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Such a fucking hoe, a stupid dumb hoe. A fucking pathetic loser.

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I'm ready, I deserve it. Might also be a good way to suicide, no? I just have to punish myself.

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I turned into what I hated the most.

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We need to break up. Why is it so hard to do so thought?

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The attention you're not giving me, I can easily find somewhere else.

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You're losing me. Win me over.

Do something.

Don't give up on me. Don't take me for granted. You're gonna lose everything that way.

sx

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"just because you have chemistry, doesn't mean you should be together"

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"because my old car is broken it doesn't mean I should be the one to fixing it, it doesn't even mean I should keep it"

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[sophie-vhr]

Ritual by Oleg Kapustin

This artist on Instagram

[sophie-vhr]

He was a birdman she was a mermaid

(Incomplete)

She was seeking waves,  waves clean and shine

He was looking for mountains, mountains long and high

He saw her from above, right above the sky

Just like an Angel see-through the morning light

Rising under the sea foam like Afrodite

Was that a tail, or just my playful eyes?

Even this far she couldn't have left my sight

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I tried to reach her, the flight was hard

I didn't expect it'd be that far

I lost some feathers on the run

But she can't let go of my heart

I had to reach her I had to come

And she was glowing, reflecting sun

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I came closer, felt like a fool

An infinite beauty, i know its true

My blushy cheeks, my breath is cool

I raised my hand and then she looked

"I brought a flower just for you

It has the color of the mysterious blue

The beauty beneath Blaue Blume*¹

It's just like you, i know it's true"

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She seemed impressed and then she smiled

Gently took the flower that she liked

"Flowers are not found in seas"

She said with rosey cheeks

"I've always wanted one of those

They seemed so close.. I couldn't reach

And they smell better than I dreamed"

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After another sniff she placed the flower next to me

She told me "wait you have to see"

She jumped in before she'd bring a beautiful coral

"What's it called?" I asked

"Tubipora musica*² coral"

"It looks similar to the one I gave you

But it's texture felt different when I touched

It looks like it could be the same hue

I don't think outside the sea it'll last."

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Then I took a minute to admire

Her beauty was inexplicable

I feel a warmth when she smiles

A smile that looks like a fable

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Her skin was a light shade of pink

While mine was the milk's chocolate brown

Her long hair were a darker shade of pink

While mine were pure milk's white

Her fish tail was leaf's green

While my wings were huge and a clear white

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Her beautiful face looked gentle, sweet and caring

It looked so young and 4 billion years wise old*³

Everything she owned was for sharing

Everything she is, is almost like gold

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Her cute small hands gave the most gentle touch

But just when she's calm

And when you're not harsh

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Her eyes were the oceans blue

While mine were black and white

In her eyes I could see her soul

But they owned a bit of fright

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"You've heard lots of people's sorrows

And help to wash them away with tharos

You throw them away like arrows

And clear a mind that felt like it narrows"

Sx

*¹A blue flower (German: Blaue Blume) was a central symbol of inspiration for the Romanticism movement, and remains an enduring motif in Western art today. It stands for desire, love, and the metaphysical striving for the infinite and unreachable. It symbolizes hope and the beauty of things.

*²Tubipora musica

Organ pipe coral is a type of soft coral that’s found throughout the central and western Pacific.

Interestingly, despite being classified as a soft coral, organ pipe coral does have a hard skeleton of calcium carbonate. It is known for its long polyps, which tend to look a lot like organ pipes.

When organ pipe coral dies, it often leaves behind a skeleton of calcium carbonate. This skeleton can be bright red, which makes it particularly attractive to scuba divers who come across it.

That being said, the organ pipe coral can be quite difficult to care for, so it’s not a great species to keep in an aquarium. But, if you come across it while diving, it’s sure to be an awesome experience.

*³The sea is 4 billion years old

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I created the mermaid using: Anime Avatar Maker

I created the birdman using: PitzMaker

[sophie-vhr]

"If we're all born to die then we all die to live"

And if you want to suicide you're not living

So basically you're leaving a life that you don't live

Why would you live without living?

Wonder why we like scary things like calling ghosts and all? Because that's what makes us feel alive

The adrenaline we experience that makes us feel death right next to us but at the same time we taste all of life's flavours

Not a poem, just some thoughts

Sx

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🐏

I gave up, thats what i thought

Keep your head up, clean up your soul

A wave is rising up, wash away your thoughts

Lay down flat, on the soft pillow

Keep watching the stars after the sunset goes

Hoarse voice starts if it's all wrong

But maybe that's just where I truly belong

I love your voice, that's what I thought

Overthinking?

Sx

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"If you treat me right, baby I'll give you everything."

I gave you everything non the less.

You treated me like shit I must confess.

You said you changed and I said yes.

Fell in your trap once again.

I gave up on you completely,

For you it felt so steeply.

You tried to hit me up quickly,

I thought you wanted to defeat me.

But after all this again, you found a way to complete me.

You turned into what I wanted.

You are still what I want and

My heart doesn't feel the same as we bonded.

I guess nothing could be as plotted.

However, I tried so much so I responded.

But things are different this time.

You've already done the crime.

I guess we were just wrong designed.

I guess both of us could be fine,

But only when we finish this rhyme.

I'm sorry, I don't want to be the one hurting you in line. But I guess that's karma.

You were just my comfort zone and a safe place.

Sx

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Me vs people

Everyone tends to like me at the first sight,

Everything just seems alright,

Everything goes on well and right,

Everything makes me feel happy tonight.

Do I finally belong?

Is every insecurity gone?

Do I finally get along?

But of course it doesn't last for long..

Just some days passed and everyone seems to dislike me again.

Just some hours of trust and everyone changes their behaviors again.

Is it just me or something else?

What am I doing wrong?

Why can't I ever belong?

Why am I always so different from all?

Is it because I try so hard?

Is it because I don't try hard enough?

Is it because of the different intentions we might have?

I don't know what I should be doing anymore.

I guess I just wasn't born to belong.

Sx

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Confusion, adhd, overthinking.

I was following a lead with a lot of paths,

And then too many pictures appeared at once.

I kept running from there, seemed like a straight line.

And then some other turns, what's the truth what's the lie

I risk and follow the other,

Slowly that would turn me to another.

And when I turned back to look at what have been done,

The paths were gone, they faded, even the last one.

I got lost in the fog,

I knew everything was gone.

Sx

Please don't steal, always credit me. 🌸

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Darkness, a weird feeling

Empty road, walking

Lost in a forest full of monsters

Which is the right path?

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