#//I had no idea I rped so many people lmao

[thewolfruns]

get to know the author!

name : lucia

pronouns :  she/her

preference of communication : i like a tumblr im at first, but then it's discord once we know one another/are mutuals. i'm super adhd/working/a mom, so it's easy for me to lose track thinking i've responded to messages that really i just read and then replied in my head to. so don't be afraid to double message me.

most active muse :  hmmm, i'm not sure who is most active? maybe blanca, since she's a newer one and i'm trying to figure her out.

experience / how many years : oh, gosh. well, i've sort of rped earlier than tumblr, but it was a long time ago. i'd say i started on tumblr in maybe 2013? 2012? i ran a game of thrones fashion blog lmao and an rp hit me up for a promo. i was like, this seems cool and joined. then i joined hellstate in 2015, which was a zombie rp and where i met velouria! we've been writing together ever since both in groups and indie.

best experience : i miss group rp a lot sometimes, because of the shared universe and like community there. i think hellstate was my best experience and like 2015 hellstate was peak. there's so much like shared lore and it's really fun when a group works. velouria has had quite a few amazing brainchildren we've built together, so maybe another fave would be southboundhq, which deserved so much more time! now we work on verses and that's p great. aside from that, i've really been enjoying this account since i started fresh. i've got quite a few people to write with who seem both interested in worldbuilding/their own muses and in mine as well. so thank you all!

rp pet peeves : oh, gosh. weird vocabulary fads? like eyes being called hues. there's nothing really wrong with it, but it makes me laugh at how things like that really catch on in the rpc. when folks don't have much to add in plotting conversations and it feels sort of like you're the only one keeping the conversation going. i feel too awkward! i can't do it!

fluff, angst, or smut : oh, gosh, angst. i don't write smut and i'm not really super into fluff either? unless it's like a little meme answer or drabble, which can be a nice refresher. but i'm here for the horror and drama okay.

plots or memes : i like a loose plot, but i'm very go with the flow. it's more exciting though to have an idea where we're going with something. i think that's why my open starters are so long lmao because i need to paint a clear picture of where it's going.

long or short replies : i like a short reply for when i'm trying to break out of a writer's block or, like right now, dusting off my writing cap. they almost always turn into much longer replies though. i can't stop myself. i want like 87 paragraphs and i have no chill.

time to write : has to be nighttime, babies. i have a pretty great couple hours like 8 nights a month where i can really get to writing. it's always after my kiddo goes to sleep and my spouse is working (unless we're like parallel playing and he's gaming or cooking or something, then i get a little more time).

are you like your muses : oh, there's definitely aspects of myself in most of my muses. or people i know. or i write muses to work through certain things (i.e. neve has a lot of job similarities/family history for working through some trauma, nadja has some old punk rock memories and sort of an amalgamation of old friends and my mom, miguel has sort of similar personality to my partner, etc.) i sort of just steal elements from myself or people i know and mold them together into someone new. but i don't think i share like an overall personality with any of them.

tagged by: @missmvrder

tagging: @someotherdog , @wynterlanding , @mutatedangels , @peachyuus , @mctionsick , @aliasmultimuse , and anybody else! tagging folks gives me anxiety lmao. i hate leaving people out.

[angeledwings]

Roleplay history

The rules are simple! Post ten characters you’d like to roleplay as, have role-played as and might bring back. Then tag ten people to do the same (if you can’t think of ten characters, just write down however many you can and tag the same amount of people). Aside from that, please repost instead of reblogging!

CURRENTLY PLAYING:

Rinoa Heartilly

Komand’r Blackfire (Animated Teen Titans series / Fox’s Gotham (heavy HC) )

WANT TO PLAY:

Zara Baker (My only OC ever. I haven’t written since 2005. I really miss her lol. I won’t though.)

HAVE PLAYED:

Agnès Oblige (Bravely Default / Bravely Second)

Tifa Lockhart (FINAL FANTASY VII / DISSIDIA / DOUDECIEM / ADVENT CHILDREN etc.)

Edea Kramer [Possessed] (FINAL FANTASY VIII)

Ultimecia (FINAL FANTASY VIII)

Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII (FINAL FANTASY IX)

Kefka Palazzo (VERY brief) ( FINAL FANTASY VI)

Rikku (FINAL FANTASY X/X-2)

Yuna (FINAL FANTASY X/X-2)

Lulu (FINAL FANTASY X/X-2)

Aya Drevis (MAD FATHER)

Rose Thomas (FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST ‘03)

Lightning Farron (FINAL FANTASY XIII)

Lenne (FINAL FANTASY X-2)

Stella Flueret (FINAL FANTASY XV/VERSUS XIII)

Quina (FINAL FANTASY IX)

Koriand’r Starfire ( TEEN TITANS ANIMATED SERIES)

Aerith Gainsborough (FINAL FANTASY VII / ADVENT CHILDREN / CRISIS CORE etc.)

Kikyo (INUYASHA)

General Beatrix (FINAL FANTASY IX)

WILL/WOULD PLAY AGAIN:

Kikyo (INUYASHA)

Agnès Oblige (BRAVELY DEFAULT / BRAVELY SECOND)

Lenne (FINAL FANTASY X-2)

TAGGED BY: @dawnblxde (TYSM ♥) TAGGING: Honestly, anyone who wants to answer these questions. I have no idea if this type of survey bothers people or not so I won’t tag. (I LOVED IT THOUGH) However, if you want to do this feel free to use me as the one who tagged you! <3

[starsdeath]

———  basics! ♡

(PEN)NAME:  boo / bo / spookington

PRONOUNS:  she /

ZODIAC SIGNS: taurus

TAKEN OR SINGLE:  single, so single, i only like fictional people

TIME ZONE:  mountain standard time aka midwestern america pretty much

———  three  facts! ♡

i have a close to 13 years old kitty named lyra, who i named after a fictional magical leopard with wings from one of my favorite books series that i had when i got her (which was about 13 years ago lol).

i am very slowly working on building my own d&d world as i love d&d / critical role / dimension 20, and I am also working on a couple novel ideas and a lot of poetry.

i have fantastically bad luck with computers a lot of the time lol.

———  experience ! ♡

i started rping technically in about 2009 with some of my friends, a lot of which was a combo between pen and paper, as well as using facebook messages to rp, and it was a lot of naruto / bleach / whatever anime we were all into at the time worlds that we rped in. i definitely had a very overpowered and mary sue-ish character, though i've tried to do a lot of work in making my characters less like that and more like, reasonably powerful / odd in relation to the world they're for and the lore i've built for them? if that makes sense.

i didn't rp for about four years and then picked it up again sometime in 2016 where i did tolkien rp (which was actually quite fun) and then i proceeded to go more into the video game direction for what universes and characters i wanted to rp in, and up until about last year, i only rped as my own original characters because i was way too scared to try my hand at canon characters. the most i did canon-wise was write characters that were canon adjacent, such as one of my current muses, though the blog is on hiatus rn, who is the good hunter / ashen one / chosen undead for the souls games, and that is the closest i got until friends got me into genshin and eventually this blog was born.

i did rp the most consistently during the 2018-2020 period probably, with ocs, but with life in general i tend to take a couple month long breaks periodically.

———  muse preference !  ♡

ladies and nonbinary folks are the muses i'm most comfortable with (and definitely part of why i headcanon so many canon characters as being nonbinary), though over the last year / year and a half, i really have been trying to write more men and get more comfortable writing men. so, even though i sort of default to nonbinary folk and ladies, i also do enjoy writing men, even if i still feel like i struggle with them a little bit sometimes.

———  FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡    

FLUFF:  i can not stress how much i love fluff. i love it so much, and it always brightens my day!

ANGST:  i enjoy it! i have learned that i do have to be careful to not write too much angst with nothing else, esp if there's a lot going on irl because it just isn't good for me, but as long as i can manage it well (which i'm pretty good at by now i like to think), then i actually really enjoy doing angst. especially if it's a thing that can help with character development. plus, i have a lot of sad thoughts about my muses so, it works lol.

SMUT: i'm pretty chill with it! i like smut, though i am very out of practice with it lmao, and it's not something i've done too often. i'd be open to doing it more, even though i do tend to gravitate towards fluff the most, if i can combine smut with fluff or angst, then i'm definitely groovy lol.

