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Maybe i SHOULD draft out my āClark is a SuperPlantā propaganda post
#chattin#due to. recent tags that resonated w me#im already someone that loathes the ātheyre completely alien AND they conveniently look AND function exactly the same as a humanā trope#esp when they have the nerve to make them PROCREATE w humans wo any defects whatsoever#ur lying ur unimaginative u suck !!!!#so my compromise is always like#fine. the point is that they have to blend in very well. i will concede on that front#but god as my witness i will make him so fucked up internally.#u should xray him and see a fucking mess of organs pumping in bizarre places#things that let him see things w a microscopic lens#things that let him exist in a vacuum bc he doesnt need to Breathe#u should get him in a red sun room and realize hes still able to exist unharmed in a vacumm and go hey man. what the fuck .#going to reach max tags bc i never seem to behave myself no matter what im yelling about#i need bruce to sit down and finally read whatever kryptonian text is floating around#and realize clark- despite his mammalian appearance- is far more linked to plants than anything else#a plant w TEETH and EYES and somehow became a predator instead of staying as a plant#HOWWW did u evolve into what u are now? what did ur ancestors look like??? a daisy???#if u look at any kryptonian species youd see that all of them behave like clark- like they all evolved in a similar way#saw a post (i GOTTA find it again) that said that clark is brownskinned which seems a little silly when u compare it to human melanin#but that sunlight makes for a healthy kryptonian and their skin will show it#and paleskinned kryptonians are seeking out more sun and starving for it. like. ouuuu.#i wont add that to my own hcs but its that kinda shit i love sooo much#get so caught up on trying to make him human in ur eyes that u end up misunderstanding him entirely#love him#xenobio#for tagging
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erm can we see more deer dale he's so silly
Deer Dale!!! Now with full antler face like I initially intended but could not figure out how to draw at the time
#you get a healthy mix of silly and horrific body horror with this one#fop#fop nature au#fop a new wish#dale dimmadome#dev dimmadome#fop dale#fop dev#body horror#art#digital art#fanart#wanted to do some mini frames of deer dale sort of like deliriously nuzzling dev#but since hes ya know covered in antlers Dev is just sitting there terrified that if he makes one wrong move hes gonna get skewered or wors#(that wouldnt happen often btw he'd be mostly too scared and erratic for that but i thought it would be a nice one off visual)#its kinda an apt summary of their relationship tho i think#even if hes not malicious. even when hes trying to be as gentle as he knows how hes still hurting dev or almost hurting dev#I think about the ep where Dale mentions his time in the lemon factory implying that hes trauma dumped to dev about it before#like my man. your son is not who you should be loading that information on to. get a therapist.#all this to say that i do think deer dale tries to avoid hurting dev and even tries to be comforted by him but like..#you are like a 400 pound animal blindly stumbling around covered in spikes#you cant tell your own CHILD you dont love them and then expect them to take on the burden of comforting you#again hes not fully there when hes a deer but this is all very metaphorical or whatever
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some photos from the boys' teen years
#ts4#simblr#ts4 edit#ts4 render#sims 4#myedits#dhestyn#kelly#stella#& by teen years i do actually just mean teen year singular#these are all from 2016 which. is the year they graduated high school AND#the only year dhes didn't do anything crazy to his hair#bc that was the year after the Bleach Incident(tm)#& he was trying to make it healthy again#believe me the boy's hair is absolutely fried#i really want to do more of these & include the other kiddos#& span over more years bc the boys have known each other since they were like. 13 so#there are a lot of pictures to be taken yk#& tbh this is just my favorite kind of edit to do#they're fun & cute & don't require a lot of brain power#at some point i will print these out & make a scrapbook#as soon as someone invents a printer that actually works
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can the mtt commit more crimes that just murder please i know theyre the MURDER time trio but ppppleasse,,,, please,,,,,,
they'd be terrible to be next to on the highway. horror's going 160 mph amd has long past gone over the speed limit. dust's out for BLOOD and by blood i mean your tires. he's somehow sniping those round rubber wheels from the high moving vehicle with the precision of a master fruit ninja player. if your car explodes or flips over in the process that's not his fault. and then to make matters worse for everyone on the highway killer's in the backseat scratching up the doors and windows of your car with a knife everytime horror gets close to another car and oops he accidentally just disfigured your face also did i mention theyre all drunk during this
