can’t get comfortable.

His skin feels gross, his clothing feels gross, all he can think about is the places his body is touching his clean home stuff. Stuff that shouldn’t be in contact with outside stuff.

It’s weird, because he doesn’t care when it’s a shared space and someone else brings outside stuff into that space—it really only bothers him when it’s either: him contaminated with outside, or it’s his personal space being contaminated.

So, he showers. It’s not hurting anyone, and it’s not like he’s doing something illegal or morally wrong.

Outside clothes get dumped behind the bathroom door or beside the laundry basket to be worn again before it needs to be washed. And he showers.

If his hair is down or he remembers touching it while he was out, it gets washed, too. Okay, maybe his hair gets the short end of the stick sometimes, but he conditions it! He doesn’t just wash it with shampoo!

Eddie doesn’t scrub his skin raw, thankfully, he just washes it, suds up with some soap and rises off.

Afterwards, he puts on his home clothes—a pair of his favorite comfy pants and worn-out sweater with some warm socks to top it off.

Heading back down, he slides into the kitchen & up against Steve, snatching a handful of the fresh popcorn.

With his hair left down, the collar of Eddie’s shirt always gets quite wet, but that doesn’t stop Steve from slowly reaching out to tuck the loose strands over his shoulder.

Steve nudges him along to their couch, movie already in, lights turned down, a can of Diet Coke beside a Mountain Dew—everything all set up for them to turn off, shut down, and relax.

Their thick blanket that’s always draped over the back of the couch gets piled over their laps, where they tuck into each other.

See, while Steve doesn’t shower, he does change his shirt (and, at times, his pants if he’s been out all day)—Usually it’s also something worn and comfortable. Although Eddie has insisted it isn’t a big deal, it’s just a big deal when it’s himself, Steve does it anyway.

And Eddie really can’t complain about it. Because it helps. Even if it’s not necessary, it helps Eddie not hesitate to press against Steve’s side.

The movie isn’t even over, and they’re both nearly asleep. They’re both drained, a day of just existing is hard work. Steve all but drags him upstairs, and as much as Eddie just wants to crawl under the covers and pass out, he’s got to have another shower.

He used to be able to change into his pajamas and hit the hay when he was dead on his feet, but around the time he entered high school, that wasn’t enough anymore. And yeah, he showers at night anyway, so it never really mattered, but it’s still annoying.

Steve changes from his comfy clothes to pjs. Before they started sharing sleeping space, Steve probably wouldn’t have, not that Eddie would know either way, because he’s always changed into something else.

Frankly, he assumed Steve slept in a pair of briefs in his high school days, maybe even forgoing clothing altogether.

When he comes out of the steamy room, Steve’s already in bed, back pressed against the headboard, waiting for Eddie.

The house triple-checked and locked up for the night; that’s Steve’s thing, making sure they were safe.

Comfort at the sight of a soft smile and downturned eyes that blink at him, never judged, never questioned, just acceptance and understanding.

He lets himself be mauled as he crawls across the bed, tucking himself into outstretched arms while blankets get shuffled till they’re both under them. Pressed close and warm, they fit together in the oddest of ways, like they’ve been moulded to each other and by each other for an even better fit.

Smoothing out each other's quirks and complementing them with their own. So what? Eddie showers too much, but he can’t wash off Steve Harrington. He wouldn't want to anyways.

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ace attorney gameplay notes 28/12/21 (spoilers)

LOTTA is my GIRLFRIEND and i love her lil cryptid ass

we hit the ‘it wasnt christmas yet!’ line, pogCHAMP

that boat man is was my dad and now hes probs the murderer, we all make mistakes

NICK YOU CANT JUST MAKE CAREER PATH CHOICES BASED ON GETTING TO SEE UR BESTIE!!!!! 

nick x miles 4eva

i would die for larry

nick being the only one to remember the lunch money trial? iconic

EDGEWORTH CHARACTER LORE YESS

“I’m sorry Wright, I’m not that good of a person.” YOU SEE THIS SHIT? PREMIUM LORE

yogi,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,like the bear?

robert hammond is a BITCH ASS MOTHERFUCKER, he PISSED ON MY FUCKING WIFE!  That's right. He took his lawyer fuckin' quilly dick out and he pissed on my FUCKING wife, and he said his dick was THIS BIG, and I said that's disgusting, so I-

i would die for detective dick gumshoes, aka detective detective detective

i like the cell shading(im playing the steam vers)

do you remember mr moneybags from monopoly? well THIS is him now! [insert picture of grossberg]

TINY MINI MILES NO PRECIOUS BABBYYYY

Grossberg is illiterate trust me he told me himself

you’re telling me a GHOST LIED? scandalous 

von karma is a BITCH ASS MOTHERFUCKER, he PISSED ON MY FUCKING WIFE!  That's right. he took-

the judge going ‘idk what youre saying but it checks out so idk’

von karmas breakdown animation being him baging his head on the wall over and over again? mood

THE GHOST DIDNT LIE HELL YEAH

the court finds miles edgeworth Hot Milky

LARRY TOOK THE LUNCH MONEY???? your honour you had to be there, you wouldnt get it

fr larry, miles and nick are the best trio ever can you IMAGINE game nights w them

LET ME HUG MAYA GOODBYE YOU COWARDS

oh my god payne shut UP

penny and maya are pen pals thats so cute

MIA WAS THE GHOST IN THE PIC SHUT UPPP THATS SO COOL

i think ive got another chapter left, but im gonna skedaddle and hit the hay rn, its getting late aha 

bye!

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Jokes On You...

Request: Can you write reader x J2 (platonic), like reader is teen actress, she is close with Jared but Jensen hates her coz she is very childish prob but reader loves him like a brother. One day some accident is about to happen and reader throws her before Jensen and saves him. She gets injured and then Jensen learns her mistake and they make up and go out for a movie and dinner and stuff? Like reader gets a little drunk at dinner and Jensen takes care of her the whole time even if Jared offered? TY!

A/N: Hope you enjoy this one! As always feedback is gold! Please don’t copy my stuff!! All mistakes are mine!! If you want to be added to my tag list let me know!!

Word Count: 2014

Pairing: Jensen x Reader, Jared x Reader

Warnings: Launguage, underage drinking, Jensen bing mean, that’s about it.

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Walking from the makeup trailer to the set was always interesting because you never knew what, or who, was going to jump out from behind something with a whipped cream pie, or something that they were going to throw at you. 

Today was no different. 

Jared had promised to pay you back for the one that you’d slapped in his face on the way to his car yesterday, and you knew your hay day was coming. 

You’d been working on the set of Supernatural as Sarah, Garth’s little sister that had taken up hunting with the Winchesters. It was your first acting gig, and you couldn’t have been more excited. It was hard to get started in the Hollywood period, and most people were successful started as children in some way, shape, or forum. You on the other hand, didn’t get started until you turned 18. Which made your break on Supernatural a blessing. Most people wouldn’t take a chance on an 18 year old with no experience, but they had, and you loved every minute of it. 

You had gotten really close to Jared very quickly because of your shared childish behavior when it comes to pulling a good prank on people, and you loved Jensen like a brother, even though he seemed annoyed with you most of the time. You learned quickly that he could be pretty grumpy and to not push his buttons. Jared had even warned you not to pull any pranks on him.

You took his word for it, and left Jensen alone most of the time. Though he still seemed to keep up his grumpy persona, no matter what you tried to do. 

Speaking of said grumpy pants, here he comes now. Walking toward you with a sour look on his face as usual. Why did he not like you? You loved him to death. He was like the big brother you never had, and you had more than a little crush on the older actor, though you’d never admit it.

