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I’m slowly chipping away at the tubbo stream where he talks with dream. I’m only an hour and 18 minutes in. Holy shit. I have had one of those moments where I just need to go outside and touch grass. If I have to hear “context!” Or “but the r word tho” or “I don’t recall that” or “that’s not what it sounded like to me” or anything similar come out of dream’s mouth I’m going to go insane. I’m like so mad to the point where I’m like “hold up. Why am I this mad at some dude online. I need to take a breath.” Which doesn’t happen often. Anyway ima go take a walk outside and not engage with this for like another 24 hours.

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Ok I lied, I’m making another post about the dream situation. Ok; as a woman something that just doesn’t sit right with me is dream calling his friend that are woman derogatory stuff even if it’s a joke. My opinion on that is dream is a guy. I feel, similar to the r word thing, I don’t think a guy can reclaim those words. I think woman can jokingly call other women that type of thing but because it directly degrades woman, I don’t think a man can. I might be being sensitive, but as someone who has been called those words even jokingly by men, I know it doesn’t feel good to be called a slut even if it’s a joke. I know I’m repeating myself a bunch but I just feel I need to drive my point home. I don’t think men can call woman sluts or whores because it’s not THEIR word to reclaim.

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I got a poorly painted little fairy door at the dollar tree and just re-painted it because I was stuck inside due to the dangerously cold weather over here. Anyway here’s my final product, I think it looks really cute and kinda reminds me of the fairy gardens me and my grandma used to build. :)

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Ok, as someone who used to be a dsmp/mcyt fan, I have come back from the dead cuz of the drama. Anyway I was like I might as well get all my feelings about mcyt in general out of the way, so if you wanna hear my rant please keep reading.

Ok first: the current situation. I’m in full support of Tubbo. Fuck dream. This whole situation makes me actually so pissed off. as someone with diagnosed ADHD, just because you are neurodivergent, doesn’t. Mean. You. Can. Call. People. The. R-slur. I’m not going to touch anything else he did, but what he did was fucked and everyone involved has a right to be pissed the hell off especially Tommy and Tubbo.

Before I bring up my next point, I think it’s important to note that Wilbur, Techno, and Dan TDM basically raised me. I was a huge love joy fan and it was like the thing that literally kept me alive through middle school. Ok now onto my point; what will did was fucked. I used to watch every single one of his streams, and it was so hard to let go of that when the news came out cuz no way in hell am I supporting an abuser. I feel like this post is also kinda closure for me cuz I’ve kinda just pushed this to the back of my head till now. Anyway, fuck you will. I hope this is the last time I waste my life thinking about you.

My last thing is simply; everyone involved the MCYT community was a piece of my life, especially in middle school, but I think it’s time I closed this chapter of my life for good. So this will probably be the last time I talk about that on the internet. Have a good day/night y’all. :)

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Ok, so I just read George Orwell’s Animal Farm and I’m gonna make it my whole personality for a sec so bear with me. Anyway, if you haven’t read it, you should. It’s really interesting and all of the different major themes tied to the book, I feel are still relevant today even if the original book was written a while ago. Anyway these are my overall thoughts on the book! (Sorry in advance about any spelling/grammar mistakes, I have dysgraphia and spell check doesn’t always catch me)

1: I think the fact that the book points out the ignorance of people using the animals on the farm. On that note, I also love how Benjamin supposedly knows everything but doesn’t say anything until it’s too late.

2: squealers whole character is just so interesting to me, I hate him but like I feel like squealer’s character reflects the corruption of the communist Russian government (which is what the whole book is technically based on)

3: that brings me to the fact this book is directly talking about the communist Russian government and its flaws without directly stating that.

Anyway I could go on for hours about this book and how much of a masterpiece it is and how it’s still relevant today, but I don’t want to spoil too much if you haven’t read it yet and I don’t have all that much time to write this. (If you haven’t read it yet, I highly recommend reading it, like seriously it’s a quick read and it’s a ligament masterpiece.)

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Ok, so my class just read animal farm by George Orwell and I was thinking, squealer’s personality is just “gaslighting gatekeep girlboss” and now I can’t stop thinking about it-

(Why do I kinda wanna draw squealer the way I picture him and than photoshop big lips and the nail polish emoji on him? Oh! And I could add “gaslighting gatekeep girlboss” in big pink glitter letters 😆)

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In honor of Ao3 being back up, what are y’all’s favorite fan fiction tropes? Mine is reveals. Identity reveals, relationship reveals, anything reveals! Just give me the drama!

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Today I was very adamant about hand washing the gloves I sewed for the winter cuz there dirty. Anyway my main thing was “the washing machine would be too hard on my gloves :(” but in reality I was harder on my gloves than the washing machine would have been- like no one can pop a stitch on my gloves but ME. 😆

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I have been looking for an outlet to just vent some things for a while, but I have dysgraphia which makes it very not fun to write. Anyway I’ve started cutting up strips of graph paper and prompting myself to write a short thing about how I’m feeling and than folding the paper into little stars :)

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I was just reflecting on the fact that when I was an 8 year old with undiagnosed dyscalculia I was trying so hard to learn fast facts, and they just never stuck. All my teachers were telling me that I would need to have all my fast facts memorized in order to make it in life- but than as soon as I got out of middle school I always had a calculator. Tbh that’s so weird to me. Like even though I didn’t have dyscalculia explicitly diagnosed at the time, I feel like you shouldn’t be telling an 8 year old they’re not gonna make it through school if they don’t memorize multiplication table.

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This experience has taught me how to hit the minus button real fast after taking a picture-