ok so theyve all got the classic face WHY DONT THEY ABUSE IT!!!! horror gets to do a little paper mache to cover up his head hole and then wearing glasses. killer i dont know what the FUCK he can do to get rid of his perpetual tears but let's just pretend that theyre conveniently gone for now. and then all dust has to do is put down his hood! anyways identity theft is cool. imagine how much they could totally fuck up classic's reputation with this. set up fake tinder profiles and then scam people for their credit card info/free dates (while ordering every expensive thing) and stealing wallets. walking into various grillby's's around the multiverse and telling terrible jokes. like ACTUALLY bad jokes. and then of course just being a huge piece of shit at the bar. god theres so many things they could do pretending to be classic. which one of us is hikaru looking ahh except the only difference between the three is the color of the stains on their clothes (either gray (dust) black (killer) or red. well faded red (horror))
ROBBERY!!!! ROBBERIES PLURAL!!!??? train robbery gas station robbery bank robbery GOVERNMENT robbery (what would you rob the government for?? documents??? idk) anyways. mtt robbing a train except its just a really shitty plan and they dont know jackshit about what theyre doing. killer's taken over the conductor's cabin and now he is booking it. how fast are trains allowed to go idk but the maximum. anyways meanwhile horror's on the tracks fucking up the rails with his strength or whatever (listen i know he's weak but picking and choosing what hcs i believe in is my art) and dust is there to teleport him away before the train crashes into him and turns him into a trolley problem victim. and then of course that shit doesnt fucking work and the train just ends up flipping over and catching on fire or something (killer survives because of course he does he's killer). and then in the end dust just has to flip the entire train over and they just stroll into the part that actually HAS the money
and then they go out and get ice cream. sometimes the murderers need to take a break from murdering and just do NORMAL crime yk???
#dragging this absolutely ancient draft out of the trenches because i've been having a scene in my head that fits this#i mean not REALLY related to this since its not a crime. more like him reckless abandon of life! their own lives! yeah they die#imagining.... trio driving around in the mountains. dust's driving ans horror's in the passenger and killer's in the back seat because he i#and dust just starts speeding up like...... much more than he really should be in the fucking mountains#and killer points it out and now all of a sudden horror is absolutely terrified LMAOOOO trying to get dust to slow down#and then they crash. but if there's no one more determined in the world killer can always load a save and theyre alive again#and dust is STILL speeding when they come back even with the knowledge that they die and horror's still terrified#but dust just tells him to calm down and loosen up a little bit!!! theyll come back afterwards anyways and they dont even die in pain#and after a few more deaths horrors just like. ugh. fine. you know what FINE ILL GO ALONG WITH IT#he says as he starts laughing along with dust because man!! the feeling of looking out at nature right before they die in a blaze of glory#is GREAT!!!! and then you know something something horrordust have trust in killer to bring them back after they all die#something something horror is willing to give up his usual reservations to have fun with the other two#and its so fun afterwards.... because nobody but them gets hurt!!! dust and horror wouldnt wanna hurt anyone after their au lore#and killer has no reason to in this scenario. so it all works out for them!! the only people getting hurt are them and lowkey they deservei#the sans in the au is probably sooo confused as to why the world is reloading even though theres no human doing so š killer you GOOF#theyve probably all died so many times but only they remember it. soooo cute.... only they get to see each other at their weakest ššš#killer absolutely abuses the save point when theyre all together i just knowww ittttt sooooo well#he wants everything to continue not restart or go back??? ok but everything IS continuous with these two#not like they stay doing one thing over and over anyways so its not really perpetual. anyways dust and horror would get bored along with hi#if they just kept doing the exact same thing over and over trying to find every possible ending. nahhhh#triglycercule this is sooo unhealthy none of them would do this!! ok well they make each other worse who said it was ever gonna be healthy#screw EVERYONE in the violet banquet discord server who indulged me in my trio waltz dancing in a field of flowers at 3 am. brainrot now...#this scene i described in tags totally happened in my trio meet each other fic btw. just that it hasn't gotten to this point at ALL yet šš#tricule rant#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#sans au#utmv
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Happy Birthday Yakou! š¬šš
The best roommate, mentor, boss, father figure and caretaker Yuma could ask forš
I had to try to make something for him. Iāve grown to adore him almost as much as yuma as I kept putting them in various scenarios the past half year.