“Hey, they’ve pushed filming this scene back about thirty minutes because they’re having trouble with the lighting on set, so we’ve got to wait to go in there.” Jensen said, looking more than a little annoyed that filming was going to be behind schedule again today. Yesterday they had problems on the same set, and here you go again; more problems. 

You were about to answer him when you heard Misha yell from somewhere behind you. 

“Y/N DUCK!!” 

That’s just what you did, you didn’t even hesitate, you just hit the ground like shots where being fired. About the time you hit the ground Jared threw a whipped cream pie at the back of your head, which was now all over Jensen. Because you had ducked, he caught it right in the face. 

You looked up at Jensen from the ground. His face was livid! 

Reaching up with one hand Jensen wiped most the cream off of his face, slinging it to the ground next to him.

“You know Y/N, I hope you grow up a hell of a lot before you try and actually get a professional role somewhere that’s not a sitcom.” 

With that he turned on his heels, and stalked off towards his trailer to try and clean off some of the damage. Jared and Misha were rolling, but you on the other hand, you didn’t think that one was so funny. 

That one stung. It stung a lot. You knew you could act a little childish maybe, but you were just having fun, and you didn’t like the fact that it made Jensen think so little of you that he would say something like that. 

You picked yourself up off the ground, and make your way over to the waiting area they had set up for the rest of your crew members, your eyes stinging as you tired to hold back the tears that threatened to fall.

Thirty minutes later Jensen stood before you completely cleaned up, and in full “Dean mode.” 

They had “fixed” the lighting issue by basically tying up the lights on a big metal pool. It wasn’t really a fix, but it was hopeful that it would be enough to get this one shot done between Dean and Sarah. That’s what mattered today, so that was everyone’s main focus. 

You kept watching it though, because you couldn’t tell if it was your eyes playing tricks on you, or if it was really moving, but you could have sworn the damn thing kept swaying like it was about to fall, and the biggest problem with that was Jensen was standing right under it, and if it falls it would literally crush his skull.

“Sarah, you can’t keep being so reckless! You can’t keep throwing yourself under the line of fire to save me!” Dean yelled at Sarah. 

Before you could get your lines out it happened. The wires holding up the pool snapped, and you pushed Jensen out of the way as hard as you could shoving him back just before the pool and the lights came crashing down to the ground, throwing glass everywhere, and scratching your hand pretty badly. You didn’t care though, you got him out of the way, that’s all you cared about.

“Y/N! Oh my god are you okay?” Jared yelled from his seat next to the director.

Jared came running onto set, jumping over the mess on the ground with his overly long legs. Jensen stood there in momentary shock before his feet would move, his mouth hanging open as he stared at the pole that had almost crushed him. 

There were people everywhere it felt like all at once. People checking Jensen to make sure the lead actor was unharmed, trying to figure out how it all happened, people rushing to clean up the mess, and usher everyone away from it.

Jensen pushed them off of him, and grabbed your hand that was bleeding. 

“Fuck sweetheart, that could have killed both of us!” Jensen said, checking over the rest of you, he looked mildly panicked, which was odd compared to the annoyed look he usually gave you.

“Well I’m fine, It’s just as scratch. If that thing would have hit you though it would have killed you.” 

“Come on, let’s get you to the medical trailer and see about your hand.” Jensen said, shoving off your comment, more concerned with the fact that you were bleeding than the fact his head almost got knocked in the head by a big ass pole.

The crew decided that close call was enough for today, and after your hand was cleaned, stitched, and wrapped up you were ready to get the hell away from there just like everyone else. Jared had gone with you to the medical trailer, and Jensen refused to leave your side either, holding our hand the whole time they put in the three little stitches. 

He was now following you to your car, carrying your gym bag for you, refusing to let you walk alone, and trying to talk you into letting him drive you home.

“Come on Y/N, it’s gonna be hard to drive with your hand wrapped up like that. Let me drive you home, and Clif and Jared can follow me in Clif’s SUV to bring me home once I make sure you get there safely.”

“I’m fine Jensen, really I am, I only live five miles from here, I think I can manage. Go home, you’ve had a long day too. I accidently got you pied in the face, and you almost died a little bit ago.”

Ignoring his third try at getting you to ride home with him, you get into your car, atching him sit your bag into the back seat.

Jensen raised his hand stopping you from talking. 

“About that, Y/N, I’m sorry, but I’ve been a total and complete ass. You’re not childish, I’m just a grumpy old man who needs to learn how to take a damn joke. I’m sorry I’ve been so mean to you; you didn’t deserve it. Let me take you out to dinner and a movie to make it up to you. Just as friends, me and you. What do you say?”

You couldn’t deny your heart skipped a beat when he asked you out to dinner and a movie. You loved Jensen like a brother, but you weren’t blind either. The man was insanely attractive. 

“You don’t have to do that Jensen, really,” you say to him, not sure why you were trying to get out of a date with Jensen, even if it was just as friends. Were you stupid or something? Maybe you got hit in the head and didn’t know it?

“I want to, please,” he said, giving you puppy dog eyes that would have made Sam Winchester jealous and you just couldn’t say no.

“Fine, okay, I’ll go with you,” you tell him. 

“Good, It’s a date then, I’ll be around tomorrow night to pick you about 6,” he said before strutting off toward the Clif’s SUV, satisfied that he’d talked you into going out with him. 

You on the other hand couldn’t stop shaking your head and grinning like an idiot.

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6 PM rolled around quicker than you expected and you found yourself pacing your apartment waiting on Jensen to show up and half expecting that he would just stand you up. You never were really his favorite person, and you were sure he had a lot better things to do than take you out for dinner and a movie, but here you were, waiting anyway. 

True to his word Jensen showed up at 6 pm exactly, and you were off to the movies. After watching Harley Quinn: Birds of Prey he took you to a little italian restaurant that wasn’t far from the cinema, ordering you both a glass of wine, even though really you were too young to drink.

His exact words were though, “I did a lot worse at 18 than have a few glasses of wine, and it’s not like you are driving yourself home anyways.”

The conversation flowed easier between you than you would have expected. 

You talked about everything and anything. Jensen growing up in Texas, family stuff, sibling issues, what movies and stuff you liked, what you wanted to do with your career. 

Before long you started to feel the effects of the wine. Not having remembered that you had taken something for the pain in your hand before leaving for your date, the wine was having a greater effect on you than it normally would have, and before long you were slurring your words and flirting with Jensen. 

“You know your pretty right? You have a pretty face,” you tell him with a giggle and he smiles at you.

“Sweetheart, you know I’m old enough to be your dad, and I think you’ve had enough to drink,” he said, taking your wine glass gently from your good hand.

You laugh at him, and the fact that he seemed more amused than he wanted to let on.

“Okay, maybe I’m a little drunk, because I forgot I had taken something for pain before you came and got me tonight, so yea... My bad... But you still have a pretty face, and I don’t care that your old enough to be my dad, I’ll just call you daddy then. I’m legal damn it!” 

Jensen laughed loudly at you, throwing his head back in one of those beautiful whole body laughs that you loved so much. 

“Come on, let’s get you home so you can sleep it off before you start throwing up or pass out on me.” 

With that Jensen loaded you up in his car, and you were out before you even made it back home. 

Jensen carried you into your apartment, and laid you down in your bed before getting a glass of water and putting it by your bed, along with a trash can and some tylenol for in the morning, because he knew from experience that wine hangovers came with pretty bad headaches. 

Just as he was making himself comfortable on the couch for the night his phone went off in his pocket. Pulling it out he saw it was Jared, checking on how the date was going. 

Jensen briefly gave him a summary of how your date went, and also your current state. 

Jared offered to come and help him with you, but he didn’t want help, he wanted to take care of you himself. 

