#// and i will literally keep saying the same thing 100000000000 times and mean it every single time

[m0e-ru]

art summaries from this year and the last !! 21-22 !!

and here's some more commentary for 2022 because i will be more annoying this year

January - not a lot happening. i was asking for art reqs and NO ONE had ideas

February - MOEL SEKIYU TUMBLR BRANCH TOHRU ADACHI BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION?

March - 3/20 YEAH WAHOOO YEAAAH

April - lots of messing around this month. my merch came in the mail though !!!

May - PXDN ERA but i answered the teddie in a dress ask from like. two months prior

June - * didnt post this anyway i was messing around with csp. i really like the marker

July - * DIDNT POST THIS EITHER but one idol's stage costume looked like sho colors. it was funny in the moment

August - * DIDNT FUCKING POST THIS EITHER I HAVE NO IDEA anyway i just think theyre very important

September - * HOW MANY BIG PIECES HAVE I NOT BEEN POSTING HERE WHAT THE FUCK WHERE DO I EVEN SHARE THEM ANYWAY MAKING THIS WAS REALLY SAD CHIZUSAN WAS RETIRING AND DELETED HER SOCIALS ohh right my mimbot

October - I was trying out watercolors (the brush) and MARIE HALLOWEEN 2022 !!!

November - pocky day :] except it's jagariko

December - new year's art !! ive been wanting to draw blorbo to sogabe's new year art from the manga so here it is !!! sorry for no christmas holiday art

and here’s the love letter ive been meaning to write all the way back in august. it’s a bit personal but also vague . I am speaking from a soapbox next to a quiet intersection and pouring my heart out

im happy to see how ive improved throughout the years, and in some aspects stayed completely the same apparently. ve been jumping around 1000 brushes and 10000 more art styles ive never stayed consistent because I wanted something new and all I had was myself ! so apparently it became whatever happened here.

It’s true I had a lot more steam last year when it came to pumping art out but I think im also glad I did less art this year in a way. I’ll admit a lot of last year was fueled by chasing people and a way to reach the top and get my voice heard I felt like I was fighting for my life but im not too sure how it looked like from the outside. It’s also been fueled by spite which made me incredibly tired and something im glad I stopped utilizing this year. That I learned my boundaries and maintained them as peacefully as I am now.

Sure im a lot more tired but I think the pace im taking is a bit better in it’s own way too. I really wish I could’ve done more this year but when I look at it from afar I guess im still chasing things, too. Maybe not something new and I never really aimed for fame or anything. Maybe I just wanted to keep what I already have?

2021 I’ll confess was also a pile of shit and I guess 2022 was the year of my digging it all away and I’m not done yet. But as long as there’s progress that’s good enough for me. I’m glad I’ve been able to do all these things than not do them at all. But sometimes I wish I could relearn the restraint I had from before.

I never wanted to put a dark stain on the things I love so as long as I ground myself and remind myself why im here I can see the light and remember why I love theses things. I’m speaking in a very vague manner and I am relating this to my time in fandom as cheesy as it sounds, but also personally, I guess.

Imagine it like im talking on a soapbox right now when I say im really glad for the time I’ve spent here—while all of it isn’t the best that could’ve happened and the fault of my own shortcomings—I still treasure it. I love all the people I’ve met and the community I’ve formed and I guess there’s this fear of losing things since I’m afraid I can’t get them back, that I haven’t learned how to even connect better anymore. I really dont want this to sound like someone died lol but I really am genuinely grateful for all the time ive spent with people and how they considered me their friend and how theyre my friend and how they just moved on to other things and im stuck in a box ive put myself in that makes it so hard to be heard I stopped talking anyway.

To those who met me this year, or last year, or the year before that, or knew me before this gas station, and still are here somehow: thank you. For your kindness, for your tags, for your asks, for your replies, for your messages, for your discords, for your writing, for your art and for everything you’ve offered me. I always mean my gratitude from the bottom of my heart and I want to stop being afraid that it doesn’t show.

If this year brings more “Mim” then so be it. I’m happy you find joy in the silly nickname and all the love behind it no matter how silly it is. And even if I drift away or we all drift apart, I treasure every memory and sometimes cry over it at night. I wish 2023 would be nice to all of us and the years after.