(its kinda for both of them since their birthdays are only a day apart from each-other??)
So yeah, birthday cuddles for them both~ šš
#rain code#master detective archives: rain code#yuma kokohead#yakou furio#yakou fathero#pixeldoodles#my art#iāll still make yuma his own art tomorrow#second birthday art where someone is snuggling yuma#only difference is he's healthy here just eepy XD#people have made such wonderful work of these two#yakou has been yumaās anchor & safety since he saved him#as he should be#theyāre so adorable together#give this poor thing some well deserved cuddles#he needs to be protected from everything x3c#this pose was hard so it may look wonky... ORZ#I did my best aghghgh cuddle poses are hard#the best caretaker and whumpee candidates a girl could ask for <3#yuma's covered up again bc blanket burrito yuma is my religion :3#I love them both to DEATH they're just too good ;w;#but yeah I'll go easy on them for their birthdays c:#I gotta try to work on today's yuma month prompt now...#aghgh and I have sth else to do in 2 hours ORZ
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Alenoah, where Noah cares about Alejandro, more than Alejandro's family did:
Noah:Ā I will now torture you.
Alejandro:Ā Kinky!~
Noah:Ā I think you are brilliant and beautiful.
Alejandro:Ā Wait!
Noah:Ā You deserve to be cared for and loved, despite your mistakes.
Alejandro:Ā No!
Noah:Ā Your feelings and needs are valid, and deserve to be heard.
Alejandro:Ā I need a safeword! š³
Real.
#almost went on a whole rant here about how alejandro wouldn't know how to process unconditional care and support--#for himself as a person instead of the praise he receives for his persona/mask/ācharmingā act#and also how this ties in to him being starved for genuine affection/love which is why it's so ironic shipping him with noah of all people#since noah is not the type to show a lot of affection. at least not publicly- and even when he does it's usually veiled behind a layer of--#sarcasm and/or prickliness. he's like a hedgehog.#but noah WOULD absolutely break out the big guns once he's realised just how fucked up alejandro's home life and subsequent psyche is#āi am going to hurt you emotionallyā#ādo your bestā#āi love and cherish you as a person and expect nothing in return. i care about you and your feelings. you're my top priority.ā#cue alejandro ugly crying into a tub of ice cream#noah's trying to comfort him (awkwardly) but it's making it worse because noah caring about him even at his worst is The Issue#alejandro gets to have a breakdown over finally having a healthy relationship. as a treat.#total drama#td alejandro#td noah#alenoah#others' ideas#ophe's ranting in the tags again#replies
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As a gay Mike truther, this is my favorite bi-Mike evidence
#byler#don't like piling on the discourse#but again#as much as i am a gay mike truther#bi mike is something very special to me#one way ->#'it doesn't have to be one-way.'#oh... so what you're saying is mike's probably been trying to convince himself he can't be gay bc he's attracted to women too...?#but mike..#did you know you can like both?#that it doesn't have to be one way...?#mike in the shot alone right in front of jonathan as he says this#then panning over to reveal will and el paralleling each other#it's whatever#technically me saying i'm a gay mike truther bc the evidence supports it could be seen as invalidating to bi-mike truthers and vise-versa#but healthy discourse needs to be encouraged#just because you don't like someone's interpretation/it goes against yours that doesn't make it inherently homophobic/biphobic#it means you're feeling challenged and that's okay!#bask in it and move on#and if ppl are harassing you#just know they probably have a humiliation kink and you're just feeding it by giving them attention#it's likely they don't care that they've hurt your feelings and nothing is going to change that#not worth the energy