Even though he didn’t want to admit it, he cared about you, deeper than he probably should have, and if he was lucky; this could be the start of something special, even if you didn’t know it yet..

Here he was thinking you were too childish... Looks like the joke was on him. He was the one being childish, running from his feelings….

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Who We Were & Who We Are Now 5

Chapter 5

Characters: Forrest Bondurant x Tawny Barrett (OFC)

Word Count: 4600+

Summary: Tawny starts her job at the station. It brings up memories and feelings for both her and Forrest.

Warnings/Tags: Language. Gore? (Does a calf birth need a warning?)

A/N: Memories are in italics!

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To say you were excited would be an understatement. So would saying you were thankful and relieved. Once again, the Bondurants being your secret saviors, giving you the means to care for Junior and yourself, and knowing you'd have someone with a reputation to protect you. You also weren't lying to yourself that getting to spend time with Forrest every day also made your heart swell and pitter patter for entirely different reasons.

It's like you timed it perfectly, he was unlocking the front door as you pull in.

"Looks like I brought the sun with me." you say with a pleasant soft smile, looking back down the road in the direction you'd come from, sun cresting over the mountains.

"Right on time Miss Tawny." he nods, his voice and grunt particularly deep in the morning.

"If nothing else, I am punctual." you shake your head and smile and raise your shoulders in support of his statement.

"You eat?" he asked with a subtle raise of his brow.

"Oh yeah, I got Junior up and fed and out doin' chores already." you say proudly, smoothing out your navy dress.

He nods and purses his lips in approval.

"I mean he'll prob take a nap while I'm out but long as he gets it done, I'll let him think he's gettin' one over on me." you laugh and make it to the top of the stairs next to him.

This gets a pulled back corner of his mouth in amusement from him, meeting your eyes so you know he means you to see it. Seems you already understood how to handle teenagers. He thought it was pretty damn impressive.

"More importantly have you eaten?" you say, shaking your chin up at him, a single fingertip gently touching his chest in punctuation. His eyes move to it, then back to yours, a smirk clear in them.

"MmmHmm." his eyes shift away, smirk still hanging on hips lips.

"Well then let's get started, shall we?" you say, putting your hands on your hips.

He nods and grunts, you follow him around the station.

You first walk around the property, and it's like stepping into a memory. The barn's still there, now another storage building, more cars than there were, but the place still felt the same. Maybe it was because you were with Forrest again.

He pushes back the door of the barn, motioning you to go on in, holding open the door with the same old brick you used to, it makes you smile. He explains what and where the vegetables and food are kept in, grunting and touching and lightly kicking wooden barrels that sat amongst the bales and farm equipment. Saddles and bridles, tools and leather hang and rest among the huge wooden posts and dusty rafters of the interior of the barn.

You turn and sit on a grouping of hay bales, your hands running lightly over the hay humming to yourself, an amused look on your face. Your expression warms him from the inside out. He knew you were thinking about those nights in the barn reading. He swallows and stands in wait, hands in his pockets, letting you have a moment. He hadn't seen your face this happy since you'd been back and he wasn't about to cut it short.

You thought about the late nights reading in this same spot, but that thought had quickly passed, looking over to a dairy cow in a stall, wasn't the same cow, but the memory makes your cheeks flush as you look over Forrest's masculine frame, simply waiting on you to move forward.

Now knowing what you did about mutations and deformities and why they happen, the memory no longer held any fear for you, but you do remember what happened afterward. ------ You knew Daisy was going to give birth any day now. So you kept going in the barn and checking on her throughout the day, the poor dear seemed distressed, so you stroked and cooed her swollen sides, hoping to ease any of the sweet beasts pain. You'd done all you could, going off to finish your work, the Bondurant parents weren't home and you weren't real sure where the boys were, but you had things to do.

When you come back, she's on her side, mooing and groaning, straining and pushing. You rush over, grabbing the heavy duty apron and tying it around your neck and waist. You slide on your gloves and grab a blanket off the gate. You shush her, the gesture only helping you as you reach in to check how she's coming along.

"Shit." you curse, shaking your head. The calf was breeched. Normally, you'd call for Mr. Bondurant for these sorts of things but you couldn't in this particular situation so you sit and wait, elbows on your bent knees, chewing your cheek and trying to figure out how you were going to get this calf out on your own. You knew if you let this go on too long it'd end very badly and you didn't know how long it had gone on already as you'd been out in the garden for hours. You hop up to grab the straps and chains, pushing over a heavy crate to rest your foot against to try to pull this baby out.

And you try. You try your damnedest. You've got the feet just out, strapping them up like you'd seen done before, you strain and groan just as much as poor Daisy does, and if you don't get this calf out soon you're gonna lose them both and you wouldn't want to be the reason the Bondurants lost their milk supply, and the calf that was supposed to double that eventually. You shout in anger, breath heaving and sweat making your hair stick to your face.

You give it another go, and you get maybe another inch along. You reach back into the cow, and you freeze.

"That ain't right." you whisper to yourself, your eyes going wide and your heart racing. You'd felt a breeched calf before and this wasn't that. You'd swear there were extra parts or something in there. You don't mean to but it makes you panic.

You let out a scared high pitched sound, trying to pull again and this time you scream from the effort.

He's rounding the house when he hears your scream. Dropping the crate he was carrying and running as fast as he could to the sound.

"TAWNY?!" you hear Forrest shout.

"FORREST! HELP ME!" you scream back.

He barrels into the barn, tripping and almost falling as he darts towards you.

"Something ain't right here, Forrest!" you say, your face pale and your voice scared.

He's trying to catch his breath, hands on his knees and bent over.

"Tawny, she's just breeched." he pants.

"Look." you bite, his eyebrows raise high on his face. "I know what a breeched calf feels like and this ain't that." you say with absolute certainty that he buys into fully. He raises and moves to inspect himself, grabbing the other gloves.

"Shit." he says softly, face looking much the same as yours did.

"See! I told you! Somethin' ain't right!" your voice now quieter but even more insistent.

"Sure as hell isn't." he says, brow furrowing and eyes darting around the barn. "Get these gloves off," he barks, yanking the long hard material down and off your hands. "Get the chain, I'll tighten this and we're gonna have to fuckin' pull." he orders.

He squats, foot against a load-bearing beam, you're on your feet, using your body weight to pull, arms overlapped and in total tandem without even meaning to. You both shout and groan and gasp, pulling with all your might. And a haunting sound you'll never forget, a scream from poor Daisy, when the calf, if that's what you could call it, comes out suddenly. You both fall backward, you on top of him, your back to his chest, his back hitting against a stack of crates with a crack.

When you see what you've pulled out your eyes grow to the size of saucers, your mouth drop open, lip trembling in fear. It was completely deformed. Half limbs growing from places they weren't supposed to and a partially inside out body, something you thought might only exist in hell. You gasp and turn immediately towards Forrest, your breathing still heaving, you stare at his chest, twisted in his lap.

"What in God's name is that Forrest?" you whisper, eventually meeting his eyes, but his were the same as yours, full of questions and fear.  

He gulps in response. In his shock he acts without thinking as he moves to protect you, arms pulling you close as you shake. "I don't reckon God had anything to do with this." he rasps out. "That's...I ain't never seen that before." he shakes his head back and forth slowly, eventually he can pull his eyes away from the bad omen and to you. "Are you alright?" he asks, his hand moving to push your hair from your face, moving it towards him.

"Is that my fault? Did I do something wrong? Oh God your daddy's gonna kill me." you whimper out, tears threatening to stream from your wild eyes. He can feel your breathing threatening to move too quickly and he takes your face in his hands.

"This ain't your fault, you hear? You didn't do this." he says, faces inches from yours.