PLOT / MEMES:  i don’t mind either approach honestly, though i feel like i struggle with plotting sometimes so i tend to do memes more. however! i would like to do plotting more / get better at plotting. on the other hand though, i love memes so much, and i do like to hoard them sometimes, so yeah. i really like both though i tend to do more memes even though i am trying to definitely be better about plotting.

TAGGED: stole it from @txnichtgut

[takinghisbow]

get to know the mun ! 

𝗥𝗘𝗣𝗢𝗦𝗧 𝗗𝗢𝗡’𝗧 𝗥𝗘𝗕𝗟𝗢𝗚.

———  𝗕𝗔𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗦 !

𝗣𝗘𝗡𝗡𝗔𝗠𝗘:  nicole. 

𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗡𝗢𝗨𝗡𝗦: she/they. 

𝗭𝗢𝗗𝗜𝗔𝗖 𝗦𝗜𝗚𝗡: double gemini babey + cancer rising. 

𝗧𝗔𝗞𝗘𝗡 𝗢𝗥 𝗦𝗜𝗡𝗚𝗟𝗘: single.

———  𝗧𝗛𝗥𝗘𝗘  𝗙𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗦 !

I absolutely have to sleep with sound and a light source (ie. a computer, a tv). I know that this is bad for me, but my anxiety won’t let me sleep in pitch black silence.

I used to take horseback riding lessons when I was younger and someday I plan on getting back into it (and maybe even leasing/owning a horse eventually if I get lucky).

I’ve been told I have a unique accent despite growing up in one (1) town my entire life. Someone from the same area once asked what country (and then state) I was from?????

———  𝗘𝗫𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗜𝗘𝗡𝗖𝗘 !

I’ve rped on tumblr since 2018 I think. Prior to that, I have many, many years of experience in various games, forums, through email, etc.

———  𝗠𝗨𝗦𝗘  𝗣𝗥𝗘𝗙𝗘𝗥𝗘𝗡𝗖𝗘 !

If the character ain’t complex, I’m going to end up dropping them or barely writing them. Or more so, if I can’t really dig deep with the character, it’s never gonna work. That doesn’t mean there aren’t exceptions, but my most active muses are usually characters that have a lot of depth to explore. I mean [gestures at this blog].

——— 𝗙𝗟𝗨𝗙𝗙 / 𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗦𝗧 / 𝗦𝗠𝗨𝗧 !

𝗙𝗟𝗨𝗙𝗙: Fluff is great!! My only issue with it in threads (versus uncontinued asks) is that, without more to the thread, I often end up losing muse and dropping it. If there’s momentum in the thread (the thread is going in a certain direction) OR if the fluff itself is enabling relationship buildings/character or relationship exploration, that’s fun! But directionless fluff tends to be better for uncontinued asks imo.

𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗦𝗧: Oh, you know I’m a big fan. Particularly hurt/comfort (because I like happy endings), but I enjoy exploring angst in general. There are times I’m not in the mood for straight-up angst, but it’s uncommon.

𝗦𝗠𝗨𝗧: I enjoy writing smut, especially in a well-developed ship. If we’ve really spent time establishing the relationship and their dynamic, smut can be really fun to explore. I do sometimes have to be in the right mood to write it, tho.

———  𝗣𝗟𝗢𝗧 / 𝗠𝗘𝗠𝗘𝗦 !

Memes are so good for giving room for creativity, plus as a first interaction. Plotting is something that, at this point, is mostly reserved for people I’ve written with awhile and had some level of ooc interaction with (it’s the social anxiety). I personally feel that plotting only works when one or both people have a definitive idea(s)—which is why I no longer do plotting calls. If you wanna hit me up about something on my wishlist (or on yours!), I’m game. But trying to plot from nothing make my whole brain go blank lmao

stolen from: @heldwoven

tagging: anyone who wants to do it <3

[blindedguilt]

Leonard's Paedophilia - Some Thoughts

So,,, yeah under the cut since this can be some triggering stuff and talks just a LITTLE about trauma from sexual abuse so be warned (it mostly just is me talking about what I think happened and some results of me glancing at a few wiki pages)

So uh,,, I decided out of sheer boredom and hope to better understand Leonard's character to do some research into the causes of paedophilia and the overall theme seemed to be reduced gray matter and/or/because of injuries in the front and mid portion of the brain (I'm certain about the frontal part, though I might have to check again to see if it was the mid-portion or something else). Of course, there is also it stemming from trauma as well.

As for my thoughts on it I honestly just think that it was an unfortunate accident/genetic(?) thing,,, moreso accident bc y'all KNOW the shit in 1067 wasn't too great,, of course there are a VARIETY of different things you could do with this, but like,,, for the sake of remaining respectful and wanting to portray Leonard the best I can, this is what I came up with.

Childhood sexual abuse seemed to be a very prominent factor in the people themselves becoming paedophiles down the line, either as a "coping method" or a plain and simple trauma response. I honestly scraped this first for a variety of reasons, mostly that it didn't fit, like, at all,,, and just,,, while it is very real it’s tiring just seeing victims of sexual assault turning into the abusers themselves and nothing else Second biggest theory regarding the origins of paedophilia in adults was about head trauma as a child, especially under 6 years of age. the idea is that it messes up the temporal While I find this whole theory to be,,, nice???? Perhaps a bit more fitting (Especially to my own rped kind of Leonard, who is as close as I can make it but with a few extra hdcs and lore,,, like how I headcanoned him to be a complete and utter klutz as a child.). I always had liked the idea of a butterfly effect, and the thought of a small accident from childhood leading into far greater consequences in the future, but that’s also where my main issue with this arises. It’s nice, fitting for the character in both my RPed version and even canonically (My headcanons being based on canonical Leonard), but I wouldn’t say it’s fitting for the tone of the story. There’s one that wins out for that. Genetic inheritance/Unfortunate mutation. In a lot of Yoko Taro stories, it seems a lot of times characters are thrown into hopeless situations and either end up being corrupted and/or broken by them or, if they already are corrupted, worsening it by their own hands. Caim’s parents being killed was ultimately out of his hands, it ended up shattering him and in many cases his bloodlust is what drives the game forward by substantially ruining or not actively looking to fix the situation. Inuart never had the slightest idea Furiae would be chosen as goddess, but eventually the protectiveness that grew for her in this situation lead him to being used by the Empire. Just about every character in not just Drakengard, but the Drakenier series in general follows this sort of character-driven pattern, which is why I think the incident that was out-of-hands for Leonard was his own birth. Being born with issues in the frontal and center areas of the brain (That in a VERY small nutshell deals with reward systems, compulsivity, and serotonin levels), worsening that situation (The deaths of his brothers while he was out-you-know-what) and thus setting the plot forward is just,,, a very Drakengard-ish way of handling things. The reason for Leonard’s paedophilia is never stated in the game, or even any of the side materials (From what I’m aware of, I honestly wouldn’t be surprised if there was something lmao) and I’m honestly glad for it, because not only can I feel selfishly proud it inadvertently proved my little theory/view of it (If you can even call it a theory), but it’s just that: There is no reason. Sometimes people are just born like that. It’s a hard truth, but Drakengard isn’t really the most pleasant of games and Leonard isn’t the most pleasant of characters. I love the character because of his controversy and his writing which really allowed me to just sit back and remember “Damn, I hate to admit it but like,,, even the worst kinds of people are human, and that makes them individuals with like,,, nuance and shit” ??? if that makes sense. All in all, I honestly think they did a great job writing Leonard’s character and keeping respectfulness and awareness at the forefront. While I would have liked to see it put a bit more boldly and have it explored more (Reminder: There was gonna be a LOT of shit about Leonard’s past and his whole deal from the sound of it. But only scenes unanimously approved by the board were allowed. WHAT FUCKING SCENES ABOUT HIS PAST GOT IN BESIDES THE INTRODUCTION???? is it a secret code I gotta put in the game settings???? 0723, right??? right??????), I can really understand they had both Yoko Taro and Takuya Iwasaki on a leash during the development of this game. maybe next time, folks. The story behind why he can stand on one foot for 24 hours, though, I’m free to make whatever shit up I want about that. and trust me, i have.

[vaguekiwi]

How is it like writing with Jae or any other writers? Is there anything that’s particularly easy or hard when you co-write? Or anything else? I just wanted to ask because I’m considering co-writing with someone for the first time! Thank you 💞

Hi anon! I've answered an ask similar to this here. But I've got more specific thoughts under the cut now that I've been RPing a few months.

