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So embarrassing to thirst for a man but here i am

this is actually making me go insane i am SOAKED

(not my video 😇)

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Listening to the smiths crying in dorm while roommate is asleep

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when you talk to a man and you can tell he has never had to develop sensing how others perceive you as a skill to survive and it pisses you off because you wish you could be that stupid

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when you disappoint ur mom and it's simultaneously freeing and destroying ur inner child

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my kink is giving people fomo

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I miss watching anime man. I was simply happier. (No i wasnt)

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Got back with ex on pre period hormones what do i do now (my period is completely irregular so I couldn’t recognize them)

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When ur the oldest daughter who has mommy issues and has avoidant attachment style trying to date a man who also has mommy issues but is only child. The contempt in his emotional dependence on you but the dynamic is also practically asking you to be a female manipulator.

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1 month into college, so far: got a concussion, threw up, wisdom tooth inflammation

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Me 24/7 after turning 17

recognising your parent's mannerisms in yourself and physically feeling psychic damage occur

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Limerence

Behind the layers of walls guarding my heart, you planted a seed of limerence.

I knew the consequences of letting it sprout, but my excitement was unparalled.

"It's just something to look forward to," I say, lying to my friends, lying to myself.

With sunlight and rain, it is now a weed that has overtaken my walls.

I struggle to hide it from the outside, but in all honesty I hope you notice its blossoms.

I will unearth it myself, because one day it will rot anyway.

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This was a thing I wrote a long long time ago. Never again will I yearn for a man like this. (I'm lying) (I'm a clown)

Maybe I can keep using this idea and try rhyming?? idk

Constructive criticism is appreciated! This is probably my first legit piece of creative writing.

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People who are emotionally dependent on their parents piss me off, but Ik that’s just me being bitter because of my experiences with my parents.

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Watching old zane hijazi and carly and erin vlogs just brings me to my happy place, I don’t want to know what they are up to today at all

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What is this emotion of I want to be stronger than your bf

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It’s hard to keep trying when it’s never enough.

Seeing how much of a failure I am and wondering why, who can I blame? Is it really all my fault? But I think I tried.

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I connect with women on such a deep, vulnerable, ego-less level whether that be friendship, art, random dialogue, literature, music, or even simply by observing the way they move and act that it actually makes me question my sexuality so much. In all of my friendships with men, no matter’s their sexuality, I’ve always had a moment where I go “cause you’re just a man, it’s just what you do.” Men don’t bottle their emotions the same way women do but they can never see it and it just shows how different they have been raised and treated. Of course men won’t understand wtf I’m talking about. I’m afraid I’m missing out on a much deeper romantic connection with a woman because I just have been assuming I’m straight since I was conscious. Idk if my crushes on men is me liking them or just wanting to impress them and get their attention.

Note: this is a huge generalization and it applies to different people to people to various degrees BASED ON MY EXPERIENCES AND UNPROFESSIONAL OPINION.