[pasttorn]

URL RESPONSES ! ⟡ NOT ACCEPTING !

@kyousei​​ said: Do my url

DO I FOLLOW THEM ? WHY ? -  YES ! YES ! YES ! YES ! YES ! GOD i think we met back when i was on darce’s original blog over at shvrker ? ? ?? i think i remember you having a bug loving boy & we talked about my new kank blog & about how you wanted to write gaara i think ? ? ? & jUST GOD THAT WAS THE BEST THING TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME BC ! ! ! WE DID THE WHOLE MATCHING BLOGS THING & WE’VE JUST ! ! ! ! been writing together for so long now that i would literally die for you & follow every blog you make just bc it’s you DO WE WRITE / DO I WANT TO WRITE WITH THEM ? - FUCK ! ! ! YOU BET EVERYTHING THAT WE DO ! ! ! WE ABSOLUTELY DO ! ! ! ! in every blog, with almost every matching muse we have-- i will forever & always be mega happy to write with nia & all our threads ? ? are so good ? ? i’m still getting vibes from the grimm & ulqui thread we had a long, long time ago about him losing his number & i reaLLY NEED TO GET ON AIMCS SOON BC THERE’S SO MANY THREADS OVER THERE I WANNA REPLY TO BUT JUST ! ! ! ! ! GO D we have so many threads & plots already idk what even else there is for us to talk about but, all the muses i haven’t written with yet ? ??  give them to me i will love them. idk if we have to make a crossover verse for them i will love them. AN AU IDEA FOR OUR MUSES - god i honestly have no idea. we’ve mostly gone through all the canon verses we could go through in terms of plotting ideas & we have the whole, master & student verse for kank & sasori & just  ! !! ! !  ! at this point it’d have to be a completely different au for us to have new stuff to work with / talk about-- like i remember you bringing up a forced marriage au / royalty au or something for jugobazz ? ? ? we went over it briefly but oof just imagine an au like that for kibayua ! ! ! a prince & a princess being talked into an arranged marriage to appease / form a truce between two clans ? i have no idea what sort of au’s we could have, since there’s so many that could work for so many different muses of ours but holy fuck. i’d love to do more with lowell & briar ( which i still have to think through since i’m debating on just moving all my oc’s over here-- so if i do it’d mean i’d have to reply to that thread here ) & just ! !! lang & near ? interpol & world’s greatest detective ? i’d love to do more with shukaku / shinki & kank-- mostly bc the interactions between those pairs would be Magnificent. emil & funosuke though ! ! ! they’re the only two of your oc’s i haven’t written with yet but you bet everything i’m gonna find a muse to throw at them somehow because i adore them both. A SONG FOR OUR MUSES - I MEAN ! ! ! ! WE HAVE FIVE ? PLAYLIST GOING ON FOR OUR MUSES ALREADY-- kibayua / jugobazz / grimmulqui / toshiyuki / kankushino sO AT THIS POINT I WOULDN’T KNOW WHAT OTHER SONG TO SHARE THAT WOULD BE GOOD FOR OUR MUSES which is funny bc usually i’m bad at coming up with songs yet with you it’s hard to come up with other songs that we haven’t already shared but hm i guess heart stops by secondhand serenade is a very good jugobazz song bc it makes me sad :” > tonight i love you by latency is a very good kibayua song bc kiba is a nervous mess when around her & he just ! ! ! loves her so much ! ! i keep trying to find songs for more platonic relationships between our muses like lowell & briar or bazz & kassi but i can’t come up with anything right now because i’m so bad with songs ihujgwmSDAC DO I SHIP OUR MUSES ? - I MEAN, , , GESTURES AT ALL THE SHIPS WE HAVE SET IN PLACE ALREADY yes ! ! ! i do ! ! ! we do ! ! ! nia i adore you so much you could up & pick lit any muse i have saying you want to ship & i’d throw them full force at you. is there a chance they might not work ? ? ? i don’t care we’ll make it work somehow. i REALLY, REALLY ADORE ALL THE SHIPS WE HAVE ? ? ? BOTH, ROMANTIC & PLATONIC like i honestly don’t know what i’d do without them / with all the plotting i’ve done with you because so much of my interpretation of certain muses is based solely on how they get along with yours or how yours has impacted them that i ! ! ! the way i write some of my muses like bazz & grimm & would be so, so different had it not been for you & you being so willing to write with me like holy fuck i caAN’T STRESS THIS ENOUGH ! ! ! !  WHAT DO I THINK ABOUT THE MUN ? - NIA. NIA NIA NIA I WOULD DIE FOR YOU. I’D GIVE ALMOST EVERYTHING UP FOR YOU. i’ve said this before & i’ll say it again but meeting you & having a chance to write with you ? ? ? & you being so willing to write with me as well ? ?  it’s been of the best things to happen to me & i’m never gonna get over how blessed i am to have met you & talked to you & befriended you. your writing is amazing & you care about each of your muses so much & you have such a confident grasp on them that ? ? makes me so reassured when writing / discussing certain headcanons or plots with you. you’re always so open to new ideas & always so quick to put in your own opinion of things & being honest / realistic about what you think-- even when it comes to approaching others & when you get a plot idea you don’t seem to waste a second to share it & that is just ! ! something that i love about you ! ! ! you’ve helped me out so much with character development problems & coding problems & so many other things throughout the years we’ve known each other-- like i keep saying this but my experience on tumblr rp wouldn’t have been the same without you in it & i’m super mega grateful you’re still willing to write / talk with my dumb & slow self like ! ! ! nia there’s next to nothing i wouldn’t do for you ily ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ OVERALL OPINION - NIA IS SUCH A LONG TIME WRITING PARTNER OF MINE THAT ! ! ! ESP ON AIMCS BUT IF YOU’RE FOLLOWING ME & AREN’T FOLLOWING NIA YOU’RE MISSING OUT ON SO, SO MUCH BC GO D! !  ! ! !! ! ! ! THEIR WRITING IS AMAZING & THEIR PLOTS / CHARACTER DEVELOPMENTS ARE SPECTACULAR ! ! !  BLOG RATE - 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 100000000000 ! ! ! ! !

