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[originemesis]

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It was no fault of his own that he'd been made into an image he would always fall short of. Mic could thunder on and on about the importance of trying to be better- as if the man hadn't already tried a timeless amount that only ever amounted to being told to do better next time. Once the threshold of effort had been cut off as far as his capabilities could stretch only for him to be expected to push even further, it was simply too easy to backslide into lower states that at least allowed him to climb upwards again. These of course were simple improvements he could attain such as one eighty-ing from calling his boss a petty bitch in the middle of a council meeting to begrudgingly babysitting a cherub charity bake sale booth outside the embassy ( until he eats most of the wares that is...not that Sera didn't take it out of his paycheck.) Now that he was lying all the way at the bottom of some hell pit? The possibility in rising even an inch would seem endless to those not currently half melted on the floor with one wing and plenty of missing pieces for finishing a common decency puzzle; unfortunately, he wasn't them.

"Yeah, don't I dare bring up a fucking point to the dude with the smite stick- solid advice, even for you." A softer hiss escapes him, both from the pain of divine sunburn and from having to hear Michael carry on like a woman scorned about what a treasure he was to humanity. In comparison to what? Adam knows. But whether Mic knows that he knows is debatable. "Not your duty, huh? Then what WAS it, Mic? The fact that it was your face tied to the spectacle your bro put on? Now that's what I call 'saving face'." Petty still, even prostrate. It didn't sit well with him to be accused of war crimes he hadn't actually committed (aside from the ones he had-) that simply stuck to him like he had because the reflection of them remained in a gaze of one who'd had them committed against him. That Epraim guy that Mic had gone turbo-termination on for the hushed rumor circulating in court over soldier abuse? Adam wonders if the bottom of his boots felt like Michael's now.

The word 'love' out of Michael's mouth draws a similar scowl from the man, if only because the other doubted his own validity in understanding the concept. Perhaps love changed forms when it was lost too many times...but it still had the same fucking name. He was still Adam, despite what a far cry the flawless form he once inhabited like a cocoon that was yet to know it could be shed. Shred apart, and leaving, as Michael so lovingly put it with a dash of disgust- 'this'.

"So much for those love is unconditional sermons, huh? Guess it stopped being so convenient for you." Formed fangs flash with rebuttal, his axe the only defense he could muster to his defense and even that he could not lift without the dire straights of his soul being threatened upon. Michael was a force to cower from- to plead with and hope the shape one took of something non threatening and stoic without its own free will might convince him to use the undesirable canvas for a purpose deemed necessary. But Adam never was quite good at dick riding past a lowered gaze and a muffled 'sorry', despite the title of Exorcist he shared with the others.

"You're freakin' impossible, you know that?! I'm not you, Mic- I can't just love out of some hard wired code sequence in my infrastructure! Not after Lucifer-" Did he even need to elaborate? They're all part of the petty origin club here, and the fact that Mic wouldn't understand that he didn't blindly trust without reason to makes him wonder the validity of the other's membership. "I have to look for it to know it's legit. Have to find it. And I found her. Not the mannequin of a soldier they saddled me with just because they needed a mansitter. Just her."

He listens wordlessly to the seraphim's description of a person he simply couldn't recognize by his purported memories of her alone. For him, she had never existed in the same sense were any pieces of that part of her still a part of her own glass puzzle pieces to arrange in ways that suited him and the council. Much like the version of him that Michael knew from the garden didn't really exist for her. In a way, he felt like he knew what they were regardless, having lost similar shards of his own he'd long since discarded knowing they didn't fit into the grand design of his ascension past where humanity had landed out of their tumble from creation's good graces.

"Mic-" He finally croaks, licking his lips to help soothe the seared skin there as if the putrid components of hell's influence over his own spit could serve as a balm against the scars of a smiting's pre-amble. It's not a chance he wants to take- being burned by that vicious gaze, so he keeps his rolled back and trained on a ceiling fan that had somehow survived the angelic assault, but had stopped spinning.

A minute passes. Several do before he musters, "You remember the time when-...you went looking for me- back in the garden, I mean. Probably 'cause you had some weirdly specific anecdote you thought would even make sense at the time. And I waited for you to walk by so I could smack you with that branch I' pulled back when you passed through, but it just snapped back and knocked me over?" A snort and a shake of the head at the muddled memory has him clapping a talon across his cheek as if he could still feel the sting of the branch's parting swat of leaves after the bark of its strong arm had bowled him over.

