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jaysng · 21 hours ago
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post arguement — yang jungown
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PAIRING. husband!jungwon, preg!wife!reader
GENRE. angst, fluff
WORD CNT. 695
NOTE. sorry i haven’t been posting and haven’t replied to anyone in a while, life has been tough and i hope you understand. also been messing with the themes lately. don’t know what looks good. trying.
you woke up in bed, warmth enveloping you in a way that felt both familiar and surprising. your eyes opened slowly, adjusting to the soft blur of the room. the last thing you remembered was curling up on the couch, raw from the argument with jungwon.
the silence of that moment had been heavy, charged with words that couldn’t be unsaid. you had fallen asleep with tear-streaked cheeks and the ache of his voice replaying in your head, cutting deeper each time.
but now, here you were, back in your shared bed. your fingers brushed the comforter, trying to piece together how you’d gotten there. a slight shift behind you made your heart stutter; jungwon was close, his arm resting lightly around your waist, cautious.
his breath was warm against your back, slow but uneven, as if he’d been awake for a while.
the faint nausea that lingered in the mornings pulled at you, a reminder that this moment wasn’t just yours. the baby growing inside you made everything sharper, more fragile.
last night’s argument had felt even more painful because of it, and the guilt weighed heavily on you now.
jungwon’s arm tightened slightly, and you felt him press his forehead gently against your shoulder. the quiet stretched on, the tension humming between you like a current. he took a shaky breath, breaking the silence.
“i’m sorry,” he said, voice rough, almost breaking. it caught you off-guard; jungwon was rarely this raw, this unguarded. “i shouldn’t have let you sleep out there. i shouldn’t have said anything that made you feel like you had to.”
the sincerity, the guilt in his tone, cracked something open inside you. you didn’t turn to face him, not yet. it felt safer to speak without looking into his eyes. “i shouldn’t have said what i did either,” you whispered, the lump in your throat making it hard to speak. “but it hurt, jungwon.”
his hand moved from your waist to rest on your arm, tentative, as if afraid you’d pull away. “i know,” he admitted, his voice so quiet it almost disappeared. “i was so caught up in being right, in feeling frustrated… i didn’t think about you. about us.”
you felt his breath hitch, and it only deepened the ache in your chest. “and when i saw you on the couch, curled up like that… it felt like everything shattered.”
you finally turned, shifting to face him. jungwon’s eyes were red-rimmed, guilt swimming in their depths. you could see how much he’d carried through the night, how it weighed on him now. “did you stay up?” you asked, noticing the exhaustion etched across his features.
he nodded, a rueful smile touching his lips for a fleeting moment. “i couldn’t sleep. i kept thinking about how wrong it was, having you out there. and with the baby… i couldn’t let it stay that way.”
your eyes filled with tears, and you blinked them back, not wanting to let the moment spiral into more sadness. “thank you for bringing me back,” you said softly, fingers brushing against his. “i didn’t realize…”
“you shouldn’t have had to,” he said, voice steadying but still thick with emotion. “you’re my everything. both of you are.” he hesitated, eyes searching yours as if he needed to find a sign of forgiveness. “i know saying sorry isn’t enough. but i need you to know that i’m here. i’m here, and i’ll be better.”
the sincerity in his voice, the guilt that laced every word, made your heart clench. you reached for his hand, intertwining your fingers. “i know,” you whispered, feeling the first hint of relief loosen the knot in your chest. “we’ll figure it out. together.”
jungwon’s eyes softened, and he exhaled, as if releasing a breath he’d been holding all night. he leaned in, pressing a kiss to your forehead, the touch warm and reassuring. “together,” he echoed, the word carrying a promise that filled the space between you with something tender, something healing.
it wasn’t perfect, and maybe it wouldn’t be for a while. but as he pulled you closer, careful and loving, you felt that for now, it was enough.
do not copy or repost — @/jaysng
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eu-nicola · 2 days ago
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worse than silence
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summary: Rafe and you maintain a secret relationship, but one day JJ discovers the truth and things get complicated
warnings: angst maybe
word counter: 3537
author's note: english is not my first language
tag: @tracymbcm
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It was on nights like these that everything seemed easier and at the same time unbearably difficult. You were sitting on a cliff, hugging your legs as you looked out at the horizon. You had arrived early, as always. Rafe had told you he would come, but you knew that lately his promises were as fragile as glass.
The sound of staggering footsteps behind you brought you out of your thoughts. You turned your head and there he was, with his shirt wrinkled, his eyes sunken and an air of exhaustion that broke your soul.
“You arrived,” you said softly, although the lump in your throat threatened to betray you.
Rafe dropped down next to you, not looking at you. He ran his hands through his hair and exhaled loudly. He smelled of alcohol, of a lost night, of smoke and chaos. Your heart contracted. You had lost count of how many times you had witnessed that version of him: broken, self-destructive, and yet still trying to maintain an emotional distance that hurt you more than any words.
“I don’t know why you keep doing this,” he murmured at last, his voice cracking. “You shouldn’t be here.”
You stared at him intently, searching his eyes for something, anything to tell you there was still hope. But all you found was a haunting emptiness.
“I’m here because I love you, Rafe. Because I can’t watch you destroy yourself like this.”
He laughed bitterly, but the laughter faded quickly, leaving him only the weight of guilt.
“You don’t know what you’re saying. I don’t want to drag you down with me.”
“I don’t care, Rafe. I want to help you, but you have to let me in. You have to stop pushing me away.”
For a moment, his eyes seemed to soften. But like a blink, the hardness returned.
“You don’t understand, you’ll never understand. This… this isn’t fixed with love or pretty words. It’s bigger than that, bigger than us.”
You felt torn apart. He wanted you to leave him, but every fiber of your being refused. He wanted to protect you, but he didn’t realize that the distance hurt more than any hell he could drag you into.
The silence stretched on until he stood up abruptly, his hands shaking.
“This is a mistake,” he muttered, almost to himself, as he began to walk away.
“Is that all?” you yelled at him, standing up with your heart racing. “Are you going to keep running away? From me? From yourself?”
Rafe stopped, but didn’t turn around. He just shook his head before disappearing into the darkness. The cold of the night embraced you as tears fell freely down your face.
The next day, the tension in the air was palpable. JJ was in a bad mood, as he usually was lately. You had tried to avoid him since you got home that morning, but you knew you couldn't hide forever.
You were in the kitchen when you heard him walk in, slamming his backpack down on the table with force.
“Where were you last night?” he asked immediately, not even bothering to soften his tone.
“None of your business, JJ,” you replied, trying to remain calm as you washed the dishes. But you knew your brother wasn’t one to let things go.
“Oh no? Because I happened to see something very interesting last night,” he said, moving dangerously closer. “I saw you with him.”
The plate you were holding nearly dropped. You froze, unable to come up with an answer.
“How long? How long have you been seeing that piece of trash?” he snapped, his voice filled with disbelief and fury.
“JJ, it’s not what you think…” you tried to explain, but he cut you off immediately.
“It’s not what I think?!” he yelled, slamming the table. “Rafe Cameron.” How could you? After everything he’s done to us, after everything he’s done to this family!
“It’s not that simple!” you shouted back, feeling rage mix with despair. “You don’t understand what he’s going through. I… I love him, JJ.”
That confession seemed to hit him harder than anything else. He stood still, as if the words had paralyzed him.
“You love him?” you whispered, incredulous. “Do you really think someone like him can change? That he won’t break you like he’s done to everyone else?”
“He’s trying…” but your voice cracked. Not even you were sure of that at the moment.
JJ shook his head, his eyes filled with disappointment.
“I thought we could trust each other. But this… this is a betrayal. I can’t believe you lied to me all this time.”
You felt like the ground beneath your feet had fallen apart. You wanted to reach out to him, to explain, to beg him to understand. But JJ took a step back, his gaze colder than ever. 
“I hope it’s worth it,” he said before walking out of the house, leaving you alone in devastating silence. 
Guilt and anguish clung to you like an unbearable weight. For the first time, you wondered if you could really go through with all of this. Rafe was falling apart, and now, you were losing your brother, too. 
The next few days were a silent hell. You tried to talk to JJ more times than you could count, but every time you reached out, he ignored you completely. It was like you had ceased to exist for him. The first time you tried to stop him, you were faced with a wall of ice.
“JJ, please, just listen to me,” you said, blocking his way at the door.
He didn’t even look at you. With a sharp movement, he pushed you aside and walked out without saying a word. That gesture, cold and distant, hurt more than you had imagined.
And it wasn’t just JJ. The worst came when the rest of the group found out.
One afternoon, you were at the beach bar where everyone used to meet. You had arrived hoping that, at least there, you could find a way to repair what had been broken. However, when you entered, you felt the air become heavy. Kiara, Pope, and John B were sitting around a table, talking in low voices. Upon seeing you, the conversations immediately ceased, and their gazes were fixed on you with a mixture of disbelief and disappointment.
“Really?” Kiara was the first to speak, her tone full of reproach. “Rafe? How could you?”
You felt trapped, like you were being judged with no chance to defend yourself.
“Kie, you don’t understand…” you tried to explain, but Pope interrupted you.
“What’s there to understand?” he said bitterly. “That guy has done everything to ruin us. He’s beaten us, tried to bring us down more times than I can count. And you…? Are you with him?”
John B didn’t say anything at first, but the tension in his jaw was evident. Finally, he spoke, his voice calmer but no less laden with disappointment.
“We knew you were hiding something. But this…” he shook his head. “I never thought you’d betray us like this.”
The word “betrayal” hit like a punch. You felt tears forming in your eyes, but you refused to let them fall in front of them.
“It’s not what they think,” you said, even though you knew your words rang hollow. “Rafe… he’s not perfect, I know.” But he’s going through something, and I… I just want to help him.
Kiara laughed humorlessly, crossing her arms.
“Help him? Do you really think you can save someone like him? Rafe doesn’t need your help. What he needs is to stop butting into our lives.”
“This is between Rafe and me,” you replied, trying to remain calm. “It has nothing to do with you.”
“Nothing to do with us?” Pope raised his voice, clearly frustrated. “It has everything to do with us. He’s hurt us time and time again, and you… you chose to be on his side.”
The silence that followed was overwhelming. You felt like everything you’d built with them was crumbling at that moment. You tried to look at JJ, searching for a trace of understanding, but he was standing in the corner, arms crossed and staring at the floor, not even deigning to look at you.
“JJ…” you said softly, almost pleading.
But he turned and walked out of the place without saying a word. It was like every step he took took a piece of your heart with him.
That night, the loneliness was unbearable. You locked yourself in your room, feeling small, broken. Guilt and anguish consumed you, and the silence grew heavier with each passing minute. You had lost your brother, your friends. And even though you loved Rafe, you couldn’t ignore that being with him was costing you everything.
Hours later, you received a text. It was from Rafe.
“I’m sorry. I know this is my fault.”
You stared at the text for several minutes, not knowing what to answer. Was it his fault? Or was it yours for letting yourself get dragged here? You had no answers, only a void that seemed to grow with each second.
Finally, you turned off your phone and sank into bed. The tears you had held back all day began to fall silently. You didn't know how much more you could take.
Your friends had been your refuge, your family, but now, with them away, you felt like a foreigner in your own world. Every time you locked eyes with JJ or the others, you felt the weight of their judgment. You tried to ignore it, to focus on the only thing that kept you afloat: Rafe. However, even he seemed more distant, as if the current of his own demons was dragging him further away from you.
It had been days since you last saw him, and desperation was beginning to settle in your chest. Finally, when you couldn't take it anymore, you made the decision to look for him at his house. You knew it was a risk, that if they saw you there it would only make things worse with your friends, but you didn't care. You needed to see him. You needed to know that you weren't completely alone.
When you arrived, the Cameron mansion was completely silent. You knocked loudly on the door, hoping someone would answer, but there was no answer. So, you made your way to the side of the house, where you knew you could climb up to his window. It was something you had done before, on those nights where the world seemed to belong only to the two of you.
You peeked over the edge and saw him. Rafe was sitting on the floor of his room, his back against the bed, a half-empty bottle in one hand and his gaze lost on the wall. His messy hair fell over his forehead, and his expression was that of someone who had been fighting his own thoughts and losing the battle.
“Rafe…” you whispered, stepping in carefully.
He looked up slowly, his eyes red and filled with a pain you recognized all too well. For a moment, he seemed relieved to see you, but that glint quickly faded.
“What are you doing here?” he asked, his voice hoarse and heavy with exhaustion.
“I couldn’t be alone,” you admitted, moving closer to him. You sat down next to him, trying to ignore the smell of alcohol and the feeling that something was falling apart between you.
Rafe let out a bitter laugh.
“Alone? I thought I was the reason you were left without anyone.”
His words were a dart straight to your heart, but you didn’t back down.
“I don’t care. I don’t care if I’m alone as long as I have you.”
He shook his head, as if he couldn’t understand what you were saying.
“You shouldn’t be here. You shouldn’t want this, want me. I’m a mess. I’m screwed. Don’t you see that?”
“I see it, Rafe. But I also know that you can get out of this. You don’t have to do it alone.”
“What if I don’t want to get out?” His voice cracked, his eyes searching yours desperately. “What if this is the only thing I know how to do?”
Your heart broke a little more.
“Then I’ll stay with you until you want me. But don’t push me away, please.”
Rafe let his head fall back against the bed, squeezing his eyes shut. For a moment, silence was the only thing between you, but then he spoke, his voice barely a whisper.
“Sometimes I think it would be better if I let myself sink completely. If I just… disappeared.”
The rawness of his words took your breath away. You gripped his hand tightly, forcing him to look at you.
“Don’t say that. You can’t say that.”
“Why not?” he replied, his eyes filling with tears. “Look what I’m doing to you. You’re losing everything because of me.”
You shook your head, clinging to him as if by doing so you could keep him from falling apart completely.
“Rafe, I chose this. I chose you. I know it’s hard, but you have to believe me when I say that I don’t care what anyone else thinks. All I want is for us to be together.”
“And that’s the problem,” he whispered, looking away. “Being with me is only going to destroy you.”
You tried to respond, but he let go of your hand and staggered to his feet. He walked over to the window, looking outside as if searching for a way out that didn’t exist.
“Maybe it’s best that this ends here,” he finally said, his voice laced with heartbreaking sadness.
You stood up quickly, your chest tight with fear.
“What? You mean…?”
Rafe turned to you, his eyes filled with pain.
“I can’t keep doing this. I love you, but I can’t drag you down with me anymore.”
“Rafe, no…” your voice cracked as you moved closer to him, your hands shaking. “You can’t do this. You can’t push me away.”
He closed his eyes, fighting the emotions that consumed him.
“I’m doing this because I love you,” he finally said, and those words were like a dagger.
Tears began to fall freely down your face. You tried to cling to him once more, but this time, Rafe backed away.
“Please go away,” he whispered, not looking at you.
The weight of his words fell on you like a stone. You couldn't believe what was happening, you didn't want to accept it. But the determination in his voice left you with no options.
Heartbroken, you took a step back. Every fiber of your being wanted to stay, to fight, but you knew he was in too dark a place for you to reach him at that moment.
Finally, you turned and walked out the same window you had entered through, feeling like you were leaving a part of yourself behind. When you hit the ground, a cold breeze greeted you, as if the world knew you had lost something irreplaceable.
As you walked back home, the pain and despair fully set in. You had lost so much, and now, even Rafe seemed out of your reach.
The days that followed were an endless emptiness. Loneliness was a weight you felt even in the air, in every corner of the house, in every silence that stretched like a lingering shadow. You woke up every morning with a knot in your chest, the kind of weight that reminded you, even before you opened your eyes, that you were alone.
Your brother, he made no effort to hide his contempt. Every time you crossed paths with him, his cold gaze was a reminder that, to him, you had betrayed everything that it meant to be family. You tried several times to get closer, to talk to him, but your attempts always met with a wall of silence or curt responses.
“JJ, please, we can’t go on like this,” you begged one night, finding him in the kitchen as he poured a glass of water.
He didn’t even deign to look at you.
“I have nothing to say to you.”
“Nothing? After all?” Your voice trembled, the weight of his indifference tearing at you.
Finally, JJ turned to you, his gaze filled with a mix of anger and pain.
“After all, you chose Rafe. That says it all.”
The glass in his hand shook slightly before he set it down on the counter with a thud. He walked away without waiting for an answer, leaving you alone in the darkness.
Your friends were no more understanding, either. Every time you saw them around the island, their gazes avoided yours, as if you were someone they no longer recognized. You had lost their trust, and it seemed like there was no way to get it back.
You tried to approach Kiara one afternoon. She was on the beach with John B and Pope, laughing at something one of them had said. Seeing you, the smiles faded, and the atmosphere instantly tensed.
“Kie, can we talk?” you asked cautiously, keeping your distance.
She crossed her arms and looked at you coldly.
“I have nothing to say to you.”
“Please, just a minute…”
Kiara sighed, her expression hardening.
“For what? For you to tell me that all of this is worth it because you “love Rafe”? I don’t want to hear it.”
“It’s not like that…” you tried to explain, but she cut you off.
“Yes, it is. You chose him, knowing everything he’s done to us. How do you expect us to trust you after that?”
The words hit hard, and although you wanted to defend yourself, you knew it was pointless. You had let them down, and there was no apology that could fix it at that moment.
You turned and walked away, feeling the tears burn in your eyes as their voices faded behind you. Every step you took through the sand seemed to sink you deeper into a pit of despair.
Rafe didn't make things any easier either. Even though you knew he loved you, his actions didn't match his feelings. After that night at his house, he had been the one who started to put more distance between you. His messages became scarce, and the times you did manage to see him, he seemed like a man torn between his desire to have you close and his conviction that it was better for you to walk away.
One afternoon, you found him on the beach, sitting alone on a rock, staring at the horizon. You slowly approached, afraid he would reject you again. Sensing your presence, Rafe turned his head. For a moment, his eyes softened at the sight of you, but he soon hardened his expression again.
“I told you that you shouldn’t be here,” he said quietly, though there was no real conviction in his words.
You sat down beside him without asking permission, your heart pounding.
“I can’t keep ignoring you, Rafe. I can’t keep pretending that I don’t care about you.”
He sighed, running a hand through his messy hair.
“It’s not fair to you. All of this… it’s not what you deserve.”
“Let me decide that,” you replied firmly, trying to meet his gaze. “I don’t want to be without you, even if it means carrying all of this weight.”
Rafe finally looked at you, and in his eyes you saw a sea of ​​emotions: love, guilt, and a desperation that mirrored your own.
“I’m ruining you,” he whispered, as if he was finally admitting his worst fear.
You shook your head, your shaking hands searching for him.
“No, Rafe. It ruins me more to be without you.”
He closed his eyes, fighting back tears. For a moment, it looked like he was going to give in, that he was going to let you stay. But then, in a broken voice, he murmured,
“I can’t do this to you.”
He abruptly stood up and began to walk away, leaving you alone once again. You stood there, watching his figure disappear into the distance, the sound of the sea mixing with the sobs you could no longer hold back.
The nights grew longer, and the pain became a constant. You lay awake for hours, wondering if things could have been different, if there was any way to get your brother, your friends, and Rafe back. But every time you closed your eyes, the only answer you found was the weight of loneliness that continued to grow inside you.
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rafeswhre · 1 day ago
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Hi 🙃 could you maybe write a fanfic where rafe gets hurts and reader is patching him up and there’s lots of tension because he’s so stubborn? Thank you 🤗
rafe cameron x fem!reader
warnings: suggestive content but not smut (almost lol), mentions of blood, established relationship!
a/n: english isn’t my first language i’m sorry for any mistakes (specially verbs lmao)
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currently it was 1:00 am, lately you couldn’t sleep, so watching your phone in you bed was pretty much the best you could do.
you heard something on your window, which was strange, you turned around to find something but you couldn’t find anything.
again.
and again.
you kinda freaked out so you get up from your bed and slowly walk to your window.
again.
“oh my god” you gasped once you approached the window, then you opened. “are you insane, rafe?” you looked down.
“are you gonna let me in or..?”
“it’s past midnight, rafe!” you moved from your window so he could climb.
he entered your room with a small smile on his face. suddenly you realize that something was wrong.
“what’s on your face?” you got closer to him.
“what? nothing.” he pulled away.
you frowned and you walked to turn on the light in your room, you turned around to look at him.
“oh god, rafe!” you gasped once you watched his face with a cut in his eyebrow and his cheek with a bruise. “what the hell happened to you?”
“it’s nothing, i’m alright.” he sat on your bed.
“rafe, you’re bleeding.” you said in a serious tone.
he touched his eyebrow, looking down at his hand to see his fingers had the tiniest bit of blood on them. “oh...is it really?"
“what is wrong with you?” you frowned.
he rolled his eyes. “nothing is wrong with me...I'm fine. I just got into a fight, you don't have to act like it's a huge deal."
“of course, rafe.” you rolled your eyes and walked to your bathroom, trying to find your medicine kit.
“hey, i’m alright, i can handle it.”
you didn't say anything, you just sighed and kept looking through your things.
“you don’t have to worry, alright? i’ll be fine, i didn’t come here for you to patch me up like a damn puppy.”
“rafe?” you called him out.
“yeah..?” he lifted up his eyebrows.
“shut up.”
he was a bit caught off guard by your sudden tone, but he shut up and went silent like you told him to, not without a sigh and rolling his eyes of course.
in silence, you walked to your bed with everything you needed then you sit in his lap for more access to his face.
his eyes widened as you sat on his lap, his heart rate increasing a bit from being so close to you.
“it’s nothing necessary, i swear-“ he was interrupted by the burning of the alcohol in his eyebrow. “oh, fuck-“ he flinches a bit and winces from the pain of the alcohol on his wound, instinctively putting a hand on your waist as you do so.
“i’m sorry.” you said sadly.
he looked up at you as you apologized, his hand gently gripping your side “it's fine.. just hurts a little, that's all.."
“well, it wouldn’t if you didn’t get into a fight.” you threatened him.
he huffed and looked down, knowing there was no denying that. "it's not like I can help it whenever some guy decides to run his fucking mouth, it's not my fault I act on impulse.."
“it is your fault, rafe.”
“well he shouldn’t have started it.”
you rolled your eyes. “it doesn’t matter, you don’t follow their stupid behavior.”
he looked to other side, pretending he didn’t hear you.
“it doesn’t matter what someone decides to say or do, you’re better than that.” you looked at him. “rafe, baby, i don’t want you to get hurt.”
“i know.” he looked down.
“hey, just promise me you won’t get.. you know.. physical.”
“alright.” he agreed with a small side smile.
you finished curing him, you took his face and gave him a little kiss on his cheek.
“was that supposed to be a reward for me agreeing or something..?" a hint of a smile at his lips.
you giggled at his comment. “no, i just felt like it.”
he smiled a bit at your giggle, he always liked the sound of that. he tilted his head, looking at you for a moment before speaking. “you can always feel free to kiss more than my cheek, y'know.”
