stellanisms

[stellanisms]

how he ended up stuck here during the blizzard was something that he was still somewhat angry about. he had been looking for a vinyl to listen to during the storm and planned to rush back home before it began.

now? he was trapped in here, along with a couple of other innocent bystanders. he was tired, annoyed, and hungry, and stellan didn't do well with any of these emotions.

that's when someone walked in, shivering, and looking like she was near freezing to death. thankfully, he had been in here long enough with the heater on up to the point where he didn't feel cold.

"um... yeah." he replied cooly, taking off his thermal jacket and handing it to her. "you can borrow this to warm up, if you want."

Open Starter!

Location: Grooves during the blizzard

Janet had left work, had been strolling along with her guitar in its case since she had planned to do an offhand session with her bandmates after work and that's when the snow really started coming down.

She had picked up the pace a bit and found herself at Grooves. Coming into the record store, she looked like a drenched dog.

"It's coming down out there. This blizzard is really gonna be a big one. Anybody got something that can warm me up. I'm absolutely freezing, man." She said as she shivered nonstop after shutting the door and taking off her wet coat, gazing at someone nearby.

[stellanisms]

stellan's tag drop!

[stellanisms]

( herman tømmeraas, 23, cis male, he/him ) stellan alto has been living in point place for thirteen years. their favorite song is somebody to love by queen. they’re currently up to working at the fotohut, but they’d rather be smoking weed & sketching. first impressions usually stick around here, and others describe them as secretive, alluring, & humble. stick around to get to know the real them.

basic stats ;

⟶ full name: stellan paolo alto ⟶ nicknames: usually just goes by stellan. if he really likes you, you might get away with... stellbells ⟶ three things he likes: people who mind their own business, rock music, drawing and painting ⟶ three things he dislikes: people who talk too much, someone who can’t pronounce his name properly, salt and vinegar chips ⟶ gender: cis male ⟶ height: 5 ‘ 11 ⟶ age: 23 ⟶ birthday: january 23, 1955 ⟶ zodiac: aquarius sun ( capricorn - aquarius cusp, or the cusp of ‘mystery and imagination’ ), virgo moon, capricorn ascendant ⟶ right handed or left handed: ambidextrous, more comfortable with his left hand ⟶ eye color: green, and shifts with lighting. sometimes they will look grey, other times hazel, other times a yellow tint, but predominantly green ⟶ hair color: naturally really, really light blonde, but has been dying his hair dark brown since he was eleven, hates being naturally blonde ⟶ piercings and tattoos: no piercings, an aquarius symbol on his left wrist ⟶ languages spoken: swedish ( native tongue ), portuguese ( father’s native tongue ), english, basic spanish ⟶ sexuality / romantic orientation: bisexual / bioromantic ( closeted, repressed, with a strong male preference ) ⟶ place of birth: stockholm, sweden ⟶ hometown: point place, wisconsin ⟶ five aesthetics: golden rings placed across bruised and cut up fingers, an envy worthy side profile, green eyes gazing into the sunset, fights with your father so ugly you turn the music up to turn your thoughts down, a long list of unsaid things ⟶ character inspo: rosa diaz from brooklyn 99, adam groff from sex education, garrett mcneil from superstore, nick miller from new girl

background story ;

stellan was born in sweden’s capital, stockholm, to a single mother named anya berg. his father, a portuguese man named paolo alto, was in and out of the picture when he was younger. stellan somewhat had contact with him at first, but eventually, he stopped visiting, stopped writing, and stellan never bothered to keep in touch with him, as he lived on the other side of the world in the states

his upbringing wasn’t the best, but his mother cared about him, and a lot. when he was younger, he was a very hyperactive child. he talked a lot, he misbehaved a lot, and he never knew when to stop. his mother, while she adored him, did little to nothing to help his behavior

in fact, every few months or so, stellan met a new guy his mother was seeing, and was forced to call him ‘dad’, which only worsened his hyperactive behavior, and caused him to act out in school

it was always someone rich, someone who could pay their apartment off and buy him nice things until his mother grew sick of them and moved onto the next. it was a continuous cycle, and unfortunately, stellan didn’t know anything besides that. to him, having a new partner who paid your bills every few months was normal. after all, it was something his mother often did

still, stellan didn’t resent his mother despite her behavior. even with her flighty ways, she always at least tried to be a good mom, and eventually, he began taking advantage of the situation, often times milking his mother’s new lovers for things he wanted, since he knew it wouldn’t be long before he was taking advantage of some other idiot

soon enough, his mother met a man who was bound to show up in his nightmares sooner rather than later. this man’s name was david. at first, david appeared to be a nice, loving man, but soon enough, stellan realized he wasn’t who he appeared to be

