#/ scratching the surface of my mind / (about)

[clanborn]

feeling so normal about the implications if curlfeather is reedwhisker’s daughter

[polux-aka-hyakunana]

The tragedy of having my hands full of work until at least next week and suddenly remembering how much I love and miss Lies of P while living my Geats fever because I need stalker!Riders injected on my veins to keep living

[skelemoonz]

Have you ever wondered when you are drawing transformers or the artists drawing transformers do you have to draw the inside of a transformer's body?

This's such a stupid question I'm so sorry- 🤧🤧⁉️⁉️

This is one I had to think about for a moment lol but if I’m understanding right you are wondering if I ever thought about how the transformers are internally built?

If so, yes absolutely I have, I frequently think about it actually, trying to figure out how they transform, how their body structure can change so drastically (more specifically talking about the live action movies tbh, like Kightverse) it has always fascinated me

To put it simply, I imagine they are built very similar to that of animatronics, if you want to get a visual. The frame/skeleton, the wire’s surrounding it, the plating put above that to act as a base for the shell or muscles of sorts.

More explanation, specifically for my personal au, under the cut. Warning there will be images of animatronics without their..skin? Ig? It can be freaky looking

So, for Cybertronians I imagine that their internal structure is incredibly complex, with their ability to transform an all, but in my au Cyebrtronians have the most complex transformation out of any of the other colonies in turn giving them the most complex internal structure. This isn’t even talking about if a bot has an experimental T-cog lol

While yes the general structure would be the same as I explained before, similar to this, the wires, the plastic plating acting as muscles or as an extra skeleton of sorts

I also imagine that the skeletal structure looks as if it can just be taken apart with ease, because it can.

A Cybertronians skeleton in their transformation will end up forming the skeleton of the vehicle they turn into.

To try giving a visual, ROTB Jackie turns into a VW Van with the back seats taken out, or in other words, hollow inside. Now all that robot jazz gotta go somewhere right? So his skeleton would transform out, pushing the armor out at well to make the shape of the van

to get a good idea of what pose he would be doing for this transformation, look at the ss and mainline figurine, kinda a mix between those. Transformation can be changed with Cybertronains though.

Now, all of this compared to say, Eukarians in my au is very complex. With Eukarians being half organic an all, they have the simplest transformation out of any colony. If they tried transforming like a Cybertronian does, their bones would shatter and they would most definitely die, it’d be like you getting folded and squished into a ball shape, very bad.

While Cybertronians are close to animatronics, I’d say that Eukarians would be more like crustaceans, or actually..maybe like a Pangolin, hard shell outside, organs an all that soft stuff inside (including the half metal half bone skeleton in their case). While a Cybertronians skeleton can come apart, a Eukarians cannot..

Picture of Pangolin to show what it is, show it has armor, this is like a Eukarian, and just look at them I love them

Other colonies tend to be more similar to Cybertron, like Velocitron and Gigantion. Generally speaking these two can transform in the same way that Cyebrtronians can, the only difference is their sizes, Velocitronians are fairly small, not tiny but…lets say (these are not the real heights) that Cybertronains are 20-50ft tall, Velocitronians would be 20-30ft tall, then you got the Titans, they can turn into cities 👍

Ofc this height difference and what they do in day to day life will change their internal and external body structure, Velocitronians are built for speed, their cooling system, sharp points and light frames are meant to make them easily fly and cut through the air while they drive like its nothing. Hell even their transformation is quicker than usual. They’re like land jets

Then theres Caminus and Junkion, these two don’t transform, they have T-cogs but they rarely ever use them to do big transformations, for Camians it was to reserve energy (they are also the smallest colony in size) and Junkonians found no use for it. So yes over the centuries these colonies have lost their ability to do complex transformations, meaning their skeleton is similar to Eukarians, can’t come apart, but it’s very flexible.

I imagine they’re more similar to this underneath all that armor. At least Camian’s..Junkonians are very messy tbh

Anywho, man I rambled…a lot..yeesh..my bad lol, I don’t get to talk about this stuff a lot

[nixnuevo]

the gamedev struggle of wanting to post all of your game's lore so u can scream about your OCs vs wanting to not being able to bc game spoilers

[marypsue]

30, 33?