“i know.” you giggled again and hide in his neck, cuddling in his lap.
his arms wrapping around you and his chin resting gently on top of your head. his hands gently traced over your back as he spoke again, a calm and quiet tone to his voice now. “someone's awfully clingy today.."
you stepped back moving away from his neck, still wrapping your hands around his neck. “oh, I'm sorry to bother you.” you rolled your eyes.
“i never said it was bothering me, I actually don't mind how close you're being right now" he pulled your hips a bit closer to him, now flush against him.
“hey.. don’t do that.” you jumped a little because of the sudden proximity.
“why not?” he pulled your hips closer again, more firmly this time.
“my parents are home.” you pout.
“oh, right, your parents are home, what a shame.” he said with a sarcastic tone.
“rafe, i mean it.” you smiled.
“i know.” he chuckled faintly, clearly enjoying this, he acted as if he was going to loosen his grip, but instead, he pulled your hips against him more, bringing you right up against his chest before speaking again. “but you still haven't actually stopped me, y'know"
you giggled. “i know.”
he moved his hands up from your hips to your waist, his hands resting there now. “good, so I don't have to stop, right?"
you sigh at the feeling of your hips together. “i don’t know, babe.”
he took note of how you seemed to relax slightly as you were against him, his hands on your waist rubbing gently over your skin now. his tone low as he spoke. “you know, we can still be quiet, right?”
“if my parents know that you’re here they’re gonna kill me.”
he pulled your hair away from your neck to have more access to it. “maybe you just have to keep quiet then, huh? think you can be quiet for me?” he kissed your neck.
“i’ll try.”
he smirked and started sucking softly on a spot of your neck, his hands gently rubbing down your waist and sides in a slow, soft motion.
he pulled your hips flush with his again, now having you pretty much straddling him, his hips gently rolling as he continued sucking on your neck.
“could you touch me?” you sighed.
he continued sucking on your neck for a few more seconds before slowly pulling back, his lips now hovering by your ear as he spoke in a low tone, his hands still rubbing at your sides. “touch you where, baby?"
“rafe, baby, come on.” you said frustrated.
he chuckled again faintly, enjoying how desperate you were getting. he kept his face by your ear, his hands still rubbing you gently, his voice still low and cocky as he spoke. “mmm, you need to use your words, baby... I need to know exactly what you want me to touch"
“you know where..” you were cut off by a knock on your door.
he chuckled again as you spoke before the sharp knock at the door startled both of you. He paused his hands for a minute, a silent dread of being caught hitting him as he whispered low to you. “fuck, that better not be your parents."
“who else would it be, rafe?” you frown at him.
“yeah okay, my bad” he rolled his eyes. “what do i do?”
“sshh” you silent him, the door knocked again. “hey baby are you alright?” your mom said.
both of your eyes widened as you heard your mother's voice.
“oh- yes, mom!”
"Are you sure you’re alright sweetie, I heard some noises.. What are you doing in there?"
“i’m- watching a movie.”
"Honey, you sure you’re okay… Why can’t I come in?” your mom was trying to open the door.
“oh my god, oh my god, rafe! get under the bed, now!” your were about to lose your mind.
he sighed, knowing he had no other choice here and there was nowhere else to hide. he gently pushed you off of him, crawling to the side of the bed, trying to duck under there. “okay, okay, i’m going, i’m going..”
“i’m sorry mom! im coming!” you stand up and open the door. “sooo, what’s wrong, mom?” you smile softly trying to keep calm.
your mom responded, her tone still suspicious sounding. “you were so reluctant to let me in before, it sounded like you were doing something you didn’t want me to see."
“pfff come on, mom! what would i be doing?”
“i’m gonna check your room, okay? let me in.”
“do you really think is necessary? come on.” you heard your dad calling from their room. “see mom? even dad wants you there! go to bed, i promise you im fine”
your mom let out a soft sigh, clearly not wanting to stop her search, but being called by your father.
“alright, alright, fine… I’ll call it a night, sweetie, but, I want no funny business in here, alright?”
your laughed. “alright mom, night!” you sighed and locked your door.
he heard the footsteps fade down the hall and the soft click of the door closing. he let out a soft sigh of relief, crawling back out from underneath the bed, stretching and standing up straight again.
“oh my god, rafe.” you left out air with a laugh.
he chuckled as she breathed out, finding it amusing how close a call that just was. “that was a close one, baby, but you were convincing, I’ll give you that..”
“oh god, i almost passed out.” you collapsed in your bed.
you laughed and sit in your bed. “baby, you gotta go.”
he laughed at your response, knowing he should leave right now. “alright, I should probably go before I get caught leaving… but you looked so damn cute tonight…”
you get up from your bed and wrapped your arms around his neck. “i love you.”
he smiled, wrapping his arms around your body, pulling you closer to him, his tone soft as he spoke. “i love you too, baby… I’ll see you tomorrow, alright?”
“alright, be safe.” you gave him a kiss.
he chuckled faintly, kissing you back. “i will, baby… you get some sleep, alright? You seem pretty worn out..”
“okay, rafe, get ooout!” you laughed.
“alright, I’m going, I’m going..” he slowly untangled himself from your arms, giving you one last quick kiss on your lips before heading to the window.
you smiled after he left, and you let yourself fall into your bed with a sigh.
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justwonder113 · 2 days ago
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Sharing a bed with Changbin
Chan; Lee Know ; Changbin; Hyunjin; Han; Felix; Seungmin; IN;
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Summary: What happens when Changbin comes to pick you up after a night out with your friends.
Warning: Chaos just pure Chaos. Cursing as always; Reader is a female; Both reader and Changbin are dummies. Literally idiots in love; Mentions of drinking, reader is a bit tipsy at the start. mentions of kissing. NOT PROOFREAD. Please tell me if I miss anything.
A/N- Heya babies I'm back! I really hope you'll like this, I really had fun writing this so I hope you will enjoy it. If you have any request of just thoughts to share please feel free to do so. Also if you want to be added to the taglist either comment or massage or even send an ask.
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Sometimes drinking alcohol and getting drunk with your best friends was all that you needed to unwind after a hard week of working your ass off. However, as much as you loved feeling this light, carefree, relaxed and let’s just simply say euphoric, alcohol intake also had its cons. For example, this lightness and relaxation came with the price of being unable to stand straight on your legs and your crush looking way more yummy than usual.
You weren’t really planning to go out. After a day you had at work all you felt like was to go home, take a warm bath and snuggle in bed with some good movie playing on the background. Your best friend came up with the idea to go clubbing and getting some overpriced but tasty drinks. You were reluctant at first but after thinking things over you decided to go. And it was great! You had time of your life and it was just what you needed to fully relax and wash off the stress of your daily life. The only problem now was that you had a bit too much to drink and could barely stand on your legs and you felt really dizzy. Also watching Changbin help your friend (who was also wasted if not more than you) get to her door, and mind you he got every one of your friends to their houses because it was really late and he didn’t want them to go with cabs in the middle of the night while in this vulnerable state. You had to call mama Seo and thank her for raising such a gentleman!
Okay maybe you were a bit biased, It wasn’t a secret your feelings for Changbin had been more than platonic. You two had known each other for quite a while. You didn’t know when it started but you two had been flirting around with each other since forever but neither one of you made that final move to make things official. So here you were stuck in the middle ground, where you couldn’t really be called just friends but you weren’t dating each other either.
Of course you would be more than happy to get out of that situation. At least you would try and move on from him if he didn’t want to date and make things official. You just weren’t sure how you should make the first move, you always kind of expected he would be the first one to ask you out.
You were startled out of your thoughts when you heard Changbin return in the car, you couldn’t help but smile as you took in his disheveled hair and rosy cheeks from the cold.
“Are you sleepy baby?” – He asked as he noticed your dazed eyes.
“Yea, but I can’t sleep. I shouldn’t.” You sighed out as you watched him start the car.
“Why is that bubz?” He looked at you for a second before shifting his gaze to the road.
“If I close my eyes I can not look at your pretty face!” You made sure to whine as dramatically as possible. Changbin let out one of his notorious cackles.
“God that was so cheesy!”-He wheezed out after a few seconds of laughing like he had been possessed with a spirit of an ancient witch.
You grabbed your own cheeks making sure to smush them together just enough, blinked at him all cutely and continued to tease him like the sweetheart you were. “Shut up you love me.”
“I do.” Wow how the tables turn he just admitted it like it was the most common fact ever. Grass is green, sky is blue and apparently Seo Changbin is in love with you.
“Wait really?” You really couldn’t believe your own ears.
“Yeah of course.” Again, he was so incredibly casual about it! Oh no you couldn’t let it slide.
“Why aren’t you asking me out to date then?” There it was, there was no return now.
Changbin not only snapped his head so fast that there might have been a possibility that he could’ve broken his neck, but he also stopped his car so aburtly you had to thank god there was no one behind you.
“What do you mean ask you out?” Wow was it so horrible to even imagine it? You thought you two had a thing. Were you wrong?
“Oh my god have I been misreading the situation the whole time? This is so embarrassing. I am so sorry…”
It was his turn to panic now, which made you feel a bit relieved, because you felt like you were losing your shit! “No no it’s not that I promise!”
“When what is?” You couldn’t hide your desperation now. Maybe you could blame it on alcohol later and hope to move on?
“I thought we were dating?”
A blink.
Another blink.
“Changbin what the fuck? How the fuck did you believe we were dating?” You were full on yelling now because what the fuck did he mean he thought you two were dating! Since fucking when?
“I don’t know! I just did! We already act like a couple so what’s the big deal? Wait you don’t like me?” Forget all the sappy shit, you felt like strangling him.
“I do but…” God how did you manage to get yourself in this fucking situation? “God this is giving me such a headache.”
Changbin looked just as lost and even guilty. “I’m sorry. But I genuinely thought we were dating.”
“Since when?” You had to get in the bottom of this, or else your head was going to explode.
“I don’t know, like Han’s birthday party? You remember when you kissed me?” He tried to reason but the new knowledge almost made you choke on your own spit. God was really laughing at you.
“I fucking did WHAT?”
“YOU DON’T REMEMBER?” Changbin full on screamed in shock. Really what did you do to deserve this?
“NO!” You screamed back, and with it went last drops of alcohol remaining in your body and your sanity. Ain’t no way you could return to being normal after this.
“I mean I knew that you drank a little that day but damn! You don’t remember kissing me?” Changbin had his face in his hands, the car still ignited just casually standing in the middle of the road. Thank god there was no one around.
“Fuck me I gotta stop drinking. No I don’t remember kissing you.” Honestly nothing seemed more tempting right now than crying your eyes out at the sheer ridiculousness of it all.
“Unbelievable.” Your heart clenched at Changbin’s sulky and sad voice. You were furious at yourself for not remembering kissing this cinnamon roll.
“I’m sorry. What happened? Tell me a full story.” You pleaded as if hearing the full story would magically return your memories and make the situation any better.
“I don’t know, I walked you home, we were about to say goodbye and you kissed me. I thought that you were drunk but you confessed that you liked me and it seemed so sincere, and we’ve been flirting for ages! How was I supposed to know you wouldn’t remember anything?”
“This is so unfair! You are telling me I have been literally dreaming about how would kissing you be like and in reality I have already done it?” Talk about unfair!
A biggest smile broke on his face and his whole mood shifter 180. “Aww baby you’ve been dreaming about kissing me?”
You really felt like pulling your own hair out now.  How was he so calm all of a sudden? “Binnie, baby, respectfully shut the fuck up.”
“But you like me!” He looked so giddy now, what a precious dummy. You really felt like shutting him up with a fat smooch on his lips. You had to pull yourself together.
“Bin you had been convinced we had been dating I don’t know for how many months now. I had you THAT convinced. Of course I fucking like you.”
“Aww you said it again that you like me!”
“I swear to god Seo!” Changbin gasped like he had been slapped making you also flinch in shock.
“Not the last name! I liked it better when you called me Binnie and baby and love and all the sweet stuff.” Was he serious right now? A smile broke out on your face against your will, he was so cute.
You sighed in defeat. “Okay I won’t call you by your last name.”
“Also not the first name. I’m Binnie to you!” To make his point he even crossed his arms, his lips all pouty and cheeks all fluffy.
“Okay Binnie.” You held in your pinky as a promise, he immediately linked it with his feeling satisfied.
 You two sat in silence for a few seconds, thankfully he started to drive again. “So like what do we do now?” He broke the silence looking at you with confused eyes.
“I don’t know Bin, let me think for a sec?”
“But” - He tried to protest but you didn’t let him.
“Please baby?”  You gave him the best puppy eyes ever, knowing damn well he wouldn’t be able to resist. You just needed a second.
“That’s not fair, You know I can’t say no when you ask me like that!”
The ride to the home was quiet, with the only problem arising when you were in front of your house.
“Bin I Think we have a problem.” You sighed feeling way too drained to care about this new problem.
“Wait what? Why?” You cured yourself for making him feel anxious, you quickly leaned in and grabbed his hands.
“Calm down baby.” You tried to reassure.
“What is it?”
“I just can’t find my keys.” You admitted bashfully.
“Are you kidding? Did you lose them somewhere?”
“No. I gave it to my friend when we left the house, she just found it in her purse she just texted me.”
“Oh thank god I thought we had to change the locks. Do you want me to go back to her apartment?” Really who was this cute and adorable? This was so unfair for your heart.
“What? No, it would be such an inconvenience. I mean we can go at your house?” You already felt like a hassle you didn’t want to tire him more, It was really late too.
“My house?” Changbin sounded genuinely so surprised you thought you said something wrong for a second. Changbin returned to normal in a second. “I mean it’s not a problem but like our sofa broke, turns out you can’t just like wrestle for the better controller or something like that. Okay what am I even saying you can take my room, me and Hyunjin had shared a bed so many times anyways.”
“It’s fine tho.” Your voice was quiet almost like a whisper.
“What is?” You looked at his face, he looked genuinely confused. You rolled your eyes, he really couldn’t take a hint sometimes.
“I meant that we can share a bed.” You tried your best to sound as cool and as casual as possible even though your heart felt like bursting.
“We can do what now?” he really looked like he couldn’t believe his own ears.
“I mean apparently we had been dating for months now.”
“Hey don’t tease!”
“I gotta do something! My head feels like exploding! We managed to get ourselves in quite a situation right here!” You took a deep breath to calm yourself. “Anyway what I’m saying is that I’m completely fine sharing a bed with you. We’ve established that we like each other so I don’t see the problem here.”
“That’s what I thought the first time too! What if you forget again! What if you wake up in the morning not remembering anything and you’re just there in my bed with me in it! You’ll think I’m some sort of pervert and that I took advantage of you when you were drunk!” There he was being all dramatic and huffy all again.
“I’m not drunk!” Who would be drunk after this?
“You were a few minutes ago!” He had a a point but now you felt more sober than you were before you started drinking.
“Well not anymore! How can I be drunk after all that? And I was just tipsy! I was just fine! You were the one worried and insisting that you come and take me home! For which I love you and appreciate you but still!”
Changbin crossed his arms. “I’m still not sure.”
“What you want me to do a video proof that I fully consent to this?”
Changbin glared at you but then smirked suddenly looking smug. “Maybe it’s not such a bad idea!”
“God you’re so petty sometimes.” Two could play the petty game, you took out your phone and pressed the record button. “Hello future me! It is exactly half past thee in the morning and I’m sitting in the car with Changbin who is driving me to his home. This is a reminder to you in case that I forget in the morning that I fully concent to sharing a same bed with Seo Changbin. And to avoid any further miscommunication I will say in this video that I like him like a lot and appartenly he does return the feelings. However if when we get there he doesn’t kiss me I will end this either month long or minute long relationship right then and there!”
It was his time to roll his eyes now, but he clearly looked amused by all this. “You’re impossible.”
“I’m warning you Seo!” Ain’t no way you wouldn’t get your kiss now that you two were aware of each other’s emotions. No way in hell would count the one you didn’t even remember as your first kiss with him.
“Whatever my love shall request my love shall get!”
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The ride to his house was quick which was great you were dying to take off your shoes. Whoever invented high heels deserved to burn in hell. Thank god Binnie came to pick you up.
Speaking of which, being the perfect gentleman he is, he immediately got out of the car, ran to your side all cutely and opened your door for you, holding in his hand for you to take. You obviously took it, appreciating the kind gesture and also support because your legs really were hurting like a bitch.
Changbin helped you get out of the car, he even closed the door for you. You were about to thank him but something stopped you Something in his eyes.
You weren’t even able to question anything, before you even knew it, he wrapped his arm around your waist brought you close to his body and in mere second his lips were on yours.
The kiss was firm but also full of love, he kissed you as he was afraid to let you go. His lips were so soft and warm and his body… It was so firm and strong and warm. No wonder you felt so safe and loved whenever you were with him, You couldn’t help but cling to him as you tried to return the kiss with the same vigor. Both of your arms tightly wrapping around his broad shoulders.
Your whole body felt like it was melting, you were sure you wouldn’t even be able to stand straight if it wasn’t him holding you so firmly. How was he even so good at kissing? His kisses felt like a drug and you were getting addicted by the second.
After a while he leaned back and you couldn’t help but actually whine, god what was he doing to you? Seeing you chase his lips made the biggest smile break out on his face. God He looked so beautiful with his flushed cheeks and messy hair, his lips all pretty and pink. Changbin leaned in and gave you few short pecks.
After he felt satisfied with the amount of kisses he gave you he decided to just randomly sweep you off your feet, quite literaly. One second you were somewhat steady on the ground the next you were in the air desperately clinging onto Changbin confused out of your mind.
“What are you doing?” – You managed to huff out giggling at his cute antics.
“You’re feet are hurting.” He said it like a matter of fact.
“I mean yes, but are you going to carry me until we get to your house?”
“Why not?” Again so casual, like holding you and walking up to his house which wasn’t that near wasn’t a big deal.
“Binnie I’m heavy!” You tried to protest, even squirmed a little but to no avail.
“Not really, no.”
“Binnie it isn’t worth it, I’m really heavy.”
“What’s the point of working out if I can’t even carry my girl!” Wow your heart must have done a literal backflip because what the fuck was that movement in your chest?
“I’m your girl?” You didn’t even try to hide the lovesick expression that overtook your face.
Changbin glanced at you for a second, then leaned in and kissed the tip of your nose- “Of course you’re my girl.” So not mindful of your poor heart amusement clear on his face clearly enjoying your flustered state. He continued walking as it was nothing, like holding you was same as holding couple of grapes. He only stopped when you two were in front of his house.
“Can you ring the bell?” He asked with the cutest smile ever, how in your right mind could you say no? You rang the bell then it hit you, the situation you were in. You quickly covered your face as if Changbin wasn’t holding you like you were main dish on a platter. The cackle Changbin let out seeing your antics almost woke up the whole building.
Hyunjin opened up the door after a few seconds, clearly he just rolled out of bed. You felt bad for possibly waking him up. He looked at you two with unamused eyes, Changbin still proudly holding you refusing to let you down, and you looking through your fingers clearly shy.
“Huh so my wife is cheating on me with my friend.”
“Uh pretty much? You’re still number one in my heart you know that.” Changbin answered proudly.
“Hey hyun!” You greeted him shyly after you made sure to smack Changbin’s shoulder.
"Hey! Took you two long enough to get together tho.” Hyunjin deadpanned as he let you two in, Changbin finally letting you down on the armchair.
“Oh let me tell you a juicy story then!” You smiled mischievously completely ignoring Changbin’s protests.
After telling Hyunjin everything and him making fun of you two, mostly Changbin, you decided to get ready for bed. Honestly they would be lucky if the neighbors didn’t call the cops on them, they were so damn loud!
Anyway here you were now, laying on one side of the bed all snug in Changbin’s clothes as Changbin laid stiffly on the other. Honestly, he looked like he would fall of the bed any second now.
“Bin you’re about to fall off the bed!”
“I’m fine.” God even his voice was stiff.
“Bin you literally took my breath away the way you were kissing me earlier what happened now?”
“I don’t think I should get any more close.” He grumbled out after a few seconds of silence.
“Why is that?”
Changbin scoffed like he was baffled how you weren’t understanding what was wrong. “You’ll think badly of me!” Again grumbling inaudibly.
“I promise I won’t.” You tried to reassure him, even held in your pinky finger which he begrudgingly took.
“It’s just you’re here in my bed, in my clothes, looking absolutely beautiful and we were kissing and you look so kissable right now… How am I supposed to control myself?” This boy was going to be the death of you. Who the hell was this cute and adorable and so kissable on a random Tuesday night!
“Then don’t.”
“Baby I swear to god!” Changbin covered his face and almost fell out of the bed, thankfully you managed to drag him to the center of bed just in time. Also this gave you a perfect opportunity. You wrapped your hands around him and hugged him tight, Changbin immediately uncovered his face to wrap his arms around you and hug you back.
“I like you a lot bin.” You mused and leaned in to softly peck his lips, Changbin almost immediately melted into your arms.
“I like you a lot too.” He muttered before bringing you closer to seal your lips in a longer more passionate kiss.
“We’re really really dating now so don’t you start getting shy on me okay?” You couldn’t help but tease.
Changbin groaned at the teasing clearly not amused. “Brat!”
You couldn’t help but giggle as you got more comfortable getting ready to get one of the best sleeps of your life.
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byechristopher · 19 hours ago
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hellooo can you write a fic where reader and chris have a pregnancy scare?
what could be.
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Author's note: thank you for the request, and sorry for being so late, pft. I hope you like it anon, here is an angsty/fluffy fic with Chris. Him and babies make me giddy fr. Don't copy/steal my work. :)
Warnings: uhm, none. But y'all.. use protection always. Didn't proofread!
It started with a simple sentence, one that hung in the air like a grenade waiting to go off.
"My period’s a week late."
Chris froze, his fork halfway to his mouth. The casual dinner we were having, sitting on the couch like we always did, suddenly felt like something fragile, ready to shatter. His face went pale as he put his fork down, staring at me like he hadn’t quite understood what I’d just said.
"What?" His voice was flat, cold.
I shifted uncomfortably, already regretting saying anything. "I’m late, Chris. A week late."
He sat back, his eyes narrowing as if he could will this entire conversation out of existence. "Are you serious?"
I nodded. "I thought it was just stress at first, but…"
"Jesus Christ," he muttered, running a hand through his hair, the frustration already palpable. "How could this happen?"
The way he said it — like it was some personal failure, like this was my fault, made my blood run cold.
"Uhm, now I don't mean to break it to you.." I snapped, my voice rising defensively, "but we were both there, remember?"
"Yeah, well, you’re the one who keeps track of this stuff, right? Shouldn’t you have known?" His voice was sharp, accusatory, and it stung.
I stood up from the couch, the tension in my body rising like a tidal wave, "what the actual fuck are you even saying? You think I want this to be happening? You think this is something I wanted to deal with right now?"
