#//I'm very sorry pls don't kill him I'm starting to get attached

[scarlet-leaves]

- I'm sorry, my friend, but he isn't yours to decide what or who deserve or not my sympathy. - The samurai smiled again, in a tentative to ease a little the mood, but he could feel his expression, more bitter and tense than he would have preferred.

His chest was starting to aching in that peculiar way that preluded to a disaster. He sighed deeply, slowly releasing the firm grip his fingers were in.

Much more in tune with his feelings than the puppet, he still didn't have too much experience in the matter. He couldn't tell if Akuji was toying with him, if he had misinterpreted the situation, if both of them did.

He knew that neither of them was in the place to think clearly about something like that.

(He knew that he can't stop himself to think to other fingers and others arms.)

He knew that he wouldn't let himself to be used, not for a botched suicide attempt and not for anything else.

He stood up, needing to distance himself from the heat that was building between them, looking down at him.

- I won't contradict you on the rest. You really are a monster. Do you know what it meant, originally?

He went back to stoking the bonfire, moving his gaze away from the burning one of the other man.

- Something incredible. Something too extraordinary to be understood.

Again, a little smile to reassure them both.

- Sadly we're programmed to fear what we can't understand, and monsters became something to watch out for.

He went silent again, occupying himself with the preparation of a makeshift bed for the night; after he had gained some distance he looked at him.

- Tomorrow I have quite the journey to make. Where were you going, if I may ask? I have to reach Liyue Harbor for the Lantern Rite. We can travel together, if you like.

He cocked his head on his shoulder, resuming the usual musical tone in his voice.

- I never feared monsters.

A dull laugh escaped the puppets’ lips. “You say this, but still chose to stay your blade with me? My existence isn’t worth any more than his.”

It is contradictory to him, defies his programming, and leaves him scrambling to build back what is beginning to crumble. Does he want to die? No, but neither will he run from the blade comes nor would he deny that he actively seeks it.

Always in between. Life and death. Human but not.

The state of Kazuaha, however, is enough to snap him back into a bit of sense and settle slightly in recognition of the samurai’s emotion which he does not fully understand. What kindness and care does he deserve?

To Akuji, it is a ghost of a feeling or maybe more of a spark. The name may not carry any weight to him, but it does for the puppet. It is an association carried through history, and while it is but a flicker and an association it is there. Lingering at the edges of his senses and unable to be pushed down.

His expression softened, and his hand moved to reach Kazuha before snapping his hands back to his lap. His eyes fell on them shortly after a soft realization of a different sort and he is conflicted. He’d spent a long-time burning emotion out of him, denying them and pushing them away, but never quite doing so fully. It was clear in his actions centuries ago, just as it is now.

Yet, the samurai is human. Breakable, withering and all too easily removed from existence, but he is also beautiful, kind…

To allow this spark to grow is to accept that pain again, but It is wanted even as he tries to shut it down.

“Kae…” Ajuki cut himself off considering what had happened and attempting to form a small divide between where the past ends and where Kazuha begins. His eyes were still fixed on his hands.

“Kazuha, I’m a monster and that face you make now… doesn’t suit you. I don't deserve your sympathy.”

[butterscotch-goat]

Your oc lore, please give it to me, I arrived very late and am rather confused but also incredibly intrigued! (Also side not idk how to explain it but your art is very comforting! Says the man who has seen 2 drawings. But my point still stands lol)

This means so much to me 🥹🥹 Im glad ur interested!!! I'll give u some quick summaries (quick as I can be bc once I start talking about my silly little blorbos it's hard for me to stop-)

IF YOU EVER HAVE QUESTIONS PLS ASK IM DYING TO TALK ABOUT MY GUYS

SO! First group of OCs is a project I'm currently calling "Escapism" which takes place in 1890s England. (Check the #buttersketch-escapism tag for content of em)

Okay so I started typing and realized I included WAYYY TOO MUCH info but I worked hard on it so I'll still include it, bUT

