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piedpiperart · 2 years ago

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Phantom of Gotham 19

Chapter 18

Danny had unsurprisingly not gotten a good night's sleep that night. He was currently staying in an abandoned Firehouse. He was pretty sure he was getting the hang of finding semi-hospitable hideouts. Just to be safe, he had taken to hiding his stuff in the walls when he left. It was tedious, but there was no way he was risking a Red Hood (Jason?) situation. He knew that opening a portal to the Ghost Zone would be a bad idea, and that it could lead the GIW straight to him. That big of a power surge in one spot would no doubt attract them. At the very least, Vlad might also be aware of him in Gotham now. But for some reason he didn’t want to leave.

Sure, He’d be safer if he stayed on the run but he had friends at school, was actually doing well in classes, and he had befriended the local vigilantes. Not that he was avoiding them. He had patrolled a bit with them again- invisible as always- but he’d started to feel eyes on him so he gave them Phantom’s contact info and proceeded to lay low the past few days.

Danny had started feeling a bit paranoid after the whole ghost portal thing, but Batman and Frostbite were already making progress. Batman had even said that the GIW wouldn’t be able to do much in Gotham since he’d alerted the GCPD to reject any attempts at partnership and to detain the Fentons if they were spotted. Danny was still worried about it. Especially with Vlad and his parents. He’d of course told Batman about Plasmius, but in order to keep his own secret he hadn’t told them Vlad was a Halfa too. He was starting to think that maybe he should, just in case he showed his fruit-loopy self in Gotham.

Obviously, Phantom could take Vlad in a fight no problem. It was him against the bats that he wasn’t so sure about. Lack of ghost weapons aside, Vlad also had a propensity for overshadowing people. Often multiple people because of his clones. The two things Danny wouldn’t or couldn’t do.

He sighed. Maybe he was overthinking it. He should just do his best in school and hang out with Tim and Steph like a normal kid for once. Phantom was benched for now, and Danny needed to lay low in case the GIW or … the Fentons were searching for him. If they noticed the power surge of the portal, it’s likely, but who knows. Maybe they didn’t notice anything. Maybe Danny’s still safe.

“Yo, Danny, are you okay man?” Steph asked, nudging him. They were at lunch, having gone off campus to a coffee shop instead of sticking around the cafeteria. Tim was downing his coffee and staring longingly at the second one he ordered like he couldn’t drink them fast enough. Steph and Danny had both gotten sweeter drinks because, as Steph says, they have taste buds that work.

“Yeah,”Danny said, rubbing the back of his neck.”Just an off day, you know? Couldn’t sleep.”

Tim perked up at that.”You know you can always come over to the manor-”

Danny cut him off with a groan. “I told you Tim, I’m not coming back.”

“Yeah I know,”Tim glowered, sipping his drink. “Had to try though, the Demon Brat is still spamming my phone about you. Even Bruce asks for updates.”

“Yeesh, even Bruce?” Steph winced, looking between the two boys. “Yikes Danny. Bruce isn’t known for letting things go. You’re doomed.”

“He’s not ‘doomed’,” Tim rolled his eyes, while Danny sighed dramatically from the other side of the table.

“You know, it’s kind of hard to keep a low profile with a billionaire taking an interest in you,”Danny commented dryly. Tim shrugged.

“Just means he can keep you safe from whatever you’re running from,”Tim raised an eyebrow pointedly at Danny’s scowl. His phone alarm rang and the three of them started packing up to head back to school.

“I don’t want to talk about it,”Danny wrinkled his nose. “And wouldn’t hiding with a billionaire make it easier for them to find me?”

“He’s got a point,”Steph chimed in, getting a look from Tim. “I’m pretty sure Bruce has a room for me just on the off chance I spontaneously need adopting. No doubt they’re gonna keep your room exactly how you left it.” Tim fought back a smile, knowing it was true, but wouldn’t prove his point.

“Pssh, Bruce can be stealthy. No one will even know you live at the manor,” Tim pointed out. Danny snorted. “What? He can be stealthy,”Tim persisted, only for Steph and Danny to exchange amused looks and start laughing. “I’m serious!”

“Sure,”Danny chuckled as he and the others left the cafe and headed back to school. “He’s about as stealthy as the sun. Sure, you don’t see him at night, but when you do see him he’s super intense and the center of attention.”

Steph burst out laughing at that, and Tim made a face. “Okay that’s a fair point but still. I know we all told you before but everyones still worried about you.”

“I get it,”Danny said. More than you know, Danny thought wryly. He knew that if the GIW had a way to track him they’d be led straight to the Wyanes, and then their secret identities would be in jeopardy. Danny wouldn’t allow that to happen. Besides, if he’s on his own he can use his ghost powers to sneak away and fly to a different state undetected. “This is my problem to deal with though. Can we just drop it?”

Tim wilted. “Fine, but if you ever need anything let me know.”

“Will do,”Danny saluted lazily. He would not. And judging by the look on Tim’s face, he knew it too.

The conversation switched to upcoming school projects and classes as they made their way through the school. “Alright, I’m off to class, see ya later,”Steph waved.

“See ya,”Tim and Danny waved. The two boys had chemistry together, so they walked to class side by side. They were a bit late, so they didn’t have much time to chat before sitting down in their seats before class started.

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Tim was a bit worried about his friend. Sure, he knew Danny could take care of himself, and had superpowers that could help him. But was he taking care of himself? Tim was sure the meal plan Damian had him on was all but nothing while Danny continued to live by himself. He wasn’t too worried, knowing that Danny was pretty good at surviving on his own. Besides, he was pretty sure everyone had scared Danny away with their lack of boundaries.

In addition, Danny was a good person. Tim would be a fool to not see how the kid was trying to protect them. It was nothing they couldn’t handle, sure, but Danny didn’t know that. Even if the bats couldn’t be with him all the time, Tim was sure Phantom was protecting the kid. At one of the meet ups, Phantom had said he’s usually with the bats at night and Danny during the day. Though, the past two days Phantom had more or less said he’d be sticking around Danny more often so he wouldn’t be around much to help the bats. Which was fine. They’d need to find Danny to talk to the Phantom though, because they hadn’t been able to give Phantom a communicator before he disappeared.

A voice came over on the intercom and Tim snapped out of his thoughts to pay attention. Especially since the rogues were keen on attacking schools, Tim was listening to make sure there wasn’t some sort of attack on the way. Oddly enough, it was just about a student needing to come to the office. But that student? Danny.

Danny stiffened next to him, and Tim looked over with a raised brow, silently asking if he wanted company. Danny gave him a small smile and shook his head,”Probably just something about paperwork,”Danny whispered before gathering his things and making his way out to the office while Tim’s head spun with questions. The intercom didn’t give any details, and despite it probably being about paperwork, considering Danny had no actual adult supervision at home, Tim had worries. Parent teacher conferences were weeks away, and Danny hadn’t gotten in any kind of trouble at school. He had a bad feeling about this.

Exactly two minutes after Danny left, Tim raised his hand. “Can I be excused to the bathroom?”He asked and the teacher, Ms. Morgan, sighed but waved her hand to let him go. She was more than used to Tim’s antics, but because of his good grades and lack of friends, she let him do what he wanted. Maybe he should send her some sort of gift basket, he thought. She was a good teacher.

Once in the hallway, Tim beelined for the office on silent footsteps, passing by the bathrooms on his way. He kept an eye out for Danny, pausing when he heard voices coming from the door to the office. Getting as close as possible, TIm busied himself with a nearby locker while he eavesdropped.

“I assure you, this is the best possible outcome for everyone,”Someone was saying. He didn’t recognise the voice, but it sounded like a man.

“I suppose. As long as you keep your end of our deal. I don’t want any of this getting out,”Tim recognised the vice principal’s voice. What kind of deal? And where was Danny?

“Trust me, your school’s reputation is safe. Dealing with these creatures is classified government business. Nothing will get out to the public,”The man was saying, and Tim’s blood ran cold. Creatures? Were they talking about Danny? Did they know? Where was Danny? Tim thought frantically. He needed more information.

“Either way, this is how far I’m willing to help you. Follow the others through the back entrance. I don’t want anyone seeing you or the boy,”The vice principal, Miss Wethers, snapped.

“Trust me, he won’t be seeing anyone from Gotham Academy anytime soon,”He chuckled darkly, and dread filled Tim’s chest. They had Danny? Where was Phantom? How did they know where he was? Tim thought frantically, shoes squeaking on the floor as he quickly made his way to the back door of the school. It was the staff parking lot, and if he didn’t want to run into Miss Wethers or the creepy dude he’d have to go the long way.

On the way, Tim took out his phone, calling Jason and putting a com in. The others would be at school or work right now, and he knew Bruce and Alfred were getting ready for the Gala tonight.

“What is it now, Replacement?” Jason snapped, but Tim didn’t have time.

“The GIW’s at the school, I think they got Danny,”Tim rushed out, turning a corner and skipping down the stairs. “They’re taking him through the school’s back entrance, I’m on my way there but I’m in school clothes,”Tim said, and he could tell by the movement on the other end that Jason was getting his gear.

“Alright, find out what car and where they're going but don’t interact unless you have a way to sneak Danny out without them noticing,”Jason grunted,”Be there in five.”

Tim gave an affirmative and cut the comm, finally making it to the back entrance door. He wasn’t sure if Danny had five minutes, but Tim was confident in his ability to be a distraction and stall for time. He eased the door open and immediately latched onto seven guys in white suits, three of which were carrying what looked like a heavily restrained and unconscious Danny into the back of a big white van. Damn. From what Tim could see, there was a muzzle and handcuffs, but he wasn’t sure if Danny was knocked out or drugged.

“Shit,”Tim cursed as the last guy came through the side of the building with the vice principal behind him. He didn’t have hardly any of his gear on him and they were about to leave. Taking out what he had in some hidden pockets, he activated a tracking device and took aim, hitting the van perfectly on the back of the vehicle, near the back right tire.

Tim chewed on his bottom lip nervously as he watched the van doors close. For a small group they were very efficient and fast at getting Danny out and on the road. Tim eased out from behind the door and made his way behind some cars, following the van’s path as they drove out of the parking lot. He knew he couldn’t keep up from ground level, so he climbed up to the rooftop of the nearest building when he had a chance to do it without being spotted. The whole time he felt nothing but worry for Danny.

“Hood, come in, where are you?” Tim asked impatiently. “They’re in a white van, sending you the location now. I managed to get a tracker on them but couldn’t get Danny out.”

“Two minutes out. How’s the kid?”Hood grunted, and Tim could hear the sounds of his motorcycle in the background.

“Not great. They have handcuffs and a muzzle on him, and he was unconscious when they loaded him into the van,”Tim reported, and Hood cursed.

“I see em’,”Jason said, and Tim could hear the roaring of his motorcycle across the street. Tim brought up his phone and used it to pull up the tracker he’d set on the van. He took a second to catch his breath from roof hopping, and tried to calculate their path.

“Looks like they're headed towards the docks or the outskirts of Gotham,”Tim cringed. That’s also where a bunch of warehouses and abandoned buildings were located. It would be hard to find Danny around there if they manage to get away or ditch the van.

Suddenly, there was an explosion and Tim looked up from his camera with wide eyes. Looking over the edge of a building he was perched on, he could see the van scurry to a stop, smoke and what looked like the aftermath of an explosive right in front of them. “Jason?” Tim exclaimed, only to catch a glimpse of the Red Hood coming out of the smoke dramatically. He sighed a breath of relief.

“What, worried about me Timbers?” Jason sing-songed, and from the roof Tim could see two agents exiting the van as Jason drew his guns. Tim huffed a laugh. “Stay out of sight, not sure what weapons they have on hand.”

Jason sneered at the white-suited agents as they approached him with a haughty walk. “The fuck do you think you’re doing kidnapping kids in my territory?” Jason called out to them, and the second guy paused. They weren’t actually in Jason’s area, but Gotham counted as his territory when he wanted it to be.

“You misunderstand,”The first agent said calmly, holding up his glowing green weapon nonchalantly. “I’m agent K with the Ghost Investigation Ward, we’re simply taking the entity in. It’s just possessing the boy, and it’s our job to apprehend it. You’re interfering with government jurisdiction.”

Jason let out a breath, but cocked his guns. “I don’t care who you are or what you’re doing. Step away from the vehicle before I start shooting.”

Agent K looked incredibly annoyed and yet smug as he slowly lowered his weapons. “Fine, we’ll do things your way. Agent O?”

At that, the other Agent dropped his weapons, including what looked like a glowing green grenade that rolled towards Jason. Hood cursed and leaped away as it went off in a flash of green light, firing at the Agents as they pulled out their weapons. Jason hadn’t seen any weapons like theirs in action before, but it was clearly heavy duty. Agent O even tried to shoot a fucking net at him like he was some kind of crime fighting fish. Frustratingly, they kept him on his toes while he ducked behind a car. Jason managed to hit Agent K in the shoulder before the two ducked behind the car door. Hood caught a glimpse of them inching back to their van, and made to follow when suddenly the van itself rumbled.

Tim and Jason’s eyes widened as what looked like missiles and lasers appeared from the van and locked onto Jason. “Shit,”Jason cursed, woefully unprepared for their tanked up van. Three missiles immediately took off, and Jason did his best to get to better cover while green lasers shot at him. One of the grenades from earlier hurtled towards him too, and it was at that moment that Jason vowed to blow up each and every one of those white suits in the van. He hissed as a lazer caught his leg and grazed his side. Clearly the weapons were made to hit ghosts, but damn, they still hurt. He needed to step back and regroup. As much as he hated to admit it he’d need backup. Or more firepower to counter these weapon-crazed maniacs.

“Hood! They’re getting away and the tracker is down!” Tim shouted in his ear. Jason grimaced.

“Little busy here,”Jason grunted as two missiles collided with each other, but the force of the blow blew him back, dragging his feet on the pavement. The third one struck him before he had time to dodge, and all he heard was the screeching of tires getting further away as it went off, sending him into darkness.

Tim cursed as Jason was thrown back into a building before slumping to the ground. The van was gone and the tracker malfunctioned when the weird energy sources of the van's weapons activated. As much as Tim would have liked to go after Danny, he didn’t have a car or his Red Robin suit, nor a way to track them anymore. And Hood was down, He thought dryly.