Chris got up too, pacing in the small living room, his hands clenched at his sides, "no, I don’t know what the hell you want! All I know is, we’re not ready for this. We can’t be dealing with a fucking baby right now."
I felt the familiar lump forming in my throat, but I swallowed it down, refusing to let him see how much his words hurt. "Chris, we’re in this together, okay? Why are you acting like I did something wrong?"
"Because this is—" He stopped, running his hands over his face. "This changes everything, okay? Everything we’ve been working for. All our plans, all our.. us!"
"What, and a baby ruins all that?" I cut him off, my voice shaking with anger. "Is that what you think? That this would ruin everything?"
He didn’t answer right away, and the silence that followed was louder than any argument we’d ever had. He just stood there, staring at the floor, and I couldn’t tell if he was thinking or trying to come up with a way to end this conversation without making it worse.
Finally, he spoke, his voice low. "Yeah. I think it would."
I blinked, feeling like I’d been slapped. I could feel my heart racing, the adrenaline pushing through me, making me feel sick. "Wow," I whispered, stepping back like I needed space from him, like I couldn’t stand being near him right now. "That’s really how you fucking feel?"
He looked up, his face tight with frustration. "We’re not ready for this. You know that. You’ve got your career just starting to take off, I’m still figuring things out. It’s not the right time."
"You don’t get to decide that for both of us," I shot back, my voice cracking under the weight of the argument. "This is happening, whether you like it or not. What are you going to do if I am pregnant? Walk away?"
Chris’s eyes flashed with something—maybe guilt, maybe regret, I couldn’t tell. "I’m not walking away," he said through gritted teeth, "but I’m not going to pretend like I’m okay with this either."
I didn’t say anything else. I couldn’t. The hurt and anger tangled up inside me was too much, and if I opened my mouth again, I didn’t trust what would come out. Instead, I turned and walked out of the room, leaving him standing there, his silence chasing me as I went.
For the next day and a half, we barely spoke. Every interaction was charged, electric with the weight of what had been said and left unsaid. He slept on the couch that night, and I didn’t bother asking him to come back to bed. I wasn’t sure I wanted him there.
The test sat on the bathroom counter, waiting for me, taunting me with the unknown. I couldn’t bring myself to take it, not when things between us felt so raw, so fragile. But after another restless night of tossing and turning, I couldn’t take the uncertainty anymore. I had to know.
When I walked into the living room that morning, Chris was sitting on the couch, staring blankly at his phone. He looked up when I entered, and for a second, there was something in his eyes—regret, maybe. Or guilt. I couldn’t tell.
"I’m taking the test," I said, my voice flat.
He stood up, nodding stiffly. "I’ll come with you."
"Yeah, you don't fucking have to." I said, but he followed me either way.
We walked to the bathroom in silence, and I grabbed the box off the counter with shaking hands. Chris stood by the door, watching me, his expression unreadable. I couldn’t even look at him as I went through the motions, my stomach twisting into knots.
When it was done, we sat on the edge of the bed, waiting for the result. The timer on my phone ticked down, each second stretching out longer than the last.
"I’ve been thinking," Chris said suddenly, his voice softer than it had been in days. I glanced at him, unsure of what to expect.
"About what?"
He sighed, running a hand through his hair. "About everything. About what I said… how I reacted."
I remained silent.
He hesitated before continuing, "I was scared, okay? I still am. I’m terrified, actually. But… I’ve been thinking. Maybe it wouldn’t be the worst thing."
I blinked, surprised. "What?"
He looked at me, his expression softer now, more open. "I’m not saying it’d be easy. But if you are pregnant, I mean… we’d figure it out, right? We’d get through it."
For the first time in days, I felt a tiny flicker of hope. "You really think so?"
He nodded, his gaze steady on mine. "Yeah. I don’t want to be that guy who just freaks out and runs away. If it happens, I want to be there for you. For both of you."
I let out a breath I hadn’t realized I’d been holding, feeling some of the tension leave my shoulders. Maybe we’d been fighting, maybe we were scared, but hearing him say that made me feel like we could actually do this, if we had to.
"And if I really think about it.." he continued, his thumb on my cheek caressing the skin so gently, as if I was a porcelain doll, "the idea of having a little baby with you that looks just like their mom.. yeah, I think I'm fine with that." he teased with a little smile and that's all I needed to hear.
The timer went off, the sharp beep cutting through the air. We both froze, looking at each other.
"Do you want to…?" Chris asked, nodding toward the bathroom.
I shook my head. "You can look."
He stood up, walking over to the counter, his movements slow and hesitant. I watched him as he picked up the test, his face unreadable. For a moment, he just stared at it, not saying anything.
Finally, he looked up at me, his expression a mixture of relief and something else I couldn’t quite place. "It’s negative."
I let out a shaky breath, feeling the weight of the world lift off my shoulders. "Negative?"
He nodded, setting the test down and walking back over to me. "Yeah. You’re not pregnant."
Relief washed over me, but there was something else too. Something that felt almost like disappointment. I pushed it down, not wanting to think too much about it.
Chris sat down beside me, wrapping an arm around my shoulders. "I’m sorry," he whispered, pressing a kiss to the top of my head. "For how I acted. I didn’t handle any of this well."
I leaned into him, closing my eyes as I let the warmth of his embrace chase away the last remnants of fear. "It’s okay," I murmured. "We’re okay."
"Is it crazy that I've started to warm up to the idea?" he whispered against my hair and even though I didn't want a baby, I still felt giddy hearing him say that.
"Your mood swings are acting up." I teased and buried my face into the crook of his neck, pressing a kiss there, "although.. so did I." I whispered.
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moonchildreads · 19 hours ago
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don't you know what the night can do?
summary: you call for help in the middle of the night and eddie comes to your rescue
pairing: best friend!eddie x reader
tags/warnings: mdni. technically a college au? depression, abusive relationship (not eddie, he's a sweetie), talks of potential homelessness, no SA happens but eddie thinks it did for a second before it's cleared up (again, it does NOT happen, but since it could be triggering consider this your warning), hurt/comfort, happy ending!
wc: 2.8k
a/n: i was supposed to post this yesterday but upon rereading it i realised it was me trauma dumping so i rewrote a significant portion of this to make it into it's own thing. i hope it brings you as much comfort for you as it did for me, and if you are in a situation like reader is, please seek help. i believe in you and i am rooting for you 🖤
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Now's the time when it's down to me and you Spread these wings, we'll be flying
It’s already late when the phone rings and he’s immediately shoving his feet into his sneakers, rushing out the door of his apartment and into his van. It’s even more late when he parks across the street and decides against waking your entire building up by ringing your doorbell. Hurriedly, he searches his glove box for that little spare key you gave him for emergencies - the one that has a big metal ring and a tiny plastic tab with your name on it. He lets himself in, the storm outside in the sky and inside your head getting worse and worse every second that ticks by.
Eddie finds you slumped against the small table where your phone rests, the receiver still in your hand, and he knows. He knows something terrible has happened and it doesn’t matter that he’s been anticipating it ever since you told him you’d begun dating that asshole classmate of yours because nothing could have prevented his heart from shattering the moment he sees you.
You’re a lifeless looking doll, devoid of any emotion and feeling. He’d fear you’re actually dead if he couldn’t see your chest rising and falling slowly.
“Sweetheart?” he says, lowering himself to where you’re sitting and trying not to spook you. “Are you okay?”
“Huh?” you say, almost surprised when his eyes come into view. “You’re here.”
“Yeah, baby, of course I’m here,” he shuffles closer to you, but still doesn’t touch you.
Eddie swears he can still feel your arms around his neck sometimes, how your hands always used to find his, and how your legs would tangle on the couch all the time. You don’t like to be touched too much these days. He misses your warmth.
“Are you okay?” he repeats.
“Cold.”
“You’re cold? Come on, let’s get you to bed.”
“NO!”
Your voice rings loud in the quiet apartment, your eyes locking with his in a fiery yet terrified stare. What are you so afraid of? Eddie takes in your appearance and it’s clear that you’ve been crying, though he doesn’t really understand why. He peers into the hallway that leads to your bedroom, searching for answers though he finds none.
“I- I’m sorry… I made a mess,” you explain, deflating once more. “I was upset and the sheets, they… they’re not on the bed anymore.”
“That’s okay,” Eddie says. “We can put them back on.”
You afford him a movement that barely registers as a nod and he thinks he hasn’t seen duller eyes in his entire life, except for when he used to look into the mirror when he was younger. You shouldn’t feel like that, not if he can help it. He raises up onto his knees, still keeping his distance but signaling that it’s time to get up.
“It’s late, sweetheart. Come on, you need to get some sleep.”
“Can… can I get a hug first? Please?” you whisper, your face contorting into a pitiful sight.
Eddie doesn't say anything before he pulls you into a tight hug, his arms shielding you from anything and everything that might be trying to hurt you. He lets you bury yourself into him, lets you crawl underneath his skin and bones, become a part of his very soul and he holds you tighter whenever you exhale another heavy breath.
He waits and waits with his ass turning into ice on the harsh linoleum floor of your kitchenette area, and he doesn’t let go before you do because you once read to him that you should always hug kids until they let go first and he still hasn’t forgotten about it. A booming thunder shakes your windows and Eddie feels as though the storm has moved inside your home. You are no longer a kid, but right now you remind him too much of himself when he first went to live with Wayne, and so he keeps holding you until you pull away first.
"I really needed that, thank you," you smile up at him, but it doesn't reach your eyes. He takes it as a win anyways, because you haven’t smiled in a while and Eddie has always loved your smile.
"You can have as many hugs as you'd like, sweetheart. Why don't you go take a shower while I get your bed ready, huh? You can leave the door open if you want, I’ll be here."
You follow him into your hallway, eyes full of tears at his words. He might be the only person in the world that knows you better than you know yourself, and you don’t take that for granted. You take a hot shower and rub at your skin with your washcloth until it's raw and sensitive and cleansed, and when you come out wrapped in your fluffiest towel Eddie says nothing about the fact that when he walked into your bedroom, he could tell that you’d ripped your bed sheets off the mattress somewhere between a nervous fit and calling him in the middle of the night. There’s a new set, clean and smelling like your favorite fabric softener, and he’s laid out your most comfortable sleepwear at the end of your bed.
Eddie throws your used sheets into the washing machine and gets it started while you get changed, and when you're done you fish out a pair of his pajama pants and a shirt he left behind what feels like eons ago. He thanks you, almost surprised to see you have those clothes and it dawns on you that he doesn’t remember he gave them to you, because you haven't had one of the movie nights where he used to wear them in a while now. When you're both ready for bed, Eddie lifts your covers for you and tucks you in, laying next to you on top of the duvet.
"You can get in if you want," you say, and it's clear you want him to do it.
Eddie thinks he'll never be able to say no to you, so he gets in without you having to ask twice. You are quick to shift closer to him once he gets under the sheets and he takes the hint to put his arms around you, bringing your head to his shoulder and tangling his legs with yours. It’s been ages since he’s held you like this and he’s not going to start complaining about it now - not when you’re right back where you’ve always belonged.
"I have to move out by the end of the month," you mutter, starting to explain the night's events.
"That sucks. You’ve been house hunting yet?"
"No. I found out today and I was hoping Matt would help."
"And he didn't," Eddie says, knowingly.
"He didn't," you confirm. "I asked him to come over earlier because I was upset and he said he’d be here for dinner."
"You cooked?" he hums, petting the back of your head.
"Yeah. I made, uhm, lemon chicken? It wasn't very good."
You've always been a wonderful cook, at least in Eddie's eyes. You don't have a lot of recipes you can whip out from under your belt upon short notice, but the ones you do have are some of his favorites. The chocolate chip cookies he has to hide from Wayne, the chicken noodle soup you bring over when he’s sick, the banana pancakes that always went along with his scrambled eggs and bacon when he used to sleep over. You've never made lemon chicken for him, but you're good at following a cookbook so he thinks it mustn't have turned out inedible.
By now Eddie has learned that "it wasn't very good" means "Matt didn't like it". He doesn’t understand why that piece of shit is dating you if never likes anything you do. Hearing you repeat the things he says to make you feel bad makes your best friend want to dig through your fridge for the leftovers and eat them all just to prove to you that your boyfriend is wrong.
"I think I have to break up with Matt."
Your words make Eddie's head turn. Of all the things you could have said tonight, this was not something he ever imagined. He could have sworn you'd date Matt until he'd decided he'd had enough of you, or you'd marry him and he'd have to sit in the front row watching that fucking guy sap you of your life force for the rest of your days.
Eddie is haunted by the sound of your vacant voice when you'd asked him to come over. At the forefront of his mind he can see it all in loose pieces: the disarray in your bedroom, your obsession with being clean, Matt not being here after you said he’d come over earlier for dinner. He waits for you to paint a clear picture, hoping he won't have to break your boyfriend's nose (or worse) when he sees him around.
"Did he hurt you?" Eddie asks, heart sinking.
"I don't think he likes me anymore," you say, breaking down. Eddie shifts closer and holds you while you shiver. "He, um… he said I can't live with him if I can't find a place before I have to move out of here. A-and when I got upset because I don't want to be fucking homeless during my last semester, he- he tried to distract me with sex."
"What the fuck."
"I t-think he only came o-over ‘cause he wan- he wanted to get laid," you admit between hiccups. "And when he- he couldn't g-get it, he just left.”
"Sweetheart, fuck, I'm so sorry. He's such a fucking asshole," he lets you sob into his arms, the tears coming out of your tired eyes rivalring the downpour outside hitting your windows.
“He- he wouldn’t even hug me. I was crying and he just stood there! He doesn’t care about me being homeless, he- he doesn’t care about me at all!”
“Shh, it’s okay, you’re okay. I’ve got you, I’ve got you,” he says gently, and you want to believe he’s telling the truth but you don’t. You can’t.
“It’s not. It’s not okay,” you try to move away but he follows you, heart chasing after yours.
"What do you mean, baby?" he brushes a tear away from your face as you both sit up.
“I- I don’t know what’s wrong and I’m just… there’s nothing in here,” you say through your teeth while you grab at your shirt frantically, scaring him with the rough motion. "I feel so empty and I think- I know there's something really wrong with me, Eddie. Something has to be wrong. I’m not normal.”
"Hey, no, no, there's nothing wrong with you," he pulls you into him once more, not letting you run away from him again. "Sweetheart, I promise you, you're- you're not empty, what are you even saying? You're full - you're so full. You're full of love, a-and kindness, and if that son of a bitch is making you feel like you're not full then, I don’t know, dump his ass! He's mean and pathetic, please don't- don't break yourself into a million pieces for someone who doesn't deserve you."
"I don't feel full, Ed."
"That’s okay, we can work on it," Eddie says, confidently. "And I’m not gonna let you be homeless, I swear. You can move in with me until you feel ready to start house hunting!"
"What if I never feel better?"
"Then we’ll live together forever,” he says like it’s the most obvious thing in the world, and you know he means it.
"Ed-"
"Babe. I'm serious. One hundred percent. You can even have my bedroom, I don't care."
"And where are you gonna sleep, huh? Don't be stupid."
"Wayne slept in the living room for like a decade and he's still kicking, I'll survive."
You turn in his arms so you can look at him. Eddie looks back at you with his warm eyes and mischievous smile firmly planted on his face. He’s so special to you. And luckily for him, you've never been able to say no to him either.
"When is your lease over?" you ask, wiping your tears and feeling suddenly determined.
"Uh, after you graduate I think?"
"I’ll move in with you but don't renew it. Let's find a new place."
"Yeah?" Eddie grins. "You wanna be roommates? For real?"
"I think- I think it could be good for me," you raise your hands and squish his cheeks. I think you could be good for me. "I’ve missed this. I’ve missed you."
"Me too," he says, gaze softening.
He knows it's not your fault Matt has taken over your life, not when he's conditioned you for the past year to depend on him for everything. Eddie also knows he himself has been the source of many of your fights, and while it hurts to see you cry every time Matt gives you the silent treatment until you apologize for something you didn't do, your adamant refusal to cut your best friend off your life makes him incredibly proud of you.
As much as you've stood up for Eddie throughout your lives, you've never been good at standing up for yourself. He thinks it’s time he starts standing up for you too.
"You, um," Eddie starts, grabbing your wrists to pull your hands away from his cheeks and onto his lap. "You really are gonna break up with him though, right? Because I don't think I can pretend like everything's cool with the guy when he keeps hurting you like this."
"No, I know. I can't keep going like this anymore. There's... there's so much stuff you don't even know, Ed. Sometimes he really scares me," you confess.
"He hasn't, like… hit you or anything, right?" his throat constricts.
"No, but he says things... weird things. He's so mean sometimes,” you huff, finally getting rightfully angry. “He got mad for no reason the other day and said that the only time he felt I loved him was when he got sick and I stayed with him during Spring Break. I spent an entire week taking care of him and then when he gave me the fucking plague, because of course I got it from him, Robin had to take care of me because he was sooo busy."
"He's such a goddamn loser, he totally held you hostage ‘cause you had plans that didn’t involve him for once. I knew he had a problem with us going to Steve's cabin, he’s never liked any of us!”
"Also he says I humiliate him in class because I think I'm smarter than him. Like it’s my fault his grades suck.”
"You are, though," Eddie says, grinning.
“Huh?”
"You are smarter than him. You have always been the smartest of us all."
"No, I’m not,” you scoff. “Nancy was valedictorian."
"Be real, you didn't want that shit anyway."
"No, I really didn't," you giggle softly. "I was too busy running around town with you and Jonathan.”
“Those were the good days,” he snorts. “We totally made Hopper age in dog years.”
After the laughter ends, you two look at each other and know that something has changed tonight. Something that was slowly veering off track got violently course-corrected, and you let yourself feel hopeful for the first time in a very long time.
You’ll go to sleep in Eddie’s arms and wake up to the smell of him frying bacon. You’ll whip your banana pancakes from thin air and you’ll start deciding together what you want to sell, what you’ll put in storage and what you’ll take with you once you move out of your place. You’ll talk about your finals coming up and Eddie’s new job, and he’ll do the dishes while you call Nancy, who’ll call Jonathan, who’ll shake Argyle up, who’ll call Eden, who’ll call and wake up Robin, who’ll yell at a sleepy Steve to get up, who’ll then call you to ask when they should be coming to help you lug all your stuff into Eddie’s van.
And Matt won’t call all weekend, because he doesn’t care about you, but you will never know that because you’ll be getting drunk at Robin and Steve’s while Eden tells you about a two bedroom apartment that a classmate of hers is vacating after graduation, and everyone else will make bets on how long it’s going to take for you and Eddie to notice that you won’t actually need two bedrooms.
But for now, with eyes that hurt from crying and limbs that feel heavy with a tiredness you’ve been carrying for months, you feel a little less empty because you know that no matter what the future holds, you’ll always have Eddie by your side.
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revelboo · 20 hours ago
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YOUR SERIES IS SO GOOD I FINISHED EM ALL IN ABT A WHOLE DAY AND A HALF.
I WENT OUT THE EXAM HALL KNOWING THAT A NEW UPDATE WAS WAITING FOR ME LIKE:
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(All jokes aside I'm so thankful you're writing something so good like this and share it with us. Drink water and take care, author!)
🤣 Thank you!
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Bad Idea Pt 9
TFP Soundwave x Reader
• Helm tipped slightly to watch you eat while not being obvious about it since you sometimes try to hide the food he gives you instead of eating it, he works. But it does leave him to wonder what was wrong with the discarded food or if maybe you’re just much pickier than anticipated. Sliding a tendril across the desk, he loops it loosely about your middle, warming when you smile up at him. Using the graspers on the end of the tendril to lift your elbow a bit, encouraging you to keep eating.
• “Alright,” you huff, resisting the urge to swat at him as you tip the soup can up. He’s been hovering while you’re eating ever since you’d ‘accidentally’ dropped a bag of raw brussel sprouts over the edge of his desk near the wall. Because you know he’s trying, but also that he doesn’t understand human food at all. He’d finally stopped giving you nothing but candy, but his last attempt to provide for you had included the brussel sprouts, a can of lard, several cans of soup, a sickly gray, warm packet of hamburger meat, and several bags of dried beans and a case of water. So you’ve been living off of cold, condensed soup and water for the most part and trying to work up the nerve to actually give him a grocery list of nonperishable foods so he doesn’t accidentally poison you.
• Graspers running through your hair, he can feel your annoyance with him and wishes you’d just say why the food is wrong, but you’d just offered him a tight lipped smile and a very insincere ‘thank you,’ when he’d pointed at the small pile in question. Wishing again that he could make more sense of your convoluted thoughts than vague impressions and feelings. Setting the can aside, you lean into the tendril coiled about you and he wraps you more firmly to pull you closer to him. Squeezing until you huff at him and wiggle, before relenting but not relinquishing the feel of your warmth against him.
• Amused at his passive clinginess, you try to squirm your arms out of the coils and he allows it, helm tipping. His entire frame shuddering slightly when you seize those graspers and manipulate them open and close. Watching from the corner of your eye as his helm droops slightly, turns your way as you run a fingertip along the inside of a grasper and he shudders again. Ticklish, maybe? Since he’s always grabbing you, it’s only fair as you wiggle a grasper claw open and shut. Wondering how long he’s going to put up with it. Not long as his helm dips until he’s looming about a foot from your face. “What?” You ask innocently, sucking in a breath when he latches onto your hand with the graspers, apparently done with your silliness. Venting roughly at you, he tugs your hand up as his head lowers and presses your fingers to his visor and you wonder again exactly what if anything is underneath. Breath catching in your lungs as he slides the smooth, warm glass of his visor against your fingertips like he’s nuzzling against them.
• Do you have any idea how much those gentle touches mean to him? What they do to him when you stroke those soft fingers against him, dipping them into seams to find mesh, not knowing the effect your touch has. Or the thoughts those intimate touches spark. Making him curious for things he shouldn’t want. You’d only been a curiosity, so small and strange. He’d wanted to unravel and conquer the way your alien mind crippled his telepathy, but now he’s not sure what he wants with you, because those errant thoughts are impossible. Stuck unable to move forward and unwilling to let you go.
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willowsnook · 1 day ago
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Your funeral (pt. 2) 18+
max verstappen x riccardo!reader
pt. 1 here
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Singapore
Singapore was hot as fuck. You felt like you were dying the second you had walked into the paddock Sunday night. Daniel had been a little off all weekend, way quieter than usual, which concerned you. Greeting some of the mechanics in the garage, you wandered around looking for your brother, who you found looking out over the track. 
“Are you okay?” you asked him, standing next to him. He turned to you, and your heart sank at the look in his eyes. 
“This is it y/n,” he told you and you shook your head not wanting to believe it. 
“No, don’t say that, Danny. You still have a chance to prove yourself,” you rushed out, trying to comfort your brother. He only gave you a sad smile in return. 
“They already told me. I’ll be officially out following this race.”