"But I...I was the one that started pullin' I..." your lips shake and more tears fall, and he shushes you again.

"This ain't on you Tawny." he whispers. "Stop cryin'," he says with no demand to his tone, just a soft whisper. You try to end the tension in your body, you gulp and move your eyes back to his. "Please," he sounds desperate and it doesn't go unnoticed to you. You take in a shaky exhale, and rest your chest against his. "I can't stand seein' you cry." he barely gets the words loud enough for you to hear. You're hit with the weight of them.

How many times had he seen you cry? You didn't even know.

Your lashes flutter and you take a deep shaky exhale through pouted lips as he mirrors the action to support it.

"That's my girl, shhh. Ain't no reason to be scared." he says, using his thumbs to wipe away your tears from your flushed face.

"Forrest I-" he feels that tremor in your voice and stops you.

"Shhh."  he shakes his head as his lips pursed. "I ain't gonna let nothin' happen to ya, Tawny. Not never..." you gulp noisly and your eyes move to his pursed lips, far too close to yours. With the mix of teenage hormones, feelings unspoken and the adrenaline from fear and exertion his eyes move down to your mouth as you lick your lips, little puffs of breath escaping in tiny nervous moans. You consider it for just a moment. What would it be like to kiss a boy? What would it be like to kiss him? What would happen if you did?

You wanted to. In your naivety and inexperience, you don't know that he wants desperately to kiss you. But as fate decided, it was not the time for you to kiss Forrest Bondurant. As your head shoots to the side, Howard stomping into the barn after hearing all the commotion, effectively sending you back into a panicked state as you jumped up and darted to him, everything that had happened spilling out.

Forrest exhales loudly, hanging his head for his lack of courage to kiss you. He closes his eyes, back of his head hitting the crate behind him over and over in a reluctant punishment for squandering an opportunity like that. ----- "You remember that demon calf we pulled out together?" you eye narrowed as they move from the cow to him.

If you'd been any closer, and if the streams of sunlight coming through the cracks of the walls of the barn had lit him just right, you would've seen the tiniest of blush come to his face. He clears his throat. A grunt and a nod.

"I remember years later... readin' about birth defects and what not for school..." the corner of your mouth pulls back in recollection of a fond memory. "And finally realizin' what happened in a scientific way..." you shake your head at yourself. "Can't believe some of the wild speculatin' we did as to what happened. Just one simple mistake while it was formin'....can cause all that mess." you shrug and sigh. "Wish I would've known that then." you let out a huff of laugh and standing, dusting off the back of your dress. "Could've saved myself quite a few nightmares." your eyebrows raise and you frown just slightly.

"Old lady Wallace came 'round once word got out about it. Called it a bad omen." he says nodding, eyes on the ground. It wasn't too long after that day that you left. Then him and his parents got sick, then both his parents died. He wasn't typically inclined to believe such things, not now anyway, but he'd be damned if it wasn't one hell of a coincidence.

"I had that thought myself." your frown fades with your nod, you put your hands on your hips as you head back towards the reinforced doorway. You stop and wait for him as he shuts the door back. "Kind've a self-fulfilling prophecy though when you believe that sorta thing, huh?" you turn just your head to follow him as he walked past you.

He nods, his lips pressed in agreement. "That's a right smart way to put it."

"Ain't inclined to think that way much anymore now though." you muse, looking up at the sky while you follow him to the back door of the station. "No use in havin' fear about things you can't understand." you say thoughtfully, shrugging before you clasp your hands together in front of you.

God, he'd missed hearing you pour out all those odd thoughts in your head. And now they were eloquent and informed too. No longer just musing of a girl but wisdom from a woman. He lets a warm expression settle over his face since he was walking ahead of you. He hadn't realized just how much he'd missed you. But then again, he hadn't really let himself think about it.

"What about things you do understand?" he retorts, wanting to hear you elaborate.

"Well, there ain't much that scares me nowadays." He hoped that was true. For both of your sake's.

"I've seen you scream over a moth gettin' caught in your hair before." the corner of his mouth pulling back, looking down at you as you pass him to walk into the station.

You stop, narrowed eyes, bright and playfully glaring at him from under your brow. "Yeah and I was just 8 years old." you let out another eye crinkling laugh. "You're still a smart ass I see." you give him a wicked grin, whispering and leaning in closer.

He shrugs his face and shoulders in acknowledgment.

"Can't believe you remember that!" you say with a loud laugh as you sway into the station.

He pulls the door shut behind him, walking down the short hallway and you're already behind the counter, having found an apron and tying it behind your back.

"Now I ain't braggin' but...I do have a good memory."

"Ya ain't gotta be modest on my account, Forrest." your posture straightens. "Speaking of, what should I call you while I'm working? I think I can manage to call ya boss or...Mr. Bondurant or somethin' if that's what ya'd prefer." your face is light and agreeable.

"Forrest's fine, Tawny, don't be silly."

"You got it boss." you say with a firm nod and a grin.

A smile appears on the corners of his lips at you, he grunts and looks away.

"How do ya like your coffee Forrest? I'll get some goin' first then I'll work on throwin' together a stew or somethin'. That alright?" you tilt your head as you fill the coffee pot.

"Black." he nods and blinks. "And sounds like you're back at home already here." he says, tipping his hat to you taking a step back.

"The familiarity doesn't hurt. " you shake your head with a small smile.

"Well I'm gonna be in the office," he says slowly, hand moving towards the open half glass door to the far side of the open space.

"If I get stuck on anything, you mind if I ask ya about it or you want not to be bothered?" your chin moves to your chest. Although he didn't feel it was needed between the two of you, he appreciated your thoughtfulness as to respecting the role of employee and employer.

"Ya ain't gonna bother me by askin' me questions 'bout your work." he meets your eyes, yours wide and his focused. "If I don't need bothered, I'll let ya know beforehand." he gives you a solid nod and you mirror the gesture.

"I'll bring ya coffe in in just a minute." you say as you turn after he does, watching the water start to trickle down.

He grunts and nods, raising a hand in acknowledgment before he saunters his way into the office. ----- "Mornin' Forrest!" you lilt out just like you have every day so far. And damned if the sound of you callin' his name all sweet wasn't the best part about his morning now. And just as every day since your first, you come in with an armful of wildflowers.

"I tried to get a bunch of yellow one's today," you announce proudly, beaming over the armful of blooms. "I thought they'd look really pretty with the blue walls." you say looking into the station before he pulls the door open for you.

"I leave the decoratin' to you, Miss Tawny." he gruffs out and nods. Since you'd started working there, coming in early and leaving late was something you'd done without one complaint. He remembers you not wanting to go home when you were younger, and with what he was assuming the source of that want being cold and dead in the ground, he wasn't sure what was motivating this behavior. Perhaps you really just were as hard of a worker as you always had been.

You had swept, dusted and scrubbed every bit of that place down since you'd been there. It looked like it'd been repainted after you'd gotten done with it. Even the advertisement tins and porcelains outside seemed to glean a little brighter since you'd become a part of the essential functioning of the place.

Howard had certainly loved having you around. He'd been in a better mood the past week than he had in months. He finally had someone to tell all his old glory days stories to that hadn't heard them so much already that they just shut him down before he even got to the good parts. Forrest sat at the table in the back corner a lot. You'd see him with his thinking face on, rough fingertips tapping against the ledger, counting to himself. You kept yourself busy, or rather the customers and maintenance of the place did. You didn't get a lot of chances to catch glances at Forrest, but he had been catching them of you. He'd watch you genuinely laugh at the stories Howard would tell you,  wrinkling your nose and swatting at the air in front of him when he'd get a bit too suggestive, a little too much wiggling of the eyebrows at you. You were certainly a lot more charming than you had been back then, he found it interesting as you wielded a certain power over folks it seemed. An ease to your words and actions now, all confident and sure of yourself. 

