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buck realizing his feelings for eddie right before eddie packs up his life and leaves him forever :) except eddie doesn't even want to leave him forever it's just that he loves his son and would do anything for him :) and buck would also do anything for both of them so he will not say anything and he smile and he will help eddie find a house and build a life hundreds and hundreds of miles away from him :) while inside he is disintegrating and imploding into a hollow shell of love and desperation and abandonment and the kind of heartbreak he will never recover from ever :) and eddie has to go back to texas the place he finally freed himself of in the one choice he ever made for himself and his son :) only this time he doesn't even get to raise his son he is just there to watch from the sidelines as his parents do it :) and meanwhile he is hundreds and hundreds of miles away from the only person who has ever had his back and trusted him and been his partner in everything :) and this is all happening on my television screen march 6 2025 :)

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it’s a beautiful beautiful world we live in. every possibility is so good. eddie doesn’t make it to texas because even for his insane self-sacrificing nature giving up what he has in los angeles (and buck specifically) is just too much, eddie DOES make it to texas but realizes that this just will never be his home and immediately turns around and comes back. all of this forces eddie to directly ask chris what he wants instead of once again assuming that he must give up everything for the sake of a relationship with his son. buck goes crazy, buck comically tries to stop eddie from moving, buck tries to move with him, eddie asks buck to come with him. buck moves into eddie’s house and drives himself bonkers. eddie can’t get rid of his house, eddie sells his house and comes back and has to stay with buck, buck immediately jumps into platonically house hunting with him again. all of these things force them to confront why they’re not reacting like normal people would to this situation at all. the sky is the limit here.

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*hen and chim voice* buck, we're all sad about eddie leaving. the team won't be the same without him

buck: oh cool cool so you guys also feel like your hearts are getting ripped out of your chest and pulverized into a million tiny pieces

hen & chim: well. no not exactly.

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“this was his feelings realization” “this was bucks ‘oh.’ moment” nonono he is being crushed by his reality in ways he cannot even begin to grasp rn. his entire world is crumbling. all he knows is eddie is going to texas and his heart and mind are both blowing up in slow motion. no. first, buck buckley is going to go absolutely fucking chernobyl. he will tear this whole place down. and make a series of decisions so baffling it will actually force him to look inwards. and so then he will go “wow. is there a reason i was being Absolutely Fucking Bonkers Insane about all this?” and THEN he will realize.

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buckeddie hangout after buck has moved on to the anger stage of the breakup and is on hour 2 of his epic rant going over everything that ever annoyed him about tommy pacing back and forth waving his hands like he always forgot to take his shoes off at the door and he never paid attention when i was interested in something and we would always have to listen to his music and not mine and in hindsight he was kinda shitty to me on our first date actually and he lay so still when he slept it kind of creeped me out and got me laker's tickets for our sixth month anniversary and i don't even LIKE basketball he KNOWS i don't like basketball. and he never even called me my NAME. and eddie is going uh huh. uh huh. yeah man he sucks. do you still have those tickets btw? while doing am i gay quizzes on his phone

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Are you wearing the- The Chanel boots green breakup shirt? Yeah, I am.

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Forgive my northern attitude Oh, I was raised on little light

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thinking about buck buckley who is sad and lonely and 26 years old. he was evan until just a few months ago and now he is sitting on a therapist’s couch on his day off from work because four months into a job that he loves, he watched a man die in front of his eyes. he’s been traveling and wandering and roaming around for seven years and he misses his sister and he hates his dad and he wishes his mom cared about him enough to ask where he is, and all he has is this job that he’s just sort of fallen into because he moved to LA on a whim after a guy in a peruvian beach bar smiled at him and asked, and sure he doesn’t really know why he tripped over his feet to follow this random man back to california, or why he put himself through an EMT intensive just so he could make it into the fire academy in a city he’s never been to before, or where he’s going next (because he’s always going somewhere next), but he knows that for now – or maybe until now, now that he’s seen someone die – he loves this job. and so he’s sad and lonely and just wants to shut off his brain and the person in front of him is actually listening to him talk, but then he pushes one inch in the wrong direction and the valve that he’d started to open up gets slammed back shut and he Feels Better because okay. okay. he doesn’t have to think about being sad or lonely or missing his sister or chasing a guy with a pretty smile halfway across the western hemisphere or anything else anymore, at least not for the next few minutes, and then he can go home to the house he shares with six other people, and he can fall asleep and not think about any of it ever again. until the next morning when he wakes up and remembers that he is sad and alone and misses his sister.

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BUDDIE & HENREN ★ YOU SAVED HIM

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requested by anon

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afraid of losing you, my hands reach for you again and again. this is how love bleeds.

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#me when I lie to get out of an assignment

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Happy Heartstopper Day 🍂✨️

(I have fall inspired icons commissions HERE 🍂)

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Eddie having Buck's back

requested by @besosquecreanadiccion

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oh to be a reclusive beacon lighter on a secluded mountain top waiting for gondor to call for aid