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becoming friends w nct writers was genuinely the best thing ive ever done, not a day goes by without me 1) giggling kicking my feet 2) laughing my head off

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doimg GREAT mentally preparing myself for college tomorrow and the weather because the UK is just dramatic as hell when it comes to that stuff.. WBU THOOOO

gl for colly man, fucking hated that place, caused literally all of my trauma 😭😭 thank god for not having uni on mondays tho 🙈🙈 and tell me about itttt i hate this uk weather. tell me why its blowing wind so fast i can hear the whistles and then its pouring piss rain, then everything stops for three seconds then it happens all over again 😭😭😭 fuck ass storm

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hi aegipie what’s up over here…

- lqfiles-nim.

omg hey…. 👀 how u doing 🙈

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I be like "fuck men" then cry over hong seunghan

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missing bae 😭💔

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kiss it better

seunghan x fem!reader

warnings: insinuation of a toxic relationship. starts of in a fight. lowkey gets physical (mc slaps sh). cheating accusations. cussing. toxic behaviour but always going back to each other. fluff at the end. mentions of aespa giselle (aeri) and riize eunseok. idk if anyone noticed but this is based off of/inspired by rihanna’s kiss it better but idk if i interpreted it correctly sorry if i didn’t 💀 um i cant write a fight scene for shit but i really just wanted to put this out 😣 i lowkey hate this guys. okay bye enjoy!!!

“i didn’t realise you were an expert on everything, enlighten me on how that wasn’t flirting!” seunghan spits his snarky comments.

“it was a crowded room you dipshit! we couldn’t control how much space there would be!” tears threaten to fall down your face as you and seunghan continue to argue over something that was out of anyones control.

“he was literally three millimetres away from u! he may as well have had his dick up your arse!” you could tell he was getting angry, the tips of his ears burning into a deep red while his eyebrows furrowed.

“you always do this! how many times do i have to tell you that it was out of our control” you were losing patience at this point, frustrated that your boyfriend won’t even try to understand you. “you’re acting like i did take him up my arse! you absolute monstrosity” you’re sure you’re on the verge of pulling your hair out right now.

“i don’t know why you’re talking as if you bring soooo much joy to the conversation” i swear if he utters another word.. you clench your fist and try to keep you peace, so angry out of your mind you start huffing and puffing.

“you talk so highly about yourself but you cant even stay loyal to your own boyfriend” seunghan scoffs

“don’t you dare roll ur eyes at me, i did nothing wrong, you’re the one blowing things out of proportion” you exclaim as you furrow your eyebrows and dig ur pointer finger into his chest.

“you’re so out-“ SLAP

god that felt so good

“what the fuck!? what was that for!”

“you’re acting like a fucking cunt!” you scream before turning on your heel and locking yourself in the shared bedroom.

*knock* *knock*

“baby, please open up”

“fuck off”

“baby, you’re starting to piss me off now open up”

you give no response as you try to suppress your small sobs

“fucking hell” seunghan whispers under his breath, rolling his eyes as he grabs his car keys and jacket from the couch.

you hear the front door shut while you dig under the covers to find your phone.

“aeri you dont understand, he’s so infuriating! i cant stand him all he does is cause problems” you sob while recounting the events that occurred earlier in the day

“y/n, im telling you as a friend but also as a sister, you should consider breaking up with him, everyone has noticed that you’ve been so down, and seems like its been taking a toll on you, this isn’t healthy”

“you don’t understand at all oh my god” you hiccup “i love him too much to leave and i know he feels the same way”

“but he doesn’t act like it at all”

seunghan had left the shared home, trying clear his mind rant to his friend.

he tried to wrap his head around why he would act like that. but now that he thinks about it, he’s always acted like this, over exaggerating the seriousness of everything.

he recollects what he had said before, insisting that the forced close proximity was comparable to cheating. even things that have happened before, such as the incident where he mistook your kindness towards a waiter as flirting.

seunghan realises that it was never a two way toxicity, rather only coming from him. the immense guilt he currently feels is nothing compared to the sadness he has caused you.