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#Reds such a unique and sad character to me#No matter what he does he is in a loop somehow. both actually and mentally.#He wants change - but he's afraid of it - But he NEEDS it - but its too scary.#He wants to be normal - But normal is boring - But its safe.#Too weird for people - too normal for freaks.#He Likes those two - But getting attached hurts. - But he truly does love them - But what if hes the issue? what is HE hurts them.#and thats why i think transport was such a big turning point. because he does hurt them#He tries his best and does what he thinks will be best.#him being alone so he issnt an āIssueā#And them being happy and healthy in a place where thier needs are met. and they dont have to be scared anymore.#but he fails and he hurts them.#His torture here is feeling helpless and whenever he tries it fails to the point he feels awful.#He has such complex and battling emotions they loop in his head over and over. too the point he cant do anything#thus making him a neutral character.#But neutral issnt a Good thing#Yes he doesnt hurt anything. But he doesnt help or comfort either#He is in a loop inside and out.#Hes drowning.#SIIIGHH sometimes it hurts understanding him /hj. (i know theres like a gigillion ways to interpret him lmao.}#im actuly kinda sad i havent seen anyone else have the idea of him being torn apart inside and anxious tho.#or that he sees himself as a big monster. maybe even due to him leaveing before (trying to help but failing again)#or that hes easy to manipulate. thus creating danger for the other two.#But im just yapping and making a comic based on my thoughts :]#(as ive been a lil mentally ill about string man lately.#dhmis#dhmis red guy#dhmis fanart#dhmis comic#dont hug me im scared
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I had a thought for a character just now
So going with the idea of Dark Choco having his constant stormy clouds, this other character basically just follows him around because of it since they either donāt enjoy the sun themselves, or they prefer stormy/cloudy weather. Or maybe they like the unusual phenomena
But any way, this character is following Dark Choco around specifically because of the clouds
Not really sure what flavor would work for this sort of character, but it was just a thought
#I donāt know if this character would be romantic or just a friend#I know trying to make a love interest for Dark Choco is a fruitless endeavor at this point#and here it doesnāt really matter#itās more about him having someone around who isnāt deterred by him and his curse#and instead sticks around him because of that#upon further thought it might not be the most healthy#since he needs to get rid of the sword and he wants to see the sun again#but you know it sounded nice in my head#cookie run oc#dark choco cookie#character idea#random stuff
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#everythingās fine and Iām fine Iām just saying this to say it rn#I donāt know what I would choose to do if he WAS still alive and I COULD still report officially#but a large part of me is really really glad that that mayor is dead. and I donāt ever have to hear him or see him at events or feel his#unusually long weird fingernails and iron grip while telling me to smile for pictures ever again#a part of me would love to confront him#but most of me is just glad heās gone and canāt scare me or make life hell for my parents ever again#he never shouldāve gotten away with all the things he did for so many years. but he did.#now that weāre here in the present. itās a gift to get to move on from it knowing heās not still out there at least#he was a gross greedy person with police and government power and never shouldāve had those positions for so many decades like he did#but that being said. he canāt ever speak to or touch me again.#Iām not grateful now. I wasnāt grateful then after he stopped pretending either. but Iām glad I get to walk away and never live near#any subdivision or building or anything else with his name or picture#ever again. and heās never able to touch another child ever. good riddance. you gross greedy poor excuse for a public servant.