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[stephen-stephen]

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[stephen-stephen]

I made a meme

[stephen-stephen]

as of today (Oct, 7) I am officially spiraling down. haha.

on the other hand, A PACKAGE OF FROZEN VEGGIES COOKED ON A PAN WITH SOME WATER AND A PINCH OF CURRY POWDER. IT SOOOO GOOD! A half of a package (200g which is HUGE serving) is only about 90 calories. It is so filling and satisfying that like 100g (45cal) would also be perfectly enough. Honestly, it feels like a full meal.

[stephen-stephen]

headed to the grocery store for safe foods

actually worry I might buy a shit tone of sweet crap

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My Favourite Channels

01. Baggyjeans 3

- low cal recipe videos, restriction vlogs

02. ILikePotatoes

- binge vlogs

03. ella sephy

- restriction/diet vlogs, a few funny ed related videos

04. crybaby eats

weight loss journey, binge vlogs, recovery journey

05. peachy tin

- aesthetic vlogs, binge vlogs

06. l0velys0da

- restriction vlogs

07. luneats

- restriction vlogs, low cal recipes

08. MelissaBug

- binge vlogs, weight loss journey

09. provalonely

- restriction vlogs, binge vlogs

10. 하리야 hariya

- diet vlogs, weight loss tips

11. Suzie Ann

- weight loss journey, diet tips, weight loss tips, low cal recipes

12. little snowflake

- restriction vlogs

13. ophelia laus

- binge vlogs, recovery journey

14. 담지의기록 Damji

weight loss journey, healthy recipes, workout vlogs

[stephen-stephen]

My favorite low-cal substitutes and options! All under 50 calories.

Feel free to add to this! I didn’t include everything out there :)

Drinks 🧋

0 cal - herbal tea 🫖

0 cal - green tea 🍵

0 cal - water flavoring like Mio

0 cal - Diet Coke 🥤

0 cal - pretty much any diet soda

2 cal - Black Coffee ☕️

2 cal - black tea

10 cal - monster ultra (I like paradise and fiesta especially)

20 cal - other sugar free energy drinks

39 cal - shot of sake 🍶

Breakfast (snacks, smoothies, etc)

25 cal - 1 large egg white 🍳

32 cal - 100g Strawberries (~50 cal per cup) 🍓

40 cal - 1/4 c low fat cottage cheese 🦴

42 cal - 1 kiwi 🥝

42 cal - 84 g (1 thick slice) pineapple 🍍

47 cal - 154g (1 c) watermelon 🍉

50 cal - 1/2 grapefruit 🍊

50 cal - 3 oz plain Greek yoghurt

50 cal - 2 tbsp serving powdered peanut butter 🥜

50 cal - 4 oz (120ml) low fat milk 🥛

Meals (mix and match this shit!) 🍴

0-10 cal - serving shirataki noodles 🍜

0-20cal - Broth ��

5 cal - 1 c lettuce 🥬

6 cal - 28g (1 oz) pickled onion (do this yourself! So easy! So good on everything) 🧅

7 cal - 1 c spinach 🥗

16 cal - 70g (1 c sliced) mushrooms

17 cal - 1/2 c kale

20 cal - 1 c zucchini 🥒

20 cal - 82g (1 c. cubed) eggplant 🍆

21 cal - 1 tbsp parmesan cheese 🧀

25 cal - whole tomato 🍅

25 - 148g (1 med) bell Pepper 🫑

30 cal - 78g (1 med) Carrot 🥕

30 cal - 116g (1 c) pumpkin

30-40 cal - 1/2 pack or can tuna 🐟

35 cal - 1/2 serving (1.5 oz) cod 🐠

36 cal - 1 c miso soup 🍲

37 cal - 40g shelled edamame

38 cal - 1 c Brussels sprouts

39 cal - 1/2 hard or soft boiled egg 🥚

39 cal - 1/2 serving (42g) halibut (white fish) 🐟

40 cal - 1 c arugula 🥗

40 cal - 186g (10 spears) asparagus

45 cal - 148g (1 med) broccoli 🥦

45 cal - 6 med raw oysters 🦪

45 cal - 3 oz/85g lite tofu

50 cal - 100g (1/2 small-med) sweet potato 🍠

50 cal - 1/2 corn cob 🌽

50 cal - 50g shrimp 🍤

Snacks 🍬

0-8 cal - pickles 🥒

5-10 cal - 1 tbsp salsa

17 cal - 1 passion fruit (18g)

23 cal - 1 tbsp hummus

25 - serving seaweed snack

25 - 1 med bell Pepper 🫑

30 cal - 22 Organic Yogis (okay technically this is baby food but it’s just freeze dried Greek yoghurt and fruit so shut up it’s good) 🍓🍌