"And after your made sure I didn't know myself out- so I could hear it, you fucking laughed at me...and when I got the breath knocked out of me back, I-"

Shifting, he cuts his eyes to the side to chance a look at the seraphim, cautious...weary. Amused.

"-laughed harder? You remember that, right? You remember...me ?" Before he'd fallen out of that tree and had his being split into Eve. Before he'd watched his closest buddy run off with his wife and then return to harm the other half of him that still naively believed that everyone had good intentions. Before he was forced through the eye of the needle that was the gate of heaven for a sullied human soul, every bone broken and piece of him smuggled through one at a time for him to be discreetly arranged later and found lacking something, even if no one could tell him what it was without drawing suspicion.

"When I look at her, I see- something cracked. So cracked, it's impossible to tell what it even fully was before." Talons digging into the axe's handle, he struggles a moment to sit up and edge his back against the desk next to the seraphim, grimacing and using his wing as an extra appendage to push against the floor on the other side of him. "We got a lot of busted out pieces between the two of us, but...we fill in each other's blanks. Call me a glazer, but I can't remember the last time I felt so-" The faintest hint of a smile gathered beneath furrowed brows as the gnarled ends of his talons pinch at the diamond shard suspended within his chest portal.

They shared a piece of each other now.

"...whole."

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[rouge-variant]

Hi! I was wondering if I could request something? I have big breasts that I’m really insecure about. I mean they’re not big enough to hurt me so I’m not getting surgery or anything, but I feel like they look weird and out of proportion with the rest of my body (which is smaller). I mean I know lots of people would say I’m lucky but I really hate them. Anyway I was wondering if I could get hcs of Levi w his so dealing with the same issue? If not I totally get it. Love ya 💜

I love you too!!! You use purple hearts like me 💜💜💜

This is something we don't see a lot of and I feel like we need to express this more. I'm the opposite of you, no curves and I have a similar feeling. So, let's embrace your wonderful self because in all honesty, I think Levi wouldn't mind and would adore you to bits! Hopfully this is what you were hoping for and advanced apologies if the title offended you. Please let me know if it did because that wasn't the intent and I will fix it for you!! So sorry for the wait!! Thanks for your request and I hope you enjoy!!

Levi with his S/O with Large Breasts Headcannons:

Trigger Warning: Mentions of attention drawn by noticble body features. Please keep this in mind while you read.

Out of all the things Levi is protective of you, your pride and self love is one of the top priorities. He wants to make sure that while he loves you, you also love yourself. So he'll be there to chase away the insecurities that float around you while you stand in the mirror or when clothes are just being a pain in the butt. He adores every aspect of you and couldn't care less if you suddenly sprouted a tail or a second head.

He's also very protective of your comfort level and your personal space. He knows that such features like yout chest tend to get unwanted attention from creeps so he's going to make sure that people act mature and respectful when they're with you. If anyone gets out of hand, ge'll deal with it so that you can finally be able to act normally.

Levi is the type of person to learn everything he can about bras, chest-taping, anything he can to help make things more comfortable for you. He knows that having a larger chest can strain your back muscles so don't be afraid to tell him your sore. He'll rub your back and find away to limit movement so that training isn't annoying and more painful than it should be.

Levi will be a flustered little bean for the first little while when you start dating. He'll apologize every time he accidentally looks at your chest for longer than two seconds. He doesn't want to make you uncomfortable and he also has very little people skills...the poor bean needs some reassurance too, just so he knows hes doing ok.

That being said, if you guys are both in a playful mood, he will lie his head on your chest and stay there. If you ask him what he's doing, he'll respond with: "Sleeping on my pillow". Or sometimes, if you're heart beat is very calm and he struggles to hear it, he'll give you a pouty look and complain about not being able to hear it because your chest is not cooperating. Its playful little banter that is special between the two of you.

Personally, I think Levi would have learned how to sew so that he can fix his cravat so we're going to use it here. If buttons or seems rip on your clothes, he would fix them for you. He know it can get embarrassing to have have to go places and explain why your clothes are roughed up. So if there's anything that he can't fix, he'll take it to the seamstress himself and let the secret stay between you two.

