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Anyone in Spokane hmu?

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Gramps just died

Want to get high

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Grandpa died today, please help me get high today

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This is cute and silly and made me lol. I've tried to kill myself 5 times now! Omg what a crazy thing to be alive, I remember waking up in the hospital and being like fuck, Goddamnit girl, tell me you didn't do this shit again! I remember before I died, my life flashed before my eyes but it wasn't like everyone had explained it, they said it would be like sad and that I'd regret so much but It wasn't like that! What happened while I was dieing was that I was reliving these beautiful memories of my sisters and I playing outside in the summer time when we were like 2 years old. The memories were so vivid, I swear it was like I was really there and it was warm and we were catching grasshoppers, wearing these little polka-dot swimsuits with ruffles on the butt and sunglass that we're too big, probably my moms. It was the most beautiful genuine feeling I'd experienced in such a long time, then I don't remember anything, then I was in the shower and I was worried because my overalls were getting wet but my friend had put me in there, then blackout, then I was living in the backseat of a car and looking out the window counting stars and even though there were millions of stars, I was able to recognize them each individually.. Then blackout, I wake up in a hospital bed and there's a hummingbird flitting around my head, it's flying up to my face and tickling my cheeks and it's glowing.. The little guy lands on my lower arm and sticks it's little tongue in my arm and starts drinking my blood! So I picked him off of course! Turns out it was the iv giving me fluids lol silly me but it was a beautiful time, I was so happy to have gotten some good rest for the first time in years. Later when they let me go, I walked home 5 miles in hospital slippers in the snow.. The day before I'd given plasma and earned $50, when I got home my roommates had taken it and bought vodka and smokes.. Lol it was okay though, I went and got dressed in my leather jacket, gg Allin shirt, little plaid skirt, and docs and I got Fucking drunk with those shit heads. I love being alive even though my bipolar drives me into the ground sometimes! I've split my wrist, od' on pills twice, od' on a mixture of dextramethorphan, shrooms, and coke while teaching at a preschool, jumped out in middle of the freeway, I've been around and thank the universe everyday that I'm still here.

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Ughhh everyone should just wear whatever the fuck they want %100 percent of the time. Sometimes I wanna dress like a 70s school girl, if ya dont like it, get up under this skirt and suck my dick. Don’t talk shut about girls that dress like hoes because one day you’re gonna want to dress like a Fucking hoe and go clubbing and do a hoe dance and you’re gonna be a big ol hypocrite. Also don’t Fucking judge people for wearing their sweatpants and sweatshirts and hair in a mess to the grocery store because everyone has bad days. If someone looks nice, if it looks like they put ANY effort AT all into their appearance, compliment that bitch, say something sincere, you could change their day or just make it a little brighter. ☀🌈

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Ladies, you want my advice? Be your own provider, be independent. Hustle your ass off to get what you want and don't have to depend or ask for shit. I faked my way into an executive chef job, didn't know WTF I was doing, had no real experience, yet I still got the job. Today, after just 2 weeks working non stop I walk away with this. You want something, work for it. Fuck ya sugar daddy, I am my own fairy god mother, I don't have to beg or suck sick for a cent. Trust me I've been with a sugar daddy, I've met the love of my life and lived on the streets, I've been with a sexy ass UFC fighter, I've pulled my weight. You wanna know what I've learned from my experience? A real woman attracts a real man. A real woman will attract a real man.

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Old, 2 years ago before I'd ever done Meth! Ugh after I quit using speed, I gained like 40lbs in 5 month, it's killing me! I was 100lbs before I ever started using. I've never been this big before and it's so fucked!!! So ready to get back to what I do best, get fucked up and hit the gym!

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Fuck yas

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Lol this is so damn cute but actually I do care so damn much!! Anyone wanna be like a fairy god mother and come sprinkle me with angel dust!? Lol pleaseee😇🌌💸

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“if you are lost, please go home”

Interesting little bit there. Reminds me of the quote, “You only are free when you realize you belong no place — you belong every place — no place at all.”-Maya Angelou. Also, Chuck Palanhiuk, “It’s only after we’ve lost everything that we’re free to do anything." Also has shown up in Cowboy bebop, “It’s the best. Belonging is the very best thing there is.”-Faye Valentine, shortly after she says this, she discovers that her childhood home has long been gone.. In that she realizes that she never belonged to a place but to the happiness she gained from the people that were beside her and her experiences in what was once her home, thud she returns to the Bebop to be with her friends, wandering space with no permanent home, free, a vagabond, only with a home base where her heart lies, with her friends^.^ I belong nowhere, that’s why I can travel from state to state with only my pack on my back and loving vibes in my ♥

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Shout-out to my paranoid/conspiracy theory tweaker fam!

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Vacuuming out the car in 30 degrees because tweaker habits stayed with me. Lolol My ex used to obsess about his truck and house being uber clean and it was awesome coz If I cleaned regularly I had less of an urge to look for dropped shards. We had so much fun together^.^ go to the car wash one day and it's like hot as fuck outside, like think upper 90s and we're spun tf out and Fri king Cheladas, got kid rock blasting so loud on his truck speakers that another guy cleaning his car comes over and starts dancing and my ex like sprays me with the water so I'm like fuck it I got a swimsuit on so I take my shirt off and we just start all dancing in the rain, I'm up in the back of his truck just so happy.. Can't remember the last time I've been happy Like that.. I try to stay positive, be happy but it's very difficult. Without him or speed, I'm lost and sad, no longer confident or fun.

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Lol this is the fat cat I live with! Only two more days till I'm back in Seattle and back to getting fucked upppp! But for now I guess cuddling this cat loaf will do. FAT CAT YOU ARE MY WORLD💘🌎😻

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The 70s called, they literally just want me. Stonedddd, drinking tropical v8 and wine, cuddling fat-cat, watching animal house. Lol It's the time of the season for loving you🐓🐖🐄💘

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It's OK to have been through horrible stuff and to be OK.

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A painting I'd done on one of my leather skirts. This was a terrible night. My ex was upstairs getting high but wouldn't let me out of the basement, wouldn't let anyone sell me anything. Then he literally pretended like I didn't exist.. Lots if other awful things happened that night but fuck it! So it's in the past, so it is still quite painful but at least I learned something from the experience.