Hood was already moving by the time Tim skidded to his side. There was no blood, so Tim figured it was just a lot of percussive force damaging his brother. He’d have a lot of bruises for sure. As Hood grumbled and caught his bearings, Tim helped him stand, finding burns through his armor on his side and left thigh from the lasers. He grimaced in sympathy.

“You okay?” Tim asked once Hood was standing. He didn’t seem injured too badly, but might have a concussion if not for the red helmet on his head.

“Yeah,”Hood coughed. “Nothing I can’t handle. Wasn’t prepared for that shit though. The fuck do they have so many heavy duty weapons?” Hood spat, brushing off Tim’s hands. “Any way to track them?”

Tim shook his head. “I didn’t see Phantom anywhere but they managed to get Danny by roping the vice principal into setting up a trap for him. I didn’t notice until after they had him.”

“Shit, think they got Phantom too?”Jason swore again, but went over to where his motorcycle was, dragging Tim with him. “C’mon, we’ll find them.”

“Yeah,”Tim responded, feeling his brain buzz with anxiety and plans. He’d have to figure out where the GIW base was, how they got into Gotham, and hack into the CCTVs to figure out if Phantom was around. A helmet was shoved into his arms and Tim jolted back to the present.

“We’re on our own for this one. B and the others are on their way to the Gala already,”Jason said, revving the motorcycle. “Sides, not much we can do until we track down the van. We’ll gear up at my place and come up with a plan before looping in everyone else.”

“I can loop in Spoiler,”Tim added, twisting his arms around Hood’s waist. Jason grunted in agreement and they made their way to Jason’s apartment without following most traffic signals. The whole way, Tim worried about his friend and what the GIW would do to him. Though he had one big question hanging over him. Where was Phantom?

Chapter 20

#Phantom of Gotham #Danny phantom #dpxdc #dcxdp

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sigynpenniman · 5 months ago

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GOOD MORNING I HAVE A FRESH NEW HOT TAKE. It’s really weird being female* and hearing all the talk about how miserable it is to be a woman because women have to be So Scared all of the time and like. Men will never know what it feels like to walk home with keys between their fingers!!! And I. Idk man. Like, yes. True. There is absolutely an element of being unsafe that comes along with being (or being perceived as) female. Or black. Or queer. Or middle eastern. Or etc etc. and White straight abled men 100% move through the world with a thoughtless ease that is so ingrained in their experience that they cannot conceive of how different their lives and experiences are in ways they’ve never even thought about. BUT. And I have seen this talked about on here before. There is a certain element of the “things women have to do to be safe” thing that is just. Not real. And it’s so hard to talk about because when you start saying things like “you do not need to immediately lock your doors the second you get in your car in the Target parking lot in your rich suburban neighborhood, no kidnapper is going to come for you” people Do Not like it because they interpret that statement as saying “women are silly for being afraid, they have nothing to be afraid of.” And that’s absolutely untrue. I am not nor do I have any intention to trivialize the real dangers and fears of being a woman. But a huge percentage, imo, of the White Woman Fear Culture is birthed of inaccurate, unlikely, and extremely overblown dangers that are just kind of…not really things that happen very much in real life. The “Wolverine keys,” check the backseat for a murderer, lock your doors the second you get in the car, don’t ever sit in a parking lot after you leave the store because that’s when the kidnappers come for you, don’t wear a ponytail because it makes you easier to grab from behind!!! stuff. “It’s so sad that women have to think about this…” actually they really don’t. Make no mistake women absolutely do have to think more about their safety than men and experience far more unsafe situations and targeted harassment and gender specific and sexual dangers but “omg I can’t wear my hair in a ponytail because what if a random man walks up and grabs me by it” is in fact Not a thing women “have” to worry about because it is on the edge of being a fairytale. Has it ever happened? Yes, I’m sure it has. Is it likely? Less so than winning the lottery. Almost ALL violence & sexual violence against women is done on them by people they personally know, by people they’re in relationships with, family members, people met in bars, etc, and most, though certainly not all, of course, but most human trafficking situations/victims are people who are disadvantaged in one way or another - extreme poverty, homelessness, addiction, etc, largely because those people are more likely to be in situations where they don’t have many connections who will notice their disappearance. The fears and dangers of being a woman are certainly real and valid and I have no interest in mocking or trivializing them because I experience them every day and they are real and legitimate but there is a certain extent of the modern “if you don’t check your backseat for a murderer you’re going to get snatched up and kidnapped and human trafficked from the Super Target parking lot!” kind of fear that has really started to be seen as a “necessary” part of the woman* experience and like “oh what a shame women have to live like this!” they don’t. you really really don’t. There are always dangers in life. Someone could mug you, murder you, whatever. Living in extreme fear of highly unlikely scenarios is not healthy, and being spontaneously snatch kidnapped as a (comparatively) wealthy well connected able bodied straight cis woman in a wealthy high traffic area is about the most unlikely scenario there is. You don’t need to check the backseat for murderers you’re living in fear and maybe acting with a touch of OCD type behaviors. It’s okay I promise. Live your life it’s fine!

#if anyone comes after me for this I swear to fucking god

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lethalitisms · 3 months ago

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BRING OUT THE WARM WELCOME (BACK) MAT FOR EDDIE !!!

Literally built like a stereotypical beefy jock

Works out regularly

Not all that clever, but he tries his best

Broke as hell :(

Depressed as hell :(

That's ok I got my gay alien lover with me :)

Would climb mountains and pocket the moon for his gay little alien like don't even test him

IT IS NOT A PARASITE !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Working on the redemption thing but everyone still kinda hates him :/

AND DON'T FORGET THAT GAY LITTLE ALIEN !!!!

spib :)

Loves chocolate and hospital dramas ( omg when the doctors said he needed mouse bites to live . . . literally on the edge of my goopy seat )

English is not its first language, be kind and learn how to speak in feelings tq

What are the current laws on alien-to-human marriage? Asking for a friend

Halloween is its favorite holiday

Gender? I hardly even know 'er!

Tries to be funny but is a little scary :( sorry

House. Two kids. White picket fence. Dog.

If it was allowed any sort of social media, it blogs like a mom

APP + STATS + READING LIST + RULES . . .

This is exclusively an Isola Radiale affiliated blog. I will not interact with those not within the group. For my independent multimuse please go to exigencism

I typically respond in paragraph / novella length and format my replies with small text, 65x65px icons, and bold dialogue. If you need me to change this to make it easier to read, you can DM me if it’s not listed anywhere in your page.

I use stylized brackets to indicate who is talking and whether or not other muses can hear them. These 「 squared brackets 」 indicate that the symbiote is speaking exclusively to Eddie within his mind, these ╭ half-brackets ╮ indicate that Eddie is speaking to the symbiote exclusively within his mind, and these ⸨ doubled brackets ⸩ indicate them speaking as Venom out loud. Usual "quotation marks" are when Eddie is speaking normally out loud.

Random starters are epic, please don’t be afraid to spontaneously interact with me- especially if we’ve never written together before. I’m here to have fun with all of you guys. If I follow you, then that means I want to interact!

If you’re unfamiliar with the source lore but want to know more, you are absolutely free to ask me about it! The Marvel 616 comics has a very long history and I am very much a yapper at heart over these two.

If you’re interested in shipping with Eddie and/or the symbiote (romantic / platonic / familial / rival / etc) then please let me know. Let’s build connnections n stuff :] I always love a bit of networking between the muses. The symbiote has no real sexuality ( as the species knows it, at least ) and Eddie is . . . in love with an alien already. But who knows! Could get interesting with the right chemistry. . .

My timezone is GMT+8 and my sleep schedule is fucked. So basically, I’m just online whenever.

I prefer to queue most of my things. Replies, starters, etc. I like to respond really fast but also not worry if I’m clogging everything up on the dash with it.

#goop support squad ᯓ ooc #[[ my temp pinned post for now HAHAHAHA this format is fitting for these two #isola follow

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totaldramafan-lauri · 1 year ago

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A decade on this hellsite (affectionate)

So, while I'm working on putting the finishing touches on this chapter, and am getting ready to work on other stuff as well, I...I have an announcement....

This is something I should've said yesterday, but I misremembered....

Uh...

I dunno how to say this super eloquently, but....yesterday was my 10 year anniversary on Tumblr! Wooooo!!

Yup! I joined Tumblr on November 6, 2013, and I've stayed here ever since! W-well, give or take a few hiatuses, but....I-I never LEFT, and that's what I'm celebrating....XD

When I first joined Tumblr, I did so to please a couple people I looked up to, who wanted to talk to me more. I'd been lurking on the website for quite a while beforehand, and didn't have a blog because I thought I wasn't an interesting enough person for one....and I also lowkey feared being made fun of. Yeah, I thought that Tumblr was a competition to get the biggest following, and if no one paid attention to you, you might as well not exist. That kind of mentality was pretty much drilled into me by the state of my current fandom at the time, which was ruled by a select few popular blogs and everyone else had to either conform to what they liked and hated, or get mocked.

How stupid of me, right? Tumblr is more than just the fandoms on it. Tumblr is literally whatever you make of it. You choose what to do and say, and who to engage with. Heck, even if you don't wanna talk to ANYONE, you can still use it for yourself. XD

Originally, this was purely a Total Drama fan blog. Then, over time, as I got more and more comfy with it, I talked about personal things more often, and then branched out, and just made it a me blog, in around 2015 or so. This ended up being the right choice. It became a second home, and grew with me over the years. I've gone through a lot - different special interests (many of which ended up being very important to me), a lot of personal changes, getting more comfortable with certain parts of myself - and Tumblr has captured all of that. At this point, I don't do anything for the attention. I just like putting it out there.

I've even accomplished things that 2013 me would've never tried...like, slowly embracing self-shipping culture, and all the fics I've written because of it. In 2013, I had my fictional crushes, but I was embarrassed about them and usually hid them behind OCs. And I'd never written a full fanfic. I was a former roleplayer. And now....Holy crap, I'm not saying I'm a GREAT writer, but...t-to try it, like it, and then KEEP DOING IT?? I call that an accomplishment....

I've met many people, including good friends, and....I-I like to think that....I-I've matured thanks to it. When you're in one place for a decade, it really influences you a lot, even in less obvious ways. I was a LOT more spontaneous ten years ago. I-I said some insensitive stuff that I didn't realize at the time. I stuck my nose in places it didn't belong, and I let myself get too pressed over the opinions of people I didn't even like. I don't do any of that anymore. I'm a lot more picky with what sides of my fandoms I talk to now. I'm still not perfect, but I've grown a lot, and it's cool to think....that this blog is essentially a document of my emotional journey.

(Not to mention all the Eurovision seasons, heheh....)

Does that mean my old posts from 2013 and 2014 are worth reading nowadays? HECK no, but I'm happy they exist.

I-I'm sorry that this is so word-vomit-y, but......point is, thanks for ten years. Here's hoping I'm still here in 2033. Until then.....I-I have an update:

I dunno why I didn't do this sooner, but I have a "Current Interests" page now, which I plan to update frequently. This'll make it easier to keep track of what I'm into at the present time. So that I no longer have to hide anything....just...laying it all out there for people.

I thought I needed it. I've just been lazy for waaaaay too long. XD I need to act my age and let people know what they're getting into.

#lauri talks to herself

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taegularities · 1 year ago

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colour me in: commentary (script)

⋙ wc: 7.3k⋙ a/n: sooo, i figured some don't have the time to listen to a 73 mins audio, so i wrote out this script if it's easier for some of y'all! of course it'd be great if you still support the commentary and listen whenever you're able to, since that was the point of an audio commentary and it was quite a bit of work 😮‍💨 but i hope this is helpful for busy bees like me <3 took me 2 hours to script like i thought it'd be easier than that lmao 😭 i even made a banner!! is it pretty 😁 in any case, enjoy and give it lotsa love and let me know your thoughts to my thoughts if you'd like! 🤍

Tiny glimpses into what was and what will be.

Went through it all one by one. Thank you to everyone who sent something in!! Enjoy!! <3

By Axelle/ @jkaxl

If cmi wasn’t written "for" kookoo, which member do you think the story would have been suitable for?

Honestly, it truly did start out as a Kook story, so there was never anyone else I even considered. But if I had to switch members, or think of switching members, Ii’d probably choose Joon? Purely because I feel like he as the ultimate comfort person vibe that would fit that comforting role well, too. Or Tae, because of the initial fuckboy/friends with benefits trope. I feel like he’s a good choice for that in general. Honestly cannot imagine CMI as a Jin or Hobi or Yoongi story. Maybe Jimin. But then I'd have to change his major, which circles back to me not being able to imagine anyone but Jungkook in this role — because I don’t quite see Jimin as an arts major. Do you guys? Have you guys read an artist!Jimin thing before? I’d be curious to know! So yeah, the artist bit and colours are just so important for CMI, so I guess I’d stick with Tae or Joon, yep.

Be honest!!!! Your favorite scene so far as a writer pov AND as a reader pov (cause of course you read your stuff after writing it :)

Gosh, honestly, I do get scared rereading my stuff. So for example, with Blooming, I spent hours editing the same scene, so I never reread a single word after posting it, because I’m so scared of rereading and finding more mistakes in it. Like, when I was editing it, I was constantly wondering… Does any of this even make sense? As an example, when Jungkook was talking about liking waking up early in the morning now, those were around six-ish paragraphs, but I spent hours editing them!

But anyways, that’s not what you asked. Very interesting question though, because i've never thought about it like this before.

If I had to answer spontaneously…

I’d say, from a writer’s point of view, the pregnancy scare. Because I know, they felt terrible, but writing about their worries and how they handled it and fought the fear together was what I loved the most. I also got the chance to be dramatic, which is something I would never not do. I had been excited about it for quite a while – and with quite a while I mean summer 2021, when I came up with CMI. I've always wanted to include a pregnancy scare.

Also the flashbacks in Blurred since I very much enjoy switching between the past and present. But with this one, I wasn’t sure if it would work out. But I think I managed, and it came out nicely, especially with the outline I had for it. This is something I’d actually reread! I don’t know, I just really love diving into their past, and how their relationship started and bloomed.

And from a reader’s pov, I’d say the dark alley scene in Monochrome. Which is kind of self-explanatory, so many of you liked it, and honestly… same. But also a couple scenes in Lights, especially when Jungkook calls her while drunk. He could’ve spent time with his family and was incredibly busy, but was still just craving that one phone call to tell her that he’d burnt his finger before she went to sleep. And when she asks whether that was all he needed to tell her, he responds with, “No, also to tell you that I missed you.” Which gives me heart eyes even after one year and a half!