TLDR: Aster (tired, anxious, hopeful) is magic (plant magic) and is being used for experiments and tests by Charles(friendly guy, stubborn, cheery) and Beatrice(joyful, caring, passionate) until Beatrice herself becomes and experiment when Charles wants to find out what would happen if you attached wings to a human being. Also aster and Beatrice are girlfriends. Charles accidentally kidnaps Martha (extroverted, curious, peppy) because her magical(healing magic) girlfriend Grace died and Martha has info about her magic. Eventually Aster kills Charles and is haunted by her guilt, which is manifested in a character I call Ghost!Charles (self-explanatory)

Here's uhhh escapism for ya!! Sorry,, you don't have to read it there's a lot of text I know-

Second story which I haven't posted about as much as one I'm calling "Dawn" which takes place in the modern day, and is about demons & angels, heaven & hell & earth type stuff. Simpler than escapism, thank God- (check the #buttersketch-dawn tag for some content of dawn!!!!!)

Here's the cast!! Refs are somewhat outdated but do the job. (Sorry for the last image I don't have a ref for him yet)

I'll keep this short, for real this time!!

In 2019, Chigs accidentally falls off the edge of heaven and misses earth so they fall straight to hell. They didn't have any evil intent so are still an angel, but they need to find a way back to heaven. They stumble into Dawn's office and Dawn reluctantly agrees to help them. Frappe also barges into Dawn's office to hide, as she's on the run from the police. Gene comes around to check on Dawn and finds an outlaw and an angel. Dawn, Chigs, and Frappe run away to earth. Gene recruits Ronnette to help him track down the trio. The trio accidentally gets separated on their way to earth; Frappe and Chigs find each other but Dawn is left to navigate a modern day earth on her own. HIJINKS ENSUE!

time for some lore that's BARELY plot relevant!

Gene and Lucy used to be boyfriends but Gene broke up with Lucy in the 1920s because Lucy was so drowned in his work and wouldn't care about anything else. They get back together eventually tho :3 I make a lot of Lucy & Abigail content even tho he only shows up in like one flashback scene maybe??? Sorry about that.

Anyway THANK YOU FOR ASKING ABOUT MY GUYSSS I tried to keep it short, also bc it is getting late and I have school tomorrow OFBSHHDHFHDHSJ.

my inbox is ALWAYS open for questions of any kind so hmu if you ever have any!! Sorry again for all the info!!

[lunar-system]

the acolyte e7 liveblog

back in the past. this one is going to hurt.

a real setup for a tragedy. yes, osha should have followed the rules and stay inside the fortress to not be seen. no, there was never gonna be a way to make her obey. she had to go. it was inevitable.

climbing? in those robes? sol, you are insane

HE WENT ALL THE WAY IN THE FORTRESS SOOOOLLL NOOO

"we should return to the ship and ask the council for guidance" yes pls

"they do not treat the girls like children" you were right about that sol. they did not.

as a jedi, sol's weakness was his empathy. ironically that's also what made him so dangerous

mother aniseya had the upper hand when she got torbin under her power. but osha had power over her mother. nothing else could have swayed her. but it was inevitable

was it torbin? who caused the destruction? because he was humiliated?

"i worry she is not safe." it is true that osha was being almost forced to become a witch with the coven. at the same time it feels bad to hear sol echo the "think of the children!" sentiment that is so often used against queerness. he is the representative of the hegemonic power here. and he worries if the kids of the minority are truly safe with their family

"who is protecting this child if not the jedi?" again, a very "i know what's best for this minority" attitude from a representative of a powerful organisation

and at the same time, osha was not having good time at home. she was pressured. and at the same time she was loved. gahhh it's complex

"do not confuse what osha wants with you want" didn't we hear this sentiment echoed somewhere earlier in the series? i forgor

i am so scared to see what happened in young mae's test i don't know why but i am

"everyone must be sacrificed to fullfill their destiny" maeee nooo was it you who lead the jedi astray? you who are so proud of your people! you said those words proudly! and did not know how they sounded like to the outsider! mae I'm so sorry!

shit. the fact that there are no other children really makes it look like they were all child sacrifice before the twins.

i like this indara.

and the council made a reasonable decision not to separate the twins.

