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I would like to shake the hands of the UT Yellow dev team because genuinely, what the fuck man

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how does apologizing 101 not get soaked in the rain

additionally, clarice i feel you sm girl </3

Harvey / (Cringefail) Farmer pt. 110

Hope (Pt. 1)

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something people don’t talk about enough: both extremes in autism

almost every autistic trait has something to do with extremes, and for most of them, autistic people can be on either end of the scale. sometimes this is for hyper/hypo sensitivity reasons, and sometimes it’s due to overcompensation.

examples of some typical autistic traits and their equally austistic counterparts:

no empathy? how about having such extreme empathy that you cry when your stuffed animals are ignored?

no/wrong facial expressions? how about exaggerated facial expressions because you learned early on you were doing it wrong?

nonverbal? how about being hyperverbal and not knowing when to stop talking?

highly advanced vocabulary? how about when you can’t remember common everyday words in conversation?

can’t tell when things are awkward? how about having such an sensitivity to awkwardness that you can barely stand being in the room when an awkward moment happens on tv?

has a meltdown over a small tag on their shirt? how about being so oblivious to physical sensations that you don’t know you broke a bone?

doesn’t follow social norms? how about a strict adherence to social norms, often accompanied by severe anxiety that you’re not doing it right?

can’t stand bright lights and loud noises? how about pressing lights so close to your eyes that you’re temporary blinded and constantly making noises when it gets too quiet?

no eye contact? how about intense, sustained eye contact that you don’t know when to break?

constantly rocking back and forth? how about being unable to walk without getting disoriented?

remember this when people say “you don’t seem autistic” - there is no quintessential autistic representation. this is what we mean when we say it’s a spectrum.

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guys guys guys she's hot <33333

regular show, but they’re all women (ft. mordecai, rigby & benson)

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Every once in a while, when the art block happens, i simply revert to my true form: Undertale Fanartist

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AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be

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omg!!! i love this sm, i literally became close friends with history dad because i told him his shirt looks nice <3 i should stop feeling like i have to keep my "omg this is so cool and nice" to myself!

"bluntly honest" autism but in the sense that i absolutely cannot refrain from complimenting strangers if i like their earrings or their shirt or i think they have a friendly-sounding laugh or i think their art is beautiful or i think the fic they wrote portrays the characters so well. "bluntly honest" doesn't have to mean "mean". i love to tell people things that are kind and also true.

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hey guys new diagnosis just dropped: EVIL AUTISM

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thank you :(

Hey. Hey you. The person aimlessly scrolling, stuck in an immobilized standoff with your brain

It's not your fault. You won't be stuck forever. I know you're trying. I know you hate it. It's ok.

And tell the Mean Voice in your head that it's not helping. It knows as well as you do that you would get up and Just Start the task if you could. You're not doing this on purpose.

Take a deep breath. Relax your jaw. I see you trying so hard to break out of it, but you can't force it. You'll get Unstuck eventually. All you can do in the interim is be kind to yourself.

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hehe, sometimes i bring flowey with me as a treat, or benson my wife, or harvey. it makes me happy

sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

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served my duty as an autistic artist and made a bunch of autism creature reaction images

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I still haven't gotten my final diagnosis yet (my initial diagnosis is ASD and depression), and I resonate heavily with all of these. I literally cry and worry over the smallest things and I don't want my stuffies out of my bed, or I worry about my close friends and heck even people I'm not super close too most of the time! I'm VERY over exaggerated when expressing myself, my arms full swinging around when I talk to express myself. I CANNOT SHUT THE FUCK UP, I get told when I do and that's when I feel like SHIT. I cannot remember words in a conversation and I get REALLY tongue tied even during recitation. I feel REALLY AWKWARD even by the SLIGHTEST mess up in interaction (and I don't wanna show my face again to that person after), I have major chronic pain but also don't notice when I scar myself accidentally, had one time where I got hit by a bike and I didn't notice I was bleeding from my eyebrow! I cannot for the life of me follow social norms, and lights and loud noises can be too much for me sometimes, but I also would make noises when it gets too quiet when the time comes. I additionally either don't look into someone's eyes when I'm not close to them, or look into their eyes too much. It also happens to me that I either could rock back and forth or I cannot WALK because I feel like I have JELLY LEGS. I don't know if my diagnosis in May would come as me being autistic or just me being a weirdo and I should just stop being weird, but I know for sure I see this world differently.

something people don’t talk about enough: both extremes in autism

almost every autistic trait has something to do with extremes, and for most of them, autistic people can be on either end of the scale. sometimes this is for hyper/hypo sensitivity reasons, and sometimes it’s due to overcompensation.

examples of some typical autistic traits and their equally austistic counterparts:

no empathy? how about having such extreme empathy that you cry when your stuffed animals are ignored?

no/wrong facial expressions? how about exaggerated facial expressions because you learned early on you were doing it wrong?

nonverbal? how about being hyperverbal and not knowing when to stop talking?

highly advanced vocabulary? how about when you can’t remember common everyday words in conversation?

can’t tell when things are awkward? how about having such an sensitivity to awkwardness that you can barely stand being in the room when an awkward moment happens on tv?

has a meltdown over a small tag on their shirt? how about being so oblivious to physical sensations that you don’t know you broke a bone?

doesn’t follow social norms? how about a strict adherence to social norms, often accompanied by severe anxiety that you’re not doing it right?

can’t stand bright lights and loud noises? how about pressing lights so close to your eyes that you’re temporary blinded and constantly making noises when it gets too quiet?

no eye contact? how about intense, sustained eye contact that you don’t know when to break?

constantly rocking back and forth? how about being unable to walk without getting disoriented?

remember this when people say “you don’t seem autistic” - there is no quintessential autistic representation. this is what we mean when we say it’s a spectrum.

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I LOVE that harvey does aerobics 😭😭 Hes so cute in his outfit i cannnt💚💚

(zoom in for better quality :])

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THERE WAS A REGULAR SHOW DISCORD??????????????????????????????????????????

ALSO PEAK

I remember back in the RS discord in early 2021 i think, seeing you had an RS Undertale au 👀 That would be cool to see again and see which characters played as who hehe

WOW how did you remember that omg 😭 tbh I didn't think hard at ALL when making that AU lol I totally want to revisit it !! Probably with some help because I'm not sure about some character's roles dhdhdb. Here's some throwback art .. yes I made an entire Benson/Undyne sprite set I was crazy for that

(also it was actually 2018-2019 I just noticed LOL)

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my autistic and adhd duo (also lunch club is just my favorite episode straight up)