softie-chaunney

[softie-chaunney]

hi all, sorry for lurking <:) still in the throes of eating disorder recovery and am trying so hard to pare down my following so I can get on here without peeping the horrors™

anyways. im back to exploring my sexuality + favored kink spaces again and if you want to find me elsewhere where im actually planning on posting, you can find me at…

♛ resplendent-regent ♛

where i am posting lots of royalty kink and more hedonistic, indolent feedism posts. :-)

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hiiiiiii. anyone still here? im thinking of doing a little ✨rebrand✨ soon and maybe coming back here! been in a better place with myself lately because, whoops, guess who’s genderfluid?? (it’s me). i’m feeling really comfortable in my masculinity lately, been going by he/they a lot in my real-life and it feels great haha.

uhh keep a lookout i guess! i think i’ll change up a couple of the elements on my blog and then set up my queue again soon. :-)

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I just want to wish you luck with your recovery, this stuff is fun but it's also one of the harder kink spaces to mentally exist in with all of the real world issues that overlap, including past history of ED/obsessive/dysmorphic thinking. If you haven't read it id recommend the anthology Fat and Queer, it helped me a lot when I started having an ED flare, I guess you could call it? There are a few complex stories from people in this kind of community but most are more fat lib type pieces

thank you so much anon, both for the well-wishes and the resource! that seems like a nice place to start. thankfully im also active in my daily life in a lot of fat liberation spaces elsewhere on the internet, so it’s nice to kind of pull away gently from here and turn my attention somewhere else.

i wish you all the best too, especially if you’re active in this space. thank you so much :’)

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big tw for e/d talk below the readmore

things have been complicated lately and I’m feeling very discouraged from this space.

look, I grew up fat in the early 2000s. i spent my entire lifetime up until college incredibly ostracized from my peers and during that time I was in a very loud echo chamber of fitness and e/d behaviors and disgusting, wrong ways of thinking.

getting fat in recovery was always an inevitable for me, and i don’t regret it (at least not in my good moments)… but i wish i hadn’t internalized so much of the thinly-veiled e/d mindsets that (some) gainers perpetuate on here. i have gone from a restrictive e/d for over 10 years to an obsessive b¡nge e/d and the literal only difference is that this time, im eating. that’s it. i still struggle with body dysmorphia and obsessive thoughts about food and i genuinely can’t handle it anymore. getting professional help isn’t something in the cards right now and it’s so hard to be on feedist tumblr lately, it’s not like i can just go on an unfollowing spree and guarantee that i won’t see those sorts of things on the daily, so I’m going to be spending some more extended time away from here for the sake of my mental health.

there are a very few individuals on here who understand the intersections between the actual politics of fat and this kink, and for those ppl im always so thankful. genuinely, the qfa’s and fat l¡beration folks are the one saving grace of the community.

i guess if anyone wants to keep in contact, just dm me if we’re mutuals or have talked before. i’m open to connecting elsewhere if you want to know me as a person instead of just someone behind a screen. in the meantime, im going to keep my engagement to just lurking— my apologies to the sw’ers and other folks for my lack of reblogs and such, i just don’t have the energy right now.

[softie-chaunney]

big tw for e/d talk below the readmore

things have been complicated lately and I’m feeling very discouraged from this space.

look, I grew up fat in the early 2000s. i spent my entire lifetime up until college incredibly ostracized from my peers and during that time I was in a very loud echo chamber of fitness and e/d behaviors and disgusting, wrong ways of thinking.

getting fat in recovery was always an inevitable for me, and i don’t regret it (at least not in my good moments)… but i wish i hadn’t internalized so much of the thinly-veiled e/d mindsets that (some) gainers perpetuate on here. i have gone from a restrictive e/d for over 10 years to an obsessive b¡nge e/d and the literal only difference is that this time, im eating. that’s it. i still struggle with body dysmorphia and obsessive thoughts about food and i genuinely can’t handle it anymore. getting professional help isn’t something in the cards right now and it’s so hard to be on feedist tumblr lately, it’s not like i can just go on an unfollowing spree and guarantee that i won’t see those sorts of things on the daily, so I’m going to be spending some more extended time away from here for the sake of my mental health.

there are a very few individuals on here who understand the intersections between the actual politics of fat and this kink, and for those ppl im always so thankful. genuinely, the qfa’s and fat l¡beration folks are the one saving grace of the community.

i guess if anyone wants to keep in contact, just dm me if we’re mutuals or have talked before. i’m open to connecting elsewhere if you want to know me as a person instead of just someone behind a screen. in the meantime, im going to keep my engagement to just lurking— my apologies to the sw’ers and other folks for my lack of reblogs and such, i just don’t have the energy right now.