"do not alter this little girl's destiny because you have formed an emotional attachement to her." tooo laaaateeeee

"i want to do what's best for osha." you don't get to decide that." sol is such a weird combination of a genuinely caring person and a toxic parent who "knows best."

everything seems so good at this point. so is it something about the twins creation that twisted the jedi knickers so bad?

they are one soul!!

TORBIN YOU FOOL DON'T RUIN YOUR OWN LIFE

ironically, if mother aniseya hadn't encouraged torbin to ask for what he wants, he would not be doing this. They would have listened to the council's orders and left them alone. But because mother aniseya tried to scare them away, he accidentally gave torbin the courage to disobey.

oh shit fight-mother takes mae's side. oh shit war-mommy escalates the situation quiiickly. oh shit they believe the jedi are attacking.

MAE DIDN'T MEAN TO START THE FIRE MAE BABYYYY

Sol attacked an unarmed person. Noble intentions. Mother Aniseya is dead, killed by Sol. Fuck.

was it mae's fire that caused the explosions?

torbin's scar came from a possessed wookie!

did. did indara kill them all. just like that.

Sol made the fucking CHOICE to drop Mae. This is so much worse.

So. It was not… intentionally malicious from the jedi's part. I had started to believe more of Mae's story: that jedi is a colonising force that intentionally assimilates children. Well. The council had made a decision not to do that. So there is some understanding there. Still, the jedi managed to destroy a whole culture by being careless. It was the individuals unintented and ill-adviced decisions that led to this. An inevitable tragedy that could have been prevented in a countless little ways. And at the same time not.

Torbin has it the worst. He is too young. He will never recover.

Sol is older, but he is too soft for a jedi. He will carry a heavy burden.

An how endlessly cruel to turh osha against mae!

[oodles-of-noodles]

more google translated mess

hi it's been an hour and i'm back

"The door opened and my trembling fingers opened" i'm sorry, your FINGERS opened?

"Measurements, adrenaline, and. . .well, a little fear, but daddy will help you."

"Well, it's true, the aliens here have no bones and are very attached to the safety of life." i would be attached to the safety of life too, as a fellow boneless person

"“I-” I started, but I couldn’t come up with a good reason without sounding like a three year old who needs a stuffed animal all night. “This is Changa"" no, this is patrick 🙄🙄

"“Please,” she moaned, reaching out and pulling him closer with a mischievous smile." okay i..... i got lost here who's SHE and why is she MO--

"Achilles could not kill all these five people." achilles where did you come from get back with your bf

"Then he lay down. “Welcome.”" um??????

"“Gil.” I said in a broken voice" ah yes, gil, the thing everyone knows about

"He stroked my dck again. “How about we give it a try and move in together?" UM WHAT???? WHAT IS HAPPENING IM ????? THEYRE SUPPOSED TO BE EXPLORING AN ALIEN PRISON SINCE WHEN-??? ITS??? ITS FATHER AND SON????? WHAT???????

im done, bye 😭

no im not there's more

"I was taught positive thinking from preschool age so it was hard for me to think otherwise" ah yes, indoctrination

"The last word is ‘love’ because it tastes like lemon." how....

"He held a black metal ticket in his hand and watched the airport as we passed" what... since when did they get to an airport 😭 THEYRE IN A PRISON

"My heart and soul are facing down" me too buddy, man if this isn't a mood and a half

"“I have another problem,” he continued with an evil smile." me everyday

""THE?" I asked myself. The back door of the prison... a man?" A MAN? idek what's going on here

"Xena is a robot that steals your soul." darn ai. first they're stealing art now they're stealing souls

""Don't worry, I can put my head on my shoulders and try every day, okay?"" slow clap for that ladies and gentlemen, slow clap for sam's motivational words

"I answer a lot, rarely or never." me too (?)