First of all, and this may not be true for everyone, I see RPing and co-writing as different. In my experience, RPing means you take on a character and you're "in charge" of their actions, thoughts, and dialogue. The other RPer responds to what your character is doing/saying. Other characters might be managed by one RPer or both, or negotiated/discussed beforehand for what they're going to do and say.

Cowriting is more flexible. In the past, I've cowritten with friends by brainstorming together or taking turns writing scenes or chapters. In my experience, we discuss a lot more detail so we "know what's coming" with what the characters are thinking or doing or what happens next. In contrast, RP has a bit more of the element of surprise to it (though you can discuss and plan out all the details for your RP too.)

Betareading / Alphareading / Editing is usually one writer and one person who reads over the first draft. This can be someone who proofreads, someone who helps plot out the rest of the story, or someone who suggests changes to the plot/characters/etc. That being said, I've had betareaders who were involved so closely they basically co-wrote the story; just this weekend, Jae and Kiki helped me hammer out a few scenes in a fic to decide how they should end; and I've also had folks just do a grammar check for me to keep an eye on the commas.

What's Easy

Motivation is really easy. You're responsible for less, which means you can take the writing process in as-small or as-large quantities as you want. If I want to send Jae two sentences, I can; if I want to send her twenty paragraphs, I can. Sometimes that changes depending on my energy, the scene, and what I have time for.

The back-and-forth nature of cowriting and RPing also means brainstorming and developing ideas is really easy. You always have a friend to go to to discuss ideas, talk about the future of the story you're writing, or think about which direction you want to take if you brainstorm multiple options

Depending on how close you are with the person you're collaborating with, talking about something you want to change could be easy or could be hard.

What's Hard

Productivity is a mixed bag. On the one hand, you can write a lot of rough draft very quickly. But the initial quality of that draft may be lacking, and if you're waiting to hear back from someone then you're not necessarily "moving forward" with your fic vey much.

For example, Jae and I have drafted 1,500 words this week in an RP. I also drafted 15,000 words this week for a fic. But a few months ago, Jae and I RPed about 30k in a weekend while I independently drafted about 700 words. It just depends on the story and time availability and what you're able to do. And having those "bite-size chunks" for yourself with the back-and-forth can help a lot.

And keep in mind: any rough draft is better than no rough draft.

The only other tough spot I've found is sometimes (especially with RPs) scenes can get into a bit of a loop. As in, if you and the person you're writing with don't know exactly what should happen next, your characters end up waiting for something to happen without the other ever initiating anything. I like to think I'm pretty good at throwing curveballs in to spark some action, and of course you can always just go back to the drawing board with the person you're cowriting with.

Above all else:

1. Keep your expectations manageable. You do not need to reply right away. Neither does the person you're working with.

2. Speak up when you need to. If something needs to change, or the ball needs to get rolling because everyone's been sitting around for 500 words, then talk about it.

3. RPing and cowriting with people you're already friends with tends to be easier, but there's always always always more to learn from other writers and creators. So jump in, bring as many ideas to the table as you can, and be kind to yourself and your cowriters.

Tagging @snowstark cause you're repeatedly mentioned lmao.

[alfalfasalads]

Tagged by @interstellarmesswrites

1. Why did you choose your url?

It's been my handle since 2014 :> At this point taking any other username feels weird, you know?

2. Any side blogs?

Nope. I keep thinking I should make a sideblog to keep my art there, or at least a sideblog to keep my fandoms neat and tidy as to avoid spamming my mutuals, but.... ehh, I keep forgetting to make it, and when I do make it I keep forgetting to reblog there.

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

I've been on and off of Tumblr for....10, 11 years? I started here because RP tumblrs were all the rage, but I just like how you can curate your own space, so I stayed here, even if I haven't RPed on Tumblr in over 7 years.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Not really? I try to, but I just... keep forgetting. I'm all over the place

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I dunno, I just like this platform lol. But this particular blog? I had a tumblr of the same name until this past march, but I deleted it because I needed a fresh start. Mmmm, that fresh tumblr smell. ....Well, no. Not really. If I can summarize it though, "Fandom Drama" is a good way to pin it down. I just blocked the concerned parties and am now cozily rebuilding from the ashes now.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

I got tired of the Tumblr filler icon. I'll switch it around some other time.

7. Why did you choose your header?

No idea.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

My old blog had Psychonauts fanart that clocked at 220 notes. Even after it's defunct you can still find that particular doodle on Pinterest. Nowadays, it's a Hollow Knight Fanart, at 3 notes lol. But I'm actually quite happy not being in the limelight. I just draw whatever I feel like, whenever I have the energy to.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

11 of em! They're all really cool beans and good eggs.

10. How many followers do you have?

12 followers (if you don't include the spam bots I keep having to block)

11. How many people do you follow?

About 70 folks. My mutuals, and some really neat artists I look up to for inspiration.

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

The question is rather: "When is a post not a shitpost?"

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?

Too much, but not nearly as much as I used to. I just go on a massive scroll/reblog binge once or twice a day, then go on with my day.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

Ha. Ha ha. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Many a bridge was burnt over that lmao. If you're someone from the TF2 Discourse era from 2010-2012, and you stumble upon this, I am terribly sorry. I was kind of a jerk back then.

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I scroll. I'm sorry, I don't have the energy for holier-than-thou posts anymore.

16. Do you like tag games?

Only if it's from my mutuals!

17. Do you like ask games?

Depends! I have anon off for a reason!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

Uhhhhhhh.... I dunno??

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

No.

20. Absolutely no pressure tags:

If you wanna do this, go for it?

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #278

“they will seduce you, get through the door; then they bite you in the neck, leave you bleeding on the floor.”