“hyung i messed up so bad” seunghan is currently sobbing, with head his hands while his phone plays on loudspeaker “like really bad, im pretty sure shes crying right now”

“seunghan, im sure she is, you literally insinuated that she cheated on you ‘cuz she was next to a guy?” eunseok’s sure that his friend has never acted irrationally before, but seeing how he reacted to such a small thing, he thinks he needs to reevaluate his friend.

“hani, im telling you as an older brother, fix it while you can, you won’t know how much this may have effected her until you talk to her, the more you put it off, the worse it will get”

you leave the room you’ve locked yourself in for the past three hours, throat burning in thirst, you head to the kitchen to fetch a drink. while you finish your cup of water, you hear the gears turn in the door, indicating seunghan had returned from whatever, wherever. you don’t care right now.

now you two are standing opposite each other, both avoiding any sort of eye contact.

seunghan takes steps forward towards the sink to wash his hands, conveniently you’re standing right next to it, so you take your chance to swerve away from him. seunghan swears his heart breaks even more than before.

you take three big leaps and now you are in your living area of the apartment. your emotions are all over the place, one second you were upset, the next emotionless, and now your angry. angry that he still hasn’t said anything (mainly apologised) despite him being the one who had the worser choice of words.

you turn to face him with a disgusted look on your face. “why cant you just let go of that pride of yours?” you dont shout, you dont want another argument, no matter how angry you were currently.

seunghans lost for words, he wasn’t expecting a confrontation this early on into coming home.

“you know i love you, and i know you love me.” you sigh, relaxing all your facial muscles so rather than seeming annoyed, you seem approachable now. “but you cant make everything into a problem because you didnt like it” seunghans head falls to face the bottom of the sink as you relay your feelings

“we’re in a relationship, if you don’t like something, tell me and ill do my best to fix it. im hoping you’d do the same for me” you continue as you stare at the side of his face.

seunghan sighs while he dries his hands on a tea-towel and walks over towards you. both of his hands are now placed on the sides of your face

“i do love you. i love you so much it hurts.” his eyes sparkle with love and adoration. “i’ll be honest i dont know why i acted like that, but i’m so sorry that i did. i’ll try harder to never act like that again, i dont want my pretty girl crying sad tears because of me” he says while wiping his thumbs over your dried tears.

you let out a small smile, this is just what you wanted, seunghan to take accountability. you lean up to place a peck on his lips before pulling him into an embrace.

“i love you” you both say at the same time, leading you to pull away from each other and fall into a pit of giggles and pressing kisses against each others faces.

seunghan moves a strand of hair behind your ear and leans towards it, whispering a small “i love you so so so so much”placing small kisses to the top of your ear after every “so”, and he finally presses a long smiley kiss onto your lips, exerting enough force to bring out another giggle from you and reciprocating the kiss.

no matter how much you fight, you can always kiss it better.

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they made this for me 😭😭😭😭😭😭

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the fact that ot6 stans donated 80 jackets from riize's nat geo collection to a women's shelter using money they collected for other projects to torture seunghan, with financial support from nat geo themselves makes me so fucking sick I can't even speak. im so fucking done with this whole world because it seems like the more evil you are the more you get your way. im so sorry seunghan you don't deserve any of this and i don't know why the world is so harsh to you. and im so sorry to the other 6 members that you have to play boyfriend to these demons for the rest of your lives.

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someone said "imagine looking at the crowd and those are all just people who ruined your friends life" or something along the lines of that and since then I could not stop thinking about that

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i so selfishly want seunghan back. i want him to fight back. i want him to scream to everyone whos hurt him. i dont want him to debut as a soloist. i dont care if “it is was his decision.” i want to see him with riize again. i dont want him to waste the months of practice he prepared. i want to hear him in the songs he was meant to be in in the first place. i want him and riize to prove that their bond is so strong that no one can tear them apart. i dont just want justice for him, i want him to he part of his dream again. and as fucked up as it sounds i want everyone who couldve driven him to worse outcomes to face the worst consequences possible. i dont want them to roam around thinking they won with their threats.

i want riize to be seven forever and always.