The customer's sure loved you. But most were all men so how could they not. You were the picture of perfection in your duties. You'd tend to the old-timers who just sat and drank and played cards all day. Same table, same old men, some old stories every day. They liked having you wait on them a little too much. He'd had to give them the old grunt and glare a few times when he'd hear the conversation turn to "If I were a younger man..." a few times.

You could tone down your accent and mix a real drink for any city folk that found their way in. You'd play it up for the old gosspin' women who liked to ask you one too many personal questions, playing coy and bashful to deter them. You'd brought a new life into the place, a feminine touch that it had sorely needed. And whether he wanted to fully admit it to himself, he needed that in his life too. -- "Here ya go, hun." you say softly, one hand on his shoulder, the other handing him a mug of steaming coffee, untucking the newspaper from under your arm and placing it on the small table next to his chair outside.

As usual, a deep grunt and nod in response.

"You mind if I have a cup out here with ya before I get started today?" you ask. Your voice sounds tired this morning. He'd noticed the change gradually, starting off like a spark plug at first and just slowly, maybe not noticeable to anyone who wasn't studying your behavior, started to get a bit lower every morning of that first week.

"No, go 'head." he says reaching and lifting a small wooden chair and sitting it on the other side of the table.

"Thanks, Forrest." you yawn before you take a sip of your drink.

"I hope you don't mind me askin' ya a personal question, Tawny." you move your face to meet his, eyes open to the invitation.

"No, I don't mind at all." you say softly.

"You...been sleepin' alright?" he asks, eyes narrowing and staying on yours.

Your eyelashes flutter, of course, he'd noticed. Never could hide anything from him, could you? "I.." you begin then stop, looking down at the rough wooden spool on its side that served as a table. You didn't know how to tell him that you felt like a child again when you left there and went home. That sleeping in the room was making you feel crazy. You'd been drinking to help yourself fall asleep at night, the memories just kept creeping into your thoughts. You were ashamed they were still influencing you. You had thought after Cliff died maybe you'd be at peace with the abuse of your childhood but that had been apparently rather stupid of you to think. "I have had trouble sleepin'...yeah." you let out a long sigh.

"I ain't workin' ya too hard or nothin' am I?" the sincerity in his voice warms your heart and he sees the subtle smile appear before you swing your tired eyes up to his.

"No you're not." you weakly shake your head. "I love workin' here. I'd stay here all the time if I could." the corner of your mouth raises before you take another drink.

"That sounds awful familiar Tawny." his voice is lower, almost scolding, but you aren't sure he means it to be. You think he just wants you to know he's serious.

"It feels awfully familiar too." you say, your face falling, looking into your blue and white speckled mug like it held any answers.

"Forgive me if I'm speakin' out of turn but, I know I never asked you 'bout nothin' that went on a home, because it weren't my business. Hell, I guess it still ain't now but...now's different." he pauses. You nod and it catches him off guard. "But it's just you and Junior there now. There ain't nothin'..." he leans in closer to get your attention. "Ya'll ain't havin' no trouble out there or nothin' are ya?" his voice is low again.

Oh your great protector, you swoon to yourself. You let the smile you keep for him show in a shadow of its usual self on your face.

"Nobody is givin' me any trouble, Forrest." you take another sip. "And what fool would with you lookin' after me?" the smile blooms more, and he's so thankful for its full appearance for his sake. --- Instead of his usual morning, he'd been a bit busy today. He'd been busy the night before too, taking care of some unsavory business. So yeah, he was tired and more than a little cranky. What he hadn't counted on was you picking up on it so easily.

"Here ya go, hun." you softly, a big plate of eggs, bacon, toast, and beans is laid in front of him.

His eyes swung up to yours.

"Put that book away before you go cross-eyed and eat somethin' please." you say with assertiveness but not dominance. "You ain't the only one that can tell when one of us ain't slept." you whisper. "You need to eat."

You slide another plate in front of Howard. "Bless you sweetheart." he purrs. You move to stand between them, a hand on each shoulder.

"Ain't nothin'. I figure takin' care of you boys is as much my job as takin' care of the station." you say with no sarcasm, you meant that. "We got anything I should know about on the agenda today?" you inquire sweetly, moving your face to Forrest who was finally sliding the plate in front of him and grabbing a fork.

"Nothing you should know about." he gruffs out.

You rub Forrest back for just a few seconds, a quick back and forth to try to soothe the beast. "Boy you are cranky today aren't you?" you huff out a laugh that Howard mirrors. "Maybe you need to go have a little cat nap at some point today, dear." you say with the same sweet and genuine tone, shaking your head as you move back to the counter.

"She's a real peach, ain't she?" Howard says, stuffing a sausage link into his mouth.

"Mmm." Forrest responds, tearing apart his toast and busting the yolk of his over easy eggs. Exactly how he liked them.

"Sure as hell can cook." he grumbles out between bites.

A grunt and a nod. Another bite of toast as he kept his eyes on the plate.

"And take care of your grumpy ass." he narrows his eyes at his younger brother who returns the expression, another grunt, this time of warning.

"You ain't gonna sit here, and lie to me about how much better this place is with her here, are ya? Hell, I ain't even seen you groan at no one since she's shown back up." Howard always thought Forrest had been sweet on you when ya'll were kids, but he'd never admitted it. Least not to him anyway.

He keeps the same look of warning and groans at Howard.

"Alright smart ass." he rolls his eyes. "But you gotta admit...it feels right...her being here don't it? That ain't just me? Everyone that comes in here seems to like her, that's for sure. Certainly the prettiest thing in here." he says with a quiet huff of a laugh.

"It's like she never shoulda left in the first place." he finally gruffs out.

Howard can hear the bitterness in his brother's voice. A closed mouth smile grows across Howard's face.

"There ya are brother. First steps admittin' there's a problem, ain't it?" he says, giving his arm a solid thud of a smack to be supportive of him at least acknowledging, and finally after all these years, that he thought you should've stayed.

Chapter 6

@hardygal69 @jaegeeeeer @parlezvoustomhardy @pootle @negansdirtygirl22 @vale0413 @divadinag

[victakestaipei]

WEEK 3 RECAP: 9 min mile, SZA, and The Red Poop Scare

This week was not very eventful. Sorry to say folks, but it’s not going to be exciting all the time right? You have to have boring/uneventful days to balance out the exciting ones. I guess it makes you appreciate them more... But regardless of this fact, I still am going to write about the week due to the fact that I’m trying to stay consistent and make blogging feel like a habit/hobby, rather than a chore (at times). If you keep reading and get to the end of this post, you the GOAT!

Monday: 

I was super exhausted this morning from the long weekend (visiting Longdong and Fulong)... I didn’t want to get out of bed and it took all of my strength to get up and climb down the ladder from my bunk bed. I also was still recovering from the first real sunburn I’d had in years, so pulling on my sports bra and t-shirt this morning was definitely a wake up call. In class we had our third test of the course. It was definitely harder than the previous two, but I still think I did well. Class dragged on harder and slower than ever before... I found myself counting down the minutes until 1:10pm.. and it seems like I wasn’t the only one hehe

At the gym it was floor day/abs. So I did mostly floor work with a matt. The weight lifting area of the gym is pretty small so usually when I use a matt I take it outside of the weight lifting room and do my sets in the hallway/foyer. But, there is no air conditioning out here so I find myself dripping sweat onto the matt and it’s just a mess.  ALSO!! I actually ran a mile today, in 9 minutes! That was my goal cut off time and I made it by the skin of my teeth. So I ran the 1.6 kilometers in 9 minutes... Not too shabby from last week ;)

For lunch Bunny and I grabbed potstickers to go (I got the curry flavor) and hopped on the bus to head home. We didn't feel like sitting and having lunch because we are still recovering from the weekend and were super tired. After I got home I hopped on FaceTime and caught up with Karis and some other loved ones. I wanted to take a nap, but I figured it might be better to just stay up so that I can sleep real good when I finally hit the hay. For dinner Bunny made rice, scrambled eggs, and we picked up some fried chicken from the food stand place by our dorm. I had bought a dozen eggs the weekend before in the grocery store, and they were going to go bad soon so we had to figure out what we were going to do with them. It turned out to be a really good dinner. I finished my blog post about Fulong today, and also did some personal journaling of my own before starting my homework. Today was a bit of a moody/emotional day, and I'm not sure why. But it feels good to write. It always feels good to write...

