#/ * tagged — 🦋 VERSE. 003 ( survived )

[cunninghamtm]

❛ oh so you’re going to make me sit in the shitty chair? ❜

chrissy looks troubled. it feels like a test at this point, would she let heather sit in the shitty chair? never. maybe. "-i mean you can sit next to me." she scoots over slightly, taps the space next to her. " there's space for us both here." she indicates, smile on her face. god she hopes it's not a test. "-you can just leave the shitty chair over there." it's a party, and it's not like chrissy has made it a goal to be in these things. but it feels like they should be doing things, heather and her. at least they sorta get it. in different ways. the desperation to feel normal. like nothing ever bad has happened to them.

@hollowflay

[cunninghamtm]

she feels all light and bubbly. like they haven't gone through the worst already, it's a bit surreal. she let's him take her hand. feels her cheek warm up, keeps the smile on her face. because sometimes it hurts, smiling so much, when she's around him. "-oh." it's soft, doesn't know where to look suddenly. and she doesn't know what to say to that. "sometimes you say the prettiest things." she just doesn't want to be alone, not when it gets this bad. and she feels...she feels good when she's around him. it's easy to ask even if she doesn't have a plan in mind.

CHRISSY ( @cunninghamtm​ ) said ❛ thanks for being here with me. ❜ 

“Please it should be me who’s thank you. Thank you for letting me stay with you through all this. It’s an honor to get to be by your side.” He gently takes her hand in his out of new formed habit. He’s still constantly astounded by her. How real and alive and Chrissy she is. He never really believed in god or anything but now he at least believe in miracles. She was a miracle and he was just blessed to be allowed to stand in her shine.

[cunninghamtm]

“Winnie the Pooh didn’t rock crop tops our whole childhood to watch us become unconfident about our bodies.” from robin lmao

chrissy giggles, a quiet uncontrolled type of sound. sweet like honey. she knows it's meant to cheer her up, which usually it's her job but robin isn't doing a bad job at the moment. "-i mean, you're right. i was totally forgetting about winnie pooh." she nods, going along with the conversation. it was a very well kept secret how chrissy actually felt about herself, her image. it's only after all this time and everything that has happened that she's felt somewhat more confident in sharing her feelings. robin was a great friend. and chrissy couldn't do anything but be happy about it. "-wouldn't want to disappoint him."

she looks down, slightly. bites her bottom lip. "-do you think...you could maybe, and you don't have to, if you are busy, but maybe you can come over and help me pick what to wear? like before the get together." get together. that's how chrissy would self describe it. but it's a party. and it's her first party back. she doesn't plan to drink, or smoke anything. but she would love to feel somewhat normal again.

@scoopstrooptm

[cunninghamtm]

“have you told jason?”

chrissy bites her lip, went from biting her thumb to her lip. and it's a bit uneasy the feeling that takes over. looks at steve. she feels this weight lifted slightly just from telling him. "no..." she starts, because no she hasn't told jason that, she isn't feeling it anymore. she isn't avoiding him, but to be fair she is a bit shaken from everything's that happened. and it clicked in her head. "...if i'm being honest, i..i'm just scared to, there's...there's this feeling that if i do tell him, well, when i tell him it will all be so official. and you know these people steve. i am not sure how many of them are my friends, i'm so going to be the dickhead in this situation and i don't want things to get worse, not when they're just starting to be normal." it's an open heart conversation, sets it there. steve's grown, changed. she doesn't know exactly why or how, but she feels like he knows a bit more about dealing with this. the everything of it all. "-have you ever had to...do this? just make a decision that feels like you're stabbing your life to death?" chrissy realizes then, what she's asking. "-you don't have to answer that, if it's too personal." she adds, because once more chrissy cunningham would die all over again than make steve uncomfortable just because she's worried about stupid high school politics.

@harringtontm

[cunninghamtm]

this day has just taken a massively hell-shat turn.

chrissy pouts slightly. concern takes over her face, as she tries to assess the situation at hand. it seems to be her job to fix things. kinda hard to do at times yet, she endures. she's a cheerleader. time to turn on the cheering. but she doesn't know exactly what eddie is dealing with. "-oh, im sorry." she starts, it's genuine. "i'm sure we can rescue the day. make it take another massive turn, just somewhere better, different direction, a really nice turn." the idea and the metaphor gets out of her hands then, as she finishes her sentences. "-you don't have to tell me what's wrong, we can just plan for something else. either way, i'm on board." there she goes again. chrissy cunningham can't help but be there for others. especially for eddie, after everything. it's a thank you. it's the least she can do.

@munsontm