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One thing is certain. My dear lord deserved better.

Sir Ansbach from Shadow of the Erdtree. Every time he talked about Mohg, my heart broke for them both.

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I drew @sephiramy's gorgeous Alti for their birthday DTIYS! Be sure to check out the original art here. Alti was so much fun to draw, I love their design.

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And the last of the backlog.

Good old Larian really outdid themselves when they accidentally made Gortash/The Dark Urge one of the most canon non-canon ship to ever have existed in fiction.

There are a few ways you can imagine a relationship between two absurdly evil lunatics, but I like to think that it was actually weirdly sweet between them, in contrast to how they were with...everyone else, really.

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Miscellaneous drawings:

My anti-theist Twilight Domain Cleric, Damir.

From Damir's campaign, the party's necromancer wizard, Gus.

A witcher OC, from back when that was a thing a million years ago. The dog is his "child of surprise".

Mr. Numbers and Mr. Wrench from Fargo season 1. I actually won my first ever NaNoWriMo in 2020 writing a fanfic about these two, lmao. It's not published anywhere, because it's not finished and it'll never be finished, but it was still a really fun experience.

Palette challenge. This was pretty entertaining actually: basically, you pick a colour palette (I did go with a palette with harmonious colours, but you can go wild and just go with completely random colours), then set your drawing app/screen to grey scale so you don't actually see the colours you pick. You'll colour based on values instead of hues and end up with a pretty fun, colourful picture with colour combinations that you wouldn't normally choose.

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Sigh...so Arban here was my first actual DnD character that I got to play. Basically the exact character I'd been dreaming of playing since I discovered the concept of DnD: a lawful evil Oath of Conquest paladin. The campaign started back in I think 2020 as a solo campaign, with the DM and me making up Arban's (back)story to fit the world. All the characters in his story were the DM's NPCs, Arban's history and motivations were tied to the plot, later two other people joined the campaign and I had an absolute blast...

Then about ten sessions in the DM got too busy and had to end the campaign. Completely understandable and no hard feelings toward the DM, but it was still a huge disappointment. So yeah, RIP Arban, I don't really know what to do with you anymore. But I enjoyed the time I got to awkwardly roleplay you.

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Disco Elysium! I already posted these drawings on tw*tter when I made them a few years ago, but not yet on tumblr, so here you go. Absolutely loved this game and adored Kim and Harry as characters.

I played my Harry with a focus on purple skills, with Empathy as his signature skill. Such a great experience. How often does it happen that you play a middle-aged man in a video game whose greatest strength is his ability to emphasize with others?

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Hello tumblr

It's my birthday! I just changed my age in my bio from 25 to 32, lmao. Time flies.

I've been actually been doing pretty good these past few years. I stopped posting years ago for many reasons, but mostly because of depression. That is pretty much under control now. I have a stable (albeit very boring) job, I moved out into a cozy apartment, I've gotten really into running and ran a half marathon last year!

Unfortunately, my motivation to draw disappeared during my depression and didn't come back when things improved. I'd love to say that I've secretly been drawing a ton and am now sitting on a giant pile of un-posted art, but alas. I didn't draw at all for most of these years. It just didn't spark joy. So instead I took a very extended break.

In 2024 I slowly started to pick up drawing again. Then, a few weeks ago, I was drawing and noticed that I was actually enjoying myself! And that I felt excited to finish work and get back to my art! And that there were a lot of different things I really wanted to draw!

Of course I'm not sure if the enthusiasm will last this time, but for now I'm just happy to be enjoying my hobby again. So. I'm here. And planning on posting new art asap.

In the meantime, I said that I'm not sitting on a giant pile of art, but I did draw a few things in the last few years. The great thing about not drawing a lot is that I can still look at art from 2020 and think "huh, not bad" (that's a pro tip right there: you'll never hate your old art if you just don't improve *taps forehead*). So I'll be posting a few dumps of my old art today!

Everyone who is still here, thanks for sticking around! Here's to a good and inspired 2025 for us all.

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The Main Six of my disaster gang. ♥

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Art dump time~

1. The lady in this picture is the lovely Lydia, who belongs to @spookydraws! I still have this ship on the brain from time to time...

2 + 3. Let’s all agree to ignore the fact that I stopped working on both of these when they were 90% done.

4. Obligatory floating faces. The blue eyed lady on the left is supposed to be @ramblingpolkadots‘ Orla, but I don’t think I captured her likeness. I’ll try again at some point!

5. Makanakkuru and Osoma. Golden Kamuy isn’t really my cup of tea (writer...some tone consistency...I beg you.....), but I love these two and would definitely read an entire comic that was just about them being domestic with Tanigaki.

6 + 7. Parts from a Critical Role painting I started after episode 48 (”your people have done this to my people”) but never finished. I still kinda like these faces though.

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www.harlowevanished.com

The relaunch is now live!