I also just love Blooming as a whole. It made me realise how much I love writing fluff and how it comes just as easily to me as sad stuff, which I thought was the thing I was the best at. But I feel like I’m not that bad at writing cute things either? Lol, and I really hope you felt how much I adored writing it, too.

Which is also why I’m so so so excited for CMI12, I've said it a hundred times and I’ll say it a million times more, but still… it's called Palette, by the way! And it's gonna be great! I hope—

Are we going to see more of hobi?

Mmmh. Not as an important character. I know he’ll come back in some way… but he won’t really be important anymore. Cannot quite say the same about Nara though, so prepare thyselves 😀

Kookoo, which one : cuddles or kisses?

Oh, he’s the kisses guy. OC is the one who does cuddles and would be more than alright spending her entire day, or the rest of her life, in his arms. But he’s the kissy kinda guy, because they waited quite a bit for this, and now he’d be damned if he ever let her breathe again. Also, I do think he’s a very physical touch kinda person; he loves hugging and touching her in general. She is also a very physical, but she’s more into cuddling, and he just he likes kissing her. A lot, a lot.

By Alyssa/@wintrbears

What is your plot-planning process? Do you make a formal outline of the whole story/every chapter, etc. Do you outline it in your head only but know what will happen from beginning to end? or do you start with a general idea and create the plot as you write?

Both, I’d say! I usually have a general plot in my head, but not the details. So for example: I knew I wanted the pregnancy scare and the confession to happen in chapter 11, in Translucent, but I hadn't planned the dialogues yet. Or that his mom would come over. Orrrr, the scene with them chilling under the stars he glued to the ceiling or the projection of the Mikrokosmos lamp. Which only happened because I was rereading Layers and it mentioned the lamp, and I was like, “Riiiight, that still exists! I need to give it some importance!”

So these details come to me as I write. Or at least, when I'm doing the outline. It just flows out of me as if they’re real, like I'm not even kidding, the story writes itself. The characters are alive! Sometimes I reread my outlines a couple days later and I’m like, “Damn, he did not say that. I did not make them say that!”

And then I blush and giggle and internally panic just like OC does.

So yeah basically, I have an idea of what I want to do, and then when I start outlining, the scenes come to me automatically. I usually do know the beginning and ending of a chapter beforehand, though. So yeah, as I said I'm aware of what the general plot will be. A lot of the scenes you guys love and cherish and hold close to your hearts as favourites… were some I hadn’t planned until I started forming words in the document.

how did you first think of the plot/idea for CMI? what initially inspired and now inspires you to write it?

Hah… Funny story, so what inspired me to write it was that one VCR from their MOTS: One concert. Do you guys still remember that one? Where he’s sitting in that white suit and smearing that pitch black colour over his mouth and smirking through it for no reason at all. And Tae was doing something similar and… yeah, they scarred and fucked me up for life. And I wanted to write… Well, first I was going to go for a smut drabble series. And then it turned into a fic that needed to include a body painting scene? Which we eventually got in CMI5, The Canvas. OC does the colour smearing, too!

Then I kinda started building a plot around it and wondered what could lead to such a smut thing at all. So at some point I was like… okay. Arts student jk, business student OC. They need to fall in love, but will have to fight a lot of hurdles and misunderstandings, and there will be a body painting scene at some point and a drunk scene in which JK picks her up from a club, in whichever context. Stuff like that.

Back in 2021, I didn’t even have a title for the series and – fun fact, I was going to call it Love Won’t Let Me Leave, per a friend’s suggestion (@incorrectlyspn mwah <3). But then I realised that it was a bit long and another friend (@agustdakasuga mwah pt2 <3) suggested including a reference to colours? And then I thought of Colour Me In and was like, yep. That’s the one.

Okay, you got more than you asked for, I apologise, I just always love talking about them :D

How do you decide what type of personality OC will have? does it depend on the type of plot you want to write or does the character’s personality guide the plot?

Once again, love the question, because I appreciate people talking and asking about the OC. Most of us read fics for the boys, but it’s very cool to stay for the other characters, such as OC, too! It does something to my heart.

So… again, both! OC was always going to be soft and fun; a lil scarred but still optimistic and someone who loves deeply. I kinda got away from that personality once she and JK broke up and all that stuff with her mother happened.

‘Cause obviously, it was quite a burden to bear and she was sad for a while. But now that things are looking up, I'm hoping to get back to who she truly is, and I think… or I hope, it’ll make you guys love her a lot, too.

Also, looking at their relationship and their bickering, I think that bit also contributed to how I see and describe OC. Like, they’re a wild but also a very gentle couple, and the joy that they find in each other kinda shapes their personalities, too. Does that make sense? It makes sense in my head haha.

I think they’re more hopeful and more open and more tender now. They’ve learned what love really is. A lot of my OCs were or are sad though, but I want to explore more personality types, despite all that sorrow. Like… I don’t just want them to be sad, because she’s not generally a sad person. You saw that in Blooming. If she gets the chance to be happy, she is happy!

Same with Entertainer — the OC is sad, but I want her to be more than that. Mysterious and so on. And yeah, same with my CMI sweetheart.

AND fun side question: do you have a name for OC in your head besides “Y/N.” I have been conditioned to say my name when I see “Y/N” so i’m wondering if you say Rid while reading it or if you think of another name or no name at all. Do you ever picture yourself as your OCs since it’s technically reader x Jungkook.

No, I never read it as Y/N, and frankly, I stopped using that term a loooong time ago. Now I just say, “He calls your name, he whispers your name” etc. Like if you ever read my stuff, you’ll notice that I don’t use Y/N, or anything.

But I don't replace it with my name either. I know we’re supposed to put ourselves in the lead’s shoes, but I can't help but see her as her own person. She’s so separated from me, she’s like a friend to me. There are moments where I imagine standing there with him, or talking to him. But in general, she’s her own person, and in my head, I call her… OC, tbh. It’s her name now, yup.

not specifically CMI related but of all your OCs who do you think is the most like you? if any at all. Do you ever intentionally put pieces of your own personality into your OCs and/or is there one personality trait you always put in your OCs whether intentional or not.

My first thought was… Right Amount of Wrongs and The Diary of a Healing Heart, since they’re kinda based on my own experiences? But then again, we’re talking about experiences here, not about the character itself. If we’re talking personality wise… I'd say Swan from Songs About You. It’s one of my earlier fics from 2021, that I am very fond of. I’ve even heard a couple times that the OC reminds people of me. So I’d pick her. She’s also kind but also a lil fragile and sensitive, but also so strong? Which… thinking about it now, sounds like a brag, okay I know, but. She’s very dear to me, and I identify with her a lot.

The traits I put in my OCs are often… my family issues :’D Like, a lot of them struggled as they grew up, and I had a hard time with my family growing up, too. I love them, of course, and everything’s fine now, but yeah, there are some issues that they fight through that aren’t too unfamiliar to me, unfortunately. As you could tell. Maybe.

I also make them say stuff sometimes that I'd say in a specific situation, or I add a convo I actually had with someone before or witnessed, at least. I don’t know, actually. You guys know me a little? Lol, what do you think? Is there anything you see in my OCs that matches my personality? Actually, very curious to know!

and then fun side question: which of the members of bts do you think you would actually work out with if you tried to date. do you think you and your bias/biases would be good together or is it another member/members you could see yourself with.

I mean, of course I’d choose my bias. JK is like… I'd sell my soul to give him all my love and be loved by him, because I feel like he’d be good at it. Tae is my bias too, but I don't necessarily see myself dating him. Like, of course I would also die to marry that man, but I do think we can be very different. And I feel like JK and I are just a bit more alike when it comes to a couple things.

But aside from my biases? I’d absolutely choose Namjoon.

He might even be my first choice. He’s the comfort I seek in people. He’s poetry on two legs. I feel like he could provide the warmth a lover craves, and truly understand what it means to be patient, loving and honest, too. And he’d know when to trust his heart and when to trust his mind. So yeah. Very much in love with him and the idea of being with him.

Also, you didn’t ask for it, but I do want to say, that with Yoongi – I don’t know if I could date him, but I would very much like to be his best friend in real life. I was just talking about it to a friend today, because I was recommending D-Day to them, and I spoke about how much I relate to this man.

Whenever he talks, it’s like, he’s talking about what I’m feeling or struggling with as well. You guys remember the D-Day documentary, and the ending made me sob. The thing he said about not worrying about the future and past and living in the present time… I know we’ve heard this lecture a hundred times, but the way he phrased it was so… ugh. It got to me, and I still cry when I see gifs of it or rewatch that clip.

By Anon

I found CMI when it had 3 or 4 chapters so I wasn’t here when it began and missed the early asks! Im curious to know what inspired you to write cmi? What was your original intention in terms of the plot (as maybe somethings changed), the length of the story, the characters? Was it JK fic from the very beginning? If you could share your favourite chapter or specific scene, what would it be? My fave so far is defo the pregnancy scare cause im such a softie for caring kook!

So yeah, the intention was to make it a drabble thing. Once I had a proper plot and understood that it wouldn’t just end up consisting of drabbles, I knew it’d get pretty long. I just never thought we’d ever surpass 300k words? Can you believe that? I didn’t think it could have 20-ish chapters either. I was thinking, I don’t like, like 10 or so? But a lot of things have happened and I can't let them go just yet, so… here we are.

The characters! Yes! I was always gonna include the whole gang, and I knew I wanted everyone to play a role in their lives. So we have Yoongi, Tae, Jimin as part of their squad, pretty consistent members of the story. And then there’s Joon as his mentor and boss. Jin as OC’s new co-worker. Hobi as her “ex”, and so on. And yeah, it was JK from the beginning!

I’d also say the pregnancy scare is my favourite so far, but also. To tell you a secret… my actual favourite scenes are yet to come, pun totally intended. So sit tight. I really hope you like them, too! I’ve been planning the upcoming chapters for a bit, so I hope you love them as much as I do <3

By Ari/@wintaerbaer

You totally don't have to answer this if you're not comfortable, but I've always been super curious as to how you go about outlining your ~spicy~ scenes. Is it the same as normal scenes? I'm always so impressed by how yours never get stale and manage to give us something about the characters (especially for cmi), and as someone who's starting to delve into that aspect of writing, I'd love to hear your thoughts on it!

I’ve told you many times before, but I appreciate it so much that you appreciate the smut scenes, because it’s what I struggle with the most. Like legit, my smut scenes are the last I tackle… It's just very hard to be original and creative with every chapter. It’s not easy for me, so it’s cool you think so.

As to my answer, yeah, I do outline them in bullet point format. It’s an interesting process that I go into with furrowed eyebrows and absolute concentration. Even while writing it, there’s not that much room to be horny, because I'm so focused on phrasing everything well. Different story when I actually edit and reread, but yeah, I swear I do put a lot of effort into these, and TMI, but I also try to include stuff I like or experienced or would like.

Recently, I've also started putting a lot of dialogue in my smut scenes, and I found that it’s a lot of fun, honestly! I’ve learned to let the characters talk more. Because then I'm not stuck on describing every detail, but have them talk about it, too. In some way, at least. The dialogue does help a lot, really. I mean, I don’t know if i succeed, but I try to make the things they say sound natural. I think having them talk and whisper a lot and just be very vocal and interactive helps make the smut less boring. I'm not sure if that helped, but please hit me up if it didn’t!!

By Anon

I would love to know jungkook’s thoughts when he decided to get the forget me not tattoo and during the tattoo session too like did he get anxious about it? did he love oc back then? did he hesitate to get the tattoo?

Super cool question, something I had to think about for a moment!

He was so anxious about it! He doesn’t get nervous about tattoos, since he’s got so many of them. But you know? He wasn’t anxious because he was fearing he was making a mistake, but more ‘cause… he kept wondering what she’d think of it. Like, would it be cringe if he came back with a tattoo that was basically her? Too much? Would she not like that he got it? Or maybe, if she didn’t feel the way he did… would it be extra embarrassing?

But the thing with JK is that, while OC was always very unsure about how he felt about her, he kinda had a hunch about what she might think of him. He saw it in her jealousy about Nara, and how she looked at him in general. He could hide that a bit easier, especially when he spoke about them just being friends. But she was like… even on the phone calls and when they were videocalling in Lights, she was so sad and crying and he was like, “What’s wrong?”

And she said something like, “Please come back.”

Because she needed him with her, and he noticed that craving. So he was a bit more confident. He didn’t love her then but he was falling. And he was falling hard enough to know she’d leave a mark. No matter what was going to happen, he knew she’d affect him long term. In the worst case, it’d be a pretty flower tattoo — Jungkook loves flowers and he adored the way she drew those forget me nots. That helped make him less hesitant. And the fact that he couldn’t stop thinking of her.

Also, they’d become good friends and were getting closer, and he knew that with time, he would eventually fall in love with her. Like, that was very obvious to him, and very… Inevitable? Like, man is seriously obsessed with her.

So to summarise. He didn’t love her yet, but he was in that mess deep enough to know he’d remember her, with or without a tattoo. Other than that, it was also a bit of a souvenir, like a gift for her, too. He wanted to make her happy, and in some way… he wanted to make her fall for him a bit more, too.

By Ivi/@btscontentenjoyer

Okaaaay I have a few because I always love hearing you talk about anything <3 What's a fun moment from the cmi couple's earlier days that we haven't seen and you would like to share, either now or in an additional part one day?

So there’s something I’ve been thinking about… you know how I said I'd be doing drabbles once the main story is over? I want to explore more of their past but a lot of their future, too.

And one of the past scenes is like… OC has a pretty bad day in, like, spring, around March or April which is when it usually gets warmer, too. Jungkook already knows her home life isn’t the best, but he doesn’t ask, because he figures she doesn’t want to talk about it, she never does.

But like, they’re hanging out and he sees her pouting and all. So he suggests going to an amusement park that opened near the centre of the town, and at first, she’s reluctant about it, but he manages to convince her. They do all that couple-y yet platonic stuff, like, trying to win a plushie for the other (which does not work out, but they have fun trying! But JK says something like, “I really had the intention to win this for you today, to make you less sad”, and she’s like, “Okay, but I already feel so much better!” Still giggling and kicking her feet inside).

Then, they go on one of those small ferris wheels thingies? What are they called? Like in The Notebook? And they talk about that Notebook scene as well, where Noah is hanging off the wheel to impress Allie and make her go out with him, and OC is like, “God, as much as I love that movie and his romantic ass… that was such a stupid thing to do!”