[from this meme]

30. Describe a fic that almost happened, but then it didn’t.

Oh, there've been a few. I'm going to give this airtime, however, to one I actually wrote the first part of but never shared, back when I was writing fic for the CW's Supernatural. The premise was that, at some unspecified point during the first three seasons, through a series of hilarious and only occasionally deadly mishaps, Dean Winchester catches the attention of the goddess Diana and gets zapped into a female body. Conceptually, I had a lot of stuff I liked going on - the cover for Diana's hunt was an MLM! they were turning abusive men into deer and hunting them for sport! her 'temple' was part of a golf course! - but I genuinely just don't know enough of the show's Lore, and so the explanation for getting to the premise never quite gelled for me. There were several smaller casefics I had planned under the larger arc of the story, and I only ever finished the first. (Which is too bad, because the second one had a killer mascot, a robot-programming Nice Guy, and a cursed sorority in it, and I was really excited about how it was all going to shake out.)

(And yes, it was going to get weird and complicated about gender and Dean's many, many issues surrounding it. It wasn't entirely an excuse to imagine young Jensen Ackles as actually a beautiful butch lesbian. Not entirely.)

33. Give your writing a compliment.

Personally, I think I do a good job of giving characters distinct voices and personalities, and letting them have perspectives on each other that are also distinct from each other and informed by what they actually know about each other.

And I think my fics are very atmospheric. (Yes, I do reread my own stuff sometimes. That author writes all my favourite tropes and shares exactly my sense of humour.)

[chaoticlivingperson]

I hate how if you do art ppl will tell you to do something more valuable with your time. Dont get me wrong, they'll tell you your art looks so nice and stuff but then turn around right after like they didnt just say that and spout 'advice' at you. I hate how you have to prove the value in something to make it seem worthwhile. Like no Nisha, i dont do art because im good at it, i do it stay sane. I do it because it makes me happy. I do it because i stopped for a year and it was the most miserable year of my life. I dont care that it doesn't 'have value'. Shut up.

[bombusbombus]

They diagnosed me with liking comics disease

[turtelini]

I am so hungry

[Written with this song playing, recommended for the full experience]

When I walk the streets, I am surrounded by meat. I am being told I am the meat, but I'm not really. They say what they think is true - but I am not the meat. The meat moves and feels and speaks and laughs and cries. I am not the meat. The meat loves and hates and screams and whispers. I am not the meat. I am beyond, not from earth, not from space, I am from nowhere. All I do is steer my meat, I am not even here. When I walk the street, I am surrounded by meat. They say some meat is different from others. Some meat is perceived as more, some meat is perceived as less. Some perceived meat realizes their meatiness, some do not. I do not care. I am hungry. I see meat, and my stomach is empty. I have eaten, but never enough. I see meat, and I grind my teeth. I long for the tenderness and the roughness, the unique and boring, the expensive and the poor. Meat is meat, and my teeth ache for the experience. I do care. I am so hungry. Please meat, be more. What are you beyond muscle and tendons and nerves and vessels? Please meat, be more. What are you but an agglomeration of movement and thoughts made action? Please meat, be more. For if you are just meat, my hunger is unjust. Please meat, make me believe I am more than meat myself.

[navree]

have you shared your thoughts on aegon yet? have i missed that? cause inquiring minds (me) would like to know.....

Gonna be true to the show and wonder Which Aegon, as we know there are fifty of them and if you don't specify there are problems that can arise and wars that can start ;) But lemme satisfy the inquiring minds of you and others anon, cuz I've got stuff to say about Aegon.

I've talked a bit about Aegon in other posts, like his relationship with his mother and his relationship with his father (both of which are part of longer posts but aegon is discussed in detail there), and I think I've mentioned before that there are choices they've made with Aegon that I really do not like to the point where I outright reject it as canon (most noticeably the rape thing in episode 8, please what was the point of that).

My view of Aegon is that this is a deeply wounded person, and nearly everything he does is a product of that pain. I've gone into it at length in those other two posts I've linked, so I'll just briefly touch on it here, but Aegon was always doomed to have a complicated relationship with his mother due to the fact that she had him at fifteen/sixteen years old, and he's of course been shaped by a relationship with his father that is either total neglect or cruelty (when Viserys screams in his face and Aegon flinches..........I was ready to commit homicide in that moment, on God). And while I think at some point, likely after Driftmark, Aegon gave up on having any kind of relationship with his father, he still desperately wants a closeness to his mother and loves her so much, and just wants that love returned.

(It's why the coronation makes me so insane, Aegon getting this concrete proof that his mother loves him so very much, Aegon at one point putting his arm in front of her as if to pull her back and Alicent shoving it away because she's going to protect him, she'll die with him if she has to........I love it I can't wait to see more of their dynamic as the Dance progresses).