It felt like your heart was splitting into two the way his voice cracked telling you. Putting on a strong face, you looked up at him, determined. 
“Then give them hell,” you said,, and he smiled lightly, kissing your forehead and hugging you. The two of you stood there briefly before he was called off to get ready. 
You couldn’t stop the tears streaming down your face as you watched your brother get the fastest lap in his last lap as a Formula One driver. The camera caught your reaction, and you tried to hide your face. 
He didn’t get out of the car for a long time, and you spent that time trying to collect yourself to put on a brave face for your big brother. The brother who taught you that everything would always work out and that life was much easier when you filled it with joy instead of sorrow. The brother who was now breaking down right in front of your eyes. 
By the time he made it back to the garage, most of the team was giving him hugs and you waited in the back for him to come to you. He motioned to his driver's room and you followed him in, immediately watching him break down. He moved to sit on the couch, putting his head into his hands as he got emotional and you sat next to him, pulling him into your chest. Your head rested on top of his as he cried into you, and you had to bite your tongue hard to stop yourself from sobbing. 
It shouldn’t have ended like this—with no fanfare, no celebration, and no one knowing until it was over. Your brother had given his all to this sport, and in the end, it didn’t love him back. 
Someone was knocking at the door and you heard Lando call out, asking if he could come in. Daniel nodded to you, and you let his old teammate in. He gave you a sympathetic look as you passed, reaching out to squeeze your hand. 
Your resolve was breaking fast and you walked back into the main garage, trying to get away from everyone. Max was at the front of the garage talking to Pierre, and when he met your eyes, you immediately crumbled. He moved quickly across the room, wrapping his arms around you as the first sob broke out. 
“Hey, hey, hey,” he murmured into your hair as you fell apart. There weren’t many people in the paddock this late, so he guided you outside into a more secluded area before holding you again and rubbing his hand up and down your back. 
“I don’t know what to say to him Max,” you sobbed. “He’s so broken I don’t know how to fix it.”
“He’s going to be okay schatje; you know your brother, he can bounce back from anything,” Max said.  
Max pulled back and held your face in his hands, wiping the tears from your face with his thumbs. You clung on to him desperately and he started to get misty-eyed himself, seeing you cry. 
“This isn’t the end y/n,” he whispered earnestly. “It’s only the beginning of something new.” 
His words comforted you, and you rested your head back on his chest, breathing in his cologne as you tried to calm down. It was the beginning of something new. 
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Two weeks later, you were finishing up work when Daniel texted you to ask if you wanted to grab a drink when you got off. You had transferred to the Monaco office for the rest of the year, wanting to be close to your brother just in case he needed you. 
The week after the race had been extremely rough, and you both had flown home to Australia to be around family. Now he was almost back to his usual stuff which made you feel a lot better. 
Max texted you a couple of times to check in on how you were doing, and the two of you fell into a routine of consistent communication after that. 
You were walking into the bar down the street when you saw your brother sitting at the bar, joking with the bartender. 
“What’s up?” You asked, sliding onto the stool next to you. 
“Oh you know, trying to find ways to enjoy retirement,” he joked and you rolled your eyes. 
“It’s more like you’re unemployed not retired,” you commented and he laughed loudly. 
“I was thinking about redecorating my apartment though since I have the time,” he said and you nodded, taking a sip of your drink. 
“Oh yeah?” You asked. He must be bored out of his mind if this is what he wanted to talk about. 
“Yeah, I’m thinking about getting this picture blown up and framed but wanted your opinion on whether I should do it in color or black and white.” 
Looking over, you froze at the picture he was showing you. It was from Singapore and showed you and Max outside of the garage. The photographer perfectly captured the moment of him holding your face in his hands while you were wrapped up in him. 
“I honestly do not know what to say,” you mumbled, putting your head down on the bar. 
“Are you going to tell me what’s happening with you two?” He asked inquiring. 
“Nothing,” you sighed, looking back over to him. “Nothing is happening.”
“Look at the look on your face y/n, look at that and tell me again that it’s nothing,” he said, with a slight smirk on his face. 
Looking back at the picture, your breath caught as you saw it again. The way you looked at him was like the only light in the darkness you had been feeling. It wasn’t the look you’d give someone when “nothing” was happening between the two of you. 
“It-It’s complicated,” you stuttered out, face flushing. 
“You think I don’t know about you two making out back in Miami at the club,” he said, his smirk growing wider as he enjoyed watching you freak out. 
“How the fuck did you find out about that?” You demanded, and he laughed. 
“Oh, little Lando Norris is so chatty when he’s drunk, especially when he thinks he has a big secret. I think he thought he was texting Carlos, but it was me instead,” Daniel said, and you groaned. 
“This is mortifying,” you complained and his eyes softened, a smile still painted on his face. 
“It’s okay if you like him y/n,” he said quietly. “It’s not like I’m racing against him anymore, so there is no conflict of interest.” 
“I know,” you said softly. “But he was your friend first, and I don’t want to take that away from you.” 
“You aren’t taking anything away from me. If anything, I’m glad it’s him and not Lando.”
“What would be wrong with me dating Lando?” You questioned jokingly. 
“The things I know about that man,” he shuddered, and you giggled. “I want you to be happy.”
“I am happy right now,” you told him. “So we’ll see what happens.” 
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Later that week you joined Daniel out for dinner with Lando, Charles and Alex, Carlos and Rebecca, and Max. 
It was still nice in Monaco, so you were at a big table on the patio of one of your favorite restaurants. Max’s arm hung carelessly on the back of your chair, which caught the attention of Daniel, who gave you a knowing look. 
Max knew he was in for it when you rested your hand on his thigh and looked over at him. The sunlight hit your face perfectly, and he was like putty in your hands. His face flushed, and you smirked. 
“Something wrong?” You asked innocently. 
“Nothing at all,” he responded focusing his attention back to Daniel’s conversation with Charles. Lando wiggled his eyebrows at you, and you flipped him off playfully. 
Dinner wrapped up, and you hugged everyone goodbye outside the front of the building, Max being last. 
“What are you doing the rest of the night?” He asked as he pulled out of your embrace. 
“Hmm probably just watch a movie or something,” you said thinking. 
“Watch it at my place,” he said confidently and you smiled, mulling it over and making him sweat. 
“Fine,” you said, breaking the silence. He took your hand and led you to where he had parked. 
You’d been to Max’s apartment below in the past and greeted his cats eagerly as they met you at the door. He smiled, watching you coo at them while he took your coat from you. Slipping off your shoes, you headed to the living room, plopping down on his massive sofa. 
“What do you want to watch?” Max asked as he sat down. You moved to rest your head in his lap and his arm found its way to your side to lay comfortably. 
“Hmm, rom-com?” You suggested and he sighed. 
“Anything for you,” he replied and you giggled, finding “How to lose a guy in 10 days” on his TV.
“Taking notes from this?” Max joked and you turned your head to look up at him. 
“Let’s see, what could I do to lose you?” You pondered. “Talk shit about your cats or prance around the paddock wearing a Hamilton jersey.” 
“You’d have to do a lot more to lose me,” he said softly and your heart rate increased as you looked into his eyes. Sitting up, you moved to where you were in his lap, now at eye level. 
“Can I kiss you?” You asked quietly. 
“Always, schatje,” he replied and you closed the distance, meeting his lips in a soft embrace. His hands that were rested on your hips moved under your shirt, caressing the soft skin underneath. Your nose fit next to his as your lips moved slowly, testing the waters. 
Feeling him grow harder beneath you, your hands moved to the bottom of his shirt, pulling it up. Your lips separated for just a moment as he pulled it over his head but they quickly found each other again. His fingers were working to undo your bra and once it was off you gasped as he massaged your chest, moving his thumb over your nipple. 
“Bedroom?” He asked as you both took a breath. You nodded and he stood up with you in his arms, wrapped around him and carried you out. He set you gently down on the bed and moved his lips from yours to your neck. Pushing him off, you lifted your shirt off your head giving him full access which he eagerly took advantage of. Groaning out as his tongue flicked over your nipple, you pushed your hips into his making him pull back to smirk at you. 
“So eager for me?” He teased and you gave him a look that only made him grin wider. He moved his mouth from your chest and down your stomach, forcing you to be patient which you were not enjoying. 
“Max please,” you whined and he chuckled against your skin. After what felt like forever, he slid your pants and thong off, and was greeted by your glistening pussy. 
“So pretty,” he murmured before placing a kiss on your clit to tease you. His teasing didn’t last long as he latched on to you, sucking on your clit making you gasp out. He massaged his tongue around you while bringing a finger to linger around your entrance for a bit before pushing in. You groaned at the intrusion, moving your hand into Max’s hair to hold him in place as you became overwhelmed with pleasure. 
He added a second finger, massaging your g-spot as his tongue continued to assault your clit. You were a whimpering mess, your other hand gripping the bed sheets hard as your eyes were squeezed shut. His fingers started to pump in and out of you and you cried out his name as your first orgasm washed over you. 
“God I could do this forever,” Max said mesmerized and you let out a giggle as you came back to. 
“I want you to feel good Maxie,” you purred. “I need you in me.” 
Max obeyed, moving up from between your thighs and pulling down his boxers. Your eyes widened at the thickness of his cock and he gave you a small smirk. 
“Don’t worry schatje, it’s made perfectly for you,” he said before pressing his lips against yours. You moaned into the kiss as he entered you, feeling him stretch you out. The discomfort soon turned to pleasure as he started to move and your arms wrapped around his shoulders, nails digging into his back. 
“Fuck you feel so good,” Max groaned out. “I knew you would.” 
“Oh yeah?” You breathed, trying to regain some sort of control. 
“Knew since I saw you again in Australia, knew that this pussy was made for me,” he said and you threw your head back, moaning, his words taking effect. 
Max flipped you around and you shifted your weight into your forearms to hold you up. The new position allowed him to hit deeper, causing you to cry out. 
“Fuck Max, it’s too much,” you whined and he slowed his pace just slightly. 
“I know you can take it schatje, so good for me,” he cooed as he started to move faster again. You moved your hand to rub your clit while he pounded into you but he pulled it away replacing it with his own. 
“I’m gonna cum,” you cried out and he moved even faster. Your fingers were wrapped tight around the pillows as you tried to stay upright. Your body gave out but Max was there to catch you, holding you against his chest as you came undone. Your pussy clenched hard around him and he gritted teeth trying to prolonge his own finish. 
Resting your head back against him you blacked out, only brought back by the noises coming out of him as he got closer and closer to finishing. 
“I’m not wearing a condom y/n,” he grunted. “Where do you want me?”
“Cum in me Max, please,” you whimpered and that sent him over the edge. You felt him still inside of you as he finished, his arms still wrapped tightly around you. 
“That was well worth the wait,” he said into your neck and you laughed, exhaustion taking over you. “Let me clean you up.”
He carried you into his bathroom and set you on the sink while he turned on the shower. You admired his back while he was turned to you and he smirked when he caught you. 
“Keep looking at me like that and we aren’t going to bed anytime soon,” he warned and you rolled your eyes playfully. You let him wash your body in the shower and you did the same for him before shutting it off and moving back into the bedroom. He handed you a big tshirt to wear and you climbed into bed, relaxed as he slipped in next to you. His arms pulled you into his chest and you drifted off feeling his warm breath in your neck. 
Sunlight poured into Max’s bedroom causing you to stir, blinking open your eyes. You were sprawled on top of Max who still had one arm tightly wrapped around your waist. Shifting away you tried to move quietly but failed as you looked over to see his eyes staring back at you. 
“Hi,” he said sleepily and you smiled at him. 
“Hi.”
The two of you just stared at each other for a bit, both of you clearly not knowing what to say. 
“I think we should talk,” you finally said and he nodded, sitting up and resting his back against the headboard. You sat across from him, playing with your hands, nervous to look back at him. 
“I don’t do one night stands,” you told him finally meeting his gaze. “I don’t want to just be another one of the girls you hook up with and go out with every once in a while. I need more than that.”
“Schatje, my heart is only yours to break,” he told you and your heart fluttered. “And it’s been like that for a while now.” 
“Well I don’t really plan on breaking it,” you teased, crawling back into his lap. He rested his chin on the top of your head as you got settled, smiling to himself. 
“That’s good because I think Daniel would kill you if you hurt me,” he said and you laughed out loud, snuggling into the man who had been there for you more than anyone. 
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Request: you know the episode 4.19 where Sam and Dean get a call from their supposed half brother and their rightfully suspicious and it ends up being a hunt for them? What about instead of Sam getting tied down and bled it’s their baby sister? She’s small and young and definitely shouldn’t be losing this much blood, she can’t even lift herself up after Sam and Dean manage to free her. Pls and thank you!
Request: I have a request on s4 e19 when Sam gets tortured by the ghouls. Can you reverse the roles with Winchester sister? No rush do whenever you want. Just remember to take breaks and drink water! Bye! :)
Sam and Dean Winchester x Sister!Reader
Warnings: Extreme Blood Loss
A/N: Please let me know if you like this because it helps motivate me to write more lol! Requests are open and if I haven’t gotten to yours yet feel free to request again because I have over 200 requests and I’m working on a bunch. You can request anything and everything I don’t care and I will never get annoyed!!
“Okay we’ve closed off every other way into the house.” You said to Adam, looking at the last tunnel in the house that wasn’t closed off. “If this thing is coming, it’s coming through here.” You finished at the same time as a door creaked through the house. Your attention immediately snapped towards the noise.
“You were saying?” Adam asked and you looked back towards him.
“Adam!” You heard from the other room and your heart sank.
“Adam!” It cried again, but before you could make your next move Adam was already calling back out.
“Mom?” Adam yelled, ready to run.
“No!” You tried to stop him, but he didn’t listen.
“Mom!” He yelled out and pushed past you.
“Adam!” You shouted after him, getting your gun ready. You ran down the steps after him trying to get him to stop.
“Mom?” You heard him sigh in relief.
“Adam no wait!” You cried out and rounded the corner to see Adam and the monster.
“It took me, but I got away.” It cried as Adam embraced her.
“Adam, step away from it.” You screamed with your gun pointed.
“Y/N, what the hell?” He shouted at you, confused.
“It’s not your mother!” You tried to reason with him.
“Adam, who—what is going on?” The monster cried.
“Get away from him!” You yelled at it starting to feel hopeless.
“What is going on?” It cried.
“You listen to me. It’s really her, okay?” Adam said, pushing it behind him.
“There was too much blood, your mother’s dead. There was too much blood in the vents!” You yelled trying to quickly explain before he snatched the gun out of your hand.
“Adam!” It cried.
“Shoot it!” You screamed, now terrified of the predicament you were both in.
“He’s crazy, it’s me!” It yelled in protest of the gun being pointed at it and immediately Adam pointed the gun back at you.
“Look—Adam!” You cried.
“It’s me!” It said.
“That’s not your mother!” You screamed trying to save the both of you and make him understand that his mother was not his mother and in fact the monster they were hunting. He flipped the gun back on the monster.
“Shoot it! It’s not human!” You yelled, trying to get through to him.
“I know.” He smirked, turning to face you. You had no time to be confused with what the hell was happening before he hit you with the butt of the gun and everything went black.
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You woke up to humming and noticed you were tied down to a table. You started struggling to get yourself out, but to no avail.
“Silver. No need none of the tests worked. You’re not shapeshifters. You’re ghouls.” You sneered, staring at Adam’s fake mom.
“You know, I find that term racist.” She replied with a knife in her hand.
“Huh.” You said with attitude, rolling your eyes. You tried to free yourself once more when she came to you sniffing you and biting your ear.
“Ew! Get away you weirdo freak!” You yelled. You had quite a bad problem with bad mouthing monsters and it always ended up biting you in the butt.
“Fresh meat. So much better than what we’re used to.” She grinned.
“Oh I should’ve known. It was the fresh kills that threw me. Ghouls don’t usually go after the living because you’re all just disgusting, filthy, nasty, trash pickers, taking form of the last corpse you choke down like a scavenger.” You sneered, again with the name calling. She was lucky you had to get to the point because you were just going to go on and on with all the negative words in the dictionary.
“And their thoughts, and their memories. Like Adam for instance.” Fake Adam said, walking into the room.
“Yeah well we are what we eat.” She chuckled.
“You’re pathetic monsters.” You said with disgust. Fake Adam sliced your one arm open and you let out a groan. His fake mom immediately went to licking the blood.
“That was for calling us pathetic.” Adam said.
“Yeah I’d call you a lot more than that. Do you have time?” You asked sarcastically, still struggling to get away.
“You know you use that word a lot, Y/N. Monsters.” Fake Adam said and brought the knife down on the table missing you by just an inch.
“But I don’t think you know what it means.” He finished as his fake mom continued to lick the blood pouring out of your arm.
“Her blood—it tastes different.” She said in confusion.
“Our father was a monster? Why? Because of what he ate? He never hurt anyone, Y/N. Living anyway.” Fake Adam smirked and grabbed the knife.
“No he was no monster. But the thing that killed him was. A monster named John Winchester.” Adam’s fake mom said trickling the knife up and down your body. Fake Adam stuck his fingers into the wound on your side and you cried out in pain.
“Thanks to your daddy, my brother and I, grew up on our own.” She explained as he twisted his finger deeper into your side and you let out a scream.
“At least we had each other.” She finished. He took his finger out of your wound and licked the blood off of it.
“Like you and your brothers— inseparable.” He said.
“Actually it was very hard to get you on your own. Your brothers are almost always keeping you out of harms way. Awww how protective.” She said sarcastically.
“So we figured instead of killing all of you, why not just kill you? They would suffer way more knowing that their wittle baby sister is dead.” He said in a fake sad voice.
“Go to hell.” You managed to get out.
“Like you said, Y/N, the only thing you can count on is family.” He said as she sucked more blood out of your arm.
“And for 20 years, we lived like rats. Graveyard after graveyard, all that stinking flesh. And then we thought hey why not move up to the fresher game?” She said.
“And we knew just where to start.” He smirked and started carving on your other arm. You cried out in pain and felt the world fading around you.
“Revenge— it’s never over, is it, Y/N?” He asked, still carving around your arm.
“First, it was John’s cop friend, and then his slut and then his son.” She said twirling her knife around.
“Then I called John, but the son of a bitch was already dead.” Adam sighed, disappointed.
“So I guess you will have to do instead.” She said, petting the side of your face.
“And they won’t interrupt us this time. We’re gonna feed on you nice and slow— like we did with Adam.” He said.
“Oh and by the way, he really was your brother. You should know that.” She grinned. You struggled against the ropes that tied you down, trying anything to escape.
“He was still alive when we took our first bites.” He smiled.
“And he was a screamer!” She said before she sliced your entire forearm. Fake Adam followed after her and sliced your arm again. You screamed in pain and thrashed. You could feel the blood pooling out of your body and you could hear it dripping into the bowls. The way it flowed like a waterfall made you feel absolutely sick. You knew you were going to bleed out and that you didn’t have much time left.
“Y/N, the more you struggle, the faster you’re going to bleed out. So you might as well lie back and relax.” Adam said as you whined and whimpered, trying to stay awake.
“Hey!” You heard Dean scream and a shot ring out.
“Dean, they’re ghouls-“ You tried screaming, but you were so weak it came out as a whisper. You knew Dean heard you though because another shot rung out.
“Which means headshot.” He said as Sam came stumbling into the room.
“Y/N!” He yelled before he was taken down by fake Adam and thrown through the glass doors. Dean immediately followed suit as you groaned and cried out. Your breaths were becoming rapid and shorter. You didn’t have enough energy to pick up your head to see the fight going down. It felt like forever before you saw blurry figure walk back into the room. Not knowing who it was, you tried to get your body to move. You felt like you had a fifty pound weight holding your body down.
“No!” You whimpered weakly, knowing you had no fight left in you.
“Hey, hey, hey, hey, it’s Sam, sweetheart. I got you, you’re safe.” You heard Sam and felt him cup your cheeks to get your attention.
“S‘mmy.” You slurred.
“Yeah, hey bug, it’s me, I got you.” Sam said softly trying to comfort you, knowing that it was bad.
“Dean, she’s freezing cold.” Sam cried out trying to stay calm.
“Shit.” Dean said panicking. You felt the rope being cut off of your one wrist and you groaned out in pain.
“I know kid, I know. Hang in there for me okay?” Dean said, knowing that it was painful, but it had to be done. He started cutting the other one on your wrist while Sam started on your ankles. You felt your heart racing, your body sweating and your skin clammy. You could barely hang on to consciousness and your body felt weighed down by a million weights.
“Mmm scared.” You slurred looking into the blurriness of your brothers.
“You’re going to be okay sweetheart alright? You’re going to be fine. Just keep talking to us okay?” Sam asked, now full on panicking, but trying to keep you calm. You knew that something wasn’t right. This was too much blood and you weren’t sure if you were going to be okay. You let a few tears slide down your cheeks as you struggled to catch your breath.
“No, no, no. You’re going to be okay, alright? I won’t let anything happen to you.” Dean said noticing your tears. He quickly placed rags on your forearms and held them tight to stop the bleeding. You cried out in pain and tried to pull away when you felt him putting pressure on them.
“I know kid, I know. I’m sorry.” Dean said clenching his jaw. Sam made his next move by helping you sit up, but your body felt like jelly. You couldn’t lift yourself up as your head lobbed to the side of you. This feeling absolutely terrified you and left your body trembling in fear. The impending doom was taking over and it was paralyzing you. As your brothers scrambled around you trying to support your body, they urgently discussed their next steps in helping you when you interrupted.
“Mm I going to die?” You whispered weakly, blinking away the dots that clouded your vision. Scared that if you closed them, you wouldn’t open them again.
“HEY, HEY!” Dean yelled and tapped your face. Your eyes snapped wide open and your body trembled uncontrollably as you whimpered in fear.
“You’re not going to die. Do you hear me? Just keep those eyes open for me, alright?” Dean asked with fear in his own eyes, but when he looked into yours he was met with confusion.
“Wh-what?” You started. In an instant, you were confused. Where were you? What happened?
“De?” You called out for your eldest brother, the one who took care of you your entire life. The one who was always there for you when you called.
“Yeah I’m here baby, I’m here.” He said. Baby? He only called you that when something serious was happening. You finally took in your surroundings and saw yourself covered in blood as your brothers worked around you.
“What happened!” You cried out, completely confused and dazed.
“Relax sweetheart, you’re going to be okay, alright? You’re going to be okay.” You heard Sam say as he lifted your body off of the table. You grunted in pain, but your body only grew heavier.
“There’s too much blood!” Dean cried.
“I know, I know!” Sam yelled in frustration.
It felt like time was skipping because the next thing you knew, you were in the impala. You glanced to your right and noticed your dad.
“Dad?” You asked, fuzzily. Dean immediately looked towards Sam who glanced down towards you.
“She’s hallucinating Dean, she’s lost too much blood.” Sam said stealing a concerned glance towards his brother. Dean gripped the steering wheel tight and cursed silently, speeding faster.
