#+Teh Long Post

[gordon-freeman-phd]

breaking my silence, i have an alien grunt oc, it has a farm post rescas to ground itself as a way to cope with being made to be a weapon and to make up for previously only interacting with the world through violence and cruelty

[screwpinecaprice]

I really don't have time to be bummed out right now so I made them a little sad instead.

[tennessoui]

Writing Patterns (Tag Game)

Rules: list the first line of your last 10 (posted) fics and see if there’s a pattern!

ten seems like a daunting amount i have to say (thanks for the tag @ifonlyweknewwhatiwasdoing!) - the first two are not yet published but are on my publish very very soon list

Obi-Wan understands that the notion is a figment of his imagination, but understanding that does not make it feel less real. (march ko-fi fic)

When the dust settles, Obi-Wan is surprised to find himself still standing. (obi-wan raises baby luke fic - to be published soon)

Skywalker turns to look out the window, a solemn, solitary tear rolling down his cheek as he takes in the sight of the vast, uncaring city-planet of Coruscant. ("the kenobi conundrum")

Anakin’s of the mind that if you’re having a shit day, you should just be allowed to teleport straight back to your bed whenever you like. ("tripping over my words trying to give you my name")

Anakin Skywalker's eyes used to be blue, Obi-Wan remembers that. (Jedi Healer Anakin AU, February Ko-Fi fic)

Anakin wakes to the sound of birdsong and the heavy weight of the cat on his chest. ("forgive the dog its bloody teeth")

Obi-Wan has never seen so much blood. ("hold my heart more gently than you do my throat")

It’s the sound of loud, angry caterwauling coming from somewhere outside Obi-Wan’s door that eventually wakes him up. (Anakitty AU, January Ko-Fi fic)

Strangely, it feels both as if a great weight has been removed from his chest and as if he’s just run several parsecs at the same time: like he can breathe freely for the first time in years, but like he’s incredibly winded, each breath a short gasp. ("a more perfect union")

As cold as the nights on Tatooine can get, it only takes a few hours past the rise of the suns for the planet to heat once more. ("haunt me then")

looks like i like a proper noun right out of the gate lol did the tags not tell you who the fic was gonna be about? no worries the first sentence will

tagging @tideswept @sendpseuds @ragnarlothcat @dark--whisperings @grapenehifics @lilredghost - and anyone else! for as many fics as you like because 10 is so much fr

[thebigqueer]

wait i literally forgot jason died what the fuck

[16th-cornelia-street]

early access valentine's short for wenclair. will post later on Ao3 but read it now on Patreon. (may change title when post on ao3, we'll see)

[wr0ngwarp]

um. uh. hi every body. something evil and malevolent happened in my brain this month.

this is. um. a Jet Set Radio/Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Death joke AU, spawned out of a in-joke that started in a pokepasta discord. my apologies to both the pokepasta and jsr fandoms

the entire basis is the idea that Corn in Future retconned og JSR Beat as leader/founder of the GGs (is beat being leader in the og even CANON?) so Corn and Beat are the Myras. no it's not a joke funny enough to justify how many hours i sunk into drawing these. no attempt was made to change the setting, assign most of the other cast, or otherwise make this au hold up to ANY amount of scrutiny. if i tried to make this actually work somehow then i'd REALLY end up too far gone. also i keep calling myrtle!beat "Meat".

MEANWHILE, IN A BETTER UNIVERSE:,

[nostalgia-tblr]

i'm going to post the last part of the thing today, i almost never get to post parts of anything, this is so exciting, omg.

[go-against-fate]

tged social media au where its still the tged universe but the Internet exists via magic bullshit and lloyd just posts the most absurd things and never elaborate on it. He'll say words and phrases that no one (but him) understand. Would there just be a page dedicated to the things he said and people would try to decipher or find the origin to hopefully figure out the meaning. He said lol lmao a couple of times and there would be scholars trying to figure wtf that meant

And also this is a bit random but. An account thats dedicated to Lloyd, where he is, and what kind of (life changing) project hes currently working on. I feel like they would need that

[taketheringtolohac]

Yo I didn't know you were into les mis!

LOL oh my god. ohhh my god. i just. look. this is a perfectly normal ask to receive and thank you for sending it and you have done nothing wrong but. just me knowing the history of my blog and knowing that i am STILL "the les mis mutual" to SEVERAL of my mutuals that i have had since my musical phase. jesus i feel old. again this isnt a bad thing! but wow really puts things into perspective!

but yes, i am into les mis. one could even say that i have been into les mis for nearly 9 years now. les mis was in all honesty probably my first big fandom (that i posted about on tumblr) and the thing i was KNOWN for for many many years. it was a monumentous occasion when the aa tag on my blog surpassed BOTH les mis tags i used (bc i used both. and for the longest tagged every post meticulously so i could keep track of things- whoopsies!) ive never changed my blog title and i likely never will. i never actually made les mis content but i was there for every moment of peak les mis fandom and can recall it with painstakingly accurate memory. yes. i am into les mis. please talk to me about it 😭

[elegyofthemoon]

silly thing but im so happy that i survived 3/6 days of work and the 3 nights of night shifts so now i get to go home at like 5 pm instead of 1 am :'D

hopefully ill get to do some writing for the evening and fix my sleep uvu

[grapecaseschoices]

these are the dialogues i was gonna add @thee-morrigan

three ... I guess memories of therapy sessions and one interaction.