There's also a lot of characterization they've hinted at with Aegon that I love, either through writing that is open to interpretation or choices made by Tom (sweetie when I get the money I'll make another Augustus show and cast you again and you won't have a bad wig and you'll have a better character to work with, I'll right the wrongs of the stupid Domina series). There's a recurring theme that nearly everything Aegon does is motivated by a deep hatred of things within himself, like cutting off his hair before it grows long so he doesn't have classic Targaryen looks, and choosing even in adulthood to wear green in solidarity with his mother, rather than Targaryen house colors. There's also the idea that Aegon "ignores" Helaena unless he's drunk, and the choices that he's mostly sloshed when looking for sex, comes with the implication that Aegon, already spiraling toward alcoholism due to feelings of being unworthy, less than, so defective that even his son-desperate dad sees him as being undeserving of his love, needs to get absolutely hammered, blackout drunk, before he can even stand sexual intimacy with another person. Especially his sister, considering that he didn't want to marry her because he and his siblings grew up viewing each other as siblings, not in the traditional Targaryen way (viewing siblings as potential marriage prospects).

Aegon's relationship with his siblings is also something I want explored as well, because from what I've seen and interpreted it's one of the best dynamics. Again, there's all the convoluted mess that comes from his relationship with Helaena crossing the lines from being a sister to him to being his wife (and again the fact that he cannot bear any sort of husbandly intimacy with her without hardcore coping mechanisms) that has clearly damaged any rapport they have, but they are also bonded through blood nonetheless, as well as the children they share (and I do hope they keep Aegon's fondness for kids, especially given What's About To Happen To His). And then there's his relationship with Aemond.

"He bullied Aemond" yeah, and that sucked, but unlike with the Strong kids, that was not the be all and end all with their relationship, not to mention that Aegon in his youth is a clearly more lighthearted person who likely didn't stop to think about whether he was doing any damage because he's thirteen and I've never met a thirteen year old that's self aware. There's clearly fondness there even though there's the bullying, like Aemond trying to keep Aegon back during Harwin and Criston's fight, and that they can have one on one discussions about things that bother them, like Aegon and Helaena's betrothal (which continues into adulthood with Aemond bitching about the dinner and Aegon trying to give him advice on how to deal with it, even if the advice was just 'get drunk' and therefore not good advice). And, very importantly, Aegon still feels a sort of brotherly protectiveness for Aemond. Aemond is clearly lying when he blames Aegon for the Strong rumors, Aegon knows that for a fact, but does he tell his dad that Aemond's lying? It really wouldn't be hard for Aegon to channel Dakota Johnson and say "no that's not true Aemond" and pull the focus (and screaming) back to Aemond. But he doesn't do that. Aemond puts the spotlight on him in this incredibly tense moment and Aegon rolls with it in a way that protects both his mother and his little brother, which is incredibly important as he's just been castigated by Alicent for not protecting Aemond.

There are also hints (at least to me) that Aegon could feel guilty about not being there before and is trying to make up for it in his adulthood. We know that Aegon and Aemond appear to constantly have each other's backs, as one of the first moments of Aemond being Intimidating is when it looks like Jace is gonna start shit with Aegon, and Aegon of course is immediately on board with the Strong boys toast even though he knows it's gonna cause drama. But most tellingly, he goes from zero to one hundred and then back to zero during the fight. He's fine until Luke stands up, at which point he grabs someone nearly ten years his junior and slams him facefirst to the table and is gripping him insanely tight and hissing Something at him (we don't know what, which is a shame). But the second he's forced off of Luke, he's back to normal. It's Luke trying to get involved that makes him blindingly furious to the point of enacting physical harm, Luke who, as we know, took Aemond's eye and started a long and arduous recovery process for Aemond that Aegon would have been a firsthand witness to once they were back home. And so Aegon, who couldn't protect his brother before, is definitely going to protect his brother now, against anything, and as viciously as possible.

Like, listen, my little sister and I don't always get along, but if someone injured her in a way that left her permanently disabled and then came back with nary an apology and tried to start shit? They'd die. They'd full on die.

And on Aemond's side it's fascinating that even with the disdain he might have for Aegon, he's always ready to back him up, in both the little things like family squabbles and the big things like dynastic squabbles. Plus Tom and Ewan have the potential to make this dynamic the best thing imaginable once season two starts and Things Happen that might be seen as Aemond's fault given his actions at Storm's End (which only Aegon is kind to him about in the book, like, hell yeah gimme it).