Do you believe in dream symbolism? If so, do you ever look up what certain things in your dreams may mean? Some, yes, others, no. A lot just seem way too random to have stories behind them, but just as well, some dreams are obviously stemmed from our experiences, fears, desires, etc. Who was the last person who exploded on you? What was the reason? I have no idea, but probably Mom. Is there a certain name that keeps popping up in your life, like a name that many people you know have? No. What is something you have a "love/hate relationship" with? What do you hate about it, and what do you love about it? The first thing that comes to mind is technology. I grew up way too dependent on in despite my mom being a good mother that really tried to limit my time of it. It just never worked. Almost everything I do involves a computer. Through the Internet though, I’ve made spectacular friends, discovered great things (coughcoughmark), it helps me through depression and stuff… but I nevertheless hate how attached I am to it. Sometimes I feel like I’m so disconnected from the “real” world, “real” experiences, but then again, I also believe tech is a part of the “real” world. Idk how to really explain it; I have such mixed feelings. Do you like things that are cliché or not? What kinds of things that are regarded as "cliché" do you like? Sure, especially romantic cliches. I’m just such a sucker for that kind of stuff. What was the last quote you read somewhere, and who said it? “Speak your mind even if your voice shakes,” Ruth Ginsburg. We truly lost a hero. Have you heard any song mash-ups (when they put two or more different songs together) that you like? If so, which? Oh, quite a lot, I love those! The first one that comes to mind is “Centuries” by Fall Out Boy and “Radioactive” by Imagine Dragons. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had in 2014? Well, this is old. But anyway, I had one. How often do you say ‘lol’ in a computer or text conversation? Quite a bit. Idk, it just changes the tone of what you’re speaking. Whose hoodie did you wear last? My own. Have you ever listened to music you hated just to fit in? Ha ha… not devoutly, but I’d explore “cool” metal bands to try to get into. I didn’t make myself listen to them if I didn’t like ‘em, though. What’s an interesting fact about you that not many people know? Hm. Well, I don’t consider it “interesting,” but very few people (besides the Internet lmao) know that I essentially stole my then-best friend’s boyfriend by mutual flirting to the point he broke up with her and wanted me instead. I cut that shit the fuck out once he told me he loved me. It’s one of the things I’m most ashamed of. What do you want to do after high school? I’m long past high school, and let’s just say things are NOT going as planned lmao. At all. I had such, such a different vision. Do you do anything embarrassing when no one is home? No. If you had the chance to move to a completely different state/country, would you? I deadass want to move to Canada but am unwilling to move so far from my family. How old were you when you stopped believing in Santa? I don’t know age; it’s funny, I tend to remember things by school grades versus my age. Even in this situation, though, I’m not positive. Towards the end of elementary school, maybe? Do you have any saved texts? Yes, from Sara and Ashley. Do you ever play online games with your friends? Which one(s)? Once upon a time, my friend/”big brother” Sam and I would play WoW together every day and just chill out over Skype. He helped keep me company during my worst depression. We haven’t played together in quite a long time, though. I should message him. Which emoji did you use most recently? The upside-down smiley face on Facebook. Who was the last person to cry in your presence? Mom, probably. Or one of my nieces or nephew. Do any of your friends have small children? Yes. One of my closest friends had her son not even two weeks ago. Do you ever wear accessories in your hair? Which ones? No. What kind of fruit do you like? A good chunk of it. Strawberries, apples, grapes, pineapple, bananas, peaches… Is there anything you've always wanted to do that you've never told anyone? *shrugs* Maybe. Do you flush the toilet with your hand or your foot? ”I use my hand at home and in other people’s bathrooms, but I use my foot in public washrooms.” <<<< Same. What is your Myers-Briggs Type Indicator? (Ex: ENTP): INFP. Do you read any blogs? If so, which ones? No. Would you rather have curvy legs or skinny legs? I’d prefer to have an in-between. What is your favorite game show? Family Feud with Steve Harvey. How many times a day do you use the restroom? Hm. Depends on how much I drink. What was the last thing that made you cringe? Idr. What is your favorite ‘80s movie? I’m not sure, given how I don’t tend to recognize movies by decades. Do you have your own car? No. I don’t drive. Who was the last person who drew you a picture? I commissioned someone on deviantART to draw My Child Jaw and it is so FUCKING beautiful. Would you rather hold a scorpion or a snake? I love snakes, so guess. How do you usually get your exercise? I don’t, but that’s going to change when we FINALLY fuckin move. I’m going to walk as much as I possibly can because we have a sidewalk. Who are your godparents? Idk if I even have any. Are any of your siblings married? Three are and one is engaged. What does your phone case look like, if you have one? It came with a plain purple one. What is something you can draw really well? I think I’m pretty good at meerkats. Best field trip experience? The zoo in the 5th grade. One and only time I’ve seen meerkats irl. What is the most amount of money you’ve spent on a meal before? Idr. It’s very rare I can pay for anything because I don’t have an income, but with gifted money and stuff, it was probably when I paid for my mom and I to eat at Olive Garden. I don’t recall how much it was, but OG isn’t cheap, so. Who was (or is) the teacher that gave you the hardest time in school? Idk. I had good teachers. What is the strangest thing you’ve ever seen outside of your house? I don’t know. Nothing exciting. Do you ever feel self-conscious when you eat around other people? Not really, no. There are cases where I do, like if I take too big a bite or something, but generally I don’t. Everyone has to eat. What is the worst thunderstorm you’ve experienced? I recall one in particular during my era of being terrified of them when we were on the way home from a friend’s house and there was INSANE lightning. I was crying so much in the back seat. I think I have experienced worse ones, that’s just the one I remember because of how much it terrified me. How quickly can you write an essay? Pretty damn quickly once I get into the groove of it. Have you ever had problems falling asleep in class? No. What bug frightens you most? Oh yikes, idk. A lot of bugs scare me, honestly, particularly if they surprise me. Probably rhinoceros beetles. Are your parents supportive of you? Very. Have you ever participated in a mock trial, or a real trial? No. Have you ever had sex in someone else’s bed/bedroom? lol oops Have you ever had sex on your bedroom floor? How about your living room floor? YIKES this survey getting frisky but anyway idk. When you kiss someone, do you like to play with their hair? Yeah. Do you regret sleeping with anyone? No. Do you ever brush your hair before you go to bed? No…? Your hair is just gonna get messy while sleeping. Have you ever asked anyone out? Do you prefer to do the asking out, or wait to see if the other person will ask? Yes. I don’t really have a preference. Have your parents ever disapproved of anyone you had a relationship with? Not to my knowledge. When’s the last time you ran? HUNNY Brittany doesn’t RUN. Have you ever stayed online for a long time waiting for someone? Oh yes, I did that A LOT with Mini back when we were younger and RPed together like every day. Who or what sleeps with you? Roman, my cat. Would you wear a boy/girlfriend’s clothes? I somehow wound up with quite a few of Jason’s pj pants?????? But anyway yeah sure, I would. If it fit, anyway. Do you return your cart? I am a lazy person. But not that lazy. Do it. What noise do you hear? I’m currently listening to NateWantsToBattle’s cover of “Feel Good Inc.” Would you survive in prison? No. No. I know I’d try to commit suicide. Do you remember the last movie you saw while on a date? The IT remake with Girt. Have you ever cheated on someone? No sir. Do you kiss on the first date? I never have, but not saying I wouldn’t. BUT I most likely would not just because I reserve kisses for someone I really, really like. Usually by the first date I wouldn’t know that yet. Are you into sports? Nope. Have you ever used your bra to hold things like you would a pocket? HAHA I don’t think so. Who knows a secret about you that no one else does? My ex-therapist. What is your longest relationship to date? 3 ½ years. Who ended the last relationship you were in? It was brought up by her, but it came to be a mutual decision. Have you ever gotten back with an ex? No. Who was your first prom date? Jason. Have you ever dated someone more than three years older than you? For less than a day. Have you ever been used? I don’t think so. Do you like when I guy takes you by surprise and kisses you? This is making quite a few assumptions, but anyway, if we’re in a stable relationship, generally yes. It’s cute. Would you be more likely to date a redneck or a goth? My dream partner would be a goth, hnnnnnnnnGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. Has anyone ever sung to you? Yes. Do you like massages? EW don’t touch me like that unless you’re my s/o. Have you ever been skinny dipping? No. When was the last time you spent the night at someone else's house? The last time I was at Sara’s. What scares you more, spiders or snakes? Spiders. Does it matter if a guy has a sense of humor? If he’s a romantic interest, yeah. Would you ever get implants? No. Have you ever had a crush on a sibling's friend? No. Have you ever dated someone with a child? No. I’m quite sure I wouldn’t. Have you ever dated someone of another race? For less than a day. Have you kissed anyone today? No. What was the last topic you read about? I beliiieeeve… Metallica’s new album. Have you ever participated in a fundraising campaign? I think? Again, I don’t have an income though so I’m unsure. Do you know how to knit? No. What’s your go-to order from KFC? I don’t go there. What was the last album you listened to in full? Oh man, there’s no telling. I generally don’t do that. Do you use pepper to season your food? Sure, that’s a common enhancement. Do you know anyone who has an unusual pet? Probably somebody. Have you ever known anyone who was homeless? My mother, Nicole, and I technically were at one point, we just had spectacular people let us live with them until we got a new place. Did you have a treehouse when you were younger? No. One does not simply build a treehouse in pine trees. Have you ever played Magic: The Gathering? Guys. Guys. For many many months now I’ve been dying to and idk why. That game was one of Jason’s favorite things in the world and so he taught me it how to play, though I never fully got it because there are a LOT of rules. When I had my PS3, I had one of the Duels of the Planeswalkers games, and I miss that shit. What are your thoughts on role playing games? Fun fun. What is a band you can't stop listening to right now? I’ve been seriously into 3TEETH lately, as well as Solence. Have you ever had a panic attack? LOTS!!!!!!!! Have you ever entered a talent competition? Naw, I don’t have an exceptional talent. Are you indecisive? Ridiculously so. Are you smiling in your Facebook profile picture? It’s actually one of my brightest smiles I’ve ever taken a selfie with. I look way happier than I am lmaooo. Describe your hometown. What's it like there? Small, notoriously dangerous. Do you have any expensive hobbies? You could say photography given the various lenses and other materials available, plus editing software subscriptions. What is the oldest online account that you still use? My email, probably. What was the last video game you beat? I wanna say it was the last time I replayed Silent Hill 2. Long time ago. What's your favorite Studio Ghibli film? I actually haven’t seen any. Have you ever been really passionate about something but then lost interest? If so, what was it? Yeah, sure, like various entertainers/bands/musicians, TV shows…

[hotheadhero]

19. What kind of writing partners do you tend to merge well with? Do you like people who communicate, or more impulsive personalities?