#now Iām gonna go try to write some of what Iāve learned into a fic to help my future self and others#who do you think came out on top at the end of the day mayor L?#I came out of this with friends and kindness and gentleness and healthy rage. you died just as greedy and fake and paranoid as you lived.#I hope you got better towards the end. for your wife and familyās sake.#I get to protect others from people like you for the rest of my life. and Iāll win.#because I deserve it and every current kid deserves it too.#shh katie
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My friend: I can't think while I'm at work
Me, at work, earlier that day: word for word writing a fic In my head
#not a happy one either#out here in the pharmacy aisles thinking about comas#(old news)#but it was like Elsie calling her mom and her mom asking how everyone was#namely how Elsie (heart failure) and Finch (fetus whos host is going into heart failure) are doing#and Elsie says that shes been having contractions but shes hiding them from her doctors#(even though she thinks its Braxton hicks)#and her mom yells at her and asks why she would do that and Elsie says she doesn't want to have this baby without her wife#because her wife Atticus has been in a coma for about a week after an aneurysm ruptured + she hemorrhaged and seized#and her mom is about to say like āa life for a lifeā vibes. when a baby is born someone dies. that's how it works#and Elsie yells at her because a) what the fuck and b) why would god choose to kill her HEALTHY wife after making Elsie so sick?#why wouldn't he take Elsie if he needed a life for a life?#anyway i wrote it when i got home lmao#and now im at work again but this time it was filling waters.#and while i was doing that i was day dreaming about Rainey and Lyria and Remus#it was a nicer daydream (Rainey and Lyria going to get icecream but Rainey has no cash. Remus has 100$)#but i knew Remus had to ve hurt or she wouldn't be there (third wheeling AND She and Lyria don't get along)#so i was trying to figure out the timeline and decided on when she tried to kill herself so Rainey is watching her#and all I thiught was: (annoyed) i promsie not to kill myself in the next half an hour š#(while they run to town to get icecream together and she's left at home)#james is rambling again#ocs#rambling#thoughts#writer#writing#original character
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Oh no!!! He doesnāt care??? Whatever will I do??? This hurts me so badly!!!
#firstly: no fucking way thatās true#heās now lost everyone except for a demon using his blood to make a homunculus#I sincerely doubt that the final tether to his group of friends being lost doesnāt hurt at all#secondly: calling me a limp noodle of a friend is fair#I look wishy washy from the outside#but that is because Iām constantly trying to make everyone as happy as possible#which maybe isnāt healthy#but I do prioritize certain people#unless heās calling me a limp noodle for leaving and then coming back#in that case he can fuck right off#I was trying my fucking best to trust him again after he hurt me#thatās not limp noodle behavior#thatās an attempt at change#finally: I shouldāve stopped this sooner#I trusted Birdie and Chris when they said I could do what I want#I tried to separate what was going on from my own feelings#I shouldnāt have#I need to take all of a persons behavior into account#and thatās on me. Iām sorry for that.#I was hurting and I missed him and I wanted it to be ok#donāt worry#I donāt miss him anymore#the croakerverse#the muppet joker#not even gonna tag his name Iām done
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I got an email from my grandpa today and all the draft responses Iāve been working on in my head sound like an 18th century letter thatās going to have to travel for months to reach him.