And JK was like, “That’s a bummer.” And she’s like, “Why?”

Already clutching his arm in case he does something dumb. And JK, as reckless as he is, goes, “I was gonna climb up there and cheer you up and convince you to admit that I was the better student in business class.”

Of course he wouldn’t have, but she panics and he acts as though he’s about to get up and teases her, and they spent the rest of the ride bickering and laughing. It’s just extremely wholesome, ‘cause OC catches herself not wanting to go home near the end, and she says bye to him very, very hesitantly.

And I think I should stop talking about this, because I feel like I might tear up? Yeah. But I can assure you that there’s… so much I've planned if things go as I intend them to. There’s a lot ahead and we will see a lot more of their past days and everything they’ll be up to after their story is finished.

What's an unnecessary detail or fun fact that you know about a character from cmi but has no relevance to the plot (for example how jungkook likes his coffee or what flavour ice cream is OC's favourite lol)?

UGH, THERE ARE SO MANYYYY!!

You will see a shit ton of those in CMI12 and 13, since these are the perfect chapters to mention these details, but a couple I can tell you are that these two occupy barely one third of the bed. They cuddle into each other; OC generally doesn’t take up much of her bed, didn’t do it in her old home either, because she curls up into a ball. It’s very cute and he loves that a lot, too!

Hm. More fun facts.

Like, the coffee one. JK is a frappuccino kinda guy. OC’s favourite ice cream flavours areeeee… hazelnut, chocolate chip and matcha. She doesn’t go to the zoo often because cute animals make her cry. Also, she believes they do not belong there unless it’s the only chance for their survival. Also enjoys mugs and cups and has filled a cabinet in their kitchen with them. She usually just uses them for tea, of which mint is her favourite, which… she once mentioned to Namjoon and he very much disapproved.

Also… a very small spoiler for the next part — but she can play the guitar a little, aside from the piano, as we saw in one of the earlier chapters. Her dad taught her both of them. She loves DIY projects, but didn’t get a chance or time to try a lot. She wants to, now that she lives with him and isn’t pressured by her parents anymore.

Jungkook on the other hand… his hobbies are different, but he’s just as passionate about them. He likes coffee rather than tea, likes planting his own flowers every now and then, which he learnt back at home, while he discovered that OC does not have a green thumb. She loves getting plants but he takes care of them, because she's killed a few before :’)

He does random karaoke nights, too, and when she’s not too tired, she joins without him even asking. Get you someone who loves you like that! She’s learned that he’s not just a good but excellent singer, and it’s become a habit to ask him to sing her to sleep every now and then. Isabella’s Theme from The Promised Neverland!! Which!! You should totally listen to and that’s totally not because I just watched it, nope nope. Okay but. That’s a lot… you’ll see so much more ahead and I'm so excited.

What past and future 👀👀👀 scene has been the most fun for you to write? Which ones have been the most challenging?

I looooved writing the entire cooking and house tour scene in Blooming. And the pregnancy scare. Andddd the videocalls in Lights. Future scenes… Oh, I see you’re sneaky. Won’t spoil too much, you’ll see, but I wanna say.

Wedding. Mountains. Playing games in teams… and… oh God.

A dancing scene in a much later chapter.

You’ll know when you read it, but it’s one that made me cry the moment I came up with him because the chapter in general will be pretty heavy, and this scene’s gonna involve– quite a few tears. I want to say so much, but I won't. Won’t do a Kim Namjoon and will not spoil! Also the ones I think will be fun but also emotional to write… the last chapter and the last scene.

The one I found extremely challenging was Blue. It explored a lot of grief and past sorrow, and… it was just a lot? And then same with Letters From The Heart. On one hand, because I wrote a chapter fully from his pov for the first time, but also because it was soooo sad, man, what’s wrong with me. Yeah, it was not easy. I wasn’t sure if it was going to be good at all, or would it be boring? But I’m glad you guys loved it so much.

And for some reason, Blooming was hella hard, too. I really don't know why. Which is why I'm so sad it wasn’t as well read as the other chapters, but that’s okay because I really loved it so much. Fingers crossed everyone enjoys Palette!

What is something you learned through the process of writing the series/ through the characters etc.?

Ah okay, try not to cry. If we’re talking writing, I'd say, I've learned that writing a series and keeping it interesting isn’t easy. Even now, I get so nervous. Posting each chapter is nerve wracking, and it never gets any less daunting. But I've learned that there’s so much you can do with a series. You can explore their personalities, their story; you learn how to love and cherish them and make them part of yourself.

And that’s what they are.

They’re such a big part of him, they’re literally tattooed on my skin. And the fact that they affected so many of you, too is— unbelievable. Like. The fact that some of you find joy and comfort in them, and come back to them when you’re sad. That you love them and me and their story so much. I’ve learned that not only are they able to spread warmth in me but in my readers, too?

I treat them as real people now. Dialogues make me cry, thinking about what’s still going to happen makes me emotional and realising that one day their journey with me will end is just. It’s unbelievable. I don’t want it to. By writing about their relationship, I've started yearning for the same level of affection. I want someone to love me like that, and I want to feel as safe as they do.

And by writing JK’s and her characters the way I have been, I've learned how to be kinder, too. They don’t get angry so easily and they learn to accept other people’s flaws and be gentle and loving and sweet, and… yeah, I guess it makes me wanna be better, too. It makes me wanna be brave and more open, less sad.

It’s crazy to think that my own characters can make me feel that way, but I truly have learned a lot. That love can exist, and that hope is important. I’ve always been someone who holds onto hope so much, my entire foundation is built on hope, no matter what happens. And these two show me that it can be worth it to be hopeful. CMI12 especially, or at least its outline, shows me that it’s so, so important to keep going, because there are beautiful things ahead, and I want them all. Want to be here to experience them.

There’s so much more i've learned, but I feel like thinking about it for too long will have me sobbing in no time lol

By Lidia/@baalkoo

do oc or jk have one specific way of showing the other love? like a little touch while eating, letting the other brush their fingers through their hair..

Yeah! He plays with her hair a lot, like he did when his mom came to visit in Translucent, and she’d be talking to OC, and he was touching her hair and curling it around his finger and all.

He also likes her cheeks a lot, and brushing them. Thumb across her cheek, signature move! Like, especially when they’re in bed and talking, he does that sometimes. And he rubs her back whenever she’s stressed. He does it automatically, touching her back or shoulders or cheering her up is something he noticed she likes a lot. With made up secrets like, “Did you know fish throw up, too?” 😀

They also both also love preparing breakfast for the other when they wake up first. So usually, there’s something on the table when the other gets up, unless they wake up at the same time. And OC is a music enthusiast who loves showing him new songs; he’s the one who sings it. She creates playlists for him and names them in kinda weird, kinda endearing ways. One of her playlists are called, “to colour in outlines” — which I think is very cute and a bit of a reference to the sketch book she got him back in Blurred.

By Nat/@cinnamon-roll-peter

I was wondering what inspired you to start writing cmi? if you've already answered that question, what inspires you to write oc and jungkooks relationship the way that you have? have you already planned out what path the story will take until the end? (i never want cmi to end i love it too much 😭)

Already had the first question, but moving to the others — have you seen Brooklyn 99? Because it’s been my latest obsession! But Jake and Amy in it? I love their relationship so much. They’re so supportive, so unproblematic. They do fight and have their differences, but they always find back to each other. And even though CMI has been going far longer than my B99 rewatch, I’ve learned that that’s the relationship I crave and the relationship I want to describe. I always want them to supportive and find home and comfort in each other, too. So watching B99 kinda gave me that extra inspiration lately.

Is that stupid? I don’t know? I’ve been watching love stories lately, like this and Elemental and I want people to love like that all the time.

About the ending — yes, I have! Which makes me sad, because it makes me realise that there’ll be an end to this. But yeah, I know what’ll be happening in the next parts until the very end, and I'm telling you guys, there’s… so much hurt ahead. And so much joy. So much success and failure and missing and yearning and anger. And just. Everything. There’s everything, and seriously, I'm not kidding, so much more than in the first half of the story. Which is why I really hope everyone’s still there when I post the next chapters, because I feel like the first half is nothing compared to what’s still going to happen.

By 🐼✒️ Anon

OC and JK, when did you first know you were head over heels for the other?

OC knew when she saw the tattoo. The distance did help, but the tattoo kinda sealed the deal for her, like she knew… fuck, Im screwed now. There’s no going back to how things were before he went on vacation.

And with him, it was when he got the tattoo, I’d say. Although, I’d say the moment he truly knew how there was no escaping her anymore was when she walked away that night in the dark alley with a simple, “Okay.”

Fun fact! That was a very spontaneous thing to do, it wasn’t in my Monochrome outline. It was a very simple thing, and I didn’t know so many would freak out about it. But I loved the reactions! Loved seeing the messages about people crying about that simple, “Okay.” And I think it affected him just as much.

He panicked and was like, “Fuck, I do not want to lose her.”

But it was his doing, so he just. Watched her walk away.

OC, how was your relationship with your parents while growing up? Did you feel supported and loved enough from them? How did that affect your self esteem, and relationships with other people?

There’ll be more info on that as we move on, but… it wasn’t always bad. There were good moments when she was a child, but things got worse the older she got and the more they noticed she was approaching an age where she’d be able to inherit the company. So, her teenage years were difficult.

They neglected her feelings a lot, and mostly focused on training her. She lost some of the joys of being a teen, so that’s where things got… bad. Before that, she was their little girl and it wasn’t as bad. But more on that later, because her story with her parents isn’t over yet.

Her relationship with them was like. They supported her, but in a wrong way. Her studies, and wanting her to build a career at their company. They thought that was them supporting her. But she’s always wanted to be a writer which didn’t get any acknowledgement. She wishes they gave that more attention, too. Other than that, as she said in Blooming, she wishes her father would’ve stood by her side more. To defend her, to love her. Etc.

So, her self esteem was definitely affected by that, and her relationship with others… like, she’s a bubbly and open girl, but she does get insecure sometimes. It took her so long to understand that JK felt the way he felt about her. Or that she was worthy of love, and that someone actually wanting to be with her was real and not something that’d end in doom.

She was scared because he left her once already, and she still sometimes fears he’ll do it again. So that’s definitely an effect of feeling alone as she grew up. But let’s hope he’s able to eliminate all those thoughts moving forward and loves her well enough to show her she’s more than worth the affection she gets.

OC and JK, how is it like living with each other? Do you ever annoy each other (or are yall still loveydovey in honeymoon phase)?

It’s challenging, but it’s also lovely. I guess the challenging bit comes from them annoying each other, because there are quite a few things that rile them up sometimes. You might remember from Seven, but they both have little quirks, like him constantly smacking his lips or not cleaning up his working space after drawing and painting. Or her not gathering her documents after working at the desk etc. There’s stuff they need to adjust to and get used to, but it’s also things they’re able to talk about most of the time. Like, they don’t fight about them and converse and talk them out. The more time passes, the more they’ll get used to each other. They will fight, but that’s normal, I guess!

But since they’ve just moved in together, most of the time, they’re still basking in that honeymoon glow.

OC and JK, tips for hopeless romantics out there who have never had any romantic/sexual experiences?

So first of all, they’re giving you a hug. They want to tell you to be patient. We find love when we don’t seek it. There’s a soulmate out there for all of us, and they’re looking for you just the way you’re looking for them because they want to be loved just the way you want to, too. Vibe with your life until they cross it. You’re someone who deserves to be loved and adored and worshipped, so please know you won’t be disappointed. And then, with romance comes sexual experience.

It might take some time, but it’s important to know that you shouldn’t settle for less than you desire and for less than you deserve; but it’ll come to you. Just be yourself and be patient and things will be oaky! <3

Rid, what inspired you to write this story? Do you relate to it on a personal level? What helps/facilitates the writing process for you?

What inspired me was just that VCR from their MOTS: One concert, but. I stuck with it because of the love and comfort it radiates, even for me. There are so many aspects of it that I relate to on a personal level — like, the slight trauma she carries from growing up with a strict family. Or being scared of being left alone. The fear of loneliness and hurt… I'm someone who gets very nervy when it comes to love and stuff, and I'm always, always so scared of everyone leaving, be it in real life or virtually?

I crave love the way these two crave love, because I love loving, and I want to know what it feels to be loved just the same way, too. So yeah. Uhm. I don’t know, that got very sentimental very fast, but. That’s what it is!

Every other thing, like the story and stuff that happens in general comes from their own story. Even though there will be a bit more ahead that comes from personal experience, but most of them is their own thing.

What helps me facilitate the writing process is just. Knowing how much I love them. And the excitement of moving towards some amazing chapters. Also the fact that the story means as much to some people as it does to me. The fact that some wait for it or feel comforted by it. Or that it makes their day or helps them get through their days. It’s just very exciting and rewarding.

Rid, what is the first piece you've ever written? How long have you been writing, and what's your first inspiration? (i used to write when i was in middle school but stopped along the way, and ive thought about slowly picking it up again :") do you have any tips?)

I would just advise you to start! Make an outline or whatever helps you get started. Maybe a character sheet, the story in a couple bullet points that you can expand on. But the most important advise I like to give is to just get started. I also only read back in late 2020 and a friend then suggested to write and post the story I was planning back then. Didn’t know where it’d get me, but here we are. If you’d like to see more advise, you can also browse through my tag “writing tips”. I don’t know if it’s helpful at all, but maybe you can read through them!

The first fic I ever wrote for Tumblr was The Diary of a Healing Heart, which I've now revamped and reposted. But if we’re talking in general? It was a book I wrote with 2 friends called ‘The Camp’. Some fantasy/time travel/romance thing? I would never publish it though because I was 14 back then, and I alsoooo wrote it in another language. I got very inspired by the books I read, especially romance stories and stuff, but oh my God. Would never reread or I’d die.

thank you so much if you read this <3 sending much love to all who participated and everyone in general!! all support is appreciated. if you want, come and talk to me or say whatever's on your mind! love you <3

colour me in – commentary | jjk (m)

⋙ pairing: Jungkook x reader ⋙ rating: 18+ ⋙ content and warnings: mention of toxic relationships (parents), mention of cmi spoilers, heartbreak, love, difficult childhood, mention of smut, teeny tiny spoilers, talk about future and past chapters, future and past scenarios, additional info on the characters and the story, plot background, general behind the scenes, thought and writing process. so many pauses and stuttering im sorry lol �� sorry for mispronounced words!! also i'm sick, so pls bear with my potentially confused mind ajsfhjas <3 ⋙ length: 73 minutes ⋙ a/n: that was ☠️ so much fun but my voice is gone lol. i hope the stuff i said make sense and that you enjoy me rambling!! even if you just listen to parts of this, i'm eternally grateful!! and let me know what you think, too? would loveee to know what you think of my thoughts lol 🥺 if you've more questions, drop by anytime!! ily <3

⋙ part of the colour me in series ⋙ listen to the commentary here!