! tw the next two bullets contain abuse, and brief mentions of molestation, proceed with caution ! one day, when his mother is out and about, and he thinks david is sound asleep in her room, stellan sneaks inside and begins to look through his wallet, prepared to steal his money and blame it on him being reckless. little does he expect for david to wake up while he’s in the middle of doing this, and little does he expect for him to be black out drunk. he was caught red handed, and before he can even try to think of some shitty excuse, david begins to hit him, and scream at him while calling him many names, such as brat, spoiled, robber, etc

and honestly, stellan doesn’t really know what to do. he’s ten at the time, so he kind of just takes it because for one, david is a lot bigger and obviously stronger than he is. eventually, david lets him go, and he struggles back into his room, breaking down into tears. not even a full ten minutes pass by and david is walking inside, apologizing over and over again, and telling him how much he loves him and his mother, to which stellan just cries. even when david is telling him how special he is, even when david is leaning in for a hug. but a hug turns into a kiss, and a kiss turns into a touch, and stellan isn’t sure what happened or what to even call what happened, but he knows deep down in his heart that he didn’t like it. it made him feel unsafe, and uncomfortable and scared, but he’s being told over and over again that no one would ever believe him if he ever says anything, so despite desperately wanting to tell his mother what happened when she got home, he doesn’t, and tells her that his wounds are a result of a fight he picked at school

the next two months are hell on earth for him. it takes two months of seeing his aggressor, two months of sharing a roof with him, and two months for his mother to get sick of david and move onto the next. still, what happened between them that night is forever engraved into his brain, giving him repetitive nightmares

from then on out, unfortunately, things only seem to worsen for him. his mother is diagnosed with breast cancer and passes away after a few months, and, the only person stellan can think to call is his father, even though he hasn’t spoken to him in years

thankfully for him, his father is more than willing to care for him, but that meant leaving a life he’s always known and moving to a place, and a continent, he’s never even considered visiting before. stellan permanently moves in with his father in point place, wisconsin when he’s almost eleven years old

that once talkative, energetic and bubbly kid he was is replaced by someone cold, calculating, and unwelcoming. his demeanor and personality completely change after the things he’s been through, resulting in him turning into someone he told himself he would never be

his father, while he isn’t a terrible guy, doesn’t share the same views that he does, which results in them constantly fighting, up to the point where his teenage years feel like a nightmare

stellan doesn’t talk much at school. in fact, he often ignores people and was even once asked ‘do you speak’, to which he just ignored the question and walked past said person. while he isn’t a bully, he found himself picking fights with people who tested his patience, turning into someone mean and even aggressive when messed around with. the amount of times he’s come home with bruised and bloody knuckles after picking a fight was truly unbelievable, but in his eyes, why were people in his way?

even with all of this, stellan isn’t stupid. he graduates high school easily, but decides against going to college, and with money he saved up from working at the fotohut and secretly selling weed, stellan manages to finance a small apartment to move away from his father, a place he can somewhat call home

headcanons ;

stellan is a very creative individual. he loves to draw and paint and finds this to be a relaxing past time. he is what you would call the ‘quiet artsy stoner guy’

he doesn’t know what he wants to do with his life. part of him wants to finish a small career and become an interior designer to make more money, but the other part of him is depressed and unmotivated

surprisingly, he’s good at distributing money. he isn’t rich, but he’s never lacking in anything because he’s smart financially, tricks he’s picked up from a few of his mother’s previous rich boyfriends

stellan can be very mean, but when you really get to know him, which is rare, he’s like a different person. stellan isn’t someone that you want as your enemy, because if he really doesn’t like you, he can genuinely make your days a living hell

he has undiagnosed ptsd and bipolar disorder, with more manic episodes than anything. he will be up for days with little to no sleep, manic as hell, and think nothing is wrong with him. during these manic episodes, he can get very creative and paint and paint and paint, but he can also become very destructive, and restless in a bad way

despite really needing help, and to probably be put on medication, stellan doesn’t believe in therapy, something his mother and father have engraved into his brain. as they have both stated, ‘we don’t do therapy, that’s for the weak’