“Dad, I missed you.” You cried, which caused Dean to completely break.
“Hey baby, no, dad’s not here, alright? Dad’s not here.” He said weakly, completely terrified of his sister’s state.
“Mmm t’red.” You said weakly, the heaviness and the blood loss making their last round on you.
“Hey, hey, hey, hey, sweetheart, you’ve gotta stay awake.” Sam said urgently, but you didn’t listen and closed your eyes in exhaustion.
“Keep your eyes open please!” Sam cried out and tapped your face. It had no effect on you as you slipped into unconsciousness.
———
You jumped awake to a beeping noise in a complete panic. You were in a daze and physically couldn’t lift yourself up which made you panic more.
“Hey, you’re okay, you’re okay.” You heard Dean say, but the beeping noise only got faster. You were in total confusion and couldn’t make out where you were.
“Relax for me kid, you’re alright.” You heard Dean again and this time felt a hand placed on you. You groggily looked around and saw that you were in a hospital room. You immediately went into an intense shiver unsure if it was from how cold you were or if it was from the nerves that just overcame you. Dean cupped the side of your face, no doubt feeling your body tremor.
“You’re okay.” He said softly, giving you a reassuring nod.
“So cold.” You made out and he sent you a sad look.
“Alright, let me go find a nurse and get you some more blankets.” He replied hesitantly unsure if he wanted to leave you alone when Sam walked into the room with coffee. Sam’s immediate sigh of relief when he saw you awake and his glance towards Dean made you realize how serious whatever happened to you was. Dean left the room and Sam walked towards you.
“Hey sweetheart.” He said softly, sitting in front of you.
“Sammy.” You smiled weakly and tried to reach out to him. He immediately got the hint and took your hands into his.
“I’m here.” He said gently and rubbed his fingers on your hand.
“I’m so weak.” You mumbled, trying to understand why your body felt so heavy.
“What happened?” You whispered, not remembering anything that took place. Sam’s face fell and his eyes filled with sorrow.
“The ghouls had you bleeding out and when we got to you it was almost too late. You were so pale and you were ice cold. You were so cold bug, it terrified me.” Sam said, looking away and trying to collect himself.
“There was blood everywhere, we weren’t even sure how you were alive at that point. Then you started hallucinating and went unconscious. We thought we lost you, God we were so scared.” He said, shedding a tear and quickly wiping it before it could drop.
“We rushed you to the hospital, not knowing if you were even alive and waited around for hours not hearing anything. Then the doctor came out and told us you were stabilized, but lost 35% of your blood. He said you should’ve died and that it was nothing less of a miracle.” He said as his voice cracked.
“You were in a coma for two weeks.” He explained quietly, knowing this was going to freak you out.
“I’ve been out for two weeks?!” You asked, hysterically.
“They said it could’ve been up to a couple months, we just weren’t sure when you’d wake up.” He said as you just stared blankly at him.
“We were so terrified to lose you. Dean even prayed a few times.” He finished. You both knew that Dean never prayed and he never believed that there was a God out there so the fact that it got to the point where Dean was praying, made you extremely emotional. The tears started streaming down your face.
“I’m so sorry Sammy, I should’ve known it was a trap.” You cried, feeling terrible and guilty that your brothers had to be put through something so traumatic because of your own mistake.
“Sweetheart, no, it’s not your fault. Me and Dean should’ve never left you alone with Adam. We weren’t thinking and it almost cost you your life.” Sam said, staring into your eyes and wiping your tears. Before you could say something back, the door opened. Dean, a few nurses and a doctor walked in. They checked your vitals and explained that you were going to be very weak for about a month. You had iron deficiency anemia due to the blood loss and it would take a long time for you to start feeling normal again. They left the room and Dean put the extra blankets that they brought in on top of you. The weight and coziness of the blankets made you immediately feel tired. Your brothers took notice and Dean kissed the side of your head.
“Get some rest kid, we’ll be here.” Dean reassured.
“Thank you for saving me.” You smiled softly looking between your brothers.
“Always.” Dean said as Sam grabbed your hand and gave it a gentle squeeze.
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Make That Double, Ch10 - Yan!SatoSugu X Fem!Reader [AO3]
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❥ Word Count: ~7.8K
❥ Warnings: non-con, rimming (m. receiving btwn stsg), double piv penetration, lactation kink (w/ geto), mommy kink (w/ geto), fingering (f. receiving), cunnilingus, pussy slapping
❥ Summary: Double the trouble, or double the fun? Difficult to say when you're unfortunately roped into the affairs of two powerful shamans who can't leave each other alone, either.
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Lately, activity has picked up quite a bit for Geto and his goons. He’s had to be absent for longer stretches of time, which gives you more time to plot. You do have the incantation and the instructions memorized by heart that Miguel has given you, and during times which he remains behind, he has coached you through a bit of the technique he’s embedded into your necklace, which is actually something called a cursed tool.
Much of this world is still unknown to you, even with the briefings Miguel has been kind enough to give you—hopefully without any of Geto’s curse spirits monitoring, but according to Miguel, most of the time they’ve had a green light on all of this.
“Initially, Geto instructed me to make it so that when you wear that necklace, it binds him to you,” he explains to you one day when Geto had been out of the city to take care of some urgent matters that you don’t care to know the details about. “It also grants you the ability to see curses, but I’d imagine he hasn’t released any around you since he hasn’t felt the need to…”
You interject, “No, actually. I… I tried to pull some things before and I saw some barely there blobs trying to prevent me from trying anything. So yeah, while my perception of curse spirits aren’t strong, I know that they’re around me all the time. Geto must keep some around to make sure I’m not up to anything that might hurt me. Before you ask, I don’t sense or feel any around me now but I figure you already picked up on that.”
Miguel doesn’t need you to elaborate, thankfully. He grunts in response, adjusting his scarf.
“Trust me, you’re not going to be stuck here for much longer. Not going to even lie to you, I’m pretty worried about Geto. Since the last family meeting, he’s been a bit…”
“A bit what?” you ask, furrowing your brows as you beckon him to specify.
“…out of character, I suppose. Have you noticed him moving differently at all?” Miguel crosses his arms over his broad chest and stares you down, waiting for a direct answer.
You think hard for a moment. Sure, he’s been a lot more hands off especially lately. He has lasted way longer than he had before. He keeps his promise of Satoru not touching you, and instead they remain focused on each other, and you’re allowed to mind your own business unless Geto requests for you to try something—gently, actually. Surprisingly gently. He doesn’t seem angry or disappointed when you refuse anything you’re not ready for, and he doesn’t even try to manipulate or charm you into it like he had in the beginning.
“…Actually yes, but I didn’t think too much of it. Just thought it was another way for him to try to get his way with me.”
Miguel draws out a sigh. “Well, there you go. Geto’s a principled guy. He doesn’t shift his gears at the drop of a hat, so either he’s thrown in the towel or something else is going on that even I can’t understand.”
What the literal fuck does that mean?
“That doesn’t…I’m sorry. I don’t think I get it. He’s still…you know. Himself.”
“You sure about that?” Miguel challenges, dark eyes boring into yours, almost like he’s piercing through your very soul. “Because had I not known any better, he gave himself up the minute he let you into his life. Of course I could be wrong.”
You chew on your lower lip, considering.
“What makes you so certain I shouldn’t take this, his motivations, at face value?”
“It’s like I told you, Miss …. He’s a principled guy. The minute he let you into his life is the minute he realized the inevitable.”
Oh whoop dee doo. More cryptic bullshit. Should you pry anymore?
“I see,” you reply, shifting in your spot. “Thank you, Miguel. For everything. I just hope that I can pull this off.”
“The chances of things working out for ya are slim, Miss …, but not zero.”
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Geto seems a little distracted by something as he shuffles around the bedroom, preparing a change of clothes for the night. Perhaps it has something to do with what you overheard in a meeting you aren’t supposed to be around for and had it not been Miguel who caught you eavesdropping you likely would have been reprimanded or punished or something else right now.
But Geto doesn’t appear suspicious of you even now. You remain seated on the bed, completely bare. You feel comforted by the silk sheets against your skin as you clutch it tight toward your body. You slowly breathe out, trying to relax your nerves as much as you can around him.
You jump in your spot as he stands at the foot of the bed before kneeling to you. He’s disrobed, tied his long, luscious locks into that tight bun. He looks shockingly unthreatening, but you know better.
“I fear things may become a bit…messier in these next two or so years,” he sighs, and even you can see something must be weighing on his shoulders—what is his plan with the Night Parade? Does it matter? "I’m not sure how much longer there’s going to be.”
He joins you on the bed, and you shift in your spot, supporting your back against the headboard as you cast him a curious look. He leans into you, resting his head into the crook of your neck, breathing deeply, willing himself to relax. You grunt a bit from the added weight. He may appear skinny but he does maintain quite a bit of muscle and it’s evident in when he carries you.
“I need you,” Geto murmurs into your skin. His arms cage around the dip of your waist and you squeeze your eyes shut, biting back a sigh. God, you’re so fucking tired of this bullshit. No one’s meant to live like this, and he expects you to smile and fucking bear it.
You know, you’ve just gotten used to the idea that Geto isn’t initiating much intimacy anymore. All in an effort for you to warm up to the idea of a future with him and with the twins. But it’s not working for you, and he realizes that maybe his efforts are in vain and it all means he can still take advantage of you. While you have accumulated quite a number of small wins, you know they aren’t going to last forever. They’re fleeting, at best.
“What is it that you need, darling? Use your words.” Gods every time this feels so gross yet you don’t really have a say in that, don’t you? Even if Geto has given you a little more room for some illusion of agency you know not to let it get to your head. You snap off your bra and push out your breasts, presenting one of your stiff nipples to him.
“I need you,” he repeats, practically panting at the sight, running his tongue over his lips a few times.
Geto’s mouth hangs open a bit, his cheeks flushed, he’s been craving this for some time and you can tell. He’s kept his hands off for far longer than before, and maybe with the recent developments that you only inadvertently hear about (and by extension don’t confront Geto over because you learned your lesson the last time), you don’t protest and are a bit more receptive to what he wants. Relationships are give and take… even if he does basically all of the ‘taking’ in this particular brand of it.
His lips latch onto your bud, and you already feel the milk rushing out of your tit and spilling into his waiting tongue. He groans in delight as your sweet milk tickles his taste buds in the best way and one of his hands moves to fondle your unoccupied tit, his finger flicking the other bud to stiffness and pinching it playfully, making you inhale sharply. He laughs at your reaction; the dietary plan he’s put you on isn’t all that restrictive but he has mentioned the particular ingredients like fennel seeds, for instance, aids in producing more milk. The meds further stimulate the production and you’re more than certain some of the formula for all of this may have been imbued with that ‘cursed energy’ you hear and Gojo babble on to with each other on more than one occasion.
The glorbs every time he sucks up your milk like a suction are so audible and fucking disgusting each time. But he wants to be taken care of, that’s fine. You can do that. More like you have to do that. Your fingers scratch at his scalp, and he purrs, seeming to like that. He nips at your nipple in response and you whimper from the sharp contact. His tongue laves around the sensitive skin, and you moan low, not realizing how flushed and debauched you are yourself.
“Sugu…ru…” your voice is a bit strained but he hums in response, playfully flicking the tip of his tongue against the bud he just finished feeding off of before his mouth latched onto the other nipple. He takes both his hands and squeezes the large mounds of squishy flesh and you wriggle beneath the weight of his body. He growls like it’s a warning, sucking harder on your nipple like he needs it to survive and it might not be too far off the mark considering the recent developments. You feel something wet pooling in your groin and you know the sheets must be lightly damp by now and you aren’t ashamed of it anymore, more like on the path to true acceptance. Because it’s not going to be much longer. You’re so certain of it; soon you’re going to be free of this humiliation, and Geto can die alone and pathetic like he’s been destined to.
Your fingers dig tightly into the sheets when Geto sucks a bit harder, his wet muscle flicking off the droplets of milk that have gone astray. His lips trail between your plump mounds, feathery light but worshipping every bit of skin they touch. He stops, nips at your soft skin before lapping his tongue against the sore spot, leaving a few more marks behind. He trails down your stomach, peppering soft kisses there.
“Mamma,” his voice rumbles like a lion’s roar. “You’re so perfect for me.”
“I’m happy I make you happy, darling,” you manage to say, clamping your hand over your mouth to conceal an embarrassed shriek when you feel his tongue twist between your folds. Your body shivers and you feel a little dazed. At this point Geto knows how to make you feel good, knows how to make this not all that awful and you hate that so much. You hate that someone you loathe with everything you have has this kind of power over you.
“You make me feel the most alive I’ve ever felt,” he mumbles as his tongue laves around your sensitive core, the tip flicking against your stiff clit. “I want you to marry me.”
You don’t want to. You don’t, yet you know that even if you do, you still have a shot at getting the fuck out of there. Should you just… give in for now? Let him have another win?
Is it going to make a difference in the end? Even you admit you have your doubts. When Miguel explains the technique he’s used on your insignia, he says that there is still a chance for it to fail. In fact that there’s a higher chance for it to fail than succeed which is why you need to use it wisely. Maybe on another occasion when Geto fucks off with Gojo for a while.
A chance for it to fail doesn’t mean your success rate is completely 0. Just remember that.
“But Suguru…” you start to protest, but he cuts you off by shushing you harshly.
“Marry me and make this blasted world worth living in again,” he interjects while sucking on your folds, and your legs tremble, instinctively tightening around his shoulders. His hands rest against your fleshy thighs, massaging you gently. The wet noises from your pussy seem to echo in the bedroom, and your cheeks dust pink from more embarrassment. Even if you don’t have any potential witnesses this is so humiliating.
“But… Suguru, I…m not… ready…” you babble, you try to play up your role, but a response is a harsh slap on your pussy, making you weep a little. “Please, I just…”
Geto hushes you while twirling his tongue around your stiff clit, before closing his lips around it and sucking hard. Your heart is pounding so hard you feel like it’s going to burst out of your chest. Your body is clammy and sweaty and more heat pools in your groin and stomach.
“You,” he grunts, dragging his tongue down your spongy skin. “Are the only reason for me to tolerate a life like this. So marry me, Mamma.”
No.
He spits onto your pussy and dips his tongue into your hole, his eyes rolling upward to enjoy your debauched state.
“It’s not a request,” he growls low between lapping his tongue up and down your pussy. You feel like you’re floating in air; you hate that he knows how to make your body feel all kinds of euphoria when in reality you feel anything but around him. Your breathing is already labored and ragged, and that self-assured smirk on his face makes your face go red from both fury and arousal.
“Suguru…!” you shout, tightening your legs around his neck.
You see stars behind your eyes when you come, the sensation practically dizzying and you’re glad you’re grounded by the bed. Geto reacts with a string of dark chuckles, so condescending, so maddening. Your eyes peer up to meet his, piercing, twinkling from triumph.
He grins down at you, his hands still ok the fleshy parts of your thighs as he presses affectionate kisses between them. Your brain might short circuit and definitely not for the reasons Geto hopes.
He drags you down until you’re at his level, his body tenting over yours like a shield from the world. Like he wants to protect you from the horrors of it, but doesn’t he understand that all the horrors you have faced at all are all because of him?
He hasn’t even broken a sweat himself, leaning in to press his forehead against yours, syncing his breathing with yours. You try to appreciate the stillness of the moment before he decides you don’t deserve any time to breathe, but he seems pushy about the marriage bit.
His hands on your thighs adjust them so they hook around his hips. You whimper. You know what comes next.
“Marry me,” he murmurs again as his lips ghost over yours. “Please.”
No.
“Okay,” you reply weakly, squeezing your eyes shut as his lips finally meet yours, ravishing them. You don’t really kiss back but your mind drifts off to when you desired being kissed passionately like this, with someone you genuinely love and who genuinely loves you. Maybe Geto believes he’s in love with you, but it can’t be true.
“I love you,” he drawls against your lips, pulling away for a moment to slip on a condom.
Maybe he believes that he loves you. It’s fine if he does but you know you never will. His lips find the crook of your neck as his cock breaches your hole, and your throat tightens as you fight back another whine.
“No,” he commands with a yell, nipping against yours jaw. “Let me hear you, Mamma.”
“Suguru…” you reply in a weaker tone, and he growls in disapproval, sharply bucking his hips. His whole body is coated in sweat and some of his hair clings to his forehead and around his cheeks. Even in this state, he looks something akin to a powerful deity.
“Suguru!” you cry, arching your back into the mattress.
“Better,” he purrs into your skin, before licking along your neck and throat. “I want to hear more of your lovely sounds. We must commemorate today. You’re mine for the rest of our lives.”
No. You aren’t. You never will be.
“Suguru, please, I—!” You’re cut off with a kiss; he refuses to hear another word out of you now (unless it’s a preferred response). His tongue twirls around yours as each languid, smooth roll of his hips slides his length just a bit deeper inside. You feel the tip of his cock brush against it and you whine into his lips, hands sliding down his sides which makes him the one shuddering all over now.
It’s over before you know it; your walls clenching around his length and he keeps pumping inside you without stopping for a breath. His lips remain locked on yours; your fingers sink into his muscled skin and you swear your body might give out but he refuses to let up the erratic pace.
He pulls away just slightly, purring into your mouth.
“You are perfect for me, Mamma.”
You wish you could agree. But you do admit, from your focal point, the way his hair falls over his face and perfectly frames his sharp features makes him look like something from the Heavens. The way his eyes soften looking down at you, and not even with a hint of condescension, it’s… different. Whatever must run through his mind, it can’t be good, and it can’t add up for you. If he’s convinced that he’s in love with you, then you can’t change that. But you can work with it.
He doesn’t pull out for a while, just taking the time to feel you around him. To feel himself inside you. He sighs in content, resting his head between your breasts drenched in his spit, your sweat, and splotched of milk that he gladly licks up without so much as a second thought before lifting himself back up to flash a little smirk at you.
But even his smirk seems off. It doesn’t carry the same energy of someone who knows they have taken you away from everything for their personal amusement.
And you find yourself wondering what Miguel might mean by Geto officially surrendering to his fate.
Your hand reaches up to cup his face, brushing some of his fringes behind his ear. He is a breathtaking man. A devil with the face of an angel—isn’t that why demons make themselves appear angelic? To lure victims into a sense of security?
He leans into your touch, kissing the palm of your hand. His forehead scrunches a bit as he relishes in how your walls still feel like they’re pulsating around his cock, a few aftershocks from your orgasm.
“I need more,” he says, peppering little kisses around your face down to your collarbone.
“Suguru,” you reply, your hand dragging down to the crook of his neck. “Let’s rest for a bit. You seem tired, darling. Something’s troubling you.”
“You don’t have to worry about it,” he replies between more heated kisses. “It’s politics. Between our worlds. It doesn’t concern you.”
“You keep saying things like that, darling, but don’t you just…”
“Just what?” he beckons.
“Don’t you need someone to actually…talk to?” You can’t believe what you’re doing here; didn’t you just say you learned your lesson the last time you tried to meddle into business that had nothing to do with you?
His eyebrows furrow at that. Obviously you’re in no position to ask such things of him. But it’s more of a push in the right direction, a suggestion. Nothing more. He doesn’t have to agree with you.
“Won’t change anything,” he says after a period of reflection. “I appreciate that you’re trying, my love. But your role is with the twins and I, separate from all of that. You’re with your family here.”
You will NEVER be family.
Delightfully oblivious as ever to your own wars clashing in your mind, Geto kisses your lips again. Slow. Gentle. Passionate. Like he really believes he loves you.
The kiss grows more heated again, and sometime during he’s finally pulled out, he didn’t even come, his cock still painfully hard and standing erect wrapped in that condom. This is the first time he hasn’t chased after his own pleasure once he took care of you. This time he seems fully devoted to pleasing you, making you satisfied.
He bites, nibbles your lips and moans like an actor in a lewd video into your lips that have become cracked and red and swollen from his treatment.
“Suguru…?” you manage to utter between each kiss, each one more desperate than the last.
Geto moans your name, low and needy.
“I love you,” he confesses again, “I love you.”
You find yourself unable to say it back, but you don’t get a chance to say a word anyway; his lips meet yours again. You find yourself trying to return it, at least be a little responsive or reactive, try to keep him unsuspecting for a while longer. Even if you know he carries all of his monsters or apparitions with him whenever he’s gone for longer stretches of time, you can’t help but fear the slightest chance that he has someone—or something—keeping an eye on you even if Miguel or Suda insist that they would have known all along.
You can’t afford anymore fuck-ups. You can’t fuck up your chances again.
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Finding time to spare for Satoru has become increasingly more difficult. With Yaga practically on Satoru’s ass 24/7, he can’t exactly make quick pit stops to the temple anymore. They have had to find compromise somewhere, so Geto has been back to visiting his penthouse.
Even if logically nothing can be done should Gojo not follow direct orders from the higher-ups, he still can’t afford more penalties, and Geto can’t afford to raise any more suspicion from the long stretches of time he’s been hiding away from his own duties. Just for a few moments with the love of his life.
“Are you sure about this?” Gojo asks, intertwining his fingers with Geto’s as they lounge in his king sized mattress. Sure, Geto may have excused these longer absences of his own as part of his duty but it’s in reality to stay a while longer with Gojo. Gojo’s the one feeling like a burden now, but Geto won’t have it much like Gojo won’t have it every time Geto talks down on himself and how much he means to Gojo. Can’t go around being a hypocrite, right? “It’s a big step, you know! I’ve always expected you’re going to marry someone as sexy and perfect as her. I mean, I was hoping it’d be me but I understand we can’t necessarily given the situation here.”
Geto rolls his eyes a little in jest at that last comment. Of course, in Geto’s world, they’re already married, practically inseparable, but Gojo has his world, and Geto has his. And they have to act as if they don’t interlock their bodies like rabid, mating animals between everything that’s going on.
“Yes,” Geto answers, kissing into his shoulder. Gojo sighs dreamily at the contact, snuggling closer to his lover. “I’m marrying her.”
“That’s great,” Gojo replies, but there’s an underlying hint of longing in his tone. “But how does she feel?”
“It doesn’t matter,” Geto quips as he trails more kisses along Gojo’s exposed, sweaty skin, humming at the salty tang hitting his tongue. “Isn’t this what you wanted for me, Gojo? Her being here gives me more of a reason to tolerate a life like this.”
Gojo can’t help but scoff at that sentiment, eyes flickering with something akin to envy.
“So what, I’m not enough?” he mutters like a stubborn child. Geto rolls his eyes again.
“Baby, look at me—“ Gojo does, “—Of course you are,” Geto counters, pecking his lips for good measure. “You know what I mean.”
“I know,” Gojo replies with a longing sigh. He accepts another kiss, unable to hide the smile playing on his lips in spite of how much he feels like he’s going to miss out. “I’m sorry.”
