suicidalsthings

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I should have cut deeper,

I should have bled more.

It should have been the last of me,

The last the world would ever see,

Because everyone tries to hurt me,

They want to see my face replace the lace of faith within me.

Just before I bleached my hair,

I should have died then and there.

Maybe theres still time?

Still time to grow?

Yet I've been dethroned.

“Okie”Is all you ever say to me.

Never talking any time to fake the friendship you forged in charisma.

Fake me into saying I cared,

Knowing that I should have been prepared for being scared of losing the outlet I really cared for.

You were my favourite person three times over,

Just as many times as I've tried to reconcile my mind after I've been hurt.

The piles of trial and errors I've defiled to reconcile with you,

You say you care but is that true?

That you care for anyone that isn't him or you?

You know I really tried to keep my pride in the girl I always stood beside and I cried when I remembered the times I died because of you.

All I want is to be best friends again,

With the person I cared for most.

And if I cry before July I will have surly died by that time.

But now I am her ghost.

Which is why I lay here dying.

Do I take the chance and rekindle the friendship at first glance?

One last shot?

One last ride?

Time to say my last goodbyes.

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I'm So Fucking Tired of Fake Friends

I Wanna Kill Myself Everyday Because of It

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That kinda music just soozes the soul

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Haven't posted in a few weeks so here.

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Why

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And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine

Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified

I fell asleep at the wheel again

Crashed my car just to feel again

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Have I found you? Flightless bird, jealous, weeping Or lost you? American mouth, Big bill looming.

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I'M FALLING WAY TO FAST, IM SINKING IN TO DEEP, I NEED AN ANGEL NOW, THATS WATCHING OVER ME, IF I COULD JUST WAKE UP, IF I COULD MAKE YOU SEE, IM ALL ALONE, ALL ALONE WITH YOUR SICKNESS IN ME, WHO WILL SAVE MY LIFE, HOW DO I BELIEVE, HOW DO I BELIEVE IN ANYONE, PLEASE DON'T MIND ME I JUST KILL MYSELF SOMETIMES

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CUT MY WRIST AND BLACK MY EYES

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So I told my crush I liked her today I think it went alright, I was really nervous. she wasn't like Weirded out or anything which made me happy and after I told her she hugged me Which was nice I really needed it Ive been going through a lot recently, but yeah she said it was cute and said it's normal to have crushes, and then after she invited me to lunch with her and her friends which was fun. But yeah today was pretty cool.

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Not to be found

I wander searching

I wonder worrying

That you will not be found

before days end

I hope not

As for i have a gift

A gift of my heart

I must confess

My admiration

For this beautiful girl

Her blonde hair

Her perfect smile

Has a hold over me

Her face

Her kind words

Has a hold over me

But i stay searching

But i stay wondering

Where might she be

Where might she be

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And I love her

When I see her face I think love

When I hear her voice I think love

When I see her smile I think perfect

Therefor I know

I will tell before I go

As not to regret for the rest of my life

As not to live in mortal strife

Genuinity is rare but not extinct

Every time she looks at me I go pink

And I love her fashion and style

I think she's really worth while

I hope one day she sees

That we belong together

I to her and she to me

We belong together

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Your Poem

Youthful Aura

Oasis of life

Unforgettable fortuitously

Relive the moment ten times over

Perfection is not subjective

Reality is often deceiving

Empowerment is your power

Thank you for your kindness

Tomorrow quickly fleeting

Your presence never leaving

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Kindness

I grew quite fond,

Of that beautiful blonde,

Yet the feeling is not mutual.

The hair on her head,

Is to die for,

But I suffer in silence instead.

Her mind is wonderfully full,

Full of understanding.

My mind is full of her,

Forever compromised by the sight of her eyes,

I slowly die every time.

Her smile brings me joys and fear,

She intimidates me with her kindness.

So adult, so mature,

Yet her youth is not fleeting.

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Infectious

A disease yet not

A war hard fought

The fairest maiden there's ever been

I want her to be my queen

But not in a patriarchal system

But in a way with much more wisdom

Never putting her down a level

Because then i would be a devil

The way her smile infects

Has far too powerful effects

But in the end it's all a dream

As realistic as it may seem

But what a wonderful dream

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50 posts!

Wowza two milestones in one day I'm so surprised.