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hey guys, my close friend javi is in a really bad financial situation right now and needs urgent help with affording his abortion.

the father isn’t in the picture, and javi has no support from his family, so he’s covering the upfront cost entirely by himself. this is a very time-sensitive matter, since he lives in a conservative area and only has a few weeks left until he will no longer be able to have the abortion.

living in the south makes getting an abortion incredibly financially inaccessible, and he only has enough money to cover the mandatory “counseling” his state requires before he can get the abortion.

any help you can offer would be life-saving. please share and donate.

LINK TO DONATE

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hey i’m really struggling right now and would deeply appreciate some help! a reblog does wonders 🥺

i’m a black nonbinary person and my mom lost her job recently due to the pandmic. my stepdad is our only source of income now but a majority of his pay goes to rent which means we don’t have much money left over for food or water or anything, i have a very sensitive diet and i can’t eat just anything, which makes it even harder for me to feed myself.

i have paypaI and c@shapp:

https://www.paypal.me/shiiIoh

$concubus

anything does wonders!! i can do cheap pendulum readings as well if you’d like something in exchange! thank you for reading and boosting //

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I feel like this needs to be more put out. I want everyone to feel valid, to feel like they aren’t just ‘different’ because they are still questioning how they are on the spectrum! I’ll list some of my traits down for everyone to start this!

• I daydream a lot, which is something I found out and what it is..

• sound, and smell are very difficult for me to navigate through.. one can easily upset while others will take a while if it’s constant.

• light and textures are picky but easy to maneuver with. ( I can’t eat steak unless it’s very specific but it still is something my sensory will not handle! Bright lights can upset me if it’s been a very long day. )

• I have trouble occasionally making eye contact, but most of the time I can if my anxiety beats me to it first.

• I do like routines, but dislike them at the same time!

• I have trouble keeping my room tidy due to my executive dysfunction, my environment right now and zero time to be able to make time for it.

• I have trouble communicating sometimes! I’ll occasionally have a blank mind and say something I did without thinking, or I say something that doesn’t make sense. I’ll also have a time where I can’t really answer something.

• trouble choosing/deciding things. To this day, and I mean it.. my family always gets upset with me because I can never decide what I want to eat, do or something along those lines of decision making.

• repetitive movements! I did not happy flap when I was much younger, but it is something I occasionally do now though! I also know sometimes when I stim!

• difficulty understanding emotions of others, situations. sometimes I’m not able to understand my own about 50% of the time.

• I eat the same foods over and over again, I will accept foods that I like but if it’s new.. the next day I will eat the food of my choice.

• info dumping. a lot. with lots of special interests!

• half good memory, half not so good memory!

• auditory processing half the time even when there is no distractions. sometimes my mind just shuts off and I’m like: SUE I CANT HEAR YOU.

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this year couldn’t have started off on the wrong foot.. I haven’t even been home for a month but my anxiety and depression are spiraling.

my mom quite literally flipped out on me, someone who said they would accept me and love me for who I am. but instead of actually letting me talk to her, and explain things. she has told me I have schizophrenia, saying I am lazy still, that my repetitive movements are stupid and then mocks them.

the fight was absolutely confusing.. because I had everything scheduled for my week, I had my routine in check.. my doctors appointment on Monday. well Monday came, I had gotten up at said time.. doing my routine up until 11:45 am where I waited for my doctor. of course he is a counselor, I cried and drained my emotions/energy out. but I realized the twist in my stomach was getting worse and I got up to use the restroom after I was done.

It got so much worse after my appointment. All I did was walk out to take a breather, because that was a lot for me. I still had stuff to do though! but my mom comes over, and she asks me: “if you are done with school, then watch the kids or help with putting the decorations down.” I told her I was busy, I must have said it in a way that sounded defensive or maybe upset. But I truly just meant, I was busy. So she replies back with: “Ya sure you are, go do your school and sit on your ass all day while you do your stupid movements like this.. * she mocks one of my movements * and listen to music. You know, you got all those nice gifts for the holidays. Christmas is over.”

Then after a while, whenever that happened. It’s all “sunshine” and “rainbows” for her because she thinks that comment was okay. It makes me sick just thinking about it, because me and her were doing so good.. we actually attempted to speak with each other, and I was starting to help around the house more. now she is leaving to go to our home town because she misses her own mom even though we were in our hometown for quite some time. we are even going to see her when my sister is going to have her baby in April. I also have to ( possibly ) go to a wedding party in March. things have not been looking okay here, and it’s messing up my mental health and causing my trauma to resurface.

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well guys today’s my birthday, it just feels like another day. but I hope everyone is snuggled up at home and safe! if not and your working, I hope the rest of the day treats you well. :)

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I’ve been professionally diagnosed with autism 3 times so I told my boyfriend (who’s autistic but undiagnosed) that he can have one.

The third one belongs to tumblr now, pls gently share it.

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Well everyone, I’ll be on the road at 1 or 2 am in the morning and it will be a long car trip. I’ll try to take photos of our stop when it happens. Just so everyone can see the road trip and see all the things I saw.

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Me going through Khol’s ( a clothing, jewelry, furniture, and other stuff store. ) with my grandmother: I will not buy anything, I will not buy anything, I will not buy anything, I will not buy anything..