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seeing people start to give up on the boycott when it hasn’t even been that long. please please pleek why can’t you just put two feet on the ground and stand up how hard is it to unfollow their platforms and stop streaming their music people post their stuff on google drive and reupload it to spotify and youtube and why are you still subscribed to their weverse and posting new content of them and interacting with their posts why are you giving up but saying you still care about seunghan you are lying through your teeth nobody said this was going to be easy it’s hard it’s not fun it sucks it will take a while to see results but why can’t you just try and help you have a chance to help and do something why don’t you want to do it like what are you not understanding about the fact that’s he’s kicked out of the group he’s not on hiatus he’s kicked out this is our only chance you say you care but your actions aren’t lining up with your words you value your own comfort over the greater good that boycotting itself is and what it could bring you don’t want to be uncomfortable and your excuse is that it makes the boys upset and it’s not supporting them how many times do people have to explain to you that it is helping them this is for them too this is for seunghan and better treatment for riize they want this just as much as we do and they’ve shown it countless times but you’re sitting here streaming their music and watching their content and buying their merch congratulations you are showing sm it doesn’t matter how awful they treat their artists people will still tune in and the numbers will be steady or keep going up and that’s all that matters to them it’s kind of extremely embarrassing for you i’m not gonna lie if you say you’re gonna do something do it for fucks sake

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this is not a safe space for ot6 briize btw

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i hope theyre fighting through this 😭

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anyways if anyone cares i am boycotting (if it wasnt clear). i love and support the boys but i can not support a company that can do what they did to seunghan with no thoughts or consequences.

i dont hate the members. i hate sm and just like prior kpop boycotts, the only way for change is impacting them where it hurts financially. interacting and streaming will do nothing but show sm that what they did was okay and can continue to happen.

this is not only for seunghan but for all kpop idols. this whole situation has set a dangerous precedent that "fans" can send death threats and harass idols if they do something they don't like over rumors and innocent actions. we're already seeing this happen with the rest of riize as people pull up things for eunseok and sungchan's predebut life.

this whole situation is so much bigger than riize.

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we fucking waited and fought for 10 months and all the dream came crushed not even after three days??

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if you call ur self a briize and still say ur ot6, you’re lying to yourself. FUCKKK ot6 “fans” we didn’t even have him back for 3 full days and now he’s gone again.

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• tldwtr — watch this video.

i’ve gotten a couple asks regarding my stance on the riize boycott and i’m here to say i’m in full support of it, and will be partaking. i’m unfollowing them on all platforms, i will not be streaming their music or watching their content, i will not be buying any albums, merch, etc., and i left their weverse. and like i said before, i won’t be writing for riize for the time being.

riize is seven and will always be seven. i love the boys so much and i believe they deserve to live their dreams in peace together, and be under a company that puts them first. one that protects and respects them. the reason i’m boycotting is because they mean so much to me. it sucks to see them suffer under sm and i’m not just going to be on the sidelines and be complacent. they deserve better treatment.

i know a lot of people use the argument that they’ve suffered enough or that they need our support, and that’s just laziness in my opinion. our support is the boycott. you say you’re sad and upset for them and that they deserve respect and the mistreatment should end…where is the action to back that up? how are you going to say that, then continue to stream their music and interact with their socials? that will show sm that no matter what they do, people will still consume their content — and to them, any engagement is better than none. they’ll take anything even if it’s under the wrong circumstances.

grow a backbone, please. think a little harder about why this is happening in the first place. we have a chance to make real change for riize and for the k-pop industry in general. be loud or don’t say anything at all.