#here's the script for those who might not have the time to listen to the audio <3 #will be back for asks! love you and good night <3 #fic: colour me in

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perryhedge · 2 years ago

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yugioh sevens - goha 6 elementary arc

finally finished this arc!

overall i liked it, but not as much as maximum. i didn't find asana particularly compelling on her own (same with her go rush counterpart) or as a foil to yuuga and some of the one-off duels were just alright. the major theme of this arc was freedom vs duty, so i thought it was weird that gakuto didn't have much of a focus when that's his whole thing...but instead that theme was mostly explored through tazaki and ranze. poor romin I don't think even had a duel past the one with the sushi lady where she LOSES......lol.

there was some of my favorite episodes yet though. the luke club episode...pure genius. when the show really gets into a certain rhythm of high-paced absurdity, i feel like i connect with its humor really strongly. loved the tiger episode as well...and honestly the rush duel / rappa duet gag killed me. there's this absolutely wild improvisational energy to the way the story moves episode to episode sometimes, which i find refreshing and honestly a little shocking -- it takes a long time to make anime, so i feel like you rarely see something so spontaneous as allowing entire storylines to be built on of silly puns or callbacks. of course, not all these gags are hits, since the giant cast of recurring characters mostly stick to a one joke quota. there are several who i'm already sick of (and the fact that they are brought into go rush exacerbates this). but i'm surprised at how many of the gags do make me laugh every time, and even when they don't i have to marvel at the absolute gall to write some of that stuff. this manic quality is definitely emblematic of bridge era writing, and i'm not 100% sure who to attribute it to, but i'd guess based on knowing a few fans of his work that director nobuhiro kondou had a hand in this.

the animation of the show is already catastrophic, which i expected, but still bums me out massively. if i didn't like the characters so much, i'd definitely have stopped watching by now, because okay is seemingly the best it will ever get. i remember being shocked that some earlier episodes looked actually good, but those days are behind me now, it seems. and look, i know why it's like this -- covid definitely plays a role, and looking at their work bridge seems like a studio that loves to push out as much anime as possible and that situation cannot be good for a production schedule. it just depresses me, because although even in the gallop era yugioh was never a super lavishly animated affair, and fan favorites (i'm fan) like gx were definitely not the prettiest anime ever made, i would like some flashy poses, some interesting layouts, just something, anything to look at. anyway, i guess that's just why i watch shadowverse, too.

i also noticed it feels like there's more luke focus this arc, which makes sense. though the final duel this arc ended up pretty hype, it seems like yuuga is a bit of a struggle to write conflict with. he can't really be allowed to fail, unless it's existential despair for him, or maybe even rush duels itself, lol. that's why I found the maximum arc so compelling. on the other hand, luke's whole life is failure in a sense, and I say that with love. it's much easier to write interesting scenarios around, both where he's the butt of the joke but also his unexpected triumphs. i really like luke as a character so i don't really mind if the show does shift more focus on him. as usual no idea where the show is going next so looking forward to it

#yugioh sevens #perrylog

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definitelyseven · 3 years ago

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hurts so good | twelve (final)

summary: growing up with Park Jinyoung was never easy and things are about to get worse when you’ve been asked to marry him

You sat down quietly across from him and next to your attorney. It had been three weeks since you last saw Jinyoung, three weeks since he agreed to the divorce. You only heard from him when he asked to meet to sign the papers.

“Thank you Mrs. Park for coming to meet us. My client said the both of you mutually agreed to sign today’s papers. Is that correct?”

“Yes that’s correct,” you responded as Jinyoung’s lawyer slid over some papers. Your lawyer intercepts the papers and begins scanning the document.

“My client is generously offering $20,000 a month for the next 40 years or a one time check of $10 million,” he revealed. You stared at Jinyoung in shock.

“No,” you denied. “No, I don’t want your money.”

“Mrs. Park, I urge you to reconsider this. It’s his responsibility to take care of you,” your lawyer reminded you.

“It’s Y/N and I can take care of myself,” you argued.

“How?” Jinyoung finally said. “You have no job, no house. Your father still gambles,” he exposed.

“That is none of your concern. I will figure it out. I will find a job. I don’t want your money. I don’t want to owe you anything,” you continued to explain.

“Just take the fucking money, Y/N! Don’t be so stubborn,” he exclaimed. You glared at him. “I’m sorry,” he sighed, knowing he’s going to lose this battle against you.

“Moving on to the next thing-,” his lawyer began to speak before you interrupted him.

“I don’t want a single thing from him. I’m not interested in what else is on that list.”

His lawyer looked over a Jinyoung, who had his arms crossed against his chest. He sighed again, nodding in agreement. He leans over to the table, “I want to talk to you alone.”

“No. My client will not be speaking with anyone without me present,” your lawyer declined.

“Don’t worry, we won’t be negotiating anything. My lawyer will leave to fix these papers, won’t you?” he instructed.

“Yes, that’s right. Mr. Lee, please follow me.”

“It’s alright. I’ll be okay,” you assured your lawyer. He nods leaving you alone with Jinyoung as he helps prepare the divorce papers. He stares at you in silence as you avoid his gaze.

“You wanted to talk?” you asked him.

He sighed lightly before leaning forwards once again. “This may be the last time we ever speak to each other like this - face to face.”

You gave him a subtle smile, nodding in agreement. “I will always be thankful for you and your family. You saved us and that will never change, no matter what happens between us.”

“I appreciate that,” he said. “Father loved you, no matter how harsh he was.”

You smiled weakly, “He loved you too.”

There was another long silence between the both of you. Now that you think of it, you and Jinyoung never had a peaceful conversation before. If he wasn’t being mean to you, he was yelling at you.

“I know Jisoo came to see you. I know she told you some stuff,” he said softly. “I should’ve been the one who told you and I’m sorry I never did. I’m sorry I never showed you.”

You held your breath. Never in a million years did you expect him to apologize.

“I hope the next person you love, you’ll be better to her than you were to me.”

His eyes began to swell, slightly turning pinkish. “She told me you thought I always loved her.” You looked down at your lap because you knew it was true even if they denied it. “Do you still believe that?”

“Look at where we’re at, Jinyoung. It doesn’t matter what I believe.”

“It does! It does matter. I may have never showed or told you that I loved you but I never loved anyone else. Not once,” he confessed.

“Every time we fought, you always ran to her. You always picked her, sided with her and I was the one in the way. What else was I supposed to think?” you questioned.

Jinyoung sighed. “February 14, 2013.”

“W-what?,” you stuttered with tears in your eyes.

“It was our senior year of high school.”

You remembered now. You had finally mustered enough courage to confess to Jinyoung. You hand-made heart shaped chocolates for him but he rejected you brutally even front of all your classmates.

“The night before - Jaebum stayed up all night making you chocolates. I overheard him confessing to the housekeeper that he was going to ask you to be his girlfriend. What gave him the right?” he asked, rhetorically.

“He never told me about this. I never received his chocolates,” you said, confused.

“I was so angry at him. He took my father away from me and now he wanted you! He wanted to take everything...everyone away from me!” he shouted. “I knew I couldn’t let him have you so I had to beat him to it. I had to tell you I liked you before he did.”

“Then why did you reject me?” you asked.

“I had this elaborate plan - to make you fall in love with me, to be together until Jaebum couldn’t handle it anymore and leave. But the moment I looked into your eyes that day, I didn’t have the guts to do it. I couldn’t confess to liking you out of spite,” he revealed. “But what I didn’t expect was for you to confess first.”

“You broke my heart then too.”

“I didn’t know if I liked you because I actually liked you or if I liked you to get back at Jaebum. You would’ve never forgiven me if you found out I confessed out of spite,” he said almost in tears. “I tried so hard to differentiate the two but I couldn’t, no matter how hard I tried. I didn’t know what to do and it drove me nuts. A couple of days later, it finally came to me. I thought if I was meaner to you, maybe...just maybe I would stop having those feelings for you. Maybe I could finally stop thinking about you.”

You stared at him quietly, taking in every word he said. Tears rolled down your face as the droplets of tears landed on the table.

“It worked,” he chuckled, bitterly. “The meaner I was to you, the easier it was to forget you. And every time I did something nice for you, I had to do something ten times worse the next time. Seeing how much pain you were in...it broke me but it always reminded me that my intentions were never pure to begin with. That’s why I always went to Jisoo. I confided in her.”

“Why did you ask me to marry you then?”

“He had already beat me at marriage - marrying the girl Father chose. Nothing would hurt him more than knowing I had you and he could never. I admit I ended up using you,” he revealed as tears fall from the corner of his eyes. You lifted your head up, staring at the ceiling as tears continued to fall down the side of your cheeks. “I’m so sorry,” he apologized.

“H-how can you say you love me when you used me?!” you sobbed.

“I knew it was wrong! I regretted it instantly but it was too late. You needed the money...” he whimpered. “If I could go back and change it I would. I would’ve loved you properly, cherished you..” he begged.

“God!” you whimpered to yourself. “Why did you do this to me?! I was happy! I had a boyfriend!” you cried, angrily.

“I know. I know. I’m so sorry,” he continued to apologize.

“I’m not some fucking reward you can claim when you feel like it! I loved you! I thought if I worked harder, tried harder, that you would start to love me! I was praying you’d change for me!” you continued to shout. “Are you that damaged that you had to break someone else to make yourself feel better?”

“I was 16! I never felt the way I felt for you with anyone in my life! How was I supposed to react? Tell me! What was I supposed to do?!” he shouted back.

You sobbed into your hand.

“I know this doesn’t justify all the shitty things I’ve done to you. You endured things no one should have to experience,” he explained.

“Why are you telling me this now?”

“Y/N, I’m telling you not because I want you to forgive me! I’m going to sign the papers regardless. All I wanted was to be honest about my feelings for once in my goddamn life,” he said.

You blinked slowly, letting the remaining tears in your eyes fall. You took a deep breath in. “When were you able to tell?”

“Our wedding night,” he answered. “Watching you walk down the aisle in that white dress. You took my breath away and in that moment I knew. I knew I loved you this whole time. It was never about competing with Jaebum. I was just afraid to let myself fall in love.”

“If you loved me so much, why did you sleep with other women? Why did you cheat?”

“Because with them, I never had to worry about falling in love. They mean nothing to me,” he explained.

“But they don’t know that! They think you like them that’s why they sleep with you, Jinyoung.”

“They know I’m married.”

“To someone you don’t love. They think they can Mrs. Park one day,” you sighed. “Stop playing with people’s feelings. Don’t hurt anyone else,” you asked, nicely. You paused, “If there’s one last thing you can do for me is learn to let go. What your Father did to your Mother was unfair and cruel but you don’t have to repeat the pattern. Learn to love the people you’re supposed to love. You’ll find that you have more people on your side than you know.”

“Will you be?”

“Oh Jinyoung…” you called out as you reached for his hand. You gripped it tightly. “I will always be on your side even if I’m not physically there with you.”

There was a light knock on the door. You let go of Jinyoung’s hand and wiped the leftover tears on your cheeks away.

“Come in,” he called.

“The papers are finalized. All that’s left is your signature.” The lawyers handed you each a pen. You scanned through the document until you reached the bottom of the page.

“I know you don’t want money but it will always be here if you need it. You just call me, okay?” Jinyoung asked, softly. You nodded but you knew you would never be calling him.

You uncapped the pen and began signing with Jinyoung following suite until you reached the final page.

This was it. No more Jinyoung.

“If we can do this over again, would you?” Jinyoung asked, spontaneously. “If you knew what you know now, would you still have said yes to me?”

You looked up from the papers and stared at him - taking in all his features one the last time. “Yes.” You scribbled your signature on the last page before standing up. “Goodbye Jinyoung. Take care.”

Four months. Four months of no pain, no tears, no Jinyoung. You moved away from the city to get away from the fast pace lifestyle, the busy streets and the people. You were content here. You spent your days helping an old couple sell fruit and pies in a small shop by a rest stop. The pay wasn’t nearly as much as a corporation but it didn’t matter to you. You could finally be yourself. You didn’t have to worry about being the perfect wife or worry if your husband loved you enough to come home that night. All that seemed trivial here.

“How much are the apple pies?” you hear someone asked. You scurried out to the front to greet the customer.

“They’re $5-” you began to respond before coming to a stop as you laid eyes on the man in front of you. “I- how did you know I was here?”

“I didn’t,” he responded. “I was taking your advice and finally letting go. I gave up my position at the company and decided to move here to live a more simple life.”

“Why here?”

“I-I don’t know...this was the first place I thought of,” he mumbled. “I guess I remembered you saying how much you wanted to move here when it was time to retire.”

“You remembered that?”

“Of course I do. I remember everything you told me even if it seemed like I wasn’t listening,” he explained. “So how much are the pies?”

“$5 each,” you said hesitantly as you handed him a pie.

“I honestly didn’t come here to purposely look for you. I know the last thing you wanted was to see me. I can leave if it bothers you,” he offered.

“No...who am I to not allow you to be here.”

“Okay then. I’ll see you around then,” he smiled before waving goodbye.

You returned the smile and watched him drive away. You thought you would be angry seeing him; maybe even feel hurt. But nothing. You didn’t feel any of those things. In fact, your heart raced at the sight of him.

Maybe this was fate. Maybe it was God’s way of telling you this is your second chance.

Whatever it was, no matter how it ends this time, you knew it wasn’t going to hurt as much as the first.