Tuesday: 

So as it turns out, I got a 97% on my test from yesterday!!! Feelin’ good. Feelin’ like a smarty pants. We also had a written quiz today too on the dialogue. I got a 94% on that. I’m really starting to get the hang of writing traditional, and I’m actually glad I chose Taiwan as my study abroad destination, so that I could learn both forms of written Mandarin. I know it’ll pay off in the long run when I’m making dem big bucks! Hehe (kidding)... ((kindof)).

In the gym I ran another 9 min mile. It was also leg day (my favorite)!!... When I got home I bought my SZA ticket. I AM SO EXCITED YOU ALL HAVE NO IDEA. I have been listening to this woman for years now and she’s finally getting the recognition she deserves and I’m so happy for her :-’) I’ll be seeing her with Poirshea in Sacramento in September. Can't wait. Gonna die of excitement!!! P and I really bond over SZA and love her to death and I’m so glad we’re going to experience her music live together. Twin bonding at it’s finest. 

I miss you Twin!!! 

Sza is so adorable I just can’t!!!! Ugh. 

Anways, for lunch the three of us went back to the soy sauce braised place, and filled up on udon noodles, veggies and tofu. I got it a bit spicier than last time.. and it was really really good. WAYY better than last time! For dinner I was still pretty full off of lunch, so Bunny and I went to the street market around 10:30pm to get some fruit and egg scallion pancakes. I NEED to learn how to make these pancakes at home because they're so dang good. I will make them everyday for every meal. BOMB.COM. Egg scallion pancakes are basically green onions, eggs, and dough in pancake form... sounds odd, but man is it tasty!

Wednesday: 

Today I jumped up out the bed at 9:52am like I was just ressurected from the dead. And for those of you who don’t know, my class starts at 10:20am. Bunny was still knocked out when I was startled out of bed.. so we found ourselves throwing on clothes and rushing out the door. We ran to the bus stop, and was only about 10 min late to our class. Thankfully our teacher wasn't upset or anything... But right after we arrived we had a quiz waiting on us at the do’

I’m not sure about my grade yet, but I don’t think I did so well. I was drawing a lot of blanks because I was still frazzled from rushing this morning. After class we got something small to eat before the gym because at this point it's 1:30pm and I'm starVING!!! At the gym I did a really really quick back day, because there’s a class that meets in the gym at 2:20 on Mon/Wed/Fri so usually I have to do short workouts on those days. 

After the gym we headed to a fruit stand to get mango smoothies and dragon fruit... *REMEMBER THIS* 

I wasn't super hungry because of the food I had before the gym. And then we went home, did homework, took a nap, and watched netflix. At around 9 Bunny and I went to get potstickers at the place by our dorm. That place is the best ever. 

Thursday: 

This morning we actually woke up on time. We were even able to gnab some bread at the local bakery before class. I usually pair my morning bread with a tea of sorts... I’ve been drinking alot of green tea lately, and I really really love the green tea infused with passionfruit. So so good. But, I’ve come to find out on days that I don’t have any tea or milk tea, I get massive massive caffeine headaches. I used to get them alot when I would stop drinking coffee after a few days... But I didn’t think this would still happen to me because the caffeine amount in green tea is so much smaller... who knows. But nonetheless, the tea is worth it!!! 

We had a quiz in class today, and before the end of the three hour period, she sprang a test on us right there at the end. She did this because alot of us (4 out of the 9) will be absent tomorrow due to travel. There’s another student in our class (the Swiss guy) who’s going to Seoul, South Korea this weekend, and he left midway through our class. And then the three of us (Bunny, Nick, and I) leave for the Philippines tonight at like 2am.

Also in class I got called Beyoncé more than I wanted to... Our teacher first brought up Shakira, and asked us if we all have heard of her before (which obviously we have), but she just learned of this Columbian singer’s existence and was tickled/excited to share the news. She then brought up Beyonce and drew the conclusion that I look strikingly similar to the superstar mother of three. I can admit it is quite the compliment, but Lord knows she only thinks this because we are both lightskin, tall women. Hooray for racial insensitivity!!!

At the gym it was leg day once again (it’s Thursday, duh!). I ended up running a 8:40 mile! I definitely shaved off some seconds. SO Proud. Drenched in sweat!

For lunch we went back to that Malaysian place with the sweet lady who showed us pictures of her 8month old grandson. I love her. I ordered the hot/sour Chicken with potato wedges... so incredibly bomb. 

Bunny and I went home after lunch and packed for our trip to the Philippines this weekend, as well as napped. I went to the bathroom and had the fright of a LIFETIME. Which brings me to the “Red Poop Scare” segment of this blog post.... 

I have had problems pooping regularly since I’ve gotten here, I think partly due to my change in diet and stress levels... but nonethless it has only just started to get more regular/consistent. So just IMAGINE my shock when I went to handle my business and my poop was RED!!! I’m talking BRIGHT RED/MAGENTA!!! I thought I was dying!!! Blood in my stool??? Can you IMAGINE!!! I would have had to find a doctor here in Taiwan and omg the HORROR. But when I was handling my business there was no pain or strain or anything... so it was also pretty confusing. After I went back into the room and talked to my roommate I realized that I had DRAGONFRUIT YESTERDAY!!! Which is conveniently the same exact color as my poop. So that was exciting and a relief to realize. It was only that color because of the fruit I had the previous day. THANK YOU JESUS I AM ALIVE AND HEALTHY AND IT WAS NOT BLOOD. 

....I’ve come to realize that maybe this segment of the blog is a bit TMI... but I also told myself that if I’m going to blog, It’s going to be as open and honest and transparent as possible.. everyone has poop probs am I right??? 

Anyway,

We also did a quick run to the night market before taking the MRT to the airport. At the night market we got some more food to eat because we knew the journey to get to Philippines would be long. We were to land at 4am. And we left to the airport around 10:15pm. It takes about 45-hour to get to the airport, plus we wanted to allow enough time to check in, go through security, etc before our plane departed at 1:45am.

Here’s some pics of the wanton/noodles I bought and the really really good burger I had at the Night Market.. THE BURGER MIGHT BE BETTER THAN IN-N-OUT DONT @ ME

I’ll come back with another post about the Philippines!

until then, xoxo

[askcandytheclown-blog]

i’ll doodle a reply to the pie thing tomorrow 

im gonna hit the hay

also: 

realize that u just gave Pie...2 Clowns.....c l o w n s....

u will probs soon regret this

oki night night

[exactly45angrybaldpeople]

50-100

50) How do i destress?

Nuttin  Meditation and relaxing music

51) Do I like confrontation?

GOd no jesus christ whatever problems i got just gonna internalize that shit

52) When do I feel most at peace?

When it’s 2 am and I finished my homework and im bout to hit the hay

53) What makes me smile?

Making people happy, being praised, memes

54) Do I sleep with the lights on or off?