@rivclry​ also asked this (stop twinning with people, lmao)

I looove communication. I looove energy. I looove collaboration. I can work with impulsivity and spontaneity much better now than before, due in parts to my greater experience and this muse (god forbid Nyna be spontaneous, lmao; and the spur-of-the moment inspirations and/or swerves keep this form exciting), but I still can’t just start a thread from nothing/canned ideas or completely wing it with zero feedback from my partner, especially if (1) it’s a major interaction or (2) the characters have no substantial reason to interact otherwise. (Though you could argue that too much reason to interact is as much a hindrance, though maybe it’s the canon-ness that stifles my inspiration. Sorry, fellow Eagles...) There’s a reason you nearly never see those one-line starter memes on Caspar’s blog: I tried that with Nyna and Belf, and it just didn’t work for me. I much prefer having unique ideas hit me in the energy of the moment or conversation so that I can send them in a personalized ask-starter--much better than canned ideas, imho. The partners I vibe best with are ones who bring as much energy/ideas to the table as I do, who mirror my energy in OOC chatter, and who go “yes! and...” or even “yes! but...”. Partners who simply go “yes (smile)” or "y’know, I can like, totally work with whatever... (dismissive)” don’t really work well for me, the first because if I wanted to drive the plot myself I’d write fanfic (thankfully this hasn’t been much of an issue in this group), and the second because I can’t work with that much freedom.

Then and now, I just have So! Many! Ideas! that I HAVE to vent them all out to my partner. I also hate disorganization, and will pre-arrange all the ideas I get at any given time in advance. (Some of this is informed by Gaia experiences (see the other end of this paragraph), and may thus accidentally come out as a “My Way or Else” by virtue of me not putting a question mark in there anywhere or so, but please know that anything I spew is always open to improvement or veto.) Anybody who’s RPed with me will have been bombarded at some point like this; the more frequently it happens, the more I like the mun, muse, and/or thread concept. (Quite likely all three end up informing each other. My one thread with Sylvain is a prominent example.) However, the less distanced I was from my fanfic-writing days, the more rigidly expectant I’d be that my ideas would be accepted as The Plot(TM). This mostly applies to my Gaia days, when some of my partners were so passive and “yes (smile)” (or worse) that I felt like I had to carry the whole thing myself. I should hope I’ve gotten better about this. Nowadays, I can work with more freedom than I may have given back on Gaia, and I generally haven’t run into any distressingly passive muns in this group. Everyone has something to bring to the table, which I LOVE.

[elijahfitz]

and introduction.

meet elijah.

hey guys! im lina! im 18 and im in the cst timezone. im currently a freshman in college and ive also been rping for like 6 years now ( i started on the neopets chat boards. if thats not an embarrassing fun fact idk what is ) but i havent rped since this summer since school was and still is kicking my ass. im really into musical theater, marvel & dc, and disney! i also used to be a lifeguard at a great wolf lodge for 2 years so if u want any funny stories about stupid children, or even just wanna be friends, lmk! im also SUPER sorry this intro is so late. i was gonna do it yesterday but then my friends wanted to hang and it kinda went downhill from there. im actually posting this like 20 min before i have a lab practical so i wont be able to reply until late tonight, but like this post to plot or anything!

some fun facts abt elijah:

he was adopted when he was around 3-4? he was abandoned and left on the back of a merchant cart headed to corona, where he was then discovered and then put into the local orphanage since no one was sure where he came from or who left him. all he had was a stuffed bear (named wooly), a basket of water and fruits to eat, and a letter that explained that:

his name was elijah

he was 2 (born on february 28th)

his parents couldnt care for him, so they hoped he would be found by a kind soul who could either take care of and love him, or else get him to someone who could

they loved him and only left him in the hopes that he would have a better life

he lived in the orphanage for almost 2 years and the few months before the 2nd anniversary of his arrival, rapunzel & eugene visited the orphanage that eugene grew up in and fell in love w/ eli, promptly adopting him soon after. he barely remembers anything about his abandonment and time in the orphanage, but always wanted to find his birth parents and let them know how he turned out. he kept the bear and basket in his room but carries the letter around with him in his wallet wherever he goes.

his full name is elijah frederic fitzherbert. he was given the middle name frederic in honor of his grandfather.

but, he much rather prefers eli. doesnt mind formalities but insists on people who know him to call him by his nickname. except he HATES being called “highness” bc he thinks it sounds stupid. he wont get upset per se if u keep referring to him as “your highness” but he will get annoyed

he very much wants to fulfill his role as “corona’s golden boy” by contributing back to his people. he worries for the kingdom more than he worries for himself and is always trying to prove that he is worthy of being a prince rather than just some random kid who got lucky enough to get adopted. most of his days are spent doing modest favors and helping out the townspeople or visiting the villages surrounding the kingdom.

when he’s in the castle you can almost always find him in the kitchen! boi loves to bake and cook. he loves the way food can bring joy to everyone. he often makes goods to give to the townspeople or the kids at the orphanage, where he volunteers at least every 2 weeks when hes not busy w prince stuff.

has an acute fear of disappointment. he feels so much pressure to prove his worth that came from growing up thinking if he did anything wrong he’d be sent back to orphanage, esp since his parents had another child. they wouldn’t want or need him anymore. he mostly got over this when he broke a vase when he was 12 and tried to run away from home, except he fell out the tree that he used to climb out his window and broke his leg lmao. his parents assured him that no matter what he did they would still love him and never abandon him, and his dad also taught him how to climb trees and roofs without dying (much to his mom’s chagrin). even tho hes pretty much over it, it kinda lingers subconsciously. thus, he overcompensates in everything he does and gets overly anxious about small problems

growing up he thought the stories that his dad told him about his past were so cool, despite the fact that he would almost always only hear those stories when he was being taught lessons of what he shouldnt do. he used to run around pretending to be flynn rider and his dad played along, planning play heists for them to do together (think scott & cassie in that one scene from ant man and the wasp) but they stopped when eli hit that age where he thought it was embarrassing to play w his dad. but, it really helped him bond w eugene and help him work on his coordination bc eli is CLUMSY AF

eli legit trips over nothing at least twice a day.

he bonded w his mom through art tho, which eventually turned into aesthetic desserts and meals! thats another reason why he loves baking and cooking so much.

when his 1st sibling was born when he was 5 at first he was jealous. he didnt get much attention at the orphanage due to the fact that there were so many kids and he was just starting to get used to the idea of having parents didnt have tons of kids always trying to win their affection and attention. he thought having a little sibling was the worst thing in the world and would hide from his parents bc if they couldnt find him they couldnt send him away. he hated his sibling.

until he met them. the second he saw their chubby face he was hooked. he swore that he would do anything and everything for them. and that continued when his parents adopted his other siblings as well. he absolutely adores them and acts like the protective older bro role

thankfully, with such a large age gap eli never rlly had to go through any of those petty squabbles that siblings usually have. he was always pretty protective of them tho and would fight when he thought they were being reckless and dumb out of his own fear that if they got hurt he would be an awful big brother (again, fear of disappointment)

he loves to travel bc his mom would always take him to these extravagant kingdoms and on these amazing sightseeing trips

this boy is hopeless when it comes to love. i can imagine lots of ppl liking him on top of all the ppl throwing themselves at him bc royal, but him being completely oblivious and thinking that no one likes him.

he had rlly bad ADD as a kid but its gotten better as hes grown. he still occasionally struggles w executive functioning tho and always gets rlly frustrated when he cant focus or remember

like i said earlier, clumsy af. no coordination. the only athletic ability he ever had was horse riding and running

that said he has a horse named may (short for mayonnaise. dont ask

he likes music a lot. prob learned piano at a young age

he probably is at the party bc royals? idk

EDIT: although (currently) unknown to eli, his true birth mother is maleficent. when eli was 2, his birth father took him away from her and had her suppress eli’s natural born powers. his father realized he was unfit to care for him, so he was the one who abandoned eli.

wanted connections!!

obv his parents and siblings? i mean cmon

one ( or both???? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ) of his birth parents!!!!! they dont have to know that eli is their son or mayb they do and are too scared to tell him, but being trapped together will eventually make it revealed

childhood friends! people he met when he traveled w his mom or met at royal social functions? i rlly also want friends that he would hang w at all the royal galas and stuff and they would go do dumb stuff like look sneak out and look for secret passages of make bets of who could dump more crab cakes into the stuffy duchess’ purse when she wasnt looking

people who know him solely through his family

someone who likes eli and eli legit has no clue, no matter how much they flirt and drop hints

people who hate eli! or even just dislike him, which makes him upset bc he doesnt like the idea that there are ppl who dont like him in the world. mayb bc sometimes he gets super highstrung when things arent going how they should b and he like lashed out at them once or something. maybe they hate his parents and on principle hate him. idk

someone who was w eli in the orphanage

past relationships? i feel like hes never rlly had a bad breakup tho, its just that they prob just didnt work out. hes also bi so they can b any gender. hes still looking for his otp

idk, legit anything. send me those plots man

[fearlessfortitude]

((Not on anon because reasons: What led to Shoki's creation? Were there any influences you drew from, or did he just appear one day?))

