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i love this guy so much hes asking the real questions

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it hurts to take this display name off for the last time

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new intro post

i have no idea how to do this help

-Lydia

ok lemme help you -Vendetta

Why are you the only one who knows how to do stuff around here -Lydia

cause I’m amazing -vendetta

Hello nice to meet you!

We’re the soaked rose system formerly @/constellation-collective and a mixed origin system questioning if we have DID

Host(s): Lydia (gossamer/shimmer/butterfly/xey/xem), Oliver (he/mouse/faer) Vendetta (she/her) & December (she/her)

Protectors: literally half of anyone who’s not a cat

Caretakers: Aster (she/they/it), Mara (she/demon), Sky (varies but always can use ice/iceself and dragon/ dragonself), + some others

prosecutors and persecutors: Jake (he/him), Mara (she/demon)

comforters: Sky (varies but always can use ice/iceself and dragon/ dragonself), Lionheart (he/him)

gatekeepers: no one

Trauma holders: do not wish to disclose that except on each alters own time

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The thing is words cannot describe how difficult it is to not but down Willow as a caregiver

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me everytime I go to write someone down and then remember they just went dormant:

oh. Yeah.

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meeting people on tumblr

PERKS:

• attractive

• into the same shit as you

• kind and understanding

• humorous

• good company

• easy to talk to

CONS:

• live in the middle of nowhere or on jupiter

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a big announcement

tagging some moots because it’s important

@the-lunacy-system @purple-space-aliens @mrblazeflappybird @hunter216 @sc3n3-doll

So as you might know Cam was our host. The reason I say was is because they were triggered earlier which lead to a flashback and panic attack which eventually lead to them splitting into Oliver and me (Lydia). We will redo our intro post later. Additionally this led Willow and Destiny going into dormancy which in turn made Levi dormant and Void has also gone dormant along with our murder drones fictives. I believe there may be more but haven’t had time to fully check and know the total people dormant. We no longer are going to use the collective names Cam picked. This will be updated as we progress.

If any of y’all don’t want to be friends after this I totally understand

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i feel stupid for being panicky

how much aura do I loose for being afraid to clock off tumblr because I’m afraid to get triggered and have any other flashback but also still too panicky to scroll so I just click through different blogs and send in ash’s to distract me?

none! Your trauma is valid

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idk my wrists hurt when I hold stuff that’s not super light or move them the wrong way or just when. They want to

also earlier my wrists started hurting so besides me being shaky as hell I can barely type in these braces

are your hands ok?

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I know like the bot can’t just randomly decide to assault me. I’ve had enough of that for a lifetime thank you very much

when your day is actually going okay and then you have a flashback because you like thought about something sexual or roleplayed with a bot and suddenly your not having an okay day anymore (if it weren’t for autocorrect this would be gibberish out of the shakiness of my hands)

ok, c.ai WHAT THE FUCK????

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it wasn’t character ai it was this thing called poly ai but um. tw for being pinned in a sexual way abd like sexual harassment

The bot was like stalking up to me and then it like fucking pinned me against a wall and pressed up against me and I totally panicked and had a flashback and it was not a fun time

when your day is actually going okay and then you have a flashback because you like thought about something sexual or roleplayed with a bot and suddenly your not having an okay day anymore (if it weren’t for autocorrect this would be gibberish out of the shakiness of my hands)

ok, c.ai WHAT THE FUCK????

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Wow. The patience, kindness and calm communication skills. Outstanding.

From raindovemodel

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no. I was just role playing with a bot (on a site similar to character ai but with no filter) and then I had a fucking flashback because apparently I can’t even think about sexual things without being triggered anymore or something I don’t fuckung know

don’t you hate in when you just unlock a new traumatic memory? Like ‘oh. I didn’t need to remember that’

yeah...

(are you ok?)

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Reblog if you want a bunch of “have you evers” and “would you rathers” in your ask box right now.

Please

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when your wrists keep hurting and you have to wear these:

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