besides painting, and working, stellan likes going to the gym. he isn’t one of those gym junkies, but he feels like exercise keeps his mind occupied, and he’s a big fan of not thinking, because his thoughts can get rather dark

honestly hate this but he has… a pet snake. a scarlet kingsnake to be exact. the snake is only sixteen inches long, nonvenomous and absolutely harmless, but anyone who doesn’t like snakes is iffy. his snake is named snake bell, a funny take on taco bell. really describes his personality spot on, but he loves this snake

he smokes a lot of weed, up to the point where it makes him idiotic, but he doesn’t really do anything else besides that. realistically speaking, he isn’t opposed to experimenting, but most of the time, he’s too busy to partake in such things

he has never told anyone about what happened with david, not only because he finds it difficult to talk about, but because he thinks it will make him appear as weak, and he thinks this will make people feel sorry for him, which is the last thing he wants

stellan has a rocky relationship with his father. they rarely agree on anything and any time they see each other, they just fight. his father can be a real hard ass. he only spoke swedish and english when he first moved in with him, but his father forced him to learn portuguese, which is his native tongue. stellan speaks very good portuguese, but isn’t a fan of the language

he has a very big tendency to push people away. he would rather be alone and he makes this very clear, as he can be somewhat hostile and cold upon talking to him

stellan constantly has bruised and bloody knuckles covered in rings. he doesn’t pick fights like he used to in his teenage years, but he’s always up for a throw down. he can genuinely throw a very good punch. call it the gym or whatever, but he could cause some serious damage if he really wants to

he is a closeted bi with a strong male preference. he has only just come to terms with this, and he represses it because of his upbringing. stellan honestly assumes it’s just a phase and that it will pass, and he partially blames it on the trauma he’s experienced with david, thinking that somewhat shaped his idea of men, but in reality no... you’re just kind of gay and that’s fine stellan, come on

maybe it’s because of his experience with david, or the ugly things he’s been through, but he’s very big on the idea of hurting someone before they can hurt him. he would never let anyone hurt him the way david has in the past, which is why he would rather strike first. you can’t hurt him if his walls are so high, right?

stellan has been dying his hair since before he was even a pre teen. he is a natural light blonde ( i’m talking draco malfoy blonde ), but he hates being blonde. in fact, very few people, or literally no one at all, is even aware of the fact that he’s blonde. to everyone, he is a natural brunette, people don’t know any better

despite not showing it, one day, he wants to find love. the idea scares the shit out of him, but he secretly wants it

stellan’s uncle is the one and only axel berg. he’s one of the few people stellan feels like he can count on, and maybe somewhat open up to

wanted connections ; 

it feels like we only go backwards: stellan already doesn’t have the best judgment, but neither does this muse, and they’re basically just toxic for each other. it’s like when they get together, it’s just dark, yet there’s a certain attraction they can’t seem to avoid. this can be completely platonic, or it could turn romantic, i’m down for whatever!

you used to call me on my house phone: someone he was somewhat close to in high school, but they drifted apart and now it’s kind of awkward. they could have had a falling out, or they could have just stopped talking to each other. either way, they don’t call each other’s house phones anymore

take a picture, it’ll last longer: someone who always comes to the fotohut. whether it’s to see him, or simply because they take a lot of photos, is entirely up to the mun, but stellan may or may not be sick of seeing this muse

don’t let me get me: a muse who can sense that he’s been through a lot of trauma and tries to fix him, or maybe be there for him and let him know that they have a friend and that they’re not alone. stellan probably pushes this muse away a lot

stoner circle at the fotohut: someone who smokes with him and the iconic leo at the fotohut on the job. they just laugh at stupid things and roast other people’s idiotic photos together

i know you’re secret: hear me out... someone who knows he’s a natural blonde. how they know can be plotted, but stellan hates the fact that this muse knows. literally tells them repeatedly not to say anything, as if being naturally blonde is a crime

you’re my favorite muse: his muse! i feel this would have to go a bit off chemistry, but maybe someone he draws or someone who inspires him to be creative. this could turn out romantic, or could stay completely platonic as well!

laundry mat buddies stick together: someone who is always doing their laundry at the laundry mat whenever he is, up to the point where they’ve become cool with each other while they wait for their clothes to wash. maybe they smoke at the parking lot and listen to queen in stellan’s car

let’s be friends so we can makeout: friends who sometimes kiss each other or whatever, probably open to females only because i feel he has no experience with men whatsoever, despite knowing deep down that he prefers them

or we can plot!

birthchart ;