pandemic year 5 really has me feeling like me and a very small handful of people I know are living on an entirely different plane of existence than everyone else
#like I havenāt seen him in over a year. Iāve seen him 3 times since 2020#so I guess on the isolation and slow communication front itās pretty similar#he used my chosen name. I havenāt changed my email yet but he used my chosen name#I donāt even care at this point if he never gets my pronouns right#I thought Iād never be able to tell him. I didnāt want to find out his politics were more important#heās quiet and kind and he gives people expensive gifts any time he can afford it but he constantly forgets peopleās allergies#so he might get you something you canāt have but whoever you pass it along to will love it#he cries at weddings and during church services and sometimes random holidays#he passes out in his rocking chair at every family function#heās the unofficial photographer of every gathering ever since my great grandfather stopped being able to walk as much as the job requires#and he voted for trump in 2016 and has afaik an active nra membership#he once complimented my outfit by telling me heād call me a stud if I was a guy#which like. ok. I have some notes#but uh. thanks?#idk Iām just. it sucks being so far away from everyone and everything because the rest of the world is ignoring an ongoing pandemic#Iām missing so much of my life and others lives and even parts of my own transition#I can make steps to reach out but it only goes so far if poeple#are unwilling to mask or vaccinate or even just ask what needs to happen to make it safe#so I donāt. idk. kill my partner#or become even more disabled than I currently am#my familyās been making steps and theyāre taking me seriously but itās all so slow and Iām still sore from bracing for rejection#Iāve been bracing for rejection for so so long itās terrifying to reach out. about anything#this is not condusive to a healthy relationship lol#not sure what to do other than bonk myself on the head and say āget betterā tho#*bonk* ātry againā#one step at a time ig#ahshitherewegoagain.jpg#.txt
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#i ran out of tags on my last reblog.#but yeah basically i wish the high guard leaned more into that toxic masculinity that they had going on#you know the type of masculinity where guys egg each other on to be more an more aggressive/violent/strong etc#the type of masculinity where... when asked ''how did it get like this? why did you and your friends take it so far?'' the guy doesn't know.#they get swept up in. let megs get swept up in this shield of strength and power which makes him feel (in the moment) not helpless.#but it goes too far. he does things he can't take back. his best friend is horrified by him-- doesn't ACCEPT him anymore.#he and Orion argue and instead of defending Sentinel Orion defends a random cronie and gets shot.#cue that moment of regret. except in this case he wouldn't catch Orion and go ''why... i'm done saving you.''#instead he'd go ''why...'' notice the cronie is trying to flee and Orion begs him to not become the monster Sentinel was.#but Megs takes offense to that. is he for real?? ''I am nothing like Sentinel. and I thought you of all people would know that...''#''... I'm the only one strong enough to fix things. It's what's best for everyone.'' ''D... no...'' ''Sorry Orion. Cybertron needs me.''#*drops him to shoot the cronie trying to escape*#Orion is so hurt. his sense of jutice is wounded but so is his spark. he dies and comes back as prime. and megs isn't happy to see him.#Starscream stands behind him emboldens Megs. the High Guard refuses to bow to another Prime. Megs now stands firmly in opposition to Optimus#this is because Starscream sees Megs as strong but easily manipulated. he thinks with him at the helm that he'll have a shield#while he basically runs the HG behind the scenes#Optimus and Megs fight. Megs loses. all his blustering about being the savior of Cybertron is thrown back in his face#it's embarrassing. he feels helpless. he never wanted to feel helpless again.#instead of banishment Megs shoves Optimus' outstretched hand aside-- he KNOWS he is in the RIGHT.#and just UGHHH THE HIGH GUARD CREATING THEIR OWN MONSTER BY SPURRING HIM ON!#no one is able to help Megs regulate his emotions he just feels bad and his new friends tell him to punch someone about it! it's not healthy#I WIIIISH I COULD LIKE IT MORE
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young alpha yata making lunch boxes for omega saru bc he is concerned saru might be too skinny and weak. everyone else (maybe even saru himself) sees it as an alpha courting an omega lol
Yata just wants Fushimi to be healthy, please he doesn't even know what courting is XD Imagine Yata not even being aware that Fushimi is an omega, like Fushimi hasn't had his first heat yet and he doesn't tell Yata that he's an omega because he's embarrassed ā bad enough being an omega but being one when Misaki of all people is an alpha is just too much. Yata's pretty vocal about being an alpha of course, because alphas are strong and cool (and then Fushimi teases him about sex and Yata gets super red and tells him to shut up, Yata hasn't entirely reconciled himself to that part yet and anyway they're only in middle school). Meanwhile Yata's noticed that Fushimi has a terrible diet and thinks that Fushimi needs some nutrients, so he just starts making Fushimi lunches. Fushimi still picks at the food and complains about the vegetables but he does eat, and Yata is completely oblivious as to how this certainly looks like an alpha trying to awkwardly court an omega.