1] It wasn’t fair to blame Ben. Or their therapist. It wasn’t their fault, or even Alaric’s or Teletubbies’s. It was just that someone needed blaming. And Kendis wasn’t going to blame themselves. (“Have you ever considered that, maybe, probably, you have issues with vulnerability? “What?” “I know! You!” “Now you’re mocking me.” “A bit.” “You’re a dick.” “At times.”)

2] ("That’s not normal right?” “That’s not not normal.” “God! Are you laughing at me –” “No. I am laughing at poor Donald, however. Why do you think you continue seeing him when you’ve told me repeatedly that he’s an obnoxious chad?” “Well. He’s got a really big and long –” “Kendis.” “Staircase, which means excellent banisters.” “I’m sure it does. Is there anything else you find appealing about Donald?” “Ha! No. The only thing that man’s got goin’ for him ‘sides for his dick, is his sense of humor an’ the fact that he’s a good dad. Weirdly. A good dog an’ human dog. Who would’ve thunk someone that egotistical coulda had that goin’ for him.” “Certainly not you.” “Fuck, I wish you’d talk straight.” “You wish I’d give you the answers to my questions? To your questions?” “Yes. No! Shut up.” “Think about it.”)

3] (”So. She – punched you? “I think the important thing to realize is that she’s in jail.” “Goodness gracious, Kendis. And – Have you .. I feel I know the answer to this. But have you spoken to anyone about –” “I’m speakin’ to you aren’t I.” “Kendisssss! Mx. Crawford-Louel. How many secrets do you keep from your loved ones for their supposed own good? I’m sorry, let me rephrase that.” “ … fine.” “Do you keep these secrets to protect them or do you keep them because you believe, somehow, they’d find a way to devalue you? That they’ll believe your impulsiveness, that your “troubles” are too much to deal with?” “........................... can it be both?” “Y-yes. Yes, it can be both.”)

And the aforementioned Donald:

Kendis glared up at him, “Don’t play with me, Donald. I don’t like it when people think they can tell me how I feel,” They continued, “an’ I don’t like it when people don’t respect my boundaries. Now back off.”

“We’ve been dating for three weeks.”

“We’ve been fuckin’ for three weeks. Now back off.”

“Why did you let everyone think we’re dating?”

“I -!! One time. To help you –”

“Because you care about me!”

“This is why I don’t step in for people. Next time Ima let a bitch get roofied.”

“Kendis! You don’t mean that.”

[pbaintthetb]

For the author ask, your BTS commentary of your fav scene of Pour Some Memory Down :)

oooh an exciting one (and dangerous asking me for a commentary) It's the second (first full) scene of Jiang Cheng and Nie Huaisang on the pier. There were a few options but there's a lot of stuff inthis bit that I liked and also them on the pier is the core and inspo for this fic

Cut for length

Nie Huaisang is still floating calmly in the lake, his words about the Xuanwu rolling through Jiang Cheng’s head.

The Xuanwu! Simply put Nie Huaisang is a lying liar who lies- and more importantly it's about how Jiang Cheng doesn't pick up on it because his mind is sort of always stuck on Nie Huaisang being weaker or needing help. He's never considered how, if huaisang cana't swim, he got out of that cave. And he's starting to question that now- although there's a later paragraph where JC shows how he's trying to not think about that and how it means nhs is a liar. I tend to write JC as putting nhs on a pedestal while simultaneously having infinite gripes with him. THey're complicated boys.

Jiang Cheng is still standing on the pier, the rain is pelting but the worst of the storm is yet to come. The dry riverbed gasping it in, unaware-

Continuining as is the case with this whole fic, JC's mental/headspace is abysmal, like words cannot. Also lots of pathetic fallacy. It's kind of meant to be a metaphor for jc's trauma, I guess. It's bad and he's soaking the pain in and moping in it- but he's got a whole week of this and it's gonna get worse. Just like the riverbed- and JC doesn't want to think about that either

The ground surrounding the pier is wet and seems less like ash, the river a gaping mouth trying to swallow it up

Ash and burning vs wetness and rain were the two big things about this fic. Again, I'm a basic cheap ass bitch, pathetic fallacy. They're fighting each other just like Jiang Cheng's thoughts! The rain extinguishes the fire and washes away the ash! but it's dangerous and damaging in its own way. You have to be careful with it. They complement each other, just like sangcheng.