"The giant centipede's roar echoed through the tunnel." WTF??? EVERYONE RUN

"My "good" hand is like my first hand. Then I fell into eternal darkness." noouououoooo sammmm ): don't do that to yourself ): thats mean

"Zeena got up happily and came with me. “What do you think of the black?”" oh no. sam. sam pls don't be racist.

"There are also good trees." cherry blossoms are nice, and willow trees 🙂‍↕️

"Take the slaves and destroy them before their eyes." sam..... i.... no.

k, NOW i'm done, so sorry that you had to witness that 😭 i may do more when i transcribe the rest, but for now im having mercy on you

[rxspbrrry]

Zhongli, venti, and raiden for bingo?

anon is an archon enjoyer and that's totally justified <3

starting off with zhongli (aka hoyo's favourite child) well. *breathes* deepest character backstory. no one else comes close, not venti, not raiden, maybe not even traveller (but that's a story for another time when traveller's story is revealed more). boy has mr geo archon been through SOOO MUCH in his life and i think his descend from archonhood is deserved :( while he's not my favourite character, he's definitely extremely interesting and i would definitely read up on more morax lore if hoyo would give it to us!!!!!!!!

i'm quite conflicted about his popularity and ship dynamics, since 1. he's the geo archon so it's expected he'll get lots of screentime. and his character trailer was (still is) the most legendary of everyone else's so that really gained him a lot of fame, not to mention he's an insanely good support in the game rn. not complaining because the screentime and popularity he gets is made up for by his complex backstory ;)) and 2. his ships are actually quite cute if i look at them alone, but fandom really ruined his ships (ahem ahem tartali) for me so :")

VENTI BOY MY FAVOURITE ARCHON FR FR (at least, before hydro archon release, that is LOL) you already know how much i adore him!!! ohhh the urge to reach through the screen and hug him and rub his back and relief him of all his burdens and trauma :((((( HOYO THIS IS YOUR CALL TO DROP MORE VENTI LORE NOW PLS PLS PLS PLS I AM SO SICK OF INAZUMA I DON'T WANT TO SEE MORE RAIDEN THIGHS OR YAE MIKO PRANKS OR AYAKA I JUST WANT MONDSTADT SCREENTIME (tbh all mondstadt characters deserve more screen time, we only have like what 4 limited mondstadt 5*????)

was kinda hesitant on putting "wasted potential" but in venti's second rerun (irodori festival) i really wanted to see more "barbatos" venti but all we got was.. drunk venti. goddamnit hoyo.

raiden, oh raiden.... i'm gonna be super honest. she's my least favourite genshin character. /srs i really, really don't get the appeal and i hate hate!!!! how sexualised the genshin community made her </3 hoyoverse also rushed the inazuma arc + both her story quests which made it very, very difficult for me to get attached to her. see the first 2 acts of the inazuma quest is basically her trying to kill you but then all of a sudden the conflict in the 3rd archon quest is solved with some bullshit power of friendship within 2 hours. hooray. let's totally forget about how she killed kazuha's friend, nearly killed us more than once, nearly took thoma's vision away, and terrorised the whole of inazuma for her own desires. so yeah. hoyoverse's terrible writing combined with terrible fandom made me LOATHE raiden ei. i'm sorry but literally nothing, no amount of sob story can redeem her in my opinion because i cannot ignore all the terrible things she did.

for the "popular ships suck" part, i don't hate eimiko 😔 like yeah i get the appeal, friends 2 lovers, pink and purple colour scheme, super close yadayada, but it doesn't make me feel something towards their ship lol. i don't enjoy it as much as i enjoy kokosara, even though both ships are based off popular ship dynamics so </3