Levi makes sure to remind you constantly that he loves your chest just as much as he loves you without it. People constantly say that they love someone even without the aspect that causes the insecurity but your kind can easily twist that saying into something where you're now undesirable because of your chest size and smaller body proportions. He likes that it's different, because it's you. It makes it easier for him to recognize you. It adds a sense of individuality to you instead of you having the same body type so everyone else. You're special as a whole as well as individual parts.

You are amazing to Levi. He knows that struggles that you have to overcome when you stand out from the rest but you do it in style and that's something a lot of people can't do. They would be knocked down and just chose to stay down. But you get back up and it makes him so proud of you. You could handle yourself even without him but he chooses to keep helping you so that he can continue being the cheeky, beautiful and destructive person he fell in love with!

[pixie88]

Fic Ask Game

F: Share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

K: What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you'd care to share?

W: Do you like more general prompts, or more specific ones?

Hey @munstysmind 💜

Ok! 🤣 Let's see what we have here! Hope my answers don't disappoint!

F: Share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it?

I'm going to say the scene from Spiralling - Adam & Ellie's series Alone. Its where he find his wife on the kitchen floor sobbing her heart out because unbeknownst to her, she has PND which is something I struggled with after my fourth and it wasn't until I put the Alone series out there I told people outside my husband about it.

He puts his key in the front door, he can hear the kids crying, he makes his way inside as he comes into the living room, he spots Charlie on the sofa crying and Delilah in her swing crying, but Ellie is no where to be seen "Ellie?" he calls out as he makes his way to the kitchen he swings open the door spotting his wife crouched down on the floor, her head in her hands sobbing.

He makes his way over to her crouching down at to her pulling her hands away from her ears, she looks up at him, puffy eyed, tears streaming "Ellie?" her eyes fill again "I can't do this Adam! I can't do it!" he pulls his wife to him, wrapping her up in his arms "It's OK beautiful!" he pulls out his phone calling Elaine.

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

Probably fluff! I love fluff in both reading and writing.

K: What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

Hmm probably the characters Laura from Adam and Ellie and Vicky from Always the Bridesmaid and Addicted to you 🤔 I can't decide.

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you'd care to share?

So, @gloriousalmondvoiddreamer wants me to do a fics for Jensen Ackles where he falls for a co star on Supernatural. I did write the first chapter, but I think I'll wait to finish my other Supernatural fics first.

W: Do you like more general prompts, or more specific ones?

I love any prompts!!! 😍 I still have @secretaryunpaid and @aussieez to do 🤣🤣

Thanks for the ask lovely 😍

[seraphic-sapphic-safehaven]

yo its body positivity anon from,, a while back. im sorry its taken me such a long time to respond, but i just. wanted u to know that ur post made me cry (good tears!) ive never had anyone make me feel so okay and validated about how i feel? whenever i say anything to anyone they're always really dismissive, but when i read ur reply i just started sobbing because ive struggled w my body for so long and to have someone tell me that its ok and be so kind and supportive is just. 1/2

so incredibly amazing, and it felt so good to feel so seen and accepted and anyway this is getting very long so i'll wrap it up but thank you so so much. ill never be able to thank you enough for how you made me feel. i know it might seem rly small and unimportant but man like ur words made such a huge difference. so thank you so so much for that. i hope you're well, and i hope u know what an amazing person and influence u are for me and so many others. thank u 💖

Aww, nonnie, you're gonna make me cry (good tears as well)!!! This is so sweet oml 😭💕 Thank YOU so much for this message. Asks like this make me so fucking happy, y'all have no idea. They also help keep me going on this blog and just in life in general. And I promise you, this isn't small nor unimportant to me; messages like this mean the world to me and so does being able to make people happy! 😊 So really, thank you, bean 💖 And thank you for the compliments as well! I don't feel like I'm all that great of a person, but I still appreciate when people tell me they think I am. It boosts my self-esteem, so thank you for that as well!

I'm incredibly happy to have made you feel validated, accepted, and seen. That's the whole reason I'm here running this blog! And that's exactly how you deserve to feel!!!! Fuck anyone who dismisses your feelings. How you feel is important; you matter, and your feelings matter, too! Please remember that the next time someone tries to dismiss how you feel. And please remember: You matter. You are so important. You are loved. You are an amazing, wonderful person. You deserve acceptance, visibility, love, validation, and so much more. And your body and you yourself are so, so beautiful!!! 💗

I'm sending all my love and good vibes your way, nonnie. I hope you're doing well, too! Please take care of yourself, and please stay safe! 💖💛💚💙💜