This was about ten years ago when I rped JKMM/Mitternacht Marine, a story much like hetalia that had personified war machines from World War 2. At the time, before making him, I had a very successful OC in the group I rped in on Gaia Online. His name was Emil, and based off of the Boeing B-17 Heavy Bomber. Being someone who has loved planes and flying since I was a really really little kid, I was very much into learning and making characters based off these planes. 

One of my very best friends Annie rped the canon character’s female counterpart for the Nakajima Ki-43 Hayabusa (while our friend Jojo DID rp the canon character named Hayabusa), and I’d wanted to make a “little brother” for the two. I looked up online the next two predecessors to the Hayabusa, and found the Nakajima Ki-44 Shoki and Nakajima Ki-84 Hayate. After doing more research, I felt like the Ki-44 would be something I wanted to try translating into a character, and in my research I found out that the pilots flying the planes had a really hard time seeing out of the windows and it often led to crashes. That was the original inspitation for him being blind.  

As one would suspect, it isn’t easy translating that into a fandom like Pokemon, and many of what he is today is because of my friends @sterlingsilverchampion, @fabulance, and @puppygrunt. Four years ago many of us in our own little discord had ocs, I was one of the ones that didn’t because I was wary about making one. I remember wanting to bring Emil here, but I could never find a face claim I liked, and instead I found one that absolutely fit my idea for Shoki- and finding a psd that made it hard for you to see his eyes made it that much better. But I could never find a reason for him. Why did I want to rp him? Would people like him?

It was in a call with these three that I started to talk about these questions I had, and those three in particular really helped me get him off the ground. I think it was Sir that suggested that he was blind, but could see or feel aura and that it helped him get around a little easier. As for the fighting mono type team, I got that inspiration after someone at work had said that mono teams were “lame” and fighting especially was the weakest. So I did it to prove him wrong, which I got to do in skull brawl lmao. So he didn’t just appear one day, it’s been a long time in the making.

A lot of my inspiration also comes from Iggy from Maximum Ride; A blind human bird hybrid who was the snarkiest and the most tech savvy kid in the group, Matt Murdock from Marvel’s Daredevil; a blind lawyer turned super hero, and Toph from Avatar: The Last Airbender- who I’m sure most people know is the blind sarcastic and snarky earth bender who befriends Aang, Katara, and Sokka.  

[crucioslut]

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☂ : Spread some love: mention someone you’ve met that has influenced you or your writing in a positive way, and explain how. I’ve been on here as Bella for about 2 years now. Between hiatuses and such some of the people I’ll mention aren’t as active anymore. And some of the people I’ll mention are brand new mutuals.  @rodolphus-lestrangex - Is so lovely and pure and has grown to be one of my best friends irl. We pretty much keep in constant content all day every day and last month she actually traveled to my country and we were able to spend time together and it was really amazing. She’s probably one of the sweetest people I know and is super kind and approachable (and tolerant of all kinds of bullshit lol) so if you’re ever hesitant, don’t be. She’s influenced my writing by completely reworking how I felt about Bella and Rodolphus’ relationship. She also kind of just fell out of the sky and into my life when I was getting fed up with situations and on the verge of deserting this blog. So I’m very thankful for her <3 Her muse also allows me to explore sides of Bellatrix that aren’t solely just sadistic and murderous, which has been a huge part of furthering her development.  @tmvoldemort - I think V was like the first person I ever rped with here, or damn near close. She’s not around so much anymore, but we grew pretty close too and shared many laughs together. In a way it was her who kind of showed me how to not hold back here and write whatever I wanted without worrying about what people thought.  @veritasxrum - The first person I ever posted real filthy smut with on this blog lmao. Again, that kind of proved to me that it was acceptable. Her portrayal of Snape is really quite incredible and I’m barely worthy. Miss her dearly :)  @lyraxlestrange - Lyra came a bit later as an OC of the daughter of Bella and Rodolphus. At first I really was not feeling it and had preconceived ideas about OCs that I wanted nothing to do with them. But actually we had some pretty good interactions. I liked exploring Bella’s role as a mother, as bizarre as it was. We also became very close quickly, and eventually @alwaysconquer was born from the same mun. I had loads of fun with that muse as well. ;)  @doggedfather -  Bellatrix and Sirius’ never ending fights can never get old. The crack and dumb memes we’ve come up with are so funny I can barely think about them without cracking up. We also spend a fair amount of time talking shit about the same reality shows we watch, and we’re always up for sending pics of our cats to each other. It’s kind of everything @repudiated-heir - Is such a gentle soul! So so sweet. She was the first I was able to explore Bella’s childhood with, and the caring sides of her. I think our threads were absolutely gorgeous and she’s a beautiful writer.  new folk: @thetruebloodofsalazar @xfpureblood @theacerbicprince @malfoyistic @regalmalfoy @apowerfulmagic  I am so stoked to see what we can create together, and I also love reading y’alls threads. I’m so glad to have found you all. :) <3 

[swampgallows]

metzen replied to your post “That's one of the reasons I never really stuck around the RP scene on...”

wra has basically always had 1-3 nazi belf guilds, but belves are a white skin only race who run a police state so id expect nothing less tbh also as to your earlier post, alli side nazis are usually humans or worgen, from any human kingdom but usually lordaeron, very rarely some bronzebeards, havent even seen one shit ass reactionary kul'tiran, despite them being lead by a military aristocracy. ive also seen a few nevles rp fashy theocracy ideas but alwasy as explicit IC villains

YEAH i figured humans and gilneans/worgen were the most applicable. i thought maaaaybe some dwarves but figured it’d be kinda rare (as they arent very ‘attractive’). even on TB there were some blood elf “blood knight” guilds where theyd patrol silvermoon in a very dystopian fashion but it was usually just IC fun, as many of them had alts or OOC were very friendly. the worst we ever had on TB was the bdsm guild Shackles and Maidens LMAO and i made friends with them anyway. 

pretty fucked up that theyre just blatantly out and about like that. ugh. i think also back then we knew for a fact that there were a handful of blizz employees playing on TB at the time (a tauren named No, for one) so they might have nipped that kind of behavior in the bud early on. that might be wishful thinking though lol. also i think the appeal of nazism has definitely grown more in this last decade than the one before it so people with those ideas didnt really have the luxury of banding together, i dont think.

LMFAO in fact there AHHAAH IM LAUGHING REMEMBERING THIS there was this girl i COULD NOT STAND, was really just an awful selfish person IRL/OOC but everybody worshiped the ground she walked on because she RPed a—gasp!—female orc warrior! and she didn’t pick the soft blue eyed face!! WOW!!! who always had this entourage of sycophants (IC and OOC) in a throng around her. she always created upset anywhere she went because she was just generally unlikable, so one day she and some other self-important orcs broke off to make a full orc guild. Their guild name? STORMFRONT WARBAND. it was reported a million times almost instantly and they were nearly laughed off the server til they renamed it Scarshield Clan. THEN everybody laughed at them because they were supposed to be Horde loyalists but had the same clan name as Blackhand’s [Old] Horde loyalists in LBRS. ahhhh ahahha oh my god i havent thought about that in years

[kusunokihimea]

                                                  [ Art || Background ]

     [ Hey y’all! So uh...while this iteration of my dinky blog isn’t three years old, I have been lurking around this site in total (for RP) for three years now, as of...technically yesterday, eh heh. And good golly there has been a LOTTA growth since then. My muses and I have come a looong way, in regards to writing, editing, and getting to know so many people over the course of three years. Some have come and gone, and some have stayed...though few since those beginning days when Sylvie had NO idea what they were doing, ha!