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skyephobic · 3 years ago

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apologies for the late response!

first of all— hopefully those s'mores were delicious! just thinking about them makes me want to eat some now ugh

also i'm glad that my somewhat of an analysis and characterization is something good to read! and omg, yes, you are normal. but i didn't expect that we share an understanding on akane that it even made me more happier! i am excited to talk about this shit with someone else since my irl friends doesn't read tbhk argh!!!

and as much as i love the layered pancake-size angst in the "akane died and becomes full supernatural" au, the "born supernatural akane" is now living rent free because i'm thinking of a himbo akane just not understanding what the fuck is currently happening at kamome😭🙏 so i have to start a messy ramble again!!

second of all— hell yes! i agree with you that it is ironic that for someone who holds the title as the clock keeper of the present, the akane in this au doesn't understand what it means to live in the present. because as a supernatural who continues to live throughout century after century, he loses track of time (again, ironic) for he is often at his fellow clock keepers side and, after they became mystery number one, remained at their boundary because akane doesn't understand the importance or reason to interact with the current time/present/shit that is happening since it kept on changing and changing.

after all, what is the point of interacting with an everchanging world when you're the only one who remained the same? akane in this au probs once interacted with the humans 24/7 since he found them interesting and something, but stopped and isolated himself unless he wants to go insane if he kept on gaining and losing the humans he cared for as he adjusted to the unfamiliar environment only for it to change again and again.

and because i now lacked the capability to explain further and further, i shall bullet this shit please forgive me. also if these are ooc or not sooo akane, apologies in advance and please change or you can add them!!:

born-supernatural!akane is still like canon!akane but there are some certain changes (please add some if you want!)

he doesn't have an obsession with aoi due to not revolving around her for most of his life so his spontaneous love confessions never happen here, but he will found her cute and adorable after seeing her but wouldn't pursue

is confused about the current world but tries his best to understand so that he won't be ignorant (bullied). and because of this, he might be easier to be trick into believing some certain things (e.g. hanako lying to him that the humans are trapped inside the televisions and expected an embarrassing situation – all hanako got is akane punching the t.v. out of panic and running to teru/tsuchi for help, which then proceeded to akane strangling hanako out of embarrassment/humiliation/frustration/tired of his bullshit)

doesn't hate hate hate hate supernaturals but hate hate them for harming innocent humans

don't know if he gets along with tsuchigomori in canon, but i'm thinking that born-supernatural!akane gets along with tsuchi cause he kept on asking more about the past (where he was absent) and current shit that is happening (akane learned that hanako is a little piece of shit and thus, does no longer trust him on this kind of stuff)

akane hates change so he prefers to go along with his routine or being around with something familiar to him – as such, the rest of the mysteries and previous student-exorcists never met him due to his isolation within the clock keepers boundary. but there are times when he does leave: important meetings, using his abilities in certain events (unsure about these two), or dragging back mirai into their home (sure about this one). however, a certain student council prez and the certain toilet trio does encourage him to leave, which makes him embracing the change and finally understanding what it means to live in the present. in return, akane taught the blonde president what it means to just be teru and not a minamoto having the weight of the world on his shoulders

akane is probs powerful here since he isn't a contractor which means that he could stop time even much longer and can affect more targets. but his capabilities would lead to teru (who warns and advices kou) to be more careful and cautious around akane because time isn't something to mess with. but despite having that belief, terukane shenanigans still happens.

reason for the clock keepers in having names was because back then, the present learned that a name gives a person their own individuality. so he started asking around on what are some good names but then decided on "Kako" and "Mirai" because it is simple and somehow fits them. kako was surprised but appreciates it while mirai is bouncing around out of happiness. but as the present doesn't like the name genzai (because he doesn't want have a name that means "the present" when he still doesn't understand it), kako and mirai decided on "akane" because of his red hair and for being a simple name.

third of all— yes yes yes!!! i also wonder on the reasons for kako and mirai to choose akane. like there must be a good reason for them since there are a bunch of other 12-y/o kids that can be tricked into accepting the contract with them. i am goddamn waiting and excited once (if, that is) aidairo revealed the important roles of the clock keepers in the story!

but in this au, however, i think that the clock keepers came from the same yokai race? like this race doesn't have a name, it just exists as these human-like supernaturals (that came from different sizes: a small-like elf to a being that towers over humans) came out of nowhere with enhanced speed (to be able to stop targets from moving which gives the illusion of them being fast), to heal (to be able to turn their bodies into its previous state seconds ago), and to rot those that their hands touched (to be able to speed up the state of an object). however, this race started to decreased because of the exorcists killing them for even though they have the power that is similar to time, they still have a weakness. then it started to declined until only three are left (spoiler: it's kako and mirai and akane)

and i think that their powers evolved and evolved until it does become similar to how someone controls time itself. but idk how this works so there's that

and that is all! sorry for the loooooong messy ramble and if the characterization isn't good!!

DONT WORRY ANON REALLY ur characterization is great hearing someone else as Very normal as me is relieving i dont have many friends who understand akane the way i do so im excited to ramble

he would 100% keep himself locked up in their boundary. i feel like the more he interacted with humans, the more he began to lose himself- because he isn't anything like them, and he never will be. he's probably watched some students grow up, others die before graduating- and it's all because there's nothing like the present. the present he controls, yet can't fix. watching the people he actually found interest in die or leave was probably really difficult, and that's why he'd give up interacting with them all together. the change is always so much for him and so he starts to isolate, either taking care of mirai [cuts up her apple slices. peels her apples. braids her hair. Sorru im obsessed with mirai and akane family dynamic] or just cleaning around since he doesn't need to stop time too often

adding onto your changes, i feel like he'd be much more stubborn than usual. he's always stuck in the denial stage when something new happens, and it's really difficult to get him to adjust to something new. i feel like he hates being a clock keeper for that reason. he controls something he fears, the present- full of constant change and liveliness. he would've preferred controlling the past or even the future because it's set in stone. the present is full of surprises and he hates surprises

he'd probably be infatuated with aoi only for a short time, but because she was the first person he talked to in a while. she'd be able to see him in this au for the plot relevance.. when akane decides to leave the boundary for something that isn't important he knocks into her and grows attached. though it's more of an innocent puppy crush that easily fades after a few rejections, they're more of like.. just friends

it's not like akane would be stupid as a born supernatural, rather.. in the past. like he doesn't know what the hell a twitter is or something. he's very dumb when it comes to present stuff hanako would be so good at tricking him but too good to the point where he needs to get teru or kako to help u are so right

THE LITTLE TERUKANE DETAILS ... they teach each other about stuff like that like akane gets teru to be himself and teru tells him all about the current time and akane finds himself falling for him while he talks and looks so focused he can feel his supernatural heart pound in his chest and everything

all in all ur points make so much sense how did u ever worry about mischaracterization ..

ur theories on their species is so interesting too?? ive never really thought it myself but that makes a lot of sense actually.. theres only three left i hope soon its two [i want akane to explode

ur asks are amazinf thank u for fueling my insane jshk thoughts

#ask box #ask me whatever #tbhk #jshk #toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shounen hanako kun #akane aoi

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writing-in-april · 4 years ago

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Soured Nostalgia

Spencer Reid x Female Reader

Summary: When Reader moves their stuff in to Spencer’s apartment they find photos that he kept over the years. One photo of the past springs up memories of Spencer’s precious relationship with Elle.

A/N: hey heeeyyy everybody- here’s a fic I’ve been really excited to share with everyone. It’s my eleventh fic for my 30 fics in 30 days!!! This was the original request (I made it a little different lol I hope you like it)I had a fun time with it mostly cause I totally think Spencer and Elle had something going on at some point 😉 Plus I got to incorporate older angsty post prison Spencer and mention how he used to be a little baby ☺️ I’m curious to hear y’all’s thoughts about the Reidaway ship, or really anything so feel free to drop an ask to my inbox here. Thanks for reading and hope you enjoy!

Warnings: 18+, Smut, Joking about being jealous???, Reidaway in the past, Spencer being sad about the people who’ve left him, Sub Spencer, Only a bit of dry sex, Masturbation, Unprotected sex, Use of a belt to restrain, A few taps on the cheek, Reader’s hand is around Spencer’s throat for a second

Main Masterlist Word Count: 3.2k

Reminiscing on the past was difficult depending on how the story had ended. Memories that may have been happy could turn too painful because of the ending result. Age turned the memories into unreliable accounts as well, unable to truly remember how things had been back then and how you had truly felt.

Memories were still something to hold onto and cherish even though they got twisted with age and opinion. Nostalgia, a sentimental or wishful affection for the past, was an addictive feeling even if it made you cry. It remained addictive even if most of your past memories had hurt you with no sentiment attached. Everyone always chased the euphoric feelings they had when looking at the ghosts of their past. Sometimes even when looking back you can find something that had once soured had turned sweet again.

Spencer had many memories that he was no longer able to look back upon for a host of reasons. Most often it was because he could no longer bear to look back on a memory of someone who had left him. Whether it was his Dad, Gideon, Hotch, Blake, Elle, and many others, looking back at them just made him often feel like everyone in his entire life had left him.

That wasn’t true of course, he still had his Mom- and you. Even with his Mom there were still many of his memories with her were still stained with guilt, though that had gotten better with time and with your help.

You had begun helping him find the benefit in looking back, trying to make the soured nostalgia a bit sweeter again. It was getting easier as time ticked by for him to open up to you about everything in his past, the good and the bad. At first you had been staring at a wall that he had been building higher and higher throughout the years, it was daunting how tall it was. When you helped take a sledgehammer to it, making it crumble beneath your effort, he pulled away for a while. He felt comfortable by himself behind his own Great Wall until you showed him the benefits of sharing the secrets he held behind it. But, you still stayed, helping him as much as you could until he was willing to open up.

It had been many months since you started your effort to help him break it down. At some point in the last months you had both fallen into a relationship, a romantic one. What had once been a platonic relationship forged from shared interests evolved into a romance emerging from the rubble of his wall.

He had even given you a key to his apartment at one point, which he had never done with anyone except the bureau. Emily was the one that really had it, but that was strictly for work reasons. This was a show of trust which was much more helpful than his wall that had reached the heights of a skyscraper.

A simple key soon turned into you staying at his place more often than at your own. You had casually mentioned one day while watching one of Spencer’s favorite documentaries that you basically lived here now. It was a true statement, most of the clothes you wore on a daily basis had been given a spot in his dresser and the toothbrush you kept there was not the one you used for travel- that one was at your place. You had begun to put your mark on Spencer’s life in a more permanent way than before.

When he had spontaneously suggested the next day that you should move in with him, you knew that your small comment had stuck in his brain. It was easy to agree to, you had said you basically already lived here, plus living with the love of your life sounded like a dream. You only had a few things that you wanted to bring over and it was mostly decorative stuff that you could’ve let go if Spencer hadn’t insisted that he wanted you to make the space your own.

While turning the space that was once solely Spencer’s into something for you both, you had found a small clear box with a blue lid, filled with pictures. Spencer didn’t have a lot of personal pictures framed, there was one with you and him by the bed, one with the team by his desk, one with him and Morgan on the living room wall, and one with you two and his Mom also hung up in the living room.

When you had shown him the box he could tell you were curious, letting you look through it without a moment of hesitation. In the past Spencer would have been wary sharing his memories with you, but now he’d let you look. If only you could get him to look at the box with you.

You weren’t surprised he didn't want to look with you once you saw the people littered throughout the snapshots. Varying people that had left were in most of them, even some you never met.

Ones with Hotch and Gideon- even one from a long time ago with his father buried at the bottom. As you browsed through them you were glad he was able to hang up that photo of him and Morgan, at least they had parted with some closure. It also helped that he still saw him regularly, he had never fully left like some of the people from his past.

One picture in particular stood out to you, it was another team photo, they seemed more carefree in this one compared to now. There was baby Spencer, before you had known him, in a birthday boy hat smiling with the rest of the team. You guessed it was around his 23rd or 24th birthday, going by the slick back gelled hair he had sported in his earlier years. He seemed so much more different back then, perhaps more carefree compared to now. But, he also seemed much more unsure of himself, maybe a bit self conscious. In the photo you could tell he was nervous, just by the look in his eyes. He still had that same look in his eyes whenever he felt nervous.

Then you looked closer at where his eyes were focused on, there was a clear line of sight from him to Elle. Elle was way less nervous in this captured moment compared to Spencer, though from what you had heard she had always been like that.

Your gaze on the photo was broken when Spencer then came into the living room where you were sitting on the couch.

You decided to test the waters to see if he might want to take a look at the photo with you, “Why do you look so nervous in this photo?”

He stopped the path he had been taking, then stood still for a second before deciding to sit next to you on the couch. Straining his neck he gazed over at the photo you were holding in your hands. It was silent for a while as he looked over it, stopping to look at his old team. Some of the team still remained intact, namely JJ, but she wasn’t the same as she had been all those years ago. You let him take it from your hands, so he could look at it closer. He cleared his throat a little, though his voice still came out slightly raspy when he spoke, though he didn’t answer the question you had asked him,“It’s the only picture I ever had taken with Elle…”

“I know you guys were- close.” You didn’t ask your previous question again, sensing that it was still too much to talk about in specifics. What he was telling you right now was even more than what he told you, only telling you that she was his first, everything. Any supplemental information was from talking discreetly to JJ about it one night because you were somewhat curious.

Tiptoeing around the relationship you knew that they had previously was like walking through a minefield. You tried the best that you could to avoid making him too upset. When you got him to open up, it wasn’t by forcing him to talk all at once. Busting the wall down was done brick by brick, not all at once.

“I’m glad you aren’t jealous of her.” His comment was said with less sadness than before. It was nice to see a glimpse of the weight coming off of his shoulders, even if it was just for a moment.

“What? Do you want me to be jealous of her?” You teased, lightheartedly so he wouldn’t dwell on the sad aspect of their past relationship. He smiled softly which deepened when you playfully stuck your tongue out and crossed your arms.

“No- you’ve got nothing to be jealous about…” Any playfulness in his voice was erased as his sentence trailed off. You didn’t say anything for a moment in case he wanted to continue his thought. And, after a moment of silence he did, “I haven’t spoken to her since she left…”

“I know- I was just joking about being jealous. I know how much she meant to you…” His eyes moved away from you, at first you thought it might be because he was still feeling the pain of losing her all those years ago. But, there was something else in his eyes, it naturally made you curious, “What are you thinking about?”

“If you were jealous- what would you have done?” His mind must have shifted away from thinking about the ending of his memories with Elle, which was a step in the right direction. At least he wasn’t avoiding the topic all together, he was still talking about her in a sense.

You bit your lip, thinking about what direction you could take this in. You weren’t going to lie, your mind had gone straight into the gutter at his suggestion and by the look on Spencer’s face so had his.

