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this aged well a few weeks ago and this is still getting likes 😭😭🙏

he stood me up 💀💀 safe to say hes blocked LMFAOOOO

me when i'm tweaking over the fact that he hasn't texted me back but i literally have an ed 💀💀💀 this is not my biggest issue like go count come calories or smth goddamn 😭

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my coach chose captains yesterday and he chose every sophmore but me 🥰 im on jv theres five sophmores including myself and he chose the other 4 of them to be captains

im so cooked i hate highschool

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morning oatmeal 🥣 about 300 calories i think 🧸

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thinking about and romanticizing starving in my head>>>>>>>>>> actually starving

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August ins — reading more ⋆ falling in love with my life ⋆ getting more sleep ⋆ spending more time offline ⋆ being present in each moment ⋆ speaking up for myself ⋆ journaling

August outs — allowing fear to hold me back ⋆ forcing connections ⋆ caring about what other people think ⋆ staying up all night ⋆ negative self talk ⋆ explaining myself ⋆speaking before thinking

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i love cute mealspo

Mealspø °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

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quick reminder that my own gay ass genuinely supports the hell outta each and every one of you. regardless if i know you or not, im happy to be living in this shithole of a life in the same world with you.

and im proud of you, i know in my heart just how beautiful, amazing, talented, smart, and worthy you are and i hope you can see that too🏳️‍🌈🌈

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okay im often hard on myself but i lost 8 lbs in 3ish weeks. i ate that up (not literally ofc 💀💀)

assuming i make the soccer team, even if i continue to ⭐️ve i should be able to get back down to 120ish from practices probably before school starts in september

so, now add ana's diet (as much as i can bc i have to have some energy/strength to play) im praying by the end of the season ill be 115ish 😓‼️🙏

assuming that i make it. ive been conditioning every day and im really hoping i have the skills and my coach understands that i work hard and am coachable and a team player and other things and maybe they wont have to cut on jv this year 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

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"im in recovery" *eating like a normal person*

"jeez today was a binge day" *eating like a normal person*

"damn i feel so full" *ate a normal portion like a normal person"

*didnt count cals* "no way i didnt binge today on accident. fuck."

this is me lately if u cant tell

i think ill always be that person thats not ever fully recovered but not ever gonna look or feel sick enough for people to care

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im just a girl pls

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it’s never ending 🥲

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people saying not to cut weight cause itll cause an ed but i already have an ed like 😐

real talk how to drop 15-20 lbs in 2-3 months pls

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caught between getting worse and getting better .

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stg it's disappointed in me

brooo

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chat i just found out pickles are 0 calories?? catch me putting them on everything now bro this is great

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y'all think i can lose 20 lbs before september?