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To be; Today.

To be reminded that we are beautiful In each scar and insufficiency

To be told that we are all imperfect In each fate and failure

To be expected with no expectation In each part of age of growing up

To be conscious that we are been heard In each word even if it has no meaning

To be the happiest that we are deserve it In each decision, freedom, or goals

To be prepared with no disappointment In every step and stage of present

Today, What if? What now? What else? What should? Today, Who will? Who is? Who would? Who seek? Today, Why you? Why me? Why us? Why they? Today, How long? How could? How far? How much? Today, When is? When we? When to?

Today, Wisdom has faded. Truth is meaningless. Sincerity is scary. Dreaming is loser.

Today, We run, we run, we run We fell, get up, we walk, stumbled Disappointments, unacceptable self-conception.

Today, Haughty, power, control, and deaf Eyes closed, mouth shouting, lost respect

and repeat.

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100 Years Ago

100 years ago, the earth had no love. It might have, but it's not for the soul. not even for belonging, just the universe.

100 years ago, we thought there was no such thing as a scientist. Scientists will work on chemical and technological advancements. Where now it has ever made change and is still craving the absolute truth.

100 years ago, we had no choices. I mean, humanities at its time will do everything to win. to lead, to be authoritative to have what the earth provided.

100 years later, which is now We mostly lay down to surrender. Unlike the other, the one that speaks a lot about privileges, They had war from day zero to battle those (internet) social justice warriors. Besides, the others are still struggling because they don’t have anything real yet.

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The Perks in Between

I’m not quiet clear to understand the world. Too many layers we have to compromise and still arrive at the point where we had never enough.

Correct me if I’m wrong, if we go back around 3-4 years ago, didn't life feel alright with its pace and we were all okay about going back and forth?

"I'm familiar with unrequited"

Exactly.

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(lyric) I put my foot down on a luna moth In the bathroom at your party You screamed into my terrycloth I said that I was sorry You found me with a door locked I only went upstairs to cry I came over here to be alone Not to kill your things that fly I don't need anyone to hurt me I can do that myself I don't see why you would want me If I could, I would be anybody else Put a needle through a luna moth (through a luna moth) The one I crushed and let you down I left it on your doorstep But I didn't stick around (but I didn't stick around) To watch you smile at an ugly thing To try to ease my guilt Watch you lookin' at a broken wing Like it could be rebuilt I don't need anyone to hurt me I can do that myself I don't see why you would want me If I could, I would be anybody else If I could, I would be anybody еlse

in how many times we keep running and hide? arguing with the deals, and skipped the good parts

can't we just living the moment, appreciating and gratitude without excusing, acceptance it is

play some songs repeatedly to get more of understandings

in how many times we keep running and hiding? to feel, to immerse to show, to share to let go or with the flow.

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Saturday sunset We're lying on my bed with five hours to go Fingers entwined and so were our minds Cryin', "I don't want you to go" You wiped away your tears But not fears under the still and clear indigo You said, "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow" My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy Well, nothing then, much has changed 'Cause while you're wolfin' down liquor My soul, it gets sicker But I'm stickin' to the screenplay Gotta say I'm okay, but answer this, babe How is it now that somehow you're a strangеr? You were mine just yеsterday I pray the block in my airway dissipates And instead deters your airplane's way But heaven denied Destiny decried Something beautiful died Too soon But I'm letting go I'm givin' up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you, that's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright Someday I'll be fine But just not tonight (ooh) Plungin' into all kinds of diversions Like blush wine and sonorous soirées But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline I see you're all that can intoxicate Oceans and engines You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs 'Cause now my heart's home All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away And I'm not okay But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you, that's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright But just not Tonight was the first time I stared into seas Of beguiling sepia two years ago And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words They revitalize my fraying bones, oh Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down You've lost all solid ground Both dreams and demons drowned And this void's all you've found And doubts light it aglow? I have so many questions But I'm pouring them into the ocean And I'm starting up my engine And I'm letting go I'm givin' up your ghost It's come to a close I marked the end with this last song I wrote I'm letting go This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you My great lost love

Put the lyric here so I can sing it to myself. Shout-out to NIKI for the sake of her new album.♡

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Time flies unconsciously You make me begin to listen sum old songs

Time flies like an arrow You take me back to the old days

Good day on my mind Tryna split it out & re-calling 'em time to time where things gone wrong and heal

(Roughly) Time flies to count When days went right but stopping by the pain we live with

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... How??

How do you survive in this industry?

How do you take risk outta your comfort zone?

How do you manage all emotions and disbelief of yourself?

Knowing the path you wrote before now it seems unclear to reach.

How could you try to maintain with things that has no guarantee?

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some things i couldn’t catch up lately

some days were running faster

some calls and texts already missed to reply

sometimes i didn’t realize, am i became stranger too soon?

but it’s just me being myself,

and its normal isn’t?

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someone has never told me what it feels when her/his parents are not there -not exist. till i saw and listened directly, till i met and felt it in some ways, and had chances to give love and respect to a very beautiful imperfection on what parents of mine had, this is all i have.. efforts, gratitude, pay back, prays, time, things that can't be seen but they said "those are meaningful more than wealth". herewith the journey has just begun, so does the question(s) of life. 𝘦𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘵, 𝗠.

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Sometimes we need distance and space. So will the magic happens.

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The City

the city awakens the city spreads love,       sick, and doubtful

the city is happiness the city is sadness the city makes each ground on dependencies

the city feels powerful every day gives lesson every second to hours be unfaithful the city is unforgiven

the city has people the city grows well the people have pause the city grows well                            still

but the city won't sleep the people will always awake the buildings increase the city never fall asleep

the city is lonely it speaks of reality the city is stuffy it stops fantasy

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the world is more about chaotic and emptiness. what are we looking for here?

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fairytale won't ever have missed conceptions to a happy ending

dis aint alice in wonderland

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which fairy tale are you in?

this is how the universe works. perhaps, the world really shows us how to stop pretending, stop denying, stop acting like we can reach things before its get dark.

this is why we shud make chance not choice. this is why we must go on after a breakdown -not running around the temper and live the life uncertainly.

this is why I need to hang in for awhile. but it sucks to see what’s real what doesn’t belong to me yet. but again and again, this is why I feel like some things are mean to be in no specific terms. yall good? well, me neither.

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August on Poem

I’m planning to see how beautiful it is I’m planning to see how it will be, our kinda future

I wonder how long does it take .. how long does it will give us time to spend to get wild to wonder a marry and the joy

Will you keep trying to find? Will you keep running to stand? Will you keep figuring to understand?

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Since we failing apart, we never know how the end would go Since we falling apart, we never know how it would go to the end

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You are allowed to be both a masterpiece and a work in progress simultaneously.

Sophia Bush (via bnmxfld)