Geto hums in response before capturing his lips again in another fervent kiss, a hand snaking down his chest to draw lazy patterns across one of his pecs. Gojo sighs again in that dreamy way, completely putty in Geto’s hands and he’s unashamed of it whatsoever. Geto is the love of his life, his one and only, and Geto feels the same except now there’s someone else thrown in the mix that they can both have fun with too.
“You’re always my forever, Satoru,” Geto swears in a whisper, his tone tender—a side to him only Gojo gets to witness. “We just have other matters to sort through now.”
Geto playfully pinches one of Gojo’s nipples and that draws a gasp from his lips, and Geto laughs heartedly, dragging his tongue along the defined lines of his muscles. Gojo brushes his long, slender fingers through Geto’s endless locks of soft hair, and Geto purrs in approval.
“I do really miss Princess, you know…” Gojo points out with that grin widening and brightening his previously sullen and worn features.
“Then come by sometime before the ceremony,” Geto suggests, “We must commemorate the occasion, don’t you think?” Geto insists with a knowing expression as he rests his chin on Gojo’s strong chest.
“Of course,” Gojo answers, that grin still plastered on his face like it’s been sewn on there. A little glint in his azure eyes suggests something a bit… worse, like there’s something else he’s plotting.
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While Geto’s still off visiting Satoru, you’re still left with little time to plot your escape plan when you have to attend to the twins the majority of his absence. Both Miguel and Suda have found ways to pull you aside to give you a pointer or two but they know they don’t want to make things more suspicious to the twins but they seem so lost in their own universes you doubt it’s going to be much of an issue.
But a part of you also knows not to underestimate anything. A part of you still tries to amplify your perception of curse spirits but you don’t detect any around you at this point in time. No matter what you’re doing, whether you’re accompanying the girls during their video game sessions or when they want to opt for something else. Or when they want to go out and about—not without one of Geto’s loyal goons keeping a close eye on you while you take the twins out of the temple. You do try to see if you can pick up any during any outings with them but you have failed each time. The most you can make out are outlines of spirits, but Nanako and Mimiko has exorcised them before you can react.
That’s where you learn a bit more about what they can do. Mimiko can manipulate with that doll she carries around with her everywhere. Meanwhile, you understand why Nanako is attached to a camera—she can manipulate curse spirits through photos. You don’t understand what any of this means, but it’s interesting to watch. Even if you don’t understand the full extent of what happens in front of you just yet.
Miguel has mentioned during one of his limited coaching sessions that the first step to being a sorcerer at all is being able to perceive curses. Yet you have failed spectacularly at that part. It’s true that kids and animals are the most sensitive to their presence, and you might have recalled sensing spirits like the Hat Man or the Smiling Man from popular lore.
“All curses are human-born,” he remember him explaining to you one day. “They develop through the negative emotions of humans. That’s why we often hear that most of our struggles are self-made. It’s true, isn’t it, given what we h ave to deal with, huh? Being a sorcerer is a thankless job and often seen as a bunch of hooey to those monkeys. Let’s just say it’s worse in the more rural areas, where people like me and the twins came from.”
“I can only imagine,” you find yourself mumbling in response. “This must take a lot of self-control to master.”
“That’s one way to look at it,” he concedes with a nod. “But manipulating and controlling your cursed energy—something everyone has, sorcerer or not—takes mostly a deeply innate ability. Some people are just gifted at that stuff. Like Geto or that Satoru Gojo punk. They’re the best a small world like ours has to offer.”
“So I’ve been told,” you mutter to yourself.
Miguel rests a reassuring hand on your shoulder, flashing you a smirk. “Listen, Miss …. Just remember you do have backup in case things go awry. I can’t guarantee we won’t get caught, but don’t worry about us when that happens. You need to get out of here. You don’t belong here.”
You can’t help smiling.
“I’m so glad you’re deciding to help me get the hell out of here,” you breathe, “I just can’t help but wonder why.”
Miguel gives you a non-committal hum.
“You just seem like someone worth sticking out for,” he replies, “But honestly, I don’t really have a good reason behind it. Seeing someone like you, someone who was probably minding your own damn business before all of this, going through what you are… just doesn’t sit right with me. I’m not claiming to be good, like I told you before.”
“Thank you,” you tell him again. He returns your smile.
“No need, Miss ….”
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“Princess!” Gojo exclaims with glee riddled all over his expression as he climbs down the stairs to greet you. “Congratulations on your engagement. It was going to happen sooner or later.”
He strides up to you, cups your face and greets you with a long smack of his lips against yours before approaching Geto and doing the same. Geto secures a possessive hold around Gojo’s hips so he doesn’t pull entirely away from him and it doesn’t seem like Gojo’s protesting, anyway. When Geto twists his neck to face you, your face falls upon realization. You know that look.
That can’t be good news for you, but when do you ever have good options between them?
“My love, can you make this final exception for the sake of celebration? Satoru does want to wish us well, you know,” Geto scoots you closer into him, his lips against your ear. “After that, he doesn’t have to touch you again, but you can do whatever you like.”
“But Suguru,” you begin, before eyeballing Satoru who’s waiting beside you with eagerness evident in those sharp oceanic eyes, deeply unsettling the longer you stare at them. Something about Satoru aside from the obvious seems… off-putting. You can’t place what it is, but you know you have heard many of Geto’s goons refer to him as some kind of God in the world of jujutsu sorcery. But he’s far from a merciful God, or even a good one.
But you do remember what Miguel says about that—that they’re sorcerers, not saints. They don’t claim to be good or right in whatever they do, and this holds true for both Geto and Gojo.
Gojo bounces his leg out of impatience, meeting your gaze full of hope and passion. He has missed having the agency to touch you, to do as he pleases…
“Please, my love,” Suguru pleads with a little growl, his hand reaching out to you and brushing his finger along the chain around your neck, jingling a bit as it moves. “Just this once. I won’t request this again another time.”
You don’t believe that in the slightest, yet you know you might not be here for much longer than you have to be. You cling onto that hope that whatever you plot with Miguel and Suda that it will work even if those chances are slim.
He promised it’s not zero, you remind yourself, that’s enough for me.
“Okay,” you concede with a weak tone, unable to wholly say no this time. If Geto swears this will be the only time before the marriage ceremony.
Tweedledum’s eyes twinkle from sheer happiness, and Geto loosens his grip on him so he has full autonomy to pounce on you and pin you to the large couch like an untamed animal. Geto laughs in dark amusement as Gojo smothers your face and neck in slobbery, sloppy kisses before he locks his body around yours; your chests pressing so tightly together you fear you might suffocate from the proximity.
“Fuck, gorgeous, I missed you, missed you so much,” Gojo babbles between playful and messy little swirls of his tongue against your jaw. You can’t even struggle or squirm; the added weight too much, keeping you secured in place and a gasp leaves your lips as he digs one of his knees into your crotch, forcing your legs apart. He digs into your crotch and grinds against your sensitive core, which you already feel some slick building and dampening your panties and his pants.
“Looks like she missed you, Satoru,” you hear Geto purr from somewhere above you but you can’t even adjust in your place. You hear Gojo groan as Geto yanks his pants and boxers down, leaning into to smack his lips against his ass and perineum.
Gojo lets out a shuddering gasp, burying his head into the crook of your neck as he whimpers and wriggles closer to the sensation.
“God you’re so fucking mean,” Gojo bites out, pathetically nibbling at your ear to try to ground himself and you hate that you’re immobile practically.
“Please… can’t breathe,” you gasp out and Gojo’s lips quirk upward as he adjusts himself ever so slightly, but still rubbing his knee into your damp crotch.
“Sorry about that, Princess. Better?” he purrs into your ear before nibbling on the lobe. You whimper in response. A slight improvement sure but you’re still immobile, just how they like it.
Gojo’s eyes dilate as Geto slathers his tongue around the rim of his tight hole, and he moans low into your skin.
“Fuck, fuck, baby, stop…” he begs through a lewd moan. “Being so fucking mean…”
Geto’s hand comes down hard on his ass.
“Do you mean that, Satoru?” he teases, the tip of his tongue catching into his hole and making Gojo squirm under the slightest touch or sensation
“N-no,” he groans, inching his ass closer and sticking it more upward like the obedient dog Geto’s trained him to be. You keep your eyes shut, unable to witness this like you have countless times before. Gojo seeks reprieve from the torment by tormenting you; his knee still grinding into your crotch and making you whimper and whine and weep. His lips leaving behind little marks that tingle in their wake.
“Sssatoru…” you slur, your eyes rolling back into your skull as your orgasm sends shockwaves through your body. He grunts in approval, plunging his slobbery lips onto yours and rolling his tongue against your shier one. He grabs one of your hands and guides it to his cock, veiny and swollen and leaking. You wrap your hand around his size and brush your thumb against his slit and he sucks in a shaky breath, approving and needy. He’s getting worked on both ends and he adjusts his position for you to have some wiggle room and you can focus on getting him off while Geto is still busy eating him out. His expert tongue laves between his perineum and his asshole and somehow Gojo can still maintain some semblance of composure.
“Don’t worry, Princess,” he strains his voice through the soft moans as he fucks his cock into your soft palm. “I got you. You have nothing to worry—fuck—about.”
He peels your panties aside and dips his finger between your damp, slick folds and you utter a little whimper.
“Please, I can’t,” you plea, but Gojo only tuts at you as he draws lazy circles around your stiff little bundle of nerves.
“Yes you can,” he snarls, grunting as his own orgasm rushes through his body but somehow he can remain composed while he’s tending to you. Geto shuffles around in the back, before repositioning Gojo and you by extension. Gojo sits up and rests you on one of his legs as he continues to play with your soaked pussy.
Your hand doesn’t dare to leave his cock, knowing you could be punished if you did, even if Geto swears not to bring harm to you, it doesn’t mean he can’t find other ways to get his point across. Geto watches from beside the two of you as you fondle each other. Your body is coiling from the intense heat, and you find yourself bucking into Gojo’s skillful, eager fingers.
“That’s it,” Gojo praises, kissing your cheek. “I’m not so bad, right Princess?”
When you don’t answer, you hear Geto click his tongue in disapproval. Dread fills your chest at that.
“He asked you a question, love.”
“You m-make me f-feel good, Satoru,” you stammer and Gojo coos at you as he slips another finger inside you.
“Goooood. That’s all I want, Princess. I just want to make you feel good, be a part of your life. S’not fair that I don’t get my share these days but bearing the responsibility of being the strongest means I can’t be here as much as I’d like to be. Can you forgive me for that, Princess?”
He twists his fingers inside you and brushes against your spot, making you thrash in his hold. Your grasp on his shaft tightens and he sighs in delight.
“I f-forgive you b-but w-we miss you. S-satoru…!” Your free hand clutches at his wrist as you feel another wave of an orgasm coming on and you can’t take it; you splatter all over his hand and some of your arousal splashes onto the ground.
“Gorgeous,” Gojo murmurs, his tone reverent, “So fucking gorgeous on my fingers. Now you can take my cock. It’s missed your perfect little pussy.”
Geto chuckles as he tears open the condom and helps Gojo slip it onto his strained, throbbing cock. He presses a soft kiss to the tip before Gojo hoists you up like you weigh a bucket of feathers and sinks you onto his cock until just the head enters your tight, soppy heat. Your juices make it easy to slide you all the way down to the base of his cock, and Geto growls as he watches the scene unfold intently; his hand resting on his lap as his own cock strains against his slacks.
“Fuck, so fucking tight. Guess even Gsto’s cock doesn’t stretch you out for long, huh? Fucking perfect for me,” Gojo babbles as he bounces you on his cock like you’re his cheap whore and it feels so fucking humiliating yet you’re moaning because you can’t deny how good it feels. Gojo’s size doesn’t make you as uncomfortable as Geto’s does; he’s much easier to take.
“Hear that, Suguru? Man, she fucking loves me!” Gojo cackles as he bucks his hips in time with moving you up and down.
“Of course she does,” Geto replies as he pets Gojo’s hair, kissing his temple. Geto rests his free hand on your clit and rubs hard on it, making you shriek from the overstimulation. The sounds of Gojo’s cock slapping against you and the lewd squelching from your juices reverberates through your ears like a loud bass and fuck you hate it so much. You hate that it’s beginning to feel kind of good.
“You should see how fucking good you look right now,” Gojo rambles on again as he whips out his smart phone, switching on the selfie camera and recording you and him.
You hate seeing yourself. You hate what you see right in front of you—Gojo’s wide, manic grin as he oogles his long, veiny cock disappearing into your dripping cunt and your face. Your fucking face is what’s humiliating. Your complexion is reddened; your face and neck is coated in sweat. You appear limp and completely out of it—like you’ve given up though that can’t be further from the truth. You have to sell the naive damsel role because that’s what they both like, making them think they have full power over you but someday soon you’re going to stick both your fucking middle fingers at them when you’re riding off into sunset toward sweet freedom.
He stops the short recording and sets his phone aside; his tongue sticking out at the corner of his mouth as he fucks deeper inside of you, groaning as your walls clench and flutter around his length.
“You’re killing me, Satoru,” Geto laments, frowning as he palms himself through his slacks before finally pulling himself out. “Hurry before I stick my cock inside with yours.”
Your eyes widen at that in sheer horror as your head turns to Geto’s direction. His expression makes your heart sink; he’s not interested in sparing you a little dignity and really plans on bullying his cock alongside Gojo’s because he’s growing impatient.
“No no no, please, Sugu… I can’t!” you shout, shaking your head frantically as tears well in the corners of your eyes.
Geto’s frown deepens, his forehead wrinkling as he caresses your cheek with his knuckles.
“You can take it, my love,” he coos as he fists his cock into full hardness. You bite back a choked sob.
“No, no, Suguru…please it’ll be too much..!”
Tears stream down your cheeks as you protest but Geto disregards everything you say as he wraps his cock.
“Damn, Suguru,” Gojo cackles, “Can’t let it wait, huh?”
“Shut up,” he hisses as he pushes the tip of his cock into your pussy, and Gojo moans feeling Geto’s dick rub against his. The stretch absolutely fucking hurts and you weep, babbling endlessly and begging him not to go further but he doesn’t listen to you this time. Maybe he’s getting tired of being kind to you.
He manages to fit a good portion of his size inside and you’re sobbing so hard, your body is on fire and not in a pleasant way. They fill you up and stretch you out and they’re cackling together like the psychopaths they are.
“Fuuuuuuck,” Gojo growls, kissing the top of your head as he spears his cock into you with deadly precision. “Fuck fuck fuck you’re so much tighter. ‘M gonna come.”
And he follows through on his word, fucking into you with one last hard thrust before he gives you a little mercy and slides his cock out so Geto can have his way with you.
Gojo trails kisses all over your tear-strained face and ignores your continued weeping and begging to stop.
“Shhhh, we’re just getting started, Princess. We have so much making up to do before you and Suguru tie the knot, yeah? Just relax and let us take care of you. That’s all we want.”
Such fucking lies.
Geto growls as now he’s the sole cock drilling into you, and you’re stretched nice around his size. Your walls are still fluttering and squeezing around him and trying to suck him inside deeper and Geto looks down at you with a feral gaze, something you haven’t seen since the day he took you.
“Too bad I don’t have the intention of fucking a few babies into you,” he chuckles, reaching out to trace the gold chain jingling around your neck with each jerk of his hips. He tugs a bit on the chain and you avert your gaze. He frowns at that, tugging again and making you look at him. “You know I can’t afford to bring more monkeys into this world, but the idea of coming inside you is… enthralling. Perhaps we can save that for when I fuck your perfect ass.”
“Damn,” Gojo whistles, his arms circling your waist. “That’s going to be so hot. Fuck her full of cum and then have her walk around like that all day. Perfect way to ensure she belongs to you, yeah Suguru?”
“Exactly,” he laughs in response, a wicked smirk on his face. His hand comes down to smack your pussy and you scream, but Gojo secures his hold on you.
“Shhhh, Princess. Don’t squirm too much or he could hurt you. He doesn’t want to, you know?” he whispers in a mock soothing tone.
“Please, Sugu…. It already hurts,” you cry, sniffling, your eyes bloodshot and puffy from all of the tears you’ve shed.
“You can take it,” he grunts with another sharp slap on your quivering cunt. “You can do it, my love. Come for me.”
In spite of everything the world spins as you come down hard on his cock, arousal gushing out and it’s not the prettiest sight to you but it must make Geto and Gojo as gleeful as children on a Christmas morning.
“Sugu…” you murmur, body going a bit limp but you remember Gojo saying they barely begun. This is so tiring. But Geto pulls out with a soft moan, but his cock is still hard. Needing.
“What is it, my love?” he asks in that affectionate tome he’s been using so much more lately. Without the underlying condensation, just pure love, like he really believes he does love you.
As if someone who loves you would do things like this without so much as a shred of remorse. Gojo is silent behind you, sitting back and enjoying the scene unfold.
“I-I can’t,” you stammer, “Please, I can’t…”
“Yes, you can,” he urges a bit more gently. “This is a celebration, my dear. Lean into it.”
He kneels on one knee until his mouth is level with your cunt, his eyes sparkling with need and lust.
“We just want to take care of you,” he goes on, pressing a kiss to your spent cunt. “That’s all we want.”
You shake your head again.
“Can’t,” you keep pleading, “I can’t, I can’t…”
“Sure you can, Princess,” Gojo murmurs, “You have to. It’s the least you can do. After all, Suguru’s risking a lot just to be with you.”
Huh?
“I’m risking everything just to be here too,” Gojo continues while Geto pushes his tongue into your cunt. “So do this for us, baby. Because once Suguru married you, it’ll make things easier for us to be together. You’ll understand soon, I promise.”
“B-but…”
Gojo shushes you again before silencing you completely with a heated kiss. You can’t put up much of a fight anymore, in that moment.
This will be the only time you surrender to this battle, but not the fucking war.
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madamechrissy · 19 hours ago
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💜 Preview of Keep This Low Key Ch 3 💜
Choso x F Reader- explicit - FWB
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“What do you mean… you’re… going… fuck you feel s’good.” Choso is moaning in your ear as he’s fucking you, bent over the bathroom sink, his cock pumping inside of you, even with a condom he feels how good and perfect your pussy is, clenching down on him. “On a date with him!”
“Cho… ah!” You scream out, arching your ass up for more of his strokes, the way his piercing hits your g spot makes you incoherent, you’re soaking his length all the way down to his and your thighs, making a sticky mess. Your eyes catch his expression in the mirror, as fucked out as yours.
Tattooed arms wrap your body, those big hands gripping and squishing your breasts as he shoves his cock in deep, making your eyes roll back, as you begin cumming all over his cock. You both share a moan, Choso is burying his face in your neck, hot breath tickling your ear as he exhales, soft dark hair against your cheek.
He feels so good inside you, so good your knees are weak. You are nearly collapsing, now Choso has to hold you up entirely, fucking into you more, making your tits jiggle with each thrust. “Why… him…”
“Cho… you have… a date too!” You scowl at his reflection now, earning his cute little pout, his brows together.
“But- fuck, pussy is so good - you shouldn’t.”
“Then you- ah - shouldn’t! Just… friends, yeah?” You say softly, hiccuping on your words as he pinches your nipples, twisting them as he pounds your cervix.
“Cum on your best friend’s cock then.” He orders, so demanding and sexy suddenly, and you obey, cumming so hard you’re blinded this time, pulsing all around his cock. Choso moans out, pushing in deep and rocking his hips, turning your face to him.
You choke up when his violet eyes hit you, trembling and trying to focus, he’s fuzzy, you’re so fucked out you’re dizzy, and you taste his sweet breath on yours lips now. You lean forward, kissing him, which is your undoing, it has been the past couple times before this, when you kiss him you can’t pretend, can’t pretend you don’t care he’s going on a date today, and so are you.
Can’t pretend this is how friends behave.
But you can’t ruin what you do have, he feels too fucking perfect inside you, and now he’s throbbing, thickening, you feel him cumming hot in his condom, wishing instead he could bust in you without one. Which is fucking insane, but friends certainly don’t do that, do they?
Choso whimpers against your lips, vulnerable and sweet as he cums, rocking gently now, cupping your face so gently. “You’re so pretty, you’re so beautiful-”
“D-don’t say that.” You manage to whisper, tears pricking your eyes, making him sigh as he kisses you again, still snug inside you, your body pressed against his sink, legs dangling how he has you, has all of you.
“You are, I told you I’ll n-never lie. Your pussy is perfect.” You struggle not to speak your heart, you’ll ruin this, and now that Choso is going on a date, you don’t know how long this will continue.
“You feel good in me too. I love it.” You whisper, before you can think better. Choso eases out then, throwing out the condom after he sets you to stand on wobbly knees, holding onto you.
“I love being inside you. Never felt anything better.” He’s brushing your hair back, and you’re shaking your head. “What’s wrong, angel?”
“Don’t even call me that.” You push at him, pulling up your shorts and yanking down your top, he tries to slide it up, frowning as he kisses on your breasts.
“What, why can’t I? I always have.” He murmurs against your skin, and you tremble at his touch, goosebumps rising before you pull away, looking in the mirror and fixing your hair.
“I just can’t hear it. When’s your date?” He scowls then, something Choso really never does, dark brows low over his eyes.
“When’s yours?”
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Let the idiots in love continue- and add angst aha (Probs coming next week💜)
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okay i was watching some old grill the grid videos & have u seen the one where daniel has no idea how to tie a tie??
imagine there’s a special event and he asks you to tie it for him 🫠😍 or you ask him to secure your necklace for you (those little acts of service are so hot to me)
this could absolutely work for divorced dad daniel, like imagine getting ready to go to a charity event for his kids school or something hehehehehehe
silk and stares | d. ricciardo
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LIV!! i love that little clip, it lives rent free in my mind. this was originally a ramble but turned into a drabble. enjoy!!
part of the divorced dad!daniel series
warnings: post-divorce daniel, suggestive themes, age gap, unresolved sexual tension.
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daniel was standing in front of the mirror in his modest bedroom, fingers fumbling uselessly with the silk tie around his neck. he let out a frustrated sigh, muttering something under his breath as he gave up and yanked the tie loose.
his kids school had a charity event running this evening, and of course he was going to attend. he had asked you to come over around an hour earlier, as an overseer as him and his kids got dressed up for the night.
now, you were leaning against the doorframe of the room, arms crossed as a smirk made its way onto your lips. “need some help there, mr. ricciardo?”
his gaze shot to yours through the mirror, his mouth quirking into a crooked grin. “i swear, i’m hopeless with these things. every time i think i have it figured out, and then..” he trails off, gesturing towards the tie that was hanging awkwardly around his neck.
pushing yourself off of the door, you step into the room and walk slowly towards him. the tension between you both was electric, unspoken, and only thickening as you got closer.