“Hmmm…” You pretended to ponder while you moved from where you were sitting on the couch to sit on something better, Spencer’s lap. Straddling him then with ease you looked down at his face tracing his cheeks with your fingers. His pupils were blown wide now, almost completely devouring his iris that had become a small ring. He didn’t say anything yet, waiting for you to continue your thought obediently, “I think I would do things to you that I suspect she never did.”

He gulped hard, hard enough that you could hear it. You continued to trace your fingers along his face, sometimes picking a lock of his hair to twirl, waiting for him to say something else like you knew he wanted to. It only took a few more seconds of your touches and your eyes staring into his own before he asked, “C-Can you show me?”

You stopped your movements, pausing for dramatic effect before crushing his lips onto your own. He squared into your mouth at first, clearly taken off guard by your sudden kiss. Before he had processed what was going on enough to let you, you forced your tongue into his mouth, earning you a delicious moan from him.

When you moved again suddenly, separating your mouth with his for just a moment, he tried to chase your lips. Pushing a finger to his lips you then used that to push him back into the couch, then answering his question, “Gladly.”

You kept your finger on his mouth to seal them shut. He could have opened it easily to respond to you, but he wanted to see what you might do next.

Instead of going back to kissing him you started to pull his belt off of him. It was difficult with one hand, taking much longer than it would be with two. But, you still kept your finger rested in the position most people use to shush someone.

Once the belt had finally been pulled from the belt loops of his slacks you finally removed your finger from his mouth. He still remained quiet, his eyes following your every move intently. You then went to work, pinning his hands above his head, then beginning to restrain them with his belt.

“Did she do this to you?” Goading him while you looped the belt around his hands. You made sure to go as slow as possible while you restrained him just to make it last longer until you gave him what he wanted. You even began to grind down on his cock a little bit, it obviously ached to be free from its confines in his trousers by how strained the slacks were getting.

“No!” His voice was broken and breathy, exactly how you wanted it as you tightened the belt around his hand a little more.

Once you were satisfied that the belt was tight enough you got off of him to remove the shorts you had been wearing, along with the rest of your clothes. Normally when you were naked and Spencer was clothed it would be when you were underneath him as a sort of power play. In this position, where he couldn’t move without fear of consequences while you restraddled him completely naked was almost even more empowering.

To play with the dynamic even more you had him remain confined in his slacks for a while longer, while you touched yourself. You were already quite wet from seeing Spencer in this position and exerting that power by pumping your fingers in you while he could do nothing had you dripping onto his slacks.

Spencer’s jaw had gone slack while watching you moan above him, completely speechless from your actions. It was almost comical and entirely too easy to tease him about, “Close your mouth you might catch flies.” His mouth clenched shut at that. It soon fell slack again at your next words while you brought yourself closer to the edge with your fingers, “What? Did she never do this for you?”

All Spencer could do was sit there and take it, shaking his head side to side, only a little so he could keep his eyes on you. You decided to be merciful, pulling your fingers out of you just before you orgasmed. You wanted to finish at the same time as him anyway.

Finally, you pulled his aching cock out of his slacks. It was throbbing in your hand as you spread your wetness with the fingers that had been inside you. Because you had edged yourself earlier, you couldn’t take teasing him any longer. You lined the head of his cock that was red and weeping up to your entrance, sinking down as fast as you could take him. While you sunk down you rubbed your clit in slow circles, not enough to make you orgasm, but enough to make it easier to take him.

Once you had fully taken him you wasted no time, immediately beginning to build up a fast pace. And, of course you couldn’t help but goad him again,

“Did she make you feel this good?” Your pace you had chosen was rough, bouncing and rolling your hips with reckless abandon while he had to take it without being able to move. He could have thrusted up into you even without the use of his hands, but he had one too many of your punishments in the past to be willing to break the rules so explicitly. Now if he ever broke the rules now it was him subtly bending them. Though, you could tell by the way his eyes rolled back into his head that he had no intention of doing that tonight. It felt too good to be used like this by you.

He still had not answered you though, not on purpose, but you still needed an answer. Tapping his cheek a few times, just hard enough to get his attention. It caused him to whine, but he still didn’t give you an answer. Since that didn’t work you decided to ask again, “I asked you a question. Did she make you feel this good? Did she use you like this?”

To add an extra edge to your words filled with a deadly tone you reached one of your hands forward to grasp around his neck. To make him look at you directly you forcefully tilted his neck, eyes once again trained on yours. He finally found it in himself to answer, “It felt good with her, but it feels best with you! I love you!”

“Good.” You simply stated and dropped your hold on his neck so you could return it to its place on his chest, using it as leverage to help you continue your fast pace. Your orgasm was fast approaching, his cock hitting you in the perfect spot, all you needed was a bit more stimulation. When you brought your hand down to run fast circles onto your clit, you soon fell apart above him. Spencer couldn’t help but look up at you in awe, speechless at how beautiful you look while you writhed on top of him.

Your own release pushed Spencer close to the edge and he started to beg, “I’m gonna cum! Please, can I?”

His hands had tightened into fists above him, knuckles going white over the effort of keeping them right where you had placed them originally. You were pleased with the way he had begged, glad that he had asked permission before even thinking about cumming. You still left him in suspense for a bit longer as you continued to work yourself on his painfully hard cock. Pressing a few kisses to his exposed skin under his collar was admittedly just to torture him a bit longer before you finally gave the command.

“Cum for me then.” Spencer followed your command eagerly, taking only two more of you bouncing on top of him to release inside you with a groan. While he rode out his release his lips captured around one of your pebbled peaks, sucking hard to get one last moan out of you.

Slumping forward after you had both finished and you had taken the belt off his wrists with the promise you’d lotion them up after you cuddled. You rested your head on his shoulder, wanting to stay as close as possible for a little while longer. He started tracing his fingers up and down your spine, relaxing you even further, almost to the point of falling asleep.

Before your eyes closed shut in post coital sleepiness your mind wandered a bit back to Elle. Elle had been an important figure in his life, his first real connection with someone special. Sure you teased about being jealous, but you thought it was important to tell him that you were ok with him thinking back on her. You knew he loved you. It most likely would take time till he was able to think or talk about her without a sharp pain in his chest, reminding him of how it all ended.

He hadn’t told you exactly what had happened, but it wasn’t hard to fill in all of the gaps. You turned your head, eyelashes fluttering when you nuzzled into his hair. Then you spoke quietly just enough so the sound could travel the short distance to his ear, “You should frame the picture, you look cute in it. And, I meant to say it earlier, I love you too.”

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elsecrytt · 3 years ago

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Oh - may I please request something with Diavolo or Mammon with an angel!reader or if not that a Horsemen of War or Conquest!Reader? Maybe as a top/dom?

I puzzled over this for a bit, and I was kinda interested in writing it, but like. When I sat down I just kinda found myself without anywhere to start.

It's a lot easier for me to write when I have a prompt to go off of. "reader is X" is not a prompt unless X is something like "a spy from the Celestial realm sent to assassinate Diavolo", something with action in it, something that will set a scene.

And dom/sub is just a dynamic between characters. It doesn't tell me what's physically happening between the characters. "Reader keeps Diavolo on collar and leash" tells me what's happening with the characters LMAO

So at this point, yeah, I guess I could write about angel!Reader who puts a collar on Diavolo, makes him wear it to parties, tugs him around with a leash in the bedroom, and maybe Diavolo is a yandere who trapped you in the Devildom (you know, like he did in canon) and this is how you vent your frustrations...

But like, none of that is in the original request, and for all I know, yandere stuff, or petplay, or any of the other sometimes extreme ideas I will spontaneously come up with (if I can come up with ideas at all, given just a pairing and a "dom reader") is something you are very uncomfortable with.

So yeah, anyways, basically... you gotta give me more of a prompt than that XD I'm not saying an ask like "vampire!reader with sub lucifer" will never get anything out of me, but I must gently warn you that it's not necessarily ever going to get much. Try to be more particular next time! <3

#anon asks #elsey rambles #maybe i should come up with a promptlist... but also lmaooo isn't that just my wip list at this point? XD

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theartofdreaming1 · 4 years ago

Photo

Here is my attempt at portraying Peeta’s camouflage skills convincingly 😅😅

As usual, my thoughts regarding this week’s prompts and random thoughts on chapters 19-21 are below the cut.

heart

While I love all the banter between Katniss and Peeta, I think my favorite of these three chapters is: “Trust me. Killing things is much easier than this,” I say. “Although for all I know, I am killing you.” “Can you speed it up a little?” he asks. “No. Shut up and eat your pears,” I say. A classic 😄

mind

I always imagined that Cato went after Thresh before coming for Katniss and Peeta because a) Thresh took the backpack for District 2 (which contained the body armor that would make dealing with Katniss’s arrow so much easier) and b) Thresh killed Clove and Cato wanted to avenge her... Although I have no idea how Cato ended up killing Thresh... he was doing pretty well for himself in his grass-y area... Maybe the Gamemakers wanted to punish Thresh for not killing Katniss and generated that thunderstorm and rain to force Thresh out of his refuge, which would give Cato a fair chance to kill him, I guess...

soul

Lol, honestly, since Peeta just generally seems to be motivated by kindness and love/caring, I don’t think it took much for him to keep the star-crossed lovers angle alive (I could easily imagine him actually noticing Katniss in the willow tree early in the Games and offering to take care of the District 8 girl, so the Careers would get the hell out of there, away from Katniss)

Chapter 19:

Peeta, who’s been wounded, is now my ally. [...] I’d loathe any tribute who didn’t immediately ally with their district partner. Besides, it just makes sense to protect each other. - Honestly, this just highlights what a kind person Katniss is, despite her aloof front; her innermost instinct is always to stick together and to protect. Because it doesn’t really make sense for her to team up with Peeta - she knows he’s wounded and won’t be of much help to her, her chances of survival are way better if she stayed on her own, but it’s not something she’d ever consider now that they are allowed to form a team (and only then does she even factor in the whole ‘star-crossed lovers of district 12′ -angle)

Peeta, it turns out, has never been a danger to me. The thought makes me smile. - Aww 😊 (but also, how heart-breaking that the Capitol will do everything in their power to change that, to make Peeta become a danger to Katniss 😢)

He’s very hard to predict, which might be interesting under different circumstances - Okay, but this just makes me think of that exchange in Gilmore Girls when Paris and Rory talk about how you know a guy is right for you: “Someone who’s compatible but not compatible.” “Yeah, kind of. I mean, you respect each other’s opinions and you can laugh at the same jokes, but I don’t know – there’s just something about not quite knowing what the other person’s gonna do at all times that’s just really exciting.” - fits these two to a T 😏

In fact, I’ve just about decided I’m on the wrong track entirely, that a wounded boy would be unable to navigate getting to and from this water source, when I see the bloody streak - Okay, but how flipping tough is Peeta?! He’s severely injured, with multiple tracker jacker stings and he drags himself to this terrain that is almost impossible to navigate for someone in his condition - a sturdy dandelion, indeed!

“You’re here to finish me off, sweetheart?” - What an entrance after having gone AWOL for quite a couple of chapters 👌🏼👏🏼

“Remember, we’re madly in love, so it’s all right to kiss me anytime you feel like it.” I jerk my head back but end up laughing. “Thanks, I’ll keep it in mind.” [...] “Katniss?” Peeta says. I meet his eyes, knowing my face must be some shade of green. He mouths the words “How about that kiss?” I burst out laughing - He’s lying in a river bed, slowly dying, and he can still make her laugh 😊

“You know, you’re kind of squeamish for such a lethal person” - It’s such a small comment, but I can’t help but think that Peeta is just kind of intrigued to discover all these little idiosyncrasies that make up the ever-elusive Katniss Everdeen ;)

Impulsively, I lean forward and kiss him, stopping his words. - Aww, she doesn’t even want to consider him dying, so she spontaneously decides to cut him off with a kiss👀👀 Honestly, at this point Peeta has elicited 2 (!) spontaneous kisses (the kiss after the chariot ride and this one) from Katniss, who generally isn’t that big on touching people

“You’re not going to die. I forbid it. All right?” - Stubborn, protective Katniss... But also reminds me of their rooftop “date” in CF and the “Then you’ll allow it?” “I’ll allow it” - exchange

I kiss him awake, which seems to startle him. Then he smiles as if he’d be happy to lie there gazing at me forever. He’s great at this stuff. - KaTNisSs, gurl... 🙄🤦🏼‍♀️

Chapter 20:

But I knew he was injured. And still I came after him. I’m just going to have to trust whatever instinct sent me to find him was a good one. - The very best of instincts, Katniss, don’t you worry😉

Peeta’s struggling to get up when I reach the cave. “I woke up and you were gone,” he says, “I was worried about you.” - Gah, why are the both of them so good?! They just care for and worry about each other 24/7

“How do you feel?” “Better than yesterday. This is an enormous improvement over the mud,” he says. “Clean clothes and medicine and a sleeping bag... and you.” Oh right, the whole romance thing. - Oh Katniss...😐 I reach out to touch his cheek and he catches my hand and presses it against his lips. I remember my father doing this very thing to my mother and I wonder where Peeta picked it up. - Where did Peeta pick this up? From a time his family was less dysfunctional? Observing couples in the town square? Or is he a fricking disney prince and these things come natural to him? Questions, questions...