     And though I’ve only recently gone through my second revamp, there’s still a gaggle a’y’all that have stuck around. Some even from those very beginning days. So, I’d like to take a minute to just...gush about some of ya, cuz you’ve made being in this community fun, welcoming, and honestly like a second family to us. While I don’t have time to ramble about EVERYONE, I’m gonna do my darnedest to do as much as I can, and just...say thank you for making me able to stay this long, and have as much fun as I’ve had. It means the world to me <3

     Now, on to the ramblin’! Under a cut, cuz...it’s probably gonna get long xD Still, I’ll try to be brief so it doesn’t get too out of control, lmao ]

     [ The Fam Jam ]

     So these are the peeps that have stuck by me through thick, thin, and many blog changes xD Those who have consistently interacted with us, and have developed amazing bonds between muns and muses alike. <3

@13lilypetals - Little sib Ghost. Fellow SH trash. Also a multimuse juggler. You’ve been someone who’s become a close friend, wonderful RP partner, and a great member of the community as a whole. Keep up the awesome work!

@ascxndinggg Matt, my son, darling baby boy =P With such a creative, intelligent mind, wonderful diverse muses, and one of the few things keeping me sane both on this hellsite, and in life in general. Love you bud.

@duckbuttavenger / @cutelittlemuffins / @straycatanbu Sanjiii, such a sweetheart. I love your beans, and I love you! You’re always a blast to write with, even if we know some muses better than others. They’re all 11/10!

@despairinghxpe / @masterofwar Phoenix, omg I’m so glad you’re back. I’ve had some of my most in-depth threads with you and your boyos. I always look forward to your replies. And you’re such a darling - always a joy to talk to ooc about our beans!

@gentlegraceful-and-fatal Dani, I know you’re not on much anymore, and I hope life’s not kickin’ your butt too hard. You put so much love into your muses, and I love when they interact with mine. Here’s hoping you can creep around more soon enough x3

@frogprinceus / @redlineoffate / @red-winged-hero-hawks Omg Mitsuki where do I even start with you xD You have such a wonderful cast of muses, so many of which have bonded so wonderfully with mine. I always enjoy our interactions, no matter what combo of beans!

@flakclad I know you’re not on too much anymore Rhi, but I still love your boys (tho I think this is the only one I’m currently following after remaking, whoops). You give them such wonderful personalities, and I love writing with them any day of the week.

@yukaikokoro Another OC bean! Star oh my goodness, you’re such a great friend and writing partner - you let me drown you in all my OG verse shenanigans, and I love it xD

@twojackalsandahedgie Apricot! I’ve stalked you around through a few blogs now, haha! You’re such a sweetheart, and your muses are great. I can’t wait to see how your blog takes shape once it’s even MORE of a multimuse!

@hotmessofmuses I’ve loved all our threads, Bailey - you write all your muses so well, and I’ve been so psyched to get to interact with them, especially in the famjam verses. It’s so much fun. And good luck with all you’re doing irl!

@roaringxflames Lief dear, I know you’re not active much anymore, but I just want you to know I’ve enjoyed all of our interactions, here and on other bloggus. I hope life is treating you well, and you find greener pastures in new fandoms :3

@cinderspewed / @bitebxck Oh goodness Verona, you’re just! Such a cool person, and your muse is so dynamic and intriguing and drives my marshmallow nuts xD I hope school isn’t crushing your soul too badly, haha! Good fortune, friend!

@kyuuzuchiha / @thebubbledome / @xkaekox BOOOOO I LOVE YOUR BEANS. I know that feel about having trouble writing/catching up lately, but! No matter your pace, we love writing with you, and I hope you find your groove soon!

@quiet-kunoichi Ahaha, Jack, another fellow OC bean. I love your muse. I think you know that but just to be sure, lemme say it again. And you’re great. You’re both great. I love ya. And I hope you’re well!

@abyssaldespair Meeeg...your boyo has stolen my gorl xD We’ve had so many shenanigans since we met I can’t count them, but gosh you’re so fun to write with, and even tho you’ve abandoned me (jk, jk), I still love writing our babbs in drabbles. I will sink with this ship xD

@wanderingmelodies MEEEY I know you’re super swamped but I hope you know I love ya and your beans and I hope you get your zine work done! Good luck and stuff, and hopefully life lets up for you soon, dear!

@multicanon-rp Bruh, I love your Itachi (and I’ve seen snippets of your other beans, they’re great!). It’s been so much fun to see him and Ryū get to know each other from that initial drama. I love writing with ya!

@hushedsunflower *squints at* Who even is this nerd? Oh right, you’re the one responsible for me even being here! Not to mention one of my oldest friends, nbd =P I love your Hina, and I’m glad you’ve gotten back into RP, my friend~

     [ The Inspirations ]

     These are the ones I’ve maybe not RPed with as much as I’d like, but who inspire me to be better in my writing, my lore creation, and characterization! <3

@hyugainterior / @clanburden Your storytelling skill just...blows my mind, holy smokes. Though I miss bits and pieces, your narrative on HI has been enrapturing, and I always try to catch all the drabbles. I never know what’s gonna happen next, but I can’t look away - it’s like a beautiful, horrible car crash! With Hinata in the driver’s seat!

@sennenryuu / @raikirisms N, your OC is just...so amazingly in-depth. As someone who adores making lore and characters, yours has been one I’ve looked up to since being introduced to your blog. And don’t even get me started on your Kakashi, or how beautiful your art is, my goodness. I love it all!

@houndnin / @mactabilis A blast from the past! I know you’re uber busy so you prolly won’t see this, but omg your muses are the bee’s knees. Another well-crafted OC, and an awesome take on Kakashi. Definitely a blog that inspires me to keep improving!

@masshirohebi Oh goodness, this blog is one I’ve looked up to for a long time. You write Orochimaru so beautifully. They’re so intricate and full of life and detail. Your replies are so well put-together, it always blows me away. I know our interactions have been brief, but I’ve enjoyed them so much!

     [ The Neat Beans ]

     Those on the ‘outer fringe’ - maybe we’ve poked at each other’s muses once or twice, but we’re still workin’ on getting muses to know each other - here’s to more! <3

     ~*~ @silverfaxg ~*~ @ketsuekki ~*~ @i-minato-chan ~*~ @kotoanatsukami ~*~ @crackuzu ~*~ @the-younger-umino ~*~ @origami-goddess ~*~ @inumbratte / @willsoffire / @leafstruck ~*~

     [ The Lurkers ]

     And last (but certainly not least), the beans I’ve not really talked to, but appreciate for bein’ around nonetheless! Never be afraid to say hi <3

     ~*~ @betterhealing ~*~ @tennome ~*~ @hiramekxrei ~*~ @tentaiiled / @sandsharrk ~*~ @dirt-ninja ~*~ @strengthwilled ~*~ @silentyoru ~*~ @blossomfury ~*~ @inotheflower ~*~ @cxmpetitivecaptain ~*~ @malacusleana ~*~ @granddiviner ~*~ @avengeriiism ~*~ @xchidoriisms ~*~

     All right, I really hope that’s everyone - my following list is still rather short after the move, so I wanted to at least give everyone a mention and a lil thank you. Here’s to another three years, fates allowing! Thank you all again for your support - it means the world <3

[cxgan]

Nicotine anon here - what got you into kink? I'm curious!!

NICOTINE ANON BACK AT IT WITH THE GREAT QUESTIONS.

Buckle up this is quite the story. I’m actually going to put this under a read more because it got much longer than I originally intended for it to be. 

So up until about 3 months ago (long story) roleplaying was my primary form of writing. I’d been rping for roughly…. 14 years. Well I have a penchant for rping like, what is known as #dirtybadwrong because I enjoy the darker side of life. 

Well once upon a time (when I was like, 16) I created this roleplay on tumblr that was basically Marvel’s Sky High only it was set in college and blah blah blah. I had an unrealistic amount of characters because I had no self control and too much muse and one of those characters had a mAGICAL DADDY KINK out of no where. Honestly I have no idea where it came from. I was like, 17 years old and my muse was like ‘it’d be hot for my partner to call me daddy’ and I was like ‘ok thats weird but w/e I’ll roll with it’ and that’s all it ever was was just like, a daddy kink. I mean, I feel like I always had a daddy kink personally I just never knew it was called a daddy kink nor did I ever think of calling my partner daddy because I was a fucking infant. But like, when I was 12-13 years old my biggest celebrity crushes were JDM, Patrick Dempsey, Alan Rickman and Hugh Laurie. I mean…. that should be evidence enough. (Also sidenote: I’ve been obsessed with JDM for almost 12 years someone needs to like, call the cops on me or something.) 

