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2025 goals anyone? I always wanna go for quick weightloss and it's hard to maintain so I'm trying this :,)

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This is soo triggering I love this

To the person who told me about AI helping with eating, I appreciate you

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You think I should have breakfast?? What’s next, lunch??? Dinner???? That’s a slippery slope, pal.

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What you are craving from food is temporary taste, temporary fullness and satisfaction, is that really what you want? Or is it that bony body small enough to fit into any clothing size, that sickly skinny figure you’ve been craving, yearning, begging for, for god knows how long?

Control yourself. Instead of the taste of food, pop a gum, instead of that temporary fullness drink some water, remember. You’re not hungry, you’re just bored

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I've been doing horribly this month and went from 134 back up to 141.6 lbs since november 7th.. I feel disgusting. I will do better

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discipline is the strongest form of self-love. it's ignoring something you want right now for something better later on. discipline is the commitment you have to your dreams, especially on days you don't want to. the future you is depending on the current you to keep the promises you made to yourself yesterday.

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when everyone is worried about your health but you‘re just a chill guy who wants to lose some weight

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fasting > restricting

I saw someone call eating a gateway drug and that's the realest thing I've heard all day :,)

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october cal log 🍂

01: 1,254

02: 1,239

03: 2,898

04: unknown

05: 878

06: binge (unknown)

07: binge (around 3,010)

08: binge (unknown)

09: fast

10: 1,113

11: 508

12: 937

13: 780

14: 850

15: 2,196

16: 1,001

17: fast

18: binge (around 4,208)

19: binge (around 2,693)

20: 503

21: 2,450 (net 1,416)

22: 183

23: 583

24: 1,547 (net 915)

25: 668 (net 548)

26: 983

27: 470

28: 1,493 (net 1,236)

29: 549 (net -802)

30: 1,050 (net 488)

31: 670 (net 507)

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Trust me, this is super common in these spaces - as mad as it might be😂 some of the oldest ED forums had shit like this so don't feel too insane

This feels like a religion more than an e4ting d1s9rder, everyone talking to "ana" asking to be thinner and listening to what she's telling us(including me)

We sound more like a bunch of Schizophrenics then 4nor3x1c 😭😭

But I'm lowkey here for it, ana is more fun than half people I know. Everyone is just so fucking boring

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I'm not "thin enough" until my elbows and knees are the widest part of my limbs again..

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I always feel so aware of how much space my body is taking up, and my mind has an annoying habit of exaggerating it. I feel like a gigantic whale and I'm only 138 lbs. I know logically this is a normal "healthy" weight but for me it feels like I'm this disgusting pudgy fat thing taking up way too much room. I miss when I was underweight. I will get back there. Until people look at me and know for a fact I'm sick, I'm not thin enough.

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"I want people to take one look at me and know that i’m sick."

This is such a real thought..

It's always been so fascinating to me how there seems to be 2 types of anorexics. Ones who want to be thin and beautiful, and ones (like myself) who want to look sickly and horrible.. There's never a "thin enough" because we aren't really after beauty or thinness. We want to be as sick as possible. Both in looks and in behavior. Which is kinda insane when you think about it. But it's so interesting to think about. I think it's because the part of us inside that is sick longs to be seen. Our outside must match how we feel inside. And if it doesn't then we feel invalid in our sickness..

i don’t like when people worry too much about me but i also CRAVE it.

i want people to be scared the wind is going to knock me over.

i want people to wonder how my legs are strong enough to stay standing.

i want people to make jokes about ‘breaking me’ with a simple touch because of how small i am.

i want people to see and acknowledge my efforts.

i want people to take one look at me and know that i’m sick.

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THIS MONTHS CHOICES ARE NEXT MONTHS BODY

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something i liveeee by