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Day 2

Like I mentioned, this blog is an internet journal. One of my goals this year is to figure out who I am as a person without pouring myself into others. That’s not just romantically, that’s in terms of family and friends as well.

To figure out how to calm my anxiety, as I haven’t read a physical book without serious need for concentration in so long, I believe it’s been over a year.

To get back into writing. I used to write all the time, I wanted to publish a book. I have binders and binders of stories I’ve written, and as I got older computer files of them. I’m at that weird age where having a computer at home in your teen years meant that it was most likely a huge, clunky, Gateway computer and there was no such thing as touch screen anything until you were closer to college. Today kids seem to come out of the womb with an iPad in their hands.

To find some new hobbies. With a newly ended relationship that took up majority of my time (4/5 days a week), I am lost on finding things to fill up my time. I do have some hobbies, I’m not at a complete loss. I’ve been a knitter for almost 15 years now, I bake (starting to do that all the time will leave me with a weight problem so let’s not up that one too much), I like to cook majority of my meals from scratch because I try my best to eat healthy at home so I can get the unhealthier choice (looking at you mac and cheese) when I’m dining out, I’m a yogi who mainly practices at home because classes are insanely expensive, I’ve recently started making my own kombucha and would like to expand that to brewing other things, I enjoy painting pottery, so maybe I should check out actually throwing pottery, and crafting in general.

I will lose some people (not that anyone is reading anyway) when I say this next one but maybe not. I have more recently become fascinated by the zero waste movement, sustainability, natural/diy cleaning and cosmetics supplies, and herbalism. Maybe all of that is a bit crunchy granola for some, but I’ve always had an inkling towards the crunchy side. I’ve refused to use plastic water bottles for as long as I remember and taken my own grocery bags to the store even with the funny looks at more commercial stores.

For those who don’t know what zero waste is, here’s a mini rundown, and believe me, if you search it anywhere, even here, I’m sure you’ll find a video where some super crunchy couple has all of the trash they’ve made in the last 5 years stuffed into 1 mason jar. That is unrealistic and crazy. Zero waste means that you’re trying consciously to lessen your waste by choosing more sustainable options and number one, avoiding plastic, which is so terrible for the environment.

I’ve implemented this already with:

-continuing to carry my own coffee travel mug and water bottle

-switched from disposable makeup rounds to washable bamboo ones

-stopped buying liquid soaps and have made some of my own but also have switched to bar soap as well

-attempted to replace my bottled shampoo with a shampoo bar but that kind of went down in flames with just a lot of buildup and oddly squeaky hair so it was back to plastic for that right now but I’m still searching for a better option for my natural curly hair. I’m thinking that’s why that would didn’t work.

-added reusable produce/bulk bags to my grocery bag piles

-stopped buying items like grains and nuts in bags/boxes and buying them in bulk, and storing them in glass jars (some mason jars, but some just reused jars like old pickle jars. I love pickles.

-I make my own cleaning products and store and use them in glass spray bottles. I think if everyone realized that you could clean everything with different mixes of water, white vinegar, baking soda, and some essential oils if desired, the chemical cleaning supply companies would be out of business! My apartment is still just as clean using an all purpose water/vinegar/lemon/tea tree mix as it was using 409, and I don’t feel like I’m hacking up a lung when I spray it

-I’m going to be making my own soaps from now on, and mixing my own herbal oils into them. I have one last bottle of conventional shower gels and then I can swap over to the soaps

-eventually, when I save up enough to buy a house, which is a goal I will rant about a different day since zero waste took over this post haha, I would like very much to have a garden that I can grow my own produce in. I love going to farmers markets in the summer and picking out local produce, growing my own would be a dream

-as far as cosmetics and skincare, I’ve still got a ways to go, just because I am still using up a lot of my old products. I did finally run out of blush, so last night I made two batches of diy blush, one was a mix of tumeric, beetroot powder, and arrowroot powder, and the other just leaves out the tumeric. I added the tumeric because I read that it would make it more peachy, which it did, but I’m sort of worried about staining if it rains or I cry wearing it, will that run down and stain my shirt yellow? So I might just play it safe and not use that one.

I think along with saving for a house, I’ll alslleave herbalism for another day since this post is looking fairly long winded, so this is where I’ll end today. Hopefully if anyone is reading there are some other anxious crunchy people out there.

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Hello World

Here’s the awkward introductory post. The one that you have no idea what you should say, or completely questioning why you even set up this blog in the first place. How are you supposed to reach readers? Do you even want to reach readers? Is there something you have to say that reallyyyy any different from the thousands and probably millions of other blogs out there?

Even with all of that swirling in my head, I’m still here. I’m still going to publish this post. I’m still probably going to write another one, and another one, and another one. This will not be a curated blog. It won’t have fancy pictures sharing my perfectly manicured home, or significant other, or my cute fur babies. Nope. If you’re looking for that please turn around. This blog is not for you friend!

This blog is about me having a space to basically journal into space. I am in my late 20s, I’ve been a public blogger in the past, I have a lot of anxiety that I’m just now starting to work on with a wonderful therapist, I am a librarian, I’ve just broken up with the person I was spending the rest of my life with until very recently, I am a liberal Christian which in some stereotypes is an oxymoron, I love records, mid century style (but not politics), I am attempting to be environmentally conscious and practice a somewhat zero waste lifestyle, I love classic films, and reading. I have a wonderful close group of girlfriends but kind of a horrible family dynamic. 

This blog is my way of writing about all of those things and more, in a creative outlet. A place where I am unknown, and may or may not be heard. This blog isn’t being written for pageviews or sponsorships or what have you, it’s for me. For me to be creative in a way that I haven’t been in a long time. For me to maybe reach others who are struggling with the things that I am struggling with. To connect in a way that is not hindered by who I am, but instead just by my words.