“you’d think a guy like you would’ve learned by now,” you tease, your tone light but a little suggestive as you approach him.
daniel chuckles, the deep timbre of it sends a small shiver through you. “guess i’ve always been better at taking things off than putting them on.”
the air grew heavier at his words, and you try to ignore the heat crawling up your neck. instead, you grab the tie and motion for him to turn towards you. “alright, let me fix this before you embarrass yourself in front of the PTA,” you tease, trying to move on from his previous comment. you didn’t want to, but.. you shouldn’t start anything you couldn’t finish quick enough. especially not before something important for his kids.
daniel complies, his hands placing themselves on your hips as you step close— too close. the smell of his cologne is warm and woody, something that makes it almost impossible to focus on the simple task at hand.
your fingers work deftly, slipping the silk fabric into a neat knot. as you loop it through, you couldn’t resist a little teasing. “you know, this really isn’t hard. you’ve been wearing ties for how long now?”
he huffs out a laugh, tilting his head to look down at you. “someone’s mouthy tonight, hm?” he murmurs, raising an eyebrow. when you continue to just smirk up at him, he starts talking again. “anyways, just.. not my strong suit. figured i’d just keep finding people like you to help me out.”
your lips quirk up as you tighten the knot and instead of stepping back, you pull him closer by the tie— forcing him to bend slightly toward you. his breath hitches, dark eyes locking on yours.
“you’re lucky i’m just such a good samaritan,” you tell him, voice dropping just slightly, enough to make it clear that your words carry a double meaning.
daniel swallows hard, his adam’s apple bobbing. his voice comes out lower than usual, “yeah? you always this nice to struggling dads, or am i just someone special?”
you tilt your head, fingers still gripping his tie as you take your time straightening it against his chest. “you? special?” you tease, allowing the moment to stretch, your voice light and playful but your eyes betraying you— betraying the obvious chemistry thrumming between you two. “let’s not get ahead of ourselves.”
daniel smirks, his thumbs drawing small circles onto you as his other four fingers squeeze into your skin. “right. wouldn’t want to get the wrong idea,” he murmurs, voice tinged with something heavier, something that hung in the small space between you.
for a moment, neither of you move. the air feels thick with unspoken possibilities, his lips just mere inches away from yours as he stares down into you. you feel the heat radiating off him, his presence could only be described as magnetic, and you swore the only things holding you back were his kids downstairs, and the goddamn tie that was still in your hands.
finally, you step back and release the tie with a little pat to his chest. “there,” you say, your voice feigning nonchalance though your pulse was racing. you knew you weren’t fooling anyone, especially not daniel. but you still continued on. “now you won’t embarrass your kids. you’re welcome.”
daniel exhales slowly, a hint of his signature smirk returning to his lips. “guess i owe you one.”
you raise an eyebrow, already taking a few steps towards the door. “you owe me plenty, ricciardo. don’t you forget it.”
his laughter follows you out the room, but you don’t look back. if you had, you would’ve seen the way his gaze lingered on you, and just how tight his pants had become.
fuck.
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So the way you write Shimmer!Kane makes my brain melt. I love the way you see him and the way you describe him is so beautiful. Please accept my admiration and compliments and ignore the rest of this if your requests are closed.
I would love to see a part two of the nesting fic you wrote. What sort of instincts drive him? Is he's eager to please reader and/or chasing his own carnal pleasure? Is he soft, rough, sensual? How long does he try to keep going? Is he an aftercare type of being?
Ahh, thank you so much <3 I hope this is worth the wait!
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Shimmer!Kane x afab!Reader • Rating: 18+ pals Masterlist• ao3• want to be tagged1041? | request info • buy me a coffee? • ask-travaganza masterlist •
Nesting Fic Here
Warnings: Oral sex, p in v sex, Kane has a bit of a breeding and pleasure kink, multiple orgasms, not beta read, please let me know if I have missed a warning!
Word Count: 1041
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“You’re going to come, aren’t you?” Kane’s voice is still so calm, so even and deliberate despite how he rocks and rolls his hips against yours. 
“Kane,” You bite your lip, your hands on his biceps, simultaneously trying to push him away and pull him closer at the same time. “I, I think… we shouldn’t…”
He watches you with interest as he continues to rub his clothed erection against you. You try to stop your legs from shaking, how they squeeze desperately around his waist. 
“This isn’t a good idea.” You manage to stammer out, despite every fibre of you being screaming at you that this was, in fact, a very good idea. 
“Why?” He asks simply, keeping up the hypnotising rhythm. 
“Because… because…” Your back arches, your toes curling as the heady pleasure begins to overtake you completely. “Fuck.” 
Kane leans down to mouth at your neck, he groans as you shiver and shake. 
You gasp out his name as you come, practically sobbing as he nips softly at your skin. The second you start to relax he sits up and begins to undress you, his fingers greedily run over every inch of skin he exposes to the air. 
“Kane,” You say softly. 
“You like me,” he replies, his voice just as soft. He pulls off his top, throwing the material to the side before he pulls your trousers down your legs. “I like you.” He shrugs like he was explaining a very simple premise. “You touch yourself and think about me.” 
You freeze, embarrassment burning into your skin, but Kane doesn’t even pause, acting like what he said wasn’t anything out of the ordinary.
“How-”
He dips his head down, kneeling on the floor and burying his head between your thighs. 
You cry out as his hot, wet tongue swipes through your folds and Kane moans, his fingers kneading the inside of your legs rhythmically. 
He laps slowly, his dark eyes watching your every moment. 
You squirm, arching closer to him and grabbing hold of the pillows surrounding you. He swirls his tongue around your clit to reward you, sighing happily when fresh wetness hits his mouth. 
He hums against you, carefully studying your every reaction and adjusting his movements accordingly. 
He likes how your back arches when he scrapes the edge of his teeth softly over your clit, likes when you wriggle and whine when he pulls back a fraction. His favourite is when he sucks your bundle of nerves between his lips. The sharp cry you let out is music to his ears. So he keeps sucking and sucking, rhythmically relaxing before drawing you back inside his warm eager mouth. 
“Kane, wait,” You gasp, pleasure wrapping tight around your lower stomach and dissolving any resemblance of resolve you had. “You’re, you’re gonna make me come again, I-”
He doesn’t let up, but looks at you with those large dark eyes. It’s almost as if you can hear him for a moment, whispering in your ear. “Of course I am.”
You come hard, your orgasm pulled from your muscles with an expert efficacy. You tense, shaking, toes curling before you collapse back onto the pillows.
Kane groans happily, dragging his tongue through your fresh cum before he begins to lightly suck on your clit once more. 
You whine, biting your lip and shivering from the overstimulation. But it’s already starting to twist into a syrupy bliss. His movements slow and gentle, lightly coaxing you back into the rapid build of pleasure. 
He shakes his head slightly when you look down at him once more, like he can tell what you’re about to say next, that you’re about to tell him you can’t come again. 
It continues like this, Kane constantly pushing you further and further into bliss, giving you the smallest reprieve when you finally come before he goes straight back to work. Seemingly determined to exhaust you to the point of madness.
As you come again, you cry out, your voice hoarse from use. Your skin is hot and sweaty, his hands massage the tension in your legs as you recover and shake and oh so slowly he pulls back, removing his mouth from you. 
Your slick and his spit have soaked the lower half of his face, dripping down his neck and chest. His eyes are wild as he looks at you, eagerly standing stripping. 
Your muscles ache, your energy long since sapped to the point of near exhaustion. You still manage to lean up every so slightly, “Kane?”
“Orgasms are good for you,” he mutters, kicking off his trousers and pulling his aching cock free. It’s red and swollen, the head shining with precum. “They help.”
“Help?” You question. 
He nods and spits onto his cock smearing his saliva up and down his length before kneeling between your legs. “I’ll be gentle.” He whispers softly, watching your face for any sign of hesitation as he presses the tip at your entrance. He smiles ever so slightly when he finds none. “They help,” he continues as he starts to gently ease inside. 
You bite your lip, laying back down as his body slides over yours and stretches you wide. You can practically feel the beating of his heart along his long, thick cock. You’re so wet he just glides in despite the size, reshaping you to take him perfectly. 
He moans softly, his eyelids fluttering as he presses closer, eager to feel all of you squeeze around him. 
Your body moves under its own will, your hips tilting to urge him further, deeper. The head of his cock brushes wonderfully along your walls, pulls at your nerves and you want to sob as pleasure rolls through you yet again.
“They help you take me…” He murmurs happily, shaking his hips slightly to push himself in the last few inches. “And they help it to stick.”
You’re nearly too far gone, too blissed out and cock dumb to understand the words he’s saying. “Stick?”
“Hmm,” he lays his palm onto your stomach lightly as he bottoms out, feeling his cock through your body. “Help you to stay nice and full of me.” He mutters, his mouth open a fraction as he begins to fuck you in earnest. 
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Colorado woman
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Warnings: (Abusive past relationship, past relationship trauma, illusions to sexual trauma,language, slight ptsd, drinking, smoking, and I believe thats all. If I missed any feel free to let me know)
Summary: Josh had given up on looking for a partner. After the last woman he swore he’d never love again. After two years of being alone his brothers started to believe him. They decided to take matters into their own hands. Lucky for them his dream woman awaits in Colorado … you.
: This is the longest fic I’ve ever written, so please give me a little bit to fix any mistakes!
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“Let’s go out Josh. We can go to that bar Sam loves, and find you a partner. Or at least someone to fill that void”
“How many times have I told you? I don’t want a relationship. The last thing I want is to find someone drunk at a bar. Gross”
“Jeez Joshua look at you. You’ve lived at my house for two weeks now. Admit it your starting to get lonely and you don’t like it”
He laughed out loud “I’m not lonely I just don’t want to be stuck at my house all the time. Is that so bad?
“You have been sleeping in my spare room for two weeks. That’s a lot different than wanting to get out of the house for a while”
“I mean I’ll leave if your kicking me out” He laughed it off.
“That not what I’m saying Josh. Tell me what’s your type?”
“Don’t have one. I’m not like you Jake. I like to do my own thing. I wouldn’t be happy tied down to anyone”
“I’ve been doing my own thing for eight years, and my relationship is thriving”
“Well congratulations. That’s you not me. I promise you the last thing I want is a relationship”
“Then make it a fling, but for gods sake put yourself out there”
“You know I don’t see how this is any of your business or concern”
“I want you to be happy Josh, and I know that you’re not. You can brush me off like you always do, but you are lonely and it scares you. You know I don’t care if you stay with me, but you shouldn’t have to. You’re like damn near depressed all the time and that worries me Josh”
“Do you what scares me more? Getting into a relationship and everything being the same as the last one. I’d rather be lonely than risk having to feel like that again”
“Now was it that hard to open up to me? You’re not even looking. I’m not saying you have to jump into anything, but when’s the last time you’ve tried?”
“I have tried they just never work out”
“Josh you haven’t tried since … her”
“And so fucking what? You know what Jake but out. You’re not helping. All you’ve done is bitch at me” Jake just stared at him “what?”
“Josh” he placed a hand on his shoulder “All I’m trying to say is don’t give up looking. Don’t shut everyone out because you’re afraid. I want to see the light come back to your eyes. Because right now Josh I’ve never seen you so dull. Keep an open mind that’s all”
He sighed rubbing the back of his neck “Okay Jake”
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“Do you think we should teach them more tricks?” Sam said to his girlfriend Hannah as they watched the dogs play in the yard. They heard the doorbell ring. “I got it last time” Hannah said.
Sam opened the door surprised to see who it was. “Didn’t expect you today what’s up?”
“I need to talk to you about Josh”
He took Jake to the backyard where they were sitting. “What’s up? Is he okay?”
“Sam he’s been staying at my house for two weeks. Not that I mind him there what so ever, but I worry for him. He needs someone new in his life. Hell at this point he needs a friend at least”
He looked at his girlfriend puzzled, and she spoke “he stayed at our place a few weeks ago. Sometimes he comes over for dinner as well”
“He’s scared because of that bitch. I hate her for everything she’s done to him”
“I mean I’m sure he is scared after all that. She practically abused him id probably give up for a while too”
“But it’s Josh the most loving person we know. He’s wasting all of his potential he needs someone. He’s not happy I’ve never seen his eyes so sad”
“You really wanna risk it again? We don’t know everything he went through in the first place. I think we just need to let him figure this out”
“It’s been almost two years Sam. He won’t do it himself”
“He’ll be fine we shouldn’t push him. If he gets hurt again it’s all our fault. I don’t want that guilt on my chest”
“I’m with Jake on this one. The last time Josh was over we smoked together. He got very upset, and was kinda spilled a lot to me. I promised him I wouldn’t tell, but Jake’s right I think he needs helps”
“That’s what I came here for thank you. Do we know of anyone?”
Sam sighed “There’s that one girl that we met at that festival”
“You want him with a junkie?”
“She wasn’t a junkie!”
“Sam honey you’re oblivious. I know someone that might be perfect. Only thing is she lives in Colorado”
“Josh always says he wants to live in the mountains. What’s she like?”
“Well she’s currently kinda in the same situation as him. Rough love life scared to move on. He would fall in love instantly. She’s beautiful”
“Personality?” Jake asked “she better be an angel”
“Just picture Josh, but as a female. I’d say she’s a more little outgoing than him. She reminds me of him a lot, but they are very different in their own ways”
“Good start” Jake said nodding his head.
“She very soft spoken. Overall she’s just a very kind hearted person. She’s the only person I know that would never hurt him”
“You’re positive she’s single?” Sam asked
“Yes she always says she talks to her dogs more than people. She lives alone, but says she hates being alone. She loves company because she doesn’t get it much living out in the mountains. I just know she would love Josh. They fit each other”
“Well you know it’s convenient that we’re off tour. How the hell are we getting Josh to Colorado?”
“I can talk to her. She would adore everyone coming out there. Let me see when she’s free” she stepped inside to make a phone call.
“Josh has always handled himself, but I’m watching him fall apart. He doesn’t act like himself anymore. He’s not content. When he’s home he’s pacing around the house. Or he’ll leave and distract himself for hours” Jake told his brother.
“I guess I didn’t realize how bad it’s gotten. He puts on a show for everyone. I suppose I wasn’t able to see through it like you did”
“The last thing I want is for him to get hurt again. He just needs his confidence back”
Hannah returned with a smile “everyone free next week?”
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“Colorado?” Josh questioned picking at his fingers “why out of the blue?”
“My friend invited us to come stay with her for a week” Hannah said convincingly.
“Who’s your friend?” Josh asked perking up an eyebrow.
“Well her name is y/n, and I haven’t seen her in a while. She invited me and Sam, but we thought you guys might want to come”
“I don’t suppose I have anything better to do. Next week you said?”
Hannah got excited when he agreed. “Yes next week, and we will leave early that morning. This is gonna be so much fun!”
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The air was cool, the green of the leaves was almost gone, and they were minutes away from arrival. A cozy little cabin in the middle of nowhere. Just you, and your dogs. You’ve spent the past week cleaning, stocking up on food, and preparing your house for guests. It’s not often you get them. Living so far away from everything your use to being alone. You would be lying if you said you weren’t beyond excited. You heard serval cars disrupt the once peaceful gravel road. Your dog’s ears perked up as you all headed towards the door. You hoped they wouldn’t be afraid of the large dogs that causally lounge around your home. You took a breath and opened the door.
“Why am I nervous?” Josh whispered to Jake.
“New place new person. Hannah said she’s a lot like you so maybe you’ll get along well”
“This isn’t a set up is it?”
He laughed “You think I would take you all the way to Colorado to set you up?”
“Yes … yes I do”
He sighed “well I didn’t. It’s just a trip Hannah invited us on. I know as much as you do. Just relax it will be fun”
He squinted his eyes at him “whatever you say”
You stood on the porch watching as they all unloaded from the cars.
“Y/n!” Hannah ran up hugging you.
“I missed you so much. I’m so happy you’re here!”
“This is Sam my boyfriend”
“I know you” you giggled “heard lots”
“Good things I hope. This is my bestie Danny”
“Hi Danny. Your hair so curly I’m jealous”
“Thank you” he laughed.
“This is Jake and his girlfriend” They waved at you, and you smiled back.
“And this is Josh”
“Oh” you paused “hello I’m y/n”
“Nice to meet you” he said quietly.
Maybe you were crazy, but you felt a connection. You known him for five seconds but you feel drawn to him. His fluffy hair that his fingers nervously ran through. His sense of style was definitely your taste. He was more soft spoken than the rest. You liked that a lot. He just had this air about him that made you want to know him.
You invited everyone inside, and you realized it was already late in the afternoon. You showed them around your place before the sun started to set. Everyone started to settle in and feel more at home.
“Very lovely place you got” Jake said admiring the cozy atmosphere.
“Thank you it’s Jake right?” You asked.
“Correct” he gave you a wink.
“I don’t wanna be that person, but where are we sleeping?” Sam asked.
“Sam don’t be rude” Josh corrected.
“No worries. So I only have one guest bedroom so the couples will have to fight over that” you laughed. “There’s an air mattress, and a couch”
“We call the bedroom” Jake shouted smiling at his girlfriend.
“Oh fuck you” Sam rolled his eyes.
“I mean he did say it first” Danny laughed.
“I promise the air mattress won’t deflate on you in the middle of the night. It was quite the investment”
“Then we call the air mattress” Sam said.
“I never mind sleeping on a couch. I’m used to it” Danny laughed.
Josh becoming worried “I guess I’ll be sleeping on the couch too?”
“No you’re sleeping on the floor Joshua” Danny said shaking his head. “No way in hell am I sleeping on a couch with you”
“Thank god I don’t have to share a bed with him” Jake said. “Tired of waking up with bruises”
“Rough sleeper?” You asked
They all laugh “absolutely. I used to be forced to share a bed with him when we were little I never got any sleep. He tossed and turned all night, and he kicks you … hard. Cons of being a twin”
“I’ve been slapped a few times” Sam said.
“I’m sorry did you say twins?”
“Yeah can you tell?” He joked.
“You know I can definitely see it”
“I don’t mind sleeping on the floor” Josh sighed
“Poor Josh” you said.
“Poor josh? What about the victims” Jake said making the room laugh.
“Well we can figure it out later. I’m not letting you sleep on the floor that’s for sure” you say to him. “Here’s the remote. Turn on whatever you’d like. Also there’s beer and stuff in the fridge” you said going into the kitchen to start on dinner.
Danny got up grabbing enough for everyone. You could definitely tell who the siblings were. As Jake and Sam bickered over the remote. Danny tried to intervene between the two. Which ended with a pissed off sam, and a cocky smirk from Jake.
Josh rolled his eyes, and walked into the kitchen. “Need some help?”
“Oh you don’t have to do all that”
“I don’t mind really” his eyes shifted to the potato’s lying in the countertop. “I could peel those if you needed”
“That would be lovely thank you”
It started out in comfortable silence. Only speaking to confirm he’s doing right. As he watched the sun set from the window his mind began to wonder.
“So” he cleared his throat. “how long have you lived in Colorado?”
“Well I visited when I was 15 fell in love, and I moved when I was 19. Been here ever since, and I wouldn’t change it for the world. You’re from Nashville?”
“Not by choice” he laughed “originally I’m from Michigan, but with the band and all. We had to move closer to the studio and stuff”
“How’s that all going?”
“The band? It’s been a lot to be honest. Rewarding, but exhausting. I’m just glad we’re on a break from tour”
“I don’t know how you do it every night. I can barely work without getting drained”
“You figure it out eventually I suppose. Knife?”
“Top drawer. What’s it’s like traveling the world, and playing to people every night”
“It never gets boring I’ll say that. When you’re up there looking out into the crowd. They love you with all their heart. It’s like they understand you in a sense. You can really feel the love up on that stage. It makes up for the exhaustion I suppose”
“That sounds beautiful. Maybe I’ll get to come to a show one day”
“So what made you invite everyone out here? Gotta be an adjustment from peace and quiet all the time”
“Oh it wasn’t my idea. I’m glad everyone came out though it’s nice to have a change”
“Oh? I was told something different wonder why” he thought it over in his head
“Well now I’m curious what you were told”
“The story was that you invited Hannah, and she invited us”
“She called me” you laughed hard. “That’s a silly thing to lie about”
He knew. He knew exactly why they lied. He knew Jake lied to his face in the car. Now that he’s met you he knows exactly why they’ve brought him here. You. Now he would be lying if his said his heart wasn’t skipping beats right now. Only now that he’s figured it out his nerves are shot.
“Good thing this cooks pretty slow so we can go relax for a while”
He followed you to the couch and hesitantly sat down beside you. His eyes shifted from the movie to picking at his finger, and back to the movie. He had scabs around his fingers from it. You could tell he was on edge a little bit. Something changed since your talk in the kitchen but you didn’t know what. He seemed nervous around you now. Although you couldn’t understand why you knew what might help. “Do you smoke?”
He nodded his head with a smile “me and Josh are gonna smoke if anyone wants to join”
You walked outside and a few of them followed. Passing it in a circle and making small talk. Josh took a drag off the joint and closed his eyes. Blowing it out and nodding his head. “Damn that’s good shit”
“Told you so” you laughed as he handed it to you.
“It’s so pretty out here. Wish I lived in the mountain” Danny said admiring the view.
“I couldn’t imagine living anywhere else” you said. “Shit I left my drink inside be right back”
“Jacob Tomas Kiszka” Josh said stern. “You brought me here to hook me up?”
“I already told you I wouldn’t-”
“I made the mistake of asking her. She said this wasn’t her idea to invite us out. Instead she got a phone call from Hannah”
“Josh listen” he said before Hannah cut him off.
“We were worried about you Josh. She’s in the same situation you are. Give her a chance”
“How did you know? How did you know we would click? Because I’ve never- I’ve never done that with anyone”
“I just knew”
They were quick to end the conversation when you walked back outside. You all stayed outside for a while passing the joint around. They gave you the last hit, and you threw the roach out into the yard. After everyone was done eating dinner the night started to get fun. Everyone had a good buzz going, and the house was lively. Josh started to come out of his shell, talking louder, and with more excitement. “My god you guys are funny” you went into the kitchen to make another drink. Josh followed you also needing a refill.
“Doing alright?” He asked you.
“Haven’t been this messed up in a while” you laughed.
“How are you feeling?”
“I’m almost to your level” he smiled. “I never told you but-”
“Y/n holy shit! You got more weed? I feel fucking great” drunk Sam comes shouting in the kitchen
You laughed “go into my room and there’s like 4 laying on the tv stand” you paused waiting for Sam to leave. “Never told me what?”
“Oh never mind” he waved a hand in the air.
“But-”
“Y/n” Sam came back in tugging at your shirt. “Come smoke with us”
“Fine. Josh you coming?”
“I think I’ll set this one out” he smiled at you.
“Josh is sweet” you said sitting outside with Sam and Hannah.
“Oh he’s a sweetheart” she said.
“I can tell” you put the joint between your lips and lit the tip.
“Single” Sam said and Hannah gently smacked him. “What? It’s true”
“Oh”
“He’s been through a lot relationship wise, but so have you” Hannah said.