Off, I want darkness to hold me like its love

55) Play any sports? 

Lots of “tennis”

56) What is my song of the week? 

This masterpiece

57) Favorite drink?

Root beer

58) 

When did I last send a handwritten letter to somebody?

During my math class, it was a picture of a dick

59) Afraid of heights?

Hell yeah

60) Pet Peeve? 

Getting talked over or interrupted

61) Last concert ive been to?

Never been to one!

62) Am I vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian?

I eat meat and nothing but

63) What occupation I wanted when I was younger?

Video game tester

64) Have I ever had a friend turned enemy?

More of friend to an acquaintance

65) What fictional universe I would like to be a part of?

Monster Musume  At the top of my head probably Boku No Hero Acadamia 

66) Something I worry about?

whether or not ill have a date to prom

67) Scared of the dark?

Only after a spooky movie

68) Who are my best friends?

Probs this one guy I knew since kindergarden

69) What do I admire most about others? 

Personality also ass but whatev

70) Can I sing?

FUCK no

71) Something I wish I could do?

Maintain a relationship rip

72) If I win the lottery what would I do?

Pay my college tuition

73) Have I skipped school?

Yup, just cause i was feelin lazy

74) Fav place on the planet?

In your arms Arbys

75) Where do I want to live?

Maybe somewhere near the coast, if not space

76) Do I have any pets?

2 dogs!

77) My current desktop picture?

Both the royal familes of Fire Emblem Fates

78) Early bird or night owl?

Night owl most def

79) Sunrise or sunset?

Sunset

80) Can I drive?

I got my permit and can get my liscence anytime

81) Story behind my last kiss?

It was after Goosebumps (The movie) and I told the girl if she wanted a kiss then gave her a bag of hershey kisses then smoochy smooch smooch

82) Earphones or headphones?

Earphones

83) Have I ever had braces?

Unfortunately

84) Story behind one of my scars? 

When I was a kid I jumped on my sister’s friend’s face and her teeth scraped my chin

85) Fav genre of music?

Rock

86) Who is my hero?

The wild mail man from Fallout New Vegas

87) Fav comic book character?

SPiderman hands down

88) What makes me really angry?

Being told im stupid for messing up something

89) Kindle or real book? 

Real deal yo

90) Fav sporty activity

“Tennis” I really liked karate when I was younger

91) One thing not taught in schools that should be?

Self care (Like how to cook, pay taxes, and shit)

92) Fav subject at school?

English

93) Siblings?

I am the youngest of three sisters!

94) Last thing I bought?

Star Wars Battlefront 2 from my steam

95) How tall am I?

5 ft 11 in

96) Can I cook?

Nope lol

97) Can I bake?

420 nope

98) 3 things I love?

Dogs, making people smile, and food

99) 3 things I hate?

Unnecessarily dickish people, loud people in movie theaters, being judged

100) More boy friends or more girl friends?

Boys, but maybe by like 2

[opepin]

february: week one

jan30: i was so sleep-deprived. i only had 5 hours of sleep and i dozed off twice today. it was a really slow morning, but i got to meet another new hire! he now sits next to me at the developer table -- he took dave’s spot so that they could be together. i miss looking over to see what dave is up to but now we don’t get that annoying echo when we’re on the same calls haha. cole is super nice and talkative and i love talking to him! i got to know the dev team a bit more too because they were interacting with both me and him. anyway, i listened in on a call and then worked on finishing up my project. i ate lunch while listening to the ridiculous news on trump and what he’s been doing. idk man, idk. then i went back to work and it got pretty busy. it’s always nice catching up with phil because i know he’ll think of things for me to do. i also set up imessage and troubleshooted my devices to see if everything is connected properly. so i spent the morning messaging kevin as well.

cole and john devised a plan to see if cole could just take the sim card out of his at&t work phone and put it in his android. i would like that too but i think it’s too late for me because i chose verizon. we’ll see what happens! i went down with dave and cole and then walked to south station to get back home. kevin got home early because fitbit had a meeting about their cutbacks. kevin is thankfully not laid off. i’m so grateful. i talked with my mom on the phone for a bit and then watched some youtube videos while kevin prepped lunch for tomorrow. while the meat marinaded, we watched supernatural and ate leftover noodles for dinner. i ended up falling asleep after while kevin cooked all the parts for onigirazu. i got up, paid bills for my mom and did some money management. then i helped him assemble some for lunch. they’re so nice looking! hehe. then he washed some dishes while i exercised and then i washed the rest of the dishes, showered, and went to sleep before 1 am. i was so tired. i’m happy i got in about 45 minutes of exercise at least.

jan31: lol i accidentally deleted my previous tumblr post that i wrote yesterday :( i am poo. anyway, i got a good amount of sleep. i woke up before my alarm though? i guess 6-7 hours is a good amount of sleep for me. i got on the train at 8:30 am but i got to work at like 9:20 am because my train was delayed. charles was in front of me and rushing to work and when we reached the elevators, we met up with dave, john, and cole as well. everyone was late today lol. i got myself ready with tea and then started my day. it was a pretty busy morning. i had two meetings and one of them was an t7 bi-weekly meet up with everyone. i introduced myself and i got a few linkedin requests and skype contact requests after. it was nice. before that, i caught up with phil and continued working on templates in ux360. during the meeting, the hoodlum dev team switched desks inside the office for john LOL. it was ridiculous. john’s old table is now behind me and it is wrecked. x__x; the dev team is so funny. i got to talk a bit with kien in the morning and learn more about him. what a cool guy.

i had some technical difficulties with skype after the meeting so i rq’d and then walked over to south station to meet up with saad and vivian to give vivian her night guard that she left at my apartment. it was nice seeing saad again too! we’ve seen each other so much and we’ll all see each other again in april! i’m so excited. saad was about to get a burrito from a terrible booth in south station but i saved both of them and led them to the food trucks outside. i left them after vivian got her food because i had a meeting at 1:30 pm. i made it just in time and ate my lunch during the meeting. then i went back to work and was really into it until the end of the day. i talked to charles for a bit on skype (oh, i kind of fixed my skype problem) and talked to cole for a bit as well. i walked to the train station with cole and then went home to kevin (: he worked from home today and got me rose milk tea from oh my tea~ hehe he’s the best. <3 i talked to vivian on the phone for a bit right after i got home. i love my lo gong too <3

he cooked dinner and then we watched supernatural. he assembled more onigirazu during the second episode that we watched. then he washed dishes and went to game while i organized my internet stuffs. then i exercised, showered, and hit the hay. oh, btw my tumblr is now reactivated! they didn’t tell me why it was deactivated? but they apologized and gave it back? idk haha. it’s been a long two weeks without tumblr. good thing i kept writing these in a draft in gmail ahha.

01: oh hum...i got to work on time and only four of us were in the office today. it was a nice and quiet day. i got to talk with a client today and they saw the templates that phil and i worked on for them (: woot. that felt good. they were really impressed with how we did it and how it looked. i booked a couple’s massage appointment at chinatown pain relief during lunch so i hope that works out! i’m excited for our next trip. phil is a great supervisor because he keeps giving me things to do. it never stops and i don’t want it to haha. i did get off a bit early today because i want things to do tomorrow morning and phil wasn’t able to get back to me until after 5 pm (the end of my work day). the train was not as packed as it is at 5:30 pm. it was nice getting back early and opening my package from uniqlo! i skyped with vivian for a bit to show her my haul and i think she may be ordering from there too now hahaha. i got 3 button up “flannel” shirts and a nice fine wool sweater. hehe.

then i caught up on some errands while watching youtube videos. i finally got to edit vivian and my couple’s yoga video and also edit my favorite picture from our “post-workout photoshoot.” LOL. kevin came back from climbing a lot later than i thought he would and we had a miscommunication about cooking dinner and whatnot so then after uploading the video on to facebook, i cut up our mustard greens, kevin microwaved the leftovers, and we ate while watching supernatural. then i made my lunch (more onigirazu) while watching whatever was left of the episode. we had an argument about just time management and i feel like kevin doesn’t really understand how his schedule affects mine and that if he comes home late, then i’m thrown off as well. i guess i won’t be eating dinner with him (less time with him) when he goes climbing so there’s that. idk. i exercised and then showered and went to sleep. i couldn’t wash my hair like i initially wanted to because of my backed up schedule so i guess i hope my hair isn’t super grody tomorrow. it’ll be the 4th night of not washing it and only using dry shampoo. yay -__-” i still need to set up my 401k stuff too. ugh. so much for coming home early and relaxing.

