sunbleachedmind

[sunbleachedmind]

My problems are fixable

I'm currently the unhealthiest I've been my whole entire life. Nocturnal, homebody, eats just processed carbs and fat, nicotine addiction on the dl, muscles completely soft and flabby due to not exercising, hormones whack, shopping addiction, flop era to da max and school starts for me in like dead ass ten days. In ten days I will have to meet my peers oh em gee. Ten day glow up plan no joke starting in this moment right now I will go to bed. Dear god. I am no victim I will help myself. But damn its tuff rn.

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͡ㅤׅㅤㅤ✿ꫀㅤׂ 𝄄︵⠀⠀⎯⎯͟͟♥︎̼̻

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Willoughby Tucker, I’ll Always Love You

This album is going to remind me of someone ❦︎

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I want to scream at you so you know how badly you hurt me, so that you can comfort me, because no one sees me like you do, and no one comforts me like you do. But what's the point in arguing, it's not what you want, it's what I want.

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I just came across the song that put me to sleep in middle school. I listen and close my eyes. I can see the dark bedroom, feel my back sinking into the mattress, feel the sheets on my skin. The air was stuffy and warm so I slept without a blanket, but the exhaustion of trying and trying and trying weighed on me like a thick comforter. I craved the comfort of sleep. Sleep did not give me racing thoughts. Instead, I could drift far away, maybe for forever. I knew of little. I did not know I was loved, but I knew I had to fight alone. I feel the same often. Nostalgia can be the most sobering thoughts.

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when you talk to a man and you can tell he has never had to develop sensing how others perceive you as a skill to survive and it pisses you off because you wish you could be that stupid

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Me 24/7 after turning 17

recognising your parent's mannerisms in yourself and physically feeling psychic damage occur

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not one unique experience. This is why I am soooo for abortion because that dream gave me so much anxiety.

it feels like I lost something special

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Fuck relying on anyone ever, maybe a friend, sometimes

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How does one rewire their brain to accept love