[brownsugarrilakkuma]

50 questions tag~

tagged by @neochamomiletea

1. what takes up too much of your time? Scrolling through Tumblr, playing Pocket Camp, and watching YouTube videos.

2. what makes your day better? Sushi and talking to my best friends. 

3. what’s the best thing that happened to you today? The Pizza Hut by my house finally got our order right. 

4. what fictional place would you like to go?  Right now? My camp in Animal Crossing Pocket Camp.

5. are you good at giving advice? I guess so because everyone always comes to me lmaoo.

6. do you have any mental illness? Not professionally diagnosed but I do have family history for a few.

7. have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? I don’t think so. 

8. what musician inspired you the most? This answer changes based on who I’m obsessed with at the moment typically. I’d say the most consistent would be Rihanna. Once I became Navy my loyalty has never swayed. I love her idgaf I’m here to have fun and get paid attitude. She’s also so ride or die for her friends and family and like same. However, I’d be lying if I didn’t mention I literally call my closet the ‘SHINee closet’ due to my posters of Jonghyun and Taemin hanging up in their. Eventually I plan to put more SHINee centric posters up as long as I have space. They’ve inspired me to continue to push through hard times when I’d much rather give up. 

9. have you ever fallen in love? Romantically? Not yet *Baekho voice* WHERE U AT??!!

10. what’s your dream date? I want to go somewhere with good food where we either get to either walk around and talk or be able to sit in the same place until the place is ready to close. 

11. what do others notice about you? My skin and hair. I’ve had so many random women either complement my skin (usually wearing makeup but I guess that means I do know how to apply foundation) or my hair (colored or when I was natural).

12. what is the annoying habit you have? I don’t ask for help.

13. do you still talk to you first love? Nope. 

14. how many ex’s do you have? None. 

15. how many songs are on your playlist? My Cheer Up playlist has 122 song but that’s in progress. 

16. what instruments can you play? None because I got impatient and gave up. 