Then they join Homra, where most of the guys are alphas and probably notice that Fushimi's an omega right away. I imagine Totsuka or Kusanagi trying to like gently hint at Yata about the truth, because they can see Fushimi is uncomfortable when Yata talks about Homra being full of alphas, but Yata doesn't entirely catch on. He does however keep bringing Fushimi food even now, like if they're not going to be at home for lunch Yata will sometimes bring Fushimi lunch even if they're at the bar, since Fushimi's so picky this is the only way to be sure that he eats something. The rest of the Homra guys totally notice this of course, Chitose thinks it's pretty clever to try and claim your omega by being the one who exclusively feeds him. Fushimi hears these rumors and just clicks his tongue and thinks 'how stupid,' because he knows that Yata hasn't noticed he's an omega and even if Misaki did why would he ever try and court Fushimi ā but at the same time part of him desperately wants it, wants Yata to be trying to stake a claim to Fushimi's heart, and perhaps that's why he continues to be even more stubborn in his eating habits so that Yata will keep bringing him meals.
#sarumi#Talking K#then imagine this post-ROK#they're friends again and Yata knows Fushimi is an omega#and keeps bringing him regular lunches at S4#it absolutely looks like an alpha courting an omega and everyone knows it#except Yata who still just thinks he's trying to make Fushimi healthy#everyone else is like he's fattening up Fushimi-san so he'll be ready to have children
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#psyching myself up to try and watch the new series of heartstopper#I don't make a lot of personal posts these days and it feels easier to talk about this in the tags for some reason now - like I'm whisperin#but series 2 absolutely wrecked me in a way that is not entirely healthy#isaac's storyline is just a bit too close to home for me and I became a bawling mess every single time he was on screen#and not in a cathartic way. in a like I am dredging up the trauma of growing up aroace without having fully come to terms with it yet way.#I've come such a long way with slowly starting to feel pride in being aroace even in just the last few months#that I wondered if I'd actually be fine with it this time. I even considered rewatching s2 in preparation. turns out I'm not fine.#I watched a recap of s2 to try and remember what happened and uhhhh that clip of isaac rejecting that love interest in the bookshop#(with the novel loveless blurry in the background) has already brought up emotions.#then I thought I'd scroll some spoilers in his character tag just to prepare myself for what would happen with him this season#and just reading posts (mild spoilers here) about him being proudly aroace have sent me into paroxysms of sobbing yet again so....#I've honestly come such a long way in the last few years and the last few months. I'm even talking about it on tumblr now.#but I guess most of my work on that front has been accepting the present and the future of not having or wanting a partner.#whereas there's still a lifetime of trauma from the way it made me feel in the past#both growing up feeling alienated and having no idea what was different about me and the extent to which I tried to make it not be true#for years after first having an inkling of it being a possibility. I would have done anything to make myself alloromantic.#(the realisation of asexuality came later and was more of a 'huh I guess that makes sense' thing lol)#and even though I no longer want to change this fact about who I am#I guess I'm more traumatised by it all than I consciously realised. genuinely thought I'd be fine at this point.#anyway ramble over. I'm actually not sure if I should watch the new season or not. will it be helpful to work through the emotions?#or just re-traumatise me? felt more like the latter last time so hmmm.#guess I'm going to have to think about it.#it feels ridiculous that such a fluffy show - in which the character in question is pretty minor - should provoke such a reaction#but there you go#mine#tag chat#personal
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