“You didn’t sleep,” Peeta says. “I’m all right,” I say. But the truth is, I’m exhausted. “Sleep now. I’ll keep watch.” [...] I test his cheek. Hot as a coal stove. He claims he’s been drinking, but the containers still feel full to me. I give him more fever pills and stand over him while he drinks first one, then a second quart of water. - These two are just too stubborn to take proper care of themselves - good thing that each of them is adamant to force the other to sleep/drink/eat when necessary

“Besides I like watching you sleep. You don’t scowl. Improves your looks a lot.” - When presented with the choice of being flirty vs being a cheeky little shit, Peeta will choose being a flirty cheeky little shit every time 😂

“I’m going to make soup,” I say. “Don’t light a fire,” he says. “It’s not worth it.” - Okay, but what he’s actually saying is “I’m not worth it” 😭😭

Katniss telling that story about buying Prim’s goat😊... A young buck, probably a yearling by his size. His antlers were just growing in, still small and coated in velvet. [...] Beautiful. - We are all very much aware of Peeta’s appreciation for beauty, but the same does apply to Katniss, too (she’s just overall more pragmatic)

“Was it [the goat] still wearing the pink ribbon?″ he asks. “I think so,” I say. “Why?” “I’m just trying to get a picture,” he says thoughtfully. - Peeta is so detail-oriented! I have this theory that this is actually something that enables him to overcome his hijacking; we catch glimpses in MJ of how he inches himself out of his condition by asking/focusing on small details or things most people would dismiss as trivial (Katniss’s favorite color, the color of her dress visiting District 7, her Dad singing the Hanging Tree when Peeta was 6 or 7 years old...) and I feel like it makes a lot of sense - his tormentors in the Capitol either wouldn’t have access to distort these moments or not even consider them to have any significance (since they are all about big, flashy gestures in the Capitol), so these memories would remain untouched. Luckily, Peeta seems to live by Robert Brault’s words: “Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. “

“Really? What did you cost me again?” I ask. “A lot of trouble. Don’t worry. You’ll get it all back,” he says. - Well, he’s going to cost her a lot more trouble in the future - but we know he’s going to make up for it and bring her much happiness, too 😊

“You’re not risking your life for me.” “Who said I was?” I say. [...] “Of course I’m not going.” [...] “You’re such a bad liar, Karniss.” [...] Anger flushes my face. “All right, I am going, and you can’t stop me!” “I can follow you. At least partway. I may not make it to the Cornucopia, but if I’m yelling your name I bet someone can find me. And then I’ll be dead for sure,” he says. - Soo.. their love language is offering to sacrifice their life like it’s nothing, huh?! 😳😅

Peeta eats without complaint, even scraping out the pot to show his enthusiasm. He rambles on about how delicious it is, - lol, sounds like a husband trying to get back on his wife’s good side after they had a row 😂

I clamp my hand over his mouth and nose hard, forcing him to swallow instead of spit. He tries to make himself vomit the stuff up, but it’s too late, he’s already losing consciousness. - Ah, the most important indicator of true love: having person A force-feed person B a sedative so they can run off to get them life-saving medicine ;)

Chapter 21:

I lie next to Peeta in the bag, trying to absorb every bit of his fever heat. It’s strange to be so physically close to someone who’s so distant. Peeta might as well be back in the Capitol, - Reminds me how in MJ she’s going to be so close to Peeta (mentally/emotionally) while he will be physically so distant (in the Capitol!)

a tiny orange one [backpack] [...] that must be marked with a 12 - Interesting how that backpack is orange, huh? Why is that? Are smaller backpacks generally orange (like the one Katniss already has) to be more visible or is this simply to connect the backpack to Peeta (though we don’t know his favorite color at this point)? Do the Gamemakers care whether Katniss gets a matching backpack? It just seems like an unnecessary detail to throw in🤔

The table has just clicked into place when a figure darts out of the Cornucopia, snags the green backpack, and speeds off. Foxface! - Honestly, this was a truly brilliant move; kudos! 👏🏼

[Clove] carefully selects an almost dainty-looking number [knife] with a cruel, curved blade. “I promised Cato if he let me have you, I’d give the audience a good show.” [...] “I think...” she almost purrs. “I think we’ll start with your mouth.” [...] she teasingly traces the outline of my lips with the tip of the blade. - Okay, but the idea of Clove cutting off Katniss’s lips is just all kinds of terrifying and disturbing 😨

“No! No, I-” Clove sees the stone, about the size of a small loaf of bread in Thresh’s hand [...] Thresh brings the rock down hard against Clove’s temple. [...] and I know she’s a goner. - Interesting how Katniss describes that rock that basically saves her life (or at least kills her assailant) as bread-sized, huh? “Your district... they sent me bread. [...] Conflicting emotions cross Thresh’s face. He lowers the rock and points at me, almost accusingly. “Just this one time, I let you go. For the little girl.” - Katniss mentions the bread from District 11 as a proof of her alliance with Rue (and the recognition of D11) and Thresh spares her; bread keeps saving her life (while it keeps representing acts of kindness)

Cato kneels beside Clove, spear in hand, begging her to stay with him. - I appreciate this small, humanizing moment with Cato

The last thing I remember is an exquisitely beautiful green and silver moth landing on the curve of my wrist. - I don’t know much about North American insects (not that I know that much about European insects either - just recently came across a relatively rare moth on my walks that I had never seen or heard of before) - is Katniss describing a special/noteworthy species of moth? Or is this a more literary symbolism kind of moth? (Just looked up some symbolism meaning of moths: change/transformation, seeking light; power of regeneration in some Native American mythology, hmm...)

#thgagain #thg #hunger games #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #thg meta #thresh #my sketches and drawings #everlark

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Me me meeee <3 I'll request a full analysis about NCT's Johnny! 😚😚 Include errrrthing baby hahaha 18+ stuff, him as a romantic partner aka bf <3 whatever you want! I'm so excited to read this akndfkgkfn 😎😎😎❤️❤️

Johnny Suh - Natal chart

Finally finished it!! Johnny was actually the most requested member I received in my inbox! Sorry that it’s nearly the length of a novel lmao but I sectioned it to make it easier to read and navigate 💕

(Not claiming to be an expert this is just for fun please don’t take anything too seriously!) Hope this is helpful and that you enjoy it 🥰❤️

Personality: Aquarius Sun, Gemini Moon, Aqua Mercury, Virgo rising, Leo Mars

While Aqua is a fixed sign it is definitely the most adaptable of the 3 fixed signs due to the Air element of Aquarius plus the ever spontaneous Gemini moon. Most things that make the rest of us feel anxious tend not to seem that scary to fearless Gemini or cool as a cucumber Aquarius.

Natural social butterflies who love their tribe deeply and fiercely once they find them. Busy bodies who are easily bored if left unstimulated too long which will turn into crankiness if not rectified quickly. Thankfully Aqua & Gem have a zest for life that makes them quite easy to please. They are open minded and will gladly stay up till 3am talking about aliens and conspiracy theories, just like they are thrilled to go on last minute random trips just because why not (Gemini impulsivity at it’s finest lmao)

Gemini is a mutable sign unlike fixed Aquarius. This is a pretty big difference and something that goes under the radar with Aquas due to that cool as a cucumber attitude. Because they are adaptable and typically very easy going they don’t often show their stubborn aggressive sides and honestly prefer not to have to unless they are feeling extremely disrespected or pushed beyond their boundary which is a BIG let me say that again, BIG no no with Aquarius (almost as big as it is for for the water signs)

Adding to these deep inner thoughts and vast inner world that Aquarians have, his Virgo rising adds more depth and self awareness. As perfectionists and highly intellectual minds they are a lot more self critical than they let on, just like they are a lot more caring and soft than they let on. They deeply care about others and the world in general seeing the big picture in a very earthy and traditional way - good people should strive to put good out and try their very best at whatever they do. They deeply dislike mean, malicious, manipulative, or spiteful behavior or people and generally keep guarded around people they don’t know well until they feel certain of the person’s true intention. There’s nothing Virgo is more cautious of than to be swindled or hurt by someone they take it reallyy hard and they know it.

Now we alllll know his swag and confidence is legendary and we can all thank the Leo Mars placement for that and the beautiful lush shiny hair and big toothy smile (Looking at Mark, Jaemin and Xiaojun like 👁👄👁) But beyond the aesthetics and dripping confidence and charisma, Leo is another creative sign that tends to be a lot more intellectual and intuitive than people give them credit for.

When the other members call Johnny one of the scariest members you can bet it’s his aggressive fiery fixed Leo Mars which is loud and even violent when provoked enough not to mention the fixed Aquarius tornado energy...Oooof that is a lot of Fixed sign rage right there honey so let’s tread lightly with Johnny boy and appeal to his open minded and friendly nature with a gentle tone and non-pointed words during discussions and all shall be good even if there’s some disagreeing!

Honestly if the argument starts getting bad you can always distract the Gemini moon by just bringing up other interesting topics! Geminis minds move FAST and while they can process a lot of information quickly and precisely they tend to get distracted easily (but here’s the good side of that😉)

Aquarius have a deep love of family and the desire to create their own (Geminis often share this trait) they can feel a bit like outsiders or “other” from people and thus crave to build a tribe of their own - this can be friends that are lifelong deep relationship carried on no different than family or starting their own family with a partner and kids

Relationships:

Non-Romantic Relationships & overall communication style: Aquarius Sun, Gemini Moon, Aqua Mercury, Leo Mars, Virgo Rising

Built off laughter, time spent together whether its at home hanging out casually or going out for meals and fun new things to try together

Wants to bounce lots of ideas off of his closest friends and secretly loves doing creative stuff together the most - this is pretty evident if you watch JCC he’s happiest when he’s doing stuff with his bros whether it’s sporty, musical, or crafts

Does not like to be vulnerable even with those he’s close to, tends to stick to neutral and more light hearted topics of interest and conversation because he prefers to spread a good mood instead of a heavy one

If he really trusts you or has worked through it enough already to want to talk about something serious you’d better listen cause the boy drops gems of wisdom and has a really soft mushy heart

Immediately adopts his close friends as family and no matter the time apart or distance will always treat them the same

Likes friends he can learn from and take on new adventures with they satisfy the intellectual Virgo rising and Aqua & leo sign thrill needs - Gemini is all about BOTH of these

Deeply appreciates loyalty, acts of service, and quality time with his friends and family - makes his heart soooo happy BUT

He would rather fucking DIE than let you or anyone see him cry so he cries like 4 times a year at 3am in the bathroom while everyone’s asleep (HIGHKEY feel like Ten & Jaehyun are exactly like this too)

Romantic relationships and preferences: Capricorn Venus, Leo Mars, Capricorn Juno, Capricorn Eros

Mr. Johnny Suh has THREE Capricorn placements tied to love and intimacy so that’s saying something lmao

Going against Aquarius’ open mindedness and anti-traditional persona Capricorn prefers all things traditional and stable.

Very much does acts of service for his partner as a sign of affection also lots of touching and quality time.

A veryyyyyy spontaneous boyfriend/partner thanks to that Gemini moon - he either wants to stay at home in pjs and order food and have movie marathons or whisk you away on zero notice to a trip lol

Earth sign men are drawn to women who embody very flowery feminine energy and aesthetics. They prefer a “natural beauty” who can spice it up sometimes rather than a super flashy 24/7 partner. (He’s said in the past that his ideal type is Yoona which says it all lol)

Will be highly drawn and intrigued by someone with a high work ethic and high intellect. BIG bonus points if you can keep up with his sarcasm and jokes.

Earth signs are pretty physical and handsy so expect to have little personal space around him, make no mistake they enjoy this very much. He will definitely be grabbing you and picking you up often! He’ll be smirking down at you devilishly watching you get flustered backed into a corner trapped by the sheer size of his muscular body. A Capricorn male’s ego really enjoys this dynamic, trust me lol.

Also another quirky male Capricorn trait that actually applies to Aqua & Gem as well… They like to initiate all the touchy feely stuff - What I mean by that is they can get easily spooked by clinginess too early on. These three signs want romance and definitely want to feel that you’re into them but they also are innately independent and enjoy relationships where their partner can also go off into the world and thrive in their own way and meet back together in the middle. So long as you can find a happy balance, when you are together you won’t have to initiate anyways honestly because he’ll be the one pulling you.

Okay let's talk about Juno & Eros - Juno in Capricorn is about serious, loyal, long term commitment though they tend to marry later in life once they’ve already achieved the things they want to for themselves which I can see being the case for Johnny as well especially with his current career.

18+ Preferences:

Eros in Cap where to begin - high libido, stimulated by visuals and touch. Wear interesting colors, patterns, textures to catch his eyes & his hands - lacy lingerie is a plus the texture will really excite him and the feminine look will please his earthy traditional cap side. If you really wanna have him drooling throw in some spicy contrasts like a leather choker with the lace set and you’ll also set off his Aqua, Gem, and Leo placements as well ;)

Tends to bounce back and forth between fucking you like you’re a cheap groupie whore and taking his time staring you in the eyes and kissing you passionately as he’s stomach deep - no inbetween but really who’s complaining??

DOM KINK - NOT UP FOR DEBATE he has THREE Capricorn placements for fucksake meaning 3 cardinal signs which are literally called “the INITIATORS” plus all his other fixed personality placements

More of the classy rich ceo vibes kind of dom (suits, expensive cologne and jewelry, leather, black and red binds) - takes you to bougie hotels when he really wants to ramp it up and not have to care who hears. You can expect not to sleep those nights but he’ll damn sure pamper you afterwards with cuddles, food, and a spa date.

Now...with all his Air sign placements...I have to say it...he’s a kinky ass dude. Few things are off the table, but he’s also super content with “normal” stuff too. It’s more about the person and experience for him than doing the wildest things possible. So if it feels natural and right then he’s down.

Don’t be surprised if he wants to tie you up like a pretzel or role play because he’s definitelyyy going to ask. Well actually he’d probably just buy whatever outfit or binds he wanted to use and casually be like “look what I got for us baby” as if it’s matching charm bracelets or something. The good news is he’ll dress up and get into it with you and he’s super receptive to your boundaries, fantasies and making it enjoyable as possible for you too.

If you flip the script on him and suddenly break the norm either by taking the initiate/lead first or trying something new he will absolutely combust 🤯 and be in the palm of your hand staring in absolute awe and fascination till he can’t take it anymore and reclaims his spot as the one in control

Nudes, videos, and phone sex when apart are a definite and they really keep the passion burning for him which is honestly VERY important and don’t worry he’s NOT shy and you will be grateful for the beautiful collection of photos and videos 🤤

Boredom for Aquas, Gems, and Caps can quickly lead into self-sabotaging behaviors and/or wandering eyes not because they don’t value loyalty but that they really need and benefit from mental stimulation and feeling wanted so when that’s gone they can pull away

Honestly pretty much any type of lingerie or outfit will turn him on because the most arousing part for him is knowing that you spent time doing such a naughty thing for his sake

Breeding kink - 3 earth placements and has said himself in interviews he would’ve started having kids at 25 if he wasn’t an idol soooooo that’s a definite. He imagines you pregnant with his baby and it makes him super soft and warm which quickly turns to super turned on. He loves the primal marking aspect of claiming you in such a way and also watching you unravel to the point of begging him to do it. Even if it’s just “play” he loves it and will probably think about it a lot more than you know. If you ever do it for real he will be utterly and completely obsessed with you forever and be practically more excited about all the stages of your pregnancy than you are

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