“Don’t let him fool you he’s not always that quiet”
“Well neither am I” you laughed “he seems nervous”
“I suppose he is” Sam said taking a hit “he has been just kinda down recently. Plus his ex kinda took his self confidence from him”
“I guess he just gets lonely a lot, and it’s catching up to him” Hannah said.
“I know how that feels” you said pointing to the mountains “it’s just me and my dogs out here”
“It’s got its perks I would assume” Hannah said.
“Oh yeah definitely” you stared for a moment “he’s cute”
“Think so?” Hannah asked excitedly.
“He has kind eyes. I like his hair it’s fluffy. He just seems so nice”
“All I’m gonna say is he’s interested”
Josh sat on the couch with his brother. “Has she said anything to you? About like me or anything?”
Jake laughed “no but I can tell she’s taking a liking to you”
“Oh definitely” Danny chimed in “how do you feel about her?”
“I dunno she just kinda has this glow around her, and I wanna be part of the light”
They looked at each other and started laughing “oh he’s in love Danny”
“She seems perfect for you. Gonna thank me or what?” Jake teased taking a sip from his drink.
“Yeah yeah whatever”
“So what move are you going to make? Let’s get this started right?” Danny asked.
“Yeah you’re funny. I’m done making the moves. If it’s meant to be then it will be”
They both rolled their eyes “well shit”
“Hi” you said slamming open the door. It was obvious by your state that you were pretty messed up. “Joshua. Can I call you Joshua?”
“If you’d like” he turned to look at you. You plopped down beside him on the couch.
“Joshua!” You shouted “I have an idea”
He jumped when you yelled his name. Laughing about how you startled him. “What’s your idea?”
You shuffle through your phone looking for a song. When you found the perfect one you jumped to your feet. “Wanna dance with me?”
He smiled, and he cheeks blushed pink. “I would love to dance with you.
You wrapped your arms around his neck, and his hands held your waist. “oh shit. I’m so sorry I stepped in your toes”
He smiled down at you “don’t worry about it darling”
“Darling? I like that” you laid your head on his chest. He danced you around your living room. By the time it was over almost everyone had joined. It was magical to see your house so lively and full of love.
“You made me dizzy” you giggled and sat down on the couch. Your head laid on his shoulder and you begun to get sleepy. Danny went into action being the dad of the group. Helping Jake as he stumbled into the guest room. He helped Sam blow up the air mattress, and grabbed blankets for everyone. He filled up a glass of water and sat it on Jake’s bedside table. Making sure everyone had a least a little water to drink before bedtime.
“What we gonna do about you?” You turned to Josh. “Want to sleep with me?”
“Good luck sleeping” Danny joked.
“Oh he won’t bother me I’m a deep sleeper. Nothing wakes me up”
“They’re not wrong. I don’t wanna hurt you in your own bed”
“Joshua shut up” Sam whispered.
You laughed at his attempt to help his brother “come on Josh”
“Are you sure I mean I-”
“Josh shut up” Sam and Danny said in unison.
You reached out your hand, and he grabbed it. He headed into the room “you’re room is cute”
“Thank you most the decor is diy or thrifted”
“They look amazing. Did you make this?”
He took interest in the large painting on the wall. You nodded “yes I love to paint”
“That’s so impressive. I love art myself, but I could never make anything like this”. He gently ran his fingers on the edge of the painting.
Your cheeks now bright red, and a soft smile on your lips “thank you Josh. I’m sure you could do better”
“Definitely not. I’m not really a painter. I design my own stage clothes. I sketch what I want it to look like, and then somebody makes it. I like it because it’s always exactly how I want it to be. I take inspiration from all kinds of stuff, and make it into one thing. It’s more than just an outfit really. It’s almost like another person when I put them on”
“Like each outfit is its own art piece? It’s like painting. When you’re in a good mood your art is going to distribute something completely different than if you were gloomy. The paintings are entirely different it’s almost as if different people painted them.”
“That’s exactly it! You understand” he smiles.
“Artists to artists of course I understand”
You let him look around a bit longer before excusing yourself to go change. When you came back he was still looking at the painting. He had pajama pants on with a white sleeved shirt. You tripped over your feet walking into the room. Stumbling around, and your vision was getting blurry. “Stumbling around a little. You okay?”
“Hmm” you reached for his shoulder to stabilize yourself. Without much thought he picked you up. Tucking you into the bed, and lying down beside you.
“If I hurt you or keep you up please wake me up. I don’t mind sleeping on the floor. I just-”
“Shh you’re not gonna bother me. Stop stressing about it. I can tell this is something people might have made you feel bad about”
“Yeah well try hurting the people you love and have no control over it”
A lazy finger pressed against his lip “shh don’t worry about it. Joshua”
You both laid there in silence trying to drift away. The silence was deadly, and you tossed and turned. Unable to fall asleep, and your mind raced about the man next to you. In a whisper you spoke “Josh”
Sleepy he replied “yes?”
“Can you hold me?”
“I would love nothing more”
When the sun started to rise you two were the last ones awake. Jake crept open the door worried you might have ended up on the floor. Instead he found you tangled up together. The sheets hanging off the bed, and he was holding you protectively.
“Sam come here … look” Jake said pointing at the two of you.
He poked his head through the door “awe they look so cozy”
“I wonder how long they’ve been like that”
“All he needed was a cuddle buddy I guess” Sam said.
You started to stir as the sun shined through the curtains. “Shit” they giggled and shut the door.
Josh’s eyes peeked opened to you lying across him. He closed his eyes for a moment taking it in. You were you wrapped around him tightly. One leg hiked across his waist, and the other twisted in his leg. Your arm laid across his chest, and so was your head. He was loving every minute of you. Wishing this moment would never end. However, you started to wake up. His grip was strong hopeful you wouldn’t move. You looked up at him and smiled. “Good morning”
“Good morning. Sleep okay?” He asked.
“I slept amazing. You?”
“Best sleep I’ve got in a while”
“Your so warm that’s probably why I slept so good. It’s usually freezing in here. I wasn’t all over you too much right?”
“Not too much at all. Been a while since well you know”
“Feels nice to be held. What happened to the sheets?”
“Not sure about that one”
His eyes were glowing, and his face had a smile you haven’t seen before. Dosing off a little bit with the warmth of his body. You’ve never felt so comfortable in your life. The sheets felt like honey on your skin. You wondered if you found heaven, or at least peace. You two laid tangled up together for at least an hour. Realizing the time you sighed, and climbed out of your side of heaven. The two of you stumbled into the living room. “Well good morning love bugs” Sam teased which resulted in another playful smack from his girl. “Leave them alone” she whispered.
“Checked for bruises?” Danny said.
“I don’t think he moved one bit. Except the kick the sheets off. Or maybe that was me” you shrugged your shoulders.
“Maybe all he needed was someone to hold” Jake said.
His face turned bright red and his eyes got big “oh my god shut up. How did you know that?”
“I have my ways”
“Creep” Josh rolled his eyes.
You giggled at him, and walked into the kitchen. You opened the container of coffee grounds and put it into the maker. Making a pot then going to your bedroom to get dressed. Jake and Josh were talking in the kitchen as they drank their coffee.
“So” he paused taking a sip “seems to be going well”
“Last night was the first night I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night”
“Is that why you’ve been up doing fuck knows what?”
“Yeah I’d wake up at like three in the morning and I could never go back to sleep. So I’d get up and start doing stuff”
“You’ve scared the shit out of me when I walk downstairs to get water, and you’re standing in the kitchen. You really gotta go back home bud”
“I know I know. Hey maybe I won’t have too” he joked.
“Gonna become a mountain man?”
Josh talks with his hands that’s very obvious. What he doesn’t do is pay attention to where his hands fly around. The conversation has peeked his interest, and when his hands flare out he hits the open container. Coffee grounds go everywhere. Josh’s face turns white, and he starts to panic.
“Oh fuck” he repeated over and over. “Here we go. It was going so good, and I’ve fucked it all up”
“Josh it’s just coffee grounds I’m sure she’ll understand it was an accident”
“You don’t understand Jake. Do you not fucking remember?”
“I remember, but she nothing like her. She won’t get mad I’m sure of it”
“I’ve ruined everything. Why am I like this Jake?”
“You haven’t done anything wrong. Josh you’ve been the best I’ve seen you in so long. Let’s not lose progress over coffee grounds …. Josh”
Still he panicked, hyperventilating, going into his head and -
“Josh how fucking stupid are you?”
“I’m sorry it was an accident I’ll pick it up”
“I just fucking poured that drink. You are fucking useless”
“I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to. I’ll clean it up”
“Why am I even with you? Your so damn pathetic”
“It was just an accident”
“Shut the hell up and pick it up. I don’t need to hear your whining”
“I’m trying but your yelling at me”
“Are you gonna fucking cry about it? Go ahead cry see if I give a shit Josh”
“Josh!”
“Huh?”
“Did you hear me? She’s gonna get the broom for us”
“You told her? Why would you do that? We could of figured it out”
“Josh breathe. Take a damn breath. I’m gonna say it again she’s isn’t like her”
“Oh no what happened?” you said walking into the kitchen.
“I’m so sorry it was an accident I’ll clean it up”
“Oh no worries. Shit happens” you waved a hand in the air.
“I’m so sorry I-” his fingers ran through his hair. Processing your response he looked at you confused “Wait what did you say?” he said softly.
“I said shit happens. I’d be a fool to get mad over something so small. Go sit down I’ve got it”
He looked at his brother confused. “You’re not mad? Why aren’t you mad? I spilled this everywhere”
“Don’t beat yourself up. I’m clumsy as hell. Always spilling stuff. Go sit down” you handed him his coffee cup “here. Go take a breath”
Josh exited the room, and you turned to Jake for some answers. “Jake” you whispered.
“What’s up?” He grabbed the broom as you held the dust pan.
“Is he okay? Why did he get so upset?”
He swept the grounds into the dust pan. His face shifted to an almost confused look. Then you thought maybe it was an angry one. But his eyes looked hurt, and watched him quietly.
He sighed “his ex is a horrible person. She treated him like shit, and made him feel bad when he made a mistake. I don’t know everything, but I know she did get physical sometimes”
“That’s horrible he doesn’t deserve that”
“No he doesn’t. There was a trip we were on and he spilled her drink on accident. She cussed him out, and called him all these names. He was cleaning it up and she kicked him with her boot. I got a little rough shoving her away from him, but it should have never happened. He stayed and I don’t know why. I think he was afraid to leave her. It was like an intervention I swear. We all sat with him and told him he deserved better, and we helped him break it off”
“But he’s so sweet how could anyone treat him that way? I want to fix this”
He sighed again, and you could tell something was weighing on him “can I tell you the truth?”
You nodded, and he spoke “your the reason we’re here. We thought maybe you two would hit it off. We were worried for him … very worried. Josh has always been the most outgoing person, and it hurt watching him fade. Hannah said that you were single, and it was just a hunch. We just wanted to help him. I’m sorry I don’t want to pressure you”
“So that’s why everyone lied to him” now it made sense. “I don’t click with people. There’s never been a person I felt instantly connected too. Except yesterday when I laid eyes on Josh. It’s been a day, but I’m glad you brought him here. We’re both wounded, and because of that I think we can heal each other. Thank you Jake”
You decided to put there plan in motion. You got up to find Josh “Hey follow me”
You went out the gate and started walking down a rocky path. He didn’t ask where you were taking him nor did he care. He watched as the dogs switched between walking beside you to scanning the area ahead. You never minded the dogs running off when on your walks. You got closer to the mountains and Josh’s eyes began to glow. You hiked down to the river. A deep spot that nearly looked like a pond. The mountain ran above it making the spot secluded. “Look at this place. It’s breathtaking”
“It never fails to impress me. The waters cold I don’t usually get to swim. I just come here to relax”
He reached his hands in the water “I mean it’s not that cold”
“Wanna get in then tough guy?”
He reached to remove his shirt “wait!”. You took off running and he ran after you.
You made it to the top of the smallest cliff. “Your kidding me right?”
“What? Are you scared?” You teased him.
“Maybe a little. Sure it’s deep enough?”
Rolling your eyes at him you asked “do you trust me?”
“I do”
You took your shirt off revealing a lacy white bra, and panties to match. He looked away quickly, but his face already turned red. “It’s okay” you giggled
“Sorry” he said with his eyes glued to the ground.
“Don’t be. Human nature ya know. You’re turn”
He removed his shirt, and stripped down to his boxers. You placed your hands on his shoulders grabbing his attention “Listen whatever we went through let’s try to move past it. I’ve been scared too Josh. For two years I was afraid of any interaction with a man. I could barely go places by myself”
“What happened? Only if your comfortable to answer”
“Started at a party my drink got spiked. I don’t remember anything or if anything happened to me. I thought it was because he like me so I started dating him. He would hurt me often. I thought it was normal, and I convinced myself he loved me. The cycle continued until my friends got me help. It was relationship after relationship, and it was all the same. That’s what I thought I deserved I suppose. I’m still in therapy and I continue to get better every day”
“I guess it was my first serious relationship. Or so I thought, but I meant nothing to her. I never dated much in high school. All she did was yell at me. I couldn’t spend enough on her. It was never enough. She would hit me and it’s not that it hurt that bad. It hurt more knowing she wanted to harm me. I loved her, and she wanted nothing more than to hurt me. My brothers got me away from her thank goodness. I’m also in therapy I never thought it would help, but it has. And I know I’m so awkward, but it’s almost as if I don’t know how to act. No one’s ever been as gentle with me as you are”
“We will heal together. This jump is us letting go”
You reach out your hand, and counted down. With no hesitation he jumped with you. Falling farther than he thought, and his body rushed with adrenaline. You both hit the cold water, and gasp coming back up. He slicked his hair back, and tried to catch his breath. “I take it back this water is freezing”
“That was so fun Josh” you shouted holding his shoulders. “Oh my god I feel so alive. Do you feel it Josh?”
He nodded his head and wrapped his arms around your waist. You threw your arms on his neck. “Yeah I feel it”
You held on to him tight, feeling his heart beat against yours. You stayed in the water far too long in this cool weather. You just couldn’t make yourself let go. You put your forehead against his. “Can I kiss you?”
He smiled softly “I would love that”
You leaned in placing your lips to his. Your body felt warm for a minute. Like a shock of electricity ran through your veins. Your lips moved against him. You let the last kiss drag out before you pulled back “I cant feel my toes”
“I can’t feel a lot of things” he said, and you busted out laughing. You hiked back up to the top to grab your clothes and headed towards the house. You were shivering and your teeth were chattering. When you arrived back at the house you couldn’t feel a thing. Everyone was sitting outside, and their neck snapped around to look at you two.
“What the hell happened to you guys?” Jake asked
“Oh you know we just jumped off a cliff. No biggie” Josh teased.
“We left you two alone for an hour and you jump off a cliff” he laughed.
“I’m gonna go change, and start the fire” you kissed his cheek.
Causing everyone’s jaws to drop. “Did she just-?”
Everyone gasped excitedly, and Josh just seemed to glow. He nodded his head proudly, and started to tell the story. His hands were flying everywhere as he spoke in detail.
“Hot chocolates on the stove, and the fire has been started”
“Actually that sounds quite nice” Jake said.
As the temperature dropped everyone piled in the house. Laying around the living room with hot chocolate in hand. A cozy movie playing, and the lights turned down.
You turned off the stove, and stepped into the living room. Looking around the room seeing everyone so content. You just smiled wishing it could be like this forever. He noticed your giddy smile “Come here love”
You cuddled up beside him, and he threw the blanket over you two. The house was warm, and everyone was completely relaxed. You felt as if you were melting into Josh. You thought this might be the most comfortable you’ve ever been. Your eyes started to get heavy, and before you knew it sleep had taken over.
You feared for the end of this week. Knowing it was coming soon. He would leave and go back to his busy life. You would be here like you always are. For now his fingers ran through your hair, and his lips kissed your forehead. He couldn’t quit place the feeling he was feeling, but he knew one thing.
He was home.
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sweetcalavera · 2 days ago
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Como La Flor
After another uneventful night of chasing petty thieves and breaking up scuffles, Jason slips into the familiar embrace of the Jukebox Diner. The bells above the door jingle softly.
The diner hums with the faint buzz of fluorescent lights, casting a muted glow over the checkered floor. The air smells of grease and coffee, and somewhere in the background, the jukebox plays a slow, melancholic tune—soft enough to be comforting but too distant to make out the words. Jason leans back in his usual booth, the red vinyl cool against his back, eyes scanning the empty space. It's oddly quiet tonight. For a fleeting moment, he wonders if they’re closed, but the thought vanishes when he spots him.
Xōchi sits at a corner booth, one leg tucked beneath him, utterly absorbed in his laptop. His fingers dance across the keys with a steady rhythm, pausing only when he snags a fry and swirls it lazily in his root beer float. A flicker of something unfamiliar pulls at Jason—not annoyance exactly, but something close enough that it makes his jaw clench.
He clears his throat, breaking the silence.
“Didn’t know this place took online orders,” Jason mutters, voice low and sharp.
Xōchi's head jerks up, eyes widening as if caught doing something he shouldn’t. The laptop clicks shut with a hurried snap, and in a heartbeat, he’s sliding out of the booth, smoothing down his apron with an apologetic grin.
“Sorry for the wait, sir,” Xōchi says, slipping into his customer-service tone with unsettling ease. “What can I get you?”
Jason arches an eyebrow, a hint of irritation tugging at the corner of his mouth. “With service like that, you can forget about a tip.”
Xōchi’s smile falters for the briefest moment, but it returns—bright and unfazed. “Apologies. I’ll make sure you get a discount for the inconvenience,” he offers smoothly, as if practiced in deflecting grumpy customers.
Jason huffs, scanning the menu as if he doesn’t already know what he wants. “Grilled cheese. Tomato soup. Onion rings. And water.” His voice is clipped, efficient, like a soldier rattling off orders.
“Coming right up.” Xōchi gives a quick nod before retreating to the kitchen.
Jason watches him go, arms folded across his chest. Something about the guy bugs him—not in a bad way exactly, but in a way that keeps Jason coming back to this place when he could be eating anywhere else.
Soon, Xōchi returns, balancing the tray like a pro. The steaming tomato soup smells rich and savory, the grilled cheese perfectly golden with melted edges spilling out from between the slices. Jason eyes the onion rings—hot, crispy, and just greasy enough to hit the spot.
“Anything else I can do for you?” Xōchi asks, smile still in place, but there’s a flicker of curiosity in his gaze, like he’s wondering why Jason keeps coming back.
Jason shakes his head, already dipping a ring into the soup. Xōchi, satisfied, drifts back to his booth, cracking his laptop open again. The sound of keystrokes resumes, steady and purposeful.
Jason eats in silence for a few minutes, but curiosity nags at the back of his mind like an itch he can’t ignore. He catches himself glancing over at Xōchi between bites, watching him work with focused intensity. Finally, the words slip out before he can stop them.
“What are you doing?”
Xōchi’s hands freeze over the keyboard. He blinks, startled that Jason initiated a conversation. “Uh... writing a paper,” he answers, a bit cautiously, like he’s not sure if Jason’s genuinely interested or just trying to start trouble.
Jason leans back, chewing slowly. “Didn’t know you were in college. Let me guess—hospitality or something?” There’s a teasing edge to his voice, but it’s subtle, buried beneath layers of sarcasm.
For the first time, Xōchi looks genuinely embarrassed. A flush rises along his cheekbones, and he shifts uncomfortably under Jason’s gaze.
“Actually... I’m not in college,” Xōchi admits, his voice quieter now. “I’m taking night classes for my GED.”
Jason pauses mid-chew, something in Xōchi’s tone catching him off guard. It’s not just embarrassment—it’s pride, shame, and a hint of determination all tangled together. Jason knows that mix too well. It’s the same knot of emotions he’s carried for years.
He swallows and sets his sandwich down, feeling the weight of the conversation shift between them. There’s a beat of silence, heavy and unspoken.
“GED, huh?” Jason finally says, keeping his voice neutral. “Good for you.”
Xōchi glances at him, surprised by the lack of judgment. “Thanks.”
Jason nods, breaking eye contact to focus on his soup. He doesn’t offer more—doesn’t know how to, really—but something about the exchange leaves the air between them lighter, less strained.
For a while, the two of them exist in comfortable silence—one man eating, the other typing away, both finding a strange kind of solace in the presence of someone who doesn’t pry too deeply.
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gliphyartfan · 2 days ago
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Adding on to the "getting adopted by the chain bc i need a father figure" ask (and im bored in my free time), i think if i ever somehow meet fierce in that instance, especially as a kid, i'd just be annoying him with questions ab gods. Time keep me away from him or else I'll have my notebook and pen ready
As a kid? Hm hm hmmm
Well Time would definitely try to keep you away from Fierce. He’d give you every distraction in the book, anything to avoid the endless list of questions you’d inevitably throw at the Deity.
But keeping you away? Probably easier said than done! Let’s be real, once you’ve set your mind to something, even Time himself might struggle to stop you. Hehe.
He’d start by trying to tempt you with anything but gods. ‘Oh, did you know Wild just found this rare flower that only blooms at midnight?’ or ‘Why don’t you go ask Sky about his Loftwing?’ Anything to steer you away from a god interview mission.
When Fierce does pop up, Time’s right there with a hand on your shoulder, giving you a light push in the opposite direction. ‘Fierce is busy. Really busy. Actually, he’s… meditating. Yes, meditating.’
Meanwhile, Fierce Deity is standing there…..looking anything but busy. 😀
When you inevitably corner Fierce with your Notebook
Fierce would silently watch you approach with mild curiosity. Gods don’t get approached so causally like this every day, after all. He’d probably lean back, cross his arms, and just watch you.
Internally, Fierce would find your questions amusing enough in his own quiet way. He’s not used to anyone, let alone a kid, coming at him like this.
When Fierce DOES speak, he might give you cryptic answers at first, half to entertain himself, half to protect you from things you probably shouldn’t know. ‘Hylia and I… have history.” Or “God friends? Not quite.” He wouldn’t want to lie, but he’d also want to keep things at a kid appropriate level.
Time would be watching from the sidelines, probably with one hand on his sword and the other rubbing his temple. He’d see you scribbling furiously, and his expression would just scream, “You really don’t need to know these things right now.”
At one point, he’d probably send you off on little “missions” just to keep you occupied. “Go find me a stone that speaks to you,” he’d say, just to buy himself a moment of silence. You’d come back with the most interesting rock you could find, and Fierce would accept it with utmost seriousness, as if it held the secrets of the universe. (He’s not gonna be THAT mean as to toss it away. He’ll keep it somewhere safe.)
if Fierce hasn’t been driven off by now, he’s probably sticking around. So Time would probably come to accept that you’re not going to stop being curious any time soon.
Even though he’s resigned, he’s still not leaving you entirely alone with Fierce. He’ll be hovering nearby, ears pricked, ready to step in if the Deity says anything too cryptic or intense. (Or if you tempt fate too much 🤭)
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