[softie-chaunney]

🍄 What does feedism mean to you? 🍄

Growth: A Queer Feedist Zine

I and four other queer feedists here on Tumblr, including Onyx @feedemon, Prince @smollestpuppyprince, and @alittlepudge-neverhurtnobody, have worked super hard the past several months putting together Growth, a zine by feedists, for feedists.

Growth is a bite-sized anthology of prose, poetry, and visual art responding to the question: What does feedism mean to you? It touches on topics such as asexuality in kink, kink discovery, kink positivity, overcoming disordered relationships with food, and and the intersections of feedism and trans identity.

The zine is available for a limited time digitally as an accessible interactive PDF, or in print as a half-page color booklet!

Download it digitally here for free via WeTransfer until August 21st, 2022!

To order a paper copy of Growth, I am taking preorders until August 29th, 2022.

And please consider donating a little for digital copies or chipping in a little extra for print copies, as any donations go straight to the queer kinky artists and writers who helped put this project together! 🖤

Details about ordering and accessibility under the cut!

Ordering a paper zine to a US address:

Make your payment via Cashapp to $anxietyqueer. These amounts are just to cover printing and shipping costs:

1 zine = $4.57

2 zines = $7.51

3 zines = $10.45

Send me a screenshot of your payment, the number of zines you are ordering, and your shipping address by direct message or to kinkratonthestreets@gmail.com. I will respond to confirm, since I know tumblr messaging can be screwy.

Zines will be shipped in discreet packaging after preorders close on August 29th.

Ordering a paper zine to an address outside the US: please send me a direct message or email me at kinkratonthestreets@gmail.com and we can talk shipping cost. Payments by PayPal (or let me know if that doesn't work for you!)

Accessibility:

Paper zines include image descriptions on the last page.

Digital zines are in interactive PDF format, able to be used with screen readers (there is one emoji at the end of a line of text, please let me know if this will be an issue!), and all images have embedded descriptions. Text can be highlighted with a cursor. (It *mostly* works in 'liquid mode' on the Adobe app, too, except for the poem which it converts to an image for some reason?)

Large print available upon request, just dm or email me to let me know!

Please reach out to me if there are any other accessibility needs or questions you have!

[softie-chaunney]

sorry for the lack of consistent posts y’all, im in the midst of a relapse with my ED as well as just generally disliking being here lmao. I am struggling a lot with kink spaces right now for a multitude of reasons and honestly just noooot enjoying myself

all this to say, I’ll be back when I can. 💕

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I feel kinda weird asking for help here but fuck it.

To make a long story short, I'm going abroad starting in August to get some serious and necessary study done for my major. Despite working 40+ hours per week and having financial support from my university, I'm still an ill, disabled, minority college student, and I'm worried about having enough money to make ends meet in the months that I'm gone since I won't be able to work.

If you enjoy/like/reblog/etc. my content and have the means to, please, please consider leaving me a tip (and don't forget, you can tip anonymously if that's more comfortable for you). You'll literally be paying for me to eat and achieve my dreams.

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might’ve gotten a little bit full at the buffet tonight

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my chest has gotten so soft...

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a few months on t, realizing my appetite was growing & my tummy was getting soft, feeling cute

aaaand one year of indulging my t hunger later, once that little bit of softness swelled to a round, fuzzy belly...

i feel like i'm really getting plump lately. anyone wanna praise, encourage, or tease me for it? 👀

[softie-chaunney]

I love the idea of looking for some kind of local legend based off of an old picture of them, only to find that when you do locate them, they’re older and much more relaxed/softer than you thought~

[softie-chaunney]

teasing your significant other by wearing clothes you’ve already outgrown

[softie-chaunney]

sorry for the lack of consistent posts y’all, im in the midst of a relapse with my ED as well as just generally disliking being here lmao. I am struggling a lot with kink spaces right now for a multitude of reasons and honestly just noooot enjoying myself

all this to say, I’ll be back when I can. 💕

[softie-chaunney]

i find it very hot that trans and NB feedees all are growing fat to reach their ideal body and gender presentation. trans girls want big tiddies and curves, trans guys want a big beer belly and intimidating presence, and enbies know a body swathed in plumpness helps androgynize them. FACT: fat makes you cuter every time 💯

[softie-chaunney]

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