This has been 9 months of behind-the-scenes work for me, and I am so incredibly thrilled to finally be putting it out there in the public eye! For those of you who have patiently waited for the return, thank you so much, I so deeply appreciate your continued interest. For those of you who are new, welcome, and I hope you enjoy! And for those of you who have helped, in any way, to support this relaunch, I can’t tell you how much it means to me.

And with that, allow me to get this story back to being told. 🌊

help support this comic on Patreon ♥ reblogs always appreciated

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Started drawing this a pretty long time ago, don’t hate it yet, decided to finish it.

Tada.

Yabalchoath, from KILL SIX BILLION DEMONS.

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Matthew Mercer is a motherfucking genius.

SPOILERS AHEAD MOTHERFUCKING SPOILERS AHEAD

HOLY FUCKING FUCK

TURN BACK NOW OTHERWISE BRACE YOURSELF

Ok, Matt has done something amazing as a DM.

He has taken Nott and Caleb, the two members of The Mighty Nein closest to one another, and has put them into a situation where their motivations are at their most opposed possible.

Caleb, who fears his past so much that he would leave the group if spotted or even if there was a chance of being spotted, now comes to the horrible realization that his demons are now directly involved in his best friend’s suffering.

Nott, who cares so much for Caleb, now finds herself in a position to be opposed by Caleb’s fears and his fleeing from his past at every possible turn.

Matt has placed them at odds in the most incredible, believable, and dire way I could have possibly imagined, and it is nothing short of genius what he has done with this new plot hook.

Rather than a Nott arc, we are getting a Nott and Caleb arc that sees them finally opposed to one another.

As Nott said, “Fuck him, these are your people.”

Is it mother fucking Thursday yet?

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Happy new year!

Despite the depressing state of 2018’s summary of art (’tis truly the sign of a questionable art year when you have to include two blank spaces and six unfinished pieces, one of which a derpy bear sketch, just to have a summary of art), I’m actually feeling pretty optimistic right now. The last couple of weeks of December have been more productive than almost the entire year before. I’m drawing again! And enjoying it! This is huge, because there was a period this year when I was convinced that I’d lost my creativity and motivation forever and would never draw again.

2018 saw a lot of ups and downs, but in the spirit of my new-found optimism, I’m only going to list the good things that happened, plus some goals for 2019:

Good things:

- Finished + defended my thesis and got my master’s degree in history.

- Discovered Critical Role, and it revived my will to draw. Watching it also gave me something to look forward to at the end of every week, which made my struggle with my thesis and depression a little more bearable.

- Tried out some new things! Joined a running group, did yoga, did some volunteering, joined a DnD session with complete strangers (probably on par with thesis defence in terms of nerve-racking experiences), went to Castlefest for the first time, had a blast.

- Started driving lessons after years of putting it off due to anxiety. It’s not exactly my favourite thing to do, but hey, I’m doing it!

- Strange one, maybe, but: found a hair care routine that actually works for me. I have big, frizzy, curly hair and it always was my biggest insecurity about the way I look. After years of trying and failing to change it, I considered my hair a lost cause, which is probably why it never occurred to me...you know...visit good old google and read about other people’s experiences with this hair type. Until this year, that is! Finally learned how to handle curly hair and I’m sooo happy with how it looks now. At last, I have to freedom to start nitpicking other parts of my physical appearance, mwahahaha.

- Last, but not least: started posting art again. I’m still absolutely blown away by the response to my Critical Role drawings...I can’t thank all of you enough for being so kind to me. And, it bears repeating, I’m so grateful to the people who have been around here for a long time and who stuck around despite the inactivity. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Goals for next year:

- The big ones: find a job, get my driver’s license, move out.

- Continue drawing, work to improve certain areas. Two things I really want to focus on are increasing my drawing speed and making my art more dynamic. Really pumped to start working toward those goals.

- Reach out more. My internet presence has always been very...withdrawn and passive, mostly thanks to my social anxiety. I want to get better at reaching out to people and supporting them.

- Go to Castlefest again and maybe...cosplay...?? Oh boy.

I’m very tired and probably forgetting a few things, but this should be enough to start. I hope that everyone has an amazing 2019!

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I get to do one Arrested Development joke per fandom, right?

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Watch. Provoke. Consume.

I had to stop watching Critical Role for a while just before the “whoops I guess we’re pirates now” arc. I’m finally catching up now.

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The Reclamation of Timothy Cratchit is my Christmas comic, kickstarting now! http://bit.ly/timcratchit #comic #comics #comicbook #comicbookart #christmas #dickens #birmingham #UK #kickstarter

https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq-EiMjgukh/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=d9zmdr9ixmih

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I probably won’t be playing D&D any time soon (if ever), but it’s still fun to come up with characters that might be cool to play. Oath of Conquest Paladin is on the top of my “oh man that would be so badass” list.