FAST FORWARD to when I was 18, I created this modern day The Hobbit mafia roleplay (hence my nickname Bilbro Swaggins) and it was literally like, my child. I spent two months making bios and creating characters and setting the plot and figuring everything out and when it finally opened I was fucking elated. Well, my main writing partner at the time and I picked up these two characters who could not have been more polar opposite to each other and decided to figure out how they could end up together.

LONG LONG story short and to save you the grief of having to listen to me for ten years and to save you from having to read about all of the #dirtybadwrong I wrote about (if you’re honestly that curious I will gladly tell you some other time probably under a read more because it’s that bad), the two characters basically wound up in like a stockholm syndrome-type relationship that was…. god awfully unhealthy. It was so unhealthy. It was literally like to this day one of the most unhealthy relationships I have ever rped. But we fucking ate that shit up. 

NOW you’re probably thinking at this point in the story, ‘Kaden, I asked you about how you got into kink. I don’t care about your past rp experiences.’ but just…. bear with me here. Amidst this horrible unhealthy relationship we were rping one of the biggest parts of said relationship was that it somehow turned into a kink dynamic. Specifically a DD/lb (Daddy Dom/little boy) one. And now, if you don’t know what that is it’s basically like a daddy kink on crack. I’m not going to go into the logistics of all of the different types of DD/lb/lg relationships because there are honestly so many different types it’s alarming BUT in our case the little boy was basically regressed to a much younger age mentally and the Daddy Dom took care of him. I mean that’s the most basic way to put it without telling you about all of the nasty, horrible, wrong, immoral details. 

Let’s just say that the other people in the roleplay hated our ship so much that they literally stole all of my characters and my plot and created different blogs just so they could get away from us. Lmao. It was that legit. 

BUT I had been doing some RESEARCH (ah yes the biggest excuse for the Writer) because I wanted to learn more about this DD/lb dynamic thing and while I was roleplaying a very unhealthy relationship at the time I also started to learn about the more… healthy ways to go about the kink. And it was fuckin’ interesting. Suddenly I was immersed in knowledge of what kink was and how to go about it and how there were so many fucking different kinks out there. 

So after the mafia roleplay went sour my main writing partner and I created a kink roleplay! I had no idea what I was doing but I was determined to like, do it correctly. So I did a bunch of research on the kink community and opened this roleplay that was so contrast to your every day Master/slave tumblr rp that just went about it in the worst kinds of ways. I was like NO I’M DOING THIS IN A HEALTHY WAY I’M DOING IT RIGHT I’M MAKING SURE THIS IS BY THE BOOK CORRECT so I had to do a lot of research on the kink community and what dynamics, scenes, aftercare, negotiations, etc was really about. And I just became enraptured by it all. It was fascinating to me that these relationships and dynamics - while doing some of the most fucked up shit you could ever imagine - were some of the healthiest relationships I had ever seen. 

I picked up characters that had kinks that would later become some of my biggest kinks to date and I feel like that was like, dipping my toes in the metaphorical waters of what kink was. 

I’m sure it’s another story for another time but basically then in my personal life I toyed with different roles and was in a few relationships that explored kink WAYYY before I actually finally nutted up and joined my own kink community. 

But I gotta hand it to my rp characters, man. If not for them being into some fucked up shit and forcing me to research it I probably would have never wound up where I am today.

[kawaiiwamine]

((I was hoping someone else would send it but you definitely do the character breakdown for Shuu. Iwasweetie or Iwamine or both. Someone talking about the rationalising of their muse is always interesting))

ask and you shall receive!! im putting the cut right up here bc uh wow lmao

Iwameanie

How I feel about this character

stupid sexy iwamine…. really tho thats the crux of its. hes hot to trot. and a megane. and scientists get extra hot points im just gonna say it. and hes gay. god made him for me. if iwamine shuu didnt exist i would have to invent him. i need him

All the people I ship romantically with this character

oh boy. i like shipping and i like him so ofc,

well i already talked abt my fondness for shuuya, so theres that

gotta have that papaiwa, of COURSE im too much of a softie to not have a scenario in which his crush is requited

with hitori? oh boy thats good. nanaiwa is good but not my ideal iteration of the ship. but idk smth abt him w hitori… theyre almost the same age, both are scalding hot, hitori is a character that i think would be capable of standing up to his regular shuu bs. its good! its always good whenever i see it and i want more!

you know what else is good? shuukazu! with kazuaki-kun! i can mainly thank selina for turning me on to it, it seems cracky at first but ive gotten to the point where im actually invested. its cute, what can i say? something about the coldest, meanest character having a soft spot for the frailest, squishiest character is just too delicious to pass up. and of course i have to mention that staff trio? ot3 to end all ot3s

im also gonna mention tohri (i like to call it nishuukikouji) its not one of my TOP ships and i dont think abt it too often but whenever i do see it im like yeah! hell yeah! and id def rp it given the opportunity

My non-romantic OTP for this character

i said this when i talked abt nageki but i feel like they could find some common ground in the right circumstances! shuu can be a good Fun Uncle that lets him get away with way more than hitori does lmao. really tho i would be happy to see him getting along w… anyone……. at all…………………………………

My unpopular opinion about this character

is genuinely wanting him to be happy unpopular? probably. ppl will say he doesnt deserve it but look… thats not the point……. the point is just that i need more positivity in hato dkjfhgkdhfj. also literally his entire life is just so sad its so pathetic and hard to watch i just need him to have like one good day at least ok. do it for me

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

well if ryuuji could not die that would be fucking SPECTACULAR. at the very least try to do as little murder as possible ok dear. make some friends or smth. please.

The man! The myth! The legend! Iwasweetie!!!

How I feel about this character

oh boy we could be here all day. so obv i loved shuu from like. day one. heres the thing tho… im a big ol softie who wants everyone to get along and be happy. i mean ok yes i also love angst… a lot…. but when the canon situation is already sad af i gotta Do Smth abt it. bc really everything abt shuu is so depressing already it doesnt need to be any worse please

so yes iwameanie in everyone lives aus and redemption arcs and all thats GREAT. like it, love it, gotta have it. but i also had another idea, which is just: what if he was? nice?

(i was mainly inspired by a sketch moa drew of a disturbed yuuya contemplating the idea of a nice shuu. also there was very briefly an ask blog abt a nice shuu which i thought was adorable but sadly idr the url! if its even still up!)

another big advantage is that since iwasweetie is so diff from iwameanie in so many ways, i have a lot of wiggle room. hes so vaguely defined in canon, which means i have a lot of opportunity to kinda do w/e i want which is really fun! theres enough already there to guide me and him having pre-established relationships is also helpful ofc but it also feels v liberated.

also since his life Is better, i dont have to feel so guilty abt putting him thru angst! woohoo

so honestly after all this time i just. love him. how could i not? obv bc ive rped him for so long but also bc hes just more. well hes actually lovable. bc he doesnt kill kids. thats nice. also hes just way more down to earth and easier to relate to so thats a big advantage too! basically i just. adore him and i want him to be happy (most of the time)

All the people I ship romantically with this character

everyone i said for iwameanie! its already blog canon (or “kawaiicanon” as i say) that hes crushing hardcore on hitori. that doesnt mean its blog canon that it actually happens, or that it doesnt. its left open to possibilities. he just has that Crush, thats for sure

also, him with kazu would just be. unbelievably sweet. you already talked abt it and tbh i agree w it all. it would be so good for them to have each other and it would probably be nice for shuu to have someone to dote on, maybe hed take better care of himself if he had someone else to take care of too

My non-romantic OTP for this character

ok i already said nageki but im gonna reiterate it here bc their relationship is SO important!! i love them!! theyre a little ragtag family of misfits but their love is the purest the earth has ever seen and thats a cold hard FACT

OH YOU KNOW WHO ELSE? SAKUYA. sakuya obv has a dumb gay crush on shuu already, maybe it would be helpful for him to have a role model he looks up to thats actually. kind of a good influence??? honestly m le bel needs to just Die and then shuu can adopt him, problem solved

My unpopular opinion about this character

hes just objectively the superior shuu and thats how it is i dont make the rules

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

eat more. sleep better. be happier. go to therapy. and please come out, honey