30 cal - 300g/1 Cucumber 🥒

35 cal - 1 cutie (small orange/tangerine) 🍊

40 cal - 1 light babybel 🧀

47 cal - 1.5 c Air popped popcorn 🍿

50 cal - 6 oven-baked parm crisps 🧀

50 cal - >1/2 c unsweetened apple sauce 🍎

50 cal - 3 dried apricots 🍑

50 cal - 15 pistachios 🌰🥜

Dessert 🎂

0 cal - Diet Root Beer (I don’t care that it’s a drink! It’s so insanely sweet and it kicks the ass of my cravings. Also, my list my rules. Sue me) 🍺

5 cal - serving Sugar Free Jello 🍮

5 cal - 1 tbsp Hershey’s Sugar Free Syrup 🍫

~14 cal - WHOLE BOTTLE Too Tarts sweet sour spray candy (so a few sprays is just 0-3 cal)

20 cal - 2 tbsp Frozen Cool Whip Lite (seriously, eat this frozen) 🍨

20-50 cal - baked fruit (bake some peaches, apples, etc. and mix with Splenda, cinnamon, etc.) 🍑🍎

23 cal - fun size sweet tart pack

25 cal - no sugar added small outshine popsicles 🍧

25 cal - 1 pack smarties (American) 🍬

35 cal - swiss miss reduced calorie hot chocolate ☕️🍫

40 cal - small Outshine Popsicles 

40 cal - 5 sugar free hard candies 🍬

42 cal - 1 Hershey assorted mini 🍫

43 cal - fat free green yoghurt with sugar-free jam 🍧

46 cal - 2 regular marshmallows

48 - 8 mini Cinnamon Sugar skinny pop Rice Cakes

50 cal - 1-2 squares dark chocolate 🍫

50 cal - 2 Dum dum suckers 🍭

50 cal - ~25 sugar free jelly beans

50 cal - halo top pops (lots of flavors) 🍦

Miscellaneous

0-2 cal - any herb/spice 🌿

4 cal - 1 clove garlic 🧄

5 cal - 1 stick sugar free gum

50 cal - 1/4 container White cheddar seasoning (2 cal per 1/4 tsp) 🧀🧂

50 cal - 10 sugar free mints 🌱

Disclaimer: actual calorie counts many vary depending on serving, brand, tracker, etc.

[stephen-stephen]

Thank you, sir.

[stephen-stephen]

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself

your body has enough fat to survive by itself.

you don’t need extra food.

keep going.

[stephen-stephen]

more like two months

me coming back on tumblr after two weeks of uncontrolled binges

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DON'T MIND IF I DO

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Don't think about what can happen in a month. Don't think about what can happen in a year. Just focus on the 24 hours in front of you and do what you can to get closer to where you want to be.

— Eric Thomas

[stephen-stephen]

✨reblog to get skinny legs✨

ignore and the wizard will skidaddle over your skidoodles

[stephen-stephen]

ana and ed help me cope with grief a bit

I feel more in control

[stephen-stephen]

oh hi

I didn't see you there

I was just minding my own business FEELING BARELY ALIVE BUT LOSING MORE THAN 1KG SINCE YESTERDAY

Whoa...

So my SW was 74-75 kg, my CW is 64.8kg.

Only 1.8kg to go to my first gw!!! (63kg)

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I'll just leave it here

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I was 65.3 yesterday, the lowest I have been in like 6 months or something.

I am having some terrible side effects from my depression medication. A terrible weakness, brain fog, both sleepiness and insomnia, inability to concentrate on anything. So I couldn't workout at all.

Also, I ate a lot more then I supposed to. My daily calorie limit is usually around 500calories with 4 workouts a day, but today I was around 900-1000 calories without any physical activity.

My doctor advised me to cut my medication dose in half. So we will see.

So, my main issues now are the following:

- I still feel awful, and I am afraid of what the next day of medication will look like

- i am afraid that limiting or going off medication will inhibit its effectiveness

- I am terrified to see the scale tomorrow.

- I am nauseous now and still very weak, dizzy and hungry, so I plan on eating a couple of plain breads (15cal each) and an apple (around 80cal).

- so now I am even more terrified to look at the scale tomorrow

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It's 65.6 today, yay! Lost 0.7 grams since yesterday.

2.6 kgs are to go to my next gw.

So, my caloric limit is 550 calories nowadays. And I actually feel good.

Also, I am starting fluoxetine tomorrow for my depression and intrusive thoughts. I am nervous, of course, as to how it will affect my mood, willpower and appetite.