Also me seeing something super, super, super soft: MUST HAVE.. 😭 so soft, can’t function without, so happy and soft.

My grandmother who is to focused on getting my cousin leggings: How about these.. or this.. or even this..

My mind: 🥰 soft shirt.. so soft.. wouldn’t take it off..

My mouth: oh my gosh this is awesome grandma..

My grandma coming over to see the shirt: hm.. I don’t know..

Her two minutes later: okay let’s get it.

Me once we get home as I put the shirt on and kept it on the entire night: FUZZY WARM SHIRT I LOVE YOU.

My grandma the entire night: wow where did you get that shirt? oh let me feel how soft it is. it’s so soft.

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Shout out to the fellow autistics out there that :

Blast music in the car until the speakers are about to blow but as soon as a light is buzzing 3 rooms down the hall everything is too loud

Get so excited about their special interest they cant even infodump

Have worn the same jacket for the past 3 years despite holes in the sleeves

Find ways to insert their special interest into school projects and papers if they can

Have days where they want tight tight hugs and other days where if they are touched they will instantly vanish into meltdown

Have fluctuating levels of empathy

Want to have a career that isnt “meant for autistic people” and having to be your own support

Know what they want to say but cant get the right words or people don’t understand.

Have to say “what” more often than “hi”

Get fascinated by the smallest details around them that other people pass

Are still trying to accept their own autism and not repress behaviors they’ve learned to repress

Adults who got diagnosed late and are relearning their whole lives in a different light

Who exist everyday as themselves in a world of typicals and ableist

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Things I struggle with

Routine

Lack of Routine

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TO ALL MY AUTISTIC AND DISABLED FRIENDS..

for this Christmas, I want you to write in the comments a wishlist of what you would like neurotypicals to know, stop, do, or say! If you want them to be more aware of something, ways to help, etc! BE CREATIVE! I want to post this someplace else so OTHERS can see this too.

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hi everyone i need some help. i am trying to save money to go to a psychiatrist for my mental health and to get my official ASD diagnosis.

i only have $3.35 in my account right now. i do not have insurance, so i have to pay for everything out of pocket. if anyone can spare a few bucks i would greatly appreciate it. anything helps.

my c*shapp is $ryesm

v*nmo is @/ryesm

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Day 2 - Water

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Extremely capable autistics stop derailing posts about autistic people who don't have any super special skills or "superpowers" or aren't super smart and good at school or the ones who dont have extremely professional and profitable special interests, with your tacked on "oh but what about us" bullshit, challenge!!!

Like seriously no one is saying that the life of a genius or a savant is also hard, but as someone who gets shitty marks in school, constantly fails classes and currently has no job, no direction in life and a depressive and anxiety disorder, I want to spread more support and awareness for the autistic people who are like me. For the autistic people who arent special or brilliant. We just exist. Sometimes very poorly.

I want to make people more aware of the autistics who have terrible memories and can barely write, or read or spell but still read their favourite books and write fanfiction because it's their passion. Be aware of the autistics who have explosive anger and uncontrollable emotions.

Be aware that some of us have terrible memories, especially for remembering names.

Perceive me and support me. And all the other autistics like me. Your activism shouldn't just extend to the brilliant or the famous or the well mannered.

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Bit of a rant..

Warning: negative commentary!

I’m not smart like most autistics, I got a C in history for my final and most of my grades are B’s. I’ve only had a few where I’ve gotten A’s and that’s just rarely. Not only that but autistic people are suppose to be unaware that they stim, but for me.. I know when I do or when it will happen. Sometimes just barely I won’t notice them, but they do make me feel comfortable and like I’m not holding my feelings back anymore.

Plus my sensory isn’t as bad as everyone else. I just gain headaches, and sometimes if it’s something I really don’t like, I’ll cry and feel things crawl up my arms. But I keep repeating that it’s a spectrum and everyone deals with things differently but mine is different.. and each day I just feel like fraud or I could just have ADHD.. even though it gets so annoying listening to every little sound and it’s all kind of.. come back now since the diagnosis which wasn’t very long.

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I still find what my cousin said as slightly hilarious..

I was just sitting at the kitchen table, eating my food and all I hear is.. “It’s to quiet.. I can’t stand that.. it’s just so quiet. It’s driving me nuts!”

I never felt so unhappy, I could feel anger in myself because it was finally quiet and not filled with such noise. No television was on, my cousin didn’t have her Netflix on with old shows, she didn’t have the fan going in the kitchen.. I felt slightly relieved.

IT WAS ALL DOWN HILL FAST. My cousin found out our WiFi was back on and immediately put her Netflix back on. I made a mad dash for my room which is pretty far away but I could still hear it.

And guess what? My cousin last night told me: “If your allergic to perfume and whatever.. and have sensory issues with smell.. then how do you stand your shampoo?”

I was this 👌🏻 close to losing my shit.. because she understands what I’m getting at, she doesn’t understand though anything about autism when she has learned about it. Like I can deal with my shampoo, I just can’t stand perfume or those ridiculous stupid wax melts that women put in their house to make it smell nice. THAT is what I can’t stand. Those make me want to scream, and cry, and curl up in a ball. Like end me, right then and there.. I just can’t take it, and it makes me shake even thinking about having to go back into that sort of state of feeling!