“Last time you were the one in the water and I was the one sitting on the edge of the lake.” A pause. “Different bit of lake I guess.” “It’s the same bit of lake.” 

This is probably one of my favourite exchanges in the whole fic tbh. Different but the same, many years and many changes but still them, maybe in some ways unrecognisable, but still them. There is also something in here about how JC is trying to cling to good things that have changed from him and while he feels like he needs it, it's not good for him. Jiang Cheng in his jc way, is trying to say a lot more to nhs than it just being the same bit of lake. NHS is unfortunatley not a mind reader, although today he really is trying. He's starting to realise that maybe JC is just of big a liar as NHS himself is, just in different ways.

For jc's part he's saying, we can be those carefree kids again, right? we can? Nothing has changed, right? We're still us, right? and he knows it's not but he wants it to be.

Then, Nie Huaisang’s eyes are so very, very close to Jiang Cheng’s own, staring at him unblinkingly. Water streams down his face, dripping off his nose- and it’s raining right now, sure, but Huaisang’s mouth looks so very wet and-

The first kiss fake out! I think this is actually the only one I intended to be a fake out, all the other ones were times I wanted them to kiss but decided it felt weird to have them have a big sloppy while one of them was like... dissassociating, or crying, or hitting the other

Also, Huaisang totes knows what he's going

“-did you want me to die? Did you want us to die? Did you want yourself to die?”

Jiang Cheng starting to realise that NHS might not be so alright- and JC starting to really properly break out of his fog. This is actually partly why nhs drags jc into the river he's starting to realise jc worries about him so he's, very very poorly, trying to get jc more in the moment but making him fuss about him. For his part, JC is doing his usual "break your legs bluster" but as he goes on he starts to wonder and worry about what NHS was doing

Some of the anger begins to turn to fear as his words catch up with him, but it’s still unbelievably, wonderfully, unbearably sharp . Had that been what Huai-

as I was saying above, the strategy might be sus, but NHS sort of flics JC out of his introspection and back into the now- and JC evens start to wonder if that's what NHS was doing before he gets distracted by nhs again and also his complte denial and inability to consider nhs outside his framework of the "weaker one" at this point in the story- until yanno, he starts wondering how come nhs copes with grief better (debateable) and if that makes nhs stronger

“I said that [killing JC/NHS} that would kind of defeat the whole point,” the other sect leader mutters, like a petulant child. (And Jiang Cheng knows some.)

Jin Ling is the petulant child. But yes, some more light on NHS' agenda! To make sure JC doesn't accidentally drown himself in his own grief, to help JC with the worst week of his life by distracting him- a tactic that uh, JC maybe doesn't appreciate but that's the fic. JC, of course, has no idea what NHS is talking about and just tries to ignore it. Also this is NHS so even when he's talking about pretty serious things (his fear that JC is heading towards his own destructive spiral leading to his grave) he's gotta be a little brat about it. Can't show real genuine emotion, let alone care, ot Jiang Cheng eh?

IDk I felt it was very them, they're both allergic to letting each other they care about the other becuase of the gulf between them, and the history, and the current circumstances of their life, and their own personal traumas. But they care, they do.

Oh also, if I'm talking about it, while NHS is somewhat concerned about JC being possibly suicidal he IS mostly being facetious- it's like, JC has dealt with this awful week for several years and he's still kicking. NHS is more worried that it's not sustainable and has also realised that maybe it's not fair that JC always has to deal with it alone. JC does not (in his own internal thoughst at least) consider himself suicidal or wanting to die. He just... isn't entirely emotionally connected to the phsycial plane at this point in time. Lastly something to note that never really comes up because NHS doesn't notice and JC doesn't say but um admittedly to an extent nHS being here has made jC worse- which is why nhs has weird fluctuating concern. JC can't completely disconnect in a way that he typically woud (Unhealthy coping behaviour all the same) because he needs to entertain/interact with Huaisang. This means that JC actually has to deal with all his emotions in this week for once (not that he does that either, all the cut off thoughts) as opposed to competely checking out for a week and coming back to himself surrounded by alcohol ocassionally

[todayisafridaynight]

god WILL you just be able to wail on bosses as kiryu in LAD8 ??????

[flashhwing]

hate how loose my usb ports in my old laptop are so if i jostle my external harddrive slightly it'll disconnect and my game will start glitching in the middle of talking to wynne so she just keeps repeating the same sentence about ostagar no matter what dialogue option i choose and it takes ten more minutes to find my way out of the conversation and then it can't save so i'll have to do it all over again anyway

[3416]

can people on twitter stop blasting the booktok drama like. this really feels neverending and also stupid and also anyone that would want to directly say anything they think/feel/type online to the ppl they obsess over are already unhinged and unserious individuals.