02: lol i stayed in bed 10 minutes longer than i was supposed to. so i rushed a bit to get out of the house on time. i made it before 9:15 am so it’s cool. :) i had a lot of meetings today so it was a very scatterbrained day? all the dev people were here today so it was a party. it’s so quiet without them. i got to talk a lot more to stephen and cole today. they’re such nice and funny guys. i took a late lunch in order to get the most out of the meetings i had and then i went straight into working on our master template and it took the entire day. i still have a good amount of things to work on for that. phil taught me how to bill hours today so that’s good. i’m gonna hate allocating hours to projects though because there are a lot of terms and things i need to learn for that (like what should i bill to). stephen told us about kane’s donuts, which is apparently right across the street from us :O so then dave, cole, and i walked over after work and then we saw that it was closed so we’ll try again in the morning maybe sometime next week. i think it’ll be a cute valentine’s day treat for the office (: i really want to do something for everyone.

so kevin is mad at me but i met up with him at the train. i actually had a very nice walk and talk to the train with cole. he’ll be my train buddy probs for now. his dev life is way different from mine. all the dev team gets to work from home on wednesdays and fridays T_T much jelly ahha. anyway, kevin didn’t notice or didn’t care that i didn’t have anything to hold on to. so i got reaaaal pissed because even if he is mad, that’s not the right way to treat anyone! so when we got home, i just got out of there, got the mail, and headed to the tech room. i talked with vivian about it lol and i calmed down while doing productive things on my laptop. hehe lo gong is the best haha. she knows what i’m thinking :P

i got back, watched youtube videos, and then kevin told me dinner was ready so we ate together while watching supernatural. he calmed down quite a bit and after the episode, we talked and decided on a schedule for when he’s out climbing. then we spent time with each other and i told him more stuff about my job and etc. then i exercised, washed my hair (finally), and then headed to sleep. today felt like a friday but it’s only actually a thursday.

03: it was just gonna be me and jim at the office today LOL. dave wasn’t feeling well and he worked from home. i stopped by kane’s donuts in the morning to try them out and i got a honey dipped donut and a kronut filled with caramel. they’re pretty pricey: $3-4 each. they were worth it though. the honey dipped one is super soft T^T the kronut would have tasted better without the filling. i took pictures and sent them to cole to mock him and his dev days off. LOL. then i got to work. i had the room all to myself because jim has his own office. i was heads down on creating templates and then working on a client project. i did manage to watch the most recent episode of jane the virgin while working. beth came in today and we got to meet her in person. she’s our IT person and she’s super cute! she told me that dave usually works from home, which is odd because he’s been in the office almost every day ever since i got here. hmmm. maybe there’s still a possibility for wfh at least once a week? i do enjoy working in the office space though. i feel like fridays would be a good day to wfh. anyway, i got what i needed to do to get done. phil and i troubleshooted some things and then i met kevin at south station. he again had to rush for the train but they were pretty empty today. we actually got to sit down and talk.

we ate the rest of the donuts (i only ate about half of each) while watching supernatural and then we ordered food from this japanese restaurant called sake. i got a long snake maki and a sunshine roll, which i will never get again. they didn’t have anything crunchy in them and that made me sad. kevin got a crunchy roll, which was the cheapest and best tasting out of all three of them. we watched more supernatural and then kevin went to game and i tried figuring out how to sign back into my adp account and i gave up. i’ll call customer service. i want to change the amount i contribute T^T then i followed a 50-minute zumba video, which wasn’t actually 50 minutes because he recorded breaks and also, two of his songs were muted...sigh. so then i did some hip hop cardio and finished up with a dance cardio video from popsugar. then i showered and drank tea and went to sleep at around 2 am. zzzzz. it’s the weekend! 

04: we woke up at 12 pm and kevin made us dumplings with egg mcmuffins (: then i updated my website with resume and cv information and kevin gamed for a bit. then we drove to the mfa for their lunar new year free admission day! lol i got irritated because kevin always does the opposite thing of what i tell him to do (i told him to park outside of the museum and he parked in the garage). it was the same price but grrr lol. we got in fairly quickly, looked at asian art, went into the gift shop and bought old fashioned lemon drops and two framed prints for the apartment. one of them was a monet and the other was a still life of food. :P then we walked through european art and american art until we hit the oak rooms and i was in love! they are life-sized thorne rooms basically T_T <3 we headed back to the gift shop and didn’t get anything. we saw this colorstrology book and i bought that on amazon after our trip. i wanted kevin to take a full body pic of me so we found this amazing plate installation and then i got irritated again because kevin is just really bad at it. i thought he would be better because of practice in the orchard but eh. it’s okay -- he’s just not the type of person to take touristy pictures anywhere. he said that he’d practice though LOL.

we drove back and then ate leftovers as our “snack.” kevin decided not to go climbing; there was a car accident so traffic was backed up. so we made oyakodon together! it was fun :3 we ate dinner while watching supernatural and then he went to game and i cleaned up and started working out. i did a popsugar 45 min 500 calorie burn routine. it was alright? not sure it burned 500 calories but it was fun and i saved it. then kevin went to climb and i just chilled and relaxed and took a nice long shower haha. i cleaned the kitchen and then kevin got back and showered. i got really sleepy at like 12:30 am so i got into bed and eventually slept at 1 or 1:30 am after doing some online window shopping.

05: i got up at 10 am when my alarm rang :O i felt awake and pretty congested. i felt a bit sick or i was experiencing seasonal allergies or something. x__x; i left kevin in the bed LOL and i ate cereal. then i woke him up and i cleaned the bathroom while he made us pancakes :3 i also vacuumed the bathroom so he would have a bit less house work to do because he was still cooking. we ate the pancakes and then he did his chores. i started the laundry, watched some youtube videos and ordered some bombas socks online! kevin gamed for a bit and then we planned our meals for the week and after i folded the laundry, and put the sheets in the dryer, we headed out to do some grocery shopping. we went to kam man and then tried getting bubble tea but oh my tea was closed T__T it’s closed until wednesday!!! it was heart breaking.

then we hit up bj’s and got bulk items and some bomb af snyder’s honey mustard and onion pretzel bites T^T omg those are my favorite savory snack. they’re sooo bad for you though. we snacked on them all the way back home. then we put away the groceries and kevin prepped the bulgogi. then i microwaved oyakodon for dinner. we watched supernatural and then kevin showered, i prepped all the veggies and the egg. then kevin cooked the meat and we moved all the ingredients to the table and assembled kimbap while watching more supernatural. mine are so ugly now compared to his. why?! ahha. we packed our lunches, cleaned up, and i exercised for a bit to try and beat this sickness out of me. i took an allegra earlier and it didn’t help. exercising helped me breathe through both of my nostrils but the hot shower didn’t do anything. i hopped into bed at 12 am and fell asleep at around 12:40 am...