17. who do you have the most pictures of? As of today I have 272 pictures and gifs and counting of Johnny on my phone and I’m not ashamed of it (cause that’s my mans). But uhhh I also have 100 pictures and videos of my cat Penelope saved on my phone too. It’s up to you to decide which is sadder lmao. 

18. where would you like to go before you die? Too many to list. Definitely Tokyo, Seoul, and Shanghai.  

19. what is your zodiac? Gemini sun, Aquarius moon.

20. do you relate to it? Too well. 

21. what is happiness to you? Being able to be yourself unapologetically around people you love.

22. are you going through anything right now? I should have a royal title by now for all the years I’ve been going through it. 

23. what’s the worst decision you’ve ever made? Anytime I decided against  listening to my gut knowing she’s right 99.999% of the time.

24. what’s your favourite store? At first I was thinking either Nordstrom Rack or TJ MAXX but TJ MAXX has a good mix of  skincare, makeup, bras, furniture, and food stuff like teas and cookies from brands you’ve never heard of along with interesting designer pieces. I like the hunt. 

25. what’s your opinion on abortion? I’m 100000000000% on board. As many as that person wants/needs to have. 

26. do you keep a bucket list? I have a mental list of shit I would like to get done if I was more disciplined. 

27. do you have a favourite album at the moment? Not really. I have some favorite songs I listen to off of some of my favorite albums released this year. I listen to playlist more than full length albums. Or all 1000+ songs on shuffle. 

28. what do you want for your birthday?  I like money gifts from family. My friends always get me perfect gifts. I think they get what my interest are better than my family members do.  

29. what are most peoples first impression of you? I don’t know I never ask.

30. what age do you seem according to most people? I always get aged down 4-5 years. Most recently a neighbor asked me what my plans were after I graduate high school this year. I’m 24.

31. where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? Next to the wall where my charger is. 

32. what word do you say the most? What, wow, and whack are my top three reactions to most things.

33. what’s the oldest age you would date?  Ideally I wouldn’t want to go older than 4 years. Like at least at some point we’d been in high school at the same time so we’d have some life experiences we’d have in common. But like if we click we click. 

34. what’s the youngest age you would date? Idk like 3 or 4 years? My response is about the same as the last one. I couldn’t image dating someone that much younger but life be like that sometimes. As long as they’re of age. 

35. what job/career do most people say would suit you? A writer or designer. 

36. what’s your favourite music genre? Deep house has become a recent fave of mine over the last like 4 years. I like having music I could vibe to or dance to at any moment. I’m here to have a good time.

37. if you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? I want to retire to the Tuscany region of Italy. Pretty much all of the countries I would want to live in are just as expensive as the US. 

38. what is your current favourite song? Puzzle Moon by GWSN

39. how long have you had this blog for? May of 2012 although I think I deleted some of my earlier posts. I’ve switched names and themes a lot.

40. what are you excited for? WayV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And other new music in 2019. 

41. are you a better talker or listener? Listener. I have good ideas but sometime I struggle articulating them and once I get it, it’s too late. 

42. what is the last productive thing you did? i got some sewing done.

43. what do you want for christmas? I had a long list like every year. My mom did get me this Fashionary book I wanted. No Airpods yet. 

44. what class do you get the best grades in? English, History, and Art

45. on a scale from 1-10, how are you feeling right now? 10, I just had pizza

46. what can you see yourself doing in 10 years? Still being on my bullshit 

47. when did you get your first heartbreak? When Fall Out Boy went on hiatus in like 2008/2009

48. at what age do you want to get married? Uhh idk. I’m indifferent 

49. what career did you want to have as a child? i wanted to be in a girl group, an actress, and a fashion designer....so Beyonce, I wanted to be Beyonce 

50. what do you crave right now? ...more pizza. I’m hungry again. 

I’m gonna tag: @agust-ds, @thejoong, @itslovingjungkookoclock, @yerim-5hinee, and @aqsun (idk if you’ve done this one but I know you’ve done some other tags so I didn’t tag you in those and you don’t have to do this either but I do like you so I want to include you in things like this too but I’m shy so sorry for the long explanation lmao)