I think Aegon's very fascinating, bad writing choices excluded, as someone constantly in pain due to the choices of others even before he was born, who is trying desperately to be what he thinks others want him to and always feels like he's failing, who clearly gives shit 110% when he cares about it, and has such complicated and messy feelings about the family he loves so very deeply. And TGC is killing it in the role and should be allowed into the writers' room to remind them of how to write Aegon so that we don't get anymore weird shit.

(Also, they need to go the full mile for Aegon and Sunfyre. Their bond is so important, they both only start to heal from really bad injuries once they're together again and not before, I don't care if they don't have the budget for any other dragons, they need to go full on with Sunfyre.)

[kerorowhump]

depressing lack of keroro dororo dynamics in my vicinity when i am so fascinated by them in every way

[cold-neon-ocean]

Omigooooooaaaashhh 😭😭😭 your last post!!! Somebody PLEEEAASE SAVE BAATAR FROM HIS OWN MIND!! I literally know the feeling of fighting with yourself and your own thoughts and it's truly exhausting, nerve wrecking and draining!! But to have them centered around people who have extraordinary powerful abilities that literally change both the physical world and spiritual world HAS to be torture!! Omigosh by beautiful baby boy needs therapy!!

NO FOR REAL IM TRULY BEGGING HIM TO SEEK A GOOD THERAPIST LIKE SIR PLEASE 😭😭

Kuvira can just see on his face when he starts Thinking Too Much and then has to divert his attention lest he be consumed by the horrors of his own thoughts kshsjs Baatar doesn't like being fussed over like he's helpless and she knows that, but she can't help but check on his heart rate often to tell if he's having an anxiety spike or not. Especially when they're in public because it happens. He'll suddenly realize he's just surrounded by people who he can't ever know the intentions of and he'll just start quietly internally panicking and Kuv can't help but pick up his heart rate through the ground and have to go rescue him from himself :')

Like when he was captured and held hostage by Korra and she threatened him with the Avatar state, sure he called her bluff but that has to be the number one fear of any non-bender because what could they possibly do in response to that? He pretty much had his fear of being subjected to the mercy of someone with bending realized- in the worst possible scenario imaginable, and all he could do was try and talk his way out of it. And yeah Korra would have never hurt him in front of his family but he was still humiliated in front of them all the same. He's a champion at masking his feelings on the surface but I can only imagine how heart attack enduring as a non-bender being threatened by the Avatar themselves would be.

He's got so many mental anguishes going on at once, his status as a non-bender, how that has damaged his relationship with his family, his identity crisis, and also how he internalizes how Kuvira has felt outcast and he just reflexively gets angry for her. The man truly needs a mental health intervention because insisting that he can handle it all on his own has not been going as well as he thinks it has ajshsj

I've reoccuringly daydreamed about the scenario where Baatar does start going to therapy and detangling all his cumulative damage and feelings like that's truly what I want for him the most, some mental peace ;;

[withercrown]

I am not the same person I was before Outer Wilds

[valaglarios]

one thing i really do wish about wf was that it focused more on accessibility. as has been pointed out before, wf's combat can be REALLY stressful on the hands/wrists and one wf creator recently suggested the addition of an autofire feature like the one that was added to destiny 2. and i personally REALLY wish there was an option to enable target highlighting -- the tech for which has technically been in the game since 2017 with the addition of the argonak, but should quite honestly be something that is just A Feature and not a gimmick on One (1) single weapon

[depresseddepot]

oughhhghh where is that "don't trust anything you think abt your life past 9pm" post when you need it

[tucsonhorse]

I thought of another thing that I think isn't well known amongst fellow non-Jews. Many (most?) Jews will not swear fealty or other similar oaths of absolute obedience to individuals or countries due to their duty to obey god above all others (if I understand correctly what I've been told). I'm a member of a middle ages recreation group which as part of it includes having royal rulers which people (optionally) swear fealty to. As part of the standard explanation of this part of things right before it happens the person who is running things explains that for religious reasons some are unable to swear fealty and so at the points in the recitation where participants would use the phrase "swear fealty" and related, alternative wording is always given to pledge service rather than swear fealty. I asked a friend in the group about it and they explained about Jews being unwilling/unable to swear fealty, and some other religions include similar prohibitions as well apparently.

'punch a nazi!!' how about we start small and you can name two jews who feel comfortable talking about judaism openly around you

[virologikal]

istf at the end of this chapter I will be an expert on everything Louisiana just bc this asshole decided he had to stay and observe for almost two months...